2021-9-24 Cutting off all Loose ends with Anyone who screwed me over

[0:27 - 0:43] What's up everyone? Now, during the background noise, I actually woke up a little bit ago to
[0:44 - 0:49] practice some sim racing for my Twitch whenever I go back down a couple of days,
[0:50 - 0:55] because if you guys don't know, I actually am working my way back into the sim racing scene
[0:56 - 1:03] and am going to try to compete again at some point. I'm actually practicing my project cards
[1:03 - 1:23] as a matter of fact, but I get that the whole glory whole thing was in the past
[1:24 - 1:36] and I'm not mad about that. What I'm seriously mad about and why I refuse to talk to you anymore
[1:38 - 1:51] is the fact that you sat there and literally bought a quote unquote contract
[1:52 - 2:00] from CISNAC just so you can say that you own me. I'm like, Marty, I watched your whole video back
[2:00 - 2:05] and I can see right through your bullshit. I really can't, I can see right through it.
[2:07 - 2:22] You were indeed being fake. Now, CISNAC, what pisses me off with you, man, is the fact that you
[2:22 - 2:39] had the fucking nerve to use me. The fact that you had the fucking nerve to use me like some sort of
[2:39 - 2:47] cash cow. And because no one else could sign me, you felt like I didn't deserve to have a career.
[2:48 - 2:55] Do you know how fucked up that is, bro? Do you know how hard I've worked to get to where I was
[2:55 - 3:05] before you came along? Do you have any idea how hard I had worked to get to where I was?
[3:08 - 3:14] I had fought for years to get you in a fraction of the way out there and I was doing good for
[3:14 - 3:24] myself. I was making my own name, my own music. I was recording with my friends, people that actually
[3:24 - 3:31] saw potential in me. And yeah, you may have wanted to take my music career to the next level
[3:31 - 3:39] back when I was doing music. You may have wanted to take it to the next level. But the way you did it
[3:39 - 3:50] was wrong. And you know, and everyone's right saying that I should use you guys the way that you used
[3:50 - 4:00] me. And I would have every right to do so. I would be in the right to do so. But I was raised
[4:00 - 4:10] better than that. I don't believe in using people. I don't believe in, you know, using people for money
[4:10 - 4:17] like that. I was raised. I was actually raised better than that. Because see, the way I was raised
[4:17 - 4:21] is like this. You could do all the worst things in the world to me that you want to,
[4:22 - 4:31] but I would never do that thing to you that you do to me. I'm not like that. How you guys
[4:31 - 4:38] used me for money and passed me around all because you guys see a musical genius
[4:39 - 4:44] within me and which I do appreciate that compliment though. I do appreciate that compliment.
[4:46 - 4:53] But the fact that you guys passed me around and used me like I'm some sort of money making item
[4:54 - 5:14] is dehumanizing. It's dehumanizing and it's sickening. It's sickening. You know, it's motherfuckers
[5:14 - 5:24] like you says now. And like you Marty, they're the reason why it's hard for me to get anywhere
[5:24 - 5:31] and do anything. All right, my Twitch career is on the right path. I needed 50 followers.
[5:31 - 5:37] I'm already up over that. I'm at like 68 69 maybe you and 70 by now. I don't know.
[5:39 - 5:50] So I'm doing very well for myself on Twitch. I'm doing very well for myself. But for you to sit
[5:50 - 6:01] there and screw over a career that I had built for years to work on to improve to do good with
[6:01 - 6:13] is sickening, bro. I just don't see how you can sit there and stomach what you guys did.
[6:15 - 6:21] I don't see how any of you can sit there and be able to hold down and stomach the fact that
[6:21 - 6:27] you used people and then you laugh about it like it's some sort of joke when it's not.
[6:28 - 6:35] It's wrong and quite honestly, it's fucked up. I mean, I would never use anyone,
[6:36 - 6:44] not any of you, not anyone. I would never use someone like that. That's not what I'm
[6:44 - 6:53] about. I don't use people. I'm not a user. I don't pass around people like they're attached
[6:53 - 7:03] to money making object. I don't treat people like they're fucking objects. And Marty,
[7:03 - 7:09] you're no different than they are. You saw a chance to make money off me with glory holes
[7:09 - 7:17] and guess what? You basically said, fuck you to me and fuck you to Heather. And
[7:18 - 7:27] you did what you did. You used us for money just like Cisna used us for money. And you
[7:27 - 7:39] want to sit there and say that you're a good person? You're not. It don't matter. You can
[7:39 - 7:47] sit there and say that you're sorry a million motherfucking times. You can sit there and say
[7:47 - 7:53] that you're sorry a million motherfucking times. That doesn't change the fact of what you did.
[7:57 - 8:14] The fact that you could so blatantly use someone is sickening. And you know, all y'all, including
[8:14 - 8:22] you Cisna, especially you Cisna, should be ashamed of yourselves. You really should.
[8:24 - 8:33] Every one of you should be ashamed of yourselves. I'm not a money making object.
[8:33 - 9:02] I'm a human fucking being. I just don't understand how y'all can sit there and do that.
[9:04 - 9:11] And Marty, let me put it into perspective for you. See, what you're doing right now is like this,
[9:11 - 9:24] okay? This is not a dig at you. This is not an attack on you. You doing what you did
[9:24 - 9:34] in that video, which I did watch is like me saying that's like, that's like me coming to your house,
[9:36 - 9:44] burning your house down and then sitting there saying, oh, you know, your house burned down.
[9:45 - 9:51] I burned your house down, but can we still be friends? Can we still be friends, even though
[9:51 - 9:59] I've blatantly burned your house down? Same fucking thing, bro. You wouldn't want me to,
[10:00 - 10:08] you wouldn't want me to, you know, burn your house down and then walk up to you like, hey,
[10:08 - 10:15] I burned your house down. Can we still be friends though? Like I wouldn't do that to you.
[10:19 - 10:27] That's exactly what you did to me. That's exactly what you did to me, Marty.
[10:28 - 10:35] And I'm starting to say, but knowing the details that I got yesterday from
[10:36 - 10:44] and putting everything together, I'm starting to say more to you, but I'm cutting you from my life.
[10:46 - 10:54] Now, do I wish bad things upon you? No, I don't wish bad things upon you.
[10:55 - 10:58] That I do hope that you fucking learn your lesson
[10:58 - 11:05] and that the next time you come across somebody like me, you don't do to them what you did to me.
[11:05 - 11:12] I hope pretty God that they don't get done to them what you've done to me.
[11:14 - 11:30] I really do, because no one deserves to do what you did to me. And as for you, Cisna,
[11:31 - 11:37] I don't owe you jack shit, dude. I don't owe you motherfucking jack shit.
[11:38 - 11:45] So I don't see where you're getting off saying that I owe you money. I don't owe you shit.
[11:47 - 12:01] I don't owe any of you dumb fucks a goddamn red cent. I don't owe you nothing.
[12:02 - 12:08] I don't owe anybody a single fucking dime at all. If anything, y'all owe me money.
[12:10 - 12:21] I'm the one that y'all screwed over. If anything, y'all motherfuckers owe me money.
[12:21 - 12:28] I don't owe you shit. Y'all owe me money. I'm the one y'all screwed over. I'm the one that you guys used.
[12:30 - 12:37] And if anyone any owes anyone anything, y'all owe me. I don't owe you jack shit.
[12:39 - 12:49] And you ain't getting paid jack shit. But Cisna, you and I both know that me,
[12:49 - 12:55] that you said they're saying that I owe you money is a bullshit lie. I don't owe you nothing.
[12:58 - 13:02] I don't know who the fuck told you to tell me about some sort of fucking
[13:03 - 13:06] check or whatever, but that ain't on me, bro. That's on you.
[13:07 - 13:14] Whatever conflicts you have with payments, that's on you, bro. That is straight up on you.
[13:15 - 13:25] I have nothing to do with that. Does it suck that your check balance? Yeah, that does suck.
[13:26 - 13:30] I get that. I get that, dude. You lost money and I get it.
[13:31 - 13:37] But dude, that's not my job to look after your fucking money. That's on you. I mean, dude,
[13:37 - 13:44] you're a grown ass man. Seriously, bro, you're a grown ass motherfucking man.
[13:45 - 14:04] You should be looking out for your own money, bro. I'm not your money keeper. I'm not your
[14:04 - 14:17] money keeper, bro. I'm not responsible for your fucking money. And for that, let me tell you right
[14:17 - 14:24] now, bro, I'm reading that comment and I get that. But this goes back further beyond the whole
[14:24 - 14:33] national reports thing, bro. This is a totally different situation. This has nothing to do
[14:33 - 14:41] with that. I do get your point though, dude, and I do respect it. But this has nothing to do with
[14:42 - 14:49] forgiving people or any of that. This has to do with me being dehumanized
[14:50 - 14:59] and used like an object. And you wouldn't want to be passed around and used like an object, would you?
[15:03 - 15:09] I don't think anybody here would want to be passed around like a human fucking object.
[15:10 - 15:15] I don't think anybody would want to be treated like an object and be dehumanized.
[15:27 - 15:32] See, I wouldn't want to be treated the way that y'all motherfuckers have treated me.
[15:35 - 15:49] I would never treat anyone like that. All right, I'm out of here. I see you, bro.
[15:50 - 16:19] Fucking gutter mind. Gutter mind, motherfucker. But what really just pisses me off with you,
[16:19 - 16:30] Cisnak, is the fact that you would make it to where my career would go to shit. I mean,
[16:30 - 16:37] I had a good career. I had a very good career before y'all came into the picture.
[16:51 - 16:59] You know, I was doing good. I was building my brand up the right way, doing what I needed to do,
[17:00 - 17:12] to get my brand to open out there, to get my music heard. I was doing good. I was on several
[17:12 - 17:22] podcasts with people. I got to hang out with a few artists on Chill With The Boys podcast with myself
[17:22 - 17:39] and Bradley. People that we listen to who respect what we were doing. But the fact that you would
[17:39 - 17:48] so blatantly use someone is wrong. And that's the point of all this. The fact that you would
[17:49 - 18:00] so blatantly use somebody just for money is sickening. You know, you guys are what's wrong
[18:00 - 18:09] with the music industry. People like you, Cisnak, and the Vendor Boys as a whole, you guys are
[18:09 - 18:14] you guys are a proud example of everything that's wrong with the music industry.
[18:18 - 18:25] You just want to own motherfuckers and use them to make money. You can give a shit about their
[18:25 - 18:33] music career. You can give a shit about where they're going. You don't care. All you care about
[18:33 - 18:40] is the fucking money. You don't care about the artist or their music or what they want to do.
[18:40 - 18:49] It's all about the fucking money with you. Let's get one thing straight.
[18:50 - 18:56] It's not that I was unmanageable. It's that I saw it right through your bullshit.
[18:56 - 19:05] Okay, Cisnak. That's the whole reason why I left because I saw it right through your fucking ignorant
[19:05 - 19:20] bullshit. And like I said, some of my friends are right. I should use you guys the way that you
[19:20 - 19:31] used me, but I'm not going to do that because I believe that karma will come back around.
[19:33 - 19:40] I don't believe in using people. Never have. Never would do that. I wouldn't wish what any of you
[19:40 - 19:51] guys have done to me on my worst enemy. I wouldn't wish that on anyone because what you guys have
[19:51 - 20:02] done to me is wrong. You've victimized me, made me out to be a bad person. You've sat there and used
[20:02 - 20:25] me, took advantage of me, made things harder for me than they already were. With the fact that you
[20:25 - 20:34] can so blatantly sit there and use someone like that, it's confusing to me. Like why would you
[20:34 - 20:47] want to use somebody like that? Like, I don't understand how you can use somebody like that.
[20:48 - 20:53] I mean, I get that you see an opportunity to make a good living for yourself and I get that.
[20:53 - 21:01] That's the part that I get. What I don't get is instead of using someone, why not create a
[21:01 - 21:10] partnership with them? Make a deal with them. Don't just sit there and sign them to a record
[21:10 - 21:17] label and be like, oh, you know, we want you to sign with us and then turn around and fucking use them
[21:19 - 21:37] and claim all the rights to their shit. That's fucked. I wouldn't know. Like, let me tell you right now,
[21:38 - 21:46] if I ran a record label, you know what I would do? Do you know what I would how I would run a
[21:46 - 21:53] record label? And this is my personal belief. I know every label has a different way of doing
[21:53 - 22:00] shit. If I ran a label, which I have ran some small, you know, independent labels in the past,
[22:00 - 22:08] some very small ones, you know what I would do? I would let the artist keep all the rights
[22:09 - 22:16] to their music. Okay, I would let the artist keep all the rights to their music flat out.
[22:18 - 22:21] I would let them do whatever kind of music that they wanted to do.
[22:22 - 22:31] All I would ask on the release of their album is say 10%. Whenever money they make off the album,
[22:31 - 22:41] I don't only want like 10% if that so that I can put money into the studio and build it up and
[22:41 - 22:50] get better recording equipment, be able to do promotions for shows, book shows, tour
[22:51 - 22:59] bus, that kind of stuff. That's how I would run it. I wouldn't sit there and be like, oh,
[22:59 - 23:05] you're a son of us. I own your likeness. I own you. I own the rights to your music.
[23:05 - 23:13] I wouldn't do that. If I ran a label, I would let the artist keep the rights
[23:14 - 23:20] to their music. I would let them have their creative freedom. If they wanted to do a freaking
[23:20 - 23:29] heavy metal rock, a heavy metal album mixed with some jazz and freaking opera. Hey, I don't
[23:29 - 23:34] know how it's going to work out, but if you can make it work, go for it. Knock yourself out. See
[23:34 - 23:44] what you can do. I wouldn't sit there and do what y'all did to me. Like I said, all I would ask for
[23:45 - 23:49] when that artist wrote their albums and they started making money.
[23:51 - 23:58] When they made money off that music, all I would ask for is like 10% to build up the recording
[23:58 - 24:06] equipment to be able to promote on social media with paid promotions. I would use it to
[24:07 - 24:19] book shows, travel expenses for going, say they have a show over in the UK, travel expenses,
[24:19 - 24:30] shit like that. I wouldn't sit there and do what y'all did to me because of y'all motherfuckers
[24:30 - 24:39] doing what you did to me. My career went to shit for music because y'all made it to where
[24:39 - 24:46] it was very hard for me to get my music up there. Which fucking sucks because if it wasn't for you guys,
[24:46 - 24:52] I'd have a career right now. Do you know that if it wasn't for people like you, Cisnak,
[24:54 - 25:05] I would actually be doing something? I would actually, I would probably be on fucking tour
[25:05 - 25:16] right now. Now counting that bitch ass virus. Stupid fucking virus. You just saying. If it wasn't for you
[25:16 - 25:25] guys, I'd probably still be on tour. I'd probably be touring right now. Hell, I'd probably be over in
[25:25 - 25:34] the fucking UK hanging out with some of my friends that are from the UK. I'd probably be hanging out
[25:34 - 25:43] with some of my favorite YouTubers that live in Japan, Shidaki and Joey and all my other friends
[25:43 - 25:52] like Sam and Albo who are drift vloggers, who are car vloggers. I'd probably be hanging out with them.
[25:52 - 26:05] Hell, I'd probably be kicking it with Adam LZ right now. Who knows? But instead of letting me do
[26:05 - 26:14] what I had to do to get to where I wanted to be, y'all decided to use me. And that's not only disheartening
[26:14 - 26:35] that's sickening to me. It's disgusting. Actually, my last, my last minute, I actually
[26:35 - 26:42] have flown before dude. I've been on a flight before. Once when I was a baby going from Alaska
[26:42 - 26:47] to Louisiana. And then once back in 2014 when I went down the border and it wasn't like that.
[26:48 - 27:14] So yeah, flights for me are, I'm used to it. And quite honestly, I love it. So you know,
[27:14 - 27:24] Cisna, y'all may have ruined my music career, but there is one career that you do not have
[27:24 - 27:39] control over. There is one career that you don't have control over. And you know what career
[27:39 - 27:52] that is? My sim racing career, which is what I'm jumping back into via Twitch. That's one thing
[27:52 - 27:58] that no one can control. You may have been able to somewhat control where my music goes, but you
[27:58 - 28:08] can never ever control my talent behind the wheel because my talent is on me. How far I go is on
[28:08 - 28:19] me. That's one thing that you can never control, Cisna or even you Marty. So don't even try it.
[28:21 - 28:27] You may have been able to control my music career. And yeah, you may have shot it all the
[28:27 - 28:37] fucking hell. But I'm here to tell you right now, as of this fucking moment, as of this very moment
[28:37 - 28:48] right now, I'm retiring from music to focus on Twitch full time. I'm retiring from music and from
[28:48 - 29:01] YouTube to focus on my career on Twitch and making it as a sim racer. I don't care how long I have to
[29:01 - 29:09] practice. I don't care how many events I have to do. I'm busting my ass to get to where I
[29:09 - 29:16] started to get out to at the beginning of this year. And I should have done that. I should have
[29:16 - 29:21] done that at the beginning of this year. I should have kept it going, but didn't. And that was on me.
[29:23 - 29:31] But I'm jumping back behind the driver's seat and I'm doing what I gotta do to build my fan base
[29:31 - 29:37] up, which I'm doing good with. Very good, actually. I'm doing what I gotta do to
[29:37 - 29:45] get paid through my affiliation on Twitch. And if you think for one fucking second that you're
[29:45 - 30:05] going to stop me, think again. If you think for one second you're going to stop my career on
[30:05 - 30:15] Twitch or my career as an up and coming sim racer, you're not stopping nothing. I'm getting
[30:15 - 30:25] behind the wheel once and for all and doing what I should have done a long time ago and cutting
[30:26 - 30:33] ties with you, Marty, and cutting ties with YouTube as a whole. I want nothing more to do
[30:33 - 30:48] with this sickening platform. I will no longer be used as a human past around thing. I will no
[30:48 - 30:56] longer be used as a cash cow. I am cutting the negativity out of my life and doing what
[30:56 - 31:02] I should have done a long time ago and going over to Twitch where I'm actually accepted over
[31:02 - 31:09] there. People actually enjoy what I do over there. People actually, you know, see my potential and
[31:09 - 31:15] they love what I do. And I appreciate the hell out of every single person over there that does
[31:15 - 31:45] genuinely enjoy what I do. So for all you wondering, where is my music career going to go
[31:45 - 31:57] from here? Like I said the day, the night that I left. Y'all remember the night that I left here?
[31:57 - 32:07] I'm gonna say it one last time. I've said all I've had to say was my music. I have no need to
[32:07 - 32:17] continue on a career where I've said all I've had to say. I've said what I needed to say and I
[32:17 - 32:23] don't think there's anything else that I can say. I did what I had to do and said what I had to
[32:23 - 32:48] say. I've said all what I had to say with my music and like I said there's not anything that you know
[32:48 - 32:54] else I could say with my music. I'm proud to say that I made the jump over to Twitch. I'm proud
[32:54 - 33:02] to say that I left this cesspool of hatred and negativity behind. I'm proud of that. The only
[33:02 - 33:09] reason I came back here is to tie off a couple loose ends and declare a few things up and that's
[33:09 - 33:16] it. That's the only reason I came back here is to tie off whatever loose ends I had left
[33:17 - 33:25] and to clear a few things up with people like Ciznak and Marty and that's it. Other than that
[33:25 - 33:31] I'm gonna be over on Twitch. I'm gonna be doing me, I'm gonna be entertaining my fans, hanging out
[33:31 - 33:38] with my friends over there that I've made over the last few days and yeah. So if you guys do
[33:38 - 33:45] follow me on Twitch, I fucking love you guys. I'll see you guys over there and as for the rest of you guys
[33:46 - 34:04] over here on YouTube, I don't need the hatred. I'm doing me. I mean I like it too bad for those that
[34:04 - 34:10] you know do genuinely support me. Thank you. But for the rest of y'all that want to just sit there
[34:10 - 34:16] and talk, get a life, and grow up.