2022-11-17 never give in to hate full show

[0:00 - 0:29] what the fuck's going on everybody how's everybody doing
[0:29 - 0:31] there?
[0:31 - 1:03] Okay.
[1:03 - 1:05] Alright.
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[2:14 - 2:30] At night my head is spinning I need something to carry out I've tried but nothing is working I won't stop I won't say I've had enough
[2:31 - 2:55] Tonight I start the fire, tonight I break away, break away from every morning break away from every day if you can't stand the way in this blazing day yourself to all your places
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[3:00 - 3:16] Tonight I feel like a vampire is not right but I just can't give it up I'll try to get myself higher, let's go we're not alone enough
[3:17 - 3:41] Tonight we start the fire, tonight we break away break away from every morning break away from every day if you can't stand the way in this blazing day yourself to all your places
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[4:10 - 4:35] Tonight I start the fire, tonight I break away break away from every day if you can't stand the way in this blazing day yourself to all your places
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[5:24 - 5:49] Tonight I start the fire, tonight we break away break away from every day if you can't stand the way in this blazing day yourself to all your places
[5:50 - 6:08] No matter what I try, you're never satisfied, did it not matter, I think I'm better off alone, you always disappear even when you're here
[6:09 - 6:28] Did it not matter, I think I'm better off alone, oh this house matter, oh, oh, this house matter, oh
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[6:54 - 7:16] Tonight I start the fire, tonight we break away break away break away break away from every day if you can't stand the way in this blazing day yourself to all your places
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[7:46 - 8:15] No matter what I try, you're never satisfied, did it not matter, I think I'm better off alone, you always disappear even when you're here
[8:15 - 8:44] Did it not matter, I think I'm better off alone, oh, oh, this house matter, oh, oh, this house matter
[8:44 - 8:55] No, no, this house matter, oh, oh
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[9:38 - 9:58] Why, why, why, why, why, why, why, what up
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[10:27 - 10:42] I feel numb, I can't go to life, I feel like I'm losing in time, living in a world so cold
[10:43 - 10:55] Since you've gone away, living a show with no soul, since you've gone away, the real world's so cold
[10:55 - 11:07] Counting the days, since you've gone away, you've gone away
[11:08 - 11:23] I don't even have a feeling, you're too empty down inside, you've never met yourself paralyzed
[11:24 - 11:40] I feel numb, I can't go to life, I feel like I'm losing in time, living in a world so cold
[11:41 - 11:54] Since you've gone away, living a show with no soul, since you've gone away, the real world's so cold
[11:55 - 12:12] Counting the days, since you've gone away, you've gone away, I'm too young to lose my soul
[12:13 - 12:31] I'm too young to feel this old, but so long, I'm left behind, I feel like I'm losing my mind
[12:34 - 13:02] I feel numb, I can't go to life, I feel like I'm losing my soul, living a show with no soul, since you've gone away, the real world's so cold
[13:03 - 13:24] Counting the days, since you've gone away, you've gone away from me, I'm too young to lose my soul
[13:24 - 13:49] I think you guys might know this next one
[13:50 - 13:57] There we do, put this shit in the motherfucking comments
[13:57 - 14:01] This has been a fan, I love you guys
[14:02 - 14:12] Every time we lie awake, after every hit we take
[14:12 - 14:23] Every feeling that I get, but I still haven't missed you yet
[14:24 - 14:33] Every roommate kept awake, by every silent scream we make
[14:33 - 14:44] Every feeling that I get, but I still don't miss you yet
[14:44 - 14:51] Only when I stop to think about it
[14:51 - 15:16] I hate everything about you, why do I love you
[15:16 - 15:37] Every time we lie awake, after every hit we take
[15:38 - 15:48] Every feeling that I get, but I still haven't missed you yet
[15:48 - 15:56] Only when I stop to think about it
[15:59 - 16:20] I hate everything about you, why do I love you
[16:21 - 16:30] Only when I stop to think about you, I know
[16:30 - 16:42] Only when I stop to think about everything
[16:47 - 16:58] I hate everything about you, why do I love you
[16:58 - 17:09] You hate everything about me, why do you love me
[17:10 - 17:19] I hate you, hate, I hate you, love me
[17:19 - 17:30] I hate everything about you, why do I love you
[17:30 - 17:50] You hate everything about me, why do I love you
[17:51 - 18:20] How the fuck is everybody doing today, man?
[18:20 - 18:32] Yeah, I feel ya, I feel ya on that one, kawaii
[18:32 - 18:37] I can be a little bit better, but you know, things are going good
[18:37 - 18:46] Yo, Runkless, what up, man? Hey, Runkless, ain't seen you around here before, man, welcome to the stream
[18:47 - 18:50] You're enjoying your so much, I hope you're having a good time, man
[18:50 - 18:53] Hey, Tarot, what up?
[18:53 - 19:01] It's good to see you guys around here, man
[19:01 - 19:07] You know, the one thing that interests me, that has always enamored me
[19:07 - 19:13] about the trolls is one thing in particular, and that's their mindset
[19:14 - 19:20] Like, what goes through their minds when they do the shit they do, you know?
[19:20 - 19:25] Like, what goes through their heads when they do the shit they do, I never understood that
[19:25 - 19:35] Like, I never understood, like, what goes exactly through their mind when they do the shit that they do
[19:35 - 19:41] It's crazy, right?
[20:03 - 20:12] But you know, despite all the hatred that I get, come on, fucking nuts
[20:12 - 20:15] Hey, Kawaii, when did you become Scrat?
[20:15 - 20:24] Since when did you become Scrat, Kawaii? What is this? I said, like, when did you become Scrat?
[20:31 - 20:34] Hey, Doc Phil, what up, dude?
[20:50 - 21:00] And more, if you know the movie Ice Age with the squirrel Scrat, where he's always chasing after that nut
[21:16 - 21:19] Like I said, see, Kawaii gets it
[21:19 - 21:25] Like I said, Kawaii, when did you become Scrat? You just said nuts, when did you become Scrat?
[21:25 - 21:39] But you know, despite all the hatred that I get from the trolls, there is one thing that they remind me of every day
[21:39 - 21:45] They remind me to keep pushing forward, and they remind me
[21:45 - 21:48] Now, what I do is worth it
[21:48 - 21:53] Because I get the chance to help people every day
[21:53 - 22:03] I get to tell my story, and talk about what I've gone through, and talk about what I've been through ultimately, and what I do go through on a daily basis
[22:03 - 22:08] And I get to use that to help other people every day
[22:12 - 22:19] And let me tell you, I've said this before, and I'll definitely say I have zero issues saying it again
[22:19 - 22:28] I would rather be the most famous on YouTuber that's broke as fuck
[22:28 - 22:39] With the most integrity, than to be the biggest YouTuber on the planet with no fucking integrity that isn't respected by anybody
[22:40 - 22:43] That's how I've always been, and that's how I'm always going to be
[22:43 - 22:49] So, despite whether I make money or not off of YouTube, I'm fine with that
[22:49 - 22:56] Whether I make money or not off of this platform, either way I'm cool
[22:56 - 23:00] As long as I can help somebody at the end of the day, I'm good
[23:00 - 23:06] If I can help somebody at the end of the day, then I know I've done my job as a person
[23:07 - 23:12] And that to me, means more to me than any amount of money can ever amount to
[23:12 - 23:24] Now, with that one being said
[23:24 - 23:31] I know you guys will recognize this one
[23:34 - 23:39] I tell my heart I hope that I still myself should
[23:39 - 23:44] My weakness is that I can't do much
[23:44 - 23:50] And the scars remind me that the past is real
[23:50 - 23:55] I tell my heart I hope that just to fail
[23:55 - 24:01] I'm drunk and I'm feeling down, and I just want to be alone
[24:02 - 24:06] When I'm thinking around, why don't you just go home
[24:06 - 24:11] 'Cause you know it's all your pain, and I can't fix yourself
[24:11 - 24:16] You make me insane, all you say is
[24:16 - 24:22] I tell my heart I hope that I still myself should
[24:22 - 24:27] My weakness is that I can't do much
[24:28 - 24:33] And the scars remind me that the past is real
[24:33 - 24:38] I tell my heart I hope that just to fail
[24:38 - 24:44] I'm trying to help you once, against my own advice
[24:44 - 24:49] I saw you going down, but you never realized
[24:49 - 24:55] That you're drowning in the water, so I'll put you in my head
[24:56 - 25:00] To heal my nature, tonight I understand
[25:00 - 25:05] I tell my heart I hope that I still myself should
[25:05 - 25:10] My weakness is that I can't do much
[25:10 - 25:15] And the scars remind me that the past is real
[25:15 - 25:21] I tell my heart I hope that just to fail
[25:22 - 25:26] I'm drunk and I'm feeling down, and I just want to be alone
[25:26 - 25:31] I'm sure you can't go around, why don't you just go home
[25:31 - 25:36] 'Cause you know there's no water, and you're trying to grab your head
[25:36 - 25:43] You can't go out, I'm back, but you didn't understand
[25:47 - 25:52] Go fix yourself
[25:52 - 25:55] I can't even fix yourself
[25:55 - 25:58] But at least I can say I tried
[25:58 - 26:03] I'm sorry, but I gotta be wrong with my own life
[26:03 - 26:09] I can't help you fix yourself, but at least I can say I tried
[26:09 - 26:14] I'm sorry, but I gotta move on with my own life
[26:15 - 26:19] I tell my heart I hope that I still myself should
[26:19 - 26:24] My weakness is that I can't do much
[26:24 - 26:30] And the scars remind us that the past is real
[26:30 - 26:35] I tell my heart I hope that just to fail
[26:35 - 26:40] I tell my heart I hope that I still myself should
[26:41 - 26:46] My weakness is that I can't do much
[26:46 - 26:52] And the scars remind us that the past is real
[26:52 - 26:58] I tell my heart I hope that just to fail
[26:58 - 27:19] And this next song, I'm dedicating this one to all the outcasts out there like me
[27:19 - 27:25] To anybody out there that gets bullied, that gets picked on, that gets put down in any sort of fucking way
[27:26 - 27:28] Or outcasted by anyone at all
[27:28 - 27:30] This one's for you guys
[27:31 - 27:34] To anyone out there that gets bullied, that gets picked on, that gets put down in any sort of fucking way
[27:34 - 27:39] Or outcasted by anyone out there that gets bullied, that gets picked on, that gets put down in any sort of fucking way
[27:39 - 27:44] Or outcasted by anyone out there that gets murdered, that gets put on, that gets put on, that gets put on, that gets put on
[27:44 - 27:48] Or outcasted by anyone out there that gets bullied, that gets put on, that gets put on
[27:48 - 44:05] Or outcasted by anyone out there that gets put on
[44:05 - 44:06] Or outcasted by anybody out there that gets put on
[44:06 - 44:20] Or outcasted by anyone out there that gets put on
[44:20 - 44:38] Or outcasted by anyone that gets put on
[44:38 - 50:58] Or outcasted by anyone out there that gets put on
[50:58 - 51:14] I'd like to dedicate this song right here to all the men and women in uniform. Military, firemen, police, whatever. Who have lost their lives fighting the good fun.
[51:15 - 51:30] I can't find you there. I found a place for all your time. Now I can't fail. I don't want to bear any fears.
[51:30 - 51:59] I want to see all those R.I.P.s for all our men and women in uniform. Military, firemen, police, whoever. That paid the ultimate price. This is for them.
[52:00 - 52:14] They've got words on your grave, something that I still can't.
[52:14 - 52:34] I've known them for the same hell they've reached. They've been back, they're here for me. They've reached through the sky and called out your name.
[52:34 - 53:01] The reason we prayed, I would. It feels like they've been so far away. And it feels, it feels now, the world has grown cold. Now then you've gone away.
[53:01 - 53:05] Gone away.
[53:05 - 53:15] Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
[53:15 - 53:20] Oh.
[53:21 - 53:49] Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
[53:49 - 54:07] Into the sky and come on out your name.
[54:07 - 54:25] Oh, please let me in, I would. It feels, it feels like they've been so far away.
[54:25 - 54:45] It feels, it feels like the world has gone far away. And it feels, and it feels now, and that's grown cold. Now then you've gone away.
[54:45 - 54:50] Gone away.
[54:50 - 55:14] Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
[55:14 - 55:31] It feels, it feels like the world has grown cold. Now then you've gone away.
[55:31 - 55:42] I want to say rest in peace to all those that paid the ultimate sacrifice.
[55:42 - 55:55] Whether they were military, whether they were firefighters, or whether they were police force of any kind.
[55:55 - 56:04] I think I speak for all of us when I said thank you for everything that you've done and thank you
[56:04 - 56:33] for giving everything you had and fighting the good fight.
[56:33 - 57:02] Yeah.
[57:02 - 57:17] And you know if you ask me, these men and women in uniform don't get nearly the amount of love and respect they fucking deserve.
[57:17 - 57:28] You got men and women out here in uniform for fire departments, ambulances, medics, police force, military.
[57:28 - 57:47] They're putting their lives on the line every single fucking day of the goddamn week, so that all those people can be safe.
[57:47 - 57:51] But yet, we take them for granted.
[57:51 - 57:58] Why?
[57:58 - 58:01] Why take them for granted?
[58:01 - 58:15] It's because of them that we're still here, people.
[58:15 - 58:20] Because if it wasn't for our men and women in uniform, I wouldn't be here.
[58:20 - 58:26] You guys in the comments that run your mouths, you wouldn't be here.
[58:26 - 58:33] It's because of these medics and these people and these men and women in uniform that put their lives on the line every day.
[58:33 - 58:54] They're the reason that you guys are still walking, talking, breathing.
[58:54 - 59:17] And you know, it's sad when, you know, it's sad when, you know, you got somebody like myself or somebody like a lot of you guys that some of you guys do have friends and family in the military and in the police force.
[59:17 - 59:23] And that are medics and that are firemen and fire women and firefighters in general.
[59:23 - 59:33] You know, it's sad that those people that we know put their lives on the line every day.
[59:33 - 59:39] And yet, those families like me get shit on.
[59:39 - 59:45] And it's sad.
[59:45 - 60:06] It's fucking sad that you trolls feel like you have to shit on somebody like myself who's had family that's been in the police force, that's had family that's been in the military and has friends that are still to this day in the military.
[60:06 - 60:30] And some of them are still police officers, which is sad to see you guys hating on a family that does that.
[60:30 - 60:39] Like you got somebody like me. And it's something that a lot of you guys may not realize.
[60:39 - 60:47] And this is for those of you guys that have family members and friends that are in the military.
[60:47 - 60:52] You guys will understand this better than anyone.
[60:52 - 61:01] Because you guys will understand this the same way that I do. And I know a lot of you guys will think the exact same thing.
[61:01 - 61:15] That when our family members, like my dad, when he took an oath, not only did he take the oath, but my family and myself took an oath as well.
[61:15 - 61:26] That's something that's in the military, that's a firefighter, that's a police officer, that's a medic. When you take that oath, it's not just that person taking the oath.
[61:26 - 61:30] So are you. So is your family.
[61:30 - 61:44] When my dad took an oath to defend this nation as a military personnel, I took an oath as well to do whatever I can to help.
[61:44 - 61:55] You want to know how I do my part to help? By fighting against bullying and fucking suicide.
[61:55 - 62:04] Because I was at that point. I did almost take my own life before.
[62:04 - 62:20] And I'm not saying I'm perfect. No one is. Name one person on this planet that you think is perfect.
[62:20 - 62:32] No, no, my adoptive dad, not my not my pedophile piece of shit sperm donor. I don't even consider him my dad. I consider that douchebag the one that's a pedophile.
[62:32 - 62:43] I consider him my sperm donor, not my dad. When I refer to my dad, I'm talking about the one that was in the military. I refer to that douchebag as my sperm donor.
[62:43 - 63:03] Why do you think I don't have anything to do with them?
[63:03 - 63:15] Well, let me tell you something. When my dad joined the military and he took an oath, I took an oath as well. I took an oath to do what I could to help people.
[63:15 - 63:21] And my whole life, that's all I've ever done.
[63:21 - 63:31] My whole life, that's all I've ever tried to do is help people, whether it be family, friends, someone I don't know.
[63:31 - 63:49] That's why when I talk about suicide and I talk about bullying and what I've been through, that's not just a that's not just one of those things where it's like me playing a pity party.
[63:49 - 64:08] But it's not like an, Oh, what was me? Look at my story and what I've gone through. No. When I tell my story, it's to inspire people. It's to help people get through whatever the fuck they're going through and to help them realize that they can do whatever the fuck they want to do with their life.
[64:08 - 64:16] If they get out their asses and they do something about it.
[64:16 - 64:29] And it shows them that life is worth living because like I said, I've been there. I've been on the edge of suicide. I've gone through depression.
[64:29 - 64:35] I've dealt with a lot of shit that most people don't deserve to be put through.
[64:35 - 64:52] But yet I'm still here doing me. I'm still here fighting the good fight regardless.
[64:52 - 65:10] I'm still here fighting. I'm still here fighting for those that can't fight for themselves. I'm still here battling for those that feel like they can't carry the weight on their shoulders anymore.
[65:10 - 65:19] Why do you think I live with the mentality of if you can't carry the weight of your problems, I'll help you carry them.
[65:19 - 65:40] I will help carry them in any way that I can. Because I know what it's like to be a burden. I know what it's like to feel like you can't go on anymore to where you feel like you just want to die.
[65:40 - 66:01] I know it's like to wake up with that sinking feeling wishing that you didn't wake up wishing that you had stayed asleep, wishing that your life was taken from you that night and feeling depressed and angry at the fucking world.
[66:01 - 66:10] I know what that's like because I've gone through that. For the past five years, I've gone through that.
[66:10 - 66:22] And it's not a fun place to be. It's not. And I wouldn't wish my worst enemy at all to be in that position. I wouldn't wish any of the trolls to be in that position.
[66:22 - 66:36] I wouldn't wish Glory Home, Marty Kate, no one. I would never wish anybody to be in that position because no one deserves that at all. No one deserves to be there, period.
[66:36 - 66:45] Despite the things that I say, a lot of the shit that I say is out of reaction.
[66:45 - 67:02] A lot of the shit that I say about these people when they attack me face to face and I'm on a panel and they take shots of me and I'm on panel with them, a lot of the shit that I say, that's not how I really feel.
[67:02 - 67:20] That's out of pure fucking reaction. And do I like being like that? No, I just wish these people would understand my situation and leave me alone about it.
[67:20 - 67:29] 'Cause like I said, I love helping people. Ever since I was a little kid, I've always enjoyed helping people. Always.
[67:29 - 67:44] My whole life I grew up helping to take care of my family. So taking care of people and helping people, that's all I've ever known my entire life, dude. That's all I've ever known my whole life.
[67:45 - 68:00] So whenever somebody tells me that they're going through some shit, I can relate.
[68:00 - 68:21] Like Morph, whenever you say that you're having a bad day or you've told me many times that you don't feel like yourself, like you've seen multiple times, you've seen firsthand that you know that I know what that's like.
[68:21 - 68:29] And every time you talk to me about that, I always do not do everything I can to try to help you.
[68:48 - 69:07] Ol' Frag, I'm glad I can help you, man. I'm more than glad that I can help you, dude. And we're all glad that you're still here, my friend. We're all glad that you're still alive and that you're still here.
[69:17 - 69:35] Well, Chrissy, welcome to the club. Because here, you're among friends. And here you don't just have friends, man. You got a whole ass, you got a whole fucking lot of friends around here.
[69:35 - 69:41] You have a whole big ass fucking family of friends around here.
[69:41 - 70:04] So to Chrissy, I say this. Welcome to the family. Because here, you're among friends.
[70:07 - 70:11] Here, you're among people that actually care.
[70:11 - 70:33] And trust me, Chrissy, I was just like you at one point. I really was. You can ask anybody that actually has known me from before I started YouTube, I was just like you. I didn't have very many friends at all.
[70:34 - 70:42] Matter of fact, during my whole high school year, I was I was practically a loner. I had like maybe one or two friends and that's it.
[70:42 - 70:51] My whole high school career, I was mostly a loner. So I know the feeling all too well.
[70:59 - 71:14] Well, like I said, here, you're among people that care. Here, you're among family. You're among people that care about you and want to see you do good.
[71:23 - 71:29] And thank you, August. I appreciate that. And anybody that does know me in real life knows that I'm a good dude.
[71:30 - 72:23] Thank you.
[72:23 - 72:51] Now, I want to share with you guys this video that I want to share with you guys this video that saved my life four years ago.
[72:51 - 73:16] This man that I'm about to show you, he's one of the reasons why I'm still here today.
[73:17 - 73:32] And he's one of the reasons why I didn't take my life and why I'm still here and why when I attempted my life, I changed my life around after that.
[73:33 - 73:54] This video is by Clayton Jennings. So Clayton, if you by some ungodly miracle happen to see this, I want to say thank you for saving my life.
[73:54 - 74:00] And thank you for helping me see that I have something to fight for.
[74:01 - 74:05] What you've done for me, I can never repay.
[74:05 - 74:09] So to Clayton, I want to say thank you, man.
[74:09 - 74:14] Thank you for saving my life.
[74:14 - 74:40] Thank you.
[75:05 - 75:08] Yeah, that's my best one.
[75:09 - 77:09] Thank you.
[77:09 - 77:16] God wants to give you a way out of these feelings of doubt, and the sounds of chaos might be reverberating around you like heavy metal.
[77:16 - 77:22] But confusion isn't from God, it's straight from the devil, and he wants to silence the noise and bring peace to you.
[77:22 - 77:27] And I promise if you just ask him, he'll see you through. You got to this place because you tried finding your own fight.
[77:27 - 77:31] And where did that get you to accept contemplating about taking your own life?
[77:31 - 77:37] And if you got bullied at this point, I'm sorry you went through that, but God wants to take those words from your attackers and send them back.
[77:37 - 77:42] You don't have to be defined by what people said about you. Let me pick you up if you don't know how to.
[77:42 - 77:47] You're not alone man, you got a friend in me. You got better days ahead of you. I just pray you begin to see.
[77:47 - 77:53] Know that everything the devil did to you, he wants you to replay. But everything the devil took from you God wants to replace.
[77:53 - 77:58] Listen to me right now, you better look me right in the face. You were created for more than to die in this place.
[77:58 - 78:03] Don't do it man, please don't take your life. Just take my hand and we'll make this right.
[78:03 - 78:07] I promise if you do this, you'll regret it. You'll wake up in eternity and remember I said it.
[78:07 - 78:12] And if it was so bad, you could just go back. I'm here for you right now, please just build that.
[78:12 - 78:17] And if you think you're alone in this fight, you've been lied to. That depression came after me and I nearly died too.
[78:17 - 78:24] I'm not suicidal the only way and death was meant for me. The devil played his music and I said fuck no, do that symphony.
[78:24 - 78:29] I walked through the fire and I felt that heat. But I pushed past the clutter and I stood to my feet.
[78:29 - 78:34] I walked out and I refused to look back. I took my depression and threw it right back into that wood stack.
[78:34 - 78:40] And that fire was the place 50 feet high. And now I plan on leaving a legacy to look back on some day when I died.
[78:40 - 78:45] And right now I'm telling you to stand up too. Deep down inside you know it's the right thing to do.
[78:45 - 78:52] Think about your family, think about you. Don't kill yourself, please don't do it. Whatever you're facing God will see you through it.
[78:52 - 78:58] I had a fan kill himself and his mom asked if I could go see her. She was depressed and asked if I could meet her.
[78:58 - 79:03] Two weeks later the pressure beat her. She ran into a telephone pole and now the seatbelt of the two-seater.
[79:03 - 79:09] I wish right now I could crawl through these speakers and somehow convince you not to go the same route she did.
[79:09 - 79:16] I wish I could change the fact that you feel defeated. I wish I could lock my arms around you and tell the devil to beat it.
[79:16 - 79:22] But I can't reach everyone even though I knew my best to try. Some people believe the lie that it's just best to die.
[79:22 - 79:26] And I think it's the simple way out. But they're not here to see the way things play out.
[79:26 - 79:32] They'll see the hurt they caused, the pain they leave. I take this seriously. This isn't a game to me.
[79:32 - 79:37] Even thinking about ending your life is living dangerously. So please just listen to my voice.
[79:37 - 79:41] Right now you have a choice. You can choose life or you can get drowned by the noise.
[79:41 - 79:47] Please don't do it. Please just ask for help. If not for your family, do it for yourself.
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[80:30 - 80:32] You might be out.
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[80:59 - 81:08] Not one single deal right there that you guys just saw.
[81:08 - 81:11] That's the video that saved my life.
[81:11 - 81:20] That video is the reason I'm still here alone with my friends and my family.
[81:20 - 81:27] So Clayton, I want to say thank you for saving my life, man.
[81:27 - 81:34] And thank you for showing me that there's a better way out than suicide.
[81:34 - 81:38] And thank you for showing me that I still have a purpose on this planet,
[81:38 - 82:00] and that my purpose is to help people like myself.
[82:00 - 82:13] That video saved my life. And to Clayton, I want to say thank you, man.
[82:13 - 82:41] Yo, Ted, one second, bro.
[82:41 - 83:02] Ted, one second, bro.
[83:02 - 83:07] Yeah, I know I should.
[83:07 - 83:24] That's it. There you go, man. That was my cash out for your brother.
[83:24 - 83:32] All right. I appreciate it, man.
[83:32 - 83:40] Well, like I said, you know, I know that I get bullied a lot,
[83:40 - 83:49] and I'm aware that I get picked on a lot. I'm aware of that.
[83:49 - 84:02] I'm very aware about that.
[84:02 - 84:09] They want to know something. That hatred shows that I'm doing something right,
[84:09 - 84:15] which is why I can't be mad about it. That hatred shows that I'm doing something good.
[84:15 - 84:32] That hatred shows and proves that I'm doing something right.
[84:32 - 84:39] Because like the old saying goes, if you ain't got haters, you ain't doing something right.
[84:39 - 85:03] If you got haters, you're clearly doing something good.
[85:03 - 85:19] Is there anybody out there?
[85:19 - 85:48] Is anybody out there?
[85:48 - 86:16] Is there anybody out there?
[86:16 - 86:23] Don't worry about me, don't worry about your number. I'm going to see them right through us.
[86:23 - 86:27] Turn around and talk. They're real lies. They're one of those four lies.
[86:27 - 86:31] Don't get out too. They don't turn me into that spot.
[86:31 - 86:37] They're doing this hard. They're doing this hard.
[86:37 - 86:39] I only want to record.
[86:39 - 86:59] Everybody out there feels the same. No, we all handle pain in different ways.
[86:59 - 87:03] We all have something to say sometimes we can handle it.
[87:03 - 87:19] They're doing this hard. They're doing this hard. They're doing this hard.
[87:19 - 87:31] Everybody out there feels the same. They're doing this hard. They're doing this hard.
[87:31 - 87:32] Everybody out there feels the same. Everybody out there feels the same.
[87:32 - 87:39] Everybody out there feels the same. They're doing this hard.
[87:39 - 88:03] Everybody out there feels the same.
[88:11 - 88:13] Welcome back, Sire.
[88:13 - 88:28] This is the last one for you guys and I hope this song inspires you the way it does me.
[88:29 - 88:30] Welcome back, Sire.
[88:30 - 92:22] This is the last one for you guys and I hope this song inspires you the way it does me.
[92:22 - 113:02] This is the last one for you guys the way it does me.
[113:02 - 113:07] As I always say stay humble stay positive keep being awesome keep being you.
[113:07 - 113:12] I fucking love you guys and I'll catch you guys later man.
[113:12 - 113:19] I'm out of here y'all peace.
[113:20 - 113:21] Thank you.
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