2021-9-8 u have to Give respect to get respect

[0:14 - 0:34] what's up everyone um this video is our this live stream is not only for not only this live stream
[0:37 - 0:44] for skull kid productions but this is also for everyone out there that has this
[0:45 - 0:59] this misconception about me and like those that are like just going off of what everyone is saying
[1:00 - 1:09] instead of actually getting to know me now i know in the past i've you know i've got a long history on
[1:10 - 1:19] on this platform and i know there's a lot of shit that went down but i don't feel like i properly got
[1:19 - 1:29] the chance to introduce myself to you guys i'm sure you guys have seen what i can do when i'm
[1:30 - 1:38] love funny shit fucked on shit but you guys never really got the chance to know me as a person
[1:40 - 1:53] for a very good reason like it was out of my control but the reason that you guys never got to know me
[1:53 - 2:08] is because about six years ago six years ago i dated this girl named candle smith i met her through
[2:10 - 2:20] mine her's mutual friend allison allison was so many that i had known for years
[2:22 - 2:28] you know allison's been a very good friend of mine for many many years and still is
[2:29 - 2:37] i first met allison when i had just gotten out of high school i was actually 22 at the time
[2:39 - 2:45] i was on facebook looking around groups and we just happened to be in the same group and we wound
[2:45 - 2:54] up talking and became good friends and have remained very good friends ever since but uh
[2:56 - 3:11] i met candle one day in a group chat that we were all in started talking to her allison had warned me
[3:11 - 3:19] about you know her having you know prior arrests didn't specify what you said hey you know she's
[3:19 - 3:30] got a little bit of a history be careful now me not being aware of fully aware or they're
[3:30 - 3:40] out fully aware of what she made i ended up with candle five four i'd say three four months into our
[3:40 - 3:48] relationship um you know things were good at first things were very good at first but then
[3:50 - 3:59] she started acting different she started acting really weird it was like it wasn't normal it wasn't
[3:59 - 4:11] her um i come to find out that she takes meds she takes medicine because she does have
[4:12 - 4:18] certain issues wrong with her that are not in her control she cannot control them and i don't
[4:18 - 4:30] blame her for that so that morning i very nicely reminded her to please you know just make sure
[4:30 - 4:37] she takes her medicine and at the time she was living out of her car and stuff and whatnot
[4:39 - 4:45] now bear in mind keep in mind the whole time that she was living in her car i was unaware of the
[4:45 - 4:57] real situation i had no idea there was a much darker deeper issue going on like she had me
[4:57 - 5:04] believing that she was just you know moving to another state and that she was going back to pick
[5:04 - 5:12] her stuff up at a later date all right cool you know and i've moved around a lot most of my life
[5:12 - 5:21] as a kid so i know what that's like you know with my dad being military like he was we would
[5:21 - 5:29] always move around a lot so i understood you know how you know she would have to leave something
[5:29 - 5:38] where i was and then come back to get it so that was my mindset was okay she's moving to another
[5:38 - 5:47] stage she didn't go back and get her stuff all right cool well that day when i reminded her
[5:48 - 5:59] her she snapped at me all right she kind of chewed me out a bit understandable even though
[5:59 - 6:06] like i was being very nice all right i was being very nice to her about the whole thing
[6:07 - 6:13] and she kind of you know bent my head off for whatever reason don't know it feels
[6:13 - 6:24] because she was irritated or whatever so a couple hours ago by i asked her what was wrong like why did
[6:24 - 6:33] she bite my head off like why did she snap at me the way she did because i was you know curious
[6:33 - 6:56] like did i do something wrong or like what was the deal then next i know that's when things got very
[6:56 - 7:09] weird like that's when things got very very strange like and i mean i've been i've been with people that
[7:09 - 7:16] are you know that are crazy not in like that way but like i've been with people that you know can be
[7:16 - 7:25] a bit out there a bit crazy and a little bit you know like you guys if you're a guy and you've been
[7:25 - 7:33] with a crazy chick where you guys know how you get with a crazy ex and they're out there and they're a
[7:33 - 7:40] wild and shit like that like that kind of crazy like i've been with chicks like that not gonna lie
[7:41 - 7:50] i've been with chicks i've done some of the stupidest shit ever not gonna lie but this literally
[7:50 - 8:05] took me to a whole new this took me to a whole new level okay when i asked her why she wasn't taking
[8:05 - 8:16] her meds she had told me it was because she couldn't and i asked her i was like okay why can't you take
[8:16 - 8:25] your meds like i was wondering like was she allergic to well what was the deal i was just
[8:25 - 8:38] genuinely wondering and what she said next i was not prepared for i was not prepared for what she was
[8:38 - 8:48] going to say next she and i keep you not i cannot make this up like there is no way i can make this
[8:48 - 8:56] up because even bogeyman the clown whom you guys don't know by now who's a very near and dear
[8:56 - 9:08] friend of me who i've had on my panel the last couple of times after many many years of you know
[9:08 - 9:25] not being on panel shot the bogeyman what's up bro candle had told me that i'm sorry candle had
[9:25 - 9:39] told me that she was part werewolf now keep in mind i'm not a stranger to weird things
[9:40 - 9:50] okay i've had hauntings around the houses where i grew up um i've had a lot of really weird
[9:50 - 10:03] shit happen and one thing i've always learned growing up is to keep an open mind well for me
[10:03 - 10:15] that was crossing a major line between crazy and you just need help okay i believe in the
[10:15 - 10:22] super i'm not gonna lie i do believe in the supernatural my fucking stepfather or my stepdad
[10:23 - 10:29] who actually is getting his stitches removed as we speak my stepdad was actually
[10:30 - 10:41] possessed by demons a few months ago and i've had a lot of things that have made me realize that
[10:42 - 10:50] a lot of the spiritual shit that goes on is indeed very real but for her to claim
[10:50 - 11:02] that she was part werewolf it was really weird so what i did was i told her that like i just went
[11:02 - 11:10] along with it i was like okay like what's the deal like how did that happen because i wanted to
[11:10 - 11:18] see what she was gonna say so i kind of i played along with it i was like okay like i get it
[11:18 - 11:25] but how would that affect now bear in mind the whole time i was just going along with it so everything
[11:25 - 11:35] i'm saying now like leading into it i was just going along with it trying to see what she would
[11:35 - 11:43] say so i was like okay like how does this affect you you know yada yada yada like
[11:43 - 11:50] what do the meds do to affect that part of you whatever and she couldn't give me a straight answer
[11:52 - 11:59] and i was like she talked about how they don't make how like when she doesn't
[12:00 - 12:07] take them she feels okay blah blah blah i was like well is there any way that you can take them
[12:08 - 12:17] and you know maybe lay down and sleep and at that moment that is when she basically
[12:18 - 12:28] blocked me out of nowhere she literally fucking blocked me out of nowhere on things like she
[12:28 - 12:36] literally just out blocked me and at that point i was thinking okay she doesn't want to be with me
[12:36 - 12:43] that's fine you know i had no problem with that i mean i understood if you know
[12:44 - 12:51] she felt like she wasn't ready so i i get it you know i've been in that position
[12:54 - 13:10] so i went about my day but little did i realize that to my surprise my friend well our friend
[13:10 - 13:22] alson sent me a link to a video that she had done literally that same day within an hour of
[13:23 - 13:29] blocking me and essentially breaking up with me at that point within an hour
[13:31 - 13:41] candle had made a video about how i was abusive to her and how i did all these crazy things that
[13:41 - 13:53] i did not do and at the time i had no way to reach out to her so i essentially found out that she
[13:53 - 14:05] had a youtube so i initially went on to youtube and made a video calling her out on her bullshit
[14:06 - 14:12] and it's trying to explain to me why hey this is not true i don't know what she's talking about
[14:12 - 14:20] this is what really went down well that in turn spiraled all these videos and you guys can go back
[14:20 - 14:27] and watch all these different videos you guys can go back onto her channel and see all these
[14:27 - 14:37] different videos where she would talk crap about me and i would end up just defending myself
[14:39 - 14:55] i would literally end up defending myself against her many times over like i was literally just sitting
[14:55 - 15:13] there defending myself against her now fast forward i say about 2018 ish fast forward to about 2018
[15:14 - 15:20] after all this shit was going down fast forward to 2018 after not talking to her for a few years
[15:22 - 15:30] i had initially met up with Ian aka Bradley who everybody knows by now y'all have heard his music
[15:31 - 15:38] and stuff you guys have seen me talk to him on facebook and this time the other you guys
[15:38 - 15:48] know Bradley everybody knows him he's a super cool dude shot the Bradley what up but fast forward to that
[15:48 - 15:59] era me and Bradley started bought shot records it was me Bradley his cousin Brendan aka b-man at the
[15:59 - 16:08] time he went by b-man at the time um bogeyman was on there young fox was on there i was on there
[16:09 - 16:17] um a couple others were on there kota oda was actually on there uh releasing music through us
[16:17 - 16:24] i spoke with his family and they gave me permission to you know have his music released
[16:24 - 16:30] through us on there because like i said i know kota's family personally i'm still very good
[16:30 - 16:36] friends with all of them to this very day and you know we had we had initially gotten permission
[16:36 - 16:44] to release kota's music through our label at the time so we were like cool you know we can put together
[16:45 - 16:53] a tribute album of you know all his songs that he's done before his passing which was a project
[16:53 - 17:03] i had worked on at the time along with releasing a couple of my first ever dubstep albums um
[17:04 - 17:19] um blackout and evolution now fast forward to july of that year all right fast forward to july of
[17:19 - 17:26] that year which was actually around the time i had just released blackout i had released blackout
[17:26 - 17:38] a month prior in june and i was asleep that night when everything was supposed to really went down
[17:40 - 17:47] okay i was dead ass asleep i had just gotten done doing a gaming live stream and hanging out with
[17:47 - 17:54] some of my friends on live stream so we were all hanging out shooting the shit so we all decided
[17:54 - 18:02] to hop off stream and crash i had fallen asleep like the man in my head at that pillow i was out
[18:05 - 18:11] i wake up the next morning and do like i always do every morning even to this day i still do it
[18:11 - 18:14] i woke up grabbed a cup of coffee
[18:18 - 18:24] woke to see a video of my favorite youtubers had posted anything and then went on to
[18:25 - 18:32] you know watching good anime that i haven't watched in a while so as i was saying they're
[18:32 - 18:38] watching i think i was watching i forget what i was watching i think i was either watching
[18:38 - 18:46] um back mongolian child squad or nana at the time i forget i forget what anime i was watching
[18:47 - 18:54] but i was scrolling through my notifications on youtube and i've seen that boogie paul aka boogie
[18:54 - 19:05] man had commented on one of my videos and i was thinking all right cool maybe he's posting a funny
[19:05 - 19:12] joke whatever because that's what he did he would always post funny wise cracks on my videos
[19:13 - 19:20] so i'm sitting there thinking all right he posted something funny ha ha ha you know type of deal
[19:21 - 19:44] i was wrong in that comment he had literally blamed me for candle's death and my first initial
[19:44 - 19:53] thought was what the fuck's going on so i i immediately stopped around and i called him i was
[19:53 - 20:00] like yo what the is going on and that's when he had explained to me that candle had quote
[20:00 - 20:12] unquote killed herself and was blaming me for her suicide and i had people like juggler 972
[20:12 - 20:23] whom i was good friends with at the time attacking me for no reason at all i had people like him
[20:23 - 20:35] who had once stood up for me attacking me which was weird to me so the entire time i'm getting
[20:35 - 20:44] fingers pointed at me and it's not the other and it sucked because i was being blamed for
[20:44 - 20:54] something i had nothing to do with that i didn't even know was going on like i said i was asleep
[20:54 - 21:02] i was out like a light that night i was wiped i was tired because i just got done doing a podcast
[21:02 - 21:10] with the guys literally that night before plus i had been working on like i said my album blackout
[21:10 - 21:18] i had just finished up one of the songs so i was tired out i was white i had no idea any of this
[21:18 - 21:29] went down until paul aka bogeyman the clown had told me all right so you know fast forward through all
[21:29 - 21:43] that you know fast forward through all that shit the whole era of me being blamed for this and that
[21:43 - 21:58] and i was proving that she was alive yada yada yada oh i'm gonna yes you're gonna yes