2023-3-29 WHY IM LEAVING YOUTUBE !!!!

[0:00 - 0:07] what's up guys it's creative Drifter here um as you guys know I've deleted all
[0:07 - 0:13] the content of my channel because I am actually leaving YouTube for a very
[0:13 - 0:26] long time but there is one thing that I want to say and get off my chest that
[0:26 - 0:36] I've been holding back and that's the fact that for the past two years I've been
[0:36 - 0:49] sick I've been physically sick because of people like music Bismarie it's mostly
[0:49 - 0:55] because if not all of because of music Bismarie I have been physically sick
[0:55 - 1:11] um I've dealt with a lot of depression because of it and because of Marnie
[1:11 - 1:20] there were times that I tried to take my own life over the last couple years and I
[1:20 - 1:24] just want to say this that if it wasn't for my family
[1:24 - 1:34] stepping in and saving my life I would have killed myself
[1:39 - 1:46] it wasn't for my friends and my girlfriend and those that I truly care
[1:46 - 1:57] about keeping me in good spirits as much as they could I would probably be
[1:57 - 2:07] dead right now to be honest I would be dead right now what Marty has done to me
[2:07 - 2:15] I would not wish on my worst enemy this man has set me up to make me look like a
[2:15 - 2:22] type of file this man has threatened to rape and murder my family this man is
[2:22 - 2:30] threatened to burn my house now with me and my family in it this man has
[2:30 - 2:41] threatened to not only do that but this man has actually threatened to kill me
[2:41 - 2:48] this man is also attempted to kill me not once but twice once on live stream and
[2:48 - 2:53] then once just a mere few weeks ago
[2:56 - 3:08] and if I want to get better I have to leave this platform for good and I know
[3:08 - 3:15] it sucks for those of you that do so for me I know it sucks but please try to
[3:15 - 3:27] understand that I have to do this for me I have to leave this toxic ass platform
[3:28 - 3:35] in order to get better I don't know how long I'm gonna be gone for I don't know
[3:35 - 3:43] if I'll even ever come back at this point I don't know I would like to come back
[3:43 - 3:51] eventually I would but until this bullying me stops until this harassing me
[3:51 - 4:03] stops I can't see myself coming back I can't see myself doing what I used to do
[4:03 - 4:10] eight years ago back when I was doing good for myself back when I was building
[4:10 - 4:19] my content the proper way I want no involvement with Marty or any of this
[4:19 - 4:25] troll community anymore I don't want that for myself I want more for myself I
[4:25 - 4:32] want to be able to create the content that I used to create I want to be able
[4:32 - 4:39] to be myself again and it's not fair that I get robbed of that by people like
[4:39 - 4:49] Marty and it sure as hell ain't fair to those that support me that love my work
[4:49 - 4:58] that enjoy my content it's not fair to you guys that you guys don't get to see
[4:58 - 5:07] me do good like I know you want to see me do what Marty's doing isn't right it's
[5:07 - 5:24] not right in any way shape or form and I can't take it anymore I can't do it so
[5:24 - 5:33] to those of you that have showed me love and compassion and you know actually
[5:33 - 5:40] have stood up for me supported me through all this shit I want to say thank
[5:40 - 5:53] you but I have to leave this platform like I said so I can get well again so I
[5:53 - 6:03] can be the me that I was eight years ago the real me that created content that
[6:03 - 6:11] people actually enjoyed that people actually loved that people had fun doing
[6:14 - 6:20] and I say the content that people had fun doing because I had a lot of guest stars
[6:21 - 6:29] that wanted to do content with me and they got to do it and I enjoyed that I
[6:29 - 6:35] like collaborating with people and having fun I enjoy creating content that
[6:35 - 6:45] people can enjoy I'm tired of being angry all the time I'm tired of crying
[6:45 - 6:51] myself to sleep every night wishing this shit would stop wishing it would all go
[6:51 - 7:04] just go away but most importantly I'm tired of being attacked I'm tired of
[7:04 - 7:10] being bullied I'm tired of constantly being depressed and angry and upset all
[7:10 - 7:17] the time because that person that's angry and upset all the time that's not me
[7:17 - 7:23] that's not who I am this person that the internet's made me out to be that's not
[7:23 - 7:30] who I truly am that person that you see on the internet is a result of me being
[7:30 - 7:39] fucking bullied every day by people like Marty people that keep on pushing me
[7:39 - 7:43] into a corner and attacking me for no reason
[7:47 - 7:53] and to those of you that do make fun of me I get that I look different I
[7:53 - 8:04] understand that I'm very well aware of that I may not look the best to you guys
[8:04 - 8:13] I may not look like a normal person should of my age but that does not give
[8:13 - 8:17] you the right to bully me that does not give you the right to try to turn me
[8:17 - 8:28] into this low-cow it's all stupid and it needs to stop
[8:35 - 8:40] I mean for those of you bullying me you're not only taking away from me and
[8:40 - 8:44] stuff that I could be doing you're taking away from those that want to see me
[8:44 - 8:51] do good you're taking away from those that want to see me succeed and how am I
[8:51 - 8:56] supposed to do that if I'm being bullied all the time
[9:01 - 9:05] I'm tired of the bullying
[9:05 - 9:21] I'm tired of all of it I'm tired of waking up to the very fucked up text
[9:21 - 9:30] messages on my phone hearing fucked up voicemails on my mom's phone I'm tired of
[9:31 - 9:38] being attacked I'm tired of being depressed I'm tired of being upset all
[9:38 - 9:47] the time I want to be myself again more than anything in the world and in order
[9:47 - 9:53] to do that I have to leave this platform for a while because I'm not gonna get any
[9:53 - 10:03] better staying on YouTube but I can promise you this every chance I get I am
[10:03 - 10:11] going to report Marty as much as I can and I hope that those of you that support
[10:11 - 10:19] me will do the same because what he's doing is not okay it's disturbing and
[10:19 - 10:27] it's not right his actions are reserved for those that are in a very terrible
[10:27 - 10:39] place in their life what Marty does are the actions of a true psychopath the
[10:39 - 10:46] stuff Marty does are not actions reserved for a normal human thinking person
[10:46 - 10:52] somebody who thinks logically doesn't go around doing that shit somebody who
[10:52 - 10:57] thinks logically doesn't go around setting them up to make them look like a
[10:57 - 11:05] pedophile because they don't get their way a normal thinking person doesn't go
[11:05 - 11:13] around doxing people or harassing someone's friends or loved ones
[11:14 - 11:21] someone who has a normal functioning brain doesn't try to murder someone
[11:21 - 11:25] twice
[11:30 - 11:38] Marty has a lot wrong with him and he needs mental help he really does the
[11:39 - 11:45] things I've said yes a lot of it is wrong but you also need to understand that a
[11:45 - 11:56] lot of what I've done and said on the internet was due to me being bullied and
[11:56 - 12:04] attacked it's like cornering an animal dude you corner an animal it's gonna bite
[12:04 - 12:13] back it's you're gonna get bit you poke a bear you're gonna get mall you poke a
[12:13 - 12:20] tiger you're gonna get bit you poke a wolf you're gonna get even alive and
[12:20 - 12:25] that's all Marty has ever done is provoke me and poke me and push me into a
[12:25 - 12:41] corner and I'm tired of it so as of the recording of this video all my content
[12:41 - 12:48] is already gone on all my channels and I'm not gonna be posting for a while
[12:48 - 12:53] but to those of you that do support me I want to say thank you guys for
[12:53 - 13:01] everything and I appreciate all that you guys have done for me but as of right
[13:01 - 13:13] now I need to get away from this because if I keep getting sick I can then
[13:13 - 13:19] back up in the hospital and possibly be in a worse position than what I was in
[13:19 - 13:30] two years ago not to mention the last year and I don't want that for myself
[13:36 - 13:45] I want to be myself again so fucking bad and for those of you that might see
[13:45 - 13:51] this on Facebook please stop sending me stuff about Marty because I don't care
[13:51 - 13:57] anymore I don't care what he says or does I'm done with him I'm done
[13:57 - 14:03] interacting with him entirely I am cutting him out of my life for good as
[14:03 - 14:09] of the recording of this video I don't want to see or hear his name I don't want
[14:09 - 14:19] you I don't even want to know what he's posting on his channel I don't
[14:21 - 14:30] because I want nothing to do with him I am cutting Marty out of my life for good
[14:30 - 14:36] whether he likes it or not I don't care I am cutting him out because he is toxic
[14:36 - 14:41] and I don't need people like him in my life I need people like my girlfriend and
[14:41 - 14:47] my friends and my family in my life I need to be surrounded by positive people
[14:47 - 14:55] not people like Marty or bullies or trolls both that being said thank you guys
[14:55 - 15:01] I love you guys and just know that I'm okay and hopefully one day I'll be able
[15:01 - 15:05] to come back I love you guys