2021-9-16 Walk with god

[2:26 - 2:29] Sorry y'all don't know how I got mutated, but
[2:29 - 2:31] Let me tell y'all
[2:31 - 2:46] Because of what y'all done to me. I've lost my way all this trolling and attacking me. I've literally lost my ways. I
[2:50 - 2:53] Just hope and pray to God that tonight. I can get that shit back
[2:53 - 3:02] I just hope and pray that I can get my life back starting tonight
[3:07 - 3:10] Because I do want my life back and I do want to be better
[3:11 - 3:18] And I feel like hanging out with people like Axel and hanging out with my friend Tessa
[3:18 - 3:21] Can we help this weekend? I feel like I can do that
[3:44 - 3:48] They go Axel
[3:48 - 3:54] You know, I do want to be a better person and I do want to get back to where I was before all this man
[3:54 - 4:00] What's up, Axel? How you doing man?
[4:01 - 4:04] How you doing buddy?
[4:04 - 4:08] Well, as you can tell man things are very rough with these people
[4:10 - 4:12] How's everybody doing?
[4:13 - 4:15] The chat
[4:17 - 4:19] From what I can tell they're doing all right
[4:19 - 4:22] That's good. How you been man?
[4:23 - 4:26] Well, it's good
[4:26 - 4:31] Yeah, and you know and again, dude, I do apologize for earlier. It's just you know
[4:31 - 4:36] Like I said, man, that was a year and a half of bento banger that I held in that I
[4:36 - 4:41] Basically forced myself to hold back and finally when Helen came on and just all right
[4:42 - 4:47] That's fine. Um, I think it's time to pray, you know
[4:48 - 4:53] Absolutely, man, because you know, like I just said I like I've been saying, you know
[4:54 - 4:57] Well, when you had once you asked the the chat
[4:58 - 4:59] Would
[4:59 - 5:01] Well, they'd like to pray with you
[5:02 - 5:04] What do you guys see man? Y'all want to pray with us?
[5:17 - 5:22] Do you want to pray chance and make your wrongs?
[5:23 - 5:27] Right with God, you know and uh be a better person
[5:29 - 5:31] Honestly, dude
[5:31 - 5:36] More than you know, man
[5:36 - 5:40] And I know that I haven't done this before so forgive me. Well, this is my first time doing this
[5:40 - 5:45] But it is, you know, just know that it is coming from the heart. Y'all
[5:47 - 5:50] Because as you know, we would would you people?
[5:51 - 5:53] Do you people want to pray with chance?
[5:53 - 6:01] And uh, would you pray with me? I hope you would
[6:03 - 6:04] Oh, absolutely
[6:04 - 6:07] Because you know, it it doesn't matter what you believe
[6:08 - 6:12] Have most of us we we believe in God. So
[6:14 - 6:16] And uh
[6:16 - 6:22] And I am trying to get chance to see the light and his wrongs
[6:24 - 6:26] And uh, I correct them, you know
[6:27 - 6:30] And uh
[6:30 - 6:33] So do you guys want me to pray with you?
[6:34 - 6:36] Would you like me to pray with chance?
[6:38 - 6:40] A lot of the chat's saying yeah, so
[6:42 - 6:54] Let's do it. All right folks here we go
[6:55 - 6:57] We're gonna pray, you know, it's
[7:00 - 7:02] Here we go. So
[7:02 - 7:04] heavenly father
[7:04 - 7:06] I ask you today that
[7:09 - 7:11] the wrongs that chance has done
[7:12 - 7:14] in this community and
[7:15 - 7:20] He's he's done a wrong a lot a lot lord. And I think he knows this
[7:21 - 7:23] um
[7:23 - 7:25] We we all know a person so
[7:26 - 7:30] But we do our best
[7:30 - 7:33] Jesus and almighty I ask you to
[7:34 - 7:36] Get chance to be a better person
[7:39 - 7:40] Don't rage
[7:40 - 7:43] And it doesn't matter
[7:43 - 7:46] situations that he finds that
[7:46 - 7:49] It's too tough for him
[7:49 - 7:51] We all deal with that every day, you know
[7:54 - 7:55] Jesus
[7:55 - 7:57] I beg you to
[7:58 - 8:00] Touch chance and
[8:00 - 8:03] I beg you deep in my soul, you know
[8:03 - 8:05] I
[8:06 - 8:09] I beg you to for anybody that
[8:11 - 8:13] does not know God that
[8:13 - 8:15] experience and and do
[8:17 - 8:19] Try to make chance to better person what he is
[8:23 - 8:26] sometimes you knew your friend, you know, it and uh
[8:28 - 8:30] Me being a bully the way I was
[8:30 - 8:32] and
[8:32 - 8:34] It's it's tough when
[8:38 - 8:40] You got to be there for people, you know, and
[8:42 - 8:46] it's uh
[8:46 - 8:51] This is my first time I'm sitting here. I'm praying and I'm sitting there leaving and trying to talk to
[8:53 - 8:58] How many people is sitting there watching this and and we can continue watching
[9:02 - 9:09] Pray for him encourage him do right and and like I said, we we we know his faults, but
[9:11 - 9:15] You know, it's us up to us to make him a better person
[9:17 - 9:21] And that he will not commit the kind of crimes again, you know
[9:23 - 9:28] Um, I want to be in heaven one day and I want my kids there and
[9:30 - 9:32] I love us all to be there, you know, and uh
[9:33 - 9:35] And uh, I do my best
[9:36 - 9:38] I work hard
[9:38 - 9:40] I
[9:40 - 9:42] I did the bully situation
[9:42 - 9:45] The trouble situation is it's it's not right
[9:50 - 9:52] If chance doesn't want to
[9:52 - 9:56] Accept that
[9:56 - 9:58] and do better
[9:58 - 9:59] then
[9:59 - 10:02] You did your part
[10:02 - 10:04] but we had to be
[10:07 - 10:09] together, you know
[10:09 - 10:10] and
[10:10 - 10:16] We we I don't I don't think any of us know is
[10:17 - 10:19] truly his life
[10:19 - 10:22] Um, and I don't think he's really
[10:23 - 10:25] I think he's really done a lot of mistakes
[10:25 - 10:36] All I ask is forgiveness
[10:36 - 10:38] and
[10:38 - 10:40] If chance has issues
[10:40 - 10:42] he's committed
[10:43 - 10:45] problems that
[10:45 - 10:49] You can find God Jesus and try to get him help and
[10:50 - 10:53] Try to do the right thing, you know, it's
[10:54 - 10:58] I don't support what he did and I think we all know that but
[11:00 - 11:04] Sometimes we all we all make mistakes, you know, and uh
[11:06 - 11:10] So I'm I'm just speaking to you as a friend and
[11:15 - 11:18] you know, try to help chance out and uh
[11:19 - 11:22] I love you guys. I really do. I love you all
[11:24 - 11:29] For except for one you join two talk circles that my son, but I still love you
[11:30 - 11:31] and
[11:31 - 11:34] I don't think uh
[11:34 - 11:38] I would probably smack you and uh make you meet the truth, but
[11:39 - 11:44] Besides that part I still love you and uh, I can forgive you too, you know
[11:46 - 11:50] and um
[11:51 - 11:53] Chance chance can't change on his own
[11:54 - 11:56] He needs people
[11:56 - 11:59] Encourage him
[11:59 - 12:01] getting him help
[12:01 - 12:07] Whether it's leaving his house and going to a facility. He needs help. So
[12:08 - 12:10] uh
[12:10 - 12:13] For the folks that really wants to see him change
[12:13 - 12:18] Um, you have to help him out because maybe he never did have that in his life, you know
[12:20 - 12:22] And and uh, I love you guys
[12:24 - 12:28] and uh
[12:28 - 12:34] Let's pray and uh, hope we'll be friends and uh, that's it. I'm done. So
[12:35 - 12:37] Love you chance. Um
[12:38 - 12:43] I'm gonna be on your ass. I'm going to push you and I want to ride you
[12:44 - 12:47] I want you to get help
[12:47 - 12:49] And I hope these people do too. So
[12:50 - 12:52] Yeah, and like I said, you know
[12:53 - 12:57] During my last few streams and I don't think anybody really understands this
[12:58 - 13:00] Is that with the white people?
[13:00 - 13:02] So for anything you're right like
[13:03 - 13:07] We like a lot of people don't understand this but when I first
[13:08 - 13:14] You know came on to like the youtube scene and the music scene and all this stuff like
[13:15 - 13:17] I kept getting screwed over
[13:17 - 13:20] played led down the wrong roads and
[13:21 - 13:23] being led down those wrong roads is kind of
[13:24 - 13:30] You know what led me to this play and now it's like, you know, I tell people all the time like, you know
[13:31 - 13:34] I need those people to be okay as long as they're okay
[13:34 - 13:38] I know that I'm okay because they helped me to be okay. You know what I mean
[13:40 - 13:42] Like those people that support me
[13:42 - 13:46] Every time I tell y'all that I need you guys to be okay
[13:47 - 13:54] It's because you guys being okay helps me to be okay. You guys helped me to do so fucking much and
[13:55 - 13:58] Like he said, you know, I do want to be a better person
[13:58 - 14:00] I do want to
[14:00 - 14:04] You know be able to do the things that I want to do with my life, but I can't do it alone
[14:05 - 14:08] I need your guys's help to be able to do this shit
[14:09 - 14:14] I need y'all to you know help get me away from you know these
[14:15 - 14:17] people that have basically
[14:18 - 14:20] Took my life away from me
[14:20 - 14:25] You know like because of these people and what I've been through
[14:25 - 14:32] You know, I lost, you know, one of my dream jobs that I had at the time. I lost my best friend
[14:33 - 14:38] You know, I lost a lot of stuff over time due to all this and honestly
[14:39 - 14:44] Like I want to change all that, you know, I want to be able to say hey
[14:44 - 14:48] I get to do what I love for a living. I want to be able to sit there and say hey
[14:48 - 14:53] This is what I'm doing for a living. I can I'll be able to sit there and be like hey
[14:53 - 14:55] You know
[14:55 - 14:57] Like not everybody gets the chance to do this
[14:58 - 15:01] But this is what I get to do for a living and I love what I do
[15:01 - 15:06] I want to be able to say that hey I get to help people through my music and my artwork
[15:07 - 15:10] You know for a living, but I can't do that alone guys
[15:11 - 15:18] I need your guys's help to you know guide me down that path to where I'm not getting screwed over anymore
[15:18 - 15:22] I need that guidance back down to the right path
[15:22 - 15:26] And I will admit it's because of people like eric scrub below
[15:26 - 15:31] Who essentially used me and I didn't see that I was being used that
[15:32 - 15:35] Led me down that wrong road and led me to this point
[15:36 - 15:41] I need your guys's help man. I can't do this alone and that's why I am
[15:42 - 15:45] You know taking a month off of youtube to
[15:46 - 15:47] You know sit down
[15:47 - 15:53] Work on my artwork do things that do things I should have done a long freaking time ago
[15:53 - 15:56] Instead of sitting here on my fucking ass
[15:56 - 16:00] Worrying about these trolls and what other people fucking think of me
[16:00 - 16:06] Great as some of that criticism, you know was good criticism like with um
[16:06 - 16:09] What was that one dude like even some of um
[16:11 - 16:13] What's his freaking name
[16:13 - 16:15] Skull kid
[16:15 - 16:19] Even though me and him don't get along even he had some good advice for me
[16:20 - 16:25] There's some advice that krip k gave to me when me and him were talking and we were good friends
[16:25 - 16:27] He gave me some good advice
[16:27 - 16:33] You know and that's the kind of shit that I need like I need that guidance so I can make what I love
[16:34 - 16:38] Of reality so that my parents aren't worrying about me
[16:38 - 16:40] You know when they're dead and gone granted
[16:40 - 16:44] Yeah, I'll have a family to stay with but what I need
[16:45 - 16:50] Is to make what I love a reality and I need your guys's fucking help to do that
[16:51 - 16:55] I can't do this on my own anymore. I've been doing this on my own for 10 years
[16:56 - 17:00] For 10 years. I've been led down the wrong road and it's time to change all that
[17:01 - 17:05] It's time to take back what I lost and get that shit back
[17:06 - 17:09] And I need your guys's help to do that
[17:10 - 17:17] If you guys can help me do that, I'll start putting out new music. I'll start writing, you know better songs. I'll start doing
[17:18 - 17:24] You know more poetry. I'll start doing more really cool artwork that you guys want to see me do
[17:24 - 17:26] But I need your guys's help to do it, man
[17:27 - 17:33] For 10 years, I've been led down the wrong road by the wrong people and it needs to change
[17:34 - 17:38] Everybody does and I need your guys's help to do it
[17:40 - 17:44] If you guys can promise me that you guys will help me to get to where I want to be
[17:45 - 17:48] I'll give you nothing but my best work every goddamn time
[17:49 - 17:51] I'll pour my heart and soul in every fucking song
[17:52 - 17:56] Every fucking art and piece. I'll pour my heart and soul into that shit
[17:58 - 18:00] But I need your guys's help to do that, man
[18:01 - 18:04] I need y'all's help to you know do that
[18:05 - 18:08] And guess what? Do we got somebody over here pretending to be you?
[18:11 - 18:13] We got somebody backstage with your name
[18:20 - 18:27] Yo, yo axl is that you?
[18:28 - 18:30] Yeah
[18:31 - 18:36] Uh, what happened to your other one, dude? He's like I I thought somebody was there with you
[18:37 - 18:39] Yeah, no, I'm here
[18:43 - 18:45] I think you got a troll account that
[18:47 - 18:49] Yeah, I've seen that
[18:49 - 18:51] But you know like I say guys
[18:52 - 18:54] If you guys can help me to
[18:54 - 18:56] You know do this
[18:56 - 18:58] I will give nothing but the
[18:59 - 19:01] My best for you guys every fucking time
[19:02 - 19:04] You know, I'll pull the
[19:05 - 19:07] The troll count is still alive
[19:07 - 19:09] Stoper
[19:09 - 19:13] And no, I think that's I think that was yours. Hey, let me double check and see
[19:14 - 19:16] All right. Yeah, that was your other one. Okay
[19:17 - 19:19] Uh, yeah, that's what
[19:19 - 19:25] Yeah, that wasn't a troll account. I guess what happened is it glitched out and it like
[19:26 - 19:32] You know the stream yard is weird like that stream yard has been known to do weird stuff
[19:33 - 19:36] But like I was saying man, if you guys can help me
[19:37 - 19:45] To get to where I need to be as far as you know keeping these trolls away from me keeping these rumors about me
[19:46 - 19:51] You know at bay and allowing me to like actually sit down and you know
[19:52 - 19:54] Write better songs
[19:54 - 20:00] Put out better stuff like if you guys can help you got me in that right direction to where I can be successful
[20:00 - 20:08] I promise you guys I will give you guys nothing but 110 of my best fucking work just like I used to do
[20:09 - 20:12] My last album I put out was in 2018
[20:13 - 20:17] I did not put out a legitimate album like that since 2018
[20:18 - 20:24] And I think it's about time I got back to that. It's about goddamn time. I took my freaking life back
[20:25 - 20:28] Sorry god didn't mean to take your name in vain, but I do apologize
[20:29 - 20:34] But you know, it's about freaking time. I took my life back when you say man
[20:35 - 20:36] yep
[20:36 - 20:40] It's about damn time. I took my freaking life back
[20:41 - 20:48] And what massive reports and can when everybody including Eric struggle have taken away from me over these last 10 years
[20:49 - 20:50] 10 years
[20:50 - 20:55] I've had to lose my freaking life going down the wrong road because I got guided
[20:55 - 20:58] By some freaking idiot that wanted to freaking use me
[20:59 - 21:03] For their own gain and ever since it just snowballed into what it is now
[21:04 - 21:10] And honestly, it's about damn time. I took my freaking life back and that's why
[21:11 - 21:19] Over the next month. I'm gonna be you know, not be posting really like I'll do like little update videos like once a week or so
[21:20 - 21:22] But other than that, I'm gonna be
[21:22 - 21:25] Working on my music helping out around the house a lot more
[21:25 - 21:31] So I haven't been helping out around the house. I've been I haven't been but I'm gonna be doing a lot more of that
[21:31 - 21:36] I'm gonna be I might do a vlog or two of me hanging out with my friends like I used to do
[21:37 - 21:40] Like everybody knows my dude, my brother Jake
[21:40 - 21:42] He's not really my brother, but he's my best friend
[21:42 - 21:46] But we've known each other for so many years that you know, he's you know, family
[21:46 - 21:52] Like I'll be hanging out with him a lot more. Um, I'll be doing stuff with him like
[21:52 - 22:00] I'm gonna be doing stuff. But over this next month guys. I am taking this next month off to really focus and
[22:01 - 22:04] You know give myself back to where I need to be
[22:05 - 22:08] I'm gonna start focusing on my music more. I'm gonna start
[22:09 - 22:14] You know working on more artwork like I used to do I'm gonna start looking into
[22:15 - 22:20] You know where I can release my music to do because I know there's a lot of a lot of people are telling me
[22:20 - 22:22] you know go independent and
[22:23 - 22:26] I'm gonna try that again. I'm gonna give it another shot
[22:26 - 22:30] Because a lot of people are you know, you guys are right when I looked into the whole
[22:31 - 22:33] music scene stuff I saw
[22:34 - 22:37] You know what really goes on and I don't want to be screwed over like that
[22:38 - 22:43] You know, I want to be able to say hey, I do what I love. I do it independently, you know
[22:44 - 22:48] Like I want to get out but I need your guys's help to do it
[22:48 - 22:51] So if you guys can help me out in any way whether
[22:52 - 22:54] it's you know
[22:54 - 23:00] Checking in on me once in a while see how I'm doing or whether it's finding a distribution company
[23:01 - 23:07] That I can distribute you through for free and get me started or whether what do you see a video of?
[23:08 - 23:09] You know some stuff that you think
[23:09 - 23:17] Can help me or you know plugins for FL studios that you think could you know better my voice or whatever it is
[23:17 - 23:22] I'm doing, you know, that's the kind of shit. I need. I don't need this garbage
[23:23 - 23:25] I'm honestly tired
[23:26 - 23:30] Being led down the wrong road because like I said these past few days
[23:31 - 23:34] Like before yesterday and the week and the day before that
[23:35 - 23:38] I was sick as a dog because I was so stressed out
[23:40 - 23:44] From all the negativity being brought on that I was physically
[23:45 - 23:49] Sick my energy was drained and I don't want that again
[23:49 - 23:54] Because I'm afraid the next time that happens that if the key's going I'm gonna end up in the hospital
[23:55 - 23:58] Then where all of me
[23:58 - 24:02] You know and I don't think anybody here wants it. I know I actually don't want to see me
[24:02 - 24:05] Frickin lay up in a hospital bed talking from a damn hospital
[24:10 - 24:12] I don't think you'd want to see that would you?
[24:19 - 24:23] so, I mean, you know, I want to get back to where I was guys and
[24:24 - 24:26] I'm gonna need your guys's help
[24:27 - 24:33] And actually I do want to say thank you for helping me out as much as you did man and
[24:33 - 24:40] I hope that you know when I start this journey back into my music and into my artwork full time or the next month
[24:40 - 24:44] That you know, you'll tell me if you know my song is shit. I gotta redo it
[24:45 - 24:48] by all means I'm the game
[24:48 - 24:50] like, you know
[24:50 - 24:53] Or there's something that you feel like to do better on
[24:53 - 24:56] Art-wise or music-wise don't be afraid to tell me
[24:59 - 25:04] But as for the rest you guys man, I need your guys's help to get me back on that right track
[25:06 - 25:11] I can't do this on my own anymore. I'll start putting out music videos as much as I possibly can
[25:12 - 25:14] I'll actually I'm not sure it's night gonna be
[25:15 - 25:21] I'm researching a video editor that will actually work with my Chromebook not crash over five seconds
[25:22 - 25:24] So that I can start
[25:24 - 25:26] you know
[25:26 - 25:31] Filming music videos. I'm gonna start, you know, looking for a memory card that will work with
[25:32 - 25:36] You know my camera so I can start doing professional
[25:37 - 25:41] Video work again like I used to for a while
[25:43 - 25:46] but
[25:46 - 25:48] you know
[25:48 - 25:51] Like I said, I need your guys's help to do that man
[26:05 - 26:09] Yo Courtney, what up? There's yo Courtney if you want to hop on here's the one girl
[26:09 - 26:11] How do you last song?
[26:13 - 26:24] Did you like on your baby?
[26:24 - 26:36] Yo lava, what up?
[26:36 - 26:44] You want to say something there's there's a quote that I live by guys and I think corny and even axl will agree with me on this
[26:46 - 26:52] And this actually comes straight from the metalcore band suicide silence rest in peace to mitchlocker
[26:54 - 26:55] um
[26:55 - 27:00] And the quote goes like this and I do plan on getting it tattooed on me a hundred percent
[27:00 - 27:03] Like since I get the money I do plan on getting a tattoo for it
[27:04 - 27:07] And the same the lyrics go like this
[27:07 - 27:11] You only live one life for a very short time. So make every second design
[27:13 - 27:15] And that's a very true statement
[27:19 - 27:21] Yeah, I got I got like
[27:22 - 27:26] 12 barges. I gotta put together in the morning like in two hours
[27:27 - 27:29] It's like
[27:29 - 27:31] yeah
[27:31 - 27:34] But you know and like I was saying, you know
[27:35 - 27:39] Those lyrics like those speak a lot of truth and I know axl
[27:39 - 27:41] I know you'll agree with that too
[27:41 - 27:48] The lyrics you only live one life for a very short time. So make every second design. Like that speaks so much true
[27:49 - 27:51] You do your best. It's like
[27:51 - 27:55] I gotta get up in like three hours and buttoe and
[27:56 - 27:57] Yeah
[27:57 - 27:59] Man, I definitely do appreciate
[28:01 - 28:03] I'm sitting here laying in like a little twin buck
[28:04 - 28:12] Yeah, yeah, I'm on a boat. I'm on like I'm on like a
[28:13 - 28:15] 4000 horsepower boat
[28:15 - 28:16] and
[28:16 - 28:22] Yeah, so yeah, I'm like on a train here on a big one and shit. Yeah, right
[28:23 - 28:26] And I you know, I got my fleece blanket
[28:27 - 28:33] Let go over top of me, you know, and I got my uk blanket because I'm from Kentucky
[28:34 - 28:40] For some of you for some of you troves that wants to know where I came from I'm from Kentucky
[28:41 - 28:44] So there you go a sport uk wildcats
[28:45 - 28:47] Uh
[28:48 - 28:51] You know, it's funny is um, I was born in alaska
[28:51 - 28:56] But I was actually raised out in bellingham washington state which is like the outskirts the major
[28:57 - 29:00] You know backwoods country. So I get it
[29:01 - 29:03] I was raised in eastern kentucky
[29:05 - 29:06] Uh
[29:06 - 29:10] My my genes are fucked up because my on my
[29:11 - 29:13] other side is
[29:14 - 29:18] My grandmother my great-grandmother was she was had jerky. She was had black foot
[29:19 - 29:21] Oh nice. I've actually got
[29:21 - 29:23] 116 I think
[29:24 - 29:26] And my great-grandpa
[29:26 - 29:30] Or I was in my football. He married my grandmother. She was
[29:30 - 29:32] Jewish german
[29:32 - 29:37] And they married and her met in 37 and married in 38
[29:37 - 29:41] Yeah, my dad was born in 1940, you know, oh wow
[29:42 - 29:44] yeah
[29:44 - 29:47] So you're like me dude. You got a long family history
[29:48 - 29:53] I got english, jerky, black foot and strong german. So
[29:53 - 29:58] Nice I got german, dutch, jerky and irish in me
[30:00 - 30:01] right
[30:01 - 30:06] So i'm i'm gonna make sure a little i'm a mud as a as a lot of people like to say i'm a bit of a mud
[30:06 - 30:13] I got a little bit of everything i mean, right and seriously i like you man, but i want i want to take like
[30:13 - 30:18] three four air balloons and i want to tie tie them to your arms
[30:19 - 30:21] Hahaha
[30:21 - 30:23] Go flying
[30:23 - 30:28] You would you would be the one to do that until you piss your pants
[30:28 - 30:30] You wouldn't be the one to do that
[30:31 - 30:35] Then i'm gonna be down there like a dark down. I'm gonna shoot you down a little bit
[30:37 - 30:40] Oh hell now you're trying to scare them straight out of me, bro
[30:42 - 30:45] Oh, yeah, i'm military. Yeah, you know, I would
[30:46 - 30:50] Oh, I know you would I know you're crazy as would do you're crazy
[30:52 - 31:00] Dude, you're dude. You're just like my brother jake man. You and him. I swear to god are the exact same y'all both would be the one to do that to me
[31:01 - 31:04] Oh, yeah, dude. I would like three four
[31:06 - 31:08] balloons helium balloons to you
[31:09 - 31:11] and just let you float, you know
[31:12 - 31:13] and
[31:13 - 31:17] Until you shit your pants or like you piss your pants or something like that, you know
[31:17 - 31:18] and
[31:18 - 31:25] Holden pretty guy holding all I gotta say man. Is you better holding pretty guy that she got me tied to is tightest book because
[31:25 - 31:27] I'm gonna be freezing the fuck out
[31:29 - 31:34] Dude, dude, I've seen so much death. I I don't like to see anybody get hurt
[31:35 - 31:38] It's if anything I do it's all good fun
[31:39 - 31:40] All right
[31:40 - 31:46] Hey, all I got to say is if you do do that to me, man, make sure I got a freaking parachute attachment that way if I do fall
[31:46 - 31:48] I got something to save my ass
[31:52 - 31:57] Just saying man, I don't need the freaking v ended up in the damn hospital calling my mom's from the hospital
[31:57 - 32:00] I'll be like I ended up in the hospital
[32:00 - 32:05] What happened took a 30,000 foot drop from a hot air ball and when I'll tear shoot didn't open
[32:07 - 32:09] As far as I've been
[32:09 - 32:15] And if that don't kill me, I know damn well, she would my ass be buried six feet under
[32:16 - 32:22] If you fall out 30,000 feet, dude, you're dead. Yeah, I know. Well, there is one dude that actually survived
[32:27 - 32:33] Yeah, yeah
[32:39 - 32:42] But yeah, dude, there was actually a dude on the news
[32:42 - 32:45] Um, I forget when it was it was like a couple years ago
[32:46 - 32:47] but this dude was uh
[32:47 - 32:52] Doing uh, not base jumping, but um, he was actually doing skydiving
[32:53 - 32:55] and he got about
[32:56 - 32:58] 30,000 feet from the ground
[32:58 - 33:01] went to open his shooting and didn't open
[33:01 - 33:04] and he actually landed and
[33:05 - 33:09] Surprisingly all he wanted to lay with was literally a couple broken
[33:10 - 33:12] Like he walked away with two broken legs
[33:13 - 33:15] and like a broken wrist and I'm just like
[33:16 - 33:21] How is it like how like, you know, John must have been watching out from that day
[33:22 - 33:25] Falling down for 30,000 feet and you walk away with a couple broken
[33:25 - 33:27] Bones like bro, you're lucky
[33:28 - 33:31] Yeah, because I'm not no paratrooper
[33:31 - 33:33] Or I don't skydive
[33:34 - 33:42] I have jumped out or playing a couple of times at like 30, you know 30 35,000 feet and uh
[33:43 - 33:49] For somebody to survive that it's like, yeah, yeah, you're lucky you're like
[33:51 - 33:54] You're more than lucky because uh, oh, yeah
[33:56 - 34:03] You're like as close to Jesus as I would say because that is hard to survive, you know
[34:04 - 34:07] Right, you know, and they do say though and this is very true
[34:09 - 34:11] I jumped 20,000 feet with a friend of mine
[34:12 - 34:14] And I was a bitch
[34:14 - 34:18] And what I mean bitch at 25 20,000 feet is that
[34:19 - 34:23] You know, skydiving you're right. You know what I'm saying like you're in the middle
[34:24 - 34:25] right
[34:25 - 34:26] and
[34:26 - 34:28] We landed hard and
[34:30 - 34:31] And
[34:31 - 34:35] When they wanted to tell you got to put your legs up and all this and that, you know
[34:35 - 34:38] And that was 20,000 feet and no
[34:38 - 34:40] Uh
[34:40 - 34:43] I felt I felt the land and uh
[34:43 - 34:48] But for somebody to survive that yeah, that's that's that's pretty tough or
[34:49 - 34:54] Right like in a matter of fact, I believe the video is still on youtube somewhere like it's
[34:55 - 35:01] Is it like and you know it's like they saying it's very true, you know, the lord does work in mysterious ways
[35:02 - 35:04] Well, you know
[35:04 - 35:09] And I got on it dude. God must have watched me out for him that day for sure
[35:10 - 35:12] right and and part of me is like
[35:13 - 35:15] I'm an asshole and
[35:16 - 35:20] I I've I've been on the side with bullying and
[35:22 - 35:26] Stuff like that when I when I first said earlier tonight and uh, yeah
[35:27 - 35:30] um
[35:30 - 35:34] I love I love more in my life beside my son
[35:35 - 35:41] To see somebody to succeed, you know, it was like, you know, and it's like I told you
[35:43 - 35:47] Right, you know, it's like I told you and the people in this chat, you know
[35:48 - 35:51] Over this the next month, you know, I'm gonna be you know
[35:52 - 35:58] Focus on just really focusing on stuff that I should have been focusing on a long time ago
[35:58 - 36:01] You know because you know what when you die
[36:02 - 36:05] You're going to places you're going to heaven or you're going to hell
[36:05 - 36:07] Exactly
[36:09 - 36:12] Uh, you got you you got man, you really
[36:14 - 36:17] You gotta be a good person, dude. I really think that
[36:20 - 36:21] It's just you know, and
[36:21 - 36:27] And I know you like didn't say this directly, but I kind of caught on the way you were saying a bit
[36:27 - 36:31] Is you know how people, you know, they misunderstand me
[36:32 - 36:34] So much like they take stuff
[36:35 - 36:39] At such base value that you know, they don't get to see
[36:40 - 36:42] You know who I really am
[36:42 - 36:45] You know outside of all this like they don't see, you know
[36:46 - 36:53] When I hang out with my friends how I'm chill and goofing off and doing shit or you know, how
[36:54 - 36:56] You know, I sit down
[36:56 - 37:00] And I try to you know do stuff that I enjoy like they don't
[37:00 - 37:04] See that and I feel like it's because they don't see that
[37:04 - 37:06] That they feel like oh
[37:06 - 37:08] This is what he's all about
[37:08 - 37:11] They don't see anything past that all they see is that
[37:12 - 37:16] So they don't see like oh this dude's actually a really chill dude
[37:16 - 37:19] And this guy's actually really cool. This guy's actually funny
[37:20 - 37:22] Like there's a video. I don't know if
[37:23 - 37:29] Uh marty might still have it on the archive channel that he made about me or I still don't know who made the
[37:29 - 37:35] Archive channel on me, but whoever you are. Thank you because I found a lot of videos that we wanted to reupload on that channel
[37:35 - 37:37] So thank you
[37:38 - 37:42] But um, there was a vlog that I did with my best friend jake where
[37:42 - 37:49] Me and him were just hanging out and you know, just goofing off and I feel like if people got to see
[37:50 - 37:54] More of that side of me and they got to see me put out, you know more good music
[37:54 - 37:57] They'll probably be like, oh this dude's actually
[37:58 - 38:04] A chill guy like he's not how people think he is and that's kind of why you know
[38:04 - 38:10] I'm gonna take this next month, you know off from doing, you know live streams and you know posting every day to
[38:11 - 38:13] You know hang out with my friends and
[38:13 - 38:17] You know focus on that stuff. You know what I mean? Yeah
[38:18 - 38:22] That way, you know, I'm not stuck in that rut and I could
[38:23 - 38:26] Get myself out and you know do the things that I need to do
[38:29 - 38:33] Yeah, exactly Courtney. Exactly. As a matter of fact, Courtney let me post that
[38:34 - 38:36] Coming up. I definitely agree with that
[38:42 - 38:44] Like, you know, I do
[38:46 - 38:50] I'm gonna continue listening to you, but I'm getting off here, but uh, I
[38:52 - 38:55] Yeah, and hey, it was good having you on here, man. I was always
[38:56 - 38:58] And we're talking we're talking tomorrow
[38:59 - 39:02] Oh, yeah, absolutely, man. And again, dude, I want to say thank you
[39:02 - 39:05] You know, not just on behalf of myself or my family
[39:06 - 39:10] But on behalf of those, you know that do support me, man that do want to see me
[39:10 - 39:13] You know do better, man, and I want to have myself, man
[39:14 - 39:16] Thank you for everything you've done to help me, dude
[39:17 - 39:20] Like I told you you've done more for me in the last few hours than
[39:21 - 39:23] Most have done for me in a year
[39:24 - 39:28] Okay, so I appreciate that man and I'll do my best, you know
[39:29 - 39:34] Hell yeah, man. I appreciate you listen to me and but I'm gonna go get off live stream, but
[39:35 - 39:40] All right, man. All right, man. All right, buddy. Take it easy, man. I'll talk to you tomorrow, brother. Be safe
[39:41 - 39:43] All right, brother. All right. Take it easy, man
[39:46 - 39:50] And ask three y'all. I'll be right back. Just want to go get my dogs some water right quick
[39:51 - 39:53] And I will be right back guys
[43:21 - 43:25] What's up guys, I'm back
[43:25 - 43:27] I'm blocked
[43:27 - 43:29] Got to get my dogs some fresh water
[43:30 - 43:32] What is up? What is up? What is up?
[43:34 - 43:36] How are you, friends and brothers?
[43:36 - 43:47] What's up with all y'all crazies?
[43:49 - 43:51] What is good? What is good? What is good? Good
[43:55 - 43:59] Now what am I gonna do? I'm gonna do something a little bit different
[44:09 - 44:11] Yo, I didn't block you dude. I was
[44:12 - 44:20] Bro, I was downstairs taking care of my dog. All right, so I wouldn't I wouldn't know if here. I didn't see what happened
[44:21 - 44:23] But for you guys, I am gonna do something here
[44:25 - 44:27] I take the straps off of this
[44:40 - 44:42] So here I do have it on acoustic mode
[44:44 - 44:47] At least I think I do
[44:47 - 44:49] No, it's not even plugged in. What the
[44:49 - 44:51] Green hold on y'all
[44:51 - 44:55] Let me find the plug for this and get a plug back in
[44:55 - 44:58] There it is
[44:58 - 45:44] All right, yeah, let's plug it back in. I'm not saying where the hell did my
[45:46 - 45:53] Ticks going on guys. I need to put this thing back in
[45:54 - 46:00] But this is getting on my nerves
[46:03 - 46:09] Whoa, there we go
[46:10 - 46:20] I don't see what that's gonna plug back in
[46:21 - 46:23] Yeah, I guess my we're gonna mind
[46:24 - 46:26] I was like, what is that?
[46:27 - 46:40] Oh, no, I know
[46:40 - 46:51] Okay, bro, that'd be weird go through 14 24 hours
[46:51 - 47:19] I want to do something. I've never done before on this channel for a long. I have done it. I want to play
[47:22 - 47:24] um
[47:24 - 47:26] A song for you guys that
[47:27 - 47:31] I ain't ever you know done on this channel for you guys
[47:31 - 47:51] Oh, I said that
[47:51 - 47:56] I'm gonna turn this up just a 10 bit
[48:03 - 48:06] You know, I was not planning on doing this man, but it's all good
[48:44 - 48:50] You
[52:03 - 52:05] With the top created app that lets you to pop the checks
[52:29 - 52:31] Oh, who the fuck blocked
[52:36 - 52:44] My god, seriously
[52:45 - 52:48] Who the fuck
[52:48 - 52:50] Block my dude
[52:50 - 52:52] Come on people
[52:52 - 53:06] Hold up. Or is that the same guy? I heard it. No, I'm the wrong guy
[53:07 - 53:09] man
[53:09 - 53:13] Sorry, too. I thought that was you that got blocked man. I was about to say bro
[53:20 - 53:22] I was about to
[53:24 - 53:26] I was about to flip dude
[54:21 - 54:24] Now I do want to give a huge shout out to these guys right here
[54:25 - 54:27] Um, this song actually has helped me a lot
[54:32 - 54:36] So to the band wake me I want to say a shout out to you guys
[54:37 - 54:39] Fucking love y'all man. You guys are a bunch of good dudes
[54:40 - 54:42] Um, this one's for you guys
[55:29 - 55:32] So
[59:09 - 59:12] Okay, I got you
[59:12 - 59:32] I got you on some michael jackson stuff, bro. Hold up. I got you on some michael jackson, bro
[59:40 - 59:43] Did again
[59:43 - 60:05] Let's go here
[60:05 - 60:07] And this one's gonna be a rock style one
[60:13 - 65:21] This is gonna be fun
[80:38 - 80:42] Now this final song is my last one before I take my month break
[80:43 - 80:47] So if you guys have been rocking one of this long this one's for you guys
[82:23 - 82:26] And many of you guys might remember this movie
[82:49 - 83:05] That's it
[87:03 - 87:05] Again, thank you to
[87:09 - 87:13] Thank you to axl for helping me out, bro. I appreciate it
[87:14 - 87:19] And to all you guys that do support me. I promise you when I come back here in four to five weeks
[87:20 - 87:23] I promise you guys I will be better than I've ever been before
[87:24 - 87:28] And I promise you guys I will give you 110 of myself each and every time
[87:30 - 87:32] I love you guys and I will see you guys in
[87:34 - 87:36] I'll see you guys in five weeks
[87:36 - 87:38] I love you guys
[87:39 - 87:44] Be safe be humble. I might do some uploads here and there like what'll update videos
[87:46 - 87:48] But for the next
[87:48 - 87:52] Five weeks, I've got studying to do. I've got
[87:53 - 87:55] Stuff to get together
[87:55 - 87:57] I got things I need to get done
[87:58 - 88:02] So, uh
[88:02 - 88:06] I love you guys and I'll see you guys in five weeks and
[88:07 - 88:10] Like I said, I'll have an update video for you guys here in there
[88:11 - 88:15] And uh, yeah, I love you guys
[88:16 - 88:18] Stay humble stay positive
[88:19 - 88:21] Uh, keep me in your prayers
[88:23 - 88:27] Um, like I said, you guys have any way to help me out
[88:27 - 88:29] You know
[88:29 - 88:33] Hand me a you guys know how to hit me up, you know message me on discord
[88:34 - 88:36] Uh message me on facebook
[88:37 - 88:41] You guys got my address you guys are more than welcome to send me stuff
[88:41 - 88:44] 100% you guys are more than welcome to send me stuff
[88:45 - 88:48] You know, whether it's letters or whatever it is
[88:49 - 88:51] You know
[88:51 - 88:54] and in case you guys didn't know my birthday is in
[88:58 - 89:02] My birthday is in about five days and a half an hour. What was that?
[89:04 - 89:10] Oh, yeah, so today's the 15th my birthday is actually in five days and a half an hour
[89:10 - 89:13] So not seeing you guys happy, but if y'all want to send me some
[89:14 - 89:17] You know stuff from my birthday or whatever
[89:17 - 89:22] Hit me up. Let me know. We'll talk or if y'all want to send me a letter or a card or whatever
[89:23 - 89:25] By all means feel free to
[89:26 - 89:29] Um, I will be checking in and doing updates
[89:30 - 89:32] As much as I possibly can
[89:33 - 89:37] But um, I love you guys and I'll see you guys in about five weeks
[89:39 - 89:43] I got some studying to do. I'm gonna take the rest of the night to hang out with my friends
[89:43 - 89:45] Roll back
[89:45 - 89:48] Chill out might play some rock at league or something. I don't know
[89:50 - 89:53] But uh, I love you guys because tomorrow I got to get up early
[89:53 - 89:59] I got some music studying to do. I got to study how to use that feel properly again and all that stuff
[89:59 - 90:01] So I got a lot to do tomorrow
[90:02 - 90:07] Um, I love you guys and I'll catch you guys in the next update video
[90:08 - 90:09] I love you guys
[90:09 - 90:11] I like to catch you guys later
[90:11 - 90:15] Be safe and I'll see you guys my weeks. Love you guys