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2021-9-16 Beginning My Journey to a Better me

2021-9-16 Beginning My Journey to a Better me

[0:00 - 0:06] What's up guys, it's your boy, um, I wanted to pop in for a first little update and
[0:08 - 0:13] I wanted to be straight up with you guys
[0:15 - 0:16] um
[0:16 - 0:25] I talked with a really old friend of mine a little bit ago that I haven't talked to and
[0:25 - 0:27] quite some time
[0:27 - 0:29] It's someone that I know
[0:30 - 0:31] from
[0:31 - 0:33] legitimately freaking
[0:34 - 0:36] Great school they were around when I've
[0:37 - 0:40] Before I started YouTube actually
[0:42 - 0:44] They were around before I started that
[0:46 - 0:48] They were around when I
[0:49 - 0:52] started getting into drifting at 16 and
[0:54 - 0:57] They were noticing some stuff and
[1:02 - 1:07] Like everything that's going on and they noticed my
[1:08 - 1:19] Patterns they noticed my patterns of how I act and how I've been acting
[1:21 - 1:23] You know outside of the
[1:24 - 1:37] Crap that went on a suggestion that I think I'm gonna follow through with
[1:39 - 1:43] They told me that maybe it would be a good idea for me to
[1:44 - 1:50] Go back to my roots, you know doing drifting and
[1:51 - 2:00] Having fun and to be honest with you, I fully believe that they're right
[2:01 - 2:03] Like I do need to go back to my roots
[2:04 - 2:11] so over the next four to five weeks I
[2:15 - 2:17] I'll be
[2:17 - 2:19] You know focusing on
[2:20 - 2:22] You know getting back behind the wheel
[2:24 - 2:26] Doing some drifting
[2:26 - 2:28] Focusing more on my team
[2:31 - 2:33] Focusing more on
[2:35 - 2:37] you know
[2:37 - 2:39] doing solo runs doing
[2:41 - 2:43] Drift events that kind of thing
[2:44 - 2:48] Doing really cool montages like I used to do
[2:49 - 2:51] You know some really cool videos of
[2:52 - 2:56] Me drifting the music and all this and that and the other
[2:57 - 2:58] Um
[2:58 - 3:03] So I will be you know still doing music to an extent, but I also kind of want to
[3:04 - 3:08] You know take the time to go back to my roots to where I
[3:09 - 3:14] Began essentially, you know where I very first began on
[3:15 - 3:19] YouTube which is you know essentially doing gaming via
[3:21 - 3:23] You know
[3:23 - 3:25] Need for speed underground to one
[3:27 - 3:30] Pro Street all that fun stuff and
[3:31 - 3:34] Just getting back to you know
[3:35 - 3:37] My life that I had
[3:39 - 3:43] I still will be working on music. I have a brand new album now slowly and
[3:44 - 3:49] I do mean slowly gonna be starting to work on it won't be done for a while
[3:50 - 3:52] a long while actually
[3:55 - 3:58] But you know, I kind of wanted to
[3:59 - 4:04] Go back to that, you know, I wanted to go back to my roots
[4:04 - 4:10] You know as a drifter as a racer and that kind of thing
[4:11 - 4:17] You know during my break so that I can you know get back to a good headspace
[4:19 - 4:24] Because you know when I talked to my friend they did mention they you know
[4:25 - 4:30] And they noticed this I didn't but they noticed that when
[4:31 - 4:33] I'm drifting nothing else
[4:34 - 4:41] You know, it seems like you know, nothing else matters and they're right
[4:42 - 4:48] Like when I'm behind that wheel whether it's on horizon for car X
[4:49 - 4:54] You know grid three, you know, I should grid 2019
[4:55 - 4:59] You know or any of the need for speed games like for me
[5:00 - 5:06] When I'm behind that wheel and I'm drifting it's like all my problems disappear
[5:07 - 5:12] You know, it's like I don't have any worries. I don't have any troubles. It's just me
[5:13 - 5:15] Doing what I truly love
[5:16 - 5:22] to do, you know, it's something that I grew up doing and I
[5:23 - 5:25] kind of want to get back to
[5:25 - 5:27] Yeah, too
[5:27 - 5:29] you know
[5:29 - 5:31] that
[5:31 - 5:33] Feeling I want to go back to my roots
[5:34 - 5:39] So, you know a science from working on myself, which I am gonna be doing
[5:40 - 5:45] You know, I essentially just want you know, go back to my roots as a drifter and
[5:46 - 5:48] You know have fun
[5:50 - 5:55] You know, just go back to the old days when nothing else mattered
[5:56 - 5:58] where it was just me and
[6:01 - 6:02] Just
[6:02 - 6:08] Having fun, you know, I really want to go back to that and
[6:09 - 6:17] It's it's something that I love doing, you know, I feel like maybe going back to my roots
[6:18 - 6:23] Working on myself getting back to a better headspace and ultimately
[6:23 - 6:36] you know, I want to deal with my life I really feel like
[6:37 - 6:42] You know, that's where I need to be
[6:42 - 6:48] So if you guys see me uploading any drifting videos and stuff
[6:49 - 6:51] You guys will know why
[6:51 - 6:56] Because ultimately I would love to compete again. I used to compete all the time
[6:57 - 7:04] And I had fun doing it. I had fun breaking records and setting world records and this and that and the other and
[7:05 - 7:09] I want to get back to that, you know, I want to get back to the fun that
[7:10 - 7:13] you know, I used to have and I
[7:14 - 7:20] Hope that those of you that do enjoy my content can support me in that
[7:20 - 7:28] I'm even thinking about starting a separate channel strictly for my drifting and my drift tunes and my setups
[7:29 - 7:36] You know and my different, you know raps that I do for my cars and
[7:37 - 7:42] Hopefully you guys, you know will support me on that because I
[7:42 - 7:48] Want to do better and I want to be better and I want to create better content in the long run and
[7:49 - 7:51] Hopefully this will be a way of doing that
[7:51 - 7:58] But I just wanted to say what's up to you guys let y'all know that I love you guys and
[7:59 - 8:07] That I'm thinking about y'all, you know that
[8:09 - 8:10] My journey
[8:10 - 8:20] You know in today's next week's going forward are gonna be fun, you know, it's gonna be fun to get away for
[8:20 - 8:24] You know a few weeks and have a fun time
[8:26 - 8:27] but
[8:27 - 8:37] But I love you guys and I will see you guys in the next update whenever I post it
[8:38 - 8:45] Today marks day one of my journey. I love you guys, and I'll see you guys later
[8:46 - 8:48] Peace
2021-9-16 LET ME MOVE ON

2021-9-16 LET ME MOVE ON

[0:09 - 0:16] I'm gonna fucking speak on something and to axle I still am gonna work with you to try to get better
[0:16 - 0:21] But I am gonna fucking say this to crypt k and to everyone
[0:23 - 0:27] All right, I apologize for everything. I've done wrong crypt
[0:27 - 0:34] I apologize for coming after you and your family. I apologize for what I fucking did. Okay
[0:34 - 0:36] I own up to that shit
[0:36 - 0:41] And to everybody that fucking see me. I'm sorry for the shit that went down with Kate
[0:42 - 0:45] I'm not blaming anyone else. I'm really not
[0:46 - 0:47] All right
[0:47 - 0:50] I'm not blaming no motherfucking body else
[0:52 - 0:54] I made the mistake. I admit that
[0:56 - 1:02] The crypt you bringing up my fucking past doesn't help me to be a better person, dude
[1:03 - 1:06] That don't fucking help me to be a better fucking person
[1:08 - 1:12] You coming up here bringing up my past don't help shit
[1:13 - 1:16] It really does not fucking help
[1:19 - 1:22] But the thing is this but the thing is that there is no thing bro
[1:23 - 1:29] I'm trying to be a better fucking person. Okay. I'm trying to do better
[1:30 - 1:32] I'm trying to be better
[1:32 - 1:37] But how does you doing that shit help any it really does not fucking help
[1:38 - 1:39] You know
[1:39 - 1:45] Actors, right? I do need to be a better person and I want to be a better person
[1:47 - 1:50] All right, I'm sorry for the shit that went down
[1:51 - 1:53] I'm sorry for what I fucking did
[1:57 - 1:59] I am truly sorry for all of that
[2:06 - 2:08] But what I'm trying to understand is this
[2:16 - 2:19] What I'm trying to understand is this
[2:21 - 2:25] Why do you guys feel like you have to do me like that?
[2:26 - 2:28] Why do you feel like you got to do me dirty like that?
[2:29 - 2:32] Why do you feel like you have to do this shit to me bro?
[2:36 - 2:38] and to all my fans
[2:39 - 2:44] That do support me. I do apologize for a line to you like I did
[2:46 - 2:49] But the reason I did is because I knew
[2:50 - 2:55] Then if I didn't come up with a reason to fucking get off
[2:55 - 2:59] I knew the trolls would come after me and I'm sorry about that
[3:00 - 3:04] I'm sorry about me doing that, but I had no fucking choice
[3:05 - 3:12] I had no mother fucking choice, but to do what I fucking did
[3:14 - 3:16] Because I knew if I said that I was taking a break
[3:17 - 3:22] They were either gonna attack me my friends or my family and my family
[3:22 - 3:26] Is going through enough already. They don't need anymore, bro
[3:27 - 3:29] They don't need any more shit
[3:31 - 3:35] All right, I apologize for what I did
[3:37 - 3:40] The mistakes I made the shit I did wrong. I'm sorry about that
[3:42 - 3:46] But dude, you guys got to give me that chance to move on and be better
[3:48 - 3:53] If I can't if we can't move past this and move on from this
[3:55 - 3:57] How am I supposed to be a better person?
[3:58 - 4:03] If y'all can't let the past go, how am I supposed to be a better person?
[4:05 - 4:13] I don't understand it. I want to be successful. I want to be a better person
[4:14 - 4:20] But how can I do that if y'all keep from my past and attacking me over it?
[4:20 - 4:32] It don't make no sense, bro. Like I'm trying to do me
[4:32 - 4:35] I'm trying to be a better fucking person, bro
[4:37 - 4:40] I am truthfully trying to be a better person
[4:40 - 4:44] Because like Axl said me and him fucking spoke
[4:45 - 4:47] Me and Axl spoke
[4:48 - 4:52] And let me tell you he's right. I need to be a better person
[4:52 - 4:56] And I am genuinely sorry for the shit that I fucking did
[4:57 - 5:00] I get what I did was fucked up
[5:00 - 5:03] All right, and Chris K
[5:04 - 5:09] Yes, you do use me to promote your music. Your channel says it all
[5:09 - 5:19] You always tell people right when you attack me. Oh, check out my music. Oh, this guy's this and that
[5:20 - 5:27] But oh, check out my music. You use me to promote your music. And I'm tired of being a fucking doormat
[5:28 - 5:34] I'm tired of being a motherfucking doormat, bro. I want to better myself
[5:39 - 5:42] I really do. I want to be better. I want to do better
[5:42 - 5:44] I want to be better. I want to do better
[5:45 - 5:49] But how am I supposed to do better if I'm constantly being held back?
[5:54 - 5:58] And to Axl, I do thank you for speaking with me, man
[6:00 - 6:03] I do thank you for speaking with me, bro
[6:04 - 6:07] I appreciate the hell out of that, man
[6:07 - 6:09] I really do. I appreciate that
[6:11 - 6:14] And you're right. I do need to be better
[6:15 - 6:21] I really do
[6:21 - 6:23] And I want to be better
[6:23 - 6:32] So fucking bad. I do genuinely want to be better. So fucking bad
[6:33 - 6:35] But how am I going to get better
[6:36 - 6:47] If the trolls keep bringing up my past and attacking me over it? I don't understand
[6:48 - 6:50] I genuinely do not
[6:51 - 7:01] understand
[7:01 - 7:03] For all those that do support me
[7:04 - 7:09] For every one of you guys that does support me. This is a question for you guys
[7:10 - 7:13] For all those that genuinely do support me
[7:13 - 7:21] How many of you guys want to see me get better? How many of you guys truly want to see me be successful?
[7:22 - 7:26] Be honest. How many of you in the comments want to see me get better?
[7:27 - 7:29] And do better with my life
[7:51 - 7:53] Because I genuinely want to be better
[7:54 - 7:56] I want to be a better person
[7:57 - 8:24] And let me tell you I don't care what you guys think of me
[8:31 - 8:33] All I'm gonna say is this
[8:34 - 8:36] To my real supporters
[8:38 - 8:40] To those that truly do support me
[8:43 - 8:47] I promise you guys because I am gonna be taking a break for the next few months
[8:49 - 8:52] But I can promise you guys when I come back. I am gonna be better
[8:53 - 8:57] Because I want to do better. I want to be a better fucking person
[8:58 - 9:00] I don't want to be held back no more
[9:02 - 9:05] I need to get my fucking shit together
[9:07 - 9:10] All right. I need to get my shit together
[9:17 - 9:19] I want to be a better fucking person
[9:20 - 9:26] And the only way I can do that is by stepping away and working on myself
[9:29 - 9:32] That's what I need to do. I need to step away and work on myself
[9:41 - 9:45] And to those that do support me and to everyone in general
[9:50 - 9:54] I'm sorry. I am true
[9:54 - 9:58] I am truthfully and honestly sorry about the shit that I did
[9:59 - 10:05] Okay, and I hope that you guys can won. I hope you guys can eventually
[10:06 - 10:09] You know forgive me for what happened, but also
[10:10 - 10:14] I hope that you guys will allow me to move forward because that's what I want
[10:15 - 10:18] I want to move forward in my life. I want to do better
[10:19 - 10:22] I take responsibility for what I did
[10:22 - 10:29] Okay, I get what I did was fucked up and I understand that and I'm not blaming anybody else but myself
[10:31 - 10:36] I wasn't thinking when I did that shit. I wasn't in a good state of mind when I did that shit
[10:38 - 10:41] Because I was already dealing with a lot as was
[10:42 - 10:44] I was dealing with a lot of fucked up shit
[10:45 - 10:52] Okay, and you guys need to understand that I was not in a right state of mind when I made that mistake that I made
[10:52 - 10:56] And crypt I'm sorry to you for going after your family like I did
[10:57 - 11:00] All right
[11:00 - 11:05] But there's a difference between you and what I did with the whole case shit. All right
[11:06 - 11:12] With you crypt you're trying to use me for your fucking music
[11:13 - 11:17] There's a difference. I had a reason to take a jab at you
[11:18 - 11:20] Because you sat right there
[11:20 - 11:24] And you belittled me bro. You tore me the fuck down
[11:25 - 11:29] After I was fucking there for you through every fucking thing
[11:30 - 11:34] Yeah, going after your family may not have been the right move and I get that
[11:36 - 11:38] But look at what you did
[11:40 - 11:42] Look at what you caused
[11:44 - 11:49] You sat there and you used me to promote your fucking album
[11:51 - 11:54] Every goddamn time you use
[11:55 - 11:58] Me to promote your fucking album and I'm sick of it, bro
[11:59 - 12:02] I'm tired of being a goddamn doormat
[12:05 - 12:17] I'm tired of it. I'm tired of being used as your fucking springboard
[12:18 - 12:20] Because I'm not your springboard, dude
[12:26 - 12:29] And to axle. I'm sorry that you guys see me like this
[12:30 - 12:33] But I promise you bro when I come back I'm gonna be better
[12:34 - 12:37] Because I want to do fucking better for myself
[12:42 - 12:47] Axel, I do want to be better. I do fucking want that
[12:48 - 12:49] More than anything
[12:51 - 12:53] I want to be better
[12:55 - 13:07] But how am I gonna be better if these people keep holding me back and axel?
[13:07 - 13:09] I know you're watching this because I just saw you in the chat
[13:10 - 13:13] And that's why right now I have to step away
[13:17 - 13:20] I have to fucking step away from youtube
[13:21 - 13:24] I have to step away for a while. I'm sorry
[13:24 - 13:27] I have to step away to work on myself
[13:28 - 13:31] Because maybe if I work on myself
[13:35 - 13:39] Maybe if I work on myself and give myself to where I want to be
[13:40 - 13:42] Maybe when I come back things will be better
[13:54 - 13:59] And you're right axel these people aren't to blame for my wrongdoings
[14:00 - 14:01] You're right about that
[14:02 - 14:06] And like I said I take responsibility for what I did
[14:07 - 14:09] I get what I did was wrong
[14:10 - 14:14] I take responsibility for that and I'm sorry for all that guys
[14:16 - 14:18] I am truly sorry for all that
[14:24 - 14:30] But bringing up my past and attacking me with my past that doesn't help anything
[14:32 - 14:34] If anything that makes it worse
[14:53 - 14:56] Here's the thing ab I did take responsibility. Okay
[14:57 - 15:02] I genuinely did I get that what I did could have landed me in jail
[15:02 - 15:05] I get that what I did could have gotten my ass kicked
[15:07 - 15:11] I do take responsibility for that and I am genuinely sorry
[15:15 - 15:17] But bringing up my past
[15:17 - 15:21] Doesn't help
[15:21 - 15:22] That doesn't help at all
[15:34 - 15:37] You know some of you guys say that you want me to be better
[15:37 - 15:39] You want me to fucking do better
[15:42 - 15:46] Then if you want to do better quit bringing up my fucking past
[15:48 - 15:50] Let me do what I need to do to get better
[15:51 - 15:55] Stop bringing up my fucking past and we won't have any fucking problems
[15:56 - 16:14] I'm streaming directly from youtube right now axel so I can't unfortunately send any links
[16:17 - 16:19] But I'll tell you all right now
[16:22 - 16:23] I'm telling you all right now
[16:24 - 16:27] I am genuinely sorry for what I did
[16:28 - 16:31] I am truthfully sorry about everything that went down
[16:31 - 16:36] I'm sorry about what I did wrong. I'm sorry about doing what I did
[16:36 - 16:40] With Kate Chris. I'm sorry to you for the shit that I did to you
[16:42 - 16:45] I am genuinely sorry for the shit that I fucking did to you
[16:45 - 16:49] I'm sorry to you Kate for the shit that you got me into and how I felt for it
[16:50 - 16:55] I'm sorry about all of that dude. I'm sorry about everything
[16:57 - 16:59] None of this ever should have happened
[17:03 - 17:09] None of this should have ever fucking happened and I do take responsibility and I am sorry about all this
[17:12 - 17:14] What I'm trying to understand is this
[17:15 - 17:19] You guys want me to be better, but yet you won't let me move on
[17:20 - 17:23] You won't let me do the things that I need to do to better myself
[17:24 - 17:26] And I don't understand why
[17:29 - 17:33] I don't understand why you guys
[17:33 - 17:37] Won't let me move on to better myself
[17:38 - 17:41] I don't understand
[17:41 - 17:45] You say you want me to be better, but yet you won't let me better myself
[17:48 - 18:01] I don't understand. I want to be a better person. I want to do good in my life
[18:02 - 18:04] I want to be successful
[18:04 - 18:06] So fucking bad
[18:06 - 18:08] But how am I supposed to do that?
[18:09 - 18:12] If my past keeps getting brought up
[18:15 - 18:19] How am I supposed to be better if you guys keep attacking me over my past?
[18:21 - 18:24] Let me move on. Let me do better
[18:25 - 18:27] Let me do things that I need to do to be better
[18:30 - 18:33] That's all I ask is that you guys let me better myself
[18:34 - 18:36] Let me do shit to be better
[18:38 - 18:43] And stop fucking attacking me saying chop it up do this do that
[18:43 - 18:45] No, stop all that
[18:52 - 18:57] And no you didn't fail bro. You did not fail at all
[19:00 - 19:03] You showed me what I need to do and you're right
[19:06 - 19:10] Axel let me tell you bro. You did not fail me
[19:11 - 19:16] You did not fail me if anything bro. You fucking helped me
[19:17 - 19:19] You helped me to see what I need to do
[19:21 - 19:25] And what I need to do is I need to get away from this shit
[19:28 - 19:31] What I need to do is I need to step away and better myself
[19:32 - 19:34] You did not fail me man
[19:40 - 19:42] You did not fail me my dude
[19:43 - 19:45] You did not fail me
[19:46 - 19:48] You showed me what I need to do
[19:51 - 19:53] You showed me what I need to fucking do
[20:04 - 20:08] Dude, I can't send a link. I'm streaming directly from youtube
[20:09 - 20:12] I there is no way to do a co-stream
[20:13 - 20:17] Through youtube unfortunately the only way I can do it is through stream yard
[20:19 - 20:21] But let me tell you all right now
[20:21 - 20:26] Let me tell y'all something right now
[20:26 - 20:28] You want me to be better?
[20:28 - 20:31] Let me move on
[20:31 - 20:34] Let me fucking move on and do better
[20:39 - 20:41] Let me better myself
[20:42 - 20:44] That's all I ask
[20:44 - 20:46] Let me take a break from youtube
[20:46 - 20:51] For three or four weeks so I can get better so I can better myself
[20:53 - 20:56] That's all I ask is to be better
[20:56 - 20:58] That's all I ask
[21:02 - 21:09] That's all I ask is to be able to be forgiven for my wrong doings and to move on with my life
[21:10 - 21:13] That's all I ask is to be forgiven for the shit that I've done wrong
[21:16 - 21:19] Because I do take responsibility for what I did
[21:21 - 21:23] And I'm sorry about all that
[21:24 - 21:26] I'm sorry about what I did wrong
[21:28 - 21:30] It never should have happened
[21:31 - 21:33] I get that it was on me
[21:33 - 21:40] I get that what I did was fucked up and it never should have happened
[21:47 - 21:49] But let me tell you guys something right the fuck now
[21:50 - 21:52] I'm tired of being stuck in this rut
[21:55 - 21:59] And that's why I'm stepping away for a few weeks so I can better myself
[22:01 - 22:04] Because I want to do better and I want to be better
[22:09 - 22:11] I want to be a better person than what I used to be
[22:15 - 22:19] I want to be that person that I was a long time ago before all this
[22:21 - 22:23] Because before all this
[22:23 - 22:28] Before came the one before came the one before all this I was a good person
[22:31 - 22:34] And I want to get back to that so fucking bad
[22:36 - 22:38] You have no idea how bad I want that back
[22:39 - 22:57] But here's the thing Wigan
[22:57 - 23:02] If you're talking about the whole Florida trip I did that for a reason
[23:03 - 23:06] I did that to protect myself from the trolls
[23:07 - 23:09] I did that to protect my family
[23:10 - 23:25] I did that to protect myself and my family
[23:33 - 23:38] I did that because I knew that if I didn't come up with a reason as to why I was stepping away
[23:39 - 23:43] I knew the trolls were gonna attack me. I knew they were gonna attack my family
[23:44 - 23:46] I knew they were gonna attack my friends
[23:47 - 23:49] And I don't want that for my family
[23:51 - 23:53] My family don't deserve to be attacked
[23:53 - 24:06] I want to be a better person guys
[24:07 - 24:11] I really do I want to be a better person so fucking bad
[24:14 - 24:17] You guys have no idea how fucking bad
[24:18 - 24:20] I want to put a
[24:20 - 24:22] No fucking clue
[24:23 - 24:26] You have no idea how fucking bad
[24:27 - 24:31] I want this shit to stop so that I can be successful
[24:32 - 24:34] So that I could do the things that I want to do
[24:34 - 24:37] You have no fucking idea how bad I want that
[24:58 - 25:01] I want to be a better person y'all so fucking bad
[25:07 - 25:09] And that's why
[25:09 - 25:12] I'm stepping away from youtube for a month or so
[25:13 - 25:15] So that I can work on myself
[25:16 - 25:20] Because I want to be better and the only way for me to be better
[25:20 - 25:23] Is to separate myself from the negativity
[25:23 - 25:25] So that I can be a better person
[25:29 - 25:36] You guys said they're calling me a liar, but I'm really not and I get that
[25:37 - 25:40] And I get that you know people like Axl don't necessarily
[25:41 - 25:47] Agree with some of the stuff that I did and I understand why I get why some of you guys don't agree with what I did
[25:48 - 25:58] But y'all gotta understand though, man, I'm trying to be a better fucking person
[25:59 - 26:22] That's all I'm trying to do is be a better fucking person. I want to tell you I want to tell you right now Axl
[26:23 - 26:28] The only thing that can truthfully help me is me stepping away from all this
[26:30 - 26:33] And that's why I'm taking a break from youtube for a month or so guys
[26:34 - 26:39] So that I can work on myself so I can do things that I used to enjoy
[26:40 - 26:44] So that I can get my mind right so that I can do shit that I used to do
[26:50 - 26:53] So that I can be a better person again
[26:56 - 26:58] So after this live stream guys
[26:59 - 27:01] I'm leaving youtube for a while
[27:02 - 27:07] I am genuinely taking a break and leaving youtube for a while
[27:07 - 27:10] Not for good, but I am leaving youtube for a while
[27:10 - 27:16] So that I can better myself so that I can work on myself so that I can be better
[27:16 - 27:29] So I can be successful. I don't know if you guys believe me or don't believe me
[27:30 - 27:35] It is what it is if you believe me. I thank you for that if you don't it is what it is
[27:37 - 27:46] But let me tell you right now. I'm sorry about everything that happened
[27:47 - 27:49] I'm sorry about everything that I did wrong
[27:51 - 27:53] And it never should have happened
[27:53 - 27:56] None of this stuff should have ever happened
[27:57 - 28:01] Okay, none of this should have ever happened at all period
[28:05 - 28:11] I get what I did was wrong. I get that I shouldn't have done any of this
[28:13 - 28:16] I get that I shouldn't have fallen for what I felt for
[28:23 - 28:27] I just wish you guys would understand that when I did all that
[28:27 - 28:33] I was not thinking clearly. I was in a very bad state of mind at that point in time
[28:34 - 28:39] I really was I was in a very bad state of mind at that point in time when I did that
[28:41 - 28:44] I am genuinely sorry for everything
[28:45 - 28:48] And I hope that we can move past this and move forward
[28:48 - 28:53] And I hope that when I come back
[28:53 - 28:57] I hope that you guys can give me that chance that I deserve to be a better person
[28:58 - 29:02] Instead of attacking me
[29:02 - 29:06] And I don't know what else to say other than I'm sorry
[29:09 - 29:15] I don't know what else to say or what else to do other than to say that I'm sorry for everything that went down
[29:15 - 29:19] Everything that happened everything I did. I know genuinely sorry and
[29:22 - 29:24] And I don't know what else to say
[29:24 - 29:33] Other than I'm sorry. I'm not blaming anybody else
[29:34 - 29:36] I'm not going after everyone else
[29:39 - 29:45] I'm just here to say that I'm sorry and that I'm leaving youtube for a month or so
[29:46 - 29:49] So that I can work on myself so that I can get better
[29:49 - 29:52] So that I could focus on my artwork again
[29:52 - 29:59] So I could focus on my photography and my music and the stuff that I used to enjoy so much doing
[30:00 - 30:05] I used to enjoy doing all those things so much and I want to do that again
[30:09 - 30:13] So again guys, I am genuinely sorry and
[30:16 - 30:18] I hope that we can move past this
[30:18 - 30:23] I hope that when I come back you guys can give me that fair chance to show you
[30:24 - 30:44] How much of a better person I've become since leaving and to my supporters again
[30:44 - 30:48] I'm sorry for doing what I did and I hope that you guys can understand
[30:50 - 30:54] Why I said what I said you and why I posted that video that I posted
[30:54 - 30:55] I
[30:55 - 30:57] Hope you guys can understand
[30:58 - 31:06] That in doing that I was trying to protect my family and my friends and myself from any more stuff that was going on
[31:07 - 31:10] Okay, I hope you guys can understand that
[31:14 - 31:19] I hope you guys can understand that I was just trying to protect my family and my friends
[31:19 - 31:22] From being attacked any more than they've already been attacked
[31:24 - 31:33] I hope you can understand that I hope that
[31:34 - 31:40] I hope that you guys
[31:40 - 31:42] will be supportive
[31:43 - 31:45] of me
[31:45 - 31:48] And getting better because I want to be better
[31:48 - 31:50] I want to do better
[31:50 - 31:55] And I hope you guys will give me that chance to do better without me being attacked
[31:56 - 32:00] Without my facebook being attacked without my friends or family being attacked
[32:01 - 32:05] I hope you guys can genuinely give me that chance to do that
[32:10 - 32:13] Because like I said, I want to be better so bad
[32:14 - 32:20] I want to be successful with stuff that I love. I want to be successful
[32:21 - 32:22] with
[32:22 - 32:25] You know my artwork with my music
[32:25 - 32:31] With my gaming live streams. I want to be able to get those sponsorships
[32:31 - 32:33] I want to be able to do what I love for a living
[32:35 - 32:37] But I can't do that until I get better
[32:40 - 32:44] So for the next four to five weeks, I am stepping away from youtube
[32:45 - 32:48] And I'm not going to be uploading while my upload here and there
[32:48 - 32:51] But I'm not going to be doing any more live streams
[32:52 - 32:56] I'm going to be staying on facebook hanging out with my friends and my family
[32:57 - 33:00] Getting back into things that I used to enjoy doing
[33:02 - 33:06] So that I can get myself right so that I can be a better person
[33:07 - 33:10] So that I can be better than what I was
[33:23 - 33:26] That's all that I want for myself is to be
[33:26 - 33:38] Better
[33:38 - 33:41] And the only way I can do that is by stepping away
[33:41 - 33:52] for a month or so
[33:52 - 33:54] Well definitely and say guys
[33:55 - 33:57] I love you guys
[33:58 - 34:02] And hopefully when I come back, I'll be a better person
[34:04 - 34:06] Hopefully when I come back
[34:06 - 34:07] You guys can
[34:07 - 34:09] You know
[34:09 - 34:11] Not do this anymore
[34:11 - 34:13] Hopefully when I come back you guys can actually
[34:15 - 34:21] You know
[34:21 - 34:23] Hopefully you guys can allow me to move on
[34:28 - 34:32] So axl, I don't know if you're still watching this, but I will message you
[34:34 - 34:36] um
[34:36 - 34:38] That's where the rest of you guys
[34:39 - 34:41] I love you guys and
[34:42 - 35:01] As for the rest of you guys I will see you when I come back
[35:02 - 35:06] I love you guys
[35:06 - 35:08] I promise you when I come back I will be better
[35:08 - 35:11] I promise you that
2021-9-16 Walk with god

2021-9-16 Walk with god

[2:26 - 2:29] Sorry y'all don't know how I got mutated, but
[2:29 - 2:31] Let me tell y'all
[2:31 - 2:46] Because of what y'all done to me. I've lost my way all this trolling and attacking me. I've literally lost my ways. I
[2:50 - 2:53] Just hope and pray to God that tonight. I can get that shit back
[2:53 - 3:02] I just hope and pray that I can get my life back starting tonight
[3:07 - 3:10] Because I do want my life back and I do want to be better
[3:11 - 3:18] And I feel like hanging out with people like Axel and hanging out with my friend Tessa
[3:18 - 3:21] Can we help this weekend? I feel like I can do that
[3:44 - 3:48] They go Axel
[3:48 - 3:54] You know, I do want to be a better person and I do want to get back to where I was before all this man
[3:54 - 4:00] What's up, Axel? How you doing man?
[4:01 - 4:04] How you doing buddy?
[4:04 - 4:08] Well, as you can tell man things are very rough with these people
[4:10 - 4:12] How's everybody doing?
[4:13 - 4:15] The chat
[4:17 - 4:19] From what I can tell they're doing all right
[4:19 - 4:22] That's good. How you been man?
[4:23 - 4:26] Well, it's good
[4:26 - 4:31] Yeah, and you know and again, dude, I do apologize for earlier. It's just you know
[4:31 - 4:36] Like I said, man, that was a year and a half of bento banger that I held in that I
[4:36 - 4:41] Basically forced myself to hold back and finally when Helen came on and just all right
[4:42 - 4:47] That's fine. Um, I think it's time to pray, you know
[4:48 - 4:53] Absolutely, man, because you know, like I just said I like I've been saying, you know
[4:54 - 4:57] Well, when you had once you asked the the chat
[4:58 - 4:59] Would
[4:59 - 5:01] Well, they'd like to pray with you
[5:02 - 5:04] What do you guys see man? Y'all want to pray with us?
[5:17 - 5:22] Do you want to pray chance and make your wrongs?
[5:23 - 5:27] Right with God, you know and uh be a better person
[5:29 - 5:31] Honestly, dude
[5:31 - 5:36] More than you know, man
[5:36 - 5:40] And I know that I haven't done this before so forgive me. Well, this is my first time doing this
[5:40 - 5:45] But it is, you know, just know that it is coming from the heart. Y'all
[5:47 - 5:50] Because as you know, we would would you people?
[5:51 - 5:53] Do you people want to pray with chance?
[5:53 - 6:01] And uh, would you pray with me? I hope you would
[6:03 - 6:04] Oh, absolutely
[6:04 - 6:07] Because you know, it it doesn't matter what you believe
[6:08 - 6:12] Have most of us we we believe in God. So
[6:14 - 6:16] And uh
[6:16 - 6:22] And I am trying to get chance to see the light and his wrongs
[6:24 - 6:26] And uh, I correct them, you know
[6:27 - 6:30] And uh
[6:30 - 6:33] So do you guys want me to pray with you?
[6:34 - 6:36] Would you like me to pray with chance?
[6:38 - 6:40] A lot of the chat's saying yeah, so
[6:42 - 6:54] Let's do it. All right folks here we go
[6:55 - 6:57] We're gonna pray, you know, it's
[7:00 - 7:02] Here we go. So
[7:02 - 7:04] heavenly father
[7:04 - 7:06] I ask you today that
[7:09 - 7:11] the wrongs that chance has done
[7:12 - 7:14] in this community and
[7:15 - 7:20] He's he's done a wrong a lot a lot lord. And I think he knows this
[7:21 - 7:23] um
[7:23 - 7:25] We we all know a person so
[7:26 - 7:30] But we do our best
[7:30 - 7:33] Jesus and almighty I ask you to
[7:34 - 7:36] Get chance to be a better person
[7:39 - 7:40] Don't rage
[7:40 - 7:43] And it doesn't matter
[7:43 - 7:46] situations that he finds that
[7:46 - 7:49] It's too tough for him
[7:49 - 7:51] We all deal with that every day, you know
[7:54 - 7:55] Jesus
[7:55 - 7:57] I beg you to
[7:58 - 8:00] Touch chance and
[8:00 - 8:03] I beg you deep in my soul, you know
[8:03 - 8:05] I
[8:06 - 8:09] I beg you to for anybody that
[8:11 - 8:13] does not know God that
[8:13 - 8:15] experience and and do
[8:17 - 8:19] Try to make chance to better person what he is
[8:23 - 8:26] sometimes you knew your friend, you know, it and uh
[8:28 - 8:30] Me being a bully the way I was
[8:30 - 8:32] and
[8:32 - 8:34] It's it's tough when
[8:38 - 8:40] You got to be there for people, you know, and
[8:42 - 8:46] it's uh
[8:46 - 8:51] This is my first time I'm sitting here. I'm praying and I'm sitting there leaving and trying to talk to
[8:53 - 8:58] How many people is sitting there watching this and and we can continue watching
[9:02 - 9:09] Pray for him encourage him do right and and like I said, we we we know his faults, but
[9:11 - 9:15] You know, it's us up to us to make him a better person
[9:17 - 9:21] And that he will not commit the kind of crimes again, you know
[9:23 - 9:28] Um, I want to be in heaven one day and I want my kids there and
[9:30 - 9:32] I love us all to be there, you know, and uh
[9:33 - 9:35] And uh, I do my best
[9:36 - 9:38] I work hard
[9:38 - 9:40] I
[9:40 - 9:42] I did the bully situation
[9:42 - 9:45] The trouble situation is it's it's not right
[9:50 - 9:52] If chance doesn't want to
[9:52 - 9:56] Accept that
[9:56 - 9:58] and do better
[9:58 - 9:59] then
[9:59 - 10:02] You did your part
[10:02 - 10:04] but we had to be
[10:07 - 10:09] together, you know
[10:09 - 10:10] and
[10:10 - 10:16] We we I don't I don't think any of us know is
[10:17 - 10:19] truly his life
[10:19 - 10:22] Um, and I don't think he's really
[10:23 - 10:25] I think he's really done a lot of mistakes
[10:25 - 10:36] All I ask is forgiveness
[10:36 - 10:38] and
[10:38 - 10:40] If chance has issues
[10:40 - 10:42] he's committed
[10:43 - 10:45] problems that
[10:45 - 10:49] You can find God Jesus and try to get him help and
[10:50 - 10:53] Try to do the right thing, you know, it's
[10:54 - 10:58] I don't support what he did and I think we all know that but
[11:00 - 11:04] Sometimes we all we all make mistakes, you know, and uh
[11:06 - 11:10] So I'm I'm just speaking to you as a friend and
[11:15 - 11:18] you know, try to help chance out and uh
[11:19 - 11:22] I love you guys. I really do. I love you all
[11:24 - 11:29] For except for one you join two talk circles that my son, but I still love you
[11:30 - 11:31] and
[11:31 - 11:34] I don't think uh
[11:34 - 11:38] I would probably smack you and uh make you meet the truth, but
[11:39 - 11:44] Besides that part I still love you and uh, I can forgive you too, you know
[11:46 - 11:50] and um
[11:51 - 11:53] Chance chance can't change on his own
[11:54 - 11:56] He needs people
[11:56 - 11:59] Encourage him
[11:59 - 12:01] getting him help
[12:01 - 12:07] Whether it's leaving his house and going to a facility. He needs help. So
[12:08 - 12:10] uh
[12:10 - 12:13] For the folks that really wants to see him change
[12:13 - 12:18] Um, you have to help him out because maybe he never did have that in his life, you know
[12:20 - 12:22] And and uh, I love you guys
[12:24 - 12:28] and uh
[12:28 - 12:34] Let's pray and uh, hope we'll be friends and uh, that's it. I'm done. So
[12:35 - 12:37] Love you chance. Um
[12:38 - 12:43] I'm gonna be on your ass. I'm going to push you and I want to ride you
[12:44 - 12:47] I want you to get help
[12:47 - 12:49] And I hope these people do too. So
[12:50 - 12:52] Yeah, and like I said, you know
[12:53 - 12:57] During my last few streams and I don't think anybody really understands this
[12:58 - 13:00] Is that with the white people?
[13:00 - 13:02] So for anything you're right like
[13:03 - 13:07] We like a lot of people don't understand this but when I first
[13:08 - 13:14] You know came on to like the youtube scene and the music scene and all this stuff like
[13:15 - 13:17] I kept getting screwed over
[13:17 - 13:20] played led down the wrong roads and
[13:21 - 13:23] being led down those wrong roads is kind of
[13:24 - 13:30] You know what led me to this play and now it's like, you know, I tell people all the time like, you know
[13:31 - 13:34] I need those people to be okay as long as they're okay
[13:34 - 13:38] I know that I'm okay because they helped me to be okay. You know what I mean
[13:40 - 13:42] Like those people that support me
[13:42 - 13:46] Every time I tell y'all that I need you guys to be okay
[13:47 - 13:54] It's because you guys being okay helps me to be okay. You guys helped me to do so fucking much and
[13:55 - 13:58] Like he said, you know, I do want to be a better person
[13:58 - 14:00] I do want to
[14:00 - 14:04] You know be able to do the things that I want to do with my life, but I can't do it alone
[14:05 - 14:08] I need your guys's help to be able to do this shit
[14:09 - 14:14] I need y'all to you know help get me away from you know these
[14:15 - 14:17] people that have basically
[14:18 - 14:20] Took my life away from me
[14:20 - 14:25] You know like because of these people and what I've been through
[14:25 - 14:32] You know, I lost, you know, one of my dream jobs that I had at the time. I lost my best friend
[14:33 - 14:38] You know, I lost a lot of stuff over time due to all this and honestly
[14:39 - 14:44] Like I want to change all that, you know, I want to be able to say hey
[14:44 - 14:48] I get to do what I love for a living. I want to be able to sit there and say hey
[14:48 - 14:53] This is what I'm doing for a living. I can I'll be able to sit there and be like hey
[14:53 - 14:55] You know
[14:55 - 14:57] Like not everybody gets the chance to do this
[14:58 - 15:01] But this is what I get to do for a living and I love what I do
[15:01 - 15:06] I want to be able to say that hey I get to help people through my music and my artwork
[15:07 - 15:10] You know for a living, but I can't do that alone guys
[15:11 - 15:18] I need your guys's help to you know guide me down that path to where I'm not getting screwed over anymore
[15:18 - 15:22] I need that guidance back down to the right path
[15:22 - 15:26] And I will admit it's because of people like eric scrub below
[15:26 - 15:31] Who essentially used me and I didn't see that I was being used that
[15:32 - 15:35] Led me down that wrong road and led me to this point
[15:36 - 15:41] I need your guys's help man. I can't do this alone and that's why I am
[15:42 - 15:45] You know taking a month off of youtube to
[15:46 - 15:47] You know sit down
[15:47 - 15:53] Work on my artwork do things that do things I should have done a long freaking time ago
[15:53 - 15:56] Instead of sitting here on my fucking ass
[15:56 - 16:00] Worrying about these trolls and what other people fucking think of me
[16:00 - 16:06] Great as some of that criticism, you know was good criticism like with um
[16:06 - 16:09] What was that one dude like even some of um
[16:11 - 16:13] What's his freaking name
[16:13 - 16:15] Skull kid
[16:15 - 16:19] Even though me and him don't get along even he had some good advice for me
[16:20 - 16:25] There's some advice that krip k gave to me when me and him were talking and we were good friends
[16:25 - 16:27] He gave me some good advice
[16:27 - 16:33] You know and that's the kind of shit that I need like I need that guidance so I can make what I love
[16:34 - 16:38] Of reality so that my parents aren't worrying about me
[16:38 - 16:40] You know when they're dead and gone granted
[16:40 - 16:44] Yeah, I'll have a family to stay with but what I need
[16:45 - 16:50] Is to make what I love a reality and I need your guys's fucking help to do that
[16:51 - 16:55] I can't do this on my own anymore. I've been doing this on my own for 10 years
[16:56 - 17:00] For 10 years. I've been led down the wrong road and it's time to change all that
[17:01 - 17:05] It's time to take back what I lost and get that shit back
[17:06 - 17:09] And I need your guys's help to do that
[17:10 - 17:17] If you guys can help me do that, I'll start putting out new music. I'll start writing, you know better songs. I'll start doing
[17:18 - 17:24] You know more poetry. I'll start doing more really cool artwork that you guys want to see me do
[17:24 - 17:26] But I need your guys's help to do it, man
[17:27 - 17:33] For 10 years, I've been led down the wrong road by the wrong people and it needs to change
[17:34 - 17:38] Everybody does and I need your guys's help to do it
[17:40 - 17:44] If you guys can promise me that you guys will help me to get to where I want to be
[17:45 - 17:48] I'll give you nothing but my best work every goddamn time
[17:49 - 17:51] I'll pour my heart and soul in every fucking song
[17:52 - 17:56] Every fucking art and piece. I'll pour my heart and soul into that shit
[17:58 - 18:00] But I need your guys's help to do that, man
[18:01 - 18:04] I need y'all's help to you know do that
[18:05 - 18:08] And guess what? Do we got somebody over here pretending to be you?
[18:11 - 18:13] We got somebody backstage with your name
[18:20 - 18:27] Yo, yo axl is that you?
[18:28 - 18:30] Yeah
[18:31 - 18:36] Uh, what happened to your other one, dude? He's like I I thought somebody was there with you
[18:37 - 18:39] Yeah, no, I'm here
[18:43 - 18:45] I think you got a troll account that
[18:47 - 18:49] Yeah, I've seen that
[18:49 - 18:51] But you know like I say guys
[18:52 - 18:54] If you guys can help me to
[18:54 - 18:56] You know do this
[18:56 - 18:58] I will give nothing but the
[18:59 - 19:01] My best for you guys every fucking time
[19:02 - 19:04] You know, I'll pull the
[19:05 - 19:07] The troll count is still alive
[19:07 - 19:09] Stoper
[19:09 - 19:13] And no, I think that's I think that was yours. Hey, let me double check and see
[19:14 - 19:16] All right. Yeah, that was your other one. Okay
[19:17 - 19:19] Uh, yeah, that's what
[19:19 - 19:25] Yeah, that wasn't a troll account. I guess what happened is it glitched out and it like
[19:26 - 19:32] You know the stream yard is weird like that stream yard has been known to do weird stuff
[19:33 - 19:36] But like I was saying man, if you guys can help me
[19:37 - 19:45] To get to where I need to be as far as you know keeping these trolls away from me keeping these rumors about me
[19:46 - 19:51] You know at bay and allowing me to like actually sit down and you know
[19:52 - 19:54] Write better songs
[19:54 - 20:00] Put out better stuff like if you guys can help you got me in that right direction to where I can be successful
[20:00 - 20:08] I promise you guys I will give you guys nothing but 110 of my best fucking work just like I used to do
[20:09 - 20:12] My last album I put out was in 2018
[20:13 - 20:17] I did not put out a legitimate album like that since 2018
[20:18 - 20:24] And I think it's about time I got back to that. It's about goddamn time. I took my freaking life back
[20:25 - 20:28] Sorry god didn't mean to take your name in vain, but I do apologize
[20:29 - 20:34] But you know, it's about freaking time. I took my life back when you say man
[20:35 - 20:36] yep
[20:36 - 20:40] It's about damn time. I took my freaking life back
[20:41 - 20:48] And what massive reports and can when everybody including Eric struggle have taken away from me over these last 10 years
[20:49 - 20:50] 10 years
[20:50 - 20:55] I've had to lose my freaking life going down the wrong road because I got guided
[20:55 - 20:58] By some freaking idiot that wanted to freaking use me
[20:59 - 21:03] For their own gain and ever since it just snowballed into what it is now
[21:04 - 21:10] And honestly, it's about damn time. I took my freaking life back and that's why
[21:11 - 21:19] Over the next month. I'm gonna be you know, not be posting really like I'll do like little update videos like once a week or so
[21:20 - 21:22] But other than that, I'm gonna be
[21:22 - 21:25] Working on my music helping out around the house a lot more
[21:25 - 21:31] So I haven't been helping out around the house. I've been I haven't been but I'm gonna be doing a lot more of that
[21:31 - 21:36] I'm gonna be I might do a vlog or two of me hanging out with my friends like I used to do
[21:37 - 21:40] Like everybody knows my dude, my brother Jake
[21:40 - 21:42] He's not really my brother, but he's my best friend
[21:42 - 21:46] But we've known each other for so many years that you know, he's you know, family
[21:46 - 21:52] Like I'll be hanging out with him a lot more. Um, I'll be doing stuff with him like
[21:52 - 22:00] I'm gonna be doing stuff. But over this next month guys. I am taking this next month off to really focus and
[22:01 - 22:04] You know give myself back to where I need to be
[22:05 - 22:08] I'm gonna start focusing on my music more. I'm gonna start
[22:09 - 22:14] You know working on more artwork like I used to do I'm gonna start looking into
[22:15 - 22:20] You know where I can release my music to do because I know there's a lot of a lot of people are telling me
[22:20 - 22:22] you know go independent and
[22:23 - 22:26] I'm gonna try that again. I'm gonna give it another shot
[22:26 - 22:30] Because a lot of people are you know, you guys are right when I looked into the whole
[22:31 - 22:33] music scene stuff I saw
[22:34 - 22:37] You know what really goes on and I don't want to be screwed over like that
[22:38 - 22:43] You know, I want to be able to say hey, I do what I love. I do it independently, you know
[22:44 - 22:48] Like I want to get out but I need your guys's help to do it
[22:48 - 22:51] So if you guys can help me out in any way whether
[22:52 - 22:54] it's you know
[22:54 - 23:00] Checking in on me once in a while see how I'm doing or whether it's finding a distribution company
[23:01 - 23:07] That I can distribute you through for free and get me started or whether what do you see a video of?
[23:08 - 23:09] You know some stuff that you think
[23:09 - 23:17] Can help me or you know plugins for FL studios that you think could you know better my voice or whatever it is
[23:17 - 23:22] I'm doing, you know, that's the kind of shit. I need. I don't need this garbage
[23:23 - 23:25] I'm honestly tired
[23:26 - 23:30] Being led down the wrong road because like I said these past few days
[23:31 - 23:34] Like before yesterday and the week and the day before that
[23:35 - 23:38] I was sick as a dog because I was so stressed out
[23:40 - 23:44] From all the negativity being brought on that I was physically
[23:45 - 23:49] Sick my energy was drained and I don't want that again
[23:49 - 23:54] Because I'm afraid the next time that happens that if the key's going I'm gonna end up in the hospital
[23:55 - 23:58] Then where all of me
[23:58 - 24:02] You know and I don't think anybody here wants it. I know I actually don't want to see me
[24:02 - 24:05] Frickin lay up in a hospital bed talking from a damn hospital
[24:10 - 24:12] I don't think you'd want to see that would you?
[24:19 - 24:23] so, I mean, you know, I want to get back to where I was guys and
[24:24 - 24:26] I'm gonna need your guys's help
[24:27 - 24:33] And actually I do want to say thank you for helping me out as much as you did man and
[24:33 - 24:40] I hope that you know when I start this journey back into my music and into my artwork full time or the next month
[24:40 - 24:44] That you know, you'll tell me if you know my song is shit. I gotta redo it
[24:45 - 24:48] by all means I'm the game
[24:48 - 24:50] like, you know
[24:50 - 24:53] Or there's something that you feel like to do better on
[24:53 - 24:56] Art-wise or music-wise don't be afraid to tell me
[24:59 - 25:04] But as for the rest you guys man, I need your guys's help to get me back on that right track
[25:06 - 25:11] I can't do this on my own anymore. I'll start putting out music videos as much as I possibly can
[25:12 - 25:14] I'll actually I'm not sure it's night gonna be
[25:15 - 25:21] I'm researching a video editor that will actually work with my Chromebook not crash over five seconds
[25:22 - 25:24] So that I can start
[25:24 - 25:26] you know
[25:26 - 25:31] Filming music videos. I'm gonna start, you know, looking for a memory card that will work with
[25:32 - 25:36] You know my camera so I can start doing professional
[25:37 - 25:41] Video work again like I used to for a while
[25:43 - 25:46] but
[25:46 - 25:48] you know
[25:48 - 25:51] Like I said, I need your guys's help to do that man
[26:05 - 26:09] Yo Courtney, what up? There's yo Courtney if you want to hop on here's the one girl
[26:09 - 26:11] How do you last song?
[26:13 - 26:24] Did you like on your baby?
[26:24 - 26:36] Yo lava, what up?
[26:36 - 26:44] You want to say something there's there's a quote that I live by guys and I think corny and even axl will agree with me on this
[26:46 - 26:52] And this actually comes straight from the metalcore band suicide silence rest in peace to mitchlocker
[26:54 - 26:55] um
[26:55 - 27:00] And the quote goes like this and I do plan on getting it tattooed on me a hundred percent
[27:00 - 27:03] Like since I get the money I do plan on getting a tattoo for it
[27:04 - 27:07] And the same the lyrics go like this
[27:07 - 27:11] You only live one life for a very short time. So make every second design
[27:13 - 27:15] And that's a very true statement
[27:19 - 27:21] Yeah, I got I got like
[27:22 - 27:26] 12 barges. I gotta put together in the morning like in two hours
[27:27 - 27:29] It's like
[27:29 - 27:31] yeah
[27:31 - 27:34] But you know and like I was saying, you know
[27:35 - 27:39] Those lyrics like those speak a lot of truth and I know axl
[27:39 - 27:41] I know you'll agree with that too
[27:41 - 27:48] The lyrics you only live one life for a very short time. So make every second design. Like that speaks so much true
[27:49 - 27:51] You do your best. It's like
[27:51 - 27:55] I gotta get up in like three hours and buttoe and
[27:56 - 27:57] Yeah
[27:57 - 27:59] Man, I definitely do appreciate
[28:01 - 28:03] I'm sitting here laying in like a little twin buck
[28:04 - 28:12] Yeah, yeah, I'm on a boat. I'm on like I'm on like a
[28:13 - 28:15] 4000 horsepower boat
[28:15 - 28:16] and
[28:16 - 28:22] Yeah, so yeah, I'm like on a train here on a big one and shit. Yeah, right
[28:23 - 28:26] And I you know, I got my fleece blanket
[28:27 - 28:33] Let go over top of me, you know, and I got my uk blanket because I'm from Kentucky
[28:34 - 28:40] For some of you for some of you troves that wants to know where I came from I'm from Kentucky
[28:41 - 28:44] So there you go a sport uk wildcats
[28:45 - 28:47] Uh
[28:48 - 28:51] You know, it's funny is um, I was born in alaska
[28:51 - 28:56] But I was actually raised out in bellingham washington state which is like the outskirts the major
[28:57 - 29:00] You know backwoods country. So I get it
[29:01 - 29:03] I was raised in eastern kentucky
[29:05 - 29:06] Uh
[29:06 - 29:10] My my genes are fucked up because my on my
[29:11 - 29:13] other side is
[29:14 - 29:18] My grandmother my great-grandmother was she was had jerky. She was had black foot
[29:19 - 29:21] Oh nice. I've actually got
[29:21 - 29:23] 116 I think
[29:24 - 29:26] And my great-grandpa
[29:26 - 29:30] Or I was in my football. He married my grandmother. She was
[29:30 - 29:32] Jewish german
[29:32 - 29:37] And they married and her met in 37 and married in 38
[29:37 - 29:41] Yeah, my dad was born in 1940, you know, oh wow
[29:42 - 29:44] yeah
[29:44 - 29:47] So you're like me dude. You got a long family history
[29:48 - 29:53] I got english, jerky, black foot and strong german. So
[29:53 - 29:58] Nice I got german, dutch, jerky and irish in me
[30:00 - 30:01] right
[30:01 - 30:06] So i'm i'm gonna make sure a little i'm a mud as a as a lot of people like to say i'm a bit of a mud
[30:06 - 30:13] I got a little bit of everything i mean, right and seriously i like you man, but i want i want to take like
[30:13 - 30:18] three four air balloons and i want to tie tie them to your arms
[30:19 - 30:21] Hahaha
[30:21 - 30:23] Go flying
[30:23 - 30:28] You would you would be the one to do that until you piss your pants
[30:28 - 30:30] You wouldn't be the one to do that
[30:31 - 30:35] Then i'm gonna be down there like a dark down. I'm gonna shoot you down a little bit
[30:37 - 30:40] Oh hell now you're trying to scare them straight out of me, bro
[30:42 - 30:45] Oh, yeah, i'm military. Yeah, you know, I would
[30:46 - 30:50] Oh, I know you would I know you're crazy as would do you're crazy
[30:52 - 31:00] Dude, you're dude. You're just like my brother jake man. You and him. I swear to god are the exact same y'all both would be the one to do that to me
[31:01 - 31:04] Oh, yeah, dude. I would like three four
[31:06 - 31:08] balloons helium balloons to you
[31:09 - 31:11] and just let you float, you know
[31:12 - 31:13] and
[31:13 - 31:17] Until you shit your pants or like you piss your pants or something like that, you know
[31:17 - 31:18] and
[31:18 - 31:25] Holden pretty guy holding all I gotta say man. Is you better holding pretty guy that she got me tied to is tightest book because
[31:25 - 31:27] I'm gonna be freezing the fuck out
[31:29 - 31:34] Dude, dude, I've seen so much death. I I don't like to see anybody get hurt
[31:35 - 31:38] It's if anything I do it's all good fun
[31:39 - 31:40] All right
[31:40 - 31:46] Hey, all I got to say is if you do do that to me, man, make sure I got a freaking parachute attachment that way if I do fall
[31:46 - 31:48] I got something to save my ass
[31:52 - 31:57] Just saying man, I don't need the freaking v ended up in the damn hospital calling my mom's from the hospital
[31:57 - 32:00] I'll be like I ended up in the hospital
[32:00 - 32:05] What happened took a 30,000 foot drop from a hot air ball and when I'll tear shoot didn't open
[32:07 - 32:09] As far as I've been
[32:09 - 32:15] And if that don't kill me, I know damn well, she would my ass be buried six feet under
[32:16 - 32:22] If you fall out 30,000 feet, dude, you're dead. Yeah, I know. Well, there is one dude that actually survived
[32:27 - 32:33] Yeah, yeah
[32:39 - 32:42] But yeah, dude, there was actually a dude on the news
[32:42 - 32:45] Um, I forget when it was it was like a couple years ago
[32:46 - 32:47] but this dude was uh
[32:47 - 32:52] Doing uh, not base jumping, but um, he was actually doing skydiving
[32:53 - 32:55] and he got about
[32:56 - 32:58] 30,000 feet from the ground
[32:58 - 33:01] went to open his shooting and didn't open
[33:01 - 33:04] and he actually landed and
[33:05 - 33:09] Surprisingly all he wanted to lay with was literally a couple broken
[33:10 - 33:12] Like he walked away with two broken legs
[33:13 - 33:15] and like a broken wrist and I'm just like
[33:16 - 33:21] How is it like how like, you know, John must have been watching out from that day
[33:22 - 33:25] Falling down for 30,000 feet and you walk away with a couple broken
[33:25 - 33:27] Bones like bro, you're lucky
[33:28 - 33:31] Yeah, because I'm not no paratrooper
[33:31 - 33:33] Or I don't skydive
[33:34 - 33:42] I have jumped out or playing a couple of times at like 30, you know 30 35,000 feet and uh
[33:43 - 33:49] For somebody to survive that it's like, yeah, yeah, you're lucky you're like
[33:51 - 33:54] You're more than lucky because uh, oh, yeah
[33:56 - 34:03] You're like as close to Jesus as I would say because that is hard to survive, you know
[34:04 - 34:07] Right, you know, and they do say though and this is very true
[34:09 - 34:11] I jumped 20,000 feet with a friend of mine
[34:12 - 34:14] And I was a bitch
[34:14 - 34:18] And what I mean bitch at 25 20,000 feet is that
[34:19 - 34:23] You know, skydiving you're right. You know what I'm saying like you're in the middle
[34:24 - 34:25] right
[34:25 - 34:26] and
[34:26 - 34:28] We landed hard and
[34:30 - 34:31] And
[34:31 - 34:35] When they wanted to tell you got to put your legs up and all this and that, you know
[34:35 - 34:38] And that was 20,000 feet and no
[34:38 - 34:40] Uh
[34:40 - 34:43] I felt I felt the land and uh
[34:43 - 34:48] But for somebody to survive that yeah, that's that's that's pretty tough or
[34:49 - 34:54] Right like in a matter of fact, I believe the video is still on youtube somewhere like it's
[34:55 - 35:01] Is it like and you know it's like they saying it's very true, you know, the lord does work in mysterious ways
[35:02 - 35:04] Well, you know
[35:04 - 35:09] And I got on it dude. God must have watched me out for him that day for sure
[35:10 - 35:12] right and and part of me is like
[35:13 - 35:15] I'm an asshole and
[35:16 - 35:20] I I've I've been on the side with bullying and
[35:22 - 35:26] Stuff like that when I when I first said earlier tonight and uh, yeah
[35:27 - 35:30] um
[35:30 - 35:34] I love I love more in my life beside my son
[35:35 - 35:41] To see somebody to succeed, you know, it was like, you know, and it's like I told you
[35:43 - 35:47] Right, you know, it's like I told you and the people in this chat, you know
[35:48 - 35:51] Over this the next month, you know, I'm gonna be you know
[35:52 - 35:58] Focus on just really focusing on stuff that I should have been focusing on a long time ago
[35:58 - 36:01] You know because you know what when you die
[36:02 - 36:05] You're going to places you're going to heaven or you're going to hell
[36:05 - 36:07] Exactly
[36:09 - 36:12] Uh, you got you you got man, you really
[36:14 - 36:17] You gotta be a good person, dude. I really think that
[36:20 - 36:21] It's just you know, and
[36:21 - 36:27] And I know you like didn't say this directly, but I kind of caught on the way you were saying a bit
[36:27 - 36:31] Is you know how people, you know, they misunderstand me
[36:32 - 36:34] So much like they take stuff
[36:35 - 36:39] At such base value that you know, they don't get to see
[36:40 - 36:42] You know who I really am
[36:42 - 36:45] You know outside of all this like they don't see, you know
[36:46 - 36:53] When I hang out with my friends how I'm chill and goofing off and doing shit or you know, how
[36:54 - 36:56] You know, I sit down
[36:56 - 37:00] And I try to you know do stuff that I enjoy like they don't
[37:00 - 37:04] See that and I feel like it's because they don't see that
[37:04 - 37:06] That they feel like oh
[37:06 - 37:08] This is what he's all about
[37:08 - 37:11] They don't see anything past that all they see is that
[37:12 - 37:16] So they don't see like oh this dude's actually a really chill dude
[37:16 - 37:19] And this guy's actually really cool. This guy's actually funny
[37:20 - 37:22] Like there's a video. I don't know if
[37:23 - 37:29] Uh marty might still have it on the archive channel that he made about me or I still don't know who made the
[37:29 - 37:35] Archive channel on me, but whoever you are. Thank you because I found a lot of videos that we wanted to reupload on that channel
[37:35 - 37:37] So thank you
[37:38 - 37:42] But um, there was a vlog that I did with my best friend jake where
[37:42 - 37:49] Me and him were just hanging out and you know, just goofing off and I feel like if people got to see
[37:50 - 37:54] More of that side of me and they got to see me put out, you know more good music
[37:54 - 37:57] They'll probably be like, oh this dude's actually
[37:58 - 38:04] A chill guy like he's not how people think he is and that's kind of why you know
[38:04 - 38:10] I'm gonna take this next month, you know off from doing, you know live streams and you know posting every day to
[38:11 - 38:13] You know hang out with my friends and
[38:13 - 38:17] You know focus on that stuff. You know what I mean? Yeah
[38:18 - 38:22] That way, you know, I'm not stuck in that rut and I could
[38:23 - 38:26] Get myself out and you know do the things that I need to do
[38:29 - 38:33] Yeah, exactly Courtney. Exactly. As a matter of fact, Courtney let me post that
[38:34 - 38:36] Coming up. I definitely agree with that
[38:42 - 38:44] Like, you know, I do
[38:46 - 38:50] I'm gonna continue listening to you, but I'm getting off here, but uh, I
[38:52 - 38:55] Yeah, and hey, it was good having you on here, man. I was always
[38:56 - 38:58] And we're talking we're talking tomorrow
[38:59 - 39:02] Oh, yeah, absolutely, man. And again, dude, I want to say thank you
[39:02 - 39:05] You know, not just on behalf of myself or my family
[39:06 - 39:10] But on behalf of those, you know that do support me, man that do want to see me
[39:10 - 39:13] You know do better, man, and I want to have myself, man
[39:14 - 39:16] Thank you for everything you've done to help me, dude
[39:17 - 39:20] Like I told you you've done more for me in the last few hours than
[39:21 - 39:23] Most have done for me in a year
[39:24 - 39:28] Okay, so I appreciate that man and I'll do my best, you know
[39:29 - 39:34] Hell yeah, man. I appreciate you listen to me and but I'm gonna go get off live stream, but
[39:35 - 39:40] All right, man. All right, man. All right, buddy. Take it easy, man. I'll talk to you tomorrow, brother. Be safe
[39:41 - 39:43] All right, brother. All right. Take it easy, man
[39:46 - 39:50] And ask three y'all. I'll be right back. Just want to go get my dogs some water right quick
[39:51 - 39:53] And I will be right back guys
[43:21 - 43:25] What's up guys, I'm back
[43:25 - 43:27] I'm blocked
[43:27 - 43:29] Got to get my dogs some fresh water
[43:30 - 43:32] What is up? What is up? What is up?
[43:34 - 43:36] How are you, friends and brothers?
[43:36 - 43:47] What's up with all y'all crazies?
[43:49 - 43:51] What is good? What is good? What is good? Good
[43:55 - 43:59] Now what am I gonna do? I'm gonna do something a little bit different
[44:09 - 44:11] Yo, I didn't block you dude. I was
[44:12 - 44:20] Bro, I was downstairs taking care of my dog. All right, so I wouldn't I wouldn't know if here. I didn't see what happened
[44:21 - 44:23] But for you guys, I am gonna do something here
[44:25 - 44:27] I take the straps off of this
[44:40 - 44:42] So here I do have it on acoustic mode
[44:44 - 44:47] At least I think I do
[44:47 - 44:49] No, it's not even plugged in. What the
[44:49 - 44:51] Green hold on y'all
[44:51 - 44:55] Let me find the plug for this and get a plug back in
[44:55 - 44:58] There it is
[44:58 - 45:44] All right, yeah, let's plug it back in. I'm not saying where the hell did my
[45:46 - 45:53] Ticks going on guys. I need to put this thing back in
[45:54 - 46:00] But this is getting on my nerves
[46:03 - 46:09] Whoa, there we go
[46:10 - 46:20] I don't see what that's gonna plug back in
[46:21 - 46:23] Yeah, I guess my we're gonna mind
[46:24 - 46:26] I was like, what is that?
[46:27 - 46:40] Oh, no, I know
[46:40 - 46:51] Okay, bro, that'd be weird go through 14 24 hours
[46:51 - 47:19] I want to do something. I've never done before on this channel for a long. I have done it. I want to play
[47:22 - 47:24] um
[47:24 - 47:26] A song for you guys that
[47:27 - 47:31] I ain't ever you know done on this channel for you guys
[47:31 - 47:51] Oh, I said that
[47:51 - 47:56] I'm gonna turn this up just a 10 bit
[48:03 - 48:06] You know, I was not planning on doing this man, but it's all good
[48:44 - 48:50] You
[52:03 - 52:05] With the top created app that lets you to pop the checks
[52:29 - 52:31] Oh, who the fuck blocked
[52:36 - 52:44] My god, seriously
[52:45 - 52:48] Who the fuck
[52:48 - 52:50] Block my dude
[52:50 - 52:52] Come on people
[52:52 - 53:06] Hold up. Or is that the same guy? I heard it. No, I'm the wrong guy
[53:07 - 53:09] man
[53:09 - 53:13] Sorry, too. I thought that was you that got blocked man. I was about to say bro
[53:20 - 53:22] I was about to
[53:24 - 53:26] I was about to flip dude
[54:21 - 54:24] Now I do want to give a huge shout out to these guys right here
[54:25 - 54:27] Um, this song actually has helped me a lot
[54:32 - 54:36] So to the band wake me I want to say a shout out to you guys
[54:37 - 54:39] Fucking love y'all man. You guys are a bunch of good dudes
[54:40 - 54:42] Um, this one's for you guys
[55:29 - 55:32] So
[59:09 - 59:12] Okay, I got you
[59:12 - 59:32] I got you on some michael jackson stuff, bro. Hold up. I got you on some michael jackson, bro
[59:40 - 59:43] Did again
[59:43 - 60:05] Let's go here
[60:05 - 60:07] And this one's gonna be a rock style one
[60:13 - 65:21] This is gonna be fun
[80:38 - 80:42] Now this final song is my last one before I take my month break
[80:43 - 80:47] So if you guys have been rocking one of this long this one's for you guys
[82:23 - 82:26] And many of you guys might remember this movie
[82:49 - 83:05] That's it
[87:03 - 87:05] Again, thank you to
[87:09 - 87:13] Thank you to axl for helping me out, bro. I appreciate it
[87:14 - 87:19] And to all you guys that do support me. I promise you when I come back here in four to five weeks
[87:20 - 87:23] I promise you guys I will be better than I've ever been before
[87:24 - 87:28] And I promise you guys I will give you 110 of myself each and every time
[87:30 - 87:32] I love you guys and I will see you guys in
[87:34 - 87:36] I'll see you guys in five weeks
[87:36 - 87:38] I love you guys
[87:39 - 87:44] Be safe be humble. I might do some uploads here and there like what'll update videos
[87:46 - 87:48] But for the next
[87:48 - 87:52] Five weeks, I've got studying to do. I've got
[87:53 - 87:55] Stuff to get together
[87:55 - 87:57] I got things I need to get done
[87:58 - 88:02] So, uh
[88:02 - 88:06] I love you guys and I'll see you guys in five weeks and
[88:07 - 88:10] Like I said, I'll have an update video for you guys here in there
[88:11 - 88:15] And uh, yeah, I love you guys
[88:16 - 88:18] Stay humble stay positive
[88:19 - 88:21] Uh, keep me in your prayers
[88:23 - 88:27] Um, like I said, you guys have any way to help me out
[88:27 - 88:29] You know
[88:29 - 88:33] Hand me a you guys know how to hit me up, you know message me on discord
[88:34 - 88:36] Uh message me on facebook
[88:37 - 88:41] You guys got my address you guys are more than welcome to send me stuff
[88:41 - 88:44] 100% you guys are more than welcome to send me stuff
[88:45 - 88:48] You know, whether it's letters or whatever it is
[88:49 - 88:51] You know
[88:51 - 88:54] and in case you guys didn't know my birthday is in
[88:58 - 89:02] My birthday is in about five days and a half an hour. What was that?
[89:04 - 89:10] Oh, yeah, so today's the 15th my birthday is actually in five days and a half an hour
[89:10 - 89:13] So not seeing you guys happy, but if y'all want to send me some
[89:14 - 89:17] You know stuff from my birthday or whatever
[89:17 - 89:22] Hit me up. Let me know. We'll talk or if y'all want to send me a letter or a card or whatever
[89:23 - 89:25] By all means feel free to
[89:26 - 89:29] Um, I will be checking in and doing updates
[89:30 - 89:32] As much as I possibly can
[89:33 - 89:37] But um, I love you guys and I'll see you guys in about five weeks
[89:39 - 89:43] I got some studying to do. I'm gonna take the rest of the night to hang out with my friends
[89:43 - 89:45] Roll back
[89:45 - 89:48] Chill out might play some rock at league or something. I don't know
[89:50 - 89:53] But uh, I love you guys because tomorrow I got to get up early
[89:53 - 89:59] I got some music studying to do. I got to study how to use that feel properly again and all that stuff
[89:59 - 90:01] So I got a lot to do tomorrow
[90:02 - 90:07] Um, I love you guys and I'll catch you guys in the next update video
[90:08 - 90:09] I love you guys
[90:09 - 90:11] I like to catch you guys later
[90:11 - 90:15] Be safe and I'll see you guys my weeks. Love you guys
2021-9-16 Make your Choice Axel

2021-9-16 Make your Choice Axel

[0:01 - 0:05] What's up guys? Um, this isn't necessarily an update, but this is
[0:08 - 0:14] Something that really needs to be said and this is going out to Axl
[0:14 - 0:19] but man
[0:19 - 0:25] there's no doubt on my mind that part of you does want to help me to be a better person and
[0:26 - 0:28] I do appreciate that
[0:29 - 0:33] But what I want more than anything is the fucking truth
[0:34 - 0:38] Like I know that you were talking shit about me while I was going
[0:39 - 0:41] Eating dinner you were sitting backstage
[0:42 - 0:47] Talking shit about me. I also know
[0:48 - 0:55] How you found out about my trip to Florida and it wasn't looking up flights
[0:56 - 1:00] That's not it. You found out through Schmecklecat
[1:01 - 1:03] who
[1:03 - 1:14] Recorded mine in his conversation without me knowing he had posted it on his channel and that's how you found out
[1:17 - 1:25] was through that and then for you to sit there and contradict yourself in
[1:26 - 1:28] What you told me this morning saying that
[1:29 - 1:33] On one hand, you're just trying to make everyone happy, but then you turn around and say
[1:35 - 1:39] that
[1:39 - 1:41] sometimes
[1:41 - 1:43] Telling the truth is something that I would like
[1:44 - 1:46] Well, I'm here to tell you dude
[1:47 - 1:49] like
[1:50 - 1:52] Can't be both man
[1:53 - 1:59] You can't sit there and make people happy and talk shit on someone and it turned out and say that you want what's
[2:00 - 2:02] Best for me. It doesn't work like that
[2:05 - 2:09] Yeah, you may be older than me, dude, but let me tell you right now
[2:12 - 2:17] Like I'm a lot smarter than you take me for I'm not stupid
[2:18 - 2:24] I've been yanked around so goddamn much in these last ten years
[2:25 - 2:28] All I'm trying to get is the fucking truth
[2:29 - 2:32] That's all I'm trying to do man
[2:33 - 2:36] And right now things are not looking good for you
[2:39 - 2:42] Things are not looking good for you right now
[2:42 - 2:48] so you either need to come clean and
[2:49 - 2:55] Tell the fucking truth about how you fucking lied to me and how you're trying to have me institutionalized
[2:56 - 2:58] in a fucking mental hospital and
[3:00 - 3:09] Tell the truth to everybody about all this shit. You're doing all right. Just come clean about how you rain your mouth about me
[3:09 - 3:11] come clean about how
[3:12 - 3:17] You want me in a mental hospital come clean about all that shit, bro
[3:18 - 3:26] You say you're a man of God and there's no doubt in my mind that you are
[3:26 - 3:30] But a true man of God would come forward and speak the fucking truth
[3:32 - 3:40] And I try to play both sides if you want to help me then fucking help me
[3:41 - 3:43] Stop playing both fucking sides
[3:45 - 3:48] Either you're with me or you're against me
[3:51 - 4:01] Either you want to help me or you want to run your mouth about me. It can't be both, Axel
[4:06 - 4:09] Either you want to help me or you want to talk shit on me
[4:10 - 4:20] Which is it? It's your call, Axel
[4:21 - 4:23] Make your fucking choice
[4:23 - 4:28] either you want to help me to be a better person or
[4:31 - 4:33] You want to have me institutionalized?
[4:34 - 4:43] Because I got told you man. I'm not as dumb as you seem to think that I am
[4:44 - 4:54] I'm a lot smarter than you think a lot smarter than you give me credit for
[4:55 - 4:58] So which is it Axel?
[4:58 - 5:03] Be straight up. Are you with me or are you against me?
[5:04 - 5:06] Are you gonna help me or not?
[5:07 - 5:09] It don't get much simpler than that
[5:10 - 5:14] Either you want to run your mouth about me and side with Chris Kaye or
[5:17 - 5:22] You want to stand out for me and do what's right and fucking help me away from all this shit
2021-9-16 Think about what you do before you do it

2021-9-16 Think about what you do before you do it

[0:00 - 0:02] What have y'all
[0:03 - 0:05] Just wanting to do anything to let y'all know what's up
[0:08 - 0:10] Things are going good. I'm a dog. You know if you
[0:11 - 0:14] You have a good friend's mind a lot today, but
[0:15 - 0:22] This video is more directed at and you know those that think that
[0:23 - 0:25] everything's my fault when I
[0:25 - 0:30] Amit so it's tough, you know is my fault, but not all of it
[0:30 - 0:35] And that's I think that's where a lot of y'all are getting confused
[0:36 - 0:39] See for the last 10 years
[0:39 - 0:43] I've been jerked around and yanked around
[0:45 - 0:47] But people like Eric Scrubble
[0:48 - 0:51] For the last 10 years. I've been used as a doormat
[0:53 - 1:03] I've been tossed aside. I'm the walked on. I've been stepped on. I've had all kinds of
[1:04 - 1:06] fucked up situations happen
[1:06 - 1:07] and
[1:07 - 1:15] I'm not gonna then I'm not gonna study here and I'm just saying that what I did was right because what I did and
[1:16 - 1:19] You know those certain situations that I've been
[1:20 - 1:23] You know that I've been being attacked for isn't right and
[1:25 - 1:29] You know, I know that when I die I'm gonna have to pay for those
[1:30 - 1:36] But something y'all need to realize is part of the reason why I
[1:36 - 1:39] Have so many anger issues
[1:40 - 1:41] inside me
[1:41 - 1:46] it's probably because of y'all that want to sit there and
[1:47 - 1:55] Constantly attack me, you know, y'all want to sit there and judge me
[1:56 - 2:01] What I do, but yet you guys never want to look in the mirror and
[2:03 - 2:05] Take responsibility for your own actions
[2:06 - 2:09] I mean you guys sat there the other night. I watched me
[2:10 - 2:14] take responsibility for my own actions and
[2:15 - 2:20] What I did and I admit what I did was wrong and it never should have happened and
[2:21 - 2:26] That was on me and I am sorry about that
[2:26 - 2:34] But something you guys need to realize is beyond that
[2:35 - 2:44] Beyond that whole Kate issue, you know, the whole reason why I got put in the situations because
[2:45 - 2:47] I've been stabbed in the back
[2:47 - 2:49] turned on
[2:49 - 2:53] I miss the lead and betrayed so many times over the years and
[2:55 - 2:57] you guys
[2:57 - 3:05] Doing all this different stuff to me. It doesn't help, you know, y'all sitting there
[3:06 - 3:09] Making things worse than they already are for me
[3:10 - 3:14] by going after my deceased loved ones by
[3:15 - 3:25] Going after my friends by going after my family you guys aren't helping any if anything you guys are thinking of making things
[3:26 - 3:29] Just so much worse than what they need to be
[3:34 - 3:36] It's not okay
[3:36 - 3:41] I get that some of y'all can't stand me for whatever reason and
[3:44 - 3:46] You know, it is what it is. I
[3:47 - 3:52] Don't hate y'all. I don't necessarily like y'all that, you know
[3:52 - 3:54] Do that shit to me, but I don't hate you either
[3:55 - 4:01] But what I'm trying to get you guys to understand is this
[4:02 - 4:09] You know the whole reason why I'm shouting why I do what I do is because of you guys
[4:10 - 4:14] when you guys push me over the edge like y'all do and
[4:14 - 4:18] You back me into a corner. It's like you expect me not to snap
[4:20 - 4:25] like you guys sit there and you attack me over and over and over again and then
[4:26 - 4:28] when you
[4:28 - 4:33] Back me into a corner like y'all do a lot of the times you expect me not to snap
[4:37 - 4:44] It's like poking a bear, dude. You know you poke a bear you're gonna get bit
[4:45 - 4:49] You back a dog into a corner and you know you keep on teasing it
[4:50 - 4:59] Eventually that dog's gonna man up and gonna bite back and you're gonna end up hurt, you know same thing with me
[5:00 - 5:09] Same thing with anyone you push someone so far
[5:09 - 5:17] All right, and you push someone so far over and over and over and over again
[5:17 - 5:23] You keep pushing that button over and over and over like this you keep on pushing that button on
[5:23 - 5:27] That person
[5:27 - 5:34] Eventually that person is gonna turn around and they're gonna snap and they're gonna do shit that you might not
[5:35 - 5:39] Like and you're gonna end up hurt. You're gonna end up injured or
[5:39 - 5:57] Or whatever because they like I told y'all in my last video, you know
[5:58 - 6:03] For me, it's not about whether I like my raps or not
[6:04 - 6:11] What's on your own? I do I am very proud of the song that I put out but like I said
[6:12 - 6:14] For me, it's not about
[6:15 - 6:17] Whether I like the song
[6:17 - 6:21] It's not about whether someone else likes song for me. It's about
[6:22 - 6:31] Putting my story out there so that it can help someone if my music can help even just one person through a tough situation then
[6:32 - 6:40] So be it if mine if my music can help even one person out of my job
[6:41 - 6:48] You know, that's my mission is to fucking help people to help people like myself
[6:49 - 7:01] People like Axl who have been down a very dark road a very dark road
[7:04 - 7:07] Let me tell you man
[7:07 - 7:09] I've taught that so I'm gonna tell you
[7:10 - 7:13] He's been through a lot of shit
[7:14 - 7:25] He's been through some shit that most will never ever get the chance to see and going through all that
[7:25 - 7:36] Was not what he needed. Just like me. I've been down some very very dark roads in my life
[7:37 - 7:40] And a lot of you guys know a lot of those dark roads
[7:41 - 7:45] everything from me losing loved ones who
[7:46 - 7:50] have passed
[7:50 - 7:54] To being put through what I've been put through these last year and a half
[7:55 - 7:59] and
[7:59 - 8:02] Let me tell you those roads that I went down in my life
[8:04 - 8:05] They were scary
[8:05 - 8:07] they were very scary
[8:08 - 8:09] and
[8:09 - 8:12] I would never wish anything. I've been through on anyone
[8:16 - 8:20] I truthfully would not wish anything. I've been through on anyone
[8:24 - 8:27] Let me tell you man. I've lost so many friends and family
[8:29 - 8:31] so many loved ones and
[8:33 - 8:37] When you lose that many people in such a short time span it's
[8:38 - 8:40] It's hard to deal with
[8:40 - 8:42] it's a very tough build to swallow
[8:43 - 8:49] and
[8:49 - 8:54] I don't think they would want to see me be this way. I know I don't want to be this way
[8:55 - 8:57] and that's why I'm writing
[8:58 - 9:00] more music to
[9:01 - 9:03] You know help people like myself
[9:04 - 9:06] to help people like Axel who have been down
[9:08 - 9:10] a very
[9:10 - 9:12] Very screwed up road in their life
[9:19 - 9:22] Because y'all know that Spartan pledge y'all heard
[9:23 - 9:32] That Spartan pledge you guys heard last night. Let me tell you I took that pledge myself
[9:34 - 9:37] I took that pledge with a friend of mine who was military
[9:38 - 9:41] They've been retiring for about four or five years, but
[9:42 - 9:44] I took that oath
[9:44 - 9:46] I took that same oath with them
[9:50 - 9:53] Even though there were times where I slipped up
[9:58 - 10:00] There were times where
[10:00 - 10:04] I didn't know what to do. I thought that death was my only option
[10:08 - 10:10] But there was also times where
[10:12 - 10:14] You know, I thought about it
[10:14 - 10:18] And I kept telling myself dude, you know, you got a mission
[10:20 - 10:24] You know your mission is to help people and you're never gonna be done with that mission if
[10:25 - 10:27] You know, you're dead in the ground yourself
[10:32 - 10:35] So for all you guys that do hate my music
[10:36 - 10:44] That's fine. I like y'all can hate my music all you want
[10:45 - 10:47] But at the end of the day
[10:47 - 10:49] My music's not
[10:54 - 11:02] You to like or not like my music is meant to help people and that's what I wanted to do. I want
[11:03 - 11:06] I want people to be able to listen to my music and be like, damn
[11:06 - 11:08] This guy really gets what I'm going through
[11:09 - 11:11] Because he's been through this situation
[11:13 - 11:15] I want my music to speak to people
[11:16 - 11:22] You know, I want my music to you know, speak to people and
[11:23 - 11:25] To help people
[11:25 - 11:28] And if my music can do that, then I'm doing my job
[11:34 - 11:38] Because like axle and like so many others before him
[11:38 - 11:40] I know what it's like to
[11:40 - 11:45] You know have to battle, you know your inner demons and it's not easy
[11:46 - 11:50] I can most certainly tell you that it's the hardest battle you'll ever face
[11:56 - 12:00] I've dealt with my demons for over 10 years and I'm just now
[12:00 - 12:02] You know getting back to where I want to be
[12:10 - 12:12] That's something you guys can understand though
[12:14 - 12:18] At the end of the day, we're all human. We all deserve to be treated as equal
[12:22 - 12:29] You know, it's not a day that doesn't go by where I don't wish you trolls would just stop and think about what you're doing before you do it
[12:31 - 12:36] I really wish you guys would stop and think about what you're doing before you fucking do it
[12:38 - 12:40] to see you have a choice
[12:41 - 12:42] to
[12:42 - 12:44] type those words out
[12:44 - 12:47] You have a choice
[12:47 - 12:49] you can either
[12:49 - 12:52] type the words out and look like a total moron
[12:53 - 12:57] And be negative and just look dumb
[12:57 - 13:01] or
[13:01 - 13:05] You can retract that negative statement
[13:06 - 13:08] and
[13:08 - 13:11] You know be a more positive person and not
[13:12 - 13:15] Selling negative bullshit out of people
[13:18 - 13:20] Because like I said
[13:20 - 13:24] Like me and like Alex or Axel not Axel
[13:25 - 13:29] But there are people like us out there that face far worse
[13:30 - 13:33] There are people like us that don't get the chance to make it home
[13:34 - 13:35] There are those who
[13:35 - 13:37] You know, there are those of us
[13:38 - 13:42] That have been torn down so bad that we don't know anything about pain
[13:44 - 13:53] And you guys claim that you know my life, but really you don't know my life outside of youtube
[13:55 - 13:57] You only know what's posted on the internet
[14:00 - 14:05] And I get that it's fun to make a joke out of me. Ha ha. I've seen the memes and shit
[14:06 - 14:09] Some of them are fun
[14:09 - 14:11] Not gonna lie. Some of the memes y'all do are fun
[14:15 - 14:17] But let me tell you right now man
[14:19 - 14:22] Y'all really need to stop and think about what you're doing before you do it
[14:25 - 14:29] Because it might not be today and it might not be tomorrow, but somewhere down the line in your life
[14:30 - 14:32] You're gonna do this shit that you're doing to me
[14:33 - 14:35] and to someone else
[14:35 - 14:37] and
[14:37 - 14:43] You never know what you do to them could potentially be what puts them over the edge
[14:43 - 14:47] You trolling them like you troll me could be what puts them over the edge
[14:48 - 14:52] And then where will you be?
[14:58 - 15:00] Y'all need to start thinking about thinking about
[15:01 - 15:03] How you treat people before you do what you do
[15:08 - 15:10] Like for real start thinking about
[15:11 - 15:13] How you treat people
[15:14 - 15:16] Before you go typing in words
[15:18 - 15:27] Because your words carry weight and that weight
[15:28 - 15:31] Could kill someone
[15:32 - 15:34] And only you have the power to stop that
[15:37 - 15:40] Only you have the power to make that choice to stop
[15:46 - 15:48] So guys, please
[15:49 - 15:51] Do yourselves a favor
[15:54 - 15:57] Think about what you say from now on before you say it
[16:04 - 16:06] Your chances are
[16:09 - 16:13] That
[16:13 - 16:14] Wait
[16:14 - 16:16] What you say to the next man
[16:17 - 16:19] Could be
[16:19 - 16:22] What causes them to take their life and
[16:23 - 16:25] I don't want to see that happen
[16:25 - 16:31] I want to help people. I don't want to see anybody get their life taken away
[16:34 - 16:37] I really don't
[16:37 - 16:41] So I guess then man
[16:41 - 16:43] Do yourselves a favor
[16:45 - 16:47] Think about what you say and do
[16:47 - 16:53] Before you say and do it
[16:53 - 16:55] Your chances are what you say and do
[16:56 - 16:59] Could have a very real effect on the next man
[16:59 - 17:05] I'm just saying
[17:05 - 17:07] Think about what you say and do
2021-9-16 Explaining my Unique Rap style

2021-9-16 Explaining my Unique Rap style

[0:00 - 0:06] One of y'all I'm back with another update. I know I said I was gonna do many updates
[0:06 - 0:10] But this is actually speaking on my song called lost soul
[0:11 - 0:23] for my new upcoming album souls of the loss and a lot of people seem to think that I
[0:23 - 0:27] have to have a rhyme scheme to
[0:28 - 0:30] Create
[0:30 - 0:33] You know good raps and that's just not true
[0:33 - 0:39] You know my style is my own and
[0:40 - 0:42] I want to stand out
[0:43 - 0:50] You know, I don't want my raps to be rhymed schemed or you know be mainstream
[0:51 - 0:52] Attributed
[0:52 - 0:54] No, I want
[0:55 - 0:57] My raps to be
[0:58 - 1:00] Different and unique. I
[1:00 - 1:04] Want my raps and my songs in general
[1:04 - 1:08] To tell a very real story about my life
[1:09 - 1:12] about points in my life and then
[1:13 - 1:23] The things that went on at those points in time and a lot of y'all don't seem to understand that you don't have to rhyme
[1:25 - 1:31] Words for it to be a rap. There's a lot of artists that do different styles are rapping. I
[1:32 - 1:36] Just have to do a style. That's not very common
[1:37 - 1:39] Which is to
[1:39 - 1:47] Run but not every other word if you listen carefully to some of the lyrics a
[1:48 - 1:53] Lot of them do rhyme, but it's not every other word or every other sentence
[1:54 - 1:59] My style is my own and I plan on keeping it that way
[2:03 - 2:05] For those of you that do enjoy it. I
[2:06 - 2:08] Do thank you guys
[2:09 - 2:13] Because this album I am pouring my heart and soul into
[2:15 - 2:18] I'm really working hard on this one and
[2:19 - 2:21] very much reflects a
[2:21 - 2:24] Lot of what I've been through over the past
[2:25 - 2:26] you know
[2:26 - 2:34] Ten years to the last five months and I just really want to solve them to stand out
[2:36 - 2:38] you know, I
[2:38 - 2:40] Really want to stand out above
[2:41 - 2:43] What I've done before
[2:44 - 2:50] What I've done before was good. Yeah, but I want this one to really stand out and to really show people
[2:51 - 2:59] My real life and I'm hoping that this album can achieve that
[2:59 - 3:03] So if you guys do like my album souls of the lost so far
[3:04 - 3:10] I'm not sure when the album is gonna be released, but it will be released sometime very very soon
[3:10 - 3:14] But I haven't said y'all I'm about to get back to work
[3:15 - 3:18] I love you guys and I'll see you guys later
2021-9-16 my life journey

2021-9-16 my life journey

[0:02 - 0:06] You know, babe
[0:06 - 0:10] Before I even start the stream, you know, babe, you're right. I do owe you something
[0:10 - 0:12] And you know what that something is
[0:14 - 0:16] That's something
[0:16 - 0:18] Is this
[0:18 - 0:22] by fake ass
[0:22 - 0:32] That's all I owe you motherfucker
[0:33 - 0:35] That's all I owe you
[0:48 - 0:51] Yo, Earl Burke. What up guys?
[1:23 - 1:25] The time is a valuable day
[1:25 - 1:27] Watch it, my mind is a visual swing
[1:27 - 1:29] Watch it come down to the end of the day
[1:29 - 1:31] The clock ticks like crazy
[1:31 - 1:33] I don't pray when you get up alone
[1:33 - 1:35] Watch the time come right out
[1:35 - 1:37] And we don't try to perform if today
[1:37 - 1:39] Even though we stay here
[1:39 - 2:14] I want you to watch it, yeah
[2:14 - 2:16] It's fragile, I'm a son now
[2:16 - 2:24] Watch it, I'm a son now
[2:24 - 2:32] I think I'ma touch it, but my day
[2:32 - 2:34] It comes down to the edge
[2:34 - 8:42] And it all comes back to me
[8:42 - 8:44] You know, speak on, Lexi
[8:44 - 8:48] Y'all motherfuckers need to leave her the fuck alone
[8:48 - 8:53] I'm being dead ass serious, man
[8:53 - 8:56] Y'all motherfuckers need to leave her the fuck alone
[8:56 - 9:01] She passed away
[9:01 - 9:04] Due to a tragic situation, man
[9:04 - 9:07] Y'all need to at least show some motherfucking respect
[9:07 - 9:22] And honestly, Earl, y'all need to quit trying to start shit
[9:22 - 9:26] The whole reason why y'all do this is for a rant
[9:26 - 9:28] Well, guess what
[9:28 - 9:32] I'm not giving you what you fucking bitches want
[9:32 - 9:34] It ain't happening, son
[9:34 - 9:45] I know why you motherfuckers do this
[9:45 - 9:47] You do this to try to get a rant out of me
[9:47 - 9:49] Well, guess what
[9:49 - 9:52] Not fucking happening
[10:45 - 13:40] Now, speaking on Lexi
[13:40 - 13:49] This is a song I've been wanting to do for her on guitar
[13:49 - 13:51] For a while now
[13:51 - 13:53] And it's never had a way to
[13:53 - 14:13] Looking down right now
[14:13 - 14:23] It's for you
[14:27 - 14:30] People think I have all the answers
[14:30 - 14:32] But I think that's because of my voice
[14:32 - 14:34] Sounds like this
[14:34 - 14:55] And in reality, I'm full of questions
[15:31 - 15:41] Guys, be right back
[15:41 - 15:43] When we start this, I'll be right back
[15:43 - 19:21] Mods, hold it down
[19:21 - 19:25] Sorry about that, guys
[19:25 - 19:34] Mom took in a bit of a spill, but she's alright
[19:34 - 19:37] I had to help pick her up, she's alright though
[19:37 - 19:41] It is that she can get her up on his own
[19:41 - 20:15] But she's okay, though
[20:18 - 24:02] It is tasty
[24:02 - 24:04] Just as good as the original, but without any sugar
[24:04 - 24:08] Be careful
[24:08 - 28:28] And I want an honest fucking answer
[28:28 - 28:40] Fucking, oh, because of this
[28:40 - 28:43] Because of that, no, I want a legit
[28:43 - 28:47] You know, honest 100% answer from you guys
[28:47 - 28:52] Why is it that you guys
[28:52 - 28:55] Feel like you have to be fucking
[28:55 - 28:57] Negative
[28:57 - 28:59] Towards everyone around you
[28:59 - 29:03] Especially towards me
[29:03 - 29:06] You guys know what I've gone through
[29:06 - 29:08] My whole life
[29:08 - 29:10] I told you guys my life story
[29:10 - 29:12] Everything that I've been through
[29:12 - 29:14] The hard stuff that I've been through
[29:14 - 29:16] So my question to you is
[29:16 - 29:21] Why keep bringing that negativity on
[29:21 - 29:24] When I'm trying to live my life the best that I can
[29:24 - 29:27] I don't understand
[29:27 - 29:50] But here's the thing, black cat
[29:50 - 29:53] I'm really not a bad guy
[29:53 - 29:55] And see, black cat, that's the thing
[29:55 - 29:58] I'm actually not an awful person
[29:58 - 30:00] I'm really not
[30:00 - 30:02] Black cat, something you need to understand, dude
[30:02 - 30:04] Is I was catfished
[30:04 - 30:06] It was proven
[30:06 - 30:08] That
[30:08 - 30:10] I was innocent, alright?
[30:10 - 30:12] That was proven
[30:12 - 30:22] Here's the thing, dude
[30:22 - 30:27] My actions don't say differently, bro
[30:27 - 30:31] My actions genuinely don't say any different
[30:31 - 30:34] Everyday I come on here
[30:34 - 30:36] And I put on the best performances
[30:36 - 30:52] For everybody that I can
[30:52 - 30:54] And yet, I still get attacked
[30:54 - 31:05] And I just, I don't understand why
[31:12 - 31:14] Shout out to Cynthia, by the way
[31:14 - 31:15] What's up, Cynthia?
[31:15 - 40:14] To go back to black cat
[40:14 - 40:19] And why you face this comment
[40:19 - 40:25] Here's a little lesson to you, man
[40:25 - 40:27] Here's a little lesson to you
[40:27 - 40:29] Judging not by my past
[40:29 - 40:32] But by my current action
[40:32 - 40:36] I repeat
[40:36 - 40:39] Judging not by my past
[40:39 - 40:41] But by my current action
[40:41 - 40:45] Of what I'm doing at this current point in time
[40:45 - 41:20] Switch the rainbow, teach the rainbow
[41:20 - 41:22] Yes
[41:22 - 41:25] Cat's gonna cat
[47:09 - 47:16] I'm away
[47:16 - 47:17] Hang on, guys
[47:17 - 47:18] I'll be right back
[47:18 - 47:19] I'm gonna have to start this over
[47:19 - 47:31] But I'll be right back
[47:31 - 47:32] You know, just a few minutes, guys
[47:32 - 47:33] Mon, chokes
[47:33 - 47:34] Everybody hang out
[47:34 - 47:35] I'll be right back
[47:35 - 47:52] Let's skip over this one real quick
[47:52 - 47:54] Oh, here's what I know
[47:54 - 47:55] From all my old school fans
[47:55 - 49:02] I know you guys
[49:02 - 49:03] Don't remember this shit
[49:03 - 49:04] We're back in a day
[49:04 - 49:21] Good evening, man
[49:21 - 49:22] Good evening, this is Cherie
[49:22 - 49:24] The chocolate delivery hasn't arrived yet
[49:24 - 49:26] The chocolate delivery hasn't arrived yet
[49:26 - 49:40] The chocolate delivery hasn't arrived yet
[49:40 - 49:41] The chocolate delivery hasn't arrived yet
[49:41 - 49:43] The chocolate delivery hasn't arrived yet
[49:43 - 49:46] I profited
[49:46 - 49:47] You cannot eat, ms is Cherie
[49:47 - 49:48] Right? Nothing
[49:48 - 49:49] I know you guys
[49:49 - 49:53] The chocolate delivery hasn't arrived yet
[49:53 - 50:03] I know you guys
[50:03 - 50:04] The chocolate delivery hasn't arrived yet
[50:04 - 50:09] They turned it off
[50:09 - 50:11] That's true
[50:11 - 50:13] Have you guys forgotten
[50:13 - 50:15] How much you gotta remember
[50:15 - 50:17] The chocolate delivery hasn't arrived yet
[50:17 - 66:02] I did that track all this down but it's I'm gonna explain why especially the you
[66:02 - 66:14] willing boy hold this especially applies to you this is especially applies to you
[66:14 - 66:27] man what I don't understand is why do we have to continue on this fucking war maybe
[66:27 - 66:31] if you guys would actually take the time to get to know me you'd see that I'm not
[66:31 - 66:37] a bad guy you want to know why I last shot the way that I do it's not that I
[66:37 - 66:44] want to but the reason I last out is because I get attacked and I literally
[66:44 - 66:50] just defend myself and I don't see anything wrong with me defending myself
[66:50 - 66:58] I really don't see anything wrong with me defending myself I get somebody that
[66:58 - 67:05] took my life away from me I don't see the problem and me fighting back and doing
[67:05 - 67:14] what's right I what is this fucking war gonna stop what are you guys gonna
[67:14 - 67:19] fucking stop and realize that there's so much more to life than they're going
[67:19 - 67:27] after one person when you get a fucking realize that the world is so much
[67:27 - 67:32] bigger than you and me when you guys gonna wake up and realize that there's
[67:32 - 67:39] so much more to life than they're going after one person I'm just one person
[67:39 - 67:49] one person out of several billions of people on this earth there are so many
[67:49 - 67:54] other things you guys can be doing than to waste your time being negative towards
[67:54 - 68:03] your fellow person there are so many things you could be doing and you could
[68:03 - 68:11] actually be positive and help people but instead you choose to be negative and
[68:11 - 68:23] drag people down for no fucking reason and it's not right nor is it okay you
[68:23 - 68:29] know I'm the kind of guy that'll hang out with anyone all right I'm the kind of
[68:29 - 68:36] motherfucker that'll hang out with anybody that needs someone to hang out with I'm
[68:36 - 68:40] the kind of dude that'll give you the shirt off my back I'm that kind of guy
[68:40 - 68:47] that if you need an ear to listen in to something like if you need someone to
[68:47 - 68:51] talk to I'm not dude that's got an ear I'm not do that I'll stay up at two
[68:51 - 68:55] and three in the morning and help you through whatever you're going through
[68:55 - 69:04] because I have done that I'm not guy that if you need help with something all
[69:04 - 69:11] right what do you need help with what's going on what can I do to help I'm not
[69:11 - 69:16] the bad guy that people have been making me out to be over these last several
[69:16 - 69:21] months and to be quite honest with you I'm tired of being made out to be a bad
[69:21 - 69:27] guy I'm really not a bad guy you know what I would like to do you know what
[69:27 - 69:32] direction I want to take this channel in I want to take this channel back in
[69:32 - 69:42] the original direction where I was doing a coffee and chill live streams where I
[69:42 - 69:48] was hanging out with people where I wasn't doing anything stupid or negative
[69:48 - 70:03] I was just hanging out having fun relaxing with you guys that's all I was
[70:03 - 70:08] doing back in the day before mass hall reports that's all I did I hung out
[70:08 - 70:14] did coffee and show live streams relaxed and kicked it with you guys I know you
[70:14 - 70:31] guys remember those days I know that all my mods remember well jokes might not
[70:31 - 70:38] remember those days cuz jokes just came around but all my other mods that have
[70:38 - 70:42] been around for a while you guys remember those days where I would do the
[70:42 - 70:47] coffee and chill live streams where I would hang out I would have a good time
[70:47 - 71:04] and I would genuinely relax and just have fun but let's tell y'all right now this
[71:04 - 71:14] fucking war that's been going on it's pointless there's no point in it there's
[71:14 - 71:20] no point in fighting a fucking war amongst each other I am we're all human
[71:20 - 71:25] beings at the end of the day we should be helping each other not fighting or
[71:25 - 71:35] destroying each other we're all human beings we're all fucking people we all
[71:35 - 71:41] deserve the same amount of respect we all deserve to be treated equally we all
[71:41 - 71:55] deserve to be treated right and not screwed over so I don't know about you
[71:55 - 72:04] guys I don't know about you guys but I'm throwing down my weapons and walking
[72:04 - 72:09] away because I'm tired of fighting in this never-ending war I'm tired of
[72:09 - 72:19] fucking fighting I'm tired of fucking fighting this never-ending war it needs
[72:19 - 73:52] to stop it needs to fucking stop sure what's up guys well like I said this war
[73:52 - 73:59] I don't know if it's ever gonna end I don't know if it's gonna end with me or
[73:59 - 74:06] people are gonna move on to someone what I don't know but what I do know is this
[74:06 - 74:13] what I do know is this very thing and not very thing is this I'm throwing down my
[74:13 - 74:20] weapons and walking away I'm not gonna spend my whole life fighting a war that
[74:20 - 74:31] I don't need to fight anymore instead of fighting I should be having fun I should
[74:31 - 74:37] be building my fan base I should be building my brand of for my artwork my
[74:37 - 74:45] music stuff I enjoy doing but instead I'm caught in this never-ending fucking
[74:45 - 75:04] war for no reason and it needs to stop and that's why as of right now I'm throwing
[75:04 - 75:09] down my weapons and I'm walking away I'm throwing down my weapons and I'm
[75:09 - 75:15] walking out that fucking war zone because I'm not gonna continue to fight a
[75:15 - 75:22] war that's just gonna keep going I'm done with it I'm done with the fighting
[75:22 - 75:35] I'm done with this war man this internet war shit is stupid this war is
[75:35 - 75:45] meaningless there's no point in waging a war on the internet like you guys are
[75:45 - 76:03] doing there's no fucking point there's no fucking point in continuing this war
[76:03 - 76:13] you guys and that's all reports that goes for you as well and that goes for you
[76:13 - 76:19] as well candle I what do you want to spend the rest of your life fighting a
[76:19 - 76:27] fucking battle that's never gonna end is that really what you want to fight a war
[76:27 - 76:34] that's never gonna fucking end is that what you really want with your life to
[76:34 - 76:39] continue to fight a war and be stuck in a perpetual cycle of idiocy for the
[76:39 - 76:56] rest of your lives is that what you really want the that's what you
[76:56 - 77:03] want then go ahead and do it continue to do what you're gonna do but leave me the
[77:03 - 77:16] hell alone find someone else to go after will you if that's how you get
[77:16 - 77:28] up to someone else go after someone else man go the fuck after somebody else
[77:28 - 77:40] the same with you 90s Grand Rock if that's what you guys want then go ahead
[77:40 - 77:46] and do it but do it to someone else go after someone else that wants that
[77:46 - 77:54] garbage because I don't want it around here and I don't need it around here
[77:54 - 78:13] okay this battle is over and I'm ending it I'm ending this battle on my own
[78:13 - 78:32] terms I'm walking away from this battle on my own motherfucking terms I'm
[78:32 - 78:52] walking away from this fight on my own fucking terms and if you don't like
[78:52 - 78:59] that I'm walking away then that's on you I don't know how I ended up in this war to
[78:59 - 79:07] begin with I don't know how I ended up in this war but let me tell you I never
[79:07 - 79:14] wanted in this fucking war to begin with for a year and a half I've been
[79:14 - 79:19] going to war with motherfuckers on the internet and to be honest I'm tired of
[79:19 - 79:25] it I never wanted it in this war I never wanted in this fucking internet
[79:25 - 79:35] battle that I got drug into but I tell you one thing is for sure I don't know how
[79:35 - 79:41] I got into it but I guarantee you I know how I'm walking out of it I'm walking
[79:41 - 79:53] out of it alive and I'll change my life for the better so yes I will be taking a
[79:53 - 80:10] very long vacation because I'm done fighting I'm done fighting a senseless
[80:10 - 80:37] fucking war I'm walking away from this battle and there's not a motherfucker on
[80:37 - 80:44] this goddamn earth who can fucking stop me so yes I am walking away from this
[80:44 - 80:50] war and I am taking a very long vacation from YouTube because after doing
[80:50 - 80:55] YouTube for over 10 years with no breaks I think I'm entitled to a fucking
[80:55 - 81:05] break I think about that 10 years of doing YouTube non-stop day in and day out
[81:05 - 81:14] think about that so as of right now I'm walking away and I'm on vacation I'll see
[81:14 - 81:17] you guys when I get back
2021-9-16 YALL ARE SICK FUCKS

2021-9-16 YALL ARE SICK FUCKS

[0:03 - 0:07] Alright y'all, we need to have a little fucking chit chat though
[0:07 - 0:13] We need to have a motherfucking talk because this just got brought to my attention and
[0:14 - 0:18] Yes, I am still stepping away to work on myself
[0:18 - 0:24] But this is something very fucking serious that I got asked to bring out personally
[0:24 - 0:29] Find my dude Axel shout to my motherfucking brother Axel. What's good, bro?
[0:35 - 0:39] But this is a video that Axel asked me to bring up
[0:40 - 0:43] And let me tell you right the fuck now
[0:44 - 0:49] Y'all motherfuckers attacking his goddamn five-year-old son motherfucker. Are you stupid?
[0:50 - 0:53] Are y'all don't fucks ignorant, bro?
[0:54 - 0:57] Attacking a fucking five-year-old kid. Are you serious?
[0:58 - 1:00] Are you fucking sick in the head, bro?
[1:08 - 1:14] Y'all motherfuckers going out to my dude Axel's fucking five-year-old son. You're sick as fuck
[1:15 - 1:17] You're a bunch of sick fucks
[1:18 - 1:20] Let me tell you right the fuck now
[1:22 - 1:24] Me and Axel
[1:24 - 1:33] We're family straight up. We are motherfucking family. You want to know why he served in the military
[1:33 - 1:37] He served in the army. I'm an army brat. My dad was army
[1:38 - 1:42] That right there makes us family. We are motherfucking brothers
[1:42 - 1:45] So let me tell you right now you'll attack one of my family members kids
[1:45 - 1:49] You not only deal with him you deal with me and
[1:49 - 1:55] This is not coming from me. This is from coming from him straight the fuck up
[1:56 - 1:58] You attack his kids
[1:59 - 2:01] You attack his motherfucking kids
[2:03 - 2:05] Oh, let me tell you right now motherfuckers
[2:05 - 2:11] It ain't gonna end well for you because you show this at his house to do harm to him and his kids
[2:11 - 2:14] Guess what your ass is getting put in the ground and
[2:16 - 2:21] Axel I want you to know this right now brother. Well, I got told you a few minutes ago dog
[2:21 - 2:24] You did not fail me one bit, bro
[2:24 - 2:29] You did not fail me. You showed me what I need to be doing
[2:29 - 2:37] You showed me that I need to work on myself and that's why I stepped away like and then I hope you understand that I stepped away
[2:38 - 2:45] during all that because it got to be overwhelming for me and I needed time to
[2:45 - 2:47] You know cool off and relax
[2:49 - 2:54] So I hope you can understand that I did what I did, you know for that reason because I need a time to
[2:54 - 2:57] You know sit down relax get my bearings
[3:00 - 3:06] Well, let me tell y'all motherfuckers right now if any of you motherfuckers
[3:08 - 3:13] Any of you motherfuckers think you're gonna do that. You're full of fucking shit
[3:13 - 3:18] You are full of motherfucking shit
[3:18 - 3:24] And if you think you're gonna walk up to my motherfucking military brothers and you're gonna fucking go after his kid
[3:24 - 3:26] You're fucking fooling yourself, bro
[3:27 - 3:33] You ain't going after my dudes kids like that fuck that
[3:34 - 3:37] Y'all want to attack me? That's fine
[3:37 - 3:43] I don't give a fuck what you say about me because at the end of the day your motherfucking opinion
[3:43 - 3:45] Don't mean a goddamn thing to me
[3:46 - 3:49] You're a goddamn opinion about me don't mean a motherfucking thing
[3:50 - 3:56] But when y'all dumb fucks go after one of my fucking military family members fucking kids
[3:57 - 4:01] Bro, you're asking for an ass beating
[4:02 - 4:05] You're asking to get your ass handed to you motherfuckers
[4:07 - 4:14] You're asking to get your ass beat going after me. That's one thing
[4:15 - 4:20] But going after my boys fucking kids. Are you serious?
[4:21 - 4:24] Are you asking to get your goddamn ass beat, bro?
[4:25 - 4:35] Are you asking for an ass whooping if you want your ass fucking beat go ahead
[4:36 - 4:38] Keep doing what you're fucking doing
[4:38 - 4:51] Keep doing what your motherfucking doing keep doing what you're fucking doing and you wonder why because you keep doing that shit
[4:51 - 4:56] You're gonna get your ass whipped. You're gonna get your goddamn ass beat
[4:56 - 5:13] Like I said, I mean I served in the military, but you want to know something
[5:14 - 5:16] Axel's my motherfucking brother
[5:17 - 5:19] We're family by military
[5:20 - 5:26] He served in the military my dad served in the military. We're fucking family. We're fucking brothers
[5:27 - 5:32] You go after my dudes kids. I'm coming there to personally beat your ass
[5:33 - 5:40] And if you don't think I'll do it try me motherfuckers because guess what? I'm a lot fucking stronger than I look
[5:40 - 5:49] I'm a lot stronger than I look you want to go after my dudes kids. Oh
[5:50 - 5:52] You're in for an ass whooping
[5:53 - 5:56] You are in for a motherfucking ass beating
[5:57 - 6:06] So go after my dudes kids again. See if I don't have a pick me up and drive there personally to whip your asses
[6:08 - 6:12] Like he said he only lives three hours away from me
[6:26 - 6:28] Exactly bro, and I agree with that. I
[6:29 - 6:35] Agree with that axle and like I said axle I admit my wrongs and what I did
[6:35 - 6:40] I take full responsibility for that and I admit I was wrong in doing that
[6:40 - 6:52] I do admit I was wrong in doing all that but then going after your kids after I come clean and I apologize
[6:53 - 6:56] Bro, that ain't fucking funny and it sure as fucking cool
[6:58 - 7:05] You ain't fucking cool son going after my dude axles fucking kids like that. Are you serious dog?
[7:07 - 7:24] That's bullshit, bro. And like I said act on like I told you on the phone, bro
[7:25 - 7:28] Like I told you when we were talking on FaceTime and
[7:29 - 7:33] Like I told you in the stream earlier, bro. I thank you for what you did
[7:34 - 7:38] I want to say thank you because you allowed me to help me come clean as
[7:39 - 7:46] I said, I do take responsibility for what I did and I do own other what I did and I am sorry about all that I
[7:48 - 7:52] Genuinely am sorry, and I do take responsibility for that shit, bro
[7:53 - 8:00] But for y'all to go after my dude axles five-year-old son like that. Are you fucking kidding me?
[8:00 - 8:03] Are you looking to get your goddamn asses beat, bro?
[8:04 - 8:07] Are you seriously looking at getting your goddamn ass beat?
[8:09 - 8:14] Well, yes, I admit what I did the crypt K was fucked up a bit
[8:14 - 8:21] But honestly, I didn't necessarily attack his kids. I did not attack her at all
[8:21 - 8:27] I nearly stated facts. That's all I did was I stated facts and he couldn't handle it
[8:27 - 8:33] But whatever but even to you crypt K. I'm sorry even to you for what I did
[8:34 - 8:41] But y'all motherfuckers going after my dude axles kids like that. Are you serious dog?
[8:56 - 8:58] Like it's one thing
[8:58 - 9:00] Entirely to state a fact
[9:01 - 9:04] About someone
[9:04 - 9:10] Like how I did with Chris K. All I did was merely state a fact and
[9:11 - 9:19] That fact is that he doesn't have his kids and all he does is use people to promote his music
[9:20 - 9:26] That's all I stated all I did was state a simple fact an observation if you will
[9:27 - 9:29] But I had no way shape or form
[9:30 - 9:38] Did like y'all do to my dude axles y'all said they're new attack him and go after his kid
[9:39 - 9:41] What the fuck is wrong with you?
[9:43 - 9:47] What the actual fuck is wrong with you sick fucks and
[9:50 - 9:54] This warning ain't just coming from me. This is coming from my dude axel
[9:56 - 10:04] Yeah, fuck with his kid again. You do that shit again. Guess what you're in for a goddamn ass beating
[10:06 - 10:09] You're in for a motherfucking ass beating, bro
[10:09 - 10:18] You attack my boys kids again. You're getting your goddamn asses whipped
[10:18 - 10:20] straight up
[10:20 - 10:47] They ain't no motherfucking joke. You want to know what happened to axel a beat some dumb motherfucker that can't stand me
[10:50 - 10:56] Decided to go after his fucking kid all because axle was helping me out
[10:57 - 11:03] All because axle helped me to try to be a better person and axle. I thank you for that, brother
[11:03 - 11:08] I truly and truly do I truly and genuinely do thank you
[11:08 - 11:13] For showing me what I need to do I do thank you for that a hundred percent man
[11:14 - 11:16] No doubt in my mind
[11:16 - 11:20] Like I truly respect and thank you for what you did
[11:20 - 11:28] I can't thank you enough for you showing me what I need to do and how I need to step away and
[11:28 - 11:33] Get myself right. I do. Thank you for that brother a hundred percent. I
[11:34 - 11:37] Thank you a hundred and ten percent for that, bro
[11:37 - 11:44] Like I told you a few minutes ago, man. I got your fucking back just like you got my back. I got yours
[11:48 - 12:04] No doubt. Do I got your fucking back? I got you back a hundred and ten percent bro straight up
[12:12 - 12:14] Y'all motherfuckers want to go after somebody
[12:16 - 12:18] You really want to go after somebody
[12:19 - 12:23] Why not go out to the real motherfuckers that are actually pedophiles?
[12:24 - 12:29] Go after people like Tony who thinks he's a fucking black dragon
[12:29 - 12:37] Go after people like DeMarco who's dating a fucking minor and is pretending to be underage
[12:37 - 12:39] Just so he can date the chick
[12:40 - 12:48] Go after people like Kendall Smith who proved she's a pedo. You guys saw the screenshots last night
[12:50 - 12:53] You saw that shit. Go after them
[12:54 - 12:57] Go after those motherfuckers
[13:00 - 13:03] Leave my dude Axel the fuck alone
[13:07 - 13:09] Leave him and his kid the fuck alone
[13:14 - 13:16] You don't go after his kid like that kid
[13:17 - 13:43] You don't do that shit. You don't fucking bring someone's kid and your bullshit
[13:44 - 13:47] Just because and this is what I was trying to get out earlier
[13:49 - 13:52] That's the exact thing. I was trying to get out earlier
[13:52 - 14:01] And first one thing you don't do is attack my friends or my family and that includes their fucking kids
[14:01 - 14:11] You can go after me all you want. I don't give a flying fuck
[14:13 - 14:19] But don't you dare go after my friends my family or my friends and family's kids
[14:20 - 14:22] That's one thing you don't do
[14:22 - 14:29] You got a problem with me bring it up with me. You got a problem with Axel bring it up with Axel
[14:29 - 14:32] You don't get their friends or their family or their kids involved
[14:33 - 14:41] That's three things you don't do you don't get their kids involved. You don't get their family or their friends involved
[14:41 - 14:45] You got a problem with me. Don't be a fucking bitch
[14:46 - 14:53] You got a problem me bring it up with me motherfucker. I'm right here. I'm not hiding and I'm sure it's fucking going nowhere
[14:53 - 15:02] You got a problem with me bring it up with me
[15:03 - 15:08] Don't be going after my friends or their families. Don't be going after my friends kids
[15:08 - 15:11] Don't be going after my family or their kids
[15:11 - 15:16] And you the one thing you sure as fuck don't do is
[15:17 - 15:23] Go after those that have passed away like all you don't fucks are trying to do with my ex Lexi
[15:24 - 15:29] Y'all are trying to go after her you guys have tried to go after my brother. Those are four things you
[15:30 - 15:38] Those are four people you don't ever go after my friends my family or those that have passed away or their kids
[15:39 - 15:41] You don't do that shit
[15:42 - 15:44] You don't fucking do that shit
[15:44 - 15:54] I've seen too many of you motherfuckers going after my fiance who passed away last year
[15:54 - 16:01] I've seen way too many of you motherfuckers attacking her trying to make me look like shit
[16:01 - 16:07] I've seen way too many of you motherfuckers going on my Facebook
[16:07 - 16:12] Attacking me and my friends attacking my friends and their kids and attacking my family
[16:13 - 16:17] Y'all don't fucks need to screw off and quit the bullshit
[16:18 - 16:20] Cuz y'all doing that shit
[16:21 - 16:25] Guarantee you you do that shit. You're gonna get your fucking ass be bro
[16:27 - 16:30] Garen fucking teen you're gonna get your motherfucking ass is whipped
[16:31 - 16:38] Hey, Axel you are good man
[16:39 - 16:43] You are a good dude Axel a hundred percent bro
[16:43 - 16:48] You're a very good dude, and I have nothing but love and respect for you man. I
[16:48 - 16:53] Got nothing but love and respect for you bro nothing, but I
[16:56 - 17:02] Appreciate everything that you do for me man a hundred percent. I appreciate what you do for me
[17:02 - 17:08] You're a good guy. You don't deserve that. I don't deserve what I get put through
[17:09 - 17:12] My friends don't deserve it. My family don't deserve it
[17:13 - 17:20] You're a good guy Axel don't let these motherfuckers tell you any fucking different. You're a good dude
[17:26 - 17:30] You truly are a good guy Axel. I'll be honest with you Axel
[17:31 - 17:36] You do something that most parents wouldn't have the fucking balls to do now it is
[17:38 - 17:42] Unlike these new age parents, bro. You actually take care of your kid
[17:42 - 17:49] You go out and you spend time with your kid and that's rare now. It is that's not something you see too often now
[17:49 - 17:54] It is and I commend you for that bro. You have my respect
[17:57 - 18:03] You a hundred ten percent have my respect bro. You're more of a man than half these motherfuckers
[18:05 - 18:08] You're more of a man than these motherfuckers ever will be bro
[18:09 - 18:21] You're a good dude, and I respect this shit out of you. I respect this shit out of you, bro
[18:21 - 18:23] You're a good dude
[18:23 - 18:25] You're a real good guy man
[18:25 - 18:44] But to you motherfuckers that keep on attacking me and my friends and family
[18:44 - 18:54] Y'all need to stop y'all motherfuckers either grow up and quit the fucking bullshit, bro
[18:55 - 18:59] You got a problem with me bring it up with me motherfucker
[18:59 - 19:02] You got problem with Alex or Axel my bad Axel
[19:03 - 19:05] Bring it up with Axel
[19:05 - 19:09] Stop getting our friends and family involved in your fucking bullshit
[19:09 - 19:18] I'm over here trying to be a better person. I'm trying to better myself
[19:19 - 19:22] So that I can be successful doing what I love to do
[19:23 - 19:32] So that I can be the person that I once was so that I can be successful
[19:32 - 19:34] and enjoy what I love doing
[19:35 - 19:41] No as dude, you can even ask Marty
[19:42 - 19:47] Before candle came along. You know what I was doing. I was a happy person enjoying my life
[19:47 - 20:04] I was a happy fucking person enjoying my life
[20:05 - 20:08] As Marty he'll tell you
[20:09 - 20:12] Marty knows how I was before candle. I
[20:13 - 20:17] Was a good fucking person back then I was a happy person
[20:17 - 20:20] I was doing my artwork my music
[20:20 - 20:27] I was enjoying life and then I got into a rut and did some shitty stuff
[20:27 - 20:31] I did some real fucked up shit
[20:32 - 20:37] But like I said last stream, I'm sorry for everything that I did wrong. Yo, I
[20:38 - 20:44] Am genuinely sorry. Yeah, I get that. I got no one but myself to blame and I get that and I take
[20:44 - 20:49] responsibility for it 100% what I did was fucked. I get it
[20:50 - 20:57] But that doesn't give you the goddamn right to hold me back or to go after my friends and family
[20:57 - 21:02] You don't do that motherfucker and you sure as fuck don't go after their kids
[21:04 - 21:07] That's one thing you don't do is go after their kids
[21:08 - 21:24] That's one thing you don't do is go after their motherfucking kids
[21:25 - 21:33] That's one thing I will not stand for I will not stand for you
[21:33 - 21:39] Sick little faggots running your goddamn mouth about my boys kids
[21:39 - 21:47] I'll refuse to stand for that. I'll refuse to let you motherfuckers do that
[21:48 - 22:04] Be used to let you motherfuckers go after my dudes kids
[22:07 - 22:14] Like I said, you got a problem with me or you got a problem with axle bring it up to us personally
[22:15 - 22:17] Message us in private
[22:17 - 22:20] Stop going after our friends and family
[22:20 - 22:24] It's not it's not cute and it's not cool
[22:27 - 22:32] You got a problem with me motherfucking bring it up with me. We'll talk about it
[22:33 - 22:37] But you don't ever go after my friends
[22:37 - 22:41] Their kids my family or the deceased
[22:42 - 22:46] You sure as fuck don't go after the deceased
[22:50 - 22:53] Enough's enough man. Y'all need to grow up
[22:54 - 22:56] This shit ain't funny, bro
[23:03 - 23:06] This shit ain't cute and it ain't funny
[23:06 - 23:12] It's sick and it's disgusting and it's wrong
[23:16 - 23:18] This ain't no fucking joke
[23:19 - 23:21] This is real goddamn life
[23:22 - 23:30] This is real life and you motherfuckers don't seem to get the hint do you?
[23:32 - 23:34] You don't seem to get the hint
[23:34 - 23:45] You got a problem with me. You got a problem with axle message us. We'll talk about it
[23:45 - 23:47] But you don't ever
[23:48 - 23:56] Go after my friends their kids my family or the deceased that I've lost or that anyone's lost
[23:59 - 24:01] Y'all need to grow up
[24:02 - 24:08] Can I guarantee you you do that shit again? I guarantee you not only is he whipping your ass
[24:08 - 24:10] I'm whipping your asses
[24:11 - 24:18] I'm tired of being everyone's doormat
[24:18 - 24:31] You got a problem with me here. I am say something. Don't be going after my friends or family and their kids
[24:33 - 24:35] You don't do that shit
[24:44 - 24:49] 110% axle you have my motherfucking respect dude
[24:49 - 24:56] You have my thanks brother a hundred percent. You have my thanks, bro. I
[24:57 - 25:02] Respect the shit out of you, bro, and thank you for everything, bro
[25:02 - 25:09] Thank you for your service. Thank you for being an amazing fucking dad to your kids because you're an awesome dad. Oh
[25:10 - 25:12] 100% bro. You are fucking awesome
[25:12 - 25:41] You are fucking awesome axle and I want to say thank you from one military from from one military family to another, bro
[25:41 - 25:48] Thank you man a hundred fucking ten percent, bro from one army family to another. Thank you for everything
[25:50 - 26:06] 100%
[26:06 - 26:14] Matter of fact, my bad axle. I got something for you, bro
[26:23 - 26:29] Matter of fact axle. I got something for your brother, and I know this is a track that you'll agree with
[26:29 - 26:56] It comes from here
[27:02 - 27:11] Absolute this one's for you, man. I want to say thank you, bro
[27:11 - 27:15] This is from my community you bro. Thank you man
[27:15 - 27:17] For everything your fucking hero
[27:42 - 27:46] Oh
[28:32 - 28:34] I
[30:38 - 30:41] Know you know that oath man
[30:44 - 30:48] About no one getting left behind and that's true. I may be an army brat
[30:49 - 30:55] I may not serve, but you know what when my dad took that oath. I took that very same old myself
[30:55 - 31:04] I took that very same old to help others like myself to help my military family and brothers and
[31:04 - 31:09] Yo, my motherfucking family, bro, and I sure as fuck and leaving you behind
[31:10 - 31:12] I got your back
[31:13 - 31:19] And let me ask you motherfuckers something for all y'all that are attacking him. Let me ask you this
[31:20 - 31:26] Is that any way to treat a fucking hero that served and protected your asses?
[31:27 - 31:29] Is that any way?
[31:29 - 31:34] To treat someone that put their life on the line for you motherfuckers
[31:34 - 31:36] Is that any way to treat a hero
[31:43 - 31:49] Is that any way to treat a motherfucking hero that put his life on the line for you guys?
[31:51 - 31:53] If you ask me
[31:53 - 31:58] Axel's a motherfucking hero. He put himself on the line for you guys
[31:59 - 32:03] So the least you can do is show some goddamn respect
[32:10 - 32:14] The least you guys can do is show some respect to the man
[32:21 - 32:23] If you ask me
[32:23 - 32:25] Axel's a motherfucking hero
[32:25 - 32:28] And he deserves to be treated as a fucking hero
[32:29 - 32:35] He doesn't deserve to be treated the way you dumb fucks are treating him
[32:39 - 32:43] He don't deserve that
[32:43 - 32:46] He's a good dude
[32:46 - 32:52] If anything he deserves to be treated like a fucking hero that he is because let me tell you all motherfucker something
[32:53 - 32:55] If it wasn't for people like him
[32:57 - 33:02] If it wasn't for people like Axel or my friends that I've lost in the military
[33:02 - 33:06] Let me tell you you don't fucks wouldn't be here right now
[33:15 - 33:20] If it wasn't for people like Axel, you motherfuckers wouldn't have the freedom that you have
[33:21 - 33:27] If it wasn't for people like Axel or my dad or our friends and family that we lost in the military
[33:28 - 33:31] Your motherfuckers wouldn't have the freedom that you have right now
[33:35 - 33:49] and that's facts
[33:49 - 33:54] If it wasn't for motherfuckers like Axel putting their lives on the line every single day
[33:55 - 33:58] You dumb asses wouldn't have the freedom that you got
[34:01 - 34:04] So the least you can do is show some respect
[35:09 - 35:23] Matter of fact Axel
[35:23 - 35:25] I got something for you man
[35:27 - 35:30] I want to play something for you that you might not be aware of
[35:31 - 35:33] That I think you'll actually enjoy
[36:07 - 36:10] I want to play something for you, bro, and I'm gonna let you guys see this
[36:14 - 36:17] This is an oath that I took myself
[36:18 - 36:26] On my own terms and I hope you enjoy this brother and again
[36:27 - 36:32] Thank you for everything you've done Axel. You're a fucking hero to these people
[36:34 - 36:38] Whether they want to admit it or not or whether they see it or not in my eyes
[36:38 - 36:42] You're a motherfucking hero and you deserve to be treated as such
[36:42 - 36:46] You deserve to be treated as a hero not like you're getting treated
[36:47 - 36:52] You don't deserve this bullshit. You deserve to be treated as a motherfucking hero
[36:53 - 37:12] And this one's for you, bro
[37:12 - 37:14] Take your taste buds on a journey
[38:16 - 38:18] My mission is to find a mission to heal
[38:18 - 38:25] I will fight a family
[38:25 - 38:27] And pledge
[38:27 - 38:29] This is my spark and pledge
[38:29 - 38:36] On my knuckles, I almost gave in
[38:36 - 39:13] Like a belt and just to never commit suicide
[39:13 - 39:24] My mission is to find
[39:24 - 39:32] A mission to heal
[39:32 - 39:34] And if you don't know what that is, only show it to your opponent
[39:34 - 39:36] So you got a better understanding, bro
[39:36 - 39:39] Let me show you what this fucking pledge is
[39:39 - 39:43] I will not take my own life by my own hand
[39:43 - 39:45] Until I talk to my battle buddy first
[39:45 - 39:47] My mission
[39:47 - 39:49] My mission
[39:49 - 39:51] My mission is to find a mission
[39:51 - 39:53] To help my warfighter family
[39:53 - 40:01] I'm Boone Cutler and I'm the author of the spark and pledge
[40:01 - 40:03] So the spark and pledge is a battle drill
[40:03 - 40:07] It's a plan, it's what to do when you don't know what to do
[40:07 - 40:11] And it's a promise to say, no matter how bad things get
[40:11 - 40:13] I'm gonna reach out, I'm gonna reach out and I'm gonna contact you
[40:13 - 40:17] It's also a promise to do something on behalf of the warfighter community
[40:17 - 40:19] And maintain a mission
[40:19 - 40:21] Because a warfighter without a mission is a dead warfighter
[40:21 - 40:23] But a warfighter with a mission is a deadly warfighter
[40:23 - 40:25] When I told Carl Monger, he's a good friend of mine
[40:25 - 40:27] He runs an organization called Gallant View
[40:27 - 40:29] He's a mentor to me, he's an advisor to me
[40:29 - 40:31] When I told him what me and my buddies were doing
[40:31 - 40:33] He was like, Boone, I think you got something
[40:33 - 40:35] I think you really got something here
[40:35 - 40:37] This is something we should promote
[40:37 - 40:39] From his networks, guys started taking it one-on-one
[40:39 - 40:41] Guys in groups
[40:41 - 40:43] And then from there, now, Soldier Hart picked it up
[40:43 - 40:45] He's doing it at concerts
[40:45 - 40:47] Boone told me about the Spartan Pledge
[40:47 - 40:49] I wanted to promote it
[40:49 - 40:51] In the best way that I know how
[40:51 - 40:53] You know, what I do
[40:53 - 40:55] How can I incorporate the Spartan Pledge into music
[40:55 - 40:57] How can I do that?
[40:57 - 40:59] Every warfighter knows about taking the oath
[40:59 - 41:01] We take oath very seriously
[41:01 - 41:03] Well, why not invite warfighters in the audience
[41:03 - 41:09] To come up on stage and take the Spartan Pledge
[41:09 - 41:11] So every show that I did
[41:11 - 41:13] No matter where I went
[41:13 - 41:15] It's always been part of my show
[41:15 - 41:17] So far, since this entire journey has started
[41:17 - 41:22] The most humbling thing I've seen
[41:22 - 41:24] Is for someone
[41:24 - 41:26] To say, I want to contribute to this
[41:26 - 41:31] But when Danny Prince got into the picture
[41:31 - 41:33] An FDNY firefighter
[41:33 - 41:35] He had in his possession
[41:35 - 41:37] Actual metal from the World Trade Center
[41:37 - 41:39] I don't know how many trips going to Walter Reed
[41:39 - 41:41] We met so many different people
[41:41 - 41:43] One of them was Steve Danilook
[41:43 - 41:45] And he had introduced me
[41:45 - 41:47] And told me about the Spartan Pledge
[41:47 - 41:51] And they were telling about how there's 22 vets a day
[41:51 - 41:53] That are committing suicide
[41:53 - 41:55] And how that's just totally unacceptable
[41:55 - 41:57] I mean, immediately
[41:57 - 41:59] Immediately the pledge resonated with me
[41:59 - 42:01] So, talking with Danny
[42:01 - 42:03] We felt that, you know
[42:03 - 42:05] Hey, let's do something with the steel
[42:05 - 42:07] So we said
[42:07 - 42:09] Why don't we make a sword
[42:09 - 42:11] Out of the steel from 9-11
[42:11 - 42:13] And just the reverence
[42:13 - 42:15] And the importance of that steel
[42:15 - 42:19] Would mean so much more to these servicemen and women
[42:19 - 42:21] So that's what we did
[42:21 - 42:23] And contacted a couple other guys
[42:23 - 42:25] And did some research on the sword smith
[42:25 - 42:27] Down in Texas
[42:27 - 42:29] And it wasn't very long at all
[42:29 - 42:31] It was a couple months later
[42:31 - 42:33] We had the final product
[42:33 - 42:35] Which was the sword
[42:35 - 42:37] We're talking about the same thing
[42:37 - 42:39] That every morefighter joined in this current era
[42:39 - 42:41] Is there because of what happened at the World Trade Center
[42:41 - 42:43] In the Pentagon on 9-11
[42:43 - 42:45] We're talking full circle now
[42:45 - 42:47] By creating a sword out of that tragic event
[42:47 - 42:49] That inspires people to live
[42:49 - 42:51] That's humbling
[42:51 - 42:53] That's something that touches your heart
[42:53 - 42:55] When people touch that sword
[42:55 - 42:59] It's like connecting with all the souls we lost
[42:59 - 43:02] People ask me
[43:02 - 43:04] Boon, what are you going to do with the Spartan Pledge next?
[43:04 - 43:06] I'm just the author
[43:06 - 43:08] I'm not doing anything with the Spartan Pledge next
[43:08 - 43:10] Because it belongs to the community
[43:10 - 43:12] So the question is
[43:12 - 43:14] What are you going to do with the Spartan Pledge next?
[43:14 - 43:16] What are you going to do with the Spartan Pledge next?
[43:16 - 43:19] I will not take my own life with my own hands
[43:19 - 43:21] I will not take my own life with my own hands
[43:21 - 43:25] Until I talk to you
[43:25 - 43:27] Until I talk to my battle buddy first
[43:27 - 43:29] My mission
[43:29 - 43:31] My mission
[43:31 - 43:34] My mission
[43:34 - 43:46] That pledge right there
[43:46 - 43:48] Is the same fucking pledge
[43:48 - 43:50] That people like Axel
[43:50 - 43:52] And even people like me
[43:52 - 43:54] Fucking took
[43:54 - 43:56] The same way
[43:56 - 43:58] That Axel took the oath
[43:58 - 44:00] To defend America
[44:00 - 44:02] To help people like myself
[44:02 - 44:04] I took an oath to help
[44:04 - 44:06] People like myself
[44:06 - 44:08] People that have lost someone
[44:08 - 44:10] People that are on the edge of fucking suicide
[44:10 - 44:12] Every fucking day
[44:12 - 44:14] Anyone know why
[44:14 - 44:16] People like me end their lives every day
[44:16 - 44:18] Because of motherfucking trolls like you
[44:18 - 44:20] That push them
[44:20 - 44:22] To that point
[44:22 - 44:24] And I've been pushed to that point
[44:24 - 44:26] I know what it's like
[44:26 - 44:35] To be on the edge
[44:35 - 44:37] I got you Axel
[44:37 - 44:39] I'm on it brother
[44:39 - 44:41] I got your six
[44:41 - 44:43] I'll be right back y'all
[44:43 - 44:45] I'm about to start up another stream with this man
[44:45 - 44:50] I'll catch y'all in just a few minutes man
[44:50 - 44:52] Axel, sit tight brother
[44:52 - 44:54] On my way to battle
[44:54 - 44:56] I got you
2021-9-16 YALL NEED TO LEAVE AXL ALONE AND STOP ATTACKIN ME

2021-9-16 YALL NEED TO LEAVE AXL ALONE AND STOP ATTACKIN ME

[0:06 - 0:08] What up, y'all?
[0:08 - 0:11] I'm gonna be straight up honest with you guys, man
[0:11 - 0:24] I'm gonna be straight the fuck up honest with you guys. All right. I'm gonna be straight up with you guys
[0:25 - 0:27] What I did was wrong
[0:27 - 0:32] All right, and I get that there's no doubt in my mind that what I did was fucked up
[0:32 - 0:37] And it never should have happened and I admit that I admit and I own up to what I did
[0:37 - 0:42] I get that what I did was fucked up and it never should have fucking happened
[0:42 - 0:47] But let me tell y'all something right the fuck now y'all need to leave the axle the fuck alone
[0:48 - 0:51] All right, this man's trying to fucking help me out
[0:52 - 0:55] This man said you're trying to help me the fuck out and
[0:56 - 0:59] Try to help me get to where I need to be
[0:59 - 1:06] But y'all motherfuckers keep coming in and doing this ignorant shit and attacking me over and over and over and it's dumb
[1:07 - 1:20] It's fucking dumb dude
[1:21 - 1:28] Like y'all don't want to see this exceeding that's what's so fucked up y'all don't want to see me do better
[1:28 - 1:33] You claim that you do but your actions say otherwise
[1:34 - 1:37] Your actions clearly say fucking otherwise
[1:38 - 1:44] All right, I'm trying to do shit that I need to do
[1:45 - 1:49] So that I can get better so that I can be a better person
[1:49 - 1:53] But yet you motherfuckers want to come in and attack really bro
[1:54 - 2:03] Fucking really I'm sick of it man. I'm trying to be a better version of myself. I'm trying to do right for myself
[2:05 - 2:07] but y'all want to come in and
[2:08 - 2:16] Attack axle and then attack me bro grow the fuck up and quit y'all's bullshit y'all claim
[2:17 - 2:21] That I'm this and that I'm that and and I see where you're coming from
[2:22 - 2:27] But I'm the same coin at the same fucking time man
[2:27 - 2:33] Y'all need to quit like if you want me to be better. Let me do shit. I need to do to get better
[2:34 - 2:40] Let me tell you right now live and well, bro. You're fucked up for what you did
[2:41 - 2:46] You really are you you tell me that you want me to get better, right?
[2:46 - 2:49] Then let me move the fuck on from my past
[2:50 - 2:56] You say you want to get better. Let me move on from my fucking past. Let it the fuck go
[2:57 - 3:00] Let me move on from it. Let me do shit. I need to fucking do
[3:01 - 3:08] away stop attacking me every five fucking motherfucking seconds of the goddamn day over shit that happened the
[3:10 - 3:12] first step to moving on is
[3:14 - 3:17] You don't have to forget you don't have to forget what I did
[3:18 - 3:20] But you should at least
[3:20 - 3:26] Own out to the fact that I am genuinely sorry for what I did and then I really am trying
[3:27 - 3:31] If you want to get better motherfucker leave the past in the past
[3:32 - 3:36] Let me do what I need to do. Leave the past alone
[3:37 - 3:42] Leave it the fuck alone
[3:42 - 3:44] Leave the past the fuck alone
[3:45 - 3:47] All right, leave it the fuck alone
[3:48 - 3:54] The past dawn over with gone out the window by
[3:55 - 3:57] And I get that I got a long fucking road
[3:57 - 4:11] I get that I got a long road to recovery. Well, let me tell you right now motherfuckers shit's gonna start fucking changing
[4:11 - 4:16] All right shit's gonna start fucking changing around here, bro
[4:17 - 4:26] Here's the thing. I'm not on stream yard, so I can't post any links. This is directly from YouTube
[4:27 - 4:29] But next time I do stream yard, I will
[4:32 - 4:36] Next time I do stream yard, bro, I'll definitely let you out man for sure
[4:38 - 4:43] But like I said man, if you guys want me to get better and to do better
[4:43 - 4:45] If you want to be a better person
[4:47 - 4:49] Let me leave the past in the past
[4:49 - 4:55] Let me show y'all that I can do better. Let me show y'all that I could be a better person
[4:55 - 5:01] Let me do the shit that I got to do let me take a vacation for four or five fucking weeks
[5:01 - 5:04] Let me do shit to get my mind right
[5:06 - 5:10] Let me do shit that I got a fucking do to get my mind right
[5:17 - 5:21] Stop fucking bringing up my goddamn past every five fucking seconds
[5:22 - 5:29] And y'all know that happy me and I know shot down remembers this. I know AAA remembers this
[5:29 - 5:37] I know and enjoy. I don't know if you'll remember this. I know that
[5:38 - 5:40] Biscuits will remember this
[5:40 - 5:45] But y'all remember back in the day when I did the coffee and chill live streams
[5:46 - 5:49] When I was just hanging out and I was happy
[5:50 - 5:53] y'all remember those days where I was actually happy and
[5:54 - 5:56] I was actually doing shit
[5:57 - 5:59] That's what I'm trying to get back to
[6:00 - 6:02] I'm trying to get back to where
[6:02 - 6:10] You know, I was happy. I was having fun. I was enjoying my life. I was actually outside doing shit
[6:10 - 6:15] You know, that's what I'm trying to give back to
[6:20 - 6:22] fucking Courtney
[6:22 - 6:24] Courtney with the fucking family got fun
[6:25 - 6:30] Bro, of course, you and the fucking family got fun, bro. I remember that episode too funny episode
[6:31 - 6:36] China family guy
[6:36 - 6:39] But like those are the days that I'm trying to get it back to
[6:39 - 6:46] You know, those are the days that I'm trying to give back to to where I can you know
[6:46 - 6:54] Do what I love for a living and I can come on and do the coffee and chill live streams and I can do
[6:54 - 7:01] You know my competitive sim racing and hang out with you guys play some old school
[7:01 - 7:08] You know game cube games and Wii games and you know all these all this ever shit like I want to give back to that
[7:09 - 7:13] But how can I do that? If nobody will let me live my past down
[7:13 - 7:20] I get what I did was wrong and I take ownership of that. All right. What I did was not cool
[7:20 - 7:26] There I can't say what I did was right. I don't agree with what I did
[7:26 - 7:31] Okay, I really do not agree with that what I did was fucked up
[7:31 - 7:36] I get it. All right, and I own up to what I did
[7:37 - 7:44] hold up y'all
[7:44 - 8:00] Yo, that's what that was weird. Oh, I know you do all right Irish
[8:00 - 8:04] I've seen you around here a few times like not too much, but I have seen you around here a little bit
[8:04 - 8:11] What's good Irish? How you doing? You're good to see that cup in here after a while
[8:12 - 8:15] But you know, that's what I'm trying to give back to I
[8:15 - 8:18] Want to get back to you know having fun
[8:20 - 8:27] You know, I want to give back to those days where I was having fun where I was posting on TikTok where?
[8:27 - 8:32] You know, I was doing the fun videos where you guys actually enjoyed what I did
[8:34 - 8:36] Like I'm trying to get back to that
[8:37 - 8:43] But if y'all don't let me do what I need to do to get better to better myself
[8:43 - 8:47] You know, let me take a fucking mental break for five fucking weeks man
[8:49 - 8:55] For real, let me take a goddamn mental break for five fucking weeks. Let me do what I need to do
[9:07 - 9:09] You know, let me do what I need to fucking do
[9:10 - 9:12] So that I can come back
[9:13 - 9:15] better
[9:15 - 9:17] So that I can be
[9:17 - 9:31] Better, but instead y'all want to constantly keep me held down this shit and it's stupid, bro
[9:31 - 9:34] It's dumb
[9:34 - 9:37] Like I'm trying to be a better person
[9:37 - 9:42] I'm trying to do new things like go outside of long again
[9:42 - 9:47] Go out saying you know hang out with my motherfucking brother Jake like bro
[9:47 - 9:53] My birthday's in four days. Y'all realize that I'm gonna be 31 and four fucking days
[9:54 - 9:58] I'm trying to do better for myself between now and then
[9:59 - 10:02] All right, I'm trying to do better for myself
[10:03 - 10:12] You know, I'm trying to be
[10:12 - 10:16] You know better
[10:16 - 10:18] Yo rec what up?
[10:18 - 10:29] Yo rec. Let me mod you right quick. Hold up. What up carry? How you doing and yo carry again?
[10:31 - 10:38] Thank you so much for this carry. I totally appreciate a matter of fact carry. You know what sent you here
[10:39 - 10:43] You know a carry sent you here. Let me do something for you since you're here
[10:43 - 11:11] Since I got you on here. Let me do something for you. Sorry about that
[11:23 - 11:43] What hold up always shit, you know, let me sit down and do this make it easier for y'all
[11:44 - 11:46] I'm making it easy for you guys
[11:46 - 12:38] Thanks. Oh, I know this one on y'all. I got fucking
[12:39 - 12:41] Get the same plug back in
[12:42 - 12:44] again
[12:44 - 13:02] Can't plug in mother bugger
[13:04 - 13:06] Which I wanted to do I
[13:07 - 13:12] Wanted to be an old-school acoustic one. I'm trying to remember what song I wanted to do
[13:12 - 13:16] I done did M to M
[13:17 - 13:19] Quite a bit
[13:19 - 13:54] You know record carry. I think you might recognize this one new crispy chicken sandwich taco. You and I know you'll recognize
[13:55 - 13:59] Is it a sandwich or a taco?
[13:59 - 14:01] Which side are you on?
[14:02 - 14:04] Try it only a taco bell
[14:21 - 14:23] Yo, that's what up
[25:44 - 25:50] Yo axle, what up, man? I see you bro. I don't see man. I see you
[25:50 - 27:12] For those I want to sit there and say that I can't play and no thanks axle
[27:12 - 27:19] But this does include you man, and I want you to see just how good I can do just with a regular drum track, dude
[27:19 - 27:26] But this is just me or riffing off of a fucking drum track
[27:27 - 27:31] Okay, I'm not talking shit on you. I'm just saying, you know, I want you to actually see
[27:32 - 27:34] What I'm actually capable of
[27:35 - 27:43] Doing your purchase could be free when you use your credit karma visa
[27:48 - 34:12] And that's without a fucking drum track, and I know that it sounds different
[34:13 - 34:17] But if you hear it in person trust me, it's a lot different
[34:17 - 34:26] It's a lot different in person than y'all here over this
[34:26 - 34:33] It's way different because over this you hear a little bit of it, but you don't hear the full
[34:34 - 34:39] Thing like if y'all here a person y'all would see like it's actually
[34:40 - 34:49] Solid playing it truly is solid
[34:50 - 34:53] So wrecking carry
[34:53 - 34:57] Thank you for this. I fucking love it. Yes, I decked it out a little bit with my own stuff
[34:57 - 35:08] And I do like the question that someone had about the whole
[35:09 - 35:15] And no, I am not a witch but somebody asked me, you know what this witch
[35:15 - 35:18] Pieces for this pentacle
[35:19 - 35:27] People asked me why I put the pentacle on there. That is because I am after my ancestor was
[35:27 - 35:34] You know Jonathan Putnam from the Salem witch trials and I wanted to be on this showing by doing that
[35:35 - 35:43] So that's kind of like my little homage to my ancestors and then this right here is probably one of my most important ones
[35:43 - 35:50] It says still alive not dead yet. And that's because for me, I'm half alive
[35:51 - 35:54] You know, I'm half alive. I'm half dead because
[35:56 - 36:06] You know, like all the shit that I've been through it's kind of you know, put me at that point
[36:06 - 36:12] So on my eyes, you know when I lost my friends and I lost those that I care about
[36:13 - 36:15] You know a part of me died. So
[36:15 - 36:21] That's why I have that on there like a part of me died with them. So
[36:24 - 36:37] Yeah, but to be truthful with you guys, man, I really just want to give back to my roots and have fun
[36:38 - 36:43] You know give back to my motherfucking roots where I first began on YouTube
[36:43 - 36:52] You know, like when I first began on YouTube, I was having a fucking ball, dude
[36:53 - 36:58] But now it's like I'm being held back and I'm tired of it
[36:58 - 37:02] I'm truthfully sick of being held back
[37:03 - 37:12] By people that don't want to see me make it like what you guys don't understand is I need this five-week vacation. I
[37:13 - 37:16] Need us four to five to six weeks vacation
[37:17 - 37:19] Because something you guys don't understand
[37:20 - 37:23] Something that no one seems to understand is this
[37:24 - 37:27] I've been doing YouTube for over 10 years
[37:28 - 37:32] Think about that over 10 years with no break
[37:33 - 37:42] None whatsoever just constant upload no breaks. I think I'm entitled to a fucking break
[37:42 - 37:47] So here's what I'm gonna do
[37:47 - 37:53] Each time that I'm made to go live. I'm gonna take that much longer to come back
[37:54 - 37:57] I'm gonna take that much longer to return
[37:58 - 38:00] Because I need a vacation. I
[38:01 - 38:05] Really, I've been doing YouTube for 10 years with no breaks
[38:06 - 38:09] At all. It's just been
[38:10 - 38:14] Upload upload upload over and over and over and over and over and over
[38:15 - 38:18] Non-stop and I need a break
[38:27 - 38:30] Well, yes, I am still gonna upload
[38:31 - 38:36] That's all I'm gonna do is fucking upload, you know
[38:37 - 38:41] Like how I uploaded my latest song they called lost souls
[38:45 - 38:51] Which is that which is actually the song that inspired my current album that I'm working on called souls of the lost
[38:52 - 39:03] You know, that song reflects a lot the album is going along with that particular song is gonna reflect a
[39:04 - 39:09] Lot on the dark stuff that I've gone through a lot of my dark past
[39:09 - 39:13] But the only way I can move past my past
[39:14 - 39:16] Is for you guys to leave it alone
[39:17 - 39:19] All I ask of you guys is this
[39:21 - 39:25] Now whether you choose to let me do it or not
[39:25 - 39:30] That's on you because I know I have people that truly do support and love what I do
[39:31 - 39:35] And I do thank y'all that do support me. I do truly thank you guys
[39:35 - 39:54] Like I do truly thank y'all that do support me y'all need to leave my past alone
[39:55 - 39:57] All right
[39:57 - 40:00] Like if y'all want to be a better person
[40:00 - 40:06] Let me do it. I came out many times and said what I did. I
[40:08 - 40:15] Shouldn't have to say it anymore. I shouldn't have to say what I did any longer
[40:15 - 40:20] I came out several times. I said my piece. I
[40:21 - 40:25] Said what I had to say now. Let me live my life
[40:26 - 40:34] Let me have fucking five to six weeks off to where I can recharge my battery where I can fucking relax
[40:34 - 40:37] Where I can get fucking better
[40:43 - 40:47] Let me recharge my fucking battery so I can get well
[40:47 - 40:57] Let me do what I need to do so I can get to where I need to be
[40:57 - 41:06] You know, let me take five weeks off and relax
[41:07 - 41:11] Because guys something you don't understand is I'm mentally drained
[41:11 - 41:21] I'm out of gas right now and I need to recharge my battery, bro. I mean put yourself in my position
[41:22 - 41:28] Doing YouTube for 10 years with no breaks is a long time. That's a lot of up loads
[41:29 - 41:31] That's a lot of videos
[41:31 - 41:45] That's a lot of time to go without taking a break and honestly, I want to get back to my roots
[41:46 - 41:49] You know, I want to get back to my roots doing
[41:50 - 41:52] AMVs doing drifting having fun
[41:54 - 41:57] Doing coffee and children's I want to give back to that
[41:57 - 42:02] But in order for me to do that guys, I need to work on myself
[42:03 - 42:08] All right, I need to work on myself
[42:08 - 42:16] And the only way I can work on myself is by stepping away for five weeks and taking a breather and relaxing
[42:19 - 42:22] Okay, I want to do things that I used to do. I
[42:23 - 42:26] Want to get back to the life that I used to have I
[42:27 - 42:30] Want to be successful with what I love to do and
[42:30 - 42:35] In order for me to do that. I need to get away from this shit. I need that break
[43:00 - 43:02] Yo, I got you
[43:02 - 43:11] But before I do though, I am gonna message Jenny after this stream here a minute
[43:11 - 43:15] And if it is actually the fake I am gonna remove it. So
[43:17 - 43:20] Jenny if that is really you I will message you
[43:22 - 43:27] Via text message or I will hit you up on Facebook
[43:28 - 43:32] Alright, I will hit you up on Facebook and I'll talk to you
[43:33 - 43:40] But as for the rest of you guys man
[43:41 - 43:43] Y'all need to let me
[43:43 - 43:50] You know, you guys need to let me take a break. All right. I am mentally
[43:51 - 43:58] Drained I'm out of gas. I need a break man. It's been 10 years
[43:59 - 44:11] It's been 10 years since I've had a break and I need one now if you guys will excuse me
[44:12 - 44:18] I'm taking a break for the next five weeks and I don't want to be bothered
[44:20 - 44:25] Okay, I don't want to be bothered by any it has to do with YouTube
[44:26 - 44:28] Don't want nothing to do with it
[44:28 - 44:34] For the next five weeks. I am taking a break from YouTube. I just want to hang out
[44:36 - 44:44] Be myself enjoy my birthday without being attacked. You know, have fun with my friends and family here in a few days and just
[44:45 - 44:51] Chill out like that's all I want is to
[44:52 - 45:27] Be myself again and the man's right. I did right my wrongs
[45:29 - 45:34] Straight up. I did, you know, right that wrong and I he's right
[45:34 - 45:37] I did right that wrong and I need to be left alone
[45:37 - 45:41] So for the next five weeks
[45:41 - 45:51] The only thing I'll be doing is uploading little, you know game clips here and there or new songs and that's it
[45:52 - 45:54] That's all I'm gonna be doing is
[45:55 - 46:03] Uploading, you know game clips, you know like the funny little clips that I've been uploading. I got you Jenny. No worries
[46:04 - 46:20] You know
[46:20 - 46:25] The only thing I am gonna be doing YouTube was
[46:26 - 46:31] The only thing I'm gonna be uploading is game clips like the little funny game clips
[46:31 - 46:38] Like the explosive nut shot video that everybody seems to love or the worst way to lose your manhood
[46:39 - 46:46] Game clip. I'm gonna be uploading stuff like that. I'm gonna be focusing on my skate 23 studios
[46:46 - 46:49] You know, we work in my skate 23
[46:50 - 47:03] Channel again, I'm gonna start doing drifting montages against stuff like that. Like that's the only stuff
[47:03 - 47:04] I'm gonna be doing
[47:04 - 47:07] That's all I'm gonna be doing
[47:08 - 47:13] Other than that, I don't want to be bothered. I just want to have a normal life
[47:14 - 47:23] You know, like I used to have, you know, I don't want to be bugged. I just want to be me
[47:24 - 47:32] You know, I want to be who I once was before all this and the only way for me to do that
[47:33 - 47:36] Is to get away from this and recharge my battery guys
[47:37 - 47:40] So I'm asking you guys an
[47:42 - 47:49] Axel this does include you too, man, and I don't get a wrong axle. I do appreciate what you've done
[47:50 - 47:53] But if it's about YouTube
[47:55 - 48:02] Leave it be, you know, I don't want to be bugged. I
[48:03 - 48:06] Just want to relax and do things that I used to do and enjoy
[48:09 - 48:14] Now with that being said, I love you guys. I'll see you guys in five weeks
[48:15 - 48:17] So please guys
[48:18 - 48:20] Just don't
[48:20 - 48:23] Just don't bother me for the next five weeks
[48:24 - 48:29] Let me recharge my battery so I can get better. That's all I ask
[48:32 - 48:34] That is all I ask
[48:34 - 48:51] Let me recharge my batteries so I can do better so I can get better. That's all I ask man
[48:52 - 48:54] on the unplug for five weeks
[48:55 - 48:57] recharge my battery
[48:57 - 48:59] come back and
[48:59 - 49:01] We'll go from there
[49:01 - 49:05] All right, so guys, please I am begging you
[49:06 - 49:14] Don't fucking bug me with YouTube drama. That's all I ask
[49:17 - 49:23] Now with that being said, I love the supporters. I love the trolls. I love the haters. I love all you guys
[49:23 - 49:26] I will see you guys in five weeks
[49:27 - 49:29] Not that long five weeks
[49:29 - 49:34] That's it a month and one week
[49:35 - 49:58] Not that long. I'm fucking love you guys. I will see you guys with
[50:00 - 50:05] You know whenever I do an update video or I do an upload
[50:06 - 50:13] All right. I love you guys. I'll see you guys whenever I do
[50:14 - 50:19] My next update video or my next upload video and I'll catch you guys later
[50:19 - 50:26] I'll fucking love you guys. Stay safe. Stay positive. Stay humble. Look out for each other and I'll catch you guys later
[50:26 - 50:28] Fuck you guys man
[50:28 - 50:30] See you guys want to get back?
2021-9-16 PROVING IM NOT SOME JOKE ARTIST

2021-9-16 PROVING IM NOT SOME JOKE ARTIST

[0:28 - 0:33] What's the place you're knowing good morning everyone so?
[0:34 - 0:36] since this little punk ass
[0:39 - 0:43] fucking
[0:43 - 0:46] Axel and everybody wants to sit there and say that I suck right?
[0:48 - 0:55] Like y'all want to sit there and say that I do this I do that like I suck I this I that I
[0:56 - 0:57] figured
[0:57 - 1:07] Why not let my skills as a DJ and remix artist
[1:08 - 1:12] Speak for themselves. I'm gonna let my skills on my deck
[1:14 - 1:37] Speak for themselves. Let's see, which one you a-winnish doing with that. I
[1:37 - 1:41] Start off with an old but good classic
[1:42 - 1:44] Shot to the homie Eddie Rath on this
[2:26 - 2:28] Out
[2:56 - 3:16] Yeah
[4:47 - 5:21] I think I figured something out here alright so let's go
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[65:43 - 65:45] Peace!
2021-9-16 NO MORE BEING A LAUGHING STOCK

2021-9-16 NO MORE BEING A LAUGHING STOCK

[0:13 - 0:15] So
[0:15 - 0:25] You guys think that ain't catch on to your little plan, but the truth is I have caught on actual
[0:26 - 0:28] I'm not stupid boy
[0:29 - 0:30] actual
[0:30 - 0:33] You did you and your little friends?
[0:34 - 0:36] like Crip the faggot
[0:36 - 0:41] K or Crip Crip the gay faggot or
[0:42 - 0:44] Helen Keller or any of your little friends
[0:49 - 0:58] Did you ever think for a one minute that I would fall for your bullshit
[0:59 - 1:25] Did you ever think about that? No, you didn't see I caught on your little game plan. I
[1:26 - 1:28] Called on your little game plan, dude
[1:29 - 1:32] See you didn't think that I wasn't paying attention
[1:33 - 1:35] But while I was gone
[1:35 - 1:41] I got sent a very interesting video which is in the description of
[1:42 - 1:45] You talking shit about me while I was gone
[1:46 - 1:48] Plus you were backstage
[1:49 - 1:52] Running your mouth about me like a little bitch
[1:53 - 2:00] And you know honestly the one thing I'm very tired of is all you little fucking trolls
[2:00 - 2:03] Trying to make me out to be a laughing stock
[2:03 - 2:11] That's all you guys are trying to do and make me out to be a laughing stock
[2:12 - 2:19] Ha ha ha let's fuck with the weird-looking guy ha ha ha. Let's poke fun at this guy because he looks weird
[2:19 - 2:26] Oh, this guy made a mistake. Let's hold him to his mistake. Let's not let him move on with his life
[2:26 - 2:30] Let's make him look bad. Let's make him look like shit
[2:31 - 2:33] That's all you don't fucks do
[2:34 - 2:42] That's all you don't fuck morons do you just want to make me look like shit because
[2:42 - 2:51] You ain't got the balls to do anything with your lives and honestly, I'm putting my motherfucking foot down right the fuck now
[2:52 - 3:00] I'm not no motherfucking buddies. God damn laughing stock. I'm not you got them punching bag and
[3:01 - 3:06] Axel I sure as fucking going to no goddamn hospital
[3:08 - 3:11] You want to sit there say that I need help
[3:12 - 3:17] Who's the one that needs help the guy that's trying to move on and do better with his life or
[3:18 - 3:24] The guys that are sitting there doing this shit to people who don't have a life
[3:24 - 3:36] I'm honestly tired of this shit, bro
[3:38 - 3:42] Like y'all want to sit there and talk mad shit about me, but yet
[3:43 - 3:46] None of you have the balls to do anything
[4:00 - 4:02] Poor butterfly love
[4:04 - 4:07] Poor butterfly love is mad
[4:09 - 4:11] What's the matter bitch?
[4:11 - 4:15] You're mad at the fact that I found the truth out you dumb bitch
[4:30 - 4:34] Even your little trolls are coming forward and admitting what you did
[4:36 - 4:38] even your fucking trolls are
[4:39 - 4:41] Coming forward and
[4:42 - 4:45] Admitting what you did you fucking retard
[4:45 - 5:14] I'm hiding this butterfly love bitch like bro
[5:15 - 5:19] I'm not as dumb as you guys seem to think I am dog
[5:27 - 5:35] Like I'm not as dumb as you fucking seem to think that I am. I'm really not that dumb
[5:36 - 5:46] Hey Ziggy, why don't you shove a cork up your ass and go fuck yourself?
[5:54 - 5:59] Yeah, I know I know she wasn't that's why she's gone
[6:01 - 6:04] See I'm putting my motherfucking foot down, bro
[6:05 - 6:07] Like y'all think you can run my life
[6:10 - 6:12] Nice try retards
[6:13 - 6:15] Nice motherfucking try
[6:16 - 6:20] Cuz one I don't need fucking help. You know what I need
[6:20 - 6:27] I need motherfuckers to back up and like I said in the last live stream that I did the one where I posted
[6:27 - 6:30] Courtney's comment shot to Courtney was good
[6:32 - 6:36] See what I need are motherfuckers that are willing to guide me in the right direction
[6:37 - 6:43] Motherfuckers that are willing to actually help me get me to where I want to be people like my dude Clint
[6:44 - 6:46] My dude Clint's a good guy
[6:46 - 6:50] Shots him on motherfucking boy Clint see
[6:50 - 6:52] Clint's a real motherfucker
[6:55 - 6:59] See Clint's a real one, dude Clint's a real one
[6:59 - 7:02] You want to know how I know he's done nothing but help me out
[7:03 - 7:18] And I appreciate the fuck out of that 100% I appreciate shit dog. Ah, Paul the lion little bitch
[7:23 - 7:49] Okay, that's shit starter. Bye. Bye. I'm not taking no motherfucking body shit no more, dude
[7:49 - 7:54] I ain't your goddamn punchy bag. I ain't your fucking
[7:55 - 7:57] comedian guy I
[7:57 - 7:59] Ain't the motherfucker to be screwing with
[8:01 - 8:08] Like y'all didn't think I would catch on dude. I've got eyes everywhere you motherfuckers need to realize that shit
[8:08 - 8:10] I've got eyes
[8:10 - 8:16] Every motherfucking wear and you think that I'm not gonna know about shit
[8:19 - 8:25] Yeah, that's cute. That's real fucking cute, dude. I've got eyes all over social media
[8:26 - 8:30] I've got eyes all over the goddamn place. I got eyes on the internet
[8:30 - 8:37] I got eyes on YouTube. I got eyes on discord and y'all really think I ain't gonna find out about this shit
[8:38 - 8:43] Y'all really think that I ain't gonna find out about this shit. You're fucking off your rocker and
[8:46 - 8:49] Clint even knows I have eyes
[8:49 - 9:01] Every fucking where I've got eyes every motherfucking wear dude and everyone knows it
[9:02 - 9:08] So I don't see why you don't fuck bother to try to troll me and I'm gonna do you know good
[9:09 - 9:13] All you're gonna do is end it up making yourself look stupid
[9:14 - 9:16] That's all you're gonna do
[9:16 - 9:26] Like bro, what I don't get is why y'all try to make me look stupid
[9:27 - 9:30] Like what's so funny about trying to make me look dumb?
[9:33 - 9:39] Like I'm not as stupid as you guys think I am. I'm not as talentless as y'all seem to think I am
[9:40 - 9:47] Axel, I'm not the talentless hack that you seem to think I am bro. I'm really not I
[9:48 - 9:51] Actually do have talent. I can actually do shit
[9:52 - 9:59] So I'll see why you're running your motherfucking mouth like a little bitch. Oh
[9:59 - 10:01] and a shmackle cat
[10:01 - 10:04] Are you going around recording phone calls motherfucker?
[10:05 - 10:14] Why are you going around recording phone calls shmackle the bitch?
[10:18 - 10:21] Why are you going around recording phone conversations you fucked hard?
[10:22 - 10:25] Did did you not think I wouldn't find out about that?
[10:26 - 10:29] Did you not think that I wouldn't find out about that?
[10:30 - 10:43] Bro, you're a piece of fucking shit. You're a piece of fucking shit for that, bro
[10:44 - 10:51] Honestly, dude, you're no better than tangerine cat the bitch who loves to record conversations. Oh
[10:51 - 10:58] And you say you haven't been around but we all know that's a lie. You have been around
[10:59 - 11:02] Otherwise, how would you know about half the shit that goes on?
[11:03 - 11:11] If you ain't been around, how would you know about all this shit? You basically gave yourself away like a dumb shit
[11:12 - 11:16] You sat right there. I gave yourself away you fucking idiot
[11:16 - 11:22] You gave your fucking self away like a dumbass
[11:22 - 11:28] Like bro, y'all need to grow up
[11:29 - 11:33] This shit of trying to make me look stupid. It's done
[11:34 - 11:36] It's over with
[11:36 - 11:42] Grow up and get over it. You're not fooling nobody
[11:57 - 12:05] You're not fooling no motherfucking body anymore. If I see a troll in the comments
[12:05 - 12:09] instant ban
[12:09 - 12:17] No, reduce and if I catch a mod on hiding that troll, guess what wrench is getting yanked and you're getting banned, too
[12:17 - 12:25] I don't give a shit no more. I don't give a motherfucking shit
[12:25 - 12:56] Who gets banned anymore, bro? I truly don't give a fuck no more a trend rec
[12:56 - 12:59] You want the real truth check the video in the description?
[13:04 - 13:05] matter of fact
[13:05 - 13:37] Matter of fact, here's the link to that video. Here's the link to that video
[13:42 - 13:45] Right there the links right there
[13:46 - 13:48] Go check it out for yourselves
[13:48 - 13:50] The proof is right there in that video
[13:51 - 14:27] Right if it's really you Jenny then message me right now on Facebook if it's really you message me right now I
[14:27 - 14:49] Got my Facebook up message me right now if it's true you send me a message right now
[14:49 - 15:29] That's funny cuz I didn't get one. Wait. Yep. All right. Hold on hold on guys
[15:35 - 15:43] Okay. Yeah, it is. I need to go a check just to make sure
[15:59 - 16:34] Okay. Yeah, that is her. Hi Jenny. I do apologize for that. I got you. I got you and I do apologize Jenny
[16:34 - 16:37] It's just I've had so many motherfuckers
[16:38 - 16:41] You know trolling me lately and doing this and doing that that
[16:42 - 16:46] It's one of those things that like, you know, it's hard to trust people anymore
[16:47 - 16:52] It's very hard to trust motherfuckers nowadays. Oh
[16:59 - 17:06] You're good Jenny. No worries and like I said, it's just with all this shit going on and me being young so many directions
[17:06 - 17:08] It's it's hard to know who to trust
[17:11 - 17:14] Not saying that I don't trust you because you know damn well
[17:14 - 17:17] I do you're a good friend of mine. You have been for a long time now
[17:17 - 17:22] It's just I know how people like to pretend to be people and yeah
[17:23 - 17:25] You you already know all about that
[17:28 - 17:34] But I mean honestly though guys I'm telling y'all right now. I'm done taking y'all's bullshit
[17:40 - 17:43] Yeah, I know I'm going to when they when they show up
[17:43 - 17:49] I'm gonna fucking when they show up in the chat. I'm gonna unmod them for sure as
[17:54 - 18:06] Soon as they show up, they're done for actually. Yes. He did
[18:07 - 18:12] He's he says there talk shit on me turns around
[18:13 - 18:17] Pretends to help me and that says that I need help
[18:17 - 18:24] I don't need no fucking help. I need motherfuckers to leave me be and let me do what I gotta do to make my shit happen
[18:25 - 18:31] That's what I need. I need motherfuckers to shut the fuck up back the fuck off
[18:31 - 18:35] And let me do shit that I need to do so that I can make money doing what I love
[18:35 - 18:37] That's what needs to happen
[18:43 - 18:45] Yo, for sure. I got you, Ange
[18:45 - 18:53] Dude that ain't even the real Sean's play nice try
[18:56 - 18:59] Nice fucking try poser
[19:12 - 19:14] nice motherfucking try
[19:15 - 19:19] But that no stuck out for you
[19:23 - 19:25] No, it's not got for you
[19:30 - 19:35] No, what I need is for motherfuckers to back off the guitar shit
[19:35 - 19:40] That's just for fun for you guys. I know some y'all like see me do that shit
[19:44 - 19:46] But for y'all don't fucks
[19:47 - 19:50] You need to back off and get a life. Okay
[19:52 - 19:56] Like seriously y'all need to get a fucking life and quit the crap
[20:02 - 20:06] Yeah, Jenny as soon as this stream is done here in a couple seconds. I'm gonna call you
[20:07 - 20:17] But I'm being dead ass serious with y'all man
[20:18 - 20:22] When I come back over these next five weeks when I come back
[20:23 - 20:25] After this five weeks is up soon I come back
[20:26 - 20:28] Shit's gonna fucking change
[20:29 - 20:35] I'm not playing no more motherfucking games shit is going to motherfucking change around here
[20:35 - 20:41] Because I'm honestly tired of it shit needs to fucking change
[20:41 - 20:52] I'm not taking nobody's crap anymore, dude. I'm done with it
[20:52 - 21:24] Because I'll tell you right now. I'm tired of being every motherfucking body's punching bag
[21:24 - 21:27] I'm tired of being the laughing stock
[21:27 - 21:33] I'm tired of being the dude that everybody thinks that they control that thinks they can make goable
[21:33 - 21:36] Well, guess what not gonna happen
[21:50 - 22:08] Yo, girl, what up, man? How you been my dude was good, but like I said, man, I
[22:09 - 22:13] Thought I should come out here and call out the people that need to be called out
[22:14 - 22:20] People like axle people like Chris like Chris the faggot gay emo boy
[22:21 - 22:22] um
[22:22 - 22:26] Who else? Oh, yeah
[22:27 - 22:34] Little Helen Keller aka the wannabe gangster boy, you ain't no gangster. You a bitch
[22:35 - 22:45] You a whole ass bitch and every one of you motherfuckers just needs to back off
[22:46 - 22:48] Let me do me and
[22:48 - 22:50] Let me get my shit right
[22:50 - 22:56] All right, let me fucking do me. Let me get my shit to where it needs to be
[22:56 - 23:00] Because I won't sleep tired of this man
[23:00 - 23:01] I
[23:01 - 23:08] Don't need this crap. I'm not your fucking punching bag. I'm not your fucking
[23:09 - 23:12] What do you call it the fucking jester? I'm not your motherfucking jester
[23:13 - 23:17] I'm not here to make y'all laugh. I'm here for serious fucking business
[23:17 - 23:23] I'm here to make a living off my fucking artwork and off my goddamn music
[23:23 - 23:40] I don't have fucking time for your dumb shit. No, I'm not gonna freestyle on America
[23:40 - 23:46] I'm not even gonna mention axle anymore. You want to know why that faggot doesn't deserve attention
[23:47 - 23:51] I'm not gonna give that don't fuck the attention that he thinks he deserves
[23:51 - 23:56] I'm not doing it
[23:56 - 24:01] But that means that y'all I am gonna bounce it off here Jenny. I am gonna call you
[24:04 - 24:07] Because I'm tired of this shit shit needs to fucking change
[24:07 - 24:12] I'm leaving for five weeks so I can better myself as a person
[24:13 - 24:21] So I could take a fucking break and when I come back I can't fuck it to you shit better be fucking changing around here
[24:22 - 24:29] Otherwise, there's gonna be a lot of motherfuckers that are gonna be banned and a lot of pissed off people that ain't gonna like me
[24:29 - 24:32] And trust me that ain't no fucking joke
[24:32 - 24:39] There's gonna be a lot of motherfuckers that are gonna fucking hate me, but guess what I don't give a fuck
[24:39 - 24:46] I'm standing up for myself, and I'm doing what I need to fucking do. I'm doing what's right. I'm fucking tired of the troll shit
[24:47 - 24:50] Y'all need to grow up and get a motherfucking life, dude
[24:51 - 24:53] Enough is enough
[24:53 - 25:02] Grow up and get a fucking life and stop talking shit about me and making me the fucking punchline of y'all's fucking jokes
[25:03 - 25:09] You want a joke punchline? How about Tony and how he thinks he's a dragon or how about
[25:10 - 25:12] fucking
[25:12 - 25:14] demarco and
[25:14 - 25:19] How he dates underage girls and pretends to be underage himself or
[25:20 - 25:25] How about mass home reports or Chris Kane how they're both dead beats
[25:26 - 25:30] Why don't you make them the joke of your punchlines
[25:33 - 25:36] Why don't you make them the buddy of jokes?
[25:40 - 25:44] Stop making me a motherfucking joke cuz I'm not a joke
[25:45 - 25:49] All right over the next five weeks. I'm gonna be working on getting my music
[25:50 - 25:57] Better and cleaner. I'm gonna be working on looking for art galleries to post my artwork in
[25:58 - 26:01] Or an art gallery that'll take my artwork for submission
[26:01 - 26:06] But the one thing I'm not gonna do anymore is take y'all's bullshit
[26:07 - 26:10] But with that being said, I'm going to leave
[26:10 - 26:18] I'll see you guys in five weeks and when I come back. I can promise you a lot of motherfucking shit's gonna change and
[26:18 - 26:23] Honestly, I don't give a fuck if anyone likes it or not
[26:24 - 26:33] I'm doing what I gotta do to better myself and you don't like that. Well, guess what you I really don't give a fuck
[26:33 - 26:48] I really don't give a shit. I'm out this bitch Jenny. I'm getting ready to call you so be ready
2021-9-16 FULL CHANNEL REVAMP

2021-9-16 FULL CHANNEL REVAMP

[0:13 - 0:17] Yeah, James, what up, man?
[0:17 - 0:19] I do have something that I want to say, man.
[0:19 - 0:22] And I know a lot of you are probably thinking,
[0:22 - 0:24] like, are you supposed to be on vacation or what?
[0:24 - 0:26] Yes, I'm still on vacation.
[0:26 - 0:27] I'm still in America, and I'm actually
[0:27 - 0:33] working on a few digital ideas as we speak right now.
[0:33 - 0:35] But I'm going to put that on pause for a minute.
[0:35 - 0:37] I'm going to talk to y'all.
[0:37 - 0:40] All right.
[0:40 - 0:45] I know I've had a bad habit of saying this, doing that,
[0:45 - 0:48] blah, blah, and I get that.
[0:48 - 0:52] I get that I've had a bad habit of explaining
[0:52 - 0:55] the reasoning behind stuff.
[0:55 - 0:58] And I get that that's something that I do need to work on.
[0:58 - 1:03] And I totally get that.
[1:03 - 1:06] I know that that's something that I've got a very bad habit
[1:06 - 1:11] of doing, saying, like, hey, I may
[1:11 - 1:13] have done this, but this is why.
[1:13 - 1:16] And part of me did that to help y'all
[1:16 - 1:18] understand what really happened.
[1:18 - 1:24] But I know that's something that I need to stop.
[1:24 - 1:34] And for all y'all that do watch me from my fans,
[1:34 - 1:40] my haters, my friends, my family that watches me,
[1:40 - 1:44] I want y'all to know that I do love you guys.
[1:44 - 1:49] And what I did with the whole cage shit,
[1:49 - 1:55] there was no denying that what I did was wrong.
[1:55 - 1:58] And it shouldn't have happened.
[1:58 - 2:05] It really and truly should not have happened.
[2:05 - 2:07] Both parties were in the wrong.
[2:07 - 2:12] And there's no denying that.
[2:12 - 2:17] I just want y'all to know that through the help of some people
[2:17 - 2:20] that I'm working with currently, one of those dudes
[2:20 - 2:27] actually being so many that y'all have been seeing a lot lately,
[2:27 - 2:30] through his help and through the help of some others,
[2:30 - 2:38] I actually am working on a deal with him
[2:38 - 2:42] to get myself right and get me to where I want to be.
[2:42 - 2:48] And to all y'all, man, I just want to say that I'm sorry
[2:48 - 2:55] for everything that happened, everything that I did,
[2:55 - 3:02] all the last now, all that stuff, man.
[3:02 - 3:05] I'm sorry, dude.
[3:05 - 3:15] And I hope that I just hope that even though I
[3:15 - 3:22] don't deserve it, I hope that y'all can find it in yourself
[3:22 - 3:24] to forgive me for what happened.
[3:24 - 3:38] And let me show you that I'm trying to do better.
[3:38 - 3:40] Because I do want to be a better person.
[3:40 - 3:41] And I do want to do better.
[3:41 - 3:46] And I think through the help of certain people
[3:46 - 3:49] that I'm going to get there, man.
[3:49 - 3:55] I have faith that I am going to get there for sure.
[3:55 - 4:00] And to that dude that sold me out, my dude Axl,
[4:00 - 4:03] me and him did speak.
[4:03 - 4:07] Me and Axl did speak.
[4:07 - 4:09] And he came clean to me about what happened.
[4:09 - 4:14] Me and him had a very long conversation.
[4:14 - 4:16] He did speak to me and we talked.
[4:16 - 4:21] And he came clean about everything.
[4:21 - 4:30] He did admit what he did wasn't necessarily the best choice.
[4:30 - 4:36] But I'm not going to give a shit about it.
[4:36 - 4:52] But this man told me out.
[4:52 - 4:54] But yeah, Axl, if you'd like to come on up, brother,
[4:54 - 4:58] right there's the link, my man.
[4:58 - 5:00] If you'd like to come on up, Axl, right there's the link,
[5:00 - 5:16] man.
[5:16 - 5:20] No, I tell you what, I will be chopping off your contact
[5:20 - 5:24] on the channels of what I'm chopping, dude.
[5:24 - 5:35] See you.
[5:35 - 5:36] But like I was saying, dude, I am going
[5:36 - 5:46] to be bringing up some brand new content for you guys.
[5:46 - 5:48] Sorry, I'm just going third to see what we got.
[5:48 - 6:00] I already got the Porsche camera.
[6:00 - 6:06] But I do want y'all to know that I will be doing more live
[6:06 - 6:11] shrews outside as much as I can,
[6:11 - 6:18] given my shitty ass Chromebook here.
[6:18 - 6:20] But I will be doing more outside.
[6:20 - 6:23] And I'm going to let Alex here.
[6:23 - 6:25] I'm going to let my dude, or not Alex.
[6:25 - 6:27] Sorry, Alex, I don't see you, Alex.
[6:27 - 6:28] I have a shot to the half here.
[6:28 - 6:30] I hope you love you guys.
[6:30 - 6:36] But I'm going to let my dude, Axl, here, have the floor
[6:36 - 6:38] and explain everything.
[6:38 - 6:51] So what up, Axl?
[6:51 - 6:55] Y'all got to give him a minute.
[6:55 - 6:57] But me and this man have been talking,
[6:57 - 7:02] and I'm going to let him say what he needs to say.
[7:02 - 7:06] So Axl, fours all years, man.
[7:06 - 7:25] Whenever you get your camera fixed,
[7:25 - 7:30] you have to give him a minute.
[7:30 - 7:34] He's trying to fix his camera.
[7:34 - 7:38] You guys got to give him a minute, man.
[7:38 - 7:41] So he's doing that loading thing that it does.
[7:41 - 7:42] Hey, there we go.
[7:42 - 7:42] What's up, Axl?
[7:42 - 7:44] How you doing, man?
[7:44 - 7:47] Good, man.
[7:47 - 7:48] Yeah, doing good, man.
[7:48 - 7:49] How are you?
[7:49 - 7:50] So, man, I was just about to say,
[7:50 - 7:52] bro, dude, your camera is facing the other way.
[7:52 - 7:54] It's not facing you.
[7:54 - 8:16] All I see is a green chair in the room and a door.
[8:16 - 8:21] Hey, Simon, I'd love to see you try it.
[8:21 - 8:24] Just saying, bro, I'd love to see you try it.
[8:24 - 8:27] Hey, Axl, why don't you try leaving it coming back in,
[8:27 - 8:30] dude, because you're froze.
[8:30 - 8:33] So why don't you try going out and coming back in, man?
[8:33 - 8:42] That might help.
[8:42 - 8:44] No, it ain't no porn.
[8:44 - 8:47] It ain't no porn, man.
[8:47 - 8:51] But to this man, Simon Killis, man,
[8:51 - 8:56] I'd love to see you try it.
[8:56 - 9:04] Because, see, I don't drift for, you know, to be famous.
[9:04 - 9:06] I just do it for the love of the sport.
[9:06 - 9:11] I do it because it's something that I love to do, man.
[9:11 - 9:13] So, I mean, you can't claim what you want,
[9:13 - 9:16] but we all know the truth.
[9:16 - 9:18] You can't keep up with this.
[9:18 - 9:19] What up, Axl?
[9:19 - 9:20] How you doing, man?
[9:20 - 9:27] I'm doing good, man.
[9:27 - 9:28] How's everybody doing?
[9:28 - 9:39] So, man, glad to hear, man.
[9:39 - 9:42] Glad to see you're doing good.
[9:42 - 9:44] Man, I was like, I was just telling these people, man,
[9:44 - 9:47] you know, watching back last night
[9:47 - 9:48] and seeing everything that went down,
[9:48 - 9:51] you know, a lot of shit's going to be changing
[9:51 - 9:55] over these next few weeks, over those next four or five,
[9:55 - 9:57] six, seven weeks, man.
[9:57 - 9:58] We done spoke about it.
[9:58 - 10:00] And a lot of shit's going to be changing.
[10:00 - 10:03] A lot of stuff's going to be way different.
[10:03 - 10:06] Like, we're actually taking the channel in a direction
[10:06 - 10:09] that, you know, this man has seen me trying to take it
[10:09 - 10:12] for how many years now, too?
[10:12 - 10:20] Yeah, it's been a while, but this man, you know,
[10:20 - 10:23] he's been seeing how I've been trying to take it
[10:23 - 10:25] in a certain direction, and this one's, you know.
[10:25 - 10:29] So, all y'all that do it, all I'm going to say is this,
[10:29 - 10:31] for all y'all that like the funny videos I did,
[10:31 - 10:36] like the talking dog or, you know, the comedy skits,
[10:36 - 10:38] I got a little something for you, you know?
[10:38 - 10:41] We got a little something kicked up for you.
[10:41 - 10:42] Oh, the Joe Durk.
[10:44 - 10:48] How many y'all must remember Joe Durk, man?
[10:48 - 10:51] How many y'all remember Joe Durk from back in the day?
[10:51 - 10:55] Bro, that was like one of the first,
[10:55 - 10:58] the like redneck comedy films I ever watched, man.
[10:58 - 10:59] That shit was funny.
[10:59 - 11:00] And I'm a redneck myself.
[11:00 - 11:02] I was raised in the country.
[11:03 - 11:06] Can you hear me okay because of my signal?
[11:06 - 11:07] Yeah, dude, you're totally good, bro.
[11:07 - 11:10] I can hear you playing his day.
[11:10 - 11:14] For the few people last night that when I was live,
[11:18 - 11:19] I do want to apologize.
[11:21 - 11:23] When it comes to chance, like the music,
[11:23 - 11:29] is abilities to play instruments.
[11:29 - 11:31] That is not something I enjoy,
[11:31 - 11:34] but it doesn't matter because if it's something
[11:34 - 11:38] that Chance likes, if that's what he enjoys,
[11:38 - 11:40] you know, that's about him.
[11:40 - 11:42] You know, it's, I do want to apologize
[11:42 - 11:43] for making that.
[11:44 - 11:46] All right, it's totally good, dude.
[11:46 - 11:48] I like, I told you, you know, like,
[11:48 - 11:52] as far as, as far as burger boy,
[11:53 - 11:58] buddy, or female or male, whatever you are, burger.
[12:02 - 12:04] I did not mean to lie to you.
[12:04 - 12:06] And say anything I said wrong.
[12:08 - 12:12] You took the first stab at me.
[12:12 - 12:17] So, but on my part, I am going to sit here
[12:17 - 12:19] and I'm going to say I apologize.
[12:19 - 12:23] And if you want to continue to talk to you,
[12:23 - 12:26] that's cool.
[12:26 - 12:27] I don't care.
[12:28 - 12:30] That's you, that's not me.
[12:30 - 12:35] And music is Marty.
[12:36 - 12:38] Thank you for your upload this morning, buddy.
[12:38 - 12:40] I really enjoyed that.
[12:41 - 12:45] Marty, I think Marty is a very talented person.
[12:47 - 12:48] Oh, yeah.
[12:48 - 12:52] I think he's done a lot for your channel.
[12:53 - 12:53] Oh, yeah.
[12:53 - 13:03] Marty, I respect you from the deep bottom of my heart.
[13:03 - 13:06] I think you are probably a really good dude.
[13:06 - 13:09] And if I said anything, I offended you.
[13:09 - 13:10] I do apologize.
[13:13 - 13:16] Basically for anybody that took me wrong.
[13:16 - 13:19] And when I said last night, when I said I did time,
[13:19 - 13:21] when I talked about my father,
[13:21 - 13:22] when I said I did time,
[13:22 - 13:25] if you have any military knowledge,
[13:25 - 13:28] when somebody says they did time,
[13:28 - 13:31] when they say, when somebody says,
[13:31 - 13:35] when my dad did time 23 years in the military,
[13:36 - 13:38] you know, I was speaking for myself
[13:38 - 13:40] because I did my time in the military.
[13:40 - 13:43] It had nothing to do with prison.
[13:43 - 13:45] I've never been in prison a day in my life.
[13:45 - 13:48] I never, I've never been in jail, you know?
[13:48 - 13:52] I think it has, I think I've had two speeding tickets,
[13:52 - 13:58] you know, and I got a lot of good friends on here
[13:58 - 14:01] and Lava, Lava, I love you.
[14:03 - 14:06] Hey, I shout to Jenny, what's your name?
[14:06 - 14:09] Right, a lot of people that, you know, does throw
[14:09 - 14:11] and I do the same.
[14:11 - 14:14] Yeah, and they do the same.
[14:14 - 14:19] Brad Silverdog, my homeboy, my good friend.
[14:20 - 14:25] Brad Silverdog, if he makes videos, he's a hell of a guy,
[14:26 - 14:27] you know?
[14:27 - 14:28] Yeah.
[14:29 - 14:40] And my is not the unfortunate enough,
[14:43 - 14:45] he's had a hard life, I get that.
[14:45 - 14:50] And I don't agree with what he's did.
[14:50 - 14:52] And we don't have the right chance.
[14:52 - 14:54] Yeah, and we're gonna die in two weeks.
[14:54 - 14:57] Wait, wait, I don't agree with that.
[14:57 - 14:58] Right.
[14:58 - 15:02] And, but if I could have a chance and get him some help
[15:02 - 15:05] and if somebody wants to contribute,
[15:05 - 15:08] try to get him some help, I'm willing to do that.
[15:09 - 15:13] And because, you know, people make mistakes.
[15:13 - 15:19] And as far as the guy that called me earlier today,
[15:19 - 15:22] that said, I threatened their kids, their family,
[15:22 - 15:30] well, but you talk, well, the last one's bullshit
[15:31 - 15:38] because you try to talk like you're from the South
[15:38 - 15:43] or from the West, my area, it didn't work out,
[15:43 - 15:47] but I did look in the video that you said
[15:47 - 15:50] that Chance deleted, that she was talking shit
[15:50 - 15:52] that you said that I was threatening somebody's family
[15:52 - 15:57] or their kids or if I could see Chance never made that video.
[15:59 - 16:00] And I was sitting here right in front of you
[16:00 - 16:04] and everyone was saying that I had never made it.
[16:04 - 16:09] I just wanna tell this guy, if I finish you anyway,
[16:09 - 16:13] I'll do apologize.
[16:13 - 16:14] The first question you asked me,
[16:14 - 16:18] where I was all at or where I worked at,
[16:18 - 16:19] well, I'm in Kentucky.
[16:19 - 16:24] So, if you have a very big problem,
[16:24 - 16:29] but don't lie and say that I offended your family
[16:29 - 16:34] or your kids because you can't ever say this on live stream
[16:35 - 16:38] without me here or my knowledge.
[16:39 - 16:41] And I don't think you would.
[16:42 - 16:44] I'm not that kind of dude, like that.
[16:44 - 16:46] But if I guys, like I told you, I said,
[16:46 - 16:51] I would never offend somebody's family or their kids
[16:52 - 16:55] because last night my five-year-old son was attacked.
[16:55 - 17:00] And that for me to blow up, man, that was wrong,
[17:01 - 17:04] so I know who did it.
[17:04 - 17:07] And I'm gonna keep that between my lips
[17:07 - 17:13] and just go on and not bless this person.
[17:17 - 17:18] I try to be a good guy.
[17:18 - 17:19] And I wanna be a good guy.
[17:19 - 17:21] And I like to help people.
[17:22 - 17:24] Exactly.
[17:25 - 17:29] And Chance, I'm working on Chance right now.
[17:29 - 17:32] I'm trying to give Chance a good chance to admit wrongs
[17:32 - 17:34] and Chance to get help.
[17:35 - 17:39] And hopefully, I might chance a better person,
[17:39 - 17:43] but you know, what are you doing?
[17:43 - 17:45] It's not working out right?
[17:45 - 17:46] Do what?
[17:46 - 17:47] It's not, what you're doing right now
[17:47 - 17:51] is not working out right?
[17:51 - 17:53] Yeah, yes, and I don't depend on what it is.
[17:54 - 17:56] It is what it is, it's a weird situation,
[17:56 - 17:58] but I see where you're getting at.
[17:58 - 18:01] Honestly, but you wanna be better, right?
[18:01 - 18:02] Yeah, exactly, exactly.
[18:02 - 18:04] And that's why I told people,
[18:04 - 18:07] and when you don't like me and you discuss,
[18:07 - 18:10] I'm not gonna be like, and a lot of people ask me,
[18:10 - 18:12] are you gonna be staying inside?
[18:12 - 18:14] I see y'all in the comments asking,
[18:14 - 18:16] are my videos still gonna be in the bedroom?
[18:16 - 18:17] Where are they gonna be?
[18:17 - 18:20] I'm still gonna do my gaming live streams here and there,
[18:20 - 18:23] but for the most part, I'm gonna be revamping the channel.
[18:23 - 18:25] I'm gonna be working on shit.
[18:25 - 18:28] I'm gonna be outside, hanging out.
[18:28 - 18:30] You know, doing the outside vlogs
[18:30 - 18:31] that y'all are used to doing,
[18:31 - 18:33] I'm gonna be doing a lot more of those.
[18:35 - 18:38] If I can find that, I do wanna try to re-upload that video
[18:38 - 18:43] where I showed y'all the older parts of Summit Lake
[18:43 - 18:45] and shit, I do wanna try to,
[18:45 - 18:48] I do wanna try to refine that video and re-upload it.
[18:48 - 18:50] So Marty, if you have that video
[18:50 - 18:54] on the Syracuse channel, let me know
[18:54 - 18:57] or I can try to find it either way.
[18:58 - 19:00] But I do wanna get that uploaded.
[19:00 - 19:04] I do wanna start doing stuff that I used to do again.
[19:04 - 19:07] Like being happy, doing shit that I used to do
[19:07 - 19:13] before all this garbage interfered with all that.
[19:18 - 19:20] So that's kind of where I'm at,
[19:20 - 19:24] is revamping the channel, doing what I need to do.
[19:24 - 19:25] And y'all, with this man's help,
[19:25 - 19:29] I mean, it could go somewhere.
[19:29 - 19:45] It could definitely go somewhere.
[19:45 - 19:48] And dude, I trust in some, dude,
[19:48 - 19:53] I don't know if it's sound good, I trust in some.
[19:53 - 19:55] Yeah, dude, your sound cut out.
[19:56 - 19:57] Oh, I know that, no.
[19:58 - 20:01] But you got anything that you wanna add to that
[20:01 - 20:05] about me revamping my channel and doing shit?
[20:05 - 20:06] Like we had talked about it,
[20:06 - 20:15] like you got anything you wanna add to that?
[20:15 - 20:22] Yeah, y'all, his audio's acting up.
[20:22 - 20:27] Yeah, I can hear you now, what's up, man?
[20:27 - 20:29] I was reading the comments, it's good.
[20:30 - 20:32] All right, yeah.
[20:32 - 20:33] But you got anything that you wanna add
[20:33 - 20:37] to what I was just speaking on about me revamping?
[20:37 - 20:41] Truthfully for you smart ass comment remarks
[20:41 - 20:45] is I don't care, you know, that's your opinion.
[20:46 - 20:51] You don't know me, I'm not chance, I'm just a guy
[20:51 - 20:53] sitting here trying to help him out
[20:53 - 20:56] and we're talking about this chance.
[20:56 - 20:58] And I said that I was gonna help you make it wrong.
[20:59 - 21:01] You were wrong was to make it right
[21:01 - 21:08] and hopefully try to do what you want in real life, you know?
[21:08 - 21:13] And to do it to y'all.
[21:13 - 21:17] If you wanna be successful, you know, it's like.
[21:17 - 21:19] Exactly. Talk about you, man.
[21:19 - 21:23] Exactly, you know, and me and you already discussed this
[21:23 - 21:26] and you already know what I want.
[21:26 - 21:28] I think we both know what I'm after
[21:28 - 21:30] and you know, we're working on that.
[21:30 - 21:32] But to the guys that keep on going after my friend Jenny,
[21:32 - 21:35] man, y'all need to back the fuck up
[21:35 - 21:36] and leave her the hell alone.
[21:36 - 21:38] I know why y'all are doing it
[21:38 - 21:39] and the shit's not cool, man.
[21:39 - 21:41] Leave the girl alone already, man.
[21:41 - 21:44] She's a good friend of mine, so y'all need to chill out.
[21:44 - 21:49] And to the people that, to the specific one person,
[21:49 - 21:52] I know that contact with someone else tonight.
[21:59 - 22:01] I don't think you have enough balls to come to my face
[22:01 - 22:06] and say what you said with your little text and talking shit.
[22:09 - 22:20] Right, man, to be honest, I don't think they do anything.
[22:20 - 22:24] I still, I do my best, man, just try to forgive you,
[22:24 - 22:28] but if they wanna talk shit, well.
[22:28 - 22:30] I'm not hard to find, so.
[22:32 - 22:35] So if you think you are, you're gonna find me
[22:35 - 22:40] and say what you said, because I know who you are.
[22:42 - 22:44] That right there is not gonna leave me.
[22:44 - 22:54] And I draw a line when it comes to forgiveness.
[22:54 - 22:56] You can dislike chance, you can dislike me.
[22:56 - 23:01] That's fine, but when you text somebody's kid,
[23:01 - 23:04] I'll thank you, I'll thank you and draw a line, you know.
[23:04 - 23:06] When you text somebody's kid and you're sitting there,
[23:06 - 23:09] and you're talking about chance for kids.
[23:09 - 23:11] How different are you than him,
[23:11 - 23:13] that you talking shit about him, you know?
[23:15 - 23:17] Exactly, you know.
[23:20 - 23:22] Go ahead and reply back.
[23:22 - 23:24] And if you'd like to meet, we can meet.
[23:26 - 23:29] I don't wanna be on top of this, but, you know.
[23:32 - 23:37] I'm here trying to respect music, music, Ms. Morty.
[23:42 - 23:47] Ms. Morty, I have heard, I have no problem with you.
[23:47 - 23:50] I hope I answered your question,
[23:50 - 23:52] that you know what I do with my,
[23:54 - 23:59] I'm a person in the military, so there you go.
[23:59 - 24:01] If you wanna ask me personal questions about that,
[24:01 - 24:03] I'll be more welcome to give it to you.
[24:03 - 24:06] But when you do that, I'll ask you your personal questions.
[24:06 - 24:08] So.
[24:08 - 24:11] Exactly, and I think that's only fair, dude.
[24:12 - 24:14] You know, they ask you personal questions,
[24:14 - 24:16] I feel like you.
[24:16 - 24:17] Chance knows.
[24:17 - 24:20] I've told him pretty hard, you know.
[24:20 - 24:29] I'm trying to dial, so.
[24:29 - 24:31] If somebody has a problem with that.
[24:31 - 24:32] That's fine.
[24:32 - 24:37] If you wanna come talk to me, that's fine.
[24:37 - 24:39] I'll put my number out.
[24:39 - 24:43] If you wanna come face to face.
[24:43 - 24:44] That's your choice.
[24:44 - 24:47] That's not what I ask you to do.
[24:47 - 24:50] But if that's what you gotta do.
[24:50 - 24:55] If you wanna be talking to them, then come on.
[24:55 - 24:59] We can talk about it more, you know.
[24:59 - 25:03] Chance, dude, I wish you the best.
[25:03 - 25:04] And we continue.
[25:04 - 25:06] We're gonna work together.
[25:06 - 25:08] Oh yeah, absolutely.
[25:08 - 25:10] Also, too, man.
[25:10 - 25:12] One last thing.
[25:12 - 25:18] You can't apologize and be sincere.
[25:18 - 25:20] And then turn around.
[25:20 - 25:22] You can't threaten people, you know.
[25:22 - 25:24] Exactly, exactly.
[25:24 - 25:26] You know, like I said.
[25:26 - 25:28] You asked me to be your friend,
[25:28 - 25:30] so I'll be your friend.
[25:30 - 25:32] And I'm gonna call you out when you do that kind of stuff.
[25:32 - 25:33] Oh, absolutely.
[25:33 - 25:36] You know, matter of fact, me and you did speak on this, too.
[25:36 - 25:38] You know, you told me, you know, hey,
[25:38 - 25:40] if you catch me doing something stupid,
[25:40 - 25:42] you know, you're gonna call me on it.
[25:42 - 25:45] And I wouldn't expect anything less,
[25:45 - 25:47] just like I told you, you know,
[25:47 - 25:50] if I catch you doing something dumb or stupid, you know,
[25:50 - 25:52] I'm gonna say something about it.
[25:52 - 25:56] I'm gonna be like, yo, like, what are you doing?
[25:56 - 26:02] You know, like, it's a mutual respect thing, man, you know.
[26:02 - 26:04] And I've got to tell you all, man,
[26:04 - 26:06] I know that, you know, I said this and did that,
[26:06 - 26:08] yada, yada, yada.
[26:08 - 26:11] But, you know, I'm trying to do better for myself.
[26:11 - 26:13] You know what I mean?
[26:13 - 26:15] I'm trying to, you know, do better.
[26:15 - 26:17] You know, it gets where I need to be.
[26:17 - 26:20] And, you know, ultimately, you don't want to be.
[26:20 - 26:24] And I know I've pissed off a lot of people by banning a lot of dudes,
[26:24 - 26:29] but, you know, that's all part of growing, man.
[26:29 - 26:33] Like, I'm weeding out all the bullshit.
[26:33 - 26:35] I'm weeding out all the, you know,
[26:35 - 26:38] people that I see that are doing shady shit.
[26:38 - 26:41] Like, hell, y'all don't see me get around.
[26:41 - 26:43] I don't know if y'all see me get rid of it or not.
[26:43 - 26:46] But, dude, I got rid of Paul and other because, you know,
[26:46 - 26:49] they start crap fucking.
[26:49 - 26:54] A lot of these trolls, you know, they start shit and, you know,
[26:54 - 26:56] I don't need that in my life, man.
[26:56 - 26:59] I need, you know, good shit in my life.
[26:59 - 27:03] I don't need, you know, negative bullshit because right now,
[27:03 - 27:05] dude, I've got some pretty positive energy in my life
[27:05 - 27:07] and I'm trying to keep it that way.
[27:07 - 27:09] You know what I mean?
[27:09 - 27:12] I got some pretty good positive energy in my life right now
[27:12 - 27:18] and, you know, I'm trying to, you know, do better for myself
[27:18 - 27:21] so that I can get to where I want to be, you know.
[27:21 - 27:25] And like I said, you know, nothing can ever, you know,
[27:25 - 27:29] I can't ever, you know, take back what I said or did,
[27:29 - 27:33] but, you know, I can learn from it and move on from it
[27:33 - 27:41] and that's what I'm trying to do.
[27:41 - 27:43] And if anybody has a problem with me, you know,
[27:43 - 27:47] trying to better myself, well, like this man says,
[27:47 - 27:49] that's your guys' problem, not mine.
[27:49 - 27:55] I'm trying to better myself,
[27:55 - 27:57] but have you got a problem with it?
[27:57 - 27:59] Hey, hey, my problem.
[27:59 - 28:19] Dude, your audio cut out.
[28:19 - 28:21] Can you hear me?
[28:21 - 28:23] Yeah, I can hear you now, man.
[28:23 - 28:26] What's up? Good, man. I'm good, dude.
[28:26 - 28:31] Anybody else want to come up and talk?
[28:31 - 28:34] Just drop a little link, Rex.
[28:34 - 28:36] Yeah.
[28:36 - 28:40] As long as y'all ain't trying to porn bomb or anything, bro.
[28:40 - 28:42] Y'all are more welcome to come up, man.
[28:42 - 28:44] Just don't do that porn bombing shit.
[28:44 - 28:46] That's old and honestly, dude.
[28:46 - 28:48] All of me, it's played out.
[28:48 - 28:50] It really is played out.
[28:50 - 28:52] You did it before, too.
[28:52 - 28:54] So...
[28:54 - 28:56] They know, man.
[28:56 - 28:58] I have done dumb mistakes like that.
[28:58 - 29:00] And I know of it.
[29:00 - 29:02] I'm not...
[29:02 - 29:04] I told you, I called you out of your bullshit.
[29:04 - 29:06] Oh, yeah. Oh, yeah. 100 percent, dude.
[29:06 - 29:08] 100 percent, you know, like...
[29:08 - 29:10] If anybody would like to come up and, you know,
[29:10 - 29:14] just shoot the shit and not speak in negative on me or anybody.
[29:14 - 29:16] You know, just come up and...
[29:16 - 29:18] Go ahead and drop the link.
[29:18 - 29:20] Yeah, I did. I did.
[29:20 - 29:32] It was right there in the comments.
[29:32 - 29:37] Right now, so...
[29:37 - 29:44] Between my friends, I'm usually pretty good with...
[29:44 - 29:46] And Helen, after last night, bro,
[29:46 - 29:48] I'm starting to slave away.
[29:48 - 29:50] That's different.
[29:50 - 29:52] This is different for me because
[29:52 - 29:54] I'm normally locked and
[29:54 - 29:56] I'd like to get along with people.
[29:56 - 29:58] You know?
[29:58 - 30:01] Like, if y'all want to come up
[30:01 - 30:03] and kick it and hang out
[30:03 - 30:05] and not talk shit,
[30:05 - 30:07] you guys are more than welcome, dude.
[30:07 - 30:09] Like, let's get back to the old skin.
[30:09 - 30:11] I know that...
[30:11 - 30:13] I know that Axel will remember these days.
[30:13 - 30:15] I know a lot of y'all will remember these days.
[30:15 - 30:20] Like, you know...
[30:21 - 30:24] He's giving you guys a chance to come up.
[30:24 - 30:26] Yeah, I did, man.
[30:26 - 30:28] I've been dropped it.
[30:28 - 30:30] Chances don't do that, you know.
[30:30 - 30:32] Yeah, like...
[30:32 - 30:34] So...
[30:34 - 30:36] Honestly, man...
[30:36 - 30:38] Like...
[30:38 - 30:40] I know that you'll remember these days.
[30:40 - 30:42] I know a lot of y'all from a while back
[30:42 - 30:44] will remember these days, man, but, dude,
[30:44 - 30:46] the freaking coffee and chill days
[30:46 - 30:48] where, you know, we would always hang out
[30:48 - 30:50] and, you know, have people up on the panel
[30:50 - 30:52] or it would just be me kicking it with y'all
[30:52 - 30:54] and being chill
[30:54 - 30:56] and cool with each other
[30:56 - 30:58] and not trying to pick a fight
[30:58 - 31:00] with each other every five seconds, dude.
[31:00 - 31:02] Like, that's what I'm trying to give back to.
[31:02 - 31:04] I'm trying to give back to those days, man.
[31:04 - 31:06] The days where it was fun
[31:06 - 31:08] and it wasn't all about, you know,
[31:08 - 31:10] who said this, who's doing that?
[31:10 - 31:12] Like, nah, man, like,
[31:12 - 31:16] I'm over here trying to...
[31:16 - 31:26] Yo, Lotus, what up?
[31:26 - 31:28] Yo, Lotus, what up?
[31:28 - 31:30] Hey, C.I.A.
[31:30 - 31:32] Oh, God.
[31:32 - 31:36] This guy.
[31:36 - 31:38] Yo, C.I.A., why don't y'all come...
[31:38 - 31:40] Hell, Jenny, why don't you pop on over
[31:40 - 31:42] in here, girly?
[31:42 - 31:44] Jenny, yo.
[31:44 - 31:46] I'll be right in. Come on, Jenny.
[31:46 - 31:48] Get your ass over here, girl.
[31:48 - 31:50] I know, I'm sure, like, if you're at work,
[31:50 - 31:52] I totally understand why you can't,
[31:52 - 31:54] but, dude, if you can,
[31:54 - 32:02] bring your ass on over here, girl.
[32:02 - 32:04] Come on over here and, you know,
[32:04 - 32:06] you know, say some stuff to these guys,
[32:06 - 32:08] because I know you got a lot of stuff
[32:08 - 32:10] to say to these people.
[32:10 - 32:12] You know, why don't you come on over
[32:12 - 32:14] and speak your piece, girl?
[32:14 - 32:16] Like, come on, me and my friends,
[32:16 - 32:18] Jenny's cool. She can say what she wants.
[32:18 - 32:20] Oh, yeah, dude, I've known Jenny
[32:20 - 32:22] for a long time, dude. I've known
[32:22 - 32:24] Jenny personally, and she's a good friend of mine.
[32:24 - 32:26] So, yo, Jenny, why don't you bring
[32:26 - 32:28] your ass over here, girl?
[32:28 - 32:30] It's been a minute, girl.
[32:30 - 32:32] I've seen you live. I was on your own live stream.
[32:32 - 32:38] Bring your ass over here, girl.
[32:38 - 32:40] I'm the one that's trying to help a chance
[32:40 - 32:42] and has the only balls
[32:42 - 32:44] that come up here on this live stream.
[32:44 - 32:46] Right, I mean, there have been a few,
[32:46 - 32:48] well, a little bit,
[32:48 - 32:50] there have been a few people in the past
[32:50 - 32:52] that have actually, you know,
[32:52 - 32:54] done what you do, but not too many.
[32:54 - 32:56] Like, you know, there's very few
[32:56 - 32:58] that have actually, you know,
[32:58 - 33:00] said, hey, this is what's, you know,
[33:00 - 33:02] really going on.
[33:02 - 33:04] I'm just trying to help you.
[33:04 - 33:06] Hey, well, I told you
[33:06 - 33:08] earlier, man, you're doing a damn
[33:08 - 33:10] good job of it, man. And, you know,
[33:10 - 33:12] I'm proud of that, man. I'm proud
[33:12 - 33:14] to see, you know, how, you know,
[33:14 - 33:16] especially how, you know,
[33:16 - 33:18] what mean you talk about, how you
[33:18 - 33:20] can't clean everything, bro. Like,
[33:20 - 33:22] I'm proud of that, man.
[33:22 - 33:24] I can definitely respect, you know,
[33:24 - 33:26] someone, you know, who,
[33:26 - 33:28] you know, has the courage to,
[33:28 - 33:30] you know, admit when they're wrong
[33:30 - 33:32] and it's like, yo, like, I fucked up.
[33:39 - 33:41] Hey, we got CIO over here.
[33:43 - 33:45] Yo, CIO, what's good, man?
[33:45 - 33:47] Hey, what's up, guys?
[33:47 - 33:49] Man, that's it.
[33:49 - 33:51] Not much. I'm at work.
[33:51 - 33:53] I can't, like, stick around and chat,
[33:53 - 33:55] but I just wanted to tell you, I was at
[33:55 - 33:57] Jenny Summer Girls Live
[33:57 - 33:59] last night and she was flipping
[33:59 - 34:01] out because the Jenny girl
[34:01 - 34:03] that's in your chat with a wrench
[34:03 - 34:05] is bogus, dude.
[34:05 - 34:07] She said she was trying to get with you
[34:07 - 34:09] on Facebook, but you weren't answering
[34:09 - 34:11] or she was whatever, so.
[34:11 - 34:13] Yeah, I did. I actually won.
[34:13 - 34:15] I didn't want her getting a hold of her.
[34:15 - 34:17] We did talk a little bit.
[34:17 - 34:19] Not too much, but it was by text.
[34:19 - 34:21] But I did get a hold of her and stuff
[34:21 - 34:23] and I'm definitely going to take care of that
[34:23 - 34:25] as soon as possible, for sure.
[34:25 - 34:27] Okay, cool. Yeah. I mean, maybe the Jenny girl
[34:27 - 34:29] last night, Jenny Summer Girl was saying
[34:29 - 34:31] that the Jenny girl in your chat with a wrench
[34:31 - 34:33] was bogus, so.
[34:33 - 34:35] Yeah, I'll message her on Facebook
[34:35 - 34:37] and find out what's going on with that for sure, bro.
[34:37 - 34:39] All right, guys. I'll be watching.
[34:39 - 34:41] I got to get back to work, though.
[34:41 - 34:43] All right, man. Be safe, dude. Be careful.
[34:43 - 34:45] Take care. Don't let your meatloaf.
[34:45 - 34:47] Later, boys.
[34:47 - 34:49] Later, man.
[34:49 - 34:51] What the fuck?
[34:51 - 34:53] That's cool, man.
[34:53 - 34:55] He came up, you know.
[34:55 - 34:57] All right. Here we go.
[34:57 - 34:59] Let me see what's coming up.
[34:59 - 35:01] Yo, live. What's up?
[35:01 - 35:03] What's up, champ?
[35:03 - 35:07] Hey, how you doing, man?
[35:07 - 35:09] What's up, Ax? Good work you're doing here.
[35:09 - 35:12] Bravo.
[35:12 - 35:14] Champs.
[35:14 - 35:16] How many times have we fallen down this week?
[35:16 - 35:18] Hey, hey.
[35:18 - 35:20] I don't know, bro.
[35:20 - 35:22] What's up?
[35:22 - 35:24] What's going on, man?
[35:24 - 35:26] How many times has your grandmother fallen down this week?
[35:26 - 35:33] You're the caretaker.
[35:33 - 35:35] You're the caretaker, right?
[35:35 - 35:37] Who me?
[35:37 - 35:39] Dude, I told you, man.
[35:39 - 35:41] No shit starting, bro.
[35:41 - 35:43] How old is Sally?
[35:43 - 35:45] Bro, I know what you're trying to do.
[35:45 - 35:47] Sorry.
[35:47 - 35:49] Sorry, Rex.
[35:49 - 35:51] Just chill.
[35:51 - 35:53] Just let him say what he's going to say, dude.
[35:53 - 35:55] You think your pedophilia is your only sin?
[35:55 - 35:57] It's not.
[35:57 - 35:59] You've choked your grandmother.
[35:59 - 36:01] I mean, y'all, this kind of garbage right here.
[36:01 - 36:03] This picture in the crowd that we don't need.
[36:03 - 36:05] So, see you later, bro.
[36:05 - 36:07] And who the hell is this guy?
[36:07 - 36:09] Come on, man.
[36:09 - 36:11] Oh, no.
[36:11 - 36:13] Oh, great.
[36:13 - 36:15] We got Tyrese Needle in this shit.
[36:15 - 36:17] Okay, what's this guy?
[36:17 - 36:19] Yeah, dog, you know what I'm saying?
[36:19 - 36:21] That guy was a fake.
[36:21 - 36:23] That CIA guy is a troll.
[36:23 - 36:25] That's definitely the real Jenny.
[36:25 - 36:27] That's my girlfriend, dog.
[36:27 - 36:29] Whatever, man.
[36:29 - 36:31] Why are you up here trying to start shit, homie?
[36:31 - 36:33] For real, man.
[36:33 - 36:35] I see you getting on my girlfriend's die racks.
[36:35 - 36:37] I'm coming.
[36:37 - 36:39] Yo, actually, hold on.
[36:39 - 36:41] I know this dude.
[36:41 - 36:43] Yo, Tyrese, what's your deal with me, man?
[36:43 - 36:45] What did I ever do to you to make you want to run your mouth?
[36:45 - 36:47] Oh, sorry about that.
[36:47 - 36:49] You're hitting on my girlfriend.
[36:49 - 36:51] Bro, why is he getting...
[36:51 - 36:53] I know I'm trying to get him over in here,
[36:53 - 36:55] but, yo...
[36:55 - 36:57] Why is he keep getting the fucking kick, bro?
[36:57 - 37:00] What the heck?
[37:00 - 37:02] No, I'm saying, dog, that's my...
[37:02 - 37:04] You don't be inviting my bitch over to your house, dog.
[37:04 - 37:06] That's my bitch.
[37:06 - 37:08] Settle out for a minute, bro.
[37:08 - 37:10] Calm down and chill for a minute, bro.
[37:10 - 37:12] Let me ask you something, man.
[37:12 - 37:14] Why do you feel like you got to go after me like that, dude?
[37:14 - 37:16] When I didn't give you a single damn reason to go after me
[37:16 - 37:18] until you started running your mouth about me?
[37:18 - 37:20] Why did you start running your mouth
[37:20 - 37:22] when I was in the first place?
[37:22 - 37:24] I don't know you. I never did anything to you, bro.
[37:24 - 37:26] You got to be exposed for the...
[37:26 - 37:28] for the felon that you are, dog, you know what I'm saying?
[37:28 - 37:30] So basically what you're telling me is this.
[37:30 - 37:32] So basically what you're telling me is this.
[37:32 - 37:34] You're basically the point of Chris K.
[37:34 - 37:36] trying to use me like a fucking springboard,
[37:36 - 37:38] like a fake-ass bitch artist that you are, bro.
[37:38 - 37:40] You're fake.
[37:40 - 37:42] My music rules.
[37:42 - 37:44] My music has been certified multiple-platform...
[37:44 - 37:46] 100 times.
[37:46 - 37:48] So let me ask you this, bro.
[37:48 - 37:50] People buy five copies of my album.
[37:50 - 37:52] Hold on, hold on.
[37:52 - 37:54] Let me ask you something here, man.
[37:54 - 37:56] Artist to artist, bro.
[37:56 - 37:58] How do you guys sit there and call yourself an artist, man?
[37:58 - 38:00] You got no music out.
[38:00 - 38:02] You don't have any music out.
[38:02 - 38:04] You can't call yourself an artist, bro.
[38:04 - 38:06] You're not a fake artist.
[38:06 - 38:10] Bro, like...
[38:10 - 38:12] Yo, asshole, am I wrong, bro?
[38:12 - 38:14] How do you guys sit there and call yourself an artist
[38:14 - 38:16] and not have any music out?
[38:16 - 38:20] Now, this dude named Tyree's need.
[38:20 - 38:22] He's a real freaking...
[38:22 - 38:24] He's a dirtbag.
[38:24 - 38:26] I don't know about the other people.
[38:26 - 38:28] He's the kind of guy that, you know...
[38:28 - 38:30] He likes to call himself an artist,
[38:30 - 38:32] but yet he doesn't have any music out.
[38:32 - 38:34] You want to do it?
[38:34 - 38:36] What?
[38:36 - 38:38] How do you guys call yourself an artist, bro?
[38:38 - 38:40] You don't have any music out, Tyree's.
[38:40 - 38:42] Like, chill, bro.
[38:42 - 38:44] Like, this is...
[38:44 - 38:46] Dude, this is supposed to be a chill stream.
[38:46 - 38:48] Not a fucking go-after everybody's stream, dude.
[38:48 - 38:50] Fuck, man.
[38:50 - 38:52] This is chill stream.
[38:52 - 38:54] Uh, comedian, right?
[38:54 - 38:56] You want to make people smile like...
[38:56 - 38:58] Hey, Tyree.
[38:58 - 39:00] I have several albums out,
[39:00 - 39:02] at least all Platinum Dog on YouTube.
[39:02 - 39:04] You didn't even heard my name.
[39:04 - 39:06] Tyree, stop it, bro. Let me ask you something, man.
[39:06 - 39:08] Put that fucking...
[39:08 - 39:10] Well, first off, put that fucking fake-ass fucking thing down
[39:10 - 39:12] for a second and fucking answer something for me.
[39:12 - 39:14] This is made of real money, dawg.
[39:14 - 39:16] You can see how green it is, dawg.
[39:16 - 39:18] It's green.
[39:18 - 39:20] Bro, that is so fucking fake.
[39:20 - 39:22] It's a real, real money necklace, dawg.
[39:22 - 39:24] It's made of real money, dawg.
[39:24 - 39:26] What are you talking about?
[39:26 - 39:28] Yeah.
[39:28 - 39:30] What are you talking about?
[39:30 - 39:32] All right, all right.
[39:32 - 39:34] If you're such a famous artist,
[39:34 - 39:36] where's your album at?
[39:36 - 39:38] You can look it up on YouTube right now, dawg.
[39:38 - 39:40] Look it up. Type it on YouTube.
[39:40 - 39:42] It's called the Real Tyree Snead.
[39:42 - 39:44] Out with the fake.
[39:44 - 39:46] Bro, drop the link to it, bro.
[39:46 - 39:48] Drop the link, man. We'll check it out.
[39:48 - 39:50] Where is it at, dawg?
[39:50 - 39:52] Where is it at, then? Where can people find your music at, bro?
[39:52 - 39:54] You can find my music on my channel, dawg.
[39:54 - 39:56] It's called the Real Tyree Snead, dawg.
[39:56 - 39:58] You know what I'm saying? Because I am the Real Tyree Snead.
[39:58 - 40:00] So you just type in my channel.
[40:00 - 40:02] Type in the Real Tyree Snead music album.
[40:02 - 40:04] Platinum, double platinum, dawg.
[40:04 - 40:06] That's how you find my shit.
[40:06 - 40:08] Type in the best rap album ever on YouTube.
[40:08 - 40:10] That's how you find my shit, homie.
[40:10 - 40:12] If your music's so good, bro,
[40:12 - 40:14] drop the fucking link.
[40:14 - 40:16] Let's check it the fuck out.
[40:16 - 40:18] If you're not going to drop a link,
[40:18 - 40:20] it's going to kick me out of the video chat, dawg.
[40:20 - 40:22] Just go and type in best rap album ever made.
[40:22 - 40:24] Period. Point blank period.
[40:24 - 40:26] Real Tyree Snead.
[40:26 - 40:28] Out with the fake. 2020.
[40:28 - 40:30] You know what I'm saying? The best rap album of 2020.
[40:30 - 40:32] Certified Rolling Stone.
[40:32 - 40:34] Everybody's bumping my music.
[40:34 - 40:36] At least bumping my music, dawg.
[40:36 - 40:38] Police can't even handle me, dawg.
[40:38 - 40:40] They try to come after me, dawg.
[40:40 - 40:42] And I'll do karate on that ass, dawg.
[40:42 - 40:44] Kick everybody's ass.
[40:44 - 40:46] He does the same fucking thing.
[40:46 - 40:48] Psy, Rax. Psy ain't got no Rax.
[40:48 - 40:50] Psy ain't got no motherfucking Rax.
[40:50 - 40:52] But I do, because I'm a motherfucking...
[40:52 - 40:54] He's a good dude.
[40:54 - 40:56] He's a good dude.
[40:56 - 40:58] He just tries to...
[40:58 - 41:00] I'm not mad, dawg.
[41:00 - 41:02] This is not mad. This is power.
[41:02 - 41:04] I'm powerful, dawg. This is real power.
[41:04 - 41:06] You know you ain't.
[41:06 - 41:08] You know you ain't, bro.
[41:08 - 41:10] Like you told me, bro.
[41:10 - 41:12] You're sending your springboard in the office with me, bro.
[41:12 - 41:14] And that right there tells me a lot.
[41:14 - 41:16] No, dawg.
[41:16 - 41:18] It's full of shit, dawg. You're in denial.
[41:18 - 41:20] You're in denial of my greatness.
[41:20 - 41:22] I am the messiah.
[41:22 - 41:24] Yo, Tyrese, let me say something, bro.
[41:24 - 41:26] Just like you're saying...
[41:26 - 41:28] Hold on, hold on.
[41:28 - 41:30] That's like you're saying that your springboard is out for me.
[41:30 - 41:32] That already tells me...
[41:32 - 41:34] I like them. I like them.
[41:34 - 41:36] I like them.
[41:36 - 41:38] I got more subscribers than you are for any dawg.
[41:38 - 41:40] I don't need to springboard off.
[41:40 - 41:42] I got more subscribers than you are.
[41:42 - 41:44] And I get more motherfucking bitches than you are.
[41:44 - 41:46] Everything I need to know.
[41:46 - 41:48] In two fucking seconds, bro.
[41:48 - 41:50] You literally admitted that your springboard is out for me.
[41:50 - 41:52] You got right there and told me everything I needed to know.
[41:52 - 41:54] You're trying to be me.
[41:54 - 41:56] I ain't got no racks, dawg.
[41:56 - 41:58] You're trying to be me, dawg.
[41:58 - 42:00] So obviously, you don't have to rap.
[42:00 - 42:02] You're trying to rap.
[42:02 - 42:04] And I'm the only real certified rapper on the planet.
[42:04 - 42:06] Tyrese, you know...
[42:06 - 42:08] Bro, you know damn well I can fucking destroy you
[42:08 - 42:10] and make you look dumb, dude.
[42:10 - 42:12] And by you, Senator, saying that your springboard is out for me,
[42:12 - 42:14] you literally told me everything I needed to know
[42:14 - 42:16] in like 10 seconds.
[42:16 - 42:18] Easily, bro.
[42:18 - 42:20] No, I'm not springboarding off anything, dawg.
[42:20 - 42:22] I'm a superhero. I don't need to springboard off shit.
[42:22 - 42:24] I do everything I want to do
[42:24 - 42:26] at any time I want to do it.
[42:26 - 42:28] You know what I'm saying?
[42:28 - 42:30] Can you do 15 clubs, dawg?
[42:30 - 42:32] You sat right there.
[42:32 - 42:34] You sat right there at the beginning
[42:34 - 42:36] when you first came on. You sat right there
[42:36 - 42:38] when you were springboarding off me.
[42:38 - 42:40] So which is it? Are you springboarding off me?
[42:40 - 42:42] You're just a jealous dawg.
[42:42 - 42:44] You were never the best at tennis
[42:44 - 42:46] when you were 12 years old, dawg.
[42:46 - 42:48] You were never the best at tennis, dawg.
[42:48 - 42:50] You don't have that, dude.
[42:50 - 42:52] You don't have that, do you?
[42:52 - 42:54] If you don't have what I have,
[42:54 - 42:56] shut the fuck up.
[42:56 - 42:58] You know what I'm saying?
[42:58 - 43:00] Me, me, me, me, me.
[43:00 - 43:02] So what are you talking about?
[43:02 - 43:04] I think I'm a rapper.
[43:04 - 43:06] Drop the address, dawg.
[43:06 - 43:08] I'm pulling up. Drop the address.
[43:08 - 43:10] Go ahead, dawg.
[43:10 - 43:12] Bro, you got my address, dude.
[43:12 - 43:14] Drop the address, dawg.
[43:14 - 43:16] I'm pulling up. I'm kicking your ass.
[43:16 - 43:18] You're gonna get your ass beat, dawg.
[43:18 - 43:20] I'm not threatening you, dawg.
[43:20 - 43:22] I'm not threatening you, dawg.
[43:22 - 43:24] We are not threatening you.
[43:24 - 43:26] We are just telling you to drop the address
[43:26 - 43:28] so I can pull up.
[43:28 - 43:30] Bro, let me ask you this, man.
[43:30 - 43:32] I'm trolling there, dawg.
[43:32 - 43:34] You wanna fuck with me, dawg?
[43:34 - 43:36] Drop the address, and I'm coming to kick your ass.
[43:36 - 43:38] I'm not threatening you, dawg.
[43:38 - 43:40] Bro, you couldn't beat the guy there
[43:40 - 43:42] and fly off the horse, bro.
[43:42 - 43:44] So what makes you think you're gonna kick my ass?
[43:44 - 43:46] You couldn't even beat the horse.
[43:46 - 43:48] Because I'm stronger than you, dawg.
[43:48 - 43:50] I'm so much stronger than you.
[43:50 - 43:52] Look how strong I am.
[43:52 - 43:54] Look how strong I am.
[43:54 - 43:56] Look how strong I am.
[43:56 - 43:59] What are you guys doing?
[43:59 - 44:02] Look how strong I am.
[44:02 - 44:04] Hey, yo, Axel, show us now what's really up.
[44:04 - 44:06] I like him, man.
[44:06 - 44:08] I like him.
[44:08 - 44:10] What's your deal, bro?
[44:10 - 44:12] Why you feel like you gotta
[44:12 - 44:14] fucking run your mother about it?
[44:14 - 44:16] Let me tell you something, dude.
[44:16 - 44:18] Doing that kind of shit like you're doing that.
[44:18 - 44:20] I can talk down to mother fuckers, dawg.
[44:20 - 44:22] Can I fucking talk for a second?
[44:22 - 44:24] Yeah, go ahead.
[44:24 - 44:26] He's just playing with you, man.
[44:26 - 44:28] I'm a real fucking deal, dawg.
[44:28 - 44:30] Maybe you are, dawg.
[44:30 - 44:32] I can talk down to mother fuckers,
[44:32 - 44:34] because I'm the real mother fucking deal.
[44:34 - 44:36] Yeah, dawg.
[44:36 - 44:38] Bro, you're such a deal, dude.
[44:38 - 44:40] I know what you're doing, dude.
[44:40 - 44:42] Oh, I get what he's doing, but dude,
[44:42 - 44:44] you're making yourself a deal.
[44:44 - 44:46] Sorry, dude.
[44:46 - 44:48] Sorry, I get that.
[44:48 - 44:50] I look cooler than anything, dawg.
[44:50 - 44:52] I am the coolest thing that's ever graced the planet.
[44:52 - 44:54] The only thing that's certified cool.
[44:54 - 44:56] And I make the best music, dawg.
[44:56 - 44:58] You type in my mother fucking album, dawg,
[44:58 - 45:00] I'm the fucking mixtape, you know what I'm saying?
[45:00 - 45:02] Come on, dawg. Real Tyrese Sneed Mixtape, dawg.
[45:02 - 45:04] Come on, dawg.
[45:04 - 45:06] I got the police bumping my shit.
[45:06 - 45:08] They're afraid to pull up.
[45:08 - 45:10] They tried to pull up. I kicked their ass.
[45:10 - 45:12] And now I wander the streets of Wisconsin
[45:12 - 45:14] Green Bay, kicking everybody else's ass.
[45:14 - 45:16] So what does that make me?
[45:16 - 45:18] That makes me a champion, doesn't it?
[45:18 - 45:20] Terry, let me put you on me for a minute.
[45:20 - 45:22] Correct.
[45:22 - 45:24] What's up, man?
[45:24 - 45:26] Dude, do what you gotta do, bud.
[45:26 - 45:28] Right.
[45:28 - 45:30] And I do respect the hustle, but dude.
[45:30 - 45:32] And my thing about it is this, man.
[45:32 - 45:34] Don't give me the fucking finger, all right?
[45:34 - 45:36] Thank you.
[45:36 - 45:38] Right.
[45:38 - 45:40] That's it.
[45:40 - 45:42] That's it.
[45:42 - 45:44] This is no disrespect towards you at all.
[45:44 - 45:46] Just hold this for a second.
[45:46 - 45:48] And...
[45:48 - 45:50] I was trying to show the guy respect.
[45:50 - 45:52] And, you know, he's funny, you know?
[45:52 - 45:54] Right.
[45:54 - 45:56] And, you know, I like that.
[45:56 - 45:58] I like to be made less, you know?
[45:58 - 46:00] Right.
[46:00 - 46:02] And just when it comes to guys like him that like...
[46:02 - 46:04] And this is what I find so interesting about guys like him.
[46:04 - 46:06] It doesn't matter.
[46:06 - 46:08] He's cool.
[46:08 - 46:10] I like him.
[46:10 - 46:12] Right.
[46:12 - 46:14] And the point I was trying to make though is this.
[46:14 - 46:16] Like, I see guys like him all the time.
[46:16 - 46:18] Like, they claim that they're, you know,
[46:18 - 46:20] a music artist.
[46:20 - 46:22] But yet, you know,
[46:22 - 46:24] a music artist, but yet,
[46:24 - 46:26] they don't have any music to show.
[46:26 - 46:28] They don't have their shit up.
[46:28 - 46:30] So, bro, how you guys said they're calling yourself a music artist
[46:30 - 46:32] when you ain't got no fucking music up?
[46:32 - 46:34] I mean, you're like, come on now.
[46:34 - 46:36] Like, if you're an artist...
[46:36 - 46:38] Dude, dude.
[46:38 - 46:40] He was just trying to play with you, man.
[46:40 - 46:42] That's all.
[46:42 - 46:44] Yo, Warlord.
[46:44 - 46:46] Yo, Warlord, get your hands up in here, bro.
[46:46 - 46:48] He was just trying to be funny, man.
[46:48 - 46:50] That's cool.
[46:50 - 46:52] Yo, Warlord.
[46:52 - 46:54] Get your hands up here, bro.
[46:54 - 46:56] Who I know though?
[46:56 - 46:58] It's been a minute, bro. How they know you've been, bro?
[46:58 - 47:00] What's good? How you been, man?
[47:00 - 47:11] What's up?
[47:11 - 47:14] Yeah.
[47:14 - 47:16] You see this comment right here, dude?
[47:16 - 47:18] This is Terry, dude.
[47:18 - 47:20] He's like, yo, you're...
[47:20 - 47:23] Oh, it's fucking Terry, dude.
[47:23 - 47:25] He's like, Axel's in a fucking game, bro.
[47:25 - 47:27] Like, what?
[47:27 - 47:29] I don't think the dude's in a game.
[47:29 - 47:31] I just lived...
[47:31 - 47:33] I'm at the lake right now.
[47:33 - 47:35] Oh, yeah, so you are in a camper, then?
[47:35 - 47:37] Yeah, I'm at the lake right now.
[47:37 - 47:39] I'm in a 38-foot
[47:39 - 47:41] uh,
[47:41 - 47:45] foot-line camper.
[47:45 - 47:47] $20,000.
[47:47 - 47:49] Yeah.
[47:49 - 47:51] Yeah, I'm at a camper.
[47:51 - 47:53] Oh, man. So he's not wrong, then?
[47:53 - 47:55] Okay.
[47:55 - 47:57] Would you caucus suckers like me go wake
[47:57 - 47:59] my son's mother and my son up
[47:59 - 48:01] to show you that my family here
[48:01 - 48:09] at a camper?
[48:09 - 48:11] Would you let me wake my son
[48:11 - 48:13] and my son's mother up
[48:13 - 48:15] to sleep in the bed?
[48:15 - 48:17] Yeah, that's the last thing.
[48:17 - 48:19] I'm in a 38-foot fucking camper.
[48:19 - 48:22] Yeah, yeah, I am.
[48:22 - 48:24] Right? And that's the last thing
[48:24 - 48:26] is you're waking your kid and wife up, dude,
[48:26 - 48:28] like that, that.
[48:28 - 48:30] I wouldn't want to wake up in that.
[48:30 - 48:32] No, no, I'm not going to do that.
[48:32 - 48:34] But, you know...
[48:34 - 48:36] These little caucus suckers,
[48:36 - 48:41] you know, it's
[48:41 - 48:43] my camper
[48:43 - 48:45] is probably bigger than most of their fucking baby,
[48:45 - 48:47] you know, so
[48:47 - 48:49] I have a $200,000 home.
[48:49 - 48:51] I have a nice home.
[48:51 - 48:53] Go check my channel out and you fucking see that.
[48:53 - 48:55] Yeah, I have seen it, dude.
[48:55 - 48:57] Dude, that place looks nice as hell, man.
[48:57 - 48:59] Not going to lie. It's a nice-sized house.
[48:59 - 49:01] Yeah.
[49:01 - 49:03] You see my home.
[49:03 - 49:05] It's beautiful, man.
[49:05 - 49:07] Not going to lie, bro. It's fucking beautiful.
[49:07 - 49:09] Yeah, I am.
[49:09 - 49:11] You got a problem with that?
[49:11 - 49:13] Bro, you're talking to a guy
[49:13 - 49:15] who was out of the black with his normal scars,
[49:15 - 49:17] so, like,
[49:17 - 49:21] I'm used to it.
[49:21 - 49:23] There are caucus suckers.
[49:23 - 49:25] Go around there
[49:25 - 49:27] and knock on my fucking door, sir.
[49:27 - 49:29] I'll do to you.
[49:31 - 49:33] I hope you all, like I said, that is...
[49:33 - 49:35] I hope you all are ready to meet your maker, man.
[49:35 - 49:37] Go ahead and fucking drive.
[49:37 - 49:39] I'm sleeping in a...
[49:39 - 49:41] Yeah, I'm sleeping in a fucking camper
[49:41 - 49:43] because it's the fucking weekend, caucus suckers.
[49:43 - 49:45] I was down in the river
[49:45 - 49:47] after working three fucking weeks,
[49:47 - 49:49] seven days a week, 12 hours of fucking day.
[49:49 - 49:51] Yeah, my family
[49:51 - 49:53] and me is at the campground.
[49:53 - 49:55] Okay? Oh, yeah.
[49:55 - 49:57] Yeah, that's all I'm asking.
[49:57 - 49:59] $1 a month for this campground site.
[49:59 - 50:01] So, fuck you all that shit.
[50:01 - 50:03] Wait, wait, wait. I'm going to look at this comment
[50:03 - 50:05] and I'm going to say this little caucus sucker
[50:05 - 50:07] that accuses me of...
[50:07 - 50:09] You said I was in the camper.
[50:09 - 50:11] That's good.
[50:11 - 50:13] Yes, I am in the camper.
[50:13 - 50:17] Oh, yeah.
[50:17 - 50:19] And, yo, Axel, like I was telling you, man,
[50:19 - 50:21] and I know you agree with this, man.
[50:21 - 50:23] Anybody comes up with the wrong intentions?
[50:23 - 50:25] All I got to say is
[50:25 - 50:27] they better be ready to meet their maker, man.
[50:27 - 50:29] Yeah, Terry, Terry,
[50:29 - 50:31] Decker, how do you pronounce that?
[50:31 - 50:33] Decker.
[50:33 - 50:35] How do you pronounce that?
[50:35 - 50:37] Yeah, yeah, I'm at a fucking camper.
[50:37 - 50:39] Let's go, what?
[50:39 - 50:42] Where are you at?
[50:42 - 50:44] Where in the fuck are you at?
[50:44 - 50:46] Right, exactly, dude.
[50:46 - 50:52] One of your fucking bedrooms,
[50:52 - 50:54] I can guarantee you that.
[50:54 - 50:56] Right.
[50:56 - 50:58] You better do your fucking research,
[50:58 - 51:00] caucus suckers.
[51:00 - 51:03] Exactly.
[51:03 - 51:05] And that's the one thing that, you know,
[51:05 - 51:07] that's the one thing that does irritate me
[51:07 - 51:09] like a lot of people do on YouTube.
[51:09 - 51:11] I'll see them attacking somebody,
[51:11 - 51:13] but when they attack somebody,
[51:13 - 51:15] they never do their fucking research.
[51:15 - 51:17] Like, dude, if you're going to take a jab
[51:17 - 51:19] at somebody, do your research.
[51:19 - 51:21] Hold on.
[51:21 - 51:49] All right, bro, if you're going to attack somebody,
[51:49 - 51:51] man, do your goddamn homework first,
[51:51 - 51:53] bro.
[51:53 - 52:47] Man, they're coming back in.
[52:47 - 52:49] Hey, dude, your mic's off.
[52:49 - 52:53] Hey, what's up, man?
[52:53 - 52:59] Yo, what's up, man?
[52:59 - 53:05] I was talking to my brother.
[53:05 - 53:07] So,
[53:07 - 53:19] so what you got to say,
[53:19 - 53:21] go ahead and
[53:21 - 53:23] go ahead and bring some other people up here
[53:23 - 53:25] and tell them
[53:25 - 53:27] what they got to say.
[53:27 - 53:39] So,
[53:39 - 53:41] if anybody has anything they want to say,
[53:41 - 53:43] speak your piece
[53:43 - 53:45] so we can move past this shit so that,
[53:45 - 53:47] you know, I can do shit
[53:47 - 53:49] that I need to do to get to where I need to be, man.
[53:49 - 53:51] So,
[53:51 - 53:53] y'all only got one shot at this shit, man.
[53:53 - 53:55] So, y'all better make a count.
[53:55 - 54:03] Just saying.
[54:03 - 54:05] I'm basically giving you guys a free shot
[54:05 - 54:07] to freaking talk shit
[54:07 - 54:09] or see what you got to say.
[54:09 - 54:15] So, come on up.
[54:15 - 54:17] Yo, Spawn, come on up, man.
[54:17 - 54:19] And you better not be no poor mom shit either,
[54:19 - 54:22] motherfucker, because I know how you get.
[54:22 - 54:24] So, come on up, Spawn.
[54:24 - 54:26] You got to tell me what to say, homie.
[54:26 - 54:29] As long as there ain't no poor mom
[54:29 - 54:31] bullshit or whatever.
[54:31 - 54:33] Say whatever it is you got to say, man.
[54:33 - 54:38] We got a live up in here again.
[54:38 - 54:40] Yo.
[54:40 - 54:45] Chad.
[54:45 - 54:48] What's up?
[54:48 - 54:50] Chad.
[54:50 - 54:52] Yo.
[54:52 - 54:54] What you going to work on?
[54:54 - 54:56] Hold on, man.
[54:56 - 55:00] Hold that thought one minute.
[55:00 - 55:05] One minute, guys.
[55:05 - 55:08] One minute, guys.
[55:08 - 55:13] Yes, yes.
[55:13 - 55:23] Actually, you're really pissing a lot of people off, buddy.
[55:23 - 55:25] You know what you're doing?
[55:25 - 55:29] I'll do that, but okay.
[55:29 - 55:46] What did you have to say to me, man?
[55:46 - 55:51] What's good?
[55:51 - 55:53] Chance, this is your stream, buddy.
[55:53 - 55:55] You got a veteran Christian soldier here.
[55:55 - 55:57] What's going to help you be a better man
[55:57 - 55:59] and not prey on children?
[55:59 - 56:01] What's the first step for you?
[56:01 - 56:03] You honestly want to know what the first step
[56:03 - 56:05] for me is, dude?
[56:05 - 56:07] Like I said, I admit in my wrongs
[56:07 - 56:09] and honestly, dude, for me,
[56:09 - 56:11] it's, you know,
[56:11 - 56:13] moving past that and essentially,
[56:13 - 56:15] you know, get on my stone
[56:15 - 56:17] back on track to where I
[56:17 - 56:19] essentially was before all of this.
[56:19 - 56:21] So, like, and I know
[56:21 - 56:23] that a lot of people are going to be like,
[56:23 - 56:25] oh, but you need to do this.
[56:25 - 56:27] You need to go here and know.
[56:27 - 56:29] I need to know.
[56:29 - 56:31] You know what you're talking about?
[56:31 - 56:33] Bingo.
[56:33 - 56:35] You say the same thing.
[56:35 - 56:37] Hold on, man.
[56:37 - 56:39] What I need is guys like this dude
[56:39 - 56:41] right here
[56:41 - 56:43] and people like that have actually
[56:43 - 56:45] tried to look out for me.
[56:45 - 56:47] That's the kind of people I need to be surrounded with, dude.
[56:47 - 56:49] For the last year and a half, man,
[56:49 - 56:51] I've been surrounded by the wrong fucking people.
[56:51 - 56:53] Mark, do you know anything about
[56:53 - 56:55] Axl or who he is or where he's from
[56:55 - 56:57] or just the bullshit he told you all the time?
[56:57 - 56:59] Oh, dude, no.
[56:59 - 57:01] I actually have him on Facebook.
[57:01 - 57:03] I've actually seen him on Facebook.
[57:03 - 57:05] So I do know him, man.
[57:05 - 57:07] I've spoken with the guy quite a bit.
[57:07 - 57:09] Man, let me tell you, man.
[57:09 - 57:11] Once you get to know this guy,
[57:11 - 57:13] he's one of the coolest motherfuckers you'll ever meet, man.
[57:13 - 57:15] You know everybody you talk to
[57:15 - 57:17] and associate with
[57:17 - 57:19] fuck with, right?
[57:19 - 57:21] You really put Axl on the bind here.
[57:21 - 57:23] This guy has a family.
[57:23 - 57:25] He's obviously from...
[57:25 - 57:27] You're doing to this guy.
[57:27 - 57:29] Read your chest though, right?
[57:29 - 57:31] Oh, I do read this guy.
[57:31 - 57:33] Let me ask you this.
[57:33 - 57:35] How did I put him in a bind?
[57:35 - 57:37] He's the one that stuff doesn't decide to help me out.
[57:37 - 57:39] That's not on me.
[57:39 - 57:41] Fuck him though, what's wrong with him?
[57:41 - 57:43] He's probably seen some fucked up shit
[57:43 - 57:45] and he's feeling bad for you,
[57:45 - 57:47] but you're taking advantage of it.
[57:47 - 57:49] I'm not taking advantage of nothing, bro.
[57:49 - 57:51] I'm really not taking advantage of everything.
[57:51 - 57:53] This is what I find interesting
[57:53 - 57:55] about guys like you, man.
[57:55 - 57:57] Y'all see the things that I have
[57:57 - 57:59] that I have this thing of
[57:59 - 58:01] taking advantage of people
[58:01 - 58:03] and doing this and doing that,
[58:03 - 58:05] I'm not it.
[58:05 - 58:07] I'm trying to surround myself
[58:07 - 58:09] with the right people like Axl
[58:09 - 58:11] who are genuinely trying to help me,
[58:11 - 58:13] but when people like y'all keep
[58:13 - 58:15] bringing up my past,
[58:15 - 58:17] how does that help me move forward?
[58:17 - 58:19] How does bringing up my past
[58:19 - 58:21] help me move forward?
[58:21 - 58:23] That just holds me back.
[58:23 - 58:25] That just holds me back, dude.
[58:25 - 58:27] Like, what if you see my past
[58:27 - 58:29] don't move forward?
[58:29 - 58:31] Ends up getting docks to harass.
[58:31 - 58:33] Dude, that wasn't on me, bro.
[58:33 - 58:35] That was not on me.
[58:35 - 58:37] Getting docks.
[58:37 - 58:39] Getting docks to harass.
[58:39 - 58:41] Getting docks to harass.
[58:43 - 58:45] Alright, let me say right now
[58:45 - 58:47] I have no hatred towards you
[58:47 - 58:49] on Harvard.
[58:49 - 58:51] I am going to say this, bro.
[58:51 - 58:53] I am going to say this, bro.
[58:53 - 58:55] I am going to say this, bro.
[58:55 - 58:57] I'm going to say a fucking word, dude.
[58:57 - 58:59] Listen, all I was trying to fucking do
[58:59 - 59:01] was help you.
[59:01 - 59:03] I know that.
[59:03 - 59:05] You're good, buddy.
[59:05 - 59:07] Don't waste your time.
[59:07 - 59:09] Listen,
[59:09 - 59:11] let me fucking five minutes.
[59:11 - 59:13] Please?
[59:13 - 59:15] Fucking cocksuckers in the fucking comments
[59:15 - 59:17] that you're going to try to
[59:17 - 59:19] talk shit
[59:19 - 59:21] and run your fucking mouse.
[59:21 - 59:23] You can say what you want
[59:23 - 59:25] and dig up what you want,
[59:25 - 59:27] and I know who I am
[59:27 - 59:29] and what I did.
[59:29 - 59:31] And...
[59:31 - 59:33] Nah.
[59:33 - 59:35] Are you fucking Spawn?
[59:35 - 59:39] Am I what?
[59:39 - 59:41] Spawn?
[59:41 - 59:43] Are you that fucking Spawn
[59:43 - 59:45]
2021-9-17 STANDING UP FOR A FRIEND

2021-9-17 STANDING UP FOR A FRIEND

[0:01 - 0:09] I would just sit here and play some games and I'm just chillin' and relaxin'
[0:09 - 0:22] I came across some shit that I'm not too happy about
[0:22 - 0:34] And let me tell you something, it pisses me the fuck off
[0:34 - 0:46] Like, I'm not too happy about what, you know, I have to say
[0:46 - 0:54] I found out who the fuck has been goin' after my dude Axl
[0:54 - 1:05] I'm gonna tell you to that little bitch ass William Glory hole in your little friends
[1:05 - 1:08] You need to step off
[1:08 - 1:14] Now if you guys don't know the whole situation of what these people are trying to do
[1:14 - 1:26] If you guys don't know what these people are trying to do
[1:26 - 1:31] They're essentially trying to attack me and bully me
[1:31 - 1:35] And what they're doing is wrong
[1:35 - 1:42] As you guys know Axl has stood up for me many times
[1:44 - 1:48] But these people go after those that stand up for me
[1:48 - 1:57] Because they know that people like Axl are a threat to what they're trying to do to me
[1:57 - 2:01] These people are trying to ruin my life
[2:01 - 2:06] They are trying to keep me held down because they want me to suffer
[2:06 - 2:10] And with people like Axl getting involved
[2:17 - 2:21] With people like Axl getting involved and stepping up for me
[2:21 - 2:25] And actually standing up for me, these people don't like that
[2:25 - 2:28] I know motherfuckers like Vape
[2:28 - 2:34] And people like, you know, William Glory hole
[2:34 - 2:37] I know what you guys are about
[2:37 - 2:40] You guys wanna screw with me
[2:40 - 2:46] You guys want to keep me held back
[2:46 - 2:52] And I in good conscience and in good faith
[2:52 - 3:05] Cannot sit by and watch you guys do this shit to him
[3:05 - 3:11] Let me tell you something right now
[3:11 - 3:13] Let me tell you motherfuckers something
[3:13 - 3:20] I've seen photos and I've seen videos of him with his son
[3:20 - 3:24] And let me tell you, he's an amazing fucking father
[3:24 - 3:28] He does something that most parents wouldn't even do nowadays
[3:28 - 3:35] Most dads aren't even there for their kids nowadays
[3:35 - 3:37] And that's just the sad truth
[3:37 - 3:45] But this man stands up for his fucking kids
[3:45 - 3:48] This man takes care of his son
[3:48 - 3:57] This man is trying to do right by me
[3:57 - 4:03] And steer me in the right direction away from the bullshit
[4:03 - 4:10] And I'm telling you motherfuckers right now
[4:10 - 4:13] Y'all need to quit blackmailing people
[4:13 - 4:20] Send their saying that oh, if you don't cut ties with him
[4:20 - 4:23] Things are gonna be bad for you
[4:23 - 4:28] Nobody gives a fuck what you morons fucking think
[4:28 - 4:35] Alright, Axel sure as fuck don't give a shit
[4:35 - 4:40] Let me tell you something man
[4:40 - 4:49] People like Axel and Saren and Debbie are very hard to come by
[4:49 - 4:56] Those kind of people are very fucking hard to come by
[4:56 - 4:59] Because too many people are afraid to stand up for me
[4:59 - 5:01] Because of what these fucking assholes doing
[5:01 - 5:03] I'm honestly sick of it
[5:03 - 5:08] I want more people to be able to stand up for people like myself
[5:08 - 5:21] Because there's a lot of YouTubers out there
[5:21 - 5:24] That get trolled and get bullied
[5:24 - 5:28] The same way that I've gotten trolled and bullied
[5:28 - 5:32] Now as I said, yes, what I did was wrong
[5:32 - 5:34] And there's no denying it
[5:34 - 5:38] There's no denying what I did was wrong
[5:38 - 5:44] And I accept that and I do take responsibility for that
[5:44 - 5:49] But y'all going after my dude like that
[5:49 - 5:50] That ain't cool
[5:50 - 5:55] And it's not fucking cute
[5:55 - 5:57] And it's not funny
[5:57 - 6:15] Zippy, I don't need to say what I did because everybody knows
[6:15 - 6:20] Alright, I done said what I did a million times over
[6:20 - 6:22] I don't need to say it again
[6:22 - 6:25] And I'm not gonna say it again
[6:25 - 6:28] I've had to repeat it for the last five months
[6:28 - 6:32] And I'm honestly sick of it
[6:32 - 6:34] Let me tell you something man
[6:34 - 6:37] Axel served our country overseas
[6:37 - 6:47] Fought in the middle of a fucking war
[6:47 - 6:57] This man put his life on the line
[6:57 - 7:02] This man put his fucking life on the goddamn line for this country
[7:02 - 7:15] I truthfully believe the man deserves some fucking respect
[7:15 - 7:20] He doesn't deserve to be attacked
[7:20 - 7:25] He doesn't deserve the harassment you fucking trolls give him
[7:25 - 7:27] He doesn't deserve that
[7:27 - 7:29] So what?
[7:29 - 7:32] He wants to help me be a better person
[7:32 - 7:42] Is there anything wrong with that?
[7:42 - 7:46] Is there anything wrong with him actually wanting to try to
[7:46 - 7:48] Help me to be a better person?
[7:48 - 7:52] Is there anything wrong with that?
[7:52 - 7:54] Because let me tell y'all something man
[7:54 - 7:58] I know this guy personally outside of YouTube
[7:58 - 8:01] I've spoken with this man on Facebook
[8:01 - 8:05] One to one through FaceTime with my family right there
[8:05 - 8:09] And let me tell you something
[8:09 - 8:13] This guy genuinely wants to fucking help me out
[8:13 - 8:17] Because he's honestly sick and tired of seeing what I'm getting put through
[8:17 - 8:19] And I don't blame him
[8:19 - 8:22] But you dumb fuck trolls
[8:22 - 8:24] Coming in and doing what you're doing to him
[8:24 - 8:26] Is bullshit
[8:26 - 8:31] This man put his life on the fucking line for you guys every day
[8:31 - 8:37] He served this country and put his life on the line for you guys
[8:37 - 8:42] The least you can fucking do is show the man some god damn respect
[8:42 - 8:51] And quit going after people like him who stand up for me
[8:51 - 8:55] Regardless of what I did
[8:55 - 8:58] That doesn't give you the fucking right
[8:58 - 9:03] To go after somebody that's trying to genuinely change his ways
[9:03 - 9:06] And help me
[9:06 - 9:08] That does not give you that right
[9:08 - 9:25] I didn't say you did Zigg
[9:25 - 9:27] This motherfucker knows who he is
[9:27 - 9:30] This son of a bitch knows who he is
[9:30 - 9:41] This motherfucker attacked Axel's six year old son
[9:41 - 9:44] And that's not cool
[9:44 - 9:48] For you to go after somebody that's trying to defend me
[9:48 - 9:50] And trying to help me
[9:50 - 10:24] You need to fuck off
[10:24 - 10:27] You know this man has done a lot for me
[10:27 - 10:35] Alright this man has given me new ideas that I never thought were possible
[10:35 - 10:40] He's actually opened my eyes to ideas that I've had rolling around in my head
[10:40 - 10:43] But never got to put the use of this man
[10:43 - 10:48] Has actually motivated me to actually do shit that I used to do
[10:48 - 10:55] This man genuinely wants to get me away from this cesspool of bullshit
[10:55 - 10:58] That y'all trolls and families stuck in
[10:58 - 11:05] For the last fucking five months
[11:05 - 11:07] I get that what I did was fucked up
[11:07 - 11:16] But that doesn't mean I shouldn't be allowed to move past it
[11:16 - 11:19] I'm getting ready to be 31 years old here on the 20th
[11:19 - 11:22] I don't mean this shit
[11:22 - 11:29] I mean you guys claim you're adults but you act like fucking high school bitches
[11:29 - 11:33] Y'all act like a bunch of whiny ass, crabby ass
[11:33 - 11:37] Fucking period having ass high school bitches
[11:37 - 11:40] Why don't you start motherfucking PMS in
[11:40 - 11:45] And stick that goddamn tampon up your ass and shut the fuck up
[11:45 - 11:47] And quit acting like a goddamn pussy
[11:47 - 12:02] Like seriously man
[12:02 - 12:12] Y'all need to quit the garbage
[12:12 - 12:15] Like I told y'all in the fucking song that I released
[12:15 - 12:19] Called Lost Soul
[12:19 - 12:22] That song that I released Lost Soul
[12:22 - 12:25] Was about all the shit you motherfuckers that put me through
[12:25 - 12:29] And what I've dealt with for the last five fucking months
[12:29 - 12:40] So when I told y'all trolls that yeah
[12:40 - 12:42] When I said those lyrics
[12:42 - 12:46] Every day I wake up feeling like a monster
[12:46 - 12:49] But guess what, you're the ones that made me this way
[12:49 - 12:53] That's true
[12:53 - 12:56] Those lyrics are very fucking true
[12:56 - 13:05] You monsters did make me this way
[13:05 - 13:09] For the last two and a half years y'all have attacked me
[13:09 - 13:11] Bullied me
[13:11 - 13:21] Turned me into something that I never wanted to be
[13:21 - 13:25] You want to know what Axel's getting out of helping me dude
[13:25 - 13:30] You really want to know
[13:30 - 13:33] He gets the chance to do something good
[13:33 - 13:36] I sat down and I spoke with him about this
[13:36 - 13:40] And he doesn't want anything but what's best for me
[13:40 - 13:45] He doesn't want anything but for me to actually be the best person that I can be
[13:45 - 13:47] And that's all he wants
[13:47 - 13:55] Just like he wants me to be better and do better
[13:55 - 13:58] I want him to be able to do better
[13:58 - 14:01] He even admitted that he like
[14:01 - 14:04] He admitted on here and to me personally that
[14:04 - 14:07] He's done some fucked up shit
[14:07 - 14:09] He admits that
[14:09 - 14:13] Like he said we are all fucking human
[14:13 - 14:15] We're all humans
[14:15 - 14:23] And we always have such a short amount of time on this fucking earth
[14:23 - 14:26] So instead of being negative toward each other
[14:26 - 14:29] Why don't we treat each other with fucking compassion
[14:29 - 14:33] Respect, kindness, love, understanding
[14:33 - 14:39] Why can't y'all do that
[14:39 - 14:46] Why not be more understanding about shit
[14:46 - 14:51] Why not, you know, stop this negative bullshit
[14:51 - 14:54] That y'all got going on
[14:54 - 15:06] It's stupid
[15:06 - 15:09] And let me tell you right now, I don't need to be committed
[15:09 - 15:11] I really don't
[15:11 - 15:22] You know what I told Axel when I was talking to him earlier
[15:22 - 15:31] Me and this man sat down and we had like literally a fucking four hour conversation
[15:31 - 15:36] Me and this man sat down and had a four hour conversation after I helped out
[15:36 - 15:41] I helped out the live stream, took a shower, relaxed
[15:41 - 15:44] And for those next four hours me and him talked
[15:44 - 15:53] About a lot of shit, we actually got to know each other a little bit more
[15:53 - 15:59] You know, this man wants to see me succeed
[15:59 - 16:07] This man flat out told me that he wants to see me succeed
[16:07 - 16:13] He wants me to do better
[16:13 - 16:16] He wants to see me be successful
[16:16 - 16:19] Because he sees what I'm capable of
[16:19 - 16:45] He sees my potential
[16:45 - 16:54] He sees what I can genuinely do
[16:54 - 16:59] Let me tell you right now
[16:59 - 17:01] Me and Axel are a lot alike
[17:01 - 17:05] He's done some fucked up shit
[17:05 - 17:08] I've done some fucked up shit
[17:08 - 17:11] I've done a lot of screwed up shit
[17:11 - 17:14] Just like he has and just like all of us have
[17:14 - 17:18] We are not perfect
[17:18 - 17:24] But for you guys to run your fucking mouths
[17:24 - 17:29] And try to blackmail people who stand up for me
[17:29 - 17:32] You motherfuckers are the ones that need to be committed
[17:32 - 17:39] Let me tell you something
[17:39 - 17:42] When I talked to this man and he agrees
[17:42 - 17:46] He agrees with what I said to him
[17:46 - 17:50] I sat down and I told him I was like you know what I really need
[17:50 - 17:53] And he asked me what
[17:53 - 17:56] And I straight out told him what I need
[17:56 - 17:59] Is the right fucking guidance
[17:59 - 18:02] In my life I need to surround myself
[18:02 - 18:06] With like minded people who want to see me succeed
[18:06 - 18:08] Who want to see me do better
[18:08 - 18:13] And he agrees
[18:13 - 18:17] He agrees that I need to have the right people surrounding me
[18:17 - 18:21] Because if I have the right people surrounding me
[18:21 - 18:24] I can actually get to where I want to be
[18:24 - 18:26] And I won't be held back
[18:26 - 18:40] And to be honest with you I'm honestly sick and tired
[18:40 - 18:44] Of being held back to my motherfucking past
[18:44 - 18:46] What I did was wrong, yeah
[18:46 - 18:53] But you see all that empty space behind me
[18:53 - 18:55] Throw the past back there
[18:55 - 18:58] Throw it the fuck away
[18:58 - 19:00] Leave the past in the past
[19:00 - 19:03] Put it behind y'all
[19:03 - 19:05] Put it behind yourselves
[19:05 - 19:20] Leave the past in the motherfucking past
[19:20 - 19:23] Leave that shit the fuck alone
[19:23 - 19:27] Alright, yes I've done a lot of fucked up shit
[19:27 - 19:30] Yeah I went to jail for hurting a family member
[19:30 - 19:33] Yes I got out the next fucking day
[19:33 - 19:37] Yes I went to see a counselor and it fucking worked
[19:37 - 19:41] Yes I may have fallen for a fucking catfish
[19:41 - 19:45] So what?
[19:45 - 19:51] We're all human and we all make fucking mistakes
[19:51 - 19:56] But that doesn't mean we should have to be bound to our mistakes for the rest of our lives
[19:56 - 20:03] And I'll be damned if I sit here and let you bitch ass trolls
[20:03 - 20:07] Go after somebody who's family to me
[20:07 - 20:13] This man served in the military and served his country
[20:13 - 20:17] This man just like my dad was army
[20:17 - 20:23] Me and this man are tied together by bond
[20:23 - 20:30] This man served in the military
[20:30 - 20:35] I've had family members including my dad that served in the military
[20:35 - 20:43] And let me tell you right now man
[20:43 - 20:48] Just like he gave his life for me and all of us
[20:48 - 20:52] I would do the same for him or for any of you
[20:52 - 20:55] Even you trolls who hate on me
[20:55 - 20:59] I would give my life for any of you guys without question
[20:59 - 21:03] Without a second thought I would give my life for any of you guys
[21:03 - 21:06] For Axel anybody in the comments
[21:06 - 21:10] I would put my life on the line if it came down to it
[21:10 - 21:14] I know the sacrifices I know what it's like
[21:14 - 21:16] Because I've lived that life
[21:16 - 21:18] I've lived the military lifestyle
[21:18 - 21:21] I've had to watch my dad go on deployments
[21:21 - 21:25] And let me tell you those deployments are the hardest thing in the world
[21:25 - 21:28] Because when you're in a position like I was in
[21:28 - 21:31] You're constantly sitting there by the phone
[21:31 - 21:33] Wondering, waiting
[21:33 - 21:35] When are you gonna get the next phone call
[21:35 - 21:36] What's gonna happen
[21:36 - 21:40] You always have that fear in the back of your fucking mind
[21:40 - 21:43] That you're gonna get that fucking phone call
[21:43 - 21:45] That your loved one isn't coming back home
[21:45 - 21:53] You guys don't know how scary that shit actually is
[21:53 - 21:56] That shit is truly fucking scary
[21:56 - 21:59] I've had to deal with that with family members
[21:59 - 22:02] And with friends
[22:02 - 22:04] And trust me it's not easy
[22:04 - 22:07] The military lifestyle is not an easy lifestyle
[22:07 - 22:11] It's a very hard, very demanding lifestyle
[22:11 - 22:17] Physically and mentally and emotionally
[22:17 - 22:19] And for you guys to attack a man
[22:19 - 22:22] Who is doing right by his son
[22:22 - 22:25] And who is trying to change his way of life
[22:25 - 22:28] And actually help me
[22:28 - 22:31] You guys want to give him shit for that?
[22:31 - 22:32] Really?
[22:32 - 22:35] You motherfuckers want to sit there and give a man shit
[22:35 - 22:39] Who is genuinely trying to help me to be a better person
[22:39 - 22:43] Who is trying to help me create better fucking content
[22:43 - 22:46] Who is trying to help me succeed in life
[22:46 - 22:50] Who is trying to help me get everything I've ever wanted out of life
[22:50 - 22:54] How are you gonna hate on a man for trying to do that?
[22:54 - 22:56] How are you gonna sit there and hate on a man
[22:56 - 23:00] For trying to do right and try to help me
[23:00 - 23:04] Get in the right direction
[23:04 - 23:06] Because let me tell you
[23:06 - 23:09] My whole life I've never had that direction
[23:09 - 23:12] I never had my dad in my life
[23:12 - 23:14] Yeah sure my dad was military
[23:14 - 23:17] But he was never around
[23:17 - 23:19] My dad was never around
[23:19 - 23:21] My mom raised me on her own as a single parent
[23:21 - 23:24] My whole fucking life
[23:24 - 23:25] Okay?
[23:25 - 23:29] My whole life my mom raised me on her own
[23:29 - 23:31] Single mom
[23:31 - 23:33] No father figure in my life
[23:33 - 23:36] The closest thing I had to a fucking father figure
[23:36 - 23:39] Was my teacher as a kid named Mr. Smith
[23:39 - 23:42] He was the closest thing I had to a father figure
[23:42 - 23:45] And then when I got out of school
[23:45 - 23:47] Out of Roosevelt
[23:47 - 23:49] I had no father figure
[23:49 - 23:51] I had no one else
[23:51 - 23:53] All I had was my older brother
[23:53 - 23:55] And me and my mom's
[23:55 - 24:00] That's all I had
[24:00 - 24:02] Well yes I've got my stepdad
[24:02 - 24:04] And I'm very appreciative of him
[24:04 - 24:07] For being that father figure in my life
[24:07 - 24:09] But let me tell you man
[24:09 - 24:11] After I lost my older brother
[24:11 - 24:16] I didn't really have that brother figure in my life
[24:16 - 24:17] Alright?
[24:17 - 24:19] The only brother figures I've had in my life
[24:19 - 24:22] Are my best friend Matt
[24:22 - 24:24] Who I've had on this channel many times
[24:24 - 24:28] My best friend Jake from high school
[24:28 - 24:33] And who was my best friend Sean
[24:33 - 24:34] But guess what?
[24:34 - 24:36] When Sean left
[24:36 - 24:39] Axel stepped up
[24:39 - 24:41] Axel fucking stepped up
[24:41 - 24:46] And became that third figure in my fucking life
[24:46 - 24:49] So for you motherfuckers to go after him like that
[24:49 - 24:53] You need to back off
[24:53 - 24:55] You need to leave the man alone
[24:55 - 24:57] And you need to leave me and my friends and family
[24:57 - 24:59] To fuck alone
[24:59 - 25:02] Y'all need to stop going after people
[25:02 - 25:04] That try to stand up for me
[25:04 - 25:06] And who want me to be better
[25:06 - 25:08] I want to be better
[25:08 - 25:10] I want to do better content
[25:10 - 25:13] I want to be a better person
[25:13 - 25:16] But like I told that don't fuck alive and well
[25:16 - 25:18] How am I supposed to do that
[25:18 - 25:21] If I keep getting held back to my past
[25:21 - 25:24] I'm tired of being shackled to that shit
[25:24 - 25:27] I'm done with it
[25:27 - 25:31] I'm sick and tired of being shackled to my goddamn past
[25:31 - 25:33] I deserve to break away from it
[25:33 - 25:35] And be a better person
[25:35 - 25:42] I deserve to break away from that shit
[25:42 - 25:48] This man has so many ideas that I can do
[25:48 - 25:51] But yet y'all want to hold me to it
[25:51 - 26:04] Y'all want to hold me to that shit
[26:04 - 26:06] And I don't understand why
[26:06 - 26:10] Why do you guys feel like you have to hold me to it
[26:10 - 26:13] Like I should be bound up for the rest of my life
[26:13 - 26:15] Like a fucking prisoner
[26:15 - 26:18] Being tied down to my goddamn past
[26:18 - 26:23] I'm done with it dude
[26:23 - 26:25] I'm done with you motherfuckers
[26:25 - 26:27] Going after my friends and family
[26:27 - 26:29] And I'm fucking done
[26:29 - 26:32] With you stupid fuck bags
[26:32 - 26:44] Holding me to my past
[26:44 - 26:46] Cause let me tell you man
[26:46 - 26:50] In the past 48 hours that I've known Axel personally
[26:50 - 26:54] This man has shared more with me
[26:54 - 26:57] And opened my eyes to so much more that I can do
[26:57 - 27:02] This man showed me that I can be myself again
[27:02 - 27:04] This man opened up my eyes and showed me
[27:04 - 27:08] Hey, I can be myself again if I really wanted to
[27:08 - 27:10] And I want to get that back
[27:10 - 27:16] I want to get my life back
[27:16 - 27:23] I want to get my life back to where I once had it
[27:23 - 27:29] Back to the days when I did coffee and chill streams
[27:29 - 27:31] And wasn't being attacked
[27:31 - 27:34] Back to the days when I did gameplay videos
[27:34 - 27:37] On my DK Customs channel
[27:37 - 27:40] And my Retro Gamer channel
[27:40 - 27:44] And I put out good content that people enjoyed
[27:44 - 27:47] I was able to work on short films
[27:47 - 27:49] I was able to work on music videos
[27:49 - 27:52] I was able to do shit I enjoyed
[27:52 - 27:58] Yo Tess, what up?
[27:58 - 28:13] Like you know, I want to get back to those days man
[28:13 - 28:16] And Tess has seen what I can do
[28:16 - 28:19] Tess here knows me personally too
[28:19 - 28:21] She talks to this chick every fucking day
[28:21 - 28:23] She's cool as fuck
[28:23 - 28:25] She's one of the coolest people I've freaking know
[28:25 - 28:47] All I'm saying man
[28:47 - 28:51] Is that y'all need to quit going after this man and his family
[28:51 - 28:55] And y'all just need to quit the fucking crap
[28:55 - 29:00] Where you guys are trying to blackmail people who stand up for me
[29:00 - 29:02] It's not a good look for you
[29:02 - 29:05] It's stupid and it's childish
[29:05 - 29:10] Okay, I'm getting ready to be 31 years old here in a few days
[29:10 - 29:13] Alright, I'm a grown ass fucking adult
[29:13 - 29:18] I shouldn't have to deal with this drama shit
[29:18 - 29:37] I shouldn't have to deal with the bullshit that you fucking trolls do to me
[29:37 - 29:40] Or to Axel or his family
[29:40 - 29:48] Let me tell you man
[29:48 - 29:51] Axel has given more for his country
[29:51 - 29:53] Than half you motherfuckers
[29:53 - 30:02] That want to troll whatever do with your whole lives
[30:02 - 30:04] Okay, you guys know how
[30:04 - 30:08] For those of you that have friends and family that are military
[30:08 - 30:11] I know you guys know that oath
[30:11 - 30:14] I know you guys know the oath that
[30:14 - 30:19] You know, all of us as military family members
[30:19 - 30:22] Who are family members of someone in service
[30:22 - 30:25] And for those that aren't in service
[30:25 - 30:30] We all took that same fucking oath
[30:30 - 30:33] Just like Axel took an oath to defend America
[30:33 - 30:35] And to help people
[30:35 - 30:39] I took that same oath personally to help people like myself
[30:39 - 30:43] Who get bullied, who get put on the edge of suicide
[30:43 - 30:47] Who get attacked and get bullied
[30:47 - 30:52] Who get their lives ripped away from them just like I got mine ripped away
[30:52 - 31:07] Okay, no one deserves what you fucking trolls do
[31:07 - 31:13] It's not cool and it's not right
[31:13 - 31:18] How would you feel if someone did that to you?
[31:18 - 31:21] How would y'all feel if someone did that to you?
[31:21 - 31:33] Cause I tell you man, Axel nailed it on the head when I spoke to him earlier
[31:33 - 31:37] I have not had a very easy life
[31:37 - 31:40] I've lost friends and family
[31:40 - 31:43] People I care about the various things
[31:43 - 31:48] So I cannot say I dealt with a lot of shit in my life
[31:48 - 31:51] That most people shouldn't have to deal with
[31:51 - 32:04] It's not easy
[32:04 - 32:10] I mean come on, I faced death as a kid
[32:10 - 32:14] As a fucking baby I faced death the day I was born
[32:14 - 32:18] And fucking overcame it and won
[32:18 - 32:25] Not many people can say they've done that
[32:25 - 32:28] Only when I was born I was born very premature
[32:28 - 32:30] I was born one pound ten ounces
[32:30 - 32:35] I was very premature and was not supposed to live
[32:35 - 32:40] I was born with one kidney and one severely underdeveloped lung
[32:40 - 32:44] With skin so translucent that it would tear
[32:44 - 32:49] To where I had to be wrapped in fucking serene wrap
[32:49 - 32:55] And be put in a fucking incubator or back in an incubator for six months
[32:55 - 33:00] So I would say when I faced death as a baby
[33:00 - 33:04] I seriously faced it and fucking won
[33:04 - 33:07] I was not supposed to live
[33:07 - 33:12] But yet here I am almost 31 years later
[33:12 - 33:20] So yeah I have a very real story
[33:20 - 33:33] That not many can say they've done what I've done
[33:33 - 33:37] Not many can say they've stared death in the face
[33:37 - 33:55] And overcame it
[33:55 - 33:58] I'm one of the few that has done that
[33:58 - 34:01] I'm one of the very few in the world
[34:01 - 34:04] Who can genuinely say they've done that
[34:04 - 34:33] Let me share a video with you guys
[34:33 - 34:36] By the dudes at Redcon1
[34:36 - 34:38] Shout out to RC1MG man
[34:38 - 34:43] Let me show you guys
[34:43 - 35:11] Let me show you guys
[35:11 - 35:18] First hand
[35:18 - 35:21] What it's like to deal with deployments
[35:21 - 35:23] I want you guys to listen to the song
[35:23 - 35:29] And I do mean you know really listen to it
[35:29 - 35:32] Because what this man says in this song
[35:32 - 35:34] Shout out to S.DotHouse
[35:34 - 35:41] What's up bro
[35:41 - 35:43] I want you all to listen to this song
[35:43 - 35:45] Because this is what people like him
[35:45 - 35:47] And like what I've dealt with
[35:47 - 35:50] Going through deployments overseas
[35:50 - 35:52] I want you guys to listen to this shit
[35:52 - 36:00] I gotta go
[36:00 - 36:01] I got to
[36:01 - 36:03] Redcon1 music
[36:03 - 36:04] Yeah
[36:04 - 36:05] Something's hurting
[36:05 - 36:06] Hey I'm shaking
[36:06 - 36:07] I'm so nervous
[36:07 - 36:08] But on the surface
[36:08 - 36:10] I gotta stick on my cane
[36:10 - 36:11] Show it
[36:11 - 36:12] We all hit it in the danger
[36:12 - 36:13] Man that we all know it
[36:13 - 36:15] I see my family behind me
[36:15 - 36:17] But I keep going
[36:17 - 36:18] This shit is over
[36:18 - 36:19] Yo I ain't get drafted
[36:19 - 36:20] I signed up
[36:20 - 36:21] So eventually
[36:21 - 36:22] I knew it
[36:22 - 36:23] We're having this on me
[36:23 - 36:24] My second tour
[36:24 - 36:25] But yo it feels like the first
[36:25 - 36:27] So I'm praying for the best
[36:27 - 36:28] But I'm prepared for the first
[36:28 - 36:30] I'm just another young soldier
[36:30 - 36:32] With a chip on this shoulder
[36:32 - 36:34] The mind of an old wise man
[36:34 - 36:35] Like yo
[36:35 - 36:36] Put me on the front line
[36:36 - 36:37] I get it
[36:37 - 36:38] Pop it like so
[36:38 - 36:39] Ain't anybody in my way
[36:39 - 36:40] I stretch them out
[36:40 - 36:41] Like yo
[36:41 - 36:42] Yeah
[36:42 - 36:43] I said I'm ready
[36:43 - 36:44] For whatever lies ahead
[36:44 - 36:45] Where they would be
[36:45 - 36:46] Missing my amable
[36:46 - 36:47] It's flying past my head
[36:47 - 36:48] I got a strong will
[36:48 - 36:49] Yeah
[36:49 - 36:50] So I keep on moving
[36:50 - 36:52] I don't know about you
[36:52 - 36:54] But dawg I know what I'm doing
[36:54 - 36:55] Yeah
[36:55 - 36:56] Ready to roll
[36:56 - 36:57] Ruckseck back tight
[36:57 - 36:58] Right on something
[36:58 - 36:59] Over my back
[36:59 - 37:00] Duff a bag in my right
[37:00 - 37:01] Heart pounding
[37:01 - 37:02] Cause I really ain't trying
[37:02 - 37:03] To get on this flight
[37:03 - 37:05] But I know I got a roll tonight
[37:05 - 37:06] Tonight
[37:06 - 37:07] The hardest part is
[37:07 - 37:08] Appointing
[37:08 - 37:09] It's when it's time to roll out
[37:09 - 37:10] Feel me sprang
[37:10 - 37:11] Left and right
[37:11 - 37:12] Body gets me in shock
[37:12 - 37:13] I kiss my wife
[37:13 - 37:14] And hug my kids
[37:14 - 37:15] And say I'll be home soon
[37:15 - 37:17] Tell your friends your days
[37:17 - 37:18] And I'll get a dance
[37:18 - 37:19] Little tune
[37:19 - 37:20] Okay
[37:20 - 37:21] See I don't mind
[37:21 - 37:22] Let's dress and come with
[37:22 - 37:23] Deployments
[37:23 - 37:24] I'll have to focus
[37:24 - 37:25] On them last
[37:25 - 37:26] You enjoyments
[37:26 - 37:27] Like sitting with my wife
[37:27 - 37:28] Holding her hands
[37:28 - 37:29] Talking like nothing
[37:29 - 37:30] Ain't wrong like
[37:30 - 37:32] I ain't going to the stand man
[37:32 - 37:33] But it's alright
[37:33 - 37:35] I know I'll be just fine
[37:35 - 37:36] Cause I'll never look back
[37:36 - 37:38] Like what the hell is we want
[37:38 - 37:40] I keep my eyes on the fries
[37:40 - 37:41] And my mind on the mission
[37:41 - 37:42] My amenitions
[37:42 - 37:43] What I'm spitting
[37:43 - 37:44] As I read what I've written
[37:44 - 37:46] Going from Garrison Award
[37:46 - 37:47] Ain't an easy transition
[37:47 - 37:48] But it's nothing
[37:48 - 37:49] If you spitting
[37:49 - 37:51] From a politician's position
[37:51 - 37:52] They act like
[37:52 - 37:53] We ain't doing them a favor
[37:53 - 37:55] Even though this country
[37:55 - 37:57] Viewing us as they save you
[37:57 - 37:59] Then they try and worship
[37:59 - 38:01] For a little bit of behavior
[38:01 - 38:02] They dig up a little dirt
[38:02 - 38:04] To make you out to be a failure
[38:04 - 38:05] I say they ain't right
[38:05 - 38:07] So I just focus on the mission
[38:07 - 38:08] Eliminate the threat
[38:08 - 38:10] And kind of get them more tissue
[38:10 - 38:11] Yeah
[38:11 - 38:12] Ready to roll
[38:13 - 38:15] You guys have a good idea
[38:15 - 38:17] On what people deal with now
[38:17 - 38:19] It's hard man
[38:19 - 38:20] That kind of shit
[38:20 - 38:22] Is not fucking easy
[38:23 - 38:25] Matter of fact let me show you guys
[38:25 - 38:28] What people I can deal with
[38:28 - 38:30] When they come home
[38:30 - 38:32] I want you guys to see
[38:32 - 38:34] Just what it is
[38:34 - 38:36] What people I can deal with
[38:36 - 38:39] When they come home from a fucking war
[38:39 - 38:42] I'm gonna turn the camera on
[38:42 - 38:45] I want y'all to watch this shit for yourselves
[38:45 - 38:46] Shout out to Redcom
[38:46 - 38:47] One Music Girl man
[38:47 - 38:53] Fucking love you guys
[38:53 - 38:55] I want y'all to watch this
[38:55 - 38:58] Cause this is very fucking real
[38:58 - 39:20] Up from the wall
[39:20 - 39:21] I'm going to sleep in bed
[39:21 - 39:23] Feeling like no one knows this
[39:23 - 39:26] Is like I ain't even close
[39:26 - 39:27] Like if I pull the trigger
[39:27 - 39:29] With this 45 down my throat
[39:29 - 39:30] We ain't even about to take notice
[39:30 - 39:31] That I'm no longer living
[39:31 - 39:33] These battle scars cut deep
[39:33 - 39:34] Like a mental decision
[39:34 - 39:36] My vision blurring from the sweat
[39:36 - 39:39] That's trickling down my mouth
[39:39 - 39:40] I feel my heart racing
[39:40 - 39:41] I'm breathing so fast
[39:41 - 39:42] Trying to catch my breath
[39:42 - 39:46] But I got nothing left
[39:46 - 39:47] I'm paralyzed as I lie
[39:47 - 39:52] It's where the guy I hated
[39:52 - 39:53] But tell me what should I do
[39:53 - 39:55] If I can test if my distress
[39:55 - 39:56] Will someone help me push through
[39:56 - 39:58] All these obstacles I'm facing
[39:58 - 40:09] Every day of my little gunshots
[40:09 - 40:25] Bring it up to me
[40:25 - 40:26] Imagine waking up sweating
[40:26 - 40:27] From my tears
[40:27 - 40:28] Even screaming a shot
[40:28 - 40:29] You like it or not
[40:29 - 40:30] Like green lights
[40:30 - 40:31] It won't stop
[40:31 - 40:32] You pissed off me so hot
[40:32 - 40:33] Like you're twenty-two clocks
[40:33 - 40:34] We humans are robots
[40:34 - 40:36] And deep pain like two crots
[40:36 - 40:37] If you lift the rest
[40:37 - 40:41] I'm gonna fight you like I'm tired
[40:41 - 40:44] Trying to help do not
[40:44 - 40:45] But shot
[40:45 - 40:46] Sist to the face
[40:46 - 40:47] Like a fist boot of shit rock
[40:47 - 40:48] Some call me crazy
[40:48 - 40:50] I just see it as a weak spot
[40:50 - 40:51] And some wanna pity me
[40:51 - 40:52] Seeing me in distraught
[40:52 - 40:58] But nah, y'all do not
[40:58 - 40:59] The rest like a one shot
[40:59 - 41:01] Stuck like a blood clot
[41:01 - 41:02] Rope because of all the ones
[41:02 - 41:06] In the past that I fought
[41:06 - 41:07] So my pop presence on the bills
[41:07 - 41:08] Rope in the stock
[41:08 - 41:10] Waking up from these nightmares
[41:10 - 41:15] Every night's the only gunshots
[41:15 - 41:17] Bringing bullets flying around
[41:17 - 41:19] Everybody get down
[41:19 - 41:21] Waking up from these nightmares
[41:21 - 42:08] Now let's know it
[42:08 - 42:09] You can find on the shelf
[42:09 - 42:11] The things that I feel
[42:11 - 42:12] It's really hard to shake out me
[42:12 - 42:13] Waking up with swings
[42:13 - 42:15] From stupid states
[42:15 - 42:16] Why I self-appliance
[42:16 - 42:19] To forget the image
[42:19 - 42:20] At the time
[42:20 - 42:27] I get so ashamed
[42:27 - 42:28] To walk up in this lane
[42:28 - 42:31] We're treated the same
[42:31 - 42:32] Am I psychotic?
[42:32 - 42:34] The writer
[42:34 - 42:35] Or just another victim
[42:35 - 42:39] I suck from these nightmares
[42:39 - 42:40] Every night's the only shots
[42:40 - 42:45] Bringing bullets flying around
[42:45 - 42:47] Everybody get down
[42:47 - 42:48] Waking up from
[42:48 - 43:04] Now there's another one
[43:04 - 43:06] I want y'all to listen to as well
[43:06 - 43:11] I think you guys will actually
[43:11 - 43:13] Enjoy because right now
[43:13 - 43:15] And this is a song that I've been
[43:15 - 43:17] Listening to for the last
[43:17 - 43:24] Freakin' got a week
[43:24 - 43:25] Week and a half
[43:25 - 43:29] And I want y'all to
[43:29 - 43:31] You know, to watch this
[43:31 - 43:34] And like really listen to it
[43:34 - 43:37] Because this is the song that's been
[43:37 - 43:39] You know, keeping me going
[43:39 - 43:52] Introducing the shorter side of YouTube
[43:52 - 43:55] Watch and create your own short videos
[43:55 - 43:58] If there's one thing we know
[43:58 - 44:00] It's chicken, chicken and chicken
[44:00 - 44:02] More to love, Tyson
[44:02 - 44:19] Soja one, come in and over
[44:19 - 44:21] Soja one plus, this is Cobra Six
[44:21 - 44:23] Send it over, rise your Cobra Six
[44:23 - 44:25] Soja one, that's your time permission to move out
[44:25 - 44:27] Roger that, ready to grab it
[44:27 - 44:36] Soja hard, out
[44:36 - 44:38] This is a song that she has been
[44:38 - 44:40] Motivating and she's been fighting with her
[44:40 - 44:42] Soja hard, y'all, y'all, y'all
[44:42 - 44:44] I'm on this long road to recovery
[44:44 - 44:46] Get up, Sam
[44:46 - 44:54] Welcome to rock with me
[44:54 - 44:56] You see, I've been through it all
[44:56 - 44:58] I've been fighting in war
[44:58 - 44:59] When I died for freedom
[44:59 - 45:01] That's a real good cause
[45:01 - 45:02] I said yes cause
[45:02 - 45:03] My mother said no
[45:03 - 45:05] There's a war going on
[45:05 - 45:07] Get me right, well let's go
[45:07 - 45:09] Betray me to kill, yeah
[45:09 - 45:11] Now I'm out, look what this war did
[45:11 - 45:15] To me fighting cause I need a change
[45:15 - 47:28] I know it did now, this is pain to get away from
[47:28 - 49:05] I want y'all to be aware of this shit
[49:05 - 49:07] Cause this is something that I know
[49:07 - 49:09] That AXL is aware of
[49:09 - 49:11] That people like me are aware of
[49:11 - 49:17] This helps you guys see
[49:17 - 49:19] The red flags
[49:19 - 49:21] That people like me
[49:21 - 49:26] Had to deal with
[49:26 - 49:28] And for those that have helped me out guys
[49:28 - 49:30] For all y'all that have seen those red flags
[49:30 - 49:32] And stepped up and helped me
[49:32 - 49:34] I want to say thank you
[49:34 - 49:36] But for those that don't
[49:36 - 49:38] Know the red flags
[49:38 - 49:40] I want y'all to watch this
[51:49 - 54:05] I want to show you guys a short film
[54:05 - 54:07] That I came across
[54:07 - 54:09] That I want you guys
[54:09 - 54:11] To genuinely watch it
[54:11 - 54:36] See if I can find it
[54:36 - 55:47] Actually I got a better one
[55:47 - 55:49] For you guys that I want you to watch
[55:49 - 56:37] See if I can find it here
[56:37 - 56:39] Oh good
[56:39 - 56:47] This is what you guys
[56:47 - 56:49] Are about to see
[56:49 - 56:51] This is what you trolls cause
[56:51 - 56:53] People to do when you do what you do
[56:53 - 56:55] And I want you guys to see that
[56:55 - 56:57] And take it to heart
[56:57 - 56:59] And remember this next time
[56:59 - 57:01] You do something like what you guys do
[57:01 - 57:03] I tried to look me over
[57:03 - 57:26] But I couldn't turn around
[57:26 - 57:28] It's okay for you to hate me
[57:28 - 57:30] For all the things I've done
[57:30 - 57:32] I've made a few mistakes
[57:32 - 57:34] But I'm not the only one
[57:34 - 57:36] It's all seen
[57:36 - 57:38] Let me turn it down
[57:38 - 57:40] So you guys can see
[57:40 - 61:11] But
[61:11 - 61:18] It's all seen
[61:18 - 61:39] But
[61:39 - 61:41] Do you trolls actually
[61:41 - 61:47] See now
[61:47 - 61:49] Do you actually see now
[61:49 - 61:51] What you trolls do
[61:51 - 61:53] When you fucking do
[61:53 - 62:03] What you do to people
[62:03 - 62:05] That shit that you just watched
[62:05 - 62:07] That's what you fucking trolls do to people
[62:07 - 62:09] You sit there
[62:09 - 62:11] And you drive people
[62:11 - 62:13] To the point of suicide
[62:13 - 62:18] And that's not cool
[62:18 - 62:23] It's really not cool
[62:23 - 62:45] It's very screwed up
[62:45 - 62:47] And skull kid I'm getting rid of you man
[62:47 - 62:49] Cause all you do
[62:49 - 62:51] Is run your fucking mouth bro
[62:51 - 62:53] And I'm fucking tired of it
[62:53 - 63:01] You know when you trolls
[63:01 - 63:06] Do what you do
[63:06 - 63:08] It hurts
[63:08 - 63:10] A lot
[63:10 - 63:12] It hurts people more than you fucking realize
[63:12 - 63:16] It really
[63:16 - 63:18] And truly does hurt people more than you
[63:18 - 63:27] Fucking think
[63:27 - 63:29] Cause let me tell you when
[63:29 - 63:31] People reports came along and did what she did
[63:31 - 63:33] I was already dealing
[63:33 - 63:35] With a lot
[63:35 - 63:37] I was already dealing with
[63:37 - 63:39] The loss of my girlfriend
[63:39 - 63:41] Who had passed away
[63:41 - 63:43] Previously that year whom I found out
[63:43 - 63:45] Through my little sister that
[63:45 - 63:47] She had passed
[63:47 - 63:49] I was already dealing with that
[63:49 - 63:51] I was
[63:51 - 63:54] Still
[63:54 - 63:56] Trying to find my bearings
[63:56 - 63:58] After just losing
[63:58 - 64:00] My best friend
[64:00 - 64:02] To a murder a few years prior
[64:02 - 64:05] Like
[64:05 - 64:07] You guys don't understand that
[64:07 - 64:09] When you bring on that kind of
[64:09 - 64:12] Bullshit
[64:12 - 64:14] Right after so many deals or something
[64:14 - 64:16] It creates a whole
[64:16 - 64:18] Slow of brand new problems
[64:18 - 64:20] That they don't need
[64:20 - 64:24] You they really
[64:24 - 64:33] Don't need that shit
[64:33 - 64:35] Like and I know a lot of people like Paul
[64:35 - 64:37] Here are making a fucking
[64:37 - 64:39] Fuck out of it but let me tell you
[64:39 - 64:41] This is a very serious thing
[64:41 - 64:43] This is very fucking
[64:43 - 64:46] Serious
[64:46 - 64:48] This is not to be taken lightly
[64:48 - 64:50] And I know a lot of you guys think oh ha ha ha
[64:50 - 64:52] Joke around ha
[64:52 - 64:55] No this
[64:55 - 64:58] This is very fucking real
[64:58 - 65:00] And what you trolls do is
[65:00 - 65:02] You take things that
[65:02 - 65:04] Should stay on the internet
[65:04 - 65:06] You take things that should
[65:06 - 65:08] Stay on the fucking internet
[65:08 - 65:10] And you bring
[65:10 - 65:12] Them into the real world
[65:12 - 65:17] And I get that some of you might not be
[65:17 - 65:19] Aware of what you do you might not be
[65:19 - 65:23] Aware of your actions
[65:23 - 65:25] But you need to start being
[65:25 - 65:27] More aware of your actions
[65:27 - 65:29] Because your actions that you
[65:29 - 65:31] Do on here has
[65:31 - 65:33] Very real world consequences
[65:33 - 65:35] It really does
[65:35 - 65:43] You know your actions
[65:43 - 65:45] That you choose to do on the internet
[65:45 - 65:47] Has very real
[65:47 - 65:49] World consequences
[65:49 - 65:52] And I know some of you guys
[65:52 - 65:54] Aren't going to take this seriously
[65:54 - 65:58] But you guys should take this serious
[65:58 - 66:00] This kind of shit ain't fucking
[66:00 - 66:04] Funny anymore
[66:04 - 66:06] The shit y'all do to me
[66:06 - 66:08] The people you attack
[66:08 - 66:10] The people you go after
[66:10 - 66:18] It needs to stop
[66:18 - 66:21] It does need to stop
[66:21 - 66:25] Okay let me tell you
[66:25 - 66:30] I'm one of the nicest people you'll ever fucking meet
[66:30 - 66:32] Like if you were to meet me in real life
[66:32 - 66:34] You would see that I'm a pretty chill fucking dude
[66:34 - 66:36] I'm actually cool to hang out with
[66:36 - 66:38] You know I'm a pretty chill dude
[66:38 - 66:44] But yeah you guys wouldn't know that
[66:44 - 66:46] Because y'all want to sit here
[66:46 - 66:48] And
[66:48 - 66:50] Keep me angry all the time
[66:50 - 66:52] And go after my friends
[66:52 - 66:54] Go after my family
[66:54 - 66:56] Go after people I care about
[66:56 - 66:58] Y'all need to knock that shit the fuck off
[66:58 - 67:02] Y'all need to quit going after
[67:02 - 67:04] My boy Axl
[67:04 - 67:08] Stop going after my friends and family
[67:08 - 67:10] When they stick up for me
[67:10 - 67:12] You guys need to just
[67:12 - 67:15] Let them stick up for me
[67:15 - 67:17] Alright whether you agree with what they do or not
[67:17 - 67:19] That's your choice
[67:19 - 67:23] But in the long run
[67:23 - 67:25] Y'all need to back the fuck up
[67:25 - 67:27] Back the fuck off
[67:27 - 67:29] Sit the fuck down
[67:29 - 67:32] And shut the fuck up
[67:32 - 67:34] And quit the nonsense
[67:34 - 67:38] You need to knock it the fuck off
[67:38 - 67:43] I mean you guys claim that you won't
[67:43 - 67:45] Like I said earlier
[67:45 - 67:47] You guys claim that you
[67:47 - 67:50] Want me to be a better person
[67:50 - 67:52] But how am I supposed to be a better person
[67:52 - 67:54] If I can't move on
[67:54 - 67:56] With my life
[67:56 - 67:58] How am I supposed to be a better person
[67:58 - 68:00] If I can't
[68:00 - 68:02] Learn from my past
[68:02 - 68:04] And move forward without my past
[68:04 - 68:06] Being brought up
[68:06 - 68:08] Alright I get what I did was wrong
[68:08 - 68:10] I learned my lesson
[68:10 - 68:12] Now let me move on
[68:12 - 68:14] And do what I need to do
[68:14 - 68:16] To become better
[68:16 - 68:18] So that I can
[68:18 - 68:20] Put out better content
[68:20 - 68:22] So that I can do things I want to do
[68:22 - 68:27] With my life
[68:27 - 68:29] You know I'm genuinely trying to do
[68:29 - 68:31] Something good with my life
[68:31 - 68:44] But y'all keep holding me back
[68:44 - 68:46] Because Skull Kid
[68:46 - 68:52] All you do is run your mouth
[68:52 - 68:54] Skull Kid you ain't about
[68:54 - 68:56] Helping nobody bro
[68:56 - 68:59] All you're about is attacking people
[68:59 - 69:01] You really are
[69:01 - 69:06] All the fuckers
[69:06 - 69:08] You tried to buy my name
[69:08 - 69:10] Out from under me
[69:10 - 69:12] You tried to attack me
[69:12 - 69:16] So yeah your shit
[69:16 - 69:18] Ain't advice
[69:18 - 69:22] It's garbage
[69:22 - 69:24] You blatantly sat right there
[69:24 - 69:26] Tried to steal my original artist name
[69:26 - 69:28] Out from under me
[69:28 - 69:30] Which was a nickname that I was
[69:30 - 69:32] Given to being by one of my best friends
[69:32 - 69:34] In high school
[69:34 - 69:36] You sat there
[69:36 - 69:39] And tried to lay claim to it
[69:39 - 69:41] So yeah
[69:41 - 69:47] I'm not buying your bullshit
[69:47 - 69:49] But I will listen to people
[69:49 - 69:51] Like Axel and Saren
[69:51 - 69:53] And my brother Jake
[69:53 - 69:55] And people that genuinely
[69:55 - 69:57] Want to see me do better
[69:57 - 70:04] Like I said man
[70:04 - 70:06] Y'all motherfuckers need to leave Axel
[70:06 - 70:08] The fuck alone
[70:08 - 70:10] And whenever I make a post on Facebook
[70:10 - 70:12] Stop going after my
[70:12 - 70:14] Friends and family
[70:14 - 70:16] And I make a post on Facebook
[70:16 - 70:18] That doesn't give you the right to go after them
[70:18 - 70:20] You stupid little fuck bags
[70:20 - 70:22] Need to piss off
[70:22 - 70:25] Get a life
[70:25 - 70:28] And knock the crap off
[70:28 - 70:30] Axel doesn't deserve it
[70:30 - 70:32] I don't deserve it
[70:32 - 70:54] I don't know who you are
[70:54 - 71:05] So I'm gonna leave you all
[71:05 - 71:07] With this
[71:07 - 71:09] And then I'm going to enjoy
[71:09 - 71:11] What a few days I have left
[71:11 - 71:13] Or what a few weeks I have left
[71:13 - 71:15] Of my fucking vacation
[71:15 - 71:18] Cause like I said earlier last night
[71:18 - 71:20] I've been doing YouTube for 10 years
[71:20 - 71:22] I deserve a fucking break
[71:22 - 71:24] I'm gonna tell y'all trolls this right now
[71:24 - 71:31] You need to quit going
[71:31 - 71:33] After motherfuckers
[71:33 - 71:35] When I make a post on Facebook
[71:35 - 71:37] And tag someone
[71:37 - 71:39] That doesn't mean go after them
[71:39 - 71:41] That doesn't mean
[71:41 - 71:45] Try to attack me
[71:45 - 71:47] Through them
[71:47 - 71:49] That doesn't mean
[71:49 - 71:51] Try to start shit with them
[71:51 - 71:53] motherfuckers
[71:53 - 71:56] Y'all need to get a goddamn grip
[71:56 - 71:58] And back off
[71:58 - 72:03] Worry about yourselves
[72:03 - 72:05] Stop worrying about what other
[72:05 - 72:07] motherfuckers are doing
[72:07 - 72:09] And worry about your goddamn self
[72:09 - 72:13] You want to judge other people
[72:13 - 72:15] But yet you never want to point
[72:15 - 72:17] The finger at yourself
[72:17 - 72:19] And that's sickening
[72:19 - 72:22] Before you go judging someone else
[72:22 - 72:24] Why don't you take a look at the
[72:24 - 72:26] Skeletons in your closet
[72:26 - 72:29] Watch you point the finger at yourself
[72:29 - 72:31] Before judging someone else
[72:31 - 72:33] For their crimes
[72:33 - 72:35] And their wrongdoings
[72:35 - 72:46] There's a bible verse that I live by
[72:46 - 72:48] Every day
[72:48 - 73:01] Judge not thy neighbor
[73:01 - 73:03] But thyself
[73:03 - 73:15] And there's another quote that goes
[73:15 - 73:17] Hand in hand with that
[73:17 - 73:19] That's not necessarily a bible verse
[73:19 - 73:22] But it falls into the same category
[73:22 - 73:24] Judging not by my past transgressions
[73:24 - 73:26] But by my current actions
[73:26 - 73:28] And my current actions
[73:28 - 73:39] Speak very, very differently
[73:39 - 73:41] Than my past transgressions
[73:41 - 73:43] Very differently
[73:43 - 73:45] I'm trying to be a better person
[73:45 - 73:49] I'm trying to
[73:49 - 73:51] Right my wrongs
[73:51 - 73:53] I'm trying to do better
[73:53 - 73:55] But as I said
[73:55 - 73:57] Unless you let me live down
[73:57 - 74:04] My past
[74:04 - 74:06] You don't necessarily have to live down
[74:06 - 74:10] My past transgressions
[74:10 - 74:12] My pasts
[74:12 - 74:14] You don't necessarily have to let me live it down
[74:14 - 74:16] But let me move on from the past
[74:16 - 74:18] You know
[74:18 - 74:20] Let me leave the past behind me
[74:20 - 74:22] And do what I gotta do to get better
[74:22 - 74:24] So that I can give
[74:24 - 74:26] My best
[74:26 - 74:28] So I can give 120%
[74:28 - 74:30] So I can give
[74:30 - 74:32] 110%
[74:32 - 74:35] So I can do short films again
[74:35 - 74:37] So I can make
[74:37 - 74:39] Music videos again
[74:39 - 74:41] Do vlogs again
[74:41 - 74:43] What I did was wrong
[74:43 - 74:45] Yes, but that doesn't mean
[74:45 - 74:53] I should be held back to it
[74:53 - 74:55] Exactly
[74:55 - 74:58] And I'll admit I have done wrong
[74:58 - 75:03] I admit that
[75:03 - 75:05] But at the end of the day
[75:05 - 75:07] I'm trying to do what I gotta do
[75:07 - 75:14] To get better
[75:14 - 75:20] And I'm telling y'all right now
[75:20 - 75:22] And for all y'all that have gone after Axel
[75:22 - 75:24] And have gone after my friends and family
[75:24 - 75:26] Just knock it off
[75:26 - 75:32] Worry about yourselves
[75:32 - 75:34] Stop worrying about me
[75:34 - 75:37] And what I'm constantly doing
[75:37 - 75:39] Your job is not to babysit me
[75:39 - 75:41] Your job is not to
[75:41 - 75:43] Worry about what I'm doing
[75:43 - 75:45] Every two seconds of the damn day
[75:45 - 75:48] That's not your job
[75:48 - 75:50] Your job is to worry about you
[75:50 - 75:52] Yourself
[75:52 - 75:54] Your channels
[75:54 - 75:56] The content you guys are putting out
[75:56 - 75:59] Or the lack of content
[75:59 - 76:01] I should say
[76:01 - 76:09] But to those that do support me
[76:09 - 76:11] And have been trying to help me
[76:11 - 76:13] In any way possible
[76:13 - 76:15] To all the supporters
[76:15 - 76:17] All the fans
[76:17 - 76:19] All the subs that have
[76:19 - 76:21] Genuinely stepped up trying to help me
[76:21 - 76:23] I want to say thank you
[76:23 - 76:27] You guys are fucking awesome
[76:27 - 76:29] And I appreciate every one of you guys
[76:29 - 76:43] I really do
[76:43 - 76:45] I genuinely appreciate every single one of you guys
[76:45 - 76:47] That has stood up for me
[76:47 - 76:49] Tried to help me
[76:49 - 76:51] Tried to help me
[76:51 - 76:53] Tried to help guide me in the right direction
[76:53 - 76:55] I appreciate that
[76:55 - 76:57] I truly do
[76:57 - 76:59] I appreciate the hell out of that
[76:59 - 77:10] And I can't thank y'all enough
[77:10 - 77:12] But as for the trolls man
[77:12 - 77:14] Just time
[77:14 - 77:16] Enough is enough
[77:16 - 77:19] Alright
[77:19 - 77:24] Let me move on and live my life in peace
[77:24 - 77:26] Alright let me do what I need to do
[77:26 - 77:28] To get better so I can put out the content
[77:28 - 77:31] That I want to put out
[77:31 - 77:34] That people would like to see me put out
[77:34 - 77:36] Like my gameplay videos
[77:36 - 77:38] A lot of people used to enjoy
[77:38 - 77:40] My Forza Horizon 4 gameplay videos
[77:40 - 77:42] A lot of people used to
[77:42 - 77:44] Enjoy my short films that I did
[77:44 - 77:46] A lot of people used to
[77:46 - 77:48] Enjoy
[77:48 - 77:50] Seeing me make music videos
[77:50 - 77:54] And this and that and the other
[77:54 - 77:56] Like I want to give back to all of that
[77:56 - 77:58] I want to give back to the coffee
[77:58 - 78:00] And show streams
[78:00 - 78:02] I want to give back to the days of where
[78:02 - 78:04] The geeky happy self
[78:04 - 78:06] Like I want to give back to that
[78:06 - 78:16] I would love to give back to that
[78:16 - 78:18] I really would
[78:18 - 78:20] I would love to give back to the
[78:20 - 78:22] Webowing stuff
[78:22 - 78:24] I genuinely would love to get back
[78:24 - 78:26] To doing that stuff
[78:26 - 78:30] I really would
[78:30 - 78:32] I would love to get back to playing that
[78:32 - 78:34] If I can
[78:34 - 78:36] I'm not going to promise that
[78:36 - 78:38] But if I can I will
[78:38 - 78:40] I don't know if I have to buy a new coffee
[78:40 - 78:42] If I have to I will do it
[78:42 - 78:46] But you know I want to
[78:46 - 78:48] Get back to doing the fun
[78:48 - 78:50] You know need for speed
[78:50 - 78:52] You know carbon
[78:52 - 78:54] And underground and underground too
[78:54 - 78:56] And pro street
[78:56 - 78:58] You know videos again
[78:58 - 79:00] Bringing back the old school retro
[79:00 - 79:02] Gaming stuff the stuff that
[79:02 - 79:04] People used to enjoy man
[79:04 - 79:06] I want to give back to that
[79:06 - 79:08] And the only way I can do that
[79:08 - 79:12] Is
[79:12 - 79:14] For y'all to
[79:14 - 79:16] Quit holding me to my past
[79:16 - 79:27] This man over here
[79:27 - 79:29] Quote with freakin' Talladega nights
[79:29 - 79:31] Hell yeah man I feel it bro
[79:31 - 79:36] This freakin' fall dude over here
[79:36 - 79:38] Quote with fuckin' Talladega nights
[79:38 - 79:42] On my ass the fuck
[79:42 - 79:44] I mean dude do y'all
[79:44 - 79:46] Remember when the last time I was
[79:46 - 79:48] That I competed in the F1 series
[79:48 - 79:50] You guys remember the last time I did
[79:50 - 79:52] An F1 race
[79:52 - 79:54] I can tell you the date
[79:54 - 79:58] I can tell you the date
[79:58 - 80:04] I can tell you the exact date
[80:04 - 80:06] The last race
[80:06 - 80:09] I ran
[80:09 - 80:11] Was my mom's birthday
[80:11 - 80:13] January 31st
[80:13 - 80:16] Of this year
[80:16 - 80:18] Was my last race I did
[80:18 - 80:20] And it was one of the races
[80:20 - 80:22] Where I took a win
[80:22 - 80:24] I took a win on her birthday
[80:24 - 80:26] And my brother's birthday
[80:26 - 80:28] Which was on the 23rd
[80:28 - 80:30] That was the last time I competed
[80:30 - 80:32] In the same racing competitions
[80:32 - 80:34] And I'd like to give back to that
[80:34 - 80:36] I really would
[80:36 - 80:39] But like I said in order for me
[80:39 - 80:41] To do those things I need to
[80:41 - 80:43] Get myself together
[80:43 - 80:45] Work on shit
[80:45 - 80:54] You know
[80:54 - 80:56] I need to give back to where I need to be
[80:56 - 81:00] Now with that being said
[81:00 - 81:05] I'm going to sit here
[81:05 - 81:07] Get back to watching the movie
[81:07 - 81:09] I was watching and if y'all
[81:09 - 81:11] Wondering what I was watching
[81:11 - 81:13] I'm fucking
[81:13 - 81:15] Not my mom
[81:15 - 81:17] Bennett's War
[81:17 - 81:19] And if you guys have not seen Bennett's War
[81:19 - 81:21] I highly
[81:21 - 81:23] Highly suggest you look it up
[81:23 - 81:25] It's a very
[81:25 - 81:27] Very good movie
[81:27 - 81:29] I love it it's one of my personal favorites
[81:29 - 81:31] I actually have it burned on the DVD
[81:33 - 81:35] Like it's a very good film
[81:35 - 81:37] Very good film
[81:37 - 81:39] I highly recommend watching it
[81:39 - 81:41] If you do get the chance to watch
[81:41 - 81:43] Bennett's War
[81:43 - 81:45] Definitely do it it's definitely worth watching
[81:45 - 81:54] For sure
[81:54 - 81:56] But with that being said guys
[81:56 - 81:58] I'm going to bounce off here
[81:58 - 82:00] Finish watching my movie and
[82:00 - 82:02] I will catch you guys
[82:02 - 82:05] In five weeks time
[82:05 - 82:07] And please guys for the love of God
[82:07 - 82:11] Stop attacking
[82:11 - 82:14] My family
[82:14 - 82:16] Stop attacking my friends
[82:16 - 82:18] Every time I make a post
[82:18 - 82:21] Leave me alone
[82:21 - 82:23] Alright
[82:23 - 82:25] Just leave me alone and let me do
[82:25 - 82:29] What I gotta do to get well
[82:29 - 82:31] I love you guys
[82:31 - 82:33] I'll see you guys in five weeks
[82:33 - 82:35] Peace
2021-9-17 UPXHURCH Midnight in Montgomery Live reaction

2021-9-17 UPXHURCH Midnight in Montgomery Live reaction

[0:13 - 0:15] What up y'all, it's your boy
[0:17 - 0:22] Wanted to do something I ain't done in a long ass while right quick for you guys
[0:23 - 0:32] As yes, no, obviously a very big up church and I listen to his music and for quite a while now
[0:32 - 0:36] And I'll scroll through you to the scene that
[0:37 - 0:38] he
[0:38 - 0:40] Just dropped the music videos, so
[0:41 - 0:46] We're gonna check out our church is brand new music video midnight in Montgomery
[0:46 - 0:49] Yes, we'd like to check out the original video the link
[0:50 - 0:56] Will be in the description, so be sure to head over and give the original videos and a lot of shout out church man
[0:57 - 0:59] Shad the Krieger squad man
[0:59 - 1:02] Shad the redneck nation
[1:02 - 1:04] Shad the Hollywood records, and yeah
[1:06 - 1:11] Let's get this going man. Let's get this shit out and see what it's about
[1:11 - 3:08] Like the rock rock
[3:29 - 5:39] That was good that was that really good that was something different that was
[5:39 - 5:43] You know not like oh shit
[5:44 - 5:51] Yeah, that was not like anything I've ever heard out of him before man. That was so so good
[5:54 - 6:00] That was so good man shout out to our church on that man. That was so good. I
[6:00 - 6:02] love the vibe the
[6:03 - 6:05] the tone of the song
[6:05 - 6:09] It's definitely a step away from his regular stuff
[6:09 - 6:16] So shout out church man if you guys like to check out the original video the link will be in the description man
[6:16 - 6:18] Be sure to head over there man
[6:18 - 6:23] Show some more church and well man shots all my fellow redneck nation fans
[6:23 - 6:27] Shots all my fellow Krieg squad members. It's good guys
[6:27 - 6:36] But I'm fucking love y'all man. I'll be in your boy. You know what is I ain't gotta say it
[6:36 - 6:39] And you guys would like to see more reactions man
[6:40 - 6:42] I didn't come I just want to know what you guys want to see me react
[6:43 - 6:47] I'm too next and you never know. I just might do it
[6:48 - 6:52] Well, that means it y'all look love you guys. I don't know y'all. Peace
2021-9-17 CALLING OUT STEVE WILKOS On His Cameo

2021-9-17 CALLING OUT STEVE WILKOS On His Cameo

[0:06 - 0:10] You know I was not planning on going live at all for a while. I
[0:11 - 0:15] Was really just trying to relax and have a vacation
[0:15 - 0:22] But apparently I'm not allowed to fucking do that apparently taking a vacation is against the fucking law now
[0:23 - 0:25] according to you fucking trolls
[0:26 - 0:30] So I got some the fucking say and
[0:31 - 0:38] That's something I'm gonna say is that you Steve Wilk goes now don't get it wrong. I have respect for you
[0:39 - 0:45] I wrote you I have respect for you. I respect everything that you're about and everything that you do
[0:46 - 0:56] Okay, I respect that I respect everything that you've ever done
[0:57 - 1:00] But something you need to do dude is this
[1:03 - 1:09] You need to keep your fucking mouth shut on shit that you don't know the situation on
[1:09 - 1:12] Okay, you only know one
[1:13 - 1:15] side of
[1:15 - 1:19] The situation you don't know both sides
[1:20 - 1:24] You don't know both sides of the situation
[1:25 - 1:32] So unless you know both sides of the situation Steve, you need to keep your fucking mouth shut
[1:34 - 1:40] Straight up. You need to keep your motherfucking mouth shut. That's the motherfucker that paid him to do that shit
[1:40 - 1:42] You're a piece of shit for that
[1:43 - 1:46] You're a real fucking piece of shit for that man
[1:47 - 1:50] Yeah, it was hard for me to go out and do shit before
[1:51 - 1:56] But now because you don't ask motherfuckers that think it's funny to ruin someone's life
[1:57 - 2:02] All because y'all think that's funny to ruin someone's life and who I hang with
[2:04 - 2:12] Now it's gonna be even a fucking harder for me. I was just starting to get shit back to fucking normal
[2:12 - 2:19] I was just starting to get back to where I wanted to be and now all of a sudden you dumb motherfuckers want to do this shit
[2:20 - 2:27] Really?
[2:27 - 2:31] This is some fucking bullshit and this is exactly what I was talking about
[2:32 - 2:40] This is exactly what I've been talking about the whole fucking time. You dumb motherfuckers have no respect for anyone or anything
[2:46 - 2:48] You have no respect
[2:49 - 2:57] All you want to do is ruin lives and it's bullshit. It is honestly fucking pathetic
[2:57 - 3:01] It really is fucking pathetic
[3:01 - 3:07] I mean dude, I can't even fucking enjoy a goddamn vacation
[3:08 - 3:15] And I actually take a breather without you dumb ass motherfuckers paying famous people to attack me
[3:16 - 3:18] What the fuck?
[3:18 - 3:24] All right, if you got something to say to me, say it's your goddamn self, bro
[3:24 - 3:29] Don't be a bitch. Don't be a pussy and pay someone to do it for you
[3:30 - 3:33] That's a bitch move. That's a pussy move
[3:34 - 3:40] You got something to say to my face. Say it motherfucker. I'm not hiding you got something to say
[3:41 - 3:44] Here I am say to my fucking face
[3:45 - 3:47] Say it to my goddamn face
[3:48 - 3:55] Don't be paying some famous dude to attack me when they have no fucking horse in this race
[3:58 - 4:10] They have no dog in this fight. They have no goddamn dog in this fight, bro
[4:12 - 4:16] See that no fucking dog in this fight. So why should he get involved?
[4:17 - 4:25] He's a busy guy and I respect what he does. I respect the shit out of what Steve does
[4:26 - 4:28] But Steve I'm telling you right now, man
[4:29 - 4:33] You need to keep your fucking mouth shut on shit that you don't understand man
[4:34 - 4:40] You don't know the full situation. So honestly, you need to keep your fucking mouth shut
[4:40 - 4:47] All right, you need to keep your goddamn mouth shut on situations that you don't fully understand
[4:48 - 4:52] Now it's one thing to talk on a situation
[4:53 - 4:59] That's one thing to talk on a situation that you actually have a full grasp on and you have both sides of
[5:00 - 5:02] That's one thing
[5:02 - 5:09] That's one thing entirely to speak on a situation where you have both sides of the story
[5:09 - 5:12] You know actually what's going on
[5:13 - 5:15] But this one
[5:15 - 5:21] You don't know this story. You don't know the situation. So I
[5:21 - 5:23] Hope you don't take offense this Steve
[5:24 - 5:30] But you need to sit your bald ass down and shut the fuck up and get both sides of the story
[5:31 - 5:38] Before you go pop in your fucking mouth off like a little bitch to some douchebag that fucking paid you to do what you did
[5:39 - 5:45] You got paid to do this shit man, and that's bullshit
[5:56 - 6:00] Someone paid you to do this shit, bro, and that's stupid
[6:01 - 6:03] I do you don't know who the fuck I am
[6:06 - 6:08] You don't know my life
[6:09 - 6:17] That's a motherfucker. I said they're saying I'm racist. Well, guess fucking what wrong fucking answered douchebag
[6:18 - 6:20] Yes, I've made
[6:21 - 6:28] Racist remarks, but you gotta understand something bro. This goes all right back around to what I was talking about yesterday
[6:29 - 6:33] This goes right back around to what I was speaking on yesterday motherfuckers
[6:34 - 6:40] Y'all said there and you push me and attack me and back me into a fucking corner and
[6:41 - 6:48] You do that with anybody you do that shit with any motherfucker and guess what they're gonna fucking snap
[6:48 - 6:55] They're gonna say shit that isn't normal. They're gonna say shit that isn't right
[6:55 - 6:59] So you dumb motherfuckers need to back the fuck up
[7:01 - 7:04] Seriously, just cuz I hang out with Jenny and
[7:06 - 7:11] Just cuz I stand up for guys that Jenny hangs out with
[7:12 - 7:14] Shout out to Jenny by the way, what's good?
[7:16 - 7:20] Just gonna hang out with them doesn't give me the fucking goddamn right
[7:21 - 7:23] To go after people like me
[7:23 - 7:26] All right
[7:26 - 7:28] rumor research I
[7:28 - 7:35] Know that you and your little friends did this shit and rumor why don't you shut your fat fucking bitch ass up
[7:35 - 7:37] You overweight fucking cow
[7:39 - 7:44] Seriously, why don't you sit your fucking fat ass down and shut the fuck up
[7:44 - 7:48] Ain't no way trying to hear your fucking mouth run a million miles a minute, bitch
[7:50 - 7:57] We all know your past motherfucker. You're a goddamn fucking criminal and you know it
[7:58 - 8:04] You broke in the law many times and you're still on the run from the law
[8:06 - 8:08] but Steve
[8:08 - 8:13] If you do happen to see this man, I want you to know that I harbor no hatred towards you
[8:13 - 8:16] I respect this shit out of you, man
[8:17 - 8:23] I really do I respect the shit out of you Steve, but let me tell you right the fuck now, man
[8:23 - 8:28] Next time before you accept a cameo like you did
[8:29 - 8:34] You need to do your fucking research before deciding to take the cameo or not
[8:37 - 8:40] When I come when it comes to my situation
[8:41 - 8:45] When it comes to my situation, you've got no right speaking on it
[8:46 - 8:51] You have no right speaking on that situation because you don't have both sides of the story
[8:52 - 8:57] Now if you'd like me to send you an email or something and shoot you an email
[8:58 - 9:04] Explain the whole story. I'll even make a video or whatever. I'll explain the whole fucking story to you
[9:04 - 9:07] I'll explain that shit to you
[9:07 - 9:12] So you can then go in and we could talk and we could speak on the matter
[9:12 - 9:16] Yes, let me tell you dude. These motherfuckers don't want to see me succeed
[9:17 - 9:19] They don't want to see me get nowhere
[9:19 - 9:26] So they're gonna do everything they can to ruin my name ruin my image ruin what I'm trying to build
[9:28 - 9:31] They've been doing it for a couple years now, dude
[9:32 - 9:36] Like I said Steve I harbor no I harbor no hatred at all towards you
[9:36 - 9:41] In fact, I watch you show all the fucking time and I respect the shit out of you. I
[9:42 - 9:48] Really do I respect the shit out of what you do a hundred percent. I respect it. I
[9:49 - 9:56] Really do but when it comes to you speaking on a situation that you don't have the both sides of
[9:57 - 9:59] You're kind of need to sit back
[10:00 - 10:04] Sit down and analyze the situation as a whole
[10:05 - 10:07] You only have one side
[10:08 - 10:10] You don't have both sides
[10:10 - 10:19] So what rights that give you to make a judgment call based on some little fucking prick who fucking paid you to say that shit man
[10:19 - 10:24] I do you're rich as fuck. Why are you fucking doing this?
[10:36 - 10:38] Like seriously
[10:38 - 10:46] You're rich as fuck Steve. So why the fuck you waste your goddamn time on a little fucking prick that pays you to talk shit
[10:47 - 10:49] Mmm. You're rich as fuck, bro
[10:50 - 11:04] So why you wasting your time on a bullshit cameo that never should have happened like I said Steve
[11:04 - 11:11] I respect you and your show. I respect what you do. I've been watching you since I was a kid, bro
[11:11 - 11:17] I've seen you on other shows and showed that and I respect the fuck out of you. I
[11:18 - 11:24] Really do I grew up watching you as kid on several different talk shows and I respect the shit out of you
[11:27 - 11:44] But when it comes to doing cameos, you need to do your research more you need to do your research
[11:46 - 11:49] Honest situation before making a judgment call man
[11:50 - 11:55] Like I said, I'm one of the nicest guys you'll ever fucking meet. I
[11:55 - 11:59] Really am I'm one of the nicest motherfuckers that you'll ever meet dude
[12:00 - 12:06] You can ask Motel Wi-Fi ask Cynthia ask Clint
[12:06 - 12:15] Ask my friend Saren ask music biz Marty ask anybody that knows me personally
[12:16 - 12:23] I'm genuinely a nice dude, but when you get back into a corner, you're gonna say shit that isn't right
[12:24 - 12:29] When you get back into a corner and you get set off and you get attacked so fucking much
[12:30 - 12:32] You're gonna say shit
[12:32 - 12:38] That might be out of line. You're gonna say shit that might not be cool or might not be right
[12:38 - 12:43] But something you need to understand Steve is I'm not a racist guy
[12:43 - 12:46] I'm really not but let me tell you right the fuck now, dude
[12:47 - 12:54] These motherfuckers that page you to do this. They're the ones that you need to be going after man not me
[12:55 - 12:56] them
[12:56 - 13:09] So I don't understand why you why you're wasting your motherfucking time
[13:10 - 13:15] With these motherfuckers like why you wasting your time with these guys
[13:15 - 13:20] Why you wasting your time with women research and her fucking crew
[13:20 - 13:26] Dude, you got money out the ass. Why are you wasting your motherfucking time with these douchebags?
[13:28 - 13:30] Seriously, bro
[13:30 - 13:32] Why are you wasting your fucking time?
[13:32 - 13:49] Why the fuck you wasting your goddamn time with these douchebag motherfuckers that don't have anything better to do than to talk shit on people
[13:52 - 13:55] Seriously, why are you wasting your time with a bunch of lame-ass little pricks?
[13:56 - 13:59] It don't make no sense, bro
[14:06 - 14:15] Seriously, why are you fucking wasting your goddamn time with these little fucking pricks that do nothing but bully motherfuckers all over the goddamn internet?
[14:17 - 14:18] Hmm
[14:18 - 14:20] All right, come on. You're a busy guy
[14:21 - 14:26] So why are you wasting your time with this? It's dumb dude
[14:27 - 14:29] So Steve I'm telling you right now
[14:30 - 14:35] You need to keep your fucking mouth shut on the situation because you don't know what the fuck you're talking about
[14:36 - 14:38] You really don't know what you're talking about
[14:40 - 14:45] Like I said, I get that you got paid to do a cameo and I respect it
[14:46 - 14:48] You know, you're just doing what you got paid for
[14:50 - 14:53] You're just doing what you got paid to do. But let me tell you bro
[14:54 - 14:56] That's bullshit. That's a bitch move
[14:58 - 15:00] Attacking somebody just because you got paid to do it
[15:01 - 15:05] That just shows how much of a pussy and how much of a bitch you really are
[15:07 - 15:16] Seriously, that shows how fucking stupid and how greedy you really fucking are you'll do anything for fucking money, won't you?
[15:17 - 15:19] You'll do anything for money
[15:20 - 15:23] Including calling someone out that don't deserve it
[15:24 - 15:28] That right there. That's a bitch move, bro. That's a bitch move
[15:32 - 15:37] So I'm telling you right now Steve. You need to keep your fucking mouth shut before
[15:38 - 15:41] You make a judgment call. You need to sit down
[15:42 - 15:44] keep your mouth shut
[15:44 - 15:47] Analyze both sides of the situation
[15:48 - 15:51] Get both sides of the story and then make a judgment call
[15:52 - 15:54] That's what you need to do
[15:56 - 15:59] But yet you want to be a little bitch and do this
[16:00 - 16:04] And now right there is making me lose fucking respect for you
[16:05 - 16:08] I used to respect the fucking shit out of you, bro
[16:09 - 16:13] I really did. I used to respect the living hell out of you
[16:14 - 16:15] But now
[16:15 - 16:17] I don't see how I can respect you
[16:18 - 16:31] I really don't I don't see how I fucking can respect you after what you fucking did, bro
[16:32 - 16:38] How am I supposed to respect what you do when you sat there called me out for no reason?
[16:38 - 16:54] All right, I'll shoot you an email
[16:55 - 16:58] If that really is you Steve, I'll shoot you an email
[16:59 - 17:02] I have no problem with that. I will shoot you a fucking email
[17:03 - 17:06] I'll shoot you a video email on the whole situation, bro
[17:07 - 17:11] I will shoot you a video email explaining the whole situation
[17:12 - 17:17] And if that really is you I will shoot you an email for sure
[17:18 - 17:22] Because I have no problem with that. Like I said, I harbor no hatred towards you, Steve
[17:23 - 17:26] I really don't I respect you and what you've done
[17:27 - 17:31] I see what you've done for people and I respect it 100%
[17:33 - 17:35] There's no doubt that I respect what you've done
[17:46 - 17:50] But like I said, man, you need to get both sides of the story
[17:50 - 17:53] Before you talk shit
[17:53 - 17:55] Just a little bit of advice for you
[17:56 - 17:59] Not trying to hate not trying to be a jackass or anything
[18:00 - 18:02] But I'm just saying man
[18:02 - 18:04] You know, just just a little bit of advice for you
[18:05 - 18:09] There's a little tip for you for if this happens again, it's a little tip for you
[18:18 - 18:21] Because dude, I don't want to see you getting caught up in some bullshit
[18:22 - 18:24] That you don't need to get caught up in bro
[18:24 - 18:27] Because like I said, Steve, you're a busy guy
[18:27 - 18:32] You got a lot going on in your life and you got a lot going for you
[18:32 - 18:38] And I respect it. I respect the hustle. I respect the grind that you did to get to where you're at
[18:39 - 18:46] I respect that and I don't want to see you drug into a situation that you don't need to be drug into
[18:47 - 19:01] I really don't I don't want to see that for you. I want to see, you know, you get drug into a situation
[19:02 - 19:04] Where you don't know the full story
[19:04 - 19:07] And then you got people attacking you this and that
[19:10 - 19:11] Ah, hold on y'all
[19:11 - 19:15] Matter of fact, Steve, here's a private example of what goes on. Let me show you
[19:21 - 19:24] I ain't trying to do nothing, bro. So why
[19:25 - 19:31] I didn't do shit, bro. It's where what the fuck? Where'd you get that from bro? Who told you that?
[19:31 - 19:34] Who told you who told you that?
[19:36 - 19:38] One police report don't fuck
[19:39 - 19:41] There is no police report
[19:41 - 19:46] Do
[19:46 - 19:51] Did you ever stop the thing for a minute that glory hole knows how to edit shit, bro?
[19:51 - 19:53] Did you ever stop to think about that?
[19:53 - 19:55] Because here's the thing
[19:57 - 19:59] Bullfucking shit
[20:00 - 20:06] Bullfucking shit you guys see if you see what I deal with now, bro. You guys see
[20:09 - 20:11] Wow
[20:11 - 20:14] Hey, I hey, what's the man? I harbor no hatred toward you
[20:14 - 20:17] I just want to make it very clear that I did not poison it
[20:18 - 20:23] And I will be checking that police report out. So thanks for letting me tell you right now, bro
[20:24 - 20:28] Next time before I go attacking somebody I might tell you just what I got told Steve to do
[20:29 - 20:32] Get both sides of the story before you make a judgment call you little fucking prick
[20:35 - 20:46] You guys hear that shit
[20:46 - 20:49] the fuck
[20:49 - 20:51] Dude, I'm I'm lost
[20:54 - 21:00] This is exactly what I'm talking about Steve. If that really is you in the chat watching let me tell you right now, bro
[21:01 - 21:04] This is exactly what I was talking about
[21:05 - 21:08] This is exactly what I was talking about, dude
[21:10 - 21:16] This kind of bullshit is what I fucking deal with moron trying to drag me down
[21:16 - 21:20] And troll me and attack me and all this other shit
[21:21 - 21:28] That's a prime fucking example of what I'm talking about a prime example of what these fuckers do
[21:36 - 21:38] but to the motherfucker that
[21:39 - 21:44] Made Steve that paid Steve to do what he did. Let me tell you right now motherfucker
[21:45 - 21:49] I know who the fuck you are. Am I giving you any cloud? No
[21:49 - 21:53] I'm not mentioning your fucking name because you don't fucking deserve the goddamn cloud
[21:55 - 21:58] I'm not giving you the attention that you seek
[22:01 - 22:04] I'm really not. I'm not gonna give you the attention that you're seeking out
[22:05 - 22:07] I refuse to do that
[22:07 - 22:09] But I am gonna tell you this motherfuckers
[22:09 - 22:14] You need to keep your goddamn trap shut before someone like me one of these days
[22:14 - 22:18] Comes along and shuts it for you for your fucking bullshit
[22:19 - 22:22] So fair warning, bro. Keep your fucking mouth shut
[22:23 - 22:28] Don't do no fucking dumb shit, and you won't get your goddamn ass beat by a motherfucker
[22:29 - 22:32] Who ain't gonna take your shit?
[22:32 - 22:34] I'm just saying man
[22:34 - 22:38] One of these days you dumb motherfucker trolls are gonna do this shit to the wrong dude
[22:38 - 22:43] And you know what they're gonna do? They're gonna make your life a living fucking hell. They're gonna fuck you up
[22:45 - 22:49] They will fuck you up
[22:49 - 22:51] Might not be today might not be tomorrow
[22:52 - 22:55] But eventually you're gonna run your mouth to the wrong motherfucker
[22:55 - 22:57] And they ain't gonna take your shit
[22:57 - 23:00] And they're gonna fuck your whole world out and turn your world upside down
[23:01 - 23:05] Don't blame me try me
[23:05 - 23:08] Watch to see if someone doesn't fuck you up for that shit
[23:09 - 23:12] Just watch and see
[23:12 - 23:19] Watch and see what happens
[23:19 - 23:23] But to see wilkos, I do apologize that they drug you into this garbage
[23:25 - 23:29] And as I said, I will be reaching out to you to speak with you personally
[23:30 - 23:33] Um, you never should have been drug into this shit
[23:35 - 23:37] You never should have been drug into this
[23:38 - 23:42] And if I disrespected you in any way, I do apologize
[23:45 - 23:48] But I just wanted it to be clear and let you know
[23:49 - 23:51] That
[23:51 - 23:54] Before you make a judgment call on a situation
[23:54 - 24:00] You need to get both sides of the story analyze both sides and then make a judgment call
[24:01 - 24:06] Because what you did jumping the gun like that, bro, that wasn't cool. That was fucked up
[24:09 - 24:15] But to the motherfucker that did tell you to do that. I want to say this to that person, man
[24:16 - 24:19] You dumb motherfuckers just made my life even fucking harder
[24:20 - 24:22] Than it already was
[24:23 - 24:25] All right, my life was hard enough already
[24:26 - 24:31] Like dude, I used to be able to go out of public and do shit. I used to be able to go to the fucking store
[24:31 - 24:33] Now I can't even fucking do that
[24:34 - 24:36] Now I won't even be able to do that
[24:37 - 24:39] Without getting fucking looked at weird
[24:42 - 24:44] And that fucking sucks
[24:44 - 24:48] I won't be able to go to the store like I used to without getting weird looks
[24:53 - 24:55] And that's gonna fucking suck
[24:55 - 25:02] I won't be able to hang out with my friends without being attacked. I won't be able to go to the store and hang out with my friends or
[25:03 - 25:08] Go cam and or whatever. I won't be able to do the shit I used to do and that fucking sucks
[25:10 - 25:15] So I hope you guys are fucking happy that you just made my life that much fucking harder to do anything
[25:16 - 25:22] Congratulations. Yeah made my life even harder than what I needed it to be
[25:22 - 25:27] Congratulations dumb fucks. I hope you're fucking happy
[25:28 - 25:33] I really do I hope you're fucking happy that you made my life even harder than what I already had it
[25:35 - 25:37] I hope you're fucking happy
[25:40 - 25:46] Because you guys are a bunch of sick fucks that need to piss off and screw off
[25:47 - 25:49] So yeah, thanks for that
[25:50 - 25:54] Thanks a fucking lot for making my life a living nightmare now
[25:55 - 25:58] Thanks a lot for making it harder for me to do anything
[26:04 - 26:09] Thanks a fucking lot assholes. I hope you're fucking happy
2021-9-18 The Final explination

2021-9-18 The Final explination

[0:07 - 0:10] What's up guys? Um, I'm here to
[0:12 - 0:14] explain some shit
[0:14 - 0:21] Since I keep getting asked this over and over and over and over
[0:21 - 0:24] and over again like it's
[0:25 - 0:26] It's annoying
[0:26 - 0:33] So I figured I would come on and I would explain
[0:35 - 0:38] literally
[0:38 - 0:44] Everything for the final time and I do mean the final time after this
[0:44 - 0:51] There will be no more bringing in of and hopefully you guys have a little bit of a better
[0:54 - 1:01] Explanation of everything as well because there appears to be a lot of stuff that got misconstrued and
[1:03 - 1:05] You know things got said that weren't
[1:06 - 1:07] accurate
[1:07 - 1:13] To what really happened so I kind of I want to clear all that up
[1:16 - 1:17] but uh
[1:17 - 1:21] First off for those that are wondering, you know before I get to the main thing
[1:21 - 1:23] I kind of want to talk about a couple things
[1:24 - 1:27] To those that are wondering am I getting help?
[1:28 - 1:31] Yes, I am through my good friend Jake
[1:32 - 1:35] Who you guys know as hillbilly Jake aka my brother?
[1:38 - 1:43] You know it's through him that I actually am going to be seeing a counselor here very very soon
[1:45 - 1:50] To you know talk about everything that happened, so I am getting help
[1:51 - 1:53] 100% I
[1:54 - 1:57] Actually have and a lot of people keep asking me
[1:57 - 2:00] Get a job get a job. I have been
[2:00 - 2:02] applying for jobs and
[2:03 - 2:10] A lot of people don't seem to think that I have been but I actually have been putting in applications with McDonald's Walmart
[2:11 - 2:16] There's a Taco Bell close by so I have been putting in some applications with them
[2:17 - 2:19] McDonald's
[2:19 - 2:26] RVs Applebee's, you know just your few little close by stores now whether I get the job or not I
[2:28 - 2:30] Can't say but I have been putting in applications
[2:31 - 2:36] And people don't seem to think that I have but in the long run. I actually have been
[2:40 - 2:43] So there's that I
[2:43 - 2:46] Actually am working on getting a place to my own
[2:47 - 2:49] Don't know when that's gonna be
[2:50 - 2:54] But I have called a few places around here, and I am looking
[2:56 - 3:03] I'm just gonna say this rent around here isn't exactly cheap to say the least
[3:06 - 3:10] Fucking hell dude
[3:10 - 3:16] But um, you know, I am you know looking for
[3:17 - 3:19] You know a place my own
[3:19 - 3:34] Like I said you ran around here and not exactly cheap
[3:34 - 3:40] But I am looking you know, I've called a few places, and I've been you know looking around
[3:41 - 3:46] Like I said whether I get the places or not that's not up to me
[3:46 - 3:50] You know and a lot of people are gonna I know what you guys gonna ask
[3:50 - 3:53] Well, why are you moving out when you're staying at your mom's?
[3:54 - 3:57] Because I fear for their safety
[3:58 - 4:02] With everything that's going on. I want to be able to protect them
[4:04 - 4:11] So that way if somebody does try to come after me, they're gonna come after me and not my family
[4:12 - 4:19] I'm tired of my family being put in danger and my family doesn't need that
[4:21 - 4:33] A place around here is you know, it all it actually depends
[4:33 - 4:37] Some places like what we're renting out of right now at this house
[4:37 - 4:39] Is like six hundred a month
[4:41 - 4:43] Plus utilities and electric
[4:44 - 4:46] Some places could range up to
[4:47 - 4:48] 900
[4:48 - 4:56] So it all depends like I'm looking for the choose placing your hands on I am actually looking
[5:00 - 5:02] but
[5:02 - 5:06] Not that's out of the way. I do want to get to the main
[5:07 - 5:09] issue at hand and
[5:10 - 5:12] That main issue is
[5:13 - 5:16] I think we all know what the main issue is which is the whole
[5:17 - 5:23] You know mass hall reports incident and there appears to be a lot of people getting
[5:23 - 5:26] Misconstrued and things mixed up
[5:27 - 5:33] With that whole storyline so I do want to you know clarify and clear up
[5:35 - 5:37] Everything that way. There's no
[5:38 - 5:42] Mistaking what I'm saying you guys have the full factual
[5:43 - 5:45] Story of what went down
[5:46 - 5:50] How it went down what I did and all that stuff
[5:51 - 5:53] That way for those of you that don't know the situation
[5:54 - 5:56] all you guys got to do is go back and
[5:57 - 6:01] You know watch this video, but this is going to be the final time
[6:02 - 6:04] That I bring this up
[6:04 - 6:10] After this, I'm not bringing it up anymore. I'm not gonna talk about it anymore
[6:11 - 6:14] I'm going to try to move on with my life
[6:15 - 6:20] Okay, a lot of people seem to think that I saw it
[6:21 - 6:25] her out a lot of people seem to think that I went looking for
[6:27 - 6:29] Mass over ports
[6:31 - 6:33] When in all actuality
[6:34 - 6:36] She sought me out
[6:36 - 6:43] All right
[6:43 - 6:45] nice old reports sought me out
[6:56 - 6:59] okay, when she first approached me as a
[7:01 - 7:05] Fan, this is what actually happened. All right
[7:06 - 7:08] She approached me as a fan
[7:09 - 7:15] Told me by phone call that she was getting ready to be 18 here in 48 hours
[7:16 - 7:19] She had approached right and
[7:20 - 7:22] Told me that she was a fan
[7:23 - 7:27] told me that she was getting ready to be 18 in a couple days and
[7:28 - 7:33] You know, we started talking a little bit. There was nothing sexual at first
[7:35 - 7:36] You know
[7:36 - 7:41] There was nothing sexual involved and you know from junk
[7:41 - 7:45] like people think
[7:45 - 7:48] but we talked for a couple hours and
[7:49 - 7:57] You know, then she hung up and started texting me and I was thinking okay, cool
[7:58 - 8:03] Now I know what I did was wrong and I shouldn't have gone along with it, but
[8:04 - 8:06] people need to understand that
[8:07 - 8:08] You know
[8:08 - 8:09] she
[8:09 - 8:12] was the first one to initiate
[8:13 - 8:15] the
[8:15 - 8:17] Way things went down
[8:18 - 8:22] She was the first one to send photos to me
[8:24 - 8:34] Damn fucking fruit boy, but she was the first one to send a photo to me and
[8:35 - 8:42] You know things went down things happen and I know I shouldn't have done what I did
[8:43 - 8:51] Why I didn't stop. I don't know. I don't know why I wasn't thinking but I do know that
[8:51 - 8:56] You know when that all went down. I wasn't in the right state of mind at that point in time
[8:57 - 9:00] Due to the fact that I had been in several
[9:01 - 9:03] Abuse of relations prior
[9:03 - 9:09] Plus I was still dealing with you know, the Heather crowd the Marty crowd. So I wasn't in a
[9:11 - 9:13] Stable mindset I
[9:13 - 9:16] was in a very fucked up mindset and
[9:19 - 9:21] part of me, you know wanted
[9:22 - 9:25] You know to feel that love again that I once had and
[9:25 - 9:30] I know it was wrong and I know that it should not have happened and
[9:31 - 9:35] I do regret it and I do feel bad for that happening
[9:36 - 9:39] you know, I do you know regret what I did and
[9:40 - 9:46] I you know, I do feel bad and I I would hope to God that
[9:47 - 9:48] no one
[9:48 - 9:54] Gets put through what I got put through or falls for what I felt for
[9:55 - 10:06] I am gonna be working on getting better. Like I said, I am seeing a counselor. Thanks, you know, my brother Jake
[10:08 - 10:10] I am gonna be working on different things
[10:12 - 10:14] I'm working
[10:14 - 10:17] You know alongside a few friends of mine
[10:18 - 10:20] to you know move forward and
[10:21 - 10:27] You know to better, you know myself and my life to where I can get in
[10:27 - 10:30] You know a better place so I can start doing
[10:31 - 10:39] You know more stuff, you know, like I said, I get that, you know, people are angry about
[10:40 - 10:44] You know what I did and you have every right to be
[10:44 - 10:52] You have every right and reason to be angry and I understand why but on the same token
[10:53 - 10:56] You guys do need to understand that
[10:57 - 11:00] You know things got mixed up
[11:01 - 11:02] You know
[11:02 - 11:12] And the way things actually happened got mixed up so many times that I don't think anybody knows the real truth
[11:12 - 11:18] And I'm here telling you the very real truth. Oh, yeah
[11:20 - 11:23] She engaged with me first
[11:25 - 11:27] She sought me out. I
[11:28 - 11:37] The
[11:37 - 11:43] Massal reports sought me out. I did not seek her out
[11:43 - 11:51] And I think that's where a lot of people are getting it mixed up because people think that I sought her out. I
[11:52 - 11:54] Did not seek her out
[11:54 - 11:57] she sought me out and
[11:58 - 12:01] You know things happen that shouldn't have happened and
[12:02 - 12:08] I do regret them and I do hope that y'all will let me finally move on from this craft and
[12:11 - 12:15] actually, you know
[12:15 - 12:20] Move on with my life because I'm honestly genuinely tired
[12:21 - 12:23] Of having to bring this stuff up
[12:26 - 12:29] Yeah, what's up, man? How you doing, bro?
[12:30 - 12:35] But I do hope I do genuinely hope that you guys
[12:36 - 12:39] Have a much better understanding of what went down
[12:40 - 12:42] How it happened
[12:42 - 12:48] You know things that I am trying to do to better my life
[12:48 - 12:52] And I know what you guys are gonna say
[12:53 - 12:57] You know, oh, we want you to film, you know, you're
[12:58 - 13:02] Well, unfortunately, I can't do that because I'm not allowed
[13:02 - 13:10] They do not allow filming and I can't sleep in office here. So
[13:11 - 13:18] Unfortunately, I can't I do apologize. I would have like kids, but I can't so
[13:23 - 13:27] But I do hope that you guys have a better understanding now of what went down
[13:27 - 13:29] what happened and
[13:30 - 13:36] For those of you that have been supportive of me and trying to you know, genuinely help me
[13:37 - 13:39] I do thank you guys for that and
[13:41 - 13:43] hopefully
[13:43 - 13:46] You know, we can move past the situation
[13:47 - 13:49] things can get
[13:49 - 13:51] start to get better and
[13:52 - 14:04] Things on the channel can start to get better. I love you guys
[14:04 - 14:08] I'm gonna sit down and chill out with my sister play some fortnight and chill
[14:09 - 14:18] And Clint I will message you my boy. I love you guys. I love the trolls love the subs
[14:18 - 14:26] And yeah, I will see you guys later. And if anybody has any further questions
[14:27 - 14:34] Like I said just refer back to this video, you know, go back and watch this video and all your
[14:35 - 14:38] Questions will be answered
[14:42 - 14:48] But I hope you guys have a good rest of your night man. I love you guys and I will see you guys later man
[14:49 - 14:51] face
2021-9-18 The Razors edge

2021-9-18 The Razors edge

[0:54 - 1:07] So, you little wintic bitches, think that you're funny.
[1:07 - 1:14] You think that you're cute.
[1:14 - 1:22] You think that you're badass.
[1:22 - 1:33] By doing the things you do, hiding behind your words,
[1:33 - 1:39] attacking my friends,
[1:39 - 1:43] paying celebrities to attack me,
[1:43 - 1:49] attacking my family,
[1:49 - 1:52] you truthfully think you're badasses.
[1:52 - 2:05] Now, let me tell you right now, you're nothing.
[2:05 - 2:08] And for you celebrities that have attacked me,
[2:08 - 2:14] about you doing what you've done,
[2:14 - 2:16] you're nothing as well.
[2:16 - 2:20] Especially you, Steve Wilkos.
[2:20 - 2:25] Now, don't get me wrong,
[2:25 - 2:27] I do still hold some,
[2:27 - 2:33] a tiny shred of respect for you.
[2:33 - 2:38] But what you did last night being drunk,
[2:38 - 2:43] why should I forgive that?
[2:43 - 2:46] Why should I forgive someone like you
[2:46 - 2:52] who was drunk off his fucking ass?
[2:52 - 3:03] When he said what he said,
[3:03 - 3:08] say right now, Steve,
[3:08 - 3:19] and all you motherfuckers that think they're badass,
[3:19 - 3:23] is because they're drunk motherfuckers like you
[3:23 - 3:25] and people like my old man,
[3:25 - 3:42] why I live this straight age lifestyle.
[3:42 - 3:45] You see, in 2008, when I just entered high school,
[3:45 - 3:51] I met this girl named Cynthia.
[3:51 - 3:53] She was my first high school sweetheart,
[3:53 - 3:56] she was my first girlfriend straight out of high school,
[3:56 - 3:58] while I was going into high school.
[3:58 - 4:04] But being drunk is how she died.
[4:04 - 4:09] Like this man I'm about to show you ladies and gentlemen,
[4:09 - 4:21] he lost somebody and I lost somebody.
[4:21 - 4:28] Cynthia died due to her old man drinking.
[4:28 - 4:32] He was picking her up one day from school
[4:32 - 4:35] and got into a car accident with a school bus.
[4:35 - 4:37] It was a head-on collision.
[4:37 - 4:43] She died and he lived.
[4:43 - 4:49] And he is now currently serving a 30 to life sentence in prison,
[4:49 - 4:52] not only for killing her
[4:52 - 4:59] and people in the passenger seat of the other car,
[4:59 - 5:03] but also on several other charges that he had had prior.
[5:03 - 5:10] And that's something that replays in my fucking mind every day
[5:10 - 5:12] when I see somebody drinking.
[5:12 - 5:18] I don't understand why put yourself through that.
[5:18 - 5:21] Why put yourself through that garbage?
[5:21 - 5:29] Know what you motherfuckers are gonna say?
[5:29 - 5:32] What's her last name? What's her last name?
[5:32 - 5:34] I'm not giving that out.
[5:34 - 5:37] Because I don't want her family attacked
[5:37 - 5:41] the same way you guys attacked my friends and my family.
[5:41 - 5:46] I'm not doing that.
[5:46 - 5:57] If any of you are fans of AEW
[5:57 - 6:01] and don't know who this man is or this man's story,
[6:01 - 6:05] allow me to introduce this man to you.
[6:05 - 6:12] Allow me to introduce his story to you.
[6:12 - 6:15] Because maybe then you guys will see
[6:15 - 6:21] why I walked a straight edge lifestyle just like he does.
[6:21 - 6:38] Allow me to introduce you to the man that's half dead.
[6:38 - 6:46] Allow me to introduce you to the man himself,
[6:46 - 6:49] the one and only Darby Allen.
[6:49 - 6:54] Is this that feeling of how quick life can just change?
[6:54 - 6:58] Is that feeling of how everything can get turned upside down?
[6:58 - 7:01] I was five years old.
[7:01 - 7:06] My uncle came to pick me up.
[7:06 - 7:11] Gonna let me know he was drinking.
[7:11 - 7:18] About a few hours in this road trip,
[7:18 - 7:24] he lost control of the wheel and he died.
[7:24 - 7:30] I'm still here.
[7:30 - 7:38] I paid my face because 50% of me is dead inside.
[7:38 - 7:42] The trust for humans, the respect for humans.
[7:42 - 7:44] It's dead.
[7:44 - 7:47] That's why I paid my face like I do.
[7:47 - 7:51] It's not a gimmick.
[7:51 - 7:53] It's not for ha ha, look at me.
[7:53 - 7:55] I'm a bad mother.
[7:55 - 7:58] It's how I feel.
[7:58 - 8:04] See, I got relentless tattooed on the back of my neck last week.
[8:04 - 8:06] It means never stop.
[8:06 - 8:08] Keep moving forward.
[8:08 - 8:11] You know, I get so severely depressed
[8:11 - 8:14] if I'm not moving something, if I'm not moving.
[8:14 - 8:22] If it's a hunger, it's a want.
[8:22 - 8:25] I want to be better than you were yesterday.
[8:25 - 8:28] Be all that you can be.
[8:28 - 8:32] Don't settle for others' expectations of you.
[8:32 - 8:34] Others' labels of you.
[8:34 - 8:39] Be what you knew you could.
[8:39 - 8:41] I would do these crazy stunts.
[8:41 - 8:45] Sometimes by myself, I would set up a tripod
[8:45 - 8:47] and I'd jump off a huge sculpture.
[8:47 - 8:49] No one was around and I'd break my foot
[8:49 - 8:51] and have to sit on my skateboard
[8:51 - 8:54] and push my way home for five miles.
[8:54 - 8:56] That's just...
[8:56 - 9:01] I felt I wanted an audience to experience my pain.
[9:01 - 9:06] I wanted an audience to see what I would go through
[9:06 - 9:09] and what I'm willing to put myself through.
[9:09 - 9:11] And with skating, I couldn't tell my story
[9:11 - 9:15] in the way I wanted to tell it.
[9:15 - 9:18] The wrestling gave me that outlet.
[9:18 - 9:22] And I never looked.
[9:22 - 9:24] Ever since that car accident,
[9:24 - 9:27] whether I filmed for MTV
[9:27 - 9:29] or I filmed for Tony Hawk,
[9:29 - 9:31] it's just that reckless,
[9:31 - 9:33] I just didn't care.
[9:33 - 9:35] But the moment you get a taste
[9:35 - 9:40] of people accepting your craziness,
[9:40 - 9:44] find a place to sit in.
[9:44 - 9:50] People come up to me and they say,
[9:50 - 9:52] you should really tone it down.
[9:52 - 9:54] Be safe.
[9:54 - 10:01] Unfortunately, I don't know if I have that switch.
[10:01 - 10:04] It doesn't scare me, yes.
[10:04 - 10:06] But it's all I've ever known.
[10:06 - 10:09] I've always felt this relentless hunger
[10:09 - 10:11] to just get the most out of life.
[10:11 - 10:13] Because you never know who it's going to be.
[10:13 - 10:19] The ultimate goal at AEW
[10:19 - 10:23] is to be accepted for me.
[10:23 - 10:27] And that's all I've ever wanted my whole life
[10:27 - 10:29] is just to be accepted for me.
[10:29 - 11:12] How do you guys see?
[11:12 - 11:22] How do you guys see
[11:22 - 11:25] how me and that man are alike?
[11:25 - 11:27] Because just like him,
[11:27 - 11:29] I have fought my demons.
[11:29 - 11:31] I have fought my battles.
[11:31 - 11:33] I have fought against the world.
[11:33 - 11:35] Against people like you
[11:35 - 11:42] that drag me the fuck down.
[11:42 - 11:45] Like him, I've lost people that I love.
[11:45 - 11:48] I've lost people that I care about.
[11:48 - 11:52] And the one thing that still fucking bugs me
[11:52 - 11:59] is why you feel like you have to be internet badasses.
[11:59 - 12:03] When in real life, you know,
[12:03 - 12:07] you know now, deep down inside of you,
[12:07 - 12:10] that you guys that attack me,
[12:10 - 12:12] you attack my friends,
[12:12 - 12:13] and you attack my family,
[12:13 - 12:15] all of you that do that,
[12:15 - 12:18] you know that deep down inside,
[12:18 - 12:22] you're nothing more than a bunch of limp dick one of these
[12:22 - 12:25] hiding behind a fucking screen.
[12:25 - 12:28] Because you're too fucking scared
[12:28 - 12:31] to face me in the real fucking world.
[12:31 - 12:33] You're too fucking afraid
[12:33 - 12:36] of what other people will think of you
[12:36 - 12:38] if you actually step out and say,
[12:38 - 12:40] hey, I actually enjoy this man.
[12:40 - 12:43] He actually is doing something.
[12:43 - 12:46] He's actually leaving his fucking mark.
[12:46 - 13:00] Most of you are afraid
[13:00 - 13:03] of your own fucking demons.
[13:03 - 13:06] So you lash out at others like myself
[13:06 - 13:09] all because you're too fucking afraid
[13:09 - 13:13] to face your own goddamn demons.
[13:13 - 13:15] Well, let me tell you,
[13:15 - 13:17] I've been facing my own goddamn demons
[13:17 - 13:20] since the day I was born.
[13:20 - 13:22] Since the day I was born,
[13:22 - 13:25] I have had to face my demons
[13:25 - 13:29] over and over and over again.
[13:29 - 13:33] Constant battle, day in and day out.
[13:33 - 13:35] Since the day I was born,
[13:35 - 13:37] I have fought.
[13:37 - 13:39] Since the day I was born,
[13:39 - 13:42] I was judged by people like you.
[13:42 - 13:46] I was attacked by people like you,
[13:46 - 13:48] my whole fucking life.
[13:48 - 13:53] Because of pieces of shit,
[13:53 - 13:55] motherfuckers like you,
[13:55 - 13:57] that want to judge people
[13:57 - 13:59] for no fucking reason,
[13:59 - 14:01] except for the fact that you can't accept
[14:01 - 14:04] your own demons.
[14:04 - 14:07] Because of motherfuckers like you,
[14:07 - 14:09] I've lost people
[14:09 - 14:12] that I've cared about.
[14:12 - 14:14] People that I've loved.
[14:14 - 14:21] First, my first high school
[14:21 - 14:24] sweetheart Cynthia.
[14:24 - 14:26] Then later on down the road,
[14:26 - 14:32] my soon to be
[14:32 - 14:34] four to five year high school
[14:34 - 14:38] sweetheart Christina.
[14:38 - 14:40] And then soon after,
[14:40 - 14:42] over and over again,
[14:42 - 14:44] constantly losing people
[14:44 - 14:46] that actually cared about me.
[14:46 - 14:49] You know, everybody asks
[14:49 - 14:51] why I don't have a girlfriend,
[14:51 - 14:53] why I'm not with anyone,
[14:53 - 14:55] why I'm always depressed,
[14:55 - 14:57] why I'm always angry.
[14:57 - 15:00] You guys are the reason why.
[15:00 - 15:05] You think I wanted to be this monster?
[15:05 - 15:07] You think I asked
[15:07 - 15:09] for any of this?
[15:09 - 15:11] No.
[15:11 - 15:13] I never asked
[15:13 - 15:15] to be turned into the monster
[15:15 - 15:17] that you made me into.
[15:17 - 15:22] You know, it's funny.
[15:22 - 15:25] Responsibility is a real funny thing.
[15:25 - 15:31] Responsibility is a very funny thing.
[15:31 - 15:34] Because half you limp dick motherfuckers,
[15:34 - 15:36] don't take responsibility
[15:36 - 15:38] for your own actions.
[15:38 - 15:43] Why do you think it's so hard
[15:43 - 15:46] for me to trust other human beings?
[15:46 - 15:51] Yes, there are very select few
[15:51 - 15:53] that I do trust,
[15:53 - 15:55] like Courtney and Saren.
[15:55 - 15:57] And those that have become close to me
[15:57 - 15:59] over the years,
[15:59 - 16:01] who know how I really am.
[16:01 - 16:03] People like my good friend, Clint,
[16:03 - 16:05] who know how I really am.
[16:05 - 16:10] But you fucking trolls
[16:10 - 16:12] and you people that do this shit,
[16:12 - 16:14] you guys are the reason
[16:14 - 16:16] why I have a very hard time
[16:16 - 16:18] trusting people.
[16:18 - 16:20] You guys are the reason
[16:20 - 16:22] why I'm not with anyone.
[16:22 - 16:24] Because you feel
[16:24 - 16:26] because of your own insecurities
[16:26 - 16:28] you have the right
[16:28 - 16:30] to pass judgment
[16:30 - 16:36] onto other people.
[16:36 - 16:38] When really you should be looking inside
[16:38 - 16:40] yourselves and judging
[16:40 - 16:42] yourselves.
[16:42 - 16:44] But instead
[16:44 - 16:46] you're so fucking scared
[16:46 - 16:48] to face
[16:48 - 16:50] your own goddamn demons
[16:50 - 16:52] that you reflect
[16:52 - 16:54] what you're dealing with
[16:54 - 16:56] onto other people like me
[16:56 - 16:58] because you can't handle
[16:58 - 17:00] manning up
[17:00 - 17:02] and owning your demons.
[17:02 - 17:05] None of you
[17:05 - 17:07] have the fucking balls
[17:07 - 17:09] to face your own goddamn demons.
[17:09 - 17:11] So you project
[17:11 - 17:13] and you reflect
[17:13 - 17:15] onto other people like myself
[17:15 - 17:17] who are a little bit different,
[17:17 - 17:19] who are willing to do things
[17:19 - 17:21] outside of the norm
[17:21 - 17:23] for acceptance.
[17:23 - 17:28] See
[17:28 - 17:30] the reason I started doing music
[17:30 - 17:35] the reason I picked up
[17:35 - 17:37] that guitar, the reason I picked up
[17:37 - 17:39] that microphone and that keyboard
[17:39 - 17:41] the reason
[17:41 - 17:45] why I do what I do
[17:45 - 17:50] with my music
[17:50 - 17:52] is not a way
[17:52 - 17:55] for acceptance.
[17:55 - 17:57] The reason I started it
[17:57 - 17:59] is to get people to understand
[17:59 - 18:01] what it is
[18:01 - 18:03] that they fucking plug me through
[18:03 - 18:05] day in and day out
[18:05 - 18:08] to tell my story
[18:08 - 18:10] of everything that I
[18:10 - 18:12] have been through
[18:12 - 18:15] the hell
[18:15 - 18:17] and the darkness
[18:17 - 18:19] that I have dealt with
[18:19 - 18:27] my whole fucking life
[18:27 - 18:29] my whole life I have dealt with
[18:29 - 18:31] darkness I have dealt with
[18:31 - 18:34] evil
[18:34 - 18:36] my whole life I have dealt
[18:36 - 18:38] with being judged
[18:38 - 18:41] with being attacked
[18:41 - 18:45] with living life
[18:45 - 18:47] and let me tell you
[18:47 - 18:49] when I'm behind that mic
[18:49 - 18:51] and I'm behind that guitar
[18:51 - 18:53] and I'm fucking shredding
[18:53 - 18:55] for those like myself
[18:55 - 18:57] and giving those people like myself
[18:57 - 18:59] a glimmer of hope
[18:59 - 19:03] that's all that fucking matters to me.
[19:03 - 19:05] See
[19:05 - 19:07] you guys seem to think that money is everything
[19:07 - 19:09] that money rules the fucking world
[19:09 - 19:11] you guys think that
[19:11 - 19:13] you guys run
[19:13 - 19:15] out of the internet but that's not true
[19:15 - 19:18] that's far from the fucking truth
[19:18 - 19:23] money doesn't
[19:23 - 19:25] rule the world
[19:25 - 19:30] sure it buys you nice things
[19:30 - 19:34] but my question to you
[19:34 - 19:36] is this
[19:36 - 19:38] how long before that new
[19:38 - 19:40] thing that you buy gets old
[19:40 - 19:44] maybe a week
[19:44 - 19:46] maybe a month
[19:46 - 19:48] maybe a year
[19:48 - 19:57] the question is this
[19:57 - 19:59] why
[19:59 - 20:01] worry about physical
[20:01 - 20:03] things when
[20:03 - 20:05] you die you can never
[20:05 - 20:07] take those physical
[20:07 - 20:09] things to the grave
[20:09 - 20:11] with you
[20:11 - 20:13] you can't take money to the grave
[20:13 - 20:16] you can't take anything
[20:16 - 20:18] to the grave with you when you die
[20:18 - 20:22] when you die
[20:22 - 20:24] nothing's going with you
[20:24 - 20:26] you're leaving this world the same way
[20:26 - 20:28] you came into this world
[20:28 - 20:41] with nothing
[20:41 - 20:43] I came into this world with nothing
[20:43 - 20:45] when I die
[20:45 - 20:47] I know I'm leaving here with nothing
[20:47 - 20:55] the only thing
[20:55 - 20:57] I am leaving this earth with
[20:57 - 20:59] the day that I die
[20:59 - 21:01] is the fact that I know
[21:01 - 21:03] that I made a fucking
[21:03 - 21:05] change in this fucking world
[21:05 - 21:07] against evil
[21:07 - 21:09] pissed off
[21:09 - 21:11] bitch ass people
[21:11 - 21:13] who want to judge others
[21:13 - 21:15] for no reason but to reflect
[21:15 - 21:17] in securities onto others
[21:17 - 21:20] you can sit there
[21:20 - 21:22] and you can judge me all you want
[21:22 - 21:24] you can say that I'm this
[21:24 - 21:27] and say that I'm not
[21:27 - 21:33] but at the end of the day
[21:33 - 21:35] I'm just another guy telling
[21:35 - 21:37] his story to help
[21:37 - 21:39] people like myself
[21:39 - 21:45] I'm just another guy
[21:45 - 21:47] trying to leave his mark on the world
[21:47 - 21:49] to not be forgotten
[21:49 - 21:51] because when I die
[21:51 - 21:54] when I fucking die
[21:54 - 21:59] I want people to look back
[21:59 - 22:01] on my life
[22:01 - 22:03] and be able to use it
[22:03 - 22:05] and learn from it
[22:05 - 22:07] I want people to be able to say hey
[22:07 - 22:09] this guy did something great
[22:09 - 22:11] this guy changed the lives
[22:11 - 22:13] this guy helped people
[22:13 - 22:15] and he didn't do it for the money
[22:15 - 22:17] he did it because what
[22:17 - 22:34] he does
[22:34 - 22:36] see I know what it's like
[22:36 - 22:38] to be in the dark my whole life
[22:38 - 22:40] because my whole life I have been
[22:40 - 22:42] dark
[22:42 - 22:44] my whole life I have never been
[22:44 - 22:46] accepted by society
[22:46 - 22:48] because of how I look
[22:48 - 22:50] and because I don't follow
[22:50 - 22:52] by society's laws
[22:52 - 22:57] I don't follow society
[22:57 - 22:59] I'm an outcast
[22:59 - 23:01] of society
[23:01 - 23:04] I don't follow
[23:04 - 23:06] the same rules that you follow
[23:06 - 23:17] because I know my purpose
[23:17 - 23:19] and my purpose
[23:19 - 23:21] is to serve the light
[23:21 - 23:23] for the darkness
[23:23 - 23:31] and which I was cast
[23:31 - 23:33] my job is to help others
[23:33 - 23:38] like myself
[23:38 - 23:40] utilizing the darkness
[23:40 - 23:42] that I was cast into
[23:42 - 23:44] and showing them my
[23:44 - 23:46] very real story
[23:46 - 23:48] in hopes that it inspires them
[23:48 - 23:50] to be just that much fucking better
[23:50 - 23:52] than they were the day before
[23:52 - 23:54] and if I could help someone
[23:54 - 23:56] get out of a bad relationship
[23:56 - 23:58] get out of abuse
[24:00 - 24:02] if I could help somebody
[24:02 - 24:05] get off drugs
[24:05 - 24:07] quit drinking
[24:07 - 24:09] help them get their life together
[24:09 - 24:13] that I'll fucking do it
[24:13 - 24:15] because that's the kind of person that I am
[24:15 - 24:17] and if you don't like it that's too fucking bad
[24:17 - 24:21] but I'm also here
[24:21 - 24:23] to tell you right now
[24:23 - 24:25] you motherfuckers and
[24:25 - 24:27] Tate, Steve Wilcox
[24:27 - 24:29] to make that video on me and my friends
[24:29 - 24:31] you made one very
[24:31 - 24:33] severe mistake
[24:33 - 24:35] in thinking that I would not stick up
[24:35 - 24:38] for them
[24:38 - 24:40] those people that you attacked
[24:40 - 24:42] were my friends
[24:42 - 24:45] people that I know personally
[24:45 - 24:47] and that I care about
[24:47 - 24:49] that have stuck up for me
[24:49 - 24:51] the same way I have stuck up for them
[24:51 - 24:56] so you think
[24:56 - 24:58] you know darkness
[24:58 - 25:00] you think you know loss
[25:00 - 25:02] you think
[25:02 - 25:04] you know pain and suffering
[25:04 - 25:06] but you don't know any of that
[25:06 - 25:08] unless you've been in the shoes
[25:08 - 25:10] of myself
[25:10 - 25:12] of my friends
[25:12 - 25:14] of people like Darby Allen
[25:14 - 25:21] unless you've been in the shoes
[25:21 - 25:23] of those that have been
[25:23 - 25:25] overseas and lost
[25:25 - 25:27] loved ones
[25:27 - 25:31] unless you've been in the shoes
[25:31 - 25:33] of a military family member
[25:33 - 25:35] who lost a loved one overseas
[25:35 - 25:37] who fought the good fight
[25:37 - 25:44] then what do you know
[25:44 - 25:50] about pain
[25:50 - 25:52] you claim that you know pain
[25:52 - 26:07] but you don't know anything
[26:07 - 26:09] you claim to know
[26:09 - 26:11] suffering
[26:11 - 26:13] you claim to know what it's like
[26:13 - 26:16] but let me tell you right now
[26:16 - 26:18] you don't know anything
[26:18 - 26:22] would I like
[26:22 - 26:24] to have that special someone in my life
[26:24 - 26:26] that I can turn to
[26:26 - 26:28] that I can be with
[26:28 - 26:30] who will accept me for who I am
[26:30 - 26:32] and not leave my side
[26:32 - 26:34] because of what you people do
[26:34 - 26:36] absolutely
[26:36 - 26:38] I truly would
[26:38 - 26:42] for the past year and a half
[26:42 - 26:44] because of you guys
[26:44 - 26:47] that like to attack me
[26:47 - 26:49] I've lost people that I've loved
[26:49 - 26:51] that I've cared about
[26:51 - 26:54] I've lost my best friend
[26:54 - 26:56] I lost my job
[26:56 - 26:59] I lost my girlfriend
[26:59 - 27:01] Kaitlyn
[27:01 - 27:08] people who actually
[27:08 - 27:10] cared about me
[27:10 - 27:12] that you guys turned against me
[27:12 - 27:17] I don't claim to be perfect
[27:17 - 27:20] I really don't
[27:20 - 27:24] I don't claim to be perfect
[27:24 - 27:28] I know I've
[27:28 - 27:30] made mistakes in my life
[27:30 - 27:34] and I get that
[27:34 - 27:36] I know that I've made mistakes
[27:36 - 27:38] in my life
[27:38 - 27:40] that are very severe
[27:40 - 28:00] that I have wrote the wrongs for
[28:00 - 28:03] but at the end of the day
[28:03 - 28:05] what right does that give you
[28:05 - 28:07] to pass judgment
[28:07 - 28:10] on me
[28:10 - 28:12] transgressions
[28:12 - 28:16] when you do just as bad
[28:16 - 28:18] sometimes even worse
[28:18 - 28:24] all of you sitting in the comments
[28:24 - 28:27] laughing right now
[28:27 - 28:29] and making smart ass remarks
[28:29 - 28:31] that just shows
[28:31 - 28:33] how insecure you really are
[28:33 - 28:45] with your lives
[28:45 - 28:47] you laugh at what you don't
[28:47 - 28:51] understand
[28:51 - 28:53] you poke fun at what
[28:53 - 28:55] you don't understand
[28:55 - 28:57] and could never
[28:57 - 29:02] understand
[29:02 - 29:04] unless you've been in my shoes
[29:04 - 29:06] and gone through all the things
[29:06 - 29:09] that I've gone through
[29:09 - 29:11] or gone through things like my friends
[29:11 - 29:13] have gone through
[29:13 - 29:16] or have gone through things
[29:16 - 29:18] like people
[29:18 - 29:20] like Darby Allen have gone through
[29:20 - 29:22] that what right do you have
[29:22 - 29:28] to pass judgment
[29:28 - 29:30] what right do you have
[29:30 - 29:36] to pass judgment
[29:36 - 29:38] when really you should be judging
[29:38 - 29:46] yourselves
[29:46 - 29:49] because as I said
[29:49 - 29:54] one day we all die
[29:54 - 29:56] we all die one day
[29:56 - 29:59] and when you leave this earth
[29:59 - 30:01] when you leave this earth
[30:01 - 30:03] you're going to leave here
[30:03 - 30:05] the exact same way that you came into this world
[30:05 - 30:13] with nothing
[30:13 - 30:15] that when I die
[30:15 - 30:17] I may not end up going to heaven
[30:17 - 30:22] because of all the wrong things that I've done
[30:22 - 30:33] but if I don't go to heaven
[30:33 - 30:35] I would rather walk this earth
[30:35 - 30:37] as a fallen angel
[30:37 - 30:39] to help people
[30:39 - 30:41] like myself because I am
[30:41 - 30:43] a fallen soul
[30:43 - 30:45] myself
[30:45 - 30:47] and I'm okay with that
[30:47 - 30:51] because I know
[30:51 - 30:54] at the end of the day
[30:54 - 30:56] as long as I can help someone
[30:56 - 30:58] that I'm doing my fucking job
[30:58 - 31:01] and if you don't like that
[31:01 - 31:03] then that's too fucking bad
[31:03 - 31:06] when I step up to that like
[31:06 - 31:33] I would rather walk this earth
[31:33 - 31:35] and I step up to that like
[31:35 - 31:37] or I strap up
[31:37 - 31:39] that goddamn guitar
[31:39 - 31:42] which I will be doing here in a minute
[31:44 - 31:46] when I strap that shit up
[31:46 - 31:53] I know
[31:53 - 31:58] I'm making a difference
[31:58 - 32:00] I know that I'm making a difference
[32:00 - 32:02] in someone's life
[32:02 - 32:04] because I have the balls
[32:04 - 32:06] to step up
[32:06 - 32:08] and do
[32:08 - 32:10] when all of you
[32:10 - 32:12] have the balls to fucking do
[32:12 - 32:23] I'm not gonna say here
[32:23 - 32:25] and pretend to like I'm perfect
[32:25 - 32:27] because no one in this world
[32:27 - 32:29] is perfect
[32:29 - 32:31] not me
[32:31 - 32:33] not any of you
[32:33 - 32:35] no one in this world is perfect
[32:35 - 32:42] but I will continue
[32:42 - 32:44] to fight
[32:44 - 32:46] they could fight
[32:46 - 32:48] against those
[32:48 - 32:50] that judge
[32:50 - 32:52] people like you in the comments
[32:52 - 32:54] people like you guys in the comments
[32:54 - 32:56] that like to attack people
[32:56 - 33:00] that like to outcast
[33:00 - 33:02] people like myself
[33:02 - 33:13] and to those that do get judged
[33:13 - 33:15] like myself
[33:15 - 33:19] I want you to know
[33:19 - 33:25] I want all of you to know
[33:25 - 33:27] that you have someone here
[33:27 - 33:29] that actually cares
[33:29 - 33:31] that knows what it's like to be an outcast
[33:31 - 33:33] like you
[33:33 - 33:35] and to be honest
[33:35 - 33:37] I'm proud to be an outcast
[33:37 - 33:39] because I would rather be an outcast
[33:39 - 33:41] than to be a bully
[33:41 - 33:49] I would rather be an outcast
[33:49 - 33:51] than to be a bully
[33:51 - 33:53] like you guys
[33:53 - 33:55] that love to judge people
[33:55 - 33:58] I don't do what I do for you guys
[33:58 - 34:00] I do it for the weirdos
[34:00 - 34:02] and the people like me
[34:02 - 34:04] that you outcast
[34:04 - 34:11] every fucking day
[34:11 - 34:13] I'd rather be different
[34:13 - 34:15] and be a freak
[34:15 - 34:17] than to be someone like you
[34:17 - 34:19] and be a normal member of society
[34:21 - 34:23] I like being an outcast
[34:23 - 34:29] I love being an outcast
[34:29 - 34:31] because it gives me a chance to be myself
[34:31 - 36:31] it's for all of my outcasts
[36:31 - 36:33] like myself
[36:33 - 36:35] and for those that have been attacked
[36:35 - 36:37] and have been bullied
[36:37 - 36:39] I want you guys to know
[36:39 - 36:41] that I love you guys
[37:58 - 38:35] you
[38:35 - 38:39] you
[38:39 - 38:41] you
[38:41 - 38:43] you
[38:43 - 38:45] you
[38:45 - 49:26] you
[49:26 - 49:30] you
[49:30 - 49:34] you
[49:34 - 58:41] you
[58:41 - 58:43] see this guy right here
[58:43 - 58:47] smooth guy
[58:47 - 58:49] and it's people like you
[58:49 - 58:51] that are insecure as fuck
[58:51 - 58:59] As a prime example of insecurity, and to the guy that put my number out there, I'm gonna
[58:59 - 59:00] shit.
[59:00 - 59:05] My number's been out there for a while now.
[59:05 - 59:08] Really affecting it, like you think it does.
[59:08 - 59:12] It really and truly does not affect me like you think.
[59:12 - 59:13] So what?
[59:13 - 59:14] You put my fucking number out there.
[59:14 - 59:15] What do you want?
[59:15 - 59:16] A fucking cookie?
[59:16 - 59:17] You want a fucking bag of Cheetos?
[59:17 - 59:18] Like options?
[59:18 - 59:27] When you say like?
[59:27 - 59:34] You know what I mean, the thing is people like Geico because it's just easy.
[59:34 - 59:36] I mean, for example, you've got cars.
[69:46 - 72:58] You guys, that's not the real Jenny, I'm not dumb.
[72:58 - 74:54] Introduce it to Smirnoff Pink Lemonade.
[74:54 - 75:00] We have fresh berries with ultra-spirno, but it's the pink you've been waiting for.
[75:00 - 75:37] Get your pink off with the new Smirnoff Pink Lemonade.
[76:52 - 80:22] That's fine, you know.
[80:22 - 80:23] It means experience.
[80:23 - 80:29] If I told you I'd been jarring the Raspberry Preserves for 85 years, it'd be like that
[80:29 - 80:31] has got to be some scrumptious jam.
[80:31 - 80:32] Geico!
[89:21 - 89:23] This final song, guys.
[89:23 - 89:33] I do hope that this shows you that if you are on the edge and dealing with something,
[89:36 - 89:45] I hope you know that me and my friends of this community will help you to fight whatever
[89:45 - 89:49] it is that you're going through.
[89:49 - 89:55] And I do genuinely hope that you know that you're not alone.
[89:55 - 90:06] Because like I stated in the very beginning, I know what it's like to feel pain, to feel
[90:06 - 96:25] suffering, and I know what it's like to feel alone.
[96:25 - 96:31] And I do hope that this helps you guys somewhere.
[96:31 - 96:44] If it did, I'm glad, you know.
[96:44 - 97:03] Because like I said at the very beginning of the stream, I just want to help those that
[97:03 - 97:04] are like myself.
[97:04 - 97:12] And like I said, would I like to find someone and be happy again?
[97:12 - 97:13] Absolutely.
[97:13 - 97:20] I would love to find someone that would stay with me no matter what.
[97:20 - 97:28] And understands, you know, what it's like to be where I've been at.
[97:28 - 97:36] But most importantly, I hope that you chose finding in yourselves to change your ways.
[97:36 - 97:44] I hope you chose finding within yourselves to change what you guys are doing.
[97:44 - 97:50] And actually see who I really am.
[97:50 - 97:56] And not judge me by who I am on the outside or how I look.
[97:56 - 98:04] But by what I'm trying to do and what others like myself see on the inside.
[98:04 - 98:15] And for those that are like myself, I hope that my very real story helped you guys
[98:15 - 98:17] in some way or another.
[98:17 - 98:24] And I do hope that I gave you guys some sort of hope to actually do better with
[98:24 - 98:25] your life.
[98:25 - 98:30] And, you know, keep fighting through whatever troubles and whatever problems
[98:30 - 98:31] you're going through.
[98:31 - 98:38] And I hope you guys know that while you're fighting these battles then,
[98:38 - 98:40] you're not alone.
[98:40 - 98:46] You got an entire community of people here including myself and these wonderful
[98:46 - 98:57] people like Tessa and Bron here that, you know, are always here for you guys.
[98:57 - 99:14] I hope you guys do continue to fight through whatever problem you're going
[99:14 - 99:15] through.
[99:15 - 99:19] I hope you guys do continue to fight.
[99:19 - 99:25] And I hope that my story helps you guys and inspires you guys to keep fighting.
[99:25 - 99:31] Because like you, I'm fighting a lot of the same battles that you're fighting.
[99:31 - 99:35] I'm fighting minor demons just like you are.
[99:35 - 99:44] I'm going through, you know, finally being able to get over being abused for
[99:44 - 99:46] many years by my exes.
[99:46 - 99:53] Like I'm just now getting my mindset back and wanting to be treated right by
[99:53 - 100:01] someone.
[100:01 - 100:10] Like I said, if, you know, my music or my art are doing YouTube,
[100:10 - 100:13] whether those bring me money or not.
[100:13 - 100:16] That's cool if they do bring me money.
[100:16 - 100:20] If they do provide an income, that's cool.
[100:20 - 100:27] But ultimately, I just want to help people and that's, to me, that's most
[100:27 - 100:29] important.
[100:29 - 100:35] I would rather be broke and help you guys knowing that I'm doing some sort
[100:35 - 100:43] of good rather than sit there and get paid and throw my life away and blow
[100:43 - 100:44] it out.
[100:44 - 100:48] Because to me, a human life is priceless.
[100:48 - 100:50] You can't put a price on a life.
[100:50 - 101:06] I hope that a lot of you trolls that have been judging me do stop judging
[101:06 - 101:09] me and stop judging others like me.
[101:09 - 101:13] You know, stop attacking my friends.
[101:13 - 101:15] Stop attacking my family.
[101:15 - 101:20] Stop attacking others that are like me.
[101:20 - 101:26] Because we only have such a short amount of time on this earth.
[101:26 - 101:30] We have such a short amount of time on this earth.
[101:30 - 101:37] You know, I'm going to leave you guys with this.
[101:37 - 101:54] Would you rather a negative legacy where you attack people, you judge
[101:54 - 101:58] people, you pull people under?
[101:58 - 102:03] Or would you rather live a life and be able to die and look back
[102:03 - 102:09] on your life and say, hey, I actually helped someone.
[102:09 - 102:11] I actually did some good.
[102:11 - 102:20] I don't know what you, but when I die, whether I go to heaven,
[102:20 - 102:28] whether I go to hell, whether I'm stuck on earth, I want to be
[102:28 - 102:32] able to look back on my life and say, hey, I did something with
[102:32 - 102:33] my life.
[102:33 - 102:35] I helped somebody.
[102:35 - 102:37] I helped to change someone's life.
[102:37 - 102:43] I helped someone through my story and I helped to better that
[102:43 - 102:48] person or I helped them to get clean because like I said,
[102:48 - 102:50] I'm not perfect.
[102:50 - 102:52] No one's perfect.
[102:52 - 103:00] And yes, I may serve the dark.
[103:00 - 103:02] I may serve the light through the dark.
[103:02 - 103:04] That may be true.
[103:04 - 103:08] I may have been thrown down a very dark coal.
[103:08 - 103:14] I may have been thrown down in a place that I'm still trying
[103:14 - 103:19] to climb out of, but it's like I always tell you guys
[103:19 - 103:24] that support me and even if you don't support me, that's fine.
[103:24 - 103:27] But this is something that I will always stand by.
[103:27 - 103:36] And this is something that I will always, always stand by.
[103:36 - 103:41] I need all of you to be okay because you guys being okay
[103:41 - 103:44] helps me to be okay.
[103:44 - 103:51] Seeing you guys fight your battles and overcome your
[103:51 - 103:54] battles helps me to fight my battles.
[103:54 - 103:56] You see how that works?
[103:56 - 104:07] You're going to have to go, dude, because I know CIA,
[104:07 - 104:09] you're a bit of a troll, man.
[104:09 - 104:13] I know how you are, so see you, CIA.
[104:13 - 104:21] Because like I said, at the end of the day, yes,
[104:21 - 104:25] would I like to make a living off of my dark artwork
[104:25 - 104:32] and off of my music and stuff like that?
[104:32 - 104:34] Absolutely.
[104:34 - 104:37] Because you know, at the end of the day, you know,
[104:37 - 104:39] I do need to make a living and that's something
[104:39 - 104:42] I would greatly enjoy.
[104:42 - 104:50] But what's most important to me isn't money,
[104:50 - 104:52] but helping others like myself.
[104:52 - 104:56] That's what's most important to me.
[104:56 - 104:59] Money will come and go, okay?
[104:59 - 105:02] I know eventually somewhere down the line,
[105:02 - 105:05] I will make money doing what I love.
[105:05 - 105:10] Whether it's a week from now, a year, a month,
[105:10 - 105:13] I know eventually I'll get somewhere.
[105:13 - 105:26] My main goal is to build a community to help people
[105:26 - 105:30] and to find a way that I can make a living
[105:30 - 105:34] doing what I love, helping people and inspiring people.
[105:34 - 105:36] That's my main goal.
[105:36 - 105:40] Is to be able to make a living doing what I love
[105:40 - 105:45] and knowing that I'm actually helping someone
[105:45 - 105:53] and that they're actually trying to better themselves.
[105:53 - 106:03] Because as I said, I know what it's like to walk the razor's edge, essentially.
[106:03 - 106:13] I know what it's like to be in that position.
[106:13 - 106:20] I know what it's like to walk the lines of life and death.
[106:20 - 106:25] Because I walk that line every day of my life.
[106:25 - 106:29] And if I can inspire someone and help them through something,
[106:29 - 106:34] whether that be sitting down and just talking with them
[106:34 - 106:40] or being an ear for them or whatever that may be,
[106:40 - 106:43] you know, I'm going to do that.
[106:43 - 106:48] Regardless of what the haters think,
[106:48 - 106:51] if you want to be a hater, that's fine.
[106:51 - 106:59] Because you judging me the way that you guys do
[106:59 - 107:02] just means that you just don't, obviously,
[107:02 - 107:10] have the brain power to comprehend what I'm doing.
[107:10 - 107:37] I've seen what's going on.
[107:37 - 107:54] Oh, you're right there.
[107:54 - 108:14] Alright, you're right there.
[108:14 - 108:17] Like I said, at the end of the day, guys,
[108:17 - 108:19] Tess knows how I am.
[108:19 - 108:23] Matter of fact, Tess actually knows me in real life.
[108:23 - 108:25] She knows me outside of this.
[108:25 - 108:27] She's seen what I've gone through.
[108:27 - 108:32] And she's right about one thing.
[108:32 - 108:34] She's right about one thing that is very true.
[108:34 - 108:38] And that is the fact that I do need to find somebody like myself
[108:38 - 108:44] that won't judge me, that won't, you know, walk away from me
[108:44 - 108:46] no matter what people say.
[108:46 - 108:49] And that's something I would like to have in my life again.
[108:49 - 108:55] And that's something that I do want to work towards.
[108:55 - 108:59] But I also feel like, guys, I do hope that I helped you guys.
[108:59 - 109:01] I love you guys.
[109:01 - 109:03] You guys are awesome.
[109:03 - 109:05] I love every single one of you guys.
[109:05 - 109:11] Haters, fans, mods, love all you guys.
[109:11 - 109:13] I'll catch you guys later, man.
[109:13 - 109:15] Be safe, guys.
[109:15 - 109:17] Peace.
2021-9-19 EARLY BIRTHDAY VLOG

2021-9-19 EARLY BIRTHDAY VLOG

[0:00 - 0:08] what up y'all y'all know what it is it's y'all boy I'm here with goofy ass stanky
[0:08 - 0:14] ass dorky ass motherfucking hillbilly Jake man say what up hey Jake shower you know
[0:18 - 0:22] oh yeah man we're headed down the market or late right now oh
[0:22 - 0:31] shock snakes yeah you think but yeah man we're headed down the market or late to
[0:31 - 0:35] hang out for an early birthday man no it feels like we've done this already boy
[0:35 - 0:42] this thing burned it all that was why I need to get a change wow that'd be next
[0:42 - 0:51] week that's why I said I'm gonna be busy true but yeah we're sitting down the
[0:51 - 0:56] early for an early birthday celebration as y'all know I'm turning 31 tomorrow no
[0:56 - 1:02] he's turning 50 no not about you turning 31 tomorrow no don't blame him he's 50
[1:03 - 1:08] this guy this guy man no bro he's 50
[1:09 - 1:15] no boy if I was 50 I'd be older than you actually I'm already actually I'm already
[1:15 - 1:19] older than you but that's my ass I'd probably be the age of your dad
[1:21 - 1:28] probably will be the age of my dad if I'm 50 yeah true dude dude if you were 50 I'd probably be dead
[1:29 - 1:38] not really yeah you're right true oh but yeah man we're just heading down the market or wait
[1:38 - 1:44] short out hanging out hang out that's three times already that much don't hit me
[1:55 - 2:05] no I'm going through it oh well have you been this way before yeah good please you know where you're
[2:05 - 2:10] going because I don't do you ever know where you're going next I do but the truck drives it so
[2:12 - 2:17] since when did your truck become self-driving I'm tired why do you
[2:20 - 2:25] oh this guy man this guy that's a lie man it's good
[2:27 - 2:34] why is it that guy live because it has a lie man my truck's good yeah that is true this is
[2:34 - 2:38] all this is all this old beater actually I'm good for what it is it's not a beater anymore
[2:38 - 2:44] I fixed it with paint job true but the oil still needs to replace the jet
[2:45 - 2:51] plus you need to push you need to do shocks that's coming Friday or Thursday why have you ever
[2:51 - 2:58] needed hinges on me now no I tried it last yesterday damn things are so rested on I can't
[2:58 - 3:06] get them off and I have an impact man it's dude come on I just don't have it everybody else has
[3:06 - 3:14] a fucking garage on the left that's why I need to get some new coilovers man get some coilovers
[3:14 - 3:20] sprinklers saying did you just say yeah this is fine what I got for this whole purpose yeah shocks
[3:20 - 3:28] are actually better anyways they're back at home more late true oh yeah man side I check in with
[3:28 - 3:36] you guys let y'all know what's up nothing's up what's this calling says the guy with the
[3:36 - 3:41] freaking Arnold Schwarzenegger boys no I don't have one would you talk to the ball
[3:41 - 3:46] hey says to do with the term hey I know you guys remember this you might remember it's not awesome
[3:46 - 3:55] no I don't hey everybody put in the comments hashtag terminator baby this guy right here
[3:55 - 4:00] terminator baby I'm here to terminate you and you got a diaper change man
[4:00 - 4:09] hey I'm a goal hurt times man you already have that no robot chicken but his voice ain't
[4:09 - 4:18] like mine though but I need to be a change do the change you need to change me oh he hurts
[4:18 - 4:22] me I'm his best friend I don't need to change shit
[4:24 - 4:35] hey what the fuck are we doing hey look I found your home mattress factory right across the street
[4:35 - 4:42] they screwed me over wait they didn't like I got a bed at $180 it only lasted me six months
[4:44 - 4:47] that was an expensive bed that was the cheapest one they had damn
[4:47 - 4:54] damn anyways y'all we'll see you guys won't get up the model man one it won't be a long time
[4:54 - 5:02] it's fucking fun true but yeah just thought I was popping on you guys let y'all know what's up
[5:02 - 5:06] just thought I'll let y'all know that we love you guys I'm about to hang out with this crazy fool
[5:06 - 5:12] right here oh shit going the wrong way yeah no shit don't ask gonna do that with dirt
[5:13 - 5:17] I'm gonna go around you know like normal
[5:18 - 5:23] it's the way I'm gonna follow me whoa that was too damn close
[5:24 - 5:29] you see what this this this is exactly what now I see why you guys were asking where to get
[5:29 - 5:38] his license from this hat it came to me this guy hello y'all love you guys and we'll see you
[5:38 - 5:43] guys won't get some longer man face I'm turning around
[5:47 - 6:44] someone actually died so I had to wait until I got home the house to charge it
[6:44 - 6:51] so unfortunately I wasn't able to film anything else you know going out to mogador and you know all
[6:51 - 6:57] that so I was able to film a little bit like I got some graveyard shots of us you know visiting
[6:57 - 7:06] some fallen soldiers and you know friends that we knew that had passed so we went out there paid our
[7:06 - 7:19] respects to them visited them I also picked up this dope ass demon slayer shirt rocking the demon
[7:19 - 7:26] slayer shirt today was actually an early birthday celebration picked up a pair of turtle beach
[7:26 - 7:33] headphones so I will actually be streaming on twitch and I will be streaming it over to youtube a
[7:33 - 7:43] lot more so yes twitch streams are coming back over to youtube 100 finally I also picked up
[7:45 - 7:54] another shirt here if I can even find it oh it's not out right here is a naruto ramen shirt
[7:55 - 8:02] another naruto ramen shop shirt which still has the tag on it haven't done anything to it yet
[8:03 - 8:38] the ichiraku ramen shop don't know if you guys can see that but get the ichiraku ramen shop
[8:39 - 8:46] picked that up today also picked up something very rare today which you don't see very much
[8:47 - 9:01] um and this actually is staying put up I'm actually going to um have this put up in like a glass case
[9:02 - 9:12] um this is actually number uh 5010 for all my car fanatics out there you know I had to pick this
[9:13 - 9:21] but I picked up this beautiful signed an autograph well autographed Magnus Walker
[9:24 - 9:30] Porsche 935 Magnus Walker couldn't say no to it I had to pick this up
[9:30 - 9:41] uh went out to Mickey D's had some fun uh went to a uh ice cream shop in town that
[9:41 - 9:46] has real good ice cream and we actually caught it last day because they're actually shutting down
[9:46 - 9:53] for good due to covid so we were able to get in there just in time which was super cool
[9:56 - 10:02] um also picked me up a little picked me up right here got a little pick me up
[10:03 - 10:07] little red bull um I did manage to get some pictures which I will be posting
[10:08 - 10:18] on my facebook um here very soon for those of you that you know do enjoy you know my photography
[10:18 - 10:25] stuff we got well I got a bunch of photos you got a bunch of photos so this is gonna be pretty
[10:25 - 10:32] cool I'm gonna get the post those here very soon um hopefully you know Jake will be coming around
[10:32 - 10:41] a lot more often and whatnot so you guys will get to see hillbilly Jake coming back around a little
[10:41 - 10:50] bit more um now that his work is transferring to another building um he's gonna be out of work
[10:50 - 10:58] for a while so oh yeah and then I also got these from Jake as well I got a necklace matching bracelet
[10:59 - 11:04] shout out to my brother Jake for these fucking love this shit bro thank you appreciate it
[11:05 - 11:15] and so today was a pretty good day I'm gonna have fun so and uh yeah what that means to you guys is
[11:15 - 11:25] like I said I will be figuring out how to stream on twitch and then stream that over to youtube
[11:26 - 11:35] I don't know how I'm gonna do that but I will figure it out for sure so it'll be interesting to
[11:35 - 11:44] kind of figure out how to you know get that set up and you know once I do it'll be a super fire
[11:45 - 11:50] um I'm super excited for it man it's gonna be super cool super way to be able to start streaming
[11:50 - 11:59] again have some fun and uh yeah what that means to you guys I hope you guys did enjoy this vlog
[12:00 - 12:08] um I might do more than I don't know but you never know what happened what's gonna happen
[12:08 - 12:14] but uh hopefully you guys did enjoy this I love you guys and I'll catch you guys later man peace
2021-9-19 COD VANGUARD OPEN BETA

2021-9-19 COD VANGUARD OPEN BETA

[0:04 - 0:07] One is open is open is open is open is open
[0:08 - 0:21] I just found out about this and I just picked this up
[0:22 - 0:29] We're actually playing Call of Duty Vanguard open beta for Xbox one
[0:29 - 0:36] If you guys do have Xbox one and you guys are cog fans
[0:38 - 0:43] Definitely pick this up while you can I don't know how long the open beta is gonna be for
[0:44 - 0:49] So if you have an Xbox one or an Xbox series X or a series S
[0:51 - 0:56] You know be sure to pick this up man. I've never played this is actually my first time starting this stuff
[0:57 - 1:07] Never played this before in my life. So this is gonna be interesting. I think I'm gonna be very interesting to check out
[1:07 - 1:26] Thanks. Let's go
[1:26 - 1:28] TV speaker
[1:28 - 1:41] This is gonna be interesting. I've never played Call of Duty Vanguard
[1:41 - 1:46] This is like I said, this is my very first time starting this stuff. I just downloaded this
[1:48 - 1:54] I was actually catching up on some of the LZ's videos and the LZ crew
[1:58 - 2:02] Check out their latest video while it's downloaded shot the item LZ. It was good man
[2:03 - 2:17] Check out. Don't care about that. Just let me get into the game already
[2:17 - 2:24] Getting those a game already
[2:25 - 2:32] It's a goal. Yeah, I'm so fucking hype right now
[2:32 - 3:05] Raise tell me that I do need to get into
[3:06 - 3:12] Another one that I need to get into is Assassin's Creed Valhalla and I do plan on getting into Valhalla
[3:13 - 3:30] For sure also tomorrow. Well today now tomorrow slash today
[3:31 - 3:36] I'm actually going to be going up to Magador Lake
[3:37 - 3:39] With my brother Jake for an early birthday
[3:41 - 3:47] I was gonna be me man. We're gonna hang out. How's the fun? I might vlog the trip tomorrow
[3:47 - 3:57] I don't know. All right, so you guys literally have three days and 15 hours to pick this up. So
[3:58 - 4:34] Then we go why you got the chance man now I'm drinking dude
[4:34 - 4:42] That's one thing I don't do is drink like never drank never smoked. I don't do any of that
[4:43 - 4:59] Like you going to a party like you guys gonna go to a party and shit where they're supposed to so yeah, I'll go
[5:00 - 5:03] I'll definitely go for sure. But like I'll be that dude
[5:04 - 5:12] That way I don't like that weird dude that always tries to come with a random shit to do
[5:12 - 5:19] All right, so we got commando. We got a row. We got a gorilla. Oh, yo
[5:21 - 5:23] Samper
[5:24 - 5:27] Oh
[5:40 - 5:43] Bro so far the graphics on this are sick. Oh
[5:50 - 5:52] Damn it fucking snag me
[5:57 - 6:33] See freaking caught me up right there. Oh, somebody had a bad day. Yeah, how the hell did I not see him?
[6:34 - 6:45] You know together with my room my phone in the other room now whenever I'm streaming
[6:46 - 8:07] Yeah, for sure man, you know, it's ways. I know what y'all are trying to do y'all are trying to interrupt me
[8:07 - 8:11] While I'm streaming and shit, which is funny. Oh
[8:13 - 8:27] Shit damn I can't corner people like I usually do
[8:38 - 8:40] usually I can corner peek them and
[8:41 - 8:44] Shit, I can't do that on here. Fuck. I
[8:44 - 9:10] Guess I can only do that on rainbow. I'm not so far the game plan. This is pretty game smooth. I like it
[9:10 - 9:16] It's definitely solid. It's this is that one game. I do want to pick up
[9:17 - 9:39] Yeah, I trust not shot
[9:41 - 10:03] So I swear you buddy. I hope you guys know that my phone's in the other room charging. So I'm not gonna hear it
[10:04 - 10:15] So why have a mother calling like you're not doing any good. I'm gonna back old boy right here up
[10:15 - 10:36] I mean the fucking back bro, but for real though, this shit's legitimately good
[10:36 - 10:40] Well, yeah, I actually like this
[11:16 - 11:18] 100% bro. We got our asses kicked. Oh
[11:25 - 11:26] Oh
[11:26 - 11:38] Got me right and that was me on the kill can be shot in the back and the dudes laughing about it. That's funny
[11:38 - 12:00] Yo, so far this is a pretty solid game like I'm not gonna play it for too long, but
[12:00 - 12:14] You know, you know, I do want to kind of stretch this out over the next couple of days. So
[12:15 - 12:18] I'm not gonna play too much of it. I'm probably gonna play like a half hour or so
[12:19 - 13:13] But dude, so far the gameplay on this is solid I am splitting off. Oh, it's too damn easy
[13:14 - 13:48] He just practically sat there and let me shoot him. I don't know why you trolls are trying to call you're not bugging anybody
[14:04 - 14:05] What?
[14:05 - 14:46] There's where I killed the first guy at one on two minutes. Fuck
[14:47 - 15:29] Don't scare away that dude. Shit. Hey chat in a corner where I could shoot you super easily. Oh
[15:33 - 15:35] Dude sniper shot me. Okay
[15:40 - 16:05] That was a good kill. You guys are screwed now
[16:05 - 16:27] You know, I don't know why you dumb ass trolls keep on trying to call in my foot
[16:27 - 16:30] Did I not just say my phones in the other fucking room?
[16:31 - 16:39] Like quick on there my phones in the other room. I'm not gonna fucking answer it
[16:39 - 17:32] Yeah, he was right fucking there. Oh, he fucking quick scope this. Okay
[17:33 - 17:50] You know after this match, I'm gonna see what the hell that fucking phone shit's about
[18:56 - 19:10] You know
[19:27 - 19:37] Fucking loser. I know you do some is your mom. She sucks my dick every night, bitch
[19:37 - 19:46] This guy
[19:46 - 20:01] This guy watches y'all fucking dumb shit
[20:02 - 20:40] Sort of got their dumbest fuck row and get busted. You're with your mom like to suck my dick
[20:40 - 20:43] Hey, that's why your sister sucked my dick last night
[20:50 - 20:52] Bruh Tyler, I know what you fucking
[20:53 - 20:55] Watch this
[20:55 - 21:02] Hey, Tyler, I know it's you retard. So piss off your fucking was you sound stoopid
[21:02 - 21:05] You came out already
[21:18 - 21:51] What the fuck yeah, yeah, bro, see that's what I find so interesting about the trolls man
[21:51 - 21:53] I find that shit interesting as hell
[22:09 - 22:11] Oh
[22:19 - 22:28] That's what I find so interesting about the trolls man, they do some of the dumbest shit
[22:35 - 22:37] Yes
[22:44 - 22:54] For once Sony I just said something that made sense black ops 2 was good and I do have black ops 2
[23:36 - 23:39] I'm here bitch, what are you doing?
[23:52 - 23:54] Damn dude
[23:54 - 24:00] Oh
[24:20 - 24:25] I'm not the bounce off here. I'm not saying the rest of the issue probably for tomorrow when I get back
[24:27 - 24:32] But if you guys didn't go to smack that like button and that subscribe button and then don't forget you're on down below
[24:32 - 24:35] And I will catch you guys in the next video
[24:35 - 24:43] Peace remember and you guys got three days to pick the seven three days from they didn't get that shit up and let's get it
Candall on MBM Stream 2023-2-16

Candall on MBM Stream 2023-2-16

https://www.youtube.com/@musicbizmarty7786

[0:00 - 0:02] All right, let me take a poll here.
[0:02 - 0:05] Who wants to hear from Candlesmote?
[0:05 - 0:08] You know what I do?
[0:08 - 0:12] Peaceful Bucky?
[0:12 - 0:13] Hi there.
[0:13 - 0:17] I'm actually here for a very peaceful talk,
[0:17 - 0:20] and I'm not here for any drama, Marty.
[0:20 - 0:20] OK.
[0:20 - 0:21] Yeah, I'm sorry.
[0:21 - 0:23] I was trying to be friends with Sarex the time,
[0:23 - 0:25] and I know he doesn't like you.
[0:25 - 0:27] It's OK.
[0:27 - 0:27] OK.
[0:27 - 0:29] So what's up?
[0:29 - 0:33] Honestly, there's no big deal or anything.
[0:33 - 0:36] I do want to apologize for my outburst last time.
[0:36 - 0:38] No, I didn't do it long at the time,
[0:38 - 0:42] and I shouldn't have blown off on you, Marty.
[0:42 - 0:45] I provoked you, and I deserved it.
[0:45 - 0:48] Either way, if anyone asks me, apologizes to me.
[0:48 - 0:51] So I'd like to say I'm sorry as well.
[0:51 - 0:53] Because honestly, when my dad died,
[0:53 - 0:55] it kind of fucked me up in the head.
[0:55 - 0:57] Hang a lie.
[0:57 - 0:58] Yeah.
[0:58 - 1:01] Especially the way he died, it really hurt.
[1:01 - 1:04] I thought he really didn't love me or anything
[1:04 - 1:07] when I was a kid, so.
[1:07 - 1:10] It's been a love-hate relationship with my dad
[1:10 - 1:12] ever since I was little.
[1:12 - 1:14] And I come to find out it's actually
[1:14 - 1:18] my adopted mother that's really the problem, not him.
[1:18 - 1:20] I actually started looking back on things
[1:20 - 1:24] that my dad did, or I should say my adopted dad,
[1:24 - 1:27] but either way, he's my dad.
[1:27 - 1:30] He did a lot of things for me.
[1:30 - 1:35] He loved me, surprisingly, because the last words
[1:35 - 1:39] that my dad gave me as he passed away
[1:39 - 1:44] that kind of fucked me up in the head was, I love you.
[1:44 - 1:46] I've never thought I'd hear those three words
[1:46 - 1:48] come out of his mouth, honestly.
[1:48 - 1:50] I really didn't.
[1:50 - 1:55] Well, I'm glad that you were able to hear those words,
[1:55 - 1:59] even if you lost him.
[1:59 - 2:01] I'm glad that you got to tell you how he felt
[2:01 - 2:03] with his final breaths, or?
[2:03 - 2:06] Yeah.
[2:06 - 2:07] But here's the thing, Marty.
[2:07 - 2:12] I'm just trying to squash things with Chance,
[2:12 - 2:14] but it seems like he's just too stubborn.
[2:17 - 2:20] He keeps saying that I'm trying to start drama
[2:20 - 2:21] and all this crap.
[2:21 - 2:27] And honestly, just because my dad, for real,
[2:27 - 2:31] it hurt me so bad that I'm ready to just stop
[2:31 - 2:33] all the fighting, for real.
[2:33 - 2:39] Well, he is like a deranged psychopathic pedophile,
[2:39 - 2:41] and he's just not somebody who can be reasoned with.
[2:41 - 2:45] Well, he used to be, long before all this trolling
[2:45 - 2:48] and everything that happened to him.
[2:48 - 2:50] Well, was that when he was threatening to jerk off
[2:50 - 2:52] to kids over video chats?
[2:52 - 2:54] No, this was long before that.
[2:54 - 2:56] It was long before that.
[2:56 - 2:59] So he's been at least a murderous psychopath
[2:59 - 3:03] for at least seven years, eight years?
[3:03 - 3:07] Well, he has his disabilities, and I'm not
[3:07 - 3:09] going to bash on the poor guy.
[3:09 - 3:15] He seems to have his issues, which every human being
[3:15 - 3:16] has their issues.
[3:16 - 3:19] I'll admit, I got issues.
[3:19 - 3:20] I got daddy issues.
[3:20 - 3:23] So basically, he's like a rebarter.
[3:23 - 3:25] No, I don't use that word.
[3:25 - 3:32] He is a very mentally disabled and very challenged young man.
[3:32 - 3:36] So he's like a slowpoke?
[3:36 - 3:38] No.
[3:38 - 3:41] OK, what would you call him?
[3:41 - 3:45] This is a terminology I would use for chance.
[3:45 - 3:49] A very misunderstood and very heated person
[3:49 - 3:53] for his own actions that he may or may not
[3:53 - 3:55] be able to comprehend due to the fact
[3:55 - 4:01] that his disability doesn't let him understand right from wrong.
[4:01 - 4:08] I mean, it's fair to say that he's intellectually stunted.
[4:08 - 4:10] He has his issues.
[4:10 - 4:12] I'm not bashing on the poor guy.
[4:12 - 4:13] Probably not.
[4:17 - 4:20] Did you see him eat his own cum recently?
[4:20 - 4:23] No, that's disgusting, first of all.
[4:23 - 4:24] Please don't eat barf.
[4:24 - 4:27] Yeah.
[4:27 - 4:31] I'm not into this whole drama thing, Marty.
[4:31 - 4:32] Sure.
[4:32 - 4:36] I mean, to be honest, I'm about to be older
[4:36 - 4:38] than I've been telling everybody.
[4:38 - 4:40] But either way, it doesn't matter.
[4:40 - 4:42] My truth doesn't matter.
[4:42 - 4:46] Everyone is always older than they're telling people they are
[4:46 - 4:48] because that's just the way it works.
[4:48 - 4:51] Normally, I actually got a hold of my birth certificate
[4:51 - 4:53] in my actual birthday.
[4:53 - 4:58] So I was adopted, and I just finally got my whole paperwork
[4:58 - 5:00] settled.
[5:00 - 5:01] Yeah.
[5:01 - 5:06] So you're willing to ease to forgive somebody
[5:06 - 5:09] who jacks off the kids and say that he's going to hurt kids?
[5:09 - 5:12] He's even saying that he's going to murder kids recently.
[5:12 - 5:15] No, I don't forgive him, Marty.
[5:15 - 5:21] It's the fact of I'm asking for a simple truth such as to leave
[5:21 - 5:22] me out of it.
[5:22 - 5:26] You know, like, I'm not, I don't know.
[5:26 - 5:28] So if you kind of were out of it,
[5:28 - 5:30] and you're kind of like inserting yourself into it,
[5:30 - 5:33] if you want to be out of it, I would.
[5:33 - 5:37] No, Marty, you're not understanding at all.
[5:37 - 5:37] I'm trying to.
[5:37 - 5:40] I'm trying to.
[5:40 - 5:42] Marty, how old are you?
[5:42 - 5:44] I'm 36.
[5:44 - 5:46] Wow.
[5:46 - 5:50] And this is what you do for fun?
[5:50 - 5:54] Yeah, I didn't come.
[5:54 - 5:57] Marty, let me put it to you nicely.
[5:57 - 6:00] I made a two hour video.
[6:00 - 6:01] Yeah.
[6:01 - 6:06] While either drunk and high, I don't know.
[6:06 - 6:10] I was tired, extremely depressed.
[6:10 - 6:11] Yeah.
[6:11 - 6:14] And hiding the fact that I've been,
[6:14 - 6:18] I was an actual piece of shit, Mel and Dad.
[6:18 - 6:20] Yeah, I mean, I hope you don't take this the wrong way,
[6:20 - 6:26] but like taking like life advice from somebody who
[6:26 - 6:27] identifies as a werewolf and sleeps.
[6:27 - 6:30] I am not a fucking werewolf, first of all, Marty.
[6:30 - 6:37] I'm a guy who's very, very used to identify as a werewolf.
[6:37 - 6:40] I used to identify as a furry.
[6:40 - 6:41] Thank you.
[6:41 - 6:44] And you steal from Walmart, right?
[6:44 - 6:46] I believe that you steal from Walmart.
[6:46 - 6:47] Huh?
[6:47 - 6:50] I think you got picked up for stealing
[6:50 - 6:52] from Walmart or Walgreens or something.
[6:52 - 6:55] When?
[6:55 - 6:58] So you've had multiple warrants.
[6:58 - 7:00] Like what were your warrants for?
[7:00 - 7:03] You really want to know what my warrants were for?
[7:03 - 7:05] Yeah.
[7:05 - 7:06] I'm not ashamed of it at this point
[7:06 - 7:09] because I've got a lawyer to deal with it.
[7:09 - 7:10] OK.
[7:10 - 7:12] The warrants, believe it or not, were mostly
[7:12 - 7:15] from my ex-girlfriend because she lied and said
[7:15 - 7:17] I choked her in all this crap.
[7:17 - 7:18] I can't even walk, Marty.
[7:18 - 7:19] I don't.
[7:19 - 7:20] I can't walk.
[7:20 - 7:21] I'm in a wheelchair.
[7:21 - 7:25] I cannot stand up physically and choke someone.
[7:25 - 7:28] I don't even have the strength in my legs to do so.
[7:28 - 7:30] Well, people in the wheelchair use
[7:30 - 7:32] to have very strong upper bodies.
[7:32 - 7:35] Yes, but I cannot just stand on my own
[7:35 - 7:37] to strangle my ex-girlfriend that's
[7:37 - 7:39] standing on the wall.
[7:39 - 7:39] I'm sorry.
[7:39 - 7:43] That's not happening.
[7:43 - 7:47] My ex-girlfriend has mental disabilities,
[7:47 - 7:50] but that's not here nor there.
[7:50 - 7:54] Honestly, it was mostly a whole big thing
[7:54 - 7:56] that she wanted to get revenge because I called her cheating.
[7:59 - 8:02] She just wanted me to suffer.
[8:02 - 8:05] I never tried to run over a cop.
[8:05 - 8:09] I've always been a law-abiding citizen as much as I can,
[8:09 - 8:13] except for when law enforcement abused their power.
[8:13 - 8:16] And what happened?
[8:16 - 8:19] When they abused their power, I
[8:19 - 8:20] gave them the middle finger.
[8:20 - 8:23] That's basically it.
[8:23 - 8:26] I have never been violent.
[8:26 - 8:28] You dated Chance Wilkins at one point.
[8:28 - 8:30] I actually know that.
[8:30 - 8:32] That is not true at all.
[8:32 - 8:36] I will put a foot in someone's ass if I could.
[8:36 - 8:37] All right.
[8:37 - 8:40] Can you tell me about the instances
[8:40 - 8:44] where he jerked off the kids and threatened
[8:44 - 8:47] to hurt kids in your experience?
[8:47 - 8:49] He's always threatening to hurt someone,
[8:49 - 8:51] whether it be kids or adults.
[8:51 - 8:53] It doesn't really matter.
[8:53 - 8:58] It's not his fault entirely because he can't comprehend
[8:58 - 9:02] or understand that he's doing something wrong.
[9:02 - 9:06] It's part of his body.
[9:06 - 9:09] I'm going to put a video in your own words
[9:09 - 9:13] and you can just tell me what's going on that day.
[9:17 - 9:18] All right.
[9:18 - 9:21] This is a live video on Facebook.
[9:21 - 9:25] I got something to address to all those mothers out there.
[9:25 - 9:30] All you mothers out there that have young.
[9:30 - 9:31] All right.
[9:31 - 9:33] This is a live video on Facebook.
[9:33 - 9:38] I got something to address to all those mothers out there.
[9:38 - 9:42] All you mothers out there that have young, young children,
[9:42 - 9:45] be warned of this guy named Chance Wilkins.
[9:45 - 9:46] He'll jack off on your children.
[9:46 - 9:50] Not only that, he'll sit there and jack off on video chat
[9:50 - 9:51] with them.
[9:51 - 9:53] He'll sit there and threaten to kill your children
[9:53 - 9:55] if they don't sleep with him.
[9:55 - 9:56] They will do whatever.
[9:56 - 9:59] He threatens to kill children if they don't sleep with them.
[9:59 - 10:03] Yeah, that was actually a thing back then.
[10:03 - 10:06] Well, tell me more about that.
[10:06 - 10:09] Honestly, I'm not going to feed into this drama,
[10:09 - 10:11] but I will say that.
[10:11 - 10:13] He made a claim, and I'd like to hear your answer.
[10:13 - 10:16] He made a claim.
[10:16 - 10:17] What about it?
[10:17 - 10:19] The freedom of speech.
[10:19 - 10:21] Sure, so he threatened to kill kids
[10:21 - 10:23] if they didn't sleep with them.
[10:23 - 10:27] Yeah, he threatened to kill me as well.
[10:27 - 10:29] Wow.
[10:29 - 10:31] What's the point?
[10:31 - 10:34] I mean, the point is that threatening to kill kids
[10:34 - 10:37] if they don't sleep with you is wrong.
[10:37 - 10:39] OK.
[10:39 - 10:43] And you're constantly making videos
[10:43 - 10:49] and trying to extort money from a disabled person.
[10:49 - 10:53] Who am I extorting money from?
[10:53 - 10:56] You know exactly who.
[10:56 - 10:59] Chance doesn't have any money.
[10:59 - 11:05] You're creating money flow from his humiliation.
[11:05 - 11:06] Well, you can say that I humiliate him.
[11:06 - 11:09] You're the one saying that he threatens to kill kids
[11:09 - 11:11] if they don't sleep with them, which
[11:11 - 11:14] would be more humiliating saying that he steals art
[11:14 - 11:16] or you saying that he's a pedophile.
[11:16 - 11:18] Like if both of what we say is true,
[11:18 - 11:21] then I don't really see anything wrong with either.
[11:21 - 11:25] That's your opinion, but me personally,
[11:25 - 11:28] I'm not going to feed into it, Marty.
[11:28 - 11:30] All right.
[11:30 - 11:33] Marty, you need to understand this.
[11:33 - 11:36] Only reason I came on to this video
[11:36 - 11:41] to be brutally honest with you, I
[11:41 - 11:47] am tired of this whole negative thing going on.
[11:47 - 11:51] I want to tell you what my supposed age is right now.
[11:51 - 11:53] I am 28.
[11:53 - 11:54] OK.
[11:54 - 11:55] 20 years old.
[11:55 - 11:56] Yeah.
[11:56 - 12:00] When my dad died, let me put you very seriously.
[12:00 - 12:04] When you lose someone that you thought didn't love you
[12:04 - 12:07] and then when they mentioned those words to you,
[12:07 - 12:10] it breaks you inside, Marty.
[12:10 - 12:13] I don't know if you've ever lost anyone like this.
[12:13 - 12:16] It's really hard.
[12:16 - 12:17] Sure.
[12:17 - 12:21] And I'm guessing your actual name is Nick or whatever.
[12:21 - 12:22] Yeah.
[12:22 - 12:28] So tell me, why are you so scared to just be
[12:28 - 12:30] straightforward with people?
[12:30 - 12:33] What am I not being straightforward about?
[12:33 - 12:35] Well, first of all, your name.
[12:35 - 12:38] Why do you use it such a silly YouTube name?
[12:38 - 12:39] Everyone knows my name.
[12:39 - 12:43] It's Nicholas Beaker.
[12:43 - 12:45] What an interesting name.
[12:45 - 12:46] Thank you.
[12:46 - 12:49] Glad you think that it's interesting.
[12:49 - 12:53] At least it couldn't be any worse than what my adopted
[12:53 - 12:57] mother gave me, which you've already kind of annoyed me
[12:57 - 12:59] with, but I'm going to let slide.
[12:59 - 13:06] Because I like being called Becky.
[13:06 - 13:07] OK.
[13:07 - 13:09] That was my biological name.
[13:09 - 13:13] It was before I got adopted, right?
[13:13 - 13:14] Yeah, no.
[13:14 - 13:16] I mean, listen, the names that were given,
[13:16 - 13:18] there's an etymology to it all.
[13:18 - 13:20] That's all fascinating.
[13:20 - 13:26] But what's more interesting is the desire to cozy up
[13:26 - 13:29] to a man who threatened to jerk off the kids
[13:29 - 13:30] and threatened to kill the kids.
[13:30 - 13:32] I'm trying to cozy up with no one.
[13:32 - 13:33] I have a man.
[13:33 - 13:34] Thank you.
[13:34 - 13:36] Whatever this is.
[13:36 - 13:42] I'm just trying to squash the drama, OK?
[13:42 - 13:46] Children, be warned of this guy named Chance Wilkins.
[13:46 - 13:48] He'll jack off on your children.
[13:48 - 13:51] Not only that, he'll sit there and jack off on video chat
[13:51 - 13:52] with them.
[13:52 - 13:55] He'll sit there and threaten to kill your children
[13:55 - 13:56] if they don't sleep with him.
[13:56 - 13:58] They will do whatever they can.
[13:58 - 13:59] He would look.
[13:59 - 14:02] It's like a pretty, I don't know.
[14:02 - 14:04] I don't want to squash beef with somebody
[14:04 - 14:06] who threatened to kill kids if they don't sleep with them.
[14:06 - 14:07] I guess it's pretty funny.
[14:07 - 14:11] Marty, I'm trying to fix my life.
[14:11 - 14:12] OK.
[14:12 - 14:19] Honestly, if it has Chance leave me alone, OK?
[14:19 - 14:21] All I'm wanting is a peaceful life,
[14:21 - 14:23] not to be dragged into any more of the.
[14:23 - 14:24] Chat with them.
[14:24 - 14:26] He'll sit there and threaten to kill your children
[14:26 - 14:28] if they don't sleep with him.
[14:28 - 14:31] They will do whatever they can.
[14:31 - 14:33] Sorry.
[14:34 - 14:39] You're kind of pissing my man off a little bit.
[14:39 - 14:40] Who?
[14:40 - 14:42] You are.
[14:42 - 14:45] Oh, the man in the car right now?
[14:45 - 14:47] Yeah.
[14:47 - 14:48] So what am I doing that's pissing you off?
[14:48 - 14:52] Why, are you in favor and support men jerking off
[14:52 - 14:53] the kids and threatening to kill them
[14:53 - 14:54] if they don't sleep with them?
[14:54 - 14:57] I'm sorry if we're taking a stance against that.
[14:57 - 15:01] I don't know what else I did that could offend them.
[15:01 - 15:04] What's on your mind, sir?
[15:04 - 15:05] He doesn't want to talk.
[15:05 - 15:09] He's more likely to punch somebody in the face, dear.
[15:09 - 15:11] Well, OK.
[15:11 - 15:13] He doesn't want to talk in type, OK?
[15:13 - 15:16] Yeah, I don't think he can afford to get here.
[15:16 - 15:17] So this is probably.
[15:17 - 15:21] Oh, honey, you don't know my financial situation, OK?
[15:21 - 15:23] Pretty good.
[15:23 - 15:25] I have a pretty good idea.
[15:25 - 15:26] Do you?
[15:26 - 15:28] Yeah.
[15:28 - 15:29] Do you?
[15:29 - 15:31] Yeah, I know like a year ago you're sleeping on a park bench.
[15:31 - 15:33] I don't know if you've turned around.
[15:33 - 15:35] I don't know a year ago, honey.
[15:35 - 15:37] That's more than a year ago, actually.
[15:37 - 15:40] All right, well, then I guess you need a big come up.
[15:40 - 15:43] I have a house, Marty.
[15:43 - 15:45] All right.
[15:45 - 15:47] Are you in the car right now?
[15:47 - 15:52] Yes, I'm sitting in my car because I'd rather sit upright
[15:52 - 15:54] and then I'd have to hurt my back.
[15:54 - 15:56] Yeah, some of these guys are always in a car.
[15:56 - 15:57] That's weird.
[15:57 - 15:59] I mean, do you want to go inside or are you driving
[15:59 - 15:59] somewhere?
[15:59 - 16:00] It sounds like your part.
[16:00 - 16:02] I'm actually fixing to be going out on a dinner
[16:02 - 16:04] date here in a moment.
[16:04 - 16:06] Must be a late dinner.
[16:06 - 16:07] Yes, it is.
[16:07 - 16:10] It's a celebration.
[16:10 - 16:11] I totally believe you.
[16:11 - 16:14] What are you celebrating your father dying?
[16:14 - 16:17] No, my mother going into a psychiatric hospital
[16:17 - 16:19] where she belongs.
[16:19 - 16:20] You're celebrating your mother being
[16:20 - 16:23] put into a psychiatric institution, OK?
[16:23 - 16:24] She needs it.
[16:24 - 16:27] She thinks there's bugs on everything.
[16:27 - 16:29] It's gone insane.
[16:29 - 16:31] That's the celebratory dinner.
[16:31 - 16:35] Hey, my mother just got institutionalized.
[16:35 - 16:39] Let's go out and have some steak tacos.
[16:39 - 16:41] All right, this sounds a little bit weird to me,
[16:41 - 16:43] but to each their own.
[16:43 - 16:45] Let me put it to you this way.
[16:45 - 16:50] My adopted mother abused me, OK?
[16:50 - 16:52] This woman tried to kill me multiple times
[16:52 - 16:53] through my wife.
[16:53 - 16:55] They'll sit there and threaten to kill your children
[16:55 - 16:57] if they don't sleep with them.
[16:57 - 16:59] They will do whatever they can.
[16:59 - 17:01] He would literally hurt you.
[17:02 - 17:04] Did your man just groan?
[17:04 - 17:06] May I have that, please?
[17:06 - 17:10] I thought you were going to make a wonderful film.
[17:10 - 17:14] Can you talk, or is he like that Lenny guy?
[17:14 - 17:17] No, I would suggest you stop before you really
[17:17 - 17:19] piss off a hacker.
[17:19 - 17:20] A hacker?
[17:20 - 17:23] He sounds like a big grunting buffoon.
[17:23 - 17:25] Excuse me, Marty.
[17:25 - 17:27] From everything that it appears like, it seems like.
[17:28 - 17:30] Marty, Nick.
[17:30 - 17:31] Yeah, yes.
[17:31 - 17:33] I'm going to tell you this now.
[17:33 - 17:35] Stop your shit.
[17:35 - 17:37] Listen, I'm not trying to be.
[17:37 - 17:41] I know you get off on this, but I'm going to tell you this.
[17:41 - 17:42] Stop it.
[17:42 - 17:44] Picking on people with disabilities
[17:44 - 17:46] is not OK, first of all.
[17:46 - 17:52] Second of all, do you realize that can be a federal crime?
[17:52 - 17:53] So hang on a second here.
[17:53 - 17:56] You're saying that it's wrong to take pleasure
[17:56 - 17:59] in the mentally disabled, or physically disabled in your case,
[17:59 - 18:01] while also seeing that you're going out
[18:01 - 18:04] to celebrate a mentally ill person getting institutionalized.
[18:04 - 18:07] So what's the difference?
[18:07 - 18:10] Let's put it this way, Marty, or I should say, Nick.
[18:10 - 18:12] Yeah, people know my name.
[18:12 - 18:14] It's not like a thing.
[18:14 - 18:15] I don't care.
[18:15 - 18:19] Either way, I want to be blunt with you, Nick.
[18:19 - 18:21] You need to learn what respect is,
[18:21 - 18:24] but I've been cutting you off, and you've
[18:24 - 18:26] been constantly doing that to me.
[18:26 - 18:30] And quite frankly, you need to learn etiquette.
[18:30 - 18:32] Are you trying to bring together a sentence,
[18:32 - 18:35] or are you just drunk and grown up?
[18:35 - 18:39] He actually speaks, but he doesn't want to.
[18:39 - 18:42] Right now, he's getting really pissed off at your disrespect.
[18:48 - 18:50] I'm going to just drown out your stupidity.
[18:50 - 18:53] He'll sit there and threaten to kill your children
[18:53 - 18:55] if they don't sleep with him.
[18:55 - 18:57] They will do whatever they can.
[18:57 - 18:59] So it literally hurts you.
[18:59 - 19:01] This man is psyched.
[19:01 - 19:04] Yeah.
[19:04 - 19:07] Gothic is a dangerous woman.
[19:07 - 19:10] They would want his name as Chance Wilkins.
[19:10 - 19:15] I want his link right there on the screen,
[19:15 - 19:17] especially what everyone call it.
[19:17 - 19:21] You don't need to get this motherfucker to all the streets.
[19:21 - 19:23] I'm going to make this game now.
[19:23 - 19:25] Look at me, look at me, look at me, look at me, look at me.
[19:25 - 19:27] Motherfucker!
[19:27 - 19:29] I want to listen to this.
[19:29 - 19:32] Yeah, I'm not listening to the music.
[19:32 - 19:35] If you have any last words or he has any last grunts
[19:35 - 19:38] or groans, I'd be more than happy to hear it.
[19:38 - 19:43] But I don't know what to tell you.
[19:43 - 19:45] Excuse me.
[19:45 - 19:46] That was rather rude.
[19:46 - 19:49] I was trying to drown out the stupidity.
[19:49 - 19:50] Oh, OK.
[19:50 - 19:53] Well, yeah, look, I want to get in the way of your big steak
[19:53 - 19:57] dinner celebrating your mother getting institutionalized.
[19:57 - 20:00] And if it's, if you feel like you're being offensive,
[20:00 - 20:02] you can leave whenever you want to.
[20:02 - 20:06] Well, I'm going to say this now.
[20:06 - 20:09] You do realize I studied law.
[20:09 - 20:12] And I have a federal book sitting here next to me.
[20:12 - 20:13] You studied law?
[20:13 - 20:15] Yes, I have.
[20:15 - 20:19] And what you're doing is a very serious case of bullying.
[20:19 - 20:22] And I do have a lawyer, Nick.
[20:22 - 20:25] If you really want to dupe this out, like grown-ups,
[20:25 - 20:29] and be mature about it, meet me in Bangor, Maine.
[20:36 - 20:41] If you've got that kind of money, meet me in Bangor, Maine.
[20:41 - 20:43] What are you proposing here?
[20:43 - 20:46] Like a legal battle?
[20:46 - 20:50] Or like your mental vegetable boyfriend's
[20:50 - 20:54] going to let me up?
[20:54 - 20:56] I'm pretty sure you don't want to take him off.
[20:56 - 20:59] But either way, the guy's a total idiot.
[20:59 - 21:01] Like, I can tell you guys live in your car.
[21:01 - 21:01] You're next to me.
[21:01 - 21:05] And you're being a rather bit of a disrespectful guy.
[21:05 - 21:06] Why would I take him seriously?
[21:06 - 21:08] You can't even say words.
[21:08 - 21:09] He can.
[21:09 - 21:13] He's choosing not to engage with moronic idiots like you.
[21:13 - 21:16] All bright people, instead of expressing themselves
[21:16 - 21:20] with words, just like, I mean, what are you talking about?
[21:20 - 21:23] He's a mechanic, so I would suggest you stop.
[21:23 - 21:24] You're a lawyer.
[21:24 - 21:26] He's a mechanic.
[21:26 - 21:27] I'm not a lawyer.
[21:27 - 21:29] I studied to be one.
[21:29 - 21:33] I did not go completely through college.
[21:33 - 21:37] First of all, my mom, though, is a lawyer.
[21:37 - 21:40] My biological mother is.
[21:40 - 21:41] So wait a second.
[21:41 - 21:42] So your mother is a lawyer.
[21:42 - 21:44] She's also getting institutionalized
[21:44 - 21:45] for being an insane person.
[21:45 - 21:49] My biological mother, my adopted mother,
[21:49 - 21:51] is the one that is going to be institutionalized.
[21:54 - 21:57] This is just fascinating to me.
[21:57 - 22:00] You're really, really stupid, because you're
[22:00 - 22:03] not grasping any of this situation.
[22:03 - 22:05] Do you know your time staples?
[22:05 - 22:07] Of course I do.
[22:07 - 22:10] What's 11 times 7?
[22:10 - 22:12] That's 27, so shut up.
[22:12 - 22:15] Very good, very good, very nice.
[22:15 - 22:18] I used to be a math late, Nick.
[22:18 - 22:21] OK, it sounds like you got quite the background on that.
[22:21 - 22:22] I got to ask that question.
[22:22 - 22:24] It's like a good barometer.
[22:24 - 22:27] Can I ask your boyfriend if he knows his time staples?
[22:27 - 22:29] That is not allowed.
[22:29 - 22:30] Because he doesn't know.
[22:30 - 22:31] He doesn't see me, Marty.
[22:31 - 22:32] No, because he doesn't.
[22:32 - 22:34] OK, well, there you go.
[22:34 - 22:35] Like, you know his limitations.
[22:35 - 22:36] You know that he's a dumb, dumb.
[22:37 - 22:38] No, Marty.
[22:38 - 22:40] You're trying to protect him.
[22:40 - 22:42] You're trying to protect him from his own stupidity,
[22:42 - 22:43] and that's very sweet of you.
[22:43 - 22:44] No, I am not.
[22:44 - 22:46] He is very intelligent, in fact.
[22:46 - 22:49] Hey, dumb, dumb Jim, you got a really caring girlfriend
[22:49 - 22:52] who knows your limitations and doesn't want to make you do it.
[22:52 - 22:55] How do you normally tell him to shut the fuck up?
[22:55 - 22:56] He can't.
[22:56 - 22:58] Yeah, yeah, yeah.
[22:58 - 22:59] That's, that's.
[22:59 - 23:00] Please tell him to shut up.
[23:00 - 23:02] That's how he expresses himself.
[23:02 - 23:06] Like, the guy sounds like a real bright mind.
[23:06 - 23:10] He's a.
[23:10 - 23:17] You know, you say shut up, Marty.
[23:17 - 23:20] You're really showing your intelligence there, Marty.
[23:20 - 23:21] I'm just listening.
[23:21 - 23:24] I'm just, oh, wait, what was that?
[23:24 - 23:26] He's currently working on my car.
[23:26 - 23:30] So I don't think he has time for stupidity.
[23:30 - 23:31] You mean your house?
[23:37 - 23:41] I said, if you really want to act like a grown man, Marty,
[23:41 - 23:43] meet me in Bangor, Maine.
[23:43 - 23:45] Give me a day and I will be there.
[23:46 - 23:49] Okay, well, I don't have any interest in that.
[23:49 - 23:50] Like it's.
[23:50 - 23:51] It's because you're too scared.
[23:51 - 23:53] Yeah, okay.
[23:53 - 23:55] Yeah.
[23:55 - 23:57] Admittedly, because you're too scared
[23:57 - 24:00] or is it because you're too broke or lazy?
[24:01 - 24:03] All those things, all those things.
[24:05 - 24:09] So, so when I got out of Shoramoff to fight,
[24:10 - 24:13] I was just a fight, Marty.
[24:13 - 24:15] So what do you want to do then?
[24:15 - 24:19] I want to first sit down and talk to you like face to face
[24:19 - 24:23] so you can't keep muting me like the moron that you are.
[24:23 - 24:26] I want to keep speaking out my opinion
[24:26 - 24:29] because I have the right to, as do you.
[24:29 - 24:31] I only muted you when you're playing music.
[24:31 - 24:32] Like, I don't want to hear the music.
[24:32 - 24:35] If you want to talk, we can talk.
[24:35 - 24:36] Well, you kept cutting me off.
[24:36 - 24:42] So, Marty, do you even understand what you've been doing?
[24:47 - 24:49] What do you think I've been doing?
[24:49 - 24:51] Do you understand your own actions?
[24:52 - 24:55] Do you have any sort of disability?
[24:55 - 24:56] Oh gosh, if you do.
[24:57 - 25:01] What sort of diagnosis, man?
[25:01 - 25:02] What is your diagnosis
[25:02 - 25:05] if you have sort of mental disability?
[25:05 - 25:06] No, I'm asking you.
[25:07 - 25:08] Oh, me?
[25:08 - 25:11] I don't have any mental disabilities.
[25:11 - 25:14] I'm asking you to diagnose me.
[25:14 - 25:16] Oh, you want me to diagnose you?
[25:18 - 25:22] Okay, I'll start with the narcissistic behavior.
[25:22 - 25:23] Okay.
[25:23 - 25:27] You have a bit of a complex with chance.
[25:27 - 25:30] You think you have to cause this drama
[25:30 - 25:33] in order to get attention and affection from others.
[25:33 - 25:36] It seems like you weren't very well taken care of
[25:36 - 25:38] as well as a child.
[25:38 - 25:41] It seems like you were abused mentally, physically,
[25:41 - 25:43] and emotionally.
[25:43 - 25:46] But I could be wrong in that note.
[25:46 - 25:50] You could be just suffering from being a stupid person.
[25:50 - 25:52] I mean, does it have to be either or?
[25:52 - 25:53] It could be all of those, right?
[25:55 - 25:59] And another thing you could be suffering from right now,
[25:59 - 26:02] which is actually quite amusing,
[26:02 - 26:06] is I actually made this word up myself
[26:06 - 26:07] because it describes you.
[26:08 - 26:13] It describes that you are the biggest ignoramus
[26:15 - 26:17] that loves close drama.
[26:17 - 26:20] You did not, not one of those words was made up.
[26:20 - 26:21] All of those were-
[26:21 - 26:24] I'm not done yet, you cut me off.
[26:24 - 26:26] Words in the dictionary, so.
[26:26 - 26:28] You cut me off before I could say my word.
[26:28 - 26:31] Okay, sure, I'll just hear it.
[26:31 - 26:32] Okay.
[26:32 - 26:35] Yeah.
[26:35 - 26:39] First of all, pissing me off is not gonna happen.
[26:39 - 26:41] I have a calm mind.
[26:41 - 26:42] You get the word, you get the word.
[26:42 - 26:44] I wanna hear the word you made up.
[26:44 - 26:46] Let me finish my conversation.
[26:48 - 26:51] You wanna hear the nasty word that I've got for you,
[26:51 - 26:52] but you're gonna have to work for it.
[26:52 - 26:53] How about that?
[26:56 - 26:58] Fine, what do I have to do to hear the word?
[26:59 - 27:02] It's for this way, you're gonna have to start listening.
[27:02 - 27:03] For one-
[27:03 - 27:04] You're gonna have to listen to everything you're saying.
[27:04 - 27:06] No, you've been constantly cutting me off
[27:06 - 27:08] and disrespecting me.
[27:08 - 27:12] You have also violated me, my partner,
[27:12 - 27:15] and any other person with a disability.
[27:16 - 27:19] Okay.
[27:19 - 27:22] Now, Marty, I kinda would like you
[27:22 - 27:25] to bring Chance on panel if you could.
[27:26 - 27:27] Not until I hear the word.
[27:29 - 27:32] Then I guess you just wanna get to hear the word.
[27:32 - 27:33] Then I guess--
[27:33 - 27:35] And Chance originally made it together.
[27:37 - 27:38] And he uses it quite often.
[27:38 - 27:40] You just don't realize it.
[27:40 - 27:42] Hang on a second.
[27:42 - 27:43] Is the word?
[27:43 - 27:44] Rrrrr.
[27:47 - 27:50] I'm sorry I don't talk to cavemen like you.
[27:50 - 27:52] Sounds like you're fucking dating one.
[27:52 - 27:57] No, I'm actually engaged to a very sexy,
[27:58 - 28:03] very smart, very wise, older man.
[28:03 - 28:05] So here's what's gonna happen, Candle.
[28:05 - 28:07] I'm gonna remove you,
[28:07 - 28:09] and I'm going to put you on for two seconds.
[28:09 - 28:11] I'm gonna give you a chance to say the word,
[28:11 - 28:13] and I'm gonna kick you off for another 20 seconds.
[28:13 - 28:14] Give you another two seconds to say the word,
[28:14 - 28:16] and then it's gonna be 30 seconds.
[28:16 - 28:19] And then so on and so forth until you get tired of it.
[28:19 - 28:21] All right, so what's the word?
[28:22 - 28:40] You want the word?
[28:40 - 28:41] And there she goes.
[28:41 - 28:44] Yeah, so I guess we don't get to hear the word.
[28:45 - 28:46] I don't think there was a word.
[28:46 - 28:48] I don't think that there was a word.
[28:50 - 28:51] I don't think that there was a word.
Candall on MBM Stream 2023-2-17

Candall on MBM Stream 2023-2-17

https://www.youtube.com/@musicbizmarty7786

[0:00 - 0:06] My older brother was fucking gay. Hell, on horizon for-
[0:06 - 0:19] Peaceful Bucky? How are you doing today?
[0:19 - 0:22] I don't live in a purple.
[0:22 - 0:25] Okay. Are you in a wheelchair?
[0:25 - 0:30] Like, if that's a false accusation, think it's like-
[0:30 - 0:30] Can you show your life?
[0:30 - 0:32] Playing bed.
[0:32 - 0:36] You're in bed?
[0:36 - 0:39] On my bed.
[0:39 - 0:44] Your stuff's breaking up here.
[0:44 - 0:47] It's like a grunting out of your bed.
[0:47 - 0:51] Gigi says that's a van.
[0:51 - 0:54] He says that's a van.
[0:54 - 0:56] No.
[0:56 - 0:57] He says it's a van.
[0:57 - 0:59] It's not a van.
[0:59 - 1:03] Nope.
[1:03 - 1:07] Is the grunting man here?
[1:07 - 1:08] See?
[1:08 - 1:10] It's not a van.
[1:10 - 1:12] Is the grunting man here?
[1:12 - 1:14] No, he's not.
[1:14 - 1:16] Where's he at?
[1:16 - 1:18] At work.
[1:18 - 1:21] Okay. There you go.
[1:21 - 1:23] So it's out of your mind tonight.
[1:23 - 1:26] I would appreciate it if you would not call in that.
[1:26 - 1:29] Well, what's his name?
[1:29 - 1:31] I'll just put it this way.
[1:31 - 1:34] Our two men are.
[1:34 - 1:38] And it's pretty much the flag if you know what I'm getting at.
[1:38 - 1:41] Is this something pride thing?
[1:41 - 1:44] So what's out of your mind tonight?
[1:44 - 1:49] Honestly, I'm getting tired of you talking about me for one.
[1:49 - 1:53] I was even talking about you.
[1:53 - 1:55] I heard what you said a moment ago about me living in a car
[1:55 - 1:56] and whatnot.
[1:56 - 2:00] I only came here because I wanted to ask you something.
[2:00 - 2:02] Sure.
[2:02 - 2:04] I don't care if you're looking at my videos and shit.
[2:04 - 2:08] First of all, second of all, I'm going to put this out there.
[2:08 - 2:13] To all of you that sit there and think it's a joke,
[2:13 - 2:16] I'm seriously been dealing with a lot mentally
[2:16 - 2:19] and the trolling and abuse and all this other shit
[2:19 - 2:21] that y'all be doing.
[2:21 - 2:22] It doesn't help.
[2:22 - 2:27] And it really puts my mental ability to deal with life.
[2:27 - 2:33] Do you think that people go out of their way to bother you?
[2:33 - 2:35] Honestly, it bothers me that y'all
[2:35 - 2:37] like to talk shit about my dad.
[2:37 - 2:39] I saw the post.
[2:39 - 2:43] Nobody was talking.
[2:43 - 2:46] Nobody goes out of their way to bother you, though.
[2:46 - 2:51] No, there's a comment on William Gordon's video
[2:51 - 2:56] that I had to make to boldly put it.
[2:56 - 3:00] Y'all say that it should have been me, honestly.
[3:00 - 3:03] Yeah, sometimes I think it should have been me that died
[3:03 - 3:05] instead of my dad.
[3:05 - 3:06] But you know what?
[3:06 - 3:10] Honestly, I'm glad I'm still alive because I
[3:10 - 3:14] can't sit there and do the things that my dad didn't get to.
[3:14 - 3:19] Well, I will say that I'm glad you're alive, too, OK?
[3:19 - 3:22] I mean, my mental ability to handle life
[3:22 - 3:27] is calling a bottle without calling a morning.
[3:27 - 3:33] And to be honest, it really hurts that people want me dead.
[3:33 - 3:37] I really thought about it for a while.
[3:37 - 3:42] Well, do you want to have a piece, drink together?
[3:42 - 3:45] I don't know if you've got any handy.
[3:45 - 3:48] Right now, I'm trying to stay away from the alcohol.
[3:48 - 3:51] I'm trying.
[3:51 - 3:55] I'm going to try at least one day without alcohol.
[3:55 - 3:55] That's good.
[3:55 - 3:58] That's a good start.
[3:58 - 4:05] My dad used to be a beer drinker, and it's still kind of hurt.
[4:05 - 4:07] I used to watch him drink his life away
[4:07 - 4:14] after he stopped being a cop, and it's just been real help.
[4:14 - 4:18] He's a real cool man.
[4:18 - 4:21] You was a cop?
[4:21 - 4:22] Yeah.
[4:22 - 4:26] Well, I hope you don't take any offense to this.
[4:26 - 4:38] This is honest, but my father's father was a werewolf hunter.
[4:38 - 4:40] He wasn't like the top of his field,
[4:40 - 4:44] but he did work with Van Helsing sometimes.
[4:44 - 4:46] Not funny.
[4:46 - 4:48] Sorry, sorry.
[4:48 - 4:50] There's no such thing as werewolves.
[4:50 - 4:52] The only thing that is considered a werewolf
[4:52 - 4:57] is the disease that their face covered with all kinds of hair.
[4:57 - 5:00] That's what they used to call werewolves.
[5:00 - 5:06] And a little fun fact, that was in fact in 1555.
[5:06 - 5:07] In 1555?
[5:07 - 5:12] It was a disease called werewolfism.
[5:12 - 5:16] I actually did the study behind that whole what a werewolf was
[5:16 - 5:20] back in ancient days, I should say.
[5:20 - 5:22] But if you go and get a witchcraft book
[5:22 - 5:27] and actually study it, witches are only alchemists.
[5:27 - 5:30] And werewolves are just people with a very, very hair
[5:30 - 5:32] disorder.
[5:32 - 5:35] I don't know much about earlier stuff, but.
[5:35 - 5:38] Do you know much about witchcraft?
[5:38 - 5:40] Yeah.
[5:40 - 5:41] So what?
[5:41 - 5:42] I used to study it.
[5:42 - 5:43] I used to practice.
[5:45 - 5:46] Well, why'd you stop?
[5:46 - 5:47] I'm very single and nice, but I don't.
[5:47 - 5:49] Not anymore.
[5:49 - 5:51] Why'd you stop?
[5:51 - 5:56] Because I became pretty much a religion-less,
[5:56 - 5:58] if you want to say.
[5:58 - 6:02] I said there's too many religions out there to really,
[6:02 - 6:04] you know, try to pick one, because they're
[6:04 - 6:10] all the same technicality.
[6:10 - 6:12] Let's put it this way.
[6:12 - 6:18] Witchcraft is alchemy, and alchemy is a common-day science.
[6:18 - 6:20] Yeah.
[6:20 - 6:22] It was just before it's time that people
[6:22 - 6:29] were considering it witchcraft.
[6:29 - 6:33] It really was a touchy subject.
[6:33 - 6:35] Yeah, so I guess you're saying that there
[6:35 - 6:39] is one comment on William Gloryville's video that
[6:39 - 6:42] said that they wish you were dead?
[6:42 - 6:43] Yeah.
[6:43 - 6:46] Yeah, well, listen, I get harassed.
[6:46 - 6:48] My family gets harassed.
[6:48 - 6:52] My family gets slotted sometimes.
[6:52 - 6:54] That's what happens, I guess, when you stay on the internet.
[6:54 - 6:56] If that one comment bothers you,
[6:56 - 6:58] maybe it'd be best to stay away.
[6:58 - 6:59] I don't know.
[6:59 - 7:00] That's probably.
[7:00 - 7:04] Well, like I said, I'm only here to just ask a few questions
[7:04 - 7:09] and to put some things out that needed to be aired out,
[7:09 - 7:15] because mental health is a serious thing.
[7:15 - 7:19] I don't think you realize that.
[7:19 - 7:22] I do realize that.
[7:22 - 7:24] Then why do you try to pick on me?
[7:24 - 7:28] Like, dude, not cool.
[7:28 - 7:30] Listen, I honestly believe that you live in a car,
[7:30 - 7:32] because I've only heard you in a car before.
[7:32 - 7:36] Well, probably because I'm busy working on it 24-7,
[7:36 - 7:38] trying to get it roadworthy.
[7:38 - 7:40] Well, OK, so if every time you heard from somebody
[7:40 - 7:42] they were in a car, like, what would the naturally,
[7:42 - 7:45] or even on other people's streams,
[7:45 - 7:47] like, what would the natural assumption
[7:47 - 7:51] be that maybe this person lives in the car?
[7:51 - 7:52] There you go.
[7:52 - 7:56] That's exactly your problem there, and you assume.
[7:56 - 7:59] You don't ask, you assume, because hell,
[7:59 - 8:02] if I was living in my car, I'd go ahead and be proud of it,
[8:02 - 8:04] because at least I didn't have to pay a rent
[8:04 - 8:07] and stay around people that I don't like.
[8:07 - 8:09] That's true.
[8:09 - 8:11] I don't have to deal with a landlord that could possibly
[8:11 - 8:15] kick me out any time he fucking wants.
[8:15 - 8:17] That's something that I have to deal with, you know?
[8:17 - 8:19] Exactly.
[8:19 - 8:21] Yeah, you can smoke in your car.
[8:21 - 8:23] I can't smoke in my apartment.
[8:23 - 8:28] Like, it seems like almost a good fit.
[8:28 - 8:31] Now, people that live in cars, I actually know a couple.
[8:31 - 8:33] And one is a really cool old dude that's
[8:33 - 8:36] been helping me a lot.
[8:36 - 8:39] And I assume why he didn't like living in an apartment
[8:39 - 8:41] or anything.
[8:41 - 8:43] He says he doesn't like people.
[8:43 - 8:47] And he doesn't want to be around negativity.
[8:47 - 8:52] He likes to be able to move whenever he needs to.
[8:52 - 8:56] And I can see where to relate to that.
[8:56 - 8:58] I used to be transient.
[8:58 - 9:01] I used to constantly live in my car
[9:01 - 9:04] because of some of the circumstances I was going through.
[9:04 - 9:07] But honestly, sometimes we need people.
[9:08 - 9:10] Hmm.
[9:10 - 9:15] Sometimes we need someone else to cry on.
[9:15 - 9:21] I'm guessing it's not a full moon tonight.
[9:21 - 9:23] I don't care if it is.
[9:23 - 9:28] Well, I know that it isn't because if it was a full moon,
[9:28 - 9:31] you would be in wolf form right now.
[9:31 - 9:32] I am not a werewolf.
[9:32 - 9:35] Oh my god, stop picking on me, bro.
[9:35 - 9:36] OK.
[9:36 - 9:40] This is truthful and honest and heartfelt right here, man.
[9:40 - 9:42] I'm trying to be truthful with you.
[9:42 - 9:44] It honestly is disrespectful.
[9:44 - 9:47] I'm not trying to tell you what you can and can't use
[9:47 - 9:50] on your live streams or whatever.
[9:50 - 9:51] Yeah.
[9:51 - 9:56] Dude, why are you giving this to me?
[9:56 - 9:57] I've heard they were werewolves.
[9:57 - 10:00] That's the one thing that I've heard over and over and over
[10:00 - 10:01] about you.
[10:01 - 10:03] I'm not a werewolf.
[10:03 - 10:04] OK.
[10:04 - 10:07] I am 100% human.
[10:07 - 10:09] Sad to say that.
[10:09 - 10:12] I hate to identify as a human for one reason.
[10:12 - 10:13] Humans are flawed.
[10:13 - 10:17] We all have our issues.
[10:17 - 10:19] That's true.
[10:19 - 10:22] Are werewolves not flawed, though?
[10:22 - 10:23] I don't know.
[10:23 - 10:25] They don't exist, so I don't know.
[10:25 - 10:28] If you ever saw the movie Teen Wolf,
[10:28 - 10:33] sometimes when the full moon was out, like Michael J. Fox,
[10:33 - 10:35] you would have a little bit too much of a temper.
[10:35 - 10:38] You'd be a little hot under the collar.
[10:38 - 10:41] So I think that all living beings are flawed.
[10:41 - 10:43] I don't know anything about that,
[10:43 - 10:48] but that's all movie make up bullshit.
[10:48 - 10:51] I don't know.
[10:51 - 10:56] I feel that people that believe that type of thing
[10:56 - 10:58] do have issues.
[10:58 - 11:00] I never thought I was a werewolf.
[11:00 - 11:02] I said I was a werewolf furry at one point
[11:02 - 11:05] when I went through my phase of the furries.
[11:05 - 11:07] That was a dumb one.
[11:07 - 11:10] That only lasted about a month or two.
[11:10 - 11:13] All right.
[11:13 - 11:17] What life is a furry consist of?
[11:17 - 11:20] I'm going to conventions, just dressing up
[11:20 - 11:22] in a little costume once in a while,
[11:22 - 11:26] and getting to be yourself without letting people
[11:26 - 11:29] see who you really are.
[11:29 - 11:31] Was it a sexual?
[11:31 - 11:34] No, not all furries are sexual.
[11:34 - 11:37] There are some that are literally anti-sexual.
[11:37 - 11:40] Hmm.
[11:40 - 11:42] I know quite a few.
[11:42 - 11:45] Did you ever know Vati?
[11:45 - 11:47] Of course I knew Vati.
[11:47 - 11:48] You knew Vati?
[11:48 - 11:51] I don't know.
[11:51 - 11:54] I wonder whatever happened to him.
[11:54 - 11:59] He is working on a My Little Pony video game,
[11:59 - 12:05] and he's working on his album, I guess.
[12:05 - 12:09] Vati is one of my all-time favorites.
[12:09 - 12:12] I actually know his real name, but...
[12:12 - 12:15] Is it James Brown?
[12:15 - 12:17] No, I think it's something else.
[12:17 - 12:18] James, something else.
[12:18 - 12:23] Last name is not correct.
[12:23 - 12:27] But he's a cool guy.
[12:27 - 12:29] He can be.
[12:29 - 12:32] Yeah, yeah, I agree.
[12:32 - 12:35] I don't heard from him in quite a time.
[12:35 - 12:38] I got to say, and this is honestly truthful,
[12:38 - 12:40] and heartfelt.
[12:40 - 12:42] You knew Heather in real life, right?
[12:42 - 12:44] You guys spent a lot of time together.
[12:44 - 12:47] You were in the same town.
[12:47 - 12:49] Or am I mistaken?
[12:49 - 12:53] I've never been to Illinois.
[12:53 - 12:54] What was that?
[12:54 - 12:56] I've never been to Illinois.
[12:56 - 12:58] I've never been to Illinois.
[12:58 - 13:04] No, like Heather, Heather Crow.
[13:04 - 13:06] What about her?
[13:06 - 13:09] Yeah, I got to say, when she passed,
[13:09 - 13:13] you seemed to be almost happy that she was gone.
[13:13 - 13:16] Well, no, I was hiding the fact that I was really hurting
[13:16 - 13:19] because of some of the things she's under me.
[13:19 - 13:23] She wasn't all there, and honestly, the way she passed,
[13:23 - 13:26] and I found out how she passed.
[13:26 - 13:29] And it kind of hurt.
[13:29 - 13:31] Well, how'd she pass?
[13:31 - 13:35] Well, she passed away with a heart attack,
[13:35 - 13:41] and it was caused by depression and distress.
[13:41 - 13:43] She was eating so much that she ended up
[13:43 - 13:47] getting too much weight around her heart,
[13:47 - 13:50] and it really took her life.
[13:50 - 13:55] She was just there one minute, and then she's gone.
[13:55 - 13:59] Yeah, I mean, you and Chance and the boogeyman
[13:59 - 14:03] almost seemed like joyous, and it was kind of messed up.
[14:03 - 14:07] I was excited to find out that I was hoping, more or less,
[14:07 - 14:11] that she was just faking it.
[14:11 - 14:13] I really was hoping to draw her out
[14:13 - 14:17] as she was faking, and I just wanted to confront her
[14:17 - 14:20] and tell her I really felt after all the years
[14:20 - 14:26] that she's flip-flopped between me and a few other people.
[14:26 - 14:30] She used to live with me and not going to lie.
[14:30 - 14:35] She had some mental issues, and I kind of paid her.
[14:35 - 14:40] But there's reasons that I kicked her out,
[14:40 - 14:45] and I ended up losing that place because of her.
[14:45 - 14:49] She did some things that weren't okay.
[14:49 - 14:51] Yeah, but I feel like a laugh about it,
[14:51 - 14:54] especially so soon after finding out she passed.
[14:54 - 14:58] I think I honestly said I didn't think she actually did pass.
[14:58 - 15:01] And for that, I honestly do feel bad.
[15:01 - 15:09] But Heather had issues, but she wasn't all bad.
[15:09 - 15:11] I tried to protect her for so many years,
[15:11 - 15:19] and well, she never listened to me.
[15:19 - 15:23] I tried to tell her not to go with chance,
[15:23 - 15:28] and I tried to tell her that she's better off at home,
[15:28 - 15:33] taking care of her kids, and to not be in the drama.
[15:33 - 15:35] Then she started launching attacks after me
[15:35 - 15:39] when I was just trying to help.
[15:39 - 15:43] While I was in my suicide, if y'all want to call it,
[15:43 - 15:45] honestly, a piece of me did die.
[15:45 - 15:48] That's sad part.
[15:48 - 15:51] What, when you were saying when you faked your death?
[15:51 - 15:53] Yeah.
[15:53 - 15:54] Yeah, I never understood that.
[15:54 - 15:56] Like, what was the goal of that?
[15:58 - 16:01] To get away from bullying and the harassment of chance.
[16:01 - 16:05] I got homeless several times because of him.
[16:05 - 16:06] Chance? You know?
[16:06 - 16:09] How he, Chance got you kicked out on the street?
[16:09 - 16:11] Yeah, a lot.
[16:11 - 16:15] Hmm, how did he do that?
[16:15 - 16:19] Well, when I lived in Mississippi
[16:19 - 16:24] at my old landlord's house, Brandon,
[16:24 - 16:26] he called my landlord somehow, got ahold of him,
[16:26 - 16:28] I guess, stalking, like usual.
[16:33 - 16:39] From what my landlord told me is my crazy ex,
[16:39 - 16:44] or ex-friend, whatever, was talking to him.
[16:44 - 16:46] I was like, oh, that's weird.
[16:46 - 16:50] Ooh, and he told me, Chance was the guy
[16:50 - 16:54] that he was talking to.
[16:54 - 16:58] Hmm, I don't think he can get evicted
[16:58 - 17:01] because of what Syracs are.
[17:01 - 17:03] You'll see why I said this.
[17:03 - 17:04] Okay.
[17:04 - 17:07] I was sitting there in my little tiny home
[17:07 - 17:09] all by myself, didn't have anyone.
[17:10 - 17:15] The constant threats that he was giving me
[17:15 - 17:17] when my landlord saw it on my post,
[17:17 - 17:19] he asked me about him.
[17:19 - 17:22] I said, that's the guy that you talked to,
[17:22 - 17:26] and he is not okay.
[17:26 - 17:28] And he Chance started telling people
[17:28 - 17:30] that I was doing drugs and all kinds of stuff.
[17:30 - 17:32] That's not true.
[17:32 - 17:34] I'm a daughter of ex law enforcement.
[17:34 - 17:36] My dad ever caught me doing that,
[17:36 - 17:39] or even thought I was doing that, he would kill me.
[17:39 - 17:42] Never done a drug a day in your life?
[17:42 - 17:46] Nope, never will.
[17:46 - 17:48] And if you're wondering why my teeth are so fucked up,
[17:48 - 17:51] it's actually kind of stupid.
[17:52 - 17:55] They tell you, okay, most dentists won't tell you.
[17:55 - 17:56] You're supposed to change your six,
[17:56 - 18:01] you're filling every six years, okay?
[18:01 - 18:03] Diane, my adopted mother, did not.
[18:03 - 18:06] And she was my payee at the time.
[18:06 - 18:09] So she had control of my money.
[18:09 - 18:14] And I still haven't found a dentist I can trust either.
[18:14 - 18:16] I'm still working on it.
[18:16 - 18:17] Now that I've got insurance,
[18:17 - 18:19] it's gonna help me get my teeth fixed.
[18:19 - 18:21] I'm hopefully gonna have a smile again.
[18:22 - 18:24] And I've been scared to smile a long time,
[18:26 - 18:28] just because of it.
[18:28 - 18:31] People used to judge me and say that I was a drughead
[18:31 - 18:36] for one reason, my bad teeth.
[18:36 - 18:41] Okay, huh, I'm all right.
[18:41 - 18:43] You need to know the secret.
[18:43 - 18:44] My teeth actually were not rotten
[18:44 - 18:46] just from the silver fillings.
[18:46 - 18:50] I'm allergic to silver, the filling that they put in there,
[18:50 - 18:52] the material isn't just silver,
[18:52 - 18:55] it's something, some sort of mixture.
[18:55 - 18:58] And it eroded my teeth and just ruined them.
[18:59 - 19:03] Well, personally, I don't believe that you're a drughead,
[19:03 - 19:04] but there's a lot of people that do,
[19:04 - 19:07] maybe there's a lot of people who just
[19:07 - 19:09] aren't stating an opinion.
[19:09 - 19:13] I'm gonna put up a poll here, but my vote is no,
[19:13 - 19:15] personally, is candle a drughead?
[19:15 - 19:17] And I don't believe that you are.
[19:18 - 19:19] I've never been drugged.
[19:21 - 19:24] An herb, which is, I want, is not even a drug.
[19:24 - 19:27] It's, if you wanna do a whole religious view on it, I can.
[19:30 - 19:33] God put every seed, plant, and herb
[19:33 - 19:35] on this planet for mankind.
[19:35 - 19:41] It is actually written down in the Bible, so.
[19:41 - 19:44] So for whatever reason, through 81 votes,
[19:44 - 19:48] through 83 votes, 88% say that you're a drughead
[19:48 - 19:52] and I don't, I can't speak for.
[19:52 - 19:54] Well, they can think what they want.
[19:54 - 19:59] I've never done drugs, never will.
[19:59 - 20:03] My dad is for the fact that my dad would have killed me.
[20:04 - 20:07] And honestly, I just didn't believe him doing them.
[20:08 - 20:10] I saw a lot of people doing them growing up
[20:10 - 20:12] and I refused.
[20:12 - 20:14] Well, now that he's passed,
[20:14 - 20:15] now that he's passed,
[20:15 - 20:19] do you almost feel like you have the green light?
[20:19 - 20:20] No.
[20:21 - 20:22] I still honor him for it.
[20:24 - 20:25] The only medicines that I take,
[20:25 - 20:29] or what you call drugs, is prescribed.
[20:29 - 20:30] And even then, I'm reluctant.
[20:34 - 20:36] I'm gonna be honest with you,
[20:36 - 20:39] only medicines I'm actually prescribed right now,
[20:40 - 20:42] and I actually kind of refuse to take them
[20:42 - 20:46] unless I have to, is my sleep aids.
[20:47 - 20:48] What do you take for sleep?
[20:50 - 20:56] I take, they've got a special type of Z-Qual that I'm on.
[20:57 - 20:58] And...
[20:58 - 20:59] Z-Qual?
[20:59 - 21:01] It's a type of Z-Qual, it's so...
[21:03 - 21:04] I've never heard of it.
[21:04 - 21:06] Not a liquid, it's a pill.
[21:06 - 21:08] It's, I can't remember the name of it.
[21:08 - 21:10] I'd have to look it up again.
[21:10 - 21:12] I gotta find the pill bottle when I'm taking it.
[21:15 - 21:18] I have my anti-depressants,
[21:18 - 21:24] which is, you know, normal to have, depression.
[21:24 - 21:27] Yeah.
[21:27 - 21:31] Especially after losing someone.
[21:31 - 21:33] Yeah, it's probably good to get on that.
[21:35 - 21:39] And another thing, y'all can see I'm gonna drug it all you want.
[21:39 - 21:43] It doesn't change the fact that I'm not.
[21:43 - 21:49] No, there's a bunch of, there's a bunch of haters.
[21:49 - 21:52] Haters gonna hate, that's all there is to it.
[21:52 - 21:55] That's what they do.
[21:55 - 21:57] And I know, in fact, Marty,
[21:57 - 22:00] that you're probably enjoying this.
[22:01 - 22:04] I'm actually not, to be honest with you.
[22:05 - 22:07] Like, I'm just trying to figure out,
[22:07 - 22:09] like, what it is that you want.
[22:09 - 22:10] If you're gonna complain about people,
[22:10 - 22:12] like, saying negative things about you,
[22:12 - 22:14] and you generally not understand that.
[22:14 - 22:17] Like, that's the nature of this environment.
[22:17 - 22:17] So it's kind of...
[22:17 - 22:20] No, I don't want to understand it.
[22:20 - 22:22] It's the fact that I just wanted to bring it up
[22:23 - 22:27] and give my personal opinion and my personal feelings on it.
[22:27 - 22:31] Because honestly, sometimes it's best to talk about it.
[22:31 - 22:32] Talk about what?
[22:32 - 22:34] I'm not even entirely sure.
[22:34 - 22:35] Your feelings.
[22:35 - 22:38] Feelings is sometimes just best to bare mouth.
[22:41 - 22:43] Not around here, it is, isn't it?
[22:43 - 22:46] Well, honestly, I don't care who hears it.
[22:47 - 22:50] I'm just tired of getting everything hidden.
[22:50 - 22:52] Then I don't know if you can complain,
[22:52 - 22:56] like, if people say comments they won't like,
[22:56 - 23:01] knowing that this is the environment.
[23:01 - 23:03] So what if I don't like it?
[23:03 - 23:08] It's okay, it's his opinion, or her opinion, whoever.
[23:08 - 23:09] All right.
[23:09 - 23:12] And honestly, I don't see any problem with it.
[23:12 - 23:16] I just, I would say, hey, you know, I agree with you.
[23:16 - 23:19] I kind of wish it was me too, but then again,
[23:20 - 23:21] he was 75 years old.
[23:21 - 23:24] He wasn't gonna be able to do the things he wanted.
[23:24 - 23:28] So I guess it's my turn to do the things he wanted for him
[23:29 - 23:30] in his honor, you know?
[23:35 - 23:36] You're right.
[23:37 - 23:41] I mean, yeah, there's times that I wanted to just end it all
[23:41 - 23:43] with all the stress and drama.
[23:43 - 23:44] Then I think about my dad now.
[23:45 - 23:50] And it's just like, why?
[23:50 - 23:52] Why should end my life?
[23:52 - 23:53] My life is too precious.
[23:54 - 23:57] Hmm.
[23:57 - 24:02] I mean, yeah, I get to like shit 24 seven,
[24:02 - 24:05] but honestly, who cares?
[24:05 - 24:09] That's life.
[24:09 - 24:11] I think really hard about my dad
[24:11 - 24:15] and some of the things he said to me,
[24:15 - 24:18] he's a really cool guy.
[24:18 - 24:20] My dad did good things for me,
[24:20 - 24:24] even though he wasn't, you know, always there for me.
[24:25 - 24:27] I actually spoke with him once.
[24:28 - 24:30] How?
[24:30 - 24:31] Tracy, right?
[24:34 - 24:37] Yeah, I was back when like he faked your death.
[24:37 - 24:38] I did a little bit of digging.
[24:38 - 24:42] So I was like, this seems kind of less than legitimate.
[24:42 - 24:45] And I called him up and I asked him like,
[24:45 - 24:47] okay, can I talk?
[24:47 - 24:49] Can I talk to candle?
[24:49 - 24:51] He was like, who is this?
[24:51 - 24:55] And I'm like, my name is Marty, which it's not.
[24:55 - 24:56] We both know that it's not.
[24:57 - 25:01] But he was like, well, she's actually not here right now.
[25:01 - 25:02] But I can relay your number.
[25:02 - 25:04] I'm like, that's pretty weird to say
[25:04 - 25:06] if somebody who's dead, you know,
[25:06 - 25:09] like it's not a natural response
[25:09 - 25:10] of a father whose daughter died.
[25:10 - 25:13] So, yeah, I spoke with him once.
[25:13 - 25:15] Yeah, I know he told me.
[25:15 - 25:18] Yeah, he said you were a drughead.
[25:18 - 25:20] No, he didn't.
[25:20 - 25:22] Yes, he did.
[25:22 - 25:22] No, he didn't.
[25:22 - 25:23] You want to lie?
[25:23 - 25:24] I know that.
[25:24 - 25:27] How's that?
[25:27 - 25:30] I was listening.
[25:30 - 25:32] Well, then you would know that I talked to him.
[25:33 - 25:35] Yeah.
[25:35 - 25:37] How are you listening?
[25:37 - 25:41] You do realize there's more than one line in the house.
[25:41 - 25:42] Well, but I don't,
[25:44 - 25:46] he must not be recalling properly
[25:46 - 25:49] because he definitely said that you were a drughead.
[25:49 - 25:51] My dad has never called me a drughead.
[25:53 - 25:54] He did that day.
[25:54 - 25:55] And I got to tell you this too.
[25:55 - 25:56] And he might not like what I'm about to say.
[25:56 - 26:00] So just cool your jets, breathe in, breathe out.
[26:00 - 26:03] I know you're telling Marty.
[26:03 - 26:06] Well, I think that you guys played
[26:06 - 26:08] these little fake guts together.
[26:08 - 26:09] And I think that he's still alive.
[26:09 - 26:12] And that's honestly what I believe.
[26:12 - 26:13] Think what you want.
[26:13 - 26:13] He's dead.
[26:15 - 26:16] Think what you think.
[26:16 - 26:18] Know what you know.
[26:18 - 26:19] I know he's dead.
[26:19 - 26:21] I was on the phone when he died.
[26:21 - 26:25] And I was there on the phone when the corner got him.
[26:25 - 26:27] I thought you said he died in your arms.
[26:27 - 26:28] No, I did not.
[26:28 - 26:30] I said he was on the phone.
[26:34 - 26:35] I know what I said, Marty.
[26:35 - 26:36] Don't try to twist it.
[26:38 - 26:40] You're not as smart as you think you are.
[26:40 - 26:43] I don't think I'm smart at all, but I know what I know.
[26:44 - 26:46] I said he was on the phone.
[26:48 - 26:49] And in fact, how about this?
[26:49 - 26:56] I tell everyone how he died.
[26:56 - 26:59] And I'm gonna do it for years this time.
[26:59 - 27:05] Because I've accepted the truth of everything.
[27:05 - 27:06] Yeah.
[27:06 - 27:09] My dad and I were talking,
[27:10 - 27:18] trying to get my car out of the impound.
[27:18 - 27:20] One minute later, because he hasn't called me back
[27:20 - 27:25] because he said he would, he always does.
[27:25 - 27:26] I'm on the phone with him.
[27:26 - 27:30] And all I hear is him slowly fading off.
[27:30 - 27:32] Like he's just not there.
[27:32 - 27:33] Like he's rambling.
[27:34 - 27:38] And I'm like, dad, are you okay?
[27:38 - 27:39] Dad.
[27:39 - 27:40] Dad.
[27:40 - 27:42] And he kept screaming.
[27:42 - 27:44] Because I was trying to figure out what's going on.
[27:44 - 27:49] What day did he die and what day was he buried?
[27:49 - 27:52] He died 1.31.
[27:52 - 27:54] 2023.
[27:54 - 27:57] And he was buried one.
[27:57 - 27:59] Or as I'm aware of, he wasn't buried.
[27:59 - 28:00] He was cremated.
[28:01 - 28:02] Okay.
[28:03 - 28:05] My adult mother has his ashes.
[28:10 - 28:15] And I'm not gonna lie to you, it hurts.
[28:16 - 28:19] It really does.
[28:19 - 28:24] That man was more manly than I've ever known him to be.
[28:24 - 28:28] And I kind of figured the day that he was dying,
[28:28 - 28:31] I just had this, I don't know, weird feeling
[28:31 - 28:33] that he was dying.
[28:33 - 28:38] So since Christmas of last year,
[28:38 - 28:43] I tried calling every day and I couldn't get ahold of him.
[28:43 - 28:45] And I started realizing that he was getting
[28:45 - 28:50] more and more distant, which was definitely not his MO.
[28:52 - 28:57] That was not his usual at all.
[28:57 - 28:59] And he didn't even tell me Merry Christmas
[28:59 - 29:04] or Happy Holidays, nothing.
[29:04 - 29:07] He just completely ghosted me on Christmas.
[29:07 - 29:09] He was more manly than he ever knew him to be.
[29:09 - 29:13] Like, what does that mean?
[29:13 - 29:15] He was too scared to stand up to his wife.
[29:18 - 29:19] I usually took the front four,
[29:19 - 29:25] so she would hit me in the process of trying to hit him.
[29:25 - 29:28] There was a lot of time for abuse by her.
[29:28 - 29:31] There's some people who don't believe
[29:31 - 29:33] that you're actually in a wheelchair.
[29:33 - 29:36] Like, can you prove them wrong really quickly?
[29:36 - 29:38] No, because I can't get up.
[29:38 - 29:40] Right now, I'm currently sitting
[29:40 - 29:43] and I don't have my cane, so no.
[29:43 - 29:46] So shouldn't you have your wheelchair nearby then?
[29:46 - 29:49] Like, did you wheel over to the bed and hop out of it or?
[29:49 - 29:52] No, that's not how my disability is.
[29:54 - 29:56] I have limited mobility.
[29:56 - 30:00] When my spine or lower back gets cold,
[30:00 - 30:04] the muscles will tighten up around the already empty,
[30:04 - 30:06] okay, cartilage that's missing,
[30:06 - 30:11] that holds the spine right in between this,
[30:11 - 30:14] there's the cartilage, and...
[30:14 - 30:18] It's not a wheelchair anywhere around you then.
[30:18 - 30:18] Yeah, there is.
[30:18 - 30:20] It's next room over.
[30:20 - 30:22] I just don't use it unless I have to.
[30:22 - 30:25] And my partner usually brings it to me when I need it.
[30:25 - 30:28] So how'd you get to the bed
[30:28 - 30:30] and how did your wheelchair get to the other room?
[30:33 - 30:37] It's called my partner before he went to work.
[30:37 - 30:38] So he just picked you up out of your wheelchair
[30:38 - 30:39] and dropped you off in the bed
[30:39 - 30:42] and left your wheelchair where you couldn't get it?
[30:42 - 30:46] No, he wheeled me up to my bed.
[30:46 - 30:47] Okay.
[30:47 - 30:48] So should be right...
[30:48 - 30:50] All the way to the bed,
[30:50 - 30:52] he put my wheelchair in the other room,
[30:52 - 30:54] just because it saved space.
[30:56 - 31:01] What if you had to get up to go to the bathroom?
[31:01 - 31:04] Okay, I crawl my ass to the bathroom.
[31:04 - 31:08] You think I have a problem with it?
[31:08 - 31:11] I don't think that there is a...
[31:11 - 31:13] You'll see me tomorrow,
[31:13 - 31:19] or better yet, later today when I'm out and about.
[31:19 - 31:19] Okay.
[31:21 - 31:24] Because I will actually pretty much be glad
[31:24 - 31:26] to be on a live stream
[31:26 - 31:30] and just let you show you guys that I do have a disability.
[31:30 - 31:34] I do sit in a wheelchair 90% of the time.
[31:34 - 31:37] And it's for reasons that I really am ashamed of.
[31:38 - 31:44] My back, my legs, they're not the best.
[31:44 - 31:45] Degenerative cartilage disease
[31:45 - 31:48] is not something you want to play with.
[31:49 - 31:52] Apparently I've had it since I was little.
[31:52 - 31:53] It just slowly crept up on me
[31:53 - 31:57] and slowly ate away at the cartilage on my knees
[31:57 - 31:58] and ankles and whatnot.
[31:59 - 32:04] And it really, it hurts to try to walk
[32:04 - 32:06] without some sort of support.
[32:06 - 32:08] And I can somewhat walk,
[32:08 - 32:11] but it's only with a cane or a walker.
[32:11 - 32:15] And you know how embarrassing that can be.
[32:15 - 32:18] Yeah, I had recently had an Achilles surgery.
[32:18 - 32:21] So I had to have like a little scooter.
[32:21 - 32:22] But I'll tell you this,
[32:22 - 32:24] it was never far away from my bed
[32:24 - 32:26] because I would scoot it on over the bed
[32:26 - 32:28] and I would like hop off on the bed.
[32:28 - 32:29] It would never be in another room.
[32:29 - 32:31] I'm sorry?
[32:31 - 32:34] Like my little Achilles scooter,
[32:34 - 32:36] it would never be far away from my bed
[32:36 - 32:37] if I was in bed,
[32:37 - 32:39] or it would never be far away from my couch
[32:39 - 32:40] if I was on the couch.
[32:40 - 32:44] Because I would ride it to where I needed to go
[32:44 - 32:46] and it would never be away from it.
[32:46 - 32:47] I don't depend on it.
[32:47 - 32:49] I refuse to.
[32:50 - 32:52] I refuse to feel like a cripple all the time.
[32:53 - 32:55] I told my doctor, you know what?
[32:55 - 32:58] I may not be able to walk properly,
[32:58 - 33:02] but I'm not gonna sit there and ride away.
[33:02 - 33:03] Okay.
[33:03 - 33:05] I'm not getting sores on my butt and my sides.
[33:05 - 33:07] That's not okay.
[33:07 - 33:12] Well then, I mean, maybe you can get up now
[33:12 - 33:14] and not let your degenerative cartilage of these beat you
[33:14 - 33:16] and you can prove all the naysayers wrong.
[33:16 - 33:18] Show us the wheelchair.
[33:18 - 33:23] Why should I show you that?
[33:24 - 33:29] I don't think there is one.
[33:29 - 33:32] And by the way, since you're too lazy to sit there
[33:32 - 33:35] and actually message me on Facebook,
[33:35 - 33:36] so I could show you some things
[33:36 - 33:38] that you might have wanted to see.
[33:39 - 33:40] Well, where are they?
[33:40 - 33:47] Just tell me what they are.
[33:47 - 33:49] Do you think about that?
[33:49 - 33:50] No, I forgot about it.
[33:50 - 33:51] I forgot about it.
[33:53 - 33:54] Well, what is it?
[33:54 - 33:55] Like what am I missing out on?
[33:57 - 34:00] All the juicy details I was going to give you.
[34:00 - 34:00] Oh, then, okay.
[34:00 - 34:01] I guess I'm gonna miss out on.
[34:01 - 34:02] That's okay.
[34:02 - 34:03] I, you know, if you don't want to-
[34:03 - 34:06] I don't know what you mean.
[34:06 - 34:08] So what's your, that's your Facebook?
[34:10 - 34:12] Or I guess I'm being punished now and I don't get them.
[34:12 - 34:13] Okay.
[34:13 - 34:14] If you don't want to-
[34:14 - 34:17] Well, if you really want it, it's Rebecca Wolf.
[34:17 - 34:18] Okay.
[34:18 - 34:24] So I'm just wondering like what it could,
[34:24 - 34:26] and where are you again?
[34:27 - 34:29] I suppose that's why I'm in Maine.
[34:29 - 34:30] Okay.
[34:33 - 34:36] Okay, is that Alpha Becky?
[34:36 - 34:37] Nope.
[34:38 - 34:39] Okay.
[34:39 - 34:40] Really?
[34:40 - 34:42] There's another one on there.
[34:42 - 34:44] Okay.
[34:44 - 34:47] The one with the rose picture.
[34:47 - 34:51] I don't think I put a nickname on it.
[34:51 - 34:54] Are you an owner and CEO of 3D printing industry?
[34:54 - 34:56] Yeah.
[34:56 - 34:57] Okay, well then, yeah,
[34:57 - 34:59] there's the name Alpha Becky on there.
[34:59 - 35:01] Hmm.
[35:01 - 35:02] Okay.
[35:02 - 35:05] So like, I guess I just added you under the name
[35:05 - 35:06] Michael Oosting.
[35:11 - 35:16] Ah, gotcha.
[35:16 - 35:17] Okay.
[35:19 - 35:23] So any sort of like teaser on what this consists of or?
[35:23 - 35:26] Oh no, there's-
[35:26 - 35:27] I'll know it when I see it.
[35:29 - 35:31] I'll text it to you when I'm done with my livestream,
[35:31 - 35:32] to be honest.
[35:32 - 35:33] Okay.
[35:33 - 35:37] But I'm about to be getting off here
[35:37 - 35:40] because my man should be out and more.
[35:40 - 35:41] Sounds good.
[35:42 - 35:44] I'm glad that that connection has been established
[35:44 - 35:49] and I wish you the best of luck
[35:50 - 35:52] with the degenerative cartilage.
[35:55 - 35:58] I wish you the best that life has to offer.
[35:58 - 35:59] Oh, I plan to.
[36:00 - 36:02] But I wanna ask in the future.
[36:02 - 36:03] Yeah.
[36:03 - 36:05] Please stop picking on me
[36:05 - 36:07] because you really don't wanna piss me off.
[36:07 - 36:11] I've already got a legal actual restraining order
[36:11 - 36:12] more or less.
[36:12 - 36:13] Yeah.
[36:13 - 36:14] Against him.
[36:14 - 36:17] Well, I don't think you should get one against you.
[36:17 - 36:20] But restraining order is like, I don't go after you.
[36:20 - 36:22] Like you come here, I don't, it's not like-
[36:22 - 36:24] Well, I'm talking about the disrespectful things
[36:24 - 36:26] you post and say about me
[36:26 - 36:29] because it blames you and really gets you.
[36:29 - 36:31] I might say things that you don't always
[36:31 - 36:33] necessarily like, but I don't post anything
[36:33 - 36:37] and like I only say them when you come here
[36:38 - 36:40] and I granted, I don't need to say them all the time,
[36:40 - 36:42] but it's not like I'm going on my way
[36:42 - 36:44] to harass you or anything.
[36:44 - 36:46] Really, Marty?
[36:46 - 36:49] I'm not, I don't, I really don't.
[36:49 - 36:51] You mean example?
[36:51 - 36:53] As soon as I left the live stream.
[36:53 - 36:54] Yeah.
[36:54 - 36:56] You were sitting there trying to find videos
[36:56 - 36:58] which I've marked all as private.
[36:59 - 37:01] I was trying to look and find videos.
[37:01 - 37:02] What do you mean?
[37:02 - 37:07] I heard you, I was sitting there still listening.
[37:07 - 37:08] Did that happen?
[37:12 - 37:14] Well, I really don't recall, but-
[37:14 - 37:18] Actually, I'll be back and get you the exact times, too.
[37:18 - 37:20] Oh, okay, all right, then, if I'm-
[37:20 - 37:24] Both of you, I would appreciate it
[37:24 - 37:28] that you would stop using me as your content
[37:28 - 37:29] because it really-
[37:29 - 37:31] I don't unless you come here.
[37:31 - 37:34] Oh my God, you're insane.
[37:34 - 37:36] That's not true, Marty.
[37:36 - 37:37] This is insane.
[37:37 - 37:39] This is insane.
[37:40 - 37:42] No, I'm driving you insane now, huh?
[37:42 - 37:43] No.
[37:43 - 37:44] Because I know what I'm talking about.
[37:44 - 37:45] This situation isn't the same.
[37:45 - 37:48] Because I don't talk about you
[37:48 - 37:50] unless you come here and ask for a link.
[37:50 - 37:54] Yeah, and you sit there and use me as your content.
[37:54 - 37:55] I already know.
[37:56 - 37:59] I already know that you're gonna try this whole,
[38:00 - 38:04] because I'm trying to get chance put away supposedly.
[38:05 - 38:07] I just wanted to be left alone.
[38:07 - 38:10] And you instigate a little too much.
[38:11 - 38:13] And put it out there, you instigate.
[38:13 - 38:15] You're one of the drama people,
[38:15 - 38:18] and I'm honestly not okay with it.
[38:18 - 38:20] I have like my hand on my head
[38:20 - 38:25] and I'm just shaking it in disbelief, but all right.
[38:25 - 38:29] So, if you really wanna find out some information.
[38:29 - 38:30] Yeah.
[38:30 - 38:32] Your name.
[38:32 - 38:35] Yeah, no, I added you on Facebook.
[38:35 - 38:37] I added you on Facebook.
[38:37 - 38:40] Yeah, want proof that I'm not in a car?
[38:40 - 38:42] I got you your proof.
[38:42 - 38:44] You couldn't prove that you have a wheelchair,
[38:44 - 38:45] so I got some-
[38:45 - 38:47] I will do that when I get up.
[38:47 - 38:49] Okay.
[38:49 - 38:54] In fact, I'll have my partner, literally video,
[38:57 - 38:58] the whole thing.
[38:59 - 39:02] Me getting out of bed and everything.
[39:02 - 39:04] Well, I'll believe it when I see it.
[39:04 - 39:06] All right, believe what you want.
[39:07 - 39:08] But-
[39:08 - 39:10] I believe, know what I know.
[39:12 - 39:14] What do you know?
[39:14 - 39:16] What do you actually know about me?
[39:16 - 39:17] Well, that's for me to know,
[39:17 - 39:22] and for you to maybe find out or not find out.
[39:22 - 39:26] I know you know a little too much for your own good, Marty.
[39:28 - 39:31] Well, what does that mean?
[39:31 - 39:34] I know you stalked me for a while.
[39:34 - 39:36] I stalked you for a while?
[39:36 - 39:37] When was that?
[39:38 - 39:41] When this whole bullshit between me and Chance started.
[39:42 - 39:44] Huh.
[39:44 - 39:46] You even admitted to talking to my dad.
[39:47 - 39:49] Well, yeah, when somebody fakes,
[39:49 - 39:51] when somebody supposedly kills themselves,
[39:51 - 39:56] it seems really fishy, really suspicious,
[39:56 - 39:59] and seems like bullshit, then, yeah, if a guy-
[39:59 - 40:02] Maybe you wanted to disappear?
[40:02 - 40:06] If a guy's getting blamed for bullying a woman to suicide,
[40:06 - 40:08] and the woman didn't actually kill herself.
[40:08 - 40:11] I did attempt though, and we'll tell you that.
[40:11 - 40:15] Well, there's a difference between faking your death
[40:15 - 40:16] and actually killing yourself.
[40:16 - 40:20] I attempted, which failed miserably, of course.
[40:23 - 40:25] I will tell you, I have tried to kill myself
[40:25 - 40:30] for so many years, but you wanna know why I didn't?
[40:30 - 40:31] Now, it's failed.
[40:33 - 40:35] I tried overdosing.
[40:35 - 40:36] I will admit that.
[40:36 - 40:39] I have tried hanging myself.
[40:39 - 40:42] What would you try to overdose on?
[40:42 - 40:43] Let's just put it this way,
[40:43 - 40:45] it was some of my prescribed medications.
[40:46 - 40:48] Okay, all right.
[40:48 - 40:51] And I have tried drinking myself to death.
[40:51 - 40:54] I have tried, you know,
[40:54 - 40:56] there's so many different things I've tried.
[40:57 - 41:02] I've even got a thousand cut scars on my arm
[41:02 - 41:06] from how bad it was for me.
[41:06 - 41:08] Really?
[41:08 - 41:10] I didn't start cutting.
[41:10 - 41:12] Yeah, I cut, I used to anyways.
[41:13 - 41:18] I used to cut because I was hurting emotionally.
[41:20 - 41:24] I wish I could feel physical, but, you know.
[41:25 - 41:27] Yeah.
[41:27 - 41:28] My nerve damage doesn't allow it.
[41:32 - 41:35] Another reason I back screwed up.
[41:35 - 41:37] The last time I got hit by a car.
[41:39 - 41:41] I wasn't fun.
[41:41 - 41:44] Right.
[41:44 - 41:49] Black car, no tags, all blacked out.
[41:49 - 41:52] I don't know how I managed to survive, but I did.
[41:54 - 41:55] Yeah.
[41:55 - 41:57] This is before I became in the wheelchair and all that.
[41:59 - 42:02] The car flung me a good distance.
[42:02 - 42:04] I got up, popped my back,
[42:04 - 42:07] and then I realized, oh fuck, I screwed up my back.
[42:08 - 42:10] And then they're spinning off.
[42:10 - 42:13] And I'm like, the fuck just happened?
[42:13 - 42:16] And everyone in the store parking lot was staring at me.
[42:16 - 42:18] I'm like, what the heck?
[42:22 - 42:25] Here, my laptop might die.
[42:25 - 42:29] So if I pop all, like if my thing just vanishes,
[42:29 - 42:31] I'll be right back.
[42:32 - 42:35] Yeah, it's at 1% here.
[42:35 - 42:38] So I think I probably got about 30 seconds.
[42:39 - 42:41] But then I'll be,
[42:42 - 42:47] I'm gonna give you a time for when we can talk on live stream.
[42:48 - 42:53] Sure, so hang on, oh shit, it's about to go.
Cyrax on Juggalo Drama Alert 2023-2-21

Cyrax on Juggalo Drama Alert 2023-2-21

https://www.youtube.com/@JuggaloDramaAlert

[0:00 - 0:04] 34 days dude
[0:04 - 0:08] Like it's scary fucking shit. They're saying that that mushroom cloud
[0:08 - 0:12] Like that cloud from the initial blast from the train
[0:13 - 0:17] Could actually be and may very well be headed this way
[0:18 - 0:20] Holy shit
[0:20 - 0:24] Yeah
[0:24 - 0:27] It's scary shit dude. It's like what the fuck
[0:29 - 0:32] damn
[0:32 - 0:37] That's what I'm saying dude, and what's so fucked up is the police ain't letting anybody report on it
[0:37 - 0:48] Like the police are literally arresting reporters for trying to report on the matter when the public needs to fucking know what's going on
[0:51 - 0:52] hmm
[0:52 - 0:54] Damn some major. I thought
[0:55 - 0:57] Well, you know died
[0:58 - 1:02] It's fucking crazy in Ohio. Yeah, I'm out in Akron dude
[1:03 - 1:05] What happened a train?
[1:05 - 1:08] Now train I guess carrying some chemicals
[1:09 - 1:10] tipped over
[1:10 - 1:17] Spilled out and instead of the police calling the proper people they tried to deal with it themselves and
[1:18 - 1:21] It unfortunately caused a toxic mushroom cloud
[1:22 - 1:28] to go up into the air and that cloud was so toxic that it's a literally
[1:28 - 1:33] Killing everything around me. They're not letting people report on it
[1:34 - 1:36] Oh fucking
[1:37 - 1:40] Over 35,000 fish have died
[1:41 - 1:44] People have died animals like pets have fucking died
[1:45 - 1:51] People have gotten sick and what's so fucked up is the cops ain't letting the people that need to report on it
[1:51 - 1:53] And let people know what's going on
[1:53 - 1:59] They're not allowed to report on it. They're getting fucking reported when this shit could fucking kill people
[2:00 - 2:02] Yeah, it's gonna kill like
[2:02 - 2:05] It's on like lake here on
[2:05 - 2:09] Yeah, it's gonna fuck up that whole lake. Yeah
[2:10 - 2:17] Dude the water systems already been fucking contaminated up near Cleveland. Yeah, all those fish are fucked
[2:17 - 2:20] It's only a matter of time. So it hits here, dude
[2:20 - 2:24] And that's what they're saying like if this shit gets out of hand and gets worse
[2:26 - 2:30] Ohio can literally be the US's version of Chernobyl and
[2:31 - 2:33] That could prove to be deadly
[2:33 - 2:36] Dang, aren't you an Akron? Yeah
[2:36 - 2:42] Now I got a serious question for you real quick sir. I've been waiting that
[2:43 - 2:47] You gotta be making some serious money fucking showing your cock and shoving Sharpie's over, but
[2:51 - 2:54] This shit is spanned so far beyond that shit
[2:56 - 2:58] Fuck all the bullshit
[2:59 - 3:05] Fuck the money dude this shit could fucking kill lives you don't fuck. It's not about the cock
[3:06 - 3:09] This is about the money everything revolves around money
[3:09 - 3:12] I just want to know what you're bringing in for doing that
[3:12 - 3:14] Fuck your goddamn money, dude
[3:14 - 3:19] You can take that money and show it up your ass and go fuck yourself kid because they shit right now, bro
[3:19 - 3:21] This kid killed yeah, I'm older than you
[3:22 - 3:26] Dude, we're trying to have a conversation about something
[3:30 - 3:32] I
[3:32 - 3:34] Love you Colton, but damn
[3:34 - 3:39] Hey, it's about more. Everything comes down to money. I mean fuck money, bro
[3:39 - 3:44] You're a joke just like Marty, bro. You're I hate or I can't stand Marty
[3:44 - 3:49] He's making money out for you. I'm talking about what you're making guess what dude right now
[3:49 - 3:53] You're acting just like him. You're acting like a pussy. I'm not trying to make money off of you
[3:53 - 3:55] I can care less. I want to know what you're making
[3:57 - 4:03] Now isn't you little fuck face motherfucker that ain't none of your goddamn business boy now shut the fuck
[4:03 - 4:05] I'm gonna get the fuck out of here
[4:05 - 4:09] Seriously, bro, you think that you're so big and bad and hard dude
[4:09 - 4:13] You're nobody but a punk ass bitch. I don't get a fucking screen, dude
[4:13 - 4:20] I'm out here trying to report on shit that the console and reporters fuck a report on that could possibly take lives
[4:20 - 4:26] And you're over here acting like a dumbass grow the fuck of YouTube when a little fuck I was just asking you a question
[4:26 - 4:29] That's all I want to know what you're making
[4:30 - 4:32] You may leave
[4:34 - 4:39] I was trying to have a decent conversation with Cyrax and you've ruined it
Cyrax on MBM Stream 2023-2-14 (Xbox Intercepted)

Cyrax on MBM Stream 2023-2-14 (Xbox Intercepted)

https://www.youtube.com/@musicbizmarty7786

[0:00 - 0:04] little fucking charges you've got against you motherfucker you don't think i don't know about
[0:04 - 0:10] you being illegal shit i'll tell you right now you fucking faggot you stay away from my shit
[0:10 - 0:18] or i will get you for tampering with fucking mail if in case you haven't noticed motherfucker
[0:18 - 0:23] that is a federal fucking crime and i'll be glad to fucking add to the fucking charges against
[0:23 - 0:29] you so morning morning stay away from my shit you fucking fat ass you're a piece of shit
[0:29 - 0:34] marty and you know it you're a little freaking nigger boy who don't know what the fuck he's doing
[0:34 - 0:39] you're out of your fucking mind and honestly bro you need to shut your goddamn mouth and
[0:39 - 0:45] stop fucking with shit that ain't fucking yours what do you mean so back the fuck off you piece of
[0:45 - 0:52] shit otherwise i'm going after you legally and i will add to your fucking charges against you
[0:52 - 1:01] i will add to that class action against you so my advice to you marty back the fuck up back the
[1:01 - 1:06] fuck up at least shit alone you piece of shit i know what the fuck you're planning and it ain't
[1:06 - 1:14] gonna fucking work you faggot you piece of shit you dirt bag you fuck boy you fat ass oompa oompa
[1:14 - 1:20] looking little bitch you fucking idiot that lets raccoon steal us fucking pizza you fucking
[1:20 - 1:27] nigger boy you piece of shit you bag you fucking failure at life you sick fuck you what you know
[1:27 - 1:35] you bitch make fag you pussy you bitch when you rolled up on me you didn't even come up and knock
[1:35 - 1:42] on the door you fag you ain't no hard ass you're a little drug addict bitch so marty do yourself
[1:42 - 1:48] a favor if you want to stay out of jail and leave my shit alone because i am in contact
[1:48 - 1:54] with the person that's got the class action against you and believe me i will add to it if
[1:54 - 2:03] you do not fucking leave shit alone you got me i'm not afraid of you i'm not i will add to that
[2:03 - 2:10] class act and i will come after you legally so my advice to you marty back the fuck up
[2:11 - 2:18] shut up don't make me get the goddamn feds of us because i have proof that you're playing in shit
[2:18 - 2:27] i have full fledged proof so don't push it don't push it unless you want to go to prison i suggest
[2:27 - 2:37] fucking off you want to be shut up i own your little you little worm you scumbag bitch
[2:37 - 2:45] i own you fat ass you always speak when spoken to you got me little bitch mate you got that
[2:45 - 2:58] i own your fucking shit yeah shut up shut up bag shut up and nigger boy shut up shut up nigger
[2:58 - 3:06] oh i'm sorry sorry you creep you weirdo you druggy you're a fucking druggy nick you want the hard
[3:06 - 3:13] ass you claim to be boy you want the hard ass you claim to be fat ass you're nothing but a bitch
[3:13 - 3:20] hiding me on a goddamn screen nigger you ain't hard watch that your little friend that you sent
[3:20 - 3:26] down here the other night ask him how serious i was about beating his ass when i showed him i
[3:26 - 3:33] saw it with a baseball bat ready to beat his goddamn car windowing ask him tell me more about you
[3:33 - 3:40] no shut up ask him tell me nigger i'll fuck your male prostitute friend up right now and ask him
[3:40 - 3:47] i gave him a goddamn choice to either fucking leave or his window was getting bashed in don't
[3:47 - 3:54] believe me ask anyone that fucking hurt i showed up there with a bat ready to fucking go so trust
[3:54 - 4:01] me when i say nick i'm not afraid to beat your skull in so trust me nick i'm not the one you
[4:01 - 4:11] faggot you are nothing but a trash your garbage your panel is a joke just like you honestly dude
[4:11 - 4:18] your mama should have spit your ass out instead of swallowing your daddy's cum oh i'm sorry as
[4:18 - 4:21] do you think you can get pregnant by swallowing cum sorry i act like i'm curious
[4:22 - 4:28] no you know what bro instead of your mom's swallowing your brother's cum and having your
[4:28 - 4:34] inbred ass she should have spit your ass out because you're nothing but an inbred low life
[4:34 - 4:42] piece of fucking shit that's not how pregnancy works dude your ass all you do is sit on your ass
[4:42 - 4:50] you fucking lazy piece of shit that's all you do you're lazy you're a scone bag you're a faggot
[4:50 - 4:57] that whose ass i want to fucking beat so here come if you think your heart ass show up here bitch
[4:58 - 5:01] sorry tell these people why you're so mad today but i'm nigger
[5:02 - 5:10] shut up you crackhead you little bitch made fuck boy you got a problem with me nick you come down here
[5:10 - 5:19] and i'll beat your ass you say that i'm sick of you fucking with me and my friends and my family
[5:19 - 5:26] you need to get a goddamn life you fag you're nothing but a low life piece of shit all you do is
[5:26 - 5:33] attack motherfuckers and threaten their families just like you threaten steven just like you threaten
[5:33 - 5:38] michael's family bro you threaten to annihilate his fucking family you don't think he ain't gonna
[5:38 - 5:45] go after you for that trust me he is and so am i for all the shit you've done to me marty
[5:45 - 5:52] i am gonna be adding to that class act if you do not back off then trust me next box let your
[5:52 - 6:02] faggot mouth as long as you speak when spoken to i'm your daddy bitch you're my bitch i'm your daddy
[6:02 - 6:09] i'm your owner so sit the fuck down and shut up slave boy because all you are is a slave to the
[6:09 - 6:17] system all you are is a slave to the money you're a money drunk you fucking faggot ass little bitch
[6:17 - 6:25] all you're doing is ruining lives so do yourself a favor marty and fuck off otherwise i will be out
[6:25 - 6:30] of that class now i'm not worried about that oh yeah you're really that's why you were running
[6:30 - 6:37] scared last night right that's why you were worried right right bitch right bitch right bitch if i
[6:37 - 6:43] was scared of that why would i deprive you of another xbox it doesn't make any sense why would you
[6:43 - 6:50] deprive me of that marty why because i can't why why why can't you just leave me alone nigger
[6:51 - 6:57] you ain't my daddy you ain't my mama you don't own me bitch boy oh if i wasn't your daddy then
[6:57 - 7:01] how come i can keep taking away your xbox it sounds like i am your daddy now doesn't it
[7:01 - 7:07] employing your fucking brain bitch or how about i murder your mom and dad and then come murder you
[7:07 - 7:12] bitch or better yet how about i slit sarin's throat in front of you you little bitch
[7:12 - 7:19] how about that or how about i come after her kids and you and her better yet maybe i'll kill her
[7:19 - 7:24] and her family right in front of you how about i come after everyone you fucking love
[7:25 - 7:30] how about i come after everyone you look sorry this is over a toy right you're this angry over
[7:30 - 7:36] a toy and you call yourself an adult come on man hey no goddamn toy nigger next box
[7:37 - 7:43] hey nick all i got to say is you better be fucking ready because i'm coming out to you
[7:43 - 7:51] because i have it on recording and screenshot that you are going to try to intercept the package
[7:51 - 8:00] which is against federal law no trust me when i say nick your best bet is the back off now
[8:00 - 8:07] it's already intercepted before i come after you so fair warning nick back off or i'm gonna do that
[8:07 - 8:16] class act it's not understood no it's not it's not understood seems upset today he seems pretty upset
[8:16 - 8:29] today ah shit it's not too late it's not too late i'm gonna give him about 10 minutes to come
[8:29 - 8:36] back with a better attitude and then i'm gonna end it um peace our acts what's gonna take for you
[8:36 - 8:42] to leave me and my shit alone what do you want from me what do you want no what's it gonna take
[8:42 - 8:50] for you to leave me and my shit that i get the fuck alone what's it gonna take what do you want
[8:50 - 8:57] whatever you want i'll fucking give it to you you want to dance for 15 minutes fine i'll do you
[8:57 - 9:04] want to make a fucking diss track on you all right then get dancing is that all you want that's all i want
[9:05 - 9:13] why do you want that so bad answer that one why do you want it so fucking bad is that what it's
[9:13 - 9:19] gonna take for you to leave my shit alone marty is that what it's gonna take yes fine be ready to
[9:19 - 9:26] watch my fucking live right now right here right now we're no xbox now brah i don't know i'm gonna
[9:26 - 9:37] do it on my terms on my stream on my terms on my stream no no xbox then sir x screw you nigger
[9:37 - 9:43] boy you're lucky i'm you're lucky i'm not there to cut your fucking head off in front of everyone
[9:44 - 9:51] honestly nick i wish your leg would have fallen off i wish your i wish your Achilles tending
[9:51 - 9:57] would have fucking rotted and you would have lost that shit then i would know how you feel right
[9:58 - 10:05] actually yeah you would okay what you don't get nick is this you're the reason i've been sick
[10:05 - 10:12] all these fucking years okay you're the reason why i've been stressed you're the reason
[10:13 - 10:21] why my friends get attacked you're a bitch you're a bitch you have no honor you have no
[10:21 - 10:30] respect you say that you're not friends with William glory hole and and that fake ass with
[10:30 - 10:35] one friends of William glory hole but i'm definitely not friends with mf goon cut the crap marty you know
[10:35 - 10:42] you are no i don't think i don't see right no i i honestly have a tough call deciding between who i
[10:42 - 10:48] just like more between mf goon and you you don't think i don't see through your fucking lies nick
[10:48 - 10:54] you forget who you're talking to boy i know you better than anyone right now you're lying through
[10:54 - 11:02] your goddamn teeth okay i've seen the fucking server man i know who you're fucking friends with
[11:04 - 11:12] you are friends with mf goon no i think he's an autistic weirdo no i don't i don't like him
[11:12 - 11:20] very much to be honest why are you lying nick why are you lying fine i love mf goon he's my best friend
[11:20 - 11:26] okay all right i'm it's not true you know what you are marty you know what you are you're a
[11:26 - 11:33] money drunk little fucking bitch that's obsessed and quite honestly you need to get the fuck over yourself
[11:35 - 11:41] oh simple question sorry ex do you want your toy or not one and they know goddamn toy you
[11:41 - 11:49] fucking faggot it sure does to you it is to me it's my way of making a living which i was doing
[11:49 - 11:56] quite well and tell you fucked up my twitch because you're a little bitch that can't handle
[11:56 - 12:04] seeing me do good shit you can't handle seeing me do good so all you want to do is do well do well
[12:06 - 12:13] fuck you and your proper english you can take your proper english and show it up your fucking ass and go
[12:13 - 12:20] fuck yourself because you ain't nothing but a little bitch who's so desperate for fucking views
[12:20 - 12:27] from yours truly that you'll do anything to get it because you're a punk ass coward that's not original
[12:27 - 12:34] you're a fucking fag you're a little bitch made pussy that's all you are you're a 32 year old
[12:34 - 12:39] man crying over a tool or a toy whatever you want to call it seems like you really don't even want it
[12:39 - 12:45] like you just rather throw a fit when you can get it so simply after your ass i'd rather fucking
[12:45 - 12:50] knock your goddamn lights out i'd rather put you in the grave where you belong that's what i
[12:50 - 12:58] want to do i want to beat your ass i want to harm you i want to fucking hurt you i want to
[12:59 - 13:07] attack you the same way you did me i want to attack your loved ones the way that you did me
[13:07 - 13:16] i want to make you feel the pain that i felt for the last seven goddamn years i want to hurt you
[13:16 - 13:24] i want to make you bleed i want to put you in the hospital so that maybe you actually back the
[13:24 - 13:30] fuck off and maybe then you'll realize what the fuck i've been through because of you
[13:31 - 13:38] you don't want your xbox you don't get it do you you want your xbox i know shut up
[13:39 - 13:46] you don't want to come i got sick you're the reason i ended up in the hospital with an infection
[13:46 - 13:54] you're the reason i got so physically sick that i couldn't do shit because all you want to do
[13:54 - 14:01] is run your punk mouth and attack me for views and money you say you're not about the money
[14:01 - 14:08] bullshit you're not you're all about the money nick stop lying to these people bro
[14:09 - 14:15] all enough you're all about the goddamn money and you know it because you're a money drunk
[14:15 - 14:23] little bitch that's all you are you're a money drunk faggot and if you don't stop i will come
[14:23 - 14:30] after you legally nick so my advice to you back the fuck up or i'm taking this shit to the goddamn fb
[14:30 - 14:36] i don't care about that oh yeah you do i really don't yeah you do i really don't care when they
[14:36 - 14:44] show up on your doorstep or intercepting a package that is fucking with legal shit do you not get
[14:44 - 14:50] that bro you can end up in jail for that or he got already not care if you end up in prison
[14:50 - 14:58] no i don't just dude i got proof on here and i got proof by screenshot that you're playing the
[14:58 - 15:05] intercept of the package which is a federal fucking offense you dumbass well i'll admit to my crimes
[15:05 - 15:08] right here right now i don't care about any of the consequences i just want to see you dance
[15:11 - 15:15] is that what it's gonna fucking take for you to leave me alone yes sir right here right now
[15:16 - 15:21] fine let me load up a fucking truck now i'm pulling up the track i'm like you know i'm doing this
[15:21 - 15:28] shit here i'm gonna play the first track for you no fuck that yeah well that's what it's gonna be
[15:28 - 15:34] no it's not you pick the first one i'll pick the second one this shit my way or not at all
[15:34 - 15:41] take your pig either my way or the fucking highway you want it you got it but i'm doing this shit
[15:41 - 15:52] my fucking way is that understood understood you really are a fucking piece of shit you know that
[15:53 - 15:54] yeah i do yeah i do
[16:02 - 16:17] 15 minutes of dancing i can't hear the music there's no music
[16:19 - 16:20] there's no music
[20:41 - 20:45] because i'll tell you right now i want to hear a great answer i'll give you that
[20:46 - 20:49] i want to say this to you that's five minutes by the way
[20:53 - 20:57] i want to say thank you to three fucking people
[20:57 - 21:03] one my friend cat who destroyed and owned your ass by the way second off i want to say thank you
[21:03 - 21:10] to my girl who actually got back into shit and marty i also want to thank you for something
[21:10 - 21:17] because if it wasn't for you i wouldn't fucking be doing this shit so i'm destroying you i'm
[21:17 - 21:29] destroying you and everyone your boy it's fucking back yes so nick i got like 10 minutes though i hope
[21:29 - 26:36] you're ready to be fucking destroyed okay yeah sure what's fucking what's fucking go are you
[26:36 - 26:44] fucking happy all right so i access 10 minutes actually i was 15 because i someone's a little bit
[26:44 - 26:54] longer no sorry i got 10 minutes here you got to go for 50 no fuck 50 dude i agreed to 15 that's
[26:54 - 27:02] what i did we had no we had an agreement i did what you fucking wanted now cut the crap
[27:02 - 27:11] we had no we had an agreement and i did what i said yeah this just shows how unhonorable
[27:11 - 27:19] you really are the deal was for 50 minutes no it was not it was for 15 you idiot huh so
[27:20 - 27:32] that was for 15 everyone fucking your 50 15 you retarded motherfucker 50 screw you nigger whoa
[27:33 - 27:40] you fucking piece of shit you bag you're nothing you're worthless honestly hitler should have killed
[27:40 - 27:47] your whole fucking family along with you what he did when he threw your ancestors into the pit
[27:47 - 27:56] he should have killed the rest of your family along with that we need like a minute like sorry
[27:56 - 28:03] i'm going to give you an Xbox like i'm really happy like i think you're doing great you
[28:03 - 28:07] need a minute to catch your breath we can take one that's fine you know what i don't get in it
[28:07 - 28:14] it's why do you do this to me why why do you know why do you feel like you have to
[28:14 - 28:20] fucking do this you piece of shit right people are so happy people are why why do you have to do
[28:20 - 28:28] this to me man i ain't your goddamn monkey well that's debatable but so screw you nigger boy
[28:28 - 28:36] you fat tuba lord hey nick at least unlike you at least i don't let raccoons steal my fucking pizza
[28:36 - 28:42] because i'm so fucking busy worrying about what another man's doing that's you bitch face i don't let
[28:42 - 28:50] jews steal my xboxes so at least i don't let raccoons steal my fucking food our way i'm sorry i forgot
[28:50 - 28:57] that was your fucking mom and dad that stole your pizza bitch i forgot your whole family is raccoons
[28:58 - 29:07] my whole family is raccoons your whole family is nothing but garbage all right catch your breath
[29:07 - 29:14] dude it's like you they're garbage if your mom had any decency she'd be fucking going after your ass
[29:15 - 29:21] okay well so let's cut it in the middle between 15 how about you shut the fuck up and you hand over my
[29:21 - 29:28] shit i danced like you wanted time to pay up there ain't no fucking time women i gave you a fucking
[29:28 - 29:37] shitty fucking two routine dance time to pay up time to pay up that's more than what i should be giving you
[29:37 - 29:43] that's more than what you even fucking deserve let's call it 30 let's just split it how about no
[29:43 - 29:49] how about you hand over my shit or i call the fucking police right now and inform them well
[29:49 - 29:56] they'll call them dude you want to call them let them know because i fucking will sure i don't think
[29:56 - 30:02] you will honestly yeah that's what you fucking think that's what i know no that's what you fucking
[30:02 - 30:06] think you piece of shit it'll probably arrest you dude because you're not honoring your end of the
[30:06 - 30:14] deal excuse the fuck out of me i gave you a two routine dance you fucking deal was for 50 minutes
[30:14 - 30:19] i'm willing to cut it down to 30 because there's misunderstanding i suppose but you're not even
[30:19 - 30:25] gonna call the police there's no you're not gonna do it oh well don't worry yeah i don't even think
[30:25 - 30:31] you're going to so what do i have to worry about huh yeah that's what you think that's what i know
[30:32 - 30:36] otherwise you'd be calling them but you're not going to you know they're gonna laugh at you
[30:36 - 30:46] i don't know we'll see about that big boy or you could just dance and get your xbox like what
[30:46 - 30:53] i don't know how i know how i call the fucking cops and inform them that you're planning off fucking
[30:53 - 30:59] grieving often people how about that how i fucking tell them that you're planning on intercepting
[30:59 - 31:09] a package you don't have to do that that's not necessary oh yeah it is either you got two choices
[31:09 - 31:15] nick either you hate nor the fact right now or i call the fucking cops take your technique
[31:15 - 31:19] you've got two options you can either dance or not get your xbox how about this
[31:21 - 31:28] you know i'm fine you just made your choice you just made your fucking choice you just sealed
[31:28 - 31:36] your goddamn fate bro did i oh yeah you most certainly did well whatever we'll see we'll see
[31:36 - 31:53] how it goes for we'll see how it goes for you i guess we will won't we yeah yeah okay you're not on
[31:53 - 32:04] the call with them oh i am because i know what you're trying to do you're trying to have people
[32:04 - 32:13] gonna run my call i know what you're trying to do nick and it's not going well hey dumbass fuck off
[32:17 - 32:21] i could give you the number you're not gonna call him because you know i got the number man
[32:21 - 32:30] i got the number right here who you know yep you can't even figure out how to use their dialing system
[32:31 - 32:50] i have to repeat right here bitch i'm gonna call them on you for not honoring your end of the deal
[32:50 - 32:58] on a dance arrangement how about that you want to dance the music that's playing back there
[32:58 - 33:03] in the meantime i'd rather make you look stupid all right
[33:03 - 33:19] you know it's funny nick you're real fucking stupid
[33:20 - 33:26] you really are you're fucking stupid as fuck boy yeah i've heard that before
[33:27 - 33:30] it's because it's fucking true okay
[33:34 - 33:38] i'll let you know what the fucking takes i don't care what are you gonna tell them
[33:39 - 33:44] that you're trying to insert the package which is true well that's a legal process shut up
[33:45 - 34:02] okay sorry i know what you're trying to do nick you're trying to fucking pull out their number
[34:02 - 34:10] so i can't get there i'm not stupid is that what's going on oh yeah i'm not i know you got people
[34:10 - 34:39] that worked for you yeah fuck the cops i'll take you to the higher ups well you're already on the
[34:39 - 34:48] line you might as well fucking i'll take you to the higher ups these you see they don't even take
[34:48 - 34:53] you seriously they won't pick up your phone call no that ain't it all dude well yeah it is i know it
[34:53 - 34:59] ain't dude it's a fucking weekday and busy as fuck so screw you old man so you're gonna call the
[34:59 - 35:05] you're not gonna call that behind oh yes i am it doesn't mean there's no
[35:05 - 35:14] let's just pump the brakes here no we're not pumping the brakes not this time pal
[35:14 - 35:22] you're not gonna call it oh yes i am let's just think about this let's be rational no i am being
[35:22 - 35:37] rational what's the cool you know i should have done this a long fucking time ago i should have
[35:37 - 35:43] done this a long fucking time ago when i had the chance well you always had the chance oh no
[35:43 - 36:07] i wasn't thinking clearly back then this thing clearly now yeah it's my name is Chance Wilkins
[36:07 - 36:14] i live here in Akron Ohio and i have a guy by the name of Nicholas Bigler who goes by the name of
[36:14 - 36:20] music biz marnie on youtube who actually is trying to intercept an international package
[36:21 - 36:28] you're not talking to anyone that is coming from the Netherlands to me which if you guys are unaware
[36:28 - 36:34] is a federal crime this man is trying to intercept a package that is supposed to be going to me
[36:35 - 36:41] so so i can get back to you right away please do so this is important thank you have a nice day
[36:42 - 36:44] these people don't take you seriously they won't even pick up your calls
[36:50 - 36:53] hey don't ask quit fucking calling and getting a wife you chew bag
[36:55 - 37:00] hey why don't you screw up nigger hey why don't you fuck yourself pussy boy
[37:03 - 37:10] they don't take your calls why don't you just dance and get an xbox because i don't
[37:10 - 37:17] fucking owe you shit thank you you owe me shit nigger matter of fact let's talk about all the
[37:17 - 37:23] thousands of dollars you fucking owe me for making money off my content or how about the money
[37:23 - 37:29] from skull scratch equality that you fucking owe me how about that hundred that you owe me how about
[37:29 - 37:38] that nick how about that boy yeah yeah it sucks when the shoes on the other foot don't it money
[37:38 - 37:45] it sucks when the shoes on the other foot don't it i'm fine sir x oh yeah i'm really upset
[37:45 - 37:50] all right well then sorry x look man no no no no no no no it doesn't have to go no no no
[37:50 - 37:58] you ain't going nowhere boy you ain't going no fucking way well you owe me something
[37:58 - 38:02] no i don't well then you don't have to get an xbox though i don't owe you shit nigger boy
[38:03 - 38:10] i don't owe you an xbox yeah i don't want you dance for fuck you nigger then you can forget it
[38:10 - 38:17] no i'm coming out to your ass they don't even pick up your call though it's like you're on some kind
[38:17 - 38:25] of a 43 list where they just yeah that's what it looks like that's what it looks like to me
[38:26 - 38:31] that's what it seems like to you but that ain't what it is well be mine can't you get in a whole
[38:32 - 38:42] of law enforcement because you're on a 43 list dude i'm not doing shit you want it you know nick
[38:44 - 38:49] why do you fucking want me to do this so god damn fucking bad you piece of shit
[38:49 - 38:54] nicks it makes everyone happy screw you nigger screw you you dirty little bitch
[38:54 - 39:00] makes everyone happy see you nigger boy how about my cock can get you big oh god
[39:01 - 39:06] how about i whip my cock out and get you big xbox they're gonna be like this it's just
[39:06 - 39:12] it's just not gonna happen screw you nigger boy screw you screw you no xbox for you
[39:12 - 39:21] fuck you nigger boy yeah why can't you behave why can't you fuck off and leave me alone nigger
[39:21 - 39:28] just dance why can't you leave me alone jerk just dance it'll be okay fuck you
[39:30 - 39:37] stand sir accent that's not you nigger i ain't doing shit for you when you're not getting an xbox
[39:37 - 39:43] oh really wait till i call my fucking family right now on call what are they gonna do oh they'll
[39:43 - 40:02] fucking have your goddamn ass yeah okay whatever that's not even the phone so screw you i'll call
[40:02 - 40:09] my family right now and i'm having them bitch you out right now do you think that's gonna
[40:09 - 40:15] get you we please fucking tell morty to leave our shit alone because he's threatening to intercept
[40:15 - 40:22] all our fucking mail i got him right here hey selly you want to say something to him because i'm
[40:22 - 40:31] getting tired of this hey so no more no more i want you to say something to him right now because
[40:31 - 40:36] i'm getting tired of no more i need you to fucking say something to him right now because i'm getting
[40:36 - 40:44] tired of this history no he's no yes you came on he's threatening to take all our fucking mail
[40:46 - 40:54] she hung up on you because you're a little bitch she's tired of you and your antics no she's tired
[40:54 - 41:03] of you well this can all end very simply yeah by me fucking calling her and you being shut down
[41:03 - 41:10] just hang up on you just like the police ignore you fuck you this is where we're at syrax either you
[41:10 - 41:29] can dancing in the next box i seriously need you to make you fucking calling you're not getting away
[41:29 - 41:37] with this nick you could just dance fuck dancing that that's who part routine is the last dancing you
[41:37 - 41:47] ever see from me period you're doing so well too well guess what you fucked that up didn't you fat ass
[41:47 - 41:51] fuck it up for yourself i have nothing oh how about we talk about how you threaten to kill
[41:51 - 41:57] nicks nick how about we talk about how you threaten to kill michael's family how about we
[41:57 - 42:05] talk about that how about how you put his wife in the hospital he's a liar oh no he's not
[42:06 - 42:12] how do you think i learned about danie syrax because you're a fucking hacking little bitch
[42:13 - 42:17] you're a hacker nick you have friends that do shit for you
[42:19 - 42:26] you think i'm stupid now mother fucker i ain't i see what the fuck you're doing i'm not dumb what
[42:26 - 42:33] am i doing trying to fuck shit up because you're a little pussy who's not original who's a little
[42:33 - 42:39] punk bitch you're a great dancer things were going so well well fuck you and fuck dancing
[42:40 - 42:45] and fuck your xbox fuck your mom and dad fuck your whore of a girlfriend
[42:48 - 42:53] yeah this guy does not want an xbox no you don't want to fuck off and die
[42:55 - 43:00] honestly i want you to die i want you to kill yourself because you're a piece of
[43:00 - 43:08] shit bully i just want to see you dance fuck you and dancing hey dumbass get a life you piece of
[43:08 - 43:18] shit how about you fuck up and tell your little bitch daddy nick that he's my bitch and that he's a pussy
[43:23 - 43:29] nick you're a piece of shit i won't disagree with you there and let me tell you right now nick
[43:32 - 43:38] you seriously need to fuck off because if you don't
[43:39 - 43:45] shit's getting a real fucking ugly for you real fucking fast boy it's gonna be so good for you sirex
[43:46 - 43:51] you only have that you only have a little bit more dancing to go and then we're in the clear
[43:51 - 43:57] yeah yeah for what a full hour fuck that i gave you two routines which is more than what you
[43:57 - 44:04] deserve well the deal is for 50 minutes i'm only going to call 30 nah we're doing it never a
[44:04 - 44:12] gang i gave you two routines i gave you two that's more than what your bitch ass deserves
[44:12 - 44:18] well then you don't deserve a knife fox and i i deserve everything that you stolen from a
[44:18 - 44:26] fat boy okay sirex ever know everything you have it should be going to me
[44:28 - 44:32] mom i earned that shit that you got but i have it
[44:33 - 44:46] no mom this can't wait what are you gonna tell her that you didn't dance for the read a period of time
[44:47 - 44:56] no i'm gonna tell her how you fucking bullied me and how you're extorting me motherfucker
[44:58 - 45:08] you're trying to fucking blackmail me blackmail exactly because i'm not doing what you want me to do
[45:08 - 45:16] you're trying to fuck with my shit that's blackmail and extortion might be one of the one of the two i
[45:16 - 45:22] don't know about blackmail oh trust me when i was saying that you're doing this shit it's gonna
[45:22 - 45:29] wait until it's serious trouble boy listen so danny can control why you shut the fuck up
[45:29 - 45:33] he can control where his package goes until you receive it and he changed his mind he
[45:33 - 45:47] decided to alter his plans that's how it works no it's not how it works that ain't how it works
[45:47 - 45:52] boy he's his mind just like you know i'm gonna keep calling you mom this can't be happening
[45:53 - 45:57] i'm not gonna sit here let him do this i need you to fucking say something
[45:59 - 46:05] no mom i need you to say something right now by the time you get home he's not gonna be on anything
[46:05 - 46:13] and i won't be able to get a hold of it i need you to say something no mom you don't he changed it up
[46:15 - 46:20] he should know mom he changed his number so that you can't get a hold of him
[46:21 - 46:29] i know for a fact he changed it no mom i need you to say something i got him right here i need
[46:30 - 46:41] mom i need you to fucking say something he's committing a crime no mom you won't you don't
[46:41 - 46:57] know where he's at you don't have his address she doesn't care oh she does she hates your ass
[46:58 - 47:11] he doesn't care she knows she knows what you are who knows what you are that's why she keeps hanging
[47:11 - 47:25] up on you just dance because you don't even pick up your calls anymore just dancing you can get an
[47:25 - 47:44] Xbox how about fuck you nigger boy what's she up to today that's none of your god damn business
[47:44 - 47:56] is a bitch me no i was just wondering this could be so simple yeah it could be something about you
[47:56 - 48:02] leaving my shit alone boy well it's being routed to me so i got so it's not i don't
[48:03 - 48:08] look at sure that shit um all right you don't understand how interceptions the factors work
[48:08 - 48:21] but oh i do okay so then you would know get a hold of somebody else and i know you can't fucking stand
[48:22 - 48:30] who's that oh you'll find out okay that should be good see the answer is it not i got a couple
[48:30 - 48:48] other people on back up um what are they gonna do oh trust me you'll find out boy all right so he's
[48:48 - 48:54] not there he's obviously out of friends with him that's fine yeah everyone ignores you no no no no no no no
[48:54 - 49:03] no one takes it seriously you shut your trap okay well we'll see about that just dance sir ex
[49:09 - 49:15] i'm legally coming out to you in any way that i can for that before it's not the wrong
[49:15 - 49:17] wow somebody so somebody blocked your number
[49:21 - 49:23] okay say so
[49:32 - 49:35] you know it's called random people that talk to marty
[49:40 - 49:53] it seems like i don't want to dance and that's why i'm not getting an xbox
[49:54 - 50:02] no i'm gonna i'm gonna call another buddy one hold up somebody that actually used to be a mod for me
[50:05 - 50:12] you still and actually it's going to be again here very soon oh okay what happened why'd you take
[50:12 - 50:21] it away from sounds like a rock boy i didn't take shit away yo tony what up bro hey need your help
[50:21 - 50:28] bro guess who should get yo guess who's trying to fucking intercept the package from me dude
[50:29 - 50:35] marty i got right here if you want to fucking say something dog hey tony how's it going
[50:45 - 50:51] you hear him laugh at you no he was laughing at your ass because you're a fucking joke okay
[50:52 - 50:56] all right uh he definitely seemed to be abused yeah
[51:05 - 51:11] well so you can make it ready yet why don't buddy yet i'll just call up your fucking
[51:11 - 51:19] girlfriend and tell her what's going on yeah i'm sure he's gonna pick up hey yo bye you better get
[51:19 - 51:24] your little bitch boyfriend nick he's trying to fucking intercept the package which in case you
[51:24 - 51:30] don't figure it out is a federal fucking crime so unless you want your boyfriend to be in fucking
[51:30 - 51:47] handcuffs i suggest you fucking do something about this little bitch let's call anybody let's
[51:47 - 51:56] call up let's see how about how about how about how about how about how about how about how about
[51:56 - 52:04] your old friend schmechel okay sure how i call your old friend schmechel whom you can't stand
[52:05 - 52:16] i mean all right look a little desperate here syriacs no i'm not desperate i'm not worried at all
[52:16 - 52:23] but you should be why don't you just dance how i screw you how about no xbox how i kiss my ass
[52:23 - 52:34] bend a hoe how about whatever uh you know i don't excuse me so what is the fucking list
[52:35 - 52:54] sure yeah buddy how would i call your mom's okay go for it when they listen don't hang up please i
[52:54 - 52:59] need to talk to you it's important your son nick is planning on intercepting a package that's meant
[52:59 - 53:06] for me and in case you haven't been aware that is actually a federal fucking crime and i have proof
[53:06 - 53:11] that he is planning on doing this is there any way that you could think of fucking stopping because
[53:11 - 53:17] what he's doing is a federal fucking crime this will be the second time that he's done this to me
[53:29 - 53:36] an xbox series that's that a friend of mine was sending me because your son nick decided to have
[53:36 - 53:42] mine fucking break by a couple friends of his and if you don't know what breaking is it's
[53:42 - 53:49] basically what he did was he said that a couple usb sticks pretending that they were a jailbreak
[53:49 - 53:56] item to basically make it to where i wouldn't be allowed to play different games on all different
[53:56 - 54:03] systems right there on the xbox and he sent two usb sticks out through friends of his they pretended
[54:03 - 54:09] that they were like legitimate jailbreak things but instead it turned out to be a virus which
[54:09 - 54:17] completely destroyed my xbox and as a result it basically does not work anymore so a friend of mine
[54:17 - 54:25] for the netherlands was being nice to send out another way and he is that nick is actually
[54:25 - 54:30] trying to intercept it a matter of fact i got him on matter of fact if you go to his last year
[54:30 - 54:35] right now he is live right now matter of fact i got him right here if you'd like to speak to
[54:36 - 54:50] hi mom how's it going hello i want you to fucking say something and stop because if you don't your
[54:50 - 54:56] son's gonna end up in federal prison and i don't and honestly i don't want to see that for you
[54:56 - 55:02] because trust me when i say i know what it's like because at one point like i said i did go to jail
[55:02 - 55:09] at one point so i would understand the feeling very well of what it's like to have a son behind
[55:09 - 55:15] bars because at one point that was me and looking from the outside in i don't want that for you i don't
[55:15 - 55:21] think you want to see because you're somehow in bars do you you don't want to see that man on bars
[55:21 - 55:32] through you and so do i and the only way that's and the only and the only way and the only way
[55:32 - 55:36] that's the only way that's gonna be over is if you fucking stand down then stop him all right
[55:36 - 55:46] otherwise i will keep calling now you see how fucking serious i am nick i'm not playing boy
[55:46 - 55:56] do you think you're amusing it's not amusing kind of is no it's not well i i promise you
[55:57 - 56:05] so fucking help me god i ain't gonna come after you one way or another you saw how serious i was
[56:05 - 56:13] i called the pd i called the fbi i called up a whole bunch of motherfuckers that hate you so don't
[56:13 - 56:20] sit there and say that i didn't do shit you didn't dance because if i find out that you're an
[56:20 - 56:28] accepting package i am gonna come after you i'm done with you nick i'm done no i'm done with you
[56:28 - 56:38] fucking i'm done with you pushing me around boy i'm done i'm not your fucking monkey i'm not your
[56:38 - 56:46] fucking pet i'm not your anything if anything you're a fucking piece of shit and trust me when i say
[56:46 - 56:52] nick i am coming for you best believe that well you're not getting your xbox then sorry that's
[56:52 - 57:05] just just wait and watch okay well hey one second no mom i'm not going to federal prison he is
[57:05 - 57:16] out of his mind and i'm seemingly high on drugs man he was so happy dancing it's like
[57:17 - 57:22] why doesn't he do this why doesn't he do this more often he's good at it it's maybe like the
[57:22 - 57:26] one thing that he's good at mom says good guess what does he want he keeps calling me
[57:27 - 57:41] he is an insane person who is mad that his toy broke yeah i think there's a misunderstanding on 15 and 50
[57:45 - 57:51] right now this is not coming from me this is coming from my mom's she said for you to right now to
[57:51 - 57:56] fucking call her she wants to fucking talk to you right now i don't have a number
[57:57 - 58:02] yeah you do you know her fucking number put in the private chat i don't have it
[58:08 - 58:29] sure and people are loving the dancing i gotta tell you you're good you still got it okay we'll give
[58:29 - 58:44] her a call right now i don't know what i don't know okay see i can be reasonable i mean if she's there
[58:44 - 58:52] i'd rather just talk to her like i don't know if she's gonna bring it closer he's gonna just talk
[58:56 - 59:01] can she come to the door she's busy right now she can't okay
[59:04 - 59:16] go ahead call her yeah i'm calling her voicemail go ahead and try again she'll answer okay
[59:19 - 59:28] still got it syrax yeah i might just be easier to get her
[59:28 - 59:37] no
[59:45 - 59:51] i wonder if sally dances i don't know if it's something that's like passed down from generations
[59:52 - 60:12] all right so someone's going out of their phone i need your fucking number hold on
[60:12 - 60:16] okay here sure let me get you a text no number here
[60:16 - 60:22] no i want your actual number where she can actually reach you yeah sure she can reach
[60:22 - 60:32] me on this number sure it's uh it's three three all seven eight seven eight nine five eight
[60:32 - 61:23] five eight six zero all right okay sounds good man he can move he's still got it man i can't
[61:23 - 61:36] he can move right she's going here right now right hey sally yeah i was going it's me marty
[61:39 - 61:50] how are you doing today yeah well he's he's up to like a lot of weird shenanigans no i'm not
[61:50 - 61:56] marty that's you you know you're the one trying to intercept half of you marty like the stuff
[61:59 - 62:06] he threatens me like all day all my he doesn't what you fucking do to me nick admit it
[62:09 - 62:12] well i mean should i take him seriously or is he just all talk
[62:19 - 62:24] yeah i suppose um and nick what i want to know is why you feel like you have to
[62:24 - 62:29] fucking intercept the package that fucking belongs to me dude here he talks to me sometimes
[62:29 - 62:34] like he's just so disrespectful because you're a piece of shit marty and everyone knows it
[62:36 - 62:44] stop playing games dude he makes like he makes things stop playing fucking games marty tell
[62:44 - 62:48] no tell her the fucking truth about how you're trying to intercept the package
[62:48 - 62:53] that's supposed to be wrong i'm gonna hang up all right i'm sorry sally he's he's out of his mind
[62:53 - 62:58] sometimes but i don't know how you deal with him all right bye bye
[63:49 - 63:53] see what you're doing chance she's calling you back right the fuck now to kick front your ass
[63:54 - 63:55] sounds like she's sick of you
[64:13 - 64:30] well tell her the truth 100 i think she's cutting off your internet a behave chance okay just be a
[64:30 - 64:37] good boy for once in your life why are you fucking not to worry about yourself and it's it's it's off to
[64:37 - 64:48] a bad start here it's off to a bad start can't you just leave me alone dude make a little chop
[64:48 - 64:58] can't you just fucking do that just just why can't you just leave me alone man why why why can't you
[64:58 - 65:06] dance why can't you just leave me alone you're so good at dancing why can't you
[65:09 - 65:13] i don't know her and i seem to be getting along just fine it seems to be you that's the problem
[65:24 - 65:25] i'm telling her the truth
[65:26 - 65:29] or not you're not telling her about how you're trying to intercept the package are you
[65:31 - 65:34] i will tell her if you can behave yourself and we can have a conversation
[65:35 - 65:41] now you know what i've got one even better for you okay i want you to look i want you to look
[65:41 - 65:46] right here in this fucking camera and tell the whole world how you're trying to fucking
[65:46 - 65:51] intercept the package that belongs to me go ahead nick tell the world how you're trying to
[65:51 - 65:58] intercept the package from me are you not well people who send people who send packages
[65:58 - 66:05] up until the person receives them can determine the destination on that package and may have
[66:05 - 66:11] been influential in the package being rerouted tell the truth about how you're trying to
[66:11 - 66:18] fucking intercept it are you not what was i can't i don't have that power i don't have that
[66:19 - 66:24] i don't have that don't lie yes you do why don't you tell them about how you're trying to make me
[66:24 - 66:30] dance in order to get what i deserve why don't you tell them about how you're trying to force me
[66:30 - 66:35] to dance to get a package that's rightfully mine to begin with why don't you tell them the truth nick
[66:37 - 66:43] well why don't you just dance then and get it why should i dance to get something that's
[66:43 - 66:50] rightfully mine why and it seems like a listen dancing for 50 minutes
[66:54 - 67:03] so you're basically right you're basically trying to kill me a crime is that what you're telling me
[67:03 - 67:11] about the jail for a king of crime is that what you're saying no what i'm saying is that i think
[67:11 - 67:18] that dancing for 50 minutes to get an xbox it's a very reasonable request like if somebody if somebody
[67:18 - 67:23] told me that i could dance for 50 minutes and get a 400 dollar piece of equipment that i wanted i would
[67:23 - 67:28] just do it personally i wouldn't even ask any questions i should be like yeah oh yeah yeah we
[67:28 - 67:38] know what i'm not you motherfucker i'm not sure i'm not a scumbag like you sure you are so i
[67:38 - 67:44] why why don't you why don't you say that again they really really you know hey
[67:45 - 68:09] has the FBI gotten back to you yet you know what is going on in this household
[68:12 - 69:32] she's got to be so sick of his shit okay um yeah so like the amount of threats that the
[69:32 - 69:38] i know they're just words um but he's he's talking with this guy i don't know if you know the name
[69:38 - 69:48] michael hacking i don't know if he's told you about him yeah do you ever get tired of his crap
[69:54 - 70:02] i understand you do realize if you intercept something that's illegal well no here's how it
[70:02 - 70:09] works is up until somebody receives a package they have the option to reroute it to put an
[70:09 - 70:13] intercept on it and then they usually get it rerouted back to where it came from
[70:14 - 70:18] but there's nothing illegal about that like whoever sends the package can make that decision
[70:19 - 70:32] on their own like nobody can do that but the person sending it well um the first xbox
[70:33 - 70:40] the person realized that your son has made like a lot of very questionable decisions and actions
[70:40 - 70:49] some of them involving children um i i guess they just saw him for who he is or at least how
[70:49 - 70:55] he portrays himself as i know it's a difficult thing to hear that your you know grandson is
[70:55 - 71:03] a monster but that's just their opinion they they okay well it seems that the cool xbox guy
[71:04 - 71:11] had a change of heart on that one like i i know you don't pay attention to all this stuff but like
[71:11 - 71:18] there's a lot of things that he's done that would indicate a lot of people to believe that he is
[71:18 - 71:25] and it might be uncomfortable to hear but i don't know if you send your penis to what you think
[71:25 - 71:52] is a 14 year old girl i would say that he aren't definitely on that spectrum if not well yeah um i
[71:52 - 71:58] guess in ohio there's no statute unless there's an actual victim like they don't do these types of
[71:58 - 72:08] sting operations um you know and that's how it works um he's done all sorts of weird stuff too
[72:08 - 72:12] recently like he sent it was an adult woman at least what he thought was an adult woman
[72:12 - 72:17] like a video of himself like eating his own semen and doing like all types of nasty terrible stuff
[72:19 - 72:29] um i can i can like there's videos of it he puts it out there it's really weird okay um
[72:35 - 72:49] what do you mean so it's like fake semen or okay so it's like slight slate of hand
[72:53 - 73:00] probably okay well all right um yeah i don't know like he he does a whole bunch of like
[73:00 - 73:05] sexually deviant stuff and the guy just decided that he didn't want to support a sexual deviant and
[73:05 - 73:13] alleged pedophile and he had his package rerouted um you know like he made that determination on his
[73:13 - 73:19] own uh he evaluated your grandson's behavior and decided you know this isn't a guy that
[73:19 - 73:31] is deserving of a toy and that's you know that's his opinion i have nothing to do with that okay well
[73:31 - 73:38] then i'll make that correction i'm sorry for that um i guess he like shoved this stylus up his behind
[73:42 - 73:57] like it's all like he screams the the n word of people over and over and over again and people
[73:58 - 73:59] i know i know
[73:59 - 74:09] um you ever just feel like throwing your hands up with them like i i can only imagine like i don't
[74:09 - 74:15] have to live with them um it's nice being able to turn them on and turn them off when i please but
[74:15 - 74:42] after yeah um is it true that you had a stroke okay okay all right all right so that was like a
[74:42 - 74:56] genuine misunderstanding there i gotta ask and like if you're uncomfortable saying this you don't
[74:57 - 75:01] have to answer but it's like is is he on any kind of like drugs or anything like that
[75:05 - 75:12] are you sure okay because i know he said that he's gonna be on antibiotics for the next six months
[75:13 - 75:35] and i didn't know that they work like that okay is he on gabapentin first scalp
[75:37 - 76:06] do you know if the name of the medication is gabapentin yeah do you know the name of medication
[76:07 - 76:11] i don't know if that's too personal but like it seems to have a real effect on him like he's been
[76:11 - 76:16] drooling a lot he's in like a stupor a lot of the time the teams and i understand wanting to like
[76:17 - 76:26] calm him down a little bit if possible yeah he drools his beard i'm not making anything up
[76:28 - 76:45] all right so okay it's gonna come storming in here now you got that nick now leave me and my
[76:45 - 76:54] family and my shit alone no xbox no you don't talk to my mom's yeah be alone nick i explained it to her
[76:54 - 77:00] otherwise i'm coming after your ass legally motherfucker okay do whatever you gotta do man
[77:00 - 77:07] like fine good luck being fellas what'll fit your prison you fat okay i just want to watch him dance
[77:08 - 77:22] that's all i want to do that's the coup de gras right there boys and girls
[77:32 - 77:41] so good you still got it i thought he lost it with that beads foot you still got it
[77:42 - 77:49] dude it's really simple it's black and white tracks you want an xbox you got to dance
[77:49 - 77:54] you want it or don't you question is you want it or don't you
[77:54 - 78:01] i guess he doesn't want it whoa you fucking pieces i don't know what's going on
[78:02 - 78:08] now explain this again to me marty sure what wasn't that you first off cut that video off
[78:08 - 78:15] i wanted to just be me and you here for a sec you got what i want to know is this why is it
[78:15 - 78:20] that you feel like you have the right to do what you fucking do to me and attack me like you
[78:20 - 78:27] fucking do i'm not attacking you yes you are you're attacking me by trying to intercept the package
[78:27 - 78:32] when someone's trying to be nice to me when you're ripping me off what makes you think you have that
[78:32 - 78:41] right what's that picture literally fucking Naruto what did you or did you not sit there
[78:41 - 78:45] well what was what was the deal that you had to give me marty about the
[78:45 - 78:51] kid you kind of got my interest with something here what was it that you said about the xbox
[78:51 - 79:00] and dancing would you care to explain that again well yeah it's my belief that if you were to dance
[79:01 - 79:07] for 15 minutes that the person sending the xbox might have a change of heart if they saw you
[79:07 - 79:12] doing something that makes people happy as opposed to screaming the n-word and ripping your penis
[79:12 - 79:18] just a hunch no no no no i want you to say the exact thing that you said me
[79:19 - 79:24] feeling you're recording me right now i swear to god i'm not i just want to know the fucking truth
[79:24 - 79:29] dude i really do like did you not sit there and fucking say that if i didn't dance i wouldn't
[79:29 - 79:35] get in the xbox did you not say that i have a feeling that you're recording i'm not i swear to god
[79:35 - 79:41] nick you turn your camera unfortunately my camera's been acting weird all fucking day it's not
[79:41 - 79:48] it's been fine all day it's been fine all day so well yeah but dude my dude it's my fucking computer
[79:48 - 79:54] dude it's been acting weird all fucking day so because why did you let it the fuck out dude that's
[79:54 - 80:00] not part of the fucking question i want to know the real fucking truth dude did you or did you not
[80:01 - 80:05] sit there and tell me that if i did not dance that you were going to intercept the package
[80:05 - 80:13] did you or did you not do i need a lawyer for this no i just want the fucking truth did you not
[80:13 - 80:19] sit there and tell me that if i did not dance that you were going to intercept the package did you
[80:19 - 80:28] not hmm i'd be honest i'd be a lot more trusting they are nick i'll answer that question when you
[80:28 - 80:38] answer i write the fuck now answer me nick did you not sit there and fucking say that you were
[80:38 - 80:45] gonna intercept the package that belongs to me you fucking jerk what i don't recall oh yes you do
[80:45 - 80:51] don't play fuck as a matter of fact oh by the way nick i fucking lied to you i am recording and
[80:51 - 80:57] and i will be recording your fucking live stream where you fucking blackmailed me
[80:57 - 81:06] you piece of shit blackmail you know sarah's like thank me for getting him to dance and
[81:09 - 81:13] you're welcome sarah x i don't think you for dancing because it just puts a smile on everyone's
[81:13 - 81:16] face and makes their days just a little bit better