2021-9-8 THE DARKNESS WITHIN

[0:00 - 0:33] I think so easy
[0:33 - 2:11] I'm gonna shout
[2:11 - 2:13] I'm gonna make it make it make it make it
[2:13 - 2:51] Oh so I can see my devastation
[2:51 - 3:08] It's gonna pop up, hey
[3:08 - 3:12] I think so
[3:12 - 3:14] I think so
[3:14 - 3:34] You gathered me so
[3:34 - 3:39] You didn't work at all
[3:39 - 3:43] Never I didn't want you to be together
[3:43 - 3:44] I am
[3:44 - 3:46] Think we're gonna fit in
[3:46 - 4:06] It's gonna pop
[4:06 - 4:08] It's gonna
[4:35 - 5:14] It's gonna pop up
[5:14 - 5:15] You're not a space
[5:15 - 5:38] I just want a bang
[5:38 - 7:06] I'm not to the legend
[7:06 - 7:09] The pain
[7:09 - 7:11] But I'm so into my soul
[7:11 - 7:14] To come
[7:14 - 7:16] But I'm so into the truth
[7:16 - 7:19] When you stab me to the bone
[7:19 - 7:26] But God is more such
[7:26 - 7:26] Hit my
[7:26 - 7:59] This bad news
[7:59 - 8:02] A shadow losing death
[8:02 - 8:04] That cat is not the weekend
[8:04 - 8:09] My praise not the best, but so too much to
[8:09 - 8:15] Make me to change the fear of the gorecy
[8:15 - 8:21] You know the thing, boys, I hit my head and can't breathe
[8:21 - 8:31] And it gave me time, my arms gave, it's hard to tell
[8:31 - 11:04] I don't know myself anymore
[11:04 - 11:10] Six years of pain
[11:10 - 11:16] And this song is something I would, this is something I would tell myself
[11:16 - 11:20] Every fucking day, this is something I would tell myself
[11:20 - 11:26] For the last six fucking years that I've been stolen away
[11:26 - 12:02] And if those of you that supported this whole time, thank you
[12:02 - 12:04] I fucking love you guys
[12:04 - 12:10] That means more to me than you know
[12:10 - 12:15] My love girl, but he says
[12:15 - 12:18] He says he fated away
[12:18 - 12:20] To crush your life
[12:20 - 12:23] And then someone says
[12:23 - 12:26] They're about to steal it away
[12:26 - 12:29] They write in the old saying
[12:29 - 12:33] They'll find you, burn you
[12:33 - 12:36] They say you wanna get out of life
[12:36 - 12:40] I'm falling in love
[12:40 - 12:43] If you wanna get out of life
[12:43 - 12:46] I'm falling in love
[12:46 - 12:48] For your love
[12:48 - 13:03] Son, she said
[13:03 - 13:06] That she fated away
[13:06 - 13:08] To crush your life
[13:08 - 13:14] I'm falling in love
[13:14 - 15:27] For your love
[15:27 - 15:30] I'm falling in love
[15:30 - 15:43] If you wanna get out of life
[15:43 - 17:46] I'm falling in love
[17:46 - 17:48] Where's all my LP fans?
[17:48 - 17:57] What is those RFP chest is in the comments?
[17:57 - 17:59] It's time to get out of life
[17:59 - 18:03] I told no one, it doesn't matter how much you try
[18:03 - 18:06] She's got to find you, find you, try to explain to me
[18:06 - 18:09] It's time to get out of life
[18:09 - 18:12] Watch it fly, fly, it's a casual swing
[18:12 - 18:14] Watch it try to get out of the end of the day
[18:14 - 18:16] Rock, Ticks, Life, D-Way
[18:16 - 18:19] Oh, it's real, shit, no, got to go
[18:19 - 18:21] Time for right now for me to go
[18:21 - 18:23] Try to move on, cause we don't even know
[18:23 - 18:25] I'm wasting it all, so watch
[18:25 - 18:28] I kept everything inside and we know
[18:28 - 18:30] I tried, but I was fell apart
[18:30 - 18:33] What am I to me, what am I to me, they lose
[18:33 - 18:35] I tried so hard
[18:35 - 18:38] You get me on so far
[18:38 - 18:40] But in the end
[18:40 - 18:42] It doesn't even matter
[18:42 - 18:54] How much you want to live
[18:54 - 18:57] I told no one, it doesn't matter how much you try
[18:57 - 19:02] Keep that line as long as you remind yourself of how I tried so hard
[19:02 - 19:04] It's right in the way you remind me
[19:04 - 19:06] That you're not those party across the scene
[19:06 - 19:09] Remember they don't touch your fucking knee
[19:09 - 19:13] I'm surprised they got so many spots the way they were before
[19:13 - 19:15] You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
[19:15 - 19:19] Not that you knew me back then, but it all comes back to you
[19:19 - 19:21] It's deep, yes, I stress this thing
[19:21 - 19:23] Exciting, even though I tried
[19:23 - 19:25] It all fell apart, what it meant to me
[19:25 - 19:27] What it meant to me if you remember me
[19:27 - 19:30] It was time I tried so hard
[19:30 - 19:35] It's not so far, 15 years
[19:35 - 19:37] It doesn't need to go
[19:37 - 19:49] 10 years, it doesn't need to go
[19:49 - 19:58] I've been booked as far as I can go
[19:58 - 20:07] For this, there's only one thing you should know
[20:07 - 20:11] I put my trust in you
[20:11 - 20:15] Push that bomb as I can
[20:15 - 21:15] Let's take eyes right now
[21:15 - 21:20] The pain that I went through over these last six years
[21:20 - 21:25] All this pain that I went through
[21:25 - 21:28] I would never wish it on my worst
[21:28 - 21:32] I would not wish this pain in what I went through on my worst enemy
[21:32 - 21:36] No one deserves that
[21:36 - 22:33] I've got something to remember
[22:33 - 22:38] And though I can't see
[22:38 - 22:43] My balls are closing in
[22:43 - 23:28] I stand beside my own reflection
[23:28 - 23:36] I can't forget
[23:36 - 23:38] My balls are closing in
[23:38 - 25:09] Those of you making all these smart ass remarks
[25:09 - 25:13] All you making these smart ass fucking remarks
[25:13 - 25:16] You obviously haven't been put through
[25:16 - 25:20] The pain and the suffering that I've been put through
[25:20 - 25:22] By my ex
[25:22 - 25:24] And what so many other people like me
[25:24 - 25:28] Have been put through by that same fucking person
[25:28 - 25:32] You obviously don't get it
[25:32 - 25:34] Cause if you did understand it
[25:34 - 25:36] And you did get it
[25:36 - 25:56] You would be sitting there running your mother fucking mouth
[25:56 - 25:58] Yeah, you say boo-hoo
[25:58 - 26:00] But imagine getting put through
[26:00 - 26:02] The shit that people like me
[26:02 - 26:04] Broke, tall, heather
[26:04 - 26:08] Everyone that that bitch has gone after
[26:08 - 26:10] Think about that man
[26:10 - 26:13] You saw the articles, you know what she's done
[26:13 - 26:17] Don't sit there acting like you're a badass
[26:17 - 26:23] Cause you ain't shit man
[26:23 - 26:26] You don't know what these last six years
[26:26 - 26:28] Has fucking done to me
[26:28 - 26:31] Mentally and emotionally
[26:31 - 26:35] You have no idea how fucked up I am from that shit
[26:35 - 26:39] Like I said, I would never wish anything
[26:39 - 26:42] At me, Paul, Heather, Brooke
[26:42 - 26:45] Or anyone who's ever been put through by Kendall
[26:45 - 26:48] I would never in my whole life
[26:48 - 26:50] Wish that all my worst enemy
[26:50 - 26:53] Because no one, and I mean no one
[26:53 - 27:53] Deserves that
[27:53 - 27:55] I hear the list, you say
[27:55 - 28:18] You feel my night out, hey
[28:18 - 28:22] Wait, baby, something
[28:22 - 28:24] Only something in no sense
[28:24 - 28:26] I've got this thing in no way
[28:26 - 30:53] You say that you don't seem enough
[30:53 - 30:55] To miss a sign of me
[30:55 - 30:57] Then I let it all out
[30:57 - 30:59] To find that I'm not the only person
[30:59 - 31:01] With these things in mind
[31:01 - 31:03] Well, if you didn't see the words
[31:03 - 31:05] Of real, it's the only real thing
[31:05 - 31:07] That I've got left to peel
[31:07 - 31:10] Just suck, all the way alone
[31:10 - 31:41] In this pain, I feel for you
[31:41 - 31:43] Like they fall right down on my face
[31:43 - 31:45] Lookin' everywhere I am
[31:45 - 31:47] Only the five minutes out the way
[31:47 - 31:49] I imagine it all in my mind
[31:49 - 31:51] Funny what I have with negativity
[31:51 - 31:53] Cause I can justify the way
[31:53 - 31:55] Everyone's looking at me
[31:55 - 31:57] That's the gate, Paul went alone
[31:57 - 31:59] In the fault, in the fault
[31:59 - 32:00] In the fault
[32:00 - 32:01] In the fault
[32:01 - 32:35] In the fault
[32:35 - 32:37] In the fault
[32:37 - 34:30] In the fault
[34:30 - 34:32] In the fault
[34:32 - 34:33] In the fault
[34:33 - 34:36] In the fault
[34:36 - 34:37] In the fault
[34:37 - 34:38] In the fault
[34:38 - 34:39] In the fault
[34:39 - 34:40] In the fault
[34:40 - 34:41] In the fault
[34:41 - 34:42] In the fault
[34:42 - 34:43] In the fault
[34:43 - 34:44] In the fault
[34:44 - 34:45] In the fault
[34:45 - 34:46] In the fault
[34:46 - 34:47] In the fault
[34:47 - 34:48] In the fault
[34:48 - 34:49] In the fault
[34:49 - 34:50] In the fault
[34:50 - 34:51] In the fault
[34:51 - 34:52] In the fault
[34:52 - 34:53] In the fault
[34:53 - 34:54] In the fault
[34:54 - 34:55] In the fault
[34:55 - 34:56] In the fault
[34:56 - 34:57] In the fault
[34:57 - 34:58] In the fault
[34:58 - 34:59] In the fault
[34:59 - 35:00] In the fault
[35:00 - 35:01] In the fault
[35:01 - 35:02] In the fault
[35:02 - 35:03] In the fault
[35:03 - 35:04] In the fault
[35:04 - 35:09] I ain't got me saving lives yet and sometimes I forget that my demons came to play, I'm barely hanging by a friend
[35:09 - 35:12] They asked me to pull this trigger and just lay my mind to rest, yeah
[35:12 - 35:16] Lost in their music, just stayed up here with me feeling hangin' on
[35:16 - 35:19] I don't know if I can do this
[35:19 - 35:22] When I rise, when I fall, when I rise, when I fall
[35:22 - 35:26] I don't know what I'm doing, I don't know what I'm doing
[35:26 - 35:29] I don't know what I'm doing, I don't know what I'm doing
[35:29 - 35:33] I don't know what I'm doing, I don't know what I'm doing
[35:33 - 35:35] I don't know what I'm doing, I don't know what I'm doing
[35:35 - 35:39] I'm not a model black shit, ain't no race of day man
[35:39 - 35:41] Wishing I was gay man
[35:41 - 35:45] When I rise, when I fall, when I rise, when I fall
[35:45 - 35:47] I don't know what I'm doing
[35:47 - 35:51] I know you like to cling to this, I can see it in your eyes
[35:51 - 35:54] You can't even see it yourself, you can't pass it on to me
[35:54 - 35:57] So you go around a little toss and turn
[35:57 - 35:59] And every night you're baiting if it even helps
[35:59 - 36:02] You quit the party, quit the drugs, quit the riva
[36:02 - 36:05] And everything is problem solved, cause you changing people
[36:05 - 36:08] You wake up miserable, it's clear you're feeding off of evil
[36:08 - 36:11] Take my hand tonight and I can promise you'll be honest
[36:11 - 36:14] What if I'm a family, I can leave them in a disarray
[36:14 - 36:17] You're the town number one, forget about you anyway
[36:17 - 36:20] What if I'm a fantasy, in fact I ain't made on this
[36:20 - 36:23] Find another source, do not worry, they was all a man
[36:23 - 36:26] It's better if you go, do not act like you have any brains
[36:26 - 36:28] David, don't exist, this is it
[36:28 - 36:30] When you take my hand and push it, get it louder
[36:30 - 36:32] You can't find any good to sign you will
[36:32 - 36:35] Show me on the broken side through the jury, get the hell out
[36:35 - 36:43] Lost in the music, this is therapy
[36:43 - 36:46] When I rise with a ball, when I rise with a ball
[36:46 - 36:53] I don't know if that was a dream, man
[36:53 - 37:02] Did I give it up though?
[37:02 - 37:05] Just man, I can't explain no
[37:05 - 37:10] Did I give it up though?
[37:10 - 37:12] Just man, I can't explain no
[37:12 - 37:16] When I rise with a ball, when I rise with a ball
[37:16 - 37:46] All you guys sitting there telling me all this crap
[37:46 - 37:49] I'll do the comments
[37:49 - 37:56] See, none of you that are talking crap
[37:56 - 37:59] Had to face the things that I've had to face
[37:59 - 38:09] Over the last six years
[38:09 - 38:12] Think about that
[38:12 - 38:16] Six years of hell
[38:16 - 38:19] Six years of being tortured
[38:19 - 38:23] Of not being able to do things that I used to do
[38:23 - 38:31] Let me tell you that
[38:31 - 38:34] Six years ago, I had a life
[38:34 - 38:38] Six years ago, my life was fucking perfect
[38:38 - 38:41] I had a wonderful girlfriend
[38:41 - 38:43] I had amazing friends
[38:43 - 38:45] I was doing good on here
[38:45 - 38:48] I had a fucking...
[38:48 - 38:51] I was actually looking for a job at that point in time
[38:51 - 38:54] I had a lot going for me
[38:54 - 38:55] A lot
[38:55 - 38:58] And then what happened?
[38:58 - 39:02] That psycho bitch Kendall Smith
[39:02 - 39:05] Came in and ruined it all
[39:05 - 39:07] And I'm going to an eye
[39:07 - 39:10] All because she once came back on me
[39:10 - 39:15] For something I never did
[39:15 - 39:18] I didn't deserve to get put through
[39:18 - 39:27] What I got put through, motherfuckers
[39:27 - 39:31] I did not deserve what I got put through
[39:31 - 39:33] I did not deserve that hell
[39:33 - 39:36] Neither did Heather, neither did Paul
[39:36 - 39:37] Neither did Brooke
[39:37 - 39:42] Nobody deserves what Kendall puts them through
[39:42 - 39:46] No one deserves that
[39:46 - 39:49] I wouldn't wish what Kendall said to us
[39:49 - 39:51] What Kendall said to me
[39:51 - 39:53] And Heather and all of us
[39:53 - 39:56] I would never wish that on my worst enemy
[39:56 - 40:00] Because Kendall, though, what she's doing
[40:00 - 40:07] Is a fate worse than death
[40:07 - 40:09] What Kendall is doing
[40:09 - 40:17] Is very much a fate far, far worse than death
[40:17 - 40:19] I had a normal life
[40:19 - 40:27] And I want to get it back
[40:27 - 40:30] I want to do everything I can to get it back
[40:30 - 40:34] To be who I used to be
[40:34 - 40:36] Is what I want more than anything
[40:36 - 49:18] Let's be right back
[49:40 - 49:45] Why are we going on this way?
[49:45 - 49:48] Why are we playing these games today?
[49:48 - 49:52] Nothing's gonna break it down
[49:52 - 49:56] Until I'm back again
[49:56 - 49:59] So why don't we have a race this way?
[49:59 - 50:03] Let's do something that's way out of strain
[50:03 - 50:07] Get me into little places I can't
[50:07 - 50:10] Let's be right back
[50:10 - 50:14] I want to do everything I can to get it back
[50:14 - 50:17] To be who I used to be
[50:17 - 50:22] Is what I want more than anything
[50:22 - 50:27] Let's be right back
[50:27 - 50:31] I want to do everything I can to get it back
[50:31 - 50:36] To be who I used to be
[50:36 - 50:42] Why are we going on this way?
[50:42 - 50:46] Why are we playing these games today?
[50:46 - 50:49] Nothing's gonna break it down
[50:49 - 50:56] So why don't we have a race this way?
[50:56 - 50:59] Let's do something that's way out of strain
[50:59 - 51:03] Get me into little places I can't
[51:03 - 51:04] Let's be right back
[51:04 - 51:16] I want to do everything I can to get it back
[51:16 - 51:17] To be who I used to be
[51:17 - 51:19] Is what I want more than anything
[51:19 - 51:20] Let's be right back
[51:20 - 51:23] I want to do everything I can to get it back
[51:23 - 51:25] To be who I used to be
[51:25 - 51:27] Is what I want more than anything
[51:27 - 51:57] Let's be right back
[51:57 - 52:33] I want to do everything I can to get it back
[52:33 - 52:34] And this last one
[52:34 - 52:37] This represents what Kango
[52:37 - 52:39] And all of you involved with her
[52:39 - 52:48] Did to me
[52:48 - 52:50] Every morning when I hit a big phase
[52:50 - 52:52] I'm not sure if I should say this
[52:52 - 52:53] Fuck I'll say it anyway
[52:53 - 52:55] Everybody tries to tell me that
[52:55 - 52:56] I'm combator of phase
[52:56 - 52:57] I'm no offensive phase
[52:57 - 52:59] I just want to feel it
[52:59 - 53:00] Yeah, I'm battling depression
[53:00 - 53:02] But the question remains
[53:02 - 53:03] Is this supposed to have an exception
[53:03 - 53:05] Or am I supposed to press a raise?
[53:05 - 53:06] Dr. Josh is telling me that
[53:06 - 53:07] I'm going through a phase
[53:07 - 53:09] That's not a fucking phase
[53:09 - 53:10] I just want to feel it
[53:10 - 53:11] Take it
[53:11 - 53:13] Yeah, I'm going through a real depression
[53:13 - 53:14] And we take it
[53:14 - 53:15] It's probably because I'm feeling
[53:15 - 53:17] Silent and it's literally
[53:17 - 53:18] It's already
[53:18 - 53:19] It's so crazy
[53:19 - 53:21] And I got a
[53:21 - 53:22] I'm going down
[53:22 - 53:23] Right down
[53:23 - 53:25] To the floor
[53:25 - 53:29] To your left
[53:29 - 53:31] I'm going to go right up
[53:31 - 53:32] Right up
[53:32 - 53:33] Right up
[53:33 - 53:34] Right down
[53:34 - 53:36] Falling down
[53:36 - 53:37] Falling down
[53:37 - 53:45] Falling down
[53:45 - 53:53] I'm trying to a maze
[53:53 - 53:54] Every one, no down
[53:54 - 53:55] I'm just a wall that I'm playing
[53:55 - 53:57] Something I'm racing against
[53:57 - 53:58] I just want to find traffic
[53:58 - 53:59] Keep us steady, baby
[53:59 - 54:00] It's probably because
[54:00 - 54:01] I'm sitting in different areas
[54:01 - 54:02] I'm fainted
[54:02 - 54:03] Oh my God, I keep on shifting
[54:03 - 54:05] Every second that I waste
[54:05 - 54:07] Another second through a dozen
[54:07 - 54:08] I want a moment
[54:08 - 54:09] This one tells me
[54:09 - 54:11] That I'm going through a stage
[54:11 - 54:12] It's up to the stage
[54:12 - 54:14] I just want to feel okay
[54:14 - 54:15] Oh, fuck it
[54:15 - 54:17] You got my attention
[54:17 - 54:21] I was gonna discuss something, but it's a lie
[54:21 - 54:22] I didn't really think it was my thing
[54:22 - 54:25] There's a fucking man, but it comes with a lie
[54:25 - 54:29] Like a terrible mind, real sleep on the way back
[54:29 - 54:31] Christ my god
[54:31 - 54:38] I'm gonna kill him, kill him
[54:38 - 55:01] I'm gonna kill him, kill him, kill him
[55:01 - 55:19] I'm gonna kill him, kill him, kill him
[55:19 - 55:21] I'm gonna kill him, kill him, kill him