2022-3-12 SICK OF THE LIES ABOUT ME

[0:00 - 0:24] [Silence]
[0:24 - 0:44] You know, I was hoping that I wouldn't come to this. I thought I'd escaped. I thought I had escaped that fucking world.
[0:44 - 0:53] But apparently certain people like MusicBizMarty don't know how to shut their fucking mouth.
[0:53 - 1:10] And it's sad. To everyone that's on Facebook that watches me, I want you guys to know that clearly I'm alive and well.
[1:10 - 1:24] Like, I've not been in the hospital, I'm not, you know, dead, I'm alive, I'm fine, I'm well, I'm doing good.
[1:24 - 1:36] But to all you yahoos, I'm just gonna state this one little thing. You guys need to shut up and leave me the hell alone.
[1:36 - 1:48] 'Cause you're doing what you're doing just shows how pathetic and desperate you really are.
[1:48 - 1:58] You know, I'm trying to live my normal fucking life, but yeah, you guys want to sit here and talk shit.
[1:58 - 2:04] All for your own amusement and it's fucking pathetic.
[2:04 - 2:15] So Marty, I hope you see this. You're a piece of fucking shit, MusicBizMarty.
[2:15 - 2:25] Or should I say Nicholas Beegler. You truly are a piece of shit.
[2:25 - 2:32] 'Cause all you want to do is run your mouth about me. And it's sad.
[2:32 - 2:42] I'm over here honing my talents and my skills while you sit on your ass and do nothing.
[2:42 - 2:49] And to be quite honest, it's pathetic of you to do that Marty.
[2:49 - 2:58] It really is. You want to sit there and make shit up about me, go ahead.
[2:58 - 3:03] Because at the end of the day, the people that know me best, like my motherfucking brother Josh Hixon,
[3:03 - 3:10] shout out to my brother Josh, what's good man. I know you're probably watching this too motherfucker, what's good man.
[3:10 - 3:17] For the people that really know me, they know the fucking truth about me.
[3:17 - 3:23] I'm not some fucking pushover, want to be like you.
[3:23 - 3:27] I'm tired of the fucking drama, dude.
[3:27 - 3:32] I left that community for a reason.
[3:32 - 3:38] I left so I could have a fresh start at life. And that's exactly what I intend to do.
[3:38 - 3:43] Live my life in a positive way. Create music that helps people.
[3:43 - 3:51] Show the world my gift that I've been granted with.
[3:51 - 3:57] I intend on sharing my gift and my talents with the whole world.
[3:57 - 4:04] And Marty, and to anybody on YouTube that wants to try and troll me, I am going to tell you this right now.
[4:04 - 4:09] There's not a damn thing in this world that you can do to stop me.
[4:09 - 4:14] So you can say that I do this, say that I do that.
[4:14 - 4:25] But at the end of the day, we all know that all that shit you spew is nothing but a bunch of garbage ass lies.
[4:25 - 4:30] That's all it is. It's garbage ass fucking lies.
[4:30 - 4:35] Because you want to use me as content.
[4:35 - 4:44] And the way you're doing that right now shows that you're desperate.
[4:44 - 4:50] The way you're doing shit right now shows that you're desperate.
[4:50 - 4:55] It shows weakness in you.
[4:55 - 5:05] I, for one, will not be pushed around anymore.
[5:05 - 5:15] Matter of fact,
[5:15 - 5:25] starting tomorrow morning, watch it, starting tonight, I'm going under a whole new banner that will not be the Cyrax banner anymore.
[5:25 - 5:32] I am disowning and burying that name.
[5:32 - 5:37] I will no longer be using the Cyrax name.
[5:37 - 5:52] I want nothing to do with that part of my life.
[5:52 - 6:01] I'm going under a whole new name, a whole new banner, good music, good people, and good friends.
[6:01 - 6:13] That's all I'm here to do. Help people through my music and give the world what I have to offer.
[6:13 - 6:16] Which is hope.
[6:16 - 6:19] Somebody that cares.
[6:19 - 6:27] Somebody that's been in bad situations and made it out the other side.
[6:27 - 6:44] For the last two years, you guys have made my life a living hell.
[6:44 - 6:49] And I'm not going back to what you guys tried to make me out to be.
[6:49 - 6:56] Because that person that you tried to make me out to be is not who I really am.
[6:56 - 7:02] And I want to show the world who I really am.
[7:02 - 7:15] Yes, this is life, Sheila.
[7:15 - 7:22] Like I said, that person that these people made me out to be is not who I really am.
[7:22 - 7:31] And to you guys that never got to know the real me, I want to take them all in to say that I'm sorry.
[7:31 - 7:39] I'm sorry that you guys didn't get to know the real me and who I am.
[7:39 - 7:46] Yeah, I remember you, Sheila. What's up?
[7:46 - 7:52] How you been, Sheila? What's up?
[7:52 - 8:06] No, I'm very, I'm very much alive, girl. I'm very much alive.
[8:06 - 8:19] And Sheila, and to anyone out there that never really got to see who I really was over the last two years because of the chaos,
[8:19 - 8:27] I'd like to take a moment to say that I'm sorry that you guys didn't get to know that side of me.
[8:27 - 8:37] And that's why I'm working on some brand new music. I'm working on brand new styles inspired by some stuff that I've been doing lately.
[8:37 - 8:48] Nothing bad, but like, you know, games that I've been playing and shit like that, mostly focused around the game, Cyberpunk 2077.
[8:48 - 9:03] I actually learned about a whole new genre of music that I've been doing the whole time and I want to kind of, you know, run with that and see what I can do with it.
[9:03 - 9:22] And I just want to give you guys the best fucking music that you guys deserve. I want to be able to show you guys who I truly am as a person, not this fucking monster that these people made me out to be.
[9:22 - 9:45] Hmm, this ought to give you a hint. And full disclaimer, I did not own this song that I'm about to play, but this little snippet shall, it'll give you an idea of the name that I will be going under.
[9:45 - 10:12] Let's see, where is the, now I'll give you a hint. The name is in the title of this song.
[10:12 - 10:25] And if many of you guys are fans of this band like I am, then you guys will get the idea.
[10:25 - 10:43] For those of you that don't know, the band is called Motionless in White. Shout out to Cursed Motionless. Love the new shit.
[10:43 - 13:17] [Music]
[13:17 - 13:21] Matter of fact, after this I got a surprise for you guys.
[13:21 - 15:11] [Music]
[15:11 - 15:29] Now, that song right there should give you the name.
[15:29 - 16:39] [Music]
[16:39 - 16:43] Are you ready?
[16:43 - 16:57] Now, are you guys ready?
[16:57 - 17:03] You guys ready?
[17:03 - 17:25] Let's do this.
[17:25 - 17:51] I hope you guys are ready. Let's go.
[17:51 - 27:39] [Music]
[27:39 - 27:52] Now, let's take it up a notch, shall we?
[27:52 - 28:03] And yes, I know I played this song, but I wanted to kind of do it for you guys.
[28:03 - 28:12] Hope you guys are ready.
[28:12 - 28:32] All I gotta say is this, where's all my motion on some white fans that?
[28:32 - 33:13] [Music]
[33:13 - 33:17] Play in the comments if you guys know what this song is.
[33:17 - 37:43] [Music]
[37:43 - 37:57] Now, I know you guys know this one.
[37:57 - 38:05] This one's for all my Lincoln Park fans and all my LP family out here.
[38:05 - 40:55] [Music]
[40:55 - 40:59] Shutting this off.
[40:59 - 41:09] You know I had to do one for all my LP family out here, man.
[41:09 - 41:13] Shout out to my motherfucking Lincoln Park family out here, man.
[41:13 - 41:15] Shout out to the LP soldiers.
[41:15 - 41:17] Fucking love you guys, man.
[41:17 - 41:21] Shout out to every motherfucking Lincoln Park fan up in here, bro.
[41:21 - 41:28] Every single Lincoln Park fan, every part of the fucking fanbase, every part of my personal LP family.
[41:28 - 41:31] Fucking love every single one of your crazy motherfuckers.
[41:32 - 42:32] [Music]
[42:32 - 42:34] You guys ready?
[42:34 - 46:39] [Music]
[46:39 - 46:50] You guys ready for this?
[46:50 - 47:19] Yo, Art, Abbie Young, dude.
[47:19 - 50:00] [Music]
[50:00 - 50:17] Let's see what we got here.
[50:17 - 63:40] [Music]
[63:40 - 63:44] And you know I got this one from my Naruto fans, bro.
[63:44 - 63:49] You guys ready?
[63:49 - 63:55] Hey Josh, I know you're watching this, bro. I know you ready, dawg.
[63:55 - 64:07] Oh, yes. This is godly. So godly.
[64:07 - 67:51] [Music]
[67:51 - 67:53] Oh, boy.
[67:53 - 67:59] You know I had to do that for all my Naruto fans, man. You know I love you guys.
[67:59 - 68:06] But to everybody out there that thinks that they're going to stop me or wants to run their mouth about me.
[68:06 - 68:20] And yes, Ian, I'm talking to you. Ian Duckworth, AKA Bradley, the motherfucker that I helped out since he was 14 and who stabbed me in the back and decided to listen to the masses like a little bitch.
[68:20 - 68:29] Like, bro, come the fuck on. You really didn't think I was going to let you get off that easy, did you, man?
[68:29 - 68:34] Did you really think I was going to let you get off that easy, bro?
[68:34 - 68:44] Yeah, I know. You're a fucking lying sack of shit. You lied to me about not talking shit to me.
[68:44 - 68:50] And the reason you blocked me is because you knew damn well I was confronting your ass.
[68:50 - 68:56] So Bradley, Ian, it's sad that you turned out the way you did.
[68:56 - 68:59] Because I had faith in you, bro. I really did.
[68:59 - 69:05] Because I'll give you credit, man. You're one of the best motherfucking rappers I've ever seen in my life.
[69:05 - 69:11] But your problem is this. You talk about that same shit as everybody else, man.
[69:11 - 69:21] The only song I'll give you credit on that you did very, very well with that wasn't about guns, drugs, bitches, or drive-bys and acting hard.
[69:21 - 69:26] What's your song, who? Which was about your family and you talking about how you came up.
[69:26 - 69:40] I respect that. I respect that shit. But what I don't respect is a motherfucker like you that's spitting shit that he ain't really living.
[69:40 - 69:45] You talk about being a gangster. You talk about being this and that.
[69:45 - 69:49] Yeah, you might be making money. That made me true.
[69:49 - 69:58] But let me give a little bit of advice that Upchurch not only gave myself, but the entire fucking world.
[69:58 - 70:08] Shout out to Ryan Upchurch and shout out to the motherfucking Creek Squad once again, guys. You know I fucking love y'all.
[70:08 - 70:22] But a lot of people, man, if you ain't living what you're spitting, if you ain't out there really living it, what you're talking about in your songs, that just makes you fake.
[70:22 - 70:26] So, you know, I hate to say it, bro, but you're actually kind of fake.
[70:26 - 70:32] You talk about all this shit in your music, but yet you ain't really living it.
[70:32 - 70:40] Me, I've lived everything I talk about. I've gone through depression. I've been on the edge of suicide.
[70:40 - 70:50] I've been in mentally and verbally and emotionally abusive relationships. I've had dark thoughts in my head.
[70:50 - 71:02] I've been bullied. I've been fucked over. So everything I talk about, I've actually lived, which makes me real.
[71:02 - 71:08] Now, your clubbangers, I'll talk about your clubbangers, man. Your clubbangers are good. I like those. I fuck with those.
[71:08 - 71:18] But dude, your other shit, stop talking about shit that you ain't. You ain't a gangster. You ain't fucking hard.
[71:18 - 71:29] You ain't getting bitches like that, and we all know this. But if you want to continue to be fake, that's on you, bro.
[71:29 - 71:39] If you want to continue to be fake, hey, that's cool.
[71:39 - 71:46] And also, that would explain why you took that song that me and you did together off your YouTube channel.
[71:46 - 71:53] That does explain a lot. You sat there. You did little things, subtle little things.
[71:53 - 71:59] First, you took the song with me and you off your YouTube channel, which was fine. You know, it is what it is.
[71:59 - 72:15] But then you turn around, talk to Marty, talk to our boy, Michael, and yet you claim that you ain't stabbing me in the back? Really, dude?
[72:15 - 72:23] You're going to be 19 this year, bro. I've known you since you were 14. I've watched you come up in the game, bro.
[72:23 - 72:28] I've watched you come up in the rap game, and honestly, dude, you're good at what you do.
[72:28 - 72:35] But here's a little bit of advice for you, man. Start talking about real shit that you're about.
[72:35 - 72:46] Start relating to your fucking fans, bro, because that's how you draw in fans is by being honest with your fans and being real with your fans.
[72:46 - 72:51] I don't hide the shit that I get put through. I talk about that shit in my music.
[72:51 - 72:57] I talk about what it's like to be depressed. I talk about what it's like to be on the edge of suicide.
[72:57 - 73:07] I talk about being bullied because I have been bullied my whole life, and then so I talk about what it's like to be a catfish.
[73:07 - 73:18] I talk about what it's like to face death, stare death in the face as a baby and survive.
[73:18 - 73:23] And for those of you who don't know, let me explain my story to you.
[73:23 - 73:27] The day I was born was the day I was supposed to die.
[73:27 - 73:33] I was born one pound ten ounces with one kidney and one very severely underdeveloped lung.
[73:33 - 73:45] With skin so translucent and thin and fragile, they had to put me in fucking saran wrap and put me in a fucking incubator for six months just so that my skin can thicken up.
[73:45 - 73:55] The day I was born was the day I was supposed to fucking die, okay?
[73:55 - 73:59] The day I was born was the day I was supposed to die.
[73:59 - 74:04] So yes, I did stare death in the face.
[74:04 - 74:12] That's why when I die, I won't fear the Grim Reaper. I will welcome him with open arms like an old friend.
[74:12 - 74:21] Because I've stared death in the face and won.
[74:21 - 74:28] So Ian, you're talking to a veteran of the music scene, bro.
[74:28 - 74:31] Yeah, it's true. You may have done your first show at 16.
[74:31 - 74:36] That's just very true. You have done your first show at 16, man.
[74:36 - 74:38] And I'm proud of you for that.
[74:38 - 74:43] But dude, you've got to start talking about shit that you're living, bro.
[74:43 - 74:47] Otherwise, your career is going to be that fucking long.
[74:47 - 74:57] The reason why my career is like that fucking long, like that, is because of the fact that I'm real with my fans.
[74:57 - 75:01] I talk about everything that I go through, bro.
[75:01 - 75:09] Well, yes, I may be working on some electronic music under a whole new name, which I'm very excited for.
[75:09 - 75:21] I also have my regular shit too for my old school hardcore fans that love when I talk about that shit because it helps them.
[75:21 - 75:24] Hey, I agree with you there, man.
[75:24 - 75:44] I will admit, Anthony, life is way more scarier than death. I will give you that, bro. I agree with that.
[75:44 - 75:54] I totally 100% agree with that, dude.
[75:54 - 75:58] Now, I'm going to take that alcohol off for a minute.
[75:58 - 76:03] Now, with this final thought, I want you guys to really think about this.
[76:03 - 76:06] And, Sheila, I am going to message you about this because we need to catch up down there.
[76:06 - 76:12] It's been way too long.
[76:12 - 76:20] Let me ask you guys this, and this is a little something for you guys to think about, and it's something I had to think about.
[76:20 - 76:26] And I want you guys to really ponder on this, and I have posed for this before.
[76:26 - 76:31] But something I've learned along my journey in life is this.
[76:31 - 76:41] When you go to sleep at night and you close your eyes, and you're laying there in your bed and you're asleep,
[76:41 - 76:44] here's the question.
[76:44 - 76:56] When you go to sleep, are you really going to sleep and dreaming, or are you waking up from a dream?
[76:56 - 76:58] Think about that.
[76:58 - 77:04] When you go to sleep at night, are you truly going to sleep, or are you waking up?
[77:04 - 77:08] Think about that.
[77:08 - 77:12] Listen to the comments what you guys think.
[77:12 - 77:19] And with that being said, man, I'm about to bounce.
[77:19 - 77:22] Yo, Anthony, I'm always down, bro, for sure.
[77:22 - 77:26] But with that being said, man, Anthony, I'm about to message you, Sheila.
[77:26 - 77:28] I'm about to catch up with your crazy ass.
[77:28 - 77:30] It's been a long fucking time with you, girl.
[77:30 - 77:32] It's been way too long.
[77:32 - 77:34] So I'll catch you in just a minute, Anthony.
[77:34 - 77:35] I'll catch you in a minute, bro.
[77:35 - 77:39] As a matter of fact, dude, Anthony, I have some shit to run by you that I think you might enjoy.
[77:39 - 77:41] So, yeah.
[77:41 - 77:45] And it's not musical related, but it's the mother shit I've been working on, man.
[77:45 - 77:47] I think you might like, so yeah.
[77:47 - 77:53] But with that being said, man, all I've got to say to Marty and the haters is this.
[77:53 - 77:55] You ain't stopping shit.
[77:55 - 78:00] I'm not going to be that person that you were making me out to be.
[78:00 - 78:05] I'm not going to be that person that I was two years ago.
[78:05 - 78:13] Starting tomorrow, the coffee and chill streams are coming to Facebook officially.
[78:13 - 78:18] And I know a lot of y'all motherfuckers remember the coffee and chill streams now.
[78:18 - 78:23] So, yes, starting tomorrow, I will be doing daily coffee and chill streams in the mornings,
[78:23 - 78:26] hanging out with y'all, man.
[78:26 - 78:31] Which I'm excited for, because I've been missing doing the coffee and chill streams now that I'm able to do it again.
[78:31 - 78:33] I'm doing it on here full-time.
[78:33 - 78:35] And, yeah.
[78:35 - 78:39] But with that being said, man, I'm looking forward to you guys, and I'll catch you guys.
[78:39 - 78:42] For those of you that don't get a message, I'll catch you in a minute.
[78:42 - 78:47] For all the rest of y'all, man, I hope you have a good night, good morning, evening, afternoon, wherever you guys are at.
[78:47 - 78:49] And I'll see you guys tomorrow morning.
[78:49 - 78:58] I'll see you guys tomorrow, bright and early, for the first official coffee and chill livestream on Facebook, ever in history.
[78:58 - 79:01] So, with that being said, I love y'all, and I'll catch y'all later, man.
[79:01 - 79:03] Peace.
[79:03 - 79:08] Also, be on the lookout for a brand new album, which I'll be dropping very, very soon.
[79:08 - 79:10] Peace.
[79:10 - 79:21] Not saying, but for those of you, before I do go, though, I do want to say this, that for those of you I will be messaging,
[79:21 - 79:27] I will be sending you the link to my new channel for my electronic music, so, peace.