2022-7-18 WHY ITS HARD FOR ME TO TRUST ANYONE

[1:24 - 1:31] Wait, to the ones that have actually had my back, I want to say thank you.
[1:34 - 1:39] To the ones that have genuinely had my fucking back,
[1:39 - 1:42] I would like the time to say thank you.
[1:47 - 1:54] But over the last few days, I've seen a lot of shit and gone through a lot of shit.
[1:58 - 2:01] And quite frankly, I'm not too happy with any of it.
[2:03 - 2:08] Trolls trying to come in, fuck, I lost all this and that and the other.
[2:12 - 2:18] Like, honestly, it's hard for me to trust anyone outside of the people that I know
[2:18 - 2:19] have actually got my back.
[2:22 - 2:26] Because I don't know who's got ill intentions and who doesn't.
[2:28 - 2:32] I don't know who is out to fuck me over and who isn't.
[2:34 - 2:36] And it's honestly sad.
[2:44 - 2:48] Even if certain people that came into the community.
[2:54 - 3:00] For a certain person that came into the community yesterday.
[3:02 - 3:04] And the Discord server.
[3:06 - 3:12] Even if she is a troll, I do wanna say this.
[3:12 - 3:14] She did bring up a fair plan.
[3:14 - 3:17] This is a question I'm gonna ask everybody straight up.
[3:19 - 3:25] For all my real supporters, y'all know I love you guys.
[3:25 - 3:29] But for everybody else that says they're a supporter.
[3:29 - 3:32] Where the fuck are you guys when I fucking need you?
[3:35 - 3:39] When I'm being attacked, when I'm being gone after,
[3:39 - 3:43] when I'm being pushed around, where the fuck are you?
[3:43 - 3:45] Not around.
[3:52 - 3:56] I know a lot of y'all motherfuckers are real supporters.
[3:56 - 3:58] I get it.
[4:01 - 4:04] But I thought real supporters were supposed to stand up for
[4:04 - 4:06] the people that they enjoy.
[4:07 - 4:11] Kinda like the other night, how I stood up for
[4:11 - 4:15] Upchurch and the rest of Creek Squad doing what I did.
[4:22 - 4:27] Like I get that y'all don't wanna be trolled or gone after or targeted.
[4:29 - 4:31] I get it.
[4:31 - 4:33] Okay, I do.
[4:33 - 4:35] I do genuinely get it.
[4:38 - 4:41] But where the fuck are you when I'm being targeted?
[4:47 - 4:51] Cuz if any of you were going through the same thing I was going through,
[4:51 - 4:53] I'd stick up for you.
[4:53 - 4:56] I'd stand up and take up for you.
[4:56 - 5:01] So where the fuck are you when I need you, huh?
[5:01 - 5:06] Where the fuck are all my real fans at the same day I actually have my back?
[5:15 - 5:19] Where the fuck are y'all, man?
[5:19 - 5:23] I don't see y'all around when I fucking need y'all the most.
[5:23 - 5:28] When Glory Hole was going at me, where the fuck were you guys?
[5:28 - 5:31] When Glory Hole was taking shots in my family and
[5:31 - 5:36] trying to ruin my name and my life, where the fuck were y'all, man?
[5:38 - 5:40] Where the fuck were you?
[5:52 - 5:57] And yes, and I let this even include you, and I would, I hope you see this.
[5:57 - 6:01] I get that you don't want William Glory Hole targeting your family.
[6:01 - 6:02] But you know what?
[6:02 - 6:04] Fuck that guy.
[6:04 - 6:07] If he targets your family, so fuck what?
[6:07 - 6:10] It's not like he can do anything, bro.
[6:10 - 6:10] So what?
[6:10 - 6:15] He calls CPS, they come in, they do an investigation, and
[6:15 - 6:18] they see you ain't motherfucking doing shit wrong.
[6:18 - 6:19] That's it.
[6:19 - 6:20] End of story.
[6:28 - 6:32] I get why you didn't have to associate with me, bro.
[6:32 - 6:34] I get it.
[6:34 - 6:38] But at the same time, you're bowing down to that little bitch,
[6:38 - 6:40] Glory Hole by doing so, bro.
[6:43 - 6:46] You're bowing down to what he wants.
[6:46 - 6:49] Instead of standing up and saying, no, fuck you,
[6:49 - 6:53] despite what you say or do, I'm still gonna stick by this guy no matter what.
[6:53 - 6:58] I'd do that for you, and I'd do that for any other motherfucker out there.
[6:58 - 7:05] Any person out there, any fan of mine that gets targeted, guess what?
[7:05 - 7:10] If they get targeted, I'm sticking up for them, whether they want me to or not.
[7:10 - 7:14] I ain't gonna let them get pushed around like that.
[7:23 - 7:26] Wait, it's pretty fucking funny.
[7:26 - 7:30] I have a lot of motherfuckers that say they're fans of mine, but yet when I'm
[7:30 - 7:35] being attacked or pushed around or targeted, I ain't no motherfucker around.
[7:38 - 7:44] Ain't nobody around to have my motherfucking back when I've got everyone else's back.
[7:44 - 7:49] I've got every one of y'all's motherfucking backs.
[7:50 - 7:57] But yet, when shit gets tough for me, why ain't y'all got my back?
[8:01 - 8:05] Why ain't you motherfuckers got my goddamn back like I've had y'alls for
[8:05 - 8:11] this entire fucking four years of actually doing music and actually doing shit?
[8:11 - 8:17] People like my boy, Matt, I know he's got my back.
[8:17 - 8:21] People like Whis, I know she's got my back.
[8:28 - 8:32] People like my little brother, Chaos, have got my back.
[8:34 - 8:38] People like CIAhole have got my back.
[8:38 - 8:42] People like my boy, Danny, have got my back.
[8:49 - 8:53] But as for the rest of y'all motherfuckers on the Internet that claim that you're
[8:53 - 8:58] fans of mine, where the fuck are you when I need you almost?
[8:58 - 9:03] When I'm sitting here being harassed and being fucking bullied,
[9:03 - 9:05] where the fuck are you?
[9:05 - 9:09] I'll tell you where, not around.
[9:09 - 9:16] Cuz you're too fucking chicken shit scared, now you're gonna get targeted.
[9:16 - 9:19] So what did this dumb motherfucker target you?
[9:19 - 9:25] Who gives a fuck about William the glory bitch?
[9:25 - 9:32] For real, who gives a fuck about what that little douchebag ass to say?
[9:37 - 9:45] I can honestly say, I'm very embarrassed by my fucking fan base.
[9:45 - 9:48] Very embarrassed, and you wanna know why?
[9:48 - 9:56] Because as many times as I've had y'all's fucking backs and
[9:56 - 9:59] showed love and support to y'all.
[10:00 - 10:04] Ain't none of y'all motherfuckers have my back, but
[10:04 - 10:07] yet I'm here having everybody else's back.
[10:07 - 10:15] I've got everyone else's back, but yet not once does anybody have my back.
[10:15 - 10:19] That's pretty fucking embarrassing.
[10:26 - 10:28] That's pretty fucking pathetic.
[10:31 - 10:33] I've got everyone else's back, but
[10:33 - 10:37] ain't no motherfucker on this goddamn earth got my goddamn back.
[10:37 - 10:39] Why?
[10:39 - 10:42] Cuz you're afraid you're gonna get targeted?
[10:42 - 10:45] Who gives a fuck if you get targeted?
[10:48 - 10:52] Y'all saw what the fuck I've been through for the last four fucking years.
[10:54 - 11:02] I'm damn near had my entire life ripped away from me in a matter of fucking seconds.
[11:02 - 11:06] I've had my name ran through the mud.
[11:06 - 11:12] Family members of mine have lost their jobs.
[11:12 - 11:17] Friends, personal friends have lost their jobs.
[11:17 - 11:23] And yet you're just gonna sit by like a bunch of pussies and
[11:23 - 11:25] not say anything or not speak up.
[11:25 - 11:26] Why?
[11:26 - 11:31] Cuz you're afraid of some jerk wad behind the goddamn fucking computer keyboard
[11:31 - 11:34] who happens to know how to get names and shit?
[11:34 - 11:36] What they fucking do?
[11:36 - 11:41] Anybody can go on the goddamn internet and get a fucking name.
[11:41 - 11:45] Anybody can pay a few dollars and get a fucking name.
[11:45 - 11:46] Who gives a fuck?
[11:53 - 11:55] Who fucking cares?
[12:05 - 12:11] You know, it's pretty fucking sad.
[12:14 - 12:20] I've had everyone's back.
[12:22 - 12:26] But yeah, not one person has gotten my back or
[12:26 - 12:28] has even been fucking honest with me.
[12:33 - 12:40] And what pisses me off is I got trolls coming into my discord.
[12:42 - 12:47] Disguising themselves as fans, and then I later get stabbed in the back.
[12:57 - 13:04] And like I said, aside from Weez here, I shot at the Weez by the way.
[13:04 - 13:11] Aside from Weez, CIA whole and a very few select others.
[13:11 - 13:15] Like my boy Matt, who not only is on discord, but
[13:15 - 13:19] he's on my Facebook as well.
[13:19 - 13:24] Aside from them and my boy Danny who lives over in Norway.
[13:24 - 13:27] And aside from the people like my boy Crow.
[13:31 - 13:36] Where the fuck are you motherfuckers at when I need y'all, man?
[13:36 - 13:39] Aside from the motherfuckers that I've mentioned.
[13:39 - 13:43] Where the fuck are my supporters when I motherfucking need y'all most?
[13:53 - 14:04] When I was being a motherfucking shit on, over the last four years.
[14:04 - 14:10] And being taken advantage of, and having my life literally screwed over
[14:10 - 14:15] every single way possible, where the fuck were y'all motherfuckers?
[14:15 - 14:21] Not counting Weez or any of them, the ones I mentioned earlier,
[14:21 - 14:25] they were the only ones fucking stepping up, trying to fucking do something.
[14:25 - 14:29] They were the only ones that stood up and said, hey,
[14:29 - 14:31] I've got your motherfucking back.
[14:44 - 14:46] Aside from the ones I've mentioned,
[14:46 - 14:51] ain't none of you motherfuckers ever had my goddamn back the way these motherfuckers have.
[14:51 - 14:58] You call yourselves my friends, you call yourselves my fans or my supporters.
[14:58 - 15:04] But yet, you ain't got my motherfucking back when I need y'all most.
[15:04 - 15:09] When I'm over here busting my ass, and
[15:09 - 15:12] then end up getting fucked over, where the fuck are y'all, huh?
[15:12 - 15:16] Where the fuck are you guys at?
[15:23 - 15:28] I show love and respect to every single motherfucker that shows respect to me.
[15:28 - 15:35] But yet, I don't get that same respect and return.
[15:35 - 15:38] I go out of my way to step up for motherfuckers and defend them.
[15:38 - 15:42] But yet, I don't get it back, why?
[15:45 - 15:50] Cuz y'all are two fucking chicken shit to stand out to a bunch of fucking internet
[15:50 - 15:53] pussies that ain't got no jobs or lives.
[15:57 - 15:58] Like what the fuck, dude?
[16:09 - 16:13] I can honestly say, and I know we's will agree with me on this.
[16:13 - 16:19] I'm pretty fucking embarrassed by y'all motherfuckers that call yourselves
[16:19 - 16:22] my fucking supporters and my fans.
[16:22 - 16:26] Cuz I've had every single one of y'all's motherfucking backs and
[16:26 - 16:29] have shown nothing but love or respect to y'all.
[16:29 - 16:34] But yet, when I'm being harassed and attacked to the fullest,
[16:34 - 16:39] to where family members and friends and myself are losing our jobs.
[16:39 - 16:43] Where the fuck are y'all, not around?
[16:43 - 16:46] Y'all wanna be around for the good shit.
[16:46 - 16:49] But yet, when shit gets hard, y'all motherfuckers ain't around.
[16:49 - 16:53] Y'all run and hide like a bunch of punk ass cowards.
[16:58 - 17:00] Like what the fuck, dude?
[17:01 - 17:05] Y'all should be fucking embarrassed and ashamed of yourselves.
[17:07 - 17:12] Cuz if somebody came up to start a fuck with any of you, guess what?
[17:12 - 17:17] I'm the first one to step up and say something, and I've done it before.
[17:17 - 17:22] I've stepped up to motherfuckers that have fucked with real supporters.
[17:25 - 17:30] I've gone toe to toe with motherfuckers that have actually attacked my
[17:30 - 17:34] supporters, I've actually stood up for them.
[17:36 - 17:42] It's pretty fucking sad when you got somebody like me who's an artist,
[17:42 - 17:46] who steps up for their fans when they're being attacked or
[17:46 - 17:53] bullied or going through some shit, but yet, I don't get the same thing in return.
[17:54 - 17:55] Why?
[17:58 - 18:01] It makes no sense.
[18:01 - 18:07] My life is being ripped away day by day by these motherfuckers.
[18:07 - 18:12] But yet, none of y'all seem to have the goddamn motherfucking balls to step up and
[18:12 - 18:15] help put a stop to these motherfuckers.
[18:15 - 18:19] And I'm fucking embarrassed by y'all.
[18:19 - 18:23] I'm not embarrassed by weeds or any of them.
[18:23 - 18:28] I'm embarrassed as fuck by the supporters that say they got my back.
[18:28 - 18:32] But yet, when shit gets tough and my life is being ripped away,
[18:32 - 18:37] ain't none of y'all motherfuckers stepping up and doing shit.
[18:37 - 18:44] It's embarrassing and y'all should be ashamed of yourselves.
[18:44 - 18:49] Cuz if the roles were reversed, if the roles were motherfucking reversed,
[18:49 - 18:53] I'd have your motherfucking backs.
[18:53 - 18:58] If the roles were fucking reversed, I'd have your fucking back.
[18:58 - 19:02] If y'all needed me to step up and be like, hey, this guy's fucking with me.
[19:02 - 19:03] Guess what?
[19:03 - 19:07] I'd be that first motherfucker to step up and say something.
[19:10 - 19:13] Cuz my mama didn't raise no motherfucking bitch.
[19:22 - 19:25] And my daddy didn't raise no goddamn pushover.
[19:27 - 19:30] I'm sorry, I wasn't raised to be a bitch or a pushover.
[19:30 - 19:33] I wasn't raised to be stepped on.
[19:53 - 20:03] Mike, you have no idea how embarrassed I am of all y'all motherfuckers
[20:03 - 20:09] that claim to be fans, but yet don't step up when shit gets hard.
[20:10 - 20:18] I'm over here every day, watching my life being ripped away from me,
[20:18 - 20:20] not being able to do anything.
[20:22 - 20:29] I'm over here every day watching my life be shattered into fucking pieces every day.
[20:29 - 20:34] Watching motherfuckers make money off of my name and my likeness,
[20:34 - 20:37] watching people literally destroy me.
[20:39 - 20:42] And rip what little shred of my life I have away from me.
[20:42 - 20:47] I'm being forced to watch this every day and
[20:47 - 20:48] not able to do a damn thing about it.
[20:54 - 20:57] But yet nobody seems to wanna step up and do anything.
[20:57 - 21:01] Because y'all are afraid of being targeted.
[21:21 - 21:40] Y'all should really be fucking ashamed of yourselves right now.
[21:44 - 21:52] Imagine if you guys look at the man next to you right now, all right?
[21:52 - 21:55] Look at the person next to you in chat right now.
[21:55 - 22:00] Imagine that the fucking roles were reversed.
[22:00 - 22:05] Imagine if y'all were in my position.
[22:05 - 22:09] Imagine if y'all were going through what I've gone through for
[22:09 - 22:15] the last four years and can literally continue to be put through.
[22:15 - 22:20] Think about it, the roles were reversed.
[22:20 - 22:21] How would you fucking feel?
[22:21 - 22:27] How would you feel like somebody was targeting your life, your family,
[22:27 - 22:28] your friends?
[22:28 - 22:32] How would you fucking feel?
[22:32 - 22:37] Wouldn't you want somebody to step up and say, hey, enough's enough, and
[22:37 - 22:39] we're putting a stop to this?
[22:43 - 22:48] Wouldn't you want someone to step up and speak up for you and help you?
[22:48 - 22:54] If y'all were in my position, put yourselves in my position and
[22:54 - 22:56] imagine what the fuck I deal with every day.
[22:56 - 23:00] Put yourself in my position and
[23:00 - 23:05] think about all the fucking bullshit I have to deal with every day.
[23:10 - 23:14] Imagine not being able to take a day off to hang out with your friends.
[23:14 - 23:20] Imagine not being able to do anything.
[23:23 - 23:29] Imagine not being able to go outside, not being able to go anywhere,
[23:29 - 23:33] not being able to take a day off from your job as a music artist to hang out
[23:33 - 23:38] with a friend, imagine not being able to do anything.
[23:38 - 23:41] You're essentially a prisoner in your own fucking home.
[23:41 - 23:45] That's what my life has been like for the last four years.
[23:45 - 23:49] I've essentially been a fucking prisoner in my own goddamn home.
[23:49 - 23:58] I've literally been a fucking prisoner in my own goddamn home for
[23:58 - 23:59] the last four years.
[24:01 - 24:02] That has been my life.
[24:06 - 24:10] Watching my life be stripped away from me and
[24:10 - 24:13] not be able to do a goddamn thing to stop these motherfuckers.
[24:13 - 24:18] Watching money that I worked my ass off for,
[24:18 - 24:22] being ripped away from me just because they can.
[24:22 - 24:26] Watching everything I worked hard for, being ripped away from me.
[24:26 - 24:31] Every opportunity stolen, every single thing I've ever done,
[24:31 - 24:31] been ripped away.
[24:36 - 24:41] Imagine what the fuck I go through on a daily fucking basis.
[24:51 - 24:56] Put yourself in my position and think about how the fuck I feel.
[24:56 - 24:59] How my family feels, how my friends feel.
[25:04 - 25:07] Think about what it's like to be in my position for a minute.
[25:17 - 25:24] Cuz like I said, if the roles were reversed,
[25:24 - 25:28] you motherfuckers wouldn't be talking shit.
[25:29 - 25:31] You wouldn't be saying shit.
[25:31 - 25:36] You'd be asking for help to put a stop to all this shit for good.
[25:37 - 25:42] You'd be begging for fucking help for someone to stop this shit for
[25:42 - 25:45] you so you can have a normal life again.
[25:48 - 25:53] My normal life got stolen away from me four years ago.
[25:57 - 26:01] Four years ago, my normal life got stolen from me and
[26:01 - 26:04] I've not been able to get it back since, ever.
[26:07 - 26:10] I don't even remember the last time I sat down and
[26:10 - 26:14] actually watched a fucking movie without being attacked.
[26:15 - 26:19] I can't even remember the last time I went outside
[26:19 - 26:21] without having to look over my shoulder in fear.
[26:23 - 26:29] I can't remember the last time I got to go over to a friend's house and hang out.
[26:35 - 26:40] I don't even remember the last time I actually got to go to the mall with my
[26:40 - 26:47] friends and hang out and actually have fun or go to a concert and have fun.
[26:49 - 26:56] Cuz my whole time these last four years has been spent defending myself.
[26:56 - 27:03] Defending my job, defending my career, making sure nothing gets fucked up.
[27:03 - 27:06] That has been my fucking life.
[27:06 - 27:11] Being trapped inside my house like a prisoner, not able to do anything.
[27:15 - 27:18] That has been my fucking life for the last four years.
[27:25 - 27:30] And it seems like none of y'all motherfuckers even gives a fuck
[27:30 - 27:33] enough to attempt to stop glory all.
[27:49 - 27:52] You had no idea how sick to my stomach I am.
[28:02 - 28:08] You guys say that for all y'all supposed supporters,
[28:08 - 28:14] not counting we's or any of them.
[28:14 - 28:17] Not counting people like Lou.
[28:17 - 28:22] Not counting people like Dan or any of them.
[28:22 - 28:30] But y'all supposed supporters, you say you understand.
[28:30 - 28:37] But do you really understand what it's like to be a prisoner in your own home?
[28:43 - 28:44] I don't think you do.
[29:06 - 29:14] Imagine this, imagine that you bust your ass on something so hard.
[29:14 - 29:17] You bust your ass doing anything you can to make money.
[29:27 - 29:32] And then that money gets stolen away from you by the fucking trolls,
[29:32 - 29:34] so they can sit there and laugh at you.
[29:38 - 29:44] Imagine working your ass off for 10 plus years as hard as I have.
[29:52 - 29:58] All right, imagine busting your ass as hard as I have for
[29:58 - 30:04] over 10 years to make a living and you finally start to make that living.
[30:04 - 30:07] And then all of that money gets stolen away.
[30:07 - 30:10] Just some motherfuckers can turn you into a wild cow and make fun of you.
[31:17 - 31:22] I just, I don't get it.
[31:22 - 31:24] I really don't fucking get it.
[37:36 - 37:43] And that's why this song right here pretty much describes where I'm at right now.
[54:19 - 54:28] All those fucking songs represent what I've been fucking going through over the last four years.
[54:29 - 54:45] I've been crawling in the dark looking for these fucking answers as to why I get put through what I get put through and why the fuck ain't no motherfucker stood up to these motherfucking punk asses that want to ruin lives.
[54:46 - 54:58] How many motherfucking people have to suffer before someone steps up and says fuck these guys enough is enough. It's time to shut them the fuck down.
[54:58 - 55:10] How many people have to suffer? How long do I have to suffer? How long does anyone have to suffer before someone steps up and says enough is enough?
[55:15 - 55:26] How many people have to suffer? How many people have to go to the same hell that I got put through before someone finally steps up?
[55:39 - 55:47] Because like I said, for you supposed fans, I'm embarrassed of every single one of you.
[55:51 - 55:59] The people I mentioned earlier, they're fine, but as for the rest of you guys, as for the rest of y'all,
[56:08 - 56:13] for the rest of y'all that have known me for years, I'm embarrassed of you.
[56:13 - 56:20] Now, people that are just not coming over from Twitch and don't know the situation,
[56:20 - 56:30] for those that are coming over from Twitch and don't understand what's going on, they're forgiven because they don't know the situation.
[56:31 - 56:38] But y'all motherfuckers that have known the situation for years, why haven't you stepped up and actually done something?
[56:41 - 56:47] What, do you think it's funny watching somebody like me suffer and get put through hell?
[56:47 - 56:57] Do you think it's funny to watch someone like me who busts his ass every day lose everything that he's worked his ass off for? Because I don't.
[57:06 - 57:09] I don't think it's funny at all.
[57:25 - 57:30] I really don't. You guys might find it funny, but I don't.
[57:30 - 57:34] And there's a lot of motherfuckers that don't find it funny.
[57:37 - 57:42] Now, if you guys will excuse me, I actually have a fucking album to get back to working on.
[57:45 - 57:56] So probably the rest of today and tomorrow, I'm not going to be live streaming because I'm taking time for myself that I've not had in over four years.
[57:56 - 58:03] I am taking time to actually live a normal, somewhat of a normal life for at least a couple of days.
[58:07 - 58:12] I don't want to be bothered by any of the bullshit.
[58:16 - 58:20] I don't want to be attacked. I don't want to be harassed.
[58:20 - 58:29] I just want to live my normal fucking life in peace for at least a couple of days so I can somewhat feel normal again.
[58:32 - 58:40] So I can actually somewhat feel like I have control of my life again, and so that I feel like I somewhat have part of me back.
[58:42 - 58:53] So for the next couple of days, I'm not going to be doing anything except watching TV, relaxing, and working on music, and that is it.
[58:55 - 58:57] I am taking time for me.
[58:59 - 59:08] I am done with this garbage-ass troll shit. I am done being ripped off, and I am done being fucked over.
[59:10 - 59:12] I am taking time for me.
[59:14 - 59:18] I am taking time to be normal for the first time in over four fucking years.
[59:20 - 59:22] And if you ask me, I fucking deserve it.
[59:24 - 59:29] Because I have busted my ass harder than any motherfucker on this goddamn platform for the last four years.
[59:31 - 59:35] And quite frankly, I think I'm pretty much owed a normal life at this point.
[59:52 - 60:02] And if any of you have a problem with it, you guys can suck my fucking dick, and you guys can kiss my fucking ass.
[60:06 - 60:10] Now if you'll excuse me, I have a normal life to get to.
[60:12 - 60:14] I'll see you guys in a few days.