[16Jun24] Cyraxx - My Final Farewell (Audio Boosted)

[0:00 - 0:18] Oh YouTube, um, this video is probably the hardest video I've ever had to make because I never thought I'd be saying this, but that post that I made earlier today is real.
[0:18 - 0:35] I am leaving YouTube forever and I am not coming back because I want to get back to who I used to be before all this crazy stuff started.
[0:35 - 0:59] I will not be posting anymore. I have already asked a couple very good friends of mine on my behalf to please delete the channel after this video goes up.
[0:59 - 1:22] As well as my 1000+ subscriber channel. I will not be on kick or twitch or anything like that because I'm going back to my roots to re-find who I truly am as a person.
[1:22 - 1:31] I am focusing solely on my music, my friends and leading a normal life.
[1:31 - 1:40] The events after last night made me realize that this is not worth it.
[1:40 - 1:51] Doing YouTube is not worth it for me. It's not worth my mental health, it's not worth my physical health.
[1:51 - 1:59] It's not worth me fighting with my family every day.
[1:59 - 2:11] And it's not worth fighting with people who don't know me, who think they do when they don't.
[2:11 - 2:27] But I just wanted to say to all my fans and my supporters, who have shown me love and compassion over the years, I want to say thank you guys.
[2:27 - 2:37] Thank you guys for all the amazing memories, all the cool stuff that you guys have sent me that I fully enjoyed.
[2:37 - 2:48] All the awesome moments that we shared, all the laughs, all the times you guys were there for me when I was going through hardships.
[2:48 - 2:54] You guys were there for me when I lost friends, family.
[2:54 - 3:05] When I was on the edge of throwing my life away, you guys reached out and you guys helped so much.
[3:05 - 3:13] And to the real supporters and the fans who did that, I can't thank you enough.
[3:13 - 3:19] I can never repay what you guys have done for me.
[3:19 - 3:25] But last night made me realize that Marty and all this stuff, it isn't worth it.
[3:25 - 3:30] Fighting with a loser like Marty is not worth it.
[3:30 - 3:40] This morning before I made this post, I really sat down and thought about it like, should I fight back or should I just walk away?
[3:40 - 3:48] And I had this conversation with my family and several very, very good friends of mine all on call at the same time.
[3:48 - 3:56] And we all came to the conclusion that it is best for me to just walk away.
[3:56 - 4:15] Because I've wasted seven years of my life on somebody whose opinion and whose idiocy and whose cloud chasing I let take over my life.
[4:15 - 4:23] And I'm not going to waste another seven years doing that.
[4:23 - 4:33] I'm not going to waste another seven years on something that does not truly matter.
[4:33 - 4:39] YouTube as a tool for me was great. It allowed me to make new friends.
[4:39 - 4:54] It allowed me to express myself in various ways through music, through doing short films, through music videos, through cover shows and various other things.
[4:54 - 5:07] But as a long term thing, I cannot see it being viable for me.
[5:07 - 5:20] I wanted to make this video as one final farewell to all my fans and my real supporters out there who have had my back all these years.
[5:20 - 5:33] You guys have been so amazing to me. You guys have been more than amazing.
[5:33 - 5:42] You know, one of my friends suggested that I do one final farewell cover show, but I couldn't do it.
[5:42 - 5:48] I couldn't bring myself to do it.
[5:48 - 5:57] And I just wanted to close out privately with that post and this video.
[5:57 - 6:12] But the rumors of me leaving social media such as YouTube, Twitch, Kick, those are all very real.
[6:12 - 6:29] And after tonight, these accounts, they will be deactivated and they will be gone forever.
[6:29 - 6:38] And before I go, I do want to say to anybody out there who I have heard over the years, I am genuinely sorry.
[6:38 - 6:49] To anybody out there who I have may have pissed off or wronged in some sort of way, I'm sorry that I did that to you.
[6:49 - 7:05] And to Marty, I do want to say this. Whatever I did to you to make you angry, to make you want to have so much hatred, I'm sorry.
[7:05 - 7:10] But you do also have to understand that you are partly to blame.
[7:10 - 7:25] And I do hope that you find it in yourself to understand your wrongs, just as I have come to understand and accept my wrongs.
[7:25 - 7:34] But from here on out, I will not be making any more videos. I will not be live streaming anymore.
[7:34 - 7:52] I will be focusing on myself and getting the true help that I need on my own through my friends, my family, and people that I know that can help me get back on the right track.
[7:52 - 7:59] Because I do want to get back on the right track.
[7:59 - 8:08] And the only people that can truly help me do that are my friends, my family, and myself.
[8:08 - 8:16] And that's what I'm going to be focusing on as well as going back to my roots as a music artist.
[8:16 - 8:28] And for those of you wondering, will I be doing any diss tracks on anyone? No. I will not.
[8:28 - 8:37] Instead, I will be taking the lessons that I've learned over these last seven years and putting them to use.
[8:37 - 9:00] Whether good, bad, in between, I will be using my experiences to influence my songs that I will be working on.
[9:00 - 9:09] To Edward Boy and William Gloryhole, I hope that you guys can learn to let go just as I have learned to let go of YouTube.
[9:09 - 9:20] I hope that you guys can move on with your lives just as I am moving on with mine.
[9:20 - 9:28] This platform is not worth it to me.
[9:28 - 9:36] YouTube, to me, has become a place of imprisonment.
[9:36 - 9:44] It's become a place that I no longer need to be nor want to be.
[9:44 - 10:04] It is a place where I have found more hatred and darkness than I have light, peace, and understanding as I originally sought out.
[10:04 - 10:15] But to my fans that don't want me to go, I understand why you don't want me to go. I do. I understand.
[10:15 - 10:23] But I also hope that you guys understand that I have to do this for myself.
[10:23 - 10:35] But more importantly, for my health, my well-being, my mental state, and my friends and my family.
[10:35 - 10:43] Because that to me, above all else, is most important.
[10:43 - 10:53] But to everybody that has shown love and support for me over the years, I would like to say thank you.
[10:53 - 10:59] I would like to say thank you to my moderators that have been so amazing over the years.
[10:59 - 11:07] To all my moderators that I'm still very good friends with, to this day that are genuinely good people,
[11:07 - 11:19] you guys did an amazing job and I can never thank you guys enough for that.
[11:19 - 11:25] And if there was a way that I could repay you, I would.
[11:25 - 11:38] But to my fans, my supporters, thank you so much for the wonderful years that you guys have given me on this platform.
[11:38 - 12:04] But now, it is my time to part and say farewell so that I may grow as a person so that one day in the very distant future,
[12:04 - 12:12] when other YouTubers that see what I've been through and see what I've dealt with, or see my videos,
[12:12 - 12:23] I hope that they inspire those people to continue to be creative and to follow their own path.
[12:23 - 12:30] And I hope that my videos did bring you guys some sort of inspiration.
[12:30 - 12:38] I hope that my videos over the years have, you know, inspired you guys to continue to fight the good fight.
[12:38 - 12:46] I hope that they inspire you guys to always follow your dreams.
[12:46 - 12:58] And I hope that they also showed you guys that we are all only human.
[12:58 - 13:06] We all make mistakes. We all mess up.
[13:06 - 13:15] But it's what we do after we mess up that defines where we go in life.
[13:15 - 13:23] I understand that I've messed up a lot.
[13:23 - 13:30] But I also understand where I am trying to go and I want to be the best version of myself that I can be,
[13:30 - 13:40] which is why I am leaving so I can work on myself.
[13:40 - 13:53] Like I said, I have wasted seven years of my life on someone whose opinion affected me so much.
[13:53 - 14:04] And I hope that you guys take that lesson and understand that you cannot let someone's opinion define what you do in life,
[14:04 - 14:10] or where you go, or how you act.
[14:10 - 14:19] I made that mistake and it almost ruined me.
[14:19 - 14:30] And I hope that one day down the road, maybe in the very, very distant future, like 20, 30 years from now,
[14:30 - 14:34] maybe one day I will be able to come back.
[14:34 - 14:44] But I cannot see a time at all in the future where I will be able to come back.
[14:44 - 15:06] For the next several years, I'm going to be working on myself and trying to get myself back to where I want to be in life.
[15:06 - 15:15] With that being said, guys, it's been a fun ride. It's been fun.
[15:15 - 15:22] And it's definitely been very interesting. For sure, it has been very interesting.
[15:22 - 15:29] But like I said, I hope that you guys can watch my videos back, whether they are very old or recent.
[15:29 - 15:37] I hope that you guys can watch my videos back, whether they are on archive channels or on here.
[15:37 - 15:50] I hope that you guys can watch my videos back and gain some sort of inspiration, life lessons.
[15:50 - 15:58] And I hope that I was able to help some of you out through your daily struggles.
[15:58 - 16:07] And I hope that you guys continue to fight the good fight and to keep chasing your dreams.
[16:07 - 16:17] With that being said, goodbye to YouTube, goodbye to my friends, and goodbye to my fans.
[16:17 - 16:24] This is Chance Wilkins signing off for the final time.
[16:24 - 16:28] Thank you guys so much for everything.
[16:28 - 16:36] With that being said, I'm out of here. See you later.
[16:36 - 16:39] Thank you for the memories.
[16:39 - 16:40] Yeah!
[16:40 - 16:42] (door opens)