2022-6-28 Im sorry (Twitch)

[0:00 - 0:11] What's up guys, it's Chance. First off, to my people and to my whole community and to
[0:11 - 0:21] everybody that witnessed what went down last night, I would like to say that I am without
[0:21 - 0:36] a doubt 110% sorry that things went down the way they did. The way I acted was not okay.
[0:36 - 0:52] I was clearly and understandably upset. I was hurt by the fact that one of my closest
[0:52 - 1:02] friends just up and threw our friendship away after 10 years. Do I understand the reasons
[1:02 - 1:15] as to why? Yes, I truly do understand. Was it fair or right? Did it still make it right?
[1:15 - 1:25] No. But with that being said, tonight I do say this, that I do still wish the best for
[1:25 - 1:39] you in your endeavors. Regardless of whether we are friends or not, I still want as I have
[1:39 - 1:45] always wanted for you which is nothing but to see you succeed with what you love to
[1:45 - 1:54] do. Do I agree with you not being my friend because of these trolls? No, I don't agree
[1:54 - 2:07] with it. But it's your decision. But as for the artwork that I did destroy, I did that
[2:07 - 2:20] because one, I was clearly upset. But two, I can easily draw more artwork just as good.
[2:20 - 2:28] I really could. I could do just as good of artwork as any. Like you guys have seen me
[2:28 - 2:45] do some really good artwork. So I can easily do 10 times better by far. But I just want
[2:45 - 2:54] to say and come on here and tell you guys to everybody that I'm sorry. And I do want
[2:54 - 3:02] to see this community grow. I really do. I want to see this community grow so big and
[3:02 - 3:17] to be able to do so much for you guys. I don't want any drama. I never did. I don't want
[3:17 - 3:26] the drama. I don't need the bull crap. I want to be able to make it on this platform
[3:26 - 3:34] as an artist, as a musician, and as a gamer. I want to be able to give you guys the best
[3:34 - 3:46] quality content that I can possibly pump out. And I can't do that if I'm always worried
[3:46 - 3:57] about the drama. But when glory holding them over on YouTube, all those people on YouTube,
[3:57 - 4:03] they're going to get what's going to them with karma. Karma is going to bite them in
[4:03 - 4:25] the ass. And honestly, I don't want to be another nylon. I don't want to let the fame
[4:25 - 4:32] or the knowing that I'm in the presence of one of my favorite streamers get to me. I
[4:32 - 4:43] want you guys to be able to watch my content for me. I want you guys to see the fun-loving
[4:43 - 4:52] side of me that I was before all this crap started happening. I enjoy creating artwork
[4:52 - 4:59] with you guys. I enjoy hanging out and gaming with you guys. I enjoy doing the coffee and
[4:59 - 5:09] chill streams. And that's what I want to get back to doing. And I know a lot of people
[5:09 - 5:18] are very upset about the art pieces that I ripped up. But for me, coming from an artist,
[5:18 - 5:28] I know I can do better. I know it doesn't make right what I did, but it's just paper.
[5:28 - 5:40] And it's just a drawing. I can do 10 times better than that on any given day. So starting
[5:40 - 6:01] tomorrow, well, later today, depending on when you see this, I will be getting back
[6:01 - 6:07] to the way things used to be because I want to be able to build a community of fun-loving
[6:07 - 6:15] people. I don't want a community of negativity like Glory Hole wants. So starting tomorrow,
[6:15 - 6:27] I will be implementing certain things in place so that we can continue to get back on the
[6:27 - 6:43] right track where we were. I mean, you know, I just want to be real with you guys. I don't
[6:43 - 6:49] want to sit there and act like, you know, everything's good all the time. No. I want
[6:49 - 6:56] to be able to be around you guys during my good days, during my bad days. I want you
[6:56 - 7:02] guys to see the real me in my everyday life, whether I'm having a good day, an off day,
[7:02 - 7:10] a completely bad day. Like, I want you guys to be able to see my real life and to be able
[7:10 - 7:22] to, you know, see that I'm just a genuine person that makes mistakes. You know, I mess
[7:22 - 7:30] up. I make mistakes just like any other person. I'm not perfect. And I want people to be
[7:30 - 7:38] able to see that I am just a normal person who just happens to do artwork, who just
[7:38 - 7:47] happens to be a musician. And quite frankly, somebody that is just a straight up gamer
[7:47 - 7:57] nerd. Like, I want to give you guys the best content that I can, you know. I want to give
[7:57 - 8:04] you guys the best content that you deserve that isn't negative, that isn't bull crap,
[8:04 - 8:10] so that we can build a community of people that are strong. I want to be able to build
[8:10 - 8:17] a community of positive people that can have the courage to speak out against bullying,
[8:17 - 8:24] that could speak out against being harassed, that could speak out against what people
[8:24 - 8:29] like these people that have bullied me have done. I want to be able to look back and one
[8:29 - 8:35] day say, you know, whenever I retire at the ripe old age of 80, you know, I want to be
[8:35 - 8:42] able to look back and be like, hey, I did something worthwhile. I built a community
[8:42 - 8:53] of people that enjoy my streams, that enjoyed my content, that were able to seek refuge
[8:53 - 9:01] in my community, were able to finally speak up against bullying. And I want to be able
[9:01 - 9:08] to speak on mental health because you guys know my story, you guys know what I've been
[9:08 - 9:16] through. And I want to be able to help people like myself that, you know, have gone through
[9:16 - 9:22] being bullied, that have gone through, you know, thoughts of suicide, that have gone
[9:22 - 9:29] through depression. And I want to meet this community where everybody is welcome, where
[9:29 - 9:40] no one is above anyone. Because I myself, I don't see myself as being above anyone in
[9:40 - 9:49] my community. All of you guys, the people watching this are just as important to this
[9:49 - 9:59] channel and to my Twitch as I am. Because without you guys, this wouldn't be possible.
[9:59 - 10:07] You know, I'm not above you guys, and you guys aren't above me. We are all on the same
[10:07 - 10:19] playing field. We are all equal. In my eyes, you guys are just as an integral part of this
[10:19 - 10:30] channel as I am. And I don't want to do anything to jeopardize that. So again, to everybody
[10:30 - 10:44] that saw me acting the way I did, I am sorry that you guys had to see me at one of my lowest
[10:44 - 10:51] points that I've ever been in a very long time. And just know that I do want to create
[10:51 - 11:00] better content for you guys, and I'm going to do that starting tomorrow/today, depending
[11:00 - 11:08] on when you see it. But with that being said, I love you guys. You guys are awesome. You
[11:08 - 11:17] guys are wonderful. You guys are amazing. And you know, like I say on my shirt that
[11:17 - 11:26] I have in my shop, don't change who you are for anybody. Continue to be you. Be true to
[11:26 - 11:33] yourself. Screw what anybody thinks about you, because you guys are awesome. I love
[11:33 - 11:35] you guys. Peace.