Original upload date: September 24th, 2021 (automatically grabbed from title)
[0:44 - 0:50] Courtney if you're watching this, I do want to say that I'm sorry for going off on you
[0:50 - 0:53] But there's something that you do need to understand
[0:55 - 1:05] There's something that you seriously need to understand. I did not ask to be famous. I
[1:06 - 1:13] Never wanted to be famous in this way. I never asked for this
[1:14 - 1:25] You know what I wanted? I wanted to build up a community on my own of positive like-minded people that weren't trolls
[1:25 - 1:34] I wanted to build a positive community of people that I could be proud to say that I know I
[1:38 - 1:43] Never asked for this level of fame. I never wanted this kind of fame ever. I
[1:44 - 1:53] Never wanted this and they get some points where they go too far
[1:54 - 1:57] They have seriously gone way too fucking far
[1:57 - 2:07] You want to know why cuz I'm done listening
[2:07 - 2:12] I have listened to so many motherfucking people and no one wants to fucking hear me out
[2:12 - 2:24] I have listened so many fucking times to people yet. No one wants to fucking hear what I have to say
[2:25 - 2:29] No one fucking wants to listen to me and what I'm going through
[2:29 - 2:37] I have listened and listened and listened and listen well
[2:37 - 2:42] Maybe it's goddamn about time that somebody fucking listens to me
[2:42 - 3:02] It does something about this shit, you know, there comes a point
[3:03 - 3:04] where
[3:04 - 3:16] There comes a point where things go way too far and these people have gone way too fucking far I
[3:18 - 3:26] Lost my whole life in the matter of a year and a half in a year and a half
[3:26 - 3:34] I lost everything. I lost my best friend. I lost my job. I
[3:35 - 3:42] Lost everything. I am now being labeled as a pedophile when clearly I'm not I
[3:44 - 3:48] Get weird looks from my neighbors as I walk down the street now
[3:48 - 3:56] The same people that used to give me hugs when I would walk down the street and ask how I'm doing
[3:57 - 4:00] The same ones that just a year and a half ago
[4:01 - 4:06] Would always stop by and ask how I'm doing and now I just get dirty looks
[4:07 - 4:20] You really don't understand what it's like to be in my position
[4:21 - 4:29] If you've lived in my position, if you were in my position for even one day, then you would understand
[4:30 - 4:34] But you don't know what it's like to
[4:35 - 4:41] Have your whole career be held back because motherfuckers want to sit there and screw you over. I
[4:42 - 4:44] Have had everything worth away from me
[4:46 - 4:48] everything
[4:48 - 4:58] My music career my athlete career doing sim racing
[4:59 - 5:05] I've had everything worth away from me and just tonight. I had my twitch ripped away from me
[5:08 - 5:11] Just tonight. I had my twitch ripped away from me
[5:11 - 5:17] I literally had to go in and shut my fucking twitch down because of these motherfuckers. I
[5:17 - 5:19] had to shut my twitch down
[5:20 - 5:34] Because of these people and trust me when I say you don't understand it's how you've been on the edge of suicide for being bullied
[5:35 - 5:45] So fucking much. I can't even post on my own Facebook anymore. I
[5:46 - 5:50] Literally am afraid to even post on my own fucking Facebook
[5:51 - 5:58] My own fucking Facebook where I hang out with my friends. I can't even post anything on Facebook now
[5:59 - 6:09] Because I'm too fucking afraid of one of these motherfuckers going in and doing what they did to my twitch
[6:10 - 6:19] Do you understand that Marty? I know you're probably watching this Marty, but do you understand that?
[6:20 - 6:22] Do you understand what what that's like?
[6:23 - 6:29] To want to be able to post on your own fucking Facebook
[6:29 - 6:34] But nobody will fucking hardly talk to you because you got these motherfuckers
[6:37 - 6:39] talking in their ear
[6:39 - 6:49] Saying that on this saying that I'm not and then using what mass whole reports has posted to do it
[6:49 - 7:06] I never asked for this. I never asked for this harassment. I never asked to
[7:07 - 7:17] Be taken advantage of I never asked to be dehumanized. I never asked
[7:18 - 7:23] To be degraded to such a degree to where I feel worthless. I
[7:24 - 7:38] Never asked for this. I never asked for any of this
[7:39 - 7:46] All I've ever asked is for a normal life and a fair chance to do what I love without being trolled or harassed
[7:47 - 7:53] That's all I've ever asked for is a normal life where I could do what I love
[7:53 - 7:56] That's all I've asked for
[7:56 - 8:33] Tell Marty if he wants to fucking do something he needs to go to fuck after that fucking
[8:33 - 8:40] What's his fucking ain't I glory hold you telling to go after him? I'm done with it. I'm done with this
[8:41 - 9:20] I'm sorry. I'm not coming back out there. I'm done with this. I never asked for this kind of thing. I
[9:21 - 9:27] Did it I never asked to be attacked. I never asked to be trolled
[9:27 - 9:32] I never asked to be pushed to the edge of suicide
[9:34 - 9:38] I've never asked to be taken advantage of I
[9:41 - 9:59] Never asked to be made out to be a monster that I'm not I just want my normal life back
[9:59 - 10:15] Which is why after this video, I'm not doing any kind of streaming anymore. I'm not doing it
[10:15 - 10:21] I'm not going on Twitch. I'm not going on YouTube. I'm not doing anything
[10:22 - 10:24] anymore I
[10:24 - 10:26] Want my normal life back
[10:26 - 10:32] The normal life that I lost a year and a half ago. I want that back
[10:32 - 10:44] So bad you really don't understand
[10:45 - 12:12] How bad I want my normal life back. I wish I knew what I did to deserve this
[12:12 - 14:06] I wish to God. I knew what I did to deserve this. I just wish you all understood
[14:06 - 14:12] I can't do this anymore
[14:13 - 14:15] I'm tired of being sick
[14:16 - 14:19] I'm tired of my life
[14:19 - 14:21] My life is very dangerous
[14:22 - 14:31] tired of everything
[14:31 - 14:39] Why?
[14:39 - 14:41] After tonight
[14:41 - 14:44] I'm leaving YouTube and I'm not doing anything anymore
[14:46 - 14:51] That's how God. I want my life back. I'm not doing anything and he's talking more
[14:59 - 15:01] I just want my life back
[15:04 - 15:45] The only way I could do it is by leaving. There's no way I have to be dehumanized
[15:46 - 15:50] to be manned
[15:50 - 15:52] be a little
[15:52 - 15:54] Made it feel like I'm worth
[15:55 - 15:57] Made it feel like I'm worth it
[15:58 - 16:25] I'm done. I'm done. I can't fight anymore
[16:25 - 16:29] I just thought as much as I can
[16:31 - 16:33] I can't do it anymore
[16:33 - 17:28] I'm done. I can't do this anymore
[17:32 - 17:37] I really can't
[17:37 - 17:39] This is my farewell
[17:39 - 17:43] On all platforms
[17:43 - 17:45] We're good
[17:45 - 17:58] Thank you guys for everything over these last ten years
[17:58 - 18:03] Thank you guys for everything you've done
[18:03 - 18:23] I don't know how to say other than goodbye
[18:23 - 18:26] Thank you guys
Transcribed by lolcow.city as id '930' on August 7th, 2024
