2021-9-23 SEEKING ANSWERS AND UNDERSTANDING
[0:07 - 0:10] What's up, everyone? Welcome back to the Weekend Day.
[0:10 - 0:21] As you guys know, I've built this channel a couple of months back to be able to express
[0:21 - 0:29] myself through my music, my poetry, and my artistry, but there's also another reason
[0:29 - 0:43] why I made this channel to seek understanding and to seek answers to questions that many of us may have.
[0:43 - 0:56] I have a couple of very serious questions that do not involve the trolls.
[0:56 - 1:02] This is something that I've wanted to know for over a year and a half.
[1:02 - 1:19] And this question is aimed at the Vendor Boys and those that were around during the time of the Real Mystery Unicoles YouTube channel and people like the Vendor Boys.
[1:19 - 1:25] To the Vendor Boys, I just want to know this.
[1:25 - 1:37] Well, first off, I want to know how did you guys even find me?
[1:37 - 1:42] Like, how did you guys even find me to begin with?
[1:42 - 2:01] Like, who were you guys connected with to, you know, drag me into that stuff that you dragged me into?
[2:01 - 2:17] But second off, I want to know why is it that you felt it was a target for you?
[2:17 - 2:23] You know, like, I'm not mad.
[2:23 - 2:47] I guess what I'm seeking is the answers as to why you guys, the Vendor Boys, targeted me and basically felt like you had to drag me into all this stuff that led me down the road that I went down.
[2:47 - 2:51] Like, I'm not angry. I'm not mad.
[2:51 - 2:55] I just want understanding as to why.
[2:55 - 3:09] Like, what was your reason for, you know, dragging me into this pit of being trolled for over a year and a half?
[3:09 - 3:11] Like, what was the point?
[3:11 - 3:19] And what was your, most importantly, what was your end goal for me to get drug into this?
[3:19 - 3:22] Like, what was your end goal in all of this?
[3:22 - 3:28] What was the point and the reasoning behind it?
[3:28 - 3:42] Like, I would like to know.
[3:42 - 3:53] Kind of comments, okay.
[3:53 - 4:03] And Mary, trust me, this goes far back before you.
[4:03 - 4:24] Like, I didn't want to have to ban you, Mary, but Mary, I'm going to say this.
[4:24 - 4:28] And I'm going to say this in the nicest way possible.
[4:28 - 4:42] If you don't know what you speak about on a subject, then you need to keep your mouth quiet, okay?
[4:42 - 4:45] You don't know what you're talking about.
[4:45 - 4:48] This goes back before you.
[4:48 - 4:50] This is not directed at you.
[4:50 - 5:02] This is directed at the vendor boys and at those that originally started all this.
[5:02 - 5:04] Like, I'm not trying to be a dick.
[5:04 - 5:16] I'm just saying if you don't know what you're talking about, then you get me to keep your mouth quiet.
[5:16 - 5:30] Hey, Rick, what's up?
[5:30 - 5:35] Hey, Saren, what up?
[5:35 - 5:36] Android?
[5:36 - 5:38] Chokes, what up?
[5:38 - 5:41] Courtney, what's up?
[5:41 - 5:49] But here's the thing.
[5:49 - 5:54] I didn't know Boy Blue before the vendor boys.
[5:54 - 5:59] I met Blue after the vendor boys.
[5:59 - 6:03] Me and Blue got connected after the vendor boys.
[6:03 - 6:07] I met Blue after that.
[6:07 - 6:16] Matter of fact, Blue was actually unaware of me until the vendor boys had actually stepped in and said something.
[6:16 - 6:18] That's how he found me.
[6:18 - 6:35] Actually, no, we didn't.
[6:35 - 6:44] Actually, I can actually honestly say that we did not know Blue before the contract signing.
[6:44 - 6:51] The only person that we knew were the vendor boys and Jamie.
[6:51 - 6:59] That was it.
[6:59 - 7:08] Yo, Courtney, what up?
[7:08 - 7:11] Hey, Courtney, maybe you have something.
[7:11 - 7:19] Matter of fact, Courtney, maybe you can get some insight on this.
[7:19 - 7:26] Because Courtney, before I met you, I actually met you through Jamie and some other stuff.
[7:26 - 7:31] I met you through Jamie and the vendor boys.
[7:31 - 7:34] That's how me and you met.
[7:34 - 7:45] So maybe you can give me some insight that I'm not able to get because you knew them before I did.
[7:45 - 7:54] Did they at all give you any insight as to why they chose to drag me and all this?
[7:54 - 8:04] Did they give you any insight as to why they chose me or do you have any idea as to how I got drugged into any of this?
[8:04 - 8:13] Do you have any idea at all?
[8:13 - 8:19] Did somebody mention me without me knowing it or how did they find me?
[8:19 - 8:24] Do you have any idea on how it is that everybody found me?
[8:24 - 8:33] I'm genuinely curious because I seriously am wanting answers.
[8:33 - 8:41] And I would actually like to confront the person that is actually responsible.
[8:41 - 8:47] The single person that is responsible for bringing me into all this.
[8:47 - 8:52] I would actually like to confront that person so I figure maybe you might have some answers.
[8:52 - 9:07] I know how Marty found me.
[9:07 - 9:13] Marty found me fucking years prior.
[9:13 - 9:25] Marty found me through a bunch of other trolls on YouTube that, you know, that's how Marty found me back in the day.
[9:25 - 9:46] But what I want to know is, one, how did I get drugged into this?
[9:46 - 9:55] And two, why did I get drugged into this troll community?
[9:55 - 10:07] Because I'll be honest with you, before I got drugged into this community, like I was actually doing very well for myself.
[10:07 - 10:10] I was actually doing very well for myself.
[10:10 - 10:12] I was staying out of trouble.
[10:12 - 10:16] You know, I wasn't doing anything stupid.
[10:16 - 10:20] I wasn't causing any trouble or any problems for anyone.
[10:20 - 10:23] I was just doing my own thing, you know.
[10:23 - 10:27] I was creating music with my friends.
[10:27 - 10:30] I was trying to get my music out the ground.
[10:30 - 10:35] I was doing a lot of, you know, artwork back then.
[10:35 - 10:39] I was, you know, streaming on my old gaming channel.
[10:39 - 10:41] Creating gaming videos.
[10:41 - 10:51] And then it seems like the minute I got drugged into it, my whole life just basically went to shit.
[10:51 - 10:58] And I seriously would like some answers as to how and why I got drugged into this.
[10:58 - 11:39] And hot dog guy, I'm going to tell you like I told Mary, you need to keep your mouth shut on subjects that you don't know what you're talking about.
[11:40 - 11:47] Not trying to be a dick, but you keep your trash shut on shit that you don't know what you're talking about.
[11:47 - 11:50] Because this is not for you.
[11:50 - 11:53] This is for the bender boys.
[11:53 - 11:58] And for those that drug me into this crap.
[11:58 - 12:10] So know your facts before you open your mouth.
[12:10 - 12:16] No, Christ, I'm not going to start up my phone for you because I know what you're going to do.
[12:16 - 12:22] You're going to sit there and you're going to call me and you're going to attack me and I'm not going down that route.
[12:22 - 12:33] That is very true.
[12:33 - 12:42] And music biz Marty's not wrong and not one dude.
[12:42 - 12:45] Marty's definitely not wrong on that.
[12:45 - 12:49] Like I actually have been and, you know, he's right.
[12:49 - 12:51] I can't deny it. Marty is right.
[12:51 - 13:35] To Susan and to Skeletor and to everybody that, you know, has, you know, drug me into this community of being trolled.
[13:35 - 13:39] Like, I just want to know how and why.
[13:39 - 13:44] Like, what was your reason for dragging me into this?
[13:44 - 13:48] Well, yes, I know I've done a lot of screwed up shit.
[13:48 - 13:50] I'll admit that.
[13:50 - 14:18] Like, you know, you know, I get that I've done some stuff that might be screwed up, but at the same time.
[14:18 - 14:25] Oh, damn Courtney.
[14:25 - 14:36] Oh, Courtney, damn girl.
[14:36 - 14:38] Getting it in.
[14:38 - 14:49] But you know, I just genuinely am looking for answers.
[14:49 - 14:57] But y'all abuse.
[14:57 - 14:59] Why am I a target?
[14:59 - 15:02] Like, what made me a target?
[15:02 - 15:14] Like, is it because of like, is it because of how I look or like, what's the like, what's the reason that I became a target for these people?
[15:14 - 15:18] Like, was I just some random person that they picked out?
[15:18 - 15:26] Or did they specifically, you know, target me for a legitimate reason?
[15:26 - 15:32] Like, was there a reason that they targeted me or like, what was the reason behind it?
[15:32 - 15:45] Like, I genuinely would like to know.
[15:45 - 15:52] Like, I'm not looking for some bullshit answers at all.
[15:52 - 16:00] Like, I'm looking for, you know, actual answers and I'm not on stream yard or anything.
[16:00 - 16:02] So I can't bring anybody on.
[16:02 - 16:13] I agree with Courtney.
[16:13 - 16:20] I'm going to mod you, girly.
[16:20 - 16:25] I'm going to mod you, Courtney.
[16:25 - 16:28] You know, I got you Courtney.
[16:28 - 16:40] But, you know, like, was I like, I guess I'm just wondering like, am like, was I being targeted?
[16:40 - 16:48] Specifically, like, was there some was there a legitimate reason as to why I got targeted?
[16:48 - 16:59] Or was I just like some random person to them that they felt looked like an easy target and decided to prey on people like me?
[16:59 - 17:05] Like, what was the, you know, reasoning behind it?
[17:05 - 17:11] Like, what made them want to, you know, target me?
[17:11 - 17:36] Like, you know, before I got drug into this community, I actually had a really good life.
[17:36 - 17:50] You know, and then something I've spoken about many, many times is before I got brought into the community, you know, I actually had an average life.
[17:50 - 17:54] Like, there was nothing special about me really.
[17:54 - 18:07] I mean, yeah, I did my music and shit, you know, video game videos on, you know, here and stuff like that.
[18:07 - 18:12] Like, you know, I genuinely had your average dude's life.
[18:12 - 18:17] Like, I didn't, you know, rage out on anybody.
[18:17 - 18:23] I didn't, you know, attack anyone, do stupid stuff.
[18:23 - 18:41] You know, I genuinely had a normal, average life.
[18:41 - 18:51] I got you, Saren, don't worry.
[18:51 - 19:01] That is true.
[19:01 - 19:02] That is very true.
[19:02 - 19:06] Candle did actually fake her death where he came on the scene dude.
[19:06 - 19:20] And that's actually a very true statement.
[19:20 - 19:31] But like, I just want understanding as to why and how I got brought into this.
[19:31 - 19:39] And here's the thing, man, I actually have quit YouTube.
[19:39 - 19:47] I mean, if you've noticed for the last couple of days, I've been streaming on Twitch and I'm actually doing very well.
[19:47 - 19:53] I'm actually currently sitting at 63 followers and I'm actually doing good.
[19:53 - 20:16] And Christ, I'm gonna be straight up with you, dude.
[20:16 - 20:22] Shut your mouth because nobody likes you.
[20:22 - 20:31] Nobody likes you, Christ.
[20:31 - 20:36] Hell, even trolls that hate me can't stand you, bro.
[20:36 - 20:38] And that's saying something.
[20:38 - 20:46] Like, trolls that can't stand me don't even like you, dude.
[20:46 - 20:49] My trolls that hate on me can't even stand you.
[20:49 - 20:52] And that's saying something.
[20:52 - 20:56] Like, that's sad when a troll would rather back me up than back you up.
[20:56 - 21:18] That's actually sad.
[21:18 - 21:22] Yo, Ange, I'm gonna mod you up.
[21:22 - 21:38] Yo, Linkmaster Gaming, just look at Goblin Gaming.
[21:38 - 21:41] It's Goblin with two Bs, not one.
[21:41 - 22:15] It's Goblin Gaming.
[22:15 - 22:23] Somehow I doubt that because Masshole didn't come on the scene until later on.
[22:23 - 22:37] Like Masshole reports to not come on the scene until way later.
[22:37 - 22:40] So there's that one out the window.
[22:40 - 23:13] But like, I just genuinely want to know, like, why and how did I get drug into all this?
[23:13 - 23:22] Because it seemed like one minute I was living a normal life.
[23:22 - 23:25] I was living an average life, you know?
[23:25 - 23:28] I was working on my music.
[23:28 - 23:33] I was, you know, doing fun stuff with my friends.
[23:33 - 23:35] I had a normal life.
[23:35 - 23:40] Like, heck, I was doing freaking AMVs back in the day.
[23:40 - 23:42] Like, before this, I was doing AMVs.
[23:42 - 23:47] I was doing gameplay videos of old school games.
[23:47 - 24:19] Like, I was doing stuff like that.
[24:19 - 24:23] Death Scythe, I'm not here to cause trouble.
[24:23 - 24:27] I just, like, I'm not here to cause you guys problems, alright?
[24:27 - 24:30] I'm here to seek understanding.
[24:30 - 24:40] I'm here to seek understanding of why you guys targeted me.
[24:40 - 24:45] Like, I'm seeking understanding as to why.
[24:45 - 24:47] I'm not here to fight anyone.
[24:47 - 24:50] I'm not here to argue with anyone.
[24:50 - 24:52] I'm here to seek answers.
[24:52 - 24:55] Answers that I've had for over a year and a half.
[24:55 - 25:48] Like, I just genuinely want the truth, you know?
[25:48 - 25:57] Like, I guess my biggest question overall for the Bender Boys
[25:57 - 26:01] and for people like Blue and everyone else in general
[26:01 - 26:05] that has targeted me is this.
[26:05 - 26:11] What is it that made you in your mind?
[26:11 - 26:16] What is it that made you think that I'm a target?
[26:16 - 26:19] Like, I don't, I don't understand.
[26:19 - 26:24] Like, what made you think that I was a target?
[26:24 - 26:28] Like, and why did you choose me as a target?
[26:28 - 26:32] I guess is, you know, more the question.
[26:32 - 26:36] Like, what made me a target?
[26:36 - 26:39] Was it because of how I dress?
[26:39 - 26:44] Was it, you know, how I look because I look different?
[26:44 - 26:50] Was it something I did that, you know, made you think,
[26:50 - 26:53] no, it's like, why?
[26:53 - 26:55] Like, I'm not mad.
[26:55 - 26:59] I just want to know why I got drug into this crap.
[26:59 - 27:03] Because it seems like ever since I got drug into all this,
[27:03 - 27:06] I've been attacked.
[27:06 - 27:08] I've lost friends.
[27:08 - 27:11] I've lost credibility.
[27:11 - 27:14] I've lashed out.
[27:14 - 27:18] I've done things that I'm not proud of.
[27:18 - 27:23] I've done things that I do genuinely regret.
[27:23 - 27:25] And, you know, I just want answers.
[27:25 - 27:31] That way I can understand the mindset that you guys
[27:31 - 27:35] have been writing when you targeted me.
[27:35 - 27:40] Like, I genuinely would like to know why you targeted me
[27:40 - 27:47] and what made you want to target me most of all.
[27:47 - 27:54] Like, out of the 20 billion, you know, people on YouTube,
[27:54 - 27:58] oh, why did I have to be made a target?
[27:58 - 28:17] Like, I don't understand.
[28:17 - 28:22] Actually, no, I don't, Jester.
[28:22 - 28:28] I really don't know.
[28:28 - 28:31] Like, I would seriously like to know what it is
[28:31 - 28:37] that made me a target so I can better understand
[28:37 - 28:43] how I got to where I got, you know, like,
[28:43 - 28:48] this spans back, like, far beyond
[28:48 - 28:56] freaking, um, AJ, this spawns back far beyond anyone.
[28:56 - 29:02] Hey, what's up, Skull Kid?
[29:02 - 29:09] I'm like, you know, I just genuinely want answers
[29:09 - 29:12] as to why I was made a target.
[29:12 - 29:25] But here's the thing, Skull Kid, this is before you, bro.
[29:25 - 29:29] Skull Kid, this does not concern you, man.
[29:29 - 29:34] This is back before you came on to see my guy.
[29:34 - 29:37] This does not involve you.
[29:37 - 29:43] So honestly, dude, you got no right speaking on the matter.
[29:43 - 29:47] So with all due respect, keep your mouth shut
[29:47 - 30:26] because you don't know the situation.
[30:26 - 30:32] I just genuinely, you know, I just want the truth, man.
[30:32 - 30:35] That's all I want is the freaking truth.
[30:35 - 30:39] But it seems like somewhere in the truth,
[30:39 - 30:43] it seems like, to me, this is from my perspective.
[30:43 - 30:48] It seems like the truth got hidden in all these lies
[30:48 - 30:51] and all these rumors about me.
[30:51 - 30:59] And it seems like no one knows what's true and what's not.
[30:59 - 31:02] And I'm just trying to find out the real truth.
[31:02 - 31:22] Like, and I've noticed that the truth got mixed in
[31:22 - 31:26] with all these lies and all this garbage.
[31:26 - 31:38] And it seems like I have to be the one to sort it out
[31:38 - 31:40] and I don't like that.
[31:40 - 31:48] So to the vendor boys, I ask you this.
[31:48 - 31:51] Why did you target me?
[31:51 - 31:56] What made you want to make me a target?
[31:56 - 32:02] That's all I ask is what made you want to make me a target?
[32:02 - 32:04] What was your reason?
[32:04 - 32:08] That's all I want.
[32:08 - 32:11] That's the only answer I want.
[32:11 - 32:17] Those are the only two answers that I seek are
[32:17 - 32:19] why did you target me?
[32:19 - 32:22] And what made me a target to you?
[32:22 - 32:27] Like, what was it to you that made me a target?
[32:27 - 32:29] That's all I want to know.
[32:29 - 32:53] Here's the inventory.
[32:53 - 32:55] If you look back on my other video,
[32:55 - 32:57] I have taken responsibility.
[32:57 - 33:00] I actually have.
[33:00 - 33:04] Whether you want to believe it or not,
[33:04 - 33:09] that's your choice.
[33:09 - 33:12] But you can go back and watch my video,
[33:12 - 33:14] my last video.
[33:14 - 33:16] I actually did take responsibility
[33:16 - 33:20] and I apologized again for the hundredth time.
[33:20 - 33:27] So, yes, I did take responsibility.
[33:27 - 33:41] You can go back and look for yourself.
[33:41 - 33:42] Here's the thing, dude.
[33:42 - 33:45] I have said what I did many times over.
[33:45 - 33:47] I should not have...
[33:47 - 33:50] I'm gonna say this in the nicest way possible,
[33:50 - 33:55] but Ellie, I have said what I did many times over.
[33:55 - 34:00] I should not have to repeat myself over and over again.
[34:00 - 34:09] You see what I'm getting at here?
[34:09 - 34:12] I've already said it many a times.
[34:12 - 34:22] I should not have to repeat it over.
[34:22 - 34:24] I shouldn't have to repeat myself.
[34:24 - 34:47] And, you know, like I said, this should not happen.
[34:47 - 34:50] I admit, it never should have happened.
[34:50 - 34:56] And speaking on that subject,
[34:56 - 34:58] I do want to know one thing.
[34:58 - 35:02] In my social reports, this question is directed for you.
[35:02 - 35:08] Why is it that you targeted me?
[35:08 - 35:18] I mean, you come onto the scene out of nowhere.
[35:18 - 35:20] You come onto the scene.
[35:20 - 35:25] You play on my emotions,
[35:25 - 35:30] knowing that I had just gotten out of an abusive relationship.
[35:30 - 35:34] You play on my emotions,
[35:34 - 35:39] and you use my emotions to get information.
[35:39 - 36:09] And I don't understand why it is that you targeted me.
[36:09 - 36:10] Here's the thing.
[36:10 - 36:12] None of these people, like...
[36:12 - 36:15] And Cynthia, I do like your idea.
[36:15 - 36:16] I really do.
[36:16 - 36:19] I do like the idea that you have,
[36:19 - 36:23] but I already know that I'm not going to get a straight-up answer.
[36:23 - 36:35] All I'm going to get is bullshit answers.
[36:35 - 36:39] And like I said, I'm not blaming anybody for my actions,
[36:39 - 36:51] because my actions were my own.
[36:51 - 36:57] And if you guys would like the answer to that subject,
[36:57 - 37:04] please refer back to the previous video.
[37:04 - 37:07] If you go back to look at the previous video,
[37:07 - 37:09] I come out and admit my wrongs.
[37:09 - 37:12] I say what I did was wrong,
[37:12 - 37:14] and I went onto my mistakes.
[37:14 - 37:20] Like, if you want, if that's what you're seeking,
[37:20 - 37:26] please, by all means, go watch the previous live stream that I did.
[37:26 - 37:43] Not on Twitch, on here.
[37:43 - 37:44] No, no, no.
[37:44 - 37:52] No, no, good.
[37:52 - 37:53] Hang on.
[37:53 - 37:56] This is the actual CISNAC.
[37:56 - 37:59] I'm hoping this is actually your CISNAC.
[38:00 - 38:03] I actually do have a legit question for you, man.
[38:03 - 38:05] If you are the real CISNAC,
[38:05 - 38:10] I do want to know why it is that you and the vendor boys
[38:10 - 38:17] targeted me like you did and drug me into this troll community.
[38:17 - 38:20] Like, I'm not here to start shit with nobody.
[38:20 - 38:23] I'm not here to attack you guys.
[38:23 - 38:28] I just want to know why it is that y'all felt like
[38:28 - 38:30] you had to target me.
[38:30 - 38:35] And what made you want to do it?
[38:35 - 38:39] Like, I'm not attacking you guys.
[38:39 - 38:41] I have nothing against you, CISNAC.
[38:41 - 38:43] I just want the truth.
[38:43 - 38:45] That's all I want.
[38:45 - 38:55] Like, I just genuinely want to know why it is that you targeted me
[38:55 - 38:59] and decided to do all this.
[38:59 - 39:20] And chokes is actually right, you know?
[39:20 - 39:22] For once, chokes is right.
[39:22 - 39:28] You know, that's actually a very valid point.
[39:28 - 39:39] I'm actually streaming directly from YouTube.
[39:39 - 39:41] I'm not on StreamYard.
[39:41 - 39:46] So if you could just type out your answer, like,
[39:46 - 39:49] in the best way possible.
[39:49 - 39:51] So I have an understanding.
[39:51 - 39:54] Or you can even make a video.
[39:54 - 39:57] Like, making a video would be even better.
[39:57 - 40:08] Like, if you can make a video explaining
[40:08 - 40:11] just straight up, no bullshit.
[40:11 - 40:13] No garbage.
[40:13 - 40:19] Like, if you can make a video explaining it,
[40:19 - 40:23] you know, just give me a straight up answer.
[40:23 - 40:35] That would be awesome.
[40:35 - 40:47] KJ, is that true?
[40:47 - 40:49] Like, I just want the truth, KJ.
[40:49 - 40:53] Is he telling the truth or is he lying through his teeth?
[40:53 - 40:55] Like, I just want the truth.
[40:55 - 41:13] That's all I want.
[41:13 - 41:16] Like, I don't want to fight anybody anymore.
[41:16 - 41:20] I don't want to argue with anyone.
[41:20 - 41:26] I just, I want to get my life back to where it used to be, you know.
[41:26 - 41:31] I want to get back to where I was a happy person
[41:31 - 41:36] before I went down this very screwed up path.
[41:36 - 41:42] And in order to get there, I need answers.
[41:42 - 41:56] Like, in order for me to be able to move on
[41:56 - 42:00] and actually, you know,
[42:00 - 42:03] get myself to where I need to be,
[42:03 - 42:07] I need answers.
[42:07 - 42:10] Like, and I'm not talking some bullshit answers.
[42:10 - 42:20] I mean legitimate answers as to why you guys did all this.
[42:20 - 42:27] Like, I'm not trying to attack you or anybody.
[42:27 - 42:37] I'm just looking for the truth.
[42:37 - 42:39] Like, that's all I'm doing, man.
[42:39 - 42:42] I'm just looking for the real truth.
[42:42 - 42:49] And I mean the real as to why I got drugged into this community,
[42:49 - 43:24] you know.
[43:24 - 43:26] I'll start off with a panel for you, Sismac.
