2022-6-4 IM HUMAN JUST LIKE ALL OF YOU

[0:00 - 0:24] (I'm sorry, I'm sorry)
[0:25 - 0:33] (I'm sorry)
[0:34 - 0:36] (I'm sorry, I'm sorry)
[1:01 - 1:05] (I'm sorry)
[1:05 - 1:14] When you take a look at me, what do you see?
[1:14 - 1:32] When you take a look at this body and this face, what do you see?
[1:32 - 1:34] What do you see?
[1:34 - 1:39] Do you really see a monster?
[1:39 - 1:45] Or do you see someone like you that's a fucking human being?
[1:59 - 2:02] 'Cause let me tell you right now, William Glory Hole.
[2:02 - 2:07] Just like you, I'm a fucking human.
[2:07 - 2:11] Just like you, I'm a human being.
[2:11 - 2:16] I have flesh, I have bone.
[2:16 - 2:28] I bleed red, I have scars all over my fucking body that I'm not afraid to show.
[2:29 - 2:34] And you and your little friends can sit there and laugh all you want, William.
[2:34 - 2:38] You can sit there and laugh all you fucking want.
[2:38 - 2:44] But at the end of the day, I am just like all of you in the chat right now.
[2:44 - 2:46] And you, William.
[2:46 - 2:49] I am just like every single one of you.
[2:49 - 2:52] I am a fucking human being.
[2:52 - 2:56] I'm not some fucking ha ha plaything.
[2:57 - 3:00] I am a fucking human being.
[3:00 - 3:03] Just like everyone else on this earth.
[3:03 - 3:06] Yes, I look weird.
[3:06 - 3:08] Yes, I look different.
[3:08 - 3:10] But you want to know something?
[3:10 - 3:12] I own that shit.
[3:12 - 3:15] I own that weirdness.
[3:15 - 3:18] I own that crazy ass look.
[3:18 - 3:25] I own the fact and rock the fact that yes, I look different because of how I was born.
[3:26 - 3:27] What?
[3:27 - 3:31] It is.
[3:31 - 3:33] Yes, it is.
[3:33 - 3:38] Just like you, William.
[3:38 - 3:43] And just like all of you in the fucking chat right now, I'm a fucking human being.
[3:43 - 3:49] Just like you, William, I'm a human being.
[3:54 - 3:55] Mom.
[3:55 - 4:02] There is no one.
[4:02 - 4:24] Hold on one minute, guys.
[4:24 - 4:36] But like I said, William.
[4:36 - 4:40] Just like you, I'm a human being.
[4:40 - 4:45] I don't deserve the treatment that you give me.
[4:48 - 4:56] I don't deserve what any of you in the chat do to me when you attack me and you make fun of me and you bully me.
[4:56 - 4:58] I don't deserve that.
[4:58 - 4:59] I never did.
[4:59 - 5:03] Because just like all of you, I'm a human.
[5:03 - 5:05] I make mistakes.
[5:05 - 5:08] But that's what makes us human.
[5:08 - 5:12] We make mistakes and we learn from them.
[5:16 - 5:18] Just like all of you, I'm a human.
[5:18 - 5:20] I make mistakes.
[5:20 - 5:23] I fuck up, but I learn from my mistakes.
[5:23 - 5:27] Unlike Gloria, I learn from my mistakes.
[5:27 - 5:39] I learn from my mistakes that I fucking make.
[5:44 - 5:47] I'll admit it, I fucked up when I fell for that troll.
[5:47 - 5:53] But here's what you guys need to realize, and you need to get this through your fucking heads.
[5:53 - 5:55] I was set up.
[5:55 - 6:01] I was set the fuck up by somebody that is a known pedophile.
[6:01 - 6:07] I was set up by somebody that is a very well-known pedophile.
[6:07 - 6:12] Do your research before attacking me.
[6:13 - 6:17] Do your fucking research before coming at me.
[6:17 - 6:32] Because like I said, William, unlike you, I make mistakes and I learn from them.
[6:32 - 6:34] Unlike you.
[6:34 - 6:40] I'll be honest, William, I'm tired of you pushing me around.
[6:41 - 6:44] I'm tired of you walking all over me.
[6:44 - 6:48] I'm tired of you little bitch friends walking all over me.
[6:48 - 6:52] I'm sick and tired of being treated like a goddamn doormat.
[6:52 - 6:57] Because I'm not some fucking person you can push aside anymore.
[6:57 - 7:05] I'm not that weak person that you can cast aside.
[7:08 - 7:12] I'm not that fucking person that you can bully around.
[7:12 - 7:16] I'm not like your other victims.
[7:16 - 7:24] And let me tell you right now, to everyone of you in the chat, even though you might not like me,
[7:24 - 7:34] and I'm okay with that, even if you don't like me, even if you hate me, even if you think I look weird, I don't care.
[7:35 - 7:42] At the end of the day, let me tell you right now, at the end of the day, for any of you that's in fucking chat right now,
[7:42 - 7:52] any of you that's commenting in chat, if any of you were in fucking danger or being bullied, I would take up for any of you.
[7:52 - 7:59] If any of you were being bullied, even if you didn't like me, I would still stick up for you.
[8:00 - 8:05] I would still fucking defend you. I would still say something on your behalf.
[8:05 - 8:15] For any of you in chat, any of you that hate me, I would take up for any of you on any given day, whether you hate me or not.
[8:15 - 8:27] Because at the end of the day, I know that just like me, we are all humans. You guys are people just like me.
[8:28 - 8:35] Just like me, you are human. I am human. We are all people at the end of the fucking day.
[8:35 - 8:44] And William, while you seek to destroy life, I seek to preserve it. I seek to help people.
[8:44 - 8:48] While you bully people, I try to help people.
[8:49 - 8:59] While you run your mouth and talk your shit about me, I'm over here trying to help somebody who is being bullied by people like you.
[8:59 - 9:07] While you over here talking your shit, I'm over here doing whatever I gotta do to help somebody.
[9:07 - 9:29] You know, it really fucking pisses me off, William. It really fucking pisses me off that you can't get it through your fucking skull that I was set up.
[9:30 - 9:41] When are you gonna get it through your head? That asshole reports is a fucking pedophile and she deserves to be behind bars.
[9:41 - 9:51] When are you gonna grow up and quit your fucking bullshit? When are you gonna grow up and find someone else like Tony to go after?
[9:52 - 10:00] When are you gonna leave me the fucking world and go after somebody like Tony or a asshole who is a true pedophile?
[10:00 - 10:09] When are you gonna stop? When does it stop?
[10:09 - 10:18] When are you gonna grow up and quit your crap?
[10:18 - 10:29] You know, all of you in chat that are talking shit about me right now, you should be embarrassed of yourselves.
[10:29 - 10:36] You really should. All of you in chat should be ashamed of yourselves right now.
[10:37 - 10:51] Every one of you should be embarrassed and ashamed of yourselves. And you wanna know why? Because in real fucking life, you guys know that you would never do this shit outside of YouTube.
[10:51 - 11:02] You guys know that in real life, out behind those screens outside of that shit, if you saw me in real life, you guys wouldn't say half the shit you fucking say to me.
[11:03 - 11:09] You know damn well you wouldn't say the shit that you say to me on here to my face.
[11:09 - 11:17] You know you wouldn't. So don't even try to act like you would because you won't. And you know it.
[11:17 - 11:26] So why you guys feel like you have to try to cancel me? I don't know.
[11:28 - 11:40] But like I said, just like all of you in chat that are talking shit about me, every one of you in chat that's running your mouth about me or making a stream about me,
[11:40 - 11:49] every single fucking one of you is just like me. You're fucking human.
[11:50 - 12:01] We are all human beings, so I don't understand. Why do we have to fight? Why do we have to pick on each other? Why do we have to bully everybody?
[12:01 - 12:12] Why do you have to bully people? Why do we have to do this over and over? Why do we have to fight each other? Why do we have to attack everybody? I don't get it.
[12:13 - 12:24] When does the bullying stop? When does the hatred end? When does the bullying get cut off?
[12:24 - 12:34] When will you guys learn that just like you, I'm a human just like the rest of you?
[12:41 - 12:48] You know my whole life I grew up being bullied. From my size, my stature, how I am.
[12:48 - 12:59] I was always that short kid in my school. I was always that kid that got bullied. I was always that kid that got shoved in the lockers.
[12:59 - 13:07] That kid that always got the swirlies. That kid that everybody beat up on every fucking day. I was that kid.
[13:08 - 13:20] I was that kid that got bullied. I was that kid that got beat up on the daily. I was that kid that came home from school with a busted lip.
[13:21 - 13:39] I was that kid that got suspended for fighting. I was that kid that got pushed around, had my lunch dunked on me, had people making fun of me because of my size. I was that kid.
[13:39 - 13:47] My whole life I was that kid. My whole life I was that kid.
[13:50 - 13:54] So what I don't understand is what makes you think I deserve that now.
[13:54 - 14:06] I'm 31 years old dude. I don't deserve this. I don't deserve the crap that you fucking people give to me. I don't deserve it.
[14:06 - 14:15] Take a look around everybody. Take a look around.
[14:19 - 14:29] Open your goddamn eyes. We've got enough hatred in this world already. Why create more?
[14:29 - 14:43] Why create more bullshit and more hatred for people to get bullied and attack and harass and possibly for those people that get bullied to take their own life?
[14:48 - 15:02] Let me tell you right now. Two years ago, because of all of you in chat right now, two years ago, I tried to take my life twice in a row.
[15:02 - 15:11] Twice in a row I tried to end my life because of the bullying, because of the hatred, because of the being attacked.
[15:14 - 15:18] I tried to take my life twice.
[15:18 - 15:36] And if you think I'm joking, you can ask my family. You can ask my friends. Because of you fucking bullies, I tried to take my life twice a couple years ago.
[15:38 - 15:47] And if it wasn't for my friends stepping in and stopping me, I would have tried a third this year, but I didn't.
[15:47 - 15:55] Just like all of you, I'm a human being.
[15:55 - 16:06] Just like all of you, I am a human being and I deserve to be treated with love and respect just like all of you deserve.
[16:07 - 16:14] I don't hate any of you. Any of you guys in chat, I don't hate any of you. I just hate what you do.
[16:14 - 16:28] I can never hate anyone, ever. I can never hate anyone, not even Marty, not even William Gloryhole, not even Massle reports.
[16:28 - 16:34] I can never hate anyone. That's not in my nature. That's not who I am.
[16:36 - 16:41] The only thing I do hate is what you people fucking do to people like me.
[16:41 - 16:53] When you go around bullying people, pushing people around like there's some sort of pushover, like there's some sort of mat to walk on, that's what I hate.
[16:54 - 16:59] The bullying, the cancel culture crap, it needs to stop.
[16:59 - 17:12] The cancel culture bullshit needs to fucking end. And now, I'm not some doormat that you can walk on.
[17:12 - 17:20] I'm not some fucking person that you can walk all over. That's not me.
[17:21 - 17:24] That is not who the fuck I am.
[17:24 - 17:32] Just like you, I am a human being, man. Just like you, I'm a human being.
[17:32 - 17:41] Just like all of you, I am a person. I have a heart. I have feelings. I have a brain.
[17:41 - 17:46] Just like all of you, I have bones. I have flesh.
[17:47 - 17:50] Just like all of you, I make mistakes.
[17:50 - 17:56] Okay, I'm not perfect. No one in this world is perfect. No one.
[17:56 - 18:03] Not me, not any of you, not Marty, not Wayne Gloria, nobody in this world is fucking perfect.
[18:04 - 18:18] We all make mistakes. We all fucked up.
[18:18 - 18:29] Okay, we all fucked up and make mistakes, but we shouldn't be bound to those mistakes for the rest of our lives.
[18:30 - 18:43] See, you guys are trying to keep me bound to a mistake I made two fucking years ago.
[18:43 - 18:47] Why keep me bound to that mistake?
[18:47 - 19:11] Why keep me bound to that mistake I made two fucking years ago? Why?
[19:12 - 19:26] I mean, haven't I proven already that I'm not that person that you all make me out to be?
[19:26 - 19:33] Haven't I proven that I'm not a pedophile? Haven't I proven myself?
[19:34 - 19:41] Haven't I proven that by working on my music, doing my livestreams, hanging out with my friends and family?
[19:41 - 19:48] Haven't I proven myself enough to any of you? Have I not fucking proven my worth?
[19:48 - 19:54] Have I not proven that an asshole is the real pedophile and that I was set up?
[19:55 - 20:05] Have I not proven my innocence enough to you? I mean, what more do you want from me?
[20:05 - 20:12] What more do I have to do to fucking show you that I'm not what you guys think?
[20:12 - 20:23] What the fuck do I have to do to prove to you that I'm not a fucking pedophile like you guys think?
[20:24 - 20:29] I think I've proven myself enough already.
[20:29 - 20:44] I've proven myself time and time again. I shouldn't have to do it anymore. I shouldn't have to.
[20:47 - 20:57] I shouldn't have to prove myself to anyone anymore. I've proven myself enough over the last four years.
[20:57 - 21:06] Over the last two to four years, I have proven myself time and time and time again.
[21:06 - 21:15] I shouldn't have to do it anymore. I shouldn't have to prove myself to anyone.
[21:16 - 21:19] I shouldn't have to.
[21:19 - 21:24] What makes you think?
[21:24 - 21:37] What makes you think you have the right to judge somebody who's learned from their mistakes, who isn't making those mistakes again?
[21:37 - 21:43] I've learned from my mistakes. Okay?
[21:44 - 21:50] So what I don't understand is why can't any of you let it go?
[21:50 - 21:55] Why can't any of you let that shit go?
[21:55 - 22:01] That was two years ago. Leave the past in the past.
[22:01 - 22:08] Let the shit go, man. Let it go. Move on.
[22:09 - 22:24] I understand if you don't like me. I understand if you hate me. And that's fine.
[22:24 - 22:32] That's okay if you hate me. I'm okay with that. I can live with that.
[22:33 - 22:38] But leave the past in the fucking past.
[22:38 - 22:43] Leave it the fuck alone. Move on.
[22:43 - 22:58] Leave the past in the past. Let me move on and live my life.
[22:59 - 23:09] Let me show you guys what I can be when I'm not being attacked, when I'm not being bullied, when I'm not being harassed.
[23:09 - 23:17] You guys say you want me to be better, right? You guys say you want to be better and do better, right?
[23:21 - 23:29] You guys say that you want to be better, then let me be better by not bringing up the fucking past.
[23:29 - 23:37] Let me be better by not bringing up the past and letting me move on.
[23:44 - 23:53] Let me be better by living my life and let me do what I need to fucking do to provide for my family.
[23:53 - 24:00] Whether it be on here, on Twitch, doing my music, whatever I'm doing.
[24:00 - 24:08] Let me live my life and stop bringing up my goddamn past.
[24:09 - 24:17] Like I said, you want to go after somebody? Go after somebody like Tony. Go after somebody like Masshole.
[24:17 - 24:21] Go after somebody like Marty who truly needs help.
[24:21 - 24:27] And Gloryhole, you can suck my dick, you little bitch.
[24:27 - 24:35] So fuck you.
[24:35 - 24:44] Like I said, I don't hate any of you in chat.
[24:44 - 24:52] I don't hate any of you at all. I could never hate any of you.
[24:52 - 25:00] I couldn't do it. I could never hate anyone.
[25:03 - 25:07] What I hate is what you guys do to people like me.
[25:07 - 25:13] People like me that are trying to move on and live their life.
[25:27 - 25:34] And Virgo, I'm not going to stop fainting people. When it comes to trolls, I have every right and reason to do it.
[25:34 - 25:39] So if you don't like this channel, then move the fuck on somewhere else.
[25:39 - 25:56] I'm tired of my past constantly being brought up every five seconds of the goddamn day and people trying to make me out to be something I'm not.
[25:56 - 25:58] I'm tired of it.
[25:58 - 26:02] My family is tired of it.
[26:02 - 26:09] My friends are tired of it.
[26:09 - 26:18] My supporters, the people that enjoy my work, are tired of seeing you guys do what you fucking do to me.
[26:18 - 26:23] They don't like it either.
[26:23 - 26:47] So my question to you is this. When does it fucking stop?
[26:48 - 26:53] When do you guys grow up and move the fuck on and find something else?
[27:04 - 27:15] And you know, a lot of my friends give me the nickname Gohan for a very specific reason, for a very good reason that I didn't understand before.
[27:15 - 27:21] But looking back now, I see why. I see why I got that name.
[27:21 - 27:33] And do you want to know why? Because on the outside, I'm a nice person to everyone. I'm kind to everyone. I show respect to everybody.
[27:33 - 27:36] I care about everyone genuinely.
[27:36 - 27:47] But just as quick as I am to be a nice person and help someone out, I'm just as quick to get mad. I'm just as quick to get pissed.
[27:47 - 28:00] And when I get pissed, that's not my fault. That's because of you guys, the fucking trolls, the bullies that push me there every day. And I'm tired of it.
[28:01 - 28:18] And to my fans and my people that saw me go off earlier, I just want to say that I'm sorry that you guys had to witness that.
[28:18 - 28:24] I'm sorry that you guys had to witness me going off like I did.
[28:25 - 28:35] But just like all you guys that are my fans, I'm just like you. I'm human. There's always so much a person can take before they fucking snap.
[28:35 - 28:40] There's always so much someone can take before they fucking snap.
[28:40 - 28:50] And I was at my breaking point at that point. And for that, I'm sorry that you guys had to see that.
[28:51 - 29:02] But I'm honestly tired of being pushed to my fucking breaking point by these fucking trolls that obviously don't have a life that just want to bully people to bully people.
[29:02 - 29:09] What? You think it's funny what you guys did to Chris Chan?
[29:09 - 29:19] You guys think it's funny what you do to me? You think it's funny what you guys have done to people before me and before Chris Chan?
[29:20 - 29:24] You think that shit's funny? You think that's a ha ha joke? It's not.
[29:24 - 29:30] Real people get hurt every day because of people like you guys that bully people.
[29:30 - 29:44] Every day, someone loses their life because of a fucking bully that runs their mouth or bullies them too far.
[29:44 - 29:48] And I was almost one of them.
[29:49 - 29:52] I was almost one of those people.
[29:52 - 30:04] I was almost one of the ones that took my own life. Twice in a row, I almost took my own life.
[30:04 - 30:12] And if my family and friends hadn't stepped in, I wouldn't be here right now.
[30:13 - 30:20] If my family and friends hadn't stopped me those two times, I wouldn't be standing here right now.
[30:20 - 30:28] I wouldn't be standing here talking to you guys right now if my family didn't fucking stop me and step in.
[30:37 - 30:43] So trust me when I say what you guys do needs to stop.
[30:43 - 30:50] What you guys do is pathetic, it's stupid, and it's not needed.
[30:50 - 30:55] I mean, why can't we all just get along with each other, man?
[30:55 - 31:02] Why can't we all just get the fuck along with each other and let the past be in the past?
[31:03 - 31:07] Let me show you the person that I can actually be when I'm not attacked.
[31:07 - 31:12] Honestly, for all you guys in chat, I would love to be cool with you guys.
[31:12 - 31:23] Honestly, I would love to be okay with everybody in chat.
[31:24 - 31:34] I really would. I would love to get to know you guys and hang out with you guys and have a good time and chill out and crack jokes and have fun.
[31:34 - 31:40] But how are we supposed to do any of that when I'm constantly being attacked?
[31:40 - 31:48] How is any of that supposed to happen when I'm constantly being attacked from my past? Being attacked for shit I didn't fucking do.
[31:51 - 31:58] Being attacked for mistakes I made two years ago that I have not made ever since.
[31:58 - 32:04] When does it fucking end?
[32:04 - 32:14] Is it because I look weird? Is that it? Is it because I look weird? Is that why you guys hate on me so much?
[32:14 - 32:34] I'm sorry if you guys hate me because of how I look. I can't help how I was born. I can't help that. That's not in my control.
[32:39 - 32:45] I can't help the way I was born. That's not my fault.
[32:45 - 32:50] That was out of my control.
[32:50 - 33:01] I had no control over how I was born. So how can you fault me for something that's not my fault that I had no control over?
[33:04 - 33:19] And how can you fault me for being a supposed pedophile when the person that entrapped me and set me up is a pedophile themselves and is actually a known pedophile in the state of Massachusetts?
[33:24 - 33:36] And also somebody that had her kids taken, two of her kids were taken by CPS for her doing the same shit that she did to me to someone else.
[33:36 - 33:42] So how can you fault me for that? It doesn't make any sense, people.
[33:42 - 33:46] Wake the fuck up.
[33:53 - 33:59] As time you guys woke up and realized that I'm not the person that you guys seem to think I am.
[33:59 - 34:15] Maybe if you guys would start spending less time attacking me and spending more time being supportive and actually getting to know me as a person instead of attacking me, you might see that I'm actually a pretty chill fucking dude.
[34:21 - 34:24] You might actually see that I'm actually a nice guy.
[34:24 - 34:41] But how would you know that if you keep on attacking me? How would you know that I'm a nice guy if you keep on attacking me and bullying me every five seconds of every day and fucking laughing at me? For what? For what?
[34:41 - 34:44] It makes no sense.
[34:45 - 34:48] Hey Shane.
[34:48 - 34:51] Fuck you.
[34:51 - 34:53] Hey Shane.
[34:53 - 34:57] Fuck you.
[35:17 - 35:21] Yeah, just like you guys, I'm a human being.
[35:21 - 35:29] And I wish you guys would give me the fucking chance to show you that I can actually be a nice person.
[35:29 - 35:35] I wish you guys would give me that fucking chance so bad.
[35:35 - 35:40] I wish that you guys would let go of my past.
[35:43 - 35:48] So badly I wish you guys would let that shit go.
[35:48 - 35:59] So fucking badly I wish that just for once you would fucking listen to me and let the past be in the past.
[35:59 - 36:03] And move on from the bullshit.
[36:03 - 36:08] I wish for once you guys would fucking stop.
[36:09 - 36:19] For once in your life I wish that you would stop fucking bullying me, stop harassing me, stop going after my fucking family.
[36:19 - 36:59] Fuck you.
[37:25 - 37:28] I just don't fucking get it.
[37:28 - 37:33] I just don't understand why you people can't just leave me the fuck alone.
[37:33 - 37:45] I mean I never did anything to any of you.
[37:45 - 37:52] I never did anything to any of you.
[37:52 - 38:00] If anything I tried to be nice to everyone.
[38:00 - 38:06] I tried to be nice to everyone and what does that get me except getting shit on.
[38:06 - 38:20] I don't deserve this.
[38:21 - 38:23] I don't deserve this level of harassment.
[38:23 - 38:26] I don't deserve this kind of treatment.
[38:26 - 38:29] And I sure as hell don't deserve this kind of bullying.
[38:29 - 38:32] No one does.
[38:32 - 38:35] And let me tell you right now.
[38:35 - 38:38] I would never wish this kind of thing on my worst enemy.
[38:38 - 38:41] Not even Morty or Gloryhole.
[38:42 - 38:51] I would never wish this level of bullying on anyone that you guys have put me through in the last four years.
[38:51 - 38:59] I would never in my entire life wish this kind of shit on anyone period.
[38:59 - 39:01] I wouldn't do it.
[39:01 - 39:03] I couldn't do it.
[39:03 - 39:38] I can never forgive myself if I did.
[39:38 - 39:56] And you know what, I truly meant it when I said that I would give my life for anyone in chat right now.
[39:56 - 40:00] If you were being bullied or someone was going on, I would take out for you.
[40:00 - 40:02] I would stick out for you.
[40:02 - 40:05] I would defend any of you on any given day.
[40:07 - 40:09] Because that's the kind of person that I am.
[40:09 - 40:17] So why can't you guys do the same thing in return and show a little bit of respect?
[40:17 - 40:20] I don't get it.
[40:20 - 40:34] I just don't get it.
[40:36 - 40:44] Just because I look different, just because I am different, that doesn't give you the right to attack me or judge me.
[40:44 - 40:50] That does not give you guys that right.
[40:51 - 40:56] I can never forgive myself if I did.
[40:56 - 41:24] I just don't give you the right to attack me or judge me.
[41:24 - 41:28] So I just don't understand why you guys can't just move on.
[41:28 - 41:33] Let me live my life.
[41:33 - 41:41] Let me show you guys the good person that I can be, instead of attacking me every 5 seconds of the day for a laugh.
[41:41 - 41:44] I just don't understand it, man.
[41:44 - 41:57] I really just don't understand it.
[41:57 - 42:04] You know, I try to be nice to everyone.
[42:04 - 42:08] I try to help out everybody.
[42:08 - 42:10] I try to be kind to everyone.
[42:10 - 42:11] I try to be respectful.
[42:11 - 42:30] But yet, where does that get me, except getting walked on by all of you?
[42:30 - 42:34] All you fucking trolls in the chat?
[42:34 - 42:35] I try to do the right thing.
[42:35 - 42:37] I try to focus on my music.
[42:37 - 42:39] I try to focus on my stuff.
[42:39 - 42:41] But yeah, what do I get against, except getting shit on every day?
[42:41 - 42:43] And for what?
[42:43 - 42:45] A few hahaha laughs?
[42:45 - 42:47] Is that it?
[42:47 - 42:49] Is my suffering really worth just a couple of laughs?
[42:49 - 42:53] Is that it?
[42:53 - 43:02] I don't even know.
[43:03 - 43:04] Is that it?
[43:04 - 43:06] Is that all I'm fucking worth to you?
[43:06 - 43:08] Is a couple of laughs?
[43:08 - 43:10] Is that it?
[43:10 - 43:19] Is that all I am to you?
[43:19 - 43:22] Is that all I really am to you?
[43:22 - 43:24] A cheap fucking laugh?
[43:24 - 43:26] Is that it?
[43:26 - 43:30] Is that all I'm fucking worth?
[43:30 - 43:49] Because if that's what you guys think, you're dead fucking wrong.
[43:50 - 43:50] And I want to tell you right now, that's what you guys really think of me.
[43:50 - 43:52] You guys are sadly fucking mistaken.
[43:52 - 44:14] I want to tell you right now, that's what you guys really think of me.
[44:14 - 44:19] You guys are sadly fucking mistaken.
[44:19 - 44:21] If you think that's all I'm fucking worth.
[44:21 - 44:26] You guys obviously don't understand the value of human life.
[44:27 - 44:28] You guys are sadly fucking mistaken.
[44:28 - 44:30] If you think that's all I'm fucking worth.
[44:30 - 44:37] You guys obviously don't understand the value of human life.
[44:37 - 44:38] Let me tell you right now, I understand the value of human life.
[44:38 - 44:40] Because I have been on the edge and back.
[44:40 - 44:42] And I'm going to tell you what I'm going to say.
[44:42 - 44:44] I'm going to tell you what I'm going to say.
[44:44 - 45:04] And I'm going to tell you what I'm going to say.
[45:04 - 45:06] Because I have been on the edge and back.
[45:06 - 45:09] I understand how valuable life is.
[45:09 - 45:12] I understand what it's worth.
[45:12 - 45:16] And that's why I never take a single moment for granted.
[45:16 - 45:24] But obviously you guys don't understand the value of life.
[45:24 - 45:26] And I feel bad for you.
[45:26 - 45:28] I really do.
[45:32 - 45:35] I'm sorry that your family's never taught you the value of life.
[45:35 - 45:40] I'm sorry that your parents or your friends turned their backs on you
[45:40 - 45:42] and made you feel like shit.
[45:42 - 45:45] I'm sorry that your family's judged you.
[45:45 - 45:47] I'm sorry that you got outcasted.
[45:47 - 45:51] I'm sorry that you ended up the black sheep of the family.
[45:51 - 45:55] I'm sorry that you're not happy with your life.
[45:55 - 45:58] I'm sorry about me being me.
[45:58 - 46:00] I'm sorry about the way I was born.
[46:01 - 46:04] But dude, I can't help the way I was born.
[46:04 - 46:06] I can't help that.
[46:06 - 46:12] And like I said, I'm sorry for however any of you guys got treated.
[46:12 - 46:14] I'm sorry about that.
[46:14 - 46:17] And I wish I could do something to help you guys.
[46:17 - 46:19] I really do.
[46:19 - 46:22] But unfortunately I can't.
[46:22 - 46:25] I can only help so many people.
[46:25 - 46:43] I try to help everyone that I can, you know?
[46:43 - 46:49] I try to help everyone that I fucking can.
[46:49 - 46:51] In any way that I can.
[46:52 - 46:55] Whether it be giving them advice.
[46:55 - 46:58] Whether it be just sitting down and being in the ear for them
[46:58 - 47:01] and listening to their problems and helping them with their problems.
[47:01 - 47:04] I try to be there for everyone.
[47:04 - 47:06] I really do.
[47:06 - 47:09] I do try to be there for everyone that I can.
[47:09 - 47:14] But like you guys, I'm only human.
[47:14 - 47:17] I can only do so much.
[47:17 - 47:21] And I can only take so much.
[47:22 - 47:32] Which is why I hope that this video sinks in.
[47:32 - 47:39] I hope that this video sinks in and it makes you guys understand where the hell I'm coming from.
[47:39 - 47:56] I just wish just once I could put you guys in my position.
[47:56 - 47:59] And make you feel what I feel.
[47:59 - 48:04] And make you see what I go through every day because of you people.
[48:05 - 48:12] I wish to God I can make you guys feel everything that I feel and go through everything that I go through on a daily basis because of you.
[48:12 - 48:19] All the emotions, all the suicidal thoughts, all the bullying thoughts, all the wishing it would stop.
[48:19 - 48:26] I wish to God I can make you guys feel that just for a day.
[48:26 - 48:33] Just for a day I wish I could put you guys in my position and show you what I deal with.
[48:33 - 48:39] Because maybe then you might fucking learn.
[48:39 - 48:50] Maybe then you might stop. Maybe then you might realize that I'm not a bad person.
[48:50 - 48:59] But until that day comes, I don't know what I'm going to do.
[49:01 - 49:04] I really don't know.
[49:04 - 49:22] I just wish that you guys would stop and leave me alone.
[49:23 - 49:31] That's all I want, is to be left alone without the bullying.
[49:31 - 49:44] All I want is to be able to make a community of people that enjoy what I do and enjoy each other's company.
[49:45 - 49:59] That's all I've ever wanted for this community and myself, is to make a community of people that actually support my music and my artwork and want to see me succeed.
[49:59 - 50:04] As well as pushing each other to succeed and be the best they can be.
[50:04 - 50:11] That's all I've ever wanted for this channel.
[50:11 - 50:19] That is all I've ever wanted for this channel.
[50:19 - 50:28] Like I said, I don't want to fight anybody. I don't want to pick fights with anyone.
[50:29 - 50:42] I don't want any negativity or fighting on this channel.
[50:42 - 50:50] I want to build a community of life-minded, positive people that actually enjoy and can appreciate what I do.
[50:51 - 51:01] That's the kind of community I want to build, not this shameful, bullying, attacking crap. I don't want that.
[51:01 - 51:10] I want a community of people coming together and having a good time and not bullying me or anyone.
[51:10 - 51:14] That's all I want.
[51:19 - 51:23] The only question is, when is it going to fucking happen?
[51:23 - 51:27] When is that shit going to fucking happen?
[51:48 - 51:52] When is that shit going to fucking happen, huh?
[51:52 - 52:11] Thank you, boys. I appreciate that, man.
[52:11 - 52:34] No, if you'll excuse me, I have some stuff that I need to attend to.
[52:35 - 52:45] To all my supporters, I say thank you. I really and truly do thank all my real supporters, man, everybody that does support me.
[52:45 - 52:52] And I do mean everybody that supports me. I just want to say thank you so much from the bottom of my heart.
[52:52 - 53:01] Whenever I tell you guys that I need you to be okay, it's because that you guys being okay helps me to be okay.
[53:02 - 53:05] Knowing that you guys are okay helps me to be okay.
[53:05 - 53:08] Every day we help each other.
[53:08 - 53:15] You guys might not realize this, but you guys, the fans, you guys help me just as much as I help you.
[53:15 - 53:21] And I mean that. You guys truly help me just as much as I help you.
[53:21 - 53:24] And I can't thank you guys enough for that.
[53:25 - 53:32] I really can't. I can never repay you guys for all the love and support that you guys are showing me.
[53:32 - 53:37] I can never repay you guys or thank you guys enough for that.
[53:37 - 53:45] You honestly have no idea how much your love and support means to me. You honestly have no idea.
[53:45 - 54:06] Well, like I said, with that being said, you guys, I'm about to bounce off here because I do have stuff that I have to take care of.
[54:07 - 54:17] And I will catch you guys on here probably either tomorrow or Monday.
[54:17 - 54:27] And as for those that know what's going on, you guys know where to find me, and I'll see you guys later.
[54:27 - 54:52] I love you guys. Peace.
[54:53 - 54:54] Thanks.
[54:55 - 54:56] Thank you.