2023-3-14 Stepping away for a bit

[0:00 - 0:11] what's up guys so I'm here to talk about something real quick that does need to be spoken on a lot
[0:11 - 0:21] of you guys might be wondering why I posted that last video but I learned something over the last
[0:21 - 0:34] few days that is very it's very heartbreaking to me because it deals with a very good friend of mine
[0:34 - 0:43] and his wife who have both been so supportive of me this whole time and everything that I was going through
[0:52 - 1:01] and that person is my brother Clint who has been a very dear and near friend to me and his wife Matt
[1:04 - 1:11] for those of you that don't know my brother Clint who's like I said been a near and near
[1:11 - 1:20] friend of mine he's been a brother to me for a long time now his wife Matt was diagnosed with
[1:20 - 1:29] stage four terminal cancer and she only has between three to 18 months left to live
[1:31 - 1:39] and seeing him go through that I know what that's like because as many of you may know
[1:40 - 1:48] I lost my older brother to cancer so I understand the fight and how hard it is to watch someone
[1:49 - 1:52] that you love sorely dying with or away
[1:57 - 2:06] but you know even with that I've you know learned a lot of other stuff as well
[2:13 - 2:18] I've been talking to a very good friend of mine who as you guys know put Marty in his place the other
[2:18 - 2:27] night which to that person I'd like to say thank you um but uh
[2:30 - 2:39] I learned that instead of focusing on the trolls and focusing on the negative shit I should be
[2:39 - 2:48] really focusing on my music on my girlfriend on my band and all my friends and family
[2:50 - 2:59] but more importantly I need to be focusing on myself as a person focusing on a good relationship
[2:59 - 3:06] with my wonderful amazing girlfriend who I love to the moon and back and more importantly
[3:06 - 3:13] focusing on helping other people like my friend Clint and his wife who are going through the toughest
[3:13 - 3:25] fight of their life that's why as of this video I'm not gonna be posting for a while
[3:27 - 3:34] because I don't want to focus on the negative shit I want to be there for my friends I want to be
[3:34 - 3:41] there from my brother Clint who like I said he's been a brother and a one of my closest friends
[3:42 - 3:50] for a very long time now I'm so appreciative of you know he's one of my good friends he's been
[3:50 - 4:01] a good friend of me for a long time and seeing him go through this
[4:04 - 4:08] I can't let him fight that battle alone because I know what that fight is like
[4:12 - 4:20] I know how hard it is to watch the one you love slowly slip away from cancer and not being able
[4:20 - 4:29] to do a thing about it I know what that's like and he needs good people like myself there to be around him
[4:33 - 4:41] because I know that when his wife passes it's going to be hard very hard
[4:42 - 4:51] which is why I'm not leaving YouTube for good so don't take this as a me leaving permanently
[4:53 - 5:00] but I will not be posting for a while but instead I'll be focusing on my band on my music
[5:01 - 5:09] on my friends and being there for Clint and his family who seriously need good people beyond
[5:09 - 5:17] them right now um I don't know when I'm gonna upload again
[5:20 - 5:27] so just for those of you that do support me that do appreciate me I want to say thank you guys and
[5:30 - 5:37] I hope you guys know that I do care about you guys and that I truly thank you for your love and support
[5:38 - 5:40] um
[5:43 - 5:50] and just know that I'm okay that I'm doing okay I'm fine I'm well I'm in a good place mentally I'm doing good
[5:53 - 5:56] but I will not be on here
[6:00 - 6:04] for a while and I may not even be on twitch I don't know
[6:05 - 6:11] I mean I would still like to fight for my job at twitch but with the way that it's going it's looking
[6:11 - 6:21] like that might not happen I don't know but if I'm not on twitch and I have you on facebook
[6:21 - 6:24] I will let you know where I'll be streaming at
[6:28 - 6:32] but with that being said I love you guys and I'll catch you guys later
[6:34 - 6:36] you