2022-11-16 Shifting my focus to my artwork full time
[0:00 - 0:16] What's up guys? So I noticed a lot of fucking shitty comments over the past several months
[0:16 - 0:24] of saying like, Oh, I steal artwork and this and that and the other one. There's clear
[0:24 - 0:32] evidence of me drawing shit on livestream in front of everyone. Clear evidence of me doing
[0:32 - 0:41] that shit. And quite honestly, I'm getting fucking sick and tired of the bullshit. So
[0:41 - 0:48] since everybody wants to fucking hate on music and say this and that and the other, you
[0:48 - 0:56] know what, I thought about this and you know what I want to do. I'm gonna take a step back
[0:56 - 1:04] from my music and I'm gonna take and now I shift my focus to my artwork full time and
[1:04 - 1:12] prove to you dumb motherfucking idiotic trolls that, you know, I do do my own artwork when
[1:12 - 1:20] I want to. Cause honestly, I'm getting sick and tired of everybody being like, Oh, you
[1:20 - 1:25] don't draw your own stuff, blah, blah, blah. Oh, you steal this, you steal that, which
[1:25 - 1:33] is a load of fucking shit. It's a load of fucking garbage and y'all trolls know it.
[1:33 - 1:41] And to be quite honest, I'm getting fucking sick of the negative bullshit. You know,
[1:41 - 1:48] it's funny, y'all troll talk shit on me. But yeah, what do you fuck can do for a living,
[1:48 - 1:54] huh? Half you motherfuckers don't fucking work. All you dumb shit do is sit down and
[1:54 - 2:04] steal from me. Yeah, you motherfuckers sit there and you fucking steal from me and make
[2:04 - 2:09] money off me when I should be the one making the goddamn money, not you don't fuck trolls.
[2:09 - 2:15] So, you know what, the piss you trolls off, I'm gonna sit down and I'm gonna do my fucking
[2:15 - 2:22] artwork my fucking way. And if you don't fucking like what I do, then fuck you. I don't give
[2:22 - 2:30] a shit. Cause I'm fucking tired of not being able to make money off my artwork or off my
[2:30 - 2:36] music. And then everybody seems to love my fucking artwork so much, I'm saying fuck it
[2:36 - 2:42] and shifting my focus to my artwork for awhile. Because to be honest, I am kind of burned
[2:42 - 2:47] out on my music. Cause I've been doing it for over 10 years with no breaks and I'm
[2:47 - 2:57] kind of burned out. And I'm sorry if you trolls don't like it or if y'all don't like
[2:57 - 3:03] the way I do my shit, guess what? I don't fucking care. I do my shit my way and if
[3:03 - 3:10] you don't like it, too fucking bad. Take a hike. Cause I'm tired of being held back
[3:10 - 3:18] by you pussy little fucking lit dicks, no life having, no talent having fucking trolls.
[3:18 - 3:27] I'm sick of it. Y'all want to sit here and talk shit on me, but yet you motherfuckers
[3:27 - 3:34] don't do jack shit with your lives. Ever. All you do is sit there and do this and tie
[3:34 - 3:39] it the way on a keyboard like a little bitchy keyboard warrior thinking you're a badass
[3:39 - 3:44] but really you're nothing more, you trolls are nothing more than a bunch of little pussies
[3:44 - 3:50] hiding me on a fucking screen name. That's all you are. You're a bunch of kids hiding
[3:50 - 3:56] me on a fucking screen name acting all tough when really you're nothing more than a bunch
[3:56 - 4:04] of punk ass little fucking kids with no respect. That's all you dumb fucks are. You're a bunch
[4:04 - 4:09] of kids with no respect. That's all you fucking trolls are and that's all you're ever going
[4:09 - 4:22] to be to me. While I'm over here acting like an adult trying to fucking get my shit together,
[4:22 - 4:29] trying to make money off my shit, you dumbasses come in and steal my shit and I ain't going
[4:29 - 4:44] to have them no more. Yeah, dude, I am. I'm fucking 32 years old, man. I'm a grown ass
[4:44 - 4:50] fucking adult. I'm 32 fucking years old. And yeah, I know I live with my family and
[4:50 - 4:57] guess what? I don't give a fuck. So what if I live with my family? Have y'all motherfuckers
[4:57 - 5:05] live with your families too, bitch? No, I never said I was leaving the internet. I
[5:05 - 5:18] never once said that. I said I was taking a break. I never once said I was leaving the
[5:18 - 5:27] internet. And guess what? I'm not going to. I'm never leaving. I'm never leaving the
[5:27 - 5:39] internet no matter fucking what you say or do. I'm not going nowhere, bitch. And to
[5:39 - 5:43] be honest with you, I'm getting fucking tired of being held back because y'all little pussies
[5:43 - 5:50] want a piece of me. Well, I'm sorry, but I'm not letting y'all motherfucking dick riders
[5:50 - 5:56] get your little fame anymore. That ain't happening. Here's the thing, man. I act more
[5:56 - 6:04] like an adult than you do, bitch. So fuck you, nigga. I act more like an adult than
[6:04 - 6:13] you do, dumb fuck. Because at least I don't run around trolling motherfuckers. Yeah, well,
[6:13 - 6:25] guess what? Here's your answer, Vince. Never. I'm sorry, but skull scratches is not something
[6:25 - 6:32] I ever wanted to do. I only did that shit because I was made to. I did that shit to
[6:32 - 6:38] shut the trolls up. That's why I fucking did it. I didn't want to. I did it because
[6:38 - 6:43] I fucking had to shut the trolls up. And I figured maybe if I made them laugh, they'd
[6:43 - 6:53] leave me the fuck alone. But you saw how that went over. Y'all saw how that fucking
[6:53 - 7:02] went over. Some asshole reports. You can suck my cock. You dumb ass cunt. You deadbeat
[7:02 - 7:10] little bitch. And William Gloryhole, stop acting like you have a fucking reason to
[7:10 - 7:15] do what you do, motherfucker. You're only doing the shit you do to me to try to one-up
[7:15 - 7:24] an asshole because you're a bitch. So guess what, kid? Fuck you. And Marty, you're retarded,
[7:24 - 7:28] fat fucking ass. Bro, you need to get a fucking life, you fucking fat loser. All you are
[7:28 - 7:34] is a piece of fucking shit. You're a fat, overweight, obese, dumb piece of shit that
[7:34 - 7:40] honestly, Saren shouldn't even be with. Saren can do 10 times better than you any fucking
[7:40 - 7:59] day of the week. Once she sees in your fat fucking lazy ass, I don't fucking know. Once
[7:59 - 8:08] that girl sees in your fucking retarded, fat, lazy ass, I don't fucking know. But honestly,
[8:08 - 8:21] I know Saren can do a hundred times better than you, by far. I'm sorry, dude. But Marty,
[8:21 - 8:29] you don't deserve happiness. You don't. If anything, you deserve to suffer in silence
[8:29 - 8:35] and by yourself. You deserve to die alone. Same with you, Gloryhole. Oh, and that's
[8:35 - 8:39] troll mafia. Don't even think about coming after me, bitch. Just like I told you the
[8:39 - 8:47] other night, I'm a touchball, you dumb cunt. Don't believe me? Try me. Every time you
[8:47 - 8:53] try to fucking shut me down, guess what? I get comfortable and I fire back. So fuck
[8:53 - 9:03] you and fuck the smash troll mafia. Oh, and, uh, Chili, if I were you, I'd shut my fucking
[9:03 - 9:09] mouth and stop picking fights with motherfuckers. Cause one of these days you're going to pick
[9:09 - 9:14] a fight with the wrong motherfucker. And guess what? They're going to beat your goddamn
[9:14 - 9:32] fucking ass. Nope. Hey, 2 a.m. Blamer, I know you're a kiddie diddler. So's your mom and
[9:32 - 9:38] your brother and your sister, bitch. We all know that you like to fondo kids, bitch.
[9:38 - 10:08] And I don't hate chili. I'm just saying, chili, you need to fucking pick your
[10:08 - 10:23] battles better, motherfucker. You really do. Cause I'll be honest, I want nothing to do
[10:23 - 10:30] with this bullshit ass garbage y'all motherfuckers are doing. I want nothing to do with the fucking
[10:30 - 10:38] troll community. I want nothing to do with Marty or Massel or Gordo or any of these motherfucker
[10:38 - 10:45] is involved with this dumb bullshit. I want nothing to do with it. I never wanted to involved
[10:45 - 10:55] in it in the first place. I never wanted this shit ever. And candle, your dumb cunt ass
[10:55 - 11:09] is the one to blame, bitch. Because of you, you dumb bitch, I've been trolled this whole
[11:09 - 11:17] time and I'm fucking tired of it. So candle, why don't you fucking do yourself a fucking
[11:17 - 11:23] favor and turn yourself into the damn police, bitch? All right, come on. You tried to kill
[11:23 - 11:29] a cop with an RV. Y'all lied about me saying that I tried to rape you when I never met
[11:29 - 11:34] you in real fucking life, bitch. In order to rape y'all would have had to have met you
[11:34 - 11:40] in real life. I never met you outside of Facebook, you lying fucking piece of shit.
[11:40 - 11:47] You dumb cunt. And let me tell you right now, candle, your dumb bimbo bitch. Normally
[11:47 - 11:53] I don't hit women, but for you, I would make a fucking exception for everything you fucking
[11:53 - 12:03] did to me. I really wouldn't make an exception for everything that you've done to me. You
[12:03 - 12:11] tore apart my life, got me fucking trolled, had a hand in Marty setting me up to make
[12:11 - 12:20] me look like a fucking pedophile. So fuck you. And honestly, bitch, I hope you die alone.
[12:20 - 12:39] I hope you die in a fucking bitch somewhere. Like I said, candle, your dumb little retarded
[12:39 - 12:46] bitch ass is the reason I'm in this situation. All because you couldn't handle that I broke
[12:46 - 12:58] things off you because you're a psychotic piece of shit. And no, and I'm just telling
[12:58 - 13:05] shit how it really fucking is. This bitch candle is the reason that I got trolled for
[13:05 - 13:11] all these years. And honestly, I'm tired of fucking staying quiet about it. I'm sick
[13:11 - 13:18] of not saying something when I should have said something a long fucking time ago. So
[13:18 - 13:23] candle, why don't you do the world a fucking favor and stop lying through your goddamn
[13:23 - 13:29] fake ass face? Why don't you stop lying out of that goddamn hole in your face you called
[13:29 - 13:35] fucking mouth? Why don't you tell the goddamn truth about what of a piece of shit you really
[13:35 - 13:44] are and about how you lie about everyone? Every time something doesn't go your way,
[13:44 - 13:50] you fucking make up some bullshit excuse. When you when you get arrested, you think
[13:50 - 14:02] of fucking anxiety attack, bitch. I've had anxiety attacks before multiple times. And
[14:02 - 14:09] for you to sit down and lie and say, Oh, I'm having an anxiety attack. I want to go to
[14:09 - 14:17] the hospital just to get out of going to jail. Bitch, fuck you. One of these days candle,
[14:17 - 14:21] you're gonna run out of fucking states to run to and guess what, bitch? You're gonna
[14:21 - 14:34] get arrested. Oh, it doesn't surprise me more. That does not fucking surprise me one bit.
[14:34 - 14:49] I never did that. But it doesn't surprise it wouldn't surprise me if she did say that.
[14:49 - 14:55] It would not surprise me one bit more. Even though we all know she's a lying sack of
[14:55 - 15:18] shit. Yeah, nothing. What up, man? Hey, Christina, what up? Like I said, y'all, if you guys want
[15:18 - 15:23] to know how candle really is, well, here's the motherfucking truth. Every time candle
[15:23 - 15:31] gets arrested, or the police try to arrest her, she fakes a fucking anxiety attack. This
[15:31 - 15:38] bitch literally tried to run over a fucking police officer with an RV. Try to kill a cop
[15:38 - 15:53] with an RV. Sled state. Tried to kill her ex. Sled state again. Candle Smith is my bitch
[15:53 - 16:01] of an ex that caused me to get trolled all these years by people like Marty. Candle's
[16:01 - 16:07] the reason that I've been getting attacked and harassed all these years by people like
[16:07 - 16:14] Marty.
[16:14 - 16:27] Candle Smith is a lying little fucking piece of shit that likes to make shit up. This
[16:27 - 16:32] little bitch, let me tell you something. Every time the cops try to arrest her, she fakes
[16:32 - 16:44] an anxiety attack. She fakes running out of breath. Sakes her blood pressure going up.
[16:44 - 17:08] Yeah, her name is actually Candle, dude. And when things don't go her way, she likes to
[17:08 - 17:12] do shit the fuck with people. All of those videos that you guys have seen over the years,
[17:12 - 17:18] I'm pretty sure you guys have seen her making videos about me saying this, saying that.
[17:18 - 17:26] Let me tell you this, all those videos where I called her, that was me calling her out.
[17:26 - 17:53] So, Candle, why don't you do the world a favor, bitch? Why don't you fucking put yourself
[17:53 - 18:01] in fucking handcuffs and go the fuck to prison? Better yet, why don't you do yourself a fucking
[18:01 - 18:09] favor and fuck off and stop fucking lying about motherfuckers. You lied about me. You
[18:09 - 18:18] lied about Paul. You lied about all your exes because you're a sad piece of shit. You're
[18:18 - 18:32] garbage and no one wants a damn thing to do with your little bitch ass. Who's this Candle
[18:32 - 18:43] fact? No, she's not. She likes to pretend she is, but we all know she's fake as fuck.
[18:43 - 19:06] Who is this Candle? Hey, I like that joke. But for real, Candle, you're the whole fucking
[19:06 - 19:11] reason I've gotten attacked all these years. And quite honestly, I think it's about goddamn
[19:11 - 19:16] time someone beat your fucking ass. And honestly, Candle, you're lucky that it ain't me that
[19:16 - 19:23] beat your ass. Because when I beat your ass, I won't stop until I fucking see blood. I
[19:23 - 19:29] won't stop until you're actually hurt and actually in the fucking hospital for everything
[19:29 - 19:41] that you've done to me. You slandered my fucking name. Lied about me. Pretended to kill yourself
[19:41 - 19:50] to get back at me. Had me made out to be a fucking pedophile when I'm not. Lied and
[19:50 - 19:56] said that I fucking raped you. Tried to have me killed by one of my best friends, which
[19:56 - 20:04] is Paul AKA Boogie Man the Clown. So you really think that you don't deserve an ass beating
[20:04 - 20:14] after that? You really don't think that you deserve an ass beating after all that? I think
[20:14 - 20:19] anybody here with a clear head and a good solid head on their shoulders and a clear
[20:19 - 20:26] mind would agree that you fucking deserve to have your goddamn fucking ass handed to
[20:26 - 20:35] you on a fucking sober platter. I think anybody here that knows about what went on will agree
[20:35 - 20:48] that you deserve to have your fucking ass beat, bitch. Where's Candle located? I don't
[20:48 - 20:53] know, dude. She fucking fleeced state almost every other fucking week, dude. So it's hard
[20:53 - 21:13] to tell. Do I ever sleep? Yes, I do. But it's kind of hard to fucking sleep knowing that
[21:13 - 21:21] this bitch that fucked up damn near your entire life is still out running around. I'll be
[21:21 - 21:28] honest, man, you guys don't understand how badly, not only me, but my good friend Boogie
[21:28 - 21:36] Man the Clown, AKA Paul, has wanted to beat her ass. You guys have no idea the shit that
[21:36 - 21:44] she's put us through. Dude, this bitch tried to have Paul fucking kill me and then left
[21:44 - 21:50] him here in Akron and took off and fled all because he wouldn't kill me. Instead of killing
[21:50 - 21:55] me that day, you know what he did? He sat down and had a conversation with me. We sat
[21:55 - 22:12] down and talked for like three fucking hours straight just shooting the shit. And no, John,
[22:12 - 22:16] I'm not going to stop threatening her. This bitch threatened to have me fucking killed
[22:16 - 22:23] multiple times, had me made up to hand and Marty making me look like a pedophile, tried
[22:23 - 22:29] to have me killed multiple times, and has also made several death threats to me in front
[22:29 - 22:36] of me while on the phone with me, saying that she wanted me dead. So no, I'm not going
[22:36 - 22:43] to stop. Payback's a bitch. It's called karma, motherfucker. And Kendall's getting hers right
[22:43 - 22:52] now through me. So fuck you. And if you don't like it too fucking bad, don't care. This
[22:52 - 22:59] bitch has made my life a living hell for the last five to six years. Why does she want
[22:59 - 23:07] me dead? Because she's a psychotic fucking bitch. She's a psychotic bitch that can't
[23:07 - 23:13] handle the fucking truth. And anybody that tells the truth on her, she wants them dead
[23:13 - 23:42] because she doesn't want to be found out.
[23:42 - 23:51] Like I said, Kendall, there's a lot of fucking people that want to kick your ass right now.
[23:51 - 23:57] There's a lot of people, Kendall, including all your exes that I'm actually good friends
[23:57 - 24:09] with that want to beat your fucking ass, including me and Paul. And trust me, I've
[24:09 - 24:15] already talked to Paul and he agrees that me and him would never hit a woman, but you're
[24:15 - 24:26] the exception, bitch. You're the fucking exception in this shit. If that is the real
[24:26 - 24:43] candle in the comments, fuck you, you dumb cunt. If you're even really the real candle.
[24:43 - 24:52] Like I said, if it's even the real her, how do we fucking know it's not? Go ahead, bitch.
[24:52 - 25:03] If you even are the real one, go ahead, bitch. They ain't gonna do jack shit. Variable harassment.
[25:03 - 25:08] Fuck you, bitch. How about we talk about how you tried to have me killed multiple times
[25:08 - 25:18] you dumb cunt bag? How about we talk about all the multiple times that you sat there
[25:18 - 25:24] in front of Paul and told him how you wanted me dead, bitch? And Paul can attest to that.
[25:24 - 25:29] Or how about we talk about all the times that you rained your fucking mouth about me
[25:29 - 25:35] saying that I fucking raped you when I never did, bitch? I never fucking touched you. I
[25:35 - 25:51] never even met you outside of fucking Facebook, you dumb bimbo little bitch. Whatever. I can
[25:51 - 26:02] already tell you she's probably fake anyway. I mean, if raping somebody without meeting
[26:02 - 26:19] them is a legit thing, I'd like to know how because that's new to me. Actually, no, she's
[26:19 - 26:47] not. She's definitely way overage. So fuck you Alexander.
[26:47 - 27:01] Ah, fake ass Donald Trump, see ya. Like I said, man, I'm tired of this shit. I'm tired
[27:01 - 27:07] of being silent about all this shit. I've kept this shit quiet for a long fucking time.
[27:07 - 27:12] And I'd say it's about goddamn time somebody fucking spoke up and said something. And guess
[27:12 - 27:18] what? That's somebody's name. So candle, if you're gonna fucking do something, you dumb
[27:18 - 27:24] bimbo little bitch, I fucking dare you to step to me and do something because you and
[27:24 - 27:30] I both know bitch. I can shut your whole fucking shit down in a goddamn RV. You want to run
[27:30 - 27:49] your mouth? I could prove your bitch ass wrong super easily. Say no, and I say to you, Daniel,
[27:49 - 27:56] I say fuck you. I hope you have a miserable fucking life. And honestly, I'll be honest,
[27:56 - 28:03] the day you die, I'll be fucking celebrating. That day you die is the day I fucking celebrate
[28:03 - 28:19] and throw a fucking party. Oh, she is, dude. Candles a total fucking bitch. Candles the
[28:19 - 28:23] whole reason why Marnie and all them started to troll me in the first place, dude. She's
[28:23 - 28:30] the whole fucking reason. This bitch literally fucking made a Facebook page dedicated to
[28:30 - 28:39] attacking me a few years ago. All because I called her on her fucking bullshit lies.
[28:39 - 28:45] She decided to steal one of my photos that I did and fucking ran with it and decided
[28:45 - 28:52] to make a fucking Facebook post. How did I know her? I actually met her through a friend
[28:52 - 29:07] of ours. I'll meet your friend of ours on Facebook. Who is now, who ironically is now
[29:07 - 29:19] her fucking ex. Oh, I know. I know not all women are like that. Don't worry. I know that
[29:19 - 29:28] a lot of women are like that. I don't view women like that, Christina. I only view her
[29:28 - 29:37] like that. I only view a candle like that. I don't view other women like that at all.
[29:37 - 29:43] You can ask Mind of Matt. You can ask anybody that actually fucking knows me. Hell, you
[29:43 - 29:51] can ask Butters. This dude's been around for a good minute. He knows how I am. This dude
[29:51 - 29:56] is seeing me on live stream, chill as fuck with, with other chicks and other people
[29:56 - 30:19] in general.
[30:19 - 30:49] I was raised better than that. I was raised way fucking better than that shit. Fuck you
[30:49 - 31:10] cunt. See the thing I can't stand about people like handle Christina is because people like
[31:10 - 31:18] her give good people like you and other people a bad name. She gives honest women and honest
[31:18 - 31:31] people in general like me and you a bad rep and that's not cool. Yo, Ashley, what's up?
[31:31 - 31:35] Thanks for coming into the stream. And yes, I am going to be working on some blogs here.
[31:35 - 31:45] Hopefully real soon. Hopefully. Yes, it did. They are keeping him overnight and he is
[31:45 - 31:54] healing up. So it went well. And you know, that's another thing, Kendall. You give good
[31:54 - 32:01] honest kind hearted people like myself and anybody in here that has a good heart. You
[32:01 - 32:18] give those of us that actually do give a fuck about people a bad name. And that's not cool
[32:18 - 32:22] for you to sit there and give people like me that are honest and people like Christina
[32:22 - 32:29] and you have a mind of math. The shit you do, Kendall, gives good kind hearted people
[32:29 - 32:37] like us a bad name. And I'm not about to sit there and let you fucking rule my goddamn
[32:37 - 33:02] name because of what you try to do. Blah blah blah. I saw you 406. Like for real, Kendall,
[33:02 - 33:13] you bounce around from dude to dude, guy to guy, chick to chick and you fucking use people.
[33:13 - 33:21] I don't do that shit. See, I was raised right. I was raised to treat a woman with respect.
[33:21 - 33:46] And for those of you wondering, yes, I am single, but not by choice because of the
[33:46 - 34:07] fucking trolls. That's why. Because half these motherfucking trolls want to sit there and
[34:07 - 34:12] do dumb shit. That's why I'm fucking single because half these motherfuckers either want
[34:12 - 34:20] to lie about me, make me look like a piece of shit when I'm not. So yeah, you're not
[34:20 - 34:44] wrong. Actually, you're not wrong.
[34:44 - 35:13] See, the kind of person I am is like this is how I'm about to tell you is how I am.
[35:13 - 35:20] When I'm with somebody, I'm with them. I don't believe in fucking cheating. I don't
[35:20 - 35:27] do that shit. If I'm with somebody, I am with them until they either cheat on me or
[35:27 - 35:36] do something stupid. You know, then why do they need to do that? Unless they're being
[35:36 - 35:41] unfaithful, untruthful or something like that. I don't do that shit. I'm always the
[35:41 - 35:50] one to end up getting hurt because of the bullshit. Like, I'm not an insecure fucking
[35:50 - 35:59] prick like people seem to think I am. I mean, yeah, I live at home with my family to help
[35:59 - 36:08] my family. You guys got to realize my mom's elderly and my stepdad's elderly. And taking
[36:08 - 36:13] care of my family is all I've ever known growing up my whole life. I had to help my
[36:13 - 36:19] mom take care of my grandparents when they were alive until they passed. Then from fucking
[36:19 - 36:26] 2004 up to 2015, I had to help my mom take care of my older brother because he had gotten
[36:26 - 36:34] diagnosed with cancer. So me taking care of my family is all I've ever known my entire
[36:34 - 36:40] fucking life. So yes, I may be 32 and live at home with my family but so what? Who fucking
[36:40 - 36:46] cares? At least I actually take care of my fucking family. At least I look out for my
[36:46 - 36:59] own. Hell, whenever my best friend, Clint's wife, Christina, passed away, or can't pass
[36:59 - 37:05] away. You know what I'm going to be doing? I'm going to be going over there to Australia
[37:05 - 37:13] where he's at to hang out with him and make sure that, you know, he's okay. Because when
[37:13 - 37:20] his wife, Natalie, passes away, who we all call cat or gnat, which aren't one, once
[37:20 - 37:25] she passes away because she's terminally ill with cancer, I flat out told him, "Dude,
[37:25 - 37:33] if he fucking needs anything, call me." Because I've been through that process of dealing
[37:33 - 37:37] with family members that have had cancer. I've been through that shit. So I told my
[37:37 - 37:42] boy Clint that is in Australia. I flat out told him, "Dude, if you fucking need anything,
[37:42 - 37:48] let me fucking know. I fucking got you and I'll do what I can to fucking help." Because
[37:48 - 38:11] I know what it's like to go through that shit. I see a lot of people think that once someone
[38:11 - 38:17] dies from cancer or whatever, a lot of people think that it doesn't affect your family
[38:17 - 38:24] long term. Yes, the fuck it does. It affects you in more ways than you can imagine. I
[38:24 - 38:31] had to watch my older brother for over 10 years slowly wither away and die from lung
[38:31 - 38:42] cancer. And unless you've gone through that shit or you know something that has, you
[38:42 - 38:49] wouldn't understand. So all you fucking trolls that want to run your mouth about me need
[38:49 - 39:01] to fuck off. Because yes, my brother may be gone. That may be true. But he's the fucking
[39:01 - 39:08] reason why I'm here doing what I'm doing. I'm trying to pick up where he left off and
[39:08 - 39:15] help make a living for my family. Doing what I fucking do with my artwork and my music
[39:15 - 39:21] and my clothing brand. Because all of that shit helps provide money for my family so
[39:21 - 39:30] that I can give back to them what they gave to me. And for those of you that don't know
[39:30 - 39:39] what I mean by giving back what they gave to me, when I was born, I was supposed to
[39:39 - 39:50] die. I had literally a 1% chance at survival. I was born with one kidney and one very underdeveloped
[39:50 - 39:57] lung and my skin was so thin because I was born so early. My skin was still like in
[39:57 - 40:05] that stage of being translucent but almost thick. Like it was in that stage where I had
[40:05 - 40:11] to be put in an incubator and rather than special cellophane wraps, cellophane terrain
[40:11 - 40:16] wraps that they use in the hospitals, I had to be wrapped up in that with tubes coming
[40:16 - 40:24] in and out of my head and out of my fucking lungs just so that I would survive. I was
[40:24 - 40:29] in there for six months and then after that I was on an oxygen tank until I was five
[40:29 - 40:38] years old so that I could fucking breathe properly. And if my grandmother who adopted
[40:38 - 40:46] me the day I was born, making her my mom, if she hadn't have adopted me, I wouldn't
[40:46 - 40:54] be here right now. Which is how I got my name chance because the day that I was born
[40:54 - 40:59] when she adopted me, the doctor basically said that she was giving me a second chance
[40:59 - 41:07] in my life so I owe my family everything. And the least I could do is fucking give
[41:07 - 41:13] back to my family that gave me everything, that did shit for me, that was there for
[41:13 - 41:18] me when I needed them, that kicked me in my fucking ass when I needed that kick in the
[41:18 - 41:26] ass, that punished me when I did something stupid when I was a kid, that raised me to
[41:26 - 41:35] do shit right. But yet you trolls want to take away from that. Why? Because I'm trying
[41:35 - 41:44] to do something good and I'm trying to give back to the world, I'm trying to put out
[41:44 - 41:53] the same energy that my family gave me. I'm trying to give back to the world what was
[41:53 - 42:00] given to me. But yet I'm not allowed to do that and make a living from that. Why? Because
[42:00 - 42:07] you dumb fucking trolls want to spark your mouth like a bunch of assholes? Really? Let's
[42:07 - 42:13] see you fucking trolls go through what I've been through my whole life. I would love to
[42:13 - 42:17] see you motherfuckers do that because I guarantee you none of you motherfuckers would last
[42:17 - 42:28] even a day in my fucking shoes. I guarantee it. As a matter of fact, I bet half you motherfuckers
[42:28 - 42:33] couldn't even fucking chuck a bale of hay like I can, motherfuckers. I was doing that
[42:33 - 42:38] shit by 8 years old, helping out my uncle on his fucking farm with me and my family
[42:38 - 42:44] dude. And yeah, I'm a fucking country boy. I was born out in Anchorage, Alaska, raised
[42:44 - 42:48] down in the middle of Washington state on a fucking dairy farm around Bellingham in
[42:48 - 43:02] the middle of nowhere. So trust me, I know the meaning of hard work. I know what it's
[43:02 - 43:07] like to get dirty. I know what it means to bust your ass. I know what it means to work
[43:07 - 43:13] for something. And let me tell you, every physical thing that I have here right now,
[43:13 - 43:19] despite the few things that were given to me by fans, everything I have in here I've
[43:19 - 43:27] worked my ass off for. Nothing was ever handed to me. I worked my ass off for every single
[43:27 - 43:38] fucking thing that I got. Unlike you fucking trolls, I know the true meaning of hard fucking
[43:38 - 43:46] work. I know what it means to make sacrifices because my dad was military, not my dad that
[43:46 - 43:52] got arrested and went to jail the day I was born, the dad that was my dad when my mom
[43:52 - 44:11] adopted me. When y'all fucking trolls think you know sacrifices, you don't know jack shit
[44:11 - 44:17] about sacrifices until you've been in a military family and you have to move base to base to
[44:17 - 44:22] work. Wondering when your family member's next deployment is going to be. What's going
[44:22 - 44:48] to happen next when your family member's going to be deployed? Excuse me, guys, one second.
[44:48 - 45:16] Thanks, guys, guys, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys,
[45:16 - 45:26] thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys.
[45:26 - 45:53] Thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys,
[45:53 - 46:10] thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys,
[46:10 - 46:26] thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys,
[46:26 - 47:36] thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys,
[47:36 - 47:51] thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, guys, thanks, guys,
[47:51 - 49:18] thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys,
[49:18 - 49:39] thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys,
[49:39 - 51:25] thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys, thanks, guys,
[51:25 - 51:51] I tried doing that once and it didn't it didn't work out. But in case for those that don't
[51:51 - 51:58] know my stuff or don't know what I am able to do. Let me give you guys a little bit of
[51:58 - 52:09] an idea of what I'm actually able to do. Meaning for those of you that have not heard me do
[52:09 - 52:22] anything vocally well you're about to and it's not gonna be anything heavy.
[52:22 - 52:38] So let me give you guys a little bit of an idea of what I'm actually going to be doing.
[52:38 - 52:49] Let me give you guys a little bit of an idea of what I'm actually going to be doing.
[52:49 - 53:09] It's going to be a little heavy but it's not going to be like anything like super insane.
[53:09 - 53:34] And I'm thinking this one.
[53:34 - 54:00] I'm trying to replace my pain. I'm trying to do this shit.
[54:00 - 57:32] I'm trying to replace my pain. I'm trying to replace my pain.
[57:32 - 58:00] Now I have one question for everybody here. How many of you guys know somebody personally
[58:00 - 58:06] that has lost somebody from cancer or how many of you yourselves have lost somebody
[58:06 - 58:36] from cancer?
[58:36 - 58:57] The reason I asked is because for this next song, as many of you guys know, obviously I
[58:57 - 59:04] lost my older brother to lung cancer in 2015. But right now, I want every single one of
[59:04 - 59:09] you guys that have lost somebody to cancer. I want you guys to put a candle in the comments
[59:09 - 59:18] with their name right beside it in the comments right now. Because this next song is for all
[59:18 - 59:43] of them and for you guys that have lost someone from cancer.
[59:43 - 60:12] I'm trying to replace my pain. I'm trying to replace my pain.
[60:12 - 60:37] I'm trying to replace my pain. That's the only way you're fighting a suicide.
[60:37 - 62:54] I'm trying to replace my pain.
[62:54 - 63:21] I want to tell you all something right now, man.
[63:21 - 63:28] My older brother, before he passed away, there's one thing that he taught me that is always
[63:28 - 63:36] stuck with me, which is the reason why I started the Urban Samurai clothing brand.
[63:36 - 63:42] He always taught me to fight the good fight no matter what.
[63:42 - 63:47] Always stand up for those that can't stand up for themselves. Always defend those that
[63:47 - 63:55] need defending. Always do what's right no matter what.
[63:55 - 64:18] Those three principles are the three fucking principles that I live by on a daily basis.
[64:18 - 64:27] So like I said, whenever you guys purchase the Urban Samurai merchandise,
[64:27 - 64:33] or whenever you even purchase the Cyrax merchandise,
[64:33 - 64:41] you're not just supporting my channel. You're not just supporting me as a person.
[64:41 - 64:47] You're not just supporting my family. You're supporting a movement,
[64:47 - 64:55] a movement to end bullying, a movement to end hatred, and a movement to end suicide,
[64:55 - 65:01] and a movement to do what's right, which is why I don't care what anybody says.
[65:01 - 65:07] I will always stand behind the Urban Samurai brand and name.
[65:07 - 65:14] And that's why that brand means so much to me because as a person,
[65:14 - 65:20] I try to do what's right every single fucking day.
[65:20 - 65:26] And I'm always loyal to those around me. Just like the legendary samurai,
[65:26 - 65:32] we're always loyal to their people. I'm loyal to my people.
[65:32 - 65:37] Always have been and always will be.
[65:38 - 65:44] Now if you guys would like to purchase any of the Urban Samurai merchandise,
[65:44 - 65:54] the link will be right here in the chat for you guys.
[65:54 - 66:05] Matter of fact, it's going to be the pinned comment.
[66:05 - 66:09] Because let me tell you something, man. No one deserves to get put through
[66:09 - 66:13] what I've gotten put through. And for those of you that have gone through
[66:13 - 66:16] all this shit,
[66:16 - 66:30] really, really, there ain't nothing country about me. Really, dude.
[66:30 - 66:43] You're talking to a guy that was raised in the backwoods.
[66:43 - 66:51] And if I ain't country, then why the fuck would I know songs
[66:54 - 67:04] like this? Let's see.
[67:04 - 67:09] Actually, no, you know what?
[67:09 - 67:15] This is a song right here that represents the country.
[67:15 - 67:18] Pretty damn good.
[67:18 - 67:29] [Music]
[67:30 - 67:38] Whoa, whoa, whoa.
[67:38 - 67:46] The only portion I've had is Ivy, the only man I've even got.
[67:46 - 67:54] No sex can make me run loud, 'cause I've been lit by a law.
[67:54 - 68:03] No fuck can tear me down, no one ever can shut me up.
[68:03 - 68:10] I'm off the grid, and I'm off my rock. I'm off in my house, so
[68:10 - 68:18] we damn holler, holler if you needed something, dawg.
[68:18 - 68:26] I'm a really lean chick on the shoulders, and I'm hanging with a loaded girl
[68:26 - 68:30] with me at the same screen door, no shirt on,
[68:30 - 68:36] keeping two back arms down, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.
[68:36 - 68:43] Can we, can we, can we get the highmen of your
[68:43 - 68:50] boys out there and pretend we're taking up somebody else?
[68:50 - 68:58] The only time I got my tall taxes, every potential night quiet, yeah.
[68:58 - 69:06] Sometimes I miss the most, other times nobody knows.
[69:06 - 69:10] Wouldn't it be my cousin that a couple of my buddies
[69:10 - 69:14] were facing down off Blance River Road?
[69:14 - 69:22] We've been holler, holler both, holler if you needed something, dawg.
[69:22 - 69:30] I'm a really lean chick on the shoulders, and I'm hanging with a loaded girl
[69:30 - 69:34] with me at the same screen door, no shirt on,
[69:34 - 69:40] keeping two back arms down, oh, oh, oh, oh.
[69:40 - 69:50] Can we, can we, can we get the holler, holler both,
[69:50 - 69:58] made to the holler so washed in the spring?
[69:58 - 70:10] A little farmer's job with him holler both, holler if you needed something, dawg.
[70:10 - 70:18] I'm a really lean chick on the shoulders, and I'm hanging with a loaded girl
[70:18 - 70:26] with him holler both, holler if you needed something, dawg.
[70:26 - 70:34] I'm a really lean chick on the shoulders, and I'm hanging with a loaded girl
[70:34 - 70:38] with me at the same screen door, no shirt on,
[70:38 - 70:44] keeping two back arms down, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.
[70:44 - 70:54] Can we, can we, can we get the holler both?
[70:54 - 70:58] Now tell me I ain't country motherfucker.
[70:58 - 71:04] Go ahead and say something else, man. I dare you.
[71:22 - 71:26] Now, you want to know where I fucking sleep?
[71:26 - 71:31] I sleep on the goddamn floor, motherfucker. I ain't stupid.
[71:31 - 71:35] I sleep on the goddamn floor away from the fucking window.
[71:35 - 71:39] You think I'm dumb? Hell nah.
[71:39 - 71:58] Yeah, I got you on some heavy metal, motherfucker.
[71:58 - 72:05] I got you on some heavy metal.
[72:05 - 72:09] All I gotta say is prepare to have your mind fucking blown, dude.
[72:09 - 72:38] I think we all know this one, man.
[72:38 - 72:59] Something takes a part of me, something lost and never seen.
[72:59 - 73:07] Every time I start to believe, something crazy takes you from me,
[73:07 - 73:14] from me, from you, from me, from me, from me, from me, from me, from me, from me, from me.
[73:14 - 73:29] Can't be telling, let me be free. Can't be taking away all the pain.
[73:29 - 73:38] Sometimes I can't lie, say, say, say. Sometimes it's my life, I can't say.
[73:38 - 73:48] Sometimes I can't lie, say, say, your melody is all so great.
[73:48 - 73:58] Something takes a part of me, something lost and never seen.
[73:58 - 74:08] Something takes a part of me, something takes a part of me.
[74:08 - 74:17] You can make a freak out of me, feeling like I have no release.
[74:17 - 74:22] How many times have I felt that I see?
[74:22 - 74:28] Nothing in my life is free, is free.
[74:28 - 74:37] Sometimes I cannot say, say, say. Sometimes it's my life, I can't say.
[74:37 - 74:47] Sometimes I cannot feel my face. Your melody is all so great.
[74:47 - 74:56] Something takes a part of me, if you wait, I want to smash your face.
[74:56 - 75:06] Something takes a part of me, something takes a part of me.
[75:06 - 75:33] I can't lie, say, say, say, say, say, say, say, say, say, say, say.
[75:33 - 75:42] Go!
[75:42 - 76:11] Something takes a part of me, something takes a part of me, something takes a part of me.
[76:11 - 76:28] Something takes a part of me, something takes a part of me.
[76:28 - 76:51] Something takes a part of me, something takes a part of me, something takes a part of me.
[76:51 - 77:18] Or how would I do something that I know none of you fucking trolls can ever fucking do?
[77:18 - 77:43] Something takes a part of me, something takes a part of me, something takes a part of me.
[77:43 - 78:12] Something takes a part of me, something takes a part of me, something takes a part of me,
[78:12 - 78:41] something takes a part of me, something takes a part of me, something takes a part of me.
[78:41 - 79:10] Something takes a part of me, something takes a part of me, something takes a part of me,
[79:10 - 87:57] something takes a part of me, something takes a part of me, something takes a part of me,
[87:57 - 88:18] something takes a part of me.
[88:18 - 88:38] Something takes a part of me, something takes a part of me, something takes a part of me,
[88:38 - 92:40] something takes a part of me, something takes a part of me, something takes a part of me,
[92:40 - 94:28] something takes a part of me, something takes a part of me, something takes a part of me, something takes a part of me,
[94:28 - 94:38] [MUSIC]
[94:38 - 94:48] [INAUDIBLE]
[95:19 - 95:22] I see you fucking trolls do this shit.
[95:25 - 95:28] Fuck you.
[95:49 - 95:59] Yo, Squish, what up?
[96:05 - 96:08] Nah, I smoked, I'm not that good, man.
[96:08 - 96:13] And honestly, dude, I wouldn't want to replace Chester anyway, man.
[96:13 - 96:17] There could never be another fucking Chester, I'm telling you, dude.
[96:17 - 96:18] No way.
[96:22 - 96:28] I mean, even though, like I said, Lincoln Park is literally my number one favorite band,
[96:28 - 96:32] there's no way I would ever want to replace Chester.
[96:32 - 96:37] It wouldn't feel right.
[96:37 - 96:40] That's the only thing that grew up.
[96:44 - 96:48] That's the only thing that grew up listening to them.
[96:48 - 96:52] It just wouldn't feel right for me to do that.
[96:55 - 96:57] Top five bands, that's simple.
[96:57 - 97:05] Lincoln Park, Evanescence, Black Veil Brides, Bring Me The Horizon, or no, Disturbed, and God Smack.
[97:05 - 97:07] Those are my top five.
[97:07 - 97:14] Lincoln Park, Evanescence, Disturbed, God Smack, and Evanescence.
[97:26 - 97:30] So, yeah, Dotto, yeah, that's our request, what's up, dude?
[97:35 - 97:37] Yeah, Dotto, what was your request, man?
[97:51 - 97:52] Ooh, that was a neck.
[97:55 - 98:00] Ooh, some white biscuit, okay.
[98:00 - 98:02] Hold on one second, man.
[98:21 - 98:24] Hey, vamp, what up?
[98:55 - 99:00] Dude, I fucking love how these trolls try to fucking add me up and it's not even working.
[102:32 - 102:34] You're a DA, what the fuck?
[102:42 - 102:44] Yo, Damien, what up, dude?
[102:46 - 102:47] What is up, my man?
[102:47 - 102:48] How you doing today?
[102:48 - 102:49] What's good, bro?
[102:52 - 102:55] All right, hold up, man, I got you, dude.
[102:55 - 102:58] Give me just one second here, man, I got you, bro.
[103:14 - 103:19] All right, you want that, dude, I got you, bro.
[103:27 - 103:30] Come on, soul-ass fucking bone.
[103:30 - 103:32] All right, I got you, big dog, right here.
[103:44 - 103:46] I got you right here, homie, I got it.
[104:12 - 104:15] Oh, shit, I need to blow you a bitch in.
[104:15 - 104:17] Whoa, fuck.
[104:17 - 104:19] Damn, damn, drop my phone, my mother.
[104:19 - 104:22] That's the last thing I need to have, that was dropping my phone, shit.
[104:29 - 104:31] Hey, Nolan, what up, man?
[104:40 - 104:43] See you.
[104:43 - 104:45] Sorry, man, not for a while.
[104:49 - 104:51] And I am, dude.
[105:12 - 105:14] I don't know, one sec.
[105:24 - 105:27] So something on my fucking back, dude, it was weird.
[105:33 - 105:37] Now, I am gonna do one more song for you, you guys.
[105:37 - 105:40] Actually, no, hold on.
[105:40 - 105:42] Hold on, what's that, guys?
[106:02 - 106:08] All right, guys, I'm gonna have this off for now since the contractor's here to finish up his work.
[106:08 - 106:10] So I will catch you guys later on.
[106:10 - 106:13] I gotta go down and help the contractor out while we're walking to the hospital.
[106:13 - 106:15] Didn't think I'd step in.
[106:15 - 106:17] But hopefully you guys can enjoy this, man.
[106:17 - 106:21] And if you did, be sure to show them back that like button, out.
[106:32 - 106:35] But last time, man, I had fun, man.
[106:35 - 106:36] Hopefully you guys enjoyed it.
[106:36 - 106:40] If you did, be sure to send that like button, that subscribe button, and that notification bell.
[106:40 - 106:43] And also, be sure to pick you up some merch on the way out.
[106:43 - 106:44] The link is up.
[106:44 - 106:47] The pin comment is up there, so go check it out.
[106:50 - 106:53] And yeah, when that means that, I'll catch you guys later, man.
[106:54 - 106:55] Peace.
