2022-2-7 back to my roots

[0:00 - 0:17] What's up everyone, so given everything that is going on tonight and over the last few
[0:17 - 0:27] days, it's been hectic. I sadly lost my girlfriend because of William Glory Hall and Blackout
[0:27 - 0:33] Records doing the shit that they've done to me which I'm still not happy about that still
[0:33 - 0:39] pisses me off the fact that you guys did that out of spite it wasn't okay and it's not cute
[0:39 - 0:52] nor is it funny I'm still very angry for you guys lying about that shit but you know
[0:56 - 1:05] I want to go back to my roots where I began on YouTube like where I first began creating
[1:05 - 1:13] gameplay videos creating AMVs like I want to give back to that and away from the bullshit
[1:13 - 1:19] okay I want to be able to get sponsors again and actually make a living doing
[1:20 - 1:26] you know my gameplay videos that I used to do doing you know reactions that people used
[1:26 - 1:30] to enjoy me doing and shit like that like I want to get back to that
[1:30 - 1:39] so as of tonight I will be deleting everything and starting over brand new
[1:39 - 1:46] I will be deleting my Twitch account and starting over on that I'll be deleting my YouTube and
[1:46 - 1:53] starting over on that I'll be restarting on everything because I want to go back to my roots
[1:53 - 2:02] I want to be who I used to be before all the bullshit started happening
[2:02 - 2:09] because this person that I got made out to be is not who I've ever intended to become nor
[2:09 - 2:17] whoever wanted to be this person who I've become I was made to be and I don't like that I don't
[2:17 - 2:27] want that now I get the concerns of everybody that was involved with blackout records tonight
[2:27 - 2:33] like I get your concerns and I understand that but something that you have to understand
[2:34 - 2:40] is this as far as like why am I not making them any money or living off what I love
[2:40 - 2:47] it's because you guys the trolls the troll community that have come in and fucked everything up
[2:47 - 2:55] like and that's not what I want from myself
[2:55 - 3:03] that's not what I want for myself nor is it something that I want from my family you know
[3:04 - 3:08] like you can ask anybody that knows me personally
[3:08 - 3:17] like I'm not a bad dude I'm really not but people keep on attacking me and pushing me
[3:17 - 3:40] and making me that bad guy and Alex you can get bad now like I said I will be restarting over on
[3:40 - 3:48] everything I am not I'm not doing this shit anymore I am taking my leave from the troll
[3:48 - 4:02] community because I never wanted to be here you know I never wanted to be in the troll community
[4:02 - 4:09] in the first place as I told the people on the stream last and earlier tonight
[4:09 - 4:18] I don't know how I got drug into the troll community but I never wanted to be part of it
[4:18 - 4:26] okay I wanted to make a living doing something I enjoy doing whether it's gaming whether it's
[4:26 - 4:34] my music whatever that may be and because I got drug into the troll community
[4:34 - 4:39] I've had to I've not been able to focus on shit that I've wanted to do
[4:39 - 4:45] like I was supposed to release a 3d car photography book two years ago
[4:45 - 4:51] and I haven't been able to do that because I've had to fight all this bullshit
[4:51 - 5:01] that I've never wanted to fight I've never wanted to be part of this
[5:01 - 5:07] bullshit troll community I'm not into that kind of stuff that's not who I am
[5:07 - 5:17] okay like and a lot of people think that because I say racist things
[5:17 - 5:25] that that makes me a racist automatically but what they don't see is the other side of shit
[5:25 - 5:32] what they don't see are the people that put me in the position that I got stuck in
[5:32 - 5:40] what they don't see and what you guys don't see is the bullshit that I got put through
[5:40 - 5:48] that put me in that position all right imagine imagine being in my position for a minute
[5:48 - 5:56] all right play yourself in my position imagine you're getting bullied and attacked day in and
[5:56 - 6:02] day out day in and day out over and over again and you're over here doing your own thing
[6:02 - 6:09] but you got these motherfuckers over here just going at you and going at you eventually you're
[6:09 - 6:14] going to snap eventually you're going to flip a wig and you're going to flip the fuck out
[6:14 - 6:18] and you're going to say shit that you don't normally say
[6:18 - 6:29] and in some cases you will say some fucked up shit that might not be okay
[6:33 - 6:40] and I'll admit I've had said some shit that's not okay that I'm not proud of okay I admit
[6:40 - 6:47] I've said some very fucked up things that I'm not proud of but I'm not the only one at fault either
[6:47 - 6:55] people want to put the blame all on me but yet they never want to take the blame
[6:55 - 7:03] themselves for the actions that they've committed against others and that's where I'm at I know I'm
[7:03 - 7:10] not entirely innocent I understand that and I get that but I'm also not entirely at fault either
[7:21 - 7:28] like you know and so I got told the people on black out records channel tonight
[7:28 - 7:38] maybe if people would leave me alone and would have left me alone instead of attacking me like
[7:38 - 7:44] they did and making up all this shit and harassing me I might have had a chance at
[7:44 - 7:51] actually doing something good but instead of being allowed to be doing something good
[7:51 - 7:55] I got drug into a community that I did not want to be part of at all whatsoever
[7:55 - 7:59] I never wanted to be part of the troll community
[7:59 - 8:04] I don't know what made people think that I wanted them but I never did
[8:04 - 8:10] okay I never wanted to be part of that community
[8:10 - 8:26] I never wanted to be part of a troll community where I was going to get bullied and attacked
[8:26 - 8:30] every day all day long I never wanted that
[8:30 - 8:39] what I wanted was to be able to make a living doing something I love
[8:40 - 8:47] whether it's gaming sponsors whether it's you know getting signed to a record level
[8:47 - 8:55] whether it's making money off my artwork full-time like I wanted to do something
[8:55 - 9:00] to make a fucking living and I knew I wanted it to be something that I love to do
[9:01 - 9:10] which is why after tonight I am not telling anybody what my YouTube is except for a very
[9:10 - 9:17] very very select few I am not telling anyone what my YouTube channel is
[9:17 - 9:22] because I don't need the troll shit
[9:30 - 9:35] oh you're good doing rats it's all good and I don't blame you for thinking that
[9:35 - 9:40] a lot of people would think that I was that I automatically was but no I got drug into it
[9:40 - 9:43] but I can see where you would think that
[9:43 - 9:49] I could definitely see where you would think that I was part of it
[9:49 - 9:58] but like I said I'm not telling anybody what my new channel is
[9:58 - 10:07] because I'm not saying what my twitch is because I want to build an audience
[10:07 - 10:15] of people that will actually enjoy my content and actually want to watch and not be
[10:15 - 10:19] you know drug into this bullshit
[10:19 - 10:32] because as I said I never wanted to be part of this community
[10:32 - 10:44] I never wanted to be part of the troll community to begin with
[10:45 - 10:49] I got drug into it unknowingly and ultimately unwillingly
[10:49 - 10:54] I never wanted to be part of it at all
[10:54 - 11:00] if anything you want to know who I really wanted to be like
[11:00 - 11:06] you want to know what one of the first youtubers was that I ever saw
[11:07 - 11:14] that I got inspired by let me show you
[11:14 - 11:19] let me show you the guy that inspired me to
[11:19 - 11:26] do what I do and it's not anybody that like you guys would think but
[11:26 - 11:34] I'm just saying I'm not going to be part of this community and I'm just going to do it.
[11:34 - 11:41] So
[11:41 - 12:07] let's see I'm trying to find a good
[12:09 - 12:14] answer let me go back to the very beginning let me show you guys why I started doing YouTube
[12:14 - 12:35] let's go all the way back to the very beginning here
[12:35 - 12:50] this is from six years ago
[12:50 - 13:01] this man right here that I'm about to show you is the reason I started to do YouTube back in the day
[13:01 - 13:20] and welcome back guys to forza horizon two minutes been a minute I'm not gonna lie to you
[13:20 - 13:26] guys it's been quite a while since we've been on forza and we are greeted with a brand new march
[13:26 - 13:33] DLC pack now I wanted to focus on one car in particular for today and that was the 2014
[13:33 - 13:42] Volkswagen Beetle GRC now this is Tanner Falls car right now this was his pack this was his shine
[13:42 - 13:49] this month and I wanted to test this thing out one six litre 536 horses zero to 60 in under two
[13:49 - 13:56] or sorry I think it's two seconds flat if I'm not mistaken and weighing 2600 pounds now this is
[13:56 - 14:02] an all-wheel drive monster that I just could not restrain myself from using this thing is going
[14:02 - 14:07] to be an absolute monster I would love for you guys to comment in the description box down below
[14:07 - 14:13] of what car you guys would like to see next done here from the march DLC pack let's see what
[14:13 - 14:19] exactly we have to do now we can make this back in a rear wheel drive which is nice I like to see
[14:19 - 14:25] that we have some tire compounds here which I may just stick with the stock tires I'm very kind of
[14:25 - 14:31] thrown off that this doesn't already have rally tires included on it but that actually you know
[14:31 - 14:41] what oh what the hell are these tires actually a better grip I think that's just the way the
[14:41 - 14:46] rally tires are if I'm not mistaken the front of these we have 240s matched on the rears we have
[14:46 - 14:52] 240s all around looks like we're gonna be leaving this thing completely stocked for today's drive
[14:52 - 14:57] I really wanted to just showcase this car just for what it has to offer out in the box that
[14:57 - 15:02] we can do restricted plates which would bring this up this 774 horsepower we're gonna drive
[15:02 - 15:08] this stock and then come back in here to really get this thing going on the restricted plates
[15:08 - 15:13] we're gonna take them off later just to see how this thing's gonna go stop tuning on this uh
[15:13 - 15:21] very much once and a half short a little bit in dash right now man look at the damn speedometer
[15:21 - 15:27] digital dash on here we got the whole damn Volkswagen racing wheel I don't even know
[15:27 - 15:32] looks like my wheel to be honest man he called me my wheel you understand all right so we're gonna
[15:32 - 15:37] put this thing through its paces on the tarmac as well as into dirt just to try to see what's
[15:37 - 15:46] going on this thing hails some ass through these gears right now man oh my god handling
[15:46 - 15:52] is beautiful I just put it in the seventh gear my accident doesn't have a seventh gear oh my god
[15:52 - 15:55] it's been a while man it's been a while here we go
[16:02 - 16:07] brakes on here are very nice the car seems very balanced you know coming through these
[16:07 - 16:12] sections right here you know even at the high third gear revs uh you know the braking on it
[16:12 - 16:17] is very nice when you hit that e-brake oh look at that grip up and I was expecting it to just
[16:17 - 16:25] spread tires in second gear but it looks like this is more of kind of just the straight up
[16:25 - 16:39] monster acceleration and look at this maxes it out at 150 oh hopefully 151 and um loud
[16:39 - 16:45] now this is the same man they got to compete
[16:45 - 17:01] this is actually the same man that actually knows
[17:01 - 17:07] this man right here personally they're actually really good friends
[17:07 - 17:14] shout out to his badass mug right here dude
[17:14 - 17:42] coming for bath towels leave wrapped in love
[17:42 - 17:45] this is our life
[17:45 - 17:53] and life needs life life needs this touch
[17:53 - 17:59] good morning guys bright and early here today is the day if you're a member of the channel you
[17:59 - 18:03] already know a little bit of the backstory of what's going on today but if not you guys saw
[18:03 - 18:08] the video where I said I was saying goodbye to this thing I am not selling it privately
[18:08 - 18:15] although I could get a marginally better price I found a car there's a whole story around this
[18:15 - 18:18] and it's that Porsche of Naples and I've been working with them they've been awesome to work
[18:18 - 18:20] with and the best thing about it is they're totally cool with me driving this thing four
[18:20 - 18:24] hours putting another 200 miles on it and getting to enjoy what would be my last screws
[18:24 - 18:29] with this thing before I swap it I mean I guess you guys might already know from the title but
[18:29 - 18:32] it's for another Porsche I'm a little sleepy so I'm gonna wait till my brain's working a
[18:32 - 18:35] little bit better and then I'm gonna give you a little bit more details now if you don't know
[18:35 - 18:38] who that man is
[18:38 - 18:46] well let me introduce you
[18:46 - 18:49] ... around the internet about what car I'm going to be driving in the seat
[18:49 - 18:55] before I get into that I just wanted to give a little bit a lot more live over here this S15
[18:55 - 19:01] I originally built with UP Racing and it was just supposed to be a fun demo car that
[19:01 - 19:06] quickly escalated once I learned that you know high strung cars really only get driven together
[19:06 - 19:11] at the highest level of drifting which is full wheel drift this car has treated me well for
[19:11 - 19:16] three seasons and coming to this next season I decided it was time to do something a little bit
[19:16 - 19:21] different and in this video we're going to talk all about that and with much excitement I want
[19:21 - 19:32] to tell you guys I will be driving an S chassis this year
[19:32 - 19:36] now let me show you who this guy is connected to
[19:36 - 19:43] I didn't say it was a Nissan but technically it is an S chassis an S550 Mustang to the exact
[19:43 - 19:48] and I am excited to finally officially announce to you guys that I will be joining
[19:48 - 19:55] team RTR for next year of four wheel drift dude welcome to the party bro finally we can talk
[19:55 - 19:59] about this I'm so glad I hate keeping secrets I know we kind of did a good job and then people
[19:59 - 20:03] started putting two together so we can kind of throw some curve balls they certainly did but
[20:03 - 20:09] you got some sharp peeps for sure if you guys don't already know Vaughn Vaughn Ginn Jr the owner
[20:09 - 20:16] of RTR formula drift champion my mentor and uh now I guess already took me to the team manager
[20:16 - 20:25] but my job is to support you and Chelsea and make sure that you and the team have what you need
[20:25 - 20:32] to achieve the goals and obviously one of your goals is to become an ft champion and so the
[20:32 - 20:39] process begins now there's a lot of stuff we gotta talk about and that's what now those guys
[20:39 - 20:48] do a lot of this shit when they're not competing let's go here
[20:48 - 21:13] this is the kind of shit that I want to get up to man
[21:13 - 21:21] again we are now here for some a seto coarser competency only action with McLaren 720s gt3
[21:21 - 21:26] at Brands Hatch of course Jake can you give us a fact about the track and give us that grid order
[21:26 - 21:30] well it's going to be a very tough race ahead of us that gt3 is going to bite around this brands
[21:30 - 21:35] hatch circuit it's a tough car to get hold of and the track is very demanding even the best
[21:35 - 21:39] drivers in this field are going to find grip a real premium and the grid actually gives us
[21:39 - 21:43] a really entertaining race ahead of us because we've got Kevin City, Remenac and Andy Yofsky
[21:43 - 21:47] still battling away with each other on the front row of the grid Igor and Josh are going to share
[21:47 - 21:51] the second row so they've got a chance in a decent podium Isaac Illesen way down in fifth
[21:51 - 21:55] on the grid I mean that's a big shot coming into this one we expected him to be challenging
[21:55 - 22:02] the two guys up front so he's now we don't know what this is let me show you this that his team
[22:02 - 22:09] Isaac's team are very well known for being quick and very clear so if anyone's late let the driver recover and go back ahead of him
[22:09 - 22:13] see this is the kind of shit that I want to give back into and this kind of shit
[22:13 - 22:17] as they come off 30s up towards Pilgrims truck they're going to come down the straight
[22:17 - 22:21] and it is going to be Josh who holds up to it initially but Isaac's going to have the momentum
[22:21 - 22:24] or try and come back up towards the inside all the thoughts he's going to have to stop back in
[22:24 - 22:28] behind him and as they go up the dirt into straight into waste field he'll have another
[22:28 - 22:31] opportunity but they need to keep an eye on their rear view mirrors this is not going to be too long
[22:31 - 22:36] before other hand decides to come back forward in fact other hand other hand's pulled off I think
[22:36 - 22:43] oh you know is he he certainly yeah he's done and he's done he's done he's not happy at all here
[22:43 - 22:49] uh Isaac then who's uh oh Josh here Josh hell no I'm from the outside there absolutely
[22:49 - 22:54] wonderfully like Isaac of course well see that's the kind of fucking level I want to get to man
[22:54 - 22:57] stuff like that
[22:57 - 22:58] that
[22:58 - 23:13] getting back to my roots doing shit like that setting records like I used to do man
[23:13 - 23:22] because dude I used to fucking set records all the time for gaming and I fucking loved it and
[23:22 - 23:30] I want to give back to that shit I want to have fun just shattering fucking records and having fun
[23:30 - 23:41] so to the troll community I bid you farewell
[23:41 - 23:45] to everybody else that doesn't like me
[23:47 - 23:55] I don't give a shit well that means I know I'm about to hop off here I'm about to pass out
[23:55 - 24:00] I'm about to get doing shit and reset and shit and yeah
[24:00 - 24:14] I will catch you guys here probably in a few days peace