2021-9-16 Think about what you do before you do it

[0:00 - 0:02] What have y'all
[0:03 - 0:05] Just wanting to do anything to let y'all know what's up
[0:08 - 0:10] Things are going good. I'm a dog. You know if you
[0:11 - 0:14] You have a good friend's mind a lot today, but
[0:15 - 0:22] This video is more directed at and you know those that think that
[0:23 - 0:25] everything's my fault when I
[0:25 - 0:30] Amit so it's tough, you know is my fault, but not all of it
[0:30 - 0:35] And that's I think that's where a lot of y'all are getting confused
[0:36 - 0:39] See for the last 10 years
[0:39 - 0:43] I've been jerked around and yanked around
[0:45 - 0:47] But people like Eric Scrubble
[0:48 - 0:51] For the last 10 years. I've been used as a doormat
[0:53 - 1:03] I've been tossed aside. I'm the walked on. I've been stepped on. I've had all kinds of
[1:04 - 1:06] fucked up situations happen
[1:06 - 1:07] and
[1:07 - 1:15] I'm not gonna then I'm not gonna study here and I'm just saying that what I did was right because what I did and
[1:16 - 1:19] You know those certain situations that I've been
[1:20 - 1:23] You know that I've been being attacked for isn't right and
[1:25 - 1:29] You know, I know that when I die I'm gonna have to pay for those
[1:30 - 1:36] But something y'all need to realize is part of the reason why I
[1:36 - 1:39] Have so many anger issues
[1:40 - 1:41] inside me
[1:41 - 1:46] it's probably because of y'all that want to sit there and
[1:47 - 1:55] Constantly attack me, you know, y'all want to sit there and judge me
[1:56 - 2:01] What I do, but yet you guys never want to look in the mirror and
[2:03 - 2:05] Take responsibility for your own actions
[2:06 - 2:09] I mean you guys sat there the other night. I watched me
[2:10 - 2:14] take responsibility for my own actions and
[2:15 - 2:20] What I did and I admit what I did was wrong and it never should have happened and
[2:21 - 2:26] That was on me and I am sorry about that
[2:26 - 2:34] But something you guys need to realize is beyond that
[2:35 - 2:44] Beyond that whole Kate issue, you know, the whole reason why I got put in the situations because
[2:45 - 2:47] I've been stabbed in the back
[2:47 - 2:49] turned on
[2:49 - 2:53] I miss the lead and betrayed so many times over the years and
[2:55 - 2:57] you guys
[2:57 - 3:05] Doing all this different stuff to me. It doesn't help, you know, y'all sitting there
[3:06 - 3:09] Making things worse than they already are for me
[3:10 - 3:14] by going after my deceased loved ones by
[3:15 - 3:25] Going after my friends by going after my family you guys aren't helping any if anything you guys are thinking of making things
[3:26 - 3:29] Just so much worse than what they need to be
[3:34 - 3:36] It's not okay
[3:36 - 3:41] I get that some of y'all can't stand me for whatever reason and
[3:44 - 3:46] You know, it is what it is. I
[3:47 - 3:52] Don't hate y'all. I don't necessarily like y'all that, you know
[3:52 - 3:54] Do that shit to me, but I don't hate you either
[3:55 - 4:01] But what I'm trying to get you guys to understand is this
[4:02 - 4:09] You know the whole reason why I'm shouting why I do what I do is because of you guys
[4:10 - 4:14] when you guys push me over the edge like y'all do and
[4:14 - 4:18] You back me into a corner. It's like you expect me not to snap
[4:20 - 4:25] like you guys sit there and you attack me over and over and over again and then
[4:26 - 4:28] when you
[4:28 - 4:33] Back me into a corner like y'all do a lot of the times you expect me not to snap
[4:37 - 4:44] It's like poking a bear, dude. You know you poke a bear you're gonna get bit
[4:45 - 4:49] You back a dog into a corner and you know you keep on teasing it
[4:50 - 4:59] Eventually that dog's gonna man up and gonna bite back and you're gonna end up hurt, you know same thing with me
[5:00 - 5:09] Same thing with anyone you push someone so far
[5:09 - 5:17] All right, and you push someone so far over and over and over and over again
[5:17 - 5:23] You keep pushing that button over and over and over like this you keep on pushing that button on
[5:23 - 5:27] That person
[5:27 - 5:34] Eventually that person is gonna turn around and they're gonna snap and they're gonna do shit that you might not
[5:35 - 5:39] Like and you're gonna end up hurt. You're gonna end up injured or
[5:39 - 5:57] Or whatever because they like I told y'all in my last video, you know
[5:58 - 6:03] For me, it's not about whether I like my raps or not
[6:04 - 6:11] What's on your own? I do I am very proud of the song that I put out but like I said
[6:12 - 6:14] For me, it's not about
[6:15 - 6:17] Whether I like the song
[6:17 - 6:21] It's not about whether someone else likes song for me. It's about
[6:22 - 6:31] Putting my story out there so that it can help someone if my music can help even just one person through a tough situation then
[6:32 - 6:40] So be it if mine if my music can help even one person out of my job
[6:41 - 6:48] You know, that's my mission is to fucking help people to help people like myself
[6:49 - 7:01] People like Axl who have been down a very dark road a very dark road
[7:04 - 7:07] Let me tell you man
[7:07 - 7:09] I've taught that so I'm gonna tell you
[7:10 - 7:13] He's been through a lot of shit
[7:14 - 7:25] He's been through some shit that most will never ever get the chance to see and going through all that
[7:25 - 7:36] Was not what he needed. Just like me. I've been down some very very dark roads in my life
[7:37 - 7:40] And a lot of you guys know a lot of those dark roads
[7:41 - 7:45] everything from me losing loved ones who
[7:46 - 7:50] have passed
[7:50 - 7:54] To being put through what I've been put through these last year and a half
[7:55 - 7:59] and
[7:59 - 8:02] Let me tell you those roads that I went down in my life
[8:04 - 8:05] They were scary
[8:05 - 8:07] they were very scary
[8:08 - 8:09] and
[8:09 - 8:12] I would never wish anything. I've been through on anyone
[8:16 - 8:20] I truthfully would not wish anything. I've been through on anyone
[8:24 - 8:27] Let me tell you man. I've lost so many friends and family
[8:29 - 8:31] so many loved ones and
[8:33 - 8:37] When you lose that many people in such a short time span it's
[8:38 - 8:40] It's hard to deal with
[8:40 - 8:42] it's a very tough build to swallow
[8:43 - 8:49] and
[8:49 - 8:54] I don't think they would want to see me be this way. I know I don't want to be this way
[8:55 - 8:57] and that's why I'm writing
[8:58 - 9:00] more music to
[9:01 - 9:03] You know help people like myself
[9:04 - 9:06] to help people like Axel who have been down
[9:08 - 9:10] a very
[9:10 - 9:12] Very screwed up road in their life
[9:19 - 9:22] Because y'all know that Spartan pledge y'all heard
[9:23 - 9:32] That Spartan pledge you guys heard last night. Let me tell you I took that pledge myself
[9:34 - 9:37] I took that pledge with a friend of mine who was military
[9:38 - 9:41] They've been retiring for about four or five years, but
[9:42 - 9:44] I took that oath
[9:44 - 9:46] I took that same oath with them
[9:50 - 9:53] Even though there were times where I slipped up
[9:58 - 10:00] There were times where
[10:00 - 10:04] I didn't know what to do. I thought that death was my only option
[10:08 - 10:10] But there was also times where
[10:12 - 10:14] You know, I thought about it
[10:14 - 10:18] And I kept telling myself dude, you know, you got a mission
[10:20 - 10:24] You know your mission is to help people and you're never gonna be done with that mission if
[10:25 - 10:27] You know, you're dead in the ground yourself
[10:32 - 10:35] So for all you guys that do hate my music
[10:36 - 10:44] That's fine. I like y'all can hate my music all you want
[10:45 - 10:47] But at the end of the day
[10:47 - 10:49] My music's not
[10:54 - 11:02] You to like or not like my music is meant to help people and that's what I wanted to do. I want
[11:03 - 11:06] I want people to be able to listen to my music and be like, damn
[11:06 - 11:08] This guy really gets what I'm going through
[11:09 - 11:11] Because he's been through this situation
[11:13 - 11:15] I want my music to speak to people
[11:16 - 11:22] You know, I want my music to you know, speak to people and
[11:23 - 11:25] To help people
[11:25 - 11:28] And if my music can do that, then I'm doing my job
[11:34 - 11:38] Because like axle and like so many others before him
[11:38 - 11:40] I know what it's like to
[11:40 - 11:45] You know have to battle, you know your inner demons and it's not easy
[11:46 - 11:50] I can most certainly tell you that it's the hardest battle you'll ever face
[11:56 - 12:00] I've dealt with my demons for over 10 years and I'm just now
[12:00 - 12:02] You know getting back to where I want to be
[12:10 - 12:12] That's something you guys can understand though
[12:14 - 12:18] At the end of the day, we're all human. We all deserve to be treated as equal
[12:22 - 12:29] You know, it's not a day that doesn't go by where I don't wish you trolls would just stop and think about what you're doing before you do it
[12:31 - 12:36] I really wish you guys would stop and think about what you're doing before you fucking do it
[12:38 - 12:40] to see you have a choice
[12:41 - 12:42] to
[12:42 - 12:44] type those words out
[12:44 - 12:47] You have a choice
[12:47 - 12:49] you can either
[12:49 - 12:52] type the words out and look like a total moron
[12:53 - 12:57] And be negative and just look dumb
[12:57 - 13:01] or
[13:01 - 13:05] You can retract that negative statement
[13:06 - 13:08] and
[13:08 - 13:11] You know be a more positive person and not
[13:12 - 13:15] Selling negative bullshit out of people
[13:18 - 13:20] Because like I said
[13:20 - 13:24] Like me and like Alex or Axel not Axel
[13:25 - 13:29] But there are people like us out there that face far worse
[13:30 - 13:33] There are people like us that don't get the chance to make it home
[13:34 - 13:35] There are those who
[13:35 - 13:37] You know, there are those of us
[13:38 - 13:42] That have been torn down so bad that we don't know anything about pain
[13:44 - 13:53] And you guys claim that you know my life, but really you don't know my life outside of youtube
[13:55 - 13:57] You only know what's posted on the internet
[14:00 - 14:05] And I get that it's fun to make a joke out of me. Ha ha. I've seen the memes and shit
[14:06 - 14:09] Some of them are fun
[14:09 - 14:11] Not gonna lie. Some of the memes y'all do are fun
[14:15 - 14:17] But let me tell you right now man
[14:19 - 14:22] Y'all really need to stop and think about what you're doing before you do it
[14:25 - 14:29] Because it might not be today and it might not be tomorrow, but somewhere down the line in your life
[14:30 - 14:32] You're gonna do this shit that you're doing to me
[14:33 - 14:35] and to someone else
[14:35 - 14:37] and
[14:37 - 14:43] You never know what you do to them could potentially be what puts them over the edge
[14:43 - 14:47] You trolling them like you troll me could be what puts them over the edge
[14:48 - 14:52] And then where will you be?
[14:58 - 15:00] Y'all need to start thinking about thinking about
[15:01 - 15:03] How you treat people before you do what you do
[15:08 - 15:10] Like for real start thinking about
[15:11 - 15:13] How you treat people
[15:14 - 15:16] Before you go typing in words
[15:18 - 15:27] Because your words carry weight and that weight
[15:28 - 15:31] Could kill someone
[15:32 - 15:34] And only you have the power to stop that
[15:37 - 15:40] Only you have the power to make that choice to stop
[15:46 - 15:48] So guys, please
[15:49 - 15:51] Do yourselves a favor
[15:54 - 15:57] Think about what you say from now on before you say it
[16:04 - 16:06] Your chances are
[16:09 - 16:13] That
[16:13 - 16:14] Wait
[16:14 - 16:16] What you say to the next man
[16:17 - 16:19] Could be
[16:19 - 16:22] What causes them to take their life and
[16:23 - 16:25] I don't want to see that happen
[16:25 - 16:31] I want to help people. I don't want to see anybody get their life taken away
[16:34 - 16:37] I really don't
[16:37 - 16:41] So I guess then man
[16:41 - 16:43] Do yourselves a favor
[16:45 - 16:47] Think about what you say and do
[16:47 - 16:53] Before you say and do it
[16:53 - 16:55] Your chances are what you say and do
[16:56 - 16:59] Could have a very real effect on the next man
[16:59 - 17:05] I'm just saying
[17:05 - 17:07] Think about what you say and do