2022-7-29 exposing the truth about my bu;;ies (Facebook)

[0:00 - 1:15] [silence]
[1:15 - 1:29] I'm sorry cuz if I seem upset, it's because I am.
[1:29 - 1:36] I'm at the point of I don't know what to do anymore.
[1:36 - 1:57] I really don't know what to do anymore.
[1:57 - 2:07] Because today, because of the internet bullies that I deal with,
[2:07 - 2:14] I lost a very close friend of mine today.
[2:14 - 2:22] All because of these fucking internet bullies wanting to make up a lie about me,
[2:22 - 2:34] saying that I was talking to little kids and these people went so far out of their way
[2:34 - 2:38] to make it look real that these internet bullies,
[2:38 - 2:43] well the one internet bully by the name of William Gloria,
[2:43 - 2:51] chocked up audio footage of me, like actual audio footage of me talking.
[2:51 - 3:01] He chomped it up and pasted it back together and made it sound like I was saying that I talked to little kids.
[3:01 - 3:10] He made it sound like I was a pedophile.
[3:10 - 3:15] And I'll be honest, I'm tired of this.
[3:15 - 3:20] I'm tired of the fighting William Gloria.
[3:20 - 3:22] Do you hear me motherfucker?
[3:22 - 3:31] I am tired of you and what you've done to me.
[3:31 - 3:40] If you guys don't know, this man that goes by the YouTube handle of William Gloria
[3:40 - 3:52] has done nothing but harass and attack me, my family, my friends.
[3:52 - 3:57] He's made it to where I cannot get a real job.
[3:57 - 4:05] And the reason I say that is because of this.
[4:05 - 4:09] If I were to get a real job, it would be no time at all
[4:09 - 4:15] before this man called out there and got me fired.
[4:15 - 4:21] Two years ago I was signed to a major record label, Machiavelli Records.
[4:21 - 4:29] This man got me kicked off and fired from that label
[4:29 - 4:38] because of these things that these people say and do against me,
[4:38 - 4:42] which is basically me being a supposed pedophile.
[4:42 - 4:50] When I'm not, I was entrapped.
[4:50 - 4:56] By a 37 year old female who is a deadbeat fucking mom
[4:56 - 5:00] whose 15 year old daughter ran away from home
[5:00 - 5:05] because of the fucked up shit that she does on the internet to people.
[5:05 - 5:11] And quite frankly, I don't blame her daughter. I don't.
[5:11 - 5:15] If anything, I'm proud of her daughter for running away
[5:15 - 5:23] and getting away from that shit. I'm proud of her for running away from that.
[5:23 - 5:31] So to Mass Hope Report's daughter, I'm proud of you for doing that.
[5:31 - 5:36] You have my respect for getting away from that shit.
[5:36 - 5:47] You have my full 110% fucking respect for getting away from that garbage.
[5:47 - 6:00] But as for you, William Gloryhole, you need to fucking stop.
[6:04 - 6:08] And if you guys don't know what this man has done to me,
[6:08 - 6:11] it's not that hard to see.
[6:11 - 6:16] All you have to do is type in my name on Google
[6:16 - 6:22] and there you will find hundreds and thousands of pages
[6:22 - 6:28] of people dehumanizing me and victimizing me.
[6:28 - 6:36] Posting private photos and videos between me and my exes up from my original Facebook, from my Discord.
[6:36 - 6:49] You'll find screenshots of the original incident
[6:49 - 6:55] where they chomped it up and screwed it back together to make it look like
[6:55 - 7:03] I intentionally was going after a little kid when I wasn't.
[7:21 - 7:25] These people are fucking evil.
[7:25 - 7:30] Every route I take to try to make some kind of money,
[7:30 - 7:34] I get nowhere because of these people.
[7:34 - 7:42] I have full fledged fucking proof on my phone
[7:42 - 7:48] of this William Gloryhole saying in a Discord group
[7:48 - 7:53] that me making money is unacceptable
[7:53 - 7:57] and that he will do anything he can to shut me down.
[7:57 - 8:07] And I'll be honest, I'm tired of living my life in fucking fear.
[8:07 - 8:15] Yes, I do have PTSD from the war that I've fought over the last four years.
[8:15 - 8:18] I'm not ashamed to say it.
[8:18 - 8:24] I do have it because I did fight a fucking war over the last four to five years.
[8:24 - 8:29] A war with the fucking trolls from my life.
[8:29 - 8:35] Every day for the last five years,
[8:35 - 8:42] I've had to worry about being shot at several times.
[8:42 - 8:48] I've had cops show to my house with pistols drawn over a lie,
[8:48 - 8:53] which almost got me killed in front of my family.
[8:53 - 8:59] Every time I go outside, let me show you guys something.
[8:59 - 9:10] Every time I go outside, I have to walk around.
[9:11 - 9:17] With this homemade weapon in my fucking pocket for protection.
[9:17 - 9:23] Because I'm always having to look over my fucking shoulder.
[9:23 - 9:31] Four or five years ago, I didn't have to worry about having to carry
[9:31 - 9:37] a dangerous weapon in my fucking pocket to protect myself.
[9:38 - 9:43] Five years ago, I had a normal life.
[9:43 - 9:52] Five years ago, I was doing good for myself.
[9:52 - 9:57] I was on the red track. I had a great girlfriend at the time.
[9:57 - 10:04] I was signed to a major record label that a lot of people can only dream about getting signed to.
[10:04 - 10:10] I had a lot going for me.
[10:10 - 10:18] And I do mean a lot.
[10:18 - 10:24] And then because of William Gloryhole and Masshole reports,
[10:24 - 10:30] that all got ripped away in a matter of fucking seconds.
[10:30 - 10:38] And if you guys don't know the full story, allow me to fill you in on the real truth.
[10:38 - 10:50] About two and a half years ago, I was on Marty's stream.
[10:50 - 10:55] As many of you guys know, Music Biz Marty is a well-known troll.
[10:55 - 11:01] He had trolled me for the last four or five years.
[11:01 - 11:10] But two years ago, I met this woman by the name of Masshole Reports on Marty's channel.
[11:10 - 11:16] Back when, knock on wood, me and Marty were actually civil with each other.
[11:16 - 11:21] And she seemed pretty cool.
[11:21 - 11:25] And, you know, we shot the shit for a couple hours, you know, we talked.
[11:25 - 11:31] And then I hopped off stream to do something. I forget what I was doing.
[11:31 - 11:36] But I had hopped off to do whatever.
[11:36 - 11:48] Well, little did I know that wouldn't be the end that I would see of Masshole Reports.
[11:48 - 11:52] That was just the beginning of my demise.
[11:52 - 12:00] The next day rolls around.
[12:00 - 12:06] And I get a text message from somebody that said they were a fan.
[12:06 - 12:10] They said that they had listened to my music all throughout high school.
[12:10 - 12:13] They were 18. They had just gotten out of high school.
[12:13 - 12:18] It was their last day. They were done. They were graduating.
[12:18 - 12:24] Because they were graduating at the age of 18, which is typical as about normal.
[12:24 - 12:30] And they were excited to talk to me and get to know me as a person.
[12:30 - 12:34] I thought, why not? You know, this person seems cool.
[12:34 - 12:38] This chick seems like a cool ass chick.
[12:39 - 12:47] We had talked for about four or five hours and came to realize that we had a lot in common with each other.
[12:47 - 12:51] And needless to say,
[12:51 - 13:06] needless to say, things heated up and she had tricked me into sending her a certain image of myself to her.
[13:06 - 13:14] Well, little did I know that as soon as I sent that image of myself to her,
[13:14 - 13:27] that would be the turning point for me being harassed for ultimately what's been for the last two years.
[13:27 - 13:39] No sooner than I send that picture and I begin to type in your turn referring to her as an 18 year old.
[13:39 - 13:46] And keep in mind, as I'm texting this in my head, I'm thinking that she's 18.
[13:46 - 13:48] I'm thinking she's of age.
[13:48 - 13:51] Keep that in mind.
[13:51 - 13:56] She's a 37 year old woman pretending to be 18 years old at this point.
[13:57 - 14:05] So I'm saying they're texting her and you know how like you do when you have that girlfriend or that boyfriend and you're like,
[14:05 - 14:09] okay, your turn, you know, like that, that cute little shit.
[14:09 - 14:10] I was doing that.
[14:10 - 14:23] But little did I know that as I was typing it, she would send me a picture of an underage child without my knowledge or consent and then turn around and claim to be underage.
[14:23 - 14:40] And without a second notice, as I was sending, as I had gotten done sending that text, her text came through and then mine went underneath.
[14:40 - 14:53] And by the time I read what the text had said and what the image was, I knew it was too late.
[14:53 - 14:58] I knew that no one would believe what I had to say.
[15:00 - 15:13] That night, the cops got called out here. I showed them everything, explained to them what happened, and they told me, you're not a pedophile.
[15:13 - 15:20] You just need to be more careful of who you talk to. And I told them, okay, I can do that. No problem.
[15:23 - 15:30] And thankfully, the officer that said that was actually a security guard from my old high school, so he knew who I was.
[15:30 - 15:36] And like, I'm still good friends with the guy. He's a really good dude.
[15:36 - 15:43] And he's like, hey, you know, just be more careful of who you talk to. And I told him, hey, no problem. I can do that.
[15:45 - 15:57] Ever since that night, I have been labeled as a pedophile and pretty much called any fucking name you could think of under the sun.
[15:57 - 16:02] Any name you could think of to call a pedophile, I've been called that.
[16:07 - 16:13] Every single fucking name you can think of calling me, I was called that.
[16:13 - 16:34] And bear in mind, at the time that all this was going down, I was actually signed to the label that Tupac Shakur started right before he passed away, which is Machiavelli Records.
[16:35 - 16:45] I got to meet the family. I got to meet Tupac's mom, his family, his cousin, Kendrick Lacin, who was one of the nicest dudes ever.
[16:45 - 16:55] I got to meet Tupac's mom, who was, in my honest opinion, one of the sweetest ladies you could ever meet. Like, she really is a sweetheart.
[16:55 - 17:03] And I was doing good for myself. I had my future set in stone at that point.
[17:04 - 17:26] But little did I know, that a week later, Masshole would take that whole incident all over YouTube, blow it up, and start attacking the label that I was on, attacking my friends and family.
[17:29 - 17:38] And then a year and a half ago, this guy comes out of nowhere by the name of William Gloryhole, and starts making funny little videos.
[17:38 - 17:53] And the first one that I saw was actually pretty fucking hilarious. He had superimposed my face onto a banana.
[17:54 - 18:02] Or no, it was on a hot dog. He had superimposed my face onto a hot dog, and in that whole "I'm a hot dog" meme, he did that.
[18:02 - 18:09] It had me fucking rolling. It had my family cracking up laughing.
[18:09 - 18:23] And he even did one to this day that I still see as an honor, where he took and superimposed my face onto Paul Walker and Vin Diesel from the first Fast and Furious movies.
[18:23 - 18:34] And the one with Paul Walker, I completely see that as an honor because, for me, Paul Walker was the reason that I got into cars.
[18:34 - 18:43] He was the reason that I got into the car community and the car culture, and into competitive sim racing like I do now.
[18:44 - 18:52] So for me, that was an honor. I saw that as like, "Yo, this is a huge honor for me. This is amazing. I love this."
[18:52 - 19:01] But little did I know that was a disguise for what he was really planning.
[19:03 - 19:19] This man has done nothing but swap me. This man has made it to where my biological father lost his very high paying job with the company to where he had to find a new job.
[19:28 - 19:33] This man has done so much shit to me that it is insane.
[19:33 - 19:55] These people have done so much stuff to me that it is insane.
[19:55 - 20:16] And there came a point where, about a year and a half ago, I got broken down so badly by these two people, by Mass Hall Reports and William Glory Hall.
[20:16 - 20:22] It got so bad to where I felt like I had no way out.
[20:22 - 20:30] And I did the one thing that I never thought I would do.
[20:30 - 20:43] I had attempted to take my own life on their livestream because I felt like my options had run out. I felt like I had no way out.
[20:44 - 20:58] Twice in a row because of these people I had attempted to take my own life on their livestream to show them what point they drove me to.
[20:59 - 21:18] And you know what they did? They sat there and fucking laughed. As my mom pulled me back and held me, they sat there and laughed in my face and in her face.
[21:19 - 21:30] As my mom sat there and shot, they sat there and laughed.
[21:35 - 21:49] As I sat there bawling my eyes out, not moving, as my mom held me, they sat there and laughed.
[21:50 - 22:13] And ever since then, all they have done was ruin every single opportunity. And today, the one that really hit me the hardest was there was this band that I looked up to by the name of Beauty and Chaos.
[22:14 - 22:29] And I got to become really good friends with their drummer, Dirk. Well today because of the trolls, he had to stop associating with me or get kicked out of his band.
[22:30 - 22:48] Because these people have made up so much fucking shit about me. They literally took audio files, chopped them up and made it sound like I said something I did not say.
[22:54 - 23:04] This has been my life for the last five years. Starting with Marty all the way up to now.
[23:04 - 23:12] But nothing has been as bad as these last two and a half years. Nothing.
[23:17 - 23:31] I've lost a lot of friends, friends that I've been close to for years. I've lost major record label opportunities to help my family.
[23:32 - 23:52] Every time I try to make any kind of income, they rip it away from me. I just recently had a damn good job on Twitch and was doing very well for myself. I was making really good money and they got me fired off of that.
[23:53 - 24:05] And before they got me fired, I was an affiliate. I was a full-fledged affiliate, almost a partner. I was only one achievement away from being a partner.
[24:05 - 24:19] I was only one achievement away from being a full-fledged partner with Twitch. And what did they do? They got me shut down.
[24:22 - 24:36] Because they don't like the fact that I have a chance at making money. And they don't want me to make money. Because they know if I make any kind of money, that I will go after them legally.
[24:37 - 24:57] And they don't want that. They want to see me fucking suffer. I've lost out on, in the last two years, and this is no joke when I say this, I wish I was making this number up but I am not.
[24:58 - 25:10] Because of these people, I have literally lost out on at least, at their minimum, a couple million dollars in ad revenue off of YouTube.
[25:10 - 25:22] And that's not even counting record sales or merchandise to promote my music or streaming on Twitch. That's just ad revenue off of YouTube alone.
[25:24 - 25:28] That is literally just ad revenue.
[25:38 - 25:58] These people have essentially ruined my fucking life. But what gets me, is why nobody is speaking up to stop these people.
[25:59 - 26:24] 'Cause you see, a couple weeks ago I did some research, and I come to find out that this William Gloryhole guy, he caused another person or people, I'm not sure which, but he caused one or more people from a previous community.
[26:25 - 26:38] Yo Jane, chill, I know Alan, he's a personal friend of mine, he's fine. He's cool, I understand where he's coming from, and he is right, that's how big corporations are, they really don't care.
[26:53 - 27:07] Yeah, I've heard of Dr. Disrespect. And by the way, Alan, how have you been, man? 'Cause I ain't seen you since, what, high school? Like, what's new, man? How have you been?
[27:22 - 27:43] But, um, I'll be honest, guys, my life over the last few years, hell yeah, that's awesome, dude. Hey, glad to see you're still doing that.
[27:44 - 28:03] But, I have to admit, over the last four years, and Jane, no worries, you have every reason to be angry. A lot of people do. And I know, even though Alan isn't showing it right now.
[28:06 - 28:18] And yeah, I hear you, man. And I know, even though Alan isn't showing it right now, I'm sure he's probably just as pissed as we both are, as long, along with everybody else.
[28:18 - 28:29] I'm pretty sure he's just as pissed off as I am or as you am. 'Cause let me tell you, this guy was, Alan was around from before I started my music career.
[28:30 - 28:42] So, this dude has literally seen me from day one. Oh, I know you are, bro. You always have been. Always. You've always been there.
[28:42 - 28:50] And like I said, I'm pretty sure you're just as pissed off about all this as I am, dude.
[28:55 - 29:06] 'Cause the fact that I've lost so many opportunities over the last two years because of some fucking asshole.
[29:06 - 29:16] Like, it's ridiculous, dude.
[29:20 - 29:35] Oh, I know you don't. And I hate being like this. Hell, Alan can tell you. Before all of this, he can tell you for a fact, back in high school, I was the nicest dude you could ever come across.
[29:40 - 29:56] And Jane, you've seen how I am when I'm calm. You and Ellie both have seen how I am. Alan knows how I am. This dude will literally knew me right before I met my best friend, Jake.
[29:56 - 30:03] So, this dude knows very well of how I am.
[30:08 - 30:15] Oh, you're totally good, man. Do whatever you gotta do, bro. It's all good. It is all good, brother.
[30:20 - 30:46] But, my question to YouTube, to Facebook, and to anybody that has been victimized by William Gloryhole, Masshole Reports, or any of these fucking troll communities in general,
[30:47 - 30:56] how many more lives have to be taken away before you guys stop?
[30:56 - 31:06] How many more lives have to be ended before somebody finally stands up and fucking says something?
[31:07 - 31:18] How many more lives have to be taken before you guys actually fucking step up and actually do your jobs and shut these people down for good?
[31:25 - 31:41] Because, let me tell you, this morning was the very first time in over four years I've had to be able to grieve over the loved ones that I've lost over the last five years,
[31:41 - 31:47] including my childhood best friend's dad, who was basically my godfather.
[31:52 - 31:56] Since all this started, I've lost my older brother to cancer.
[31:56 - 32:07] I've had to watch my high school best friend, Zach, die in his brother's arms from being shot in his family's pizza shop.
[32:16 - 32:33] I had gotten the news that my childhood hero, who I grew up listening to, Chester Bennington, his dad, who was more than just a hero to myself and the fanbase,
[32:33 - 32:42] he was more of a friend, a family member, to everybody in the Lincoln Park fanbase. He was family to us.
[32:45 - 32:46] He was our voice.
[32:46 - 33:10] And then a couple years later, I get a call from my little sister saying that my now ex-lexy had passed away from health issues.
[33:12 - 33:15] A week after her dad's passing.
[33:15 - 33:36] And then just a couple days ago, I find out that my childhood best friend's dad, who, like I said, was basically my godfather, passed away.
[33:41 - 33:46] And then a couple weeks before that, I found out that one of my uncles is terminally ill.
[33:46 - 33:53] And only has seven to eight years left to live.
[34:08 - 34:19] And today was the first time in over five years that I actually sat down while I was taking a shower.
[34:19 - 34:24] I sat there for the first time in over five fucking years.
[34:24 - 34:33] And I fucking bawled my goddamn eyes out for two hours straight.
[34:37 - 34:43] For two fucking hours straight, I could do nothing but bawl my fucking eyes out.
[34:43 - 34:53] Because all of these people I had lost, and not once did I ever get to grieve over their death because of this fucking war,
[34:53 - 34:58] that I had been forced to fight with the trolls for the last five years.
[34:58 - 35:02] And I'm sick of it.
[35:03 - 35:57] [typing]
[35:57 - 36:13] And if you guys don't know what it's been like, if none of you have ever, you know, I know,
[36:14 - 36:26] had friends and stuff, military-wise, um, I have, I think, Caleb, I think you may have, too, at one point, I don't remember.
[36:26 - 36:36] But for those of you that don't know what it's like to live with PTSD, this song right here describes it so fucking well.
[36:36 - 36:40] And I mean so fucking well.
[36:43 - 36:45] Only pay for what you need.
[36:45 - 36:48] Liberty, liberty, liberty, liberty.
[36:48 - 36:57] [piano music]
[36:57 - 37:08] I want to do a huge shot of these children.
[37:11 - 37:14] And Rick, I want you to take my mouse.
[37:15 - 44:43] [piano music]
[44:43 - 44:45] And all of that right there
[44:45 - 44:50] leads me into shit like this every fucking day.
[44:50 - 44:53] And every fucking night.
[44:53 - 44:59] [piano music]
[44:59 - 45:01] Because of all that shit that I go through,
[45:01 - 45:07] this song right here is what I ask myself every fucking night when I go to sleep.
[45:07 - 45:09] [piano music]
[45:09 - 45:11] The Ram, 15, happy.
[45:11 - 45:13] Exceeding expectations.
[45:13 - 45:15] Again.
[45:15 - 45:19] No wonder more people are switching to the Ram than ever before.
[45:19 - 45:23] [piano music]
[45:23 - 45:25] Hello Thomas.
[45:25 - 45:27] I see that you're depressed. What's the problem?
[45:27 - 45:30] Is it the skeletons you're hiding deep inside your closet?
[45:30 - 45:33] Have you been reading all the names they call you in the comments?
[45:33 - 45:36] Have you been worried your haters will put you in the coffin?
[45:36 - 45:39] Are you the strut that you promised Michael was not an option?
[45:39 - 45:43] Now you have the dots of doing shots, now you're an alcohol.
[45:43 - 45:46] Is that true? You're upset that you can't have booze?
[45:46 - 45:49] What's the matter, Thomas? Something's got you in a bad mood.
[45:49 - 45:52] Yeah, it doesn't make sense, nothing comes again like anything it does.
[45:52 - 45:55] But I can't even read up, does the internet will laugh at us?
[45:55 - 45:58] We just need a beer or two, but it's been like a year or two.
[45:58 - 46:01] I thought you disappeared, I can't believe it, I'm still here with you.
[46:01 - 46:04] Shut up! My therapist is a man you can't sleep.
[46:04 - 46:08] Again, I love the devil out, but it was you who let the demons in.
[46:08 - 46:10] [laughs]
[46:10 - 46:14] Tom, you're a comedian, I'm only gonna tell you once you really need to be my star.
[46:14 - 46:19] I'm running around the time you shot in the water and scaffold vultures.
[46:19 - 46:24] Shut up, let me remind you, I'm going to get it because I'm the guy who does anything that I want.
[46:24 - 46:27] He goes viral, and you really get to look inside you.
[46:27 - 46:30] You gotta do what you try to do, you gotta smile if I know what you can't do.
[46:30 - 46:32] I'm not a motherfucker, you can lie to you.
[46:32 - 46:35] I'm being raised tall in the skies with fire.
[46:35 - 46:37] Come on, Thomas, keep it real.
[46:37 - 46:40] I'm lying, I'ma tell you exactly how I feel.
[46:40 - 46:43] I'm the best rapper ever, I don't care, it'd be great.
[46:43 - 46:46] They're the best, they don't care, don't you make a mistake.
[46:46 - 46:48] 'Cause I'm the dog, it ain't in my bones.
[46:48 - 46:52] And there's a lot of doors, I'm the one who pulls the sword out of stores.
[46:52 - 46:56] I'm the best rapper ever, I don't care what you say.
[46:56 - 46:59] I'm the bitch, I'm forever, I'm designed for fate.
[46:59 - 47:01] 'Cause I'm the dog, it ain't in the bone.
[47:01 - 47:05] Everybody knows I'm the voice that I'm hearing on my own.
[47:05 - 47:07] Thomas, I'm still here.
[47:07 - 47:09] I'm tired, but you smell the fear.
[47:09 - 47:12] I know all the reasons why you feel so insecure.
[47:12 - 47:15] I've seen you panic backstage, hearing everybody cheer.
[47:15 - 47:19] You're famous now, Thomas, tell me what's with all the tears.
[47:19 - 47:22] You regret that your face is covered with tattoos.
[47:22 - 47:25] Mad that your beats whack, all your raps trash too.
[47:25 - 47:28] You resent that you need meds again, neglected friends.
[47:28 - 47:31] And now you just pretend you're not pathetic, you're not every man.
[47:31 - 47:34] Man, it's one of those days, don't know why, don't feel okay.
[47:34 - 47:36] Loads of thighs are focused on pain.
[47:36 - 47:39] Throws my mind alone in my brain, tells me smoke from all of those things.
[47:39 - 47:41] Living hoes and hoes from my brain.
[47:41 - 47:44] Them zombies brought them bullets but I burnt a whole bouquet.
[47:44 - 47:48] I'm the level of the fight against your hangers, long as I listen.
[47:48 - 47:51] 'Cause I read every single comment that you try and miss it.
[47:51 - 47:54] Then recite them in your mind and memorize this.
[47:54 - 47:57] I'm a giant Thomas, why you try to fight with me?
[47:57 - 48:00] I ain't here, don't care about hiding under the rain.
[48:00 - 48:02] Don't fight, don't swing it.
[48:02 - 48:03] Yeah, you're not here.
[48:03 - 49:28] I'm a giant Thomas, why you try and miss it?
[49:28 - 49:32] This is what I deal with on a daily fucking basis, people.
[49:32 - 49:40] People destroying me.
[49:40 - 49:46] Matter of fact, let me show you one of the videos of something that I deal with.
[49:46 - 49:48] Let me show you guys something here.
[49:48 - 49:52] This is from just a mere few months ago.
[49:52 - 50:06] This is from about maybe three, four months ago, if that.
[50:06 - 50:26] Let me check something real quick first before I show you guys.
[50:26 - 51:22] Okay.
[51:22 - 51:28] You're going to get raped.
[51:28 - 51:30] No matter what you do, it is going to happen.
[51:30 - 51:32] The police are paid off.
[51:32 - 51:34] Everyone's paid off.
[51:34 - 51:36] We are going to come and rape you.
[51:36 - 51:38] And there is nothing you can do about it.
[51:38 - 52:06] That is just a fucking sample of what I have been put through for the last four years.
[52:06 - 52:20] For the last four to five years.
[52:20 - 52:26] And no, they didn't really pay the police.
[52:26 - 52:28] And no, they never showed up.
[52:28 - 52:38] But I will say this about two and a half months ago, maybe a little less.
[52:38 - 52:54] There was a night where I was doing a live stream and somebody had threatened my family.
[52:54 - 53:06] I told them straight up on the YouTube live stream that if they showed up here, I would not hesitate to do what I had to do to protect my family.
[53:06 - 53:15] Even if it means shooting someone.
[53:15 - 53:30] But that person took it as a supposed threat, called the police, saying that I was threatening to kill them and that if the cops showed up, I was going to kill them as well.
[53:30 - 53:42] A half hour later, 10 freaking cop cars showed up to my house.
[53:42 - 53:50] With pistols pointed in my face, screaming at me, "Where's the gun? Where's the gun?"
[53:50 - 54:02] When there was no gun in my possession.
[54:02 - 54:08] My life almost got taken that night by the cops.
[54:08 - 54:21] Scared the shit out of me, scared the ever-living daylights out of my poor mom and stepdad.
[54:21 - 54:30] I almost got killed that night by the police.
[54:30 - 54:40] Imagine 10 squad cars with two cops a piece showing up to your house with pistols drawn right on your face.
[54:40 - 54:51] And you don't know what's going on. You don't know why they're there.
[54:51 - 55:02] You don't know why the cops are pointing their guns in your face. You don't know why they're there. You don't even know what's going on.
[55:02 - 55:22] But imagine 10 squad cars with armed police pointing their fucking 9mm pistols right in your face ready to fucking pull the trigger without hesitation at a moment's notice.
[55:22 - 55:41] Think about that.
[55:41 - 55:56] And believe me, when I saw those pistols, my fucking heart and stomach sank so goddamn fast because I'll be honest.
[55:56 - 56:05] I will be 100% honest with you guys. I did not know if I was going to make it out alive or not.
[56:05 - 56:12] I didn't know if I was going to be another casualty or not. I didn't know.
[56:12 - 56:30] So believe me, I feel very lucky to even be alive to tell my story.
[56:30 - 56:55] I feel very lucky to still be here and to be alive, talking, moving my hands because in an instant, like that, my life could have been taken by one misunderstanding.
[56:55 - 57:08] My life could have been taken like that in a matter of a second. It could have been over.
[57:08 - 57:29] So trust me when I say, I do not take life for granted.
[57:29 - 57:54] Ever since that night, I have made it my mission to tell my story and to try to put a stop to these people before anyone else gets hurt the way I did or the way those same people did that unfortunately took their own lives due to the bullying.
[57:55 - 58:10] After that night, I took a note to help everybody that I can.
[58:10 - 58:17] I took a note to be the voice for people like me who have been bullied by William Gloryhole and Masshole and all of them.
[58:17 - 58:34] I took a note to help those that need it and to get justice for those lives that were lost due to the bullying.
[58:34 - 59:01] Whether it be through my music or whether it be just sitting down and having an ear to talk or to listen to, you know, being that ear for someone to talk to, being that friend that someone needs.
[59:01 - 59:06] All I know is that these trolls need to be stopped.
[59:06 - 59:14] And what's sad is the cops here won't do anything and that's why I'm reaching out on all platforms like this.
[59:14 - 59:22] That's why I need Jane, everybody, to spread this video around like wildfire.
[59:22 - 59:28] Let's light the fucking goddamn internet up with this video.
[59:28 - 59:40] Let's light up the internet and let's shed some light on this and hopefully bring a stop to Gloryhole and Masshole and what they've done to me and to other people.
[59:40 - 60:03] And so hopefully I can get my life back the way it was four or five years ago so that I can continue to do my job and my mission to help others like myself so that no one else has to suffer again the same way that I've suffered.
[60:03 - 60:17] Because let me tell you something right now. What I have been through, I would never, ever in a million years wish on my worst enemy.
[60:17 - 60:40] What I've been through most people can't handle.
[60:40 - 60:51] Like I said, I want this video shared around like motherfucking wildfire to your mom, your dad, your friends, brother, sister, and uncle.
[60:51 - 61:03] Distant relatives, friends of friends, I want this video shared every motherfucking where.
[61:03 - 61:24] And I mean every fucking where. I want people to know the truth about what these people have done to me and to other people so that hopefully someone down the line can put a stop to this so that no one has to suffer the way that I suffered.
[61:24 - 61:42] My last four to five years have been a living nightmare.
[61:42 - 62:07] The last four to five years have been a never ending nightmare for me.
[62:07 - 62:18] And if any of you guys have seen the movie Cyberbully, that movie Cyberbully is basically my life.
[62:18 - 62:36] That is literally my life, but never ending. That is literally my life. My life is like the movie Cyberbully, but it's it doesn't end.
[62:36 - 62:53] It's just on repeat over and over every day. Imagine going to sleep at night and then waking up the next day just to fight the trolls all over again.
[62:53 - 63:07] You get a little bit of your life back and they take it away and that cycle continues over and over and over. That has been my life for the last five years.
[63:07 - 63:27] And people have come up to me many a times. I've gotten messages on Facebook and Discord and emails from people asking me, dude, you have fucking talent and music. Why are you not getting anywhere?
[63:27 - 63:51] And I'll tell you why. It's because of these fucking trolls.
[63:51 - 64:20] Let me show you something that I can do that not many are able to do.
[64:20 - 64:49] There are very few people that can do if any that can do what I'm about to do for you guys.
[64:49 - 65:03] And believe me, I would love to share this talent with the world. I've had people telling me that I need to be on what's it called?
[65:03 - 65:32] America's Got Talent because of what I'm about to show you guys.
[65:32 - 79:03] So.
[79:03 - 79:12] Ironically, the way I play guitar and any instrument, I've been doing this since I was about 16.
[79:12 - 79:19] I'm actually doing this since I was 16.
[79:19 - 79:40] Because the way I do music, I don't play like anybody else.
[79:40 - 79:47] I don't share what I mean by what I do is I play by what I hear vocally.
[79:47 - 80:09] Let me give you an example.
[80:09 - 88:16] So.
[88:16 - 88:43] Plus, if you look right here, I actually have a switch that allows you to switch between different styles right here, this little switch.
[88:43 - 88:54] So it doesn't need tune, I just have it switched on to the second from the bottom like this.
[88:54 - 121:54] So.
[121:54 - 122:08] Now you guys see what I'm actually able to do.
[122:08 - 122:10] I'm like that's just on guitar.
[122:10 - 122:14] That's not even counting on piano or anything like that.
[122:14 - 122:20] That's just by fucking guitar.
[122:20 - 122:25] But yet.
[122:25 - 122:28] Sadly is.
[122:28 - 122:40] I don't get to show that talent or share it with the world because of the fucking trolls and like I said what they've done to me over the last five fucking years.
[122:40 - 122:53] Because if I had the right fucking team behind me to actually push what I'm able to fucking do I might actually be able to get somewhere and say fuck you to all these trolls.
[122:53 - 123:08] But every time I get somewhere I get ripped off.
[123:08 - 123:10] They wanted me off of YouTube.
[123:10 - 123:11] I left YouTube.
[123:11 - 123:13] They wanted me off Twitch.
[123:13 - 123:15] Against my will.
[123:15 - 123:40] I left Twitch.
[123:40 - 123:44] So trolls are another.
[123:44 - 123:50] Trolls are the sign term or the Internet sign term for an Internet bully.
[123:50 - 124:09] Trolls are basically the Internet term for a cyber bully.
[124:09 - 124:17] Well I said because these people I don't get to share my talents with the world.
[124:17 - 124:34] I'm going to never ending fucking war with these guys every fucking day.
[124:34 - 124:40] And I fucking hate it.
[124:40 - 125:01] And from those few songs that I did you guys saw the level that I'm able to play at and perform at.
[125:01 - 125:14] And I'll be honest I fucking hate this war that I'm stuck in every fucking day because of these people.
[125:14 - 125:27] Alright all I'm trying to do, all I am is just a simple guy trying to make a living off of what he does.
[125:27 - 125:31] Catch a paycheck and be able to help my family.
[125:31 - 125:36] That's it.
[125:36 - 125:43] That's all I'm trying to do is make my music, get a paycheck from my music and provide for my family.
[125:43 - 125:44] That's it.
[125:44 - 125:46] That's all I'm trying to do.
[125:46 - 125:51] Share my gift with the world, get a paycheck from it and help my family.
[125:51 - 125:56] And give back to those that gave everything to me, that's all.
[125:56 - 126:01] That's all I've ever wanted to do and all I've ever tried to do.
[126:01 - 126:11] It's not fair that I should have to suffer because of these fucking evil people that want to see me suffer.
[126:11 - 126:23] Like I said in the very beginning of this stream, how many more people have to suffer before somebody fucking steps up and does something about these people?
[126:23 - 126:39] These people have literally caused people to commit suicide.
[126:39 - 126:45] And unfortunately no I haven't due to COVID restrictions.
[126:45 - 126:54] Due to COVID and COVID restrictions over the last couple of years I haven't been able to unfortunately.
[126:54 - 127:06] So.
[127:06 - 127:12] But now you guys see the level of my skill and what I am actually able to do.
[127:12 - 127:23] I can sit here for days on end and create some of the most amazing music in the world that is so unique and so different.
[127:23 - 127:28] But yet no one gets to hear it because of the fucking trolls.
[127:28 - 127:37] Because every time I post my music up they find a way to shut it down.
[127:37 - 127:47] And it fucking sucks. At this point I don't even care about performing at bars or whatever.
[127:47 - 127:53] At this point I just want to be able to release my music and let the fans hear it.
[127:53 - 127:59] And let those that want to purchase my music be able to do so.
[127:59 - 128:04] I don't even care about performing at this point.
[128:04 - 128:11] Anymore I just want to be able to put my music out so that those that do want to buy my music can do so.
[128:11 - 128:26] Without me being attacked or harassed or shut down.
[128:26 - 128:46] Like I said do I suffer from PTSD because of the trolls? Yes. And I am not afraid to hide it.
[128:46 - 128:56] I am not afraid to say or say yes. I have PTSD from being bullied. I have PTSD from fighting this never ending war.
[128:56 - 129:11] I fucking hate fighting this battle. This war. Whatever you want to call it. I am sick of it.
[129:11 - 129:19] Because all I know is that I want to get my life back. The way that I was before all this started.
[129:19 - 129:40] The way that my brother Alan and his brother Alec and Jane and Eleanor and all the people that know me personally knew how I was before all this.
[129:40 - 129:46] And that's why I'm saying I want everybody to share this video around like motherfucking wildfire bro.
[129:46 - 129:55] I want you guys to go fucking ape shit with it. Share it in groups. Share it with your family and friends and show them what I have been through.
[129:55 - 130:09] Let them know that these people are not to be trusted in that and somebody needs to stop them before more lives are lost.
[130:09 - 130:21] Because the last time I checked about 10 different people from different communities have committed suicide because of these people.
[130:21 - 130:38] When does it end? How many more people have to take their lives from cyberbullying before someone steps up and says hey, enough is enough. It's time for you bullies to fuck off.
[130:38 - 130:55] I only know one of their real names.
[130:55 - 131:22] But if you look up William. That's William glory hole on YouTube. He's the biggest worst one. He is literally the worst one.
[131:22 - 131:33] Matter of fact, William glory hole is the one that cost me my friendship with the drummer of one of my favorite bands Beauty and Chaos today.
[131:33 - 132:02] And matter of fact, if like I said at the beginning of the stream, if you look up my name Chance Wilkins, that's exactly how it sounds.
[132:02 - 132:19] That sounds Chance and then W-I-L-K-I-N-S. You can type my name in on Google and you can see for yourselves at the dehumanizing things that these people have done to me.
[132:19 - 132:43] The websites and the videos they have made about me, the different posts, the Reddits, the Kiwi Farms, everything, it is so dehumanizing and so degrading.
[132:43 - 133:03] And let me tell you, I would never wish anything that I've been through on my worst enemy ever. I wouldn't wish what I've been through on anyone, not even my worst enemy.
[133:03 - 133:31] And with all that being said, I love you guys. You guys are awesome. You guys have been so fucking amazing. I love every single one of you guys and like I said please share this video around with family, friends, your mom, dad, whoever you can to get this video out there.
[133:31 - 133:43] And show these people just what I've been through because it's at the point to where the cops won't help so we're going to have to take care of this ourselves.
[133:43 - 133:58] Because the cops won't help, we need to stand up ourselves and do something before someone else gets hurt or worse.
[133:58 - 134:01] And trust me, I will man.
[134:01 - 134:11] Well with that being said, I love you guys and I'll catch you guys later. I'll catch you guys tomorrow morning. Peace.