2022-11-6 SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME !!!!!! (Facebook)

[1:03 - 1:10] >> I'm sorry if I look really bad, but
[1:14 - 1:20] A lot's happened these last three days.
[1:30 - 1:39] Just a couple days ago, I was doing a live stream and it was on YouTube.
[1:39 - 1:44] I was doing a live stream speaking out against somebody that had bullied me and
[1:44 - 1:50] had caused me years and years of anguish and stress and hurt and
[1:50 - 1:54] there's an all around evil person and
[1:59 - 2:05] Somebody had tried to kill me while I was on a live stream.
[2:12 - 2:19] And no police aren't doing anything to help.
[2:29 - 2:34] And I wanna show you guys the footage.
[2:37 - 2:40] But before I show you guys the footage, I want you guys to see these photos.
[2:46 - 2:48] Right here is where it entered the windowsill.
[2:51 - 2:53] It went through my bedroom windowsill.
[3:03 - 3:07] And as you can see right there, it entered my fucking bed.
[3:32 - 3:41] All that's been going through my head the last few days is that could have been me.
[3:41 - 3:44] That bullet was meant for me.
[3:44 - 3:47] Whoever fired that round.
[3:57 - 4:00] Whoever fired that round had the intent to kill me.
[4:45 - 4:49] And I wanna show you guys the video footage that I took.
[5:45 - 5:48] Now if you guys didn't catch that.
[6:14 - 6:18] That bullet went through my fucking window and was meant for me.
[6:41 - 6:48] Now the police did come out here and whatnot, but these guys are basically refusing.
[6:50 - 6:53] These guys are basically refusing to fucking out.
[6:59 - 7:04] For the last five years, I've been a victim of targeted bullying and harassment on the internet.
[7:08 - 7:12] I've been a victim of cyber stalking, death threats.
[7:15 - 7:23] And now this, and at one point the cops unlawfully labeled me as a 43, which means mentally disturbed.
[7:24 - 7:29] All because of this shit going on and they don't wanna do a damn thing about it.
[7:31 - 7:34] My family has no money for a lawyer.
[7:34 - 7:38] There is no legal aid here in Ohio.
[7:49 - 7:52] I've been the victim of entrapment.
[7:58 - 8:00] Cyber bullying.
[8:03 - 8:08] And a couple years ago, it got to the point where I almost took my own life.
[8:08 - 8:12] Twice in a row, I had attempted to take my life because of this shit.
[8:14 - 8:17] Because the police would not fucking do a damn thing about it.
[8:21 - 8:27] These people have put my life in danger, my mom's life in danger, who I owe my whole life to.
[8:29 - 8:32] Without my mom, I wouldn't be here today.
[8:40 - 8:43] They put my stepdad in danger.
[8:45 - 8:48] My dog, Greg, who was literally my best friend.
[8:52 - 8:56] I can't go anywhere or do anything without being alert of fear.
[8:57 - 9:01] I can't go outside and do the things that I used to do six years ago.
[9:03 - 9:07] Before all this six years ago, I used to do a lot of photography.
[9:07 - 9:11] And if you guys would like to see that, you guys are more than welcome to go see my photo,
[9:11 - 9:14] my photography album on Facebook, I have a portfolio.
[9:14 - 9:17] You guys are more than welcome to go look at that.
[9:19 - 9:23] I used to do that all the time, but now I'm stuck inside all the time.
[9:26 - 9:31] My home is because my home has become a prison, more than a home.
[9:34 - 9:39] The police are blatantly refusing to do anything about any of this.
[9:43 - 9:49] I've lost out on 500 grand in ad revenue on YouTube alone,
[9:49 - 9:53] as a content creator because of these people.
[9:55 - 9:58] I've had several of my songs stolen away from me,
[9:58 - 10:02] and re-released by some other person that I don't even know,
[10:02 - 10:07] who now has the copyrights to my music, to those four songs that they stole.
[10:08 - 10:10] One of which was a fan favorite.
[10:13 - 10:17] I can't go anywhere without being an alert of fear.
[10:20 - 10:24] I now have to carry protection on me at all fucking times,
[10:24 - 10:26] wherever I fucking go.
[10:28 - 10:32] I'm always looking over my shoulder to see what's going on.
[10:32 - 10:39] Even now, I'm paying attention also a little bit to that window,
[10:39 - 10:44] because what happened the other night.
[10:54 - 11:01] I just want my life back.
[11:04 - 11:06] That's all I wanted to get my life back.
[11:11 - 11:14] I just want to have my normal life that I had back.
[11:17 - 11:19] I'm tired of being attacked.
[11:23 - 11:25] I'm tired of being bullied.
[11:25 - 11:29] I'm tired of the cops and I'm fucking doing anything.
[12:50 - 12:55] How am I supposed to do anything with my life when I'm always being attacked?
[12:57 - 13:03] Because my whole life all I've ever wanted to do was help people like myself to get bullied.
[13:03 - 13:05] Create music for those that are like me.
[13:08 - 13:16] But how am I supposed to do my job and help those when I'm constantly being attacked?
[13:26 - 13:32] You know, people say for me to, you know, stay off the Internet, it'll be safe.
[13:32 - 13:34] No, it won't.
[13:34 - 13:36] It is not safe off the Internet.
[13:39 - 13:41] It is not fucking safe.
[13:43 - 13:47] I've had people show up to my house that I don't know.
[13:51 - 13:56] I've had friends lose their jobs.
[13:56 - 14:03] I lost my job with a major record label and several companies that I had worked for prior to that label.
[14:06 - 14:17] I've had people send a dead baby pig showing the mother's fetal sac to my house.
[14:20 - 14:27] And then just the other night, just two days ago, I almost got fucking killed.
[14:27 - 14:30] Right there in that very spot.
[14:30 - 14:37] Had I been laying there and that bullet wouldn't have been a little bit higher.
[14:40 - 14:43] I wouldn't be here right now.
[14:43 - 14:50] And the cops are blatantly refusing to do anything about any of this.
[14:50 - 14:55] And it's been going on for over five fucking goddamn years.
[14:55 - 15:00] Five years I've been a goddamn fucking target.
[15:00 - 15:04] All because of that bitch candle and music biz Marty.
[15:04 - 15:07] AKA Nicholas Beagler.
[15:17 - 15:23] Anybody that fucking knows me knows that I'm a nice guy.
[15:23 - 15:29] Not that my good friend Lynn here can tell you that I'm a good person.
[15:29 - 15:33] Carolyn here can tell you that I'm a good person.
[15:33 - 15:38] Even Tony here can tell you that I'm a nice person.
[15:38 - 15:42] I would never wanna do any harm to anyone.
[15:42 - 15:43] Cuz that's not me.
[15:43 - 15:44] That's not in my nature.
[15:44 - 15:46] That's not what I'm about.
[15:46 - 15:48] If anything, I'm about helping people.
[15:48 - 15:50] I'm about saving lives.
[15:50 - 15:57] I'm about being that voice for those that get bullied,
[15:57 - 16:02] for those that get harassed, for those that deal with depression and suicide.
[16:02 - 16:04] For those that get victimized.
[16:04 - 16:07] Those are the people that I do the music for.
[16:07 - 16:09] Because I was that dude.
[16:09 - 16:10] I was that guy.
[16:11 - 16:14] My whole life growing up I was bullied.
[16:19 - 16:21] My whole life I was bullied.
[16:21 - 16:23] I'm 32 years old now.
[16:25 - 16:28] The day I was born was the day I was supposed to fucking die.
[16:30 - 16:33] I was born with a 1% chance of survival.
[16:35 - 16:41] When I was born, I was born with one kidney and one very severely underdeveloped lung.
[16:42 - 16:45] My head was the size of my mom's face.
[16:45 - 16:49] And my arms and legs were the size of her pinkies.
[16:52 - 16:57] And I was born so premature that I had to be in an incubator and cellophane wrap
[16:57 - 17:02] just so my skin could thicken up for six months I was in an incubator.
[17:02 - 17:07] And the doctors gave me a 1% chance of survival.
[17:14 - 17:17] But yet here I am 32 years later.
[17:19 - 17:23] Trying to do what I can to help people because my whole life I've been bullied.
[17:24 - 17:28] My whole life growing up, I've been picked on, attacked, bullied.
[17:32 - 17:35] I'm 32 years old, I don't need this.
[17:40 - 17:47] When I started doing music, my older brother had just gotten diagnosed with cancer.
[17:49 - 17:53] And I figured just maybe if I put my musical skill to use,
[17:53 - 17:56] I could help out with Dr. Bill's.
[17:57 - 18:02] My whole high school career was spent in and out of hospitals, helping my brother,
[18:02 - 18:05] helping my mom to take care of my brother.
[18:05 - 18:12] My whole high school career from ninth grade on was spent helping my brother.
[18:19 - 18:22] Going to doctor visits, going to treatments.
[18:24 - 18:27] I had to slowly watch my brother die.
[18:29 - 18:34] Every day was agonizing for me because I didn't know.
[18:36 - 18:39] I didn't know when the last time I was gonna see him would be.
[18:47 - 18:54] And then that night, a week before his birthday, he went into the hospital.
[18:58 - 19:08] The last time I saw him was on a video call on his birthday on January 23rd of 2015.
[19:12 - 19:16] And then on February 3rd, he died from lung cancer.
[19:21 - 19:25] And my older brother was like the father figure that I never had in my life.
[19:25 - 19:28] I never had that father figure.
[19:28 - 19:31] And my older brother was basically my father figure.
[19:40 - 19:46] And when I started doing YouTube, I knew I wanted to do something good.
[19:46 - 19:49] I knew that I wanted to help people in some way.
[19:51 - 19:57] And when I discovered my talent from music, I knew that's when I wanted to help people through my music.
[19:57 - 20:03] I wanted to write songs about being bullied, going through depression, dealing with suicide.
[20:03 - 20:05] Because I know what it's like because I've been there.
[20:13 - 20:24] And then just about a week ago, after five years of being bullied and being harassed, I started to get better.
[20:24 - 20:30] I started to make a change for the better to where I thought I could start doing stuff that I enjoy doing again.
[20:30 - 20:38] Like working on music, doing photography, working on artwork, filming music videos, doing stuff that I enjoy doing.
[20:42 - 20:48] But the other night when that bullet went through my fucking window and I realized what had happened.
[20:48 - 20:52] My whole world got turned to fuck upside down.
[20:54 - 20:56] That's when it hit me.
[20:58 - 21:04] That's when it fucking hit me that I almost got killed and I could have been me.
[21:04 - 21:11] Had I been laying on that bed.
[21:12 - 21:14] I wouldn't be here.
[21:24 - 21:31] These people have been targeting me for no reason at all.
[21:33 - 21:36] All they want to get out of me is clicks and views.
[21:36 - 21:38] To them, I'm a cash cow.
[21:38 - 21:41] To them, I'm constant and that's all they've ever seen me as.
[21:46 - 21:50] Because I'm that weird looking guy that was born different.
[21:50 - 21:54] I'm that weird looking guy that actually has a knack for music.
[21:58 - 22:03] I'm that guy that enjoys helping people, spending time with his friends and family and having fun.
[22:09 - 22:15] And anybody that's ever seen any of my vlogs with my best friend Jake, who is literally like my little brother.
[22:21 - 22:24] Anybody that has ever seen those vlogs and knows.
[22:28 - 22:31] That I'm a good dude and I like hanging out with my friends.
[22:31 - 22:34] I like hanging out with my family and recording music.
[22:38 - 22:42] But yet, I don't get to do that because I'm the weird guy, right?
[22:42 - 22:45] I'm the one everybody has to fucking target.
[22:45 - 22:47] I'm the one everybody has to fucking bully.
[22:50 - 22:54] I'm the one that everybody has to fucking go after for no fucking reason.
[22:54 - 22:58] And yeah, I've done a lot of bad shit.
[22:58 - 23:00] I'm not gonna hide it.
[23:00 - 23:05] But that bad shit was caused by me being bullied by these people.
[23:05 - 23:11] These people have pushed me and pushed me so bad to where I started doing shit that was outlandish.
[23:11 - 23:19] I started doing shit that isn't right, that I'm embarrassed about, that I regret, that I'm ashamed to say that I did.
[23:19 - 23:25] But at the same fucking time, all those actions that I did,
[23:28 - 23:36] All those actions were out of me being provoked and pushed and bullied for the last five fucking years.
[23:36 - 23:43] And the fact that the police blatantly refuse to do a goddamn thing about it is appalling to me.
[23:43 - 23:50] Like, what's it gonna take for them to do anything? For me to actually get shot and killed?
[23:50 - 23:54] Or one of my family members? Or how about one of my friends?
[24:11 - 24:14] What I've gone through is beyond fucked up.
[24:35 - 24:41] Now, I wanna show you guys something right quick.
[24:41 - 24:44] This song right here is one of my latest songs.
[24:44 - 24:52] Now, I recorded it last night when I was trying not to fucking bawl my eyes out again for the umpteenth time in the last fucking three days.
[27:01 - 27:06] Let me show you guys one of my songs that I recorded just the other night.
[27:11 - 27:19] And once you guys hear this, you guys will see why a lot of people tell me that I should be doing this without being trolled.
[27:19 - 27:25] Like, I should be making money and making a living off this.
[53:28 - 53:33] I'm just knowing that I almost died. It's scary.
[53:43 - 53:56] Just knowing that I was near feet right there, mere feet, mere inches away from death that close.
[53:58 - 54:06] If I had been laying in that bed, I wouldn't be here right now.
[54:06 - 54:16] If I had been laying in that bed when that gunshot went off, I wouldn't be here.
[54:36 - 54:42] The fact that nobody's, that the police won't help me put a stop to all this shit that I've been through.
[54:52 - 55:03] Let me tell you, for the first time in three weeks, in three days, for the first time in three fucking days, I'm near a couple hours ago, I actually managed to get some sleep.
[55:03 - 55:10] For the past three days, I had not slept until about three hours ago.
[55:10 - 55:15] Three hours ago was the first time I ever got any sleep in the last three days.
[55:20 - 55:32] All I know is that I want this person who tried to kill me found so that not only does he pay for what he tried to do to me, but so that no other family has to go through that.
[55:35 - 55:55] So if anybody can do anything to fucking help find this guy or can help me get in contact with an actual lawyer who will actually listen and take my case or a private investigator or somebody that can actually do something about all this shit and put a stop to all this, please do so.
[56:22 - 56:35] I want this nightmare to end not just so I can get better for myself, but so I can get better for my family so that I can get back to the matter of fact, Devin can even tell you how I was before this.
[56:35 - 56:40] My boy Nitro here can tell you that before all this, I used to hang out all the time.
[56:40 - 56:45] I was actually a chill dude and I was always happy, always having fun.
[57:04 - 57:16] Like I said, when you're on the internet, trolling is easy to ignore, but when it goes from being on the internet to real fucking life, that's when someone needs to step in and say stop.
[57:17 - 57:30] And the fact that they put my life and my family's lives in danger just a couple nights ago is honestly, the other night was honestly the scariest moment of my entire life.
[57:33 - 57:38] The other night was literally the scariest moment of my whole fucking life.
[57:39 - 57:41] Without a doubt.
[57:42 - 57:46] Just knowing that had I been laying on that bed.
[57:50 - 57:53] Like it's a very scary thing to think about.
[58:08 - 58:19] Well, Vince, there's a reason for that, dude, is because we've had contractors over all day and we were supposed to move it today, but we had contractors over today and we had a gas leak earlier today.
[58:19 - 58:26] So I haven't really gotten the chance to do anything about it, but today I'll probably end up moving it.
[58:47 - 58:58] But I'm telling you, man, this shit that I've been through, this shit that I've been through, I would not wish on my worst enemy.
[58:58 - 58:59] I wouldn't.
[59:08 - 59:14] I can genuinely say I would never wish what I've been through in the last five years on my worst enemy.
[59:19 - 59:21] Because no one deserves this.
[59:23 - 59:36] And as I said, if anybody out there can, you know, please help me, like, find a lawyer, find somebody that will help me put an end to this shit.
[59:36 - 59:44] And be serious about it, you know, like, if there's anybody out there that knows a lawyer that can, you know, help me put a stop to this,
[59:44 - 59:56] a private investigator, a police officer out of state that will actually take this seriously and actually do something about all this, please, please do so.
[59:56 - 60:08] My DMs are always open, my phone line, and my text messages are always open 24/7, 365 days a year.
[60:08 - 60:13] So let me tell you, man, I want to get my life back.
[60:13 - 60:36] I do, I want to get my life back so fucking bad.
[60:36 - 60:43] Like, I really and truly want to get my life back so fucking bad that you guys don't know.
[60:56 - 61:05] And to Vincent, let me tell you this, dude, I'm the kind of person that when you say that you're a badass, like, if you want to sit there and talk shit,
[61:05 - 61:15] I'm the kind of dude that was raised old school.
[61:15 - 61:27] I'm the kind of dude that was raised old school, man, when, and I know, Devin, I know you grew up in this same kind of way that I did, bro.
[61:27 - 61:37] I'm the kind of dude where you say that you're a badass or you say that you're this and that.
[61:37 - 61:40] I want you to show me how big you fucking really are.
[61:40 - 61:49] I want you to show me how tough you are.
[61:49 - 62:00] Because back in my day when, this is how things were back in my day.
[62:00 - 62:15] I think this little clip right here puts it perfectly.
[62:15 - 62:19] I'm not here to say one generation is better than another.
[62:19 - 62:21] The Generation X is the best.
[62:21 - 62:25] I actually think it's kind of funny when I see these little kids coming at people from my generation.
[62:25 - 62:33] You see, when you're a generation raised on safe spaces, it's not wise to come out of generation raised on mosh pits.
[62:33 - 62:40] See, when we had a problem with somebody, we couldn't text it to them from like 30 miles away and hide behind a screen.
[62:40 - 62:42] We had to say it to their faces.
[62:42 - 62:46] And yeah, sometimes hands were thrown, bruises were caused.
[62:46 - 62:47] You know what else happened?
[62:47 - 62:50] Skin was thick and hearts were hardened.
[62:50 - 62:52] Words don't scare us.
[62:52 - 62:55] We were raised on your mama jokes starting in like kindergarten.
[62:55 - 62:58] In my generation, only the strong survive.
[62:58 - 63:02] Look, there's like 88 million millennials, 77 million boomers.
[63:02 - 63:05] There's only 65 million Generation X.
[63:05 - 63:07] We chilled off the weak ones.
[63:07 - 63:10] I said what I said.
[63:10 - 63:21] I'm not here to say one generation is better than another.
[63:21 - 63:26] And that right there, what that guy said, that's how I was raised.
[63:26 - 63:32] I'm the kind of dude where if you say that you're going to fight me, I want you to show up and show me how big you are.
[63:32 - 63:39] If you're going to sit there and say that you're tough and that you're big and you're bad, I want you to show me how big and bad you are.
[63:39 - 63:44] Because like that dude said, I was raised on mosh pits.
[63:44 - 63:49] I was raised around bikers and military personnel my whole fucking life.
[63:49 - 63:53] I was raised fighting my whole goddamn life.
[63:53 - 64:02] So if you're going to sit there and make friends and say like, oh, I'm going to beat your ass, oh man, show the fuck up and show me how big you are then.
[64:02 - 64:05] Show me how fucking tough you are.
[64:05 - 64:13] Because I guarantee you, none of you pussy motherfucker trolls that do this shit to me are as tough as I am.
[64:13 - 64:16] I stared the grim reaper in the face as a baby.
[64:16 - 64:22] I looked straight in the face as a baby the day I was born.
[64:22 - 64:26] And I'm still here.
[64:26 - 64:27] What do you got?
[64:27 - 64:30] Your little safe spaces on Facebook and YouTube, man.
[64:30 - 64:33] Fuck your safe space, dude.
[64:33 - 64:39] I stared death in the face when I was a baby and fucking survived.
[64:39 - 65:08] Of the 1% chance of survival, I stared death in the face and I'm here.
[65:08 - 65:27] But as I was saying, though, if anybody out there can please, please fucking help me do so because this shit needs to stop before someone gets fucking hurt.
[65:27 - 65:40] Or worse, I end up dead just as I almost ended up dead the other night.
[65:40 - 65:53] I'm tired of living in fear, living in fear for my family, for my life, for myself, for my friends. I'm tired of it. I want my fucking goddamn life back.
[65:53 - 66:02] So fucking bad that you guys don't even know.
[66:02 - 66:12] So as I said, if anybody out there can please help me, please do it because the cops here in Ohio, they don't care.
[66:12 - 66:26] They cops here truly do not care about me because they think that I'm something that I'm not. They don't care.
[66:26 - 66:35] And I need somebody that does care to help.
[66:35 - 66:59] So please, if anybody can do anything to help me, whether it be helping me to get a lawyer or whether it be getting me a PI, whether it be doing something to stop all this, please reach out to me.
[66:59 - 67:11] As I said, my DMs are always open. My phone line's always open. If you guys have my number, you guys can call me. You guys can text me, anything.
[67:11 - 67:21] Look down at me and say, I love you guys and I'll catch you guys later.
[67:21 - 67:29] And as I said, someone, please help me do what I need at that.