2021-9-25 Stepping back behind the wheel

[0:18 - 0:26] What's up, everyone? I'm not gonna need to terribly long
[0:29 - 0:33] But I did want to make an announcement that I've been thinking about since
[0:34 - 0:39] My last live stream over the last few days. I'll talk about all this crazy stuff
[0:39 - 0:43] I've been thinking about a lot of things about
[0:45 - 0:47] What I truly want to do with my life
[0:48 - 0:54] Where things have ended up where they've gone? What ends happening in?
[0:54 - 0:57] you know
[0:57 - 1:04] Like I understand that, you know, you guys just want to do well with my life
[1:04 - 1:09] I understand that you guys want to do well with my life
[1:10 - 1:24] You know as I said the other day, I've said all I've had to say
[1:25 - 1:28] When it comes to my music, I've said quite a bit
[1:28 - 1:38] I've spoken on several things that a lot of people are afraid to speak about
[1:39 - 1:41] Subjects such as suicide
[1:41 - 1:43] depression
[1:43 - 1:48] What bullying can lead to and how it leads to suicide? I've done a lot of things through my music
[1:49 - 1:51] Things that I'm very proud of
[1:51 - 1:56] But there are also some things that have happened that I'm not proud of
[1:56 - 2:00] Things that I've done that I haven't come out and admit it my wrongs for
[2:06 - 2:16] But on the same token, I learned a lot through the last live stream. I learned even more
[2:17 - 2:19] through the last live stream
[2:20 - 2:27] Through people saying that I'm entertaining them that they want to see me freaked out and
[2:29 - 2:33] I don't think anybody really understood very clearly that
[2:35 - 2:37] When I freaked out in the past
[2:38 - 2:43] That was not me trying to be funny. That was me genuinely being bullied
[2:45 - 2:48] And I rightfully lashed out
[2:48 - 2:57] You know, I rightfully lashed out and people started taking that as
[2:58 - 3:00] You know, oh, he's being funny
[3:02 - 3:09] He's doing this for attention. He's being funny, but the truth is I'm not that was never my intention
[3:11 - 3:13] My intentions were never to be
[3:17 - 3:29] Funny like that and Jersey
[3:30 - 3:37] Getting to that you're actually onto something there and I know it said over the years
[3:37 - 3:39] I've gotten judge you a lot for things that I've done
[3:41 - 3:46] Things that are different, you know
[3:47 - 3:53] Granted yes before Kobe. I was doing a lot of music. I was writing a lot of stuff. I
[3:53 - 3:57] Was releasing a lot of music and that's not the other and
[3:58 - 4:09] I was doing fairly well for myself. I was doing very well for myself. I had just released
[4:10 - 4:13] You know two back-to-back albums in 2018
[4:14 - 4:19] Both blackout and evolution both which actually sold fairly well
[4:20 - 4:22] Both did very well amongst
[4:22 - 4:25] Friends fans and family. They both did very very well
[4:26 - 4:34] And ever since then I haven't really released any albums because as I said, I felt like
[4:35 - 4:39] I said all I had to say through my music
[4:45 - 4:48] Something that not a lot of people realize that's beginning of this year
[4:49 - 4:57] I did something I had wanted to do for a very long time. I had finally made my way into
[4:58 - 5:02] Esports I had finally made my way into
[5:04 - 5:10] Professional sim racing I had taken four wins back-to-back on F1 2020
[5:12 - 5:15] Within the month of January two of those wins
[5:15 - 5:22] Being on my mom's birthday and my brother's birthday my brother's birthday being January 23rd
[5:22 - 5:27] And my mom's being 31st two of the most important wins of my life
[5:28 - 5:37] And it felt good. It felt really good to take those wins
[5:39 - 5:45] But then
[5:45 - 5:49] COVID happened
[5:52 - 5:54] Things got put on pause
[5:55 - 5:59] but also in that time period due to
[6:00 - 6:03] All the trolling with me personally I
[6:04 - 6:06] Lost my sponsorships
[6:06 - 6:15] My team now is running with dropped me and now
[6:16 - 6:18] I'm back at the very beginning game
[6:18 - 6:20] Not knowing what to do
[6:20 - 6:28] See ever since I was a little kid. I grew up watching NASCAR. I
[6:29 - 6:31] Watched the greatest of the greatest
[6:32 - 6:33] everybody from
[6:33 - 6:35] Richard and Kyle Petty
[6:36 - 6:42] All the way down to the Earnhardts and Jeff Gordon and Tony Stewart some of the best drivers in the world
[6:44 - 6:47] some of the best drivers in the world and
[6:47 - 6:53] Then later on as you guys know I started to get into other kinds of racing
[6:53 - 7:00] But here lately as I've been cruising around on different ends of my friends
[7:01 - 7:06] I've really been wanting to pick back out that itch of getting back into sim racing full-time
[7:08 - 7:09] because
[7:09 - 7:15] Let's face it as good as I am with music. I'm a born natural behind the wheel
[7:16 - 7:18] Always have been
[7:18 - 7:20] Don't know how
[7:20 - 7:28] But I just am
[7:29 - 7:33] You're talking to the guy that broke the world record for Palm Hill
[7:34 - 7:36] Back in 2016
[7:36 - 7:38] on underground too
[7:39 - 7:43] You're talking to the guy that is in the top three percent on
[7:44 - 7:57] Horizon 4 and all this time I realized a lot
[7:59 - 8:02] That I need to get my ass back behind that wheel
[8:05 - 8:14] Which is why as of today I will be moving over to twitch and
[8:16 - 8:22] Doing sim racing full-time looking for a sponsor. I may even post clips on here
[8:23 - 8:25] What I'm going to do is I'm going to
[8:27 - 8:29] Do like I started to do
[8:30 - 8:37] Record my streams or my videos on twitch and upload them to here. I also
[8:39 - 8:42] found a community within
[8:44 - 8:50] The car community that I did not know existed until fairly recently
[8:51 - 8:53] Which is the itasha car community?
[8:53 - 8:57] And if you don't know what the itasha car community is look it out
[8:57 - 9:01] There's plenty of videos about it on YouTube. There's plenty of videos
[9:03 - 9:08] But I honestly feel like I belong back behind the wheel
[9:12 - 9:14] Which is why?
[9:14 - 9:17] Once again, I am throwing my hat into the ring
[9:18 - 9:20] for both sim racing and
[9:21 - 9:31] For other games. I haven't created a jab, but I'm going to
[9:51 - 9:56] Honestly, I want to give back to what I was born to do
[9:56 - 10:04] I was a I was born to be an athlete and I know a lot of people saying
[10:04 - 10:05] that oh
[10:05 - 10:08] You sports isn't a real thing
[10:09 - 10:15] Yeah, it is and I can prove it that Tokyo Olympics this year
[10:15 - 10:17] Sim racing got introduced
[10:18 - 10:20] Into the Tokyo Olympics
[10:21 - 10:31] This year go back and watch the Tokyo Olympics
[10:32 - 10:33] featured
[10:33 - 10:36] Sim racing in
[10:36 - 10:57] The Olympics this year you can go back and you can look it up and you can watch it's all over the place
[10:59 - 11:04] Which is why in my first step back into the sim racing community is
[11:07 - 11:09] I'm going to be saving up to one
[11:10 - 11:13] Getting a handbrake because obviously I need one and
[11:14 - 11:20] Two I'm gonna be saving up to throw my hat back into the room on a set of course a competition
[11:20 - 11:32] Oh, I feel a time it will do you do a lot of drifting too? Well, I did
[11:33 - 11:36] but because the outrun open drifting
[11:38 - 11:42] Moved I can no longer compete in that area
[11:42 - 11:47] Which I'm fine with I mean I love doing just street drifting anyway
[11:47 - 11:52] I'm not that kind of guy that's like oh, I want to do this and it's really not like
[11:53 - 11:56] You know, I do drifting for the level of sport, you know
[11:56 - 12:04] I grew up watching initial D. I grew up watching a kitchen sushi a.k.a. the drift king
[12:05 - 12:12] You know, I grew up around that kind of stuff and like I want to keep it where it started
[12:12 - 12:20] You know, I do drifting for the level of sport, you know, I don't do it to be a pro like I do it because I love it
[12:21 - 12:23] It's something that I truthfully
[12:24 - 12:32] You know enjoy always have but when it comes to a career wise
[12:33 - 12:39] I want to throw my hat in the ring in various styles of racing whether that be
[12:42 - 12:46] Rally racing whether that be NASCAR formula one
[12:48 - 12:53] Endurance racing no matter what the style I want to throw my hat in the ring again for that
[12:54 - 12:56] as well as other
[12:56 - 12:58] genres of
[12:58 - 13:00] gaming such as
[13:00 - 13:02] Warface
[13:02 - 13:08] Which as many of you know is a first-person shooter that I've actually become pretty proficient at
[13:09 - 13:20] You know games such as that I want to be able to get into that again, and maybe even venture back into
[13:21 - 13:23] UFC competition
[13:24 - 13:51] Like I did a while back. I just wanted to say that
[13:54 - 14:00] After today, I'm gonna be deleting all my videos. I'm gonna be redoing my channel
[14:00 - 14:03] And I'm gonna be re-upping everything
[14:04 - 14:06] I'm gonna come back. I'm gonna take the day
[14:07 - 14:11] Other what's left of the day. I'm gonna go in
[14:12 - 14:20] Come with a new name rebrand everything brand new to which the whole nine whole new YouTube outlook
[14:21 - 14:23] Because I want to be successful
[14:24 - 14:30] You know, I want to be successful
[14:31 - 14:46] And you know what I say to that the trolls can be there all they want
[14:48 - 14:58] Let me ask you this. How can the trolls win if I don't go live on here?
[15:00 - 15:03] Think about it. If I don't go live on here
[15:04 - 15:07] How can they
[15:07 - 15:21] Do anything? Oh, no, we're not repeating the same cycle again. You want to know what I'm doing Eddie
[15:22 - 15:24] I'll take him back my power
[15:25 - 15:30] I'll take him back who I've wanted to be this whole time and I'm running with it
[15:30 - 15:39] I'm taking back the power from the trolls and I'm doing what I should have done a long time ago and get me behind that fucking wheel
[15:39 - 16:07] Get me behind that goddamn patroller doing what I should have done the whole time and making a career out of what I love to do but
[16:08 - 16:16] With that being said, I love you guys and I'll see you guys on the track