Original upload date: September 16th, 2021 (automatically grabbed from title)
[0:06 - 0:08] What up, y'all?
[0:08 - 0:11] I'm gonna be straight up honest with you guys, man
[0:11 - 0:24] I'm gonna be straight the fuck up honest with you guys. All right. I'm gonna be straight up with you guys
[0:25 - 0:27] What I did was wrong
[0:27 - 0:32] All right, and I get that there's no doubt in my mind that what I did was fucked up
[0:32 - 0:37] And it never should have happened and I admit that I admit and I own up to what I did
[0:37 - 0:42] I get that what I did was fucked up and it never should have fucking happened
[0:42 - 0:47] But let me tell y'all something right the fuck now y'all need to leave the axle the fuck alone
[0:48 - 0:51] All right, this man's trying to fucking help me out
[0:52 - 0:55] This man said you're trying to help me the fuck out and
[0:56 - 0:59] Try to help me get to where I need to be
[0:59 - 1:06] But y'all motherfuckers keep coming in and doing this ignorant shit and attacking me over and over and over and it's dumb
[1:07 - 1:20] It's fucking dumb dude
[1:21 - 1:28] Like y'all don't want to see this exceeding that's what's so fucked up y'all don't want to see me do better
[1:28 - 1:33] You claim that you do but your actions say otherwise
[1:34 - 1:37] Your actions clearly say fucking otherwise
[1:38 - 1:44] All right, I'm trying to do shit that I need to do
[1:45 - 1:49] So that I can get better so that I can be a better person
[1:49 - 1:53] But yet you motherfuckers want to come in and attack really bro
[1:54 - 2:03] Fucking really I'm sick of it man. I'm trying to be a better version of myself. I'm trying to do right for myself
[2:05 - 2:07] but y'all want to come in and
[2:08 - 2:16] Attack axle and then attack me bro grow the fuck up and quit y'all's bullshit y'all claim
[2:17 - 2:21] That I'm this and that I'm that and and I see where you're coming from
[2:22 - 2:27] But I'm the same coin at the same fucking time man
[2:27 - 2:33] Y'all need to quit like if you want me to be better. Let me do shit. I need to do to get better
[2:34 - 2:40] Let me tell you right now live and well, bro. You're fucked up for what you did
[2:41 - 2:46] You really are you you tell me that you want me to get better, right?
[2:46 - 2:49] Then let me move the fuck on from my past
[2:50 - 2:56] You say you want to get better. Let me move on from my fucking past. Let it the fuck go
[2:57 - 3:00] Let me move on from it. Let me do shit. I need to fucking do
[3:01 - 3:08] away stop attacking me every five fucking motherfucking seconds of the goddamn day over shit that happened the
[3:10 - 3:12] first step to moving on is
[3:14 - 3:17] You don't have to forget you don't have to forget what I did
[3:18 - 3:20] But you should at least
[3:20 - 3:26] Own out to the fact that I am genuinely sorry for what I did and then I really am trying
[3:27 - 3:31] If you want to get better motherfucker leave the past in the past
[3:32 - 3:36] Let me do what I need to do. Leave the past alone
[3:37 - 3:42] Leave it the fuck alone
[3:42 - 3:44] Leave the past the fuck alone
[3:45 - 3:47] All right, leave it the fuck alone
[3:48 - 3:54] The past dawn over with gone out the window by
[3:55 - 3:57] And I get that I got a long fucking road
[3:57 - 4:11] I get that I got a long road to recovery. Well, let me tell you right now motherfuckers shit's gonna start fucking changing
[4:11 - 4:16] All right shit's gonna start fucking changing around here, bro
[4:17 - 4:26] Here's the thing. I'm not on stream yard, so I can't post any links. This is directly from YouTube
[4:27 - 4:29] But next time I do stream yard, I will
[4:32 - 4:36] Next time I do stream yard, bro, I'll definitely let you out man for sure
[4:38 - 4:43] But like I said man, if you guys want me to get better and to do better
[4:43 - 4:45] If you want to be a better person
[4:47 - 4:49] Let me leave the past in the past
[4:49 - 4:55] Let me show y'all that I can do better. Let me show y'all that I could be a better person
[4:55 - 5:01] Let me do the shit that I got to do let me take a vacation for four or five fucking weeks
[5:01 - 5:04] Let me do shit to get my mind right
[5:06 - 5:10] Let me do shit that I got a fucking do to get my mind right
[5:17 - 5:21] Stop fucking bringing up my goddamn past every five fucking seconds
[5:22 - 5:29] And y'all know that happy me and I know shot down remembers this. I know AAA remembers this
[5:29 - 5:37] I know and enjoy. I don't know if you'll remember this. I know that
[5:38 - 5:40] Biscuits will remember this
[5:40 - 5:45] But y'all remember back in the day when I did the coffee and chill live streams
[5:46 - 5:49] When I was just hanging out and I was happy
[5:50 - 5:53] y'all remember those days where I was actually happy and
[5:54 - 5:56] I was actually doing shit
[5:57 - 5:59] That's what I'm trying to get back to
[6:00 - 6:02] I'm trying to get back to where
[6:02 - 6:10] You know, I was happy. I was having fun. I was enjoying my life. I was actually outside doing shit
[6:10 - 6:15] You know, that's what I'm trying to give back to
[6:20 - 6:22] fucking Courtney
[6:22 - 6:24] Courtney with the fucking family got fun
[6:25 - 6:30] Bro, of course, you and the fucking family got fun, bro. I remember that episode too funny episode
[6:31 - 6:36] China family guy
[6:36 - 6:39] But like those are the days that I'm trying to get it back to
[6:39 - 6:46] You know, those are the days that I'm trying to give back to to where I can you know
[6:46 - 6:54] Do what I love for a living and I can come on and do the coffee and chill live streams and I can do
[6:54 - 7:01] You know my competitive sim racing and hang out with you guys play some old school
[7:01 - 7:08] You know game cube games and Wii games and you know all these all this ever shit like I want to give back to that
[7:09 - 7:13] But how can I do that? If nobody will let me live my past down
[7:13 - 7:20] I get what I did was wrong and I take ownership of that. All right. What I did was not cool
[7:20 - 7:26] There I can't say what I did was right. I don't agree with what I did
[7:26 - 7:31] Okay, I really do not agree with that what I did was fucked up
[7:31 - 7:36] I get it. All right, and I own up to what I did
[7:37 - 7:44] hold up y'all
[7:44 - 8:00] Yo, that's what that was weird. Oh, I know you do all right Irish
[8:00 - 8:04] I've seen you around here a few times like not too much, but I have seen you around here a little bit
[8:04 - 8:11] What's good Irish? How you doing? You're good to see that cup in here after a while
[8:12 - 8:15] But you know, that's what I'm trying to give back to I
[8:15 - 8:18] Want to get back to you know having fun
[8:20 - 8:27] You know, I want to give back to those days where I was having fun where I was posting on TikTok where?
[8:27 - 8:32] You know, I was doing the fun videos where you guys actually enjoyed what I did
[8:34 - 8:36] Like I'm trying to get back to that
[8:37 - 8:43] But if y'all don't let me do what I need to do to get better to better myself
[8:43 - 8:47] You know, let me take a fucking mental break for five fucking weeks man
[8:49 - 8:55] For real, let me take a goddamn mental break for five fucking weeks. Let me do what I need to do
[9:07 - 9:09] You know, let me do what I need to fucking do
[9:10 - 9:12] So that I can come back
[9:13 - 9:15] better
[9:15 - 9:17] So that I can be
[9:17 - 9:31] Better, but instead y'all want to constantly keep me held down this shit and it's stupid, bro
[9:31 - 9:34] It's dumb
[9:34 - 9:37] Like I'm trying to be a better person
[9:37 - 9:42] I'm trying to do new things like go outside of long again
[9:42 - 9:47] Go out saying you know hang out with my motherfucking brother Jake like bro
[9:47 - 9:53] My birthday's in four days. Y'all realize that I'm gonna be 31 and four fucking days
[9:54 - 9:58] I'm trying to do better for myself between now and then
[9:59 - 10:02] All right, I'm trying to do better for myself
[10:03 - 10:12] You know, I'm trying to be
[10:12 - 10:16] You know better
[10:16 - 10:18] Yo rec what up?
[10:18 - 10:29] Yo rec. Let me mod you right quick. Hold up. What up carry? How you doing and yo carry again?
[10:31 - 10:38] Thank you so much for this carry. I totally appreciate a matter of fact carry. You know what sent you here
[10:39 - 10:43] You know a carry sent you here. Let me do something for you since you're here
[10:43 - 11:11] Since I got you on here. Let me do something for you. Sorry about that
[11:23 - 11:43] What hold up always shit, you know, let me sit down and do this make it easier for y'all
[11:44 - 11:46] I'm making it easy for you guys
[11:46 - 12:38] Thanks. Oh, I know this one on y'all. I got fucking
[12:39 - 12:41] Get the same plug back in
[12:42 - 12:44] again
[12:44 - 13:02] Can't plug in mother bugger
[13:04 - 13:06] Which I wanted to do I
[13:07 - 13:12] Wanted to be an old-school acoustic one. I'm trying to remember what song I wanted to do
[13:12 - 13:16] I done did M to M
[13:17 - 13:19] Quite a bit
[13:19 - 13:54] You know record carry. I think you might recognize this one new crispy chicken sandwich taco. You and I know you'll recognize
[13:55 - 13:59] Is it a sandwich or a taco?
[13:59 - 14:01] Which side are you on?
[14:02 - 14:04] Try it only a taco bell
[14:21 - 14:23] Yo, that's what up
[25:44 - 25:50] Yo axle, what up, man? I see you bro. I don't see man. I see you
[25:50 - 27:12] For those I want to sit there and say that I can't play and no thanks axle
[27:12 - 27:19] But this does include you man, and I want you to see just how good I can do just with a regular drum track, dude
[27:19 - 27:26] But this is just me or riffing off of a fucking drum track
[27:27 - 27:31] Okay, I'm not talking shit on you. I'm just saying, you know, I want you to actually see
[27:32 - 27:34] What I'm actually capable of
[27:35 - 27:43] Doing your purchase could be free when you use your credit karma visa
[27:48 - 34:12] And that's without a fucking drum track, and I know that it sounds different
[34:13 - 34:17] But if you hear it in person trust me, it's a lot different
[34:17 - 34:26] It's a lot different in person than y'all here over this
[34:26 - 34:33] It's way different because over this you hear a little bit of it, but you don't hear the full
[34:34 - 34:39] Thing like if y'all here a person y'all would see like it's actually
[34:40 - 34:49] Solid playing it truly is solid
[34:50 - 34:53] So wrecking carry
[34:53 - 34:57] Thank you for this. I fucking love it. Yes, I decked it out a little bit with my own stuff
[34:57 - 35:08] And I do like the question that someone had about the whole
[35:09 - 35:15] And no, I am not a witch but somebody asked me, you know what this witch
[35:15 - 35:18] Pieces for this pentacle
[35:19 - 35:27] People asked me why I put the pentacle on there. That is because I am after my ancestor was
[35:27 - 35:34] You know Jonathan Putnam from the Salem witch trials and I wanted to be on this showing by doing that
[35:35 - 35:43] So that's kind of like my little homage to my ancestors and then this right here is probably one of my most important ones
[35:43 - 35:50] It says still alive not dead yet. And that's because for me, I'm half alive
[35:51 - 35:54] You know, I'm half alive. I'm half dead because
[35:56 - 36:06] You know, like all the shit that I've been through it's kind of you know, put me at that point
[36:06 - 36:12] So on my eyes, you know when I lost my friends and I lost those that I care about
[36:13 - 36:15] You know a part of me died. So
[36:15 - 36:21] That's why I have that on there like a part of me died with them. So
[36:24 - 36:37] Yeah, but to be truthful with you guys, man, I really just want to give back to my roots and have fun
[36:38 - 36:43] You know give back to my motherfucking roots where I first began on YouTube
[36:43 - 36:52] You know, like when I first began on YouTube, I was having a fucking ball, dude
[36:53 - 36:58] But now it's like I'm being held back and I'm tired of it
[36:58 - 37:02] I'm truthfully sick of being held back
[37:03 - 37:12] By people that don't want to see me make it like what you guys don't understand is I need this five-week vacation. I
[37:13 - 37:16] Need us four to five to six weeks vacation
[37:17 - 37:19] Because something you guys don't understand
[37:20 - 37:23] Something that no one seems to understand is this
[37:24 - 37:27] I've been doing YouTube for over 10 years
[37:28 - 37:32] Think about that over 10 years with no break
[37:33 - 37:42] None whatsoever just constant upload no breaks. I think I'm entitled to a fucking break
[37:42 - 37:47] So here's what I'm gonna do
[37:47 - 37:53] Each time that I'm made to go live. I'm gonna take that much longer to come back
[37:54 - 37:57] I'm gonna take that much longer to return
[37:58 - 38:00] Because I need a vacation. I
[38:01 - 38:05] Really, I've been doing YouTube for 10 years with no breaks
[38:06 - 38:09] At all. It's just been
[38:10 - 38:14] Upload upload upload over and over and over and over and over and over
[38:15 - 38:18] Non-stop and I need a break
[38:27 - 38:30] Well, yes, I am still gonna upload
[38:31 - 38:36] That's all I'm gonna do is fucking upload, you know
[38:37 - 38:41] Like how I uploaded my latest song they called lost souls
[38:45 - 38:51] Which is that which is actually the song that inspired my current album that I'm working on called souls of the lost
[38:52 - 39:03] You know, that song reflects a lot the album is going along with that particular song is gonna reflect a
[39:04 - 39:09] Lot on the dark stuff that I've gone through a lot of my dark past
[39:09 - 39:13] But the only way I can move past my past
[39:14 - 39:16] Is for you guys to leave it alone
[39:17 - 39:19] All I ask of you guys is this
[39:21 - 39:25] Now whether you choose to let me do it or not
[39:25 - 39:30] That's on you because I know I have people that truly do support and love what I do
[39:31 - 39:35] And I do thank y'all that do support me. I do truly thank you guys
[39:35 - 39:54] Like I do truly thank y'all that do support me y'all need to leave my past alone
[39:55 - 39:57] All right
[39:57 - 40:00] Like if y'all want to be a better person
[40:00 - 40:06] Let me do it. I came out many times and said what I did. I
[40:08 - 40:15] Shouldn't have to say it anymore. I shouldn't have to say what I did any longer
[40:15 - 40:20] I came out several times. I said my piece. I
[40:21 - 40:25] Said what I had to say now. Let me live my life
[40:26 - 40:34] Let me have fucking five to six weeks off to where I can recharge my battery where I can fucking relax
[40:34 - 40:37] Where I can get fucking better
[40:43 - 40:47] Let me recharge my fucking battery so I can get well
[40:47 - 40:57] Let me do what I need to do so I can get to where I need to be
[40:57 - 41:06] You know, let me take five weeks off and relax
[41:07 - 41:11] Because guys something you don't understand is I'm mentally drained
[41:11 - 41:21] I'm out of gas right now and I need to recharge my battery, bro. I mean put yourself in my position
[41:22 - 41:28] Doing YouTube for 10 years with no breaks is a long time. That's a lot of up loads
[41:29 - 41:31] That's a lot of videos
[41:31 - 41:45] That's a lot of time to go without taking a break and honestly, I want to get back to my roots
[41:46 - 41:49] You know, I want to get back to my roots doing
[41:50 - 41:52] AMVs doing drifting having fun
[41:54 - 41:57] Doing coffee and children's I want to give back to that
[41:57 - 42:02] But in order for me to do that guys, I need to work on myself
[42:03 - 42:08] All right, I need to work on myself
[42:08 - 42:16] And the only way I can work on myself is by stepping away for five weeks and taking a breather and relaxing
[42:19 - 42:22] Okay, I want to do things that I used to do. I
[42:23 - 42:26] Want to get back to the life that I used to have I
[42:27 - 42:30] Want to be successful with what I love to do and
[42:30 - 42:35] In order for me to do that. I need to get away from this shit. I need that break
[43:00 - 43:02] Yo, I got you
[43:02 - 43:11] But before I do though, I am gonna message Jenny after this stream here a minute
[43:11 - 43:15] And if it is actually the fake I am gonna remove it. So
[43:17 - 43:20] Jenny if that is really you I will message you
[43:22 - 43:27] Via text message or I will hit you up on Facebook
[43:28 - 43:32] Alright, I will hit you up on Facebook and I'll talk to you
[43:33 - 43:40] But as for the rest of you guys man
[43:41 - 43:43] Y'all need to let me
[43:43 - 43:50] You know, you guys need to let me take a break. All right. I am mentally
[43:51 - 43:58] Drained I'm out of gas. I need a break man. It's been 10 years
[43:59 - 44:11] It's been 10 years since I've had a break and I need one now if you guys will excuse me
[44:12 - 44:18] I'm taking a break for the next five weeks and I don't want to be bothered
[44:20 - 44:25] Okay, I don't want to be bothered by any it has to do with YouTube
[44:26 - 44:28] Don't want nothing to do with it
[44:28 - 44:34] For the next five weeks. I am taking a break from YouTube. I just want to hang out
[44:36 - 44:44] Be myself enjoy my birthday without being attacked. You know, have fun with my friends and family here in a few days and just
[44:45 - 44:51] Chill out like that's all I want is to
[44:52 - 45:27] Be myself again and the man's right. I did right my wrongs
[45:29 - 45:34] Straight up. I did, you know, right that wrong and I he's right
[45:34 - 45:37] I did right that wrong and I need to be left alone
[45:37 - 45:41] So for the next five weeks
[45:41 - 45:51] The only thing I'll be doing is uploading little, you know game clips here and there or new songs and that's it
[45:52 - 45:54] That's all I'm gonna be doing is
[45:55 - 46:03] Uploading, you know game clips, you know like the funny little clips that I've been uploading. I got you Jenny. No worries
[46:04 - 46:20] You know
[46:20 - 46:25] The only thing I am gonna be doing YouTube was
[46:26 - 46:31] The only thing I'm gonna be uploading is game clips like the little funny game clips
[46:31 - 46:38] Like the explosive nut shot video that everybody seems to love or the worst way to lose your manhood
[46:39 - 46:46] Game clip. I'm gonna be uploading stuff like that. I'm gonna be focusing on my skate 23 studios
[46:46 - 46:49] You know, we work in my skate 23
[46:50 - 47:03] Channel again, I'm gonna start doing drifting montages against stuff like that. Like that's the only stuff
[47:03 - 47:04] I'm gonna be doing
[47:04 - 47:07] That's all I'm gonna be doing
[47:08 - 47:13] Other than that, I don't want to be bothered. I just want to have a normal life
[47:14 - 47:23] You know, like I used to have, you know, I don't want to be bugged. I just want to be me
[47:24 - 47:32] You know, I want to be who I once was before all this and the only way for me to do that
[47:33 - 47:36] Is to get away from this and recharge my battery guys
[47:37 - 47:40] So I'm asking you guys an
[47:42 - 47:49] Axel this does include you too, man, and I don't get a wrong axle. I do appreciate what you've done
[47:50 - 47:53] But if it's about YouTube
[47:55 - 48:02] Leave it be, you know, I don't want to be bugged. I
[48:03 - 48:06] Just want to relax and do things that I used to do and enjoy
[48:09 - 48:14] Now with that being said, I love you guys. I'll see you guys in five weeks
[48:15 - 48:17] So please guys
[48:18 - 48:20] Just don't
[48:20 - 48:23] Just don't bother me for the next five weeks
[48:24 - 48:29] Let me recharge my battery so I can get better. That's all I ask
[48:32 - 48:34] That is all I ask
[48:34 - 48:51] Let me recharge my batteries so I can do better so I can get better. That's all I ask man
[48:52 - 48:54] on the unplug for five weeks
[48:55 - 48:57] recharge my battery
[48:57 - 48:59] come back and
[48:59 - 49:01] We'll go from there
[49:01 - 49:05] All right, so guys, please I am begging you
[49:06 - 49:14] Don't fucking bug me with YouTube drama. That's all I ask
[49:17 - 49:23] Now with that being said, I love the supporters. I love the trolls. I love the haters. I love all you guys
[49:23 - 49:26] I will see you guys in five weeks
[49:27 - 49:29] Not that long five weeks
[49:29 - 49:34] That's it a month and one week
[49:35 - 49:58] Not that long. I'm fucking love you guys. I will see you guys with
[50:00 - 50:05] You know whenever I do an update video or I do an upload
[50:06 - 50:13] All right. I love you guys. I'll see you guys whenever I do
[50:14 - 50:19] My next update video or my next upload video and I'll catch you guys later
[50:19 - 50:26] I'll fucking love you guys. Stay safe. Stay positive. Stay humble. Look out for each other and I'll catch you guys later
[50:26 - 50:28] Fuck you guys man
[50:28 - 50:30] See you guys want to get back?
Transcribed by lolcow.city as id '996' on August 7th, 2024
