2022-5-2 idk how much more i can take (Facebook)

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[0:29 - 0:43] God, this video is fucking off with a bit.
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[0:57 - 0:59] If you guys don't know me,
[0:59 - 1:02] and you guys are watching this on YouTube,
[1:02 - 1:05] and you're watching this on Facebook,
[1:05 - 1:09] my name is Chance, and I'm a victim
[1:09 - 1:13] of cyberbullying of the worst kind.
[1:13 - 1:23] My cyberbullying incident started four years ago
[1:23 - 1:27] with a guy named Nicholas Beagler, AKA Music Biz Marty.
[1:27 - 1:42] I don't even know where your fucking meeting at.
[1:42 - 1:49] Back in 2018,
[1:49 - 1:52] I got blamed for a girl's death
[1:52 - 1:54] by the name of Kendall Smith,
[1:54 - 1:56] who faked her death.
[1:56 - 2:00] This girl, Kendall Smith,
[2:00 - 2:04] told me that she was a werewolf,
[2:04 - 2:07] or part werewolf, I should say.
[2:07 - 2:11] And seeing as she was crazy
[2:11 - 2:13] and mentally ill,
[2:13 - 2:15] I left her.
[2:15 - 2:19] What did I know?
[2:20 - 2:22] That she was going to make a video on me
[2:22 - 2:24] after blocking me.
[2:24 - 2:29] She made a video and spread it around YouTube,
[2:29 - 2:32] saying that I raped her and all kinds of stuff.
[2:32 - 2:38] So, naturally,
[2:38 - 2:41] I responded in defense of myself.
[2:41 - 2:47] Because I wanted people to know the truth.
[2:49 - 2:51] Soon after, my friend Paul,
[2:51 - 2:55] who also goes by the name Boogie Man the Clown on YouTube,
[2:55 - 3:06] told me that she had killed herself
[3:06 - 3:08] and that I was at fault.
[3:08 - 3:11] What did I know?
[3:11 - 3:13] She threatened his life
[3:13 - 3:16] and his family's lives.
[3:18 - 3:21] She threatened to do harm to his kids
[3:21 - 3:27] if he didn't tell me that she had killed herself,
[3:27 - 3:32] and she threatened his kids one other time.
[3:32 - 3:37] It said that if he didn't come here to kill me,
[3:37 - 3:42] that she was going to go to his family's house
[3:42 - 3:44] and kill his children.
[3:45 - 3:49] And Paul showed up.
[3:49 - 3:58] Paul showed up, but he didn't kill me.
[3:58 - 4:01] We sat down and talked for about two or three hours.
[4:01 - 4:04] Shout out to my motherfucking boy, Paul,
[4:04 - 4:07] who now is actually one of my closest friends.
[4:07 - 4:12] Ever since that day, I was called.
[4:13 - 4:15] I was called a murderer.
[4:15 - 4:17] I was called.
[4:17 - 4:22] I was told that she was still pregnant with her child
[4:22 - 4:24] when she supposedly killed herself.
[4:24 - 4:30] That's for a couple years later.
[4:30 - 4:38] And a lot of people get this mixed up.
[4:39 - 4:42] And I mean, a lot of people get this mixed up.
[4:42 - 4:52] During that time period, I had lost a mentor to me.
[4:52 - 4:55] I'd lost one of my good friends.
[4:55 - 4:57] I was like a mentor to me in music.
[4:57 - 5:01] His name was Koda, but we all knew him by Koda.
[5:01 - 5:03] He was a very good friend to me.
[5:03 - 5:08] I lost him to a heroin overdose.
[5:08 - 5:12] And then fast forward to that next year,
[5:12 - 5:17] and I lost my girlfriend at the time due to health issues.
[5:17 - 5:21] Somebody who I had known since high school.
[5:29 - 5:34] (sighs)
[5:34 - 5:44] And during that time period, I never got to grieve.
[5:44 - 5:46] I never got to fucking grieve
[5:46 - 5:49] over the loss of those two people.
[5:57 - 6:03] Fast forward about a year and a half after their deaths,
[6:03 - 6:07] I met this girl named Kate.
[6:07 - 6:14] And she claimed to be 18 years of age.
[6:14 - 6:17] She claimed to be a full grown adult.
[6:17 - 6:24] And she told me that she was into my music
[6:24 - 6:26] and that she liked what I was doing.
[6:26 - 6:29] So we started talking.
[6:29 - 6:34] And keep in mind, we were talking on the phone.
[6:34 - 6:36] This wasn't my text message at the time.
[6:36 - 6:38] This was my phone call.
[6:38 - 6:41] She called me and told me that she was a fan of my work
[6:41 - 6:44] and that she was getting ready to go into college soon.
[6:44 - 6:49] Little did I know that that was a setup
[6:49 - 6:52] and a trap from what would come next.
[6:54 - 6:57] She told me that she had to go.
[6:57 - 6:59] So she hung up.
[6:59 - 7:06] Later that day, she texted me saying,
[7:06 - 7:08] "Hey, can we talk?
[7:08 - 7:12] Because I really want to get to know you."
[7:12 - 7:15] And we talked for about three and a half hours.
[7:15 - 7:21] And things started heating up, not in a bad way,
[7:21 - 7:26] but like she got me to send her a picture of myself.
[7:26 - 7:33] Little did I know that that was the trap setup
[7:33 - 7:38] after she got me to send her a picture of myself.
[7:38 - 7:43] She then turned around and sent a picture of an underage girl
[7:43 - 7:47] and then claimed to be 14 years of age.
[7:49 - 7:52] Little did I know that that would lead to me being harassed
[7:52 - 7:55] for up to this point.
[7:55 - 8:02] The police showed up here
[8:02 - 8:05] and told me that I was not a pedophile.
[8:05 - 8:15] Ever since then, I have been called pedophile.
[8:15 - 8:19] I have been called a piece of shit.
[8:19 - 8:23] Just the other day, music biz Marty,
[8:23 - 8:28] aka Nicholas Beagler, called the police on me
[8:28 - 8:32] and almost got me killed.
[8:32 - 8:39] I was trying to be the nice guy
[8:39 - 8:42] and give Marty a fair real warning
[8:42 - 8:49] that if he did not stop this now,
[8:49 - 8:53] that eventually he was going to do this to the wrong person
[8:53 - 8:57] and they would not think twice about beating his ass.
[8:57 - 9:03] Truly, after giving him that warning,
[9:03 - 9:07] I gave everybody that was a troll a very fair warning,
[9:07 - 9:10] just as any normal human being would do,
[9:10 - 9:13] a very fair warning that if they showed up here
[9:13 - 9:16] with the intent to do harm,
[9:16 - 9:19] that I would not hesitate to do what I have to do
[9:19 - 9:23] to protect my family, even if it meant shooting someone.
[9:23 - 9:28] And like I told everyone, I don't want to shoot anybody,
[9:28 - 9:30] but when it comes to protecting my family,
[9:30 - 9:33] I will do what I have to do.
[9:33 - 9:37] The cops showed up here in force.
[9:39 - 9:43] They told me to come out with my hands up, and I did.
[9:43 - 9:46] Little did I know there will be 10 of them,
[9:46 - 9:49] 29 millimeter pistols at my head.
[9:49 - 9:56] And in that moment,
[9:56 - 9:59] you know how they say that your life flashes before your eyes
[9:59 - 10:03] when you don't know if you're going to live or die?
[10:03 - 10:06] Well, mine did.
[10:06 - 10:10] I tried everything from the day I was born
[10:10 - 10:13] up till that very moment in a split second.
[10:13 - 10:20] I tried everything
[10:20 - 10:27] from staying off the Internet.
[10:27 - 10:31] I stayed off the Internet for about three and a half months,
[10:31 - 10:34] because my girlfriend at the time, Tricia,
[10:34 - 10:36] whom I was dating a few years ago,
[10:36 - 10:38] got me to stay off the Internet
[10:38 - 10:41] for about three and a half months
[10:41 - 10:45] before me and her split due to a lot of other crap.
[10:45 - 10:49] Well, that didn't stop them.
[10:49 - 10:54] These people proceeded to send a dead pig
[10:54 - 10:59] still in the mother's fetal sac to my house.
[11:00 - 11:02] [sighs]
[11:02 - 11:13] Nicholas Beegler had threatened to rape me and my family.
[11:13 - 11:17] Matter of fact, I will play that clip for you guys now
[11:17 - 11:20] so you can hear it for yourselves.
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[11:24 - 11:26] [crying]
[11:26 - 11:28] [silence]
[11:54 - 11:58] But first, here's one of Marty's little friends, named Yoko.
[11:58 - 12:17] Let me play the clip from Marty's friend Yoko first
[12:17 - 12:22] so you guys can hear just how disgusting and vile this man really is.
[12:23 - 12:25] [sighs]
[12:25 - 12:33] What in the-- Repeat that again? Say what you just said?
[12:33 - 12:42] You are going to get raped.
[12:42 - 12:45] No matter what you do, it is going to happen.
[12:45 - 12:48] The police are paid off, everyone's paid off.
[12:48 - 12:50] We are going to come and rape you,
[12:50 - 12:53] and there is nothing you can do about it.
[12:53 - 12:59] Would you care to repeat what you just said?
[12:59 - 13:07] After I, uh, rape you, it's probably going to go into a big police shootout,
[13:07 - 13:09] and I'm going to die is what I love.
[13:09 - 13:12] Yeah, here's the thing, bro.
[13:12 - 13:14] Done!
[13:15 - 13:17] [silence]
[13:17 - 13:25] Really, what makes you think that you're going to get away with raping me and my family?
[13:25 - 13:27] Because I'm going to kill you all afterwards.
[13:27 - 13:30] Oh, so you're raping death threats now, are you?
[13:30 - 13:32] Yes, that's what--
[13:32 - 13:38] Alright, so explain exactly how this is supposed to play out.
[13:38 - 13:40] What's your answer?
[13:40 - 13:41] Me.
[13:41 - 13:43] No, we're not. Oh, by the way--
[13:44 - 13:46] [silence]
[13:46 - 14:11] That is how sick and twisted this man really is.
[14:12 - 14:14] [silence]
[14:14 - 14:20] And I can honestly say that me and my family have tried to go to the police.
[14:20 - 14:23] They refuse to do anything.
[14:23 - 14:25] We have gone to the FBI.
[14:25 - 14:27] They refuse to do anything.
[14:27 - 14:32] We've tried getting a lawyer, but because we can't afford one,
[14:32 - 14:35] we have to go through legal aid.
[14:35 - 14:38] And getting ahold of legal aid is damn near impossible.
[14:38 - 14:40] [silence]
[14:41 - 14:46] My biological father has lost his job because of this man.
[14:46 - 14:53] I got kicked off the record label that I was part of for a while.
[14:53 - 15:01] I lost my job with a good friend, as well as many friendships.
[15:05 - 15:10] If you type in C-Y-R-A-X-X on YouTube,
[15:10 - 15:15] there are literally hundreds and thousands of videos
[15:15 - 15:22] of people blatantly attacking me, harassing my family, attacking my family.
[15:22 - 15:29] And I've tried walking away.
[15:31 - 15:35] And, I'm proud to say that I survived this,
[15:35 - 15:39] but I'm not proud to say what I almost ended up doing.
[15:39 - 15:44] Because of Masterful Reports and Music Biz Marty,
[15:44 - 15:49] I had attempted to end my life on their live streams twice in a row.
[15:49 - 15:54] Because I felt like I had no fucking options left,
[15:54 - 15:58] but to end my life at that moment.
[15:58 - 16:01] [silence]
[16:01 - 16:06] And thankfully my family stopped it before I could.
[16:06 - 16:15] Every day I wake up depressed, barely able to sleep,
[16:15 - 16:21] forcing myself to eat, I have to literally force myself to eat.
[16:22 - 16:29] Because I have been so sick with stress, because of these people.
[16:29 - 16:42] I started YouTube in 2009 with the hopes of being able to make it in music one day.
[16:42 - 16:49] But little did I know that any of this would happen.
[16:50 - 16:52] [silence]
[16:52 - 17:02] These people are, if you guys are familiar with the Chris Chan incident,
[17:02 - 17:07] which I don't know if any of you are, some of you might be,
[17:07 - 17:12] if any of you guys are familiar with the Chris Chan incident,
[17:12 - 17:16] and if you're not, you guys can look it up on YouTube.
[17:17 - 17:21] They are literally trying to have me locked away or put in jail,
[17:21 - 17:28] because the police here labeled me as a 43, which is mentally disturbed,
[17:28 - 17:31] which they had no right doing at all.
[17:31 - 17:40] The police, there's video footage of this guy named William Gloryhole,
[17:41 - 17:47] who has also been involved in this, where you can go to his channel
[17:47 - 17:51] where the police have walked away from my house,
[17:51 - 17:58] making fun of me, laughing at me at my expense, and poking fun at me,
[17:58 - 18:06] saying that what I was going through was funny.
[18:07 - 18:09] [silence]
[18:09 - 18:22] And just tonight, Marty did the worst thing imaginable.
[18:22 - 18:31] He attacked my birth mom, who sadly lost her life in a house fire many years ago.
[18:31 - 18:36] [silence]
[18:36 - 18:43] And just yesterday, he attacked my good friend Jasmine Monique,
[18:43 - 18:48] who lives over in Australia, well, not Australia, but over by Australia,
[18:48 - 18:56] attacked Jasmine to the fullest, and Jasmine did the right thing.
[18:56 - 18:59] She spoke up, and I am proud of her for that.
[19:02 - 19:05] This is the kind of stuff that I have been dealing with.
[19:05 - 19:09] People think that it's easy for me to ignore it, and I'll try.
[19:09 - 19:13] But I can't ignore it anymore.
[19:13 - 19:19] These people are going way too far with attacking my family,
[19:19 - 19:22] attacking me, trying to make me look crazy.
[19:22 - 19:26] When everything I have done that has been negative
[19:26 - 19:29] has been a result of how they treat me.
[19:31 - 19:35] All my reactions to them has been a result of what they have done
[19:35 - 19:38] and put me through for the last five years.
[19:38 - 19:46] I can't even walk outside my own home anymore without being alert and fear.
[19:46 - 19:51] I can't go down to the grocery store anymore like I used to.
[19:51 - 19:55] I can't check the mail anymore like I used to.
[19:55 - 20:00] We have to have cops over here now to check packages when we get a package,
[20:00 - 20:04] because we don't know if we're going to get a fucking bomb in the mail or not.
[20:04 - 20:12] And these people aren't getting away with this,
[20:12 - 20:15] and the police aren't doing anything about it.
[20:15 - 20:19] And it's been going on for five years.
[20:19 - 20:24] Five years of pure fucking hell.
[20:24 - 20:29] Five years of living in fear, and I'm sick of it.
[20:30 - 20:35] I am tired of living in fear.
[20:35 - 20:39] Matter of fact, here's an example for you guys.
[20:39 - 20:46] This shirt right here is a result of something that they have done to me.
[20:46 - 20:54] Mocking me, mocking my family.
[20:56 - 21:01] I never asked to be attacked. I never asked to be trolled.
[21:01 - 21:04] I never asked to be bullied.
[21:04 - 21:13] All I've ever tried to do, since I got on YouTube in 2009,
[21:13 - 21:16] was to make a living from my music.
[21:21 - 21:27] And I also recently found out that because of these people,
[21:27 - 21:32] I am losing about $500,000 a year in ad revenue
[21:32 - 21:35] because of this music biz marty guy alone.
[21:35 - 21:43] That's not even counting the bigger channels that have made videos on me
[21:43 - 21:46] and are getting away with laughing at me at my expense,
[21:46 - 21:50] or poking fun at me and making me look like a piece of shit,
[21:50 - 21:56] and slandering and ruining my family's name and my name in the process.
[21:56 - 22:06] I'm not the bad guy that people think I am. I'm really not.
[22:06 - 22:24] All I've ever wanted since this started was to take my fucking life back
[22:24 - 22:26] and get my life back.
[22:26 - 22:32] That's all I've ever wanted, was to get my life back
[22:32 - 22:36] and to turn all this around for the better.
[22:36 - 22:44] But instead, what do I get? Laugh back, bullied, attacked.
[22:44 - 22:50] Made to look like a monster that I'm not.
[22:50 - 22:54] And I'm sick of it.
[22:54 - 24:03] And so sick of it.
[24:29 - 24:31] I can't do this anymore.
[24:31 - 24:46] And what kills me the most is that the police here will not help.
[24:46 - 24:52] And I have reached out to every single thing I can to get help.
[24:56 - 25:02] So anybody out there, and I mean anybody out there, can help me.
[25:02 - 25:07] Please. Help me put a stop to this.
[25:07 - 25:13] I can't do this anymore.
[25:13 - 25:21] I have no strength left in me to fight anymore.
[25:22 - 25:27] And I've been fighting for five freaking years, and I'm tired of fighting.
[25:27 - 25:35] I'm tired of being made out to be a monster.
[25:35 - 25:39] I'm tired of the threats towards my family.
[25:39 - 25:43] I'm tired of receiving grotesque things in the mail.
[25:43 - 25:50] I'm tired of the police not taking this seriously enough to where they do something about this.
[25:51 - 25:55] Yes, I've done some bad shit, and I'm not gonna hide it.
[25:55 - 25:57] I have done a lot of fucked up shit.
[25:57 - 26:05] But all the fucked up stuff I've done has been as a result of what these people have fucking done to me.
[26:05 - 26:13] Everything I've done wrong has been a result of what these people have put me through for the last five years.
[26:13 - 26:17] And I'm sick of it.
[26:20 - 26:24] I don't deserve this. My family doesn't deserve this.
[26:24 - 26:34] So for those of you wondering, am I okay?
[26:34 - 26:41] Honestly, no. I'm not okay. And I'm not ever gonna be okay until this shit stops.
[26:43 - 26:51] When this stops and I can get my life back, that I've had ripped away from me, then I'll be okay.
[26:51 - 27:01] But until then, I'm not okay. And I can't see where I'll ever be okay.
[27:04 - 27:13] These people have mentally broken me, maimed me, dehumanized me.
[27:13 - 27:24] And I am sick of it.
[27:26 - 27:38] I just wish that so many out there can help me put any stop to this for good, so that I can move all of my life, and I can give the world the real me that they deserve to see.
[27:38 - 27:48] The world deserves to see who I can be when I'm not being attacked.
[27:50 - 27:57] And I want to give that to them. I want to give the world to me that a lot of you guys have known from the very jump.
[27:57 - 28:11] That positive me that likes to have fun and enjoy time with friends and hang out with friends and chill out and relax and make music and have fun doing what I love.
[28:16 - 28:25] That's all I want to do is help people through my music and have fun doing it with my friends. That's all I've ever wanted.
[28:25 - 28:40] But it's hard to do when I'm constantly being attacked or when I wake up and I go to watch one of my favorite YouTubers and right after their video, I see a video of me where somebody's attacking me and harassing me every day.
[28:43 - 28:48] This has been going on for five years, and I'm tired of it.
[28:48 - 29:02] I just wish someone would freaking help me to where I can put any stop to this for good, because my family's not rich. We can't afford a lawyer.
[29:11 - 29:14] And I'm tired of this.
[29:23 - 29:44] To all my real fans, though, to those that, you know, have stopped by me, I want to say thank you. And to all my friends, like my brother Chris, my brother Matthew, my best friend and little brother of 18 years, Jake.
[29:47 - 30:00] To my boy Danny over in Norway. To my friend Kayla, who is a fairly new fan of my work. And to everybody that has shown support for me, I want to say thank you.
[30:00 - 30:10] Because you guys' support means more to me than anything you've ever imagined. It really does.
[30:11 - 30:22] I know I say it a lot, but I truthfully do mean it, that your guys' love and support for me during these hard times means so much more than I can ever say.
[30:22 - 30:46] But honestly, guys, this needs to stop.
[30:47 - 30:56] And if anybody out there can help get me in contact with a lawyer that is willing to help me pro bono, please do so.
[30:59 - 31:15] Because I want to put an end to all this for good. I want to put all this to bed. And I want to get my life back. And I want to do better.
[31:16 - 31:34] And I want the world to see the me that used to exist before all this. I want the world to be able to enjoy my content and not laugh at me.
[31:35 - 31:45] Not in that way.
[31:46 - 31:55] I want the world to be able to see when they watch my videos or I'm doing a coffee and chill livestream where I hang out with friends.
[31:55 - 32:05] I want people to be able to come over to my channel and say, "Hey, that dude looks like a pretty cool dude. He makes me laugh. Let me go hang out with him. He seems like a cool guy."
[32:06 - 32:18] I want people to be able to come into my streams and be able to hang out and have a good time and not be attacked. And not have to worry about living in fear.
[32:33 - 32:38] I'm tired of hiding the fact that I'm not okay.
[32:38 - 32:45] Physically, I'm fine.
[32:45 - 32:52] Like, as you guys can tell, I am perfectly fine physically.
[32:52 - 33:01] But emotionally, I'm destroyed.
[33:02 - 33:06] And mentally, I'm gassed out and I can't fight no more.
[33:06 - 33:27] So as I said, if somebody out there can please help me to find a lawyer that is willing to work with my case and take me on, even though we don't have any money, please reach out to me.
[33:27 - 33:35] Because this has gone too far and it needs to stop.
[33:36 - 33:39] Thank you.