2022-11-27 REMEMBERING THOSE WE ALL LOST

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[0:28 - 0:34] Good morning, good morning everybody.
[0:34 - 0:54] As you guys know with the holidays just around the corner, there's unfortunately a lot of people, military and otherwise that
[0:54 - 1:02] are unfortunately not able to spend the holidays here at home with us and unfortunately there's a lot of people that
[1:02 - 1:06] have unfortunately lost their lives to various reasons
[1:06 - 1:14] and seeing as the holidays are coming up man, I wanted to do something for those people to show
[1:14 - 1:24] and pay my respects not only to our men and women in uniform that are serving overseas and even in the police force that are not
[1:24 - 1:28] going to be able to be home with their families this year but also
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[1:33 - 1:45] I wanted to pay homage to those that are no longer unfortunately with us to various reasons
[1:45 - 1:51] and not going to lie today was another hard day for me
[1:51 - 1:58] because despite me being able to get out and hang out with my little brother Jake today
[1:58 - 2:05] when I was sitting down reading a lot of the spiteful things that people had said about me in various videos it hit hard
[2:05 - 2:08] like it really hit hard
[2:08 - 2:16] but it also made me realize that a lot of you people that talk negatively
[2:16 - 2:21] a lot of you people that speak negative about me
[2:21 - 2:28] you're angry at your own life and that's all it is
[2:28 - 2:31] you're angry with your own lives
[2:31 - 2:41] so you're being angry with your own life out on other people and I honestly feel bad for you for that
[2:41 - 2:47] I am truly sorry that your life is going in a shitty way
[2:47 - 2:52] but the only person that can change that is you
[2:52 - 2:55] but tonight's not about the trolls
[2:55 - 3:01] tonight is about paying our respects to those that we've loved
[3:01 - 3:03] to those that we've lost
[3:03 - 3:09] and to those that you know will not be able to be here and be home for the holidays
[3:09 - 3:18] as the holidays are right around the corner
[3:18 - 3:24] oh my no matter if you will please get rid of thank you
[3:24 - 3:37] didn't even say anything, thank you
[3:37 - 3:42] but to start off this show
[3:42 - 3:47] I wanted to make homage to a very good near and dear friend of mine
[3:47 - 3:52] who was the reason why I got brought into the juggle of community
[3:52 - 4:06] and got treated like family for so many years
[4:06 - 4:11] after my friend that brought me in, her name was Melissa Sullivan
[4:11 - 4:15] the day after she had passed away
[4:15 - 4:23] this song, I don't know why but it came on on the radio
[4:23 - 4:30] completely randomly and it was like, it was almost like she was speaking to me in a way
[4:30 - 4:34] telling me hey, everything's going to be okay
[4:34 - 4:40] so this first song I'd like to dedicate to one of my best friends Melissa
[4:40 - 4:46] who unfortunately is no longer with us to this day
[4:46 - 4:56] she passed away in 2017 due to heart failure and issues with her heart
[4:56 - 5:00] so this first song I'm dedicating to my dear friend Melissa
[5:00 - 5:05] and as a matter of fact for those of you that don't know or have not yet noticed
[5:05 - 5:13] I am wearing the dog tag that she sent to me right before she passed away
[5:13 - 5:20] she sent me this for my birthday a month before she had passed away
[5:20 - 5:26] and a lot of people don't realize this but I wear this all the time to remember her
[5:26 - 5:30] so Melissa, this first one's few sis
[5:30 - 5:38] and I want you to know that me and the others, we fucking miss you and we love you
[5:38 - 5:41] and we hope to see you again soon someday
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[10:49 - 10:59] Now this next one I'd like to dedicate to anybody out there that has lost anyone at all period
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[11:09 - 11:23] and if you guys have lost someone for any reason at all whether in the cancer suicide whether it be
[11:23 - 11:33] whatever reason whether it's a family member a friend a grandma a grandpa and uncle whoever it is
[11:33 - 11:39] if you guys have lost somebody in your life that you were truly close to for this next song
[11:39 - 11:49] I want you guys to put a candle with their name next to it as the song plays
[11:49 - 11:59] to show them that they are now forgotten that they are still here in your memories and they're still here in your fucking hearts every single fucking night and day
[11:59 - 12:05] can you guys do that
[12:05 - 12:13] because I know a lot of you guys are just like me and I know a lot of you guys have lost a lot of people just like God has
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[12:31 - 12:41] now when this song kicks in I want to see those candles with those names going for whoever you guys have lost
[12:41 - 12:45] I know I've certainly lost a lot of people in my life
[12:45 - 12:50] a lot of people that I truly cared about and a lot of people that I love to the moon and back
[12:50 - 12:54] people that I would give anything to have back
[12:54 - 13:00] people that I would give anything that I would give the world to bring back
[13:00 - 13:08] people that I would love to take the place of so that they can be here with us
[13:08 - 13:20] and I'm sure a lot of you guys feel the same way
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[18:30 - 18:34] Let me tell you guys something right now man
[18:34 - 18:42] everybody always asks me why do I have the attitude that I have
[18:42 - 18:50] why do I have this never say die attitude why do I have
[18:50 - 18:56] this fighting spirit that I do to fight bullying and to fight suicide
[18:56 - 19:00] like I do and let me tell you it's for a very good reason
[19:00 - 19:04] it's because of the people that are no longer with us
[19:04 - 19:10] those that are no longer here that were very close to me
[19:10 - 19:24] that I'm like that
[19:24 - 19:29] and a lot of you guys who sit there and make all the jokes that you want
[19:29 - 19:37] but you guys that talk crap you guys are just sad with your lives
[19:37 - 19:43] that's all it is you guys are just angry with your lives
[19:43 - 19:45] and I feel bad for you guys
[19:45 - 19:51] I'm honestly sorry that your guys lives are not going the way that you guys want
[19:51 - 20:08] I'm sorry
[20:08 - 20:13] and here's the thing Kat I will never see myself as famous
[20:13 - 20:20] I will always see myself the same as you and the same as everybody else here right now
[20:20 - 20:29] everybody that is here right now
[20:29 - 20:33] I do not see myself more important than me
[20:33 - 20:38] I do not and never will see myself more important than anybody
[20:38 - 20:43] I will never see myself as famous ever
[20:43 - 20:49] despite how famous I may be I will never see myself as famous ever
[20:49 - 20:57] because like you I'm one of you
[20:57 - 21:06] and that ain't ever gonna fucking change ever
[21:06 - 21:10] oh trust you man there's more than seven of you guys out there
[21:10 - 21:13] there's more than seven of y'all out there man
[21:13 - 21:17] there's a lot of people out there that actually support what I do
[21:17 - 21:43] and to those I want to say thank you
[21:43 - 22:00] trust you Kat I'm playing on it
[22:00 - 22:07] you know I've gone through a lot of shit these last five years
[22:07 - 22:12] but every single day that went by taught me a fucking lesson
[22:12 - 22:21] these five years I see as a lesson
[22:21 - 22:37] I don't see them as I mean yeah in a way they are bad
[22:37 - 22:48] but I see them more as lessons I see these things more as lessons
[22:48 - 23:16] that I had to learn over the years and they are lessons that are very well and I mean very well learned
[23:16 - 23:33] see
[23:33 - 24:02] which is why
[24:02 - 24:08] this song I'd like to dedicate to anybody out there like myself
[24:08 - 24:16] that's in the process of healing and getting well from whatever addiction you face
[24:16 - 24:23] because like you I know what it's like to be pinned down by addiction
[24:23 - 24:30] I know what it's like to be pinned down by depression
[24:30 - 24:35] I know what it feels like to be pinned down by suicide
[24:35 - 24:50] I know what it's like to be pinned down by the fear of people
[24:50 - 25:01] which is why I'm taking this journey of healing with you guys my fans because I want you guys to be able to see my progress
[25:01 - 25:06] as well as your own and know that you can make it through this shit
[25:06 - 25:12] I want my story and my progression to be able to inspire you guys
[25:12 - 25:21] I want my progression and my road to being better to be that story that inspires you guys to get through whatever you're going through
[25:21 - 25:50] and to know that if I can get through it so can you
[25:50 - 29:11] can you
[29:11 - 29:29] and you know for those of you that sit in the comments and hate that's okay
[29:29 - 29:37] and you want to know why it's okay
[29:37 - 29:53] you want to know why you guys doing that is okay to me because you guys are showing me how miserable you are with your lives
[29:53 - 30:07] that's all you're doing you're not affecting me at all you're just showing me how miserable you guys are
[30:07 - 30:18] and honestly I do hope that you guys seek the help that you need and I do hope that you guys get well at some point
[30:18 - 30:30] I really do I hope I pray to God that you guys get well at some point in time because you guys seem to think that you guys are affecting me
[30:30 - 30:49] but really you're just showing me how your guys' lives really are and it's it's truly sad to see you trolls doing this
[30:49 - 30:58] I mean you guys don't need to but you guys choose to because you're addicted to trolling and I feel bad that you're addicted to that
[30:58 - 31:10] I mean you can be addicted to anything else like doing music playing video games you know doing anything positive is good
[31:10 - 31:16] so my question to you is why be addicted to trolling
[31:16 - 31:22] why be addicted to a trolling
[31:22 - 31:35] why be addicted to trolling I mean nothing good comes out of it for anyone ever
[31:35 - 31:52] nothing good ever comes out of trolling for anyone period nothing good ever comes of it
[31:52 - 32:04] so my question to you is why do you troll why are you a troll instead of being part of the problem why not be part of the solution
[32:04 - 32:09] instead of being part of the negativity why not be part of the positivity
[32:09 - 32:22] why not quit the trolling and be positive for once and do good stuff and not bad shit like you trolls try to do to me
[32:22 - 32:45] because like I said nothing ever good comes out of trolling
[32:45 - 32:55] the only thing that comes out of it is hatred and negativity and honestly we've got enough negativity on this platform and in this world
[32:55 - 33:03] we don't need anymore we need more positive people we need more good shit not bad shit
[33:03 - 33:28] you feeling
[33:28 - 33:55] good
[33:55 - 34:24] you're just gonna have the chance on the right quick
[34:24 - 34:48] I mean I check my Facebook real quick and then I'll get right back in the next time
[34:48 - 35:12] now this next song is about nothing but positivity and how we need to make a change in this shit
[35:12 - 35:21] shoutout to my girl who's trying to put you on this next one
[35:21 - 35:49] our new song is here
[35:49 - 35:55] we have a lot of people who play more and they care a lot, who can save them, change them, that's what bad will happen
[35:55 - 55:38] how many people have signed a Bible line or wanted to join us today, now we can learn each other and look in the other way
[55:38 - 55:50] for the Wii, definitely need for Speed Pro Street and for Xbox, there's a few that I enjoy
[55:50 - 56:18] yeah, Animal Crossing is fun, it was though dude, Pokemon Coliseum was fun as fuck
[56:18 - 56:28] Frogger is a fucking club, dude I had that shit on Super Nintendo back in the day bro, yeah Pokemon Stadium was my shit
[56:28 - 56:40] and yes I got the fucking Mewtwo, I did the entire thing like I went through the castle the Elite Four and I got motherfucking Mewtwo unlocked
[56:40 - 56:54] and yes I played Pokemon Stadium too which was very underrated, thoughts on Pokemon HeartGold and SoulSilver, those were actually good
[56:54 - 57:03] I actually enjoyed HeartGold and SoulSilver, the reason why I got to play those, my little brother Jake had those before he ended up selling them because he didn't play them anymore
[57:03 - 57:12] and no I have not played Violet yet even though I want to
[57:12 - 57:24] Dead Island was my shit bro, yes
[57:24 - 57:38] I wouldn't say that we're cool but I think we have a better you know, respect and understanding for each other, I'll say that
[57:38 - 57:52] like I wouldn't say that you know we're really good friends but you know, I think we both have an understanding of where each other's coming from
[57:52 - 58:06] What kind of necklaces is that? This is, well the necklaces though, my little brother Jake made and then aside from this one right here that like I said my friend Melissa gave me before she passed
[58:06 - 58:20] not counting this right here, this dog tag, all these other ones are charms that fans gave me so
[58:20 - 58:26] looking forward to, definitely the new need for speed man, I'm definitely looking forward to that
[58:26 - 58:33] I do actually want to get it for PC for sure
[58:33 - 58:49] and if I can't get it for PC I do actually would like to get an Xbox Series S or X, that way I can actually get my hands on that
[58:49 - 58:52] Yeah, hold on
[58:52 - 58:57] That's all good, thanks, give me just a minute dude, I got shit out of the room for just one second here so
[58:57 - 59:06] I'm not going to cut the stream, I'm just going to slide this thing over right quick so, hold on
[59:06 - 59:13] Give me just one second, hey Final Fantasy was good too my friend
[59:13 - 59:20] I'm a huge Final Fantasy fan
[59:21 - 62:22] Thank you
[62:22 - 62:46] Ooh, shit
[62:46 - 62:49] Yo, guys, I'm gonna have to cut this shit fuckin' early
[62:49 - 62:52] Just seen a fuckin'
[62:52 - 62:58] Just seen a thing of thunder out there
[62:58 - 63:00] Shit
[63:00 - 63:05] So, I will catch you guys later on, man
[63:05 - 63:06] I hope you guys enjoyed this band
[63:06 - 63:08] If you did, be sure to smash that like button and subscribe
[63:08 - 63:10] and then I don't forget about that blog
[63:10 - 63:11] Fuckin' only, guys
[63:11 - 63:15] As soon as it's done stormin' out, I will hop back on, y'all
[63:15 - 63:17] Peace