2020-12-12 the soulless demon

[0:00 - 0:19] A Marty, you spineless coward.
[0:19 - 0:26] I hope you're happy.
[0:26 - 0:39] Because of you, I lost the one thing that means more to me than anything in the fucking
[0:39 - 0:56] world.
[0:56 - 1:04] Because of you, I lost my reason to fight.
[1:04 - 1:13] Because of you, I lost everything.
[1:13 - 1:24] Because of you, the person I loved lost everyone in her family.
[1:24 - 1:38] Because of you, Caitlyn's family will no longer speak to her, and because of you, because
[1:38 - 1:49] of you and what you've done Marty, I lost my will and my reason to fight.
[1:49 - 1:57] Because of you, I've lost everything.
[1:57 - 2:16] Because of your lies, because of you, I've become the soulless heartless demon.
[2:16 - 2:39] Because of you, you've enough, and you think it's okay to do what you did.
[2:39 - 2:59] Because of you, I lost everything.
[2:59 - 5:49] Because of you, I've become the soulless heartless demon.
[5:49 - 6:05] Because of you, Marty, I've lost everything that means the world to me.
[6:05 - 6:19] And what I don't understand is why.
[6:19 - 6:26] After I apologized to you, and I told you I was sorry for what I said.
[6:26 - 6:30] Why couldn't you just leave well enough alone?
[6:30 - 6:33] I don't get it.
[6:33 - 6:36] I didn't deserve what you did to me.
[6:36 - 6:41] Caitlin didn't deserve what you did to her family.
[6:41 - 6:46] Because of you, her family abandoned her.
[6:46 - 6:51] And where is that fair to her?
[6:51 - 6:55] You sorry, son of a bitch.
[6:55 - 7:05] Because of you, Caitlin's family now wants nothing to do with her.
[7:05 - 7:11] And like I said, where is that fair to her?
[7:11 - 7:18] Because of the lies that you told about me.
[7:18 - 7:27] Because of the bullshit that you did to me.
[7:27 - 7:31] I think it's time you tell the fucking truth, Marty.
[7:31 - 7:40] You and I both know that I'm not the way that you and Tyler are making me out to be.
[7:40 - 7:52] It's time to tell the truth, Marty.
[7:52 - 7:55] Why'd you stop being an old bitch, coward, Marty?
[7:55 - 7:58] And tell the goddamn truth?
[7:58 - 8:06] And stop running your mouth like a fucking bitch?
[8:06 - 8:11] You fucking bitch made coward.
[8:11 - 8:24] I hope you run, hell.
[8:24 - 8:33] I'm gonna tell you the same way that I always do.
[8:33 - 8:46] This is the last time that I'll fake for the sake of being with you.
[8:46 - 8:55] The sacrifice of hiding in a way.
[8:55 - 9:05] The sacrifice is never knowing why I never walked away, why I blame myself this way.
[9:05 - 9:14] Now I see you're testing me, pushes me away, why I never walked away, why I blame myself this way.
[9:14 - 9:19] Now I see you're testing me, pushes me away.
[9:19 - 9:28] I'm trying like you to do everything you wanted to.
[9:28 - 9:42] This is the last time that I'll fake for the sake of being with you.
[9:42 - 9:51] The sacrifice of hiding in a way.
[9:51 - 10:01] The sacrifice is never knowing why I never walked away, why I blame myself this way.
[10:01 - 10:10] Now I see you're testing me, pushes me away, why I never walked away, why I blame myself this way.
[10:10 - 10:19] Now I see you're testing me, pushes me away.
[10:19 - 10:28] The sacrifice of hiding in a way.
[10:28 - 10:38] The sacrifice is never knowing why I never walked away, why I blame myself this way.
[10:38 - 10:47] Now I see you're testing me, pushes me away, why I never walked away, why I blame myself this way.
[10:47 - 11:08] Now I see you're testing me, pushes me away.
[11:08 - 11:23] Now I see you're testing me, pushes me away, why I never walked away, why I never walked away, why I never walked away.
[11:23 - 11:44] I see you're testing me, pushes me away, why I never walked away, why I never walked away.
[11:44 - 11:54] Now I see you're testing me, pushes me away, why I never walked away, why I never walked away, why I never walked away.
[11:54 - 12:02] Now I see you're testing me, pushes me away, why I never walked away, why I never walked away.
[12:02 - 12:41] Now I see you're testing me, pushes me away, why I never walked away, why I never walked away, why I never walked away.
[12:41 - 12:51] Now it's me, I remember what they taught me, remembering conversation and talking who I ought to be, remember listening to all of that and this again.
[12:51 - 13:00] So I pretended to be the person who was fitting in and now you think this person really is me and I'm trying to find the truth.
[13:00 - 13:09] I'm trying to put the moral flow in the way because I'm letting my way from now.
[13:09 - 13:15] Never let me push aside, so let me go.
[13:15 - 13:41] Let me think about my life, I'd rather be shot alone, can't I wear it on my own, cause I can say, the very worst part of you, the very worst part of you, just me, like this.
[13:41 - 14:06] Like this, like this, like this now, I wanna be pushed by, don't let me go.
[14:06 - 14:25] Let me think about my life, I'd rather be shot alone, can't I wear it on my own, cause I can say, the very worst part of you, the very worst part of you, it's me.
[14:25 - 14:47] Go ahead Marty, why don't you tell the motherfucking truth you spineless bitch.
[14:47 - 15:03] Why don't you tell the fucking truth you spineless coward. Why don't you tell the whole world how you forged my name on a fake legal document.
[15:03 - 15:13] Why don't you tell the world about how you stole private videos between me and my ex and posted them up on a fucking porn site.
[15:13 - 15:34] Why don't you tell the world about how you went behind my back and Caitlin's back and made me look like a piece of shit to her family who has now disowned her because of you and your selfish actions and your selfish greed.
[15:34 - 15:39] You couldn't leave well enough alone could you motherfucker.
[15:39 - 15:44] I apologize to you and what do you do.
[15:44 - 15:56] You call it me for revenge. I didn't deserve what you did to me. Caitlin and her family didn't deserve what you did to them or to her.
[15:56 - 16:14] Not because of you, Caitlin is now gone back to being a cold hearted person like she used to be. And now because of you, I have now become this heartless, soulless demon that I used to be.
[16:14 - 16:21] Because of you, I've become this way. Because of you, I am made this way.
[16:21 - 16:29] You think I wanted to be like this. What you did was uncalled for.
[16:29 - 16:39] What you did was sickening.
[16:39 - 16:51] Now because of you, I not only lost the woman that I love, who meant the whole fucking world to me.
[16:51 - 17:05] But my girl, the one that I loved, lost her fucking family, who now will no longer speak to her because of you.
[17:05 - 17:13] And you think that's funny, don't you? You and your little fucking troll minions, you think that's fucking funny, I'll bet.
[17:13 - 17:21] Well the truth is, motherfucker, it's not funny and it's not okay.
[17:21 - 17:25] You're a spineless coward.
[17:25 - 17:34] And honestly, you deserve to have a bullet between your goddamn head. You deserve to have a bullet in your fucking head.
[17:34 - 17:42] You deserve to have your fucking sweat thrown. You deserve to have your throat slit. You deserve to have a bullet between your eyes.
[17:42 - 17:49] You deserve to rot in hell.
[17:49 - 17:52] Follow me to green's comfort.
[17:52 - 17:56] Damn it, guys.
[18:10 - 18:12] (mumbling)
[18:38 - 18:42] ? My style, the lines in my mind ?
[18:42 - 18:46] ? I can't rely on myself, my style ?
[18:46 - 18:49] ? I don't mind, I can't rely on myself, my style ?
[18:49 - 18:53] ? It's all time ?
[18:53 - 18:58] ? It's all too much to take ?
[18:58 - 19:03] ? I can't all time ?
[19:03 - 19:08] ? The fire I feel you're seeking here ?
[19:08 - 19:15] ? When I'm trying to seem senseless ?
[19:15 - 19:19] ? Trying to try to not be on time ?
[19:19 - 19:22] ? But I'm trying to catch mommy out, run ?
[19:22 - 19:24] ? There's another cancer ?
[19:24 - 19:26] ? There were sounds in the sense of the answer ?
[19:26 - 19:28] ? My style ?
[19:28 - 19:30] ? When I give my mind to my ?
[19:30 - 19:32] ? I can't rely on myself, my style ?
[19:32 - 19:34] ? Ow, in my mind ?
[19:34 - 19:38] ? I can't rely on myself, my style ?
[19:38 - 19:41] ? It's all time ?
[19:41 - 19:45] ? It's all too much to take ?
[19:45 - 19:50] ? I can't all time ?
[19:50 - 19:55] ? The fire I feel you're seeking here ?
[19:55 - 20:10] I want you to know Marty that because of you and what you've done to Caitlin I almost killed
[20:10 - 20:37] myself twice within 48 hours no no no no no no no no no no no I can't hold on it's
[20:37 - 21:05] all too much to take and I can't hold on it's all too much to take and I can't hold on the
[21:05 - 21:34] thoughts of you and let me tell you right now Marty
[21:34 - 21:45] because of what you've done everything that you've done the other day the other day because
[21:45 - 21:53] of you Marty I almost took my own life twice in a row within 48 hours because of you and
[21:53 - 22:05] what you've done to me you're lucky that I have an amazing support system you're lucky
[22:05 - 22:14] that I have friends that actually helped me because it wasn't for my friends to Marco
[22:14 - 22:25] Brittany and Ted I wouldn't be here right now and more importantly if I wasn't for Caitlin
[22:25 - 22:32] stepping in the last minute on my final attempt I wouldn't be here right now and guess what
[22:32 - 23:01] if I wasn't here my blood and my death would be on your hands
[23:01 - 23:10] and to Caitlin if you're watching this I want to reel you back Caitlin if you're watching
[23:10 - 23:20] this I'm still here and I'm still fighting I'm not giving up not yet the fight is far
[23:20 - 23:31] from over I will come here to drink today feel cold and static for a cold feet on the
[23:31 - 23:38] floor for God know about yesterday remembering I'm pretending to be who I'm not and see some
[23:38 - 23:44] hypocrisy left in the way get a mistake told to react is so close to me you're still so
[23:44 - 23:57] distant yeah I can't bring you back yes trial the way I feel was promised by your face the
[23:57 - 24:12] sound of your voice paint down my memories even if you're not with me I'm with you with
[24:12 - 24:21] you you made me hear me back we fall to the floor the rest of the day say it's still
[24:21 - 24:26] fine because it's not when things go wrong I'm pretending the past is the real I'm trapped
[24:26 - 24:32] in this memory you're left in the wake in the mistake so to react is still close to
[24:32 - 24:41] me you're still so distant yeah I can't bring you back it's trial the way I feel was promised
[24:41 - 24:54] by your face the sound of your voice paint down my memories even if you're not with me
[24:54 - 25:14] I'm with you with you with you
[25:14 - 25:41] no no matter how far we've come I can't wait to see tomorrow no matter how far we've come
[25:41 - 26:03] I can't wait to see tomorrow with you with you with you
[26:03 - 27:55] no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no
[27:55 - 28:17] no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no
[28:17 - 28:28] this time man I will not die I'll wait here for you in my time of dying
[28:42 - 29:01] I will not die I'll wait here for you I feel alive when you're beside me I will not die I'll wait here for you in my time of dying
[29:01 - 29:21] I will not die I'll wait here for you I will not die when you're beside me I will not die I'll wait here for you in my time of dying
[29:21 - 29:23] now
[29:23 - 29:48] I will not die I'll wait here for you I'll wait here for you I will not die I'll wait here for you I'll wait here for you in my time of dying
[29:48 - 30:18] you know a lot of you guys might be sitting there wondering why why I'm breaking down so much
[30:18 - 30:28] but if you guys got put through what I got put through maybe then you would understand
[30:28 - 30:45] imagine losing the one that you love that you care about so much to a lie and a rumor spread by your worst enemy to your loved one's family
[30:45 - 31:07] who abandoned her all because of a lie because of Marty I lost Caitlin the love of my life the one person that actually made me happy after 11 years of abuse
[31:07 - 31:28] 11 years of abuse back to back to back and Caitlin changed all that when she came into my fucking life she showed me compassion she showed me what true love really is
[31:28 - 31:40] she showed me that I could be myself again if I chose to it's because of her that I went back to being who I should have been the entire fucking time
[31:40 - 32:01] it's because of her that I went back to being the lovable happy me that was at 16 years old before I even started this fucking journey
[32:01 - 32:24] because of you Marty I lost everything I lost the one thing that was worth getting out for I lost the one person that means the more to me than you will ever fucking understand
[32:24 - 32:39] I just wish you understood my pain
[32:39 - 33:05] and if Caitlin's watching this Caitlin I want you to know that I love you
[33:05 - 33:21] and I'm waiting and I'm here
[33:21 - 33:35] living on a fearless, guilty and broken town inside living with myself nothing but lies
[33:35 - 33:49] I always thought I'd make it but knew I'd let it get so bad living with myself is all I have
[33:49 - 34:04] I feel numb I can't come to life I feel like I'm frozen in time living in a world so cold
[34:04 - 34:24] wasting away living in a shell with no soul since you got away living in a world so cold counting the days since you got away
[34:24 - 34:47] you got away do you ever feel me do you ever look deep down inside staring at yourself paralyzed
[34:47 - 35:02] I feel numb I can't come to life I feel like I'm frozen in time living in a world so cold
[35:02 - 35:23] wasting away living in a shell with no soul since you got away living in a world so cold counting the days since you got away
[35:23 - 35:45] you got away from me I'm too young to lose my soul too young to feel restored for so long
[35:45 - 35:55] from living on I feel like I'm loose in my mind
[35:55 - 36:00] do you ever feel me
[36:00 - 36:11] when you know this side staring at your life paralyzed living in a world so cold
[36:11 - 36:25] wasting away living in a shell with no soul since you got away living in a world so cold
[36:25 - 36:39] counting the days since you got away you got away from me I'm too young
[36:39 - 36:47] too young!
[36:47 - 36:54] I'm too young to live in a world so cold
[36:54 - 37:09] wasting away living in a shell since you got away from me
[37:09 - 37:31] I've been crossed I've been crossed I've been shaken by the ones that kept me off
[37:31 - 37:45] I've been cut I've been opened up I've been shattered by the ones I thought I loved
[37:45 - 37:54] you left me here like a chalk outline on the sidewalk waiting for the rain to wash away
[37:54 - 38:03] you keep coming back to the scene of the crime where the dead can't speak and there's nothing
[38:03 - 38:16] left to say anyway oh you're never behind here's a chalk outline
[38:16 - 38:29] I've been called in the crypt but not as the cold as the words across your lips
[38:29 - 38:42] you'll be sorry baby some day when you reach across the bed where my body used to lay
[38:42 - 38:50] you left me here like a chalk outline on the sidewalk waiting for the rain to wash away
[38:50 - 38:59] wash away you keep coming back to the scene of the crime where the dead can't speak and
[38:59 - 39:12] there's nothing left to say anyway oh you're never behind here's a chalk outline oh you're
[39:12 - 39:36] the chalk outline oh you're never behind you keep coming back to the side of the sidewalk
[39:36 - 39:47] waiting for the rain to wash away wash away you keep coming back to the scene of the crime
[39:47 - 40:09] where the dead can't speak and there's nothing left to say anyway there's a chalk outline
[40:09 - 40:11] you
[40:11 - 40:16] can't speak and there's nothing left to say
[40:16 - 40:26] oh you're never behind here's a chalk outline
[40:26 - 40:54] I don't belong here not in this atmosphere
[40:54 - 41:08] goodbye goodbye goodbye I don't belong here not in this atmosphere
[41:08 - 41:14] goodbye goodbye goodbye I can tell you can't get no punch
[41:14 - 41:26] it caught in the face and I was in the race I was in the race yeah yeah
[41:26 - 41:36] there's a thousand times being humankind keeping up with the pace keeping up with the pace yeah
[41:36 - 41:50] yeah I think running I think you're running think you're running the human face the human
[41:50 - 42:07] face you know it's under nine then the logo blind take it down to see is on the sea yeah
[42:07 - 42:17] don't fall beyond no finish line it could happen to you it can happen to me yeah
[42:17 - 42:44] I don't belong here not in this atmosphere goodbye goodbye goodbye
[42:44 - 42:53] I can't get no punch it caught in the face and I was in the race I was in the race yeah
[42:53 - 43:10] human race think you're running I think you're running I think you're running on the human race the human race
[43:10 - 43:25] I don't belong here not in this atmosphere goodbye goodbye goodbye
[43:25 - 43:53] I don't belong here not in this atmosphere goodbye goodbye goodbye goodbye goodbye goodbye
[43:53 - 44:19] I don't belong here not in this atmosphere goodbye goodbye goodbye goodbye
[44:19 - 44:53] thank you
[44:53 - 45:05] I want to say thank you to my friends
[45:07 - 45:22] who saved me not making them alive in my way there's you I try to make it through these lies
[45:23 - 45:38] and that's all I do so don't deny it don't try to fight this and deal with it it's just fun to be
[45:43 - 45:57] if you were dead or sin alone I don't care I don't care just go and leave this all beyond
[45:57 - 46:07] cuz I swear I swear I don't care I'm trying to make you seem alive
[46:07 - 46:15] it's always trying to stay in line but your eyes see right through that's all I do
[46:15 - 46:24] I'm getting buried in this place you got no room here in my face don't say anything just go away
[46:29 - 46:42] if you were dead or sin alone I don't care I don't care just go and leave this all beyond
[46:43 - 47:00] cuz I swear I swear I don't care I'm changing everything you want me there for me
[47:06 - 47:15] I'm changing everything you want me there for me
[47:15 - 47:21] I want to say thank you to Brittany to Marco Ted all my friends that were on Facebook that
[47:21 - 47:42] day that saved me thank you I love you guys if you were dead or sin alone I don't care I don't
[47:42 - 47:53] care just go leave this all beyond cuz I swear I swear I don't care
[47:56 - 48:17] then let us in alive I don't care care I don't care just go and leave this all beyond cuz I swear I swear I don't care
[48:18 - 48:22] I don't care
[48:22 - 48:33] in the comments right now
[48:33 - 48:44] what I want to say in the chat right now from all you guys
[48:45 - 48:49] from all my supporters and all my fans I want you guys
[48:49 - 49:01] to put these to put these names as hashtags and thank you behind them for what I'm about to put in the chat
[49:01 - 49:03] so I'm going to start with you guys. Thank you.
[49:03 - 49:24] you
[49:50 - 49:56] I want you guys to copy and paste that in the fucking chat I don't care whose names you put
[49:56 - 50:03] if you put one or all three because if it wasn't for them I wouldn't be here right now
[50:03 - 50:07] they saved my life
[50:10 - 50:19] I owe my life to them they stopped me from ending my own life because of Marty
[50:28 - 50:41] and to DeMarco, Brittany, Ted, thank you guys
[50:41 - 50:43] you guys saved my life
[50:43 - 50:52] and honestly I did this dream because I wanted you guys to know the fucking truth
[50:52 - 50:57] about what Marty really fucking did despite what he puts on his goddamn channel
[50:58 - 51:09] because if it wasn't for Ted or Brittany or DeMarco I wouldn't be here right now
[51:09 - 51:18] because of Marty I almost killed myself twice within 48 hours
[51:18 - 51:36] but the one thing that stopped me not only wasn't DeMarco and Ted and Brittany
[51:36 - 51:41] but it was also the thought of how much I needed K1
[51:41 - 51:47] the thought of K1 helped me as well
[51:47 - 51:52] and Caitlin if you ever watch this
[51:52 - 52:00] I want you to know that I love you and I'm sorry for what Marty did to you and your family
[52:00 - 52:06] I'm sorry that he isolated you from your family and made your family abandon you
[52:06 - 52:09] you didn't deserve that
[52:16 - 52:20] and if I could take back what happened I would in a fucking heartbeat
[52:20 - 52:27] but Marty I hope you know that I'm coming for your fucking head
[52:27 - 52:32] I'm out for blood and I am coming for you
[52:32 - 52:41] and I will not stop I will not rest until you are either behind bars or Ted in the fucking ground
[52:43 - 52:52] and you want to know why because you deserve it you deserve to fucking die you deserve
[52:52 - 52:59] to pay for what you've done to me and more importantly what you did to Caitlin's family
[52:59 - 53:05] you took Caitlin's family away from her
[53:09 - 53:14] you isolated Caitlin from her family by spreading lies about me
[53:14 - 53:21] by getting them involved with trauma that they didn't need to be involved with
[53:21 - 53:34] and let this be a lesson to not only Marty but anybody who has a problem with me
[53:37 - 53:43] if you have a problem with me come to me directly and we'll settle it like men
[53:43 - 53:48] don't get people involved that don't need to be involved
[53:48 - 53:55] like if I have a girlfriend don't involve my girlfriend don't involve my girlfriend's family
[53:55 - 54:00] if you have a problem with me come to me directly it makes me like a fucking man
[54:00 - 54:04] and don't be a bitch coward and full of bitch move like Marty
[54:04 - 54:11] well Marty I want you to know right now that you're a coward
[54:11 - 54:22] you're a spineless weak bitch made coward and quite honestly you don't deserve to live
[54:22 - 54:31] to be honest with you if I had it my fucking way I would slit your goddamn throat
[54:31 - 54:38] and watch you bleed out slowly as you gargle and you suffer slowly
[54:38 - 54:46] or maybe I just take a fucking revolver and put a bullet between your goddamn eyes
[54:46 - 54:56] because you deserve every bit of bullshit every bit of pain and suffering that you get
[54:59 - 55:07] you took away everything from me now I am going to take everything that you love away from you
[55:07 - 55:12] and if you don't believe me try me
[55:12 - 55:18] I will take everything that you love away Marty
[55:22 - 55:28] I will destroy you you want a war you got a war
[55:28 - 55:38] matter of fact everybody here right now I want every one of you to go over to music biz marty's
[55:38 - 55:46] channel and report the fuck out of every one of his videos his channel no matter who it's on
[55:46 - 55:51] no matter whether it's on me whether it's on suplex whether it's his channel directly
[55:51 - 55:55] I want every one of you to go over there right the fuck now
[55:55 - 56:00] and report the fuck out of his channel until his channel is gone
[56:00 - 56:12] and that's not a request that's a fucking order from your leader of the shadow blade army
[56:17 - 56:32] you have your orders now go report the fuck out of his channel and bring this motherfucker down
[56:32 - 56:34] you