Original upload date: August 11th, 2022 (automatically grabbed from title)
[0:00 - 0:27] What's up guys, so I'm going to answer a question here that is actually very interesting to me.
[0:27 - 0:42] It's actually a very interesting one that somebody had just recently and it's a very interesting question because what I'm about to say does speak on a lot of that stuff.
[0:42 - 0:52] And I know it's early but I wanted to know this question now as I'm up late working working on some artwork and shit like that and getting other stuff done with work.
[0:52 - 1:08] So I figured I'd have fun to answer this quick question. Everybody always asks me, you know, like, you know, you should, well, first of all, they always tell me, you know, like, you should try to get a girlfriend, blah, blah, blah.
[1:08 - 1:17] Like, why don't you have a girlfriend? What's going on? You know, like you're a good dude, you deserve to be happy. Well, I'll tell you why.
[1:17 - 1:29] These trolls are the reason why. Because see, the last girlfriend I had, Trisha, got ran off by these trolls.
[1:29 - 1:40] Every girl I ever get with that I ever talk to, these trolls try to make me look like a sick piece of shit every time.
[1:40 - 1:51] Like, if they find out that I'm in a relationship, they sit there and they attack them, make that real person leave.
[1:51 - 2:03] And then they turn around and try to troll me with some fake ass fucking chick that they made up just to make me feel like fucking shit.
[2:03 - 2:15] It's not that I don't want a girlfriend. I would love to settle down. I would love to get married and have kids and have a successful career.
[2:15 - 2:29] Now, did I take a huge step in fighting back? Yes, I did. I did take a huge step in fighting back and I'm glad that I did.
[2:29 - 2:38] But it's because of these trolls that I don't have a girlfriend, you know, and it's sad. It really is.
[2:38 - 2:44] I mean, I've had so many people walk up and say, "Dude, you deserve to be happy."
[2:44 - 2:54] I've had people come up to me on Facebook and be like, "Yo, why are they messing with you? You're a decent guy. What the fuck is going on?"
[2:54 - 3:04] Well, like I said, it's because of these trolls running them off. Because they don't want to see me happy.
[3:04 - 3:21] They don't want to see me being happy with somebody or just in general.
[3:21 - 3:27] And sad as it is, that's just the truth of it. That's why I'm not with anybody right now.
[3:27 - 3:38] That's why I'm still single and have been single for almost the last three, four, five years almost.
[3:38 - 3:52] Because of people like music business Marty, William Glory Hole, and Mass Hole Reports, aka, National Mafia, aka, Kate Peters.
[3:52 - 4:07] These people are the reason why. Like I said, I would have loved, I would absolutely love to have a girlfriend and settle down and, you know, have a happy life.
[4:07 - 4:17] You know, I want to be able to be with somebody that's not going to judge me on my living situation or anything like that because I live with my family.
[4:17 - 4:30] I help my family out. And I know this, like, I know a lot of people are thinking like, "Oh, you know, this is another Debbie Donner video."
[4:30 - 4:38] No, it's me answering a simple question as to why I'm not in a relationship.
[4:38 - 4:44] I say it's not that I don't want to be. I would have loved to be in a relationship. I would have loved that.
[4:44 - 4:57] But as I said, because of a lot of this crap going on, it's just not happened yet.
[4:57 - 5:10] And does that suck? Yes, very much so. It does. But at the same time, you know, I'm trying to keep a positive mindset.
[5:10 - 5:20] Is it easy all the time? No. It's very, very hard at times. Very hard.
[5:20 - 5:33] You know, I'll be honest, ever since I was a kid, all I've ever wanted was to live the simple life.
[5:33 - 5:45] You know, do what I love for a living, you know, make a job out of what I love, and be able to come home to my wife and kids every night and stuff like that.
[5:45 - 5:58] That's something I've always wanted, is to be able to have a job that I love doing, that I enjoy, and to be able to come home to, you know, a family and stuff like that.
[5:58 - 6:15] You know, to be able to settle down, have a wife and kids, have a job that I enjoy through whatever that thing may be, whether that be through Twitch, through my music, through my artwork, whatever that thing may be, you know.
[6:15 - 6:24] Whatever that thing may be, you know, how I make the money is, that's what I want to do for a job.
[6:24 - 6:35] And I did have a very, very, very good job through Twitch. I had an amazing job through Twitch. An amazing job.
[6:35 - 6:51] It was one of my dream jobs. I was a fucking professional streamer. I was a pro gamer. I was getting paid by Twitch to do my stuff.
[6:51 - 7:04] So I had a job, and it just showed that I can hold a job as far as being able to do my job on Twitch and doing music and stuff like that.
[7:04 - 7:10] I enjoyed it. I enjoyed my time on Twitch. I had a blast.
[7:10 - 7:18] Like I said, doing Twitch was a dream come true for me. That was one of my dream jobs.
[7:18 - 7:33] But then, as you all know, as we all know how this song and dance goes, the trolls came in and didn't like me making money, so they ripped the plug on my Twitch.
[7:33 - 7:48] Which sucks, because that was my job that I lost, and I got fired from for bullshit ass reasons. Do I agree with it? No.
[7:48 - 8:03] But it is what it is. But to answer the question that was asked to me, why I'm not with anybody, and why I'm not in a relationship, like I said, these trolls are the reason why.
[8:03 - 8:10] Because they like to think that these lies that they make up about me are the truth.
[8:10 - 8:19] And every time they see that I'm happy, that I'm with somebody that makes me happy, they do everything they can to ruin it.
[8:19 - 8:39] By spreading lies, spreading rumors, slandering my name, spreading around bullshit lies that are garbage, chopping up audio and piecing it together to make it sound like I'm saying things I did not say at all whatsoever, and never would say.
[8:39 - 8:44] So, that's the answer as to why.
[8:44 - 8:58] And, you know, it's because I see a lot of people, I see a lot of these trolls making up fake accounts to try to troll me with chicks, to try to, you know, act like, "Oh, I'm with this guy." No.
[8:58 - 9:08] A lot of these people that I do talk to, some are very real. Some of them are very real, and I have talked to them, and they're very nice people.
[9:08 - 9:17] They're very nice people, and I'm very appreciative of those that are real with me.
[9:17 - 9:30] But it's like, it's so easy for me to spot the fakes now that it's like I can do it with my eyes closed.
[9:30 - 9:48] Like, it's truly sad that I have to suffer as a result of the trolls' own downfalls and as a result of them being jealous so they don't want me to have anything.
[9:48 - 10:09] And that's sad. That is truly fucking sad that me being able to live a normal life and not being able to, you know, be in a relationship and have the normal life that I had, it's sad that my normal life has to be interrupted.
[10:09 - 10:20] All because of some dumb fuckheads that want to sit there and be like, "Oh, well, you did this, you said that." No, I didn't say any of that shit.
[10:20 - 10:30] I never did any of that shit. And it sucks.
[10:30 - 10:51] You know, the last real girlfriend I actually had was back in August of 2021. Actually, no, 2020.
[10:51 - 11:02] Back in August of 2020 is when I had my last real girlfriend. She came here to visit my family. We spent time together. We had a good time.
[11:02 - 11:10] I got to meet her family. Everything was good. Now, what led to us splitting up was her lying to me.
[11:10 - 11:22] She lied to me about talking to other people and this and that and whatnot. But that was a natural thing, you know, that I can handle.
[11:22 - 11:44] You know, a normal relationship. I can handle that. But what I'm tired of is being led on and lied to in catfish by all these fake ass fucking trolls that want to see me suffer.
[11:44 - 11:52] Everybody always asks me, "Well, what do you look for in a girl?" I don't look for anything, okay?
[11:52 - 12:08] The only thing I look for is how you treat people. If you treat your family right, if you treat your friends right, that I am on board with.
[12:08 - 12:17] I pay attention to how I'm treated, how my friends are treated, how you treat your family.
[12:17 - 12:31] You know, I want somebody that's not going to judge me by my living situation, what I do or don't have, but by how I treat them.
[12:31 - 12:46] And by how I'm working hard to make or reworking my ass off again for the hundredth time to remake one of my dreams into my job once again.
[12:46 - 13:07] Like I said, I already had one of my dream jobs, which was a pro Twitch streamer. I already had that. But then we all know, like I said, we all know how that song and dance went.
[13:07 - 13:23] Which is why I'm currently focusing on, you know, my artwork and pushing that as hard as I can on, you know, DeviantArt, on Instagram, on Facebook.
[13:23 - 13:33] And I'm also, you know, behind the scenes working on an album for next year every so often.
[13:33 - 13:46] And I'll be honest, I'm tired of being fucking lied to. I'm tired of being let on. I'm sick and tired of motherfuckers sitting there catfishing me for their own selfish bullshit game.
[13:46 - 13:54] I'm sick of it. I don't fucking need it. Nor do I want it.
[13:54 - 14:10] You know, I want something that's real. I don't care about, you know, how much money the girl has. I don't care, you know, how heavy she is or how skinny she is, what she looks like.
[14:10 - 14:29] That don't fucking matter to me. That shit is all secondary to me. For me, it's about the personality. It's how you treat people. It's who you are as a person that I pay attention to.
[14:29 - 14:44] You can be fucking 200 pounds and I would still see you as a fucking supermodel, in my eyes. Because like I said, I don't judge by what's on the outside like most people. I judge by what's in here.
[14:44 - 14:55] I don't judge by, "Oh, this person looks hot." No, I judge by what's in here. This right here, inside, is what I judge by.
[14:55 - 15:17] Because not everyone is perfect. No one is fucking perfect. Not everyone is going to be a fucking drop dead gorgeous Jennifer Lopez fucking supermodel looking person.
[15:17 - 15:41] That shit, my last real girlfriend Megan. Hot as fuck. Yeah, she may have weighed like about maybe 210, 220, maybe. But she was still cute as fuck. Y'all seen the photo of me and her together. She was cute as fuck.
[15:41 - 15:52] And a lot of people were envious of that. A lot of people.
[15:52 - 16:00] Hell, my fucking girlfriend that I had back in 2015, my high school sweetheart Christina.
[16:00 - 16:18] Dude, do you know how many motherfuckers kept on telling me like I'm a lucky motherfucker? Because let me tell you, like if you go back and look through my images or look through my post on my original Facebook, you'll see how fucking hot she actually was.
[16:18 - 16:44] Like, dude, she was a fucking dead fucking ringer. I shit you not. Now, the reason me and her split was because my ex best friend Eric, not Eric Scruggl, Eric LaRue, because of him interjecting and wanting what I had, you know, I'm pretty sure you guys can guess what happened with that.
[16:44 - 16:57] He talked her into leaving me because he was jealous and blah, blah, blah. And that whole shit went down. Then, of course, he turned around and blamed me like, you know, like most of them do.
[16:57 - 17:10] So me and him are no longer friends. Period. Me and him are no longer fucking friends because of it.
[17:10 - 17:25] So, like I said, am I looking to be with somebody? Yes, but I'm not going to force it. I'm not going to push it. I'm not going to walk into some random chick and be like, hey, you want to be together? You want to be with everyone? No.
[17:25 - 17:38] Like, I want to get to know the person before that even happens. The natural way, you know, the way that it's supposed to go, you meet a chick, you like her, you get to talking, you become friends, and then you go from there.
[17:38 - 17:55] You know, doing it the proper way, doing it the right way, instead of like how they have these motherfuckers on the internet, be like, oh, if she's such a dick, wife or ass, no. Fuck that, dude.
[17:55 - 18:10] I would rather get to know her. Like, dude, if a chick walks up to me and she's a fucking animator, and she wants to get to know me and shit or whatever, I'm down to fucking talk.
[18:10 - 18:18] Like, you know, I'm not going to sit there and be like, oh, you're an animator, so we have to be the other. No.
[18:18 - 18:25] What animator do you like? What kind of stuff are you into? And then you go from there.
[18:25 - 18:37] You don't just sit there and be like, oh, well, I want to jump to being your friend one day, and then, you know, being your boyfriend the next, and be boyfriend and girlfriend from there. No.
[18:37 - 18:48] That's not how that works. You take your time with the person, you build a friendship, and once you build that friendship, then you see if that will develop into a relationship.
[18:48 - 19:07] And if it does, hey, that's great. If not, okay. Like, I like to do things the correct way. I don't like to be like, well, you know, I've never talked to you by FaceTime.
[19:07 - 19:30] I don't know you, but I'm going to trust your word. I don't do that. Like, I like to be able to hear the person's voice, see their face, you know, kind of like how this is right now, you know, kind of like this, but with that person on FaceTime.
[19:30 - 19:42] You know, like I said, I want something that's real, not something that's fucking fake, not some bullshit fantasy made of troll crap. That's not me.
[19:42 - 19:55] That is not me. That's not who I am. That's not how I am. I don't believe in, you know, oh, you talk to a person and all of a sudden you're together. No.
[19:55 - 20:05] I believe in actually doing it the old school way, but through this, you know, you meet a person, you get to know them.
[20:05 - 20:16] And when they feel comfortable enough, FaceTime them if they want to, you know, and that's how it should be.
[20:16 - 20:30] Like, I'm the kind of person that, you know, I don't like to, I don't mind audio call, but I prefer stuff like this because then I know that that person is real.
[20:30 - 20:46] Hey, Ben, what's up, buddy? Like talking like this, talking on, you know, FaceTime like this. If I can see your face, if I can see your face and know that you're real, then we're good.
[20:46 - 20:56] But if I can't see your face or whatever, then how do I know you're not fucking bullshitting me?
[20:56 - 21:02] Do you know how many times I've been caught in human trafficking scams?
[21:02 - 21:15] How many times people try to scam me and get me into human trafficking and try to blackmail me with videos and shit? Quite a bit.
[21:15 - 21:34] I've been a victim of human trafficking on Facebook many a times in the past. And one thing I've learned overall that is this, if you can't see their face or you don't hear their voice or their photos don't match up, then you know they ain't real.
[21:34 - 21:44] If their photos don't fucking match up and they're not like, you know, like this and they're not real like with me, you guys know I'm real.
[21:44 - 22:01] Hi. Like you guys know I'm real. You guys have seen my YouTube videos. You guys have seen my room. You guys have seen me walk around my house. You guys know I'm real. I'm legit.
[22:01 - 22:13] Like, I don't sit there and play that fucking catfish bullshit. I mean, what are we in, motherfuckers grade school? What is this, fifth grade?
[22:13 - 22:16] Like, come on.
[22:16 - 22:21] But I'll be dead blunt, honest. I'm tired of being catfished.
[22:21 - 22:35] Like I said, I want something that is real. I don't want it to feel forced at all. I don't like things feeling forced.
[22:35 - 22:57] You know, I like things to be natural. I like things to happen when they happen. You know, like if, you know, if me and a chick hit it off so well within that first week and she asks me
[22:57 - 23:10] if I want to be with her and I say, yeah, that's cool because there are some people that do click and connect that fucking well.
[23:10 - 23:26] Hell, two of my best friends from childhood within one week of meeting each other and talking, they ended up together and they have been together since we were fucking kids.
[23:26 - 23:35] Are they married? No. Well, not married like that, but they're basically common while married because they've been together since we were fucking kids.
[23:35 - 23:45] Matter of fact, whenever they do get married, I'm going to be his fucking best man because he's one of my best fucking friends from childhood.
[23:45 - 23:54] He's one of my closest friends. He's pretty much my little brother and his girlfriend who is basically his fiance is practically like my little sister.
[23:54 - 24:05] I've known these students since I was like fucking 10. They're two of my closest friends in the entire world.
[24:05 - 24:19] So yes, being able to meet somebody and connecting with them on that level and being together for that long, that is possible because I myself have done that before.
[24:19 - 24:38] Like, take me into like, again, going back to me and Megan, me and her met through a Facebook group one day and we just randomly started talking.
[24:38 - 24:46] And, you know, within that first week, we connected so fucking well that we ended up together.
[24:46 - 24:57] Now, did she lie to me? Yes. Is that the reason I always split? Yes. But regardless of that, we were together.
[24:57 - 25:11] Regardless of what happened in the end, we still were together for a good period of time.
[25:11 - 25:20] Hey, what up?
[25:20 - 25:27] Hey, Ben, what's up, dude? Yeah, I know. And it's because I'm sitting back like this. That's why.
[25:27 - 25:35] It's not that I'm only halfway in the image. It's because I'm sitting back a little bit.
[25:35 - 25:41] So I do apologize for that.
[25:41 - 26:04] But, you know, like I said, the kind of girl that I'm looking for is just somebody who understands my living situation, understands what I've been through and doesn't judge me on it and supports what I'm trying to do with my dream and trying to follow my dreams.
[26:04 - 26:13] You know, I want somebody that's understanding about, you know, how I have to live with my family to help take care of them.
[26:13 - 26:22] You know, I said my stepdad, he just had a major knee surgery not long ago and my mom is so elderly that it's very hard for her to do anything.
[26:22 - 26:31] Yes, he does. My stepdad does still work regardless, but that's just because how he is. He loves to work.
[26:31 - 26:51] And that's the same with me. I love doing my job with what I do. I love to, you know, do what I love for living and I really want to be able to push that again so that whenever I do get a girlfriend and I am able to settle down, I can finally say, hey, I've got a job doing.
[26:51 - 26:57] Insert whatever I'm going to be doing within the next couple of years in the blank.
[26:57 - 27:22] You know, whether that be music, artwork or back on Twitch again or making videos on YouTube, either one I'm totally cool with, whether it be my art, Twitch, music, whatever, whatever, whatever I'm able to do as a career, I'm going to follow that path to the best of my ability.
[27:22 - 27:31] Granted, it might not be fucking millions like I should have been making this whole time, but it is what it is.
[27:31 - 28:00] You know, I can't control what happened in the past. I can't change what happened, but I can do something about right now. And what I'm trying to do right now is rebuild myself back up to where I was as an entrepreneur, as a creative, you know, as a content creator, as an artist, as a musician.
[28:00 - 28:19] You know, I enjoy entertaining people. I enjoy, you know, helping people forget about their issues. I enjoy, you know, making people feel dark emotions through my artwork.
[28:19 - 28:32] Like I enjoy the fuck out of that shit.
[28:32 - 29:00] But yeah, it's like my good friend Matt says. Now, let me, he says it best. My buddy Matt says it best.
[29:00 - 29:10] No, no, let me show you guys this video because I feel like everybody needs to see this shit. Let me make sure I got no charge on you. Oh, hell yeah.
[29:10 - 29:25] I got more than no charge. You stole my soul. Is that your no? Why the fuck did I sell my soul? Yeah, I sold my soul. I sold my soul to myself.
[29:25 - 29:35] Didn't you know?
[29:35 - 29:57] I'm sorry. I want you guys to see this, because this dude, he puts it best. Social media is absolute fucking garbage. Everyone is trying for a little bit of attention and artists and content creators suffer because of an algorithm where our content doesn't even get shown to the people who already fucking follow us.
[29:57 - 30:09] Because there's so many people battling to get a little bit of attention for absolutely nothing. And these people are actually getting paid. There are people who hop on the internet every day are not good at anything.
[30:09 - 30:26] But sit there and go, Hey, what's up, you guys feel free to follow my account, blah, blah, blah, and clickbait the living shit out of their videos. Just so people can watch it for a couple seconds, they can make ad revenue and get paid to feed their families, even though they're doing absolutely nothing.
[30:26 - 30:40] They just want attention. And all of our social sites are actually gravitating towards that type of content, the complete bullshit type of content where they're not good at anything. Our number one records in the country in the music industry are stemming from fucking viral memes.
[30:40 - 30:49] My last album cover was actually removed from the internet because it had a fucking gun on it.
[30:49 - 31:00] Fuck you. You know how many people use guns in the media, how many things are promoted with guns on Twitter, if you scroll and sure that you'll see porn, and that's making somebody money.
[31:00 - 31:08] But I had a fucking pistol. And that's not allowed to make me money. There's a certain type of censorship that's more real than you think it is. But I'm not even going to get into that.
[31:08 - 31:20] All of this shit is garbage, and I am fucking sick of it. Everyone always wants to have an opinion and share their feelings on things, but only when it caters to something that's already popping in the media, something that's already viral.
[31:20 - 31:24] Because otherwise, they don't want to say it because they won't get any attention.
[31:24 - 31:34] The last music video I did, the featured artist is my fucking personal friend in real life, and he didn't even want to promote the goddamn thing because he thought it was too controversial.
[31:34 - 31:45] Everyone is just openly being a pussy about everything. Everyone is so easily offended and easily triggered. Everyone's always going to have a contrasting opinion.
[31:45 - 31:58] That's what makes us all unique. That's what makes people able to exist. If you have an idea, and I have an idea that are different ideas, and we work together to make one better idea, that's a win.
[31:58 - 32:11] That would never happen if everyone agreed all the time. We have to disagree to move forward. Can you even imagine how boring life would be if everyone agreed with everything all the time?
[32:11 - 32:25] Our entire society would look like a cupcake factory. You can bust your fucking ass spending hundreds of hours creating something and working on something, and when you put it on the internet, it's going to go all the way down to the bottom of the algorithm because you did not scream,
[32:25 - 32:33] "Hey, look at me, look at me, look at me!" with a fucking clickbait title that has nothing to do with the content that you fucking created.
[32:33 - 32:52] You know it's a humongous problem when you have an artist who's insanely talented at drawing pictures, and their pictures they draw get 300 likes when a girl takes off her clothes and gets in a bikini and hops on the internet and gets like 400,000 likes for doing absolutely nothing.
[32:52 - 33:02] That girl now gets brand deals and starts to make money. That artist gets absolutely nothing and gets trapped in the algorithm because their last photo didn't get as many likes.
[33:02 - 33:14] People are congratulated for things that are not even accomplishments, but people are shunned for doing things like starting their own business or creating their own content, designing their own things, selling their own merchandise.
[33:14 - 33:23] That kind of stuff is frowned upon because it's not already popping off. It's complete garbage. I'm sick of being trapped in this system.
[33:23 - 33:38] I want absolutely nothing to fucking do with this shit. This is how I make money, so I attempt to do it every day. But it's driving me fucking crazy. I hate it. I absolutely hate social media.
[33:38 - 33:45] Get out of your house, do something in the real world, have fun, and fuck social media.
[33:50 - 34:18] Now, you tell me that that man is not dead ass to correct on that shit. And he's right. He really is right. People like me suffer because of people like the trolls or people that do that shit. He's right on that shit.
[34:18 - 34:24] But with my situation, it all has to do with the fucking troll crap.
[34:24 - 34:32] And it's stupid as a matter of fact.
[34:39 - 34:48] Let me do something for you guys here.
[34:48 - 35:04] Alright, give me a minute. I'm going to end the stream and I'm going to start a new one because this thing is completely cocked out sideways. So give me just a minute. I'll be right back, people.
Transcribed by lolcow.city as id '3204' on August 19th, 2024