2022-6-26 im not giving up !!!! (Twitch)

[0:00 - 0:17] If you're wanting to go on Twitch, I know it's early, but I'm not being able to sleep.
[0:17 - 0:22] I've been literally out of all night worried sick.
[0:22 - 0:40] And I'm sure by now many of you guys know my story about how I've been bullied over the
[0:40 - 0:55] last four years.
[0:55 - 1:17] And before I really get into anything, first off, to the people that were in voice chat
[1:17 - 1:26] with me last night helping me to stand up against my bully, William Gorehole, first
[1:26 - 1:35] off, I want to say thank y'all for having my back.
[1:35 - 1:42] It really does mean a lot to me that you guys have my back, it really does.
[1:42 - 1:50] And second off, to all y'all that I went off on, not realizing that it was you guys talking
[1:50 - 1:56] and not that William Gorehole guy, I want to say that I'm sorry.
[1:56 - 2:04] Fuck it, I want to say I'm sorry to every single person that was in that chat that had
[2:04 - 2:13] to hear me go off like I did.
[2:13 - 2:23] You know, I'm sorry that you guys had to see that side of me, like, and for those
[2:23 - 2:32] that I am close to, I want to say that you guys know that that's not me.
[2:32 - 2:39] That's not how I am normally.
[2:39 - 2:53] And to all my followers, to all my followers, man, that do follow me and do want good content,
[2:53 - 2:58] I want to say that I'm sorry to you guys and I want to be able to give you guys the
[2:58 - 3:01] content that you guys deserve.
[3:01 - 3:10] Not me lashing out, just me having a good time.
[3:10 - 3:18] You know, I want to be able to do that and have fun with you guys.
[3:18 - 3:21] I really do.
[3:21 - 3:39] Like, you know, it's ridiculous.
[3:39 - 3:51] I left Twitch, or no, I left YouTube to come over to Twitch.
[3:51 - 4:13] I left YouTube in hopes that I could escape the bullying.
[4:13 - 4:30] You know, I left YouTube in hopes that I could find a place to fit in here.
[4:30 - 4:44] When I did, I found a community of people that truly enjoy what I do.
[4:44 - 5:14] You know, I found a community of people that love what I do.
[5:14 - 5:24] Found a community of people that enjoy what I do.
[5:24 - 5:27] I'm sorry to you guys.
[5:27 - 5:34] And for those of you that wanted me to put out music, I'm sorry that I haven't been
[5:34 - 5:38] able to do that.
[5:38 - 5:47] You know, I came over to Twitch to escape what I was running from, which was the bullying.
[5:47 - 6:01] I came over here in hopes that I could escape, but I found out very quickly that there's
[6:01 - 6:20] no running from it anymore, and there is no running.
[6:20 - 6:24] Here's the thing, Yoda.
[6:24 - 6:34] This man has been bullying me and bullying me for over four years and spreading lies
[6:34 - 6:38] about me, spreading rumors about me that are not true.
[6:38 - 6:57] This man had last night severely attacked some people in my community.
[6:57 - 7:06] This man attacked two or three people in my community last night, and I'm not okay
[7:06 - 7:09] with that.
[7:09 - 7:16] My community of people are friends of mine.
[7:16 - 7:23] My community of people like Tommy, who got banned, which I am going to figure out a
[7:23 - 7:27] way to unban you, Tommy Gun, I promise you that, bro.
[7:27 - 7:40] I am going to figure out a way to unban you, bro, I promise you that, bud.
[7:40 - 7:47] But this man attacked people in my community, and I'm not okay with that.
[7:47 - 7:58] Some of these people are my friends, some of them I see as family, because some of
[7:58 - 8:09] them I know on that personal level and I haven't known them for a long time.
[8:09 - 8:21] I don't know what else to say other than I'm sorry that you guys had to see that side of me.
[8:21 - 8:31] As a lot of you know, that's not how I normally am, but when you get bullied and harassed
[8:31 - 8:48] to the point to where you lose friends and family members lose jobs and friends lose
[8:48 - 8:55] jobs, it becomes a problem.
[8:55 - 9:03] So Glory Hall, my answer to you, about you telling me to go into therapy or you will
[9:03 - 9:16] continue to bully me, I say this, you can take your offer and shove it.
[9:16 - 9:21] Because I am not going to sit here and let you bully me anymore, dude.
[9:21 - 9:26] I'm not going to sit here and let you bully me into going into therapy, just so you can
[9:26 - 9:31] call my therapist and try to have me arrested.
[9:31 - 9:34] That's not going to happen, dude.
[9:34 - 9:38] I am not going to bow down to you.
[9:38 - 9:48] I am not going to give in to what you want me to do.
[9:48 - 9:53] But what you are going to do is you are going to leave me alone.
[9:53 - 9:59] You are going to leave the wonderful people in my community alone.
[9:59 - 10:08] You are going to leave their families alone.
[10:08 - 10:15] Because like I told you in voice chat earlier, Glory Hall, you're too old for this crap.
[10:15 - 10:26] It's time you grew up and actually did something with your life instead of just sitting here
[10:26 - 10:30] attacking people all day long.
[10:30 - 10:35] It's not right.
[10:35 - 10:43] And as for my mods, and I'm saying this to all of my mods, and I'm not saying this
[10:43 - 10:49] to be an asshole, I'm saying this because I genuinely care about every single one of
[10:49 - 10:55] you guys, and I want us all to be on the same page.
[10:55 - 11:06] You guys, all my mods, you need to stop fighting with each other and stay on the same page.
[11:06 - 11:15] Because I'll be honest, the only ones that have really been doing their jobs are people
[11:15 - 11:24] like my good friend Eli, who is a personal friend of mine in real life.
[11:24 - 11:29] People like my good friend Gunnerpunk.
[11:29 - 11:37] People like Ohegan, Tommy Gun.
[11:37 - 11:41] They've all been doing their jobs.
[11:41 - 11:44] But Ohegan, I'm going to tell you this right now, dude.
[11:44 - 11:51] I mean no disrespect to you and I'm not calling you out in any way.
[11:51 - 11:56] Yes, I understand your history.
[11:56 - 12:00] But trust me when I say this, Ohegan, these people that are bullying me and that are
[12:00 - 12:07] doing this crap are a different breed of people than what you're used to.
[12:07 - 12:11] These aren't the same old school internet trolls.
[12:11 - 12:17] These are a whole different breed.
[12:17 - 12:24] And people like Gunnerpunk, she knows how to handle people like this.
[12:24 - 12:31] Tommy knows how to handle people like this.
[12:31 - 12:40] And like I said, I'm not calling you out, I'm simply saying that maybe you should sit
[12:40 - 12:46] back and watch how these people work.
[12:46 - 12:55] You know, sit back and watch how the people that deal with these trolls deal with them.
[12:55 - 13:02] Like just really sit back and take a look at what these people do.
[13:02 - 13:05] I said, since you came in, you've been a great mod.
[13:05 - 13:10] You've been a great mod, bro, and I'm very appreciative of that.
[13:10 - 13:21] You've been nothing but kind to me and your son, Tommy, is one of my closest friends.
[13:21 - 13:24] You guys are awesome.
[13:24 - 13:33] And I can't thank you guys enough for everything that you guys have done for me and how you
[13:33 - 13:34] guys kick it with me.
[13:34 - 13:57] But when it comes to this troll crap, you guys need to stop.
[13:57 - 14:04] Every one of you that comes up in here talking smack from now on.
[14:04 - 14:13] You are going to get banned.
[14:13 - 14:25] Like you are going to get banned.
[14:25 - 14:26] What about all those death threats?
[14:26 - 14:32] Well, let me tell you this, Yoda.
[14:32 - 14:40] Let me tell you this, Yoda, how would you feel if you got bullied so bad that your family's
[14:40 - 14:43] lives have been put at stake?
[14:43 - 14:49] This man has put my life and my family's lives in danger.
[14:49 - 14:55] Oh, I know you don't, Icy, Icy.
[14:55 - 15:08] You're fine, bro.
[15:08 - 15:09] You're fine, Icy.
[15:09 - 15:15] I have no quarrels with you, man, you're fine, bud.
[15:15 - 15:19] But let me ask you this, Yoda.
[15:19 - 15:31] How would you feel if somebody that bullied you came in and almost got you and your family
[15:31 - 15:39] killed multiple times in real life?
[15:39 - 15:41] How would you feel?
[15:41 - 15:45] Like, put yourself in my position, okay?
[15:45 - 15:54] 'Cause, Yoda, I don't think you really understand the depth of what's going on here.
[15:54 - 16:07] I truly don't think you understand how much William Gloria Hall has affected my life.
[16:07 - 16:16] I really don't think you understand the full extent.
[16:16 - 16:24] This man had bullied me for over four years.
[16:24 - 16:40] And in that four years, because of me being bullied so badly and so blatantly, I had attempted
[16:40 - 16:45] suicide twice.
[16:45 - 16:57] I was so depressed that I could not hardly eat anything.
[16:57 - 17:01] And when I did, I would throw up.
[17:01 - 17:08] I had lost between five and ten pounds of weight.
[17:08 - 17:26] I was so depressed that when I lost all that weight I looked like a skeleton.
[17:26 - 17:38] You could literally see my rib cage, my eyes and my cheeks were so sunken in.
[17:38 - 17:45] Because of me not eating that, I almost became anorexic.
[17:45 - 17:50] Give it about another month and a half during that time period and I probably would have
[17:50 - 18:01] been anorexic and I probably would have died due to lack of food, due to depression.
[18:01 - 18:08] I almost ended up in the hospital twice for being so sick and throwing up so much because
[18:08 - 18:14] of the stress.
[18:14 - 18:21] I don't think you really realize how impactful that is.
[18:21 - 18:30] Not only on the person that's getting bullied, but how impactful it is on the people around
[18:30 - 18:36] them, on their mental health.
[18:36 - 18:45] And then when you try to escape whatever it is that's bullying you, whenever you try to
[18:45 - 18:54] escape that, and that person then decides to call your biological father's work and
[18:54 - 19:05] get them fired, and then turn around and get one of your friends fired from their job,
[19:05 - 19:19] and then threaten CPS on another friend who is a very hard worker, like you can't just
[19:19 - 19:23] run away and ignore shit like that.
[19:23 - 19:31] That's not an ignorable thing, somebody coming up here and talking crap, that's ignorable.
[19:31 - 19:41] But when you come in here and you start attacking somebody for no reason, when you don't even
[19:41 - 19:56] know them, or when that person that you've been bullying for four years is finally being
[19:56 - 20:07] successful and you're mad about that, it's time for it to stop.
[20:07 - 20:12] The bullying needs to stop, the trolling needs to stop.
[20:12 - 20:42] Yo Jinx, what up dude?
[20:42 - 21:00] How you doing Jinx, what's up buddy?
[21:00 - 21:07] Like Yoda let me tell you something man, if you go back and watch my streams from when
[21:07 - 21:16] I first started here on Twitch, yeah me and you were good man, me and you were totally
[21:16 - 21:37] good bro.
[21:37 - 21:59] Like, oh I got you Jinx, I got you bro, matter of fact Jinx let me mod you up bud, that way
[21:59 - 22:17] you don't get banned on accident, let me mod you up bud, that way you don't get banned.
[22:17 - 22:27] But Yoda if you go back and watch my livestreams from when I first started on Twitch man, I
[22:27 - 22:36] was having a good time, I was doing very well for myself.
[22:36 - 23:01] Hey folk punk what up, hey fixo welcome to the stream, welcome welcome welcome, hey folk
[23:01 - 23:21] punk, I just modded you up, yo dude Icy that's cool man, I didn't know you were living out
[23:21 - 23:37] here in Arizona, dude what up, yo fixo what's up man, let me mod you up fix, that way you
[23:37 - 23:50] don't get banned on accident by another troll, because I know how some of these trolls are,
[23:50 - 24:03] they will come in and start doing shit, so you know I gotta hook you up, but Yoda listen,
[24:03 - 24:16] let me show you guys something, I got you Icy don't worry bud, Yoda let me show you
[24:16 - 24:26] something, this is something I've been working on for the past couple days, yo melon I'll
[24:26 - 24:52] mod you up bro, hang on let me mod you up melon, cause you are good peoples, let me
[24:52 - 24:58] mod you up melon, but this is something I've been working on for the past couple days,
[24:58 - 25:10] and this is a piece that I'm actually very proud of, and keep in mind I'm not even close
[25:10 - 25:18] to being done with this just yet, but this piece is probably going to be a piece that
[25:18 - 25:34] I am going to sell scans of, but I want you guys to take a look at the progress on this.
[25:34 - 25:38] It's not done yet, it's still very much a work in progress, but this is what I have
[25:38 - 25:48] done so far with this, stuff like this is what I've been working on since I started
[25:48 - 25:57] doing stuff like this piece right here, and I'm not even done with this yet, by the time
[25:57 - 26:09] I'm done this is going to be a whole ass freaking Japanese mural piece, this is all I've done
[26:09 - 26:17] since I've gone on here Yoda, is work on my artwork, work on my music, and hang out
[26:17 - 26:34] with these wonderful people that you see in the chat right now, hey Don the snowman what's
[26:34 - 26:56] up buddy? Naviros welcome man, and thank you man I appreciate that bud, like you know,
[26:56 - 27:13] I take what I do very very seriously, I take my job as a content creator very seriously,
[27:13 - 27:21] you know I enjoy what I do, and something else I don't think that you trolls really
[27:21 - 27:32] realize, and this is something that I spoke on yesterday in fact, is that after next
[27:32 - 27:46] month, after next month my stepdad is not going to be able to work for about six months,
[27:46 - 27:53] because he's got so much water buildup in his knee, that he's going to have to have
[27:53 - 28:01] a total knee replacement just to get rid of the water on his knee, and he's going
[28:01 - 28:29] to be out of work for about six months, and it's not easy, like, and then not to mention
[28:29 - 28:36] just the other day, I just found out that my uncle got diagnosed as being terminally
[28:36 - 28:48] ill with cancer, and he's only got about seven years left on his life, and the guy
[28:48 - 29:02] is only 60 some odd years old, and he's only got seven years left, maybe a little less,
[29:02 - 29:11] so me doing this is my way of income, doing these twitch streams like I do is the only
[29:11 - 29:20] income I have thanks to you trolls, you guys done screwed up me being able to get a regular
[29:20 - 29:30] job, the record label that I was on, the major record label that I was on that I am
[29:30 - 29:41] on still to this day very honored to say that I was on, I got fired from, you guys
[29:41 - 29:46] have left me no choice, but to do this.
[29:46 - 29:52] And I'm glad that I'm doing this because I get to hang out with so many cool people
[29:52 - 30:01] and hang out with so many awesome people that are the coolest people ever.
[30:01 - 30:06] I get to meet new people, I get to make new friends, and I get to hang out and do what
[30:06 - 30:13] I love for a living with my music, my artwork, sitting here gaming out on the weekends having
[30:13 - 30:39] fun, like I enjoy what I do, and yo Icy, that's fucking dope dude, it's nice to meet
[30:39 - 31:05] a fellow artist like myself man, that's awesome Icy, yeah I actually did do HVAC through
[31:05 - 31:13] high school for like a year and a half and it just wasn't worth it dude, I did HVAC
[31:13 - 31:39] for like a year and a half my sophomore year of high school and it wasn't worth it, it
[31:39 - 31:54] just wasn't worth it, it just wasn't worth it, it just wasn't worth it, it just wasn't
[31:54 - 31:55] worth it.
[31:55 - 32:03] That's why I acted the way I did, it was because I was being bullied, not because
[32:03 - 32:11] I wanted to be like haha look at me I'm a badass motherfucker no, like I was being
[32:11 - 32:18] bullied and those videos of me raging out and doing all that shit was a result of me
[32:18 - 32:31] being bullied and am I proud of it, no, but what I'm even less proud of and the one thing
[32:31 - 32:40] that I am very disgusted with is how these people can go around and attack people like
[32:40 - 32:59] myself who have normal lives and just completely ruin them and for what reason, you know and
[32:59 - 33:07] that's why I came over to Twitch, that's why I came over to here to handle it over
[33:07 - 33:13] here better where, and honestly I'm glad that I came over to Twitch, I truly am because
[33:13 - 33:23] over here I'm safe from the trolling to an extent, like if a troll shows up here they
[33:23 - 33:30] get banned, if they try to make another account I get a notification that says hey, possible
[33:30 - 33:47] ban evasion alert, and they get banned, hey Bremble what's up?
[33:47 - 34:15] What's up Bremble, how you doing buddy?
[34:15 - 34:43] But you know, I want to be able to, maybe you should sober up there dude.
[34:43 - 35:11] Like let me show y'all something, the position that this man is in is basically the position
[35:11 - 35:16] that I'm in right now, okay?
[35:16 - 35:27] This artist is in a very similar position to what I'm in and I want to know do you guys
[35:27 - 35:46] agree with this or not that this man and me are in very similar situations.
[35:46 - 35:56] Don't you guys, in the chat, see just how similar my situation and this dude's situation
[35:56 - 35:57] is.
[35:57 - 36:07] Oh my god another video, yeah another motherfucking video, deal with it.
[36:07 - 36:10] I'm over here at work trying to get work done but you know I gotta fucking defend
[36:10 - 36:14] myself in real time to keep up with everybody's bullshit but you know what I'd rather just
[36:14 - 36:17] fucking point everything out there doing that I said they would do in real time.
[36:17 - 36:22] So as soon as I just got off that live minute ago, what do you know?
[36:22 - 36:24] Another motherfucking bullshit crazy looking article.
[36:24 - 36:33] The headline is why do we let female celebs be stalked by exes?
[36:33 - 36:46] And then a picture of her beside Kim Kardashian?
[36:46 - 36:52] You're not on Kim Kardashian's level dude, do you see what the, you can't put, it had
[36:52 - 36:55] to be designed by her, these are being made by her.
[36:55 - 37:01] Who else is dumb enough to incriminate their self with a fucking article that says shit
[37:01 - 37:12] like this?
[37:12 - 37:17] A video of me waving a gun and laughing scary in the camera to her?
[37:17 - 37:21] Where is that?
[37:21 - 37:25] The restraining order did get thrown out, the documents on my community page from the
[37:25 - 37:33] goddamn courthouse, it says the court documents prove that Ryan Upchurch is lying.
[37:33 - 37:39] The court documents say the judge said you were non-credible.
[37:39 - 37:42] Is it opposite day in your fucking brain?
[37:42 - 37:55] You can read it, it's on the fucking document from the government on my community page.
[37:55 - 38:04] For everyone saying counter sue, there is no point in counter suing, she has nothing.
[38:04 - 38:10] This is why she's trying to get whatever money she can any way she can.
[38:10 - 38:13] I just want her to leave me the fuck alone dude.
[38:13 - 38:19] I know, look, it has only been how long stuff with that video out where I said hey all
[38:19 - 38:22] these tabloids are going to start coming out because she's going to do this, that
[38:22 - 38:23] and the other.
[38:23 - 38:24] They're already out.
[38:24 - 38:30] I have three screenshotted news outlets that all have lied about something very serious
[38:30 - 38:35] and I'm going after them in a lawsuit already but you know what the fuck the thing is?
[38:35 - 38:39] When we investigate it and I get people to investigate it and they find out where the
[38:39 - 38:42] information came from, it's going to come back from her.
[38:42 - 38:47] So she's going to have an account for every single fucking news outlet that has false
[38:47 - 38:48] information on it.
[38:48 - 38:52] It's going to be a charge on her.
[38:52 - 38:56] Now, what is up skins?
[38:56 - 39:01] I got some news that I want to tell y'all because I don't want to just leave you in
[39:01 - 39:02] the dark.
[39:02 - 39:06] I fucking don't care about what y'all think so I don't want to do that.
[39:06 - 39:10] Unfortunately, some shit that I don't even want to fucking talk about shouldn't be having
[39:10 - 39:19] to talk about me nor any of you guys should even have to be related with this other person.
[39:19 - 39:21] That makes no sense.
[39:21 - 39:27] Everything me and you guys have built together over the past 10 years has become something
[39:27 - 39:29] that is going to be super iconic in the future.
[39:29 - 39:37] It's going to be very historical in the future and everyone wants to be attached to it and
[39:37 - 39:40] the only people who deserve to be attached to it is me and you guys.
[39:40 - 39:43] No one else deserves to be attached to this.
[39:43 - 39:48] It's something that's fucking great and bottom line is the people that drag me to court
[39:48 - 39:49] for publicity.
[39:49 - 39:55] They're all aspiring artists, you know, I mean, and they're either envious or jealous
[39:55 - 40:01] of what we've built together because, dude, everybody who becomes a musician dreams of
[40:01 - 40:07] having a connection with their fan base like I have with my people.
[40:07 - 40:11] It's very hard to create because it just naturally happens.
[40:11 - 40:17] You can't create this, it just has to naturally happen and my career to me is like a baby
[40:17 - 40:18] baby.
[40:18 - 40:25] So if I'm holding this baby career and some crazy person comes at me swiping a knife,
[40:25 - 40:30] I'm going to turn the other way so they can't damage the baby.
[40:30 - 40:35] So the last time this Nicole Arbor lady took me to court for faulty reasons and lost and
[40:35 - 40:41] took up a bunch of time was during the time of my release of people's champ.
[40:41 - 40:49] One that I spent so much time on and was so proud of and then release time come and she
[40:49 - 40:54] made it to where I was in and out of court with her and taking up all this time while
[40:54 - 40:57] the album just came out.
[40:57 - 41:00] I'm not letting that happen again.
[41:00 - 41:05] People ask me, well, how come there wasn't that many videos to people's champ album?
[41:05 - 41:06] Because Nicole Arbor.
[41:06 - 41:09] Well, how come I didn't hear about people's champ Nicole Arbor?
[41:09 - 41:12] How come you had to cancel this show last year?
[41:12 - 41:13] Nicole Arbor.
[41:13 - 41:15] How come you haven't been doing shows?
[41:15 - 41:16] Nicole Arbor.
[41:16 - 41:18] Who lives in Nicole Arbor, you ask?
[41:18 - 41:26] Well, she's notorious for trying to ruin people's life and then she gets exposed.
[41:26 - 41:27] That's it.
[41:27 - 41:30] That's who she is.
[41:30 - 41:31] Don't believe me?
[41:31 - 41:33] Go to YouTube and type in Nicole Arbor Exposed.
[41:33 - 41:37] There's going to be fucking videos for years, like a long time.
[41:37 - 41:40] She's been doing this for a long time.
[41:40 - 41:46] She's done it to men, women, all entertainers, whether they're a political spokesperson or
[41:46 - 41:49] a lead singer of a rock band or a rapper.
[41:49 - 41:54] It's always somebody who has good credibility and is liked by hundreds of thousands of
[41:54 - 41:56] people if that tells you anything.
[41:56 - 41:58] Now look, here we are again.
[41:58 - 42:05] I was just about to release a bunch of new music, new music videos, new album.
[42:05 - 42:13] I was about to start booking tour dates and unfortunately it sucks for me and all y'all,
[42:13 - 42:18] but I have to put all this on hold now.
[42:18 - 42:24] I have to put a pause on all of it because I don't, this is some of the best stuff that
[42:24 - 42:30] me and B-Loose and Stoner have created.
[42:30 - 42:33] This is going to be some of the best music I've ever released.
[42:33 - 42:39] If you notice my YouTube videos, my walls have exploded with fucking art during the
[42:39 - 42:44] time I've been making this stuff.
[42:44 - 42:47] For her to always be like, "Oh, well, he's using me.
[42:47 - 42:51] There's nothing to use her for to promote my music."
[42:51 - 42:52] I've never needed anyone.
[42:52 - 42:56] I'm never going to need anyone to do this.
[42:56 - 42:58] I need me and you guys.
[42:58 - 42:59] That's it.
[42:59 - 43:06] This stuff that I was going to release is so important and it's going to be such an
[43:06 - 43:10] important part of my career as an individual.
[43:10 - 43:12] I cannot release it.
[43:12 - 43:19] I'm not going to release it until all this is over with because dude, this stuff is going
[43:19 - 43:20] to be so important to me.
[43:20 - 43:27] I don't want anyone's name attached to it except for mine and y'all's.
[43:27 - 43:29] That's it.
[43:29 - 43:38] I'm having to put a hold on the new album, the new music videos, and show dates because
[43:38 - 43:41] of her, Nicole Arbor.
[43:41 - 43:49] This is probably going to last anywhere from seven months to a year.
[43:49 - 43:50] Do I want to put this stuff out?
[43:50 - 43:51] Hell to the yeah.
[43:51 - 43:56] Do I want some random person that's mad at what we've created being attached to it?
[43:56 - 43:57] No.
[43:57 - 43:58] They're not going to be.
[43:58 - 44:04] It ain't coming out until this is over with.
[44:04 - 44:08] I know I shouldn't say sorry, but I'm sorry.
[44:08 - 44:10] There's nothing I can do.
[44:10 - 44:13] She's going to have to leave me alone, bro.
[44:13 - 44:16] Before I can put this stuff out, this stuff is way too important.
[44:16 - 44:21] It's way too good.
[44:21 - 44:25] I already released people's champ because I didn't know she was like this at the time,
[44:25 - 44:28] but she ruined the people's champ release.
[44:28 - 44:31] She ain't ruined in the pioneer release, fam.
[44:31 - 44:33] Not happening.
[44:33 - 44:37] I just want to tell y'all what was going on.
[44:37 - 44:41] I didn't want to leave y'all in the dark, but I just had to tell y'all what was going
[44:41 - 44:47] on and tell y'all that me and my team are going to have to put a halt to everything
[44:47 - 44:51] coming out until she leaves me alone.
[44:51 - 44:53] I'm not letting her be attached to this.
[44:53 - 44:55] She wants to be attached to it.
[44:55 - 44:56] I'm not letting her.
[44:56 - 44:59] It's too important to me.
[44:59 - 45:02] Love you guys.
[45:02 - 45:15] All right, well today, just worry about the cars, comma, get them taken to the warehouse
[45:15 - 45:21] and bring me back the keys and then just worry about the grass tomorrow.
[45:21 - 45:24] And also we need to get some bug stuff to spray around the house.
[45:24 - 45:29] Hey tomorrow, I'm going to come by and look at that crown mold and baseboard and stuff
[45:29 - 45:32] and see about the stain samples for the floor.
[45:32 - 45:40] I bet I'm going to have the security pick you up from the airport, hit up my lawyer
[45:40 - 45:41] and see if I'm on the schedule for anything.
[45:41 - 45:43] And if not, let's do it.
[45:43 - 45:44] Hell yeah.
[45:44 - 45:45] What up, fam?
[45:45 - 45:46] All right.
[45:46 - 45:57] Listen, before you say, Oh no, another one of these, Oh, please stop, please stop.
[45:57 - 46:02] Just do yourself a favor and just shut up.
[46:02 - 46:03] Shut up.
[46:03 - 46:04] This is my life.
[46:04 - 46:05] I put my life on here.
[46:05 - 46:07] This is what's going on.
[46:07 - 46:16] I'm just going to drink my YouTube for a minute.
[46:16 - 46:18] As you can tell, I've tried to not talk about this.
[46:18 - 46:24] I'm trying to ignore it, but me as the YouTuber of this channel, I have a responsibility to
[46:24 - 46:26] let the fans know what's going on.
[46:26 - 46:33] And I have a lot of people that have no idea what the fuck's going on because of this unnecessary
[46:33 - 46:34] pointless clusterfuck.
[46:34 - 46:41] And if you've been following me for awhile, you know, I have been through a slew of batshit
[46:41 - 46:44] crazy events in the past five years.
[46:44 - 46:47] And honestly, a lot of these events sound fake.
[46:47 - 46:52] Sorry that everybody had to step out for a moment.
[46:52 - 47:14] I know that I'm going to have to use the restroom right quick, but do you guys still
[47:14 - 47:18] see my point now?
[47:18 - 47:25] Like, do you guys see the point that I'm making here?
[47:25 - 47:32] Like, just like of church, who's one of my favorite artists of all time.
[47:32 - 47:38] You know, I want to be able to release music.
[47:38 - 47:48] The last album I got to truly release were two of my albums, Blackout and Evolution,
[47:48 - 47:54] back in 2018.
[47:54 - 48:01] And because of all this crazy shit that's going on, I've not been able to release the
[48:01 - 48:06] music that I wanted to release or have been wanting to release.
[48:06 - 48:15] I haven't been able to set up a proper art shop for my artwork for you guys.
[48:15 - 48:20] I've not been able to do any of the things that I want to do because I have to deal
[48:20 - 48:29] with dumbass William Gloryhole attacking my friends and family and going after me
[48:29 - 48:38] for no reason, except for the fact that he's jealous of what I am able to do.
[48:38 - 48:40] And I'm tired of it.
[48:40 - 48:48] I shouldn't have to put my career on hold because some idiot over here wants a piece
[48:48 - 48:51] of what he can't have.
[48:51 - 48:56] Like, it doesn't make any sense.
[48:56 - 49:00] Like, it's honestly stupid.
[49:00 - 49:03] I should be allowed to release my music when I want.
[49:03 - 49:09] I should be allowed to open up an art shop so people can buy my artwork like them didn't
[49:09 - 49:11] want them to do.
[49:11 - 49:19] Hell, if I want to fucking sit down and work on music on a live stream and drop that shit
[49:19 - 49:24] while on a live stream, I should be allowed to do that.
[49:24 - 49:27] I have a right to make a living.
[49:27 - 49:34] I have a right to make money and doing what I love to do is my way of making my money.
[49:34 - 49:38] It always has been and always will be that way.
[49:38 - 49:43] Like, the shit is stupid.
[49:43 - 50:05] I shouldn't have to deal with the crap.
[50:05 - 50:14] And unfortunately, folk, I'm not able to, due to the fact that I know what people like
[50:14 - 50:18] William Gloryhole will do.
[50:18 - 50:21] And I'm not going to risk that again.
[50:21 - 50:27] If I didn't have to worry about Gloryhole, yo, I would be showing you guys everything,
[50:27 - 50:28] bro.
[50:28 - 50:33] Like, if I didn't have to worry about freaking William Gloryhole, dude, I'd be showing you
[50:33 - 50:41] guys my fucking cat, my dog, like, I'd be showing y'all all kinds of shit.
[50:41 - 50:44] I really would.
[50:44 - 50:51] But due to how William Gloryhole is, I unfortunately am not able to do that as much as I would
[50:51 - 50:52] love to.
[50:52 - 50:56] So anyway, I would love for you guys to see my puppy Rugrat, man.
[50:56 - 51:02] I would love for you guys to meet Rugrat and maybe one of these days, maybe, maybe one
[51:02 - 51:09] of these days when this is all done and over with and things are back to normal.
[51:09 - 51:13] You know, maybe I'll be able to do that.
[51:13 - 51:16] You know, maybe I'll be able to do that because that is something I would really love to
[51:16 - 51:24] do is to be able to introduce my dog and my cat to you guys.
[51:24 - 51:30] Like I would love to be able to do that.
[51:30 - 51:42] You know, the way on all the way, I think a lot of you guys kind of see the problem
[51:42 - 51:43] now.
[51:43 - 51:49] And like I said, Miss Kitty, I understand your point of view and I respect it.
[51:49 - 51:50] I do.
[51:50 - 51:55] I understand your point of view wholeheartedly, but also you need to understand that those
[51:55 - 52:06] things that I did were a result of me being bullied and pushed too far.
[52:06 - 52:15] When I lashed out and did that shit that I did with like the death threats and me threatening
[52:15 - 52:21] to beat their ass, they didn't stop and blah, blah, blah, that was all a result of them
[52:21 - 52:30] bullying me, attacking my family, sending very screwed up shit to my house like a dead
[52:30 - 52:34] baby pig still in the mother's fetal sack.
[52:34 - 52:41] I had one dude send a literal dog crap mixed with hay to my house.
[52:41 - 52:54] I've had people put bananas with very vulgar messages in my yard, like I've had all kinds
[52:54 - 53:03] of fucked up shit happen.
[53:03 - 53:11] I've had all kinds of fucked up shit happen, dude.
[53:11 - 53:18] So it's not that I'm a bad person, it's just that I have been bullied by these people
[53:18 - 53:28] like William Gloryhole, Music Biz Marty and Masshole Reports for over four fucking years.
[53:28 - 53:33] For over four years, I've not been able to release the music.
[53:33 - 53:39] I've not been able to release any of the music that I've had on standby for the last
[53:39 - 53:44] four fucking years because of all of this.
[53:44 - 53:53] I haven't been able to sit down and work on any music, any artwork, none of the stuff
[53:53 - 53:57] that I want to do, I've not been able to do.
[53:57 - 54:03] Anything that I want to do had to be put on hold for the last four years and I'm honestly
[54:03 - 54:05] tired of it.
[54:05 - 54:12] I want to be able to give these people that do enjoy my music, that do enjoy my artwork.
[54:12 - 54:19] I want to be able to give these people what they want.
[54:19 - 54:26] These guys pay good money to be subscribed to me and I am forever grateful to that,
[54:26 - 54:27] for real, I am.
[54:27 - 54:32] I am forever grateful to every single one of you guys that gave me a paid sub.
[54:32 - 54:40] I am so grateful to you guys and I want to be able to give back to you guys in every
[54:40 - 54:53] single way possible, whether that be releasing album art as a purchasable thing, whether
[54:53 - 55:02] that be releasing an album, whether that be doing commissions for you guys, whether that
[55:02 - 55:08] be doing different stuff for you guys, or help sometimes having some of y'all up on
[55:08 - 55:14] panel to hang out.
[55:14 - 55:22] I want to be able to give back to you guys just as much as you guys gave to me, but
[55:22 - 55:29] because of this William Glory Cole crap and what he's doing, I can't see that happening
[55:29 - 55:41] any time soon, unfortunately, as much as I would love that, because I want to be able
[55:41 - 55:47] to give you guys what you truly deserve.
[55:47 - 55:56] You guys gave me your time, and some of you guys gave me your money, and I want to give
[55:56 - 56:00] you guys your money's worth and more.
[56:00 - 56:08] I want to give you guys what you all deserve.
[56:08 - 56:16] I want to give you guys what you guys want to see, which is me doing my music, hanging
[56:16 - 56:24] out with you guys, doing the coffee and chill streams, fucking sitting down and joking
[56:24 - 56:32] around with you guys, having fun with y'all, freaking working on my music and my artwork,
[56:32 - 56:33] and y'all talking about shit.
[56:33 - 56:36] I want to be able to do that for you guys.
[56:36 - 56:42] But how am I supposed to do that when my friends and my family are constantly being
[56:42 - 56:46] doxxed by William Glory Hole?
[56:46 - 56:54] How am I supposed to do anything when my friends are being fired from their jobs, they're
[56:54 - 57:03] being threatened with children's services, I've had family lose their jobs.
[57:03 - 57:19] How am I supposed to do anything with all of that going on?
[57:19 - 57:33] Like, it's fucking dumb, dude.
[57:33 - 58:00] matter of fact, I'm getting rid of this pedophile, dude, this guy's got to go.
[58:00 - 58:10] And trust me, I'm not, I'm trying not to, but it's pretty sad when you have somebody
[58:10 - 58:17] like me who is obviously very good with doing music and very good with doing artwork and
[58:17 - 58:22] is actually real.
[58:22 - 58:31] And I say that because there are streamers on here that are fake as fuck towards people.
[58:31 - 58:36] There are major streamers on here that are fake as fuck towards people who don't truly
[58:36 - 58:46] appreciate their followers the way that I appreciate y'all.
[58:46 - 58:52] It's pretty hard to do your job when you're constantly being attacked and you're constantly
[58:52 - 58:56] having to worry.
[58:56 - 59:03] For the last four years, I had been bullied and I have been living in fear.
[59:03 - 59:07] And I'm honestly tired of it.
[59:07 - 59:11] I am truly tired of living in fear.
[59:11 - 59:17] I'm tired of watching my friends lose their jobs.
[59:17 - 59:23] I'm tired of watching my friends be driven away because of this guy.
[59:23 - 59:31] I'm tired of not being able to do things that I love, that I enjoy, that you guys enjoy
[59:31 - 59:43] seeing me do, but let me show y'all something.
[59:43 - 59:53] This is something that a fan of mine made for me last year to commemorate the sale of
[59:53 - 60:14] my first physical album.
[60:14 - 60:19] This is how cool of a fan base I fucking have, bro.
[60:19 - 60:27] A fan of mine last year made this for me and this was probably the coolest thing I've
[60:27 - 60:30] ever had made for me honestly.
[60:30 - 60:42] But a fan of mine that had heard my album, which one is this?
[60:42 - 60:49] Like a fan of mine that had heard my album Shadowborn did something really cool.
[60:49 - 60:54] When he received the album after paying for it, you know what this man did?
[60:54 - 60:59] He turned around and did this.
[60:59 - 61:07] This is how tight of a fan base I have, bro.
[61:07 - 61:12] Like the dude kind of kept the CD and the album on and jammed out to it, but instead,
[61:12 - 61:24] he did this.
[61:24 - 61:30] Like tell me that that's not fucking badass, bro.
[61:30 - 61:36] You cannot tell me that that's not fucking awesome.
[61:36 - 61:50] Like this is how tight knit of a fan base I have, bro.
[61:50 - 61:56] This is how tight knit my fan base is.
[61:56 - 62:12] And if this doesn't show proof of my hard work, then what does?
[62:12 - 62:29] And I have always said this and I still say this to this very day.
[62:29 - 62:55] Everybody always ask me when you make it big and stuff, like, are you gonna have like
[62:55 - 63:00] gold records up on your wall and whatnot, dude?
[63:00 - 63:04] I'm not gonna have the gold records or anything up on my wall.
[63:04 - 63:08] You want to know what I'm gonna have up there?
[63:08 - 63:15] All the letters, all the fan art, all the shit that people have sent me, like the stuff
[63:15 - 63:19] that all the fans have sent me, that's what's going up on my wall.
[63:19 - 63:23] All the notes, all the cool shit that y'all have sent me, that's what's going up on
[63:23 - 63:27] the wall.
[63:27 - 63:38] Like, I've got so freaking many notes and letters from people that, you know, were fans
[63:38 - 63:43] of mine over on YouTube and just different little notes and stuff, man.
[63:43 - 63:49] Like, that's the stuff that's going up on my wall once I get this shit all set up.
[63:49 - 63:51] That's the shit that's going out there.
[63:51 - 63:57] There ain't gonna be no, you know, you know, gold records or platinum, double platinum
[63:57 - 64:25] records now, man, the fucking fan art and the artwork is going up on the walls.
[64:25 - 64:34] I'm weird and proud, yes you are weird.
[64:34 - 64:46] Like, you know, you know, I love my fan base, dude.
[64:46 - 64:53] Whether you're old school and are from the YouTube era or whether you're a new fan just
[64:53 - 64:58] coming in, man, I love all my fans to death, man.
[64:58 - 65:05] Like everybody that watches me, everybody that hangs out and has a good time, I love
[65:05 - 65:09] this shit out of every single one of you guys and I respect this shit out of every
[65:09 - 65:13] single one of you guys.
[65:13 - 65:22] Like, I'm that dude, that same dude that you see right now that does all that music
[65:22 - 65:29] and all that artwork, I'm that same dude, and I shit you not, I have done this, so
[65:29 - 65:32] I can say I would do this.
[65:32 - 65:38] I ain't that same dude that y'all see doing this music and this artwork, I'm that same
[65:38 - 65:46] dude that will literally show up to the fucking corner store or fucking Walmart at 3am with
[65:46 - 65:53] a t-shirt and fucking PJs and swippers going to the store to buy fucking milk or whatever.
[65:53 - 65:57] That same dude you see doing this is the same dude that you're going to see in Walmart,
[65:57 - 66:02] the same dude that you see on the street that's going to walk up to you and be like, hey,
[66:02 - 66:03] what's up?
[66:03 - 66:16] Yeah, I know, I know, I need to, I actually was supposed to do an apprenticeship.
[66:16 - 66:25] I had Arkham Tattoos down here right before COVID hit because a friend of mine, Harry,
[66:25 - 66:31] he actually works at Arkham Tattoos, but due to COVID, they wound up shutting down and
[66:31 - 66:36] actually wound up moving cities and now I think they're in like somewhere in like Springfield
[66:36 - 66:38] or some shit.
[66:38 - 66:45] So I was actually supposed to do an apprenticeship at a tattoo shop, but due to COVID last year,
[66:45 - 66:48] I unfortunately wasn't able to.
[66:48 - 66:52] And then all year when I started calling at the beginning of the year to see if there's
[66:52 - 67:02] any openings, unfortunately, they are so backed up with artists right now that there's literally
[67:02 - 67:08] no room for me to do anything because they're so backed up with artists that are doing
[67:08 - 67:13] apprenticeships and stuff that there's literally no room.
[67:13 - 67:20] So I kind of have to wait probably, I might try next year or I might try, I don't know,
[67:20 - 67:24] like, I'll probably end up trying to do that next year and see what happens if they're
[67:24 - 67:28] not too busy, but I don't know.
[67:28 - 67:33] But I have actually was supposed to do an apprenticeship, but like I said, due to this
[67:33 - 67:40] fucking bitch ass virus, I wasn't able to do nothing, which kind of sucks because tattooing
[67:40 - 67:46] is literally in my blood, my cousin Jason owns his own tattoo shop and art is in my
[67:46 - 67:48] blood.
[67:48 - 67:55] My great grandmother wrote and self published a book and did all the artwork for it.
[67:55 - 67:59] And she had published it for just, you know, friends and family and stuff.
[67:59 - 68:09] So you know, art is literally ingrained into my blood.
[68:09 - 68:11] Like literally, like art is in my fucking blood.
[68:11 - 68:19] I've been drawing since I can hold a crayon, literally like the first thing I drew on
[68:19 - 68:25] when I was a kid was my freaking bedroom wall and I got, I got in trouble for it,
[68:25 - 68:30] but that's where my, that's where my journey as an artist began was drawing on that wall
[68:30 - 68:37] at four years old in my bedroom, drawing little fucking stick figures and shit or
[68:37 - 68:45] doing like little doodle circles and, you know, going for like an hour now.
[68:45 - 68:47] Did I get in trouble?
[68:47 - 68:48] Yeah.
[68:48 - 69:00] But that's where it began.
[69:00 - 69:11] Yeah, I know and dude, trust me, I thought about doing it out of my house, but unfortunately
[69:11 - 69:21] around here there are so many precautions and stuff that you have to do that it's actually
[69:21 - 69:22] insane.
[69:22 - 69:28] Like it's, it's literally insane for the amount of stuff that you have to have to
[69:28 - 69:31] run a tattoo shop out of your house.
[69:31 - 69:37] Like you literally have to have a fucking business license and shit.
[69:37 - 69:45] And plus you have to be doing it for so many years before you can even like Ohio is fucking
[69:45 - 69:49] backwards, but shit, like they are so backwards.
[69:49 - 69:56] Like they want you to be tattooing for like two or three years before you even try to
[69:56 - 69:59] get a tattoo in your business license.
[69:59 - 70:03] And then once you get your license, then you can talk to out of your house.
[70:03 - 70:24] Like it's insane, but like, you know, like I was saying though, man, you know, I enjoy
[70:24 - 70:27] what I get to do for you guys.
[70:27 - 70:28] I really do.
[70:28 - 70:32] Like I enjoy sitting down, doing the coffee and chill streams and just kicking it with
[70:32 - 70:39] you guys or doing the music streams like I do, or, you know, whether that be creating
[70:39 - 70:47] the music or doing covers, you know, whether that be me working on my artwork and rocking
[70:47 - 70:52] out some crazy dope ass lo-fi music or whatever.
[70:52 - 71:05] Like I enjoy it, dude, like, you know, I don't hide anything, you know, like I don't hide
[71:05 - 71:11] who I am and like, and I know that's why a lot of people enjoy me.
[71:11 - 71:15] And that's why a lot of you guys enjoy me, which I'm grateful for.
[71:15 - 71:23] I am very grateful for that because, you know, like you guys have seen, I'm a genuine person.
[71:23 - 71:26] I don't sit there and hide nothing from you guys.
[71:26 - 71:36] And if anything, I want you guys involved in what I do because you guys are that fucking
[71:36 - 71:45] awesome and your guys is, you know, being here and hanging out means that fucking much
[71:45 - 71:46] to me, dude.
[71:46 - 71:55] Like I want you guys to be able to have as much creative freedom on here as I do.
[71:55 - 72:00] Like I want you guys to be able to be like, yo, like if I'm working on a track, I want
[72:00 - 72:05] you guys to be able to be like, yo, like I like that sound.
[72:05 - 72:12] How about throwing this in or if I'm doing a cover, like a guitar cover or whatever,
[72:12 - 72:16] I want you all to be able to like, yo, can you knock this one out?
[72:16 - 72:29] Or if I'm doing an art stream, yo, do you think that you can knock this out as a commission?
[72:29 - 72:36] Like I love that shit.
[72:36 - 72:40] I love seeing you guys be involved because to me, you guys aren't just a fan base.
[72:40 - 72:55] You guys are my community of peoples.
[72:55 - 72:58] Like I want us to be able to grow together.
[72:58 - 73:04] I want us to be able to thrive as a community.
[73:04 - 73:10] You know, like to me, you guys aren't fans and you guys are my community.
[73:10 - 73:11] You guys are my people.
[73:11 - 73:19] You guys are a lot of you guys are my friends and some of you guys are a legitimately family
[73:19 - 73:26] to me because some of y'all I do know in real life and have gone to school with not
[73:26 - 73:31] you guys, but speaking on those that aren't in chat right now, just saying, like there
[73:31 - 73:38] are a few people that I actually am, you know, good friends with to the point of being family
[73:38 - 73:42] that I do see as family.
[73:42 - 73:51] So you know, like you guys are my community and I fucking love the shit out of you guys.
[73:51 - 74:03] And you know, I want us to be able to be successful together because when I succeed, we all succeed.
[74:03 - 74:31] When I win, we all win.
[74:31 - 75:00] And that's why this song right here, I feel like it represents us all as a community because
[75:00 - 75:17] you know, when I'm gone, like when I'm dead and gone and I'm no longer living, I want
[75:17 - 75:23] my music to be able to spend through you guys and through generations and you know, I want
[75:23 - 75:29] people to be able to look back on my music a hundred years from now and be like, damn,
[75:29 - 75:31] this dude really was legendary.
[75:31 - 75:41] This dude actually did go through some shit like this dude really did have some relatable
[75:41 - 75:50] music that I can connect with.
[75:50 - 76:02] And that's why this song right here is my anthem for you guys, because you guys are
[76:02 - 76:31] really, really good at it.
[76:31 - 76:59] And that's why this song right here is my anthem for you guys.
[76:59 - 77:18] Now, this next part, I want you guys to see.
[77:18 - 77:36] This is my anthem for you guys, this is my anthem for you guys, this is my anthem for
[77:36 - 77:37] you guys.
[77:37 - 80:23] This is my anthem for you guys.
[80:24 - 80:30] This right here is where I see myself in 10 years doing this shit.
[80:31 - 91:55] This is my anthem for you guys.
[91:56 - 91:58] No offense bro but you are pretty goofy.
[91:58 - 91:59] Just saying.
[91:59 - 92:09] Yes I do actually.
[92:09 - 92:10] I do do both.
[92:10 - 92:12] I do freestyle work and I do write lyrics.
[92:12 - 92:14] It just depends on what I'm feeling.
[92:14 - 92:21] Like I can freestyle and I can write so I can literally go between both.
[92:23 - 92:26] Like I'm literally able to go between both.
[92:26 - 92:37] You are not wrong Barney.
[92:38 - 102:11] This is my anthem for you guys.
[102:12 - 102:13] No, no.
[102:13 - 102:15] No, it is probably song along with a bear right now.
[102:16 - 102:17] No.
[102:18 - 106:06] This is my anthem for you guys.