2022-7-5 I love you guys (Twitch)

[0:00 - 0:12] What up y'all? First off, I want to say to my fans and all my followers and my subscribers
[0:12 - 0:21] that you guys are fucking awesome. And I love all 800 plus you motherfuckers man. All 800
[0:21 - 0:36] plus you guys man. I fucking love you guys cause y'all essentially saved my life. Like
[0:36 - 0:49] you guys, you saved me from going down a dark road that I was going back down. And I didn't
[0:49 - 1:01] want to go down that road again. But I just want y'all to know that I love you guys man.
[1:01 - 1:09] You guys, I know I say it on stream all the time but I cannot say it enough man. You
[1:09 - 1:18] guys give me a purpose, you guys give me a fucking reason to do what I do. Like I can't
[1:18 - 1:35] even like think about how many times I felt like breaking down and just losing it. And
[1:35 - 1:43] just wanting to give up and just walk away from everything and just be like fuck you.
[1:43 - 1:51] But then I look back and I see all these messages from all you guys man. Like all these comments
[1:51 - 1:57] about how y'all enjoy my music so fucking much and how you know hanging out with me
[1:57 - 2:02] man like you guys really enjoy that shit and you know there's been some of you that
[2:02 - 2:07] have actually sent me messages saying you know how much my music means to you and how
[2:07 - 2:15] much it's helped you guys and I can't tell you guys enough how much that shit means to
[2:15 - 2:25] me man. I really can. Like seeing those messages and reading those messages and just hearing
[2:25 - 2:40] how much I help you guys. It means like so much you know because two years ago I was
[2:40 - 2:48] in a like two, three, four years ago I was in a real bad place and I didn't know if
[2:48 - 2:58] I was gonna get out alive. Like I honestly did not think I was gonna make it out alive.
[2:58 - 3:09] But along with my friends and you know obviously my family who I loved to death. Who all I
[3:09 - 3:17] loved to death I should say. You know and it wasn't for you guys and them. I wouldn't
[3:17 - 3:25] be here right now. I would probably be dead and engraved man. If it wasn't for you guys
[3:25 - 3:35] I would not be here right now. You know whether I'm you know doing cover shows to help boost
[3:35 - 3:41] your guys' spirits up and help get you through whatever you're going through. Whether I'm
[3:41 - 3:48] working on my own music or whether I'm just hanging out with you guys, gaming out with
[3:48 - 3:55] you guys. Because some of you I have gamed out with and I fucking love that shit. Or
[3:55 - 4:01] whether I'm just you know kicking in and hanging out with y'all and working on artwork
[4:01 - 4:09] and drawing and just talking with you guys man. Like I love the ever living shit out
[4:09 - 4:16] of that man. Like cause I've gotten to know a lot of you guys on a personal level and
[4:16 - 4:23] you guys give me a purpose. You guys have shown me that I can still make something
[4:23 - 4:30] out of this despite what those dumb motherfuckers over on YouTube are about to say about me.
[4:30 - 4:38] And I'm not gonna hide it. I've done some dumb shit. You know I've done stuff that
[4:38 - 4:48] I'm not proud of. We all have. I'm not perfect. You know I'm far from perfect. I've done
[4:48 - 4:54] a lot of things that I'm not proud of. I've done a lot of things that I wish I could
[4:54 - 5:12] take back. And you know when I'm on my death bed and I look back at all this I want to
[5:12 - 5:20] be that motherfucker that sat there and you know said hey I didn't let my past define
[5:20 - 5:34] who I was. I didn't let my past make me into what it wanted me to be. Like I said we've
[5:34 - 5:42] all done stupid shit. I'm going to jail. I know it's hard to believe but I'm going
[5:42 - 5:51] to jail. I've done fucked up shit on the internet that may have been dumb and stupid.
[5:51 - 5:59] We've all made mistakes but one thing that you guys remind me of every day and I see
[5:59 - 6:12] this shit constantly on my Discord and messages and videos that y'all post that I can't
[6:12 - 6:25] let these motherfuckers that want to sit there and talk shit give me down. Because
[6:25 - 6:37] I was talking to somebody the other day after a massive falling out with somebody and this
[6:37 - 6:43] person is something that I know on a personal level but he said something that stuck with
[6:43 - 6:55] me. He was like look dude I've known you for a real long time. I've known you since
[6:55 - 7:03] we were kids and the amount of stuff you've gone through you don't deserve and yeah you
[7:03 - 7:20] have done a lot of bad stuff. Stuff that you shouldn't have done. He was like but look
[7:20 - 7:31] you can either let these people win and let your mistakes define who you are or you can
[7:31 - 7:45] get up and do what's right and not let these mistakes affect your future and affect what
[7:45 - 7:59] you do. And he was like dude you're a very talented person. Always have been. But the
[7:59 - 8:03] question is are you going to let that talent slip through your fingers and not do what
[8:03 - 8:12] you truly love to do and help these people through your music or are you going to get
[8:12 - 8:20] up and do something about it and that's when I hit me. I need to do something about it
[8:20 - 8:29] and that's why I am proud to announce that here on the 15th and on the 16th I will be
[8:29 - 8:39] releasing two albums back to back simultaneously on both days. One which I recorded live here
[8:39 - 8:47] on Twitch which is my album Broken and Raw which is a very very raw hip hop album. It's
[8:47 - 8:57] not mixed down. It's none of that shit. It's just straight raw bars. I mean it's talking
[8:57 - 9:03] about the demons that I've dealt with of you know being abused, being bullied, being
[9:03 - 9:09] tore down, being stabbed in the back by motherfuckers and I'll sit there one minute and say hey
[9:09 - 9:14] we cool and the next minute fucking turn around, stab me in the back and then start
[9:14 - 9:20] fucking attacking me the way everybody else has. And it also talks about you know the
[9:20 - 9:29] times where I was at the lowest point in my life and I felt like death was the only
[9:29 - 9:43] option for me. Like I felt at one point like suicide was the way out for me and that album
[9:43 - 9:53] kind of you know it speaks on that. And then my next album that I'm going to be dropping
[9:53 - 10:00] on the 16th is actually in honor of a very very good friend of mine that passed away
[10:00 - 10:06] in 2009 from a drowning accident. His name was David Stone King. He was one of my best
[10:06 - 10:12] friends in high school if not my number one best friend in high school. He's the one
[10:12 - 10:21] that actually introduced me into the music scene. I became friends with all the members
[10:21 - 10:28] of his band known as Elixir and then when he passed away that band then became what
[10:28 - 10:37] is now known as Sankat which is S-A-N-C-A-T and you know it was through him that I did
[10:37 - 10:47] what I did music wise. I learned how to do everything. But this album is going to be
[10:47 - 10:58] called The Stone King which is it's going to be an alternative/hip-hop experimental
[10:58 - 11:07] kind of album where I'm basically going to be combining hip-hop instrumentals and I'm
[11:07 - 11:15] going to be giving them an alternative rock kind of feel with the vocals. So it's really
[11:15 - 11:24] going to be a nice blend of alternative rock and hip-hop. It's going to be super cool.
[11:24 - 11:28] That album is going to be something very very special for me because it's going to be talking
[11:28 - 11:37] about more in depth on a lot of serious stuff. As a lot of you guys know I'm very big on
[11:37 - 11:50] mental health. I'm very big on pushing anti-suicide, pushing anti-bullying. I'm very big on telling
[11:50 - 11:58] the truth when it needs to be spoken about. I'm very big on helping people out in any
[11:58 - 12:05] way that I can. So this album that I'm going to be dropping here on the 16th it's going
[12:05 - 12:14] to be fucking amazing dude. I can't fucking wait. I'm super excited man. To be able to
[12:14 - 12:27] drop two albums back to back, which I haven't done since 2018. 2018 bro. I dropped two albums
[12:27 - 12:39] back to back. All within six months of each other. That's insane. But now that I'm back
[12:39 - 12:47] and I'm doing my own thing again it feels good to actually be able to sit down and put
[12:47 - 12:57] out music that I've been wanting to put out for a very long time now. Just to be able
[12:57 - 13:04] to sit back and be like yo I have a fucking fan base that rocks my music. I have a fan
[13:04 - 13:14] base that here's what I say. Whenever I'm going through something they're like yo I
[13:14 - 13:19] see what y'all do man. I see y'all motherfuckers message me all the fucking time. Whenever
[13:19 - 13:24] I'm going through something y'all like bro you good? What's going on? Whether it be
[13:24 - 13:29] on here, whether it be on Facebook, whether it be my email man. Y'all fucking message
[13:29 - 13:38] me up real fucking quick. Real goddamn quick man. I can't tell you how many times I've
[13:38 - 13:45] woken up to messages in my DMs from y'all asking me like hey are you okay? What's going
[13:45 - 13:51] on? Are you feeling alright? What's going on? That shit means a lot to me bro. I can't
[13:51 - 14:00] even tell you. To everybody out there man I just want y'all to know that I love you
[14:00 - 14:04] guys so much man because without y'all I wouldn't have the career that I have. I wouldn't
[14:04 - 14:12] be able to do the stuff that I do on a daily basis with being able to release my music
[14:12 - 14:20] independently and do what I want to do man. That's why over the next few months when
[14:20 - 14:26] I start releasing more and more music again I'm going to start to try to build up an
[14:26 - 14:41] independent label once things really get going. And to all y'all out there man, not
[14:41 - 14:48] listening to my music but you know kicking with me every day that just chill out and
[14:48 - 14:53] have fun with us man whether you're old or new man. I fucking love you guys to death
[14:53 - 15:01] bro and I can't thank y'all enough for giving me the opportunity to not only make what I
[15:01 - 15:10] did wrong right but to also just give me the opportunity to do what I love to do.
[15:10 - 15:15] And actually sit down and kick it and have fun with y'all and record my music man. I
[15:15 - 15:22] fucking appreciate every single one of y'all cause when I look back on my death bed man
[15:22 - 15:31] I want my music to be able to span for fucking generations bro. Like I want my music to fucking
[15:31 - 15:39] reach a hundred years down the road of generations and I want kids a hundred years down the
[15:39 - 15:47] road to be able to listen back to my music and be like yo this dude really went through
[15:47 - 15:54] some shit. Like this dude really went through a lot of crazy stuff and made it out the
[15:54 - 16:00] other side. Just like I do with upchurch man. I fucking rock rhino church almost fucking
[16:00 - 16:08] daily bro. I rock dudes like rhino church and fucking Elvis Presley I grew up on the
[16:08 - 16:27] king of rock and roll bro. It's on blue moon fucking hound dog jailhouse rock. Like I
[16:27 - 16:50] grew up on the king bro. I grew up on that guy. And there's a couple other bands that
[16:50 - 16:56] that I fucking came across earlier today. One of them I think it's like trading tombstones
[16:56 - 16:57] or something like that.
[16:57 - 16:58] [typing]
[16:58 - 17:04] (keyboard clicking)
[17:28 - 17:31] - Yeah, the band's called Trading Tombstones.
[17:31 - 17:33] I actually just came across these guys today, bro,
[17:33 - 17:36] and they are fucking amazing.
[17:36 - 17:40] Like, I love stuff like that, man.
[17:40 - 17:43] Seeing upcoming artists and seeing,
[17:43 - 17:47] you know, upcoming bands that I can get into,
[17:47 - 17:49] I love seeing that stuff, bro.
[17:49 - 17:55] And I just wanted to take a minute to say a shout out
[17:55 - 17:58] to all the, you know, smaller bands and all the artists
[17:58 - 17:59] coming up, man.
[17:59 - 18:03] And that's why this label that I'm working on
[18:03 - 18:04] building up over time
[18:04 - 18:08] is gonna be for the motherfuckers like me
[18:08 - 18:11] that are,
[18:11 - 18:16] you know, struggling, that don't have nothing.
[18:16 - 18:20] For the small labels that do wanna do something good.
[18:21 - 18:25] Like, and the way I'm gonna run the label
[18:25 - 18:28] isn't gonna be like your typical label, bro.
[18:28 - 18:30] It's not gonna be like that.
[18:30 - 18:33] All the artists that I'll bring on
[18:33 - 18:35] are gonna get to keep the money that they make.
[18:35 - 18:39] All I'm gonna take,
[18:39 - 18:42] like once they can start getting enough money,
[18:42 - 18:46] all I'm gonna take is like 23%.
[18:46 - 18:49] They can keep the rest for themselves.
[18:49 - 18:53] And that 23% is probably gonna not even be that much
[18:53 - 18:54] at all, bro.
[18:54 - 18:59] Like that 23% is gonna go towards promotions, shows,
[18:59 - 19:05] you know, merchandise, getting stuff going for them.
[19:05 - 19:08] Like, I want my artists, when I build my label,
[19:08 - 19:10] I want my artists to be able to keep their money
[19:10 - 19:15] and use it for shit that they can, you know, do.
[19:15 - 19:19] Like helping out their families, paying for rent,
[19:19 - 19:22] you know, buying a new car, a new truck,
[19:22 - 19:23] you know, that kind of stuff.
[19:23 - 19:27] I want my artists to be able to, you know,
[19:27 - 19:31] be on a label that actually, you know, cares.
[19:31 - 19:37] You know, I want these people to be on a label
[19:37 - 19:40] that actually cares about, you know,
[19:40 - 19:42] the fact that they wanna make money,
[19:42 - 19:44] about the fact that they wanna be able to provide
[19:44 - 19:49] for their families, which is why over the next few months,
[19:49 - 19:53] when I start gaining more and more followers,
[19:53 - 19:56] and I start gaining more and more subs,
[19:56 - 20:00] I'm gonna fucking start looking into registering
[20:00 - 20:03] a label name.
[20:03 - 20:06] Now, I haven't come up with any ideas yet.
[20:06 - 20:08] I'm still gonna work on them,
[20:08 - 20:11] but I just wanted y'all to know what's going on
[20:11 - 20:13] that I fucking love you guys.
[20:13 - 20:17] When that be said, y'all, I'll catch you guys later, man.
[20:17 - 20:18] I love y'all, man.
[20:18 - 20:23] As I always say, man, as I always say, man,
[20:23 - 20:27] stay humble, stay positive, keep being you,
[20:27 - 20:30] keep being yourself, and don't change for nobody.
[20:30 - 20:32] Don't let nobody change who you are.
[20:32 - 20:35] Keep on being you, 'cause you are awesome, man.
[20:35 - 20:37] I'm fucking love you guys.
[20:37 - 20:38] Peace.