Chance Wilkins Sings Vol. 3 (Full Album)

[0:00 - 0:07] If you came to the last one of the five minutes in bed, dude you got fucking problems man. Yeah, we got problems.
[0:07 - 0:13] It's all you guys out there that you know want to try to get someone like Heather and trust me you
[0:13 - 0:19] don't want that. How do I deal with these you know these one-distance relationships and honestly
[0:19 - 0:25] I'll admit it's never easy. It seems like you make up for it by paying a ton of attention you know
[0:25 - 0:32] and making up. Oh, I'm sure you know and that's who I am as a person like when I'm with somebody
[0:32 - 0:38] I don't sit there and put on this front like some guys will do it be like oh look at me um
[0:38 - 0:45] I got this much money I got this I got that blah blah blah yada yada yada that's like dude
[0:45 - 0:50] get the fuck out of here with that shit. Luxie Love is saying no chicks like dick pics
[0:50 - 0:54] I mean what do you know you cut bag. Maybe just the ones that you're not getting maybe
[0:54 - 1:03] Cyrax can send you some some good ones right. Oh shit. I love that there are some girls out there
[1:03 - 1:09] that just aren't into that you know that's fine you know and I'm telling girls to be able to.
[1:09 - 1:13] Sometimes it's just easier to ask for forgiveness than it is permission you know what I mean.
[1:13 - 1:20] Facts dude facts. There's only one way to find out if they like it. Right exactly like you know
[1:20 - 1:26] that's like there's only one way to learn about life and that's through fucking living. Like what
[1:26 - 1:30] chick isn't into that like let's be fucking honest dude right it's like it's like you're not
[1:30 - 1:36] telling the guy not to send them so like what are they supposed to think you sit there you tease
[1:36 - 1:41] a guy tell him like oh you know I want to do this and that with you and then when shit gets hot
[1:41 - 1:48] and you fucking do that shit they're all like oh but I'm not into that it's like whoa what the
[1:48 - 1:53] fuck dude yeah like it's 2021 for Pete's sake. In the end you know that you're committing
[1:53 - 2:00] copyright infringement you know this but that's okay because I have better shit to do than to
[2:00 - 2:23] waste my time.
[2:23 - 2:48] Thought you'd treat me like I didn't even matter.
[2:48 - 3:06] You're always shooting me at night I don't matter
[3:08 - 3:25] that time I feel so broken and shattered every time when I look at you all I see is the abuse
[3:25 - 3:34] that you put me through I don't understand why you have to treat me like you do
[3:35 - 3:48] what am I ever doing you do make you want to treat me like this so why can't you just go away
[3:48 - 4:01] leave me be so I don't have to say you're the money face when I look at you you're
[4:01 - 4:07] even less something that I cannot embrace
[4:13 - 4:27] and now I walk alone in the dark wandering through the vectors of my heart
[4:27 - 4:42] I don't understand why you have to be so violent evil you act like
[4:43 - 4:50] I'm the evil one while you're sitting there looking so peaceful
[4:50 - 5:05] you are not the peaceful one take a look at everything that you don't know you
[5:05 - 5:18] stole my life apart broke my heart left it shattered on the ground in the pieces now I don't
[5:18 - 5:36] know if I can live up this my heart back together again oh no why can't you just go away get away
[5:36 - 5:53] from me please let me put my life back together again this is not what I want for myself in the
[5:53 - 6:05] end I know that I need to get rid of you and everything that you put me through
[6:05 - 6:11] just go away
[6:11 - 6:22] I don't need this pain because I'm better without you I don't need what you put me through
[6:22 - 6:26] your pain is disgusting to me
[6:26 - 6:45] I don't want to see you go away you let me put my life back together again you are gonna see you go away
[6:45 - 6:53] start the time please you know you don't want to see me go away you let me let you know
[6:53 - 7:06] you are gonna see the pain on my face that you create always wandering walking around in the place
[7:07 - 7:20] every time when I look at you all I've seen is love no no no don't you know what you should do
[7:20 - 7:37] that I don't know how I cannot skip the memory of you
[7:37 - 7:52] but when you pass away fading as I look at everything I've been through now why should I never take you around here whatever and why you put me through
[7:52 - 8:08] why you put me through I don't understand you I don't need you why is it that you're so addicted to me I don't understand if you're addicted
[8:08 - 8:36] but when it takes me down now why should I never cry with a photo of you in my head then in my head I'm wondering why did I even tell you that I know any other shit that you would do I wouldn't I trust you
[8:38 - 8:46] now I'm having a little doubt what you might do I'm sitting here looking at the picture of you
[8:46 - 8:57] and I just don't know what I'm trying to find out maybe once you've done this another part of me
[8:57 - 9:16] I hate you why do I love you why do I hate you I know that you're bad for me I also know that I am you so won't you love you and hate you but I can't stand you
[9:16 - 9:33] but I can't stand you
[9:33 - 9:45] hey y'all this got somebody special
[9:45 - 9:55] cuz you're the one I wanna be with wanna know all your secrets this love is so strong and undefeated
[9:55 - 10:03] cuz you're the one I need you're the one I need in fact you waiting for your love babe
[10:03 - 10:09] it's like the drug I need all day I never wanna make you feel lonely
[10:09 - 10:18] girl you're my one and only baby girl you're my one and only every single day
[10:18 - 10:24] since they won you feel me down no matter what you've always told me that it would be okay you said forget about the rain
[10:24 - 10:30] every day is feeling bringing you there just wait for the sun you will always hesitate
[10:30 - 10:35] one always stood right by my side even when everybody wanted what you stood
[10:35 - 10:41] rhyme this song you told me everything would be okay baby ain't nobody ever gonna hurt you again
[10:41 - 10:46] I'ma love you to the very end you always stood beside me you told me everything would be okay
[10:46 - 10:53] every day I love group so organic playing that's what made me fall for you because every single day we grew
[10:53 - 10:59] cuz her and cuz her ain't nobody ever breaking us up ain't nobody ever getting in our way
[10:59 - 11:06] yeah baby girl and it's true when I love you
[11:06 - 11:12] all your secrets this love is so strong and defeated
[11:12 - 11:19] cuz you're the one I need you're the one I need in fact you waiting for your love babe
[11:19 - 11:26] it's like the drug I need all day I never wanna make you feel lonely
[11:26 - 11:36] girl you're my one and only yeah you ain't never gotta worry cuz I ain't going nowhere
[11:36 - 11:40] cuz I'll bond with something that's never gonna break
[11:40 - 11:44] yo I'll bond with something that will never ever break you my one and only you're the one
[11:44 - 11:51] that I wanna be with girl all together baby even when they settle down and have a family together
[11:51 - 11:58] man I promise you never ever will I ever leave you I'm so sick of these motherfucking idiot
[11:58 - 12:05] making you look bad ain't no way I'm never gonna go back on my decision for being with you
[12:05 - 12:12] being with you is the best thing that never came into my life yes it's right you are the best
[12:12 - 12:17] thing that ever come into my life you are the lightning to my dog you like my world up ain't
[12:17 - 12:22] nobody ever getting the terror of some car
[12:22 - 12:28] wanna know all your secrets this love is so strong and defeated
[12:28 - 12:36] cuz you're the one I need you're the one I need in fact you waiting for your love babe
[12:36 - 12:43] it's like the drug I need all day I never wanna make you feel lonely
[12:43 - 12:53] girl you're my one and only yeah even one and only baby ain't nobody ever gonna come between us
[12:53 - 13:00] ain't nobody ever gonna break us up I promise you no matter what I'm always gonna be there
[13:00 - 13:09] I'm always gonna be by your side I want you to know baby girl that I love you get my whole world
[13:12 - 13:18] ain't nobody ever gonna stop us ain't nobody ever gonna come between us
[13:18 - 13:24] ain't nobody ever gonna break us so nobody ever gonna get in the way of us and I love all of us
[13:24 - 13:31] so fucking strong that I'll fucking never be broken yeah that's a motherfucking fact that
[13:31 - 13:43] nobody gonna come between us all gone because probably your time
[13:44 - 13:52] you're the one I need you're the one I need in fact you waiting for your love babe
[13:52 - 13:58] it's like the drug I need all day I never wanna make you feel lonely
[13:58 - 14:02] girl you're my one and only
[14:02 - 14:09] and I mean that baby you're all my one and only ain't nobody gotta come between us
[14:10 - 14:16] ain't nobody gonna break us up cause our bond is unbreakable I love you baby
[14:16 - 14:32] I see you in my mind every day and night I can't erase the thought of you from my mind
[14:33 - 14:44] and it's kinda like you stare me in the fucking eyes knowing that I got this pain deep inside
[14:44 - 14:56] of me you won't let me be free from all the second nothing that you have fucking put on me
[14:56 - 15:06] please can you just break me free let me go get the fuck away from me it's not you that I fear
[15:06 - 15:15] when I see you I see everything that you don't know me you put me in a dark place
[15:15 - 15:24] namely you look like a bad guy and left in my fucking face but the truth is you are nothing more
[15:24 - 15:35] than a disgrace of everything that you do you think this is the beginning but the truth is
[15:35 - 15:45] it's the end for you I don't know what to do I wake up in a cold sweat every night
[15:45 - 15:53] I see these demons running through my head god damn this isn't right
[15:53 - 16:04] why is it that I can't get away from everything that you've done to me over the years
[16:04 - 16:14] you've faced all this fucking blame on me now I feel I'm like the bad guy when I'm not
[16:14 - 16:23] you're the bad guy you're the one that victimized me faced all this hatred and this fucking
[16:23 - 16:34] blame on me now you can't stand the evil look at yourself in the fucking mirror all you see is a
[16:34 - 16:44] person that's so fake you are nothing more than a disgrace to everything that you do
[16:44 - 16:56] everything you stand for is false you're nothing more than a false prophet a false god
[16:56 - 17:06] now you think that everyone should bow down to your feet but the truth is nobody fell down
[17:06 - 17:19] to you or your feet all you do is push away those dead close to you for a little bit of revenge
[17:19 - 17:32] and you know it's fucking true I don't understand why you can't just leave me and get the fuck away
[17:32 - 17:44] from me I truly don't understand what did I do to deserve all this hate let you pull me through
[17:44 - 18:08] yeah this song is for my girl man I want you to know that I love you babe
[18:12 - 18:19] y'all wanna thank you for being right by my side every single day and night we've been running
[18:19 - 18:25] through the highs and lows together for two years you've been right beside ain't going anywhere
[18:25 - 18:32] baby girl I want you to know that I love you and I wanna thank you for everything that you
[18:32 - 18:38] did for me saying so loyal to me through the ups and downs the highs and lows the good the bad the
[18:38 - 18:52] really thing ain't nobody change my mind about you want you to know that for a second I will
[18:52 - 18:59] never ever doubt your man you showing that you love me showing that you're being faithful to me
[18:59 - 19:05] man that means more than me than anything you ever fucking know I want you to know
[19:05 - 19:11] that I'm riding with you man wherever you go I will go I will ride with you to the end of time
[19:11 - 19:19] I will die for you I will take a bullet for you even if you didn't want me to want you to know
[19:19 - 19:34] that I'd be so grateful to spend the rest of my life with you I remember when we first met man
[19:34 - 19:41] you made me fucking smile made me feel no way that I never had before you've always been there
[19:41 - 19:48] right by my fucking side want you to know that I love you I will always be there for you no
[19:48 - 19:54] matter what you're going through baby girl I want you to know that I love you and I promise you
[19:54 - 20:01] I will never ever fucking break your heart I'd rather put a bullet to my brain before I ever
[20:01 - 20:09] break your fucking heart I will always remain well to you no matter what cause you're my ride
[20:09 - 20:18] to die and I'm staying right here with you no matter what you're going through baby I want you
[20:18 - 20:28] to know that I may not be there physically but I want you to know that spiritually I will always
[20:28 - 20:34] stand there with you I will always be right by your side through the stormy weather no matter
[20:34 - 20:40] what you're doing no matter where you're going baby girl I want you to know that I love you and
[20:40 - 20:49] I promise that I ain't going anywhere I will be here on you to the very end when God calls me up
[20:49 - 21:01] to heaven I will never ever fucking leave your side no matter what sun rain snow it don't fucking
[21:01 - 21:09] matter the weather want you to know that I will always be here for you and then I love you more
[21:09 - 21:17] than I can ever put in the fucking words ain't no way I can never put a price enough that you
[21:17 - 21:24] show me ain't no way I could never put a price on the love
[21:24 - 21:38] this song is going out to my girl
[21:38 - 21:46] I want you to know that I love you I'm sorry about everything that I put you through
[21:46 - 21:54] and I just hope that you won't give up on me I love you so much
[21:54 - 22:04] I'm so sorry about fucking hurting you I'm sorry about pushing you away like I did it's
[22:04 - 22:08] like damn where do I go what do I do I don't know what the fuck to do it's like I'm always
[22:08 - 22:13] running scared every single fucking day I'm so sorry for the fucking fights that we had it's
[22:13 - 22:19] like every single day and night when I look in the mirror I don't even recognize who I am anymore
[22:19 - 22:25] it's like I don't know what to do I don't know where to go at the time I don't even know who to
[22:25 - 22:32] turn to be because everybody wants to constantly take advantage of me I try to tear it down and
[22:32 - 22:39] they can look ugly I'm so sorry about the times that I backed down and did what I did I never
[22:39 - 22:46] wanted that I never wanted to revert back to my old and devilish ways no I didn't want that
[22:46 - 22:52] all I know is that everybody that tries to attack me wants to see me rest in a motherfucker
[22:52 - 22:59] grave it's like I don't know what to do but all I know at the end of the day is that I wanted to
[22:59 - 23:06] be just me and you with the kids all I want is uh happy life with you every single day I try to
[23:06 - 23:12] fight to make a better change every single day it's just so goddamn hard when everybody constantly
[23:12 - 23:16] judging me everybody always has the fucking knives on me trying to take me down trying to
[23:16 - 23:24] take a minute jumping trying to leave it down the wrong road every single day in my mind it's like
[23:24 - 23:34] I don't know what to go uh about doing about any of this and I'm so sorry everything that I did
[23:35 - 23:43] I never wanted to hurt you I never wanted to push you away I just want everything to be okay
[23:43 - 23:50] I just want everything to be okay at the end of the day I'm sorry then I pushed you away like
[23:50 - 23:56] you did I'm sorry then I turned out to be someone that you can possibly hate with all of your guts
[23:56 - 24:03] I'm so sorry about tearing everything up from the fucking floor up I'm so sorry about running
[24:03 - 24:08] away like a fucking punk ass coward kid like I fucking did I never wanted any of that
[24:08 - 24:14] all I know is at the end of the day that I love you when I want you to fucking say I want
[24:14 - 24:19] everything to fucking last I wanna prove these fucking haters wrong man I wanna knock them in
[24:19 - 24:25] the teeth knock them on their fucking ass all I wanna do at the end of the day is be the best
[24:25 - 24:30] person that I can for you I wanna make that fucking change and I just hope that you don't
[24:30 - 24:35] give up on me I'm so sorry about everything that I fucking did to you I'm sorry about
[24:35 - 24:40] all the pain that I fucking put you through I want you to know that I love you
[24:40 - 24:51] I'm sorry about everything that I did to you everything that I put you through
[24:54 - 25:01] I love you and I want to change just please don't give up on me please
[25:01 - 25:12] so you guys want to sit there and stab me in the fucking back treat me like shit
[25:15 - 25:25] all right it's time for a little payback bitch
[25:25 - 25:40] yo I'm so fucking angry with you you smiled in my face and in my back you twisted nice
[25:40 - 25:47] god damn this isn't right what did I ever do to deserve this
[25:47 - 26:00] please tell me what did I do to deserve this agony that you've done to me please
[26:00 - 26:12] tell me why oh why did you do this to me I just need an answer I just need an answer
[26:12 - 26:22] yo please tell me why you fucking did this to me man I don't understand it very clearly please
[26:22 - 26:28] tell me why is it that you did this to me cuz I clearly don't understand what it is that you're
[26:28 - 26:34] trying to get from me you said then right tell me everything is okay then you turn around and
[26:34 - 26:41] stab me in the fucking back hell nah bitch nothing's okay now because of you I'm back
[26:41 - 26:48] to the way that I was an evil demon that's on the fucking attack and I just don't give a fuck
[26:48 - 26:54] god damn why is it that you had to fucking do this it isn't right I was there for you
[26:54 - 27:01] when your fucking dad died now you're here smiling in my fucking face getting my family
[27:01 - 27:07] and balling so stupid ass motherfucking bullshit god damn bitch get your fucking head right
[27:07 - 27:15] stay the way from that nail bitch ass snake ass Marty now you're just like him looking like a
[27:15 - 27:23] pal bitch acting so motherfucking rah taught to take your pitch ass back to the fucking UK you
[27:23 - 27:30] don't fuck and belong here no you're not okay you are not safe mother I'm around you gotta fucking
[27:30 - 27:36] talk it on your ass bitch yeah you better watch your ass that and I turn around cuz you never know
[27:36 - 27:45] that last time that you do you might see your fucking past that's just me put on the trigger
[27:45 - 27:51] letting the fucking bullet go letting no fucking credit don't fit then bury in your ass in the
[27:51 - 28:01] fucking ground so you better sleep with one eye open tonight bitch cuz I'll be the nightmare
[28:01 - 28:13] appearing in your dreams you don't know what you've done to me you are nothing more than a distant
[28:13 - 28:25] memory you are a nightmare to me wait no you're not you're just pissed off me cuz I'm always gonna
[28:25 - 28:32] be everything that you're not yo you better get the fuck away
[28:32 - 28:41] everyone and you better get the fuck away before I bust your motherfucking kneecaps
[28:41 - 28:48] for everything you've done to Julia I've seen the photos
[28:54 - 29:01] yeah
[29:01 - 29:13] waking up with these nightmares every day scientists
[29:13 - 29:22] spirits won't even disappear where do I go what do I do I run around with this depression in my hand
[29:22 - 29:29] got it just don't know what to do I got the bullet in my hand got a gun in my hand got a bullet ready
[29:29 - 29:40] to go into my brain again I don't know what to do anymore I kind of feel like I've lost my way
[29:40 - 29:46] through the motherfucking shadows where do I go what do I do I need to find a way out
[29:46 - 29:55] all I see is the memory of you and I can't seem to find a way out gotta get away now gotta escape
[29:55 - 30:03] these demons and I'm looking in sunlight and now every single day it's coming like they want me to
[30:03 - 30:13] lay inside the motherfucking grave again I don't understand it why can't these demons ever go away
[30:13 - 30:20] why do they gotta put me in a motherfucking grave I don't understand it I don't want it
[30:20 - 30:32] I don't fucking need it why is it that I know it's me and not that from every direction everybody
[30:32 - 30:41] wanted it all piece of me it's like I can't even get a grip on my life I'm so sick of everything
[30:41 - 30:48] everything that everybody does to me I don't understand it I just want to be me one or two
[30:48 - 30:58] what I'm loving I'll be attacked by everybody inside these people want to take everything away
[30:58 - 31:10] from me I wish I can understand it why is it that I'm always feeling like I'm being abandoned
[31:10 - 31:18] standing up motherfucking back by everyone around me I don't understand why you gotta do this
[31:18 - 31:27] in the direction of me it's not like I never asked for it this is not what I fucking need I just
[31:27 - 31:35] need you to get away from me I'm so sick of being on the edge of suicide every single day and night
[31:35 - 31:42] because of everything that you do to me you caused me to screw the knives and attack me
[31:42 - 31:50] did you think that you could just get away with it at the night you could walk a lonely
[31:50 - 31:56] you are not who you fucking claim to be all you want to do is bully me
[31:57 - 32:07] cuz you know damn well I'm different and I got the possession of greatness within me
[32:23 - 32:32] yo what the fuck is wrong with you you wanna try to take my motherfucking joke and run with it
[32:32 - 32:40] it'll leave yo yo the key for you ain't nothing but a little fucking bitch I didn't be
[32:40 - 32:48] on a motherfucking mask acting like a badass but really you just been owed wash the wanna be
[32:48 - 32:53] you too but right then like it's gonna fucking make a bitch away touch my fame you ain't even
[32:53 - 33:03] dropping my motherfucking time no I ain't gonna let you drop in on me at the lucky thinking that
[33:03 - 33:13] you know me yo music feels moldy looking so retarded this little fucking podcast motherfucking
[33:13 - 33:20] rapping like a wise ass but he really ain't fucking shit to me you just an old man who
[33:20 - 33:28] fucks horses on the daily yo hey there you at the lucky little fucking bitch at the lucky
[33:28 - 33:33] you know me acting like you're better than me but the truth is little fucking bitch you ain't
[33:33 - 33:41] shit to me you ain't the bad ass that you claim to be all you try to do is get clouded up off of
[33:41 - 33:49] me every single day running yo motherfucking mouth about me you just pissed that I exposed you
[33:49 - 33:56] for a motherfucking phony yo ricky acting like you're fucking better than me but the truth is
[33:56 - 34:02] little fucking bitch you just conversating with weapons cause you know that you can't
[34:04 - 34:12] even begin to fight me or even beat me so get the fuck back you idiot I get a fucking pussy
[34:12 - 34:17] either like a hard ass that ain't like you gonna fucking kill me but the truth is you can never
[34:17 - 34:25] get me you can never beat me I stay on my grind every single day and I was air safe I'm doing
[34:25 - 34:32] what I gotta do to provide for my motherfucking fame and me I can give a fuck about the
[34:32 - 34:40] motherfucking hatred anybody want to try to stop me go ahead nothing new say can't ever fucking
[34:40 - 34:48] faze me yo Marty don't make me roll up on your fucking house pull the AK down and spray yo
[34:48 - 34:54] motherfucking brains all over your mom's face yo flow the kiki don't make me take the fucking
[34:54 - 35:00] hatchet to your fucking neck cut your head off guarantee you that's I will use that shit for a
[35:00 - 35:06] motherfucking soccer ball fade it I will take your head and put it on my motherfucking man don't
[35:06 - 35:14] piece of say oh look at this little fucking bitch he never shit a fucking stutter me after I do
[35:14 - 35:20] that I will hang your body upside down from the motherfucking back so maybe I could take him brother
[35:23 - 35:35] y'all think you can stop me but you ain't motherfuckers
[35:35 - 35:42] every day I'll never do something nice
[35:42 - 35:55] now I'm staying here alone to press the dots in my mind
[35:58 - 36:09] feel so dead inside on the outside I'm fine
[36:09 - 36:25] on the inside I'm so thin falling apart from all the stress in my mind
[36:25 - 36:41] and I don't know what to do anymore after your night time
[36:41 - 36:57] talk between the memory of you and the pain that I see in my life from the inside out
[36:58 - 37:13] now I don't know if I will never make it out
[37:15 - 37:27] then you know what's best for me even though your song can't appear with time and as the
[37:27 - 37:51] dots exist now all I feel is a lack of days of running me so long when I think I know this
[37:53 - 37:58] now I'm not sure what to do anymore
[38:02 - 38:18] because I'm so torn in souls and if my soul ain't in soul then I'm standing for more
[38:18 - 38:34] why is it half a day? That's the one with the torture soul I don't know what to do anymore
[38:34 - 38:51] why is that a cast on my heart? Soul is no more lost in me I'm the answer of this internal
[38:51 - 39:10] time how can I escape this? I feel like I'm trapped in the dark of this
[39:20 - 39:22] yo
[39:22 - 39:38] yo I don't understand and this is the day everybody wanna try to remain lost by life
[39:38 - 39:58] i just want my life that i just wanna get back i'm so sick of this motherfucking pain
[39:58 - 40:10] that I feel deep inside every day it won't go away it's taking me constantly and I just told
[40:10 - 40:20] no one to tell anyone it's kinda like I could not decide my own head inside
[40:22 - 40:33] my own head I'm not designed every day always angry because of what people say
[40:33 - 40:41] one day to love me they don't realize that they're going there pushed me to this point
[40:41 - 40:52] to the point that I won't know where to go but I wanna put a bullet in every point that I'm
[40:52 - 41:05] so sick of soul fucking sick of feeling this anguished this hatred this pain this rage
[41:05 - 41:16] I'm sick of having this fake ass smile on my face pretending that I'm okay when I'm not
[41:16 - 41:28] I just wanna make the pain disappear god can't please someone make this hatred and
[41:28 - 41:40] this anguish and this fate and this sorrow stop I'm so fucking sick of feeling like
[41:40 - 41:52] I'm gonna die at any time nobody understands what it's like to remain on the inside
[41:54 - 42:04] I tried everything you put to me somebody under them myself in front of me
[42:04 - 42:16] why is it that everybody has to bully me I don't understand it god why me
[42:20 - 42:34] why me no one told understand why me why now why me when I've come upon and fallen
[42:34 - 42:47] to the ground I've broken pieces of a statue I feel like my knife coming down around
[42:47 - 42:54] me
[42:55 - 43:04] I have done put them coming and I knew this would be another long I guess issue
[43:04 - 43:13] but something inside me is real inside me really isn't right the words he was saying were
[43:13 - 43:24] for physical and he and every time he hit me god that there is okay it's every rule I start
[43:24 - 43:33] don't think they scared no one's gonna cut a cross ball right it won't happen if his father
[43:33 - 43:42] he is in my eyes he should never sleep god works at work since all god wanted to lose his
[43:42 - 43:50] head and I heard he's got a real cold hand with her and I wish you were alive and all I was
[43:50 - 43:57] thinking were yeah right I wish I wouldn't have survived here fooling against those walls and
[43:57 - 44:05] proceeded till things to the ground and really can and they can't come along now that I never
[44:05 - 44:13] made a single focus now I started to struggle and tried to release myself in forceful grip
[44:13 - 44:23] and the next thing I heard was a loud horrifying friend his hands were cold as I cringed out first
[44:23 - 44:30] touch I don't understand how my father could hate his own daughter so much I froze
[44:30 - 44:39] and I couldn't believe that this was really going on I just kept looking at the clock
[44:39 - 44:52] pointing to being gone I tried so godfully not to think of the sharp hate this was a part of his
[44:52 - 45:03] usual game I chose my eyes wishing that I would just pass on by and the next timeline over there
[45:03 - 45:12] why would he open the sky he pushed harder and harder the trickier game was all I felt
[45:12 - 45:20] the next thing I heard was he started fucking me on his own something had finished out of me
[45:20 - 45:32] that I could not admit I got this urge of innocence if you're in your brain somehow some way I
[45:32 - 45:36] got to get out just this time go but you know
[45:36 - 45:43] friend who's gone will never ever get out of my mind
[45:43 - 45:57] it was like all I knew had been brings your rage it was like all I knew was this evil
[45:57 - 46:05] friend I hate him with everything I have inside of me there's so much more
[46:05 - 46:11] and one day I want to end this war
[46:11 - 46:18] so I could be free from this evil man's tyranny
[46:21 - 46:29] I gotta get out I gotta survive
[46:30 - 46:38] and then all I wanted to do was die in the earth I don't know just then how a mother could
[46:38 - 46:50] be so cruel and hate is on guard so much I froze kept looking at the clock pointing him to being
[46:50 - 46:59] gone I just don't terrify how this man frames me somebody tell you how worldwide this is going
[46:59 - 47:08] on I don't really understand this feeling inside this fucking rage inside of me I just
[47:08 - 47:12] want him to die I ain't supposed to be living this life
[47:12 - 47:28] I froze because him believing that this was really going on I just kept looking at the clock
[47:28 - 47:35] pointing you to being gone I tried so badly not to think about the sharp pain going through my
[47:35 - 47:48] mind every time this all I wanted to do was fucking die in a hope that when I die this will be the very last time
[47:54 - 48:00] in women there are seldom any external symptoms so that there is no way for you to tell if a woman
[48:00 - 48:08] is infected but the chances are that she is infected if she is promiscuous or a prostitute
[48:08 - 48:15] for over half the prostitutes of the United States have gonorrhea and in most foreign countries
[48:15 - 48:23] the proportion is much greater after lodging in the urethra the germs spread into the interior
[48:23 - 48:30] of the venus usually within three to five days pus appears at the opening of the urethral canal
[48:30 - 48:37] this pus and the burning sensation during urination are the first signs of infection
[48:37 - 48:46] the pus is filled with gonorrhea germs and is very infectious a single drop in the eyes may
[48:46 - 48:54] cause blindness for this reason a person with gonorrhea must wash his hands thoroughly each
[48:54 - 49:02] time he touches his penis and should use a separate towel for his face gonorrhea may cause
[49:02 - 49:08] abscesses in the penis and the surrounding organs a stricture may form in the urethra making it
[49:08 - 49:15] difficult to pass the urine if the germs penetrate as far as the prostate they may lurk there for
[49:15 - 49:22] years doing serious damage to your health and if they reach the testicles fertility may be destroyed
[49:22 - 49:31] if treatment has begun early enough however the disease may be quickly cured modern drugs will
[49:31 - 49:39] usually affect a complete cure in a short time but these drugs should be taken only under medical
[49:39 - 49:46] supervision for many of them are dangerous so don't try to treat yourself with patent medicines
[49:46 - 49:54] and avoid so-called men specialists and other such whacks they are mainly interested in your money
[49:54 - 49:57] and usually do far more harm than good
[49:57 - 50:06] i can say this now it's gone without making things uncomfortable and at times like my
[50:06 - 50:13] tongue looks a little bit but even though it was one-sided i can i can confidently say that he
[50:13 - 50:21] was my lover and he was my soul mate and i just feel a tad empty without him and it's it's tough
[50:21 - 50:25] to come to terms with and i'm trying my best here but life just isn't going to be the same
[50:25 - 50:29] without him you know now that he's not here i'm fully confident that he would have absolutely
[50:29 - 50:36] kicked my ass but if it meant him making physical contact with me then i would have accepted that
[50:36 - 50:41] now that he's gone too i'm not proud of this but when i went over to see him uh although he was
[50:41 - 50:47] already likely gone by then i definitely had like a condom over my penis because i had every
[50:47 - 51:00] intention of taking him as my own and i'm not proud of that but it's the truth
[51:00 - 51:08] just like the fact that he's gone is also the truth that's that's what i got
[51:09 - 51:17] yeah i'll admit it i was going to rape him a hundred percent that's what i got