2021-2-16 TAKING BACK MY LIFE
[0:00 - 0:27] What's up everybody? So Marty and Schmecklecat went over their mouths about me. They want
[0:27 - 0:35] to sit there and talk shit. I say let 'em. Because as of right now, I'm taking my life
[0:35 - 0:55] back. You know what? I'm growing pretty tired of Marty
[0:55 - 1:03] running his fucking mouth, talking all the way to shit with Schmecklecat and Tyler in
[1:03 - 1:22] there. I wanna say, the next time I rise up, I take
[1:22 - 1:52] my fucking life back.
[1:52 - 2:03] I see this, Chatter me says, I can't keep it. Hit it like a secret. I can't look away.
[2:03 - 2:22] Every day, I'm on a group fest. I sing a song from what you could ever get. When I stand
[2:22 - 2:37] up, this is the call. Rise and revolution. It's our time to change it all. Rise and revolution.
[2:37 - 2:59] Everybody won for a ride. This is the call. Tonight, we rise, rise. Tonight, we rise,
[2:59 - 3:16] rise, rise. Tonight, we rise, rise. Tonight, we rise, rise, rise. Tonight, we rise, rise.
[3:16 - 3:33] Tonight, we rise, rise, rise. Tonight, we rise, rise, rise. Tonight, we rise, rise,
[3:33 - 3:55] rise. Tonight, we rise, rise, rise. Tonight, we rise, rise, rise. Tonight, we rise, rise,
[3:55 - 4:13] rise. Tonight, we rise, rise, rise. Tonight, we rise, rise, rise, rise. Tonight, we rise,
[4:13 - 4:33] rise, rise. Tonight, we rise, rise, rise. Tonight, we rise, rise, rise. Tonight, we
[4:33 - 4:57] rise, rise, rise. Tonight, we rise, rise, rise. Tonight, we rise, rise, rise. Tonight,
[4:57 - 5:18] we rise, rise, rise. Rise and revolution. Rise, rise, rise and revolution. Rise. You
[5:18 - 5:23] know, CIA, your comments don't affect me, bitch. So why don't you shut the fuck up
[5:23 - 5:34] and sit down, fuck boy. Plus the ass poser. You ain't nothing but a bitch, you faggot
[5:34 - 5:57] fucker. Go ahead and keep talking your shit, suck. Yeah, they don't faze me, bro. You're
[5:57 - 6:08] just talking shit about yourself, which I find funny. You see, guys, it's people like
[6:08 - 6:14] this guy right here, CIA hole, who thinks he's a badass because they talk shit up on
[6:14 - 6:20] the fucking internet like a hard ass. But really, he's nothing more than a fucking
[6:20 - 6:31] loser running his fucking mouth like a bitch.
[6:31 - 6:51] Yeah, they don't faze me, bitch. They don't faze me, bitch. They don't faze me, bitch.
[6:51 - 10:32] I'm just talking shit, bitch. I'm just talking shit, bitch. I'm just talking shit, bitch.
[10:32 - 11:00] Hey, yo, Anthony. You want to take the trash out on the guy? You want to take these three fuckheads out, bro?
[11:00 - 11:18] Boys, that is in my head again. Trying to war inside my own skin. They're pulling me on dark, yo.
[11:18 - 11:44] Let's water up ourselves like the people of the race.
[11:44 - 12:00] I'm not doing the magic, but still feel the pain. I'm just talking shit, bitch. I'm just talking shit, bitch.
[12:00 - 12:22] Boys, that is in my head again. Baking me in a war I can't win. I can't hear them now. Scumting the game inside my own skin. It's hard to know myself anymore.
[12:22 - 12:37] Boys, that is in my head again. They're pulling me on dark, yo. Boys, that is in my head. Boys, that is in my head again.
[12:37 - 13:05] Boys, that is in my head again. Baking me in a war I can't win. I can't hear them now.
[13:05 - 13:16] I can't hear them now. Scumting the game inside my own skin. It's hard to know myself anymore.
[13:16 - 13:42] Boys, that is in my head. They're pulling me on dark. Boys, that is in my head. Boys, that is in my head. Boys, that is in my head.
[13:42 - 14:03] You know what, I'll take care of these losers my damn self.
[14:03 - 14:23] You know, it's pretty fucking sad when you gotta stop a goddamn show.
[14:23 - 14:48] I see if I give a shit about what Tony does.
[14:48 - 15:07] Boys, that is in my head again. Baking me in a war I can't win. I can't hear them now. Scumting the game inside my own skin. It's hard to know myself anymore.
[15:07 - 15:10] ? You're calling me out ?
[15:10 - 15:14] ? I'm a voice out ?
[15:14 - 15:16] ? You're calling me out ?
[15:16 - 15:18] ? I'm a voice out ?
[15:18 - 15:20] ? You're calling me out ?
[15:20 - 15:34] ? I'm a voice out ?
[15:34 - 15:39] ? Because I'm not your man, it's everything fucking time ?
[15:39 - 15:40] ? You're calling me out ?
[15:40 - 15:45] ? Because I'm not your man, it's everything fucking time ?
[15:45 - 15:58] - Yo, Kat, you showed up just in fucking time, fam.
[15:58 - 16:00] Just in fucking time.
[16:04 - 16:06] Finally, I got some backup.
[16:33 - 16:34] Yo, Kat, you know what to do.
[16:34 - 16:57] Hey, CIA ho.
[16:57 - 17:00] You say I'm doing your own?
[17:00 - 17:01] I don't see you being able to pull off
[17:01 - 17:04] your fucking metal core screens, bitch.
[17:04 - 17:18] ? I wake up every morning with my head up in the days ?
[17:18 - 17:21] ? I'm not sure if I should say this, fuck I'll say it anyway ?
[17:21 - 17:24] ? Everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase ?
[17:24 - 17:27] ? I don't know if it's a phase, I just wanna feel okay ?
[17:27 - 17:30] ? Yeah, I'm down with the question, but the question still remains ?
[17:30 - 17:33] ? Is post-traumatic stress and your and my suppressant rage ?
[17:33 - 17:35] ? A doctor tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase ?
[17:35 - 17:37] ? Yeah, it's time to fuck your face ?
[17:37 - 17:40] ? I'm not your man, it's everything fucking time ?
[17:40 - 17:41] ? Because I'm with this bullshit every day ?
[17:41 - 17:44] ? Everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase ?
[17:44 - 17:49] ? I'm not your man, it's everything fucking time ?
[17:49 - 17:59] ? I'm not your man, it's everything I'm about to break down ?
[17:59 - 21:06] ? I'm not your man, it's everything fucking time ?
[21:06 - 21:11] ? He's made me do death threats, threaten to murder him ?
[21:11 - 21:14] ? Do all kinds of fucked up shit ?
[21:14 - 21:19] ? And that is not the person that I wanna fucking be ?
[21:19 - 21:22] ? 'Cause I am this close to a fucking thousand subs ?
[21:22 - 21:25] ? And I don't want my fans to fucking know me ?
[21:25 - 21:27] ? As somebody that makes death threats ?
[21:27 - 21:29] ? I wanna be known as a person ?
[21:29 - 21:31] ? That can help somebody get through their fucking day ?
[21:31 - 21:33] ? That can get through bullying ?
[21:33 - 21:35] ? That can get through anything ?
[21:35 - 21:37] ? That's what I wanna be known for ?
[21:37 - 21:42] ? That's this bullshit that Marty's fucking putting me through ?
[21:42 - 21:56] (engine revving)
[22:03 - 22:06] - You all know this one.
[22:06 - 22:10] Let's take it back to the old school days on this one now.
[22:10 - 22:19] - The prophecy is upon us.
[22:29 - 22:34] (rock music)
[22:34 - 22:48] - I know I ain't through all this travel.
[22:52 - 22:55] ? 'Cause now don't you think so long ?
[22:55 - 22:58] ? We all can't control man ?
[22:58 - 23:01] ? If you try to take me down ?
[23:01 - 23:04] ? You're gonna break down ?
[23:04 - 23:06] ? Feel your everything ?
[23:06 - 23:09] ? I think that you're too important ?
[23:09 - 23:12] ? I'm thinking you are your friend ?
[23:12 - 23:17] ? You're the way I am ?
[23:17 - 23:22] ? You're alone inside ?
[23:22 - 23:26] ? You live alone ?
[23:26 - 23:30] ? You're always hiding behind ?
[23:30 - 23:32] ? Your soul don't die ?
[23:32 - 23:35] ? So what you don't think ?
[23:35 - 23:38] ? That we can see your face ?
[23:38 - 23:40] ? There's already a black ?
[23:40 - 23:43] ? Before the final falling ?
[23:43 - 23:46] ? I'm there for rest of the year ?
[23:46 - 23:49] ? You're gonna break down ?
[23:49 - 23:54] ? You're the way I am ?
[23:54 - 23:58] ? Stand alone ?
[23:58 - 24:02] ? Feel that you're sitting down inside me ?
[24:02 - 24:07] ? You're not dying for an act ?
[24:07 - 24:09] ? Stand alone ?
[24:09 - 24:13] ? You're the way I am ?
[24:13 - 24:18] ? Feel that you're sitting down inside me ?
[24:18 - 24:21] ? Stand alone ?
[24:21 - 24:26] ? Feel that you're sitting down inside me ?
[24:26 - 24:31] ? You're not dying for an act ?
[24:31 - 24:36] ? You're always hiding behind ?
[24:36 - 24:41] ? It's my time to dream ?
[24:41 - 24:44] ? My time to dream ?
[24:44 - 24:50] ? Dream of the sky ?
[24:50 - 24:55] ? Make me believe that this place is simply ?
[24:55 - 25:00] ? By the poison in me ?
[25:00 - 25:05] ? Help me decide if I'm coming alone ?
[25:05 - 25:10] ? I'll burn out before you can breathe ?
[25:10 - 25:16] ? Breathe into me ?
[25:26 - 25:30] ? Stand alone ?
[25:30 - 25:34] ? Feel the spotlight ?
[25:34 - 25:36] ? Stand alone ?
[25:36 - 25:40] ? Feel that you're sitting down inside me ?
[25:40 - 25:45] ? You're not dying for an act ?
[25:45 - 25:47] ? Stand alone ?
[25:47 - 25:50] ? Feel that you're breathing ?
[25:50 - 25:53] ? Bring down our greed ?
[25:53 - 25:57] ? Stay alive ?
[25:57 - 26:20] ? Stand low inside ?
[26:20 - 26:26] - Y'all, Fillmore, what up, man?
[26:26 - 26:27] How you doing, bro?
[26:27 - 27:09] (buzzer beeps)
[27:09 - 27:18] (upbeat music)
[27:18 - 27:23] (buzzer beeps)
[27:23 - 27:37] ? I'm the one you persuade ?
[27:37 - 27:40] ? Suffocate on the flame ?
[27:40 - 27:41] ? If it's how it stands ?
[27:41 - 27:44] ? Gather in your ghost ?
[27:44 - 27:47] ? The earth is in your grave ?
[27:47 - 27:49] ? When the self is free ?
[27:49 - 27:51] ? Just as nothing but a crime ?
[27:51 - 27:53] ? Across your throat ?
[27:53 - 27:57] ? It's money for your time ?
[27:57 - 28:00] ? So get your head up ?
[28:00 - 28:03] ? Break through the Hollywoods ?
[28:03 - 28:05] ? No one's on the whole family ?
[28:05 - 28:06] ? To break the walls ?
[28:06 - 28:10] ? When you're falling in love ?
[28:10 - 28:12] ? With your stories above ?
[28:12 - 28:14] ? Your fair is left in the dust ?
[28:14 - 28:19] ? 'Cause we are the saints of the world ?
[28:19 - 28:24] ? In the circle of shame ?
[28:24 - 28:26] ? People who lead the race ?
[28:26 - 28:28] ? Will learn to respect ?
[28:28 - 28:31] ? There is a name across ?
[28:31 - 28:34] ? There will be a way ?
[28:34 - 28:36] ? Just as there's a good way ?
[28:36 - 28:41] ? To the evil that comes from all the cause ?
[28:44 - 28:47] ? So get your head up ?
[28:47 - 28:50] ? Break through the Hollywoods ?
[28:50 - 28:52] ? No one's on the whole family ?
[28:52 - 28:53] ? To break the walls ?
[28:53 - 28:57] ? When you're falling in love ?
[28:57 - 28:59] ? Take them to the shadows above ?
[28:59 - 29:01] ? Your fair is left in the dust ?
[29:01 - 29:43] ? We are the saints of the world ?
[29:43 - 29:51] (upbeat music)
[29:51 - 30:18] ? So get your head up ?
[30:18 - 30:20] ? Break through the Hollywoods ?
[30:20 - 30:22] ? No one's on the whole family ?
[30:22 - 30:24] ? To break the walls ?
[30:24 - 30:27] ? When you're falling in love ?
[30:27 - 30:29] ? Take them to the shadows above ?
[30:29 - 30:32] ? Your fair is left in the dust ?
[30:32 - 30:46] ? We are the saints of the world ?
[30:46 - 30:49] (upbeat music)
[30:49 - 30:54] ? We are the saints of the world ?
[30:54 - 30:57] (upbeat music)
[30:57 - 31:11] - You know, the one thing I'm really getting tired of
[31:11 - 31:14] is always fake ass motherfuckers.
[31:14 - 31:16] The second thing is you can just waltz up in here
[31:16 - 31:20] and talk all this mad shit
[31:20 - 31:24] and do all this fucking bullshit
[31:24 - 31:27] without any fucking repercussions.
[31:27 - 31:38] Well, Marty, I got a new sickness for you, bitch.
[31:38 - 31:43] And this new sickness,
[31:43 - 31:48] this new wave is called the era of Scarface
[31:48 - 31:52] as well as the Cyrax Revolution.
[31:52 - 31:57] (drumming)
[31:57 - 32:06] ? You feel that ?
[32:06 - 32:09] (drumming)
[32:09 - 32:11] ? You feel that ?
[32:11 - 32:13] (drumming)
[32:13 - 32:16] - Oh, shit.
[32:16 - 32:19] (drumming)
[32:19 - 32:27] (screaming)
[32:27 - 32:30] (upbeat music)
[32:30 - 32:38] (screaming)
[32:38 - 32:40] (upbeat music)
[32:40 - 32:52] (singing in foreign language)
[32:52 - 32:53] ? You feel me ?
[32:53 - 32:57] (singing in foreign language)
[32:57 - 33:10] ? You feel me ?
[33:10 - 33:13] (singing in foreign language)
[33:13 - 33:15] ? You feel me ?
[33:15 - 33:17] (singing in foreign language)
[33:17 - 33:19] ? You feel me ?
[33:19 - 33:21] (singing in foreign language)
[33:21 - 33:23] ? You feel me ?
[33:23 - 33:27] (singing in foreign language)
[33:27 - 33:31] ? You feel me ?
[33:31 - 33:35] (singing in foreign language)
[33:35 - 33:36] ? You feel me ?
[33:36 - 33:39] (singing in foreign language)
[33:39 - 33:41] ? You feel me ?
[33:41 - 33:44] (singing in foreign language)
[33:44 - 33:45] ? You feel me ?
[33:45 - 33:48] (singing in foreign language)
[33:48 - 33:49] ? You feel me ?
[33:49 - 33:53] (singing in foreign language)
[33:53 - 33:55] (upbeat music)
[33:55 - 34:01] (singing in foreign language)
[34:01 - 34:06] ? You say don't try to deny what you feel ?
[34:06 - 34:10] (singing in foreign language)
[34:10 - 34:13] (upbeat music)
[34:13 - 34:22] (singing in foreign language)
[34:22 - 34:25] ? In dealing with these changes ?
[34:25 - 34:28] ? In living up with these changes ?
[34:28 - 34:32] (singing in foreign language)
[34:32 - 34:55] - You know what?
[34:55 - 34:56] Hold up.
[34:56 - 34:59] Y'all wanna run your fucking mouths?
[34:59 - 35:00] Go ahead.
[35:00 - 35:02] Take your best shot, bitch.
[35:02 - 35:04] Go right a fucking head.
[35:04 - 35:06] Take your best shot.
[35:06 - 35:08] Go right ahead.
[35:08 - 35:12] Take your best fucking shot.
[35:12 - 35:14] Go ahead.
[35:14 - 35:16] Talk shit about me now, bitch.
[35:16 - 35:19] Now that I'm confronting your fake asses.
[35:19 - 35:19] Go ahead.
[35:19 - 35:20] Say something.
[35:20 - 35:23] Go right a fucking head.
[35:23 - 35:24] Say something, bitch.
[35:26 - 35:27] You want me to stop the show for you
[35:27 - 35:29] just so you can talk shit?
[35:29 - 35:30] Go ahead.
[35:30 - 35:32] Say something, bitch.
[35:32 - 35:38] Hey, CIA.
[35:38 - 35:41] Why don't you take that fucking car
[35:41 - 35:42] and show it up to your ass
[35:42 - 35:44] and go fuck yourself, you little bitch?
[35:44 - 35:49] For real, dude.
[35:49 - 35:50] Why don't you take your back step
[35:50 - 35:52] and faggot ass back to class
[35:53 - 35:56] and learn how to actually be a good fucking person?
[35:56 - 35:59] 'Cause apparently your parents didn't raise you right.
[35:59 - 36:00] Oh, I'm sorry.
[36:00 - 36:02] Were you raped as a child by your parents?
[36:02 - 36:03] I'm sorry, dude.
[36:03 - 36:04] There's counseling for that, bro.
[36:04 - 36:08] I'm sorry that you were raped by your parents
[36:08 - 36:09] just like Marty was.
[36:09 - 36:12] All right, dude.
[36:12 - 36:13] If you need a counselor,
[36:13 - 36:15] I can get ahold of a counselor for you.
[36:15 - 36:16] No fucking problem, bro.
[36:16 - 36:19] For real, right?
[36:19 - 36:21] You obviously need counseling, man.
[36:22 - 36:25] All right, I'm sorry you had to go through that,
[36:25 - 36:27] but like I said, bro, there's counseling for that.
[36:27 - 36:33] So you and your little friends can fuck off.
[36:33 - 36:34] Hey, Kat, why don't you show our guests here
[36:34 - 36:36] the fucking door?
[36:36 - 36:52] Hey, CIA, what I wanna know is this.
[36:52 - 36:55] What's the point of fucking trolling, bitch?
[36:55 - 36:56] What's the fucking point?
[36:56 - 37:07] For real, what's the fucking point of trolling?
[37:07 - 37:08] I don't get it.
[37:08 - 37:09] It's stupid.
[37:09 - 37:13] Grow the fuck up, you little bitch-ass high schoolers.
[37:13 - 37:43] (soft music)
[37:43 - 37:46] - Oh, this is actually a-- - People will tell you.
[37:46 - 37:49] - Why don't you go get some help?
[37:49 - 37:50] Take some meds.
[37:50 - 37:53] Go see a counselor.
[37:53 - 37:56] No, they can help you with your problems.
[37:56 - 37:59] Some people can never understand.
[37:59 - 38:02] It's a war inside your head.
[38:02 - 38:04] (soft music)
[38:04 - 38:06] ? Lately I've been distant from the world ?
[38:06 - 38:07] ? In a quiet place ?
[38:07 - 38:10] ? Feels like it might be why I definitely I can't embrace ?
[38:10 - 38:12] ? From all the hurt and all the pain ?
[38:12 - 38:14] ? Can you feel my rage growing up as bullies ?
[38:14 - 38:16] ? They consider me a basket case ?
[38:16 - 38:17] ? Things have changed ?
[38:17 - 38:19] ? The past is done and over with ?
[38:19 - 38:20] ? While I drink with a trauma ?
[38:20 - 38:22] ? Not a want my thoughts so cancerous ?
[38:22 - 38:23] ? Want my best friend to happen to die ?
[38:23 - 38:24] ? I got ?
[38:24 - 38:25] ? Can you please answer this ?
[38:25 - 38:26] ? Why am I still agonizing ?
[38:26 - 38:28] ? I'm a lass relationship ?
[38:28 - 38:29] ? Maybe I'm a dromo, take me shy ?
[38:29 - 38:31] ? I see a double, you get in my stomach ?
[38:31 - 38:33] ? Promo reaching up and never settle ?
[38:33 - 38:35] ? I've come up from the struggle ?
[38:35 - 38:36] ? I can't promise to stay at home ?
[38:36 - 38:38] ? My life is on for the trouble ?
[38:38 - 38:39] ? Not 'cause I'm a fucking dong ?
[38:39 - 38:41] ? If my thoughts get really filled ?
[38:41 - 38:42] ? But believe I will be dead ?
[38:42 - 38:44] ? I am hurt, you save my lives ?
[38:44 - 38:45] ? And sometimes I forget ?
[38:45 - 38:47] ? 'Cause my demons gaining pain ?
[38:47 - 38:48] ? Barely hanging by a thread ?
[38:48 - 38:50] ? Maybe I should board this trigger ?
[38:50 - 38:52] ? And just lay my mind to rest, yeah ?
[38:52 - 38:54] ? Lost in the music ?
[38:54 - 38:55] ? This is therapeutic ?
[38:55 - 38:56] ? Barely hanging on ?
[38:56 - 38:59] ? I don't know if I can do this ?
[38:59 - 39:02] ? Well I rise, well I fall ?
[39:02 - 39:05] ? I don't know any more ?
[39:05 - 39:07] ? Look at my reflection ?
[39:07 - 39:08] ? Ain't no versus demon ?
[39:08 - 39:11] ? Wish that I was dreaming ?
[39:11 - 39:14] ? Well I rise, well I fall ?
[39:14 - 39:17] ? I don't know any more ?
[39:17 - 39:19] ? I know you're lightly glamorous ?
[39:19 - 39:20] ? I can see it in your eyes ?
[39:20 - 39:22] ? You can't even stand yourself ?
[39:22 - 39:23] ? Your past is on ya ?
[39:23 - 39:25] ? So you go to rhyme a little ?
[39:25 - 39:28] ? House attorney every night debating if it even helps ?
[39:28 - 39:29] ? You put the body in ?
[39:29 - 39:31] ? Put the drugs, put the reefer ?
[39:31 - 39:33] ? And now you think it's problem solved ?
[39:33 - 39:34] ? 'Cause you change your people ?
[39:34 - 39:35] ? You wake up miserable ?
[39:35 - 39:37] ? It's clear you're feeding out for evil ?
[39:37 - 39:39] ? Take my hand tonight and I can promise ?
[39:39 - 39:40] ? You'll be always peaceful ?
[39:40 - 39:41] ? What about my family ?
[39:41 - 39:43] ? I can't leave a man in disarray ?
[39:43 - 39:46] ? Give it down and then we'll forget about you anyway ?
[39:46 - 39:49] ? What about my fans and the impact I had made on them ?
[39:49 - 39:50] ? Find another source ?
[39:50 - 39:51] ? They're not willing ?
[39:51 - 39:51] ? They will all of you ?
[39:51 - 39:53] ? And it's better if you don't ?
[39:53 - 39:55] ? You've got equity with many friends ?
[39:55 - 39:56] ? I bet you don't exist ?
[39:56 - 39:57] ? And that's it ?
[39:57 - 39:58] ? When you take my hand ?
[39:58 - 39:59] ? Voices need you louder ?
[39:59 - 40:00] ? You can't fight ?
[40:00 - 40:01] ? Invest the sign you will ?
[40:01 - 40:02] ? Tour me on the parking side ?
[40:02 - 40:03] ? Through the jury ?
[40:03 - 40:04] ? Give to help ?
[40:04 - 40:05] ? Lost in the music ?
[40:05 - 40:07] ? This is therapeutic ?
[40:07 - 40:08] ? Barely hanging on ?
[40:08 - 40:11] ? I don't know if I can do this ?
[40:11 - 40:12] ? When I rise ?
[40:12 - 40:13] ? When I fall ?
[40:13 - 40:13] ? When I rise ?
[40:13 - 40:14] ? When I fall ?
[40:14 - 40:17] ? I don't know anymore ?
[40:17 - 40:19] ? Look at my reflection ?
[40:19 - 40:21] ? Your presence came in ?
[40:21 - 40:23] I was dreaming
[40:23 - 40:27] Well I rise when I fall
[40:27 - 40:29] I don't know anymore
[40:29 - 40:31] I feel like giving up though
[40:31 - 40:34] Some things I can't explain though
[40:34 - 40:37] I feel like giving up though
[40:37 - 40:40] Some things I can't explain now
[40:40 - 40:44] Well I rise when I fall
[40:44 - 40:46] I don't know anymore
[40:46 - 40:50] Well I rise when I fall
[40:50 - 40:52] I don't know anymore
[40:52 - 41:20] (piano music)
[41:20 - 41:22] Alright y'all I'm finding funny as fuck
[41:22 - 41:27] All these people think they can just run out and talk all this mad shit
[41:27 - 41:30] Shout out to Ignatius by the way bro, what's good?
[41:30 - 41:32] I'll see you ma'am
[41:32 - 41:53] (footsteps)
[41:53 - 41:56] Let me give you guys a look inside my head
[41:56 - 42:00] At what I deal with every fucking night when I go to sleep
[42:00 - 42:04] Cause apparently not a lot of people understand this
[42:04 - 42:08] So let me show you what it is I deal with
[42:08 - 42:36] (piano music)
[42:36 - 42:38] Everybody use a damn and I'll snap and let go
[42:38 - 42:41] Let you wanna pull the drill with your sporty thoughts at my throat
[42:41 - 42:44] Everybody's like "No listen, I'm no longer living"
[42:44 - 42:46] These battle points could be like a mental incision
[42:46 - 42:49] I'm hiding blood right from the sun and that's trickling out my face
[42:49 - 42:52] I had all my chances, I'm in my heart right now
[42:52 - 42:54] I'm reading so fast, trying to catch my breath
[42:54 - 42:56] The fighting beat from anxiety
[42:56 - 42:59] I got a good love, I'm paralyzed as I lie
[42:59 - 43:01] In this lesson I created in my mind
[43:01 - 43:03] I'm starting to find I feel more and more sedated
[43:03 - 43:06] I swear to God I hate it, well tell me what should I do
[43:06 - 43:09] I like to have a bunch of struggles so I'll help me push through
[43:09 - 43:12] All these obstacles I'm facing every day of my life
[43:12 - 43:15] It's a heck of a feeling for you now, living ain't right
[43:15 - 43:17] Looking up from the night when I go to bed
[43:17 - 43:19] Everybody feels like I'm right when I go to bed
[43:19 - 43:22] In the fight here the good shots spring in the woods
[43:22 - 43:24] Find the ground on PG to the left
[43:24 - 43:27] Everybody get down, looking up from the night when I go to bed
[43:27 - 43:30] Everybody feels like I'm right when I go to bed
[43:30 - 43:33] In the fight where you know you're close
[43:33 - 43:35] I can't believe it, the beat is here, the beat is on
[43:35 - 43:36] Look it, look just the same
[43:36 - 43:38] Imagine waking up sweating from night tears
[43:38 - 43:41] You're screaming a shot, you like it, not like green lights
[43:41 - 43:43] It won't stop, you just thought you so hot
[43:43 - 43:45] Like you 22 bucks, we doin' it
[43:45 - 43:47] I'm going boxing deep, pretty like 2 bucks
[43:47 - 43:49] Looking up from the night, look down the ground
[43:49 - 43:51] Open the blood spots, with those hands on me
[43:51 - 43:54] I'm gonna fetch it like up top, tryna help you now
[43:54 - 43:56] I'm only thinking good shots
[43:56 - 43:58] Fist to the face like a fist when she rocks
[43:58 - 44:00] So hold me crazy, up to sea
[44:00 - 44:02] And that's what we spot in cell
[44:02 - 44:04] Wouldn't really make you see me in this trap
[44:04 - 44:07] But nah, y'all do not know who I am, I got to party
[44:07 - 44:10] Understand me, that's something that you can't got to play
[44:10 - 44:12] Like the mudshacks, look like a bug clot
[44:12 - 44:15] All because of all the wars and the blast that I fought
[44:15 - 44:18] And I'm fucking up, I guess I'm talking like a slipknot
[44:18 - 44:21] That's all I got, crap, so I feel so finished up
[44:21 - 44:23] It comes from the night when I go to bed
[44:23 - 44:25] Everybody feels like I'm right when I go to bed
[44:25 - 44:27] In the fight here the good shots spring in the woods
[44:27 - 44:30] Flying around on the jade to the left
[44:30 - 44:33] Everybody get down, we can go through these nightmares
[44:33 - 44:36] Every night still feels like I'm right when I go to bed
[44:36 - 44:38] In the fight, waking up to a pulse
[44:38 - 44:41] I can't believe it, that's easy as feet
[44:41 - 44:43] So we get the pain of me
[44:43 - 44:45] From these nightmares, you know
[44:45 - 44:48] It feels like I'm right there, right there
[44:48 - 44:51] If the gunshots ring in, the bullets flying around
[44:51 - 44:54] Bullets flying around, everybody get down
[44:54 - 44:58] Every night still feels like I'm right there
[44:58 - 45:01] Waking up to a pulse
[45:01 - 45:03] I can't believe it, that's easy as feet
[45:03 - 45:05] So we get the pain of me
[45:05 - 45:07] Every night still feels like I'm right there
[45:07 - 45:09] Waking up to a pulse
[45:09 - 45:11] I can't believe it, that's easy as feet
[45:11 - 45:13] So we get the pain of me
[45:13 - 45:15] Every night still feels like I'm right there
[45:15 - 45:17] Waking up to a pulse
[45:17 - 45:19] I can't believe it, that's easy as feet
[45:19 - 45:21] Every night still feels like I'm right there
[45:21 - 45:23] Waking up to a pulse
[45:23 - 45:25] I can't believe it, that's easy as feet
[45:25 - 45:27] So we get the pain of me
[45:27 - 45:29] Every night still feels like I'm right there
[45:29 - 45:31] Waking up to a pulse
[45:31 - 45:33] I can't believe it, that's easy as feet
[45:33 - 45:35] So we get the pain of me
[45:35 - 45:37] Every night still feels like I'm right there
[45:37 - 45:39] Waking up to a pulse
[45:39 - 45:41] I can't believe it, that's easy as feet
[45:41 - 45:43] Waking up to a pulse
[45:43 - 45:45] I can't believe it, that's easy as feet
[45:45 - 45:47] Waking up to a pulse
[45:47 - 45:49] I can't believe it, that's easy as feet
[45:49 - 45:53] Every night still feels like I'm right there
[45:53 - 45:55] Waking up to a pulse
[45:55 - 45:57] I can't believe it, that's easy as feet
[45:57 - 45:59] So we get the pain of me
[45:59 - 46:01] Every night still feels like I'm right there
[46:01 - 46:03] Waking up to a pulse
[46:03 - 46:05] I can't believe it, that's easy as feet
[46:05 - 46:07] So we get the pain of me
[46:07 - 46:09] Every night still feels like I'm right there
[46:09 - 46:11] Waking up to a pulse
[46:11 - 46:13] I can't believe it, that's easy as feet
[46:13 - 46:15] So we get the pain of me
[46:15 - 46:43] Waking up to a pulse
[46:43 - 46:45] Hey, you get started already, man
[46:45 - 46:48] Can I get everybody's attention please?
[46:48 - 46:52] Finally, we're gonna go ahead and get started here
[46:52 - 46:55] Now last week, we talked about writing a letter
[46:55 - 46:57] to someone who might have paused you in your life
[46:57 - 47:00] Now does anybody want to go ahead and go first?
[47:00 - 47:02] Yeah, I got this
[47:02 - 47:05] D.P.T.S.D's 'bout time, gotta let you go
[47:05 - 47:08] And every day that goes by, wanna let you go
[47:08 - 47:11] You stay with me and know I don't want your hair
[47:11 - 47:14] I just wanna tell you, so it's crystal clear
[47:14 - 47:16] I don't want your hair, it's not you I fell
[47:16 - 47:19] I see you, and I see myself in the mail
[47:19 - 47:22] It's all my life, all of us, it's the very start
[47:22 - 47:24] You bring it to me, all alone, broken in the dark
[47:24 - 47:27] I'm coming on, tell you baby, I'm old, so
[47:27 - 47:30] I'm moving on, I'm old, so search you for some note
[47:30 - 47:32] But there's no end, no end, no one just can't tell me
[47:32 - 47:35] Talk to the hand gang, get away from me
[47:35 - 47:38] You cheering me for the worst, shame on you
[47:38 - 47:40] You made me feel better, think that I did do
[47:40 - 47:43] And what I've been through, look what I've started to
[47:43 - 47:45] D.P.T.S.D and me
[47:45 - 47:48] I'm writing you this letter, just to let you go
[47:48 - 47:50] It's moving in time, I gotta let you go
[47:50 - 47:53] I really don't want you around anymore
[47:53 - 47:56] I'm crossing you, I like to get cold
[47:56 - 47:58] I'm writing you this letter, just to let you go
[47:58 - 48:01] It's moving in time, I gotta let you go
[48:01 - 48:04] I really don't want you around anymore
[48:04 - 48:06] I'm crossing you, I like to get cold
[48:06 - 48:08] I love myself to explain
[48:08 - 48:10] You know I ain't been the same since the day
[48:10 - 48:12] Yeah, you came from the moment that you came
[48:12 - 48:14] You always played the blame, built my friends and I changed
[48:14 - 48:16] You know my life was going straight
[48:16 - 48:18] But when you was real white, you really took me
[48:18 - 48:20] It was my fault, you made me feel guilty
[48:20 - 48:23] Can I be young enough, and you made me feel lifted
[48:23 - 48:26] You feel what I felt when I used to pick me up
[48:26 - 48:29] And you walked when I'm down in my ass, saying you up
[48:29 - 48:32] I ain't real good, don't want to actually equal suicide rates
[48:32 - 48:34] Yeah, you killing off my people
[48:34 - 48:36] Feel the cold, 'cause I really don't need you
[48:36 - 48:39] Gotta make a chance, 'cause I don't see you
[48:39 - 48:41] I'm looking at you, yeah, I reward you
[48:41 - 48:44] Watch what you like to get, but I won't warn you
[48:44 - 48:47] Yeah, I gotta be like a young soul
[48:47 - 48:49] Like the devil, I must reap you
[48:49 - 48:52] I'm writing you this letter, just to let you go
[48:52 - 48:54] It's moving in time, I gotta let you go
[48:54 - 48:57] I really don't want you around anymore
[48:57 - 49:00] I'm crossing you, I like to get cold
[49:00 - 49:03] I'm writing you this letter, just to let you go
[49:03 - 49:05] It's moving in time, I gotta let you go
[49:05 - 49:08] I really don't want you around anymore
[49:08 - 49:11] I'm crossing you, I like to get cold
[49:11 - 49:14] Yeah, it's what I'm telling you, my life is in order
[49:14 - 49:16] I'm leaving you like illegal, crossing borders
[49:16 - 49:19] Leaving you like mad men, skip the courses
[49:19 - 49:22] I'm in the time of my life, can you hear the chorus?
[49:22 - 49:24] Feelin' good when it says, "let me be"
[49:24 - 49:27] P.T.S.P., get the hell away from me
[49:27 - 49:29] 'Cause I'm only guilty, it was every slave
[49:29 - 49:32] Didn't even let me break, didn't let me live, and please
[49:32 - 49:34] I'm only okay, yeah
[49:34 - 49:38] I'm supposed to pay, I'ma beat you like I'm beatin' into me
[49:38 - 49:40] You ain't a kid to pay, yeah, you ain't a friend to me
[49:40 - 49:43] Man, don't think of something silly, you're a size aren't you with
[49:43 - 49:45] I'm writing you this letter, just to let you go
[49:45 - 49:48] It's moving in time, I gotta let you go
[49:48 - 49:51] I really don't want you around anymore
[49:51 - 49:53] I'm crossing you, I like to get cold
[49:53 - 49:56] I'm writing you this letter, just to let you go
[49:56 - 49:59] It's moving in time, I gotta let you go
[49:59 - 50:01] I really don't want you around anymore
[50:01 - 50:04] I'm crossing you, I like to get cold
[50:04 - 50:19] My trackers
[50:19 - 50:21] The guys don't know what to do with this guy
[50:21 - 50:23] My horse only walks up on here
[50:23 - 50:27] So they start looking at me, and certainly I'm set right back to it
[50:27 - 50:30] I'm the kind of supervising country that's alright
[50:30 - 50:32] Before I start this next song, man
[50:32 - 50:35] I just wanna talk about this song real quick
[50:35 - 50:40] Because of Marty, I do suffer through a lot, man
[50:40 - 50:43] I really do, I'll be straight up honest, guys
[50:43 - 50:48] I know that I look and act like I'm okay
[50:48 - 50:50] But honestly, I'm not
[50:50 - 50:52] I'm really not
[50:52 - 50:56] Every night because of what Marty has done to me
[50:56 - 50:59] I suffer from PTSD
[50:59 - 51:01] It's hard for me to fall asleep at night
[51:01 - 51:04] I barely sleep, I barely eat
[51:04 - 51:07] I'm constantly looking over my shoulder, I'm constantly scared
[51:07 - 51:10] Wondering about what he's gonna do next
[51:10 - 51:12] Who he's gonna attack next
[51:12 - 51:14] Who he's gonna go after next
[51:14 - 51:17] Who Shmekka, Kat, and Tyler are gonna go after next
[51:17 - 51:24] This is not the lifestyle that I envisioned for myself
[51:24 - 51:27] This isn't the life that I envisioned for myself and my girlfriend
[51:27 - 51:30] I didn't envision this life
[51:30 - 51:32] And for any of us
[51:32 - 51:35] I didn't fucking want this life
[51:35 - 51:38] But because of Marty, I am constantly looking over my shoulder
[51:38 - 51:41] Every fucking day because of the lives that he has spoke
[51:41 - 51:43] The things that he has done
[51:43 - 51:48] Have left me in constant fear every fucking day of the damn week
[51:48 - 51:51] Every night when I go to sleep, I don't go to a dreamland
[51:51 - 51:54] Every night I go to a fucking war with myself
[51:54 - 51:56] I go to war with my fucking nightmares
[51:56 - 51:59] Wondering why does this have to happen to me
[51:59 - 52:02] Why me? I don't fucking get it
[52:02 - 52:05] I don't understand it and I don't like it
[52:05 - 52:08] No one deserves this lifestyle
[52:08 - 52:12] No one deserves to be attacked or harassed or bullied
[52:12 - 52:16] The way that I'm getting harassed and bullied
[52:16 - 52:18] This is unfair to myself
[52:18 - 52:21] This isn't fair to you guys, this isn't fair to my family
[52:21 - 52:24] My girlfriend, this isn't fair to anyone
[52:24 - 52:27] I don't fucking deserve this
[52:27 - 52:30] I deserve to live my life in peace
[52:30 - 52:37] And it seems like no matter what I do, whether I leave the internet or not
[52:37 - 52:40] It doesn't matter, he finds a way to fucking attack me
[52:40 - 52:42] And keep on going at me
[52:42 - 52:53] I can't say I would never wish this life that I have to live on anyone
[52:53 - 53:00] I don't wish this on my worst enemy
[53:00 - 53:05] And even though I can't stand him, I wouldn't even wish it on Marty
[53:05 - 53:09] Because I'm not that kind of person
[53:11 - 53:14] Yes, I have made death threats towards Marty
[53:14 - 53:17] But the only reason why is because he pushed me to that point
[53:17 - 53:19] Of saying those things
[53:19 - 53:22] Even though I know I shouldn't
[53:22 - 53:26] Marty is the one that pushed me to that fucking point
[53:26 - 53:29] I don't deserve this
[53:29 - 53:32] No one deserves this
[53:32 - 53:38] So, Smacklecat, you can take your shitty-ass diss track
[53:38 - 53:42] And shove it up your fucking ass 'cause I'm not responding
[53:42 - 53:45] I'm not responding to you
[53:45 - 53:47] No matter what you say, no matter what you do
[53:47 - 53:50] I will not fucking respond to you
[53:50 - 53:57] This man has desecrated and attacked my dead brother
[53:57 - 53:59] For God's sakes
[53:59 - 54:05] This man attacked my dead brother
[54:05 - 54:08] Who passed away in 2015 from lung cancer
[54:08 - 54:14] Where does the boundary stop?
[54:14 - 54:16] Where does the boundary end?
[54:16 - 54:19] Where does the line get fucking drawn?
[54:19 - 54:31] Yo, guess what?
[54:31 - 54:33] That's not gonna fucking happen
[54:33 - 54:35] Because I will not kill myself
[54:35 - 54:39] I will not take my own life
[54:39 - 54:54] I refuse to bow down and take my own life
[54:54 - 54:58] Because I have something worth living for
[54:58 - 55:00] I have an amazing girlfriend
[55:01 - 55:04] Who has stood by my side through all of this
[55:04 - 55:07] Who has stood strong the entire time
[55:07 - 55:09] From the very start up to now
[55:09 - 55:12] I have an entire team of people
[55:12 - 55:16] Who see me not just as a friend, but as family
[55:16 - 55:18] And one of those people being lava
[55:18 - 55:28] 'Cause let me tell you
[55:29 - 55:32] Almost every night when I go to sleep at night
[55:32 - 55:36] Almost every night
[55:36 - 55:41] I cry myself silently to sleep every fucking night
[55:41 - 55:44] Every night
[55:44 - 55:50] Out of not understanding why this has to happen
[55:50 - 55:54] Out of wishing this would all stop
[55:55 - 55:58] No one deserves to get put through this
[55:58 - 56:01] No one deserves this
[56:01 - 56:03] At all
[56:03 - 56:08] So snugglecat
[56:08 - 56:10] You can take your shitty ass diss track
[56:10 - 56:11] And go somewhere else
[56:11 - 56:13] 'Cause I'm not responding to your bitch ass
[56:13 - 56:20] No one deserves to get put through this
[56:20 - 56:22] No one deserves this
[56:22 - 56:23] At all
[56:24 - 56:27] All I know is that I want this bully in this stop
[56:27 - 56:31] And it seems, ever since the pandemic started
[56:31 - 56:33] Is when it's gotten worse
[56:33 - 56:35] Right now, a lot of people don't know this
[56:35 - 56:37] But cyberbullying is on the rise
[56:37 - 56:40] Cyberbullying and trolling has gone up
[56:40 - 56:43] 70 fucking percent
[56:43 - 56:45] Think about it
[56:45 - 56:48] 70 percent
[56:48 - 56:51] That's a lot
[56:51 - 56:56] That's a lot of people being bullied
[56:56 - 56:57] And being trolled
[56:57 - 56:58] And being attacked
[56:58 - 57:04] Chances are you go on YouTube nowadays
[57:04 - 57:06] Chances are you go anywhere on this platform
[57:06 - 57:08] You'll find somebody being harassed
[57:08 - 57:09] Or cyberbullied
[57:09 - 57:11] Or trolled the same way that I'm getting
[57:11 - 57:14] The same way that my own girlfriend's getting
[57:14 - 57:16] The same way that my family's getting
[57:19 - 57:21] And it's not right
[57:21 - 57:30] You know, I'm just trying to live my life
[57:30 - 57:32] And do what I love to do
[57:32 - 57:37] But instead I have to sit here and worry
[57:37 - 57:40] And suffer every fucking night
[57:40 - 57:42] Every fucking day
[57:42 - 57:44] I have to look over my shoulder
[57:44 - 57:45] Be alert
[57:45 - 57:46] Be in fear
[57:46 - 57:48] Sit and wonder
[57:48 - 57:51] I can't even have a normal fucking life
[57:51 - 57:56] I can't have a normal life because of Marty
[57:56 - 57:58] Because I'm constantly looking over my shoulder
[57:58 - 58:00] Constantly wondering
[58:00 - 58:03] Who's going to attack me next?
[58:03 - 58:06] What kind of fucked up package am I going to get in the mail next?
[58:06 - 58:11] What kind of sick, twisted joker are they going to pull next?
[58:11 - 58:15] Who's the next person that's going to tell me to kill myself?
[58:15 - 58:17] What kind of sick, twisted joker are they going to kill myself?
[58:17 - 58:31] And you know what's sad about all this?
[58:31 - 58:34] Is that the police will not do a damn thing about it
[58:34 - 58:37] And that's what's sad
[58:37 - 58:39] The police here
[58:39 - 58:41] Will not do a damn thing about it
[58:41 - 58:44] Because they don't see cyberbullying
[58:44 - 58:46] As a federal crime
[58:46 - 58:48] They see it as a civil deal
[58:48 - 58:50] Well guess what motherfuckers
[58:50 - 58:52] It's not civil
[58:52 - 58:54] Open your goddamn eyes
[58:54 - 58:56] Cyberbullying and trolling
[58:56 - 58:58] Is up by 70%
[58:58 - 59:00] Since the pandemic started
[59:00 - 59:03] Which means God knows how many people
[59:03 - 59:05] Open the suicide
[59:05 - 59:12] And I myself being a survivor of that
[59:12 - 59:14] I know what it's like
[59:14 - 59:18] Because a lot of people don't know this
[59:18 - 59:20] But last year
[59:20 - 59:22] Marty pushed me to suicide
[59:22 - 59:28] Last year
[59:28 - 59:32] Around December
[59:32 - 59:35] Because of Marty and what he had been doing
[59:35 - 59:39] I had attempted to hang myself in my room
[59:39 - 59:41] I had attempted to take my own life
[59:42 - 59:44] I was right in the middle of doing it
[59:44 - 59:46] When two of my best friends
[59:46 - 59:48] Stopped me and pulled me away
[59:48 - 59:50] And saved my fucking life
[59:50 - 59:53] So I can honestly say
[59:53 - 59:55] Truthfully that yes
[59:55 - 59:58] I am a survivor of suicide and cyberbullying
[59:58 - 60:00] I am a victim of cyberbullying
[60:00 - 60:06] And if you are going through that
[60:06 - 60:07] I'm sorry
[60:07 - 60:10] I know what it's like to be there
[60:10 - 60:14] Because I am there every fucking day of the goddamn week
[60:14 - 60:16] From the time I wake up
[60:16 - 60:18] To the time I go to bed at night
[60:18 - 60:20] When I go to sleep
[60:20 - 60:22] That's literally
[60:22 - 60:25] Even then that's not even really an escape
[60:25 - 60:31] No one deserves this shit
[60:31 - 60:35] No one deserves to be put through what I get put through
[60:35 - 60:37] I don't deserve it
[60:37 - 60:38] Tantra doesn't deserve it
[60:38 - 60:39] Lala doesn't deserve it
[60:39 - 60:40] No one deserves it
[60:40 - 60:46] So Marty
[60:46 - 60:49] If you're looking to have me kill myself
[60:49 - 60:52] If you're looking for me to kill myself
[60:52 - 60:54] I got sad news for you bitch
[60:54 - 60:57] It's not gonna happen
[60:57 - 61:16] Matter of fact I want to pull something up here
[61:16 - 61:19] Because I want to make a promise to you guys right now
[61:19 - 61:22] And if any of you are dealing with the same thing
[61:22 - 61:29] Please feel free to take this pledge along with me
[61:29 - 61:34] And this pledge doesn't just apply to the military
[61:34 - 61:37] You can apply this to anything
[61:38 - 65:50] You can apply this to anything you want to do
[65:50 - 65:55] You and Marty at Shrunkalcat and everyone can fuck off
[65:55 - 66:00] On Shrunkalcat, don't think that you're going to go after Tange, man
[66:00 - 66:02] It ain't going to fucking work
[66:02 - 66:05] You want to know why? I made her alert of your ass
[66:05 - 66:09] And guess what? She knows what you look like
[66:09 - 66:13] Because your dumbass made the mistake of showing yourself on a livestream
[66:13 - 66:18] So now she knows who to fucking look for
[66:18 - 66:21] So hardass, try again
[66:21 - 66:44] [Music]
[66:44 - 66:52] Here's the thing, dude
[66:52 - 66:55] I'm not lying about shit, you fucking faggot
[66:55 - 66:59] So why don't you get the fuck out and go the fuck somewhere else, bitch
[66:59 - 67:07] [Music]
[67:07 - 67:11] And no, she didn't. The one at fault is Marty
[67:11 - 67:17] Marty brought this up because he has a sick twisted obsession with me
[67:17 - 67:21] And it's sickening
[67:21 - 67:24] So I am going to leave, you know what, I'm not even going to finish this off
[67:24 - 67:28] I'm just going to leave it right here and say this to you
[67:28 - 67:46] [Music]
[67:46 - 67:49] You know, y'all want to sit there and attack me
[67:49 - 67:52] Go ahead
[67:52 - 68:00] You want to know something? I will not stop fighting until this ends
[68:00 - 68:03] You guys can sit there and troll me all you want
[68:03 - 68:08] But the truth is I'm not backing out until Marty goes to prison
[68:08 - 68:10] Or he's dead in the ground
[68:10 - 68:13] Preferably I'd like to see him dead in the ground
[68:13 - 68:16] But I would rather do shit the legal way
[68:16 - 68:20] And see him suffer behind bars for what he's done to me
[68:20 - 68:24] My loved ones and my family
[68:24 - 68:27] I'm not going to admit to something that I didn't do
[68:27 - 68:29] I refuse to do so
[68:29 - 68:37] I will not admit to something that I did not do wrong
[68:37 - 68:40] Because like they said, they're just doing it because they want to see me dead
[68:40 - 68:44] Well guess what, me being dead is not going to happen
[68:44 - 68:48] I will not take my own life, I will not kill myself
[68:48 - 68:51] So Marty, try again fuckboy
[68:51 - 68:56] It ain't going to happen you piece of shit
[68:56 - 69:00] Like Marty, you're so fucking insecure
[69:00 - 69:05] That you feel like you have to put your insecurities on everyone else
[69:05 - 69:07] And that's sad
[69:07 - 69:16] I almost feel bad for you because you're projecting your hatred for yourself on the other people
[69:16 - 69:19] And that's not okay
[69:19 - 69:22] You need help Marty
[69:22 - 69:25] You say I'm delusional, you say I need help
[69:25 - 69:29] Look who's the one who's making videos about me every fucking day of the damn week
[69:29 - 69:33] Look who's the one who is threatening my family
[69:33 - 69:36] Blackmailing my girlfriend, blackmailing me
[69:36 - 69:40] Attacking my dead family, my dead relatives
[69:40 - 69:46] You think that shit's okay but it's not bitch
[69:46 - 69:58] It's not bitch
[69:58 - 70:24] I refuse to bow down to you Marty
[70:24 - 70:27] I won't do it
[70:27 - 70:32] I will not bow down to you or your evil ways
[70:32 - 70:42] If anything I'm going to keep on fighting and fighting and fighting until it all stops
[70:42 - 70:44] So Marty
[70:45 - 70:47] Marty
[70:47 - 71:05] You think you're winning but you're not
[71:05 - 71:11] I'm not going to bow down to you
[71:12 - 71:16] And I will not quit fighting for people like myself
[71:16 - 71:22] Yes trolling and bullying may be on the rise
[71:22 - 71:29] But you want to know something?
[71:29 - 71:37] You're going to be the first one to get brought down
[71:37 - 71:41] I can promise you that
[71:41 - 71:47] So if you have been bullied or attacked or harassed like I've been and like my family's been
[71:47 - 71:51] Just know that you're not alone
[71:51 - 71:55] There's hundreds of other people out there like yourselves and like me every day
[71:55 - 71:58] That are being bullied due to this pandemic
[71:58 - 72:06] And it causing the rising of trolling and hatred
[72:06 - 72:18] I want you to know that you're not alone
[72:18 - 72:21] If you're getting bullied like I'm getting
[72:21 - 72:25] If you're getting harassed or cyberbullying
[72:25 - 72:27] By anyone
[72:27 - 72:30] Just know that you're not alone
[72:30 - 72:34] Because I deal with this and I live with this every fucking day
[72:34 - 72:36] Every day I live with this
[72:36 - 72:43] I live in fear every day because of Marty and what he does to me and my loved ones
[72:43 - 72:53] Is it fair? No
[72:53 - 72:56] Is it right? Not even close
[72:56 - 73:00] But I can promise you this
[73:02 - 73:06] I will not stop fighting until justice is brought to Marty
[73:06 - 73:09] And he has stopped for good
[73:09 - 73:25] So fuck bullying and fuck suicide