Original upload date: August 9th, 2022 (automatically grabbed from title)
[0:00 - 0:21] What's up everybody? So I know it's early in the morning but I just want to say I've
[0:21 - 0:31] been up and down all night you know thinking a lot about stuff and I mean a lot I've been
[0:31 - 0:44] up and down just all night long thinking about quite a bit thinking about what I really want
[0:44 - 1:04] to do what I should be doing what I want to do with my life and I just want to say that
[1:04 - 1:11] I know I haven't put out any music in the last few months I know I was working on an
[1:11 - 1:23] album earlier this year but it got put on hold due to obvious reasons but I want to
[1:23 - 1:31] talk about something else you know the whole reason I'm taking a break from everything
[1:31 - 1:43] I've done it doesn't just have to do with you know William Gloria on them it doesn't
[1:43 - 1:51] something that you guys need to understand I've been doing music for over ten years
[1:51 - 1:57] I've been doing music for over ten years with no breaks at all and within that ten
[1:57 - 2:09] years we're going on 11 now but within that ten and a half years of doing music four to
[2:09 - 2:18] five of those years were spent me being bullied me being harassed me being attacked and the
[2:18 - 2:32] last out of those four years in the last two years were the worst I hadn't gotten you
[2:32 - 2:45] know a lot of stuff done to me you know I almost got shot by police over stupid shit
[2:45 - 2:56] that Gloria on those little friends trying to pin on me I've lost every job I had had
[2:56 - 3:04] because of these because I have I lost a lot quite a bit I mean I don't need to repeat
[3:04 - 3:22] everything that went on I really don't but you know I can genuinely say that I've been
[3:22 - 3:42] through a lot and this month I'm just now being able to get my life back you know I'm
[3:42 - 3:49] just now being able to get my life back the way that I've been wanting to do for the
[3:49 - 3:58] past you know the whole time of them being attacked and bullied and droll now I know
[3:58 - 4:04] what you guys are thinking well what happened with the label what's going on with the label
[4:04 - 4:10] well to be honest I left and it's not because they were bad people it's not because they
[4:10 - 4:21] were you know did anything wrong it's not because you know anything like that it's not
[4:21 - 4:28] because they were trolls right then but I left because they were trying to turn me
[4:28 - 4:38] into somebody that I didn't want to be they wanted to make me be this fucking OG gangster
[4:38 - 4:47] rapper that has a good message and that's not me like they wanted the book shows for
[4:47 - 5:01] as early as October for me and I'm not okay with that I'm really not because for me when
[5:01 - 5:08] I'm working on an album I like to take my time with it I like to take two three months
[5:08 - 5:14] you know sit down and really put in the effort to make sure my album is really compact and
[5:14 - 5:28] really nice and tight and clean I like to take my time with my work you know I like
[5:28 - 5:36] to take time with what I do and shout out to Matt what's up man but you know I'd really
[5:36 - 5:43] like to take my time on my music I like to really put in time and effort into what I
[5:43 - 5:56] do I don't like to just sling shit out there every day I don't do that now I could do
[5:56 - 6:07] that if I wanted to but I don't because I want my stuff to sound good I really do I
[6:07 - 6:18] want my work to sound the best that it can possibly sound and I mean that I want my music
[6:18 - 6:36] to be solid I don't want my music to be half-assed now if you guys did not know since I have
[6:36 - 6:51] been on break away from music I've been focusing a lot more back on my horror style artwork
[6:51 - 6:59] on my weird and strange macabre style artwork but I've also been focusing on competitive
[6:59 - 7:15] gaming again more so in the area of you know racing and you know drifting and having fun
[7:15 - 7:21] and that's what I want to do with my life and that's why I'm not saying that I'm not
[7:21 - 7:30] gonna release any music but fraud keyword probably for the rest of this year I may
[7:30 - 7:39] not release any more music probably and the reason being because I really want to give
[7:39 - 7:46] back to the person that everybody knew me as I want to give back to being the me that
[7:46 - 7:57] I was back in 2008 and 2009 I don't want to be this person that you know everybody's
[7:57 - 8:09] trying to you know create I don't want to be that person that I was over the last four
[8:09 - 8:20] or five years because that person to me even though you know the troll communities that
[8:20 - 8:33] made me famous are trying to keep that alive for me that version of me is dead that version
[8:33 - 8:53] of me is dead and I will not mourn the loss of that version of me you know another reason
[8:53 - 9:00] that I left down below entertainment is because of which if you guys don't know that's the
[9:00 - 9:12] label that I was talking about the last few days but another reason why I left that label
[9:12 - 9:20] is because of the fact that I want to be able to release what I want whatever I want
[9:20 - 9:31] without being rushed like I want to be able to take as much time as I need to release
[9:31 - 9:42] my music and when I'm on a label I can't do that now was I able to do that with Machiavelli
[9:42 - 9:49] records a few years ago yes and I was happy about that which is one of the biggest reasons
[9:49 - 10:00] why I was so pissed off when I got dropped because of the bullshit but at the same time
[10:00 - 10:15] I see me being dropped not only as a curse but I also see it as a blessing in disguise
[10:15 - 10:26] because I got the blessing from Fox family and you know the whole entire team and I got
[10:26 - 10:34] reinsured that regardless of whether I stay on the label or not I've got a future in music
[10:34 - 10:41] and that right there means more to me than anything in the world because there's very
[10:41 - 10:51] few people that get to be on such a legendary label like that but because of my hard work
[10:51 - 11:01] and my honesty I was brought onto that label because I earned that spot and like I said
[11:01 - 11:11] when I got signed to Machiavelli records a couple years ago you know I didn't go looking
[11:11 - 11:22] for them they came looking for me they came looking for me because they saw potential
[11:22 - 11:30] in me and they saw talent in me you know regardless of whether I got kicked off the
[11:30 - 11:39] label or whatever that don't matter I'm still grateful for the lessons that I learned while
[11:39 - 11:44] I was on that label the stuff that I learned in that time period I'll always carry with
[11:44 - 11:53] me the fact that I got the blessing of one of the one of the founding members of hip
[11:53 - 12:06] hop's family if not the main founder of hip hop is huge that's something I will always
[12:06 - 12:19] carry with me that is something I will always cherish for the rest of my life but for right
[12:19 - 12:32] now I want to focus on you know being normal you know I want to focus on being how I was
[12:32 - 12:47] back in 2008-2009 you know I want to be how I was back in like freaking 2006 when I was
[12:47 - 12:57] a teenager and I was normal and I didn't have the pressure of being a public figure
[12:57 - 13:03] in my eyes I'm not a public figure I'm me I know that you know my name is out there
[13:03 - 13:14] I know that you know I'm obviously a public figure and shit but I'm a public figure for
[13:14 - 13:27] the wrong reasons I got made a public figure out of being bullied and harassed and attacked
[13:27 - 13:36] and I want to go back to the very beginning and not be famous I don't want to be famous
[13:36 - 13:48] right now I don't I want to be normal I want people to you know see me as that normal dude
[13:48 - 13:57] that is approachable that can you know you can hang out with like I want to be that dude
[13:57 - 14:05] that you know whenever you see me and you say what's up I want you guys to know that
[14:05 - 14:12] I'm approachable and I'm not gonna do fucked up shit like people think because I'm not
[14:12 - 14:28] that kind of dude if you show me respect I show you respect respect is a two-way street
[14:28 - 14:39] when I come back to doing my music you know when I come back from this hiatus and I start
[14:39 - 14:48] releasing my music again and I actually am able to you know eventually book shows down
[14:48 - 14:56] the way later down the line and I'm out there in the street and like I'm doing something
[14:56 - 15:02] or I'm going to you know somewhere or I'm going to the store of my family or whatever
[15:02 - 15:09] and I run into a fan or I running the ring of people that know my music I want people
[15:09 - 15:14] to be able to walk up to me and when they meet me for the first time I want them to
[15:14 - 15:20] be able to go back and say yo this dude is actually a really nice guy he is nothing
[15:20 - 15:29] like what these people are saying he is because I don't want to be known for this crap that
[15:29 - 15:41] went on because that chapter in my life is done over finished I want nothing to do with
[15:41 - 15:57] the troll community I want no connection to those people because I'll be honest back
[15:57 - 16:06] in 2016 2017 I didn't know the troll community even existed I didn't even know what a troll
[16:06 - 16:16] was I didn't even know that that kind of stuff existed back in 2016 around twenty
[16:16 - 16:25] way 2016 early 2017 you know what I was doing I was doing gameplay footage reaction videos
[16:25 - 16:33] and creating music and making AMVs and watching TV and hanging out with my friends that's
[16:33 - 16:43] what I was doing I'll admit back in those days I was a fuckin anime nerd still am very
[16:43 - 16:52] much so if not a bigger one but back then I was constantly posting about you know the
[16:52 - 17:00] latest anime that I had just watched or creating fan art or you know hanging out with friends
[17:00 - 17:13] and being normal but ever since this troll craft started with you know Music Biz Marty
[17:13 - 17:19] Mass Hole reports and William Glory Hole and their whole community of trolls ever
[17:19 - 17:26] since then I've not been able to live a normal life and it's not fair to me it's not fair
[17:26 - 17:34] to my friends that they have to watch me suffer and it's definitely not fair to my
[17:34 - 17:53] family especially my family like I'm tired of being known as something that I'm not
[17:53 - 18:01] I'm tired of these labels that people try to put on me by saying oh you're a pedo
[18:01 - 18:10] you said this you said that I said no such thing like how William Glory Hole chomped
[18:10 - 18:25] up audio and tried to make it sound like I said that I talked to 14 year olds I don't
[18:25 - 18:46] know who I am okay I was entrapped by a troll that had malicious intent okay I was entrapped
[18:46 - 18:56] by a troll with an agenda to make me look like shit because I am a weird looking person
[18:56 - 19:08] in their eyes to the people on YouTube to the people on YouTube that you know see me
[19:08 - 19:18] as whatever to them I'm not a normal looking person to them someone like me doesn't deserve
[19:18 - 19:26] to have a life to me to people like them people like me don't deserve to make money
[19:26 - 19:35] or to live our dreams to them people like me aren't good enough to do what we want
[19:35 - 19:45] to do and I want to prove that stereotype wrong which if you guys don't know that's
[19:45 - 19:53] why I'm working hard behind the scenes to put a stop to all this so that I can live
[19:53 - 20:01] my life on my own terms and to be able to get my stuff going to the point to where
[20:01 - 20:11] I will have a job regardless because I want to be able to take what I'm good at and make
[20:11 - 20:34] it into a living but until this troll stuff gets dealt with I'm not going to be able
[20:34 - 20:45] to do that and be able to come back more focused more motivated more fired up ready to go now
[20:45 - 20:56] I said am I retiring from music for good no just until I get this stuff with all these
[20:56 - 21:02] people that have been bullying me for the last four to five years I'm taking a break
[21:02 - 21:10] now will I still do cover shows and stuff absolutely I love doing that shit I know you
[21:10 - 21:21] guys enjoy seeing me do it and whatnot but until this crap gets cleaned up I'm not going
[21:21 - 21:30] to be releasing any music on any platforms or anything anytime in the near future but
[21:30 - 21:36] what I will be doing is working on my artwork working on creating a clothing brand from
[21:36 - 21:45] my recent creepy artwork that a lot of people love I'll be more you know doing more coffee
[21:45 - 21:55] and chill streams I'll be you know pumping out better videos on here where people can
[21:55 - 22:04] come in and have fun and chat and hang out I will be you know doing more competitive
[22:04 - 22:12] gaming on here like you guys have seen me do recently because like I said I'm an athlete
[22:12 - 22:23] at art and for me doing competitive gaming is the closest thing that I can get you know
[22:23 - 22:34] to being able to do the actual thing and I'll be honest I enjoy it because not only
[22:34 - 22:41] do I get to do what I love but I get to do what I love and push the boundaries of sim
[22:41 - 22:52] racing and I get to push the sport of drifting in a way that no one else has done who knows
[22:52 - 22:59] five six seven months from now through horizon five who knows how big drifting tournaments
[22:59 - 23:07] will be they may hold fucking formula drift competitions through forza horizon five in
[23:07 - 23:13] the near future with the way everything is going and if you guys don't think that sim
[23:13 - 23:22] racing is actually a sport it actually is you can actually take a look at the Olympics
[23:22 - 23:35] from last year the 2020 Olympics sim racing was introduced through Gran Turismo seven
[23:35 - 23:44] last year which was huge that was a huge step for the sim racing community that was
[23:44 - 23:56] a huge leap and that's amazing to see because let me tell you when I saw that I was stoked
[23:56 - 24:07] I was so hyped up because as somebody that comes from a sim racing background like I
[24:07 - 24:17] want to be able to push the sport of sim racing as far as it can go you know whether
[24:17 - 24:28] that be in you know rally like I do with their rally 2.0 whether that be what track
[24:28 - 24:38] racing like forza motorsport 7 or the crew 2 or whether that be you know doing formula
[24:38 - 24:49] drift events through forza motorsport 7 through a set of corsa through even games such as
[24:49 - 24:56] like when I'm playing right now forza horizon 5 like I want to be able to push the envelope
[24:56 - 25:04] of drifting to that next level like I said I've always enjoyed the sport of drifting
[25:04 - 25:13] ever since I was a kid and I want to be able to push that sport as much as I can in the
[25:13 - 25:22] right direction to where like I said maybe somewhere down the line you know I'll be
[25:22 - 25:30] able to compete in actual formula drift events through horizon 5 very similar to the horizon
[25:30 - 25:36] 5 open drift events that they have I mean they can go from that to actual FD events
[25:36 - 25:41] and the reason why I'm saying it and if you don't know what FD stands for it's short
[25:41 - 25:51] term for formula drift but people have actually made on horizon 5 in the creative hub people
[25:51 - 26:00] have actually made one for one scale legit full blown copies of real life formula drift
[26:00 - 26:10] tracks and they've made freaking tandem comps they've made practice arenas they've made
[26:10 - 26:18] all kinds of cool stuff that could take it in that direction and I definitely want to
[26:18 - 26:25] focus on that like I said along with my artwork you know pushing the sport of drifting to
[26:25 - 26:32] that next level is something that I love doing which is why would I do every morning
[26:32 - 26:40] every morning when I wake up this is literally my schedule like this is literally what I
[26:40 - 26:47] do every morning regardless of whether I do music later in the day or not that's irrelevant
[26:47 - 26:55] my morning schedule goes like this I wake up I grab some coffee depending on what time
[26:55 - 27:06] I wake up I usually grab a thing of hot coffee I freaking brush my teeth I take a shower
[27:06 - 27:14] and then when I'm done with that I usually hop on the TV see if anything goes on on
[27:14 - 27:20] regular TV because I do have regular TV I look to see what's on and if there's nothing
[27:20 - 27:28] really good on the TV then I'll usually hop on YouTube and I'll see if any of my favorite
[27:28 - 27:36] YouTubers have you know posted anything and if they have I'll watch it and when I don't
[27:36 - 27:43] go through all the YouTubers that I watch and then if like I said if they post anything
[27:43 - 27:52] I'll watch it and then you know after I've done watching whatever you know YouTubers
[27:52 - 28:02] that I watch I post anything and then I usually set up my rig and I start training and practicing
[28:02 - 28:08] for two or three hours and then after that I take a break hang out with my friends on
[28:08 - 28:16] here on FaceTime or outside of Facebook whenever they come over here to hang out or whatever
[28:16 - 28:24] and then after that if they're over here they usually leave and then the rest of the time
[28:24 - 28:31] is usually spent hanging out with my friends on here or hanging out with family like that's
[28:31 - 28:37] my schedule I usually watch matter of fact while I hang out with my friends sometimes
[28:37 - 28:42] they catch me watching anime or whatever and yes I do keep up with anime and yes I have
[28:42 - 28:48] seen all the ones that Amityplex and all these other companies have dropped this year yes
[28:48 - 28:52] I've been keeping up with it and yes I love all the new ones that came out this year
[28:52 - 29:01] super good I'm very very much a big fan of all the new animes that have released this
[29:01 - 29:10] year but you know that's my schedule that's what I do like I'm a normal person just like
[29:10 - 29:17] any other any other person out there alright I'm just as normal as you I'm human just
[29:17 - 29:30] like you you know certain people on the internet seem to think that I'm not
[29:30 - 29:44] you know like I said am I for sure dropping music for good no like I said I'm taking
[29:44 - 29:52] the next few months to even possibly the rest of this year I don't know but more than
[29:52 - 30:00] likely I'm going to be taking the rest of this year off from music because like I said
[30:00 - 30:07] I've been doing music for over 10 years with no breaks at all since day one it's been
[30:07 - 30:14] just go go go go go non-stop and when you do that like I said when you do music for
[30:14 - 30:21] over 10 years non-stop and then you have to put your life on hold because some assholes
[30:21 - 30:28] on the internet doing what they did to me it kind of throws everything off for you
[30:28 - 30:34] and you kind of have to you know get yourself recalibrated and re-situated and get back
[30:34 - 30:43] and do a better mindset which is what I'm doing now I'm focusing on stuff that I love
[30:43 - 30:50] to do and I'm putting myself back in a better mindset now as I said as for people like
[30:50 - 30:56] my good friend Life Giant Media will I still be creating music for him yes but that's
[30:56 - 31:06] because he's paying me to do soundtracks for him for his videos he usually has me
[31:06 - 31:13] make a bunch of stuff up for him and then send it to him and he pays me for it but
[31:13 - 31:20] other than that and doing my covers like I do on here I'm not going to be releasing
[31:20 - 31:28] any music anytime soon and I know that upsets a lot of people that enjoy my music but I
[31:28 - 31:39] need a break I need a chance for you guys to be able to see who I was before all this
[31:39 - 31:47] stuff went down I want you guys to be able to message me and be like yo what's up dude
[31:47 - 31:57] how you doing like I want people that see this to know that I'm a normal guy just like
[31:57 - 32:04] anybody else and I want people to be able to see that I'm not like these people make
[32:04 - 32:10] me out to be on YouTube or on the internet in general I'm really not that person that
[32:10 - 32:18] they make me out to be and anybody that has talked to me whether that be on the phone
[32:18 - 32:28] whether that be by voice chat video chat you know whatever the people that have found
[32:28 - 32:36] me through those videos and talked to me right after has flat out said 99.9% of the
[32:36 - 32:42] time and I quote for beta because this is literally their response every time word
[32:42 - 32:51] for word dude you are nothing like what these people are making you out to be you're actually
[32:51 - 32:57] a nice guy you're actually a decent dude why are these people doing all this shit
[32:57 - 33:07] with you that's not cool and that is literally their response to how I am every time when
[33:07 - 33:14] they talk to me that is literally what they say every time and they're right how these
[33:14 - 33:22] people make me out to be on the internet is not who I am and anybody that knows me
[33:22 - 33:30] in real life or has actually talked to me can tell you that how these people make me
[33:30 - 33:37] out to be on the internet and on YouTube and on Google that's not that's not me that's
[33:37 - 33:46] not who I am is my family history a little bit rocky yeah but what family doesn't have
[33:46 - 33:52] skeletons in our closet let's be honest we all have done something stupid we've all
[33:52 - 34:00] fucked up we've all done shit that we're not proud of including myself I've done shit
[34:00 - 34:10] that I'm not proud of that I regret but at the end of the day those mistakes and those
[34:10 - 34:17] things is not who I am as a person as a human being like I said I'm the nicest person you
[34:17 - 34:22] could ever meet I'm the kind of guy that would give you the shirt off my back if you
[34:22 - 34:29] need it I'm the kind of guy that if you're like let's say I'm down here at gold star
[34:29 - 34:36] the little corner store let's say I'm down here and there's somebody that needs a dollar
[34:36 - 34:42] and I'm there grabbing some food or whatever or I'm grabbing an energy drink or something
[34:42 - 34:48] and I got a little bit of change and that person needs it I'll give them the money
[34:48 - 34:56] that they need if I see a homeless guy on the streets that is actually homeless I'll
[34:56 - 35:09] give them a few bucks to you know get them a burger or whatever like that's the kind
[35:09 - 35:19] of person that I am I'm not this god-awful monster that people are making me out to be
[35:19 - 35:24] and to be honest I'm tired of being labeled as that kind of person because that person
[35:24 - 35:39] is not me that is not who I am now have I said and done some things that are very questionable
[35:39 - 35:53] yes but that questionable stuff was a result of me being bullied and me being trolled
[35:53 - 36:06] that is not my fault now do I take responsibility for what I did yes but you also have to look
[36:06 - 36:14] at from the point of view of a lot of that stuff was a direct result of me being bullied
[36:14 - 36:20] and me being harassed and me being pushed to my limits and me being pushed to that
[36:20 - 36:29] point of snapping just like any other person a person can only take so much before they
[36:29 - 36:42] snap and 99.9% of the time I was pushed to the point of snapping I hit my breaking point
[36:42 - 36:58] I was pushed to my break point many many times and I don't like being that way which is
[36:58 - 37:14] why like I said I am taking a break from music as a whole and focusing on being normal working
[37:14 - 37:20] on my artwork hanging out with friends and family watching TV lounging around and being
[37:20 - 37:32] lazy like I did when I was a teenager like you know just living life and that's what
[37:32 - 37:49] I want to focus on is living my life being normal but with that being said I'm about
[37:49 - 37:54] to hop off here and chill watch the TV and relax and finish eating my breakfast which
[37:54 - 38:14] currently down in the steering wheel right here so I will see you guys later and I will
[38:14 - 38:18] catch you guys later and as I have you guys as my friends I will message you guys alright
[38:18 - 38:25] or I will call you depending on who you are but with that being said I love you guys
[38:25 - 38:31] and I will catch you guys later man peace oh and also on the side note I do hope that
[38:31 - 38:35] you guys have a good rest of your morning afternoon or evening wherever you guys are
[38:35 - 38:42] at I hope you guys are doing good staying safe and I hope you guys have a good rest
[38:42 - 38:49] of your day afternoon or evening wherever you guys are at I love you guys peace stay
[38:49 - 38:49] safe
Transcribed by lolcow.city as id '3176' on August 19th, 2024
