2022-7-3 MY REAL LIFE (Twitch)

[0:00 - 0:17] Good morning, good evening, and good afternoon, everyone.
[0:17 - 0:32] I have something that I want to talk to all of you about.
[0:32 - 0:40] A lot of people don't know my whole story.
[0:40 - 1:02] So I'm here today to tell you guys what exactly has been going on over the last four years.
[1:02 - 1:08] Before I get into it, I want to introduce myself. My name is Chance, but most people
[1:08 - 1:16] know me on the internet under my artist named Cyraxx. I am a music artist of ten years.
[1:16 - 1:23] I've been doing drawing and painting my whole life.
[1:23 - 1:40] For those of you that don't know, my story begins shortly after 2017 and 2018.
[1:40 - 1:50] You see, in 2017 I got bullied by a guy named MusicBizMarty. Around that time, I had just
[1:50 - 1:57] founded an independent record label called Bloodshot Records with me and some now former
[1:57 - 2:07] friends of mine. It lasted about a year until 2018 when everybody decided to go their own
[2:07 - 2:22] separate ways and do their own thing which I had no issues with. But 2018 was rough.
[2:22 - 2:40] I was attacked multiple times by this MusicBizMarty guy. 2019 and stuff is when he got the worst.
[2:40 - 2:48] He really did things to screw with me, such as breaking into my Facebooks and into my
[2:48 - 2:59] discords. And I say Facebooks as in, you know, I had several Facebook accounts and several
[2:59 - 3:09] Discord accounts. And he broke into all of them, stole private photos between me and
[3:09 - 3:19] my exes, posted them on adult websites, posted them all over Discord, mocking me, making
[3:19 - 3:34] fun of me. But none of that can compare to when 2020 rolled around.
[3:34 - 3:46] 2020 is when I met this female on YouTube by the name of Masshole Reports. And at the
[3:46 - 3:57] time, I did not know that she was a troll. She pretended to be cool on Marty's channel
[3:57 - 4:05] and then acted like she was strung out on drugs. And I told her I cannot be around
[4:05 - 4:18] that shit because I've had friends that have lost their lives from accidental drug overdoses.
[4:18 - 4:29] Two of those people being my now past mentor who died of an accidental heroin overdose.
[4:29 - 4:38] And the lead vocalist for my band back in high school, Brian Hildebrand, who died from
[4:38 - 4:55] getting hooked on many, many pills and just going down that path. But I left Kate behind
[4:55 - 5:07] thinking everything was good. But little did I know that that was a set up to a troll.
[5:07 - 5:26] See Kate is 36 years of age currently, or 37. I'm not sure which. But Kate pretended
[5:26 - 5:36] to be 18 years of age. She hit me up by phone pretending to be a grown adult, which as you
[5:36 - 5:44] guys and everybody knows that 18 is a legal adult. She pretended to be an 18 year old
[5:44 - 5:51] fan who really liked my work and seemed to be interested in me. And we started talking
[5:51 - 6:01] for many, many hours by text message and phone call and stuff like that. Well, little did
[6:01 - 6:15] I know that that would lead to what it led to. After she hung up, I went back to watching
[6:15 - 6:23] whatever I was watching. I think I was watching like the Iron Giant or something at the time.
[6:23 - 6:36] But then she asked me, she basically told me that she wanted to have me see something.
[6:36 - 6:46] And bear in mind, things had heated up prior to the incident. Like, you know, she had
[6:46 - 6:55] gotten me to send her a certain pig. And well, after that went down, she told me that she
[6:55 - 7:07] had to go. Little did I know that what she did would pretty much ruin my life. Kate Peters,
[7:07 - 7:13] also more commonly known as Masshole reports on YouTube, decided to send me a picture of
[7:13 - 7:30] an underage child and then turned around and claimed to be 14 years of age. And after
[7:30 - 7:40] that incident went down, the police got called out here and they saw everything. I showed
[7:40 - 7:52] them the screenshots and they told me that I'm not a pedophile, just that I needed to
[7:52 - 8:02] be more careful about who I speak with and whom I talk to, which I understood. But little
[8:02 - 8:11] did I know that I would lead to this guy named William Gloria attacking me like he did.
[8:11 - 8:17] And at first his videos turned out to be funny. They truly did. They turned out to be funny
[8:17 - 8:25] little videos. Like there was one where he put me in a hot dog, had me laughing, had
[8:25 - 8:32] my whole family laughing. And then he did something that I thought was cool. He took
[8:32 - 8:38] my face and superimposed it on Vin Diesel and Paul Walker's face from the Fast and
[8:38 - 8:49] Furious films, which I saw that as an honor. I saw that as an honor because as many of
[8:49 - 8:58] you guys know, I am a major, major Fast and Furious fan and Paul Walker was a very big
[8:58 - 9:07] part of the car community than I am part of. So I saw that as an honor. I saw that as
[9:07 - 9:20] a compliment. But little did I know that it would lead to what it led to. Over the last
[9:20 - 9:35] two and a half years I've been bullied by William Gorial. My friends have all been attacked.
[9:35 - 9:49] This man has caused my biological father to lose his job. I have lost out on YouTube
[9:49 - 10:01] alone on close to about a million dollars in ad revenue. And I'm not even joking or
[10:01 - 10:08] embellishing when I say that. I've lost out on about a million dollars in ad revenue
[10:08 - 10:21] on YouTube over the last two years. Because I was such a big man and I was doing so well.
[10:21 - 10:31] I was releasing music almost every month. People were buying it like crazy. I was selling
[10:31 - 10:43] merchandise. I was doing good. I was doing very well for myself and around that time
[10:43 - 10:53] I had even gotten signed to the record label. That was one of my dream levels. Someone get
[10:53 - 11:07] this job guy out of here please. But I had actually gotten brought on to a major record
[11:07 - 11:17] label that was a dream of mine. Which is Machiavelli Records. I got found by Machiavelli
[11:17 - 11:26] Records because the owner of the label, Kalon the artist, is actually a friend that he's
[11:26 - 11:37] actually a good buddy to one of my good friends over in the UK. I saw it as an honor to be
[11:37 - 11:44] brought on to that label. To be part of something that I had thought my whole life to be brought
[11:44 - 12:04] on to. I had thought my whole life to be brought on to that label. And I finally got the opportunity
[12:04 - 12:16] but little did I know that I would get fired from that label due to the accusations of
[12:16 - 12:41] me being labeled as a pedophile. Or I'd say me being wrongfully labeled as a pedophile.
[12:41 - 12:53] And over the last two and a half years I've had very things to end on to me. I have had
[12:53 - 13:04] a dead baby pig still in the mother's fetal scent sent to my house. My family has had
[13:04 - 13:14] very fucked up messages and phone calls left on their voicemails. I've had people show
[13:14 - 13:31] to my house trying to kill me. I have had people show to my friend's houses and break
[13:31 - 13:45] their car windows looking for me. They lost their jobs because of all this. And what really
[13:45 - 14:10] pisses me off more than anything is the fact that this man, this William Gloryhole, has
[14:10 - 14:24] done some very fucked up things. And tattoo I'm going to mind you up because I know tattoo
[14:24 - 14:45] personally, she's a very good friend of mine. Thank you.
[14:45 - 15:15] Oh, I definitely will for sure. Tattoo for sure. But this man has done a lot. Like I've
[15:15 - 15:28] lost out on many opportunities. I've lost sponsorships. I've lost obviously very much
[15:28 - 15:36] a lot of money. That could have changed my life and my family's lives. I could have
[15:36 - 15:43] helped out artists that were struggling like myself. People that I knew on a personal
[15:43 - 15:50] level that work hard. And I mean very hard. People like my good friend, Wigs Wiggin, who
[15:50 - 16:00] is a very, very talented and very gifted UK music artist. I could have helped out one
[16:00 - 16:06] of my good friends who is an artist here in the US by the name of C West. He's a very
[16:06 - 16:13] gifted artist and I've collabed with him many a times on songs. He's actually a very,
[16:13 - 16:27] very good dude. That's how I can get rid of this Joby guy or Mellon can get rid of this
[16:27 - 16:52] Joby guy. And it has my life has been affected in major ways. Because something that not
[16:52 - 17:08] a lot of people have seen. Don't worry, Mellon, I got you. But something that not a lot of
[17:08 - 17:34] people have seen on YouTube is something that I've dealt with quite a bit. And that
[17:34 - 17:53] thing is depression. Because of William Gorehaugh and his friends and national reports. A couple
[17:53 - 18:05] years ago, I attempted to end my life on live stream in front of them. And thankfully,
[18:05 - 18:16] I had my friends and my family there to stop me. And these people have ruined so much
[18:16 - 18:37] for me and my family. I don't know what else to say other than I've gone through more
[18:37 - 18:48] than what anybody could ever deal with. And I've gone through more than anybody deserves
[18:48 - 19:08] to get put through. And Mellon, get rid of these two right here. This Sally person and
[19:08 - 19:28] you are a mod so you can do that. But there have been days where I have woken up depressed.
[19:28 - 19:38] There were days where I woke up depressed. I wasn't eating hardly. And when I did, I
[19:38 - 19:59] was throwing up because I was so skinny to where you could see my rib cage. I was that
[19:59 - 20:05] skinny. I woke up depressed many days. There were times where I went to bed at night and
[20:05 - 20:17] hoped and prayed that I wouldn't wake up the next day because of these people. There
[20:17 - 20:41] were days where I woke up mad that I was still here. Like this time last year, I didn't
[20:41 - 20:54] want to be here. I didn't want to live because I was put through so much. It got to the
[20:54 - 21:07] points where I left YouTube for about three months. I left YouTube for about three months.
[21:07 - 21:14] And at that time I was dating my best friend Tricia and I had known her for about four
[21:14 - 21:27] years. Me and her had started dating and we were together for a pretty good few months.
[21:27 - 21:41] And obviously, things just went bad. So me and her split it off. But what gets me, and
[21:41 - 21:50] the one thing I don't understand, is that every time one of you guys or somebody stands
[21:50 - 21:58] up for me and defends me, which I am very grateful to you guys for, I am very grateful
[21:58 - 22:05] to all of you that has stood up for me and had my back. Everybody from melon to tattooed
[22:05 - 22:15] for life and everybody that has actually shown support and love for me, I truly appreciate
[22:15 - 22:25] that more than anything. I really do. But what upsets me the most more than what I got
[22:25 - 22:33] put through is the fact that this person is so evil that he can sit there and make up
[22:33 - 22:38] screenshots and make them look legit and make me look like I'm doing things that I'm
[22:38 - 22:53] not doing and then to turn around to my friends and docs their personal information out there.
[22:53 - 23:08] This man is so evil. And here's the thing, crazy train. This is something that affects
[23:08 - 23:23] my life every day. This literally affects my life every day. You can ask melon, you
[23:23 - 23:34] can ask tattoo for life. This really affects my everyday life. Like this truly affects
[23:34 - 23:46] my life every day. Every day I constantly live in fear and wonder when is he going
[23:46 - 23:57] to attack next? What's he going to do to try to ruin me next? Every day is a constant
[23:57 - 24:04] wonder of is he going to stop? And if not, what's he going to do next to try to ruin
[24:04 - 24:24] me? Who is he going to lie to next? This is my everyday life. I can't even go outside
[24:24 - 24:43] without being an alert of fear.
[24:43 - 24:56] About four months ago something happened that really made me scared. Well, two things happened.
[24:56 - 25:04] The first thing happened was I was sitting here in my room and I was actually working
[25:04 - 25:12] on music at that time. And I heard a loud bang. And at first I didn't think nothing
[25:12 - 25:28] of it. But then, I heard the sound of glass shattering. And what I heard didn't sound
[25:28 - 25:42] normal. It sounded like gunfire. So I immediately grabbed my rifle and I went outside to look
[25:42 - 25:48] and see what was going on. Because I didn't know there were armed people outside or what.
[25:48 - 26:00] I didn't know. This lady's car, the back of her car, had been busted out. The back
[26:00 - 26:11] window had been shattered by a bunch of kids with semi-automatic rifles. Because when
[26:11 - 26:18] I heard that bang, I thought I heard like firecrackers. Because you know that sound
[26:18 - 26:25] that firecrackers make where it's like a really fast, repetitive bang? Like that firecracker
[26:25 - 26:35] sound? I thought that's what it was. But then, as soon as I realized what it was,
[26:35 - 26:46] I ran outside to see if anybody was hurt. I told my mom and I had to stay inside. And
[26:46 - 26:51] I ran out across the street to check on the lady in the car. The lady I'd struck our
[26:51 - 26:58] telephone pole right here at the end of the street, which is from my room to the telephone
[26:58 - 27:07] pole is about maybe 10, 15 feet, if that. Like it's not very far at all. It's like
[27:07 - 27:16] I can literally look out my window and see it. Like I can literally look out my bedroom
[27:16 - 27:25] window and see the telephone pole. Her car had gotten stomped up against there. But
[27:25 - 27:31] little did I know there was a little boy that got killed. When these people fired at that
[27:31 - 27:41] lady's car, one of the bullets ricocheted and killed this little boy who was no older
[27:41 - 27:54] than 13, just walking home from school. And unfortunately, the little boy died on the
[27:54 - 28:03] way to the hospital due to a gunshot wound to the heart. Because when the bullet ricocheted,
[28:03 - 28:23] it struck him, killing him almost instantly. And what scared me and my family is that
[28:23 - 28:31] we don't know if those bullets were meant for me or if they were just, you know, kids
[28:31 - 28:46] being, you know, a bunch of wannabe thugs. And the reason I say that is because we've
[28:46 - 28:54] had people show up to our house prior to where they had to be escorted off the premises
[28:54 - 29:20] by police. You know, it's sad. The things that I used to be able to do, the things that
[29:20 - 29:28] I used to be able to do, like going outside, doing photography, because a lot of people
[29:28 - 29:33] might not know this, but another thing that I actually have a knack for is photography.
[29:33 - 29:41] I've been doing photography for a little over five years now. Like I can't even go
[29:41 - 29:51] outside and do photography like I used to. I can't go for walks down by the lake. I
[29:51 - 29:55] can't even walk down the street without having to look over my shoulder and being an alert
[29:55 - 30:04] of fear that something can happen to me at any given time. This has been my life for
[30:04 - 30:29] the last four to five years and I am sick of it. Like I'm tired of living in fear. I'm
[30:29 - 30:41] tired of living with depression. I'm tired of being bullied by this guy. And one thing
[30:41 - 30:53] that really pisses me off even more is the fact that the police here refuse to do anything.
[30:53 - 31:07] They say that they can't do anything but in all actuality they could. And here's the
[31:07 - 31:15] thing, man. I don't need a therapist. What I need is for these people to leave me the
[31:15 - 31:42] fuck alone and to leave my friends and family alone. That's what I really need. Like I
[31:42 - 31:55] never asked to be bullied. I never asked to be harassed. I never asked to have my life
[31:55 - 32:23] so screwed up that I can't do anything about it. And but he is right though. The police
[32:23 - 32:44] here did wrongfully label me as mentally disturbed when clearly I'm not. There is clearly something
[32:44 - 32:53] very real going on here. And I want to bring this to light in any way that I can. I want
[32:53 - 33:02] people to see what's really going on. And the last two days have been the worst of
[33:02 - 33:22] my life. Because I had lost my best friend of ten years. He decided to walk away and
[33:22 - 33:29] join them and attack me. Even though this person had threatened, even though William
[33:29 - 33:44] Gore Hall had threatened to go after him with CPS. And I am making this video because I
[33:44 - 33:51] don't want anyone else to suffer the same way that I did. I don't want anybody else
[33:51 - 34:00] to get put through what I got put through. No one deserves to get put through what I
[34:00 - 34:09] got put through. I've lost friendships of many years. I've lost a lot of opportunities
[34:09 - 34:20] to change my life for the better. I've lost out on quite a bit in life and have been forced
[34:20 - 34:44] to suffer in a never-ending nightmare that I did not ask for nor do I deserve.
[34:44 - 34:56] Let me tell you guys something right now. Everything that I've gotten put through over
[34:56 - 35:22] the last two to four years. I would not wish any of this on anyone. I wouldn't wish this
[35:22 - 35:30] on William Gore Hall. I wouldn't wish this on Marty, on Masshole reports. No one. I would
[35:30 - 35:39] not wish what I got put through on anybody at all. Because no one deserves this. No one
[35:39 - 35:55] deserves to get attacked or bullied the same way that I have. No one deserves to get put
[35:55 - 36:12] through this at all. Every day is a constant war for my mind. Every day is a constant battle
[36:12 - 36:22] to remind myself that I'm going to be okay. Every day is a constant struggle for me to
[36:22 - 36:36] get rid of these bullies.
[36:36 - 36:57] And I want to share something with you guys.
[36:57 - 37:18] [music]
[37:18 - 37:35] Yes, this song is pertained to the military. But this song also applies to people like
[37:35 - 37:43] myself and what we deal with on a daily basis from being bullied.
[37:43 - 38:12] This song right here is pretty much my life every night and every day.
[38:12 - 38:37] [music]
[38:37 - 43:24] [applause]
[43:24 - 43:42] - You're no different from me and I'm no different from you. We're all people. And maybe if you cut your fucking ego down to size for a minute and take a walk in my shoes, then maybe then you'll understand what it's like.
[43:43 - 44:02] [silence]
[44:02 - 44:20] Either way, like I said, dude, you've not walked a mile in my shoes. So honestly, you have no right to judge. You have no right to speak on something that you know nothing about.
[44:20 - 44:37] [silence]
[44:37 - 44:50] Because unless you've walked a mile in my shoes, then you have no right to speak on what I've been through because you've not been through the exact situation that I have gone through.
[44:50 - 45:15] You've not had to wake up feeling depressed. You've not had to wake up dealing with the shit that I've had to deal with, wondering, "Am I going to make it through this day alive? Am I going to be okay? What are these people going to do to me next? How many more people are going to suffer as a result?"
[45:15 - 45:21] So if I were you, dude, I would sit down and I would shut my fucking mouth because you don't know.
[45:21 - 45:28] [silence]
[45:28 - 45:36] And like I said, I'm not meaning to be disrespectful, but dude, put yourself in someone else's position.
[45:36 - 46:11] [silence]
[46:11 - 46:24] And this song right here depicts the one question I ask myself every day.
[46:24 - 46:55] [silence]
[46:55 - 47:04] This song is the question that I ask myself every day.
[47:04 - 47:10] We all have our demons that we battle, and I face mine every day.
[47:10 - 47:17] They say we're dead and seen in the war, but I've seen it in the war.
[47:17 - 47:22] And the question is, can you live again?
[47:22 - 47:30] Oh, no. Maybe if I didn't see where I'm going, maybe I'm good.
[47:30 - 47:42] [silence]
[47:42 - 47:45] Can you live again? I don't even know what's real.
[47:45 - 47:48] It was hard to find life on my battlefield.
[47:48 - 47:51] Seen a lot of soldiers dying on the front lines.
[47:51 - 47:54] But I'm throwing ball. I'm gonna try and fly.
[47:54 - 47:57] I miss my June jump. This is a PLC.
[47:57 - 48:02] He was still a kid, only 18. Tears falling from my eyes.
[48:02 - 48:05] I can make it stop. He was on the battlefield.
[48:05 - 48:07] They the only ones I got.
[48:07 - 48:10] But he means, yeah, and I can't even find my way.
[48:10 - 48:13] I'm so confused, now I just wanna throw away.
[48:13 - 48:16] I'm feeling so numb, I just wanna feel again.
[48:16 - 48:19] I'm hella angry, now I just wanna feel again.
[48:19 - 48:22] You wanna understand if you didn't live it.
[48:22 - 48:25] It's like no, we can't. Y'all can't feel it.
[48:25 - 48:28] So I said that, and I just wanna live.
[48:28 - 48:31] Of all this shit, and I see 10, can I live?
[48:31 - 48:34] Can I live again? I don't even know what's real.
[48:34 - 48:37] It was hard to find life on the battlefield.
[48:37 - 48:40] Seen a lot of soldiers dying on the front lines.
[48:40 - 48:43] But I'm going north, when we drive by.
[48:43 - 48:46] If we live again, I don't even know what's real.
[48:46 - 48:49] It was hard to find life on the battlefield.
[48:49 - 48:52] Seen a lot of soldiers dying on the front lines.
[48:52 - 48:56] If I'm going north, when we drive by.
[48:56 - 48:59] If we lose our tools, y'all, I drink the truffle.
[48:59 - 49:02] It's me and you, who's making music and the truffle.
[49:02 - 49:05] Hey, remember, really, I gotta keep your head with me.
[49:05 - 49:08] I got so fucked up, even at your head with me.
[49:08 - 49:11] Hey, man, what up, I'm just so you keep living.
[49:11 - 49:14] I got your talent on my own, so I'm gonna live with you.
[49:14 - 49:17] Rapping on stage, rocking in, I know you're here.
[49:17 - 49:20] With the T's on, rifles high in the air.
[49:20 - 49:23] Can I live with you, and I don't even know what's real.
[49:23 - 49:26] Heads spinning round and round like a fan's wheel.
[49:26 - 49:29] I see them running, getting shot in execution style.
[49:29 - 49:32] Then they go observe, I'm standing feeling locked.
[49:32 - 49:35] It's so hard to smile, but still I carry on.
[49:35 - 49:38] Crying so, me after so, I'm feeling so alone.
[49:38 - 49:41] Can I live with you, the questions, can I live with you?
[49:41 - 49:44] I keep living life, but it's hard to pretend.
[49:44 - 49:48] Can I live with you, and I don't even know what's real.
[49:48 - 49:51] It was all about life on the battlefield.
[49:51 - 49:54] Change a lot and soldiers die on the front lines.
[49:54 - 49:57] But I'm going off, who will drive by?
[49:57 - 50:00] Can I live again, and I don't even know what's real.
[50:00 - 50:03] It was all about life on the battlefield.
[50:03 - 50:06] See the lot and soldiers die on the front lines.
[50:06 - 50:10] But I'm going off, who will drive by?
[50:10 - 50:17] That's the question that I ask myself every day.
[50:17 - 50:23] Will I ever be able to live a normal life ever again after all that's happened to me?
[50:23 - 50:32] Will I ever be able to get my life back?
[50:43 - 50:48] People will tell you, why don't you go get some help?
[50:48 - 50:53] Take some meds, go see a counselor.
[50:53 - 50:56] They can help you with your problems.
[50:56 - 50:59] Some people, you can never understand.
[50:59 - 51:02] It's a war inside your head.
[51:02 - 51:06] Lately I've been distant from the world in a quiet place.
[51:06 - 51:09] Things that I've been like rewiring differently I can't embrace.
[51:09 - 51:12] From all the hurt and all the pain, can you feel my rage?
[51:12 - 51:15] Going up with bullets, they consider me a better case.
[51:15 - 51:18] The things that changed, the past is done and over with.
[51:18 - 51:21] Why I keep on dwelling on it, why my thoughts so cancerous?
[51:21 - 51:24] Why my best friend hasn't died, God can you give me the answer to this?
[51:24 - 51:27] Why am I still agonizing on my life's relationship?
[51:27 - 51:31] Maybe I'm a chroma, 10 years shot, I'm seeing trouble, you can hear my song.
[51:31 - 51:33] One more reason I can never settle.
[51:33 - 51:36] Sorry for the struggle, learning from it, staying over.
[51:36 - 51:39] Then sorry for the trouble, talking son of a fucking toad.
[51:39 - 51:42] If my thoughts can really kill, disbelieve I will be dead.
[51:42 - 51:45] I ain't 'bout here saving lives yet and sometimes I forget.
[51:45 - 51:48] I'm a demon scared to play, I'm barely hanging by a thread.
[51:48 - 51:51] Maybe I should pull this trigger and make my mind arrested.
[51:51 - 51:54] Lost in the music, this is their build.
[51:54 - 51:58] They barely ain't gone, I don't know if I can do this.
[51:58 - 52:01] Would I rise when I fall, would I rise when I fall?
[52:01 - 52:04] I don't know anymore.
[52:04 - 52:10] Look at my reflection, ain't no versus demon, I wish that I was dreaming.
[52:10 - 52:13] Would I rise when I fall, would I rise when I fall?
[52:13 - 52:16] I don't know anymore.
[52:16 - 52:18] I know you're not thinking that I'm a risk.
[52:18 - 52:21] I can see it in your eyes, you can't understand yourself.
[52:21 - 52:24] You can pass on me, so you go around my lips.
[52:24 - 52:27] I'm turning every night, I'm fading if it even helps.
[52:27 - 52:30] You quit the partying, quit the drugs, quit the reaper.
[52:30 - 52:33] And now you think it's probably solved because you change your people,
[52:33 - 52:36] you wait for miserable, it's clear you're feeding off an evil.
[52:36 - 52:39] Take my hand tonight and knock your promise, you'll be always peaceful.
[52:39 - 52:42] What about my family, I can't leave them in a disarray.
[52:42 - 52:45] Give the town a number, won't forget about you anyway.
[52:45 - 52:48] Put 'em by my fans, in the impact I have made on them.
[52:48 - 52:52] Find another source, do not worry, they will all admit it's better if you go.
[52:52 - 52:56] Do not act like you have any phrases, even though it's this, this is it.
[52:56 - 52:59] Boy, you take my hand, voices getting louder, you can't fight 'em,
[52:59 - 53:00] best to sign your will.
[53:00 - 53:02] Show me on the darker side, through the dreary depths.
[53:02 - 53:04] Do the dreary depths of hell, y'all.
[53:04 - 53:42] ?
[53:42 - 53:46] Because they describe a lot of women,
[53:46 - 53:49] they help me because,
[53:49 - 53:55] it basically talks about what I've gone through, what I deal with.
[53:55 - 53:58] It talks about what my life has been like,
[53:58 - 54:01] dealing with these fucking demons, that glory hole and an asshole,
[54:01 - 54:03] have fucking put on me.
[54:03 - 54:09] ?
[54:09 - 54:11] Man, typical I say.
[54:11 - 54:15] But this song is a song that,
[54:15 - 54:21] I'm actually currently working on recording right now and,
[54:21 - 54:26] I want you guys to hear it, I wanted you guys to be one of the first ones to hear this.
[54:26 - 124:10] ?