2021-9-23 Owning the Past and what i did

[0:02 - 0:06] What's up guys?
[0:07 - 0:18] First off, I do want to say thank you to all my supporters that you know how to support in my job over to twitch
[0:19 - 0:22] Where I found a community of amazing people
[0:25 - 0:30] I definitely do appreciate all the love I've gotten over there
[0:36 - 0:48] But I do want to say one thing and this is going to be my final
[0:49 - 0:57] Video period. I'm making this videos in hopes
[0:57 - 0:59] that
[0:59 - 1:03] All this crap that I've had done to me will
[1:04 - 1:14] Finally stop. I know them because of certain things
[1:17 - 1:20] That happened. I got put in a bad situation and
[1:25 - 1:31] I know that I can't control anyone's actions
[1:31 - 1:42] But I can only control my own and some of the things I did on this platform were not
[1:43 - 1:49] necessarily the best and I know that
[1:53 - 1:55] you know, I
[1:55 - 1:57] can't control
[1:57 - 1:59] What the other person did to me?
[2:00 - 2:07] And I know that I was not thinking when I said what I said or not what I said what I did
[2:07 - 2:16] I know that I was not in the right mindset at that time because I had been
[2:18 - 2:20] so hurt before by people and
[2:23 - 2:27] I was going through a lot and I wasn't thinking very clearly
[2:31 - 2:34] When I committed the acts that I did
[2:39 - 2:43] But said everyone out there. I want to say that I'm sorry for my actions
[2:43 - 2:49] I truly am sorry for my actions and what I did
[2:50 - 2:54] Should they have happened? No
[2:55 - 3:04] But they did I just hope that
[3:05 - 3:10] You guys understand that when I'm when I did what I did I was not
[3:11 - 3:18] In a good mindset. I honestly don't know what was going through my head. I
[3:19 - 3:25] Don't understand it. I don't myself. I just I don't understand
[3:26 - 3:37] What kind of mindset I was in all I know is that it wasn't a good one and
[3:39 - 3:43] I just want to say that I'm sorry for what I did and
[3:44 - 3:49] for my actions and
[3:49 - 3:52] I hope that the person that
[3:53 - 4:03] You know entrapped me and the word and I hope that that person learns from their mistakes. I
[4:05 - 4:10] Hope that they don't do this to anyone else ever again
[4:18 - 4:20] But most importantly
[4:23 - 4:26] most importantly I do hope
[4:27 - 4:30] that
[4:30 - 4:38] One day down the line you guys can forgive me for my transgressions and what I've done
[4:42 - 4:44] Were those actions right?
[4:45 - 4:46] No
[4:46 - 4:47] they weren't
[4:47 - 4:49] but
[4:49 - 4:52] But they happened
[4:52 - 5:16] and I understand that a lot of people are very upset by that and that's very understandable I can say is
[5:18 - 5:19] that
[5:19 - 5:30] I'm sorry and all I can do is make sure that it does not happen again
[5:31 - 5:36] That's all I can do is make sure that it does not happen again
[5:38 - 5:42] He has from now on I'm gonna be more aware
[5:43 - 5:45] I'm gonna be more alert
[5:45 - 5:48] I'm gonna be more on top of things
[5:49 - 5:57] I'm gonna be more cautious of the people that I hang around and that I talk to
[6:04 - 6:08] I actually learned a lot from this experience. I learned
[6:09 - 6:11] How far some people are willing to go?
[6:12 - 6:18] To do harm to others, but I also learned and what to look out for
[6:19 - 6:31] With a catfish like the person that catfished me and the person that enticed me and entrapped me and
[6:31 - 6:40] I just want to say thank you for that lesson because you taught me a lot
[6:40 - 6:55] You taught me what to look out for on the same token
[6:55 - 7:00] I do hope that you change your ways and
[7:01 - 7:11] That you stop what you're doing. I do hope that you know you change your ways
[7:12 - 7:21] And then you stop what you're doing to people. It's not right nor is it fair and nor is it okay?
[7:21 - 7:37] And everybody that has a time that I want you guys to know that I am truly ashamed
[7:37 - 7:43] I am truly ashamed of what I've done and I have been
[7:44 - 7:55] Since that day I hope that somewhere down the line you guys can
[7:56 - 7:58] forgive me and
[7:58 - 8:04] You know, let me move on from it. You know
[8:04 - 8:17] as I said
[8:17 - 8:21] What happened that they never should have happened
[8:22 - 8:29] It never ever should have happened, but it did and I can't take back what I did
[8:29 - 8:42] But believe me if I could turn back time I would go back and I would tell myself not to do those things and
[8:42 - 8:46] To not fall for it. I would genuinely tell myself
[8:47 - 8:54] Don't do this. You're gonna regret it. It's going to lead to a lot of bad stuff for you
[8:58 - 9:03] Like I would change things in a heartbeat if I could but I can't
[9:03 - 9:07] the best thing I can do now is to
[9:09 - 9:17] Let the issue die and to move forward with my life the best that I can
[9:30 - 9:32] Thank you guys