2022-4-25 why i havent been able to do anything with my life the last 4 Years

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[0:44 - 0:59] What's up baseball?
[0:59 - 1:04] I'm not even trying to hide it.
[1:04 - 1:16] For the last four years, I've not been able to do things that I want to do with my life.
[1:16 - 1:36] Things that I enjoy doing, things that I know can make a living for me.
[1:36 - 1:48] And the reason for that is because there's so many on the internet and more specifically on YouTube by the name of MusicBizMarty.
[1:48 - 1:52] His real name is Nickolas Biegler.
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[2:15 - 2:38] Now over the past four years, MusicBizMarty or Nickolas Biegler has done nothing but take advantage of me, attack me and ruin me.
[2:38 - 2:50] He's attacked my family, my friends. This man is gone as far as to call the fucking police on me.
[2:50 - 2:59] And I'm not talking one cop. This man literally called in an entire police force on me.
[2:59 - 3:05] An entire squad of police.
[3:05 - 3:22] Some of you might not know this, but the other day, because of Nickolas Biegler, aka MusicBizMarty, and one of his little troll friends, William Gloria.
[3:22 - 3:34] I had about ten cops show up in my house the other night with pistols pointed right at my fucking face.
[3:34 - 3:47] All because I told Marty and William Gloria both that if they keep doing what they're doing, one day they're going to do the stuff they're doing to me to the wrong person.
[3:47 - 3:51] And that person's not going to think twice about hurting them.
[3:51 - 4:09] And then I proceeded to tell people that if they showed up here with the intent to do harm to my family, that I would not hesitate to protect my family no matter the cost.
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[4:16 - 4:27] And they called the police and said that I was threatening them, and that if the cops showed up there, I would be shot as well.
[4:27 - 4:33] This is the kind of stuff that's had me depressed for the last four fucking years.
[4:33 - 4:42] That's why I haven't been able to do any of my clothing line, why I haven't been able to do any of my artwork, why my music's basically dead now.
[4:42 - 4:48] My music career's basically fucking dead because of these people.
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[5:02 - 5:04] And I'll be honest.
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[5:11 - 5:20] All I've done for the past four years is wake up and see nothing but carnage and chaos.
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[5:24 - 5:34] I tried to leave the internet for about three months, and it didn't work. They just kept attacking me.
[5:34 - 5:39] So to anybody out there wondering, "Am I okay?"
[5:39 - 5:48] My honest answer to you is, "No, I'm not okay, and I don't know if I ever will be okay again."
[5:48 - 5:55] This man ruined my career in music. This man ruined a lot of opportunities for me.
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[5:57 - 6:02] This man has been stealing money from me for the last four years, and I didn't know it.
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[6:04 - 6:10] Because of music bismarne, I'm losing about 500 grand in ad revenue every month.
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[6:15 - 6:19] And yet nobody seems to want to stop this man.
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[6:21 - 6:24] And I'm fucking tired of it.
[6:24 - 6:27] [Silence]
[6:27 - 6:32] Marty has literally made it to where I don't want to do anything anymore.
[6:32 - 6:40] [Silence]
[6:40 - 6:45] But I force myself to do things just so I can stay active.
[6:45 - 6:54] [Silence]
[6:54 - 6:57] And to be honest, I'm tired of living like this.
[6:57 - 6:59] [Silence]
[6:59 - 7:05] I'm tired of living with depression every day. I'm tired of not being able to do things that I want to do,
[7:05 - 7:09] all because Marty and his little friends want to take advantage of me.
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[7:31 - 7:36] Which is why earlier I made the post on YouTube that I was leaving for a while,
[7:36 - 7:40] because I am leaving YouTube for a good long while.
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[7:56 - 8:02] I'm honestly sick to my stomach almost every day.
[8:02 - 8:05] [Silence]
[8:05 - 8:11] I am so depressed every day that it makes me sick and it makes me not want to get out of bed.
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[8:18 - 8:24] So to be honest with you, no, I'm not okay. I'm really not.
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[8:29 - 8:35] The police here refuse to do anything about Marty. The FBI refuses to do anything about him.
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[8:40 - 8:44] And my family can't afford a lawyer.
[8:44 - 8:48] This man's made it damn near impossible for me to get a job.
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[8:57 - 9:00] This man has ruined all kinds of stuff for me.
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[9:08 - 9:15] So for those of you wondering, am I okay? My honest answer to you is no.
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[9:18 - 9:22] I'm not. And I don't know if I ever will be.
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[9:27 - 9:33] You know, I got so much talent in my little pinky that I can do.
[9:33 - 9:38] But yet I can't do anything with anything that I'm good with because of Marty.
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[9:42 - 9:45] Because every time I do something to make some kind of money,
[9:45 - 9:49] he comes in and shuts it down for no reason and I'm fucking sick of it.
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[9:52 - 9:54] This man literally doesn't care.
[9:54 - 9:58] [Silence]
[9:58 - 10:02] He doesn't care whether he's breaking the law or what. He doesn't care.
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[10:04 - 10:06] This man is truly a psychopath.
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[10:09 - 10:17] And I and my family have to suffer.
[10:17 - 10:24] And it kills me watching my family suffer. It kills me seeing them suffer.
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[10:38 - 10:46] To be honest, I just want my life back.
[10:46 - 10:51] [Silence]
[10:51 - 10:54] I really do. I just want my fucking life back.
[10:54 - 10:57] [Silence]
[10:57 - 11:00] I want to be able to do things that I used to enjoy doing again.
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[11:03 - 11:07] But until Marty gets dealt with, I can't.
[11:07 - 11:12] And it's sad that I have to live in a never-ending nightmare
[11:12 - 11:19] all because the state of fucking Ohio refuses to do a goddamn thing.
[11:19 - 11:24] All because the police here are lazy as fuck.
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[11:35 - 11:39] I'm essentially living in a never-ending nightmare.
[11:39 - 11:44] And so is my family.
[11:44 - 11:48] And unfortunately, so are some of my friends.
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[11:57 - 12:02] And believe me, I want to do stuff again. I really do.
[12:02 - 12:07] But...
[12:07 - 12:13] I can't see myself doing anything until Marty gets put behind bars.
[12:13 - 12:18] I can't see myself doing anything until all this goes away.
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[12:36 - 12:41] To be honest, for the past four years, I've been sick.
[12:41 - 12:45] Physically and emotionally sick.
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[13:01 - 13:12] I do eat every day, and I do, you know, do proper stuff every day, but...
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[13:17 - 13:23] My mental health is slowly declining because of this guy.
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[13:45 - 13:53] So physically, yes, I'm fine. But mentally, I'm a fucking wreck.
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[13:59 - 14:02] Mentally, I'm broken.
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[14:08 - 14:14] Mentally, I'm destroyed.
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[14:23 - 14:29] And what I want more than anything is to put my life back together.
[14:29 - 14:39] That's what I want more than anything is to be able to put my life back together.
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[14:46 - 14:51] And be able to do things that I used to enjoy doing.
[14:51 - 14:58] Like going for walks, doing photography, hanging out with friends,
[14:58 - 15:04] living my life doing things that I enjoy.
[15:04 - 15:10] Making a living from what I love.
[15:10 - 15:19] But until Marty goes away, or until this stops,
[15:19 - 15:30] I can't see myself doing anything for the foreseeable future.
[15:30 - 15:46] I can't see myself garnering any kind of success until all this shit stops.
[15:46 - 15:51] I'm sick of living like this.
[15:51 - 15:56] I'm sick of living in fear, being depressed,
[15:56 - 16:03] not being able to do things that I fucking enjoy doing that I shouldn't have to hide.
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[16:27 - 16:33] I just want my life back.
[16:33 - 16:36] That's all I want is to get my life back.
[16:36 - 16:48] [Silence]
[16:48 - 16:59] That's all I've ever wanted these last four years.
[16:59 - 17:26] I just want to get my life back.
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