2022-7-3 Taking my life back 1 (Twitch)

[0:00 - 0:28] (sounds of paper)
[0:28 - 0:30] You and your friend and everybody else.
[0:30 - 0:40] You are welcome.
[1:00 - 1:02] Thank you.
[1:02 - 1:14] Good morning, everyone.
[1:14 - 1:20] I have something that I want to say.
[1:26 - 1:40] And that is that I'm sorry to everybody that I've hurt and to all of you that I've turned away over the last few days.
[1:40 - 1:50] That was never, never my intention to turn anyone away.
[1:54 - 2:00] Many of you by now know what I've been through and what I've gone through.
[2:00 - 2:06] And as a result, I became a changed person, not by choice.
[2:10 - 2:21] And there was a time where I woke up and I would look in the mirror and I would hate who I was.
[2:21 - 2:24] I didn't even recognize myself.
[2:26 - 2:44] And this morning, me and somebody that I know personally spoke and they showed me who I was four years ago before all of this.
[2:44 - 3:06] And who I have become now. And to all of you that did subscribe and did follow me for the content that I first started on here, I am beyond grateful to you guys for that.
[3:08 - 3:16] And I'm sorry that over the last few days, I haven't given you guys the content that you guys deserve.
[3:16 - 3:24] And I know this path isn't going to be easy. I know it's going to be hard.
[3:24 - 3:30] It's like they say, nothing worth doing is ever easy.
[3:33 - 3:42] And I want to give you guys that version of me that this individual knew four years ago.
[3:42 - 3:47] I want to give you guys the me that first came on to this platform.
[3:47 - 3:52] I don't want to look to the past anymore.
[3:52 - 3:58] I want to become better than I was before.
[4:02 - 4:07] And I want to start it off with this song to get my life back.
[4:08 - 9:02] And I'm sorry that I didn't have the time to do that.
[9:02 - 9:04] But I'm sorry that I didn't have the time to do that.
[9:05 - 27:45] And I'm sorry that I didn't have the time to do that.
[27:46 - 27:51] And that way I can do different styles for you guys.
[27:52 - 36:58] And I'm sorry that I didn't have the time to do that.
[36:58 - 40:43] And I'm sure you'll know this one.
[40:44 - 40:46] And if y'all can't tell by now,
[40:46 - 40:48] by my freaking t-shirt,
[40:48 - 40:50] currently I'm an animator.
[40:50 - 40:52] Always have been.
[40:52 - 40:54] So if you guys want something guitar shit,
[40:54 - 40:56] anime shit, fuck.
[40:56 - 40:58] Send them my way and I'll set it up.
[40:58 - 41:04] Hell, I even have,
[41:04 - 41:07] I don't know how many of you guys have seen the anime Nana,
[41:07 - 41:13] but this is actually from the anime series Nana.
[41:13 - 41:16] This is actually Ren's lock that he wears on his necklace
[41:16 - 41:22] and the key that Nana wears around her neck.
[41:22 - 41:26] And then, of course, I got a cross from a Phantom line.
[41:26 - 41:30] So this is totally on, the cross is totally and not anime related.
[41:30 - 41:32] I can promise you that.
[41:32 - 41:37] But I've got a couple things from Nana in Rockin' the Demon Slayer shirt.
[41:42 - 41:45] Oh, so let's see if I actually forgot about this.
[41:45 - 41:50] BSTANX is actually an anime brand,
[41:50 - 41:53] which I am currently rocking on my guitar.
[41:53 - 41:56] Rockin' an anime brand and stickin' on my guitar, boy.
[41:56 - 42:00] So, nah.
[42:00 - 42:03] I'm not an animator.
[42:03 - 42:05] Shit, right.
[42:05 - 42:06] Right.
[42:06 - 42:23] Hell, let's see how many of you remember this anime series.
[42:29 - 42:36] Let's see, where is it at? I want the...
[42:36 - 42:38] Here we go.
[42:39 - 52:12] [MUSIC]
[52:13 - 52:15] How many of you guys remember that?
[52:15 - 53:39] [MUSIC]
[53:39 - 53:41] You're still young.
[53:41 - 76:25] [MUSIC]
[76:25 - 76:29] How many of you guys remember that intro?
[76:29 - 76:32] I bet you all haven't heard that one in a minute, have you?
[76:32 - 76:40] Oh, you're totally good.
[76:40 - 76:42] Yo, anime, you're fun.
[76:43 - 76:53] [MUSIC]
[76:53 - 77:09] And if anybody wants to know what character I relate to the most out of that series, honestly, I would have to say Gohan is like my main, like, that's the one that I am most like.
[77:10 - 77:15] And the reason I say that is because Gohan's that kid that he's super nice.
[77:15 - 77:26] Like, he's a really nice kid, but when you come between him and his family or you're trying to mess with a friend of his, he goes off.
[77:26 - 77:29] Alright, he is not fucking boy.
[77:29 - 77:35] [MUSIC]
[77:35 - 77:42] My feet is not fuck around.
[77:42 - 77:45] [MUSIC]
[77:59 - 78:05] Another one that's not very well known that's super good is actually this.
[78:05 - 78:08] Let's see if I can find the theme for it.
[78:08 - 78:11] Oh, my God, tell me that.
[78:11 - 78:15] Oh, my God, they have the full seasons.
[78:15 - 78:18] Hell, yes, I actually have this on DVD.
[78:18 - 78:25] I don't have all the episodes, but I have a few of the seasons of this.
[78:28 - 78:30] Or a few episodes.
[78:30 - 78:34] I need to get back into watching this.
[78:34 - 78:40] It's actually from the show called Crest of the Stars, and it's actually very good.
[78:40 - 78:43] It's actually one of my personal favorites.
[78:43 - 78:55] Oh, I know, it's not the right one. That is not the right one, I love it.
[78:56 - 78:58] It's not the one I was looking for. Where is it at?
[78:58 - 79:08] Let's see, where is it at? Where is it at?
[79:08 - 79:10] [MUSIC]
[79:10 - 79:33] Ah, here we are, here's one.
[79:33 - 79:37] Yes and no.
[79:38 - 79:42] Just to kind of balance it out a little bit, I guess that was pretty good.
[79:42 - 79:59] I know you guys will know this one.
[79:59 - 81:28] [MUSIC]
[81:55 - 82:07] actually hold on hold on I got some for you guys let's see here what other show
[82:07 - 82:31] I'm doing you trying to think I can't leave it right off my head so fuck it
[82:31 - 82:43] yo J killer what up
[82:43 - 83:05] so until I can think of it we're gonna do like this we're gonna do a little
[83:05 - 83:18] bit of an acoustic piece for you all right yeah we're good and if you guys
[83:18 - 83:23] are wondering did I watch elk churches live yes the hell I did I did watch I
[83:23 - 83:29] show it was fucking amazing dude I did watch my live stream bro fucking
[83:29 - 83:46] incredible yeah if you go look on his channel um he actually did the upchurch
[83:46 - 83:52] live at the Nash room in Nash room municipal auditorium it was actually
[83:52 - 83:59] posted a couple days ago and it was fucking awesome and for those of you
[83:59 - 84:03] that don't know I might not look at but yes I am a bit of a country boy I might
[84:03 - 84:32] not a dress like it but I'm a straight-up country boy
[84:32 - 84:44] the only cause of life as I be the only man I fear is God no stakes to make me run now
[84:44 - 84:55] cuz I've been bit by them all no but you stare me down no never can't shut me
[84:55 - 85:01] up I'm off the grid and I'm off my rocker
[85:01 - 85:31] I'm off in the house so we they'll holler, holler if he needs something, no holler if he needs a chip on a shoulder and a hand with a load of gun we'll be out that screen door no shirl off leaving two black dogs down on one rail
[85:31 - 85:45] yeah we, yeah we, yeah we that kind of move, the only side I've ever been in is taking up somebody else
[85:45 - 85:53] the only time I got my jaw jacked was getting real damn sure not quite again
[85:53 - 85:57] ? The times I missed the most ?
[85:57 - 86:01] ? Were the times nobody knows ?
[86:01 - 86:03] ? When it was me my cousin ?
[86:03 - 86:05] ? That a couple of my buddies ?
[86:05 - 86:09] ? Raised the down off Sand Street Road ?
[86:09 - 86:13] ? We then bawled our roads ?
[86:13 - 86:17] ? Holler if you needed something, though ?
[86:17 - 86:21] ? Holler if you need a chip on shorter ?
[86:21 - 86:25] ? And a hand with a loaded gun ?
[86:25 - 86:29] ? We'll be out there screaming or no shirt on ?
[86:29 - 86:35] ? Leaving two black moths down the one layer road ?
[86:35 - 86:39] ? Yeah we ?
[86:39 - 86:45] ? Yeah we then bawled our roads ?
[86:45 - 86:49] ? Needed to the bawled our soul ?
[86:49 - 86:53] ? Washed in the spring ?
[86:53 - 86:57] ? What's far more to do ?
[86:57 - 87:01] ? We then bawled our roads ?
[87:01 - 87:05] ? Holler if you need something, though ?
[87:05 - 87:09] ? Holler if you need a chip on shorter ?
[87:09 - 87:13] ? And a hand with a loaded gun ?
[87:13 - 87:17] ? We then bawled our roads ?
[87:17 - 87:21] ? Holler if you need something, though ?
[87:21 - 87:25] ? Holler if you need a chip on shorter ?
[87:25 - 87:29] ? And a hand with a loaded gun ?
[87:29 - 87:33] ? We'll be out there screaming or no shirt on ?
[87:33 - 87:39] ? Leaving two black moths down the one layer road ?
[87:39 - 87:43] ? Yeah we ?
[87:43 - 87:47] ? Yeah we then bawled our roads ?
[87:48 - 87:51] Oh, you want some dance shit, okay.
[87:51 - 87:56] And two, I'm not sure how to pronounce that.
[87:56 - 88:00] But I don't actually know who Jason Isabella is,
[88:00 - 88:03] so I'm sorry I can't do any of their music
[88:03 - 88:04] because I haven't heard of them.
[88:04 - 88:06] I do apologize.
[88:06 - 88:07] But once I do listen to them,
[88:07 - 88:10] I definitely will try to do something for you.
[88:10 - 88:12] You want some party shit?
[88:12 - 88:14] I got you on some party shit, bro.
[88:14 - 88:26] [clicking]
[88:26 - 88:31] [buzzing]
[88:31 - 88:34] Let's see, where's a party song at?
[88:34 - 88:47] [clicking]
[88:47 - 88:50] Oh, I got you.
[88:50 - 88:57] Before I do this one,
[88:57 - 89:01] I want to first give a huge shout-out to Chase Matthews,
[89:01 - 89:04] who rocked "Out of the Way Church" on this next song.
[89:04 - 89:07] And this is actually a "Glary Shrek."
[89:07 - 89:09] It's a "Glary Shrekaster."
[89:09 - 89:29] [upbeat music]
[89:29 - 89:32] I do want to expand my guitar.
[89:32 - 92:30] [upbeat music]
[92:30 - 92:34] Exactly. I agree. I agree with that.
[92:34 - 92:37] I agree with crime for sure.
[92:41 - 92:42] I definitely do agree.
[92:42 - 92:44] Like, in order to really appreciate the country,
[92:44 - 92:48] you kind of have to play in the mud and have fun.
[92:48 - 92:50] You kind of have to-- you have to get a little bit dirty
[92:50 - 92:52] and have a little bit of fun.
[92:52 - 93:23] [upbeat music]
[93:23 - 93:24] Matter of fact--
[93:24 - 93:40] [upbeat music]
[93:40 - 93:41] I guess I spoke too soon.
[93:41 - 93:45] Visible, single line, remember to do as long as 25 hours a month.
[93:45 - 94:08] [upbeat music]
[94:08 - 94:10] Hey, I was wrong. I'm happy to talk to you.
[94:10 - 97:21] [upbeat music]
[97:21 - 97:27] No, I don't actually. I wound up taking it down because there's just--
[97:27 - 97:32] there's too much negativity over there. I tried to come back and there's just--
[97:32 - 97:34] it's no use.
[97:34 - 97:40] [crickets chirping]
[97:40 - 97:45] Like, it's nothing but toxic garbage over there.
[97:45 - 97:50] And when I say toxic garbage, I mean toxic ass fucking garbage.
[97:50 - 98:05] [crickets chirping]
[98:05 - 98:30] Family Fan, you might recognize this artist.
[98:30 - 98:35] Introducing Gatorade, but fitness starts from the inside out.
[98:35 - 98:38] Get healthy real hydration.
[98:38 - 101:03] [upbeat music]
[101:03 - 101:07] Ooh, I do have something for you guys, though.
[101:07 - 101:14] I do want to do something for y'all that I've been wanting to do for a very, very, very, very long time.
[101:14 - 101:20] And now that I have the proper shit to do it on here, I can actually--
[101:20 - 101:26] that is by the artist Boa, who actually did the ending theme song for the anime series.
[101:26 - 101:36] You know, Yasha.
[101:36 - 101:56] Let's go.
[101:56 - 102:14] [upbeat music]
[102:14 - 102:28] All right, let's take that away, y'all.
[102:28 - 109:06] [upbeat music]
[109:06 - 109:10] We go here to the reverb section.
[109:10 - 109:24] [upbeat music]
[109:24 - 109:26] Oh, that was my bag.
[109:26 - 109:42] [upbeat music]
[109:42 - 109:52] That did you guys my life.
[109:52 - 110:20] [upbeat music]
[110:20 - 110:22] You got big goals.
[110:22 - 110:24] We got new ways to reach them.
[110:24 - 110:26] New ways to make that chatter fake.
[110:26 - 120:34] [upbeat music]
[120:34 - 120:40] Now, how many of you guys think that that needs to be the fucking official theme song for Hot Wheels?
[120:40 - 120:54] How many of you guys in the comments think that if you guys agree with me, put in the comments, man, do you guys think that that song needs to be their official fucking theme song for the shows, the movies, the merchandise?
[120:54 - 121:00] How many of you guys agree that that needs to be their theme song? Because I definitely do.
[121:00 - 121:10] [silence]
[121:10 - 121:59] [upbeat music]
[121:59 - 122:04] It really is, dude. Hey, Grigazu, what up, dude? My name is Steve Poppin, bro, what up?
[122:04 - 122:17] [upbeat music]
[122:17 - 122:20] Hey, I got something for you guys. I don't make it feel old.
[122:20 - 122:42] [silence]
[122:42 - 126:17] [upbeat music]
[126:17 - 126:21] Hey, Mo, thanks, I appreciate it, man.
[126:21 - 126:41] [upbeat music]
[126:41 - 126:45] Now, speaking on some old school songs,
[126:45 - 126:47] you know how to do this one for y'all, man.
[126:47 - 129:23] [upbeat music]
[129:23 - 129:27] And now that I can actually do this properly,
[129:27 - 129:29] let's do this.
[129:29 - 129:34] Now that I can actually do this next song right here properly,
[129:34 - 129:36] let's fucking do this shit.
[129:36 - 129:42] [upbeat music]
[129:42 - 129:43] Oh, shit, my bad.
[129:43 - 129:45] Welcome to the stream, by the way.
[129:45 - 129:46] I hope you enjoyed it.
[129:46 - 129:48] Welcome, welcome, welcome.
[129:48 - 132:19] [upbeat music]
[132:19 - 132:20] Yeah, dude, if you didn't notice,
[132:20 - 132:22] I got this thing restrung out properly, dude.
[132:22 - 132:23] Check it.
[132:23 - 132:25] [upbeat music]
[132:25 - 132:28] I have all the strings on the radio rig now.
[132:28 - 132:30] [upbeat music]
[132:30 - 132:31] Hey, shout out to whoever Franklin is
[132:31 - 132:33] for sending me the fender strings, man.
[132:33 - 132:34] I appreciate that shit.
[132:34 - 132:51] [upbeat music]
[132:51 - 132:54] I think I know which round I'm about to hit up there, so.
[132:54 - 132:57] [upbeat music]
[132:57 - 132:59] Dude, I just had any motherfucking eye on it.
[132:59 - 133:08] [upbeat music]
[133:08 - 133:10] Let's fucking do this, man.
[133:10 - 133:36] [upbeat music]
[133:36 - 133:38] This next one is going out to everybody watching
[133:38 - 133:42] and everybody that fucking is giving me that shot
[133:42 - 133:45] to get back to where I used to be.
[133:45 - 133:47] This for all you guys that helped me get back
[133:47 - 133:49] to where I used to be, man.
[133:49 - 133:51] This road, guys.
[133:51 - 133:52] It keeps me safe.
[133:52 - 133:54] It's my friend when I don't have any around.
[133:54 - 133:55] Music makes me feel--
[133:55 - 133:57] Guys, you guys are ready to fucking hang back.
[133:57 - 134:01] This emotion all in a string, no matter what language you speak,
[134:01 - 134:04] music is always part of the culture.
[134:04 - 134:08] Having music in your face is something that is extremely powerful
[134:08 - 134:11] which should never be taken for granted.
[134:11 - 134:13] So embrace this gift that you have,
[134:13 - 134:15] whether you listen to it or whether you create it.
[134:15 - 134:19] It is true, a universal miracle, and it's a gift.
[134:19 - 134:22] And I'm going to show you guys how powerful music can be
[134:22 - 134:23] when we do it together.
[134:23 - 139:21] [drumming]
[139:21 - 139:35] Yeah, he's right. It is a process, and like I said, I know this battle ain't gonna be easy to get myself back to where I was, but it's fucking worth it.
[139:35 - 139:47] Getting back to where I used to be four years ago is worth the fight. It's worth the fucking journey.
[139:47 - 144:47] [drumming]
[144:47 - 144:51] Let's switch this shit up right quick.
[144:51 - 144:57] Go on. Let's do 95.
[144:57 - 147:41] [drumming]
[147:41 - 147:48] Dude, what the fuck? Why are they giving me the fascia? I don't want the fascia.
[147:48 - 147:56] Let's try this.
[147:56 - 151:42] [drumming]
[151:42 - 151:56] Now let's put this back on real quick because I am going to do something for you guys.
[151:56 - 157:12] [drumming]
[157:12 - 157:24] Now this last song right here is actually the last song that left friend David who played bass for this band.
[157:24 - 157:28] It's the same one you guys just heard.
[157:28 - 157:42] This is the final song that he got to record before he passed away and I have played on stage with these guys many and many times.
[157:42 - 157:49] These guys are still to this day very good friends of mine and yeah this one's for him.
[157:49 - 157:55] This is the final song he got to record with him on bass before he passed away.
[157:55 - 161:34] [drumming]
[161:34 - 161:42] All I got said is first thing down here at the very bottom, if you don't like what I'm doing then get out.
[161:42 - 161:46] Go find something else to watch if you don't like what I'm doing.
[161:46 - 162:20] [drumming]
[162:20 - 162:23] Here, I'll let you put it in the comments for you.
[162:23 - 162:28] That way you guys can add it to your playlist. Hold on.
[162:28 - 162:34] I don't know how this came up.
[162:34 - 162:38] Go away. Go away. Go away. Thank you.
[162:38 - 162:46] [drumming]
[162:46 - 162:58] And the song you guys just heard is called Dreamweaver.
[162:58 - 163:04] And there you go.
[163:04 - 163:16] [drumming]
[163:16 - 163:28] They didn't record very much music, but what little bit of music is out there is fucking awesome.
[163:28 - 163:34] Matter of fact, if you actually look on my original Facebook,
[163:34 - 163:54] it's actually a photo of me with the lead vocalist who to this day is still a very good friend of mine.
[163:54 - 164:18] I'm starting to heat up here as well a little bit.
[164:18 - 164:24] Now this song is one I've always wanted to do in this style right here,
[164:24 - 164:29] and I wanted to leave you guys with something memorable here for this one.
[164:29 - 164:33] I always wanted to leave you guys with something memorable on every stream,
[164:33 - 164:41] but this song is one that I've never done on electric before, and I wanted to leave you guys with something.
[164:41 - 169:12] [drumming]
[169:12 - 169:26] Now I'm going to say this respectfully to Mr. TV H.
[169:26 - 169:33] To Mr. TV H, I am going to say this respectfully, and I don't mean any disrespect to you,
[169:33 - 169:42] but I don't play by note. I actually play by what I hear vocally.
[169:42 - 169:49] Like I can honestly tell you, dude, I can't read a lick of sheet music or any kind of notes at all,
[169:49 - 170:00] and I actually play by what I hear by ear, and it allows for some pretty interesting opportunities.
[170:00 - 170:13] Like it's really allowed me to do some really interesting style of playing.
[170:13 - 170:35] All right, let me give you an example. Check it.
[170:35 - 173:53] [drumming]
[173:53 - 174:02] So you see how I did that, how I played back vocally, what Ronnie was doing for that song, "Witch to my Edge"?
[174:02 - 174:07] That's how I play it, and that's what it allows me to do, just super quick wicks.
[174:07 - 175:39] [drumming]
[175:39 - 175:47] See because I'm able to do that, that allows me to be able to do, you know, almost lead guitar type stuff.
[175:47 - 175:51] That's actually very hard to do for a lot of people.
[175:51 - 176:07] [drumming]
[176:07 - 176:11] Actually, no, that doesn't make a proper musician.
[176:11 - 176:13] Here's a little bit of fact for you.
[176:13 - 176:15] [drumming]
[176:15 - 176:22] Do you know that a lot of musicians don't know how to read sheet music?
[176:22 - 176:35] Prime example, Saul Yerner from Godsmack doesn't know how to read a link of guitar music, yet look at what he does when he gets going.
[176:35 - 176:43] Don Van Darrow didn't know how to read music, and he became one of the best fucking guitarists on the face of dessert.
[176:43 - 177:19] [drumming]
[177:19 - 177:26] So like I said, I'm going to ask you again, where I'm going to nicely tell you again.
[177:26 - 177:40] If you don't like the way that I play, then leave my stream right now and find something else to watch.
[177:40 - 177:46] Like I said, if you don't like what I do, then go find something else to watch, man.
[177:46 - 177:48] Plain and simple.
[177:48 - 177:53] If you don't like what I do, then this place isn't for you, man.
[177:53 - 178:03] And if you keep the sub, I'm going to have to kindly ask you to leave, and if you don't leave on your own, then one of my mods here will remove you from me.
[178:03 - 178:17] So I'm going to kindly ask you one last time to not try to pick a fight with me or anyone in here, because you don't know me, you don't know who I am.
[178:17 - 178:37] And like I said, if you don't like the way that I play, then that's your decision. And like I said, if you don't like the way that I play, you can find somewhere else to go.
[178:37 - 179:06] I want to play it to you this way. Is there really a right way to truly play it?
[179:06 - 179:12] Let me challenge you for a minute here. Let me challenge your thinking for a minute, Randy.
[179:12 - 179:18] Let me challenge your thinking for a minute.
[179:18 - 179:24] I'm going to challenge you for a minute here, and I really want you to really think about this.
[179:24 - 179:44] Not counting going back to the old, old, original piano and violin days, but how do you think new styles of music got started by creating new stuff, by stepping outside the box?
[179:44 - 179:50] How do you think country rap got started by guys like Ryan Oak Church?
[179:50 - 179:56] How do you think Lincoln Park became one of the most important bands in music history?
[179:56 - 180:00] Because they stepped outside the box the same way I do.
[180:00 - 180:20] They didn't follow the rules. They created their own shit and look where they're at. Ryan Oak Church is a multi-gold record and a multi-platinum-selling independent artist. Lincoln Park is a multi, multi-platinum band.
[180:20 - 180:34] And you want to know why? It's because they stepped outside the box and refused to listen to what everybody told them.
[180:34 - 180:54] Exactly. And I am actually bringing this comment up right here. I actually really like this one.
[180:54 - 181:00] I actually like that comment. I'm actually going to leave that one out there. I fucking love that comment.
[181:00 - 181:10] And it's true, you do have to push the limits of music.
[181:10 - 181:14] Because if you're not pushing the limits of music, then what are you doing?
[181:14 - 181:21] If you're not doing something different than everyone else, then you're not being legendary.
[181:21 - 181:30] When you're being yourself and doing your own thing and not doing what everyone else is, that makes you a fucking legend.
[181:30 - 181:44] Because legends like Ryan Oak Church, like Chester from Lincoln Park, like the band Lincoln Park, bands like Chord, bands like Disturbed, System of the Down, Three Doors Down, Three Days of Grace.
[181:44 - 182:02] They're a legends for a reason, because they didn't follow the rules. Lindsay Sterling, one of the best violinists on the face of this earth, managed to mix dubstep and violin in one single sound and became huge off of it.
[182:02 - 182:12] Matter of fact, she was on American Idol. As many of you guys remember, Lindsay Sterling was on American Idol, and a female told her that she wouldn't be anything.
[182:12 - 182:24] Now look at her. She's a multi-time platinum winning violinist and artist.
[182:24 - 182:31] And if you don't believe me about Lindsay Sterling, you can fact check me on that, bro. You can look it up.
[182:31 - 183:00] [music]
[183:00 - 183:13] You know, I love guys like you that do that shit. You wanna know why? You wanna know why I like guys like you, man? Because people like you show me that I am doing something that's gonna make me a legend one day.
[183:13 - 183:29] You are, you know, pushing me to do what I'm doing now, still. So to that, I give you this.
[183:29 - 183:34] This is all the fucking legend artists out there doing their own thing right now.
[183:34 - 184:24] [music]
[184:24 - 184:47] You know what? You know what? Hold up. I got something even better for you. Since you mentioned my screeching, since you mentioned my screeching, y'all ready for this, man? This is gonna be fun.
[184:47 - 184:55] This is gonna be fucking good.
[184:55 - 185:14] [music]
[185:14 - 185:21] You didn't miss too much.
[185:21 - 185:31] [music]
[185:31 - 185:49] Waking a sweat again, another day's the night to waste, in my disgrace. Sucking my head again, feels like I'll never leave this place. There's no escape.
[185:49 - 185:58] I'm my own worst enemy. I'm giving up.
[185:58 - 186:17] Let's take a real life. There's nothing you can't try. Take this fight away. You're suffocating. Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me.
[186:17 - 186:35] I don't know what to take. Thought I was focused but I'm scared. I'm not prepared. I'm a little late. Looking for help somehow, somewhere. And no one cares.
[186:35 - 187:02] I'm my own worst enemy. I'm giving up. Let's take a real life. There's nothing you can't try. Take this fight away. You're suffocating. Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me.
[187:02 - 187:17] [music]
[187:17 - 187:35] Put me out of my misery. Put me out of my misery. Put me out of my fucking misery.
[187:35 - 187:50] [music]
[187:50 - 188:15] I'm giving up. Because if you feel right, there's nothing you can't try. Take this fight away. You're suffocating. Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me.
[188:15 - 188:29] Talk your shit now, motherfucker. Go ahead. Talk your motherfucking shit now because you cannot do what I just fucking did.
[188:29 - 188:47] I would love to see you pull that fucking 18 second scream off like I just did, motherfucker. I fucking dare you to try it. I guarantee you, your ass will blow a fucking vocal chord the minute you try that shit.
[188:47 - 188:51] [silence]
[188:51 - 188:55] Darn fucking tea, you'll blow a goddamn vocal chord.
[188:55 - 189:04] [silence]
[189:04 - 189:28] Or hell, I'll take it up a notch for all the real fans up in here.
[189:28 - 189:57] [silence]
[189:57 - 190:07] All I got to say is where's all my suicide silence fans at?
[190:07 - 190:12] This one's from Mitch Walker. Rest in peace, Mitch. This one's for you, man.
[190:12 - 190:31] Push your care. Push your bread. It's a sign that we've erased everything inside. At least it's what they wanted. You already have one, so you don't fucking know. Go.
[190:31 - 190:47] Man, you're mine. Man, you know I thought you wanted to get one shot, so you left it there. You'll take your time with every step we take.
[190:47 - 191:10] You left behind the body of a young one, trying to make a lie. You made the job right now and now. Join him one night, fuck your time, something every time you leave behind.
[191:10 - 191:17] [silence]
[191:17 - 191:43] Live like I, live like I, die is no relief if you want to live inside. Tapping to the night, I want a very much time work for you and your son, so you don't have time for everything that's in my eyes.
[191:43 - 192:00] This is the one and only I, die, die, and I, want a very much time work for you and your son, so you don't have time for everything that's in my eyes.
[192:00 - 198:00] [silence]
[198:00 - 198:02] Wake up, wake up!
[198:02 - 198:06] [silence]
[198:06 - 198:08] Wake up, wake up!
[198:08 - 202:00] [silence]
[202:00 - 202:12] So let me bring up my about section and then I will send that over to you here in just a moment.
[202:12 - 202:56] [silence]
[202:56 - 202:58] Alright, here we go.
[202:58 - 203:38] [silence]
[203:38 - 203:44] And then right here is my PayPal.me.
[203:44 - 203:50] So that is both my PayPal and my cash app that I posted in there for you.
[203:50 - 203:54] And so if you guys would like to donate, you're more than welcome to.
[203:54 - 204:06] And if you guys can't find it in the chat, it'll be in the about me section on here on my Twitch.
[204:06 - 204:20] So you guys can either PayPal me or you can send it to me by cash app for donations.
[204:20 - 204:38] I also will be working with Streamlabs today to try to figure that out as well.
[204:38 - 205:00] [silence]
[205:00 - 205:04] Alright, like I said, if you guys would like to donate, you guys are more than welcome to.
[205:04 - 205:16] You guys can either send it to my cash app, which is right here. I'll actually show you guys my name.
[205:16 - 205:32] Right there is my cash app. You guys can send it to there, or like I said, you can click on the link and you can send it to me to PayPal or however you guys want to.
[205:32 - 205:38] But yeah, with that being said, y'all, I fucking love you guys. You guys have been amazing. You guys have been wonderful.
[205:38 - 205:52] I love every single one of you guys to death, man. And, you know, again, guys, I can promise y'all from here on out, I'm going to be the way that I was when I first came on here.
[205:52 - 206:02] And I'm going to give you guys the best that I fucking can. I'm going to give you guys the best of me like you guys deserve.
[206:02 - 206:18] And to everybody that I have hurt over the last couple of days, and with everything going on, I just want to say that I'm sorry and that I'm not going back to that person that I was.
[206:18 - 206:36] And I'm going to keep fighting to be the person that I was four years ago before all this started, not just for myself and not just for the people that, you know, that do still believe in me, but for you guys and more importantly for myself and my family.
[206:36 - 206:48] I love you guys. I hope you guys have a good rest of your day, evening, afternoon, all that fun stuff. And I will see you guys later on this afternoon. I love you guys.
[206:48 - 207:06] As always, stay humble, stay positive, keep being yourself, keep being awesome, and fuck what the haters say about you. I fucking love you guys. Keep being yourself and keep being awesome. I love you guys. Peace.