2022-5-31 taking a break

[0:00 - 0:05] What is up YouTube family? And what is up Cyrex Nation?
[0:05 - 0:20] Now as you guys know, over the last four years I have been harassed, I have been bullied, I have had my life put in danger many times.
[0:23 - 0:38] But over the course of the last few days things have gotten beyond dangerous and I do mean beyond dangerous in a very serious manner.
[0:40 - 1:02] Now don't get it wrong, I'm not deleting my channel, that's not it at all. But due to all the hostility and the way that people like Marty have tried to take my life and done attempted murder on my life and my family's lives,
[1:06 - 1:12] I'm blessed dealing with all that and all that over the last couple of days.
[1:12 - 1:25] I don't know how long but I will be taking a break for a while until all the hostility calms down and until Marty gets put behind bars where he belongs.
[1:25 - 1:30] I'm not going to be doing any shrimps for a while.
[1:33 - 1:38] Because I want to get myself back to where I used to be.
[1:38 - 1:44] I want to get myself back to where I wasn't disrespecting my family.
[1:44 - 1:50] I want to get myself back to the right place mentally.
[1:51 - 2:06] And I want to venture into some other things that I can do to make money like writing, doing my artwork, opening up my own custom clothing shop, stuff like that.
[2:06 - 2:14] I'm not going to risk putting my family in danger like that anymore.
[2:14 - 2:20] Not that I was the one that put them in danger, if anything I tried to keep them out of it.
[2:20 - 2:26] But Marty and his little goon squad keeps on dragging them in for no reason.
[2:26 - 2:30] And it's not fair to my family.
[2:30 - 2:40] My stepdad's almost left twice.
[2:40 - 2:48] And because of my blatant disrespect, he's been thinking about doing it again and I don't want that.
[2:49 - 2:51] I want him to stick around.
[2:51 - 2:59] So I don't know how long I'm going to be gone.
[2:59 - 3:06] Could be a couple days, could be a week, maybe even a month or two, I don't know.
[3:06 - 3:12] But there are other things that I would like to venture into and make real money off of.
[3:13 - 3:23] Whether that be getting hired to do artwork, hired to do music, hired to make intros or whatever.
[3:23 - 3:31] I need to venture into other things and take a break and get myself back to where I was.
[3:31 - 3:37] Because I love my family and I don't want them going anywhere.
[3:39 - 3:46] And I don't want to have to leave my family just to protect them from people like Marty who deserve to be locked up in prison.
[3:46 - 3:53] Who deserve to be behind bars for everything that he's done to my family.
[3:53 - 4:03] When I first started YouTube, I never expected this kind of stuff to happen.
[4:04 - 4:11] I never expected to be harassed or bullied on this level.
[4:11 - 4:17] Sure, maybe a few haters and a few trolls here and there, okay.
[4:17 - 4:25] But people like Marty, I did not expect that nor did I see it coming and nor did I ask for it.
[4:25 - 4:31] I'm tired of watching my family suffer.
[4:32 - 4:35] I'm tired of seeing them suffer in pain.
[4:35 - 4:39] Because of what people like Marty do every fucking day to me.
[4:39 - 4:42] I'm tired of it.
[4:42 - 4:49] Now don't get it twisted, this is by no means a goodbye for good.
[4:49 - 4:54] This is by no means me saying that I'm going to delete my channel.
[4:55 - 5:05] But if I want to succeed at what I love to do and be successful at music and be successful as a YouTuber,
[5:05 - 5:09] I have to face this problem with Marty head on.
[5:09 - 5:12] I have to take care of it.
[5:12 - 5:16] And until Marty is behind bars, I am not going to be on.
[5:16 - 5:20] And if I am, it'll be like once a week.
[5:24 - 5:32] But from here on out, my main goal is going to be to get my family right, to get my shit right,
[5:32 - 5:36] to get my music up and going, to start playing shows,
[5:36 - 5:43] to start venturing into other things that I enjoy doing.
[5:44 - 5:55] Like taking back up artwork, taking back up writing. Hell, who knows, I may even write a book about all this shit that's been going on.
[5:55 - 6:05] But what I do know is that I can't keep doing this anymore.
[6:05 - 6:09] I cannot sit here and pretend everything's okay when it's not.
[6:12 - 6:15] This has been going on for far too long and it needs to stop.
[6:15 - 6:24] Do I love the fans? Without a doubt.
[6:24 - 6:36] Without a doubt, the Cyrax Nation has given me so much.
[6:39 - 6:45] And I will always and forever be grateful for that. I really will.
[6:45 - 6:49] But right now, I need to look after my family.
[6:49 - 6:54] I need to look after my mental health. And most importantly,
[6:54 - 7:02] I need to take care of this issue with Marty so that I can move forward
[7:02 - 7:07] and be the successful person that I know I can be.
[7:07 - 7:16] And like I said, this is by no means or in any way a goodbye for good.
[7:16 - 7:22] And this is by no means me saying that I'm going to delete my channel because I'm not.
[7:27 - 7:38] But to protect my family and myself, I am stepping away and working on other things until this situation gets dealt with.
[7:38 - 7:47] Because what Marty's doing is beyond illegal and it's not fair to my family or me.
[7:47 - 8:12] And plus, still trying to wrap my head around, you know, the loss of Heather yesterday, that's still playing in my mind as well.
[8:12 - 8:30] But to the Cyrax Nation, just know that I love you guys. You guys are awesome.
[8:30 - 8:36] I love the Cyrax Nation. You guys are giving me more than I can ever ask for.
[8:39 - 8:49] But as I said, until this thing with Marty gets handled, I need to venture into other things such as writing my artwork.
[8:49 - 8:55] You know, getting paid here and there to do stuff that I'm actually good at doing.
[9:03 - 9:16] So to the Cyrax Nation, I love you guys. And like I always say, man, stay humble, stay positive, keep being you.
[9:16 - 9:29] I love you, Cyrax Nation. You guys are fucking awesome. And I'll catch you guys later. I love you all, guys.
[9:30 - 9:39] Like always, stay humble, stay positive, keep your head up, keep moving forward, and keep being you.
[9:39 - 9:42] I love you, guys. Peace.