[07Jun24] Cyraxx - I WANT OUT OF THIS TROLL COMMUNITY (2nd whine and cope)

[0:00 - 0:42] [Music]
[0:42 - 0:54] I know that normally my streams are fun and I'd be doing game play, but right now I need help.
[0:54 - 1:04] Since 2017 I've been being attacked and trolled to the point where I'm doing things that I know are wrong.
[1:04 - 1:12] I'm basically being forced to lash out and do things that I know are not okay that could get me in trouble.
[1:12 - 1:24] And I'm fucking tired of it.
[1:24 - 1:45] That photo that you see, that photo that you see in the thing, and that you guys see that photo of me in the thumbnail?
[1:45 - 2:01] That was me before the trolls started attacking me. That was how happy I was. That's how I was before all this.
[2:01 - 2:29] That's who I used to be. That person that you see in that thumbnail, that's who I used to fucking be.
[2:29 - 2:43] But ever since Marty stepped in, my whole world got fucking ruined.
[2:43 - 3:01] Ever since Marty stepped in, my whole fucking world got fucking ruined.
[3:01 - 3:18] That person that you see in that video, that person that you see in all those videos, lashing out, being angry, that's not who I want to be.
[3:18 - 3:29] I was made to be that way.
[3:29 - 3:58] I was forced to be that way by Marty.
[3:58 - 4:08] And what I don't get is how y'all motherfuckers in the chat just sit there and be okay with what the fuck he's done all these years.
[4:08 - 4:28] Y'all sit there and say that you know the real truth. Know the fuck you don't. None of you were there from day fucking one. Not one of you was there day fucking one when he targeted me and started going at me.
[4:28 - 4:38] None of you were fucking there.
[4:38 - 4:45] You don't understand the hell that I've been through because of these people.
[4:45 - 4:51] I don't deserve to be in this fucking shit.
[4:51 - 4:57] I want out of the troll community for good.
[4:57 - 5:01] I'm tired of being forced to lash out.
[5:01 - 5:23] I'm tired of being forced to attack people just to defend myself.
[5:23 - 5:40] Not to mention, not by the way, when I'm glad you brought that up, not to mention he just got caught shooting up heroin on a video call and discord a little bit ago.
[5:40 - 6:09] He literally got caught shooting up heroin a few minutes ago on a fucking discord call before he started his live stream.
[6:09 - 6:20] By the way, Luna, why don't you show these trolls what we do to trolls around here?
[6:20 - 6:27] Why don't you show these scumbags what we do to trolls around here?
[6:27 - 6:56] Hold nothing back. Any troll you see, wipe 'em.
[6:56 - 7:14] I am seriously tired of this shit.
[7:14 - 7:18] I'm tired of being angry all the time.
[7:18 - 7:26] Do I know what I'm doing is wrong? A lot of the times where I go, I'm paying only guess.
[7:26 - 7:35] But what choice do I fucking have when this man has made my life a living hell?
[7:35 - 7:58] For seven fucking years, going on eight years at the end of this year, this man has made my life a living fucking nightmare.
[7:58 - 8:11] Let me tell you right now, to the fake Luna NYC, to the fake Luna NYC that's not modded, let me tell you right now.
[8:11 - 8:18] I don't think you understand. I have no choice. I have to go on panel. Why?
[8:18 - 8:39] Because I am forced, I am literally forced to defend myself.
[8:39 - 9:08] I am literally forced to defend myself when I shouldn't fucking have to.
[9:08 - 9:35] I mean, that means that y'all see when I'm sitting down playing games, having fun with you guys, that's who I really am.
[9:35 - 9:43] Here's the thing, June's, what you don't understand is I have no choice but to fucking do it.
[9:43 - 9:55] And why don't I have a choice? Because this man is literally spreading lies and I'm not about to let one single fucking lie slip through the fucking cracks.
[9:55 - 10:00] I was raised that if you see something wrong, you fucking handle it.
[10:00 - 10:28] Don't sit there and take shit from nobody. You stand up for yourself.
[10:28 - 10:34] Exactly, Luna. You didn't do anything wrong, Luna. Fuck these guys.
[10:34 - 10:57] As far as I'm concerned, Luna, you're solid as a fucking rock. You're good. You're good in my fucking book.
[10:57 - 11:14] Man, y'all, I'm fixing it.
[11:14 - 11:18] Exactly, Luna. Exactly.
[11:18 - 11:26] And if I was that, why did the cops not fucking arrest me day one?
[11:26 - 11:36] And plus, Luna, here's a very valid point for you. Here's another good point for you, Luna.
[11:36 - 11:48] If I really was that, then why is it that police, FBI, and detectives all said that I'm not and that I'm being targeted unfairly and unjustly?
[11:48 - 11:59] Don't you think that if I was actually a real predator, they would have locked me up for a chance they had?
[11:59 - 12:28] All right, don't you think that would have done that by now, Luna?
[12:28 - 12:36] Exactly, Luna. It doesn't make sense.
[12:36 - 13:05] Y'all, strawberry, whatever. I am currently drinking peach Faygo.
[13:05 - 13:25] That is true.
[13:25 - 13:51] He did end up going to court, but the only reason why they didn't find him guilty was due to lack of evidence because they didn't have enough to convict him so they let him loose.
[13:51 - 14:01] You know, all I'm trying to do is get my life back. And Luna, you saw how I acted a few streams ago when we were all hanging out and I was playing Call of Duty.
[14:01 - 14:09] Was I not chill when we were all sitting down hanging out and I was playing Cod? Well, Call of Duty.
[14:09 - 14:29] Was I not sitting, was I not chill, hanging out with you guys, having fun? Was I not relaxed, having a good time?
[14:29 - 14:51] Was I not sitting down having fun? Real action, having a good time, not bothering nobody, not attacking nobody, just minding my own business and doing my own thing?
[14:51 - 15:02] I see that person that I was before all this, that's who I want to be again. I don't want to be angry like this anymore.
[15:02 - 15:15] I'm tired of this. I'm tired of these attacks. I'm tired of not being allowed to be who the fuck I want to be.
[15:15 - 15:23] I don't want to be angry. I don't want to lash out. I don't want to do shit that could potentially get me in trouble.
[15:23 - 15:32] I want to be who the fuck I was back in 2017 before all this shit started. That's what I want.
[15:32 - 15:41] What I don't get is why nobody will let me go back to that. Why is it that nobody wants me to go back to being who I used to be?
[15:41 - 15:50] Let me ask you that. Why don't you guys want me to go back to being who I used to be?
[15:50 - 15:57] The person that I used to be before all this is because you think it's funny when I rage out? Is that it?
[15:57 - 16:07] Is that why you do it because you think it's funny? You think it's funny when I get mad? You think it's funny when I get pissed?
[16:07 - 16:27] You think it's funny when I get pissed?
[16:27 - 16:30] Well, that's not me.
[16:30 - 16:37] If you're still here, ban every single one of these trolls that you see right now.
[16:37 - 16:42] Every single one of them that said yes, ban their asses.
[16:43 - 24:39] You think it's funny when I get pissed?