2022-11-2 NEW LIFE NEW ME NO STRESS

[0:00 - 0:29] I love this bar, it's pretty cool. Kind of gives it a Silent Hill kind of vibe. I love it.
[0:29 - 0:45] Yo AZ, what up? Mike, what up?
[0:45 - 1:09] Dr. Phil, what up, dude? Interesting name, Dr. Phil, what up, ain't that boy, what up?
[1:09 - 1:23] Yo Russo, what up? Yo Lou, what up, brother? So we have something to talk about and it's
[1:23 - 1:44] nothing bad. It's not, well, it has elements. Ah, Jealous, who need you are? Who are you?
[1:44 - 1:57] But as of here lately, I've been noticing a lot of real bad stuff and I mean a lot.
[1:57 - 2:22] As of the last few days, matter of fact, the last five years have been very stressful.
[2:22 - 2:29] These last five years have been honestly the hardest five years of my life. I've gone
[2:29 - 2:37] through a lot of crazy shit, bro. A lot of crazy shit. Everything from me damn near
[2:37 - 2:44] getting killed by cops, people, random people showing up to my house, all kind of shit.
[2:44 - 2:55] Hey, it's Eric Swinflam, what up? Thank you. Appreciate it. And Eric Swinflam, you're awesome.
[2:55 - 3:02] But I've gone through a lot of crazy shit, man. And a lot of it has affected me in more
[3:02 - 3:19] ways than one. The last night I was laying down after the plane, after the sharing shit,
[3:19 - 3:27] like I was laying down there last night and went to sleep with like a crazy mind. Like
[3:27 - 3:37] I was out of it. But then this morning as I was laying there waking up, I started to
[3:37 - 4:00] realize some shit that I need to do something about this shit that I've been in. And you're
[4:00 - 4:10] right, dude. I do live with a crazy mind. Well, did. And I mean did, as in starting
[4:10 - 4:19] the day, crazy mind that I lived with, gone. Because this morning I was laying down, I'm
[4:19 - 4:25] feeling like crap because as you guys know, I deal with atrial dermatitis, which is caused
[4:25 - 4:33] by stress. And this morning I was laying down, watching TV, waking up, and it just really
[4:33 - 4:42] hit really bad. And as I was laying there thinking about it, like I need to do something
[4:42 - 4:50] about this. Like I cannot keep living like this. And that's when I realized I need to
[4:50 - 4:57] make a change in my life. I need to get rid of the negative crap and say fuck you to
[4:57 - 5:21] all the bullshit. Which is why starting today, I want to make a deal for you guys. Starting
[5:21 - 5:26] today there's not going to be any more stressful streams. There's not going to be any more
[5:26 - 5:32] troll shit going on. I'm not going to respond to Glory Hole or Marty or any of them. They're
[5:32 - 5:40] being cut out of my life because I don't need them. They're useless to me. Marty and
[5:40 - 5:48] Glory Hole and all of them, they're useful to me. They're not useful at all, they're
[5:48 - 6:06] useless. It's like what purpose do they serve besides dragging me down? Which is why Glory
[6:06 - 6:13] Hole, I'm telling you this. You can sit there and run your mouth all you want about me.
[6:13 - 6:21] I don't care. And Marty, you can say do whatever you want. I'm not responding to you. So starting
[6:21 - 6:28] today I want to give you guys, my fans, my people, my community, the people that I came
[6:28 - 6:40] up on YouTube with all those years ago from day one. I want to be able to show you the
[6:40 - 6:57] real me that y'all deserve to see. And Cuba, that's in the past. That's done. That's gone.
[6:57 - 7:19] So I need to out with the old and with the new man. Out with the old and with the new.
[7:19 - 7:27] But I promise you guys that I'm going to give you the best version of me that I can.
[7:27 - 7:36] Which means I'm going to be doing a lot more artwork. I'm going to be really sing way more
[7:36 - 7:44] songs. And I'm going to be doing really cool shit for you guys. And if I can, keyword
[7:44 - 7:50] if I can, I am going to try to be on Twitch again. I don't know if I'll be able to, but
[7:50 - 7:56] if I can, I will be over there doing gaming videos for you guys, hanging out, having fun,
[7:56 - 8:06] all of that shit. Hey, Wes, now 21, I was already in the booth this morning, bro. I
[8:06 - 8:14] already fucking took and I already have a brand new song ready to fucking go. Authentically
[8:14 - 8:22] two brand new songs ready to go. Now y'all want to see a prime example of what's going
[8:22 - 8:28] to happen to the trolls from now on. Here's what's going to happen. I'm not going to say
[8:28 - 8:35] a word. I'm not going to acknowledge them. This is what it's going to happen. See Wes
[8:35 - 8:59] Choken's laughter. See how he was there and how he's gone now. That's what's going to
[8:59 - 9:12] happen and King getting gone. Just like this. Bye bye. That's what's going to happen to
[9:12 - 9:16] the trolls from now on. They're going to be, bye bye.
[9:16 - 9:41] Bro, why dab on when I can fucking flex on them, bro? For real, why dab on when I can
[9:41 - 9:48] fucking flex on them with my fucking fan base, bro? Because dude, the trolls ain't got the
[9:48 - 10:07] fan base that I got, bro. See, there's one difference between me and the trolls. The
[10:07 - 10:20] trolls, they got a following. But me, I got a fan base, a real fan base that I can be
[10:20 - 10:35] proud of. You already know, but no. Yo, mind the matter. I'm doing good, brother. I'm doing
[10:35 - 10:50] real good, bro. See, you trolls, you trolls are something else, man. You really are. Because
[10:50 - 11:01] see, you trolls gain infamy out of fear. I gained fame and respect out of being respectful
[11:01 - 11:17] of people. I'm doing what's right. Yeah, everybody always asks me why I always wear these. You
[11:17 - 11:22] want to know why? I always wear every single one of these charms. Because every single
[11:22 - 11:29] one of these charms represents a fan that has been down since day fucking one. Every
[11:29 - 11:37] one of these. Look at that. Look at all that. All these are from the fans, bro. Every last
[11:37 - 11:46] one of them. So, to all y'all fans out there that wonder if I rock y'all's gear, yes,
[11:46 - 11:56] the fuck I do every fucking day, boy. Every day I run that shit. I rock that shit every
[11:56 - 12:22] day probably. So, yeah. And no bill from Buckwell. Try trinkets from the fans, boy. Hey, smile.
[12:22 - 12:28] I see somebody's a Bloodline fan. I see somebody acknowledges the Bloodline spiral. What's
[12:28 - 12:39] good, oos? What is good, oos? How you doing, bro? What's good, oos? I see you nudge the
[12:39 - 12:56] Bloodline just by me, man. What's good, oos? Yo, I see you. What's good, man? How you doing,
[12:56 - 13:14] man? What kind of day is this? Classic right there, man. Classic beach. Can't beat the
[13:14 - 13:26] world. Frank Castle, boy. Frank can sign up in the castle. See you, Frankie. Hey, Frankie,
[13:26 - 13:42] let me know how Dr. Evil is doing out there. Hey, I think it may not be the healthiest
[13:42 - 13:52] thing in the world, but it's still fucking good. Man, you know what? I'm gonna do you
[13:52 - 14:02] one better besides just risk, man. I'm gonna do one better for you guys. I have a top
[14:02 - 14:11] on over here to YouTube, to the YouTubes. I know I didn't say you boob even though you
[14:11 - 14:40] boob is actually a fucking sight. That is actually a thing.
[14:40 - 15:10] I can show the climate, the ring, it was all inside it. It seemed like you and all these
[15:10 - 15:27] guys, and you know, I got another one for you guys. Roman Reigns, Uncle Appa and his
[15:27 - 15:56] father and now the crowning of Roman Reigns.
[15:56 - 15:58] ? They just always on the line ?
[15:58 - 16:01] ? 31 ways to beat you back around ?
[16:01 - 16:04] ? Jake loose with 'em now, pappin' hoppin' ?
[16:04 - 16:07] ? Here's the problem, behold, he is fire ?
[16:07 - 16:10] ? The series here, you know, 'cause I was ?
[16:10 - 16:13] ? I'm so down to admire all hell ?
[16:13 - 16:15] ? The room in empire ?
[16:15 - 16:18] ? Save 'em, behold, my heart lookin' ?
[16:18 - 16:21] ? The way he's tryin', can you smell what he's cookin' ?
[16:21 - 16:24] ? Here's the one gal, roomin' on a rampage ?
[16:24 - 16:26] ? Now we, now we, so be cool ?
[16:26 - 16:29] ? Now we, see the bad kahuna ?
[16:29 - 16:32] ? Watch over by the spirit of the so-called kahuna ?
[16:32 - 16:35] ? But the later, kahuna ?
[16:35 - 16:38] ? We must assume a system of a sweet fighter ?
[16:38 - 16:39] ? But that's kahuna ?
[16:39 - 16:42] ? And so the story begins again ?
[16:42 - 16:46] ? Room in the frame, show 'em this ?
[16:46 - 17:00] ? The way he's tryin', can you smell what he's doin' ?
[17:00 - 17:01] - Now, this right here is tellin' me
[17:01 - 17:04] that I listen to fuckin' daily now, bro.
[17:04 - 17:06] Like this piece right here, this is somethin'
[17:06 - 17:10] that I listen to every fuckin' day when I get up.
[17:10 - 17:12] Every day when I get up, this is the first thing
[17:12 - 17:15] that I fuckin' put on every fuckin' day, dead ass.
[17:16 - 17:20] (upbeat hip-hop music)
[17:20 - 17:29] - You know, it's about tryin', it's about power.
[17:29 - 17:31] We stay hungry, we devour.
[17:31 - 17:34] Put in the work, put in the hours, and take what's ours.
[17:34 - 17:35] Like it's the long of my veins,
[17:35 - 17:37] my culture reignin' with strength and age.
[17:37 - 17:39] I change it again, so what's my motherfuckin' name?
[17:39 - 17:40] - Rah!
[17:40 - 17:41] - I don't give no desecration information.
[17:41 - 17:43] If you wanna bring it to the masses face-to-face,
[17:43 - 17:46] you know, we have to be latein', we don't have to look too sad.
[17:46 - 17:47] It's me, you know, I just like a dream.
[17:47 - 17:49] When I'm rumbling, you're gonna scream, mama.
[17:49 - 17:50] So bring drama to the king, mama.
[17:50 - 17:52] That's what it's dream, mama.
[17:52 - 17:55] (gasping)
[17:55 - 18:00] Thank you, Brother Tech-9.
[18:01 - 18:04] (unintelligible speech)
[18:04 - 18:20] ? Take 'em, take 'em, take 'em ?
[18:20 - 18:23] ? Take 'em, take 'em, take 'em, take 'em, take 'em ?
[18:23 - 18:25] - You know, it's about tryin', it's about power.
[18:25 - 18:26] We stay hungry, we devour.
[18:26 - 18:29] Put in the work, put in the hours, and take what's ours.
[18:29 - 18:32] (unintelligible speech)
[18:32 - 18:37] ? Take 'em, take 'em, take 'em, take 'em, take 'em ?
[19:02 - 19:05] - Now, there is something that somebody said
[19:05 - 19:10] that has stuck with me for a very long fuckin' time now.
[19:10 - 19:17] And I want y'all to hear this shit.
[19:17 - 19:20] Fuck clubs, fuck partying, fuck tryin' to fit in
[19:20 - 19:24] and socialize, rub elbows with everybody
[19:24 - 19:27] so people can stop callin' you weird.
[19:27 - 19:29] Why are you so anti-social?
[19:29 - 19:33] (unintelligible speech)
[19:33 - 19:37] Fuck clubs, fuck partyin', fuck tryin' to fit in
[19:37 - 19:40] and socialize, rub elbows with everybody
[19:40 - 19:43] so people can stop callin' you weird.
[19:43 - 19:46] Why are you so anti-social?
[19:46 - 19:49] Because I'm tryin' to get through it.
[19:49 - 19:52] Why you standin' on the basketball court so much?
[19:52 - 19:54] Because I'm tryin' to get through it.
[19:54 - 19:56] Why you out there practicin' a hot sun
[19:56 - 19:58] but ain't nobody else out there?
[19:58 - 20:00] 'Cause I'm tryin' to get through it.
[20:00 - 20:02] Why you not clubbin' like any time I text you
[20:02 - 20:04] and then I ask you to go through something
[20:04 - 20:05] more than a cold?
[20:05 - 20:09] It's always funny, 'cause I'm tryin' to get through it.
[20:09 - 20:10] But to tell you something,
[20:10 - 20:13] at least one of them ain't goin' nowhere.
[20:13 - 20:16] These clubs, these parties, all this shit ain't goin'
[20:16 - 20:17] nowhere.
[20:17 - 20:22] The more weird you are is a reflection
[20:22 - 20:25] of how committed you are to focusin' on your shit,
[20:25 - 20:28] molding, shaping, and developing your ideas
[20:28 - 20:30] and your craft so that when it's time
[20:30 - 20:33] for you to make your run, you don't flop.
[20:33 - 20:37] And that's facts, man.
[20:37 - 20:41] . (electronic beeping)
[20:41 - 20:55] Why you think I'll go to all the fuckin' clubs, dude?
[20:55 - 20:57] Why you think I don't fuckin' do the shit
[20:57 - 20:59] that all these other guys do?
[20:59 - 21:04] Why you think I don't go out to clubs?
[21:04 - 21:06] Why you think I don't fuckin' drink?
[21:06 - 21:08] Why you think I don't do dumb shit?
[21:08 - 21:12] 'Cause I'm too focused on what I wanna fuckin' do
[21:12 - 21:13] in my life.
[21:13 - 21:25] Yeah, I know I'm that weird dude.
[21:25 - 21:26] And guess what?
[21:26 - 21:28] I'm proud to be that weird dude.
[21:28 - 21:31] Yeah, I might not go outside all the time,
[21:31 - 21:36] but when I'm not outside, I'm usually workin' all my shit.
[21:36 - 21:38] Doin' my stuff.
[21:38 - 21:42] Hey, Black Guy Racks, what up, dude?
[21:42 - 21:54] You know, everybody else been askin' me,
[21:54 - 21:57] and I get this all the time, dude,
[21:57 - 21:59] why do you do what you do?
[21:59 - 22:02] Why do you keep goin' knowin' that these guys
[22:02 - 22:03] are gonna fuck with you?
[22:03 - 22:04] You wanna know why?
[22:05 - 22:07] That's 'cause I don't know the meaning of the word
[22:07 - 22:09] sit down, shut up, and quit.
[22:09 - 22:13] I don't know the meaning of the word quit.
[22:13 - 22:24] Because I have no quit in me.
[22:24 - 22:27] Let me tell you something.
[22:27 - 22:31] My dad bein' in the military like he was taught me a lot.
[22:33 - 22:37] My dad bein' in the military taught me a lot more
[22:37 - 22:39] than I ever thought that I would need.
[22:39 - 22:43] Seein' my dad bein' on that hustlin' grind
[22:43 - 22:45] every day of his life bein' in the military,
[22:45 - 22:47] you know what that taught me?
[22:47 - 22:53] That taught me never stay quits, never back down,
[22:53 - 22:56] never shut up, and never fuckin' fold no matter what.
[22:56 - 22:58] (sighs)
[22:58 - 23:05] Why do you think whenever these guys shut me down,
[23:05 - 23:08] I'll come right the fuck back the next day?
[23:08 - 23:23] Exactly, bro, that is getting fuckin' pinned up.
[23:23 - 23:27] That is, that can not be any more truer, man.
[23:27 - 23:34] That is facts, that is straight facts, dude.
[23:34 - 23:47] Did I ever listen to My Chemical Rights?
[23:47 - 23:48] I have.
[23:48 - 23:53] I listened to My Chemical Rights a few times, yeah,
[23:53 - 24:01] and I do dig some of their songs.
[24:01 - 24:07] But like I said, man, if I wanna get better,
[24:07 - 24:14] if I wanna get better health-wise, mentally,
[24:14 - 24:17] I can't be stuck in that fuckin' bullshit
[24:17 - 24:20] like I've been in for the last five fuckin' years.
[24:20 - 24:26] The last five fuckin' years were my years
[24:26 - 24:30] of me goin' through hell.
[24:30 - 24:31] But you know what they say.
[24:31 - 24:34] In order to come out the other side,
[24:34 - 24:35] you gotta go through hell's fire
[24:35 - 24:38] to come out stronger on the other side.
[24:38 - 24:42] And what happened to me, yeah, it was fucked up.
[24:42 - 24:47] But that was being fucked up is what molded me
[24:47 - 24:50] into what I am right the fuck now.
[24:50 - 25:08] I know that that's a trick.
[25:08 - 25:11] Okay, man, I ain't even gotta look out
[25:11 - 25:12] to tell who's the troll, bro.
[25:12 - 25:14] I ain't even gotta look.
[25:14 - 25:15] I was barely glanched over.
[25:15 - 25:18] I could tell that I was the troll right off rip, dude.
[25:18 - 25:19] I ain't even gotta look.
[25:19 - 25:40] Shootin' the shot with one eye, man.
[25:40 - 25:42] Simple shit.
[25:42 - 25:45] Shootin' the trolls, one eye open, one eye closed.
[25:45 - 25:46] Boom, done.
[25:46 - 25:47] Next.
[25:47 - 26:01] That was my biological father who I have nothing to do with.
[26:01 - 26:04] My biological father went to prison.
[26:04 - 26:09] I don't associate with my biological sperm donor.
[26:10 - 26:12] I don't associate with him.
[26:12 - 26:20] I don't associate with that piece of shit.
[26:20 - 26:27] I associate with people like my dad, my adoptive dad,
[26:27 - 26:29] who respectively was in the military.
[26:29 - 26:34] Hey, you're not wrong.
[26:34 - 27:47] (crickets chirping)
[27:47 - 27:53] Here's another song from my playlist
[27:53 - 27:55] that gets me pumped up every day.
[27:55 - 28:07] I'm not going home.
[28:07 - 28:08] And this one, I will be going home.
[28:08 - 28:09] Hey, you.
[28:09 - 28:11] Why did you?
[28:11 - 28:13] Why?
[28:14 - 28:16] You're some kind of war junkie.
[28:16 - 28:19] I won't say a goddamn word.
[28:19 - 28:21] (crickets chirping)
[28:21 - 28:21] Shit.
[28:21 - 28:25] And people like me.
[28:25 - 28:26] Hey, dude.
[28:26 - 28:29] What are you doing, man?
[28:29 - 28:29] Why?
[28:29 - 28:34] You trying to be some kind of superstar or something?
[28:34 - 28:39] And I would say a goddamn word.
[28:39 - 28:43] So I think they won't understand.
[28:43 - 28:44] ? So do me a treat ?
[28:44 - 28:46] ? Give me a tail plate ?
[28:46 - 28:47] ? There's only hope without these rebels ?
[28:47 - 28:49] ? Let me pin it straight ?
[28:49 - 28:51] ? Watch me devour them one at a time ?
[28:51 - 28:54] ? It will take a soul to see a one of a kind ?
[28:54 - 28:55] ? So just let me out the least ?
[28:55 - 28:57] ? Now if I'm fizzled ?
[28:57 - 28:58] ? I wouldn't go out there ?
[28:58 - 29:00] ? If I'm a beast, yeah, so would I go ?
[29:00 - 29:02] ? I'll see one empty ?
[29:02 - 29:03] ? You don't know where I rest ?
[29:03 - 29:04] ? But I'll play a little bit ?
[29:04 - 29:06] ? And I don't play with the trip ?
[29:06 - 29:09] ? So the man will say is that before you fall out of line ?
[29:09 - 29:10] ? And if you looking for me ?
[29:10 - 29:13] ? I'm probably got two on my grind ?
[29:13 - 29:16] ? Oh, bring it back like a refund ?
[29:16 - 29:19] ? Don't just be a looking for a refund ?
[29:19 - 29:20] ? He done lost his mind ?
[29:20 - 29:22] ? Trying to help the face ?
[29:22 - 29:25] ? So good, they tryna give me like the plate cake ?
[29:25 - 29:26] ? You don't know what they mean ?
[29:26 - 29:27] ? I'm gonna give me a little bit ?
[29:27 - 29:28] ? Of a piece of a motion ?
[29:28 - 29:29] ? Feel a little bit more recent ?
[29:29 - 29:30] ? And it's just more than easy ?
[29:30 - 29:32] ? If we don't do it for a long time ?
[29:32 - 29:33] ? We're gonna do it for the fame ?
[29:33 - 29:36] ? We're not doing it 'cause we know we got to elevate ?
[29:36 - 29:38] ? Yeah, we got to elevate ?
[29:38 - 29:40] ? And if we don't do it for the fame ?
[29:40 - 29:43] ? We're not doing it 'cause we know we got to elevate ?
[29:43 - 29:45] ? And if we don't do it for the fame ?
[29:45 - 29:48] ? We're not doing it 'cause we know we got to elevate ?
[29:48 - 29:49] ? Yeah, we got to elevate ?
[29:49 - 29:51] ? And if we don't do it for the fame ?
[29:51 - 29:55] ? We're not doing it 'cause we know we got to elevate ?
[29:55 - 29:57] ? And if we don't do it for the fame ?
[29:57 - 29:59] ? We're not doing it for the fame ?
[29:59 - 30:04] ? We don't do it for the fame ?
[30:04 - 30:09] ? And if we don't do it for the fame ?
[30:09 - 30:12] ? We're not doing it 'cause we know we got to elevate ?
[30:12 - 30:14] ? And if we don't do it for the fame ?
[30:14 - 43:17] ? We don't do it for the fame ?
[43:17 - 43:33] ???
[43:33 - 43:37] ? The sky grows dark ?
[43:37 - 43:41] ? The day I do need ?
[43:41 - 43:45] ? The raven in the sky ?
[43:45 - 43:49] ? And each of us need ?
[43:49 - 43:53] ? We have come then to the night ?
[43:53 - 43:57] ? Underation for the night ?
[43:57 - 44:01] ? We have come then to the night ?
[44:01 - 44:06] ? Underation for the night ?
[44:06 - 45:01] ? We will fight, we will fight for grace ?
[45:01 - 45:09] ? The sounds of love, the ears for ality ?
[45:09 - 45:17] ? The nights of rage, the silence we need ?
[45:17 - 45:21] ? We have come into the night ?
[45:21 - 45:25] ? Under age of four and nine ?
[45:25 - 45:29] ? We have come into the night ?
[45:29 - 45:35] ? Under age of four and nine ?
[45:35 - 46:45] ? We will fight, we will fight for grace ?
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[46:59 - 47:04] I think y'all know where I'm about to take this one, man.
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[47:10 - 47:15] Where's all my phone? (mumbles)
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