2022-11-8 a message to niilit

[0:00 - 0:25] I'm actually getting ready to enter the ER here in a few minutes, but I wanted to take a minute to say something before I head out, and this message is to Nylit the Red Fanta. Nylit? It's sad dude.
[0:25 - 0:43] I reached out to you in good faith to try to apologize to you. I tried to make amends with you. But honestly dude, the one thing that's pissing me off with you that you need to fucking get straightened out is this dude.
[0:43 - 0:54] You're always looking at my situation from the outside in. Instead of putting yourself in my position, you're looking at it as I'm repeating myself when I'm not.
[0:54 - 1:02] I reached out to you to try to fucking make amends with you. Cause Friday night shit went down that changed my life forever.
[1:02 - 1:17] You know, I almost got shot and killed on Friday night. And that made me realize that I need to wake the fuck up and start making amends with people like you that I consider friends and family.
[1:17 - 1:30] And for you to just completely shit all over me like that, man, that's bullshit. You want to sit there and say that I'm fucking repeating myself? Dude, I'm not. I'm not repeating myself.
[1:30 - 1:42] I'm trying to get away from the stress. I'm trying to do everything I can to get away from it. And you're over here thinking I'm repeating myself, but I'm not.
[1:42 - 1:55] You need to grow the fuck up, kid. You need to start looking at someone's situation from their eyes. Cause you don't know the full situation, bro. You ain't in my goddamn shoes.
[1:55 - 1:59] So you got no room to speak on it.
[1:59 - 2:10] I get that you were trying to help, dude. But instead of looking at my situation from an outside point of view, how about you think about how I feel?
[2:10 - 2:22] Put yourself in my position. Put yourself in the position of what I've been going through these last five years, man. Put yourself in that fucking position.
[2:22 - 2:34] Stop this bullshit of looking at it from your point of view, from the outside point of view. You need to quit that crap of, oh, he's repeating himself. Know the fuck I'm not, dude.
[2:34 - 2:46] You seriously need to grow the fuck up, dude. Cause you doing that shows how much of a little fucking boy you are. You're acting like a little fucking kid.
[2:46 - 2:52] I reached out to you to make amends with you.
[2:52 - 3:00] Alright, I reached out to you because I actually give a fuck and I actually wanted to make amends with you and try to patch things up.
[3:00 - 3:04] But you're over here acting like a little fucking spoiled brat.
[3:04 - 3:22] It's time you wake the fuck up, dude, and realize that that shit of you looking at the situation from the outside in only and seeing it from your point of view only is bullshit.
[3:22 - 3:26] It's fucking bullshit, dude.
[3:26 - 3:40] You know, if you were to reach out to me, let's say that our roles were reversed. Let's say you were in my situation and I was in yours.
[3:40 - 3:48] Let's say that the roles were reversed, dude. Let's say that I was in your position and you were in mine.
[3:48 - 3:56] Alright, if you reached out to me to try to make amends with me, I'd gladly do it. Gladly.
[3:56 - 4:06] Because you're a friend. And as I told you on my last livestream, dude, you will always be family to me. Always.
[4:06 - 4:14] No matter whether you talk to me or not, it don't matter. To me, you will always be family, dude. You will always be fucking blood to me.
[4:14 - 4:20] Always. That ain't ever gonna fucking change.
[4:20 - 4:30] So, Nyla, maybe it's time you get your head out of your fucking ass and back on your goddamn shoulders where it fucking belongs and realize what's really going on here, dude.
[4:30 - 4:40] You need to wake the fuck up, dude. I'm out here trying to reach out and make amends with you.
[4:40 - 4:56] And you're over here doing this? That's a little boy move, dude. You call yourself a man? A real man would accept the apology and actually try to do what's right and make shit right.
[4:56 - 5:05] Which is exactly what I did. I reached out to you because I thought that maybe, I thought that maybe, just maybe, I could get one of my best friends back.
[5:05 - 5:11] I mean, was I wrong in reaching out? Was I wrong in wanting to make amends, dude?
[5:11 - 5:24] Like, seriously? Stop being a fucking pussy, Nyla. Stop being a goddamn fucking pussy and grow the fuck up, dude, because what you're doing is a little boy move.
[5:24 - 5:30] A real man accepts another man's apology and moves on.
[5:30 - 5:38] You know, I was manning out to reach out to you to try to make amends with you.
[5:38 - 5:44] Because like I said, Friday night was the night that changed my life for the rest of my life.
[5:44 - 5:53] Friday night changed my life forever and changed my whole fucking life for good.
[5:53 - 6:00] It made me realize that you can't just sit there and stay fucking mad at somebody for the rest of your life.
[6:00 - 6:11] So maybe if you quit with that fucking bullshit ego of yours and you come the fuck down a few steps, you might actually realize that I'm actually trying to do good here.
[6:11 - 6:19] But you need to get rid of that fucking bullshit ass ego of yours, dude. You got an ego that your body can't catch, Nyla.
[6:19 - 6:35] You got a fucking ego that's too fucking big and you need to be brought down a peg or two. Your attitude is bullshit.
[6:35 - 6:44] Your ego is trash. I don't have an ego. You can ask anybody, dude.
[6:44 - 6:55] You know me. You know I ain't got an ego. I never have. That's why I stay humble because I don't let my ego get in a goddamn way unlike you.
[6:55 - 7:05] You need to touch your fucking ego, dude. You need to cut that fucking ego of yours down a notch.
[7:05 - 7:15] I'm over here trying to be humble to you and yours over here is fitting in my face. And for what?
[7:15 - 7:23] Because you're all of a sudden too fucking big? Like seriously, man?
[7:23 - 7:34] Grow up, Nyla. Cut your fucking ego and when you're ready to fucking man up and stop acting like a little boy and start acting like a goddamn man,
[7:34 - 7:43] and actually talk to me like a man instead of hiding like a little bitch and like a little fucking boy, then you can come talk to me.
[7:43 - 7:54] But seriously, dude, you need to drop that fucking ego. You're a good dude. Don't get me wrong, Nyla.
[7:54 - 8:06] You're a good guy. But you're letting your ego cloud your judgment. And that's sad.
[8:06 - 8:15] That's sad that you're letting your ego cloud your judgment. I don't let my ego cloud my judgment. I keep my ego in check.
[8:15 - 8:21] And maybe it's time that you put yours in check too, Nyla.
[8:21 - 8:30] So, like I said, when you can get your fucking bullshit ass oversized ego in fucking check,
[8:30 - 8:38] when you can get your oversized bullshit ass little boy ego in fucking check, then come fucking talk to me.
[8:38 - 8:44] When you can fucking realize that Friday night almost got me killed, then come fucking talk to me.
[8:44 - 8:52] When you're ready to get rid of that fucking little boy attitude, that bullshit ass ego, then you can come and fucking talk to me.
[8:52 - 9:02] But until then, fuck your ego. Cut the goddamn ego. Humble the fuck up and stop being a little bitch boy.
[9:02 - 9:16] Humble up, Nyla. Humble the fuck up and cut the goddamn ego. Because that's where you're going wrong in your life, is your bullshit ass ego.
[9:16 - 9:21] Your bullshit ass ego is what's getting you in the way of your damn self.
[9:21 - 9:32] I don't let my ego get in the way. I keep my shit in check. So get your shit in check.