2022-4-24 How i almost got ruined

[0:00 - 0:20] Oh, um, some of you may know me as Cyraxx, some of you may know me as Cyraxx, and some of you may know me by my real name Chance.
[0:20 - 0:44] But today I'm not, I'm not calling you guys as a YouTuber, as a musician, as anything. I'm calling you guys as a normal person.
[0:44 - 1:01] Because over the past several years, I've had a story to tell, and it's been misconstrued so many times over the years.
[1:01 - 1:29] And I want to set the record straight. And I want to, I want to open up about everything from the Marty situation to the Masshole thing and how everything came about and put me in a state where I've not been okay.
[1:29 - 1:39] I want to explain to everybody why I live in a constant state of fear, why I'm always afraid to do stuff now.
[1:39 - 1:52] Because I don't think anybody really knows the real truth about what went on.
[1:52 - 2:00] I first met Marty back in 2018, officially.
[2:00 - 2:15] And the reason why I say officially is because about a year prior, this guy popped up in my chat on YouTube by the name of Music Biz Marty.
[2:15 - 2:30] Now, what did I know that that person would turn out to be Tyler and why?
[2:30 - 2:37] And so I went hunting for answers.
[2:37 - 2:50] Because when I saw that name pop up, and I found out that I wasn't really this Music Biz Marty guy, I essentially went searching for answers.
[2:50 - 2:56] Because I didn't think it was right for somebody to use someone else's name like that.
[2:56 - 3:10] So I went to reach out to Marty, well to find him, and to reach out and be like, "Hey, somebody's using your name. Did you know about this?"
[3:10 - 3:29] Because I was unaware that it was all a setup to drive me into a seemingly never ending cycle of torture.
[3:29 - 3:38] But, you know, I never did find Marty.
[3:38 - 3:51] And so I let it go until 2018 when everything went south and very fast.
[3:51 - 4:06] You see, I met my ex Heather through a mutual friend of ours at the time named Kendall.
[4:06 - 4:14] Everybody knows what happened between me and Kendall and all this stuff.
[4:14 - 4:18] Well, what did I know Marty would be involved in?
[4:18 - 4:30] A pretty big majority of why I'm here.
[4:30 - 4:42] In 2018, me, Heather, and Jamie and Marty were all on the panel.
[4:42 - 4:58] This guy named Juggalo John wanted to fight me because he had been spreading rumors about how he had seen me, you know, at fairgrounds touching with kids doing this, doing that, and da da da.
[4:58 - 5:04] And he challenged me to fight him down by the community center by my house.
[5:04 - 5:13] So, I took out the offer and I went down to meet up with him.
[5:13 - 5:17] That night when we got there, he never showed.
[5:17 - 5:30] Me and my family went and decided to try to go back home to see if maybe waiting would, you know, maybe when we got there too early or whatever.
[5:30 - 5:44] But on the way back to my house, Marty made a pass at me on Jamie's livestream.
[5:44 - 5:49] And I didn't catch it at first.
[5:49 - 6:00] So I had to, I had to have my now ex girlfriend, Heather, because she was watching the stream on YouTube.
[6:00 - 6:10] So I had her rewind the stream a little bit to see what I had missed to see if I heard what I heard correctly.
[6:10 - 6:27] And sure enough, I did. Marty sat there and made a direct pass at me on Jamie Nicole's livestream.
[6:27 - 6:41] He had said something along the lines of like, you know, like me and I was like cute or something. It was something along those lines.
[6:41 - 6:55] So once I got clarification that Marty had made, indeed made a pass at me.
[6:55 - 7:01] I told him no thank you. I'm not gay.
[7:01 - 7:10] I told this man straight up that I am not gay.
[7:10 - 7:24] Even though my older brother, who unfortunately is no longer with us, was gay, and I have several friends that are bi, gay, straight, trans and all spectrum there.
[7:24 - 7:40] They're all members of the LGBTQ community and some of them are some of the best people I've ever met, met my life there. So the nicest people that I know, and some of my closest friends.
[7:40 - 7:54] Well, ever since Marty made that pass at me, he's not been able to handle the fact that I turned him down and told him no that I am not gay.
[7:54 - 8:02] And ever since then he has proceeded to make my life a living hell.
[8:02 - 8:19] This man has proceeded to ruin relationships I've been in, which is why I'm not in a relationship right now sadly as much I would like to be.
[8:19 - 8:41] This man has proceeded to do things to make it to where I will run only to him.
[8:41 - 8:51] My girlfriend at the time, in 2019, Caitlyn.
[8:51 - 8:56] I don't know that was after.
[8:56 - 9:04] My girlfriend at the time during, during 2021.
[9:04 - 9:06] It was good.
[9:06 - 9:11] It was very good at first.
[9:11 - 9:17] Me and her I know each other for a long time.
[9:17 - 9:36] We're very very close, but because of Marty not wanting to let go of me turning him down that relationship, as many others in the past, had gotten ruined.
[9:36 - 9:52] What a lot of people don't realize is that I've all caught scheming behind Marty's plots and plans against me.
[9:52 - 9:55] The whole man's whole reports thing.
[9:55 - 10:01] That was a setup.
[10:01 - 10:11] You see, he pastored my soul reports into doing what she did to me.
[10:11 - 10:26] And he did it with the thought process of, I wouldn't have anybody to turn to but to him.
[10:26 - 10:38] This man has done nothing but torture my life, torture my family, my friends.
[10:38 - 10:43] I had lost my job because of him.
[10:43 - 10:49] My biological father lost my job.
[10:49 - 11:10] I was his job because of Marty. I got kicked out the record label that I was on which is one of the biggest record labels in the world that I had worked my ass off for years to get on to just to get kicked out because of Marty.
[11:10 - 11:19] I've lost many many good friends.
[11:19 - 11:25] And just yesterday I lost my friendship with somebody that I thought was a friend.
[11:25 - 11:43] You know, aka Crypt Kay, I thought this man was a friend but he turned out to stab me in the back.
[11:43 - 11:52] You see, when I showed those photos of the screenshots.
[11:52 - 11:56] About how Marty really is crazy.
[11:56 - 12:00] That was real.
[12:00 - 12:11] Then all that stuff that you guys saw in the screenshots of the text messages sent to me by Sarah.
[12:11 - 12:16] That's what goes through his mind every day.
[12:16 - 12:27] The biggest thought process is, if he can't have me then no one can.
[12:27 - 12:35] And that's how obsessed and sick this man is in the head.
[12:35 - 12:44] Because of this man, I almost got shot the other night.
[12:44 - 12:50] And for those of you that did not see it let me clarify what happened.
[12:50 - 12:59] I hadn't addressed him, stating that if he had done this stuff to the wrong person.
[12:59 - 13:10] They would not think twice about hurting him at all.
[13:10 - 13:18] And then I proceeded out of pure self defense from my family.
[13:18 - 13:24] Gave anyone that wanted to do harm to me and my family a very fair warning.
[13:24 - 13:32] Stating that if you were to show up to my house.
[13:32 - 13:39] I'm invited with the intent to do harm to my family that I would not hesitate to do what I must.
[13:39 - 13:41] To defend my family.
[13:41 - 13:51] And to protect and oversee the safety of my family even if that meant putting a bullet into somebody.
[13:51 - 14:02] Well, shortly during that stream about a half hour in, I tried to send those things.
[14:02 - 14:09] My family heard a knock outside.
[14:09 - 14:14] And at first we didn't know who it was.
[14:14 - 14:21] We thought that maybe it was one of them showing up to the house.
[14:21 - 14:25] So we tried to make it look like no one's home.
[14:25 - 14:43] But little to our surprise and we know that there will be 10 cops outside with guns pointed at me, ready to shoot me at a moment's notice.
[14:43 - 14:57] And let me tell you, walking outside to 10, nine millimeter pistols being pointed in your face.
[14:57 - 15:04] It's one of the worst feelings in the world.
[15:04 - 15:12] It is one of the worst feelings in the world and it's honestly scary.
[15:12 - 15:18] When I was staring down the barrel of those pistols.
[15:18 - 15:31] The only thing I could think about was my family and if they did pull the trigger, what would I be leaving behind?
[15:31 - 15:38] How would my family feel?
[15:38 - 16:02] What would my family feel if I had gotten shot and killed?
[16:02 - 16:13] That's the kind of stuff that I've had to put up with since day one.
[16:13 - 16:21] Because of people like music biz Marty, well mostly because of music biz Marty.
[16:21 - 16:28] I've not been able to focus on things that I want to do with my life.
[16:28 - 16:31] I'm always living in fear.
[16:31 - 16:46] I'm always scared, always looking over my shoulder.
[16:46 - 17:03] A lot of people don't seem to understand that my actions, my hard actions that I've done in the past on live streams and lashing out.
[17:03 - 17:11] Those were all results because of Marty and why he has been doing to me for the last four years.
[17:11 - 17:28] I don't know what else to say other than the fact that I don't like what I did.
[17:28 - 17:46] I really don't but people need to understand that all those actions that I did were provoked by music biz Marty.
[17:46 - 18:02] Every lash out, every call out, everything I did on his channel was a result of him harassing me in some way shape or form.
[18:02 - 18:13] Or attacking me in some way shape or form.
[18:13 - 18:24] A lot of people don't seem to realize that I'm just a normal person trying to do what he loves.
[18:24 - 18:45] I never asked to be targeted by Marty. I never asked for him to hit on me or make passes on me.
[18:45 - 18:58] This man has done nothing but make my life a living hell and a never ending nightmare.
[18:58 - 19:17] Because of this man, I live in fear every day for my family and for my friends.
[19:17 - 19:27] Everybody always asks me why haven't I made any money off of my music in the last four years?
[19:27 - 19:37] Why haven't I done anything? Why haven't I booked any shows or gotten outside of the house to do anything?
[19:37 - 19:49] Well, that answer is very clear. It's because I've been living in fear for the last four years.
[19:49 - 19:57] Fear for my safety, fear for my family's safety.
[19:57 - 20:12] And two, around the time that I had released my second EDM album, Evolution, is when all this started.
[20:12 - 20:25] And instead of focusing on my music or being an athlete like I should have been doing the whole time,
[20:25 - 20:33] I wound up defending myself every day.
[20:33 - 20:42] I would constantly fight back against Marty after he attacked me.
[20:42 - 20:54] This man has also gone as far as to keep private photos and videos of me on his computer,
[20:54 - 20:58] which he continues to this day to pleasure himself with.
[20:58 - 21:21] Photos of videos that he has stolen from me that were private between me and my exes.
[21:21 - 21:37] This man has done nothing but try to ruin my life all because I said no to him making a pass at me.
[21:37 - 21:55] And all I ever asked is for a chance to do what I love, whether that be sports, whether that be music, whether that be filmmaking or whatever.
[21:55 - 22:06] I never asked to have my life ruined by a man who is so obsessed with me that he thinks he owns me.
[22:06 - 22:18] What she does, this man genuinely believes that he owns me.
[22:18 - 22:31] This man genuinely believes that he owns me.
[22:31 - 22:49] Which is why I'm no longer fighting back because I want to get my life back where it should have been the whole time.
[22:49 - 23:18] Which is why for the next couple weeks I am, I'm doing what I should have done a long time ago and taking time for myself, taking time for my friends, my family.
[23:18 - 23:41] Because I want to be better and I want to get my life back and I want to start doing things that I used to do and things that I enjoyed doing that I've not been able to do in a very long time without being harassed or worried or scared.
[23:41 - 24:07] Like going outside and doing photography and putting together more films like my short film The Darkness or vlogging whenever my best friend of 18 years, my brother Jake, vlogging whenever he comes over and we hang out.
[24:07 - 24:23] Or me just doing little videos with, you know, my cat Darby or my dog Rugrat, you know, something I enjoy doing that I really love doing.
[24:23 - 24:28] Or even doing things like my artwork.
[24:28 - 24:56] But I really want to get back to my real life, which is why I'm stepping away from this platform for a couple weeks to try to get my life back in order so that mentally I can get well, so that I can focus on what I should be focusing on which is my music.
[24:56 - 25:02] Maybe a competitive athlete and doing other things that I enjoy doing.
[25:02 - 25:09] And yes, you guys heard me right. I did say competitive athlete because I am going to be getting back into sports.
[25:09 - 25:23] I'm actually going to be getting back into doing aggressive in line because I actually used to do aggressive in line skating and I want to get back into that.
[25:23 - 25:46] Because that's something that I've always enjoyed doing when I was younger and that's something that I would like to, you know, continue to get back into.
[25:46 - 25:55] But I'm tired of living my life in fear.
[25:55 - 26:17] I'm tired of being scared all the time. I'm tired of everybody misconstruing the truth when it's staring them in the face.
[26:17 - 26:36] For anybody out there that doesn't know me or doesn't know my story, I hope that this helped you to understand the truth about how all this got started.
[26:36 - 26:48] And I hope that it helps.
[26:48 - 27:07] The reason why I am stepping away for a couple weeks from this platform, other than posting music is because I'm tired of losing friendships over Marty and people like him.
[27:07 - 27:16] Just a couple years ago, I lost my best friend of almost 11 years.
[27:16 - 27:24] My best friend Sean Sands, whom I lost a friendship of over Marty doing what he did.
[27:24 - 27:35] And then just yesterday I lost my friendship with somebody who I considered a brother, Michael Willett, aka Crip Kay.
[27:35 - 27:46] Somebody who I considered family stabbed me in the back because of Marty.
[27:46 - 27:50] And I'm tired of losing friends.
[27:50 - 27:58] I'm tired of not being able to live my life the way that I want to live it and that I should be living it.
[27:58 - 28:20] I am 31 years old, I should be settled down with the wife and kids right now, but I'm not.
[28:20 - 28:28] I really should be settled down with the wife and kids and doing something I love brother thing but instead I'm not.
[28:28 - 28:31] I'm always living in fear.
[28:31 - 28:36] I'm always constantly worried.
[28:36 - 28:46] But starting today all that's going to change.
[28:46 - 28:55] Starting today, I will not be answering calls that I don't know.
[28:55 - 29:05] I will not be mentioning anything about Marty whatsoever.
[29:05 - 29:17] And I will not be answering text messages that I don't know either. And I will not be accepting any invites to go on to Marty's panel.
[29:17 - 29:37] Because I'm going to be avoiding him at all costs so that I can get my life back that he's stolen away from me for the last four years.
[29:37 - 29:43] Because I'm tired of living in fear.
[29:43 - 29:55] I'm tired of living in fear for myself and for my family when I have no reason to be afraid.
[29:55 - 30:03] Let me tell you guys something.
[30:03 - 30:12] You know how they say when you stare death in the face, your life flashes before your eyes.
[30:12 - 30:25] Why I can say without a shred of a doubt, it is very very true.
[30:25 - 30:35] When I was staring down the barrel of that gun and the cops and pulled out only when I was staring down the barrel of those guns.
[30:35 - 30:45] I saw everything from my infancy up to where I am now.
[30:45 - 31:00] And let me tell you, in that moment of being scared and staring down the barrel of a pistol, it's a very scary feeling.
[31:00 - 31:14] And it's not one that I would wish on anyone at all, period.
[31:14 - 31:27] And a lot of people don't seem to understand that I almost died because of this man.
[31:27 - 31:31] And that going on.
[31:31 - 31:35] And that happening.
[31:35 - 31:41] That was the last straw for me.
[31:41 - 32:10] One thing my life almost ripped away from me was it was a real eye opener on what I need to be doing, which is why I am stepping away from the platform for a couple weeks to heal up after the four years of torturous health that I've been through.
[32:10 - 32:24] And so that I can heal mentally from what I went through the other day with the police and their pistols pointed at me like they were.
[32:24 - 32:29] And you're going to tell you something in those moments of staring down those pistols.
[32:29 - 32:33] I thought I was going to die.
[32:33 - 32:44] I genuinely thought that it was over for me.
[32:44 - 32:54] But to my real fans, I want to say thank you guys so much for the love and support that you guys are showing me.
[32:54 - 33:11] All the love and support that you guys are showing me means a lot to me. I know there's not a lot of you, but the few that there are, I do appreciate you all so much.
[33:11 - 33:19] But my mental health is, it's good.
[33:19 - 33:24] But I can see where it's going.
[33:24 - 33:42] And I can see what's going to happen if I don't do this for myself and my family and friends. I can see where it's going to go if this if I don't do this, which is why I'm stepping away.
[33:42 - 33:53] Because I want to be around for a long time, not a little bit.
[33:53 - 33:57] I'm tired of living my life in fear.
[33:57 - 34:25] I'm tired of being scared all the time. And when I do come back, I will be banning every single troll that I see because I don't deserve it. And I'm taking back my life and what I really want to do with my YouTube channels and stuff that I enjoy doing.
[34:25 - 34:35] And I know that being said, I love you guys, and I'll see you guys in a couple weeks.
[34:35 - 34:38] Here's to a journey to the end better y'all.
[34:38 - 34:41] Peace.