Candall on MBM Stream 2023-2-17

[0:00 - 0:06] My older brother was fucking gay. Hell, on horizon for-
[0:06 - 0:19] Peaceful Bucky? How are you doing today?
[0:19 - 0:22] I don't live in a purple.
[0:22 - 0:25] Okay. Are you in a wheelchair?
[0:25 - 0:30] Like, if that's a false accusation, think it's like-
[0:30 - 0:30] Can you show your life?
[0:30 - 0:32] Playing bed.
[0:32 - 0:36] You're in bed?
[0:36 - 0:39] On my bed.
[0:39 - 0:44] Your stuff's breaking up here.
[0:44 - 0:47] It's like a grunting out of your bed.
[0:47 - 0:51] Gigi says that's a van.
[0:51 - 0:54] He says that's a van.
[0:54 - 0:56] No.
[0:56 - 0:57] He says it's a van.
[0:57 - 0:59] It's not a van.
[0:59 - 1:03] Nope.
[1:03 - 1:07] Is the grunting man here?
[1:07 - 1:08] See?
[1:08 - 1:10] It's not a van.
[1:10 - 1:12] Is the grunting man here?
[1:12 - 1:14] No, he's not.
[1:14 - 1:16] Where's he at?
[1:16 - 1:18] At work.
[1:18 - 1:21] Okay. There you go.
[1:21 - 1:23] So it's out of your mind tonight.
[1:23 - 1:26] I would appreciate it if you would not call in that.
[1:26 - 1:29] Well, what's his name?
[1:29 - 1:31] I'll just put it this way.
[1:31 - 1:34] Our two men are.
[1:34 - 1:38] And it's pretty much the flag if you know what I'm getting at.
[1:38 - 1:41] Is this something pride thing?
[1:41 - 1:44] So what's out of your mind tonight?
[1:44 - 1:49] Honestly, I'm getting tired of you talking about me for one.
[1:49 - 1:53] I was even talking about you.
[1:53 - 1:55] I heard what you said a moment ago about me living in a car
[1:55 - 1:56] and whatnot.
[1:56 - 2:00] I only came here because I wanted to ask you something.
[2:00 - 2:02] Sure.
[2:02 - 2:04] I don't care if you're looking at my videos and shit.
[2:04 - 2:08] First of all, second of all, I'm going to put this out there.
[2:08 - 2:13] To all of you that sit there and think it's a joke,
[2:13 - 2:16] I'm seriously been dealing with a lot mentally
[2:16 - 2:19] and the trolling and abuse and all this other shit
[2:19 - 2:21] that y'all be doing.
[2:21 - 2:22] It doesn't help.
[2:22 - 2:27] And it really puts my mental ability to deal with life.
[2:27 - 2:33] Do you think that people go out of their way to bother you?
[2:33 - 2:35] Honestly, it bothers me that y'all
[2:35 - 2:37] like to talk shit about my dad.
[2:37 - 2:39] I saw the post.
[2:39 - 2:43] Nobody was talking.
[2:43 - 2:46] Nobody goes out of their way to bother you, though.
[2:46 - 2:51] No, there's a comment on William Gordon's video
[2:51 - 2:56] that I had to make to boldly put it.
[2:56 - 3:00] Y'all say that it should have been me, honestly.
[3:00 - 3:03] Yeah, sometimes I think it should have been me that died
[3:03 - 3:05] instead of my dad.
[3:05 - 3:06] But you know what?
[3:06 - 3:10] Honestly, I'm glad I'm still alive because I
[3:10 - 3:14] can't sit there and do the things that my dad didn't get to.
[3:14 - 3:19] Well, I will say that I'm glad you're alive, too, OK?
[3:19 - 3:22] I mean, my mental ability to handle life
[3:22 - 3:27] is calling a bottle without calling a morning.
[3:27 - 3:33] And to be honest, it really hurts that people want me dead.
[3:33 - 3:37] I really thought about it for a while.
[3:37 - 3:42] Well, do you want to have a piece, drink together?
[3:42 - 3:45] I don't know if you've got any handy.
[3:45 - 3:48] Right now, I'm trying to stay away from the alcohol.
[3:48 - 3:51] I'm trying.
[3:51 - 3:55] I'm going to try at least one day without alcohol.
[3:55 - 3:55] That's good.
[3:55 - 3:58] That's a good start.
[3:58 - 4:05] My dad used to be a beer drinker, and it's still kind of hurt.
[4:05 - 4:07] I used to watch him drink his life away
[4:07 - 4:14] after he stopped being a cop, and it's just been real help.
[4:14 - 4:18] He's a real cool man.
[4:18 - 4:21] You was a cop?
[4:21 - 4:22] Yeah.
[4:22 - 4:26] Well, I hope you don't take any offense to this.
[4:26 - 4:38] This is honest, but my father's father was a werewolf hunter.
[4:38 - 4:40] He wasn't like the top of his field,
[4:40 - 4:44] but he did work with Van Helsing sometimes.
[4:44 - 4:46] Not funny.
[4:46 - 4:48] Sorry, sorry.
[4:48 - 4:50] There's no such thing as werewolves.
[4:50 - 4:52] The only thing that is considered a werewolf
[4:52 - 4:57] is the disease that their face covered with all kinds of hair.
[4:57 - 5:00] That's what they used to call werewolves.
[5:00 - 5:06] And a little fun fact, that was in fact in 1555.
[5:06 - 5:07] In 1555?
[5:07 - 5:12] It was a disease called werewolfism.
[5:12 - 5:16] I actually did the study behind that whole what a werewolf was
[5:16 - 5:20] back in ancient days, I should say.
[5:20 - 5:22] But if you go and get a witchcraft book
[5:22 - 5:27] and actually study it, witches are only alchemists.
[5:27 - 5:30] And werewolves are just people with a very, very hair
[5:30 - 5:32] disorder.
[5:32 - 5:35] I don't know much about earlier stuff, but.
[5:35 - 5:38] Do you know much about witchcraft?
[5:38 - 5:40] Yeah.
[5:40 - 5:41] So what?
[5:41 - 5:42] I used to study it.
[5:42 - 5:43] I used to practice.
[5:45 - 5:46] Well, why'd you stop?
[5:46 - 5:47] I'm very single and nice, but I don't.
[5:47 - 5:49] Not anymore.
[5:49 - 5:51] Why'd you stop?
[5:51 - 5:56] Because I became pretty much a religion-less,
[5:56 - 5:58] if you want to say.
[5:58 - 6:02] I said there's too many religions out there to really,
[6:02 - 6:04] you know, try to pick one, because they're
[6:04 - 6:10] all the same technicality.
[6:10 - 6:12] Let's put it this way.
[6:12 - 6:18] Witchcraft is alchemy, and alchemy is a common-day science.
[6:18 - 6:20] Yeah.
[6:20 - 6:22] It was just before it's time that people
[6:22 - 6:29] were considering it witchcraft.
[6:29 - 6:33] It really was a touchy subject.
[6:33 - 6:35] Yeah, so I guess you're saying that there
[6:35 - 6:39] is one comment on William Gloryville's video that
[6:39 - 6:42] said that they wish you were dead?
[6:42 - 6:43] Yeah.
[6:43 - 6:46] Yeah, well, listen, I get harassed.
[6:46 - 6:48] My family gets harassed.
[6:48 - 6:52] My family gets slotted sometimes.
[6:52 - 6:54] That's what happens, I guess, when you stay on the internet.
[6:54 - 6:56] If that one comment bothers you,
[6:56 - 6:58] maybe it'd be best to stay away.
[6:58 - 6:59] I don't know.
[6:59 - 7:00] That's probably.
[7:00 - 7:04] Well, like I said, I'm only here to just ask a few questions
[7:04 - 7:09] and to put some things out that needed to be aired out,
[7:09 - 7:15] because mental health is a serious thing.
[7:15 - 7:19] I don't think you realize that.
[7:19 - 7:22] I do realize that.
[7:22 - 7:24] Then why do you try to pick on me?
[7:24 - 7:28] Like, dude, not cool.
[7:28 - 7:30] Listen, I honestly believe that you live in a car,
[7:30 - 7:32] because I've only heard you in a car before.
[7:32 - 7:36] Well, probably because I'm busy working on it 24-7,
[7:36 - 7:38] trying to get it roadworthy.
[7:38 - 7:40] Well, OK, so if every time you heard from somebody
[7:40 - 7:42] they were in a car, like, what would the naturally,
[7:42 - 7:45] or even on other people's streams,
[7:45 - 7:47] like, what would the natural assumption
[7:47 - 7:51] be that maybe this person lives in the car?
[7:51 - 7:52] There you go.
[7:52 - 7:56] That's exactly your problem there, and you assume.
[7:56 - 7:59] You don't ask, you assume, because hell,
[7:59 - 8:02] if I was living in my car, I'd go ahead and be proud of it,
[8:02 - 8:04] because at least I didn't have to pay a rent
[8:04 - 8:07] and stay around people that I don't like.
[8:07 - 8:09] That's true.
[8:09 - 8:11] I don't have to deal with a landlord that could possibly
[8:11 - 8:15] kick me out any time he fucking wants.
[8:15 - 8:17] That's something that I have to deal with, you know?
[8:17 - 8:19] Exactly.
[8:19 - 8:21] Yeah, you can smoke in your car.
[8:21 - 8:23] I can't smoke in my apartment.
[8:23 - 8:28] Like, it seems like almost a good fit.
[8:28 - 8:31] Now, people that live in cars, I actually know a couple.
[8:31 - 8:33] And one is a really cool old dude that's
[8:33 - 8:36] been helping me a lot.
[8:36 - 8:39] And I assume why he didn't like living in an apartment
[8:39 - 8:41] or anything.
[8:41 - 8:43] He says he doesn't like people.
[8:43 - 8:47] And he doesn't want to be around negativity.
[8:47 - 8:52] He likes to be able to move whenever he needs to.
[8:52 - 8:56] And I can see where to relate to that.
[8:56 - 8:58] I used to be transient.
[8:58 - 9:01] I used to constantly live in my car
[9:01 - 9:04] because of some of the circumstances I was going through.
[9:04 - 9:07] But honestly, sometimes we need people.
[9:08 - 9:10] Hmm.
[9:10 - 9:15] Sometimes we need someone else to cry on.
[9:15 - 9:21] I'm guessing it's not a full moon tonight.
[9:21 - 9:23] I don't care if it is.
[9:23 - 9:28] Well, I know that it isn't because if it was a full moon,
[9:28 - 9:31] you would be in wolf form right now.
[9:31 - 9:32] I am not a werewolf.
[9:32 - 9:35] Oh my god, stop picking on me, bro.
[9:35 - 9:36] OK.
[9:36 - 9:40] This is truthful and honest and heartfelt right here, man.
[9:40 - 9:42] I'm trying to be truthful with you.
[9:42 - 9:44] It honestly is disrespectful.
[9:44 - 9:47] I'm not trying to tell you what you can and can't use
[9:47 - 9:50] on your live streams or whatever.
[9:50 - 9:51] Yeah.
[9:51 - 9:56] Dude, why are you giving this to me?
[9:56 - 9:57] I've heard they were werewolves.
[9:57 - 10:00] That's the one thing that I've heard over and over and over
[10:00 - 10:01] about you.
[10:01 - 10:03] I'm not a werewolf.
[10:03 - 10:04] OK.
[10:04 - 10:07] I am 100% human.
[10:07 - 10:09] Sad to say that.
[10:09 - 10:12] I hate to identify as a human for one reason.
[10:12 - 10:13] Humans are flawed.
[10:13 - 10:17] We all have our issues.
[10:17 - 10:19] That's true.
[10:19 - 10:22] Are werewolves not flawed, though?
[10:22 - 10:23] I don't know.
[10:23 - 10:25] They don't exist, so I don't know.
[10:25 - 10:28] If you ever saw the movie Teen Wolf,
[10:28 - 10:33] sometimes when the full moon was out, like Michael J. Fox,
[10:33 - 10:35] you would have a little bit too much of a temper.
[10:35 - 10:38] You'd be a little hot under the collar.
[10:38 - 10:41] So I think that all living beings are flawed.
[10:41 - 10:43] I don't know anything about that,
[10:43 - 10:48] but that's all movie make up bullshit.
[10:48 - 10:51] I don't know.
[10:51 - 10:56] I feel that people that believe that type of thing
[10:56 - 10:58] do have issues.
[10:58 - 11:00] I never thought I was a werewolf.
[11:00 - 11:02] I said I was a werewolf furry at one point
[11:02 - 11:05] when I went through my phase of the furries.
[11:05 - 11:07] That was a dumb one.
[11:07 - 11:10] That only lasted about a month or two.
[11:10 - 11:13] All right.
[11:13 - 11:17] What life is a furry consist of?
[11:17 - 11:20] I'm going to conventions, just dressing up
[11:20 - 11:22] in a little costume once in a while,
[11:22 - 11:26] and getting to be yourself without letting people
[11:26 - 11:29] see who you really are.
[11:29 - 11:31] Was it a sexual?
[11:31 - 11:34] No, not all furries are sexual.
[11:34 - 11:37] There are some that are literally anti-sexual.
[11:37 - 11:40] Hmm.
[11:40 - 11:42] I know quite a few.
[11:42 - 11:45] Did you ever know Vati?
[11:45 - 11:47] Of course I knew Vati.
[11:47 - 11:48] You knew Vati?
[11:48 - 11:51] I don't know.
[11:51 - 11:54] I wonder whatever happened to him.
[11:54 - 11:59] He is working on a My Little Pony video game,
[11:59 - 12:05] and he's working on his album, I guess.
[12:05 - 12:09] Vati is one of my all-time favorites.
[12:09 - 12:12] I actually know his real name, but...
[12:12 - 12:15] Is it James Brown?
[12:15 - 12:17] No, I think it's something else.
[12:17 - 12:18] James, something else.
[12:18 - 12:23] Last name is not correct.
[12:23 - 12:27] But he's a cool guy.
[12:27 - 12:29] He can be.
[12:29 - 12:32] Yeah, yeah, I agree.
[12:32 - 12:35] I don't heard from him in quite a time.
[12:35 - 12:38] I got to say, and this is honestly truthful,
[12:38 - 12:40] and heartfelt.
[12:40 - 12:42] You knew Heather in real life, right?
[12:42 - 12:44] You guys spent a lot of time together.
[12:44 - 12:47] You were in the same town.
[12:47 - 12:49] Or am I mistaken?
[12:49 - 12:53] I've never been to Illinois.
[12:53 - 12:54] What was that?
[12:54 - 12:56] I've never been to Illinois.
[12:56 - 12:58] I've never been to Illinois.
[12:58 - 13:04] No, like Heather, Heather Crow.
[13:04 - 13:06] What about her?
[13:06 - 13:09] Yeah, I got to say, when she passed,
[13:09 - 13:13] you seemed to be almost happy that she was gone.
[13:13 - 13:16] Well, no, I was hiding the fact that I was really hurting
[13:16 - 13:19] because of some of the things she's under me.
[13:19 - 13:23] She wasn't all there, and honestly, the way she passed,
[13:23 - 13:26] and I found out how she passed.
[13:26 - 13:29] And it kind of hurt.
[13:29 - 13:31] Well, how'd she pass?
[13:31 - 13:35] Well, she passed away with a heart attack,
[13:35 - 13:41] and it was caused by depression and distress.
[13:41 - 13:43] She was eating so much that she ended up
[13:43 - 13:47] getting too much weight around her heart,
[13:47 - 13:50] and it really took her life.
[13:50 - 13:55] She was just there one minute, and then she's gone.
[13:55 - 13:59] Yeah, I mean, you and Chance and the boogeyman
[13:59 - 14:03] almost seemed like joyous, and it was kind of messed up.
[14:03 - 14:07] I was excited to find out that I was hoping, more or less,
[14:07 - 14:11] that she was just faking it.
[14:11 - 14:13] I really was hoping to draw her out
[14:13 - 14:17] as she was faking, and I just wanted to confront her
[14:17 - 14:20] and tell her I really felt after all the years
[14:20 - 14:26] that she's flip-flopped between me and a few other people.
[14:26 - 14:30] She used to live with me and not going to lie.
[14:30 - 14:35] She had some mental issues, and I kind of paid her.
[14:35 - 14:40] But there's reasons that I kicked her out,
[14:40 - 14:45] and I ended up losing that place because of her.
[14:45 - 14:49] She did some things that weren't okay.
[14:49 - 14:51] Yeah, but I feel like a laugh about it,
[14:51 - 14:54] especially so soon after finding out she passed.
[14:54 - 14:58] I think I honestly said I didn't think she actually did pass.
[14:58 - 15:01] And for that, I honestly do feel bad.
[15:01 - 15:09] But Heather had issues, but she wasn't all bad.
[15:09 - 15:11] I tried to protect her for so many years,
[15:11 - 15:19] and well, she never listened to me.
[15:19 - 15:23] I tried to tell her not to go with chance,
[15:23 - 15:28] and I tried to tell her that she's better off at home,
[15:28 - 15:33] taking care of her kids, and to not be in the drama.
[15:33 - 15:35] Then she started launching attacks after me
[15:35 - 15:39] when I was just trying to help.
[15:39 - 15:43] While I was in my suicide, if y'all want to call it,
[15:43 - 15:45] honestly, a piece of me did die.
[15:45 - 15:48] That's sad part.
[15:48 - 15:51] What, when you were saying when you faked your death?
[15:51 - 15:53] Yeah.
[15:53 - 15:54] Yeah, I never understood that.
[15:54 - 15:56] Like, what was the goal of that?
[15:58 - 16:01] To get away from bullying and the harassment of chance.
[16:01 - 16:05] I got homeless several times because of him.
[16:05 - 16:06] Chance? You know?
[16:06 - 16:09] How he, Chance got you kicked out on the street?
[16:09 - 16:11] Yeah, a lot.
[16:11 - 16:15] Hmm, how did he do that?
[16:15 - 16:19] Well, when I lived in Mississippi
[16:19 - 16:24] at my old landlord's house, Brandon,
[16:24 - 16:26] he called my landlord somehow, got ahold of him,
[16:26 - 16:28] I guess, stalking, like usual.
[16:33 - 16:39] From what my landlord told me is my crazy ex,
[16:39 - 16:44] or ex-friend, whatever, was talking to him.
[16:44 - 16:46] I was like, oh, that's weird.
[16:46 - 16:50] Ooh, and he told me, Chance was the guy
[16:50 - 16:54] that he was talking to.
[16:54 - 16:58] Hmm, I don't think he can get evicted
[16:58 - 17:01] because of what Syracs are.
[17:01 - 17:03] You'll see why I said this.
[17:03 - 17:04] Okay.
[17:04 - 17:07] I was sitting there in my little tiny home
[17:07 - 17:09] all by myself, didn't have anyone.
[17:10 - 17:15] The constant threats that he was giving me
[17:15 - 17:17] when my landlord saw it on my post,
[17:17 - 17:19] he asked me about him.
[17:19 - 17:22] I said, that's the guy that you talked to,
[17:22 - 17:26] and he is not okay.
[17:26 - 17:28] And he Chance started telling people
[17:28 - 17:30] that I was doing drugs and all kinds of stuff.
[17:30 - 17:32] That's not true.
[17:32 - 17:34] I'm a daughter of ex law enforcement.
[17:34 - 17:36] My dad ever caught me doing that,
[17:36 - 17:39] or even thought I was doing that, he would kill me.
[17:39 - 17:42] Never done a drug a day in your life?
[17:42 - 17:46] Nope, never will.
[17:46 - 17:48] And if you're wondering why my teeth are so fucked up,
[17:48 - 17:51] it's actually kind of stupid.
[17:52 - 17:55] They tell you, okay, most dentists won't tell you.
[17:55 - 17:56] You're supposed to change your six,
[17:56 - 18:01] you're filling every six years, okay?
[18:01 - 18:03] Diane, my adopted mother, did not.
[18:03 - 18:06] And she was my payee at the time.
[18:06 - 18:09] So she had control of my money.
[18:09 - 18:14] And I still haven't found a dentist I can trust either.
[18:14 - 18:16] I'm still working on it.
[18:16 - 18:17] Now that I've got insurance,
[18:17 - 18:19] it's gonna help me get my teeth fixed.
[18:19 - 18:21] I'm hopefully gonna have a smile again.
[18:22 - 18:24] And I've been scared to smile a long time,
[18:26 - 18:28] just because of it.
[18:28 - 18:31] People used to judge me and say that I was a drughead
[18:31 - 18:36] for one reason, my bad teeth.
[18:36 - 18:41] Okay, huh, I'm all right.
[18:41 - 18:43] You need to know the secret.
[18:43 - 18:44] My teeth actually were not rotten
[18:44 - 18:46] just from the silver fillings.
[18:46 - 18:50] I'm allergic to silver, the filling that they put in there,
[18:50 - 18:52] the material isn't just silver,
[18:52 - 18:55] it's something, some sort of mixture.
[18:55 - 18:58] And it eroded my teeth and just ruined them.
[18:59 - 19:03] Well, personally, I don't believe that you're a drughead,
[19:03 - 19:04] but there's a lot of people that do,
[19:04 - 19:07] maybe there's a lot of people who just
[19:07 - 19:09] aren't stating an opinion.
[19:09 - 19:13] I'm gonna put up a poll here, but my vote is no,
[19:13 - 19:15] personally, is candle a drughead?
[19:15 - 19:17] And I don't believe that you are.
[19:18 - 19:19] I've never been drugged.
[19:21 - 19:24] An herb, which is, I want, is not even a drug.
[19:24 - 19:27] It's, if you wanna do a whole religious view on it, I can.
[19:30 - 19:33] God put every seed, plant, and herb
[19:33 - 19:35] on this planet for mankind.
[19:35 - 19:41] It is actually written down in the Bible, so.
[19:41 - 19:44] So for whatever reason, through 81 votes,
[19:44 - 19:48] through 83 votes, 88% say that you're a drughead
[19:48 - 19:52] and I don't, I can't speak for.
[19:52 - 19:54] Well, they can think what they want.
[19:54 - 19:59] I've never done drugs, never will.
[19:59 - 20:03] My dad is for the fact that my dad would have killed me.
[20:04 - 20:07] And honestly, I just didn't believe him doing them.
[20:08 - 20:10] I saw a lot of people doing them growing up
[20:10 - 20:12] and I refused.
[20:12 - 20:14] Well, now that he's passed,
[20:14 - 20:15] now that he's passed,
[20:15 - 20:19] do you almost feel like you have the green light?
[20:19 - 20:20] No.
[20:21 - 20:22] I still honor him for it.
[20:24 - 20:25] The only medicines that I take,
[20:25 - 20:29] or what you call drugs, is prescribed.
[20:29 - 20:30] And even then, I'm reluctant.
[20:34 - 20:36] I'm gonna be honest with you,
[20:36 - 20:39] only medicines I'm actually prescribed right now,
[20:40 - 20:42] and I actually kind of refuse to take them
[20:42 - 20:46] unless I have to, is my sleep aids.
[20:47 - 20:48] What do you take for sleep?
[20:50 - 20:56] I take, they've got a special type of Z-Qual that I'm on.
[20:57 - 20:58] And...
[20:58 - 20:59] Z-Qual?
[20:59 - 21:01] It's a type of Z-Qual, it's so...
[21:03 - 21:04] I've never heard of it.
[21:04 - 21:06] Not a liquid, it's a pill.
[21:06 - 21:08] It's, I can't remember the name of it.
[21:08 - 21:10] I'd have to look it up again.
[21:10 - 21:12] I gotta find the pill bottle when I'm taking it.
[21:15 - 21:18] I have my anti-depressants,
[21:18 - 21:24] which is, you know, normal to have, depression.
[21:24 - 21:27] Yeah.
[21:27 - 21:31] Especially after losing someone.
[21:31 - 21:33] Yeah, it's probably good to get on that.
[21:35 - 21:39] And another thing, y'all can see I'm gonna drug it all you want.
[21:39 - 21:43] It doesn't change the fact that I'm not.
[21:43 - 21:49] No, there's a bunch of, there's a bunch of haters.
[21:49 - 21:52] Haters gonna hate, that's all there is to it.
[21:52 - 21:55] That's what they do.
[21:55 - 21:57] And I know, in fact, Marty,
[21:57 - 22:00] that you're probably enjoying this.
[22:01 - 22:04] I'm actually not, to be honest with you.
[22:05 - 22:07] Like, I'm just trying to figure out,
[22:07 - 22:09] like, what it is that you want.
[22:09 - 22:10] If you're gonna complain about people,
[22:10 - 22:12] like, saying negative things about you,
[22:12 - 22:14] and you generally not understand that.
[22:14 - 22:17] Like, that's the nature of this environment.
[22:17 - 22:17] So it's kind of...
[22:17 - 22:20] No, I don't want to understand it.
[22:20 - 22:22] It's the fact that I just wanted to bring it up
[22:23 - 22:27] and give my personal opinion and my personal feelings on it.
[22:27 - 22:31] Because honestly, sometimes it's best to talk about it.
[22:31 - 22:32] Talk about what?
[22:32 - 22:34] I'm not even entirely sure.
[22:34 - 22:35] Your feelings.
[22:35 - 22:38] Feelings is sometimes just best to bare mouth.
[22:41 - 22:43] Not around here, it is, isn't it?
[22:43 - 22:46] Well, honestly, I don't care who hears it.
[22:47 - 22:50] I'm just tired of getting everything hidden.
[22:50 - 22:52] Then I don't know if you can complain,
[22:52 - 22:56] like, if people say comments they won't like,
[22:56 - 23:01] knowing that this is the environment.
[23:01 - 23:03] So what if I don't like it?
[23:03 - 23:08] It's okay, it's his opinion, or her opinion, whoever.
[23:08 - 23:09] All right.
[23:09 - 23:12] And honestly, I don't see any problem with it.
[23:12 - 23:16] I just, I would say, hey, you know, I agree with you.
[23:16 - 23:19] I kind of wish it was me too, but then again,
[23:20 - 23:21] he was 75 years old.
[23:21 - 23:24] He wasn't gonna be able to do the things he wanted.
[23:24 - 23:28] So I guess it's my turn to do the things he wanted for him
[23:29 - 23:30] in his honor, you know?
[23:35 - 23:36] You're right.
[23:37 - 23:41] I mean, yeah, there's times that I wanted to just end it all
[23:41 - 23:43] with all the stress and drama.
[23:43 - 23:44] Then I think about my dad now.
[23:45 - 23:50] And it's just like, why?
[23:50 - 23:52] Why should end my life?
[23:52 - 23:53] My life is too precious.
[23:54 - 23:57] Hmm.
[23:57 - 24:02] I mean, yeah, I get to like shit 24 seven,
[24:02 - 24:05] but honestly, who cares?
[24:05 - 24:09] That's life.
[24:09 - 24:11] I think really hard about my dad
[24:11 - 24:15] and some of the things he said to me,
[24:15 - 24:18] he's a really cool guy.
[24:18 - 24:20] My dad did good things for me,
[24:20 - 24:24] even though he wasn't, you know, always there for me.
[24:25 - 24:27] I actually spoke with him once.
[24:28 - 24:30] How?
[24:30 - 24:31] Tracy, right?
[24:34 - 24:37] Yeah, I was back when like he faked your death.
[24:37 - 24:38] I did a little bit of digging.
[24:38 - 24:42] So I was like, this seems kind of less than legitimate.
[24:42 - 24:45] And I called him up and I asked him like,
[24:45 - 24:47] okay, can I talk?
[24:47 - 24:49] Can I talk to candle?
[24:49 - 24:51] He was like, who is this?
[24:51 - 24:55] And I'm like, my name is Marty, which it's not.
[24:55 - 24:56] We both know that it's not.
[24:57 - 25:01] But he was like, well, she's actually not here right now.
[25:01 - 25:02] But I can relay your number.
[25:02 - 25:04] I'm like, that's pretty weird to say
[25:04 - 25:06] if somebody who's dead, you know,
[25:06 - 25:09] like it's not a natural response
[25:09 - 25:10] of a father whose daughter died.
[25:10 - 25:13] So, yeah, I spoke with him once.
[25:13 - 25:15] Yeah, I know he told me.
[25:15 - 25:18] Yeah, he said you were a drughead.
[25:18 - 25:20] No, he didn't.
[25:20 - 25:22] Yes, he did.
[25:22 - 25:22] No, he didn't.
[25:22 - 25:23] You want to lie?
[25:23 - 25:24] I know that.
[25:24 - 25:27] How's that?
[25:27 - 25:30] I was listening.
[25:30 - 25:32] Well, then you would know that I talked to him.
[25:33 - 25:35] Yeah.
[25:35 - 25:37] How are you listening?
[25:37 - 25:41] You do realize there's more than one line in the house.
[25:41 - 25:42] Well, but I don't,
[25:44 - 25:46] he must not be recalling properly
[25:46 - 25:49] because he definitely said that you were a drughead.
[25:49 - 25:51] My dad has never called me a drughead.
[25:53 - 25:54] He did that day.
[25:54 - 25:55] And I got to tell you this too.
[25:55 - 25:56] And he might not like what I'm about to say.
[25:56 - 26:00] So just cool your jets, breathe in, breathe out.
[26:00 - 26:03] I know you're telling Marty.
[26:03 - 26:06] Well, I think that you guys played
[26:06 - 26:08] these little fake guts together.
[26:08 - 26:09] And I think that he's still alive.
[26:09 - 26:12] And that's honestly what I believe.
[26:12 - 26:13] Think what you want.
[26:13 - 26:13] He's dead.
[26:15 - 26:16] Think what you think.
[26:16 - 26:18] Know what you know.
[26:18 - 26:19] I know he's dead.
[26:19 - 26:21] I was on the phone when he died.
[26:21 - 26:25] And I was there on the phone when the corner got him.
[26:25 - 26:27] I thought you said he died in your arms.
[26:27 - 26:28] No, I did not.
[26:28 - 26:30] I said he was on the phone.
[26:34 - 26:35] I know what I said, Marty.
[26:35 - 26:36] Don't try to twist it.
[26:38 - 26:40] You're not as smart as you think you are.
[26:40 - 26:43] I don't think I'm smart at all, but I know what I know.
[26:44 - 26:46] I said he was on the phone.
[26:48 - 26:49] And in fact, how about this?
[26:49 - 26:56] I tell everyone how he died.
[26:56 - 26:59] And I'm gonna do it for years this time.
[26:59 - 27:05] Because I've accepted the truth of everything.
[27:05 - 27:06] Yeah.
[27:06 - 27:09] My dad and I were talking,
[27:10 - 27:18] trying to get my car out of the impound.
[27:18 - 27:20] One minute later, because he hasn't called me back
[27:20 - 27:25] because he said he would, he always does.
[27:25 - 27:26] I'm on the phone with him.
[27:26 - 27:30] And all I hear is him slowly fading off.
[27:30 - 27:32] Like he's just not there.
[27:32 - 27:33] Like he's rambling.
[27:34 - 27:38] And I'm like, dad, are you okay?
[27:38 - 27:39] Dad.
[27:39 - 27:40] Dad.
[27:40 - 27:42] And he kept screaming.
[27:42 - 27:44] Because I was trying to figure out what's going on.
[27:44 - 27:49] What day did he die and what day was he buried?
[27:49 - 27:52] He died 1.31.
[27:52 - 27:54] 2023.
[27:54 - 27:57] And he was buried one.
[27:57 - 27:59] Or as I'm aware of, he wasn't buried.
[27:59 - 28:00] He was cremated.
[28:01 - 28:02] Okay.
[28:03 - 28:05] My adult mother has his ashes.
[28:10 - 28:15] And I'm not gonna lie to you, it hurts.
[28:16 - 28:19] It really does.
[28:19 - 28:24] That man was more manly than I've ever known him to be.
[28:24 - 28:28] And I kind of figured the day that he was dying,
[28:28 - 28:31] I just had this, I don't know, weird feeling
[28:31 - 28:33] that he was dying.
[28:33 - 28:38] So since Christmas of last year,
[28:38 - 28:43] I tried calling every day and I couldn't get ahold of him.
[28:43 - 28:45] And I started realizing that he was getting
[28:45 - 28:50] more and more distant, which was definitely not his MO.
[28:52 - 28:57] That was not his usual at all.
[28:57 - 28:59] And he didn't even tell me Merry Christmas
[28:59 - 29:04] or Happy Holidays, nothing.
[29:04 - 29:07] He just completely ghosted me on Christmas.
[29:07 - 29:09] He was more manly than he ever knew him to be.
[29:09 - 29:13] Like, what does that mean?
[29:13 - 29:15] He was too scared to stand up to his wife.
[29:18 - 29:19] I usually took the front four,
[29:19 - 29:25] so she would hit me in the process of trying to hit him.
[29:25 - 29:28] There was a lot of time for abuse by her.
[29:28 - 29:31] There's some people who don't believe
[29:31 - 29:33] that you're actually in a wheelchair.
[29:33 - 29:36] Like, can you prove them wrong really quickly?
[29:36 - 29:38] No, because I can't get up.
[29:38 - 29:40] Right now, I'm currently sitting
[29:40 - 29:43] and I don't have my cane, so no.
[29:43 - 29:46] So shouldn't you have your wheelchair nearby then?
[29:46 - 29:49] Like, did you wheel over to the bed and hop out of it or?
[29:49 - 29:52] No, that's not how my disability is.
[29:54 - 29:56] I have limited mobility.
[29:56 - 30:00] When my spine or lower back gets cold,
[30:00 - 30:04] the muscles will tighten up around the already empty,
[30:04 - 30:06] okay, cartilage that's missing,
[30:06 - 30:11] that holds the spine right in between this,
[30:11 - 30:14] there's the cartilage, and...
[30:14 - 30:18] It's not a wheelchair anywhere around you then.
[30:18 - 30:18] Yeah, there is.
[30:18 - 30:20] It's next room over.
[30:20 - 30:22] I just don't use it unless I have to.
[30:22 - 30:25] And my partner usually brings it to me when I need it.
[30:25 - 30:28] So how'd you get to the bed
[30:28 - 30:30] and how did your wheelchair get to the other room?
[30:33 - 30:37] It's called my partner before he went to work.
[30:37 - 30:38] So he just picked you up out of your wheelchair
[30:38 - 30:39] and dropped you off in the bed
[30:39 - 30:42] and left your wheelchair where you couldn't get it?
[30:42 - 30:46] No, he wheeled me up to my bed.
[30:46 - 30:47] Okay.
[30:47 - 30:48] So should be right...
[30:48 - 30:50] All the way to the bed,
[30:50 - 30:52] he put my wheelchair in the other room,
[30:52 - 30:54] just because it saved space.
[30:56 - 31:01] What if you had to get up to go to the bathroom?
[31:01 - 31:04] Okay, I crawl my ass to the bathroom.
[31:04 - 31:08] You think I have a problem with it?
[31:08 - 31:11] I don't think that there is a...
[31:11 - 31:13] You'll see me tomorrow,
[31:13 - 31:19] or better yet, later today when I'm out and about.
[31:19 - 31:19] Okay.
[31:21 - 31:24] Because I will actually pretty much be glad
[31:24 - 31:26] to be on a live stream
[31:26 - 31:30] and just let you show you guys that I do have a disability.
[31:30 - 31:34] I do sit in a wheelchair 90% of the time.
[31:34 - 31:37] And it's for reasons that I really am ashamed of.
[31:38 - 31:44] My back, my legs, they're not the best.
[31:44 - 31:45] Degenerative cartilage disease
[31:45 - 31:48] is not something you want to play with.
[31:49 - 31:52] Apparently I've had it since I was little.
[31:52 - 31:53] It just slowly crept up on me
[31:53 - 31:57] and slowly ate away at the cartilage on my knees
[31:57 - 31:58] and ankles and whatnot.
[31:59 - 32:04] And it really, it hurts to try to walk
[32:04 - 32:06] without some sort of support.
[32:06 - 32:08] And I can somewhat walk,
[32:08 - 32:11] but it's only with a cane or a walker.
[32:11 - 32:15] And you know how embarrassing that can be.
[32:15 - 32:18] Yeah, I had recently had an Achilles surgery.
[32:18 - 32:21] So I had to have like a little scooter.
[32:21 - 32:22] But I'll tell you this,
[32:22 - 32:24] it was never far away from my bed
[32:24 - 32:26] because I would scoot it on over the bed
[32:26 - 32:28] and I would like hop off on the bed.
[32:28 - 32:29] It would never be in another room.
[32:29 - 32:31] I'm sorry?
[32:31 - 32:34] Like my little Achilles scooter,
[32:34 - 32:36] it would never be far away from my bed
[32:36 - 32:37] if I was in bed,
[32:37 - 32:39] or it would never be far away from my couch
[32:39 - 32:40] if I was on the couch.
[32:40 - 32:44] Because I would ride it to where I needed to go
[32:44 - 32:46] and it would never be away from it.
[32:46 - 32:47] I don't depend on it.
[32:47 - 32:49] I refuse to.
[32:50 - 32:52] I refuse to feel like a cripple all the time.
[32:53 - 32:55] I told my doctor, you know what?
[32:55 - 32:58] I may not be able to walk properly,
[32:58 - 33:02] but I'm not gonna sit there and ride away.
[33:02 - 33:03] Okay.
[33:03 - 33:05] I'm not getting sores on my butt and my sides.
[33:05 - 33:07] That's not okay.
[33:07 - 33:12] Well then, I mean, maybe you can get up now
[33:12 - 33:14] and not let your degenerative cartilage of these beat you
[33:14 - 33:16] and you can prove all the naysayers wrong.
[33:16 - 33:18] Show us the wheelchair.
[33:18 - 33:23] Why should I show you that?
[33:24 - 33:29] I don't think there is one.
[33:29 - 33:32] And by the way, since you're too lazy to sit there
[33:32 - 33:35] and actually message me on Facebook,
[33:35 - 33:36] so I could show you some things
[33:36 - 33:38] that you might have wanted to see.
[33:39 - 33:40] Well, where are they?
[33:40 - 33:47] Just tell me what they are.
[33:47 - 33:49] Do you think about that?
[33:49 - 33:50] No, I forgot about it.
[33:50 - 33:51] I forgot about it.
[33:53 - 33:54] Well, what is it?
[33:54 - 33:55] Like what am I missing out on?
[33:57 - 34:00] All the juicy details I was going to give you.
[34:00 - 34:00] Oh, then, okay.
[34:00 - 34:01] I guess I'm gonna miss out on.
[34:01 - 34:02] That's okay.
[34:02 - 34:03] I, you know, if you don't want to-
[34:03 - 34:06] I don't know what you mean.
[34:06 - 34:08] So what's your, that's your Facebook?
[34:10 - 34:12] Or I guess I'm being punished now and I don't get them.
[34:12 - 34:13] Okay.
[34:13 - 34:14] If you don't want to-
[34:14 - 34:17] Well, if you really want it, it's Rebecca Wolf.
[34:17 - 34:18] Okay.
[34:18 - 34:24] So I'm just wondering like what it could,
[34:24 - 34:26] and where are you again?
[34:27 - 34:29] I suppose that's why I'm in Maine.
[34:29 - 34:30] Okay.
[34:33 - 34:36] Okay, is that Alpha Becky?
[34:36 - 34:37] Nope.
[34:38 - 34:39] Okay.
[34:39 - 34:40] Really?
[34:40 - 34:42] There's another one on there.
[34:42 - 34:44] Okay.
[34:44 - 34:47] The one with the rose picture.
[34:47 - 34:51] I don't think I put a nickname on it.
[34:51 - 34:54] Are you an owner and CEO of 3D printing industry?
[34:54 - 34:56] Yeah.
[34:56 - 34:57] Okay, well then, yeah,
[34:57 - 34:59] there's the name Alpha Becky on there.
[34:59 - 35:01] Hmm.
[35:01 - 35:02] Okay.
[35:02 - 35:05] So like, I guess I just added you under the name
[35:05 - 35:06] Michael Oosting.
[35:11 - 35:16] Ah, gotcha.
[35:16 - 35:17] Okay.
[35:19 - 35:23] So any sort of like teaser on what this consists of or?
[35:23 - 35:26] Oh no, there's-
[35:26 - 35:27] I'll know it when I see it.
[35:29 - 35:31] I'll text it to you when I'm done with my livestream,
[35:31 - 35:32] to be honest.
[35:32 - 35:33] Okay.
[35:33 - 35:37] But I'm about to be getting off here
[35:37 - 35:40] because my man should be out and more.
[35:40 - 35:41] Sounds good.
[35:42 - 35:44] I'm glad that that connection has been established
[35:44 - 35:49] and I wish you the best of luck
[35:50 - 35:52] with the degenerative cartilage.
[35:55 - 35:58] I wish you the best that life has to offer.
[35:58 - 35:59] Oh, I plan to.
[36:00 - 36:02] But I wanna ask in the future.
[36:02 - 36:03] Yeah.
[36:03 - 36:05] Please stop picking on me
[36:05 - 36:07] because you really don't wanna piss me off.
[36:07 - 36:11] I've already got a legal actual restraining order
[36:11 - 36:12] more or less.
[36:12 - 36:13] Yeah.
[36:13 - 36:14] Against him.
[36:14 - 36:17] Well, I don't think you should get one against you.
[36:17 - 36:20] But restraining order is like, I don't go after you.
[36:20 - 36:22] Like you come here, I don't, it's not like-
[36:22 - 36:24] Well, I'm talking about the disrespectful things
[36:24 - 36:26] you post and say about me
[36:26 - 36:29] because it blames you and really gets you.
[36:29 - 36:31] I might say things that you don't always
[36:31 - 36:33] necessarily like, but I don't post anything
[36:33 - 36:37] and like I only say them when you come here
[36:38 - 36:40] and I granted, I don't need to say them all the time,
[36:40 - 36:42] but it's not like I'm going on my way
[36:42 - 36:44] to harass you or anything.
[36:44 - 36:46] Really, Marty?
[36:46 - 36:49] I'm not, I don't, I really don't.
[36:49 - 36:51] You mean example?
[36:51 - 36:53] As soon as I left the live stream.
[36:53 - 36:54] Yeah.
[36:54 - 36:56] You were sitting there trying to find videos
[36:56 - 36:58] which I've marked all as private.
[36:59 - 37:01] I was trying to look and find videos.
[37:01 - 37:02] What do you mean?
[37:02 - 37:07] I heard you, I was sitting there still listening.
[37:07 - 37:08] Did that happen?
[37:12 - 37:14] Well, I really don't recall, but-
[37:14 - 37:18] Actually, I'll be back and get you the exact times, too.
[37:18 - 37:20] Oh, okay, all right, then, if I'm-
[37:20 - 37:24] Both of you, I would appreciate it
[37:24 - 37:28] that you would stop using me as your content
[37:28 - 37:29] because it really-
[37:29 - 37:31] I don't unless you come here.
[37:31 - 37:34] Oh my God, you're insane.
[37:34 - 37:36] That's not true, Marty.
[37:36 - 37:37] This is insane.
[37:37 - 37:39] This is insane.
[37:40 - 37:42] No, I'm driving you insane now, huh?
[37:42 - 37:43] No.
[37:43 - 37:44] Because I know what I'm talking about.
[37:44 - 37:45] This situation isn't the same.
[37:45 - 37:48] Because I don't talk about you
[37:48 - 37:50] unless you come here and ask for a link.
[37:50 - 37:54] Yeah, and you sit there and use me as your content.
[37:54 - 37:55] I already know.
[37:56 - 37:59] I already know that you're gonna try this whole,
[38:00 - 38:04] because I'm trying to get chance put away supposedly.
[38:05 - 38:07] I just wanted to be left alone.
[38:07 - 38:10] And you instigate a little too much.
[38:11 - 38:13] And put it out there, you instigate.
[38:13 - 38:15] You're one of the drama people,
[38:15 - 38:18] and I'm honestly not okay with it.
[38:18 - 38:20] I have like my hand on my head
[38:20 - 38:25] and I'm just shaking it in disbelief, but all right.
[38:25 - 38:29] So, if you really wanna find out some information.
[38:29 - 38:30] Yeah.
[38:30 - 38:32] Your name.
[38:32 - 38:35] Yeah, no, I added you on Facebook.
[38:35 - 38:37] I added you on Facebook.
[38:37 - 38:40] Yeah, want proof that I'm not in a car?
[38:40 - 38:42] I got you your proof.
[38:42 - 38:44] You couldn't prove that you have a wheelchair,
[38:44 - 38:45] so I got some-
[38:45 - 38:47] I will do that when I get up.
[38:47 - 38:49] Okay.
[38:49 - 38:54] In fact, I'll have my partner, literally video,
[38:57 - 38:58] the whole thing.
[38:59 - 39:02] Me getting out of bed and everything.
[39:02 - 39:04] Well, I'll believe it when I see it.
[39:04 - 39:06] All right, believe what you want.
[39:07 - 39:08] But-
[39:08 - 39:10] I believe, know what I know.
[39:12 - 39:14] What do you know?
[39:14 - 39:16] What do you actually know about me?
[39:16 - 39:17] Well, that's for me to know,
[39:17 - 39:22] and for you to maybe find out or not find out.
[39:22 - 39:26] I know you know a little too much for your own good, Marty.
[39:28 - 39:31] Well, what does that mean?
[39:31 - 39:34] I know you stalked me for a while.
[39:34 - 39:36] I stalked you for a while?
[39:36 - 39:37] When was that?
[39:38 - 39:41] When this whole bullshit between me and Chance started.
[39:42 - 39:44] Huh.
[39:44 - 39:46] You even admitted to talking to my dad.
[39:47 - 39:49] Well, yeah, when somebody fakes,
[39:49 - 39:51] when somebody supposedly kills themselves,
[39:51 - 39:56] it seems really fishy, really suspicious,
[39:56 - 39:59] and seems like bullshit, then, yeah, if a guy-
[39:59 - 40:02] Maybe you wanted to disappear?
[40:02 - 40:06] If a guy's getting blamed for bullying a woman to suicide,
[40:06 - 40:08] and the woman didn't actually kill herself.
[40:08 - 40:11] I did attempt though, and we'll tell you that.
[40:11 - 40:15] Well, there's a difference between faking your death
[40:15 - 40:16] and actually killing yourself.
[40:16 - 40:20] I attempted, which failed miserably, of course.
[40:23 - 40:25] I will tell you, I have tried to kill myself
[40:25 - 40:30] for so many years, but you wanna know why I didn't?
[40:30 - 40:31] Now, it's failed.
[40:33 - 40:35] I tried overdosing.
[40:35 - 40:36] I will admit that.
[40:36 - 40:39] I have tried hanging myself.
[40:39 - 40:42] What would you try to overdose on?
[40:42 - 40:43] Let's just put it this way,
[40:43 - 40:45] it was some of my prescribed medications.
[40:46 - 40:48] Okay, all right.
[40:48 - 40:51] And I have tried drinking myself to death.
[40:51 - 40:54] I have tried, you know,
[40:54 - 40:56] there's so many different things I've tried.
[40:57 - 41:02] I've even got a thousand cut scars on my arm
[41:02 - 41:06] from how bad it was for me.
[41:06 - 41:08] Really?
[41:08 - 41:10] I didn't start cutting.
[41:10 - 41:12] Yeah, I cut, I used to anyways.
[41:13 - 41:18] I used to cut because I was hurting emotionally.
[41:20 - 41:24] I wish I could feel physical, but, you know.
[41:25 - 41:27] Yeah.
[41:27 - 41:28] My nerve damage doesn't allow it.
[41:32 - 41:35] Another reason I back screwed up.
[41:35 - 41:37] The last time I got hit by a car.
[41:39 - 41:41] I wasn't fun.
[41:41 - 41:44] Right.
[41:44 - 41:49] Black car, no tags, all blacked out.
[41:49 - 41:52] I don't know how I managed to survive, but I did.
[41:54 - 41:55] Yeah.
[41:55 - 41:57] This is before I became in the wheelchair and all that.
[41:59 - 42:02] The car flung me a good distance.
[42:02 - 42:04] I got up, popped my back,
[42:04 - 42:07] and then I realized, oh fuck, I screwed up my back.
[42:08 - 42:10] And then they're spinning off.
[42:10 - 42:13] And I'm like, the fuck just happened?
[42:13 - 42:16] And everyone in the store parking lot was staring at me.
[42:16 - 42:18] I'm like, what the heck?
[42:22 - 42:25] Here, my laptop might die.
[42:25 - 42:29] So if I pop all, like if my thing just vanishes,
[42:29 - 42:31] I'll be right back.
[42:32 - 42:35] Yeah, it's at 1% here.
[42:35 - 42:38] So I think I probably got about 30 seconds.
[42:39 - 42:41] But then I'll be,
[42:42 - 42:47] I'm gonna give you a time for when we can talk on live stream.
[42:48 - 42:53] Sure, so hang on, oh shit, it's about to go.