Original upload date: April 9th, 2023 (automatically grabbed from title)
[0:00 - 0:02] You
[0:30 - 0:50] You
[0:50 - 0:52] What is up kick
[1:20 - 1:35] Now first off, I hope everybody had a good evening. I hope everybody had a good Easter
[1:40 - 1:43] Because I know I did I had a great Easter man
[1:50 - 1:57] But I do hope that all y'all had a good Easter man
[2:00 - 2:02] I'm really do
[2:04 - 2:08] But I wanted to come on here
[2:11 - 2:13] And talk to you guys
[2:13 - 2:20] Not as a youtuber or a former
[2:20 - 2:26] You know youtuber, but as a real fucking human being for a second
[2:43 - 2:58] You got some shit that needs to be sir
[2:58 - 3:00] I
[3:12 - 3:19] Have some new fucking saying I know a lot of people ain't gonna like it and that's fine
[3:21 - 3:24] That's fine if not a lot of people like what I have to say
[3:25 - 3:29] But I am gonna say this
[3:39 - 3:43] For those of you who don't know me hi, my name is James
[3:54 - 4:01] When I was 27 years old I
[4:06 - 4:13] Was cyberbullied I was cyberbullied by people like music biz Marty I
[4:16 - 4:19] Was bullied by people like William glory hole I
[4:20 - 4:26] Was targeted for no reason I
[4:29 - 4:31] Was made out to be a victim I
[4:33 - 4:37] Was bullied harassed and attacked every day
[4:39 - 4:45] For seven years I was attacked and bullied and a lot of it does still go on to this very day
[4:46 - 4:52] And I know a lot of those people that are that have done that and do do that to me
[4:52 - 4:55] I'll probably watching right now, and that's fine
[5:01 - 5:03] But for many years I was bullied
[5:05 - 5:11] And I want to talk to you guys in-depth about what these people made me do
[5:11 - 5:19] And please understand that a lot of what I'm about to say is going to be disturbing
[5:20 - 5:22] But it's all the fucking truth
[5:24 - 5:30] Because I want to give you guys a look inside of my life and what these people have done to me
[5:32 - 5:38] So that maybe hopefully one day down the road we can make that change that needs to be made
[5:42 - 5:44] And we can put an end to these people
[5:47 - 5:51] These people have done everything imaginable that you could do to a person
[5:53 - 5:55] These people have
[5:55 - 5:57] Made up lies about me
[5:58 - 6:00] These people have entrapped me
[6:03 - 6:05] These people have
[6:05 - 6:11] Made videos swandering me my friends and my family
[6:18 - 6:22] And one of the worst things that they've done to me that
[6:23 - 6:27] Still hurts to this very day. It's still it's hard to think about
[6:29 - 6:32] It's still very hard to think about what I'm about to say
[6:33 - 6:37] Because I never truly got past this
[6:42 - 6:50] These people sat there it made me do disgusting sexual acts
[6:57 - 6:59] Against my will
[6:59 - 7:07] These people had what else said did if I didn't do what they wanted
[7:11 - 7:13] That the bullying was never gonna stop
[7:22 - 7:24] These people made me
[7:25 - 7:29] Show things in certain areas
[7:32 - 7:34] After blackmailing me
[7:36 - 7:39] Not once or twice, but several times and
[7:40 - 7:47] Then proceeded to go on the discord and post those videos and laugh about it
[7:48 - 7:50] And
[7:52 - 7:55] It makes me sick just thinking about it dude
[7:57 - 8:02] It makes me fucking sick just thinking about it
[8:06 - 8:12] Because they fly out told me that if I didn't do that shit that they were gonna continue to go after me and
[8:13 - 8:16] Target me my friends and my family
[8:16 - 8:18] And make things far worse
[8:19 - 8:21] Than what they already were at the time
[8:30 - 8:34] And that's just one of the many things that they made me do
[8:38 - 8:43] These people have ran me off every fucking platform that you can think of
[8:44 - 8:46] Which
[8:48 - 8:53] YouTube hell even Twitter and Instagram
[9:05 - 9:12] But to all those people that have victimized me over the years that want to try to get me kicked off here and off Facebook
[9:12 - 9:14] I say this
[9:15 - 9:17] Go ahead
[9:19 - 9:26] Like kick in Facebook look at me because you know something they're not gonna find anything on me
[9:30 - 9:34] Is gameplay footage me doing my music and
[9:35 - 9:41] Me calling out pussy bullies like you guys over there on YouTube that one are trying to run my life
[9:43 - 9:50] That's all they're gonna find is me speaking out against bullying and all you trolls
[9:53 - 9:59] Along with gameplay footage and music and that's it. That's all they're gonna find
[9:59 - 10:01] Yo
[10:07 - 10:13] Real green gold dollars welcome to the stream man. Hope you had a good hope you had a good Easter, man
[10:13 - 10:30] But like I said, I'm making this dream because I don't want anyone to suffer the same exact fate that I suffered
[10:36 - 10:38] Done
[10:43 - 10:52] These people have done so much to ruin my life that it makes me sick I
[10:54 - 10:59] Try to make an honest living from my family they take it away from me
[11:06 - 11:13] With my twitch and my YouTube channel and making content that my fans deserve to have
[11:14 - 11:19] They take that away. I make a hit song that everybody loves
[11:22 - 11:29] And they steal it and now they get the copyrights to my music that I wrote
[11:31 - 11:34] Not all of it, but the few songs that they did steal yeah
[11:38 - 11:41] What these people do isn't right
[11:44 - 11:46] And
[11:49 - 11:51] What these people do isn't right
[11:53 - 11:55] And don't
[11:55 - 12:00] Guys as a youtuber. I'm not coming to you guys as a rock star
[12:01 - 12:03] I'm coming to you guys
[12:04 - 12:10] As a human being as myself as chance Wilkins the guy behind the music
[12:11 - 12:14] Because I want you guys to know the real truth
[12:15 - 12:20] Because you guys deserve to know the real truth about what these people do
[12:23 - 12:25] I'm
[12:26 - 12:28] There's
[12:30 - 12:33] As somebody that doesn't want to see anyone else hurt
[12:40 - 12:42] You
[12:49 - 12:52] Know that was a trust man. I love performing that song
[12:52 - 12:54] That's actually believe it or not
[12:55 - 12:58] Street racing is one of the most requested songs
[12:59 - 13:01] that
[13:01 - 13:04] People want which I understand what
[13:04 - 13:06] I
[13:08 - 13:13] Guys and for that I appreciate y'all man. I really do I
[13:18 - 13:22] Appreciate y'all showing me the love and support that you guys have showed me I
[13:23 - 13:28] Appreciate that and I never have and never will take that for granted
[13:28 - 13:30] I
[13:30 - 13:35] Must share with you guys a quote that the late and great Mitch lucker
[13:36 - 13:40] the frontman for suicide silence
[13:41 - 13:44] Said many a times
[13:47 - 13:50] Without the fans this band ain't shit
[13:50 - 14:01] Mitch knew that without the fans his band had nothing
[14:04 - 14:09] And I'm gonna say the same thing to you guys that he quoted
[14:11 - 14:14] Without you guys I ain't shit
[14:16 - 14:20] Without the fans I ain't shit
[14:21 - 14:23] You guys are what keep me going
[14:25 - 14:28] You guys showing the very real love and support
[14:30 - 14:35] That you guys show me that means the world to me man, it really does
[14:37 - 14:39] Because you guys
[14:40 - 14:42] Showed a small Akron kid
[14:43 - 14:46] You should y'all showed a small dude from Akron
[14:46 - 14:48] What he's truly capable of
[14:48 - 14:51] Y'all showed me what I could truly do
[15:19 - 15:23] Sorry, they all had to fix soon, but for that
[15:27 - 15:31] For you guys sticking by me man, I want to say thank you
[15:34 - 15:36] I love in the ditto emoji, dude
[15:36 - 15:38] And
[15:47 - 15:52] You're damn right dude when it comes to music you're damn right. I know how to kick ass
[16:07 - 16:16] But like I said man what these people do online
[16:17 - 16:20] Victimizing people like me it ain't right
[16:27 - 16:31] Interesting dude, I got plenty of emotes on the way man. That's for damn sure
[16:31 - 16:35] I got plenty of emotes on the way
[16:35 - 16:37] I just got to work on them
[16:39 - 16:43] Which don't don't worry I have been working on them
[16:45 - 16:51] There are a bunch of emotes that your boy made himself so by means feel free to check them out
[16:51 - 16:53] I
[17:05 - 17:11] Know I'm not coming on here and talking to you guys as Cyrax
[17:12 - 17:19] I'm coming on here and talking to you guys as the man behind the music Cyrax
[17:22 - 17:27] The guy behind the music Cyrax, I'm coming to you as Chance Wilkins
[17:30 - 17:32] I'm coming to you guys as myself
[17:35 - 17:41] Because like I've said since the beginning you guys deserve to get to know the real me
[17:42 - 17:43] You guys
[17:43 - 17:51] Honestly deserve to get to see how I can be when I'm not being attacked and I honestly feel like you guys
[17:51 - 17:53] Lost out on that. I
[17:53 - 18:00] Changed out on getting to see the real me when I'm not attacked
[18:02 - 18:05] I'm sorry that y'all got put through that shit
[18:08 - 18:14] I'm sorry that y'all didn't get to see the real me all these years. I'm sorry
[18:15 - 18:18] That they did this shit
[18:19 - 18:23] I'm sorry that y'all had to see me go through what I went through
[18:33 - 18:36] I'm sorry to all y'all
[18:39 - 18:41] That never got to see
[18:41 - 18:48] Who I can really be outside of all the bullshit and for that I'm sorry
[18:49 - 18:51] I
[18:55 - 18:57] Because you guys
[18:57 - 18:59] Wanted to see the real authentic me
[19:00 - 19:03] And I honestly feel like you guys got robbed of that
[19:04 - 19:09] And do I think kick is better honestly? Yeah, I do I
[19:13 - 19:16] Love it on here because I get to be on a platform
[19:16 - 19:22] Where I can build upon something that nobody else on here is doing I
[19:25 - 19:28] Get to speak out and do shit that I enjoy
[19:30 - 19:32] In front of all you guys
[19:33 - 19:35] That enjoy my content
[19:35 - 19:37] You
[19:44 - 19:46] Like I said
[19:48 - 19:53] I'm sorry that y'all never got to see the real me before the trolling began
[19:53 - 19:57] I'm sorry that y'all had to see me go through what I went through
[19:58 - 20:02] I'm sorry that y'all had to see me suffer the way that I suffered
[20:05 - 20:07] I
[20:35 - 20:37] I
[20:37 - 20:39] I
[20:39 - 20:41] I
[20:41 - 20:43] I
[21:03 - 21:07] I'm about to do something that nobody on here is doing for you guys
[21:11 - 21:19] We about to do this shit on drug boy
[21:29 - 21:31] Now it was ready for some fun
[21:41 - 21:43] Oh
[21:47 - 21:50] Where's all my Naruto fans man, where you guys at?
[21:54 - 21:59] Yes, godly so godly
[22:03 - 22:05] Janta Matt
[22:06 - 22:08] Because something real
[22:09 - 22:11] Yes
[22:12 - 22:16] Who am I here in my bitch should I sound five with bones heart stone fans?
[22:16 - 22:22] I suicide I think any something's hot and something they'll be gone in your flesh
[22:22 - 22:29] But now I go harder than two course this big grandfire boss, but you know this you know six
[22:29 - 22:32] It's a tail tail feast boy. I'm not you bring flamethrower
[22:32 - 22:38] No, no, no, no, no, I'm not to braw I close kitchen you say tonight niggas come home on my own with of course
[22:38 - 22:42] I miss I'm thinking in these wood trying to knock me back to one
[22:42 - 22:44] So they use it
[22:48 - 22:52] Tonight is this because I'm doing bigger throw the other I'm brother Rockney
[22:52 - 22:56] I can knock my kung-fu chip button still have not me a mouth to
[22:56 - 23:02] eremiah starting drawn first take up my on some niggas on?s first better recognize and fucking shit down
[23:02 - 23:06] This is horseshoes in the plates over here to miss swordsman
[23:06 - 23:08] This is the scene where I dissed that diss rap
[23:08 - 23:11] Wait, did they call me the same to the same thing?
[23:11 - 23:13] Since that snake, they done all money shook
[23:13 - 23:16] Launching niggas away with an all money push
[23:19 - 23:22] Right here in the meetings, this is a newin' out in the ghetto
[23:22 - 23:23] Mostly into the K.L.B.
[23:23 - 23:24] I'm a rapist, K.L.B.
[23:24 - 23:27] I fuckin' did your wiki, real thing yet you killin' me
[23:27 - 23:30] And I'm the son of you and J.F.A.D
[23:30 - 23:32] And the way you wouldn't come back with any attention
[23:32 - 23:34] Madra, I don't even need you to the bathroom
[23:34 - 23:37] Tell me if it isn't to the bathroom, I don't even want to the bathroom
[23:37 - 23:41] I'm a fuckin' villain, a rogue shinobi who does not play this thing
[23:41 - 23:44] Even a chance in the past by the Kage, the Mr. Kage
[23:44 - 23:46] The right Kage, the Kage, the Kage
[23:46 - 23:49] Every memory of God's killing stop me, the story, the story
[23:49 - 23:51] That don't mean it's gon' be gon'
[23:51 - 23:53] No, the boys string that cock and roll the story
[23:53 - 23:56] Asking, you know, she know I ain't a hero
[23:56 - 23:59] A fresh friend to rap, yours got to chill
[23:59 - 24:02] When the rap's in short, it can go either die or be gone
[24:02 - 24:05] I ain't takin' life since we were chiho, past
[24:05 - 24:07] I used to say it called for the surprise one
[24:07 - 24:10] And if I runnin' cause we ain't playin' then die in Dara
[24:10 - 24:12] As I'm attached, I'm gon' hunt the cock
[24:12 - 24:15] Cause we'll quick ahead the guy, we won't know about you
[24:15 - 24:18] But I'll transform, make sure you stream once
[24:18 - 24:21] I'm gon' pump the net, you just ain't...
[24:21 - 24:22] Niggas...
[24:24 - 24:26] I'm from the shot, let you come out of...
[24:26 - 24:28] Get that, I got more phones and panting
[24:28 - 24:31] And more weapons ready than motherfuckers in there
[24:31 - 24:34] Young dudes, dudes, squads ready to choo-choo
[24:34 - 24:37] Gonna ask, what does somethings do, choo-choo
[24:37 - 24:39] Suck it, chuck it, I'm in, I'm not
[24:39 - 24:42] Chewing, finger flickering, breakin', breakin', throw a sound
[24:42 - 24:44] Just age on the edge, turn, eat on the nothing, bitch
[24:46 - 24:48] Is it down for somethin' in the bitch, boy?
[24:52 - 24:54] I'll stop you when I try ya
[24:54 - 24:57] Only moves for me, I'm drunk, we got the girl
[25:03 - 25:06] Hey, we are dilly, we fall for the same
[25:07 - 25:10] That Corona ad, shit, shit, singin' on the chainsin'
[25:18 - 25:20] Layin' them out, ouch, ouch
[25:20 - 25:22] Short kissin' my thoughts, wanna go?
[25:22 - 25:24] I'm a gon' bomb, bomb, bomb, bomb
[25:26 - 25:28] You fuckin' old dog, keep a...
[25:28 - 25:30] Hey, hey, hey, hey, when you in the name of Reaper
[25:30 - 25:32] Me sweat you, you're nothin' but a zapper
[25:32 - 25:35] What's the ain't gotone? You know I'm gonna get you
[25:35 - 25:38] No sound so you just come at the cover door
[25:38 - 25:41] Cause I'm the star on the show, not a door
[25:41 - 25:43] I'm pooper this one nigga, I know
[25:43 - 25:45] But you can't do a better pussy
[25:45 - 25:47] Got that bio
[25:47 - 25:54] a wise man once said yo come back what up dude
[26:03 - 26:16] now I do want to prove something I do want to prove something a lot of people
[26:16 - 26:22] are sitting there saying like oh your screams are fake da da da da da yada yada
[26:22 - 26:28] yada like you don't know how to scream properly all your shit's fake well I
[26:28 - 26:36] want to prove to y'all that when I do my screams that shit's legit me
[26:36 - 26:47] I'll have to ask is one thing
[26:56 - 27:01] where's all my disturbed ones that right now
[27:06 - 27:08] you
[27:36 - 27:38] you ready
[27:47 - 27:49] and in the dream you love
[27:49 - 27:50] and in the darkness
[27:50 - 27:53] and don't you want to fall off
[27:53 - 27:54] and in the minute
[27:54 - 27:56] you die and eat and then the fight
[27:56 - 27:58] and in the darkness
[27:58 - 28:01] there's no one left on your life
[28:02 - 28:06] and this will be mine
[28:06 - 28:08] if you get me turned in
[28:12 - 28:14] don't you think of me
[28:14 - 28:16] the way that your life was also
[28:16 - 28:18] moving now
[28:18 - 28:22] it's all over the world
[28:22 - 28:25] and I will feel my
[28:25 - 28:27] power
[28:27 - 28:29] can no escape
[28:29 - 28:32] I am unstoppable
[29:00 - 29:02] if this is moving
[29:10 - 29:12] you get me turned in
[29:12 - 29:14] don't you think of me
[29:14 - 29:16] the way that your life was also
[29:16 - 29:18] moving now
[29:18 - 29:20] it's all over the world
[29:20 - 29:22] I will feel my
[29:22 - 29:24] power
[29:24 - 29:26] can no escape
[29:26 - 29:28] I will feel my
[29:29 - 29:31] power
[29:31 - 29:33] can no be unstoppable
[29:35 - 29:37] to follow the road
[29:37 - 29:39] and it's all over the world
[29:39 - 29:41] to go with the pain
[29:41 - 29:43] to follow the road
[29:43 - 29:45] and they can kill me
[29:45 - 29:47] now
[29:47 - 29:49] I am a skin
[29:49 - 29:51] I am unstoppable
[29:59 - 30:01] no
[30:07 - 30:09] I am
[30:09 - 30:11] I am
[30:21 - 30:23] I am unstoppable
[30:24 - 30:26] I am
[30:26 - 30:28] I am
[30:36 - 30:38] healing now
[30:38 - 30:40] I am unstoppable
[30:42 - 30:44] I will feel my
[30:44 - 30:46] power
[30:46 - 30:48] can no be unstoppable
[30:53 - 31:02] I'm out of time, don't wait to be enough for all your wonders, hear me now
[31:02 - 31:08] Let's all escape, I am unstoppable
[31:08 - 31:13] Uh uh uh uh
[31:17 - 31:23] I am unstoppable
[31:23 - 31:39] Now, how many fans are there?
[31:53 - 31:58] Now, I have a question for everybody here, man
[31:58 - 32:03] How many OG fans are disturbed in the house right now, man?
[32:03 - 32:17] How many OG fans do we have that are disturbed?
[32:17 - 32:26] I don't mean like, you know, your age, I mean like, how many fans are disturbed in the house from their original shit from way back in the fucking day?
[32:26 - 32:34] Like 2000, 2001 type shit
[32:34 - 32:45] Yo, happy Easter, man, hope you had a good one, dude
[32:45 - 32:51] Thank you so much for all my OG disturbed fans, man
[32:51 - 33:02] You are man, oh
[33:02 - 33:15] Uh uh uh uh
[33:15 - 33:25] Uh uh uh
[33:25 - 33:35] Uh uh uh
[33:35 - 33:44] Uh uh uh
[33:45 - 33:52] From the right now, from the right
[33:52 - 33:55] Wait for the right
[33:55 - 33:59] They are all getting less and less
[33:59 - 34:05] Feelin' me now, see what you do
[34:05 - 34:11] They want me
[34:11 - 34:16] They want to see me
[34:16 - 34:19] They want to see to me
[34:19 - 34:25] They want to see me
[34:25 - 34:28] If I don't do my life outside.
[34:28 - 34:32] Quivering now, shivering now, quivering.
[34:32 - 34:35] If I don't do my life outside.
[34:35 - 34:38] I'm the rain now, I'm the rain.
[34:38 - 34:41] If I don't do my life outside.
[34:41 - 34:44] Quivering, quivering.
[34:44 - 34:47] If I don't do my life outside.
[34:47 - 34:50] Feeling me now.
[34:50 - 34:53] Quivering now.
[35:21 - 35:25] Save of the addiction. Save of the oblation.
[35:25 - 35:33] Save of the blind, blind and blind.
[35:33 - 35:39] You are the vision of a man.
[35:39 - 35:45] You are a man.
[36:15 - 36:22] I can see it, Sam.
[36:45 - 37:00] Now, I want to do a song on here for you guys.
[37:00 - 37:08] That came to me when I needed it most.
[37:08 - 37:15] I want to dedicate this song to all you guys out there that are like myself and have lost
[37:15 - 37:18] someone to suicide the way that I have.
[37:18 - 37:29] Because like you guys, I'm tired of fucking seeing it and it don't need to be fucking happening.
[37:29 - 37:52] I'm sure to stay where the sun's right now, but I cannot help you, not to hurt anymore.
[37:52 - 38:03] We saw brilliance when the world was asleep.
[38:03 - 38:11] There are things that we can't have, but can't keep.
[38:11 - 38:22] And they say, who cares if one more light goes out in the sky of a million stars?
[38:22 - 38:25] It flickers, flickers.
[38:25 - 38:34] Who cares if someone's time runs out if a moment is all we are?
[38:34 - 38:37] We're quicker, quicker.
[38:37 - 38:41] Who cares if one more light goes out?
[38:41 - 38:48] Well, I do.
[38:48 - 39:00] The reminder, pull the floor from your feet.
[39:00 - 39:09] In the kitchen, one more chair than you need.
[39:09 - 39:17] Oh, and you're angry, and you should be.
[39:17 - 39:25] It's not fair, just cause you can't see yet.
[39:25 - 39:31] It doesn't mean it isn't there.
[39:31 - 39:42] And they say, who cares if one more light goes out in the sky of a million stars?
[39:42 - 39:44] It flickers, flickers.
[39:44 - 39:53] Who cares if someone's time runs out if a moment is all we are?
[39:53 - 39:56] We're quicker, quicker.
[39:56 - 40:00] Who cares if one more light goes out?
[40:00 - 40:14] Well, I do.
[40:14 - 40:18] That song right there helped me out through so fucking much, man.
[40:18 - 40:26] Because like I said before, and some of you may have seen this on Facebook, and I have
[40:26 - 40:30] mentioned it on here before too.
[40:30 - 40:48] Because of these people that have bullied me all these years, I was a victim of suicide
[40:48 - 40:50] almost.
[40:50 - 40:57] For those of you that don't know, I'm a survivor of suicide twice over.
[40:57 - 41:03] Because of these people doing all this shit a couple years ago, I attempted to take my
[41:03 - 41:21] own life not once, but twice, because of these people and what they do.
[41:21 - 41:28] And let me tell you right now, man, I would never wish being in that position on anyone
[41:29 - 41:31] at all, period.
[41:31 - 41:33] I wouldn't wish it on Marty.
[41:33 - 41:36] I wouldn't wish it on Syracs video games.
[41:36 - 41:38] I wouldn't wish it on William Gordon.
[41:38 - 41:40] I wouldn't wish that on anyone.
[41:40 - 41:56] I would never wish what I've been put through on anyone, because no one deserves that.
[41:56 - 42:01] No one deserves to be bullied like that.
[42:01 - 42:03] And yo, dude, my day was good, man.
[42:03 - 42:10] I hung out with friends, hung out with family, kicked with some of my homies on Forza earlier
[42:10 - 42:11] today, man.
[42:11 - 42:18] Did a little bit of practicing on WRC 10 for the new rally season coming up, man, because
[42:18 - 42:25] as you guys know, I am a competitive gamer, more specifically in the genre of racing and
[42:25 - 42:27] rally racing.
[42:27 - 42:33] I do a lot of WRC 10, a lot of Dirt 2.0 and stuff like that.
[42:33 - 42:46] So I got a little bit of practicing on that, which was fun, as always.
[42:46 - 42:52] But I want to do a song of my own for you guys, and this is something that I never really
[42:52 - 42:54] get the chance to do.
[42:54 - 43:00] And this is one of my older songs, and I hope that this helps you guys.
[43:22 - 43:39] This song is called It's Inside My Mind.
[43:39 - 44:05] It's called It's Inside My Mind, and it's called It's Inside My Mind, and it's called
[44:05 - 44:33] It's Inside My Mind, and it's called It's Inside My Mind, and it's called It's Inside
[44:33 - 45:03] My Mind, and it's called It's Inside My Mind, and it's called It's Inside My Mind, and it's
[45:03 - 45:31] called It's Inside My Mind, and it's called It's Inside My Mind, and it's called It's Inside
[45:31 - 46:01] My Mind, and it's called It's Inside My Mind, and it's called It's Inside My Mind, and it's
[46:01 - 46:22] called It's Inside My Mind, and it's called It's Inside My Mind, and it's called It's
[46:22 - 46:44] called It's Inside My Mind, and it's called It's Inside My Mind, and it's called It's
[46:44 - 47:02] Inside My Mind, and it's called It's Inside My Mind, and it's called It's Inside My Mind,
[47:02 - 47:09] Touches with time, mind, time to think and touch with what's happening around me.
[47:10 - 47:13] Not to worry too much.
[47:17 - 47:22] There's a lot of empty shadows, more hopeful than to take.
[47:22 - 47:28] Say that you've been dead not to understand tonight.
[47:29 - 47:31] That you've never been gone.
[47:31 - 47:34] There's always here with me.
[47:35 - 47:40] Wouldn't feel right until you've just let me be.
[47:43 - 47:47] Anywho had a worse day than I.
[47:48 - 47:53] There's always been that I wouldn't say goodbye.
[47:54 - 47:58] On the coast of no consistency.
[47:59 - 48:01] Nothing about none of the town.
[48:01 - 48:05] Nothing about just me.
[48:07 - 48:11] There's always here with me.
[48:12 - 48:19] I wouldn't be here right now until you've just let me be.
[48:22 - 48:26] I don't feel normal in some sort of way.
[48:42 - 48:48] I'm going to tell you all this right now, man.
[48:49 - 48:55] There was a point in time where I used to enjoy dancing.
[48:55 - 48:56] I really did.
[48:56 - 48:58] I used to enjoy it.
[49:04 - 49:08] I used to enjoy dancing back in the day.
[49:08 - 49:11] Because I came up doing it throughout high school.
[49:11 - 49:16] Hell, you guys saw my friend Kat destroy Marty in less than five minutes.
[49:16 - 49:22] And my friend Kat, not only was she one of my closest friends,
[49:22 - 49:27] but she was actually my dance partner in my whole career.
[49:27 - 49:31] My whole high school career, she was my dance partner.
[49:31 - 49:35] We did every fucking talent show every fucking year.
[49:36 - 49:39] So every talent show throughout high school,
[49:39 - 49:43] me and her always did shit together, always.
[49:43 - 49:46] And to my friend Kat,
[49:47 - 49:53] I'd like to say thank you for being the bad and the most badass fucking teacher
[49:53 - 49:55] that you were for me.
[49:55 - 49:59] Because when I tell you right now, Kat, if it wasn't for you,
[49:59 - 50:02] I wouldn't be able to do the shit that I did.
[50:02 - 50:05] And yeah, you were hard on my ass,
[50:05 - 50:08] but that hard assness is what I needed.
[50:11 - 50:15] You being hard on me is what got me to where I was in school,
[50:15 - 50:18] both inside dancing and outside of dancing.
[50:32 - 50:45] But these trolls, man, they were trying to force me to dance like that.
[50:45 - 50:47] It ain't cool.
[50:47 - 50:50] Because something that not a lot of people know
[50:50 - 50:54] that made dancing harder for me after high school was this.
[50:54 - 50:58] Back when I was in 11th, 12th grade.
[50:59 - 51:03] Outside of dancing, I actually got into a lot of free running.
[51:03 - 51:05] I did a lot of free running.
[51:05 - 51:07] I did a lot of parkour.
[51:09 - 51:14] And what made it hard was there was a day where me and some of my friends,
[51:14 - 51:16] we were filming.
[51:16 - 51:19] And so, because back then, I didn't know how to film.
[51:19 - 51:21] I didn't know how to post videos.
[51:21 - 51:24] They're the ones that knew how to do that shit.
[51:24 - 51:29] So we were sitting there filming us just doing our typical parkour
[51:29 - 51:32] through the school that we usually did before and after school.
[51:32 - 51:35] And there was like this little landing inside the school.
[51:35 - 51:40] You had like a real small set of stairs that I had hit hundreds of times.
[51:40 - 51:45] It was like a staircase that was up against the wall with the rail on the wall.
[51:45 - 51:53] And I had hit that staircase at least a couple hundred times before.
[51:53 - 51:56] Doing wall runs, front flips, all that shit.
[51:56 - 51:58] I was so used to it.
[51:59 - 52:02] But this one day, man, just something felt weird.
[52:02 - 52:06] We were filming and I went to do a wall run
[52:08 - 52:14] going up over the stair set because the rail was about this high on me.
[52:14 - 52:19] And I would do a wall run up over it and come down.
[52:20 - 52:27] And I had done it like four or five times before filming.
[52:27 - 52:33] And just when I did it that one time during the filming, I come out the wall, come down.
[52:33 - 52:36] And instead of landing how I normally landed,
[52:36 - 52:44] my fucking ankle shoved right into my fucking leg because I landed on my foot roller.
[52:44 - 52:48] I landed wrong one time and it fucked up my ankle,
[52:48 - 52:54] which sucked because I used to enjoy doing parkour, which is why I had to retire from that.
[52:54 - 53:02] And ever since then, it's made it hard to dance, but I've done it.
[53:02 - 53:06] And like I said, maybe one day I'll be able to come back to it.
[53:06 - 53:12] When this troll shits over, maybe one day I will be able to go back to doing dancing again.
[53:12 - 53:19] Maybe one day I will be able to go back to that, but until this troll shit dies down,
[53:19 - 53:23] I can't see that happening, unfortunately.
[53:23 - 53:30] Because these guys want to use me dancing to make money off me and that ain't right.
[53:43 - 53:50] Tell me, tell you guys something I haven't told anyone?
[53:50 - 53:53] Hmm.
[53:53 - 53:58] I mean, y'all pretty much already know everything about me, so I mean, what is there?
[53:58 - 54:03] What is there to say?
[54:03 - 54:07] I mean, I can give you guys some fun little facts about myself
[54:07 - 54:09] that y'all don't know.
[54:09 - 54:12] So while some of you might know, some of you might not.
[54:12 - 54:17] But for those of you that don't know, I'm an antique collector.
[54:17 - 54:20] I love collecting old things.
[54:20 - 54:25] Like I should have something right over here to show you all too, in fact.
[54:25 - 54:27] Not this.
[54:27 - 54:32] See over there, that old school TV.
[54:32 - 54:51] And it still fucking works too.
[54:51 - 55:02] Like that old school, Panasonic Speedo Vision TV still works too, man.
[55:02 - 55:07] Still works, still in good condition, just doesn't get signal.
[55:07 - 55:10] Alright, it turns on, flips on, everything like that.
[55:10 - 55:20] But it just doesn't work.
[55:20 - 55:22] Yo, dude, that's awesome, man.
[55:22 - 55:25] Hey, you're talking to an OG Pokemon fan right here, bro.
[55:25 - 55:30] I grew up, hey, matter of fact, another fun fact for you guys.
[55:30 - 55:37] My very first Pokemon game was Pokemon Red version for Game Boy Color.
[55:37 - 55:45] That was my very first Pokemon game ever, was Pokemon Red for Game Boy Color.
[55:45 - 55:49] I don't know, it was for regular Game Boy, but still.
[55:49 - 55:53] That was my first Pokemon game ever, was Pokemon Red version.
[55:53 - 55:55] And I still have it too.
[55:55 - 55:57] I still have it to this day.
[55:57 - 56:04] And then my second Pokemon game was Pokemon Stadium.
[56:04 - 56:09] Yo, yellow's the shit, bro.
[56:09 - 56:11] Yellow version's the fucking shit.
[56:11 - 56:15] I'm sorry, man, but you ain't beaten the old school Pokemon, bro.
[56:15 - 56:21] You can't do it.
[56:21 - 56:26] Alright, bro, you want to talk about OG?
[56:26 - 56:31] Dude, I've had this for fucking years.
[56:31 - 56:34] I've had this since I was a kid.
[56:34 - 56:57] Old school fucking Pokemon Mew coin, bro.
[56:57 - 57:05] Hey, they don't make them like they used to.
[57:05 - 57:21] They don't make the old school games like they used to, bro.
[57:21 - 57:25] OG fucking Mew, man.
[57:25 - 57:40] OG rare as fuck Mew's still in perfect gas condition, bro.
[57:40 - 57:46] And I have the rare ass Mewtwo to go with it.
[57:46 - 57:58] I just don't know where the Mewtwo coin is right now.
[57:58 - 58:02] But I have the OG Mewtwo coin.
[58:02 - 58:07] I have the OG giant ass white Mewtwo coin.
[58:07 - 58:16] I just don't know where that's at right now at all.
[58:16 - 58:18] Hey, y'all, it's funny.
[58:18 - 58:22] Everybody always asks me, am I an anime fan?
[58:22 - 58:23] Am I an anime nerd?
[58:23 - 58:24] Am I a weed?
[58:24 - 58:33] Well, I'm gonna answer that for you.
[58:33 - 58:43] Whoa.
[58:43 - 58:53] All right, let me read it back to you guys.
[59:13 - 59:42] All right.
[59:43 - 59:51] Now, to answer y'all's question, what do you guys think?
[59:51 - 59:56] I'm a fucking anime fan out the ass, bro.
[59:56 - 60:03] And what do you guys think?
[60:03 - 60:09] Godammit, bro.
[60:09 - 60:14] Not to say one more for 15 bucks.
[60:14 - 60:16] So yeah, you're a boys and anime fan, dude.
[60:16 - 60:20] You're a boys and anime nerd.
[60:20 - 60:31] Everything from fucking Pokemon, Dragon Ball Z, Gun the Wing, fucking Food Wars, Naruto.
[60:31 - 60:41] What did you name it, dude?
[60:41 - 60:47] I know a lot of people don't notice this, but if you look right here on my rings, I have the two twin bleach.
[60:47 - 60:56] I have the two twin skulls from Bleach.
[60:56 - 60:58] I have the two twin skulls from Bleach right there.
[60:58 - 61:03] I got Howl's Ring from Howl's Moving Castle.
[61:03 - 61:06] And Sophie's Ring right here, that heart ring.
[61:06 - 61:12] That's also Sophie's Ring from Howl's Moving Castle as well.
[61:12 - 61:18] Shout out hi, I'm Yuzaki in Studio Ghibli.
[61:18 - 61:21] No, I'm a massive Studio Ghibli fan.
[61:21 - 61:29] I've been since I was a kid.
[61:29 - 61:33] And Chainsaw Man is the shit.
[61:33 - 61:44] Chainsaw Man is my shit, dude.
[61:44 - 61:46] Matter of fact, for all my anime fans, you know what?
[61:46 - 61:48] I'm gonna do something for you guys right quick.
[62:14 - 62:43] You guys might recognize this.
[62:43 - 63:10] Let's see if you guys remember this.
[63:10 - 63:36] That's Sophie's Ring.
[63:36 - 64:05] That's Sophie's Ring.
[64:05 - 64:34] That's Sophie's Ring.
[64:34 - 65:00] That's Sophie's Ring.
[65:00 - 65:29] That's Sophie's Ring.
[65:30 - 65:59] That's Sophie's Ring.
[66:00 - 66:29] That's Sophie's Ring.
[66:30 - 66:57] That's Sophie's Ring.
[66:57 - 67:26] That's Sophie's Ring.
[67:27 - 67:56] That's Sophie's Ring.
[67:57 - 68:24] That's Sophie's Ring.
[68:24 - 68:53] That's Sophie's Ring.
[68:54 - 69:13] So yeah, your boy knows a little bit of old school shit.
[69:13 - 69:18] And for those of y'all that don't know, massive fucking Zelda fan, boy.
[69:18 - 69:26] Next gaming stream is coming up right after this one, man. Straight the fuck up.
[69:26 - 69:31] But in case y'all didn't know, your boy's a massive fucking Zelda fan.
[69:31 - 69:36] I think this one in addition is all the kelp up.
[69:36 - 69:40] I want to say game exchange for like 10 bucks.
[69:40 - 69:45] So yeah, one in addition, never getting rid of it.
[69:45 - 70:03] So yeah.
[70:03 - 70:10] Y'all know dude, I literally, well dude, y'all figured today was Easter, so I was busy with my family all day, dude.
[70:10 - 70:26] I was planning on it, but I ended up getting busy with my family.
[70:26 - 70:35] Hey y'all, I am about to end it right here, and I'm actually going to be setting up for a gaming stream here in just a sec.
[70:35 - 70:38] So I'll be on the lookout for the next stream here in just a few minutes, man.
[70:38 - 70:44] I'm going to sit down, take a quick break.
[70:44 - 70:52] Dude is like one or two things, and then I am starting up that fucking stream for you guys.
[70:52 - 70:58] And yeah, without being said, man, I fucking love you guys.
[70:58 - 71:04] And I will catch you guys in just a few minutes, man.
[71:04 - 71:09] If you guys would like to subscribe, you guys are more than welcome to.
[71:09 - 71:13] I have the paid subscriptions now up and running.
[71:13 - 71:23] So if you guys would like to do a paid subscription and get a lot of cool extra shit here in the coming days and months, you guys will be able to do that.
[71:23 - 71:30] I will be working on a merch shop again very, very soon.
[71:30 - 71:39] I also am going to be working on something else in private that I can't, I can't really talk about the project just yet,
[71:39 - 71:45] but it's something really huge that I've been wanting to do for a very long time that I'm now able to do.
[71:45 - 71:53] So once I get further into the project and I get the green light to speak about it, then I will be doing that.
[71:53 - 72:00] And yeah, I fucking love you guys, and I will catch you guys here in a bit, man. Peace.
[72:00 - 72:04] Wow, a few minutes I should say.
[72:12 - 72:18] Anyways, man, I fucking love you all, dude, and I will catch you guys later on, man. Peace.
Transcribed by lolcow.city as id '430' on August 3rd, 2024
