2022-12-9 IM SICK OF FAKE FRIENDS AND BEING STABBED IN THE BACK!!!!!!!!! (Facebook)

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[0:35 - 0:37] I'm the stray of honestly.
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[0:44 - 0:47] Today's been one of the hardest days of my life.
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[0:49 - 0:54] Not death wise or anything like that, but losing a friend wise.
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[0:58 - 1:03] Today I lost somebody that I thought was a good friend to me.
[1:03 - 1:14] Despite what the internet said about me, despite what rumors and bullshit garbage was made up about me.
[1:14 - 1:25] You know, despite all that, I thought I met somebody that had my fucking back that I actually understood.
[1:25 - 1:33] You know, I thought that I fucking met somebody that actually fucking understood.
[1:33 - 1:42] And understood my situation and understood that I'm not the way these people on the internet are making me out to fucking be.
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[1:48 - 1:54] Today I lost my friend Gar who goes by the internet name Spooky.
[1:54 - 1:58] And I'm sure a lot of you guys know who that is.
[1:58 - 2:03] Because you guys have probably seen me on his panels multiple times on YouTube.
[2:03 - 2:10] This dude tried to sit there and tell me that the internet isn't real life.
[2:10 - 2:16] But it's very much real life.
[2:16 - 2:20] He tried to sit there and tell me that I would go after kids if I had the chance.
[2:20 - 2:24] Know the fuck I would not.
[2:24 - 2:31] Now Tony the Black Dragon Lord on YouTube might.
[2:31 - 2:34] Man, but I know he would.
[2:34 - 2:41] [Silence]
[2:41 - 2:50] You know, it's fucking sickening.
[2:50 - 2:55] One of the few people that I thought understood my situation just turned around.
[2:55 - 3:01] Stabbed me in the fucking back.
[3:01 - 3:08] You know, I've been stabbed in the back so many times because of all this garbage that people have done to me.
[3:08 - 3:11] You would think I would be known to it.
[3:11 - 3:14] You would think I would be known to being stabbed in the back.
[3:14 - 3:17] You would think that I would be used to being stabbed in the back by now.
[3:17 - 3:22] But nope, I'm not.
[3:22 - 3:32] I'll be honest, I'm tired of losing friendships because of these fucking asshole trolls.
[3:32 - 3:40] I'm seriously tired of losing friends because of the garbage that they want to fucking make up about me.
[3:40 - 3:45] You know, this is a dude that spent time with me outside of YouTube.
[3:45 - 3:48] That hung out with me.
[3:48 - 3:52] That saw how I really am outside of YouTube.
[3:52 - 3:58] And saw that I'm not the bad guy that people are trying to make me out to be.
[3:58 - 4:02] But yet he still decided to continue with the troll.
[4:02 - 4:09] And he wanted to know why he decided to continue with it because he was paid off by Benny White's estate,
[4:09 - 4:21] who is a major player in this troll community, apparently, from what I just found out.
[4:21 - 4:27] And you know, to all my real friends out there that have had my back through all this, I want to say thank you.
[4:27 - 4:30] I want to say thank you to Ellie.
[4:30 - 4:35] I want to say thank you to Jane.
[4:35 - 4:39] I want to say thank you to you, Carolyn.
[4:39 - 4:47] I want to say thank you to my childhood best friends, Marcus and Rachel, my best friend, little brother Jake.
[4:47 - 4:56] You know, everybody that had my back, despite what these trolls say, I want to say thank you.
[4:56 - 5:15] Because I've lost so many friends because of this shit.
[5:15 - 5:25] I've lost so many good friendships because of these people.
[5:25 - 5:32] You know, two of those people that I lost were two of my best friends.
[5:32 - 5:39] The guy whose wedding I was not only supposed to be the best man in it, but was supposed to photograph the wedding of,
[5:39 - 5:44] which is somebody I still consider a friend to this day.
[5:44 - 5:47] And his name is Shawn Sands.
[5:47 - 5:49] I still consider Shawn family.
[5:49 - 5:51] I still consider him family.
[5:51 - 5:53] I always will consider him a brother.
[5:53 - 5:56] I will always consider him blood.
[5:56 - 6:07] But the other one goes by the YouTube name, the YouTuber name, Nylit, as well as going by Nylit on Twitch.
[6:07 - 6:11] You know, now it's the reason why I got paid on Twitch.
[6:11 - 6:22] If it wasn't for Nylit, my Twitch career wouldn't have skyrocketed like it did before the trolls came in and ruined it.
[6:22 - 6:31] It's because of Nylit that my Twitch was doing very well.
[6:31 - 6:35] Yo, Joey, what's up, bro?
[6:35 - 6:36] How you doing, my man?
[6:36 - 6:40] What's good, bud?
[6:40 - 6:47] And, Joey, I also want to say thank you for having my back, despite what all these people say about me, man,
[6:47 - 6:55] and despite what Garbage has said about me, man, I want to say thank you for always having my back, man, 100%.
[6:55 - 7:01] I want to say thank you for always standing by me and seeing through all the garbage.
[7:01 - 7:30] And, Carolyn, I spoke basically -- I spoke in basically --
[7:30 - 7:33] admitted he was a troll the whole time.
[7:33 - 7:37] So, to him, mine and his friendship wasn't even a friendship.
[7:37 - 7:43] To him, our friendship was a troll the whole time.
[7:43 - 7:53] Even though this man talked to me outside of YouTube, this man saw how I live on a day-to-day basis, saw what I do on a daily basis.
[7:53 - 8:02] But, yeah, he decided to continue with the troll.
[8:02 - 8:10] And then he had the balls to sit there and say that the Internet isn't real life.
[8:10 - 8:23] And to an extent, to an extent, he is right, but also he needs to think about the situation that I've been put in, you know,
[8:23 - 8:36] where I've had cops show up to my house, ready to shoot me, and to just a few weeks ago where somebody actually tried to fucking murder me.
[8:36 - 8:41] So, yeah, for me, it is real life.
[8:41 - 8:54] Or at least my real life got drugged into it.
[8:54 - 8:57] And, yeah, I'm doing good, Carolyn.
[8:57 - 8:58] I'm doing good.
[8:58 - 9:02] Just -- you would think I would be used to being stabbed in the back by now.
[9:02 - 9:04] You would think.
[9:04 - 9:11] You would really think that I'd be used to being stabbed in the back like this.
[9:11 - 9:34] But, you know, I'm not used to it. I don't think I ever will get used to it.
[9:34 - 9:42] Because, you know, people out there every day make shit up about me.
[9:42 - 9:53] Some of it -- I don't know if it's -- some of it can be funny, but also a lot of it is beyond messed up and just sickening.
[9:53 - 10:13] I have seen some shit on the Internet going around about me and posts about me that it would make a lot of people fucking disgusted by what these people say and do.
[10:13 - 10:18] A lot of the shit I've seen is beyond disturbing.
[10:18 - 10:47] And I mean beyond disturbing. The shit they said about me, the stuff they make up about me, the photos they edit, the videos they edit, the screenshots they edit, it is so -- it's so sickening to see that kind of crap go on.
[10:47 - 11:12] Like the shit that I've seen makes my stomach turn just even thinking about it.
[11:12 - 11:24] Like it really does make my stomach fucking turn.
[11:24 - 11:45] The fact that somebody that I saw as a good friend, the fact that somebody could so blatantly take our friendship as a troll is sickening.
[11:45 - 11:53] The fact that somebody could sit there and troll our entire friendship.
[11:53 - 12:00] Like what kind of sick fuck do you have to be to do that?
[12:00 - 12:10] Because if I'm your friend, I'm your fucking friend. I'll stand up for you, I'll defend you, I'll hang out with you, I'll do whatever I can to help you.
[12:10 - 12:18] If you go to jail, here's my phone number. You can call me anytime while you're in jail.
[12:18 - 12:22] You need a lift? Hey.
[12:22 - 12:28] Like my family can help give you a lift. You need gas money? Here you go.
[12:28 - 12:37] You need your oil changed? Bring your car or your truck over to my house? Let's get that thing up on the jack and let's get that shit changed out.
[12:37 - 12:45] You need help over at your house or something? Come on over and pick me up. I'll come over there and help out.
[12:45 - 12:57] Ain't got a jacket? Take one of mine.
[12:57 - 13:03] That's the kind of person I am.
[13:03 - 13:09] Dude, Steve, if I had 20 bucks right now, I would gladly give it to you, man. I would.
[13:09 - 13:17] But right now, not trying to sound like a smartass, but right now, I'm a broke basic bitch right now, dude. I ain't got nothing right now.
[13:17 - 13:22] Otherwise, man, I definitely would give you 20 bucks for gas money. I really would.
[13:22 - 13:27] If I hadn't, I would gladly give it to you, man. But right now, I ain't got shit.
[13:27 - 13:51] I've literally got like $1.60 to one day. Literally, that's it. Just $1.60.
[13:51 - 14:03] That's the kind of person I am. If you're my friend, I'll bend over fucking backwards for you to help you out.
[14:03 - 14:12] If you're my friend, I would do anything I can within my power to help you out with whatever it is you need help with.
[14:12 - 14:18] You having trouble working on a song? All right, let's sit down and figure out where you're stuck at.
[14:18 - 14:24] Don't know how to edit a video? Send all the clips over to me that you have to my email or my Facebook.
[14:24 - 14:28] I've downloaded some of the bitches and I'll put that together for you.
[14:28 - 14:33] Need an intro done for your YouTube channel? Sure, no fucking problem. I got you.
[14:33 - 14:47] Need an instrumental for your YouTube channel? Here. Here's like 10 free ones that you can use to switch between.
[14:47 - 15:07] That's the kind of person I am. If you're my friend, I will do anything I can in my power to help you out.
[15:07 - 15:16] So for somebody to sit there and fake our friendship the whole fucking time is sickening to me.
[15:16 - 15:26] How can anybody live with themselves knowing that their friendship is a troll? How can you live with yourself doing that shit?
[15:26 - 15:37] I could never in my whole life live with myself knowing that I'm trolling someone's friendship.
[15:37 - 15:47] Knowing that my friendship is a troll and that I'm just trolling this random person and faking our whole friendship, I could never do that.
[15:47 - 15:55] I could never in my whole goddamn life, I wouldn't be able to live with myself. I wouldn't be able to live with that.
[15:55 - 15:59] That is beyond sickening.
[15:59 - 16:15] Hell, I'm that kind of dude that, like, say you need a video guy and you're here in Akron, Ohio and you need a videographer.
[16:15 - 16:27] Let me fucking get a 32K SD card. Let me grab my fucking DSLR camera. Let's go filming, dude. Let's film some shit.
[16:27 - 16:43] Me and God knows how to do photography and you're out here in the area right here, man.
[16:43 - 16:54] Oh, my next channel is already up, man. My new channel is already up and going, dude.
[16:54 - 17:18] I know it's the link to it right now. Hold up.
[17:18 - 17:26] That link is the link to the newest remix that I did and I actually wound up putting a music video that one.
[17:26 - 17:45] And now when I actually had a lot of fun doing, I'm not going to lie, I had a lot of fun making that video.
[17:45 - 17:59] I really did. I actually had a lot of fun making that music video.
[17:59 - 18:28] Actually, no, the call is actually of a friend of mine. The guy is actually a real life friend of mine and I don't think he really realizes that I'm actually alive right now. I don't think he realizes that.
[18:28 - 18:43] But, you know, I just I'm sick to my stomach that Gar, a.k.a. Spooky on YouTube.
[18:43 - 18:52] It just sickens my stomach to think that he faked our friendship the whole damn time.
[18:52 - 19:18] After I treated this man like family, after I treated this man like a brother, I treated this man like a little brother, like family.
[19:18 - 19:29] After I treated this man like family, he comes in and does this shit. It's sickening.
[19:29 - 19:44] Like I said, I've already lost two really good friends because of these trolls, one of them being my longtime best friend, Sean Sands, who went by the YouTube handle Sean's Play, who I actually used to make edits for.
[19:44 - 19:53] I used to make like, you know, like thumbnail edits for his show called The Sean Show here on Facebook.
[19:53 - 20:03] And then when he transitioned over to YouTube, I made a lot of his thumbnails for him, for his YouTube channel.
[20:03 - 20:18] Lost his friendship because of these guys. Lost my friendship with Nyla because Nyla decided to believe the trolls and let the fame of him being successful go to his head.
[20:18 - 20:24] But that's the thing between me and everyone else. I don't let the fame go to my head. Never have.
[20:24 - 20:31] I know I've got to name myself. I know that I'm infamous. I know that. And I recognize that.
[20:31 - 20:41] But I'll be honest, I don't feel any different now than I did 10 years ago. I really don't. I don't feel any different.
[20:41 - 20:49] To me, I don't care if I'm infamous. I don't care how many people know who I am.
[20:49 - 21:08] At the end of the day, I just want to be able to do my stuff, not get trolled and to actually get paid for what I love to do.
[21:08 - 21:21] Hey, Avery, what's going on, buddy?
[21:21 - 21:26] How you doing, Avery? What's good, man?
[21:26 - 21:36] And I know, Nick, and that's what makes this one so messed up because Gar didn't get my trust right away. He earned that shit.
[21:36 - 21:49] Well, Gar actually took the time and earned that shit.
[21:49 - 21:58] That's what makes it so messed up was he actually took the time, got to know me and actually earned my trust over time.
[21:58 - 22:08] But for him to just take that trust and crumple it up and throw it out the fucking window is sickening to me.
[22:08 - 22:29] I could never do that to someone like that. I could never take away and throw a friendship away like that. I couldn't do it.
[22:29 - 22:40] I couldn't fucking do it, man. I would not have the balls or the guts. Call me a coward. Call me gutless. Call me whatever.
[22:40 - 22:45] I would not have the guts to throw away a friendship like that.
[22:45 - 22:57] And unless they were doing something that they ain't supposed to be fucking doing, like murder or some shit, then I couldn't do that.
[22:57 - 23:09] Unless the person is actually wanted for, like I say, a murder, mass murder, terrorism, you know, the shit that you shouldn't or that you should never trust anyone for.
[23:09 - 23:23] Unless they did any of those things or they're actually really a real known pedophile or it's known, an actual known child predator, then I'm cool with you.
[23:23 - 23:37] And if you're any of those things, I can't be cool with you. Not because I hate you, but because I don't want that kind of reputation spilling out onto me and ruining my reputation.
[23:37 - 23:49] Do you know what I'm saying?
[23:49 - 24:04] I see no events, too, but I don't celebrate. I actually celebrate Christmas.
[24:04 - 24:14] That's the thing, Dimitri. I wish it was that simple, dude. I really do.
[24:14 - 24:23] I really do wish it was that simple, Dimitri. I really do.
[24:23 - 24:28] But these guys have actually gone out of their way to attack my real life.
[24:28 - 24:51] They've attacked my family directly. They have tried to have me killed twice, once by police and then once by attempted murder by shooting around through my window trying to hit me and missed.
[24:51 - 25:00] So, unfortunately, I really don't have any choice but to fight them, dude. I wish I could not fight them.
[25:00 - 25:06] I wish that I could have my normal life back that they stole away from me.
[25:06 - 25:17] There's a lot of things I wish I could do that I can help doing or that I'm just not able to do now because of that.
[25:17 - 25:25] Like being able to go back on the Twitch.
[25:25 - 25:32] I would have loved to be able to go back on the Twitch and make money. I would.
[25:32 - 25:40] I would have loved to be able to go back on Twitch and make money, but I can't do that out of fear of the trolls doing what they did the last time,
[25:40 - 25:58] which is breaking into my account and making it look like I was doing shit that I was not doing.
[25:58 - 26:06] Like this not being able to do anything life.
[26:06 - 26:15] Oh, I have plenty of times, Dimitri. I've actually sat down and tried to reason with them.
[26:15 - 26:23] Like last night. Yeah, I confronted MF Goon.
[26:23 - 26:32] Like last night, I confronted MF Goon. I confronted music that is Marty several times and asked them nicely, why do they keep doing it?
[26:32 - 26:39] And you know what they do every time they come up with the same bullshit ass answer.
[26:39 - 26:45] Every time they come out with the same bullshit ass answer of, oh, I'm delusional.
[26:45 - 26:58] Well, if I'm delusional, then why is it that everything I've done that I've said I've done, I actually can prove that I've actually done.
[26:58 - 27:03] Why is it that everything I have said that I've done and actually have shown that I can do.
[27:03 - 27:10] Why is it that I have proof of every single one of those things?
[27:10 - 27:33] Why is it that I have proof of everything that I've fucking done in life?
[27:33 - 27:40] It's just the same, Joe, I actually do. Despite what you think, I actually do have talent.
[27:40 - 27:47] You just don't want to admit it because you're too lazy to get off your ass and try it yourself.
[27:47 - 27:57] See, you're taking me not having talent or saying that I don't have talent.
[27:57 - 28:03] It's just you being lazy.
[28:03 - 28:15] Maybe if you actually get off your fucking ass and actually did something, you might actually find out what it's like to actually do what I fucking do.
[28:15 - 28:25] What, do you think I got good at any of the instruments that I actually know how to play?
[28:25 - 28:29] Do you think I actually got good at the instruments that I know how to play just by sitting around?
[28:29 - 28:40] No, I actually got off my ass and did something about it.
[28:40 - 28:44] And Ryan's right, dude. I actually wasn't talked with Monster Energy.
[28:44 - 28:53] He's actually not wrong. I actually wasn't talked with them.
[28:53 - 28:59] Like, he's not wrong.
[28:59 - 29:08] And don't worry, T, I got you, man.
[29:08 - 29:14] Here's the thing, Joe. That's your perception.
[29:14 - 29:24] Have you ever heard the term "looks can be deceiving"?
[29:24 - 29:35] See, you see somebody that's sitting in a chair.
[29:35 - 29:44] But what you don't see is the hard work that I do when the cameras ain't on.
[29:44 - 29:52] All right, take it easy, Carolyn. Be safe.
[29:52 - 29:59] Like I said, Joe, you don't see what I do when the cameras ain't on.
[29:59 - 30:08] You don't see the amount of blood and sweat and tears that I put into all my content when the cameras ain't rolling.
[30:08 - 30:14] You don't see the amount of hours that I work on a single song or a single instrumental
[30:14 - 30:27] or the amount of times that I have to record over and over and over and over and over and over and over.
[30:27 - 30:38] Like, the only times I had to sit down and record a lot of my fucking metal songs over and over again so I got them fucking right.
[30:38 - 30:50] Like, my cover of "Let Him Burn" by The Relentless, that song "Let Him Burn" by The Relentless,
[30:50 - 31:03] when I went full metalcore with that, it took me over a half an hour to get that shit right because I had to sit there and work my ass off.
[31:03 - 31:09] And if you think metalcore vocals are easy, then step up and fucking do it.
[31:09 - 31:13] I would love to see any of you trolls step up and do a metalcore vocal cover.
[31:13 - 31:32] I would love to see y'all try that shit. I guarantee you none of you motherfuckers can do it.
[31:32 - 31:51] And if you don't know what I mean, let me fucking show ya.
[31:52 - 31:57] Come on, let's have a show. If you don't enjoy it, they won't enjoy it anymore.
[32:17 - 32:32] "Let Him Burn" by The Relentless, when I went full metalcore with that,
[32:32 - 32:51] I came to change my race, the one we came to be, the one and only, the one and only,
[32:51 - 33:03] the one and only, the one and only, the one and only.
[33:03 - 33:22] "Let Him Burn" by The Relentless, when I went full metalcore with that,
[33:22 - 33:54] the one and only, the one and only, the one and only, the one and only, the one and only,
[33:54 - 34:13] the one and only, the one and only, the one and only, the one and only,
[34:13 - 52:03] the one and only, the one and only, the one and only, the one and only, the one and only,
[52:03 - 52:17] the one and only, the one and only, the one and only, the one and only, the one and only, the one
[52:17 - 52:37] and only, the one and only, the one and only, the one and only, the one and only, the one and only,
[52:37 - 52:58] the one and only, the one and only, the one and only, the one and only,
[52:58 - 53:21] the one and only, the one and only, the one and only, the one and only, the one and only,
[53:21 - 53:43] the one and only, the one and only, the one and only, the one and only, the one and only, the one
[53:43 - 53:46] ? I've been lonely ?
[53:46 - 53:49] ? Stand up and open the door ?
[53:49 - 53:54] ? I'm gonna change, I'm gonna change ?
[53:54 - 53:57] ? Right over there ?
[53:57 - 54:00] ? You've heard it all before ?
[54:00 - 54:02] ? I close my eyes ?
[54:02 - 54:05] ? My demons bite ?
[54:05 - 54:09] ? It's time, it's time again ?
[54:09 - 54:12] ? For your end of the day ?
[54:12 - 54:15] ? I'm gonna change ?
[54:15 - 54:19] ? Just hold me in every town ?
[54:19 - 54:23] ? For your end of the day ?
[54:23 - 54:26] ? I close my eyes ?
[54:26 - 54:30] ? So hold me while I'm standing down ?
[54:30 - 54:33] ? For you end of the day ?
[54:33 - 54:38] (vocalizing)
[54:38 - 54:44] ? Your beauty is the same ?
[54:44 - 54:59] ? I'm gonna change ?
[54:59 - 55:04] ? Just wear a tie that changes ?
[55:04 - 55:07] (vocalizing)
[55:07 - 55:12] ? For you end of the day ?
[55:12 - 55:15] ? From the round there ?
[55:15 - 55:19] ? Just hold me in every town ?
[55:19 - 55:22] ? For you end of the day ?
[55:22 - 55:25] ? So hold me ?
[55:25 - 55:29] ? Hold me while I'm standing down ?
[55:29 - 55:33] ? For you end of the day ?
[55:33 - 55:35] (vocalizing)
[55:35 - 55:44] ? For you end of the day ?
[55:44 - 55:51] (vocalizing)
[55:51 - 56:07] - So to all you little trolls out there,
[56:07 - 56:09] let's see you do that.
[56:09 - 56:14] Let's see you do any of those.
[56:17 - 56:19] Oh, in case y'all noticed,
[56:19 - 56:24] Wedge Chilkins is really William fucking Gorial.
[56:24 - 56:26] The asshole that keeps breaking into,
[56:26 - 56:28] I shouldn't see all my stuff.
[56:28 - 56:29] Yeah, that's him.
[56:29 - 56:31] (vocalizing)
[56:31 - 56:33] (clicking)
[56:33 - 57:07] (vocalizing)
[57:07 - 57:09] (clicking)
[57:09 - 57:12] (vocalizing)
[57:12 - 57:38] - Oh, and I did see a comment
[57:38 - 57:40] for a sound of silence.
[57:40 - 57:42] (clicking)
[57:42 - 57:48] So, here you go.
[57:48 - 57:51] (piano music)
[57:51 - 58:03] ? Hell, I'm talking to my own friend ?
[58:03 - 58:08] ? I'm having a talk with you again ?
[58:09 - 58:14] ? Because I'm fidget or dreamy ?
[58:14 - 58:20] ? Lifting things that I want to make ?
[58:20 - 58:24] ? I'm having a vision ?
[58:24 - 58:29] ? Now I'm standing in my brain ?
[58:29 - 58:34] ? Still I'm being ?
[58:34 - 58:38] ? Within the sound ?
[58:38 - 58:41] ? Of silence ?
[58:41 - 58:46] ? In restless dreams I walk alone ?
[58:46 - 58:52] ? In narrow streets of limestone ?
[58:52 - 58:58] ? You fell through the hole in a kitchen ?
[58:58 - 59:02] ? I turned my brother to the cold ?
[59:02 - 59:05] ? And now ?
[59:05 - 59:07] ? In my eyes you stand ?
[59:07 - 59:12] ? Where I look next to the neon light ?
[59:12 - 59:17] ? It's filled with darkness ?
[59:17 - 59:21] ? Within the sound ?
[59:21 - 59:24] ? Of silence ?
[59:24 - 59:29] ? And in the naked light I die ?
[59:30 - 59:35] ? A thousand people never know ?
[59:35 - 59:41] ? People talking when I'm speaking ?
[59:41 - 59:46] ? People singing when I'm listening ?
[59:46 - 59:50] ? We know a lot of you are strong ?
[59:50 - 59:55] ? But that's what I can never share ?
[59:56 - 60:00] ? And no one knows ?
[60:00 - 60:03] ? It's closed down ?
[60:03 - 60:07] ? And no one knows ?
[60:07 - 60:12] ? Who's I can ask you to call and call ?
[60:12 - 60:18] ? Silence like a candle's call ?
[60:18 - 60:23] ? In my wisdom I teach you ?
[60:24 - 60:29] ? And my doctor all my years ?
[60:29 - 60:32] ? No one knows ?
[60:32 - 60:37] ? I got a great job at home ?
[60:37 - 60:45] ? And all my life was done ?
[60:45 - 60:52] ? And the people found it ?
[60:53 - 60:58] ? In your baby ?
[60:58 - 61:04] ? And my doctor all my years ?
[61:04 - 61:09] ? And no one knows what I've wanted ?
[61:09 - 61:14] ? And the silence of the promise ?
[61:14 - 61:19] ? Of freedom's the way home ?
[61:20 - 61:25] ? And no one knows what I've wanted ?
[61:25 - 61:31] ? And no one knows ?
[61:31 - 61:37] ? Who's I can ask you to call and call ?
[61:37 - 61:47] ? And no one knows ?
[61:48 - 61:53] ? Who's I can ask you to call and call ?
[61:53 - 62:09] (bell dings)
[62:09 - 62:14] ? And no one knows what I've wanted ?
[62:14 - 62:20] ? I'm looking at you through the glass ?
[62:20 - 62:23] ? Don't know how much time has had ?
[62:23 - 62:26] ? Oh God it feels like forever ?
[62:26 - 62:30] ? And I will never tell you that forever feels like home ?
[62:30 - 62:35] ? Sailing all alone and out of your head ?
[62:35 - 62:39] ? 'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass ?
[62:39 - 62:41] ? Don't know how much time has had ?
[62:41 - 62:44] ? I know it doesn't feel like forever ?
[62:44 - 62:49] ? But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home ?
[62:49 - 62:54] ? Just getting your own home without your head ?
[62:54 - 62:57] ? How do you feel ?
[62:57 - 62:59] ? There is a question ?
[62:59 - 63:04] ? But after days we don't start to need the answer ?
[63:04 - 63:06] ? Well if someone alive you know ?
[63:06 - 63:09] ? It comes to know that I have been holding on ?
[63:09 - 63:11] ? I feel like there's always a little noise ?
[63:11 - 63:14] ? You can't dance 'cause you live alone ?
[63:14 - 63:16] ? So while you're out there looking in ?
[63:16 - 63:18] ? He's grabbing what you've stayed away ?
[63:18 - 63:21] ? But I know what you're staring at is magic ?
[63:21 - 63:24] ? 'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass ?
[63:24 - 63:26] ? Don't know how much time has had ?
[63:26 - 63:30] ? Oh God it feels like forever ?
[63:30 - 63:34] ? But I'll never tell you that forever feels like home ?
[63:34 - 63:39] ? The thing I'll know is that you're mad ?
[63:39 - 63:42] ? How much is real ?
[63:42 - 63:45] ? Don't ask your question ?
[63:45 - 63:48] ? You understand me 'cause I'm a medicant ?
[63:48 - 63:50] ? Doing everything ?
[63:50 - 63:52] ? You know you've got the heart ?
[63:52 - 63:53] ? But you never did ?
[63:53 - 63:55] ? I was on the side ?
[63:55 - 63:57] ? But you can't do that, honey ?
[63:57 - 64:00] ? And I don't know what to do ?
[64:00 - 64:01] ? Before you tell yourself ?
[64:01 - 64:03] ? Just a different thing ?
[64:03 - 64:06] ? Remember just a different one ?
[64:06 - 64:09] ? Two things, seeing as you see the glass ?
[64:09 - 64:12] ? Don't know how much time has passed ?
[64:12 - 64:15] ? 'Cause all of that feels like forever ?
[64:15 - 64:19] ? But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home ?
[64:19 - 64:23] ? The thing I'll know is that you're mad ?
[64:23 - 64:27] ? 'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass ?
[64:27 - 64:30] ? Don't know how much time has passed ?
[64:30 - 64:33] ? How much does that feel like forever ?
[64:33 - 64:38] ? But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home ?
[64:38 - 64:43] ? The thing I'll know is that you're mad ?
[64:43 - 64:49] ? 'Cause it's the time of the year ?
[64:49 - 64:58] ? And it's the time of the year ?
[65:02 - 65:16] ? And it's the time of the time of the year ?
[65:16 - 65:22] ? The thing that feels like forever ?
[65:22 - 65:25] ? Don't know how much time has passed ?
[65:25 - 65:27] ? Oh God, it feels like forever ?
[65:27 - 65:32] ? But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home ?
[65:32 - 65:37] ? The thing I'll know is that you're mad ?
[65:37 - 65:40] ? 'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass ?
[65:40 - 65:43] ? Don't know how much time has passed ?
[65:43 - 65:46] ? How much does that feel like forever ?
[65:46 - 65:50] ? But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home ?
[65:50 - 65:55] ? The thing I'll know is that you're mad ?
[65:55 - 65:59] ? And it's the time of the year ?
[65:59 - 66:04] ? The time of the year ?
[66:04 - 66:29] ? And it's the time of the year ?
[66:29 - 66:32] ? The time of the year ?
[66:32 - 66:49] ? And it's the time of the year ?
[66:49 - 66:54] (gentle music)
[66:55 - 66:58] (chuckles)