2021-9-17 STANDING UP FOR A FRIEND

[0:01 - 0:09] I would just sit here and play some games and I'm just chillin' and relaxin'
[0:09 - 0:22] I came across some shit that I'm not too happy about
[0:22 - 0:34] And let me tell you something, it pisses me the fuck off
[0:34 - 0:46] Like, I'm not too happy about what, you know, I have to say
[0:46 - 0:54] I found out who the fuck has been goin' after my dude Axl
[0:54 - 1:05] I'm gonna tell you to that little bitch ass William Glory hole in your little friends
[1:05 - 1:08] You need to step off
[1:08 - 1:14] Now if you guys don't know the whole situation of what these people are trying to do
[1:14 - 1:26] If you guys don't know what these people are trying to do
[1:26 - 1:31] They're essentially trying to attack me and bully me
[1:31 - 1:35] And what they're doing is wrong
[1:35 - 1:42] As you guys know Axl has stood up for me many times
[1:44 - 1:48] But these people go after those that stand up for me
[1:48 - 1:57] Because they know that people like Axl are a threat to what they're trying to do to me
[1:57 - 2:01] These people are trying to ruin my life
[2:01 - 2:06] They are trying to keep me held down because they want me to suffer
[2:06 - 2:10] And with people like Axl getting involved
[2:17 - 2:21] With people like Axl getting involved and stepping up for me
[2:21 - 2:25] And actually standing up for me, these people don't like that
[2:25 - 2:28] I know motherfuckers like Vape
[2:28 - 2:34] And people like, you know, William Glory hole
[2:34 - 2:37] I know what you guys are about
[2:37 - 2:40] You guys wanna screw with me
[2:40 - 2:46] You guys want to keep me held back
[2:46 - 2:52] And I in good conscience and in good faith
[2:52 - 3:05] Cannot sit by and watch you guys do this shit to him
[3:05 - 3:11] Let me tell you something right now
[3:11 - 3:13] Let me tell you motherfuckers something
[3:13 - 3:20] I've seen photos and I've seen videos of him with his son
[3:20 - 3:24] And let me tell you, he's an amazing fucking father
[3:24 - 3:28] He does something that most parents wouldn't even do nowadays
[3:28 - 3:35] Most dads aren't even there for their kids nowadays
[3:35 - 3:37] And that's just the sad truth
[3:37 - 3:45] But this man stands up for his fucking kids
[3:45 - 3:48] This man takes care of his son
[3:48 - 3:57] This man is trying to do right by me
[3:57 - 4:03] And steer me in the right direction away from the bullshit
[4:03 - 4:10] And I'm telling you motherfuckers right now
[4:10 - 4:13] Y'all need to quit blackmailing people
[4:13 - 4:20] Send their saying that oh, if you don't cut ties with him
[4:20 - 4:23] Things are gonna be bad for you
[4:23 - 4:28] Nobody gives a fuck what you morons fucking think
[4:28 - 4:35] Alright, Axel sure as fuck don't give a shit
[4:35 - 4:40] Let me tell you something man
[4:40 - 4:49] People like Axel and Saren and Debbie are very hard to come by
[4:49 - 4:56] Those kind of people are very fucking hard to come by
[4:56 - 4:59] Because too many people are afraid to stand up for me
[4:59 - 5:01] Because of what these fucking assholes doing
[5:01 - 5:03] I'm honestly sick of it
[5:03 - 5:08] I want more people to be able to stand up for people like myself
[5:08 - 5:21] Because there's a lot of YouTubers out there
[5:21 - 5:24] That get trolled and get bullied
[5:24 - 5:28] The same way that I've gotten trolled and bullied
[5:28 - 5:32] Now as I said, yes, what I did was wrong
[5:32 - 5:34] And there's no denying it
[5:34 - 5:38] There's no denying what I did was wrong
[5:38 - 5:44] And I accept that and I do take responsibility for that
[5:44 - 5:49] But y'all going after my dude like that
[5:49 - 5:50] That ain't cool
[5:50 - 5:55] And it's not fucking cute
[5:55 - 5:57] And it's not funny
[5:57 - 6:15] Zippy, I don't need to say what I did because everybody knows
[6:15 - 6:20] Alright, I done said what I did a million times over
[6:20 - 6:22] I don't need to say it again
[6:22 - 6:25] And I'm not gonna say it again
[6:25 - 6:28] I've had to repeat it for the last five months
[6:28 - 6:32] And I'm honestly sick of it
[6:32 - 6:34] Let me tell you something man
[6:34 - 6:37] Axel served our country overseas
[6:37 - 6:47] Fought in the middle of a fucking war
[6:47 - 6:57] This man put his life on the line
[6:57 - 7:02] This man put his fucking life on the goddamn line for this country
[7:02 - 7:15] I truthfully believe the man deserves some fucking respect
[7:15 - 7:20] He doesn't deserve to be attacked
[7:20 - 7:25] He doesn't deserve the harassment you fucking trolls give him
[7:25 - 7:27] He doesn't deserve that
[7:27 - 7:29] So what?
[7:29 - 7:32] He wants to help me be a better person
[7:32 - 7:42] Is there anything wrong with that?
[7:42 - 7:46] Is there anything wrong with him actually wanting to try to
[7:46 - 7:48] Help me to be a better person?
[7:48 - 7:52] Is there anything wrong with that?
[7:52 - 7:54] Because let me tell y'all something man
[7:54 - 7:58] I know this guy personally outside of YouTube
[7:58 - 8:01] I've spoken with this man on Facebook
[8:01 - 8:05] One to one through FaceTime with my family right there
[8:05 - 8:09] And let me tell you something
[8:09 - 8:13] This guy genuinely wants to fucking help me out
[8:13 - 8:17] Because he's honestly sick and tired of seeing what I'm getting put through
[8:17 - 8:19] And I don't blame him
[8:19 - 8:22] But you dumb fuck trolls
[8:22 - 8:24] Coming in and doing what you're doing to him
[8:24 - 8:26] Is bullshit
[8:26 - 8:31] This man put his life on the fucking line for you guys every day
[8:31 - 8:37] He served this country and put his life on the line for you guys
[8:37 - 8:42] The least you can fucking do is show the man some god damn respect
[8:42 - 8:51] And quit going after people like him who stand up for me
[8:51 - 8:55] Regardless of what I did
[8:55 - 8:58] That doesn't give you the fucking right
[8:58 - 9:03] To go after somebody that's trying to genuinely change his ways
[9:03 - 9:06] And help me
[9:06 - 9:08] That does not give you that right
[9:08 - 9:25] I didn't say you did Zigg
[9:25 - 9:27] This motherfucker knows who he is
[9:27 - 9:30] This son of a bitch knows who he is
[9:30 - 9:41] This motherfucker attacked Axel's six year old son
[9:41 - 9:44] And that's not cool
[9:44 - 9:48] For you to go after somebody that's trying to defend me
[9:48 - 9:50] And trying to help me
[9:50 - 10:24] You need to fuck off
[10:24 - 10:27] You know this man has done a lot for me
[10:27 - 10:35] Alright this man has given me new ideas that I never thought were possible
[10:35 - 10:40] He's actually opened my eyes to ideas that I've had rolling around in my head
[10:40 - 10:43] But never got to put the use of this man
[10:43 - 10:48] Has actually motivated me to actually do shit that I used to do
[10:48 - 10:55] This man genuinely wants to get me away from this cesspool of bullshit
[10:55 - 10:58] That y'all trolls and families stuck in
[10:58 - 11:05] For the last fucking five months
[11:05 - 11:07] I get that what I did was fucked up
[11:07 - 11:16] But that doesn't mean I shouldn't be allowed to move past it
[11:16 - 11:19] I'm getting ready to be 31 years old here on the 20th
[11:19 - 11:22] I don't mean this shit
[11:22 - 11:29] I mean you guys claim you're adults but you act like fucking high school bitches
[11:29 - 11:33] Y'all act like a bunch of whiny ass, crabby ass
[11:33 - 11:37] Fucking period having ass high school bitches
[11:37 - 11:40] Why don't you start motherfucking PMS in
[11:40 - 11:45] And stick that goddamn tampon up your ass and shut the fuck up
[11:45 - 11:47] And quit acting like a goddamn pussy
[11:47 - 12:02] Like seriously man
[12:02 - 12:12] Y'all need to quit the garbage
[12:12 - 12:15] Like I told y'all in the fucking song that I released
[12:15 - 12:19] Called Lost Soul
[12:19 - 12:22] That song that I released Lost Soul
[12:22 - 12:25] Was about all the shit you motherfuckers that put me through
[12:25 - 12:29] And what I've dealt with for the last five fucking months
[12:29 - 12:40] So when I told y'all trolls that yeah
[12:40 - 12:42] When I said those lyrics
[12:42 - 12:46] Every day I wake up feeling like a monster
[12:46 - 12:49] But guess what, you're the ones that made me this way
[12:49 - 12:53] That's true
[12:53 - 12:56] Those lyrics are very fucking true
[12:56 - 13:05] You monsters did make me this way
[13:05 - 13:09] For the last two and a half years y'all have attacked me
[13:09 - 13:11] Bullied me
[13:11 - 13:21] Turned me into something that I never wanted to be
[13:21 - 13:25] You want to know what Axel's getting out of helping me dude
[13:25 - 13:30] You really want to know
[13:30 - 13:33] He gets the chance to do something good
[13:33 - 13:36] I sat down and I spoke with him about this
[13:36 - 13:40] And he doesn't want anything but what's best for me
[13:40 - 13:45] He doesn't want anything but for me to actually be the best person that I can be
[13:45 - 13:47] And that's all he wants
[13:47 - 13:55] Just like he wants me to be better and do better
[13:55 - 13:58] I want him to be able to do better
[13:58 - 14:01] He even admitted that he like
[14:01 - 14:04] He admitted on here and to me personally that
[14:04 - 14:07] He's done some fucked up shit
[14:07 - 14:09] He admits that
[14:09 - 14:13] Like he said we are all fucking human
[14:13 - 14:15] We're all humans
[14:15 - 14:23] And we always have such a short amount of time on this fucking earth
[14:23 - 14:26] So instead of being negative toward each other
[14:26 - 14:29] Why don't we treat each other with fucking compassion
[14:29 - 14:33] Respect, kindness, love, understanding
[14:33 - 14:39] Why can't y'all do that
[14:39 - 14:46] Why not be more understanding about shit
[14:46 - 14:51] Why not, you know, stop this negative bullshit
[14:51 - 14:54] That y'all got going on
[14:54 - 15:06] It's stupid
[15:06 - 15:09] And let me tell you right now, I don't need to be committed
[15:09 - 15:11] I really don't
[15:11 - 15:22] You know what I told Axel when I was talking to him earlier
[15:22 - 15:31] Me and this man sat down and we had like literally a fucking four hour conversation
[15:31 - 15:36] Me and this man sat down and had a four hour conversation after I helped out
[15:36 - 15:41] I helped out the live stream, took a shower, relaxed
[15:41 - 15:44] And for those next four hours me and him talked
[15:44 - 15:53] About a lot of shit, we actually got to know each other a little bit more
[15:53 - 15:59] You know, this man wants to see me succeed
[15:59 - 16:07] This man flat out told me that he wants to see me succeed
[16:07 - 16:13] He wants me to do better
[16:13 - 16:16] He wants to see me be successful
[16:16 - 16:19] Because he sees what I'm capable of
[16:19 - 16:45] He sees my potential
[16:45 - 16:54] He sees what I can genuinely do
[16:54 - 16:59] Let me tell you right now
[16:59 - 17:01] Me and Axel are a lot alike
[17:01 - 17:05] He's done some fucked up shit
[17:05 - 17:08] I've done some fucked up shit
[17:08 - 17:11] I've done a lot of screwed up shit
[17:11 - 17:14] Just like he has and just like all of us have
[17:14 - 17:18] We are not perfect
[17:18 - 17:24] But for you guys to run your fucking mouths
[17:24 - 17:29] And try to blackmail people who stand up for me
[17:29 - 17:32] You motherfuckers are the ones that need to be committed
[17:32 - 17:39] Let me tell you something
[17:39 - 17:42] When I talked to this man and he agrees
[17:42 - 17:46] He agrees with what I said to him
[17:46 - 17:50] I sat down and I told him I was like you know what I really need
[17:50 - 17:53] And he asked me what
[17:53 - 17:56] And I straight out told him what I need
[17:56 - 17:59] Is the right fucking guidance
[17:59 - 18:02] In my life I need to surround myself
[18:02 - 18:06] With like minded people who want to see me succeed
[18:06 - 18:08] Who want to see me do better
[18:08 - 18:13] And he agrees
[18:13 - 18:17] He agrees that I need to have the right people surrounding me
[18:17 - 18:21] Because if I have the right people surrounding me
[18:21 - 18:24] I can actually get to where I want to be
[18:24 - 18:26] And I won't be held back
[18:26 - 18:40] And to be honest with you I'm honestly sick and tired
[18:40 - 18:44] Of being held back to my motherfucking past
[18:44 - 18:46] What I did was wrong, yeah
[18:46 - 18:53] But you see all that empty space behind me
[18:53 - 18:55] Throw the past back there
[18:55 - 18:58] Throw it the fuck away
[18:58 - 19:00] Leave the past in the past
[19:00 - 19:03] Put it behind y'all
[19:03 - 19:05] Put it behind yourselves
[19:05 - 19:20] Leave the past in the motherfucking past
[19:20 - 19:23] Leave that shit the fuck alone
[19:23 - 19:27] Alright, yes I've done a lot of fucked up shit
[19:27 - 19:30] Yeah I went to jail for hurting a family member
[19:30 - 19:33] Yes I got out the next fucking day
[19:33 - 19:37] Yes I went to see a counselor and it fucking worked
[19:37 - 19:41] Yes I may have fallen for a fucking catfish
[19:41 - 19:45] So what?
[19:45 - 19:51] We're all human and we all make fucking mistakes
[19:51 - 19:56] But that doesn't mean we should have to be bound to our mistakes for the rest of our lives
[19:56 - 20:03] And I'll be damned if I sit here and let you bitch ass trolls
[20:03 - 20:07] Go after somebody who's family to me
[20:07 - 20:13] This man served in the military and served his country
[20:13 - 20:17] This man just like my dad was army
[20:17 - 20:23] Me and this man are tied together by bond
[20:23 - 20:30] This man served in the military
[20:30 - 20:35] I've had family members including my dad that served in the military
[20:35 - 20:43] And let me tell you right now man
[20:43 - 20:48] Just like he gave his life for me and all of us
[20:48 - 20:52] I would do the same for him or for any of you
[20:52 - 20:55] Even you trolls who hate on me
[20:55 - 20:59] I would give my life for any of you guys without question
[20:59 - 21:03] Without a second thought I would give my life for any of you guys
[21:03 - 21:06] For Axel anybody in the comments
[21:06 - 21:10] I would put my life on the line if it came down to it
[21:10 - 21:14] I know the sacrifices I know what it's like
[21:14 - 21:16] Because I've lived that life
[21:16 - 21:18] I've lived the military lifestyle
[21:18 - 21:21] I've had to watch my dad go on deployments
[21:21 - 21:25] And let me tell you those deployments are the hardest thing in the world
[21:25 - 21:28] Because when you're in a position like I was in
[21:28 - 21:31] You're constantly sitting there by the phone
[21:31 - 21:33] Wondering, waiting
[21:33 - 21:35] When are you gonna get the next phone call
[21:35 - 21:36] What's gonna happen
[21:36 - 21:40] You always have that fear in the back of your fucking mind
[21:40 - 21:43] That you're gonna get that fucking phone call
[21:43 - 21:45] That your loved one isn't coming back home
[21:45 - 21:53] You guys don't know how scary that shit actually is
[21:53 - 21:56] That shit is truly fucking scary
[21:56 - 21:59] I've had to deal with that with family members
[21:59 - 22:02] And with friends
[22:02 - 22:04] And trust me it's not easy
[22:04 - 22:07] The military lifestyle is not an easy lifestyle
[22:07 - 22:11] It's a very hard, very demanding lifestyle
[22:11 - 22:17] Physically and mentally and emotionally
[22:17 - 22:19] And for you guys to attack a man
[22:19 - 22:22] Who is doing right by his son
[22:22 - 22:25] And who is trying to change his way of life
[22:25 - 22:28] And actually help me
[22:28 - 22:31] You guys want to give him shit for that?
[22:31 - 22:32] Really?
[22:32 - 22:35] You motherfuckers want to sit there and give a man shit
[22:35 - 22:39] Who is genuinely trying to help me to be a better person
[22:39 - 22:43] Who is trying to help me create better fucking content
[22:43 - 22:46] Who is trying to help me succeed in life
[22:46 - 22:50] Who is trying to help me get everything I've ever wanted out of life
[22:50 - 22:54] How are you gonna hate on a man for trying to do that?
[22:54 - 22:56] How are you gonna sit there and hate on a man
[22:56 - 23:00] For trying to do right and try to help me
[23:00 - 23:04] Get in the right direction
[23:04 - 23:06] Because let me tell you
[23:06 - 23:09] My whole life I've never had that direction
[23:09 - 23:12] I never had my dad in my life
[23:12 - 23:14] Yeah sure my dad was military
[23:14 - 23:17] But he was never around
[23:17 - 23:19] My dad was never around
[23:19 - 23:21] My mom raised me on her own as a single parent
[23:21 - 23:24] My whole fucking life
[23:24 - 23:25] Okay?
[23:25 - 23:29] My whole life my mom raised me on her own
[23:29 - 23:31] Single mom
[23:31 - 23:33] No father figure in my life
[23:33 - 23:36] The closest thing I had to a fucking father figure
[23:36 - 23:39] Was my teacher as a kid named Mr. Smith
[23:39 - 23:42] He was the closest thing I had to a father figure
[23:42 - 23:45] And then when I got out of school
[23:45 - 23:47] Out of Roosevelt
[23:47 - 23:49] I had no father figure
[23:49 - 23:51] I had no one else
[23:51 - 23:53] All I had was my older brother
[23:53 - 23:55] And me and my mom's
[23:55 - 24:00] That's all I had
[24:00 - 24:02] Well yes I've got my stepdad
[24:02 - 24:04] And I'm very appreciative of him
[24:04 - 24:07] For being that father figure in my life
[24:07 - 24:09] But let me tell you man
[24:09 - 24:11] After I lost my older brother
[24:11 - 24:16] I didn't really have that brother figure in my life
[24:16 - 24:17] Alright?
[24:17 - 24:19] The only brother figures I've had in my life
[24:19 - 24:22] Are my best friend Matt
[24:22 - 24:24] Who I've had on this channel many times
[24:24 - 24:28] My best friend Jake from high school
[24:28 - 24:33] And who was my best friend Sean
[24:33 - 24:34] But guess what?
[24:34 - 24:36] When Sean left
[24:36 - 24:39] Axel stepped up
[24:39 - 24:41] Axel fucking stepped up
[24:41 - 24:46] And became that third figure in my fucking life
[24:46 - 24:49] So for you motherfuckers to go after him like that
[24:49 - 24:53] You need to back off
[24:53 - 24:55] You need to leave the man alone
[24:55 - 24:57] And you need to leave me and my friends and family
[24:57 - 24:59] To fuck alone
[24:59 - 25:02] Y'all need to stop going after people
[25:02 - 25:04] That try to stand up for me
[25:04 - 25:06] And who want me to be better
[25:06 - 25:08] I want to be better
[25:08 - 25:10] I want to do better content
[25:10 - 25:13] I want to be a better person
[25:13 - 25:16] But like I told that don't fuck alive and well
[25:16 - 25:18] How am I supposed to do that
[25:18 - 25:21] If I keep getting held back to my past
[25:21 - 25:24] I'm tired of being shackled to that shit
[25:24 - 25:27] I'm done with it
[25:27 - 25:31] I'm sick and tired of being shackled to my goddamn past
[25:31 - 25:33] I deserve to break away from it
[25:33 - 25:35] And be a better person
[25:35 - 25:42] I deserve to break away from that shit
[25:42 - 25:48] This man has so many ideas that I can do
[25:48 - 25:51] But yet y'all want to hold me to it
[25:51 - 26:04] Y'all want to hold me to that shit
[26:04 - 26:06] And I don't understand why
[26:06 - 26:10] Why do you guys feel like you have to hold me to it
[26:10 - 26:13] Like I should be bound up for the rest of my life
[26:13 - 26:15] Like a fucking prisoner
[26:15 - 26:18] Being tied down to my goddamn past
[26:18 - 26:23] I'm done with it dude
[26:23 - 26:25] I'm done with you motherfuckers
[26:25 - 26:27] Going after my friends and family
[26:27 - 26:29] And I'm fucking done
[26:29 - 26:32] With you stupid fuck bags
[26:32 - 26:44] Holding me to my past
[26:44 - 26:46] Cause let me tell you man
[26:46 - 26:50] In the past 48 hours that I've known Axel personally
[26:50 - 26:54] This man has shared more with me
[26:54 - 26:57] And opened my eyes to so much more that I can do
[26:57 - 27:02] This man showed me that I can be myself again
[27:02 - 27:04] This man opened up my eyes and showed me
[27:04 - 27:08] Hey, I can be myself again if I really wanted to
[27:08 - 27:10] And I want to get that back
[27:10 - 27:16] I want to get my life back
[27:16 - 27:23] I want to get my life back to where I once had it
[27:23 - 27:29] Back to the days when I did coffee and chill streams
[27:29 - 27:31] And wasn't being attacked
[27:31 - 27:34] Back to the days when I did gameplay videos
[27:34 - 27:37] On my DK Customs channel
[27:37 - 27:40] And my Retro Gamer channel
[27:40 - 27:44] And I put out good content that people enjoyed
[27:44 - 27:47] I was able to work on short films
[27:47 - 27:49] I was able to work on music videos
[27:49 - 27:52] I was able to do shit I enjoyed
[27:52 - 27:58] Yo Tess, what up?
[27:58 - 28:13] Like you know, I want to get back to those days man
[28:13 - 28:16] And Tess has seen what I can do
[28:16 - 28:19] Tess here knows me personally too
[28:19 - 28:21] She talks to this chick every fucking day
[28:21 - 28:23] She's cool as fuck
[28:23 - 28:25] She's one of the coolest people I've freaking know
[28:25 - 28:47] All I'm saying man
[28:47 - 28:51] Is that y'all need to quit going after this man and his family
[28:51 - 28:55] And y'all just need to quit the fucking crap
[28:55 - 29:00] Where you guys are trying to blackmail people who stand up for me
[29:00 - 29:02] It's not a good look for you
[29:02 - 29:05] It's stupid and it's childish
[29:05 - 29:10] Okay, I'm getting ready to be 31 years old here in a few days
[29:10 - 29:13] Alright, I'm a grown ass fucking adult
[29:13 - 29:18] I shouldn't have to deal with this drama shit
[29:18 - 29:37] I shouldn't have to deal with the bullshit that you fucking trolls do to me
[29:37 - 29:40] Or to Axel or his family
[29:40 - 29:48] Let me tell you man
[29:48 - 29:51] Axel has given more for his country
[29:51 - 29:53] Than half you motherfuckers
[29:53 - 30:02] That want to troll whatever do with your whole lives
[30:02 - 30:04] Okay, you guys know how
[30:04 - 30:08] For those of you that have friends and family that are military
[30:08 - 30:11] I know you guys know that oath
[30:11 - 30:14] I know you guys know the oath that
[30:14 - 30:19] You know, all of us as military family members
[30:19 - 30:22] Who are family members of someone in service
[30:22 - 30:25] And for those that aren't in service
[30:25 - 30:30] We all took that same fucking oath
[30:30 - 30:33] Just like Axel took an oath to defend America
[30:33 - 30:35] And to help people
[30:35 - 30:39] I took that same oath personally to help people like myself
[30:39 - 30:43] Who get bullied, who get put on the edge of suicide
[30:43 - 30:47] Who get attacked and get bullied
[30:47 - 30:52] Who get their lives ripped away from them just like I got mine ripped away
[30:52 - 31:07] Okay, no one deserves what you fucking trolls do
[31:07 - 31:13] It's not cool and it's not right
[31:13 - 31:18] How would you feel if someone did that to you?
[31:18 - 31:21] How would y'all feel if someone did that to you?
[31:21 - 31:33] Cause I tell you man, Axel nailed it on the head when I spoke to him earlier
[31:33 - 31:37] I have not had a very easy life
[31:37 - 31:40] I've lost friends and family
[31:40 - 31:43] People I care about the various things
[31:43 - 31:48] So I cannot say I dealt with a lot of shit in my life
[31:48 - 31:51] That most people shouldn't have to deal with
[31:51 - 32:04] It's not easy
[32:04 - 32:10] I mean come on, I faced death as a kid
[32:10 - 32:14] As a fucking baby I faced death the day I was born
[32:14 - 32:18] And fucking overcame it and won
[32:18 - 32:25] Not many people can say they've done that
[32:25 - 32:28] Only when I was born I was born very premature
[32:28 - 32:30] I was born one pound ten ounces
[32:30 - 32:35] I was very premature and was not supposed to live
[32:35 - 32:40] I was born with one kidney and one severely underdeveloped lung
[32:40 - 32:44] With skin so translucent that it would tear
[32:44 - 32:49] To where I had to be wrapped in fucking serene wrap
[32:49 - 32:55] And be put in a fucking incubator or back in an incubator for six months
[32:55 - 33:00] So I would say when I faced death as a baby
[33:00 - 33:04] I seriously faced it and fucking won
[33:04 - 33:07] I was not supposed to live
[33:07 - 33:12] But yet here I am almost 31 years later
[33:12 - 33:20] So yeah I have a very real story
[33:20 - 33:33] That not many can say they've done what I've done
[33:33 - 33:37] Not many can say they've stared death in the face
[33:37 - 33:55] And overcame it
[33:55 - 33:58] I'm one of the few that has done that
[33:58 - 34:01] I'm one of the very few in the world
[34:01 - 34:04] Who can genuinely say they've done that
[34:04 - 34:33] Let me share a video with you guys
[34:33 - 34:36] By the dudes at Redcon1
[34:36 - 34:38] Shout out to RC1MG man
[34:38 - 34:43] Let me show you guys
[34:43 - 35:11] Let me show you guys
[35:11 - 35:18] First hand
[35:18 - 35:21] What it's like to deal with deployments
[35:21 - 35:23] I want you guys to listen to the song
[35:23 - 35:29] And I do mean you know really listen to it
[35:29 - 35:32] Because what this man says in this song
[35:32 - 35:34] Shout out to S.DotHouse
[35:34 - 35:41] What's up bro
[35:41 - 35:43] I want you all to listen to this song
[35:43 - 35:45] Because this is what people like him
[35:45 - 35:47] And like what I've dealt with
[35:47 - 35:50] Going through deployments overseas
[35:50 - 35:52] I want you guys to listen to this shit
[35:52 - 36:00] I gotta go
[36:00 - 36:01] I got to
[36:01 - 36:03] Redcon1 music
[36:03 - 36:04] Yeah
[36:04 - 36:05] Something's hurting
[36:05 - 36:06] Hey I'm shaking
[36:06 - 36:07] I'm so nervous
[36:07 - 36:08] But on the surface
[36:08 - 36:10] I gotta stick on my cane
[36:10 - 36:11] Show it
[36:11 - 36:12] We all hit it in the danger
[36:12 - 36:13] Man that we all know it
[36:13 - 36:15] I see my family behind me
[36:15 - 36:17] But I keep going
[36:17 - 36:18] This shit is over
[36:18 - 36:19] Yo I ain't get drafted
[36:19 - 36:20] I signed up
[36:20 - 36:21] So eventually
[36:21 - 36:22] I knew it
[36:22 - 36:23] We're having this on me
[36:23 - 36:24] My second tour
[36:24 - 36:25] But yo it feels like the first
[36:25 - 36:27] So I'm praying for the best
[36:27 - 36:28] But I'm prepared for the first
[36:28 - 36:30] I'm just another young soldier
[36:30 - 36:32] With a chip on this shoulder
[36:32 - 36:34] The mind of an old wise man
[36:34 - 36:35] Like yo
[36:35 - 36:36] Put me on the front line
[36:36 - 36:37] I get it
[36:37 - 36:38] Pop it like so
[36:38 - 36:39] Ain't anybody in my way
[36:39 - 36:40] I stretch them out
[36:40 - 36:41] Like yo
[36:41 - 36:42] Yeah
[36:42 - 36:43] I said I'm ready
[36:43 - 36:44] For whatever lies ahead
[36:44 - 36:45] Where they would be
[36:45 - 36:46] Missing my amable
[36:46 - 36:47] It's flying past my head
[36:47 - 36:48] I got a strong will
[36:48 - 36:49] Yeah
[36:49 - 36:50] So I keep on moving
[36:50 - 36:52] I don't know about you
[36:52 - 36:54] But dawg I know what I'm doing
[36:54 - 36:55] Yeah
[36:55 - 36:56] Ready to roll
[36:56 - 36:57] Ruckseck back tight
[36:57 - 36:58] Right on something
[36:58 - 36:59] Over my back
[36:59 - 37:00] Duff a bag in my right
[37:00 - 37:01] Heart pounding
[37:01 - 37:02] Cause I really ain't trying
[37:02 - 37:03] To get on this flight
[37:03 - 37:05] But I know I got a roll tonight
[37:05 - 37:06] Tonight
[37:06 - 37:07] The hardest part is
[37:07 - 37:08] Appointing
[37:08 - 37:09] It's when it's time to roll out
[37:09 - 37:10] Feel me sprang
[37:10 - 37:11] Left and right
[37:11 - 37:12] Body gets me in shock
[37:12 - 37:13] I kiss my wife
[37:13 - 37:14] And hug my kids
[37:14 - 37:15] And say I'll be home soon
[37:15 - 37:17] Tell your friends your days
[37:17 - 37:18] And I'll get a dance
[37:18 - 37:19] Little tune
[37:19 - 37:20] Okay
[37:20 - 37:21] See I don't mind
[37:21 - 37:22] Let's dress and come with
[37:22 - 37:23] Deployments
[37:23 - 37:24] I'll have to focus
[37:24 - 37:25] On them last
[37:25 - 37:26] You enjoyments
[37:26 - 37:27] Like sitting with my wife
[37:27 - 37:28] Holding her hands
[37:28 - 37:29] Talking like nothing
[37:29 - 37:30] Ain't wrong like
[37:30 - 37:32] I ain't going to the stand man
[37:32 - 37:33] But it's alright
[37:33 - 37:35] I know I'll be just fine
[37:35 - 37:36] Cause I'll never look back
[37:36 - 37:38] Like what the hell is we want
[37:38 - 37:40] I keep my eyes on the fries
[37:40 - 37:41] And my mind on the mission
[37:41 - 37:42] My amenitions
[37:42 - 37:43] What I'm spitting
[37:43 - 37:44] As I read what I've written
[37:44 - 37:46] Going from Garrison Award
[37:46 - 37:47] Ain't an easy transition
[37:47 - 37:48] But it's nothing
[37:48 - 37:49] If you spitting
[37:49 - 37:51] From a politician's position
[37:51 - 37:52] They act like
[37:52 - 37:53] We ain't doing them a favor
[37:53 - 37:55] Even though this country
[37:55 - 37:57] Viewing us as they save you
[37:57 - 37:59] Then they try and worship
[37:59 - 38:01] For a little bit of behavior
[38:01 - 38:02] They dig up a little dirt
[38:02 - 38:04] To make you out to be a failure
[38:04 - 38:05] I say they ain't right
[38:05 - 38:07] So I just focus on the mission
[38:07 - 38:08] Eliminate the threat
[38:08 - 38:10] And kind of get them more tissue
[38:10 - 38:11] Yeah
[38:11 - 38:12] Ready to roll
[38:13 - 38:15] You guys have a good idea
[38:15 - 38:17] On what people deal with now
[38:17 - 38:19] It's hard man
[38:19 - 38:20] That kind of shit
[38:20 - 38:22] Is not fucking easy
[38:23 - 38:25] Matter of fact let me show you guys
[38:25 - 38:28] What people I can deal with
[38:28 - 38:30] When they come home
[38:30 - 38:32] I want you guys to see
[38:32 - 38:34] Just what it is
[38:34 - 38:36] What people I can deal with
[38:36 - 38:39] When they come home from a fucking war
[38:39 - 38:42] I'm gonna turn the camera on
[38:42 - 38:45] I want y'all to watch this shit for yourselves
[38:45 - 38:46] Shout out to Redcom
[38:46 - 38:47] One Music Girl man
[38:47 - 38:53] Fucking love you guys
[38:53 - 38:55] I want y'all to watch this
[38:55 - 38:58] Cause this is very fucking real
[38:58 - 39:20] Up from the wall
[39:20 - 39:21] I'm going to sleep in bed
[39:21 - 39:23] Feeling like no one knows this
[39:23 - 39:26] Is like I ain't even close
[39:26 - 39:27] Like if I pull the trigger
[39:27 - 39:29] With this 45 down my throat
[39:29 - 39:30] We ain't even about to take notice
[39:30 - 39:31] That I'm no longer living
[39:31 - 39:33] These battle scars cut deep
[39:33 - 39:34] Like a mental decision
[39:34 - 39:36] My vision blurring from the sweat
[39:36 - 39:39] That's trickling down my mouth
[39:39 - 39:40] I feel my heart racing
[39:40 - 39:41] I'm breathing so fast
[39:41 - 39:42] Trying to catch my breath
[39:42 - 39:46] But I got nothing left
[39:46 - 39:47] I'm paralyzed as I lie
[39:47 - 39:52] It's where the guy I hated
[39:52 - 39:53] But tell me what should I do
[39:53 - 39:55] If I can test if my distress
[39:55 - 39:56] Will someone help me push through
[39:56 - 39:58] All these obstacles I'm facing
[39:58 - 40:09] Every day of my little gunshots
[40:09 - 40:25] Bring it up to me
[40:25 - 40:26] Imagine waking up sweating
[40:26 - 40:27] From my tears
[40:27 - 40:28] Even screaming a shot
[40:28 - 40:29] You like it or not
[40:29 - 40:30] Like green lights
[40:30 - 40:31] It won't stop
[40:31 - 40:32] You pissed off me so hot
[40:32 - 40:33] Like you're twenty-two clocks
[40:33 - 40:34] We humans are robots
[40:34 - 40:36] And deep pain like two crots
[40:36 - 40:37] If you lift the rest
[40:37 - 40:41] I'm gonna fight you like I'm tired
[40:41 - 40:44] Trying to help do not
[40:44 - 40:45] But shot
[40:45 - 40:46] Sist to the face
[40:46 - 40:47] Like a fist boot of shit rock
[40:47 - 40:48] Some call me crazy
[40:48 - 40:50] I just see it as a weak spot
[40:50 - 40:51] And some wanna pity me
[40:51 - 40:52] Seeing me in distraught
[40:52 - 40:58] But nah, y'all do not
[40:58 - 40:59] The rest like a one shot
[40:59 - 41:01] Stuck like a blood clot
[41:01 - 41:02] Rope because of all the ones
[41:02 - 41:06] In the past that I fought
[41:06 - 41:07] So my pop presence on the bills
[41:07 - 41:08] Rope in the stock
[41:08 - 41:10] Waking up from these nightmares
[41:10 - 41:15] Every night's the only gunshots
[41:15 - 41:17] Bringing bullets flying around
[41:17 - 41:19] Everybody get down
[41:19 - 41:21] Waking up from these nightmares
[41:21 - 42:08] Now let's know it
[42:08 - 42:09] You can find on the shelf
[42:09 - 42:11] The things that I feel
[42:11 - 42:12] It's really hard to shake out me
[42:12 - 42:13] Waking up with swings
[42:13 - 42:15] From stupid states
[42:15 - 42:16] Why I self-appliance
[42:16 - 42:19] To forget the image
[42:19 - 42:20] At the time
[42:20 - 42:27] I get so ashamed
[42:27 - 42:28] To walk up in this lane
[42:28 - 42:31] We're treated the same
[42:31 - 42:32] Am I psychotic?
[42:32 - 42:34] The writer
[42:34 - 42:35] Or just another victim
[42:35 - 42:39] I suck from these nightmares
[42:39 - 42:40] Every night's the only shots
[42:40 - 42:45] Bringing bullets flying around
[42:45 - 42:47] Everybody get down
[42:47 - 42:48] Waking up from
[42:48 - 43:04] Now there's another one
[43:04 - 43:06] I want y'all to listen to as well
[43:06 - 43:11] I think you guys will actually
[43:11 - 43:13] Enjoy because right now
[43:13 - 43:15] And this is a song that I've been
[43:15 - 43:17] Listening to for the last
[43:17 - 43:24] Freakin' got a week
[43:24 - 43:25] Week and a half
[43:25 - 43:29] And I want y'all to
[43:29 - 43:31] You know, to watch this
[43:31 - 43:34] And like really listen to it
[43:34 - 43:37] Because this is the song that's been
[43:37 - 43:39] You know, keeping me going
[43:39 - 43:52] Introducing the shorter side of YouTube
[43:52 - 43:55] Watch and create your own short videos
[43:55 - 43:58] If there's one thing we know
[43:58 - 44:00] It's chicken, chicken and chicken
[44:00 - 44:02] More to love, Tyson
[44:02 - 44:19] Soja one, come in and over
[44:19 - 44:21] Soja one plus, this is Cobra Six
[44:21 - 44:23] Send it over, rise your Cobra Six
[44:23 - 44:25] Soja one, that's your time permission to move out
[44:25 - 44:27] Roger that, ready to grab it
[44:27 - 44:36] Soja hard, out
[44:36 - 44:38] This is a song that she has been
[44:38 - 44:40] Motivating and she's been fighting with her
[44:40 - 44:42] Soja hard, y'all, y'all, y'all
[44:42 - 44:44] I'm on this long road to recovery
[44:44 - 44:46] Get up, Sam
[44:46 - 44:54] Welcome to rock with me
[44:54 - 44:56] You see, I've been through it all
[44:56 - 44:58] I've been fighting in war
[44:58 - 44:59] When I died for freedom
[44:59 - 45:01] That's a real good cause
[45:01 - 45:02] I said yes cause
[45:02 - 45:03] My mother said no
[45:03 - 45:05] There's a war going on
[45:05 - 45:07] Get me right, well let's go
[45:07 - 45:09] Betray me to kill, yeah
[45:09 - 45:11] Now I'm out, look what this war did
[45:11 - 45:15] To me fighting cause I need a change
[45:15 - 47:28] I know it did now, this is pain to get away from
[47:28 - 49:05] I want y'all to be aware of this shit
[49:05 - 49:07] Cause this is something that I know
[49:07 - 49:09] That AXL is aware of
[49:09 - 49:11] That people like me are aware of
[49:11 - 49:17] This helps you guys see
[49:17 - 49:19] The red flags
[49:19 - 49:21] That people like me
[49:21 - 49:26] Had to deal with
[49:26 - 49:28] And for those that have helped me out guys
[49:28 - 49:30] For all y'all that have seen those red flags
[49:30 - 49:32] And stepped up and helped me
[49:32 - 49:34] I want to say thank you
[49:34 - 49:36] But for those that don't
[49:36 - 49:38] Know the red flags
[49:38 - 49:40] I want y'all to watch this
[51:49 - 54:05] I want to show you guys a short film
[54:05 - 54:07] That I came across
[54:07 - 54:09] That I want you guys
[54:09 - 54:11] To genuinely watch it
[54:11 - 54:36] See if I can find it
[54:36 - 55:47] Actually I got a better one
[55:47 - 55:49] For you guys that I want you to watch
[55:49 - 56:37] See if I can find it here
[56:37 - 56:39] Oh good
[56:39 - 56:47] This is what you guys
[56:47 - 56:49] Are about to see
[56:49 - 56:51] This is what you trolls cause
[56:51 - 56:53] People to do when you do what you do
[56:53 - 56:55] And I want you guys to see that
[56:55 - 56:57] And take it to heart
[56:57 - 56:59] And remember this next time
[56:59 - 57:01] You do something like what you guys do
[57:01 - 57:03] I tried to look me over
[57:03 - 57:26] But I couldn't turn around
[57:26 - 57:28] It's okay for you to hate me
[57:28 - 57:30] For all the things I've done
[57:30 - 57:32] I've made a few mistakes
[57:32 - 57:34] But I'm not the only one
[57:34 - 57:36] It's all seen
[57:36 - 57:38] Let me turn it down
[57:38 - 57:40] So you guys can see
[57:40 - 61:11] But
[61:11 - 61:18] It's all seen
[61:18 - 61:39] But
[61:39 - 61:41] Do you trolls actually
[61:41 - 61:47] See now
[61:47 - 61:49] Do you actually see now
[61:49 - 61:51] What you trolls do
[61:51 - 61:53] When you fucking do
[61:53 - 62:03] What you do to people
[62:03 - 62:05] That shit that you just watched
[62:05 - 62:07] That's what you fucking trolls do to people
[62:07 - 62:09] You sit there
[62:09 - 62:11] And you drive people
[62:11 - 62:13] To the point of suicide
[62:13 - 62:18] And that's not cool
[62:18 - 62:23] It's really not cool
[62:23 - 62:45] It's very screwed up
[62:45 - 62:47] And skull kid I'm getting rid of you man
[62:47 - 62:49] Cause all you do
[62:49 - 62:51] Is run your fucking mouth bro
[62:51 - 62:53] And I'm fucking tired of it
[62:53 - 63:01] You know when you trolls
[63:01 - 63:06] Do what you do
[63:06 - 63:08] It hurts
[63:08 - 63:10] A lot
[63:10 - 63:12] It hurts people more than you fucking realize
[63:12 - 63:16] It really
[63:16 - 63:18] And truly does hurt people more than you
[63:18 - 63:27] Fucking think
[63:27 - 63:29] Cause let me tell you when
[63:29 - 63:31] People reports came along and did what she did
[63:31 - 63:33] I was already dealing
[63:33 - 63:35] With a lot
[63:35 - 63:37] I was already dealing with
[63:37 - 63:39] The loss of my girlfriend
[63:39 - 63:41] Who had passed away
[63:41 - 63:43] Previously that year whom I found out
[63:43 - 63:45] Through my little sister that
[63:45 - 63:47] She had passed
[63:47 - 63:49] I was already dealing with that
[63:49 - 63:51] I was
[63:51 - 63:54] Still
[63:54 - 63:56] Trying to find my bearings
[63:56 - 63:58] After just losing
[63:58 - 64:00] My best friend
[64:00 - 64:02] To a murder a few years prior
[64:02 - 64:05] Like
[64:05 - 64:07] You guys don't understand that
[64:07 - 64:09] When you bring on that kind of
[64:09 - 64:12] Bullshit
[64:12 - 64:14] Right after so many deals or something
[64:14 - 64:16] It creates a whole
[64:16 - 64:18] Slow of brand new problems
[64:18 - 64:20] That they don't need
[64:20 - 64:24] You they really
[64:24 - 64:33] Don't need that shit
[64:33 - 64:35] Like and I know a lot of people like Paul
[64:35 - 64:37] Here are making a fucking
[64:37 - 64:39] Fuck out of it but let me tell you
[64:39 - 64:41] This is a very serious thing
[64:41 - 64:43] This is very fucking
[64:43 - 64:46] Serious
[64:46 - 64:48] This is not to be taken lightly
[64:48 - 64:50] And I know a lot of you guys think oh ha ha ha
[64:50 - 64:52] Joke around ha
[64:52 - 64:55] No this
[64:55 - 64:58] This is very fucking real
[64:58 - 65:00] And what you trolls do is
[65:00 - 65:02] You take things that
[65:02 - 65:04] Should stay on the internet
[65:04 - 65:06] You take things that should
[65:06 - 65:08] Stay on the fucking internet
[65:08 - 65:10] And you bring
[65:10 - 65:12] Them into the real world
[65:12 - 65:17] And I get that some of you might not be
[65:17 - 65:19] Aware of what you do you might not be
[65:19 - 65:23] Aware of your actions
[65:23 - 65:25] But you need to start being
[65:25 - 65:27] More aware of your actions
[65:27 - 65:29] Because your actions that you
[65:29 - 65:31] Do on here has
[65:31 - 65:33] Very real world consequences
[65:33 - 65:35] It really does
[65:35 - 65:43] You know your actions
[65:43 - 65:45] That you choose to do on the internet
[65:45 - 65:47] Has very real
[65:47 - 65:49] World consequences
[65:49 - 65:52] And I know some of you guys
[65:52 - 65:54] Aren't going to take this seriously
[65:54 - 65:58] But you guys should take this serious
[65:58 - 66:00] This kind of shit ain't fucking
[66:00 - 66:04] Funny anymore
[66:04 - 66:06] The shit y'all do to me
[66:06 - 66:08] The people you attack
[66:08 - 66:10] The people you go after
[66:10 - 66:18] It needs to stop
[66:18 - 66:21] It does need to stop
[66:21 - 66:25] Okay let me tell you
[66:25 - 66:30] I'm one of the nicest people you'll ever fucking meet
[66:30 - 66:32] Like if you were to meet me in real life
[66:32 - 66:34] You would see that I'm a pretty chill fucking dude
[66:34 - 66:36] I'm actually cool to hang out with
[66:36 - 66:38] You know I'm a pretty chill dude
[66:38 - 66:44] But yeah you guys wouldn't know that
[66:44 - 66:46] Because y'all want to sit here
[66:46 - 66:48] And
[66:48 - 66:50] Keep me angry all the time
[66:50 - 66:52] And go after my friends
[66:52 - 66:54] Go after my family
[66:54 - 66:56] Go after people I care about
[66:56 - 66:58] Y'all need to knock that shit the fuck off
[66:58 - 67:02] Y'all need to quit going after
[67:02 - 67:04] My boy Axl
[67:04 - 67:08] Stop going after my friends and family
[67:08 - 67:10] When they stick up for me
[67:10 - 67:12] You guys need to just
[67:12 - 67:15] Let them stick up for me
[67:15 - 67:17] Alright whether you agree with what they do or not
[67:17 - 67:19] That's your choice
[67:19 - 67:23] But in the long run
[67:23 - 67:25] Y'all need to back the fuck up
[67:25 - 67:27] Back the fuck off
[67:27 - 67:29] Sit the fuck down
[67:29 - 67:32] And shut the fuck up
[67:32 - 67:34] And quit the nonsense
[67:34 - 67:38] You need to knock it the fuck off
[67:38 - 67:43] I mean you guys claim that you won't
[67:43 - 67:45] Like I said earlier
[67:45 - 67:47] You guys claim that you
[67:47 - 67:50] Want me to be a better person
[67:50 - 67:52] But how am I supposed to be a better person
[67:52 - 67:54] If I can't move on
[67:54 - 67:56] With my life
[67:56 - 67:58] How am I supposed to be a better person
[67:58 - 68:00] If I can't
[68:00 - 68:02] Learn from my past
[68:02 - 68:04] And move forward without my past
[68:04 - 68:06] Being brought up
[68:06 - 68:08] Alright I get what I did was wrong
[68:08 - 68:10] I learned my lesson
[68:10 - 68:12] Now let me move on
[68:12 - 68:14] And do what I need to do
[68:14 - 68:16] To become better
[68:16 - 68:18] So that I can
[68:18 - 68:20] Put out better content
[68:20 - 68:22] So that I can do things I want to do
[68:22 - 68:27] With my life
[68:27 - 68:29] You know I'm genuinely trying to do
[68:29 - 68:31] Something good with my life
[68:31 - 68:44] But y'all keep holding me back
[68:44 - 68:46] Because Skull Kid
[68:46 - 68:52] All you do is run your mouth
[68:52 - 68:54] Skull Kid you ain't about
[68:54 - 68:56] Helping nobody bro
[68:56 - 68:59] All you're about is attacking people
[68:59 - 69:01] You really are
[69:01 - 69:06] All the fuckers
[69:06 - 69:08] You tried to buy my name
[69:08 - 69:10] Out from under me
[69:10 - 69:12] You tried to attack me
[69:12 - 69:16] So yeah your shit
[69:16 - 69:18] Ain't advice
[69:18 - 69:22] It's garbage
[69:22 - 69:24] You blatantly sat right there
[69:24 - 69:26] Tried to steal my original artist name
[69:26 - 69:28] Out from under me
[69:28 - 69:30] Which was a nickname that I was
[69:30 - 69:32] Given to being by one of my best friends
[69:32 - 69:34] In high school
[69:34 - 69:36] You sat there
[69:36 - 69:39] And tried to lay claim to it
[69:39 - 69:41] So yeah
[69:41 - 69:47] I'm not buying your bullshit
[69:47 - 69:49] But I will listen to people
[69:49 - 69:51] Like Axel and Saren
[69:51 - 69:53] And my brother Jake
[69:53 - 69:55] And people that genuinely
[69:55 - 69:57] Want to see me do better
[69:57 - 70:04] Like I said man
[70:04 - 70:06] Y'all motherfuckers need to leave Axel
[70:06 - 70:08] The fuck alone
[70:08 - 70:10] And whenever I make a post on Facebook
[70:10 - 70:12] Stop going after my
[70:12 - 70:14] Friends and family
[70:14 - 70:16] And I make a post on Facebook
[70:16 - 70:18] That doesn't give you the right to go after them
[70:18 - 70:20] You stupid little fuck bags
[70:20 - 70:22] Need to piss off
[70:22 - 70:25] Get a life
[70:25 - 70:28] And knock the crap off
[70:28 - 70:30] Axel doesn't deserve it
[70:30 - 70:32] I don't deserve it
[70:32 - 70:54] I don't know who you are
[70:54 - 71:05] So I'm gonna leave you all
[71:05 - 71:07] With this
[71:07 - 71:09] And then I'm going to enjoy
[71:09 - 71:11] What a few days I have left
[71:11 - 71:13] Or what a few weeks I have left
[71:13 - 71:15] Of my fucking vacation
[71:15 - 71:18] Cause like I said earlier last night
[71:18 - 71:20] I've been doing YouTube for 10 years
[71:20 - 71:22] I deserve a fucking break
[71:22 - 71:24] I'm gonna tell y'all trolls this right now
[71:24 - 71:31] You need to quit going
[71:31 - 71:33] After motherfuckers
[71:33 - 71:35] When I make a post on Facebook
[71:35 - 71:37] And tag someone
[71:37 - 71:39] That doesn't mean go after them
[71:39 - 71:41] That doesn't mean
[71:41 - 71:45] Try to attack me
[71:45 - 71:47] Through them
[71:47 - 71:49] That doesn't mean
[71:49 - 71:51] Try to start shit with them
[71:51 - 71:53] motherfuckers
[71:53 - 71:56] Y'all need to get a goddamn grip
[71:56 - 71:58] And back off
[71:58 - 72:03] Worry about yourselves
[72:03 - 72:05] Stop worrying about what other
[72:05 - 72:07] motherfuckers are doing
[72:07 - 72:09] And worry about your goddamn self
[72:09 - 72:13] You want to judge other people
[72:13 - 72:15] But yet you never want to point
[72:15 - 72:17] The finger at yourself
[72:17 - 72:19] And that's sickening
[72:19 - 72:22] Before you go judging someone else
[72:22 - 72:24] Why don't you take a look at the
[72:24 - 72:26] Skeletons in your closet
[72:26 - 72:29] Watch you point the finger at yourself
[72:29 - 72:31] Before judging someone else
[72:31 - 72:33] For their crimes
[72:33 - 72:35] And their wrongdoings
[72:35 - 72:46] There's a bible verse that I live by
[72:46 - 72:48] Every day
[72:48 - 73:01] Judge not thy neighbor
[73:01 - 73:03] But thyself
[73:03 - 73:15] And there's another quote that goes
[73:15 - 73:17] Hand in hand with that
[73:17 - 73:19] That's not necessarily a bible verse
[73:19 - 73:22] But it falls into the same category
[73:22 - 73:24] Judging not by my past transgressions
[73:24 - 73:26] But by my current actions
[73:26 - 73:28] And my current actions
[73:28 - 73:39] Speak very, very differently
[73:39 - 73:41] Than my past transgressions
[73:41 - 73:43] Very differently
[73:43 - 73:45] I'm trying to be a better person
[73:45 - 73:49] I'm trying to
[73:49 - 73:51] Right my wrongs
[73:51 - 73:53] I'm trying to do better
[73:53 - 73:55] But as I said
[73:55 - 73:57] Unless you let me live down
[73:57 - 74:04] My past
[74:04 - 74:06] You don't necessarily have to live down
[74:06 - 74:10] My past transgressions
[74:10 - 74:12] My pasts
[74:12 - 74:14] You don't necessarily have to let me live it down
[74:14 - 74:16] But let me move on from the past
[74:16 - 74:18] You know
[74:18 - 74:20] Let me leave the past behind me
[74:20 - 74:22] And do what I gotta do to get better
[74:22 - 74:24] So that I can give
[74:24 - 74:26] My best
[74:26 - 74:28] So I can give 120%
[74:28 - 74:30] So I can give
[74:30 - 74:32] 110%
[74:32 - 74:35] So I can do short films again
[74:35 - 74:37] So I can make
[74:37 - 74:39] Music videos again
[74:39 - 74:41] Do vlogs again
[74:41 - 74:43] What I did was wrong
[74:43 - 74:45] Yes, but that doesn't mean
[74:45 - 74:53] I should be held back to it
[74:53 - 74:55] Exactly
[74:55 - 74:58] And I'll admit I have done wrong
[74:58 - 75:03] I admit that
[75:03 - 75:05] But at the end of the day
[75:05 - 75:07] I'm trying to do what I gotta do
[75:07 - 75:14] To get better
[75:14 - 75:20] And I'm telling y'all right now
[75:20 - 75:22] And for all y'all that have gone after Axel
[75:22 - 75:24] And have gone after my friends and family
[75:24 - 75:26] Just knock it off
[75:26 - 75:32] Worry about yourselves
[75:32 - 75:34] Stop worrying about me
[75:34 - 75:37] And what I'm constantly doing
[75:37 - 75:39] Your job is not to babysit me
[75:39 - 75:41] Your job is not to
[75:41 - 75:43] Worry about what I'm doing
[75:43 - 75:45] Every two seconds of the damn day
[75:45 - 75:48] That's not your job
[75:48 - 75:50] Your job is to worry about you
[75:50 - 75:52] Yourself
[75:52 - 75:54] Your channels
[75:54 - 75:56] The content you guys are putting out
[75:56 - 75:59] Or the lack of content
[75:59 - 76:01] I should say
[76:01 - 76:09] But to those that do support me
[76:09 - 76:11] And have been trying to help me
[76:11 - 76:13] In any way possible
[76:13 - 76:15] To all the supporters
[76:15 - 76:17] All the fans
[76:17 - 76:19] All the subs that have
[76:19 - 76:21] Genuinely stepped up trying to help me
[76:21 - 76:23] I want to say thank you
[76:23 - 76:27] You guys are fucking awesome
[76:27 - 76:29] And I appreciate every one of you guys
[76:29 - 76:43] I really do
[76:43 - 76:45] I genuinely appreciate every single one of you guys
[76:45 - 76:47] That has stood up for me
[76:47 - 76:49] Tried to help me
[76:49 - 76:51] Tried to help me
[76:51 - 76:53] Tried to help guide me in the right direction
[76:53 - 76:55] I appreciate that
[76:55 - 76:57] I truly do
[76:57 - 76:59] I appreciate the hell out of that
[76:59 - 77:10] And I can't thank y'all enough
[77:10 - 77:12] But as for the trolls man
[77:12 - 77:14] Just time
[77:14 - 77:16] Enough is enough
[77:16 - 77:19] Alright
[77:19 - 77:24] Let me move on and live my life in peace
[77:24 - 77:26] Alright let me do what I need to do
[77:26 - 77:28] To get better so I can put out the content
[77:28 - 77:31] That I want to put out
[77:31 - 77:34] That people would like to see me put out
[77:34 - 77:36] Like my gameplay videos
[77:36 - 77:38] A lot of people used to enjoy
[77:38 - 77:40] My Forza Horizon 4 gameplay videos
[77:40 - 77:42] A lot of people used to
[77:42 - 77:44] Enjoy my short films that I did
[77:44 - 77:46] A lot of people used to
[77:46 - 77:48] Enjoy
[77:48 - 77:50] Seeing me make music videos
[77:50 - 77:54] And this and that and the other
[77:54 - 77:56] Like I want to give back to all of that
[77:56 - 77:58] I want to give back to the coffee
[77:58 - 78:00] And show streams
[78:00 - 78:02] I want to give back to the days of where
[78:02 - 78:04] The geeky happy self
[78:04 - 78:06] Like I want to give back to that
[78:06 - 78:16] I would love to give back to that
[78:16 - 78:18] I really would
[78:18 - 78:20] I would love to give back to the
[78:20 - 78:22] Webowing stuff
[78:22 - 78:24] I genuinely would love to get back
[78:24 - 78:26] To doing that stuff
[78:26 - 78:30] I really would
[78:30 - 78:32] I would love to get back to playing that
[78:32 - 78:34] If I can
[78:34 - 78:36] I'm not going to promise that
[78:36 - 78:38] But if I can I will
[78:38 - 78:40] I don't know if I have to buy a new coffee
[78:40 - 78:42] If I have to I will do it
[78:42 - 78:46] But you know I want to
[78:46 - 78:48] Get back to doing the fun
[78:48 - 78:50] You know need for speed
[78:50 - 78:52] You know carbon
[78:52 - 78:54] And underground and underground too
[78:54 - 78:56] And pro street
[78:56 - 78:58] You know videos again
[78:58 - 79:00] Bringing back the old school retro
[79:00 - 79:02] Gaming stuff the stuff that
[79:02 - 79:04] People used to enjoy man
[79:04 - 79:06] I want to give back to that
[79:06 - 79:08] And the only way I can do that
[79:08 - 79:12] Is
[79:12 - 79:14] For y'all to
[79:14 - 79:16] Quit holding me to my past
[79:16 - 79:27] This man over here
[79:27 - 79:29] Quote with freakin' Talladega nights
[79:29 - 79:31] Hell yeah man I feel it bro
[79:31 - 79:36] This freakin' fall dude over here
[79:36 - 79:38] Quote with fuckin' Talladega nights
[79:38 - 79:42] On my ass the fuck
[79:42 - 79:44] I mean dude do y'all
[79:44 - 79:46] Remember when the last time I was
[79:46 - 79:48] That I competed in the F1 series
[79:48 - 79:50] You guys remember the last time I did
[79:50 - 79:52] An F1 race
[79:52 - 79:54] I can tell you the date
[79:54 - 79:58] I can tell you the date
[79:58 - 80:04] I can tell you the exact date
[80:04 - 80:06] The last race
[80:06 - 80:09] I ran
[80:09 - 80:11] Was my mom's birthday
[80:11 - 80:13] January 31st
[80:13 - 80:16] Of this year
[80:16 - 80:18] Was my last race I did
[80:18 - 80:20] And it was one of the races
[80:20 - 80:22] Where I took a win
[80:22 - 80:24] I took a win on her birthday
[80:24 - 80:26] And my brother's birthday
[80:26 - 80:28] Which was on the 23rd
[80:28 - 80:30] That was the last time I competed
[80:30 - 80:32] In the same racing competitions
[80:32 - 80:34] And I'd like to give back to that
[80:34 - 80:36] I really would
[80:36 - 80:39] But like I said in order for me
[80:39 - 80:41] To do those things I need to
[80:41 - 80:43] Get myself together
[80:43 - 80:45] Work on shit
[80:45 - 80:54] You know
[80:54 - 80:56] I need to give back to where I need to be
[80:56 - 81:00] Now with that being said
[81:00 - 81:05] I'm going to sit here
[81:05 - 81:07] Get back to watching the movie
[81:07 - 81:09] I was watching and if y'all
[81:09 - 81:11] Wondering what I was watching
[81:11 - 81:13] I'm fucking
[81:13 - 81:15] Not my mom
[81:15 - 81:17] Bennett's War
[81:17 - 81:19] And if you guys have not seen Bennett's War
[81:19 - 81:21] I highly
[81:21 - 81:23] Highly suggest you look it up
[81:23 - 81:25] It's a very
[81:25 - 81:27] Very good movie
[81:27 - 81:29] I love it it's one of my personal favorites
[81:29 - 81:31] I actually have it burned on the DVD
[81:33 - 81:35] Like it's a very good film
[81:35 - 81:37] Very good film
[81:37 - 81:39] I highly recommend watching it
[81:39 - 81:41] If you do get the chance to watch
[81:41 - 81:43] Bennett's War
[81:43 - 81:45] Definitely do it it's definitely worth watching
[81:45 - 81:54] For sure
[81:54 - 81:56] But with that being said guys
[81:56 - 81:58] I'm going to bounce off here
[81:58 - 82:00] Finish watching my movie and
[82:00 - 82:02] I will catch you guys
[82:02 - 82:05] In five weeks time
[82:05 - 82:07] And please guys for the love of God
[82:07 - 82:11] Stop attacking
[82:11 - 82:14] My family
[82:14 - 82:16] Stop attacking my friends
[82:16 - 82:18] Every time I make a post
[82:18 - 82:21] Leave me alone
[82:21 - 82:23] Alright
[82:23 - 82:25] Just leave me alone and let me do
[82:25 - 82:29] What I gotta do to get well
[82:29 - 82:31] I love you guys
[82:31 - 82:33] I'll see you guys in five weeks
[82:33 - 82:35] Peace