2024-5-19 youve been warned !!!!!!

[0:00 - 0:08] I'm gonna say this right now, and I know I'm probably gonna piss off a lot of people,
[0:08 - 0:17] but every single troll on this platform needs to fucking stop.
[0:17 - 0:29] You know, after I've made this new account, I decided to go back and look and see every
[0:29 - 0:42] thing that I've been through, because I've been through a lot, and let me tell you, the
[0:42 - 0:56] shit that I saw, comments, wise, video wise, it broke me.
[0:56 - 1:17] It broke me so bad to the point that I literally, that I literally sat there crying, because
[1:17 - 1:30] what's so fucked up is you guys sat there, and you do this shit so much to me, and to
[1:30 - 1:39] other people, and you don't realize the fucking pain that you caused.
[1:39 - 1:46] Daily times, since you guys have started trolling me, that I've actually made videos saying goodbye
[1:46 - 2:01] to my family, because I wanted to kill myself, so fucking bad, and I'll be honest, I've been
[2:01 - 2:22] in the therapist, I've been to counselors many times, but none of them seem to understand,
[2:22 - 2:34] because they've never dealt with this kind of pain.
[2:34 - 2:42] Daily times, I've lied awake at night, hoping and praying that I wouldn't wake up the next
[2:42 - 2:48] day.
[2:48 - 2:55] So many times I actually have attempted to end my own life, it's a lot more than you
[2:55 - 2:58] think.
[2:58 - 3:04] Yeah there were those two times on camera, but there were so many times where I came so
[3:04 - 3:08] close to doing it.
[3:08 - 3:19] I had made videos saying goodbye to my family and that I loved them.
[3:19 - 3:28] I even went as far as going down to the slightest detail of who I want to have one of my belongings.
[3:38 - 4:00] Don't let me tell you something, if it wasn't for my friends and my music and my amazing
[4:00 - 4:12] family, I might not be here today.
[4:12 - 4:19] There were so many times that I attempted to end my own life, or where I came so close
[4:19 - 4:38] to it, because I didn't see any other way out.
[4:38 - 4:50] My music is my only escape, that's why I do it, because it's literally my only escape
[4:50 - 4:56] from this hell that you trolls have put me in for since 2017.
[4:56 - 5:02] But yeah you guys choose to try to steal that away from me, the only fucking thing that
[5:02 - 5:21] I have to escape, and I'm tired of it.
[5:21 - 5:31] I am so fucking sick of it, I'm sick of living in this day in, day out, day in, day out being
[5:31 - 5:38] attacked over and over and over, oh get off the internet over and over and over, I'm fucking
[5:38 - 5:45] tired of it.
[5:45 - 5:50] I shouldn't have to get off the internet, I should be allowed to do whatever the fuck
[5:50 - 5:58] I want to do and not be attacked, especially when I've proven multiple times that I'm not
[5:58 - 6:10] doing anything.
[6:10 - 6:16] Like I say, you trolls think that you have the right to attack me, but you fucking don't.
[6:16 - 6:19] You have no right.
[6:19 - 6:25] I've done nothing wrong.
[6:25 - 6:27] I was tricked.
[6:27 - 6:34] There is a fucking difference between being tricked and doing what pedophile Tony does
[6:34 - 6:40] and going out and actually doing pedophile shit.
[6:40 - 6:51] There is a major, major fucking difference.
[6:51 - 6:55] And you could sit there and say that there's not all you want, but the fact of the matter
[6:55 - 7:02] is and the real truth is that there is a massive fucking difference.
[7:02 - 7:15] There is a massive difference.
[7:15 - 7:21] And I'll be honest, I'm tired of fake people.
[7:21 - 7:27] I'm tired of people adding me on Facebook brand new account saying they're a fan and
[7:27 - 7:32] that two seconds later they turn around and stab me in the fucking back.
[7:32 - 7:35] I'm sick of it.
[7:35 - 7:46] I don't deserve this.
[7:46 - 7:53] That's why I'm giving every single person right now a fucking warning to back off now
[7:53 - 7:59] to back off and to leave me alone.
[7:59 - 8:08] Every single person that's ever attacked me needs to back off.
[8:08 - 8:11] I have been through enough already.
[8:11 - 8:15] I don't deserve this anymore.
[8:15 - 8:20] I understand that I made my fair share of mistakes.
[8:20 - 8:22] I get it.
[8:22 - 8:28] But that doesn't mean I deserve to be attacked for the rest of my fucking life.
[8:28 - 8:35] I deserved to be able to make a comeback and to redeem myself.
[8:35 - 8:39] I deserve to be able to redeem myself.
[8:39 - 8:49] I deserve that.
[8:49 - 8:56] And I honestly think after all these years, I'd say I fucking earned a redemption.
[8:56 - 9:24] I think I genuinely feel like I've earned a shot at redemption.
[9:24 - 9:31] But what I don't understand is why nobody wants to see me do better.
[9:31 - 9:42] Why does everybody want to see me suffer?
[9:42 - 9:48] Why does everybody want to see me fucking miserable and depressed all the time?
[9:48 - 9:49] I don't want to be depressed.
[9:49 - 9:56] I don't want to be miserable.
[9:56 - 10:02] I'd rather be having fun, smiling, laughing like I used to.
[10:02 - 10:11] Being the me that I used to be before all this shit started.
[10:11 - 10:17] I want to be the person that I was back in 2017 before this started.
[10:17 - 10:20] That's who I want to be again.
[10:20 - 10:24] So fucking bad.
[10:24 - 10:35] But how am I supposed to do that if no one will let go of the past?
[10:35 - 10:36] And that's what I understand.
[10:36 - 10:40] Why can't y'all fucking let shit go?
[10:40 - 10:42] Move on.
[10:42 - 10:45] Let shit go.
[10:45 - 10:46] Move on.
[10:46 - 10:48] Throw up.
[10:48 - 10:52] Let me redeem myself because I've earned it.
[10:52 - 10:56] Tony has not.
[10:56 - 11:03] He will know what he's done is irredeemable because he continues to do it behind closed
[11:03 - 11:07] doors.
[11:07 - 11:11] Whether he wants to admit it or not.
[11:11 - 11:13] But me, I don't do that.
[11:13 - 11:16] I've earned my redemption.
[11:16 - 11:20] I've earned my shot.
[11:20 - 11:37] So I'm going to tell every single troll this right now.
[11:37 - 11:41] Every one of you better fucking leave me alone.
[11:41 - 11:48] Because if you don't, there will be hell to pay.
[11:48 - 11:55] If you do not leave me alone.
[11:55 - 11:58] I will be getting YouTube staff involved.
[11:58 - 12:04] I will be getting federal agents and police involved.
[12:04 - 12:16] And I will be seeking a lawyer to come after every single individual person that has ever
[12:16 - 12:34] attacked me, attacked my friends, my family, cost me my job at Twitch, cost me friendships,
[12:34 - 12:42] cost me job opportunities.
[12:42 - 12:47] So if I was your troll, I would back off and leave me alone.
[12:47 - 12:55] Because I'm not playing around anymore.
[12:55 - 13:07] Because like I said, I'm not just going to sit by and let you guys do this to me or anyone
[13:07 - 13:10] else anymore.
[13:10 - 13:14] I'm done living in the past.
[13:14 - 13:19] I want to be a better version of myself.
[13:19 - 13:21] I want to be better than I was.
[13:21 - 13:24] I want to do better.
[13:24 - 13:30] But in order to do better, I need you trolls to leave me the fuck alone and to stop harassing
[13:30 - 13:36] and attacking me.
[13:36 - 13:45] That's the only way this will work.
[13:45 - 13:55] The only way it will work is if you guys leave me alone.
[13:55 - 14:03] And I'm going to give you guys two days, 48 hours, to clear out of my channel and leave
[14:03 - 14:07] me alone.
[14:07 - 14:16] Because if you don't, clear out of my channel and leave me alone.
[14:16 - 14:26] Like I said, you guys know the consequences.
[14:26 - 14:31] I am done being walked on like I'm some sort of puppet.
[14:31 - 14:43] I'm done being walked on like people think they own me when they don't.
[14:43 - 14:48] I deserve to make a living and that's what I'm going to fight to do.
[14:48 - 14:55] I'm going to fight to better myself and I'm going to fight to make a living again.
[14:55 - 14:58] Because I deserve to make a living.
[14:58 - 15:07] I don't deserve to be stuck in my past for the rest of my life.
[15:07 - 15:17] So I'm going to ask you trolls kindly one time, this one time, to back off and leave
[15:17 - 15:22] me alone.
[15:22 - 15:30] And if you refuse to do so, I'll be taking note of your name.
[15:30 - 15:36] I'll be writing it down.
[15:36 - 15:44] And you'll be added to the list of people that I come after when this goes to court.
[15:44 - 15:54] So please don't make this any harder than it has to be.
[15:54 - 15:58] Just back off and leave me alone.
[15:58 - 16:02] Let me build my audience the right way.
[16:02 - 16:12] Let me build up a fan base of good people and let me show you that I can be a good person.
[16:12 - 16:34] That's all I ask is for a fair chance to do better because I can change if you let me.
[16:34 - 16:47] So please, do the trolls, leave me alone.