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[0:07 - 0:16] All alone in your glass lights, lie awake till the sun's out. In the sky when you come down.
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[0:20 - 0:29] Empty in your driveway, caffeine for the heartache. Never wanna holler my way.
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[0:32 - 0:38] Yeah, I attempted to kill myself in my room today. Now you just fuckin' stand till I'm right.
[0:38 - 0:44] God damn it, what else can I fuckin' say? I don't know what else to do, I'm so sick of everybody.
[0:44 - 0:51] Like, money constantly attacking me constantly coming after me. Ticking everything I love away from me.
[0:51 - 0:58] All for what made all be a revetous, healthy, and acid in the past. God damn this shit, it fuckin' rain.
[0:58 - 1:07] All alone in your glass lights, lie awake till the sun's out. In the sky when you come down.
[1:07 - 1:11] Sometimes I wanna fuckin' scream, I'm on the way, I don't know.
[1:11 - 1:18] Sometimes I just wanna scream and run away because of everybody that own ways attached to every single fuckin' day.
[1:18 - 1:25] I'm just a sick of it, what? Kick me and kick the never-happier knife. God damn, now because of everybody, they attacking me.
[1:25 - 1:33] Nobody wanna see me fuckin' happy, now family made a fuckin' leave me. Yeah, this shit ain't fuckin' fair to either of us, huh?
[1:33 - 1:42] No, that you didn't wanna leave, but God, she had no choice but to fuckin' leave.
[1:42 - 1:49] Don't we in the game play? I'm waiting on the way to come to wash it all away.
[1:49 - 1:59] But I don't know, don't we in the game play? Let me go, church. Don't we in the game play?
[1:59 - 2:07] Every single day I've been looking around wondering why I got there and why am I even here on the circuit again.
[2:07 - 2:12] It's like everybody wanna see me die, nobody ever wants to see me cry, nobody wants to see me succeed.
[2:12 - 2:19] It's like, she doesn't think she had no choice, now I just don't know what to do, I don't know what to do anymore.
[2:19 - 2:28] I'm so sick of everything around me, sick of living, sick of being a knocker, shouldn't even be here on this fuckin' earth anymore.
[2:28 - 2:36] God damn, this shit. This shit ain't fuckin' fair to me, every single day it's like everybody want a piece of me.
[2:36 - 2:54] I'm waiting on the way to come to wash it all away. I just wanna get my life back, I just wanna get my life back on the right track, wanna get the current of my dreams back and get away from all this fuckin' drama, man.
[2:54 - 3:16] Maybe then I'll be happy again, which I wish I knew what to do, this shit ain't fair, I didn't deserve this.
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[0:00 - 0:16] What is going on guys, it's ya boi, the one and the only, the real shadow boi. Today I
[0:16 - 0:25] bring forth the actual proof that I not only own the styro, not the styrospin and then
[0:25 - 0:38] only I own that too, but I'm here to prove that I own 100% am owner and sole owner of
[0:38 - 0:55] the Shadow Blade name. Now, let's get to work, shall we? Yo spabs, what's good homie? You
[0:55 - 1:15] better not be porn bombing shit nigga, if you want I'm kicking your ass. Now, let's
[1:15 - 1:31] take a look, shall we, at what BMI is and how I own thy name through this. Now, first,
[1:31 - 1:50] let's watch this little video on what BMI is. Turn up so ya'll can hear it. Welcome
[1:50 - 1:56] to BMI's registration tutorial. In this video, we'll look at the basic process for registering
[1:56 - 2:04] works online at BMI.com. Step one, head to BMI.com and log into your online services
[2:04 - 2:30] now, let's go, what is BMI? Let's go here. What is BMI music? Let's see. Okay, now let's
[2:30 - 2:51] go. I'm going to walk you through the entire form as I register. No, no, no. Are you an
[2:51 - 2:57] independent artist looking to connect with your biggest fans and make more money? No,
[2:57 - 3:02] no, no. Listen up, because Zoom offers these tools and more. With Zoom, it's easy for an
[3:02 - 3:08] artist to connect with their fans. You don't have to pay thousands of dollars. Did you
[3:08 - 3:13] know that years ago, jazz, blues, country, Latin R&B were routinely shut for being played
[3:13 - 3:18] on the radio due to there only being one PRO in America and they were turning away
[3:18 - 3:23] musicians from this genre. If you want to know what PRO was turning away musicians
[3:23 - 3:28] and the true differences between BMI and ASCAP from someone who actually worked at BMI, then
[3:28 - 3:33] keep on watching. Now I am Taniya Coates. I formerly worked for one of the biggest companies
[3:33 - 3:37] in the music business, BMI. I have helped thousands of musicians with their royalties
[3:37 - 3:40] from the smallest of the smallest, making pennies of dollars, to the biggest, to the
[3:40 - 3:45] biggest, making millions. So I truly know the ins and outs of the royalty game and
[3:45 - 3:50] with my series, Music Money Mondays, I would help you to step up your royalty game. So
[3:50 - 3:54] for the best music business advice from someone who actually worked in the industry, subscribe
[3:54 - 3:58] to my channel and hit the little bell notification so you can be notified when I post a new
[3:58 - 4:04] video every Music Money Monday. You don't want to miss it, nope. Now in today's video,
[4:04 - 4:08] I am going to be telling you the benefits and differences between BMI and ASCAP, some
[4:08 - 4:11] that no one else will tell you. I will also be giving you a little bit of history of
[4:11 - 4:15] the companies and if you stay tuned till the end of the video, you will be getting
[4:15 - 4:21] my free demo sheet to let you know what to do if you are unhappy with your PRO. So let's
[4:21 - 4:27] get into it. Now if you are a music maker, a songwriter, a producer, you must be signed
[4:27 - 4:34] up to a PRO if you want to be able to earn royalties for your music. Now PROs are just
[4:34 - 4:39] performing rights organizations who are the only people who are able to collect the royalties
[4:39 - 4:46] for you when your music is played on TV, radio, at a concert, at a restaurant, on YouTube,
[4:46 - 4:51] on Spotify and Pandora. They are the only people who can get your royalties for you.
[4:51 - 4:57] Now in America, the two biggest and top PROs are ASCAP and BMI but they are actually the
[4:57 - 5:02] biggest in the world so it doesn't matter where you are from, any country in the world
[5:02 - 5:07] you can join BMI or ASCAP. Now the question is which one should you join or if you are
[5:07 - 5:13] already a member of a PRO, is that one truly the best one for you? Well, I'm about to give
[5:13 - 5:17] you the benefits and the differences. Okay, so one of the biggest differences with BMI
[5:17 - 5:23] and ASCAP is with the sign up fee. So when you sign up to join with ASCAP, they're going
[5:23 - 5:28] to charge you a $50 fee to sign up as a writer or they're going to charge you a $50 fee
[5:28 - 5:34] to sign up as a publisher. Now with BMI, they're going to charge you nothing, zero dollars,
[5:34 - 5:38] to join as a writer and if you want to join as a publisher, then they're going to charge
[5:38 - 5:47] you $150 to $250, $150 is if your publishing company is individually owned and $250 is
[5:47 - 5:53] if your company is owned by a partnership, LLC, corporation. Now you do not have to
[5:53 - 5:56] have a publishing company, you can sign up just as a writer and still be able to collect
[5:56 - 6:24] your publishing share through the writer account. Now, now that we have that. Here we go, it
[6:24 - 6:40] does BMI copyright your music. Your composition is copyrighted automatically when the work
[6:40 - 6:47] is created, which the law defines being fixed in a copyright and a copy or recording for
[6:47 - 6:54] the first time. The register of your copyright is recommended but not required. Granted,
[6:54 - 7:01] they do not copyright it for you, but there is a loop right here. Your composition is
[7:01 - 7:18] copyrighted automatically when the work is created. Now, let's go back to BMI. Works
[7:18 - 7:38] registration. That one's already registered, we're good with that. Ah, here we go, works
[7:38 - 7:46] catalog. Here's all my catalogs of the names that I fucking own. Cyrax, Cyrax official,
[7:46 - 7:53] Cyrax, Shadow Blade, War Studios, and War Studios, LLC, which is my personal fucking
[7:53 - 8:09] art studio. Now, let's go here to Shadow Blade. Work title, Shadow Blade, BMI, work number,
[8:09 - 8:23] LLC, date registered, 8/13 or no, yeah, 8/13/2020, songwriter/composer, myself, publisher, manuscript.
[8:23 - 8:53] So, yeah, try again, skull bitch. Try again, skull kid. Here's the thing, skull
[8:53 - 9:00] kid, what you don't realize is when you create the work, your shit is automatically copywritten.
[9:00 - 9:09] That is an automatic deal, my dude, which means one thing, you lose, bitch, because
[9:09 - 9:13] the minute I created the Shadow Blade name and started writing music under that name,
[9:13 - 9:22] that name automatically falls under my fucking name. So, yeah, try again, bitch. It ain't
[9:22 - 9:30] about whether you buy it or not. It's about the ownership, bitch. And I am the one true
[9:30 - 9:57] sole owner, fuck boy. Yo, ASFAS, put in the comments if that's you, dog. Yo. Yeah, I don't
[9:57 - 10:05] trust that. So, try again, skull kid. And just like with publishing, dude, one thing
[10:05 - 10:13] they don't tell you with publishing a book, the minute that you start writing the book,
[10:13 - 10:17] your shit's automatically published under your name. You automatically own that shit.
[10:17 - 10:24] The same with writing music. So, the minute that I started writing music under my original
[10:24 - 10:31] Shadow Blade name, guess what? All of that shit that I wrote and recorded under my Shadow
[10:31 - 10:38] Blade name are all of my alternative names. Guess what? I own every single one of them.
[10:38 - 10:47] I own the name. I own the rights to it, motherfucker. So, try again, bitch, boy. You want a name?
[10:47 - 10:54] Get your own fucking name and keep minding out your motherfucking mouth, you little fucking
[10:54 - 10:55] bitch.

[0:00 - 0:14] What is fucking good YouTube? I got a little something for ya!
[0:14 - 0:26] So Skull Kid, you want to prove that I own the Shadow Boy named Fuckboy?
[0:26 - 0:32] Let me talk to ya for a minute and show ya, son!
[0:32 - 0:38] Wow, sit on this nice hot big-ass cup of coffee, boy.
[0:38 - 0:44] Remember to show ya'll right now.
[0:44 - 0:52] As ya'll can see, BMI right here, right?
[0:53 - 1:01] When we go back to page here, let me go to Work's catalog.
[1:01 - 1:05] As you can see right here, my list of names.
[1:05 - 1:08] Cyrax, Cyrax official, official Cyrax.
[1:08 - 1:14] Oh look, Shadow Blade, War Studios, War Studios LLC.
[1:14 - 1:19] Let's focus on the Shadow Blade name for a moment.
[1:19 - 1:23] Work title, Shadow Blade.
[1:23 - 1:28] Date registered, 8/13/2020.
[1:28 - 1:41] Songwriter/composer, me, shares, 2000% or 200% which means I get all the shares from it.
[1:41 - 1:52] As you can see right here, as you can clearly fucking see, son.
[1:52 - 1:59] Matter of fact, let's go to Work's registration.
[2:02 - 2:12] I'm in World Art, that was for my artwork.
[2:12 - 2:18] Royalty students, let's see what this is.
[2:18 - 2:21] Alright, so I don't have any royalties yet.
[2:21 - 2:27] But dude, I own the name, bitch.
[2:28 - 2:39] Here, I'll even fucking put it up close for you guys, hold up.
[2:39 - 2:51] As you guys can see, look, Work Title, Shadow Blade.
[2:51 - 3:03] Right there is the BMI logo, Work Title, Shadow Blade, Songwriter/composer, my name, manuscript.
[3:03 - 3:12] Date recorded, Date registered, right here, 8/13/2020.
[3:12 - 3:22] Which I hadn't recorded, I hadn't done before that, but I went in and re-registered for this year.
[3:22 - 3:30] So, try again, Skullbitch.
[3:30 - 3:34] And Skullkid, you better watch the fuck out, boy.
[3:34 - 3:36] You wanna know why?
[3:36 - 3:43] 'Cause if you don't back down, I will lyrically skull fuck your goddamn skull, bitch.
[3:43 - 3:50] Yes, that is a copyright.
[3:50 - 4:00] Once you register with BMI, your work is automatically copywritten and registered, as well as trademarked.
[4:03 - 4:07] So yeah, try again, Skullbitch.
[4:07 - 4:12] Oh, I will, for fucking sure.
[4:12 - 4:27] I just wanted to make this live little video to show you guys that I do own the name, I do own all the copyrights, I own the trademark, I own everything, bitch.
[4:27 - 4:29] Try again.

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[0:00 - 0:17] I'm the People, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, sometimes I look at the sky and I wonder why, if you're good though you don't put brows eyes on one of the same groups so I perfectly can't stand up ghastly.
[0:17 - 0:37] We don't fuck but it is, but it is, yes, it is, that shit, but it is. We don't know what path, way I fuckin' chose, or parades, and heartbreaks, and fuckin' jokes, so I just go with the flow, go with the boat, and deal with the pain, 'cause all the same, but the feeling's up, and I scream and shout out to the guy, I need to pray, I need to pray, you do.
[0:37 - 0:49] If you're a bad bitch, be nice to us, and nice to us, and feel that you're not with me, wait, wait, just let me be, swear I say it, with really bad energy.
[0:49 - 1:00] I've been around the world, and I see some things, I wonder if you have a bag, and I feel the light, and I'm in a bag, but I don't have to put that shit on my bag, with a bad bag, and I'm gone.
[1:01 - 1:30] Yo, I've been around a block, with some demons, you seen that to me, every single day, it's Sunday, getting to these fuckin' waking screams, they always wanted to, tryna fuckin' murder me, every single day, I go back, it's night, every single day, and night, it's kinda like God, got these demons fuckin' taking over me, every single night, they wanna fuckin' kill me, they wanna do, over my motherfuckin' heart,
[1:30 - 1:59] so, goddamn, I feel like I'm about to risk a coconuts, everybody yours, wanna see me fall, don't wanna see me fail, they don't realize that I got a deal, not the way to be side of me, that is ready to come out and, motherfucker, pay, come and get me, motherfucker, you will not survive, do the fuckin' night, guarantee that I am the nightmare in your motherfuckin',
[1:59 - 2:28] go ahead, bitch, try to fuck with me, see if I don't leave you fuckin' naked, see if I don't leave you fuckin' bleeding on a motherfuckin' ground, go ahead, bitch, go ahead, turn around and see that body bag, jump in, 'cause at the end of the day, that is where you got a motherfuckin' night, after I'm done, look around, you, I guarantee that, when you're in that body bag, you're on my way,
[2:28 - 2:40] you're gonna be in the dark and evil place, down in the depths of hell, I know, what you never see, you fuckin' scream, yeah
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[0:00 - 0:19] A Marty, you spineless coward.
[0:19 - 0:26] I hope you're happy.
[0:26 - 0:39] Because of you, I lost the one thing that means more to me than anything in the fucking
[0:39 - 0:56] world.
[0:56 - 1:04] Because of you, I lost my reason to fight.
[1:04 - 1:13] Because of you, I lost everything.
[1:13 - 1:24] Because of you, the person I loved lost everyone in her family.
[1:24 - 1:38] Because of you, Caitlyn's family will no longer speak to her, and because of you, because
[1:38 - 1:49] of you and what you've done Marty, I lost my will and my reason to fight.
[1:49 - 1:57] Because of you, I've lost everything.
[1:57 - 2:16] Because of your lies, because of you, I've become the soulless heartless demon.
[2:16 - 2:39] Because of you, you've enough, and you think it's okay to do what you did.
[2:39 - 2:59] Because of you, I lost everything.
[2:59 - 5:49] Because of you, I've become the soulless heartless demon.
[5:49 - 6:05] Because of you, Marty, I've lost everything that means the world to me.
[6:05 - 6:19] And what I don't understand is why.
[6:19 - 6:26] After I apologized to you, and I told you I was sorry for what I said.
[6:26 - 6:30] Why couldn't you just leave well enough alone?
[6:30 - 6:33] I don't get it.
[6:33 - 6:36] I didn't deserve what you did to me.
[6:36 - 6:41] Caitlin didn't deserve what you did to her family.
[6:41 - 6:46] Because of you, her family abandoned her.
[6:46 - 6:51] And where is that fair to her?
[6:51 - 6:55] You sorry, son of a bitch.
[6:55 - 7:05] Because of you, Caitlin's family now wants nothing to do with her.
[7:05 - 7:11] And like I said, where is that fair to her?
[7:11 - 7:18] Because of the lies that you told about me.
[7:18 - 7:27] Because of the bullshit that you did to me.
[7:27 - 7:31] I think it's time you tell the fucking truth, Marty.
[7:31 - 7:40] You and I both know that I'm not the way that you and Tyler are making me out to be.
[7:40 - 7:52] It's time to tell the truth, Marty.
[7:52 - 7:55] Why'd you stop being an old bitch, coward, Marty?
[7:55 - 7:58] And tell the goddamn truth?
[7:58 - 8:06] And stop running your mouth like a fucking bitch?
[8:06 - 8:11] You fucking bitch made coward.
[8:11 - 8:24] I hope you run, hell.
[8:24 - 8:33] I'm gonna tell you the same way that I always do.
[8:33 - 8:46] This is the last time that I'll fake for the sake of being with you.
[8:46 - 8:55] The sacrifice of hiding in a way.
[8:55 - 9:05] The sacrifice is never knowing why I never walked away, why I blame myself this way.
[9:05 - 9:14] Now I see you're testing me, pushes me away, why I never walked away, why I blame myself this way.
[9:14 - 9:19] Now I see you're testing me, pushes me away.
[9:19 - 9:28] I'm trying like you to do everything you wanted to.
[9:28 - 9:42] This is the last time that I'll fake for the sake of being with you.
[9:42 - 9:51] The sacrifice of hiding in a way.
[9:51 - 10:01] The sacrifice is never knowing why I never walked away, why I blame myself this way.
[10:01 - 10:10] Now I see you're testing me, pushes me away, why I never walked away, why I blame myself this way.
[10:10 - 10:19] Now I see you're testing me, pushes me away.
[10:19 - 10:28] The sacrifice of hiding in a way.
[10:28 - 10:38] The sacrifice is never knowing why I never walked away, why I blame myself this way.
[10:38 - 10:47] Now I see you're testing me, pushes me away, why I never walked away, why I blame myself this way.
[10:47 - 11:08] Now I see you're testing me, pushes me away.
[11:08 - 11:23] Now I see you're testing me, pushes me away, why I never walked away, why I never walked away, why I never walked away.
[11:23 - 11:44] I see you're testing me, pushes me away, why I never walked away, why I never walked away.
[11:44 - 11:54] Now I see you're testing me, pushes me away, why I never walked away, why I never walked away, why I never walked away.
[11:54 - 12:02] Now I see you're testing me, pushes me away, why I never walked away, why I never walked away.
[12:02 - 12:41] Now I see you're testing me, pushes me away, why I never walked away, why I never walked away, why I never walked away.
[12:41 - 12:51] Now it's me, I remember what they taught me, remembering conversation and talking who I ought to be, remember listening to all of that and this again.
[12:51 - 13:00] So I pretended to be the person who was fitting in and now you think this person really is me and I'm trying to find the truth.
[13:00 - 13:09] I'm trying to put the moral flow in the way because I'm letting my way from now.
[13:09 - 13:15] Never let me push aside, so let me go.
[13:15 - 13:41] Let me think about my life, I'd rather be shot alone, can't I wear it on my own, cause I can say, the very worst part of you, the very worst part of you, just me, like this.
[13:41 - 14:06] Like this, like this, like this now, I wanna be pushed by, don't let me go.
[14:06 - 14:25] Let me think about my life, I'd rather be shot alone, can't I wear it on my own, cause I can say, the very worst part of you, the very worst part of you, it's me.
[14:25 - 14:47] Go ahead Marty, why don't you tell the motherfucking truth you spineless bitch.
[14:47 - 15:03] Why don't you tell the fucking truth you spineless coward. Why don't you tell the whole world how you forged my name on a fake legal document.
[15:03 - 15:13] Why don't you tell the world about how you stole private videos between me and my ex and posted them up on a fucking porn site.
[15:13 - 15:34] Why don't you tell the world about how you went behind my back and Caitlin's back and made me look like a piece of shit to her family who has now disowned her because of you and your selfish actions and your selfish greed.
[15:34 - 15:39] You couldn't leave well enough alone could you motherfucker.
[15:39 - 15:44] I apologize to you and what do you do.
[15:44 - 15:56] You call it me for revenge. I didn't deserve what you did to me. Caitlin and her family didn't deserve what you did to them or to her.
[15:56 - 16:14] Not because of you, Caitlin is now gone back to being a cold hearted person like she used to be. And now because of you, I have now become this heartless, soulless demon that I used to be.
[16:14 - 16:21] Because of you, I've become this way. Because of you, I am made this way.
[16:21 - 16:29] You think I wanted to be like this. What you did was uncalled for.
[16:29 - 16:39] What you did was sickening.
[16:39 - 16:51] Now because of you, I not only lost the woman that I love, who meant the whole fucking world to me.
[16:51 - 17:05] But my girl, the one that I loved, lost her fucking family, who now will no longer speak to her because of you.
[17:05 - 17:13] And you think that's funny, don't you? You and your little fucking troll minions, you think that's fucking funny, I'll bet.
[17:13 - 17:21] Well the truth is, motherfucker, it's not funny and it's not okay.
[17:21 - 17:25] You're a spineless coward.
[17:25 - 17:34] And honestly, you deserve to have a bullet between your goddamn head. You deserve to have a bullet in your fucking head.
[17:34 - 17:42] You deserve to have your fucking sweat thrown. You deserve to have your throat slit. You deserve to have a bullet between your eyes.
[17:42 - 17:49] You deserve to rot in hell.
[17:49 - 17:52] Follow me to green's comfort.
[17:52 - 17:56] Damn it, guys.
[18:10 - 18:12] (mumbling)
[18:38 - 18:42] ? My style, the lines in my mind ?
[18:42 - 18:46] ? I can't rely on myself, my style ?
[18:46 - 18:49] ? I don't mind, I can't rely on myself, my style ?
[18:49 - 18:53] ? It's all time ?
[18:53 - 18:58] ? It's all too much to take ?
[18:58 - 19:03] ? I can't all time ?
[19:03 - 19:08] ? The fire I feel you're seeking here ?
[19:08 - 19:15] ? When I'm trying to seem senseless ?
[19:15 - 19:19] ? Trying to try to not be on time ?
[19:19 - 19:22] ? But I'm trying to catch mommy out, run ?
[19:22 - 19:24] ? There's another cancer ?
[19:24 - 19:26] ? There were sounds in the sense of the answer ?
[19:26 - 19:28] ? My style ?
[19:28 - 19:30] ? When I give my mind to my ?
[19:30 - 19:32] ? I can't rely on myself, my style ?
[19:32 - 19:34] ? Ow, in my mind ?
[19:34 - 19:38] ? I can't rely on myself, my style ?
[19:38 - 19:41] ? It's all time ?
[19:41 - 19:45] ? It's all too much to take ?
[19:45 - 19:50] ? I can't all time ?
[19:50 - 19:55] ? The fire I feel you're seeking here ?
[19:55 - 20:10] I want you to know Marty that because of you and what you've done to Caitlin I almost killed
[20:10 - 20:37] myself twice within 48 hours no no no no no no no no no no no I can't hold on it's
[20:37 - 21:05] all too much to take and I can't hold on it's all too much to take and I can't hold on the
[21:05 - 21:34] thoughts of you and let me tell you right now Marty
[21:34 - 21:45] because of what you've done everything that you've done the other day the other day because
[21:45 - 21:53] of you Marty I almost took my own life twice in a row within 48 hours because of you and
[21:53 - 22:05] what you've done to me you're lucky that I have an amazing support system you're lucky
[22:05 - 22:14] that I have friends that actually helped me because it wasn't for my friends to Marco
[22:14 - 22:25] Brittany and Ted I wouldn't be here right now and more importantly if I wasn't for Caitlin
[22:25 - 22:32] stepping in the last minute on my final attempt I wouldn't be here right now and guess what
[22:32 - 23:01] if I wasn't here my blood and my death would be on your hands
[23:01 - 23:10] and to Caitlin if you're watching this I want to reel you back Caitlin if you're watching
[23:10 - 23:20] this I'm still here and I'm still fighting I'm not giving up not yet the fight is far
[23:20 - 23:31] from over I will come here to drink today feel cold and static for a cold feet on the
[23:31 - 23:38] floor for God know about yesterday remembering I'm pretending to be who I'm not and see some
[23:38 - 23:44] hypocrisy left in the way get a mistake told to react is so close to me you're still so
[23:44 - 23:57] distant yeah I can't bring you back yes trial the way I feel was promised by your face the
[23:57 - 24:12] sound of your voice paint down my memories even if you're not with me I'm with you with
[24:12 - 24:21] you you made me hear me back we fall to the floor the rest of the day say it's still
[24:21 - 24:26] fine because it's not when things go wrong I'm pretending the past is the real I'm trapped
[24:26 - 24:32] in this memory you're left in the wake in the mistake so to react is still close to
[24:32 - 24:41] me you're still so distant yeah I can't bring you back it's trial the way I feel was promised
[24:41 - 24:54] by your face the sound of your voice paint down my memories even if you're not with me
[24:54 - 25:14] I'm with you with you with you
[25:14 - 25:41] no no matter how far we've come I can't wait to see tomorrow no matter how far we've come
[25:41 - 26:03] I can't wait to see tomorrow with you with you with you
[26:03 - 27:55] no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no
[27:55 - 28:17] no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no
[28:17 - 28:28] this time man I will not die I'll wait here for you in my time of dying
[28:42 - 29:01] I will not die I'll wait here for you I feel alive when you're beside me I will not die I'll wait here for you in my time of dying
[29:01 - 29:21] I will not die I'll wait here for you I will not die when you're beside me I will not die I'll wait here for you in my time of dying
[29:21 - 29:23] now
[29:23 - 29:48] I will not die I'll wait here for you I'll wait here for you I will not die I'll wait here for you I'll wait here for you in my time of dying
[29:48 - 30:18] you know a lot of you guys might be sitting there wondering why why I'm breaking down so much
[30:18 - 30:28] but if you guys got put through what I got put through maybe then you would understand
[30:28 - 30:45] imagine losing the one that you love that you care about so much to a lie and a rumor spread by your worst enemy to your loved one's family
[30:45 - 31:07] who abandoned her all because of a lie because of Marty I lost Caitlin the love of my life the one person that actually made me happy after 11 years of abuse
[31:07 - 31:28] 11 years of abuse back to back to back and Caitlin changed all that when she came into my fucking life she showed me compassion she showed me what true love really is
[31:28 - 31:40] she showed me that I could be myself again if I chose to it's because of her that I went back to being who I should have been the entire fucking time
[31:40 - 32:01] it's because of her that I went back to being the lovable happy me that was at 16 years old before I even started this fucking journey
[32:01 - 32:24] because of you Marty I lost everything I lost the one thing that was worth getting out for I lost the one person that means the more to me than you will ever fucking understand
[32:24 - 32:39] I just wish you understood my pain
[32:39 - 33:05] and if Caitlin's watching this Caitlin I want you to know that I love you
[33:05 - 33:21] and I'm waiting and I'm here
[33:21 - 33:35] living on a fearless, guilty and broken town inside living with myself nothing but lies
[33:35 - 33:49] I always thought I'd make it but knew I'd let it get so bad living with myself is all I have
[33:49 - 34:04] I feel numb I can't come to life I feel like I'm frozen in time living in a world so cold
[34:04 - 34:24] wasting away living in a shell with no soul since you got away living in a world so cold counting the days since you got away
[34:24 - 34:47] you got away do you ever feel me do you ever look deep down inside staring at yourself paralyzed
[34:47 - 35:02] I feel numb I can't come to life I feel like I'm frozen in time living in a world so cold
[35:02 - 35:23] wasting away living in a shell with no soul since you got away living in a world so cold counting the days since you got away
[35:23 - 35:45] you got away from me I'm too young to lose my soul too young to feel restored for so long
[35:45 - 35:55] from living on I feel like I'm loose in my mind
[35:55 - 36:00] do you ever feel me
[36:00 - 36:11] when you know this side staring at your life paralyzed living in a world so cold
[36:11 - 36:25] wasting away living in a shell with no soul since you got away living in a world so cold
[36:25 - 36:39] counting the days since you got away you got away from me I'm too young
[36:39 - 36:47] too young!
[36:47 - 36:54] I'm too young to live in a world so cold
[36:54 - 37:09] wasting away living in a shell since you got away from me
[37:09 - 37:31] I've been crossed I've been crossed I've been shaken by the ones that kept me off
[37:31 - 37:45] I've been cut I've been opened up I've been shattered by the ones I thought I loved
[37:45 - 37:54] you left me here like a chalk outline on the sidewalk waiting for the rain to wash away
[37:54 - 38:03] you keep coming back to the scene of the crime where the dead can't speak and there's nothing
[38:03 - 38:16] left to say anyway oh you're never behind here's a chalk outline
[38:16 - 38:29] I've been called in the crypt but not as the cold as the words across your lips
[38:29 - 38:42] you'll be sorry baby some day when you reach across the bed where my body used to lay
[38:42 - 38:50] you left me here like a chalk outline on the sidewalk waiting for the rain to wash away
[38:50 - 38:59] wash away you keep coming back to the scene of the crime where the dead can't speak and
[38:59 - 39:12] there's nothing left to say anyway oh you're never behind here's a chalk outline oh you're
[39:12 - 39:36] the chalk outline oh you're never behind you keep coming back to the side of the sidewalk
[39:36 - 39:47] waiting for the rain to wash away wash away you keep coming back to the scene of the crime
[39:47 - 40:09] where the dead can't speak and there's nothing left to say anyway there's a chalk outline
[40:09 - 40:11] you
[40:11 - 40:16] can't speak and there's nothing left to say
[40:16 - 40:26] oh you're never behind here's a chalk outline
[40:26 - 40:54] I don't belong here not in this atmosphere
[40:54 - 41:08] goodbye goodbye goodbye I don't belong here not in this atmosphere
[41:08 - 41:14] goodbye goodbye goodbye I can tell you can't get no punch
[41:14 - 41:26] it caught in the face and I was in the race I was in the race yeah yeah
[41:26 - 41:36] there's a thousand times being humankind keeping up with the pace keeping up with the pace yeah
[41:36 - 41:50] yeah I think running I think you're running think you're running the human face the human
[41:50 - 42:07] face you know it's under nine then the logo blind take it down to see is on the sea yeah
[42:07 - 42:17] don't fall beyond no finish line it could happen to you it can happen to me yeah
[42:17 - 42:44] I don't belong here not in this atmosphere goodbye goodbye goodbye
[42:44 - 42:53] I can't get no punch it caught in the face and I was in the race I was in the race yeah
[42:53 - 43:10] human race think you're running I think you're running I think you're running on the human race the human race
[43:10 - 43:25] I don't belong here not in this atmosphere goodbye goodbye goodbye
[43:25 - 43:53] I don't belong here not in this atmosphere goodbye goodbye goodbye goodbye goodbye goodbye
[43:53 - 44:19] I don't belong here not in this atmosphere goodbye goodbye goodbye goodbye
[44:19 - 44:53] thank you
[44:53 - 45:05] I want to say thank you to my friends
[45:07 - 45:22] who saved me not making them alive in my way there's you I try to make it through these lies
[45:23 - 45:38] and that's all I do so don't deny it don't try to fight this and deal with it it's just fun to be
[45:43 - 45:57] if you were dead or sin alone I don't care I don't care just go and leave this all beyond
[45:57 - 46:07] cuz I swear I swear I don't care I'm trying to make you seem alive
[46:07 - 46:15] it's always trying to stay in line but your eyes see right through that's all I do
[46:15 - 46:24] I'm getting buried in this place you got no room here in my face don't say anything just go away
[46:29 - 46:42] if you were dead or sin alone I don't care I don't care just go and leave this all beyond
[46:43 - 47:00] cuz I swear I swear I don't care I'm changing everything you want me there for me
[47:06 - 47:15] I'm changing everything you want me there for me
[47:15 - 47:21] I want to say thank you to Brittany to Marco Ted all my friends that were on Facebook that
[47:21 - 47:42] day that saved me thank you I love you guys if you were dead or sin alone I don't care I don't
[47:42 - 47:53] care just go leave this all beyond cuz I swear I swear I don't care
[47:56 - 48:17] then let us in alive I don't care care I don't care just go and leave this all beyond cuz I swear I swear I don't care
[48:18 - 48:22] I don't care
[48:22 - 48:33] in the comments right now
[48:33 - 48:44] what I want to say in the chat right now from all you guys
[48:45 - 48:49] from all my supporters and all my fans I want you guys
[48:49 - 49:01] to put these to put these names as hashtags and thank you behind them for what I'm about to put in the chat
[49:01 - 49:03] so I'm going to start with you guys. Thank you.
[49:03 - 49:24] you
[49:50 - 49:56] I want you guys to copy and paste that in the fucking chat I don't care whose names you put
[49:56 - 50:03] if you put one or all three because if it wasn't for them I wouldn't be here right now
[50:03 - 50:07] they saved my life
[50:10 - 50:19] I owe my life to them they stopped me from ending my own life because of Marty
[50:28 - 50:41] and to DeMarco, Brittany, Ted, thank you guys
[50:41 - 50:43] you guys saved my life
[50:43 - 50:52] and honestly I did this dream because I wanted you guys to know the fucking truth
[50:52 - 50:57] about what Marty really fucking did despite what he puts on his goddamn channel
[50:58 - 51:09] because if it wasn't for Ted or Brittany or DeMarco I wouldn't be here right now
[51:09 - 51:18] because of Marty I almost killed myself twice within 48 hours
[51:18 - 51:36] but the one thing that stopped me not only wasn't DeMarco and Ted and Brittany
[51:36 - 51:41] but it was also the thought of how much I needed K1
[51:41 - 51:47] the thought of K1 helped me as well
[51:47 - 51:52] and Caitlin if you ever watch this
[51:52 - 52:00] I want you to know that I love you and I'm sorry for what Marty did to you and your family
[52:00 - 52:06] I'm sorry that he isolated you from your family and made your family abandon you
[52:06 - 52:09] you didn't deserve that
[52:16 - 52:20] and if I could take back what happened I would in a fucking heartbeat
[52:20 - 52:27] but Marty I hope you know that I'm coming for your fucking head
[52:27 - 52:32] I'm out for blood and I am coming for you
[52:32 - 52:41] and I will not stop I will not rest until you are either behind bars or Ted in the fucking ground
[52:43 - 52:52] and you want to know why because you deserve it you deserve to fucking die you deserve
[52:52 - 52:59] to pay for what you've done to me and more importantly what you did to Caitlin's family
[52:59 - 53:05] you took Caitlin's family away from her
[53:09 - 53:14] you isolated Caitlin from her family by spreading lies about me
[53:14 - 53:21] by getting them involved with trauma that they didn't need to be involved with
[53:21 - 53:34] and let this be a lesson to not only Marty but anybody who has a problem with me
[53:37 - 53:43] if you have a problem with me come to me directly and we'll settle it like men
[53:43 - 53:48] don't get people involved that don't need to be involved
[53:48 - 53:55] like if I have a girlfriend don't involve my girlfriend don't involve my girlfriend's family
[53:55 - 54:00] if you have a problem with me come to me directly it makes me like a fucking man
[54:00 - 54:04] and don't be a bitch coward and full of bitch move like Marty
[54:04 - 54:11] well Marty I want you to know right now that you're a coward
[54:11 - 54:22] you're a spineless weak bitch made coward and quite honestly you don't deserve to live
[54:22 - 54:31] to be honest with you if I had it my fucking way I would slit your goddamn throat
[54:31 - 54:38] and watch you bleed out slowly as you gargle and you suffer slowly
[54:38 - 54:46] or maybe I just take a fucking revolver and put a bullet between your goddamn eyes
[54:46 - 54:56] because you deserve every bit of bullshit every bit of pain and suffering that you get
[54:59 - 55:07] you took away everything from me now I am going to take everything that you love away from you
[55:07 - 55:12] and if you don't believe me try me
[55:12 - 55:18] I will take everything that you love away Marty
[55:22 - 55:28] I will destroy you you want a war you got a war
[55:28 - 55:38] matter of fact everybody here right now I want every one of you to go over to music biz marty's
[55:38 - 55:46] channel and report the fuck out of every one of his videos his channel no matter who it's on
[55:46 - 55:51] no matter whether it's on me whether it's on suplex whether it's his channel directly
[55:51 - 55:55] I want every one of you to go over there right the fuck now
[55:55 - 56:00] and report the fuck out of his channel until his channel is gone
[56:00 - 56:12] and that's not a request that's a fucking order from your leader of the shadow blade army
[56:17 - 56:32] you have your orders now go report the fuck out of his channel and bring this motherfucker down
[56:32 - 56:34] you

[0:00 - 0:28] What's up everybody?
[0:28 - 0:53] Well it seems there's a lot of talk going around.
[0:53 - 1:12] A lot of people saying that what I do is not legit.
[1:12 - 1:27] Even them when race style isn't good enough to become a world champion.
[1:27 - 1:34] Once all those haters I'm saying this right now, you're looking at the new King of the
[1:34 - 1:44] Toge for Grid 2019 bitch.
[1:44 - 2:03] No, let me prove to you, let me prove to you that I am one of the best in the gaming industry
[2:03 - 2:27] for arcade racers.
[2:27 - 2:50] What did you know me, you never met a dang rich driver like me.
[2:50 - 3:31] There's no other driver out there that can do what I do.
[3:31 - 3:59] And I would love to see someone to try and prove me otherwise, because I am the king
[3:59 - 4:04] in a mountain.
[4:04 - 4:25] And I challenge anyone to take me on, to try to take my title as king in a mountain, as
[4:25 - 4:39] king of Mizu Mountain.
[4:39 - 5:06] How do you think I got the name to talk to me Fujiwara name, so after one of the world
[5:06 - 5:13] class drivers of initial team?
[5:13 - 5:23] How do you think I got the nickname, the next Kichizuchiya, who is the father of drifting?
[5:23 - 5:48] The man who invented the sport of drifting?
[5:48 - 6:05] Fuck Skull Kid, Skull Kid's a bitch.
[6:05 - 6:12] And I'm making this challenge to any driver that thinks they can take me on and win.
[6:12 - 6:38] You want to last five seconds on the mountain.
[6:38 - 7:06] I guarantee you none of you want to last five seconds on the mountain.
[7:06 - 7:26] Hey, sir, I'd love to see you last five seconds on the mountain against me, boyo.
[7:26 - 7:34] There's no way in hell you would last five seconds against a real driver like me.
[7:34 - 7:38] I guarantee you that right now.
[7:38 - 7:43] You don't stand a chance in hell against me, boyo.
[7:43 - 7:47] I would love to see you try to race against me.
[7:47 - 7:54] You wouldn't last five seconds against someone like me who's a true driver.
[7:54 - 8:17] Matter of fact, let's take it up a notch, shall we?
[8:17 - 8:23] You're about to see a real driver at work, boy.
[8:23 - 8:41] And yes, I got Irish in me, so yes, I can talk like a frickin Irishman.
[8:41 - 8:48] So any asshole out there who wants to talk trash, run your car, not your mate.
[8:48 - 9:09] Run your frozen car, not your mate, you fucking moron.
[9:09 - 9:12] You ain't got the balls to drive a hypercar.
[9:12 - 9:20] You ain't got the balls to drive a GT racer down a mountain pass.
[9:20 - 9:24] It's only 100 miles an hour, boy.
[9:24 - 9:27] You don't have the balls that I got.
[9:27 - 9:31] I showed up here on the mountain.
[9:31 - 9:42] And that's fact.
[9:42 - 9:52] See unlike you, I showed no fear.
[9:52 - 10:15] I am the king of the target.
[10:15 - 10:23] And I challenge any driver to try to take my sport.
[10:23 - 10:41] If you can beat me on the mountain, then maybe, just maybe, you'll earn my respect.
[10:41 - 10:50] But until you beat me on the mountain, you're going to get my respect.
[10:50 - 11:09] If you think you can beat me in the fucking proven way.
[11:09 - 11:34] See unlike you, I don't talk trash, I actually back it up.
[11:34 - 12:01] If you think you got what it takes to be a king of the mountain, then bring it, boy.
[12:01 - 12:22] If you can beat me on the mountain, then maybe, just maybe, you'll earn my respect.
[12:22 - 13:26] If you can beat me on the mountain, you're going to get my respect.
[13:26 - 13:54] Top driver.
[13:54 - 14:22] I am the king of Mizu Mountain.
[14:22 - 14:47] Let's do another one, shall we?
[14:47 - 15:15] Only this time, let's see what other injuries we've got here.
[15:15 - 15:36] Anybody can race on a racetrack, but it takes someone with a certain kind of skill to race
[15:36 - 15:48] on a mountain.
[15:48 - 16:00] See, the mountain is very unforgiving.
[16:00 - 16:12] The toe game is a very unforgiving place.
[16:12 - 16:19] And unless you got nerves of steel like I got, there's no way in hell you can survive
[16:19 - 16:23] the toe game.
[16:23 - 16:43] You see, unlike you wannabes that want to talk shit, I show no fear on the toe game.
[16:43 - 16:49] And the toe game knows.

[0:00 - 0:30] (I'm sorry, I'm not going to do this)

[0:00 - 0:28] [no speech detected]
[0:28 - 0:33] All right guys, let me get this fixed up right quick.
[0:33 - 0:48] [no speech detected]
[0:48 - 1:02] Good morning to everybody man, what's good?
[1:02 - 1:06] How's everybody doing this fine morning?
[1:06 - 1:13] What is good man?
[1:13 - 1:18] Let me get this fixed up for y'all.
[1:18 - 2:01] [no speech detected]
[2:01 - 2:04] Oh, perfect.
[2:04 - 2:07] All right, we are set to cook man. What is good?
[2:07 - 2:12] I do apologize for the late intro here.
[2:12 - 2:23] But today we're going to do a drift and chill run.
[2:23 - 2:33] But first, let's take a nice sip of some brand new.
[2:33 - 2:37] Ooh.
[2:37 - 2:41] Got that double roast.
[2:41 - 2:45] Going on right there from Starbucks in.
[2:45 - 2:49] And the Starbucks double roasted coffee man absolutely love this shit.
[2:49 - 3:02] Oh no, you guys are sipping on down in the comments man.

[0:00 - 0:29] Bitch, come in from the other side of the wall? Yo, the one's in hella bag, kinda feel like a grim reaper that's preceded. Feel like I'm coming back with some new beats and some new rhythm, feel like a quarterback and I'm my boys, they got my bag.
[0:29 - 0:53] Aye, bitches call me Jack Killah, but I'm the one with the trash stacks, it's getting backs. And I know ain't none of them gonna hit me back just running it up like I don't give a fuck. Let's get my legs on, I think it's getting hard, but at the end of the day, like it's going on.
[0:53 - 1:04] Yeah, sometimes I look at this guy and I wonder why he decided on it until I realized I wanted to see Rick so I dropped a big break and he's doing yes at me.
[1:04 - 1:15] I see it's only hard, but it is what it is, I feel like shit, I don't know what that way, I fucking chose to blow up our eggs and our brains ain't no fucking joke.
[1:15 - 1:21] So I don't like to flop, they have over the floor, they have good at the pain, it's all the same.
[1:21 - 1:32] Let's give it up and let's give it up, I ain't got it, I need a break, need a break, I need a bad bitch, nice ass, nice tits, gotta do like you want me.
[1:32 - 1:42] Wait, wait, just let it be, so I'm a nice nigga with really bad energy, I've been around the world and I fucking see some keys.
[1:42 - 1:54] I mean, you become a bag, I kinda feel like I'm in it like, but it don't matter, put the shit on my bag, like a fat lad or somebody don't got me, you're glad I get a fucking beast.
[1:54 - 1:59] Come on, these fake ass rappers do the kind of thing I can't skip, can you shit it?
[1:59 - 2:11] Yo, fuck the line of life, your hell house off the leash, man, I get displaced, kinda feels like my mom is in the past, bitch, gotta chase it, yo, no, I don't fuck around, shit, get up.
[2:11 - 2:16] I'ma break it down, knock, knock, y'all fucking ready to kiss it.
[2:16 - 2:26] When I got it, I just know I'm messing with the shit, if you ask me, that's a fucking blessing, if you look my way, I know you see the message, bitch.
[2:26 - 2:36] [MUSIC]

[0:00 - 0:29] What's up guys. I never thought that I would see this day come.
[0:29 - 0:39] And I know I'm probably going to look like shit for him, but I don't give a fuck.
[0:39 - 0:49] I don't care if people judge me. I don't care if people talk about me.
[0:49 - 1:04] I don't care if you think that I'm the biggest piece of shit in the world.
[1:04 - 1:18] If you guys don't know my ex Megan talked to me and she wanted to make things work.
[1:18 - 1:23] And I told her yes because as you guys know, I do love Megan.
[1:23 - 1:29] She was my first true love and there's nobody that can replace her.
[1:29 - 1:33] And I can honestly say I'm happy to have Megan back in my life.
[1:33 - 1:41] And you're probably thinking well dude, if you got her back, why are you in tears?
[1:41 - 1:50] Because I have to face a possible reality that no one should ever have to face.
[1:50 - 1:57] Something I never thought I'd have to see come.
[1:57 - 2:06] Megan, we're not sure yet, so don't jump to conclusions. We're not sure yet, but she's been having really weird bleeding.
[2:06 - 2:26] And we're not sure, but in the event that it is true,
[2:26 - 2:31] I may have lost a child.
[2:31 - 2:39] We're not sure yet, but I may have lost a son and a daughter and if that is the case,
[2:39 - 2:46] I don't know what I'm going to do.
[2:46 - 3:02] So let this song that I start out with, let this song be the end of every parent that has ever had to face that.
[3:02 - 3:16] I just hope and pray to God that it's not that. But right now because of this scare, my whole life, my whole future,
[3:16 - 3:22] depends on you guys helping me get to where I need to be with my music.
[3:22 - 3:28] Failure is no longer an option.
[3:28 - 3:33] He showed me the signs. He showed me where I needed to be and now I know where I'm supposed to be
[3:33 - 3:41] and where I should have been this whole fucking time and where I never should have left.
[3:41 - 3:49] I never should have left Megan's side, but I'm here and I'm not going anywhere.
[3:49 - 3:54] And if any of you think that you're going to use this against me, you're fucking full of shit.
[3:54 - 3:59] And I swear to God if you try to, I will come after you.
[3:59 - 4:06] But let this song ring true for every parent out there that has lost a child.
[4:06 - 4:18] I want you to know that you're not alone.
[4:18 - 4:34] God, please don't want to be true.
[4:34 - 4:42] Oh, now again, I can stop again. Let me go to lose nothing in the way I came in again.
[4:42 - 4:46] We surrender to the end of the night when he came to knock.
[4:46 - 4:50] I was terrified. I knew nothing else.
[4:50 - 5:06] I was a little bit of my life. Your future mind turned into what was right.
[5:06 - 5:17] The world around me said when I saw that heartbeat, I knew it wasn't the same.
[5:17 - 5:22] Can someone tell me why this is nothing to me?
[5:22 - 5:30] Why wasn't only then will you redeem my child?
[5:30 - 5:35] No serenity within agony, every day for another hundred ways to fight.
[5:35 - 5:38] Come and screw to me, I'll kill you, judge me.
[5:38 - 5:41] Resurrect in every demon that I've designed.
[5:41 - 5:43] The prison's hard and fine, you saw the city line.
[5:43 - 5:46] I know there's others who have to trick my soul for yours.
[5:46 - 5:49] Creeped, crippled me. Don't repeat to me.
[5:49 - 5:52] That means nothing to me 'cause I can't do it all.
[5:52 - 5:55] But you're the face of my life.
[5:55 - 6:01] Your future mind turned into what was right.
[6:01 - 6:04] I know we can't hurt the world around me.
[6:04 - 6:13] Time when I saw that heartbeat, I knew it wasn't the same.
[6:13 - 6:18] Can someone tell me why this is nothing to me?
[6:18 - 6:26] Why wasn't only then will you redeem my child?
[6:40 - 6:44] I want to say thank you, God, for showing me the right path.
[6:44 - 7:01] My child, the world around me, time when I saw that heartbeat, I knew it wasn't the same.
[7:01 - 7:06] Can someone tell me why this is nothing to me?
[7:06 - 7:14] Why wasn't only then will you redeem my child?
[7:14 - 7:24] I pray you will redeem my child.
[7:24 - 7:51] [Silence]
[7:51 - 7:53] What?
[7:53 - 7:58] [Silence]
[7:58 - 8:00] Fuck.
[8:00 - 8:05] Guys, I'll be right back.
[8:05 - 8:16] But please, guys, please, I need every one of you to pray for me and Megan, please.
[8:16 - 8:27] Please pray for us.

[0:00 - 0:18] What up y'all, it's ya boy. So I noticed that Tyler and Marty and their goons like to run
[0:18 - 0:27] their mouths. So Marty, you keep on going about, you keep on going on and on and on
[0:27 - 0:40] about this race war shit. Well I got a solution for you and we're not doing it
[0:40 - 0:49] your way or Tyler's way, we're doing it my way bitch. Me and you or me and Tyler
[0:49 - 0:58] or any of your goons versus me on a motorsport 7 in the real race wars.
[0:58 - 1:06] Old school one-on-one drag race winner-take-all.
[1:11 - 1:23] That's right you heard me. I'm flat-out sitting winner-take-all bitch. You know
[1:23 - 1:29] I've not had it with y'all motherfuckers running your mouths. You want to sit there
[1:29 - 1:35] and talk shit about how you're faster than me and blah blah blah. Well now's
[1:35 - 1:49] your chance to prove it son. Now is your motherfucking chance to prove that
[1:49 - 1:52] you're faster.
[1:52 - 2:20] You know let's raise the stakes a bit. Let's raise the stakes Marty. You or any
[2:20 - 2:31] of your goons wins against me. Now there are rules. There are some rules but
[2:31 - 2:41] first let me make this challenge to you. You win against me using any normal car,
[2:41 - 2:49] any non DLC car which includes like the Fast and Furious series or anything
[2:49 - 2:56] like that you can't buy to play with GT X FF or any of those. You and Tyler and
[2:56 - 3:08] Y or one of y'all's goons faces me. Straight up man-to-man. Alright on here
[3:08 - 3:15] man-to-man straight up winner-take-all match. Now you may be asking what is in
[3:15 - 3:21] it for me. I'll tell you what's in it for you. I will tell you what's in it for
[3:21 - 3:35] you. You win. Now keep in mind it's a three, it's a three, it's a three heat
[3:35 - 3:46] run, three heats in a drag race. Best two out of three wins to make it fair. You
[3:46 - 3:51] win against me. I'll leave the music industry for good and I'll
[3:51 - 3:56] let you talk shit about me all you want. I'll let you do whatever the fuck you
[3:56 - 4:01] want, say whatever you want about me. I don't give a fuck. Just the ones you
[4:01 - 4:05] don't go over the boundaries of like you know doing like you did last time by
[4:05 - 4:12] posting my videos up on Pornhub and shout out you can't do that. But I will
[4:12 - 4:18] let you have bragging rights against me. I will let you talk shit on me and I
[4:18 - 4:25] won't say a damn word about it. Which we all know that you're gonna lose that's
[4:25 - 4:28] why you're a chicken shit.
[4:28 - 4:58] I do not realize that I'm one of the top
[4:58 - 5:04] five drivers for drag races on Forza Motorsports 7 bro. Do you not realize
[5:04 - 5:08] that I'm one of the fastest in the world on here? There's very few that can beat
[5:08 - 5:18] me. One of those people being my boy Devin aka Cam Time Racing. You can ask him
[5:18 - 5:30] he'll tell you firsthand bro.
[5:30 - 5:55] Hey just cuz I'm having an off day don't mean shit bro. At least I'm in the
[5:55 - 6:02] top five that's all that fucking matters bro. Hey Marty you talk a big game but
[6:02 - 6:05] yet you can never back it up.
[6:05 - 6:41] [Music]
[6:41 - 6:47] You want to talk a big game bro but yet you ain't got the motherfucking balls.
[6:47 - 6:57] To back any of your talk up kid. You want to talk to a race wars let's take it back
[6:57 - 7:09] old school son. Let's take that shit back to the old school days. Fuck the street
[7:09 - 7:33] racing shit. Fuck all that noise. We throwing down old school man.
[7:33 - 7:45] Well you want to talk all this hot shit but yet. Well you want to sit there and
[7:45 - 7:50] talk all this mad shit bro but yet you can never back it up. You ain't got the
[7:50 - 7:56] balls to back up a goddamn word that you say little bitch. Cuz you're afraid to
[7:56 - 8:02] face me old school. Cuz you know damn good and well if you face me I'll smoke
[8:02 - 8:28] your ass. I'll smoke your goons and I'll fucking leave your ass in the dust.
[8:28 - 8:42] Busted out my murder Nova here.
[8:42 - 9:08] This is Forza Motorsport 7 bro. Where real drivers throw down and amateurs
[9:08 - 9:14] are made into professional drivers. And yes it is true there are some guys that
[9:14 - 9:30] do sim racing that have gone on to do professional legit in real life racing.
[9:30 - 9:41] So like I said you want to take me on Marty you want to shut me up so badly.
[9:41 - 9:50] Why don't you do it old school me and you or me and Tyler Forza Motorsport 7
[9:50 - 9:59] old school drag race. Old school race towards not this new school bullshit.
[10:04 - 10:15] Corners are for fast cars straightaways drag strips are for fast drivers.
[10:15 - 10:44] Now like I said the rules are very simple.
[10:44 - 10:54] If you have to buy the car pack then you can't use it it was a car that you can
[10:54 - 11:00] get for free or is in the list of cars that you can get for free look it up
[11:00 - 11:11] you can use it. All the cars I got I didn't have to pay for I got them all
[11:11 - 11:20] for free. What you mean is they're illegal. If you got to buy the car pack
[11:20 - 11:24] you ain't running it.
[11:24 - 12:34] [Silence]
[12:34 - 12:40] Man what is it like doing using that damn Subaru of the Bison Grigas bro. I'm always
[12:40 - 12:50] tempted to grab my drift car my drift Subaru and run that bitch. Like I'm
[12:50 - 13:13] almost tempted. See Marty you can't shift that quick you ain't got that kind of
[13:13 - 13:21] gear you ain't got that kind of gear runnage like come on man.
[13:21 - 13:35] [Silence]
[13:35 - 13:39] I'm maybe running low end right now Marty but let me tell you bro come race
[13:39 - 13:49] worse your ass is fucked.
[13:49 - 13:51] [Silence]
[13:51 - 13:59] Like I said Marty you want to race me we're doing it on my terms bitch not yours.
[13:59 - 14:11] I don't race by your rules and I know why you're doing it. You're doing it because
[14:11 - 14:20] you think that it gives you an advantage but really it don't do shit.
[14:20 - 14:34] It don't do nothing but make you fucking look like trash.
[14:34 - 16:26] [Silence]
[16:26 - 16:33] Nah Skeletor that listen bro you ain't part of this deal boy. You ain't part of
[16:33 - 16:38] this fucking race worse challenge little boy so fuck off and sit your puppy ass
[16:38 - 16:46] dog on the porch. Sit your puppy dog ass. Sit your puppy dog looking ass on the
[16:46 - 17:02] fucking porch kid.
[17:02 - 17:08] I don't want to talk a big game Skeletor but yeah you ain't even got the balls to
[17:08 - 17:14] face me. Bro didn't I already destroy you in a video like fucking two months ago
[17:14 - 17:19] back when I had a cell phone didn't I already fucking destroy your ass once kid.
[17:19 - 17:24] Like come on man I done destroyed you like what four months ago get the fuck
[17:24 - 17:34] here.
[17:34 - 18:07] [Silence]
[18:07 - 18:11] Like I just found a bunny Skeletor like why are you sticking up for that little
[18:11 - 18:21] pussy Marty.
[18:21 - 18:25] He doesn't tell you bro Marty ain't nothing but a coward ass little bitch.
[18:25 - 18:36] He has other people like you do his fucking dirty work for him.
[18:36 - 18:43] Which I honestly find hysterical because Marty ain't got the balls to challenge
[18:43 - 18:48] me in a real race like a real man so he's got to hide like a little faggot ass
[18:48 - 18:57] pussy talking shit and has other people race and do his shit for him like bro
[18:57 - 19:04] that's a bitch move.
[19:04 - 19:15] Only cowards do that shit.
[19:15 - 19:44] All right you know what let's run the dots.
[19:44 - 20:05] Let's run the big boy.
[20:05 - 20:16] Dude I don't even have a phone right now bro like if us I'm not on I'm not on
[20:16 - 20:20] StreamYard dude I'm on YouTube itself.
[20:20 - 20:25] I'm streaming directly from YouTube man so why don't you why you talk to me
[20:25 - 20:54] through chat all right we can sit down and talk all right we can talk this way man.
[20:54 - 21:17] And dude because of Marty I don't have PayPal right now bro my PayPal
[21:17 - 21:21] literally got shut down because of Marty so now I have legit have to make a
[21:21 - 21:27] brand new one though so as much I appreciate the offer bro I can't accept
[21:27 - 21:39] any money right now even if I wanted to bro.
[21:39 - 21:47] Like they really put a whole detriment in a lot of shit like they literally
[21:47 - 22:01] put a detriment in a lot of my stuff dude.
[22:01 - 22:05] So I'm not really able to do anything right now man like I said I appreciate
[22:05 - 22:11] the fact that you want to pay me and shit I appreciate that dude for real.
[22:11 - 22:15] But like I said right now I can't accept that views because Marty and Tyler and
[22:15 - 22:44] why I fucked my shit up along with Skull Kid.
[22:44 - 22:55] So I guess that man I can't really do much right now but I do appreciate it
[22:55 - 23:02] though man like I get that you don't like Marty either man I'm in the same
[23:02 - 23:07] boat you're in bro for real I'm in the same boat you're in when it comes to
[23:07 - 23:15] Marty he's a fucking coward and quite honestly he needs to fucking go.
[23:15 - 23:24] But first let me back out of this and collect my prize real quick.
[23:24 - 23:51] And now I'm going to sell a couple of my cars to get some shit going here.
[23:51 - 23:58] Alright so I got some cash.
[23:58 - 24:04] I'm definitely not selling my dots man that's a keeper right there.
[24:04 - 24:12] Can I sell those? Nope, dang.
[24:12 - 24:22] How much does the California Tea go for? 100 that's it.
[24:22 - 24:30] Seriously I think it only goes for 100 what the fuck I forget what he got for more than that dude.
[24:30 - 24:33] I know this thing's got to go for a lot nope.
[24:33 - 24:39] Damn man come on give me a car I can sell dude.
[24:39 - 24:46] Ooh 200k yeah that'll work.
[24:46 - 24:56] That'll definitely work.
[24:56 - 25:12] That's my drift count car.
[25:12 - 25:27] Can I sell it for one second? No, I wanted to sell that I can't stand out there.
[25:27 - 25:37] Can I sell my GT-R block? Actually I want to keep that one I want to sell the Nismo.
[25:37 - 25:54] Damn dude I got a lot of dough off this man, shit.
[25:54 - 26:12] Got a lot of drift cars. There we go it's having this beast.
[26:12 - 26:33] Like I said Marty knows the rules.
[26:33 - 26:36] He wants to fucking race me.
[26:36 - 26:41] We're doing it old school we're not doing this fucking new school street race shit.
[26:41 - 26:51] I always street race at night when it comes to daytime racing. This is what I do.
[26:51 - 26:59] I throw down the fucking track I throw down the fast time possible.
[26:59 - 27:11] Plain and simple.
[27:11 - 27:23] Oh man y'all gotta have a...
[27:23 - 27:30] I'm getting tired of Marty fucking running his goddamn mouth.
[27:30 - 27:34] If we're going to race we're going to do it my way not his way.
[27:34 - 27:37] Because his way he's going to try to fuck things up.
[27:37 - 27:41] See I'm actually fair with my shit.
[27:41 - 28:04] I don't sit there and try to fuck people over I'm fair when it comes to races.
[28:04 - 28:10] See I like Marty. All this shit I talk I'm actually able to back up.
[28:10 - 28:20] When I said I was the top driver or one of the top drivers on grade 2019 I was able to back it up.
[28:20 - 28:29] When me and my boy Devin said we were two of the fastest drivers on here and we showed it I was able to back it up.
[28:29 - 28:40] But Marty he likes to fabricate shit.
[28:40 - 28:45] Me I don't fabricate jack shit.
[28:45 - 28:56] So Marty you want to face me at race wars we're throwing down old school race wars not some bullshit fucking half ass street race.
[28:56 - 29:01] We're using real cars real physics.
[29:01 - 29:09] Forza Motorsports 7 me and you bitch once and for all.
[29:09 - 29:11] Winner take all.
[29:11 - 29:13] Hell I don't even raise the stakes.
[29:13 - 29:18] You or Tyler when y'all can have my fucking channel.
[29:18 - 29:24] I'll put my goddamn YouTube channel on the goddamn line.
[29:24 - 29:37] And you want to know why because I know damn well I ain't gonna lose.
[29:37 - 29:41] I'll put my channel on the line.
[29:41 - 29:47] You win I'll give you this stuff to my channel.
[29:47 - 29:52] I'll send you the banner and everything.
[29:52 - 29:58] I win you back fuck off and you leave me the fuck on quit talking shit.
[29:58 - 30:07] And keep my name out your goddamn mouth quit making videos about me plain and simple.
[30:07 - 30:23] You win you get my channel and you get to talk shit.
[30:23 - 30:35] I'm sorry I'm sorry Marty I forgot you're too much of a coward to race me.
[30:35 - 30:39] And don't worry Gigi I have other channels on backup.
[30:39 - 30:46] Don't worry I have a gaming channel that I can keep on going on.
[30:46 - 30:49] I'll put this channel on the fucking line.
[30:49 - 30:52] I have no problem with it.
[30:52 - 30:58] Yes this is my main channel.
[30:58 - 31:09] I have no issue putting my channel on the fucking line.
[31:10 - 33:06] I'm sorry I'm not putting my channel on the fucking line.
[33:06 - 33:10] Might have a little bit of trouble with the Bugatti Chiron.
[33:10 - 33:16] Really dude I totally trophy, really a trophy truck.
[33:16 - 33:18] Bro I'm gonna blow by.
[33:18 - 33:20] Someone give me the trophy truck guy man.
[33:20 - 33:22] I wanna blow by that dude.
[33:22 - 33:24] Give me the trophy truck guy.
[33:24 - 33:32] I wanna blow the doors off that dude.
[33:32 - 40:44] I'm sorry I'm not putting my channel on the fucking line.
[40:44 - 40:50] Like I said bro, one of the top drivers on here.
[40:50 - 40:52] I told you.
[40:52 - 48:28] I'm sorry I'm not putting my channel on the fucking line.
[48:28 - 48:32] Can you see this formula e-card right here?
[48:32 - 48:34] Watch this.
[48:34 - 49:54] I'm sorry I'm not putting my channel on the fucking line.
[49:54 - 50:00] Now that I have a good feel for how it handles, I can take a pitch this thing.
[50:00 - 50:25] [no audio]
[50:25 - 50:27] Y'all ready to see a smoke show?
[50:27 - 50:29] [no audio]
[50:29 - 50:33] Y'all ready to see a Formula E car fucking rip it?
[50:33 - 50:42] [no audio]
[50:42 - 50:46] Y'all haven't ever seen anybody drift a Formula E car, have you?
[50:46 - 52:54] [no audio]
[52:54 - 52:57] Oh damn, dude over here fucking killing it.
[52:57 - 53:02] [no audio]
[53:02 - 53:05] Y'all need to chill with that thousand laughs stuff, y'all.
[53:05 - 53:09] Like I said, I ain't taking a break from that for now.
[53:09 - 53:24] [no audio]
[53:24 - 53:33] Oh man, y'all keep this up, I may not even do it, you know what I'm saying? Y'all keep this shit up.
[53:33 - 53:51] [no audio]
[53:51 - 53:55] There are some things that are a little more important than doing a thousand laughs.
[53:55 - 54:43] [no audio]
[54:43 - 54:48] I'm gonna put on a smoke show for you Marty and show you what a real driver can do.
[54:48 - 55:42] [no audio]
[55:42 - 55:46] Ah, I came off of that corner. Too rough.
[55:46 - 56:08] [no audio]
[56:08 - 56:17] Look at that. Here's skill, I bet you can't do that Marty. You like that, don't you Marty?
[56:17 - 56:19] You like that skill, huh?
[56:19 - 56:28] [no audio]
[56:28 - 56:39] Reverse through there.
[56:39 - 57:15] [no audio]
[57:15 - 57:18] Yo, I can't put that through the door, don't you Marty?
[57:18 - 57:23] [no audio]
[57:23 - 57:27] Look at that, here's skill Marty.
[57:27 - 58:37] [no audio]
[58:37 - 58:40] Whatcha know about that June Connor life Marty?
[58:40 - 60:08] [no audio]
[60:08 - 60:14] Oh yeah, I'm driving sideways Marty. You can't do that can you kid?
[60:14 - 60:17] [no audio]
[60:17 - 60:20] No, you don't know how to drive sideways.
[60:20 - 61:16] [no audio]
[61:16 - 61:22] You don't know how to hit a wall and bang on a slide coming off the wall, do you?
[61:22 - 61:26] Look at that, slides for days Marty.
[61:26 - 61:31] I'm banging this thing on the wall and I'm still sliding son.
[61:31 - 61:53] [no audio]
[61:53 - 61:57] Hey son Marty, you'll never be as talented as I.
[61:57 - 63:21] [no audio]
[63:21 - 63:25] Oh, whatcha know about doing that?
[63:25 - 63:27] [no audio]
[63:27 - 63:31] Whatcha know about pulling that off Marty?
[63:31 - 64:11] [no audio]
[64:11 - 64:16] You know what this ain't Marty, if you ain't out of control you ain't in control boy.
[64:16 - 64:19] [no audio]
[64:19 - 64:21] Hashtag 20.
[64:21 - 64:25] [no audio]
[64:25 - 64:30] Damn, y'all don't know that line. Oh, I don't know what to tell ya.
[64:30 - 65:26] [no audio]
[65:26 - 65:30] See Marty, that's the thing man, you ain't got the skills that I got.
[65:30 - 65:34] You don't know how to kill a car in a controlled race man boy.
[65:34 - 65:49] [no audio]
[65:49 - 65:54] Yeah, I know everyone wants to do it. Like I said, I have to fucking wait though.
[65:54 - 65:58] [no audio]
[65:58 - 66:05] There are some things that are more important than doing a thousand laughs on some fucking video game.
[66:05 - 66:09] [no audio]
[66:09 - 66:12] Not trying to be a dick, but dude, come on.
[66:12 - 66:15] [no audio]
[66:15 - 66:19] There are some things that are a little more important.
[66:19 - 66:22] [no audio]
[66:22 - 66:24] Like lice.
[66:24 - 66:59] [no audio]
[66:59 - 67:03] Oh yeah, Marty, I have no hand in drift.
[67:03 - 67:12] [no audio]
[67:12 - 67:16] What you know I have no hand in drift like son.
[67:16 - 67:20] [no audio]
[67:20 - 67:24] Son, look, no hand in drift, kid.
[67:24 - 67:53] [no audio]
[67:53 - 67:57] Oh yeah, no hand in 360.
[67:57 - 68:54] [no audio]
[68:54 - 68:57] Oh yeah, no hand in burnouts.
[68:57 - 68:59] Donuts for days.
[69:00 - 70:43] [no audio]
[70:43 - 70:47] See, Marty, you can't do any of that, bro.
[70:47 - 70:58] You wanna know why? 'Cause you suck.
[70:58 - 76:29] [no audio]
[76:29 - 76:33] Alright, so hold on. Let me...
[76:33 - 76:40] ...do it here in the controller. I wanna see where the clutch is at.
[76:40 - 76:50] Alright, so that is the clutch. Okay.
[76:50 - 77:18] [no audio]
[77:18 - 77:36] You know, I'm gonna smack right into this guy.
[77:36 - 77:53] [no audio]
[77:53 - 78:07] With no other smoke show.
[78:07 - 79:37] [no audio]
[79:37 - 79:51] Oh, you can't tell me that was not a clean, man.
[79:51 - 81:29] [no audio]
[81:29 - 81:43] Like I said, Marty, you ain't got the control that I got, kid. So, either face me or get the stuffing.
[81:43 - 81:47] Plain and simple.

[0:00 - 0:09] I'm so sick of seeing all this. Every consulate attacking everybody on the internet. I'm just sick of seeing it.
[0:09 - 0:14] Why do we gotta be trapped in this fucking world of the internet? I don't get it.
[0:14 - 0:20] It's like we're all stuck in the latest device. We need to get out.
[0:20 - 0:31] I'm so sick of seeing everybody in society. Always surrounding themselves with the latest devices.
[0:31 - 0:36] I'm so stuck in the motherfucker screen. Everybody's always bullying everybody else.
[0:36 - 0:49] On the fucking internet, thinking that it's fucking cool, but it really ain't god. I don't know what the fuck to do, I get so sick and tired of seeing all this bullshit negativity.
[0:49 - 1:00] Everybody come to me, showing everybody. Everybody wanna check some one for the way that they motherfucker look for the way that they act.
[1:00 - 1:05] For the way that they already don't understand it, but we can't just get the fuck along.
[1:05 - 1:15] I really don't understand when did it become okay to put in someone up on the internet.
[1:15 - 1:25] What happened to the younger generation? I really don't understand it. Doesn't make any fucking sense.
[1:25 - 1:34] It's kinda like this younger generation is doing all this shit. We're not doing anything to stop it.
[1:34 - 1:45] We gotta fucking stop it. We gotta fight it. We gotta make it stop. Otherwise, what are we doing?
[1:45 - 1:53] Everybody always wanna judge the younger generation saying that it's their fault for the things that they fuckin' do upon the internet.
[1:53 - 2:12] But the truth is that we're the ones that direct fault with the ones that teach these fuckin' kids to do all this negative bullshit that they fuckin' do in every single fuckin' day and then they turn around and fuckin' blame us for the way that they all wait.
[2:12 - 2:24] We are the reason that they all feel the way that they all get with the motherfuckin' way missing younger generation and talk these kids are doing what the fuck they're doing.
[2:24 - 2:32] All these parents saying don't give a fuck about the kids so they don't do anything that they fuckin' want to.
[2:32 - 2:41] Thinking that it's okay to do what they're doing. For real, it isn't.
[2:41 - 3:09] Y'all fuckin' parents said they were saying that you don't want your kid to be the way that they're acting then why don't you appeal fuckin' parents that are letting all this fuckin' technology parent than every fuckin' day I'm so sick and tired of seeing all this fuckin' negativity coming from all these fuckin' kids, all because they, parents ain't around and wanna make all this motherfuckin' technology like motherfuckin' iPhones.
[3:09 - 3:33] Fuckin' baby, sit the kids in, then they turn around and wonder why the kid's becoming the way that they are. Goddamn this shit ain't right, we gotta be the one to make a motherfuckin' change in the life if we're gonna make this newer generation right.
[3:33 - 3:51] I'm so sick of seeing all this hatred, I'm sick of seeing all these younger parents not doing what they need to do. Letting all this technology take over, it's stupid. Be a parent to your fuckin' kid and quit with the bullshit.

[0:00 - 0:00] (Pfft)
[0:00 - 0:21] What's up y'all it's your boy Shadda, welcome back. Today I'm actually doing something a
[0:21 - 0:25] little bit different here, something that I've been wanting to do for a while. I know I'm a
[0:25 - 0:30] little bit late, not too late for it though. I know I'm just a tad bit late for this, but
[0:30 - 0:40] I wanted to do a reaction to Tom McDonald's brand new song. Oh man he just dropped, called
[0:40 - 1:01] Best Rap Forever. So I'm super excited man. But yeah, let's get right into this man. I've
[1:01 - 1:13] not reacted to this yet, like, alright y'all let me check something here. Alright, yeah
[1:13 - 1:16] we're on the right one. Sorry y'all I did check my channels on the right channel, but
[1:16 - 1:32] we are going to get this video pumping, so yeah, let's get right into it. Now I have
[1:32 - 1:38] heard a lot of things about this video, I'm definitely excited to see it, so yeah, let's
[1:38 - 1:49] get right into it. Whoa, now what I want to do, I want him to make it larger. I know
[1:49 - 1:59] I can't, alright so let's get it. Hello Thomas, I see that you're depressed, what's the problem?
[1:59 - 2:04] Is it the skeletons you're hiding deep inside your closet? Have you been reading all the
[2:04 - 2:08] names they call you in the comments? Have you been worried your haters will put you
[2:08 - 2:13] in the coffin? You're distraught that you promised vodka was not an option, now you
[2:13 - 2:23] have your thoughts into it, shot some, you're an alcoholic. Dude, Tom man, fuck bro. Are
[2:23 - 2:30] you wringing my mind right now, Tom? Like, for real, man? Like, for real, like, this
[2:30 - 2:35] is the kind of shit that I face. I mean, minus the alcohol, but like, a lot of this
[2:35 - 2:58] negativity is what I face. Bro. Yo. Yo, like, a lot of y'all might not realize, but a lot
[2:58 - 3:02] of what he's talking about and what he's speaking about, that's what I face every
[3:02 - 3:07] damn day, bro. That's the kind of negativity that I face, man. I see those comments. I
[3:07 - 3:21] see the hatred that I get and it just, it tears me down, man. It really does. Let's
[3:21 - 3:49] keep going, man. Damn, dude. Bro. Literally, this dude just said everything that I was
[3:49 - 4:05] thinking. Legit, everything that I was fucking thinking within seconds, bro. Like, dude,
[4:05 - 4:10] like a lot of that is what I deal with. You know, like, a lot of people sit there and
[4:10 - 4:16] laugh at me because of what I do and, you know, they poke fun, they do this, they try
[4:16 - 4:24] and yank shit out from under me. Like, bro, that is some, bro. And don't even get me
[4:24 - 4:31] started on how there's two toms, man. They did really good with that video. That's tricky,
[4:31 - 4:40] but dude, all that anxiety and shit, like, that's what I face every fucking day, man.
[4:40 - 4:46] Every day, I face that kind of anxiety and that angst of, you know, wanting the haters
[4:46 - 4:53] to go away, wanting the hatred to disappear ultimately and to be able to do what I love
[4:53 - 5:04] to do without the negativity and without that demon eating at me, like, bro. Damn,
[5:04 - 5:10] Tom. Why you got to do it like that, Tom? For real, man. Like, why you got to do it
[5:10 - 5:14] like that, bro? Fuck, man. Every time, man, it's like you know what I'm fucking thinking,
[5:14 - 5:25] like, every single time, man, how do you do it, man? How do you fucking do it? It's like
[5:25 - 5:29] every time I'm going through something, it's like you literally put out that song right
[5:29 - 5:36] at the right fucking moment. Like, somebody tell me how he fucking does this. Because
[5:36 - 6:06] I'd really like to know. Damn. I tried to lock the demons out, but
[6:06 - 6:18] bro, that is so fucking true, man. Like, it don't get much more real or deeper than
[6:18 - 6:25] that, man. Like, honestly, it don't get much more real than that, bro. Because like literally
[6:25 - 6:33] they, when you have that demon inside you that's eating at you, especially when you
[6:33 - 6:41] get the kind of haters that I get and the kind of negativity and the bullshit that I
[6:41 - 6:50] get. Like, that shit eats at you, bro. Like, that shit really fucking eats at you and
[6:50 - 6:56] it definitely tears you up, man. Like, it definitely does a lot of damage. And like,
[6:56 - 7:02] once that damage is done, there's not much that you can really do to, you know, to control
[7:02 - 7:13] that. Like, this is actually almost too hard to watch. Because like I said, a lot of what
[7:13 - 7:21] he faces in this video is what I face. And it's like, it's like the dude's reading my
[7:21 - 7:32] fucking mind. It's like, bro. Damn, dude. Not even a minute in and we're already getting
[7:32 - 7:33] deep as fuck.
[7:33 - 7:42] I'm your comedian. I'm only going to tell you once you really need to be my friend.
[7:42 - 7:45] I'm not going to live in the darkness. The water is half of the vultures. The dagger
[7:45 - 7:50] is giving you pills because of pressure. You're under giving you ulcers. Shut up. Let me
[7:50 - 7:54] remind you I'm independent because I'm the guy who does anything that I want to go find
[7:54 - 8:07] because no one will sign you. I'll be the great. It's as long as the guys. Damn, man,
[8:07 - 8:24] that is me right there to the fucking team, bro. To the motherfucking team, man. Like,
[8:24 - 8:30] what do you speak about not being signed? Like, a lot of that for me is true, but also
[8:30 - 8:36] a lot of it is a little bit different. Like, the reason why I'm not signed to a pro label
[8:36 - 8:43] and why I'm signed to my friend Marcus' label, which is a label that I help run, is because
[8:43 - 8:50] of the fact that every time I get somewhere and I started getting a little bit of traction,
[8:50 - 8:57] somebody comes along and rips it away from me and fucks me over every damn time. And
[8:57 - 9:04] it's been that way for like 11 years. 11 fucking years has been that way for me, bro,
[9:04 - 9:13] bro. It's real. That shit is very fucking real. Like, and I fought so hard to get to
[9:13 - 9:19] this point. And so, like, I know eventually when I started getting up there with the
[9:19 - 9:23] label, I guarantee you somebody is going to snatch that shit right out from under me.
[9:23 - 9:30] It happens every fucking time and it needs to stop, y'all. Like, for real, that shit
[9:30 - 9:40] needs to stop. And don't even get me started on the live stream from earlier with Marty
[9:40 - 9:50] and Skull Kid now, like, for real. Like, I'll talk about that in another video, but dude,
[9:50 - 9:55] why aren't there more artists out there like this? Like, for real, that's my question.
[9:55 - 10:01] Why is there not more artists out there like this speaking the truth and showing what
[10:01 - 10:02] people will really go through?
[10:02 - 10:03] >> Liar. Come on, Thomas. Keep it real.
[10:03 - 10:04] >> You're the liar. I'm going to tell you exactly how I feel.
[10:04 - 10:05] >> I'm the best rapper ever. I don't want to be great. If they're the best, then I'm
[10:05 - 10:06] better. Don't you make no mistake. Because I'm the goal. If you're leaving, I'm wrong.
[10:06 - 10:07] Since I'm a ghost, I'm a wonderful surner. That is so much better. I'm the best rapper
[10:07 - 10:08] ever. I don't care what you say. I'm the busy. I'm forever. I'm this out for the
[10:08 - 10:08] fade. Because I'm the goal. Get it real.
[10:08 - 10:14] You're the liar. I'm the best rapper ever. I don't want to be great. If they're the
[10:14 - 10:19] best, then I'm better. Don't you make no mistake. Because I'm the goal. If you're
[10:19 - 10:23] leaving, I'm wrong. Since I'm a ghost, I'm a wonderful surner. That is so much better.
[10:23 - 10:29] I'm the best rapper ever. I don't care what you say. I'm the busy. I'm forever. I'm this
[10:29 - 10:34] out for the fade. Because I'm the goal. Get it real. Everybody knows. Only voices that
[10:34 - 10:39] I'm hearing. The whole list never ends.
[10:39 - 10:46] Damn. And that's true too, man. That's very true. Like a lot of that, like I said again,
[10:46 - 10:51] I know it's kind of repetitive, but a lot of what he's saying in this song, I do deal
[10:51 - 10:57] with. A lot of this stuff I do fucking deal with, man. I do deal with a lot of people
[10:57 - 11:03] telling me that I'm no good, that my music's trashed, that what I'm doing will never be
[11:03 - 11:10] good enough. That, you know, I'm a failure at everything that I do and this and that.
[11:10 - 11:19] Like, bro. Like for all y'all that haven't heard my music, go check on my latest track,
[11:19 - 11:32] man. Like seriously. Like literally go check on my new song that I dropped the other day.
[11:32 - 11:42] Like, just go check it out, man. Y'all see it, man.
[11:42 - 11:49] Like, for real, man. Go over to, you know, the fallen angels and deal and go check that
[11:49 - 12:06] shit out, bro. Like, for real. Like, bro, that shit was, dude, I can't even, bro. Like,
[12:06 - 12:12] go check on my brand new song called Our Fall. Like, that shit speaks on some real
[12:12 - 12:17] stuff. And that's the kind of music that I do. Like, I like to be real with shit. I
[12:17 - 12:24] don't sit there and try to hide stuff. Like, that right there is, like, that's me in a
[12:24 - 12:30] nutshell. Like, I like to be real about stuff that I speak about. I like to be, you know,
[12:30 - 12:36] 110% honest with it. Like, that's me as an artist. Like, when I speak my mind, I speak
[12:36 - 12:44] my fucking mind. And I don't give a fuck what people say. And honestly, I never really
[12:44 - 12:50] have. But, dude, this is, I like this. And this is actually going on on Playlist, for
[12:50 - 12:58] sure. And there needs to be more out there like this. 100%.
[12:58 - 13:04] I'm still here. I practically smell the fear. I know all the reasons why you feel so insecure.
[13:04 - 13:09] I've seen you panic backstage hearing everybody cheer. You're famous now, Thomas. Tell me
[13:09 - 13:14] what's with all the tears. Shut up. You regret that your face is covered with tattoos, man.
[13:14 - 13:19] That's your beat swag. Are your raps trash too? Shut up. And you resent that you need
[13:19 - 13:23] men's again, neglected friends. And now you just pretend you're not pathetic. You're
[13:23 - 13:28] not having that. Yes. Bro.
[13:36 - 13:39] Bro.
[13:39 - 13:44] What was I just fucking saying?
[13:44 - 13:50] Bro, what was I just fucking saying a few minutes ago, man?
[13:50 - 13:57] What was I just saying about the haters? Everything that he just spoke about? Bro, that's
[13:57 - 14:04] exactly what they fucking said. Every last fucking one of them, they say that shit.
[14:04 - 14:11] And that's something that I fucking deal with every day, man. I see that shit in the
[14:11 - 14:20] comments on a daily fucking bro. Tom, get out of my head, bro. You're in my fucking
[14:20 - 14:25] head. Like, get the fuck out, man. I quit reading my fucking mind, bro. Like, you're
[14:25 - 14:34] killing me with this shit, Smalls. Like, bro.
[14:34 - 14:44] Dude. Tom McDonald, man. Coming in clutch, doing it again. God damn, dude. I still
[14:44 - 14:50] want to know. How does he fucking do it? Every damn time he fucking does it. It's
[14:50 - 14:56] like he's reading my fucking mind every time. Bro.
[14:57 - 15:08] Bro.
[15:08 - 15:12] Tom, you'll never let the fight against your haters long as I listen, because I
[15:12 - 15:17] read every single comment that you tried, man. Listen, then recite them in your
[15:17 - 15:24] mind and memorize this. I'm a giant, Thomas. Why you trying to fight with me?
[15:24 - 15:46] Bro, there again, speaking on the same in topic that I just spoke about, man.
[15:46 - 15:54] Like, there is that darker side of me that reads those comments that I do try to
[15:54 - 16:00] ignore, that I do try to miss, that I do try to block out. And then I just sit
[16:00 - 16:04] there and go over them in my mind and question myself. Like, you know, are these
[16:04 - 16:10] people right about what they're saying? Like, does what they're saying have some
[16:10 - 16:26] sort of truth to it? Like, bro, I can't even talk. Like, this shit's getting too
[16:26 - 16:34] real almost, man. Like, dude.
[16:35 - 16:42] No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.
[16:42 - 16:44] I am the darkness.
[17:10 - 17:19] I have no words left. I literally don't have it. Like, this dude literally is
[17:19 - 17:30] saying what I'm thinking. Like, literally those things that I'm going to shut up.
[17:30 - 17:53] Like, I got nothing. I got, like, wow, bro. Like, I got nothing there. Like, dude.
[17:53 - 18:04] Oh, my God. Like, I don't know what else there is to.
[18:07 - 18:23] Dude, just. I gotta take that back.
[18:23 - 18:27] You'll never let the fight against your haters long as I listen, because I read
[18:27 - 18:31] every single comment that you tried missing. Then recite them in your mind
[18:31 - 18:36] and memorize this. I'm a giant Thomas. Why are you trying to fight with me?
[18:36 - 18:39] I'm different. Don't care about the height and difference. I might win it.
[18:39 - 18:42] Show a full gunfight and I swing it. I am the darkness. Yeah, I got night vision.
[18:42 - 18:45] I've been biting my tongue in the blood from my cuts. I've been feeling my stomach.
[18:45 - 18:48] I suffer because they don't hold up and I'm humble. So now I just do this with all
[18:48 - 18:51] of my family and all of my brothers. Hire, you're rapping for yourself and
[18:51 - 18:55] for them. Your self is not a patient. I'm the reason you're the price.
[18:55 - 18:58] I'm doing fine. You need to chill. You need to take both of those pills.
[18:58 - 19:01] Take a breath and tell us all just exactly how you feel.
[19:01 - 19:04] Bro.
[19:04 - 19:16] That one scene right there where he was up in the corner on the ceiling,
[19:16 - 19:24] like that right there, man. That's a lot of like what a lot of my demons do.
[19:24 - 19:27] Like they'll sit there and they'll hide in the dark.
[19:27 - 19:34] And for all y'all that do suffer from depression and anxiety and shit,
[19:34 - 19:37] like a lot of y'all will understand that.
[19:37 - 19:43] Like when you get all these negative comments and all these people hating
[19:43 - 19:48] on you, it makes you question a lot of things. It really doesn't.
[19:48 - 19:50] I'm not going to sit there and lie. Like, you know,
[19:50 - 19:54] I have questioned whether I belong to a music.
[19:54 - 19:58] I have questioned whether what I'm doing is worth it.
[19:58 - 20:02] I have questioned, you know, am I really doing this for myself or am I doing
[20:02 - 20:07] it for those that I care about? Like those exact thoughts have run
[20:07 - 20:14] through my head many times over. And I think this is a great illustration
[20:14 - 20:23] of what goes through our minds when we see all this negativity on YouTube
[20:23 - 20:31] and we see these negative comments on our channels and how it affects us
[20:31 - 20:37] is far greater than what, you know, some of us realize.
[20:37 - 20:43] But at the end of the day, it's up to us to decide whether we like
[20:43 - 20:48] and that negativity affect us or we take that negativity,
[20:48 - 20:54] flip it around and use it to motivate and push us to where we want to be.
[20:56 - 21:02] Like, I like this a lot, actually. Like, this is, bro, Tom,
[21:02 - 21:06] do more shit like this, my guy. Like, for real, the world really needs
[21:06 - 21:09] this kind of music right now. Like, for real.
[21:09 - 21:16] This is almost an anthem in a sense to people like me.
[21:16 - 21:18] Like, for real.
[21:19 - 21:22] [BANG]
[21:22 - 21:48] [MUSIC]
[21:48 - 21:51] Tom, let's work together. You know how good we can be.
[21:51 - 21:54] Don't deny it. Just try. Repeat after me. Fine.
[21:54 - 21:57] Hi, my name is Thomas. I like once to be an artist.
[21:57 - 22:01] I need help from all my demons from my dreams to get accomplished.
[22:01 - 22:04] See, Tom? I'm just what you need. We're a team. Disagree?
[22:04 - 22:07] Go ahead, take your wrist and make your demons bleed.
[22:07 - 22:12] No! I need to do this by myself. I told you twice already.
[22:12 - 22:14] Exactly how I feel.
[22:16 - 22:18] Bro.
[22:18 - 22:30] Dude speaking facts.
[22:30 - 22:41] Dude is speaking straight fucking fire bars and facts. Like, dude.
[22:43 - 22:45] Like...
[22:45 - 22:54] I got no words left, man. This dude literally took all the words I had left.
[22:54 - 22:59] This man literally took everything that I've been going through,
[22:59 - 23:03] that I've been thinking about, that I've been, you know,
[23:03 - 23:09] pondering on in my fucking head for so long and just took it and, like,
[23:09 - 23:17] spoke on it and brought those situations to light. Like, bro.
[23:17 - 23:20] Oh, my God.
[23:20 - 23:31] Y'all can't see him, man, but I'm trying so hard not to break down right now.
[23:31 - 23:34] Like, this shit is facts.
[23:36 - 23:41] Like, dude, this shit goes so much deeper than what most see.
[23:41 - 23:44] Bro.
[23:44 - 23:53] I just might buy the gravestones album just to get this fucking song.
[23:53 - 23:57] If it's on there, like, I'm seriously tempted.
[24:02 - 24:05] ? I'm the best friend forever, I don't wanna be brave. ?
[24:05 - 24:08] ? If they're the best, then I'm better, don't you make no mistake. ?
[24:08 - 24:10] ? 'Cause I'm the gold, beat it in my bones. ?
[24:10 - 24:12] ? That's a lot of girls, I'm the one that's both. ?
[24:12 - 24:14] ? The star of the story is different. ?
[24:14 - 24:17] ? I'm the best friend forever, I don't care what you say. ?
[24:17 - 24:20] ? I'm the best team ever, I'm the zebra fag. ?
[24:20 - 24:23] ? 'Cause I'm the gold, get the ear, go. ?
[24:23 - 24:26] ? Everybody knows I'm the only one that I'm hearing on my own. ?
[24:26 - 24:28] ? It's different. ?
[24:31 - 24:32] Bruh.
[24:32 - 24:45] Bruh, that was so beyond true.
[24:45 - 24:47] Like, you don't even know, bro.
[24:47 - 24:53] Everything he said in that video was straight fire, first off.
[24:53 - 24:55] The video was...
[24:55 - 24:57] Oh, man.
[24:57 - 25:00] It was absolutely insane, bruh.
[25:00 - 25:02] The video was awesome, man.
[25:02 - 25:06] I absolutely love what they did with the video.
[25:06 - 25:08] How there's, like, two different times, man.
[25:08 - 25:13] That was seamless, that was really well done, first off.
[25:13 - 25:17] But, dude, everything he spoke about in that video is, like...
[25:17 - 25:20] It's real.
[25:20 - 25:25] 'Cause we all have that demon inside us, that dark side of us,
[25:25 - 25:29] that's trying to pull us down, that's trying to drag us down.
[25:29 - 25:33] And with everything that I've gone through over the last few days,
[25:33 - 25:38] like, that darker side has, you know, begun to creep its way out.
[25:38 - 25:44] And, you know, I have questioned whether I go on doing music or not.
[25:44 - 25:48] I have questioned whether any of this is worth it or not, bro.
[25:48 - 25:54] Like, I have, like, gone through that over and over in my head,
[25:54 - 25:57] just trying to make sense with all, like, bro.
[25:58 - 26:03] This song is...like, this is exactly what I needed.
[26:03 - 26:07] Like, I said in the very beginning, though, this reaction, man, like...
[26:07 - 26:13] It's like this man is inside my head.
[26:13 - 26:20] And he knows what I'm thinking, and he's able to take that and bring that out.
[26:20 - 26:22] Like, bro, that's literally an anthem.
[26:22 - 26:26] This song right here is literally an anthem for so many people.
[26:26 - 26:28] Like, you don't even know.
[26:28 - 26:33] Like, this is literally an anthem for a generation of people like myself.
[26:33 - 26:36] I've never gone through that.
[26:36 - 26:42] And, dude, mad, mad props to Tom McDonald, man.
[26:42 - 26:44] I absolutely love it, dude.
[26:44 - 26:48] Like, I definitely give it a fucking...
[26:48 - 26:50] I give it a straight up 10 out of 10.
[26:50 - 26:55] Like, flat out, 10 out of 10, hands fucking down, bro.
[26:56 - 27:00] [Silence]
[27:00 - 27:05] Like, that shit was incredible, man.
[27:05 - 27:08] Huge, huge props to Tom, dude.
[27:08 - 27:12] I absolutely love the video, man. That was crazy.
[27:12 - 27:19] But with that being said, y'all, I do hope that you guys did like this reaction.
[27:19 - 27:23] If you did, be sure to slap that like button and that notification bell down below.
[27:23 - 27:27] And also, if you guys would like to check out the video for yourselves,
[27:27 - 27:31] the link to the original video will be down below, man.
[27:31 - 27:33] Be sure to go check that shit out.
[27:33 - 27:37] Like, bro, I have no words.
[27:37 - 27:40] Like, this man literally took my words out of my mouth.
[27:40 - 27:47] Like, this man literally took what I was thinking and just like, here you go.
[27:47 - 27:49] I know what you're thinking.
[27:49 - 27:52] This is what you can fucking do about it.
[27:53 - 27:55] Damn.
[27:55 - 27:57] Damn, Tom.
[27:57 - 27:59] Good work, bro.
[27:59 - 28:02] Good fucking work, man.
[28:02 - 28:04] I absolutely love it, man.
[28:04 - 28:09] Tom McDonald spent nothing but facts, dude.
[28:09 - 28:11] Straight up truth and facts.
[28:11 - 28:15] But with that being said, I will catch you guys later, man.
[28:15 - 28:18] I'm out, y'all.
[28:18 - 28:20] Peace.

[0:00 - 0:07] what's good guys it's your boy Chadwick and i am back on the which day with the
[0:07 - 0:12] one the only the homie Grin the Raph free for also known as nightmare blood
[0:12 - 0:20] - what is good bro shit where the fuck you at bro if y'all ain't no man we've
[0:20 - 0:29] said you're a chilling place before night yeah we are where the fucking fish stick now for real where the
[0:29 - 0:48] fuck are you at for that matter yeah where you at oh shit yeah yeah not again
[0:48 - 1:04] start the video back here man hurry up yeah there ain't no way I'm making this
[1:04 - 1:12] shit I'm coming around coming around I see you I see you come this way come
[1:12 - 1:40] this way I'm fucking running for man I'm going in it as fast as I fucking can
[1:40 - 1:45] boy I'm going as fast as I can up here bro y'all I swear to god if I'm making out
[1:45 - 1:49] this or I'll be in fucking shock dude
[1:52 - 2:16] yeah I'm making out this damn bitch oh wait hold on they get stopped nope I'll
[2:16 - 2:45] try and I'm trying I swear to god I'm making it out this bitch one way or
[2:45 - 2:57] fucking no no I don't give a fuck I'm gone bro fuck dude I'm screwed man and
[2:57 - 3:07] I just got really fucked you know what you ready to back out and do another
[3:07 - 3:29] one yeah I just leave the match for fucking guy fuck it I don't know fish
[3:29 - 3:35] change I don't know I just got my ass fucking with this I know I literally had
[3:35 - 3:44] the back out I want more help than I would have been doing anyway bro oh
[3:44 - 3:58] fish chair the fuck oh yo oh yeah yo can I claim some shit tell me I can
[3:58 - 4:17] let me see ah fuck no classic fish thanks for the fuck bro yo ready up it
[4:17 - 4:21] shows that you're in the vein dude
[4:21 - 4:38] yeah how'd you do that
[4:38 - 4:54] dude I could buy the metal pairs oh yeah I have 400 so I ain't got shit
[4:54 - 5:17] you know what bro let me take let me just get word back
[5:17 - 5:36] already when you're ready dude let's go get into this shit man I was ready up
[5:36 - 5:47] you ready let's get it and this time was trying not to fucking die or get
[5:47 - 5:58] gotten the fucking storm let's not go for a fish stick this time yo dude yo
[5:58 - 6:01] also huge I don't plan though why don't we just get a bunch of fucking NPC's
[6:01 - 6:06] as well and then we just hire em up yeah whole whole fucking army at their
[6:06 - 6:12] fucking ready yeah I wonder if I can give you a copyright strike by doing
[6:12 - 6:20] this I'm not sure like dude asking if I give a fuck it's not like I'm gonna get
[6:20 - 6:24] a copy it's not they're gonna take my channel down for a copy written shit
[6:24 - 6:29] yo let's do it over here got no got a fucking bro this is over here having a
[6:29 - 6:36] fucking King Cobra on the back of its fucking head why is do don't like the
[6:36 - 6:40] fucking dream yo dude like the fucking green ranger over here that was fucking
[6:40 - 6:43] dope
[6:43 - 6:58] let's go let's go this we're uh I still need to discover it yeah fuck it I'm jumping
[6:58 - 7:12] hey nice on site I don't know how the hell they was that bitch up off the
[7:12 - 7:16] ground man that's what I want to know
[7:16 - 7:39] hey we're gonna shoot and I'm literally flying fucking backwards here
[7:39 - 7:50] you did not just go there with that shit
[7:50 - 8:15] I'm backing it up for a little nigger bro what the hell man I went to grass and they call
[8:15 - 8:33] soon
[8:33 - 8:38] what the fuck glitch there's no fucking glitch right here y'all look at this shit
[8:38 - 9:00] look like a Arizona yo yeah I need to find a way in and fast I just killed
[9:00 - 9:08] the bitch with my fucking hammer dude y'all just seen that shit right oh
[9:08 - 9:24] face shot dude that was like legit a double kill right there where yeah
[9:24 - 9:42] we're yet the round is all good dude I literally shot that motherfucker with a
[9:42 - 9:48] fucking fucker with one of those grenades well you went flying bro I fucking face
[9:48 - 9:54] shot that last dude that walk and that was good though dude fucking walked up
[9:54 - 10:01] in there I shot around the fucking face like bitch so I sit your ass down sit
[10:01 - 10:21] your fucking dog ass down boy dude you got his ass handed though yeah yeah I
[10:21 - 10:31] think that's what I want to know what the fuck is down here
[10:32 - 10:50] I don't know why I ended up with a bunch of fucking shotguns yeah go ahead and
[10:50 - 11:01] swap out all right we're good to roll
[11:01 - 11:13] yo we need to get the fuck about here man
[11:13 - 11:41] my pickaxe when it goes through the door what makes the things that you fucking stupid ass pea shooter yourself that's what I'm looking for. I'm not sure what I'm looking for. I'm just looking for some fish for the lead. No I need that.
[11:41 - 11:54] And this time let's not go get fish sticks unless you want to die.
[11:54 - 11:56] I don't get fishing
[11:56 - 12:00] Oh, yeah, I got this
[12:00 - 12:34] Oh
[13:01 - 13:03] Yo, yes, we're going
[13:03 - 13:12] And I am fucked
[13:12 - 13:14] Oh
[13:15 - 13:19] Don't up I built up and went over the wall
[13:19 - 13:36] And then keep on taking people's
[13:36 - 13:38] Out there
[13:38 - 13:48] Dude I don't see you to be strictly honest, bro
[13:48 - 13:50] Yeah
[13:50 - 13:54] Oh
[13:55 - 13:57] Yeah
[13:57 - 13:59] Oh
[13:59 - 14:26] God it was bad earlier. Yeah
[14:26 - 14:28] Oh
[14:28 - 14:34] This dude's over here nickname this fucking empty sea fucking fish dicks who we got our ass handed
[14:34 - 14:45] Ronnie a fucking vehicle. Oh, here we go. Here we go. Now we're talking
[14:45 - 14:51] Nigga thing but have some
[14:51 - 14:53] Oh
[14:53 - 15:08] Yeah, why she is glitching out wasn't that hard yep, I am screwed man
[15:08 - 15:17] Dude
[15:20 - 15:23] Yo, dude, is there any way you can get back here and save my ass
[15:23 - 15:30] Yeah, dude, you're too far ahead dude
[15:30 - 15:38] This is why I say we prior Ryan open this bitch
[15:38 - 15:48] I'm sending her fucking crawl. I fucking bow up from four to go. I'm trying to fucking crawl my way out
[15:48 - 15:50] Oh
[15:50 - 15:56] Yo, right there, oh no, yo
[15:56 - 16:00] Oh
[16:00 - 16:02] I
[16:02 - 16:29] Don't get the industry right here real quick and I'm gonna go back in and try to redo it

[0:00 - 0:29] What's good y'all, it's your boy. Today we are actually doing something pretty fucking dope. I do have a switch street for you guys. Today we are actually taking a look at this beautiful, beautiful 1979 Datsun.
[0:29 - 0:45] It is actually the 1979 '33 Bob Sharp Racing 280CX Turbo. Now if y'all didn't know I actually took and converted this into a drag racer.
[0:45 - 0:58] So it's pretty fire. Now the paint was actually done by, as a lot of y'all know, I actually do race with extreme speeds, which are, you know, two of my brothers, Ethan and Rick.
[0:58 - 1:11] Something interesting about this, not only are they two of the head drivers on the team, but Ethan is also our paint guy. He's the one that comes up with the different, you know, paint schemes for the cars.
[1:11 - 1:26] He's the one that does all the artwork for the different cars that we run. This one was actually done custom for me because a lot of people don't know that, you know, I really am very heavily influenced by Japanese culture.
[1:26 - 1:49] So, you know, I thought that was a pretty cool homage to pay respects to, you know, I wanted something like, you know, really traditional, you know, I wanted something very traditional, very nice, very clean to kind of the homage to the traditional Japanese art style and Ethan was pitching around a few ideas and stuff and he ultimately came out with this.
[1:49 - 2:03] So this is a nice, you know, a nice way to pay homage to, you know, the traditional Japanese art style, the art form. As you can see, you got the traditional Japanese art on the side there with the gate.
[2:03 - 2:10] Got the traditional Japanese geisha with the rising sun and the gate and the cherry blossoms on the hood.
[2:10 - 2:20] Things fucking fire, dude. Now, like I said, I did turn this into a custom dragster. You got Yokohama on the windshield there, which is super clean.
[2:20 - 2:27] You got the cherry blossoms going around the around along the back, got the Forza logo on the back there.
[2:27 - 2:35] Just a nice little clean look around the car you got.
[2:35 - 2:43] What is up there?
[2:43 - 2:53] Hey, I'm Panasonic on there and then a couple other things. But yeah, this thing is super fire. We're about to actually take a scene for a run here.
[2:53 - 2:58] It's actually one of my personal favorite cars that, you know, my boy Ethan has come out with.
[2:58 - 3:09] I actually I really like the design on that, honestly. I actually am doing a special number twenty three Dodge Viper.
[3:09 - 3:24] As you all know, the number twenty three is very, you know, personal to me as because that was, you know, and the reason for that is actually because that was my brother's, my older brother's birthday, which January 23rd.
[3:24 - 3:32] So obviously for me, you know, number twenty three is very personal. It's very, you know, special to me, meaningful to me and personal.
[3:32 - 3:38] So I am working on number twenty three dragster, which I can't wait to see how it comes out.
[3:38 - 3:45] Like I'm definitely going to have a hand in it for sure. So shout out to my boy, Ethan, man. Fucking love this, bro.
[3:45 - 3:50] You already know. Fucking love you guys, man. You and Rick, man, you are crazy.
[3:50 - 3:55] Y'all come out with the wildest shit in the life, for real.
[3:55 - 4:01] Like I've been racing with you guys for years now, man, like y'all come out with the craziest shit ever.
[4:01 - 4:07] Fucking love it, dude. Especially the fucking drift this will let you build.
[4:07 - 4:15] The other day, you think that shows fucking fire, bro.
[4:15 - 4:20] Let's see on number twenty three dots and stacks up, man. This is the only interesting I might.
[4:20 - 4:26] I may still need to do some tuning with this. I don't know.
[4:26 - 4:31] But yeah, let's run this thing.
[4:31 - 4:34] I was definitely once again mad props to the homie, Ethan, man.
[4:34 - 4:40] You got to show love to the little brother, man. There's a fucking boss when it comes to doing painting schemes.
[4:40 - 4:45] Like, I'm super stoked. I absolutely love this paint job they did, man. Fucking fire.
[4:45 - 5:01] Oh, yeah. I also forgot to mention you got Johnson there on the front.
[5:01 - 5:05] Dang, this thing's actually quick.
[5:05 - 5:16] See if we can pull it. Yo, we're actually pulling on this guy right now. What?
[5:16 - 5:21] Bro, this thing is actually topped out at two hundred. Holy shit.
[5:21 - 5:28] That's actually not a bad run. I'm actually shook.
[5:28 - 5:41] I figured it would have come dead last, but no, this thing fucking blows the doors off that fucking number fifteen Indy car, man. That's crazy.
[5:41 - 5:48] Now, I said I did do the build myself, which I absolutely love to build on this thing.
[5:48 - 5:59] I do plan on, you know, definitely improving on it, but, dude, so far, this thing's fucking dope.
[5:59 - 6:05] I mean, like I said, though, I couldn't have, you know, build that car without a dope ass painting scheme.
[6:05 - 6:12] Like I said, shout out to my boy, Ethan, bro. Always hooking up the dope ass artwork on the cars, man. Can't even lie.
[6:12 - 6:23] Dude's always hooking up to be good shit. Oh, damn, we got a fucking jumper out the line. What's good?
[6:23 - 6:39] Bro, this thing's actually crazy.
[6:39 - 6:46] How the hell, bro.
[6:46 - 6:49] Oh, awesome, dude.
[6:49 - 6:56] How like, how is he going to reach out to me? Is he going to reach out to me through Facebook, through email?
[6:56 - 7:03] Like, how is he going to hit me up? Is he going to be on Discord?
[7:03 - 7:09] And, bro, I actually like this thing, man. This Datsun 280CX is fucking lit.
[7:09 - 7:15] I actually like this, man. I'm glad I decided to go for a crazy funny car kind of drag build.
[7:15 - 7:22] Now, I would actually like to compete in some pro drag racing leagues for Forza, man. I would have loved for that to happen.
[7:22 - 7:27] I don't know if there are any I still have to look, but it is what it is, though.
[7:27 - 7:34] I actually, I fucking love this. This may just be one of my main dragsters.
[7:34 - 7:37] Okay.
[7:37 - 7:45] Now, what you know about that wheelie life, huh?
[7:45 - 7:48] Bro, this thing is fucking wicked.
[7:48 - 8:00] I cannot lie, this thing is insane.
[8:00 - 8:05] Are you fucking serious?
[8:05 - 8:09] That did not just happen.
[8:09 - 8:15] Oh, it's all good, man. It's all good.
[8:15 - 8:20] Yeah, I like that. Obviously, why would I not like my own boy?
[8:20 - 8:27] Why would I not like my own brother's fucking artwork? What the fuck is that?
[8:27 - 8:36] Why would I not like my boy Ethan's own freaking work? Come on, man.
[8:36 - 8:40] What kind of dumb shit is that? You asked me, do you like this work?
[8:40 - 8:45] Obviously, my boy Ethan fucking did it, so obviously I like it.
[8:45 - 8:48] Like, come on, man.
[8:48 - 9:09] What kind of stupid question is that, man?
[9:09 - 9:13] I want no traction, but I want stability on.
[9:13 - 9:23] That way we can keep this thing stable, obviously.
[9:23 - 9:28] Yo, someone's a Deadpool fan, man. What's good?
[9:28 - 9:38] Shout out to Deadpool, X, Y, J, or X, Y, I, Deadpool, X, Y, I.
[9:38 - 9:41] What's good, man?
[9:41 - 9:44] Yo, shout out to the only, yo, dude.
[9:44 - 9:46] I've seen this dude in here a few times.
[9:46 - 9:50] This dude's actually good on the drag strip.
[9:50 - 9:53] Not even gonna lie, the dude crushed it.
[9:53 - 9:57] I've seen him do some pretty good fucking runs.
[9:57 - 10:13] So, shout out to the frackin' one, man. Dude's good.
[10:13 - 10:18] Safe cabbage, 6-1-9-6-1-9-5, what?
[10:18 - 10:24] I swear, man, what is with y'all in these fucking weird-ass names, though, for real?
[10:24 - 10:36] Like, come on, who just has the nickname, fucking Safe Cabbage, 6-1-9-5, like, what?
[10:36 - 10:46] Shout out to AgonizerBore683. I actually like that. That's actually a good one.
[10:46 - 10:57] Y'all are crazy with his names, bro. I swear to God.
[10:57 - 11:02] Yo, this thing is like, I still cannot believe how fast this damn thing actually is, bro.
[11:02 - 11:07] This thing's actually making the screen glitch out. Look at that shit.
[11:07 - 11:11] Like, y'all are seeing that shit. It's literally making the fucking screen glitch.
[11:11 - 11:15] That is nuts.
[11:15 - 11:24] Oh, damn. Frack the one coming in with a Ford GT40. Taking that number two spot. Fuck yeah, dude.
[11:24 - 11:37] Like I said, man, dude kills it. The dude's good, bro.
[11:37 - 11:50] I almost made this damn thing here, bro. This thing wants to wheelie. That's just it.
[11:50 - 12:06] Like, this thing for real wants to get up in the air and fucking wheelie back when I'm having to fucking hold it down.
[12:06 - 12:17] Like, that shit's nuts, dude.
[12:17 - 12:22] I actually know it's actually a traditional Japanese art style.
[12:22 - 12:32] Last time I'm going, Ethan, he actually hooked me up with this dope ass artwork on it because, like, you know, me and him are both into traditional Japanese artwork.
[12:32 - 12:48] And we figured, you know, what better way to pay homage to, you know, that traditional Japanese style than to throw some really cool, you know, different arid Japanese artwork, like the geisha artwork from like the 17th century and the 18th century.
[12:48 - 13:06] This is like the 16th and 13th century stuff, so it's pretty cool. I fucking love it, dude. Not even gonna lie, this shit's dope.
[13:06 - 13:22] Yo, like I said, man, fractal coming in clutch with that second place, bro. Can't even lie.
[13:22 - 13:34] I'm almost tempted to fucking just take this thing and just like run it on a fucking airstrip. Just see how, just see if I can get, just, I want to see if I can make this thing wheelie.
[13:34 - 13:38] Like, for real, like, I'm tempted.
[13:38 - 14:07] I'm fucking tempted to take that thing for a wheelie run.
[14:07 - 14:11] I do want to change my driver gear up, though.
[14:11 - 14:29] Like, don't get me wrong, I do like the Von Gettin Jr. setup here, but what the hell? Oh, bro, yo, got that home depot shit.
[14:29 - 14:50] Yo, we gotta do that. We gotta go Master Chief on this shit. I know it's kind of generic, but bro, you can't go wrong with a Master Chief look.
[14:50 - 14:59] And get out of here. Y'all fucking fakes, man. Come on now.
[14:59 - 15:08] Bro, dude driving a GTR. Oh damn, GTR 93, damn.
[15:08 - 15:13] Hope a dude can hold up. I wonder if I'm gonna get put up against, honestly, bro.
[15:13 - 15:27] I hope I can get put up against Roguet with that fucking unicorn, man. That's gonna suck if I get put up against that.
[15:27 - 15:39] I don't know this dude. Alright, deal with the GTR.
[15:39 - 15:51] Hopefully it shouldn't be on.
[15:51 - 16:02] I'm like right behind this guy right now. Bro, that GTR, damn.
[16:02 - 16:08] Honestly, bro, she straight up up and just fucking said fuck you in the left, dude. Like, for real.
[16:08 - 16:19] I haven't heard from her since the fucking Marty shit started popping off, so I just couldn't even begin to tell you, dude.
[16:19 - 16:25] That'd be more of a question for, I don't know, man.
[16:25 - 16:30] Well, like I said, I haven't heard from her since the whole shit started off with Marty.
[16:30 - 16:46] So I honestly got no clue.
[16:46 - 17:01] Bro, this thing's actually that quick that it's making the fucking screen glitch. That is actually crazy.
[17:01 - 17:10] Yo, just wondering why has nobody invented being able to fucking edit somebody else's paint schemes, bro?
[17:10 - 17:20] Because, dude, on here, if you were to edit somebody's paint scheme, man, imagine the frickin...
[17:20 - 17:35] Yeah, dude, imagine the frickin custom wraps that would come out like the frickin...
[17:35 - 17:41] Dude, that guy's way up there.
[17:41 - 17:58] Bro, there's literally so much horsepower in this thing that it's, like, shaky as fuck.
[17:58 - 18:20] Oh, hey, that's weird. I don't know why she would talk to Marty, but, hey, that's her business, not mine.
[18:20 - 18:35] Like, whatever she does is what she does. It is what it is.
[18:35 - 18:51] I got no part of that, so I can't say shit. Sorry, Ethan, my man. You know I got mad love for you, bro, but we gotta take this up a notch.
[18:51 - 19:04] Last time I fucking Red Bull 1971 portion this shit. Y'all thought I was playing? Guess again, bitch.
[19:04 - 19:13] Like, y'all really thought I was playing. But, yo, Ethan, mad props to you, bro. Absolutely love that painting job, bro. Fucking love it.
[19:13 - 19:21] I'm definitely gonna see if I can find more other ones like that, or I might just have you do a custom one for a rotary, so I don't know.
[19:21 - 19:28] But, uh, yo, fucking love the dance game, bro. Fucking sick, dude.
[19:28 - 19:34] Dude's always sucking me up with cool ass shit.
[19:34 - 19:52] Like, not even a lot. Dude's always got some cool wicked ass fucking art raps. Like, the dude's got some cool ass freaking raps for cars for days.
[19:52 - 20:14] Mm-hmm.
[20:14 - 20:18] I shall have seen that wheelie again.
[20:18 - 20:26] Oh, almost wheelie'd.
[20:26 - 20:31] Almost wheelie'd.
[20:31 - 20:39] Morning gets one present a day. Ha! Facts, Anthony. Facts, bro.
[20:39 - 20:49] Now, if y'all I know, I have been playing a lot of, um, a lot of Warzone recently as well. It was a lot of Fortnite, so that was pretty fun.
[20:49 - 20:53] Matter of fact, if y'all caught it, I actually got to kick it with the homie last night, man.
[20:53 - 21:00] I got to kick it with the homie Grim the Rap Reaper last night on some Fortnite, which was super fun.
[21:00 - 21:08] That fucking fishstick line, though, bro, for real.
[21:08 - 21:14] Like, bro, what's with the fucking fishstick line? Gee, come on, man.
[21:14 - 21:24] I won't admit, though, one thing I learned from, though, bro, never trust, never trust fishstick when it comes to Fortnite, bro. Your ass will be dead in seconds.
[21:24 - 21:35] Dude, I'll leave you guys to your own fucking death, bro.
[21:35 - 21:43] Oh, yeah, there we go.
[21:43 - 21:48] Yo, how the fuck did I?
[21:48 - 22:00] Oh, yeah. Bro, these guys are either modding or they're just naturally fucking fast.
[22:00 - 22:05] Dude, I don't think I have the Porsche 906.
[22:05 - 22:09] Hold on, yo, that dude is driving the 911 GT1? What?
[22:09 - 22:25] Damn. Oh, I may just have to pick up the 911 GT1, do a custom scheme on that one. I do like a flying wizard race scheme or maybe even possibly a frickin.
[22:25 - 22:31] Hell, I don't know, a fucking rock star or monster energy rap. No, no.
[22:31 - 22:40] Or do a fucking I know it's gonna sound weird, but I do like a fucking Kim Possible fucking knock around fucking.
[22:40 - 22:45] What's that fucking place called? Not Chimeritos fucking.
[22:45 - 22:52] What's it called? I don't know how I may even pop off a fucking Naruto rap. You never fucking know.
[22:52 - 23:03] I'll definitely go with something for the Porsche 911 GT1 because I do have that, actually. It's actually a real good car. It's actually one of my favorite road racers, to be honest with you.
[23:03 - 23:19] Fucking love that thing. It's a nimble as fuck.
[23:19 - 23:29] Y'all motherfuckers need to quit with that fucking fake shadow blade shit. This shit's getting annoying, bro, for real.
[23:29 - 23:38] All right, let's back out of here for a minute.
[23:38 - 23:47] Wait, for real, man, all y'all fucking assholes with the fake shadow blade shit, y'all need to quit that crap because, bro, I am the real one, all right?
[23:47 - 23:52] I done proved it a million fucking times. I shouldn't have to prove that I'm me.
[23:52 - 24:03] Like, for real, I should not have to prove to y'all that I am me. I am who I am. Like, that shit don't make no sense, bro.
[24:03 - 24:10] Like, come on, dude. Obviously the douche thing.
[24:10 - 24:18] Oh, hey, y'all guys, I gotta bounce for now. The homie Grim's coming in. I will catch you guys later, man.
[24:18 - 24:21] I'll think back up on this later, y'all. Peace.

[0:00 - 4:22] [MUSIC]

[0:00 - 0:16] What's up guys it's your boy, I know I said I was going to rest but I can barely fucking
[0:16 - 0:34] sleep being so stressed out and worried like it's it's definitely hard like for those
[0:34 - 0:43] of you that are parents or have been parents you guys like you guys understand but for
[0:43 - 0:52] those of you that haven't or aren't parents or haven't been parents what I'm dealing
[0:52 - 0:58] with is literally the biggest scare of my life and I've literally been up and down
[0:58 - 1:18] all fucking night trying to keep myself calm and shit but you know it's hard
[1:18 - 1:25] and what makes it worse is motherfuckers like Marty and Skull Kid productions like Skull
[1:25 - 1:32] Kid honestly you need to shut your fucking mouth and quit being a little bitch and Marty
[1:32 - 1:40] you just need to fuck off like for real like y'all motherfuckers are pieces of fucking
[1:40 - 1:59] shit and I'm not a dad quite yet Tim that's that's still to be determined because if you
[1:59 - 2:05] guys didn't catch my last video allow me to explain what's going on as you guys know
[2:05 - 2:11] me and Caleon split a while back and we wound up getting back together well today I found
[2:11 - 2:15] out today and her were sitting down talking and you know we're spending time together
[2:15 - 2:22] like we always do and she was telling me how she was having these you know abnormal
[2:22 - 2:30] bleeding cycles in which she did go to the doctor for and we're waiting on results back
[2:30 - 2:37] now the doctor said they think they're not for sure but they think that she could either
[2:37 - 2:46] be having a miscarriage or she could be you know possibly pregnant we don't know we are
[2:46 - 2:52] still waiting for the results it is still to be determined we do not know what's going
[2:52 - 2:59] on now Marty and Skull Kid y'all motherfuckers want to sit there and blow that shit out
[2:59 - 3:06] of proportion y'all need to quit that shit cuz if she really is going through that shit
[3:06 - 3:17] that's scary for me cuz if she is pregnant and she and she is having a miscarriage do
[3:17 - 3:24] you know how it's fucking scary that shit is y'all never had to deal with that shit
[3:24 - 3:32] I have I had to watch my little sister Melissa go through a miscarriage twice and it was
[3:32 - 3:41] the hardest thing ever because I had lost my niece and nephew but the possibly keyword
[3:41 - 3:48] possibly be losing my own child if you've never been a parent you don't understand what
[3:48 - 3:55] that's like if you have I'm pretty sure you're well aware or at least I would hope you would
[3:55 - 4:05] be like Marty Skull Kid you guys need to pack off you know this scare that I'm getting
[4:05 - 4:13] put through right now this scare that I'm dealing with it literally put things into
[4:13 - 4:18] perspective for me it made me realize where I belong it made me realize what I need to
[4:18 - 4:27] be doing it made me realize that I belong with I belong with Megan it made me fucking
[4:27 - 4:32] realize that I belong with her and I need to be with her it made me fucking realize
[4:32 - 4:38] that shit and it made me fucking realize that I have no option but to fucking do what
[4:38 - 4:43] I have to fucking do in order to make it it made me fucking realize that I have no fucking
[4:43 - 4:49] option but to fucking make it and the only way I could do that is without is with y'all
[4:49 - 4:58] little bitches saying the fuck out of the way you don't know how motherfucking scary
[4:58 - 5:04] that shit is if you never gone through it you don't have no right to fucking sit there
[5:04 - 5:12] and judge Skull Kid same with you Marty you don't know how scary that shit is
[5:12 - 5:39] like I said we still don't know what's fully going on yet we're still waiting on results
[5:39 - 5:45] back from the doctors but point being until then there's still that there's still that
[5:45 - 6:01] worry there's still that fear of things going wrong would I like to be a father absolutely
[6:01 - 6:07] I have always wanted to settle down and have a family I've always wanted that ever since
[6:07 - 6:19] I was a kid but that have to be on the edge of possibly having a miscarriage that's nothing
[6:19 - 6:23] that a parent should have to deal with that's one thing that no parent should have to go
[6:23 - 6:35] through for those of you that have gone through that I'm sorry I know what that's like and
[6:35 - 6:49] it's hard it's the hardest thing you could ever go through as a parent it really is like
[6:49 - 6:55] I know people have been reaching out to me and telling me you know stay calm relax take
[6:55 - 7:04] a breather you know don't let it stress you out but the truth is when you're in that kind
[7:04 - 7:11] of a scared moment that's all you can fucking think about I've literally been up and down
[7:11 - 7:24] all night I may slept maybe two hours at the most if that because that's how fucking
[7:24 - 7:39] worried I am that's how scared I am I'm Marty Skull Kid I wish you guys would just back
[7:39 - 7:47] the fuck off and leave me the fuck alone and everybody knows that this is true what
[7:47 - 7:54] I'm about to say if either of you wouldn't have gotten in the fucking way of everything
[7:54 - 8:00] that I'm trying to build of the future I'm trying to build for myself I would actually
[8:00 - 8:10] be making money right now I might actually get somewhere but because you both are so
[8:10 - 8:17] fixated on attacking me and ruining what I'm trying to do that makes it hard for me to
[8:17 - 8:28] build a future for myself for my girl and for my possible child you sit there say oh
[8:28 - 8:35] get a job get a real job get a real job I wouldn't have to worry about getting a fucking
[8:35 - 8:40] nine to five job if you would stay the fuck out of the way and let me do what I fucking
[8:40 - 8:46] need to do to get to where I need to fucking be if you would stay the fuck out of the
[8:46 - 8:51] way and quit fucking coming after me every five fucking seconds I might actually be able
[8:51 - 9:02] to fucking get somewhere but because you two little bitch had knuckleheads I'm fucking
[9:02 - 9:07] stuck in the same spot that I've been stuck in for 11 fucking years because you want
[9:07 - 9:12] to sit there and bitch and whine and moan and act like fucking keyboard warrior little
[9:12 - 9:19] bitches you want to sit there and attack me and hold me back from what I'm trying to
[9:19 - 9:26] do what I'm trying to build and you're not and you and you will literally stop at nothing
[9:26 - 9:38] to ruin that all for your own selfish fucking greed for a fucking laugh I'm not some fucking
[9:38 - 9:43] joke on the internet even though people make me out to try to even though people try to
[9:43 - 9:51] make me out to be a joke I'm really not everything I do I bust my ass on every fucking night
[9:51 - 9:57] every fucking day I put my heart and soul into every single fucking thing that I do
[9:57 - 10:03] every single fucking song every single show every single art piece I do every single
[10:03 - 10:11] fucking note that I touch I put my heart and soul into every fucking time in hopes
[10:11 - 10:16] that I can actually build a future doing something that I truly fucking love to do
[10:16 - 10:29] I want to take this scare that I'm going through
[10:29 - 10:33] this fucking scare that I'm going through really put it in the fucking perspective for
[10:33 - 10:41] me and made me realize that I have no choice but to make it in music I have no options
[10:41 - 10:48] I have nothing else doing my music into my artwork that's all I fucking know that's
[10:48 - 10:57] all I've ever known I have nothing else I don't know any other fucking traits I don't
[10:57 - 11:06] know anything else except music and art yeah sure I can get a gaming sponsorship and become
[11:06 - 11:13] a paid gamer and shit but in order to do that you have to have so many subscribers
[11:13 - 11:18] you have to have so many views you have to have so much of this so much of that and
[11:18 - 11:26] it's bullshit it's all fucking bullshit when I do the gaming live streams of shit that's
[11:26 - 11:35] just me hanging out having fun but my business with my music and my artwork I take that
[11:35 - 11:44] shit seriously I treat that shit like a job from the time I get up at eight o'clock six
[11:44 - 11:53] o'clock five o'clock in the morning you know what I'm fucking doing I'm doing everything
[11:53 - 11:59] I can to make a future through my music and through my fucking artwork every fucking
[11:59 - 12:10] day of the week Sunday through Saturday every fucking day that's what I'm doing whether
[12:10 - 12:17] it's doing a live cover show whether it's showcasing some new songs or you know performing
[12:17 - 12:24] some old songs that I've done whether it be doing cover songs or whatever every fucking
[12:24 - 12:29] day when I wake up from the time I get up I am working on music and artwork all fucking
[12:29 - 12:40] day long all fucking day non-stop why because that's my fucking job and if I'm gonna be
[12:40 - 12:46] doing this for the rest of my life as a job as a career I need to be doing that I need
[12:46 - 12:58] to get used to that but y'all punk motherfuckers that sit there and attack me and troll me
[12:58 - 13:06] and try to make me out to be a joke that ain't no fucking joke you never neither one of
[13:06 - 13:13] you have really and truly been in the music industry neither one of you little fuckheads
[13:13 - 13:21] have never sat there on one to two hours of sleep for an entire week let me tell you
[13:21 - 13:25] something when I first started out I was maybe getting one or two hours of sleep a
[13:25 - 13:35] week that's it one to two hours a week busting my ass all night all day no sleep staying
[13:35 - 13:45] up constantly forcing myself to stay up to perfect my crap but when little motherfuckers
[13:45 - 13:52] like you get in the fucking way and ruin everything I'm trying to build how is that
[13:52 - 14:08] fair to me what are you gaining by doing that do I think your gaming from it is views
[14:08 - 14:16] and that's all you both are after our fucking views and selves and clout and it's ridiculous
[14:16 - 14:22] when you fucking little retards wonder why I fucking left the community why I've been
[14:22 - 14:27] so focused on my music why I've been so focused on my artwork why I've been so focused on
[14:27 - 14:38] doing what I need to fucking do there's a fucking reason you know it's stressful enough
[14:38 - 14:45] going through what I'm fucking going through you don't know how many times over and over
[14:45 - 14:53] work within the last 24 hours that I wanted to fucking break down in the fucking tears
[14:53 - 14:58] you don't know how many times I have broken down in the tears within the last 24 fucking
[14:58 - 15:13] hours not just out of stress but out of worry out of hoping and praying to God that everything's
[15:13 - 15:23] alright and if you've never had a child you don't know what it's like you don't know what
[15:23 - 15:39] it's like to have that fucking fear that scare put into you imagine this imagine you're
[15:39 - 15:45] talking to your girlfriend or your fiance or your wife or whatever and you're sitting
[15:45 - 15:53] there hanging out having a good time and she tells you about her irregular bleeding and
[15:53 - 16:02] it's more than normal and you get a call from the doctors while you're on the phone
[16:02 - 16:09] with her or you're talking to her and you get a call from your doctors saying that they're
[16:09 - 16:20] not sure but there's a good chance that you're either having a child or possibly having a
[16:20 - 16:30] miscarriage let me tell you when I heard those fucking words come out of that doctor's
[16:30 - 16:41] mouth yesterday my heart fucking sank to the pit of my fucking stomach hearing the
[16:41 - 16:54] words that there's a possible miscarriage but they aren't sure what's going on imagine
[16:54 - 17:07] hearing those words uttered out of the doctors mouth as soon as I heard those fucking words
[17:07 - 17:13] me and Kate went both went into fucking shock we were worried and we were scared shitless
[17:13 - 17:33] let me tell you something I've never wanted to hold Megan's so bad in my life when me
[17:33 - 17:43] and Megan got that news it was the scariest thing ever because we don't know what's going
[17:43 - 18:03] on with her they're still doing testing and unless you've had those words uttered to
[18:03 - 18:18] you you have no right to fucking judge me at all yes me and Megan sweat and I was with
[18:18 - 18:27] Caitlin for a while that may be true but she came back looking for a second chance I gave
[18:27 - 18:32] her that second chance because she fucking deserved it because unlike Caitlin Megan didn't
[18:32 - 18:42] do anything to hurt me life got in the fucking way she wound up she wound up taking over
[18:42 - 18:49] her mom's old house she wound up having to fix it up day in and day out because of how
[18:49 - 18:54] bad the damage was they had to go in and fix it every fucking day plus her phone was
[18:54 - 19:05] fucking broke and she had to get a new one and she had to wait to get a new one because
[19:05 - 19:09] all the money that she was gonna use to buy a new phone she had to put towards fixing
[19:09 - 19:29] up the house well let me tell you something what you guys do to me it's not fair it's
[19:29 - 19:38] not fair to anyone and it's especially not fair to me it's not fair to those that you
[19:38 - 19:51] guys be little and take on you want to sit there and talk shit about me go ahead I don't
[19:51 - 19:57] care you can say that I'm a shitty person because of the fact that I dated someone
[19:57 - 20:08] else after I was with Megan not knowing that shit did any of this was going on you can
[20:08 - 20:14] say what you want about me I don't care but the fact of the matter is I'm not some fucking
[20:14 - 20:23] shitty fucking person out the street I'm not some fucking deadbeat I'm not my dad
[20:23 - 20:36] I'm not a fucking deadbeat father I never would be and I know what you're thinking oh
[20:36 - 20:44] how are you gonna pay how are you gonna provide for this child we don't have a job well maybe
[20:44 - 20:50] like I said if you two knuckleheads would stay out of my way I can make fucking money
[20:50 - 20:57] doing what I love to do but no instead I'm left to fucking battle you guys every fucking
[20:57 - 21:06] day because of you guys I have to fight every fucking day the goddamn week just to even
[21:06 - 21:18] keep my merchandise up just keep anything up and you think that's fair you think that's
[21:18 - 21:28] right that you do that when I am working so fucking hard to build a life for myself to
[21:28 - 21:47] be able to build a life doing what I fucking love where is that fair to anyone I just want
[21:47 - 21:48] this to stop
[21:48 - 21:49] [silence]
[21:49 - 21:49] [laughter]
[21:49 - 22:18] [silence]
[22:18 - 22:20] Morning Skull Kid.
[22:20 - 22:23] [silence]
[22:23 - 22:27] I just wish you would leave me alone.
[22:27 - 22:30] And leave the people that I know alone.
[22:30 - 22:33] [silence]
[22:33 - 22:39] Because let me tell you, you don't know the scare that I'm dealing with.
[22:39 - 22:43] You don't know how scary this is.
[22:43 - 22:48] Not only for myself, but for Megan.
[22:48 - 22:56] [silence]
[22:56 - 23:00] You think it's okay to do what you do, but it's not.
[23:00 - 23:04] [silence]
[23:04 - 23:08] You don't know how scared I am right now.
[23:08 - 23:13] How nervous me and Megan are, how worried we are.
[23:13 - 23:16] [silence]
[23:16 - 23:19] I've literally been on the phone all night, up and down with Megan.
[23:19 - 23:24] Because she's been so fucking scared, so fucking worried, just as much as I have.
[23:24 - 23:28] [silence]
[23:28 - 23:33] You're not the one that sat there with her on the phone all night.
[23:33 - 23:42] While she's screaming in pain.
[23:42 - 23:46] You're not the one that sat there and listened to her.
[23:46 - 23:50] Simon would cry herself to sleep.
[23:50 - 23:54] Because of the pain.
[23:54 - 23:58] Because of the fact that she could possibly be losing her child.
[23:58 - 24:07] And the fact that I could possibly be losing mine.
[24:07 - 24:14] You don't know what that's like.
[24:14 - 24:21] And if you don't know what that's like, what right do you have to judge?
[24:21 - 24:41] It doesn't make no damn sense.
[24:41 - 24:55] I just wish you guys understood what's going on.
[24:55 - 25:13] All I ask of you, Marty, and for you, Skull Kid, is that you stop what you're doing to me.
[25:13 - 25:21] Please, let me live my life in peace.
[25:21 - 25:25] That's all I ask.
[25:25 - 25:33] Is that you let me live my life in peace and let me do what I have to do to be able to make a living off of what I love to do.
[25:33 - 25:39] That is all I ask.
[25:39 - 25:45] So please, both of you,
[25:45 - 25:50] leave me and my friends and my girlfriend alone.
[25:50 - 26:00] Please.
[26:00 - 26:09] Thank you.

[0:00 - 0:28] What's up guys? Today I wanted to do something special. I'm going to show you some of the
[0:28 - 0:50] special. I wanted to do something special for everyone that was not only a fan of the band
[0:50 - 1:17] but friends, family. On July 21st, 2017 we lost one of the best music artists of all
[1:17 - 1:30] time. We lost the voice of a generation. We lost somebody who would define music as a
[1:30 - 1:51] whole and revolutionized it for a very, very long time. That person was the late and great
[1:51 - 2:05] Chester Bennington. And a lot of people wonder why I speak so highly about him. And let me
[2:05 - 2:15] tell you there's many reasons. It wasn't just because he had good music. He had music
[2:15 - 2:26] that was relatable. He faced a lot of problems that nobody spoke about. Now people were afraid
[2:26 - 2:38] to speak about it and he made it okay to speak about those problems. Because he went through
[2:38 - 2:46] a lot of those problems. As did I. You can ask anybody in the world they will tell you
[2:46 - 2:57] who one of the most important bands in music history is from the early 2000s. And nine
[2:57 - 3:02] times out of ten they'll all say the same thing, Lincoln Park. Because Lincoln Park
[3:02 - 3:15] revolutionized music as a whole. And there will never be another like Chester at all.
[3:15 - 3:26] So this show is for somebody who was not only revered in the music industry as one of the
[3:26 - 3:34] best music artists of all time. If not the best music artists of all time. But somebody
[3:34 - 3:40] who is a hero to me, a hero to friends of mine and a hero to many others around the
[3:40 - 3:58] world. This show is in honor of the late and great Chester Bennington. Look at those #RIPChesters
[3:58 - 4:27] on the left. Let me know in the comments, y'all. It's us with one. Oh, I know. It's so
[4:27 - 4:53] unreal. Watch you go. I tried so hard and got so far. But in the end, it doesn't even
[4:53 - 5:06] matter. I had to fall to lose it all. But in the end, it doesn't even matter. I don't
[5:06 - 5:11] know why. It doesn't even matter how hard I try. Cute down the mind and the designs
[5:11 - 5:19] run to remind myself why I tried so hard. That's not ghost body and property. Remember
[5:19 - 5:47] you ain't never tried to fight with me. It got so far. But in the end, it doesn't even
[5:47 - 6:05] matter. I had to fall to lose it all. It doesn't even matter. I've put my trust in you. Push
[6:05 - 6:19] as far as I can go. For all this, there's only one thing you should know. I've put
[6:19 - 6:33] my trust in you. Push as far as I can go. For all this, there's only one thing you
[6:33 - 6:46] should know. I tried so hard and got so far. But in the end, it doesn't even matter. I
[6:46 - 7:06] had to fall to lose it all. But in the end, it doesn't even matter.
[7:06 - 7:34] This is coach Dave Lonsden. Watch Eagles versus Cowboys. Sunday on. I'm going to be in the
[7:34 - 11:18] [MUSIC]
[11:18 - 11:21] Never be another one like him ever.
[11:21 - 11:24] [MUSIC]
[11:24 - 11:27] The man was a fucking genius.
[11:27 - 11:43] [MUSIC]
[11:43 - 11:50] When I was confused.
[11:50 - 11:55] [MUSIC]
[11:55 - 11:56] Inside of me.
[11:56 - 12:01] [MUSIC]
[12:01 - 12:02] Nothing to lose.
[12:02 - 12:28] [MUSIC]
[12:28 - 12:33] Somewhere I belong.
[12:33 - 12:36] [MUSIC]
[12:36 - 12:38] I was confused.
[12:38 - 12:42] [MUSIC]
[12:42 - 12:43] Someone of mine.
[12:43 - 12:48] [MUSIC]
[12:48 - 12:49] Nothing to lose.
[12:49 - 12:54] [MUSIC]
[12:54 - 12:55] I wanna heal.
[12:55 - 12:57] I wanna feel.
[12:57 - 13:00] When a time was never real.
[13:00 - 13:06] I wanna find some of the pain I felt so long.
[13:06 - 13:07] I wanna heal.
[13:07 - 13:09] I wanna feel.
[13:09 - 13:12] I can feel something real.
[13:12 - 13:17] I wanna find something I wanted all along.
[13:17 - 13:19] Somewhere I belong.
[13:19 - 13:21] Yeah, I would never know.
[13:21 - 13:25] Myself and time to the sun on my own.
[13:25 - 13:31] And I would never feel anything else until my wounds are healed.
[13:31 - 13:35] I would never make anything time.
[13:35 - 13:37] Break away from me.
[13:37 - 13:39] I will break away.
[13:39 - 13:47] I'll find myself today.
[13:47 - 13:49] I wanna heal.
[13:49 - 13:51] I wanna feel.
[13:51 - 13:53] When a time was never real.
[13:53 - 13:59] I wanna make a world of pain I felt so long.
[13:59 - 14:01] I wanna heal.
[14:01 - 14:03] I wanna feel.
[14:03 - 14:05] I feel something real.
[14:05 - 14:10] I wanna find something I wanted all along.
[14:10 - 14:15] Somewhere I belong.
[14:15 - 14:21] Yeah, somewhere I belong.
[14:21 - 14:33] Somewhere I belong.
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[15:41 - 15:44] Waking and sweating again.
[15:44 - 15:47] Another day's been made to waste.
[15:47 - 15:51] In my disgrace.
[15:51 - 15:53] Stuck in my hand again.
[15:53 - 15:57] Feels like I'll never leave this place.
[15:57 - 15:59] There's no escape.
[15:59 - 16:03] I'm my only enemy.
[16:03 - 16:05] I'm human.
[16:05 - 16:10] I'm the single billing.
[16:10 - 16:13] Is there not a new concern?
[16:13 - 16:18] Take this all away.
[16:18 - 16:20] I'm suffocating.
[16:20 - 16:27] Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me.
[16:27 - 16:29] I don't know what to take.
[16:29 - 16:33] Thought I was focused but I'm scared.
[16:33 - 16:36] I'm not prepared.
[16:36 - 16:39] I am prepared only.
[16:39 - 16:42] Looking for help somehow somewhere.
[16:42 - 16:45] Ain't no one cares.
[16:45 - 16:49] I'm my own worst enemy.
[16:49 - 16:51] I'm human.
[16:51 - 16:56] I'm the single billing.
[16:56 - 16:59] Is there not a new concern?
[16:59 - 17:03] Take this all away.
[17:03 - 17:05] I'm suffocating.
[17:05 - 17:12] Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me.
[17:17 - 17:23] Fuck!
[17:23 - 17:37] Put me out of my misery.
[17:37 - 17:39] Put me out of my...
[17:39 - 17:49] Put me out of my fucking misery.
[18:01 - 18:11] I'm human.
[18:11 - 18:15] Take this all away.
[18:15 - 18:17] I'm suffocating.
[18:17 - 18:25] Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me.
[18:25 - 18:43] Take!
[18:43 - 18:48] You know, there's one thing that not a lot of people know about Chester.
[18:48 - 18:54] He had a lot of demons that he was fighting and struggling with.
[18:54 - 18:56] And I mean a lot.
[18:56 - 18:59] And a lot of those demons that he faces,
[18:59 - 19:06] a lot of us, like myself, face every day.
[19:06 - 19:10] You see, as a child, he was molested.
[19:10 - 19:14] And as he grew older,
[19:14 - 19:17] he suffered from depression,
[19:17 - 19:19] alcohol addiction,
[19:19 - 19:22] drug addiction,
[19:22 - 19:29] which ultimately led to him
[19:29 - 19:35] having to go to see a therapist,
[19:35 - 19:39] which ultimately led to his depression.
[19:39 - 19:43] And these things are things that he spoke about very much in his songs.
[19:43 - 19:48] His songs weren't just songs.
[19:48 - 19:53] They were a chronicle of his life.
[19:53 - 20:01] They were messages to people to show people that they're not alone in their fight.
[20:01 - 20:06] And more importantly, they were a cry for help.
[20:06 - 20:18] Help that nobody saw until it was too late.
[20:18 - 20:22] And I myself suffer from depression.
[20:22 - 20:28] I'm a survivor of suicide of several attempts.
[20:28 - 20:32] You know,
[20:32 - 20:37] I've been through addiction, but it's not the addiction that people think.
[20:37 - 20:42] The addiction that I dealt with was the addiction of being abused.
[20:42 - 20:45] Because a lot of people might not know this,
[20:45 - 20:48] but for 11 years straight up to this year,
[20:48 - 20:50] well, including this year,
[20:50 - 20:59] I had been in several mentally, verbally, and emotionally abusive relationships.
[20:59 - 21:04] And it got so bad to the point where
[21:04 - 21:10] it almost felt good to be abused,
[21:10 - 21:15] because at least I was feeling something.
[21:15 - 21:20] For me, when I was being mentally and verbally and emotionally abused,
[21:20 - 21:24] I began to like it.
[21:24 - 21:27] I began to like the abuse,
[21:27 - 21:32] because even though I was numb to everything around me,
[21:32 - 21:35] at least I was feeling something.
[21:35 - 21:38] Whether it was positive or negative, I didn't care.
[21:38 - 21:47] All I knew is that I was able to feel something.
[21:47 - 21:51] And it wasn't until many years later that I realized
[21:51 - 21:56] that I didn't deserve the abuse that I had gotten.
[21:56 - 22:02] I didn't deserve the hell that I got put through.
[22:02 - 22:06] And funny thing about that,
[22:06 - 22:09] I'm not the only one that faces it.
[22:09 - 22:15] Many people every day suffer from many forms of abuse.
[22:15 - 22:18] Abuse can come in many forms,
[22:18 - 22:28] whether it's physical, emotional, mental, verbal.
[22:28 - 22:42] At the end of the day, abuse is abuse, no matter how you look at it.
[22:42 - 22:50] And this song, I think, really speaks on the numbness that you feel
[22:50 - 22:54] when you get put through those things.
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[23:01 - 23:18] I want to see those hashtags in the comments.
[23:18 - 23:23] #RIPTresser #NoMoreAbuse #NotAlone
[23:23 - 23:26] #Trying to be what you want me to be
[23:26 - 23:28] #Feeling so faithless
[23:28 - 23:31] #What's under the surface
[23:31 - 23:35] #Don't know what you're expecting of me
[23:35 - 23:43] #But under the pressure of walking in your shoes
[23:43 - 23:52] #Every step that I take is another mistake to you
[23:52 - 23:55] #I become so numb
[23:55 - 23:58] #I can't feel you there
[23:58 - 24:00] #Become so tired
[24:00 - 24:02] #So much more aware
[24:02 - 24:04] #I'm becoming this
[24:04 - 24:06] #All I want to do
[24:06 - 24:10] #There's been more like me and me last night
[24:10 - 24:14] #Can't you see that you're smothering me?
[24:14 - 24:16] #Holding to sight
[24:16 - 24:19] #We afraid to lose control
[24:19 - 24:23] #Cause everything that you thought I would be
[24:23 - 24:25] #Is falling apart
[24:25 - 24:31] #Right in front of you
[24:31 - 24:33] #In every second I waste
[24:33 - 24:39] #There's more than ever a mistake to you
[24:39 - 24:42] #In every second I waste
[24:42 - 24:45] #There's more than I can take
[24:45 - 24:48] #I become so numb
[24:48 - 24:50] #I can't feel you there
[24:50 - 24:52] #Become so tired
[24:52 - 24:54] #So much more aware
[24:54 - 24:56] #I'm becoming this
[24:56 - 24:58] #All I want to do
[24:58 - 25:00] #There's been more like me
[25:00 - 25:02] #And me last night
[25:02 - 25:06] #Can't you see that you're smothering me?
[25:06 - 25:08] #I can't feel you there
[25:08 - 25:10] #Become so tired
[25:10 - 25:12] #So much more aware
[25:12 - 25:14] #I'm becoming this
[25:14 - 25:16] #All I want to do
[25:16 - 25:19] #There's more than ever a mistake to you
[25:19 - 25:22] #I become so numb
[25:22 - 25:24] #I can't feel you there
[25:24 - 25:26] #Become so tired
[25:26 - 25:28] #So much more aware
[25:28 - 25:30] #I'm becoming this
[25:30 - 25:32] #All I want to do
[25:32 - 25:34] #There's been more like me
[25:34 - 25:36] #And me last night
[25:36 - 25:39] #Can't you see that you're smothering me?
[25:39 - 25:42] #I become so numb
[25:42 - 25:45] #Trying to be what you want
[25:45 - 25:48] #To be what you want me to be
[25:48 - 25:53] #I become so numb
[25:53 - 25:57] #Trying to be what you want me to be
[25:57 - 26:14] #I don't like my mind right now
[26:14 - 26:17] #I can have problems that are so unnecessary
[26:17 - 26:20] #Wish that I could slow things down
[26:20 - 26:22] #I want to let go
[26:22 - 26:24] #But there's comfort in the panic
[26:24 - 26:27] #And I drive myself crazy
[26:27 - 26:30] #Thinking everything's about me
[26:30 - 26:33] #And I drive myself crazy
[26:33 - 26:36] #Because I can't see the gravity
[26:36 - 26:40] #I'm holding on
[26:40 - 26:43] #Why is everything so heavy?
[26:43 - 26:46] #I'm holding on
[26:46 - 26:49] #So much more than I can carry
[26:49 - 26:51] #I keep dragging around
[26:51 - 26:53] #What's bringing me down
[26:53 - 26:55] #If I just let go
[26:55 - 26:56] #I'd be separate
[26:56 - 26:59] #Holding on
[26:59 - 27:02] #Why is everything so heavy?
[27:02 - 27:05] #You say that I'm paranoid
[27:05 - 27:08] #But I'm pretty sure the world's down to get me
[27:08 - 27:11] #It's not like I make a choice
[27:11 - 27:13] #It's a little bit of mercy
[27:13 - 27:15] #It's so fucking messy
[27:15 - 27:18] #I know I'm not the center of the universe
[27:18 - 27:21] #But you can spin around me just the same
[27:21 - 27:24] #I know I'm not the center of the universe
[27:24 - 27:27] #But you can spin around me just the same
[27:27 - 27:31] #Holding on
[27:31 - 27:34] #Why is everything so heavy?
[27:34 - 27:37] #Holding on
[27:37 - 27:40] #Someone's running I can't carry
[27:40 - 27:42] #I keep dragging around
[27:42 - 27:44] #What's bringing me down
[27:44 - 27:46] #If I just let go
[27:46 - 27:47] #I'd be separate
[27:47 - 27:50] #Holding on
[27:50 - 27:53] #Why is everything so heavy?
[27:53 - 27:57] #I know I'm not the center of the universe
[27:57 - 28:00] #But you can spin around me just the same
[28:00 - 28:03] #I know I'm not the center of the universe
[28:03 - 28:06] #He's spinning around me just the same
[28:06 - 28:09] #And I drive my soul crazy
[28:09 - 28:12] #Thinking everything's about me
[28:12 - 28:15] #Holding on
[28:15 - 28:18] #Why is everything so heavy?
[28:18 - 28:22] #Holding on
[28:22 - 28:25] #Someone's running I can't carry
[28:25 - 28:27] #I keep dragging around
[28:27 - 28:29] #What's bringing me down
[28:29 - 28:30] #If I just let go
[28:30 - 28:31] #I'd be separate
[28:31 - 28:35] #Holding on
[28:35 - 28:57] #Why is everything so heavy?
[28:57 - 29:18] #What keeps me going during the sun?
[29:18 - 29:23] #Oh no! Another pizza deal it's carry out only?
[29:23 - 29:28] #And producing the new $10 tastemaker from Pizza!
[29:28 - 29:33] This song is called "My December"
[29:33 - 29:35] and this is going to anyone out there
[29:35 - 29:40] who suffers from depression, anxiety,
[29:40 - 29:44] or any of those things that are bringing you down.
[29:44 - 29:48] This is for you.
[29:48 - 29:53] #This is my December
[29:53 - 29:58] #This is my time of my year
[29:58 - 30:02] #This is my December
[30:02 - 30:06] #This is also key
[30:06 - 30:12] #This is my December
[30:12 - 30:16] #This is me so covered up
[30:16 - 30:21] #This is my December
[30:21 - 30:24] #This is me alone
[30:24 - 30:43] #And I
[30:43 - 30:48] #And I give it all away
[30:48 - 30:53] #Just to have somewhere to go to
[30:53 - 30:58] #Give it all away
[30:58 - 31:04] #Just as I'm one to come home to
[31:04 - 31:09] #This is my December
[31:09 - 31:14] #This is my snow-color dreams
[31:14 - 31:19] #This is my pretend day
[31:19 - 31:22] #This is all a dream
[31:22 - 31:26] #All in one life
[31:26 - 31:41] #And I
[31:41 - 31:46] #And I'd give it all away
[31:46 - 31:51] #Just to have somewhere to go to
[31:51 - 31:56] #Give it all away
[31:56 - 32:02] #Just as I'm one to come home to
[32:02 - 32:07] #This is my December
[32:07 - 32:12] #This is my time of my year
[32:12 - 32:16] #This is my December
[32:16 - 32:21] #This is also key
[32:21 - 32:25] #No, no way
[32:25 - 32:30] #Just to have somewhere to go to
[32:30 - 32:34] #Give it all away
[32:34 - 32:39] #Just as I'm one to come home to
[32:39 - 32:44] #Give it all away
[32:44 - 32:49] #Just to have somewhere to go to
[32:49 - 32:54] #Give it all away
[32:54 - 33:00] #Just as I'm one to come home to
[33:01 - 33:06] #Give it all away
[33:06 - 33:11] #Just as I'm one to come home to
[33:11 - 33:16] #Give it all away
[33:16 - 33:21] #Just as I'm one to come home to
[33:21 - 33:26] #Give it all away
[33:26 - 33:31] #Just as I'm one to come home to
[33:31 - 33:36] #Give it all away
[33:36 - 33:41] #Just as I'm one to come home to
[33:41 - 33:54] #Give it all away
[33:54 - 34:01] with an action film. Watch it all on your go-to app for videos. Find your next movie on YouTube.
[34:01 - 34:27] I don't know who the trust is.
[34:27 - 34:35] I don't know who the trust is. No surprise.
[34:35 - 34:41] I don't know who the trust is.
[34:41 - 34:44] Not to break, but I'm so tired of this disease.
[34:44 - 34:50] Every time I try to make myself keep back up on my feet, all I ever think about is this.
[34:50 - 35:05] Or take everything from the inside and throw it all away.
[35:05 - 35:12] 'Cause I swear for the last time I will trust myself with you.
[35:12 - 35:20] The tension is building inside, stayin' away.
[35:20 - 35:26] Every last voice ain't that way out of me.
[35:26 - 35:29] Not to break, but I'm so tired of this disease.
[35:29 - 35:35] Every time I try to make myself keep back up on my feet, all I ever think about is this.
[35:35 - 35:41] All the time between and how tryin' to pull my trust in you just ain't so much out of me.
[35:41 - 35:50] Take everything from the inside and throw it all away.
[35:50 - 36:01] 'Cause I swear for the last time I will trust myself with you.
[36:01 - 36:10] I will raise myself on you.
[36:10 - 36:19] Raise myself on you.
[36:19 - 36:28] Take everything from the inside and throw it all away.
[36:28 - 36:36] 'Cause I swear for the last time I will trust myself with you.
[36:36 - 36:43] Raise everything from the inside and throw it all away.
[36:43 - 36:51] 'Cause I swear for the last time I will trust myself with you.
[36:51 - 36:59] YEAH! YEAH!
[36:59 - 37:28] YEAH!
[37:28 - 37:40] Put in the comments if you guys know what this song is.
[37:40 - 37:45] If you guys know the lyrics, I want you to type them out as I'm doin' them.
[37:45 - 37:51] I want Chester to be able to see every one of you guys showin' love for 'em right the fuck now.
[37:51 - 38:01] On my mark, 3, 2, 1, GO!
[38:01 - 38:06] Make sure you're thinkin' me back and you two famous and wrapped when you just turn around and start askin' me.
[38:06 - 38:11] If you want back from me, I'm sinkin' attention sick and hungry, sick and wrapped and I'll show you this.
[38:11 - 38:15] Find a place to feed your freak while I find a place to rest.
[38:15 - 38:22] I wanna be in another place I hate when you say you don't understand.
[38:22 - 38:29] I wanna be in the energy now with the enemy of this on my head.
[38:29 - 38:33] It means a little bit just like you and step on people like you to a runaway.
[38:33 - 38:35] I'm gonna do what I thought I knew.
[38:35 - 38:39] I remember back then you weren't used to be calm, used to be strong, used to be generous.
[38:39 - 38:43] But you just know that you'd watch what we now see, how quiet it is all along.
[38:43 - 38:47] I'm so sick of the tension, sick of the hunger, sick of you actin' like I owe you this.
[38:47 - 38:50] Find another place to feed your freak while I'm findin' a place to rest.
[38:50 - 38:56] I'm so sick of the tension, sick of the hunger, sick of you actin' like I owe you this.
[38:56 - 38:59] Find a place to feed your freak while I'm findin' a place to rest.
[38:59 - 39:06] I wanna be in another place I hate when you say you don't understand.
[39:06 - 39:13] I wanna be in the energy now with the enemy of this on my head.
[39:13 - 39:24] You try to take the best of me, go away.
[39:24 - 39:27] You never get the best of me, go away.
[39:27 - 39:44] You try to take the best of me, go away.
[39:44 - 39:49] Then when you say you don't understand.
[39:49 - 39:59] I wanna be in the energy now with the enemy of this on my head.
[39:59 - 40:18] Turn your back.
[40:18 - 40:47] Stay away from me.
[40:47 - 40:58] Now if you guys don't know, this one's a rarity.
[40:58 - 41:27] This is off their 20th anniversary.
[41:27 - 42:12] You try to take the best of me, go away.
[42:12 - 43:33] This morning I'm coming to love the enemy of this on my head.
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[44:07 - 44:12] Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe.
[44:12 - 44:17] Sometimes I need you to stay away from me.
[44:17 - 44:23] Sometimes I'm noticeably fine to know.
[44:23 - 44:27] Somehow I need you to go.
[44:27 - 44:38] Don't stay, forget all memories, forget all possibilities, take what you're changing me into.
[44:38 - 44:48] Don't stay, memories, forget all possibilities, take all your faithlessness with you.
[44:48 - 44:55] Don't stay.
[44:55 - 45:00] Sometimes I feel like I trusted you too well.
[45:00 - 45:05] Sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself.
[45:05 - 45:11] Sometimes I'm in disbelief, I didn't know.
[45:11 - 45:17] Somehow I need to be alone.
[45:17 - 45:27] Don't stay, forget all memories, forget all possibilities, what you're changing me into.
[45:27 - 45:38] Don't stay, memories, forget all possibilities, take all your faithlessness with you.
[45:38 - 45:48] Don't stay.
[45:48 - 46:12] I don't need you anymore, don't want to be alone and only one more day of you wasting me away.
[46:12 - 46:24] The knowledge is don't stay, forget all possibilities, what you're changing me into.
[46:24 - 46:35] Don't stay, forget all possibilities, take all your faithlessness with you.
[46:35 - 47:11] Don't stay.
[47:11 - 47:23] For anyone who's a fan right now of Lincoln Park and Ochester, I want you guys to put your favorite fucking song by him in the comments.
[47:23 - 47:51] The way the bass make, I never know.
[47:51 - 47:57] Just why you ride so far away, far away from me.
[47:57 - 48:07] I never know just why you ride so far away, far away from me.
[48:07 - 48:24] I never know just why you ride so far away from me.
[48:24 - 48:52] You can only fool yourself for so long, you can only fool yourself for so long.
[48:52 - 48:56] You guys know what to do these guys.
[48:56 - 49:21] Get this fool out of here.
[49:21 - 49:54] I never know just why you ride so far away, far away from me.
[49:54 - 50:23] I never know just why you ride so far away from me.
[50:23 - 52:37] I never know just why you ride so far away, far away from me.
[52:37 - 52:39] I never know just why you ride so far away from me.
[52:39 - 52:56] I never know just why you ride so far away, far away from me.
[52:56 - 57:48] I never know just why you ride so far away from me.
[57:48 - 58:18] don't want to be let down the same old road. Don't know the years down the train. Love was not enough when you want everything. Love that came to you and now the end must start.
[58:18 - 58:26] Oh, I shouldn't have listened to my heart
[58:26 - 58:30] Cuz I don't wanna be in that town
[58:30 - 58:33] I don't wanna live that life again
[58:33 - 58:39] Don't wanna be in that town the same old road
[58:39 - 58:43] Cuz I don't wanna be in that town
[58:43 - 58:46] I don't wanna live my life again
[58:46 - 59:30] Don't wanna be in that town the same old road
[59:30 - 59:34] Cuz I don't wanna be in that town
[59:34 - 59:37] I don't wanna live my life again
[59:37 - 61:51] Don't wanna be in that town the same old road
[61:51 - 61:58] C'mon
[61:58 - 62:08] Wasting away the self-inflicted soon decay
[62:08 - 62:15] What should have been whenever was the candy in for both of us
[62:15 - 62:22] Heavy as the hand that puts a finger, finger Heavy as the heart that fills a leg, rag
[62:22 - 62:26] Laying them all to waste
[62:26 - 62:36] Years you decided to erase and cross off with this
[62:36 - 62:41] So black out alive behind the noise
[62:41 - 62:49] You're staring at the sun and hope the light will finally guide you right from seeing
[62:49 - 63:08] Cross off the days gone by
[63:08 - 63:16] Calling you free
[63:16 - 63:21] The phantom leaf that was part of me
[63:21 - 63:25] You have lived, you have lost
[63:25 - 63:28] The separations were the gums
[63:28 - 63:31] Heavy as the hearts that go unspoken
[63:31 - 63:34] Heavy in the palms is now broken
[63:34 - 63:35] Broken
[63:35 - 63:38] Laying them all to taste
[63:38 - 63:44] Of that distraction in your wake
[63:44 - 63:48] Those are for days
[63:48 - 63:53] So black out alive behind the noise
[63:53 - 64:01] You're staring at the sun and hope the light will finally guide you right from seeing
[64:01 - 64:33] Cross off the days gone by
[64:33 - 64:46] Laying them all to taste
[64:46 - 64:57] Heavy as the hearts that go unspoken
[64:57 - 65:03] You're living everything you ain't to waste
[65:03 - 65:07] And cross off the days
[65:07 - 65:13] So black out alive behind the noise
[65:13 - 65:21] You're staring at the sun and hope the light will finally guide you right from seeing
[65:21 - 66:21] Cross off the days gone by
[66:21 - 66:24] And this final song
[66:24 - 66:27] Is going out to anyone that's ever felt alone
[66:27 - 66:33] That's walked that lonely road to despair, depression
[66:33 - 66:40] And is looking for a reason to stay alive and to keep fighting
[66:40 - 66:50] This is my reason
[66:50 - 66:58] And you guys are stuck around for this one
[66:58 - 67:04] You guys are fucking amazing
[67:04 - 67:06] And I'm not doing this for me
[67:06 - 67:08] I'm doing this for him
[67:08 - 67:10] For Chester
[67:10 - 67:12] Self fuck monetization
[67:12 - 67:14] I'm keeping his memory alive
[67:14 - 67:17] I'm living like this shelter
[67:17 - 67:20] I'm constantly alone
[67:20 - 67:23] I'm pointing out my weakness
[67:23 - 67:26] There's an emptiness at home
[67:26 - 67:32] I need to find a reason to live this way
[67:32 - 67:35] I'm running out of patience
[67:35 - 67:38] And my life is over
[67:38 - 67:44] I'm standing here but I'm on my way
[67:44 - 67:50] Searching to find an answer
[67:50 - 67:56] I'm standing here but it's all the same
[67:56 - 68:01] And I'm running out of patience
[68:01 - 68:22] And I will take my reason from you
[68:22 - 68:33] You love me, you love me, you're right, I'm all alone
[68:33 - 68:36] Well, before I continue this song
[68:36 - 68:41] I want to speak on something really quick that Schmeichel said
[68:41 - 68:45] Chester wasn't a pussy
[68:45 - 68:54] He suffered from a very serious, a very, very common illness
[68:54 - 68:56] He suffered from a lot of shit
[68:56 - 69:03] Everything from depression
[69:03 - 69:07] To even thinking about suicide
[69:07 - 69:10] And ultimately he took his life
[69:10 - 69:17] Chester was not a coward or a pussy
[69:17 - 69:19] He really wasn't
[69:19 - 69:22] He dealt with something that's very hard to get out of
[69:22 - 69:25] Unless you get the right help
[69:25 - 69:28] I myself am that same way
[69:28 - 69:33] I myself suffer from depression every day
[69:33 - 69:36] Because of people like you, Schmeichelcat
[69:36 - 69:39] Because of people like you and music biz Marty
[69:39 - 69:42] I suffer from depression on a daily basis
[69:42 - 69:47] People that judge me, people that attack me over and over and over
[69:47 - 69:54] And everyone wonders why I put on a fake smile
[69:54 - 69:58] That smile is a fake smile
[69:58 - 70:01] Because deep down I'm hurt
[70:01 - 70:05] I'm depressed, I'm sad, I'm angry, I'm pissed off
[70:05 - 70:12] And people like you, Schmeichel, people like you that attack, people like me for no reason
[70:12 - 70:21] People like you are the reason why people like Chester take their lives every day
[70:21 - 70:29] As people like you that cause me to almost take my own life twice within 48 hours
[70:29 - 70:35] Just a mere few weeks ago
[70:35 - 70:39] And thankfully I had an amazing support system
[70:39 - 70:45] I have some of the most amazing friends in the world that saved my life
[70:45 - 70:49] They showed me that suicide isn't the answer
[70:49 - 70:55] They pulled me back from that darkness that I thought I was going to go back down into
[70:55 - 71:04] And to my friends Brittany, Ted aka Grim the Rap Reaper and DeMarco
[71:04 - 71:08] I want to say thank you because you guys saved my life
[71:08 - 71:12] And if it wasn't for you I wouldn't be here today
[71:12 - 71:17] If it was not for any of you guys I wouldn't be here today
[71:17 - 71:21] So thank you
[71:21 - 71:27] So being on the edge of suicide is not being a pussy
[71:27 - 71:35] Sometimes you feel like it's the best thing for everyone around you
[71:35 - 71:40] And trust me when I say, depression does lead to suicide
[71:40 - 71:43] And depression is not an easy thing to deal with
[71:43 - 71:52] I live with it on a daily basis, every day I wake up and I live with it
[71:52 - 71:58] So taking your own life isn't being a pussy or a coward
[71:58 - 72:02] It's something that can't be helped
[72:02 - 72:07] So Schmeichelcat, you can take your comment and shove it up your fucking ass
[72:07 - 72:13] And go the fuck somewhere else kid
[72:13 - 73:08] [Silence]
[73:08 - 73:14] I'm standing here but on my way
[73:14 - 73:19] Searching to find an answer
[73:19 - 73:25] I'm standing here but it's all the same
[73:25 - 73:31] And I'm running out of patience
[73:31 - 73:42] And I will take my reason from you
[73:42 - 73:52] And I have gained my reason from you
[73:52 - 74:00] You left me, you left me here and I'm all alone
[74:00 - 74:21] I'm all alone
[74:21 - 74:32] [Silence]
[74:32 - 74:48] I'm all alone
[74:48 - 74:49] When is the change to find the reason to find the reason to find my reason to find my reason
[74:49 - 74:50] I need you and I need you
[74:50 - 74:54] And I want you but I need to get away from you
[74:54 - 75:13] And I need you and I want you but I need to get away from you
[75:13 - 75:21] Well take my reason from you
[75:21 - 75:27] And I need you and someone to love me
[75:27 - 75:29] But you do just love me
[75:29 - 75:32] And I love, I love me
[75:32 - 75:38] And I know you need you and someone to love me
[75:38 - 75:43] But I'm all alone
[75:43 - 76:06] To all of you that came out to see this show
[76:06 - 76:10] To all of you that came over here to see this show
[76:10 - 76:13] To honor Chester
[76:13 - 76:20] You guys are fucking amazing
[76:20 - 76:22] You know, I did this show
[76:22 - 76:26] Not to gain notoriety
[76:26 - 76:28] Not to gain fame
[76:28 - 76:30] Not to show off my talent
[76:30 - 76:31] For music
[76:31 - 76:34] Not to do any of that
[76:34 - 76:37] It wasn't to gain subscribers, it was none of that
[76:37 - 76:44] For me personally, it was to keep one of the greatest artists of all time
[76:44 - 76:49] Memory alive
[76:49 - 76:52] I did it to keep Chester's memory alive
[76:52 - 76:58] And to keep his music alive through all of us
[76:58 - 77:03] Because just like myself, I know his music has helped a lot of you over the years
[77:03 - 77:06] Just like it has with myself
[77:06 - 77:10] And I know to a lot of you, even though he was a famous music artist
[77:10 - 77:13] I know to a lot of you, he was more than that
[77:13 - 77:19] He was a hero, a friend, and a family member
[77:19 - 77:23] Even those of us that didn't know him considered him family
[77:23 - 77:29] And that will never, ever change
[77:29 - 77:39] Because when the world lost Chester, when we lost Chester
[77:39 - 77:43] We lost more than just one of the greatest music artists of all time
[77:43 - 77:51] And one of the greatest singers, period, in the history of music
[77:51 - 78:03] But we also lost a hero, a friend, a brother, and a major part of our community
[78:03 - 78:15] Chester and his band, Lincoln Park, they didn't just build a community or a fan base
[78:15 - 78:23] They built more than that, they built a family of fans all over the world
[78:23 - 78:27] At the end of the day, we're more than just fans
[78:27 - 78:33] At the end of the day, we're more than just normal people that listen to his band's music
[78:33 - 78:38] At the end of the day, we are more than just a Lincoln Park fan club
[78:38 - 78:41] At the end of the day, we are a Lincoln Park army
[78:41 - 78:44] We are an LPU family
[78:44 - 78:48] And that will never, ever change
[78:48 - 78:56] So if you see another fan out there that's going through the same shit that you're going through
[78:56 - 78:59] Or that I'm going through, or that Chester went through
[78:59 - 79:01] Or that anybody that you know of is going through
[79:01 - 79:06] I want you to reach out your hand and I want you to help them
[79:06 - 79:12] Even if they say they don't want it, stand by them and help them
[79:12 - 79:14] Because you never know
[79:14 - 79:19] Just by you doing that, you could be the deciding factor
[79:19 - 79:25] Of whether that person takes their life or you've saved their life
[79:25 - 79:34] Just like my friends, Brittany DeMarco and Ted saved my life
[79:34 - 79:42] Just like my three best friends in the world saved my life just a mere few weeks ago
[79:42 - 79:45] Now it's your guys' turn to pay it forward
[79:45 - 79:47] Just like I've done for some of you
[79:47 - 79:51] I know that some of you have messaged me saying that my music has helped you
[79:51 - 79:57] And that to me
[79:57 - 80:04] You guys saying that to me means more to me than some platinum record that I might get
[80:04 - 80:11] That means more to me than some plaque that I'm going to be getting a march for my record sales
[80:11 - 80:14] That means more to me than anything
[80:14 - 80:20] Because that shows me that I'm doing something right
[80:20 - 80:28] Not just for the music industry, but for humanity and for humankind as a whole
[80:28 - 80:31] Because let me tell you something right now
[80:31 - 80:36] Whether I help a thousand fans or one fan, I don't care
[80:36 - 80:43] At the end of the day, as long as I can help even one person through whatever they're going through
[80:43 - 80:46] I know I'm doing my job
[80:46 - 80:57] Because I'd rather have a small handful of real legit loyal fans than a thousand fake ones that don't give a shit
[80:57 - 81:03] I would rather help one person through my music that really needs to help
[81:03 - 81:10] Than to sign a million fucking autographs of fans that don't give a shit
[81:10 - 81:14] Because at the end of the day, you guys are the reason why I'm here
[81:14 - 81:17] You guys are the reason that I do my music
[81:17 - 81:23] Just like Chester was for us
[81:23 - 81:26] We were his reason for doing music
[81:26 - 81:35] We were the reason why he was here
[81:35 - 81:38] He did that to help people
[81:38 - 81:45] He made his music to help others like myself and like all of you
[81:45 - 81:53] His music and his memory and his legacy will never ever fucking die
[81:53 - 81:59] As long as we keep spreading his music and his message and keep helping others like ourselves
[81:59 - 82:01] His memory will never die
[82:01 - 82:08] His music will live on forever in all of us because at the end of the day, like I said
[82:08 - 82:11] We're more than just a Lincoln Park army
[82:11 - 82:14] We're more than just fans of Lincoln Park
[82:14 - 82:19] At the end of the day, we're a community, a family
[82:19 - 82:22] And that is facts
[82:22 - 82:30] And that will never, in a million years, ever change
[82:30 - 82:38] So like I said, if you see somebody going through a very hard time
[82:38 - 82:41] I don't care if you know them or not
[82:41 - 82:48] I want you to reach out to your hand and you fucking help them
[82:48 - 82:53] Because we all need help
[82:53 - 83:01] And it's not a cowardice move to ask for help
[83:01 - 83:05] Sometimes it may be hard to ask for help, yes
[83:05 - 83:09] But asking for help doesn't make you a coward
[83:09 - 83:12] And it sure as hell doesn't make you a pussy
[83:12 - 83:18] If anything, it makes you stronger
[83:18 - 83:23] It makes you way stronger
[83:23 - 83:28] So like I said, you see somebody going through some real shit
[83:28 - 83:31] You see somebody that's down and out
[83:31 - 83:36] Somebody that's being bullied, being picked on, being attacked
[83:36 - 83:41] Being ridiculed, going through a hard time
[83:41 - 83:45] I want you to reach your hand out to them, whether you know them or not
[83:45 - 83:55] That is my challenge for you guys for 2021 and the rest of what's left of 2020
[83:55 - 84:03] That is my challenge to you guys for the remainder of this year and for all of next year
[84:03 - 84:07] If you see somebody that's hurting or that's going through something
[84:07 - 84:14] I don't care whether it's on Facebook, on Discord, in real life, outside of social media, I don't care
[84:14 - 84:22] If they're going through something, you stop whatever the fuck you're doing and you help them out
[84:22 - 84:27] I want you to reach your hand out to them
[84:28 - 84:35] That is my challenge to you guys for the remainder of this year and for all of next year