2022-1-21 Flowing my dreams as a sim Racing Athlete

[0:00 - 0:10] It's not going to be very long, but over the last few months, as you guys know, I have been
[0:10 - 0:18] testing the waters of getting back into doing music. And it seems like all I've ever gotten
[0:18 - 0:26] was backlash. I came back into the music scene to kind of, you know, to tense the waters
[0:26 - 0:34] and see, you know, how things would go. And I've gotten some good feedback, but a lot
[0:34 - 0:44] of it's been very negative and just very not wanted. And I know a lot of people are
[0:44 - 0:48] going to sit there and say like, Oh, I'm chickening out, I'm doing this, I'm doing
[0:48 - 1:06] that, that's not it at all. Because I'm really not. Like, I am not chickening out or running
[1:06 - 1:19] away from anything. But personally, like, I'm tired of always taking two steps forward
[1:19 - 1:28] in my music and then getting drawn five steps back. Because of people that want to hate,
[1:28 - 1:35] they want to try to drag me down. They want to do everything they can to hold me back
[1:35 - 1:50] and it's really getting to the point to where it's like, I'm honestly tired of it. I'm
[1:50 - 2:01] tired of the negativity and I am honestly fed up with the hatred that I've been getting.
[2:01 - 2:06] You know, I've worked really hard over the last several years to do my music and I've
[2:06 - 2:12] gotten some amazing opportunities sent my way that I'll always remember and that I'm
[2:12 - 2:24] thankful for. But honestly, like, I've been wanting to leave music for a long time due
[2:24 - 2:33] to the fact that all I've gotten was stolen from, hated on, and just bashed on and I'm
[2:33 - 2:42] honestly tired of it. You know, I tried doing the whole independent artist thing. I, you
[2:42 - 2:52] know, fared pretty well for a while but because of the stuff that transpired last year and
[2:52 - 2:57] all the hatred that went along with all that stuff and how people tricked me and this
[2:57 - 3:06] and that and the other, like, I'm honestly fed up with, you know, being bashed on, bullied,
[3:06 - 3:17] attacked, harassed, and all kinds of stuff. Like, I'm honestly sick of it. Like, I'm
[3:17 - 3:26] honestly sick and tired of being harassed and bullied and trolled. Because it seems
[3:26 - 3:37] like every time I release a brand new song, somebody comes along and they take and they
[3:37 - 3:47] bully me and they essentially take my music and they, you know, harass me and bully me
[3:47 - 3:55] and I'm honestly tired of it. Like, I am seriously sick of all the negative backlash
[3:55 - 4:02] that I've been getting all because people don't know how to let go of my past. Like,
[4:02 - 4:10] I am seriously, seriously, you know, tired of it. Because like I said, I wanted to do
[4:10 - 4:18] this music thing as an experiment to see where things would go and things would progress
[4:18 - 4:27] and it's pretty clear that, you know, people just don't want me around anymore. You know,
[4:27 - 4:34] people only buy my music to fuck with me. Not all of them, but a lot of them did buy
[4:34 - 4:43] the music just to fuck with me because they felt sorry for me. When, you know, I put
[4:43 - 4:49] a lot of hard work into my music over the years. I have busted my ass finding my sounds
[4:49 - 5:01] that I know that I'm very good with, that, you know, I enjoy doing, but at this point
[5:01 - 5:10] it's pretty clear what's going on, you know, and because of the fucking trolls that have,
[5:10 - 5:16] you know, been going at me and going at me and going at me, like I've lost opportunities
[5:16 - 5:24] with record labels, I've lost friends because of these trolls and I'm honestly sick of
[5:24 - 5:32] it. Like, I'm tired of every time I go to release a new song, somebody steals one of
[5:32 - 5:40] my songs, post it up on their shit, and then they get credit for it. And I'm ultimately
[5:40 - 5:52] left not able to do anything because I have no money. Like, you know, you trolls are basically
[5:52 - 6:08] backing me into a fucking corner. Like, you guys are basically backing me into a fucking
[6:08 - 6:23] corner. Like, not every viewer is a troll, you know, my friends that watch me on Facebook,
[6:23 - 6:33] they're not a troll. You know, the ones that, you know, that do watch me on Facebook that
[6:33 - 6:40] are friends and shit, they're not trolls. Like, a lot of the people that watch my shit
[6:40 - 6:46] through Facebook have, you know, been friends of mine and, you know, fellow artists that
[6:46 - 6:57] I've worked alongside for many, many years. But honestly, I'm tired of being fucked over,
[6:57 - 7:06] you know, I'm tired of being fucked over and screwed over when people know I have the talent
[7:06 - 7:12] to be able to actually make a living. But it's very hard to make a living at what you
[7:12 - 7:18] love to do and something that you put so much time and so much passion and effort
[7:18 - 7:29] into when all everybody ever does is attack you and bash you and bully you. Like, I'm
[7:29 - 7:44] honestly tired of that shit. Like, what I'm trying to understand is why do you guys, you
[7:44 - 7:49] trolls, like this one's for you trolls, like the people that attack me, this one's for
[7:49 - 8:03] you guys. Why do you guys feel like you have to troll me, like you have to attack me? Like,
[8:03 - 8:07] what I'm trying to understand is what did I ever do to any of you guys to make you
[8:07 - 8:16] want to hate on me or hold me back from what I really want to do with my life? Because
[8:16 - 8:25] when I'm saying that my music is all I've got, okay? Like I told you guys last year,
[8:25 - 8:34] and this is still very, very true, I do not have the luxury of working a regular job because
[8:34 - 8:40] of the things that transpired last year with the trolls and how they severely screwed my
[8:40 - 8:48] life up. I do not have that luxury. So I have to make use of what I know how to do which
[8:48 - 9:02] is my music. Like, the one thing I'm very good with, besides my artwork, like, that's
[9:02 - 9:20] all I've got. That is all I fucking have. And yes, I am. That job is a slow job, dude.
[9:20 - 9:25] That's not like an everyday job. That's a slow pace, overtime kind of job. I'm talking
[9:25 - 9:34] like a regular 9 to 5. But the point being, man, my music is all I've ever wanted to
[9:34 - 9:42] do with my life. But what pisses me off is the fact that people continuously hold me
[9:42 - 9:50] back. Like, people continue to hold me back and hold me back and hold me back. And it's
[9:50 - 10:01] like, what am I supposed to fucking do? Like, what the fuck am I supposed to do with my
[10:01 - 10:22] life? I mean, you guys, this is what I don't get. Oh, hey, this is the one thing I don't
[10:22 - 10:35] understand. Okay. This is the one thing I don't understand. You guys tell me to get
[10:35 - 10:45] a job and make money. But it seems like the minute, the fucking minute, I start making
[10:45 - 10:53] money off of my music, you guys find a way to shut me down and prevent me from doing
[10:53 - 11:08] that. And here's the thing, hot dog guy. I know how to play guitar. I know how to play
[11:08 - 11:15] ocarina. I know how to play piano. So yes, I know how to play an instrument, bro. Hell,
[11:15 - 11:20] I also know how to play harmonica, which I've got one downstairs buried somewhere. I just
[11:20 - 11:24] don't know where the fuck it's at right now. I know I'm not going through digging through
[11:24 - 11:34] those boxes to find that shit. Fuck that. Like, you know, what pisses me off is the
[11:34 - 11:51] fact that every time, every fucking time, every fucking time, I start to make money
[11:51 - 11:59] off of my music. You guys want to hold me back. You shut my shit down and you steal
[11:59 - 12:09] from me. And actually, Cruella. Yes, I do. Oh, I actually took lessons when I was in
[12:09 - 12:21] high school. Thank you very much. Okay, so fuck you. Oh, really? You want to prove it
[12:21 - 12:27] to you, motherfucker? Fine. I'll prove it to you, motherfucker. I will prove this shit
[12:27 - 12:40] to you, bro. See, you guys say that I don't know how to play one. Clearly, I do. So let
[12:40 - 12:55] me fucking prove to your bitch and I do you fucking fags. Thank you. See, I don't play
[12:55 - 13:10] your typical fucking way, you fucking losers. See, I don't play the way that you, that your
[13:10 - 13:21] typical actual artist would. See, that's the thing. That's where you guys are diluted.
[13:21 - 13:36] That's where your mind is narrow minded. See, you guys have a narrow mind. You guys have
[13:36 - 13:47] a narrow minded sense. See, I play by what I hear by vocal. Matter of fact, here's a
[13:47 - 14:06] little insider thing for you. Here's a little bit of an insider for you that you guys may
[14:06 - 14:13] not know. Did you know that Saul Yerner, the lead vocalist, Saul Yerner from God Smack.
[14:13 - 14:21] Did you know that he plays guitar or insurance the same exact way that I do? He doesn't know
[14:21 - 14:30] a lick or a fucking chord, but yet look to where that man's at. That man doesn't know
[14:30 - 14:38] a single note on guitar or piano, but yet look where he got to. He plays the exact
[14:38 - 14:47] same way that I do. You can even fact check me on this shit. Go ahead. Look up the interviews
[14:47 - 14:55] where he's done actual interviews talking about how he came up doing music. He didn't
[14:55 - 15:18] learn your traditional conventional way and neither did I.
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[27:44 - 27:52] Now, let's see you dumb fuck retards do that shit. Oh, hey, I forgot you can't because you're a bunch of fucking losers.
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[28:24 - 28:42] How's your voice sound real quick?
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[30:40 - 30:42] Now, let's do some real quick.
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[56:15 - 56:35] Oh and if I suck, then why am I able to do this? Give me a second here.
[56:35 - 56:53] If I suck so bad, why am I able to do this?
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[59:59 - 60:07] Oh and just to prove my point even further.
[60:07 - 60:17] Just to prove my point even further about people doing vocalistic covers.
[60:17 - 60:33] Alright shit, let me show you a little something that you won't soon fucking forget.
[60:33 - 60:47] Let's go here. Where are you sticking the inverter? Let's move that out of the way.
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[62:31 - 62:51] Alright, I'll only switch this up quickly because I know I'm going to use this.
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[63:25 - 63:31] Alright, now I'm going to need to switch up to something else.
[63:31 - 63:49] I'm going to switch back to using a horn right there. You've got a string section with it.
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[63:59 - 64:19] Before I do that, let me check my messages.
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