2022-11-20 #nomoresuicide #antibullying #fuckbullies

[0:00 - 0:18] What's up everybody? Today I want to talk about something very serious. Something that I've
[0:18 - 0:33] dealt with for the last five years and something that we lose too many good people to on an
[0:33 - 0:46] almost daily basis and that thing is suicide as well as bullying. See a lot of y'all people
[0:46 - 1:03] that are young you come on here you run your mouse and push people around for no reason
[1:03 - 1:09] and then you take things to the next level like what you guys did with me when you guys
[1:09 - 1:22] tried to kill me on livestream and it's honestly sickening. We lose too many good fucking people
[1:22 - 1:34] because of suicide and bullying on a daily basis. We lost a lot of really good hearted
[1:34 - 1:49] people over the years. Robin Williams, Chris Cornell, Chester Bennington
[1:49 - 2:01] and then just a couple weeks ago Aaron Carter and then just today one of my childhood heroes
[2:01 - 2:10] and dear friends Jason David Frank who was the inspiration behind me sticking to my artwork
[2:10 - 2:20] and he was the reason why I didn't attempt suicide a third time a couple years ago. When
[2:20 - 2:27] I was pushed to the edge of suicide I had attempted to take my life twice in a row
[2:27 - 2:31] and I was contemplating it a third time but when I reached out to him and spoke to him
[2:31 - 2:40] he kept me from doing it a third time and you guys want to sit here and act like this
[2:40 - 2:48] shit is some sort of game. Y'all want to sit here and act like trolling on the internet
[2:48 - 3:00] doesn't affect people but it does. It really fucking does. This shit affects more people
[3:00 - 3:15] than you guys fucking realize. You same trolls that went after Chris Chan are the same ones
[3:15 - 3:23] that go after me every day. The same trolls that attacked Chris Chan and put him in a
[3:23 - 3:30] really bad position are the same ones that bully me every fucking day of the week by
[3:30 - 3:37] making videos about me, by trolling me, by attacking me, attacking my friends, attacking
[3:37 - 3:48] my family, trying to kill me when I'm on a livestream like you guys did two weeks ago.
[3:48 - 4:11] That's enough. I've lost a lot of good friends growing up to suicide. A lot. And then just
[4:11 - 4:19] today I learned that the man that kept me from taking my own life had passed away. The
[4:19 - 4:26] man who inspired me to keep going and keep living my fucking life and to keep inspiring
[4:26 - 4:34] others the way that he inspired me. This is why y'all need to check on your people
[4:34 - 4:39] man. This is why you guys need to look out for your own, look out for your people, look
[4:39 - 4:48] out for your friends, your family, look out for each other. I know I'm just one person
[4:48 - 4:56] and I know that I can't change the world. But as long as I can help someone get through
[4:56 - 5:02] their fucking day and let them know that someone here cares, then I'm doing my fucking
[5:02 - 5:11] job. I don't, I don't do this shit for the money. I don't. To me, money is just a byproduct
[5:11 - 5:17] of what I do. For me, helping people means more to me than any amount of money in the
[5:17 - 5:31] fucking world. Helping people out through their day. Helping people to understand that
[5:31 - 5:38] they're not alone. Helping people out in any way that I can, whether it be making them
[5:38 - 5:44] laugh, smile, being a good friend. Helping them out in any way I can. That's my fucking
[5:44 - 5:53] job. The money is just a byproduct.
[5:53 - 6:19] Helping people out, whether it be, whether it be being a good friend, whether it be
[6:19 - 6:26] talking them down from suicide, whether it be just helping them out with something,
[6:26 - 6:34] whether, you know, that's being a good friend, helping them out with something, whether
[6:34 - 6:40] that be being a shoulder for them to lean on, being there for them to talk to, letting
[6:40 - 6:45] them know that someone cares. That means more to me than any amount of money in the
[6:45 - 6:54] fucking world. And you fucking trolls, you go around thinking you're so badass but you're
[6:54 - 7:19] fucking not. You're human just like the rest of us. And it's fucking sickening. The fact
[7:19 - 7:26] that you guys can so blatantly sit there and bully someone to the point to where they
[7:26 - 7:49] commit suicide, it's sickening to me. It's sickening to see. Give me just a minute guys,
[7:49 - 8:13] give me just a minute. Give me just a minute. Give me just a minute. Give me just a minute.
[8:13 - 8:42] Give me just a minute.
[8:42 - 9:04] I'm tired of seeing this bullying go over like this. What I want to know, honestly,
[9:04 - 9:15] is how are we going to stop this? When is this shit going to fucking stop? You want
[9:15 - 9:25] to know what I want to do? I'm making this message for anybody out there that has been
[9:25 - 9:35] murdered by Mastrol Mafia, William Gory Holt, Music Biz Marnie, or anybody that's a victim
[9:35 - 9:46] of these people like Chris Shannon was. I'm making this video as a message reaching out
[9:46 - 10:07] to anybody out there who has actually been a victim of these people. If any of you are
[10:07 - 10:16] truly out there, this is for you. I want to gather you guys together so that we can combat
[10:16 - 10:23] this and so that you guys can have a chance to tell your fucking story, so you guys can
[10:23 - 10:34] have a chance to bring this to the light. Because like you guys, I've been a victim
[10:34 - 10:40] of these people for five years now, going on six at the end of this year. And like you
[10:40 - 10:49] guys, I want it to stop. I want all of our stories to be brought to the light so that
[10:49 - 10:58] we can try to fucking put a stop to this bullying. We've already lost way too many
[10:58 - 11:04] people to suicide. Because of these people, there have been a lot of people that have
[11:04 - 11:11] ended their lives because of suicide. Because of these people doing what they do. And I
[11:11 - 11:16] for one am sick and tired of just standing here and not doing nothing and not being able
[11:16 - 11:32] to do nothing. I want you guys that have been victimized to be able to tell your story and
[11:32 - 11:38] to help bring this situation to the light. Because two weeks ago, I was almost killed
[11:38 - 11:44] by these trolls. These same trolls that attacked you guys were the same ones that tried to
[11:44 - 12:07] kill me two weeks ago. And I'll be honest, I'm tired of seeing this crap go on. No one
[12:07 - 12:16] deserves to get bullied. No one. Yes, I may have done stuff out of self defense, but that's
[12:16 - 12:31] not a bullying. That's me defending myself and fighting back. Because I'm sick and tired
[12:31 - 12:40] of just sitting here and watching good people get hurt because of bullying. And it kills
[12:40 - 12:51] me seeing these these good people that are just like us. Sadly taking their own lives
[12:51 - 13:03] because of these people. It's sickening to me. I'd say it's about goddamn time we fucking
[13:03 - 13:12] fight back. I'd say it's about goddamn time we do something about it. Because I'm tired
[13:12 - 13:24] of fucking seeing this shit happen. It's not fair to you guys that you guys have to
[13:24 - 13:53] be so shut in in the dark that you don't want to say anything.
[13:53 - 14:00] I'm tired of seeing this shit go on. And for those of you guys that have been bullied
[14:00 - 14:06] by these same people that bully me, I want you to know that I am so sorry that you went
[14:06 - 14:18] through that. And just like you, I'm a victim as well. And I want to help you guys. I want
[14:18 - 14:33] to fucking help you fight back. I want to help you guys to be able to tell your story.
[14:33 - 14:41] And I'm not talking just some stupid troll shit. No. I mean, I want the real you guys,
[14:41 - 14:46] the real victims to be able to come out and tell your story about what these people have
[14:46 - 15:14] put you through.
[15:14 - 15:21] No one deserves this. And for those of you that have attempted suicide and survived because
[15:21 - 15:32] of these people, I want you to know that I'm with you because I was that person. I
[15:32 - 15:41] am a victim. I am a survivor of suicide two times over. And what is that third if my
[15:41 - 15:49] friends and family and people like Jason David Frank had not stepped in. I would not be
[15:49 - 16:01] here right now if it was not for any of them. And you trolls can sit there and laugh all
[16:01 - 16:08] you want and say what you want, but your little shitty comments don't fucking matter.
[16:08 - 16:27] You think that they do, but they really don't. You guys can, you trolls can sit there and
[16:27 - 16:42] laugh all you want, say what you want. Your fucking shitty comments, they don't matter.
[16:42 - 17:08] They really don't. These people have done a lot of fucked up things to me as well.
[17:08 - 17:18] Not just you guys. These people have done some of the most sickening things that you
[17:18 - 17:36] could ever imagine. These people told me into making disgusting videos that they then took
[17:36 - 17:47] and ran all over the internet with. And it's sickening. I'm tired of being a victim of
[17:47 - 17:59] these people. And for those of you out there that are victims, I want to help you. I want
[17:59 - 18:12] to help you fight back in any way that I can. I want you guys to be able to reach out to
[18:12 - 18:29] me and to not be afraid. Your story deserves to be told just as much as mine does. These
[18:29 - 18:38] people have been bullying me going on six years now and it's not okay. It's never okay
[18:38 - 18:51] to bully someone. It's never okay to put someone to suicide. That shit is never okay. Yes,
[18:51 - 18:57] I've said and done a lot of things that I do regret. But let me tell you something,
[18:57 - 19:11] all those things I said and did, I was forced into. I was bullied into. And I'm tired of
[19:11 - 19:26] just sitting here and being fucking quiet about it. Too many people take their lives
[19:26 - 19:35] every day from suicide. And you want to know what the number one, the number one contributor
[19:35 - 19:48] to suicide is? Bullying. The number one cause of suicide in the US alone, nine times out
[19:48 - 20:03] of 10 is bullying, whether it be on the internet or in real life. This shit needs to stop.
[20:03 - 20:07] I'm tired of watching good people and their lives because of this crap.
[20:07 - 20:35] And that is true toxic Avenger. That's another one. Over 23.
[20:35 - 20:57] Veterans take their lives every day from PTSD. Think about that. That's 23 veterans a day
[20:57 - 21:23] that take their lives because of PTSD. That's a lot of people. Now you take that number
[21:23 - 21:33] through victims of bullying and PTSD and multiply that by a year. Multiply all those people
[21:33 - 21:58] by a year. That's too many. Now they're doing construction on the outside of the house.
[21:58 - 22:08] You're definitely right. One suicide is too many. It should be zero. It really should
[22:08 - 22:34] be zero.
[22:34 - 23:02] But I'll be honest guys, I'm tired of seeing this shit go on. I'm tired of seeing this
[23:02 - 23:14] bullying on the internet going on. I'm sick and tired of seeing the bullying happen. I'm
[23:14 - 23:21] sick and tired of the trolling and I'm sure as hell I'm sick and tired of the suicide.
[23:21 - 23:30] I've already lost a lot of good friends growing up to suicide. And I lost a lot of heroes
[23:30 - 23:38] that I looked up to over the past few years. And then today I lost my number one childhood
[23:38 - 23:56] hero that inspired me to keep living and to keep fighting. And you guys stay here. You
[23:56 - 24:02] run around with your fucking shitty comments every day like you're badasses. Motherfuckers,
[24:02 - 24:29] you ain't shit. You trolls ain't shit.
[24:29 - 24:41] You trolls are trash. And you are going to be stopped one way or another. I might not
[24:41 - 24:45] be able to do it alone, but with the right help and the right people, trust me when
[24:45 - 25:14] I say all your victims, including me, will be fighting back. This shit ain't right.
[25:14 - 25:27] Which is why starting as soon as this stream ends, I'm going to be putting together a petition
[25:27 - 25:33] to try to put a stop to this shit. And I'm going to be reaching out to a good friend
[25:33 - 25:43] of mine that I'm actually working with on this to try to stop this. Because I would
[25:43 - 25:50] rather save a life than to sit there and do nothing. I would rather try to help someone
[25:50 - 25:55] than to be another victim. I would rather help someone knowing that I've saved their
[25:55 - 26:02] life than to just sit there and let them go through it. Because I've been through
[26:02 - 26:08] enough already. I've been through it way too many times already to know that no one
[26:08 - 26:15] deserves this shit. No one deserves to be bullied. No one deserves to be put at the
[26:15 - 26:25] brink of suicide. No one deserves to be trolled. No one deserves to be bullied. No one deserves
[26:25 - 26:42] to lose their life. So I will leave you guys with this. For those of you that are dealing
[26:42 - 26:54] with suicide, as somebody that's a survivor of it twice over, I just want to say just
[26:54 - 27:05] please don't do it. It's not worth it. You ending your own life is a permanent solution
[27:05 - 27:12] to a temporary problem. Trust me when I say that suicide is never the answer. And it's
[27:12 - 27:23] not worth it. No matter what you're going through, suicide is never the fucking answer.
[27:23 - 27:29] And I know it might seem hard what you're going through. But trust me when I say you
[27:29 - 27:40] can get through this. If I can get through it, so can you. And just know that you guys
[27:40 - 27:47] have somebody here that genuinely cares about you. Not just as a YouTuber, as an influencer,
[27:47 - 27:57] but as a person, as a human being, I care about you. All you out there that, you know,
[27:57 - 28:03] all of you out there that go through depression, that go through suicide, I want you guys
[28:03 - 28:10] to know that I am with you and I stand with you 100%. And I want to help you. And just
[28:10 - 28:19] please know that I care. I genuinely, genuinely care. And I'm not just blowing smoke up your
[28:19 - 28:34] ass. I actually care. Because I've been where you're at. I've been on the edge. I've been
[28:34 - 28:39] where you've been at. And it's no fun place to be. And trust me when I say I know it's
[28:39 - 28:44] like to feel like the whole world is against you. I know what it feels like to know, to
[28:44 - 28:50] feel like no one cares. Like no one gives a shit. Like you're better off dead. I know
[28:50 - 28:58] what it's like to wake up and wish you had not woken up. I know it's like to go to sleep
[28:58 - 29:03] at night hoping and praying to God that you don't wake up the next day and that you somehow
[29:03 - 29:09] rather get taken from this world. I know what that's like because I lived through it for
[29:09 - 29:23] the last five years. And I want you to know that I care. And that you guys have somebody
[29:23 - 29:29] here that actually cares about you and understand what it's like to go through that. And that
[29:29 - 29:35] you're not alone in this fight. You have someone here that gives a fuck about you,
[29:35 - 29:40] that cares about you, that wants to talk to you, that wants to listen, that wants to
[29:40 - 29:50] help you in any way that I can. Fuck all these trolls. Fuck whoever is talking down to you.
[29:50 - 29:56] I want you to know that even if you don't know me, I'm your friend. I care about you.
[29:56 - 30:15] I've got your back. Fuck what these other people say. I got your back. I'm your friend.
[30:15 - 30:24] I'm here for you. And just know that suicide is not the answer. Keep living your life.
[30:24 - 30:35] Keep fighting. Do it for yourself. Do it for those around you that care. For those that
[30:35 - 30:47] care, do it for them. And if not for them, do it for yourself. Don't go out like this.
[30:47 - 31:16] It's not worth it. Trust me, it's not. As I'm sure you can see, I get bullied all
[31:16 - 31:21] the time. Just take a look at the comments in this stream right now. People in the comments
[31:21 - 31:28] right now run their mouths talking shit because they think they're badasses, but really they're
[31:28 - 31:34] just weak. They're weak-minded, pathetic people that aren't doing anything with their
[31:34 - 31:42] lives. That's all the trolls are. They are weak-minded, pathetic people that are projecting
[31:42 - 31:49] their own insecurities onto you and to myself because they don't want to face the reality
[31:49 - 32:00] of what's going on. They don't want to do something about their own life and because
[32:00 - 32:14] of that, they feel miserable, so they have to take it out on people like us for no reason.
[32:14 - 32:31] And these people hide behind their names, they hide behind their comments and for what?
[32:31 - 32:43] You're talking to somebody that had somebody try to kill him two weeks ago because I tell
[32:43 - 32:57] the truth. I tell the truth like it is and I don't hold back. I would rather stand alone
[32:57 - 33:16] and tell the truth than to sit down and be quiet and not do anything. So you know what
[33:16 - 33:27] you're saying? And I say fuck suicide. Fuck the trolls. Fuck the hatred. Let's fucking
[33:27 - 33:39] stand up and do something about it. Oh, and Jared Genesis, fuck you, you piece of shit.
[33:39 - 33:45] You're a fucking cloud chaser. That's all you are. You're a pathetic fucking cloud
[33:45 - 33:50] chaser. You're looking for 15 seconds of fame. Well, guess what, kid? Enjoy a while
[33:50 - 34:01] at last. You got your 15 seconds, asshole. You got your 15 seconds. And guess what?
[34:01 - 34:07] You can take that 15 seconds of fame and shove it up your fucking ass for supporting
[34:07 - 34:13] bullying and suicide and laughing about someone's death. You can take your clout and you can
[34:13 - 34:22] just shove it up your fucking ass. Take your 15 seconds of fame and go fuck yourself. It's
[34:22 - 34:30] people like you that I can't stand. You want to sit there and laugh about someone's suicide?
[34:30 - 34:38] You ain't ever been on the edge of suicide, boy. I guarantee you ain't ever been there.
[34:38 - 34:45] I have. So I have every right to speak on it. I have been there. And I know I'm not
[34:45 - 34:54] the only one. So trust me when I say, Jared, you need to shut the fuck up. Because one
[34:54 - 34:57] of these days, kid, you're going to run you around for the wrong duty. And you know what
[34:57 - 35:04] they're going to do? They're going to fucking beat your ass. Don't believe me? Keep on
[35:04 - 35:10] doing what you're doing. Fuck with the wrong dude. Watch how fast you get your ass beat.
[35:10 - 35:16] And I'm not threatening you. I'm talking real fucking life, dude. You don't straighten the
[35:16 - 35:21] fuck up and stop your crap. One of these days, you're going to attack the wrong dude and
[35:21 - 35:31] they're going to fucking beat your ass and you're going to regret what you did. But
[35:31 - 35:39] that's for the rest of you guys. All you guys that have shown love and support during these
[35:39 - 35:45] times, I want to say thank you. All you guys that have been there for me over the years,
[35:45 - 35:53] thank you. And for anybody out there that does like the message behind this, I'd like
[35:53 - 36:04] to say thank you. And with that being said, I got a petition to start getting ready. So
[36:04 - 36:20] I say this, fuck suicide and fuck bullying and fuck the trolls. I'm out, guys. Hashtag
[36:20 - 36:25] fuck bullying and hashtag fuck suicide.