2021-10-8 RISING FROM THE ASHES
[0:11 - 0:36] what's up everybody how's everybody doing this evening now I know on the norm I'll
[0:36 - 1:00] be doing a racing stream or something of that nature right now is a very
[1:00 - 1:24] important night for myself tonight is a very important night for me see for the
[1:24 - 1:36] last year and a half I dealt with a lot of very screwed up things everything from
[1:36 - 1:53] losing friends almost taking my own life but most importantly I almost lost who
[1:53 - 2:08] I was and last night it made me realize a lot but there is one person in
[2:08 - 2:38] in particular that saved me from myself and that person is my good friend
[2:38 - 2:49] charity charity I owe you everything because you saved me from myself and you
[2:49 - 3:06] brought me back to where I needed to be you showed me who I used to be you showed
[3:06 - 3:18] me who I needed to be you showed me the fighter that I once was and to that
[3:18 - 3:29] I owe you my life because you saved me from myself now today is not only today is
[3:29 - 3:40] not only a celebration of myself but we have a new member entering the fold of
[3:40 - 3:50] this community and that person was on the stream just a mere few minutes ago and
[3:51 - 4:03] that person is Jesse so Jesse allow me to introduce you into this family the
[4:03 - 4:21] proper way as you know and one of our favorite ways and this isn't just from
[4:21 - 4:47] one anime thing to another this is so many that's got your back so give me this
[4:47 - 5:08] moment to set up and let me get rid of this right quick line shut this off so
[5:08 - 5:52] we have no interruptions let me decon that call and shut this off so we don't
[5:52 - 7:52] have any interruptions
[12:05 - 14:58] oh shoot what up you know it's funny that I could tell that's not the real Jess I'm
[14:58 - 32:42] on it the real Jess so nice try let's see you guys remember this one early 2000s
[32:42 - 32:49] where you guys that where's all my fans of the early 2000s rock bro where you guys
[32:49 - 46:58] that I see y'all
[50:42 - 69:24] I think I can play this for y'all she's wondering how are you guys should we
[69:24 - 69:30] welcome her the right way guys
[69:30 - 70:09] what's welcome Jess in the right way y'all let's go
[71:25 - 71:27] you
[72:03 - 72:05] I
[73:27 - 73:29] Know this one right here
[73:29 - 73:36] It's not for Jess, it's for every motherfucker out there that actually saved me from my motherfuckin' self
[73:36 - 73:39] It's for all y'all that saved me from myself, man
[73:41 - 73:43] It's for all my motherfuckin' supporters
[73:43 - 73:45] Jess, every single one of you motherfuckers
[73:45 - 73:46] And this for y'all
[74:03 - 74:05] Gunshots in the dark, one-eyed dogs
[74:05 - 74:08] Man, we got it coming like a one-eyed star
[74:08 - 74:11] You can catch me pissin' no ground, we'll go by the door
[74:11 - 74:14] We've got no passin' things to ask it
[74:14 - 74:17] We could've slowed down so we ain't gonna crash it
[74:17 - 74:19] You move fast and we don't catch it
[74:19 - 74:22] I see some people in the head and we gon' crash it
[74:22 - 74:25] I never fear them, but tell ya
[74:25 - 74:34] I can't even feel it, I can judge me now
[74:34 - 74:38] For one shot, everything goes on tonight
[74:38 - 74:41] Even if I got three strikes
[74:41 - 74:44] I'ma go for it, it's no way
[74:44 - 74:46] We on it, man
[74:46 - 74:48] I'm not the VK with V
[74:48 - 74:51] Cause me, me, me, can't just see
[74:51 - 74:54] These people out there ride with it
[74:54 - 74:56] It's no way, we on it
[74:56 - 74:58] And the same ones that ride with it
[74:58 - 75:00] The same ones that are down with it
[75:00 - 75:02] Put it all out on the line with it
[75:02 - 75:03] And I'm in a new broad
[75:03 - 75:04] I'm with my new broad
[75:04 - 75:06] And the fat shakin' on this wild around
[75:06 - 75:08] They need no way around
[75:08 - 75:10] What you say, tell me what you say
[75:10 - 75:12] I ain't workin' hard, but from my dogs
[75:12 - 75:14] To the same things, they love me
[75:14 - 75:16] For the ball, they can show me balls
[75:16 - 75:17] Like a mob, but you feel this cold
[75:17 - 75:19] Gives me really bad news
[75:19 - 75:29] I got can judge me now
[75:29 - 75:33] For one shot, everything goes on tonight
[75:33 - 75:36] Even if I got three strikes
[75:36 - 75:39] I'ma go for it, it's no way
[75:39 - 75:41] We are the man.
[75:41 - 75:44] I think we have to be family because
[75:44 - 75:49] if you get danger, see kinds of people out there.
[75:49 - 75:52] This moment, we are the man.
[75:52 - 75:54] We can bring us together for life.
[75:54 - 75:57] We got big guns, big crash waiting for knives.
[75:57 - 76:00] It's just a feeling of life and a feeling of right.
[76:00 - 76:03] Got the spirit of feeling like I'm killing inside of you.
[76:03 - 76:06] I'm breaking, breaking, breaking out yet.
[76:06 - 76:08] I'm trying to find where the wrongs are.
[76:08 - 76:10] I'm close to the hell, yeah.
[76:10 - 76:12] I'm sick.
[76:12 - 76:14] I look better when I'm a girl.
[76:14 - 76:15] I'm sick.
[76:15 - 76:17] Stuff in the play.
[76:17 - 76:18] Always hit it.
[76:18 - 76:20] We would stand up and never rain.
[76:20 - 76:22] We depend on the will, if the team never change up.
[76:22 - 76:23] We can have some say.
[76:23 - 76:26] One little girl came from jumping at everybody.
[76:26 - 76:28] Trying to say something.
[76:28 - 76:30] Somebody got a problem.
[76:30 - 76:31] They got the same one.
[76:31 - 76:33] Money, broke and broke.
[76:33 - 76:34] Money, broke and broke.
[76:34 - 76:35] We never turn our backs.
[76:35 - 76:37] Of course, we'll need a new control.
[76:37 - 76:40] Shot everything right on tonight.
[76:40 - 76:42] Living it like that.
[76:42 - 76:43] Three strikes.
[76:43 - 76:45] I'm a go for it.
[76:45 - 76:48] This moment, we are the man.
[76:48 - 76:52] Nothing we can't do with this.
[76:52 - 76:54] We can give things to see.
[76:54 - 76:59] This moment, we are the man.
[76:59 - 77:06] Hell, yeah.
[77:06 - 77:24] I got you.
[77:24 - 77:25] I'm sick.
[77:25 - 77:26] Crazy shit.
[77:26 - 77:35] Hold up.
[77:35 - 77:36] I got you.
[77:36 - 77:53] I'm sick.
[77:53 - 77:54] Six of the new trial.
[77:54 - 77:56] Bro, six of the new music video.
[77:56 - 77:57] Oh, fuck.
[77:57 - 77:58] Okay.
[77:58 - 77:59] I want to check it out.
[77:59 - 78:00] I want to get a chance.
[78:00 - 78:04] Hell, yes.
[78:04 - 78:06] Fuck the hell, yes.
[78:06 - 78:18] I got to ask this man.
[78:18 - 78:20] I got to ask this man.
[78:20 - 78:24] Where's all my anime fans at?
[78:24 - 78:26] What's up, Wildtap?
[78:26 - 78:27] What's up, man?
[78:27 - 78:28] Where y'all at?
[78:28 - 78:29] I'm not just here.
[78:29 - 78:31] What y'all look at?
[78:31 - 78:32] Put your hands up.
[78:32 - 78:33] Put your hands up.
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[79:36 - 79:38] I don't know what they're doing right now.
[79:38 - 79:40] So, you oughta be ready to defend yourself.
[79:40 - 79:42] You don't look like you're doing anything wrong.
[79:42 - 79:44] You're just trying to defend yourself.
[79:44 - 79:46] You don't need to trust that shit.
[79:46 - 79:48] Your name wouldn't be reset, though.
[79:48 - 79:50] I've been really hard at it.
[79:50 - 79:52] When you're going to the club, you're a hard captain.
[79:52 - 79:54] If this would be open for you, you wouldn't be alive.
[79:54 - 79:56] If it wasn't for me, you wouldn't mind being alive.
[79:56 - 79:58] So, I know here you didn't get it out.
[79:58 - 80:00] I don't care if you think you're the coward.
[80:00 - 80:02] If it's up to you, you wouldn't know what you're doing.
[80:02 - 80:04] If it's up to you, you wouldn't know what you're doing.
[80:04 - 80:06] If it's up to you, you wouldn't know what you're doing.
[80:06 - 80:08] If it's up to you, you wouldn't know what you're doing.
[80:08 - 80:10] If it wasn't for me, you would know what you're doing.
[80:10 - 80:12] Yeah.
[80:12 - 80:14] No doubt.
[80:14 - 80:16] I don't care if you think you're doing anything wrong.
[80:16 - 80:18] I don't care if you think you'll stop believing me.
[80:28 - 80:30] Yeah, tough guys.
[80:30 - 80:32] No matter if these high profile people are yelling,
[81:02 - 81:05] Okay, who's after me now, I don't play with fools.
[81:05 - 81:07] I'm more into my friends than I'm old.
[81:07 - 81:09] I'm making that move, that move,
[81:09 - 81:11] I'm off the rock, I'm shan't move.
[81:11 - 81:12] Press, press, you move to the third.
[81:12 - 81:15] Can you close your feet, you move to the third.
[81:15 - 81:16] Put them in there, don't talk about it,
[81:16 - 81:18] get your toes up and shit like a killer.
[81:18 - 81:20] High low, get low, get attention, right here.
[81:20 - 81:23] You're gonna go, go, get attention, attention.
[81:23 - 81:25] That's all we do, go, get attention, right here.
[81:25 - 81:28] I said, you move, yo, here we go.
[81:28 - 81:30] I ain't never lie,
[81:30 - 81:34] ain't not seen blood like Elpheline.
[81:34 - 81:37] Now you know, I ain't never lie,
[81:37 - 81:41] ain't not seen blood like Elpheline.
[81:41 - 81:43] Same here actually, I can do,
[81:43 - 81:45] I do mostly rock and spring golf,
[81:45 - 81:48] because I do a little bit of rap.
[81:48 - 81:51] I think you lying, I like some of the shit that I put out.
[81:51 - 81:54] Come here, come here, come here, come here, come here,
[81:54 - 81:57] come here, come here, come here, come here, come here,
[81:57 - 81:59] come here, come here, come here, come here, come here,
[81:59 - 82:01] you got a bitch out of my phone,
[82:01 - 82:02] I'm running all shit.
[82:02 - 82:04] I'm gonna pass your boys,
[82:04 - 82:06] I'm gonna work with a black-ass, your boy,
[82:06 - 82:09] son, I'm double or nine, I'm double or six,
[82:09 - 82:10] I'm not just playing in the phone,
[82:10 - 82:11] I'm gonna fucking your bitch,
[82:11 - 82:13] I'm very upset, saying it's your best,
[82:13 - 82:15] look at the church, they're a big leg,
[82:15 - 82:17] you don't own a vest in your third,
[82:17 - 82:19] guys, it's what I had to attend,
[82:19 - 82:21] let me know friends, tell them guys,
[82:21 - 82:22] snap it to the fence,
[82:22 - 82:23] and they're here, they're here,
[82:23 - 82:25] just to hear you screaming out,
[82:25 - 82:27] you're a winger, my body count seven,
[82:27 - 82:28] learn that lesson,
[82:28 - 82:30] no questions,
[82:30 - 82:32] quick, relate that message,
[82:32 - 82:33] and I'm playing more,
[82:33 - 82:35] nothing on the way board,
[82:35 - 82:36] five Johnny Fox and Johns,
[82:36 - 82:37] that's a breakboard,
[82:37 - 82:38] shit yeah, shit,
[82:42 - 82:45] yo, trying to break that park,
[82:45 - 82:46] you hit me with a hammer,
[82:46 - 82:48] and we off the board of sails,
[82:48 - 82:49] or the middle of the road,
[82:49 - 82:50] like we're gonna play all shit,
[82:50 - 82:51] and you don't get like,
[82:51 - 82:53] go, go, go, go, tag and this,
[82:53 - 82:55] it's about no way,
[82:55 - 82:58] you won't find a dragon or anything, there's a throne here
[82:58 - 83:00] there's a rotty like Kilbrane for Trunks Mackle
[83:00 - 83:03] all some shit that couldn't be controlled by Monster Rancher
[83:03 - 83:06] killing some out of me, then got me in my cool uptown
[83:06 - 83:08] drug and road shitin' like it's got me in my body
[83:08 - 83:10] in my body, I'm blowin' more bad days
[83:10 - 83:13] so I'll leave it all out now, I learned how to make
[83:13 - 83:14] on Saturdays
[83:20 - 83:23] You know I had to do some anorized shit for you guys, man
[83:23 - 83:24] I had to do it
[84:01 - 84:03] Grab some laser tag
[84:03 - 84:05] Grab a group on experience that grabs you
[84:09 - 84:10] oh man
[84:12 - 84:14] I might need all my bow, but this one
[84:17 - 84:18] Hey, uh, Jess
[84:19 - 84:20] I hope your family sees this back
[84:20 - 84:21] cause this one's for your family
[84:21 - 84:24] and this is for all my fuckin' Linkin Park fans
[84:27 - 84:29] that's for all my LP fans, man
[84:29 - 84:33] I wanna see us hashtag RIP Chesses in the comments
[84:38 - 84:40] Wicked and sweat again
[84:40 - 84:44] Thoughtin' out their days, they laid to waste
[84:44 - 84:46] In my disgrace
[84:47 - 84:50] Suck in my head again
[84:50 - 84:53] Feels like I'll never leave this place
[84:53 - 84:55] There's no escape
[84:56 - 85:00] I'm my own worst enemy
[85:00 - 85:02] I can't live
[85:07 - 85:10] There's nothing you can't say
[85:10 - 85:11] Take this
[85:12 - 85:16] That's all I can't hide
[85:16 - 85:19] Tell me what the fuck is wrong
[85:19 - 85:26] I don't know what to take
[85:26 - 85:29] Thought I was focused, but I'm scared
[85:30 - 85:32] I'm not drugged in
[85:33 - 85:36] I have broken a leg
[85:36 - 85:39] Looking for help, somehow, somewhere
[85:39 - 85:42] And no one cares
[85:42 - 85:46] I have my own worst enemy
[85:46 - 85:48] I can't live
[85:51 - 85:52] In your family
[85:52 - 85:55] There's nothing you can't say
[85:55 - 85:57] Take this
[85:57 - 86:02] That's all I can't hide
[86:02 - 86:06] Tell me what the fuck is wrong
[86:06 - 86:33] With my own words
[86:33 - 87:14] That's all I can't hide
[87:14 - 87:18] Tell me what the fuck is wrong
[87:18 - 87:27] With...
[87:43 - 87:44] You're good, no worries.
[87:44 - 87:46] They just want to make sure that you're a legit.
[87:46 - 87:52] Because there's a lot of people that have actually tried to catfish me over time
[87:52 - 87:55] and it started a lot of bullshit, so, yeah.
[87:55 - 87:58] But you're good though, man. You're set. You're cool. You're good.
[87:58 - 88:42] No, you're not, Jess. You're good. You're good.
[88:42 - 88:45] You're not a burden at all. You're fucking good.
[88:45 - 88:48] So just chill, relax. You're awesome.
[88:48 - 88:52] And hey, I'll be asking everybody, welcome.
[88:52 - 89:01] You're not a burden at all. You're fucking cool.
[89:01 - 89:09] And hey, if you got this for the Facebook, give me up.
[89:09 - 89:12] And I'll fall down
[89:12 - 89:15] Feeling like I'm going away
[89:15 - 89:19] And you ain't got my ground
[89:19 - 89:24] There's nothing you can't say
[89:24 - 89:27] There's nothing you can't hide
[89:27 - 89:31] Tell me what the fuck is wrong
[89:31 - 89:33] With my own words
[89:33 - 89:39] No, I do not take my time
[89:39 - 89:43] Why are we going wrong this way
[89:43 - 89:47] Why do we pray these days in vain
[89:47 - 89:50] Love is gonna break it down
[89:50 - 89:54] And build us back again
[89:54 - 89:57] So why am I proud that I've been this way
[89:57 - 90:01] But it's always been strange
[90:01 - 90:03] Tell me, tell me, tell me
[90:03 - 90:07] Baby, I can't live without you
[90:07 - 90:10] I can't live without you
[90:10 - 90:13] And I can't do this
[90:13 - 90:17] And I said it's your own world
[90:17 - 90:21] I mean, I've been by mistakes
[90:21 - 90:25] And I don't think it's close
[90:25 - 90:28] That's why I'm late
[90:28 - 90:32] And almost every night
[90:32 - 90:36] I hear no team on time
[90:36 - 90:40] Why are we going wrong this way
[90:40 - 90:44] Why do we pray these days in vain
[90:44 - 90:47] Love is gonna break it down
[90:47 - 90:49] And build us back again
[90:49 - 90:51] Hey, place is good
[90:51 - 90:54] So why am I proud that I've been this way
[90:54 - 90:58] Why do we pray these days in vain
[90:58 - 91:01] Love is gonna break it down
[91:01 - 91:04] And build us back again
[91:04 - 91:14] So why am I proud that I've been this way
[91:14 - 91:17] But it's always been strange
[91:17 - 91:19] Tell me, tell me, tell me
[91:19 - 91:22] Baby, I can't live without you
[91:22 - 91:25] I can't live without you
[91:25 - 91:28] And I can't live without you
[91:28 - 91:31] And I can't live without you
[91:31 - 91:33] And I can't live without you
[91:33 - 91:46] And I can't live without you
[92:32 - 92:39] No shit
[92:39 - 92:45] All right, y'all guys, I got a fucking show
[92:45 - 92:47] What I can really fucking do, hold up
[92:47 - 92:51] Hold the phone, man
[92:51 - 92:54] At Jess, I know you're gonna like what I'm about to do
[92:54 - 92:57] If you're a fan of Evanescence, then you're gonna love this shit
[92:57 - 93:04] Talent, you already know what I'm about to do, homie
[93:04 - 93:25] Most boxes can be recycled up to seven times
[93:25 - 93:28] It's not a miracle, it's by design
[93:28 - 93:30] So it starts as a box for detergent
[93:30 - 93:32] And turns into one for a sneeze
[93:33 - 93:36] Hey, you got discord or whatever, hit me up
[95:33 - 98:13] Now you guys see why I need to be signed to a fucking label
[98:13 - 98:22] So god damn bad
[98:22 - 98:25] Now y'all see why I need to be on a motherfucking label
[98:25 - 98:29] Instead of wasting my time with don't fucking doing nothing
[98:29 - 98:34] Like, now y'all see the problem here?
[98:34 - 98:52] Like, dude, give me a fucking label, let me do my fucking shit
[98:52 - 98:55] I can put out fucking music easily
[98:55 - 99:03] Just give me a fucking label, let me do my fucking job my own way
[99:03 - 99:24] Like, for real
[99:24 - 99:26] Like, I can literally do any style I do
[99:26 - 99:29] I can play piano, guitar
[99:29 - 99:31] I can do fucking DJ work
[99:31 - 99:35] I can do pretty much any vocal style you fucking need me to do
[99:35 - 99:47] Now this one right here, man
[99:47 - 99:50] This is for all y'all that know what the fuck I've been
[99:50 - 99:54] For all you guys that have been in fucked up abusive relationships
[99:54 - 99:58] For all y'all that have been in very abusive relationships
[99:58 - 100:00] In any way, shape, or form
[100:00 - 100:03] This one's for you guys, because I have been there myself
[100:03 - 100:05] So I know what it's like
[100:05 - 100:08] You can ask Talon, he fucking knows
[100:08 - 100:11] Ask Charity, she knows
[100:11 - 100:14] This one's for all you guys that have been in fucked up abusive relationships
[100:14 - 100:26] And I'm five foot three two mother fuckers, yes
[100:26 - 101:05] Show people rule, yes
[101:05 - 101:07] I'm trying to sign
[101:07 - 101:11] It was always on my mind
[101:11 - 101:19] When you're dying
[101:19 - 101:38] When you're leaving the town
[101:38 - 101:39] When you're coming home
[101:39 - 101:49] When you're taking your attention
[101:49 - 102:04] I used to wish I
[102:04 - 102:06] I used to wish I
[102:06 - 102:10] Spread my wings and fly away
[102:10 - 102:12] I crossed my fingers
[102:12 - 102:14] For a day
[102:14 - 102:17] Wishing for a better way
[102:18 - 102:20] So take my hands
[102:20 - 102:22] Take me away
[102:22 - 102:30] I was out in a fray
[102:30 - 102:33] Wishing for a better day
[102:33 - 103:00] I was tired
[103:00 - 103:03] Yeah, I'm tired, just waiting
[103:03 - 103:05] I lost my guy
[103:05 - 103:09] I am fading
[103:09 - 104:43] I'm ready to die
[104:43 - 104:45] I used to wish that
[104:45 - 104:47] I could fly
[104:47 - 104:50] Spread my wings and fly away
[104:50 - 104:53] I crossed my fingers
[104:53 - 104:55] For a day
[104:55 - 104:58] Wishing for a better way
[104:58 - 105:00] So take my hands
[105:00 - 105:07] Take me away
[105:07 - 105:10] I was out in a fray
[105:10 - 105:13] Wishing for a better day
[106:00 - 106:02] What is motherfucking good, bro?
[106:02 - 106:03] How you been?
[106:03 - 106:10] Now if y'all like check out Alex Sefner, man
[106:10 - 106:12] Dude, go check his shit out
[106:12 - 106:15] He's got some dope ass videos
[106:15 - 106:26] Hey, if you want my first opinion
[106:26 - 106:33] Alex is one of the best reaction channels out there
[106:33 - 106:35] That's just my honest opinion
[106:35 - 106:39] Alex to me is one of the best reaction channels ever
[106:39 - 106:42] So shout out to Alex Sefner and the Hefner
[106:42 - 106:43] I fucking love you guys
[106:43 - 107:00] I'll tell you though, man
[107:00 - 107:03] I either need a fucking sponsorship for gaming
[107:03 - 107:07] Or signed to a label like fucking ASAP
[107:07 - 107:12] Like no joke
[107:12 - 107:15] I think I done proved what I can fucking do
[107:15 - 107:18] Both behind the wheel and I'm like
[107:18 - 107:20] Like I need something to happen, man
[107:20 - 107:21] Take some meds
[107:21 - 107:23] And hopefully that does happen
[107:23 - 107:25] Go see a counselor
[107:25 - 107:28] They can help you with your problems
[107:28 - 107:32] Some people who can never understand
[107:32 - 107:34] Let's go inside your head
[108:02 - 108:05] Hit my stomach from a reason I can never settle
[108:05 - 108:07] I'm coming for this drug and I can promise
[108:07 - 108:08] Staying home all night
[108:08 - 108:10] So I wouldn't trouble doctors
[108:10 - 108:11] I'm a fucking thug
[108:11 - 108:12] I think my thoughts can really kill
[108:12 - 108:14] But I believe I will be dead
[108:14 - 108:15] I am out here saving lives
[108:15 - 108:17] And sometimes I'll forget
[108:17 - 108:18] Seven demons came to play
[108:18 - 108:20] I'm really hanging by the thread
[108:20 - 108:21] Maybe I should pull this trigger
[108:21 - 108:22] Me doesn't lay my mind
[108:22 - 108:24] I rest here lost in the music
[108:24 - 108:26] This is their beauty
[108:26 - 108:27] Feeling hanging on
[108:27 - 108:30] I don't know if I can do this
[108:30 - 108:32] When I rise, when I fall
[108:32 - 108:33] When I rise, when I fall
[108:33 - 108:36] I don't know what I know
[108:36 - 108:38] Look at my reflection
[108:38 - 108:39] And the rest of the day, man
[108:39 - 108:42] We said I was dreaming
[108:42 - 108:44] When I rise, when I fall
[108:44 - 108:45] When I rise, when I fall
[108:45 - 108:49] I don't know what I know
[108:49 - 108:50] You know he's like big memories
[108:50 - 108:52] I can see it in your eyes
[108:52 - 108:53] You can't even stand yourself
[108:53 - 108:55] You've had something in you
[108:55 - 108:56] So you're going around
[108:56 - 108:57] My little toss and turn
[108:57 - 108:58] And every night I fade
[108:58 - 109:00] And if it even helps
[109:00 - 109:01] The party
[109:01 - 109:02] Quit the drugs, quit the reefer
[109:02 - 109:04] And now you think it's problem solved
[109:04 - 109:05] Cause you change the people
[109:05 - 109:06] You quit your miserable
[109:06 - 109:08] It's clear feeding off an evil
[109:08 - 109:09] Take my hand tonight
[109:09 - 109:11] And I can promise you'll be always peaceful
[109:11 - 109:12] What about my family
[109:12 - 109:14] I can leave them in a disarray
[109:14 - 109:15] Give it a time and then move on
[109:15 - 109:17] Forget about you anyway
[109:17 - 109:18] What about my fans
[109:18 - 109:20] And the effect I would have made on them
[109:20 - 109:21] Find another source
[109:21 - 109:22] Do not worry
[109:22 - 109:23] They will all of it
[109:23 - 109:24] It's better if you go
[109:24 - 109:26] Do not act like you have any friends
[109:26 - 109:27] Heaven don't insist
[109:27 - 109:28] This is it
[109:28 - 109:29] Will you take my hand?
[109:29 - 109:30] Boys getting louder
[109:30 - 109:31] You can't fight in business
[109:31 - 109:32] Sign your will
[109:32 - 109:33] Show me y'all the darker side
[109:33 - 109:34] I'm through the journey
[109:34 - 109:35] Dead to hell
[109:35 - 109:36] Sing a music
[109:36 - 109:38] This therapeutic feeling
[109:38 - 109:41] And I don't know if I can do this
[109:41 - 109:43] When I rise, when I fall
[109:43 - 109:45] When I rise, when I fall
[109:45 - 109:47] I don't know anymore
[109:47 - 109:50] Look at my reflection
[109:50 - 109:51] Ain't no verses aiming
[109:51 - 109:53] Wishin' I was dreaming
[109:53 - 109:55] When I rise, when I fall
[109:55 - 109:57] When I rise, when I fall
[109:57 - 109:59] I don't know anymore
[109:59 - 110:03] I feel like giving up though
[110:03 - 110:05] Some things I can't explain now
[110:05 - 110:09] I feel like giving up though
[110:09 - 110:12] Some things I can't explain now
[110:12 - 110:14] When I rise, when I fall
[110:14 - 110:16] When I rise, when I fall
[110:16 - 110:17] I don't know anymore
[110:17 - 110:20] When I rise, when I fall
[110:20 - 110:22] When I rise, when I fall
[110:22 - 110:23] I don't know anymore
[110:23 - 110:33] Thank God that was closed
[110:33 - 110:34] And I won't send the
[110:34 - 110:37] Otherwise that would have been all bad
[110:37 - 110:39] But dude for real though man
[110:39 - 110:41] There is a label out of like classic
[110:41 - 110:43] If you want to get a label going
[110:43 - 110:45] And you're willing to fucking pay me bro
[110:45 - 110:48] Fuck, sign me the hell up
[110:48 - 110:50] Yo, now I can actually show you guys
[110:50 - 110:52] My shirt and my wall
[110:52 - 110:54] One of my two shirts and my wall scroll
[110:54 - 110:56] Hold up
[110:56 - 111:01] I totally forgot about this shit
[111:01 - 111:09] I forgot now that I got
[111:09 - 111:10] Motherfucking light
[111:10 - 111:11] I can actually
[111:11 - 111:13] Show you guys properly
[111:13 - 111:15] Some of you guys have seen them
[111:15 - 111:23] Some of you guys haven't
[111:23 - 111:25] There's the first one right there man
[111:25 - 111:27] Motherfucking Demon Slayer boy
[111:27 - 111:44] Hey Jess, I know you like this one man
[111:44 - 111:51] Yes, I'm a fucking Demon Slayer fan
[111:51 - 111:59] And you know I couldn't have
[111:59 - 112:03] A proper anime clothing wardrobe
[112:03 - 112:07] Without
[112:07 - 112:10] The Ichiraku Ramen Shop shirt man
[112:10 - 112:13] Gotta have the Ichiraku Ramen Shop shirt
[112:13 - 112:15] That's a must
[112:15 - 112:19] There's a fucking must right there man
[112:19 - 112:26] Gotta have the Ichiraku Ramen Shop shirt
[112:26 - 112:39] I actually do have two of these
[112:39 - 112:41] So if anybody would like one
[112:41 - 112:45] Hit me up and let me know
[112:45 - 112:47] Like whoa fuck
[112:47 - 112:49] I do have two of these somewhere
[112:49 - 112:51] I'm just not sure where the other one is
[112:51 - 112:54] But if somebody would like one of these
[112:54 - 112:56] Or I may even do a giveaway
[112:56 - 112:58] With the other one
[112:58 - 113:01] But I do have the exact same one of the
[113:01 - 113:03] Oh shit listen hold on
[113:03 - 113:06] So I just back in here
[113:06 - 113:09] Ah shit good I can hear you
[113:09 - 113:10] There we go
[113:10 - 113:13] But if anybody would like the second one of these
[113:13 - 113:16] I do have two of these right here man
[113:16 - 113:19] Rockin' the Rosario vampire wall scroll
[113:19 - 113:22] Personally one of my favorite anime
[113:22 - 113:24] Feel bad for the main character though
[113:24 - 113:27] The main dude I feel bad for that guy
[113:27 - 113:30] But I do have a second one of these man
[113:30 - 113:32] So if anyone wants one of these
[113:32 - 113:34] Hit me up and let me know
[113:34 - 113:36] Or maybe we can work out a giveaway
[113:36 - 113:48] Who knows
[113:48 - 113:50] I feel bad for the main dude though man
[113:50 - 113:54] He always gets the shitty end of stuff
[113:54 - 113:56] And that's why I feel so bad for him
[113:56 - 114:07] He always gets the shit end of stuff
[114:07 - 114:11] Floor dude always gets the shitty end of everything
[114:11 - 114:18] And it sucks
[114:18 - 114:20] Still get anime though
[114:20 - 114:21] Definitely recommend it
[114:21 - 114:36] And also guys
[114:36 - 114:39] I know you guys have been asking a lot lately about these
[114:40 - 114:44] I know a lot of people have been asking about the CDs
[114:44 - 114:49] I know a lot of you guys are still asking
[114:49 - 114:51] Do I still have CDs up for grabs
[114:51 - 114:54] And the answer is yes
[114:54 - 115:02] I do still have my freakin' CD here
[115:02 - 115:08] I do still have Shadowborn up for grabs for you guys
[115:08 - 115:10] So if y'all want to grab one
[115:10 - 115:11] Go ahead
[115:11 - 115:18] Dude 10 bucks right to my freakin' cash out bro
[115:18 - 115:20] 10 bucks is all yours and
[115:21 - 115:24] They are signed on the back I don't know if y'all can see
[115:24 - 115:27] But they are signed in black marker on the back
[115:27 - 115:31] So if anybody wants to grab one for 10 bucks
[115:31 - 115:33] I still got a whole freakin' bag full
[115:33 - 115:42] Like no joke
[115:42 - 115:48] I literally have a whole freakin' bag full of these damn things
[115:48 - 115:49] Still here
[115:49 - 115:57] Sorry bruh 10 bucks
[115:57 - 116:02] Alright yo
[116:02 - 116:03] Time for you
[116:03 - 116:05] I'll actually send you my email bro
[116:05 - 116:08] And then all you gotta do
[116:08 - 116:10] Like no you can't pay money
[116:10 - 116:15] Oh god this douchebag
[116:15 - 116:17] Adios Marty
[116:17 - 116:26] Get outta here
[116:26 - 116:32] And just a heads up for you Jess
[116:32 - 116:34] But just a heads up for you Jess
[116:34 - 116:38] And this for anybody else that doesn't truly know about Marty
[116:38 - 116:43] I would definitely avoid him
[116:43 - 116:46] Like I would definitely avoid Marty
[116:46 - 116:52] Because he tends to be out for himself a lot of the times
[116:52 - 116:56] Like he does tend to be out for himself a lot of the times
[116:56 - 117:10] Like if you look on channel from the very beginning
[117:10 - 117:14] Like he does tend to be out for himself a lot of the times
[117:14 - 117:19] But nah
[117:19 - 117:23] But just thought I'd let you guys know if y'all still want some of these
[117:23 - 117:25] Or one one of these
[117:25 - 117:32] I still got a whole shit ton of these
[117:32 - 117:34] So yeah
[117:34 - 117:38] Still got those so
[117:38 - 117:41] Yeah that's because that's that's how he is though Jess
[117:41 - 117:44] Like that's actually how he is
[117:44 - 117:46] Like he's nice to other people
[117:46 - 117:49] But he's like honestly he's shitty towards me
[117:49 - 117:53] Like he really is shitty like this dude
[117:53 - 117:56] Like Jess I don't know if you're aware or not
[117:56 - 117:58] But I'll actually explain it for ya
[117:58 - 118:13] Basically what he did was he actually got me banned from Twitch
[118:13 - 118:15] Um
[118:15 - 118:19] I had the whole situation that started him hating me
[118:19 - 118:21] Goes like this
[118:21 - 118:23] Basically what he did was
[118:23 - 118:27] I had posted up a thumbnail
[118:27 - 118:29] That somebody made of him
[118:29 - 118:31] He didn't like it
[118:31 - 118:35] So instead of coming to me and talking to me about it
[118:35 - 118:39] Like instead of actually coming to me and talking to me about it
[118:39 - 118:41] He actually hacked into my Twitch
[118:41 - 118:44] Posted up a private video that somebody stole
[118:44 - 118:49] And essentially you know got me banned from Twitch
[118:49 - 118:52] So yeah
[118:52 - 119:02] So that's kind of like why I'm like yo like I'm not doing this with him
[119:02 - 119:05] He will screw you over for a chance to get
[119:05 - 119:08] Trust me I've dealt with a guy for seven years
[119:08 - 119:11] I know very well how he is
[119:11 - 119:14] I honestly don't know
[119:14 - 119:19] I honestly don't know how but
[119:19 - 119:21] It is what it is
[119:21 - 119:27] Dude I'll send you my cash app right now hold up
[119:27 - 119:44] And then what I'll do is I'll post my email as well
[119:44 - 119:49] And then you can just email me that way
[119:49 - 119:59] And then all you gotta do is just send me your address
[119:59 - 120:02] And then I'll send you the CD versions I get
[120:02 - 120:06] So right there's my cash app and my email
[120:06 - 120:10] So just go ahead and send the money over here
[120:10 - 120:13] I'll actually flip my phone on right now for you
[120:13 - 120:17] So just send the cash over to here right quick on cash app
[120:17 - 120:21] And then send me your address to my email
[120:21 - 120:30] And then from there I'll ship it out to you
[120:30 - 120:32] Anyway y'all I am about to bounce for now
[120:32 - 120:35] I'm actually gonna set up for a
[120:35 - 120:37] Actually a really interesting live stream
[120:37 - 120:41] I'm actually gonna sit down and let you guys
[120:42 - 120:45] The fans customize a few of the cars
[120:45 - 120:47] That I got going on on Horizon 4
[120:47 - 120:50] You guys will be able to customize it like
[120:50 - 120:55] You guys will get it when I do it
[120:55 - 120:57] You guys will actually get the gist
[120:57 - 121:00] So I'm gonna set up for that
[121:00 - 121:02] And I'll catch you guys in a few minutes man
[121:02 - 121:03] Fucking love you guys
[121:03 - 121:05] Shout out to all the new members
[121:05 - 121:09] Welcome back Alex was good bro good to have you back
[121:09 - 121:12] Welcome Jess glad to have you on board girl
[121:12 - 121:15] Welcome on board Jess you fucking rock
[121:15 - 121:17] Shout out to all my supporters man and yo
[121:17 - 121:20] Let's make this channel something good man
[121:20 - 121:23] Let's get this channel out there so I can get that sponsorship
[121:23 - 121:25] So I can get paid man
[121:25 - 121:28] Let's hit that thousand mark so I can get that sponsor man
[121:28 - 121:31] Let's freaking get it
[121:31 - 121:33] Let's make this channel a good one man
[121:33 - 121:35] Let's not let the trolls ruin this one man
[121:35 - 121:38] Let's not let them ruin it let's freaking get out there
[121:38 - 121:40] Let's get at that sponsor man
[121:40 - 121:42] So I can do stuff for you guys
[121:42 - 121:48] So I can do giveaways for y'all man
[121:48 - 121:50] That rocked over I love it I love it
[121:50 - 121:52] I actually might make that a shirt
[121:52 - 121:55] If I can release if I'm able to release merch
[121:55 - 121:58] I may I may do something with that
[121:58 - 122:01] That's actually cool CIF I like that that's cool
[122:01 - 122:09] My job about the bounce I'll catch you guys
[122:09 - 122:12] In just a few minutes man
[122:12 - 122:13] Shout out to my otaku man
[122:13 - 122:15] Freaking love you guys
[122:15 - 122:17] Shout out to all my weebs
[122:17 - 122:19] Y'all know I fucking love you guys
[122:19 - 122:21] Anime for life as always
[122:21 - 122:23] But I freaking love you guys man
[122:23 - 122:25] To all my drifters out there man
[122:25 - 122:28] Stay sideways stay home we'll keep doing you
[122:28 - 122:30] And I'll see you guys in a few minutes man
[122:30 - 122:32] I'll catch you all later guys
[122:32 - 122:34] Well in a few minutes actually but y'all catch
[122:34 - 122:36] Y'all know you get the gist
[122:36 - 122:38] I'll catch you guys in a few minutes man
[122:38 - 122:40] Fucking love you guys man
[122:40 - 122:44] Peace
[122:44 - 122:46] Oh Jess let me know what your family thinks
[122:46 - 122:48] About the music stuff that I just did a while ago
[122:48 - 122:50] Like let me know what they think
[122:50 - 122:54] Peace
[122:54 - 122:56] Cause maybe they can help who knows
[122:56 - 122:58] But uh peace