Original upload date: September 8th, 2021 (automatically grabbed from title)
[0:00 - 0:02] Where we bought a converted sprinter van to explore
[0:04 - 0:12] All right, what's up guys? I do apologize for that. I am back
[0:14 - 0:16] I do apologize for that
[0:28 - 0:32] as I was saying
[0:32 - 0:36] you know
[0:36 - 0:46] Kendall has a very long history of doing stuff like this. That's you know, what she does if
[0:46 - 0:51] you're her ex
[0:51 - 0:55] She will do one of those three things and many of you may remember
[0:56 - 1:00] this incident
[1:00 - 1:04] When bullion in the clown paul when he showed up here to talk
[1:05 - 1:07] I found out something the other day
[1:08 - 1:10] The day that he showed up here
[1:13 - 1:16] I was supposed to die
[1:16 - 1:19] She had wanted him to kill me
[1:22 - 1:24] She had wanted him to
[1:24 - 1:29] murder me
[1:29 - 1:31] but thankfully
[1:32 - 1:34] And paul I can't thank you enough for this
[1:35 - 1:38] And I do humbly appreciate this shit
[1:38 - 1:40] for you telling me
[1:41 - 1:44] He did not go through with it because
[1:44 - 1:48] He knew deep down that it was not the right thing to do
[1:49 - 1:51] And then I have done nothing wrong
[1:57 - 1:58] So
[1:58 - 2:00] What did candle do to get back?
[2:01 - 2:03] at me
[2:03 - 2:14] To ruin my life
[2:14 - 2:22] She teamed up with a friend who introduced her to mass hall reports
[2:23 - 2:27] Now candle sent mass hall reports
[2:29 - 2:31] Those pornographic images
[2:33 - 2:35] And had me set up
[2:37 - 2:40] So all this shit that's going on
[2:41 - 2:44] Is all a revenge plot
[2:45 - 2:47] By candle smith to ruin my life
[2:48 - 2:57] Anybody that knows me in real life will tell you that I am not a pedophile
[2:57 - 2:59] I am not an evil person
[3:01 - 3:05] I'm really not I'm one of the nicest people you could ever meet
[3:05 - 3:13] And I feel like that's one big misconception that people have about me
[3:14 - 3:18] Is that I'm this awful monster of a person
[3:20 - 3:22] When I'm actually not
[3:24 - 3:27] I try to help people every chance I get
[3:28 - 3:31] I try to give as much as I can
[3:40 - 3:44] You know, I do genuinely try to give as much as I can
[3:46 - 3:48] You know, I respect
[3:49 - 3:57] Everyone around me
[3:57 - 3:59] to
[3:59 - 4:06] To skull kid
[4:06 - 4:10] I do want to say that I'm starting about earlier
[4:12 - 4:15] But there's something that you need to understand
[4:16 - 4:23] Okay, and I'm not talking shit talking you I'm being dead honest with you
[4:26 - 4:28] You need to quit shit talking to me
[4:30 - 4:34] Because what I was getting at earlier is something that is very very real
[4:35 - 4:40] Okay
[4:40 - 4:41] because
[4:41 - 4:43] I don't know if you know this or not, but
[4:44 - 4:48] I was raised in a family full of artists my whole life
[4:49 - 4:52] My cousin Jason owns his own tattoo shop
[4:53 - 4:55] Up in Anchorage, Alaska
[4:55 - 4:58] Which is my birth which is where I was born
[5:00 - 5:07] Hold on one minute guys
[5:07 - 5:46] Yeah
[5:46 - 6:03] The thought ladies and gentlemen, I'll be right back guys
[6:05 - 6:08] The skull kid I do want to explain something to you
[6:09 - 6:11] That I think might help you a little bit
[6:14 - 6:19] So I'll be right back. I should go down make some coffee. I'll be right back
[6:22 - 6:25] Shout out to everybody that supports me that man. I fucking love you guys
[13:47 - 13:52] Hey, what's up guys? I'm back. I do apologize for that. I have to make some coffee real quick
[13:58 - 14:06] But as I was saying, um, you know
[14:07 - 14:09] My grandmother had
[14:10 - 14:12] You know wrote and self-published
[14:15 - 14:18] for
[14:18 - 14:22] You know our family and had done the artwork for it
[14:23 - 14:27] Um my cousin Jason like I said, he does have his own tattoo shop
[14:28 - 14:31] And actually at one point it got offered by army james
[14:32 - 14:36] Who as many of you know from new york, ink and miami
[14:37 - 14:41] He had gotten offered to work for him but turned him down because
[14:41 - 14:44] He wants to run his own shop totally understandable
[14:45 - 14:53] The skull kid when you need to realize that is I come from a family of artists. Okay
[14:54 - 14:57] I've been drawing my whole life. I'm doing artwork my whole life
[14:58 - 15:01] I should that's always been my thing
[15:02 - 15:05] But what you need to understand skull kid is that
[15:07 - 15:09] There is a saying in the art world
[15:10 - 15:13] especially in the tattoo industry
[15:13 - 15:19] Because as I said, I have family that's in the tattoo industry. I have many friends that do it
[15:20 - 15:25] Shout out to all the local tattoo artists out there. Fuck. No other guys, especially the ones that I know
[15:25 - 15:29] What's good? Shout out to my boy harry for marketing tattoos. What's good, brother?
[15:35 - 15:39] But there's a saying in the tattoo world man that stands out very very true
[15:41 - 15:43] You can be the best artist in the world
[15:45 - 15:47] But if you have a shitty attitude
[15:49 - 15:56] I don't want you coming anywhere near me and that stands true for everyday life, bro
[15:58 - 16:00] like in order to
[16:01 - 16:03] The point I'm trying to make man is this
[16:04 - 16:07] In order to get respect
[16:08 - 16:12] You have to give it
[16:12 - 16:16] Like I'm respectful to anyone that respects me, you know, like
[16:17 - 16:19] If I see somebody
[16:20 - 16:26] You know showing me respect. I show them respect. That's how I've always been
[16:28 - 16:35] I always treat people or said a matter of fact when I first met you skull kid when I first met you
[16:36 - 16:38] When we first started talking
[16:39 - 16:41] I showed you respect
[16:42 - 16:44] I treat you as my equal
[16:45 - 16:48] I showed you respect
[16:48 - 16:51] Same way I do with anyone else that comes
[16:52 - 16:57] Into my chat or winds up joining the community. I show them respect
[16:58 - 17:02] fellow artists that do artwork on the unit on facebook
[17:03 - 17:07] I show them respect
[17:07 - 17:11] Because in order to get respect you have to give it skull kid
[17:12 - 17:16] Now i'm not denying that you're talented. I'm not denying that bro
[17:16 - 17:19] I give you the credit of being a very talented
[17:20 - 17:31] Music producer. I will give you that. I will give you that 110% my dude. You're very talented with what you do
[17:35 - 17:43] I'm not gonna deny that but there is a saying that I really think
[17:46 - 18:23] That you need to hear from this man himself you to
[18:23 - 18:27] Watch this because this is actually coming from
[18:28 - 18:32] A wwe superstar who also is an artist
[18:33 - 18:37] whom I keep in contact with through instagram
[18:37 - 18:42] Who I've spoken with many many times through instagram through his comments through
[18:43 - 18:48] You know live streams very very nice guy very well mannered guy
[18:49 - 18:51] Really cool guy honestly
[18:52 - 18:56] Like he's definitely one of the coolest people I've honestly ever met
[18:58 - 19:09] So i'm gonna let you watch this
[19:09 - 19:11] Turn this up a little bit
[19:11 - 19:26] There's something that makes somebody and remember me guys the women so
[19:27 - 20:12] If I had anybody else just because they are and then what you do and what you do deep down
[20:13 - 20:15] I mean i'm a kind and genuine person
[20:53 - 20:56] Continuous this next segment coming up
[20:57 - 20:58] is
[20:58 - 21:01] Very rich ruin. This is what you need to pay attention to
[21:06 - 21:08] So this next one inspires me
[21:09 - 21:29] And what drives me
[21:30 - 21:33] Another me is what that will never be
[21:33 - 22:07] Pay attention to what he says right here
[22:09 - 22:16] Art isn't perfect. Nothing's perfect. I'm not perfect
[22:18 - 22:22] However, it is these imperfections that make a song or painting unique
[22:22 - 23:00] I've inspired people across the world
[23:01 - 23:08] Giving them someone to cheer for giving them someone to look up giving them someone to doubt
[23:10 - 23:13] I also know i've hurt people and let them down
[23:17 - 23:20] Even though i'm not quite through with this canvas
[23:22 - 23:25] His space to add to his fading away
[23:34 - 24:02] Did he catch that because what he said is very very true
[24:03 - 24:05] I'm not perfect
[24:05 - 24:07] The artwork and the stuff that I do
[24:09 - 24:11] Everything I do everything from my music
[24:12 - 24:15] To my artwork
[24:15 - 24:18] None of it's perfect
[24:18 - 24:21] But it is unique and it does stand out
[24:22 - 24:26] Which is why a lot of people respect what I do
[24:27 - 24:30] Because I have the courage to stand out among the rest
[24:32 - 24:36] I have
[24:36 - 24:39] The courage to put myself out there
[24:40 - 24:47] I don't sit there and pretend to be somebody that I'm not
[24:50 - 24:52] Like I said, I know I've done wrong
[24:53 - 24:57] I know I've done wrong in the past. I know I've let people down in the past
[24:59 - 25:02] And I get that
[25:02 - 25:08] But also something you need to realize skulkin and this isn't just for you skulkin this for anybody out there
[25:09 - 25:12] That has any doubts about me
[25:13 - 25:16] That doubts what I am able to do
[25:17 - 25:19] Whether it's my digital artwork where
[25:20 - 25:24] I take an image and I turn it into a creepy art piece or
[25:25 - 25:27] whether it's
[25:27 - 25:30] My digital artwork that I've been doing very recently
[25:31 - 25:34] Or whether it's my hand-done paintings
[25:35 - 25:37] At the end of the day
[25:37 - 25:41] What I do
[25:41 - 25:44] Allows me to stand out among the rest
[25:45 - 25:47] At the end of the day skulkin
[25:48 - 25:50] We are all on the same team
[25:52 - 25:57] At the end of the day man, you're a youtube creator. I'm a youtube creator
[25:58 - 26:00] You do music. I do music
[26:01 - 26:04] You produce music. I produce music
[26:05 - 26:07] You make beats
[26:07 - 26:14] I make beats and I also play a few instruments. I play piano guitar harmonica and I play
[26:18 - 26:19] the
[26:19 - 26:21] Ocarina so
[26:21 - 26:24] I do have a bit of an arsenal underneath my belt
[26:26 - 26:30] I started playing guitar when I was 10 years old and
[26:30 - 26:33] Never really got back into it until I was in high school
[26:34 - 26:37] And that's kind of when you know, I had that
[26:37 - 26:40] We all had those bands in high school that were
[26:41 - 26:43] shitty high school bands
[26:44 - 26:46] I was one of those guys that had a shitty high school band
[26:48 - 26:51] Not gonna lie. We were we thought we were good
[26:52 - 26:55] But we were trash like we were shit
[26:56 - 27:02] Now our vocalist that we had at the time Brian Hildebrand. He actually had a good voice on
[27:02 - 27:04] But unfortunately he moved out of state
[27:06 - 27:10] And we all went our separate ways
[27:11 - 27:12] and
[27:12 - 27:14] Which led me to
[27:14 - 27:18] Do what I'm doing now
[27:18 - 27:20] eventually
[27:20 - 27:24] but
[27:24 - 27:28] Something you all need to realize though is that I'm not this
[27:28 - 27:30] evil wicked
[27:30 - 27:32] maniacal person
[27:33 - 27:38] That everyone has been making me out to be for the last six years
[27:39 - 27:41] I'm really not
[27:41 - 27:44] Now if someone says they're better than me at something
[27:45 - 27:50] This is my take on it. All right, and I know anybody that does artwork that
[27:51 - 27:54] You know does any kind of racing at all
[27:55 - 28:02] Or does anything at all to you know on this platform, whether you play an instrument or
[28:03 - 28:06] You know you do artwork or whatever it may be
[28:08 - 28:11] And if somebody says that they're better than me at something
[28:11 - 28:15] I want them to prove it. I want them to show me
[28:16 - 28:20] How much better than me they actually are and if they are
[28:20 - 28:23] Hey, I'll give you my respects
[28:24 - 28:26] If you are better than me
[28:27 - 28:30] I'll tell you you're better than me
[28:30 - 28:33] but if you don't have the guts to
[28:33 - 28:35] Actually stand up and show me
[28:36 - 28:39] How much better like how good you actually are
[28:41 - 28:44] Then what is that really? What are you proving?
[28:47 - 28:50] What are you proving if you don't have the courage to
[28:51 - 28:53] Get up and
[28:53 - 28:55] You know prove that you're good at something
[28:57 - 29:04] Like I said earlier, I know there's people out there that are millions of times better than me
[29:05 - 29:07] I know there are people out there that are
[29:08 - 29:12] Legends that are far better at what I do than I am
[29:14 - 29:16] But at the same time
[29:18 - 29:22] I'm doing what I enjoy. I'm doing what I would love to turn into a career
[29:25 - 29:30] I would love to turn my artwork and my music into a career
[29:30 - 29:32] I really would
[29:32 - 29:35] I would love to turn those both into a career for myself
[29:38 - 29:42] Because I have so much artwork stacked up that
[29:43 - 29:52] I don't know what to do with it all
[29:52 - 29:54] But because I'm different
[29:55 - 29:57] People feel like they have to
[30:00 - 30:01] Judge me
[30:01 - 30:04] They feel like they have to hold me back
[30:05 - 30:07] And why that is I don't know
[30:08 - 30:13] I don't understand it. Yeah, I honestly don't think I ever will understand it
[30:24 - 30:30] but honestly
[30:30 - 30:34] All I've ever wanted to do was make a career out of what I love
[30:36 - 30:41] Which is doing the different types of artwork that I do both digital and regular
[30:42 - 30:45] And putting out music, you know
[30:46 - 30:49] Getting a band going again like I used to have
[30:50 - 30:55] And for a very short time on this platform, I did have
[30:56 - 31:00] A band like it didn't last very long because the lead vocalist that
[31:01 - 31:03] We had actually went
[31:04 - 31:06] Way too dark for the music. So
[31:07 - 31:11] I had to depart from the band because the music was
[31:12 - 31:17] Way too dark for me. It was going down a path that I felt like I could not go down
[31:18 - 31:20] And I just felt like
[31:22 - 31:26] You know, I couldn't do it. Like I didn't want to go down that road
[31:28 - 31:33] There's a certain level of darkness that I will not go to and
[31:34 - 31:37] with that song that we were going to release talking about
[31:38 - 31:41] Satanism and this and that and the other I just I couldn't do it
[31:43 - 31:44] So I
[31:44 - 31:46] humbly
[31:46 - 31:48] the party
[31:48 - 31:50] granted everybody was pretty pissed that I left but
[31:51 - 31:53] I think after a while they kind of
[31:53 - 31:56] understood
[31:56 - 31:59] but
[31:59 - 32:01] you know, my thing is
[32:02 - 32:05] I want to be able to make a career out of what I love
[32:07 - 32:12] I mean, that's all I've ever wanted to do since I got on this platform when I started to get known
[32:13 - 32:16] I've wanted to make a career out of what I love to do
[32:17 - 32:20] Whether that'd be my artwork or whether that'd be my music
[32:24 - 32:30] Either way, I'm cool with it. Whichever one I get to make a career out of first
[32:33 - 32:35] Is the one that I'll run with
[32:37 - 32:39] But at the end of the day, man
[32:41 - 32:43] I'm honestly hired of
[32:44 - 32:47] People feeling like they have the right to steal from me
[32:48 - 32:52] That they feel like they have the right to attack me and this and the other when
[32:53 - 32:55] As I said many times before
[32:57 - 32:59] No one knows
[33:00 - 33:01] My
[33:01 - 33:04] real life
[33:04 - 33:08] So you candle brought all this on six years ago
[33:11 - 33:18] This has literally been a six-year-long battle of me trying to avoid a psychopathic person
[33:20 - 33:22] Who is genuinely
[33:22 - 33:24] genuinely mentally ill
[33:24 - 33:26] Who has actually committed
[33:27 - 33:30] felony crimes
[33:31 - 33:33] And has ran from the police
[33:33 - 33:37] Who has wanted to make my life a living hell for no reason?
[33:39 - 33:47] And it sucks
[33:48 - 33:50] Like it it truly does suck
[33:56 - 34:09] Like and here's the thing dude. I'm not as delusional as people think I am bro
[34:10 - 34:16] I'm really not. I'm just a simple guy that is trying to get his life together
[34:18 - 34:27] Despite a very very messed up situation. I am genuinely trying to get my life
[34:28 - 34:30] That I had six years ago
[34:31 - 34:34] That because let me tell you man
[34:44 - 34:46] Before candle came along
[34:48 - 34:52] And basically made my life a living nightmare for the last six years
[34:54 - 34:56] I had an amazing life
[34:58 - 35:00] You know, I was doing good
[35:02 - 35:07] And even before mass whole reports came along. I was still doing good
[35:10 - 35:13] You know, I had had a girlfriend at the time. I had
[35:14 - 35:19] What was one of my dream jobs at the time to do audio engineering for a gaming company
[35:20 - 35:29] I was making 150 bucks a day doing audio engineering work before the whole mass whole reports can scandal
[35:30 - 35:32] happened
[35:32 - 35:35] And all that shit. I was making 150 bucks a day
[35:36 - 35:38] doing audio engineering
[35:38 - 35:40] And in the blink of an eye
[35:41 - 35:44] Taking away just like that
[35:44 - 35:52] All because candle wants to ruin my life. She has ruined
[35:53 - 35:55] So many lives
[35:55 - 35:57] She's ruined my life
[35:59 - 36:02] Her ex broke who I'm still very good friends with
[36:03 - 36:05] Paul's life
[36:05 - 36:07] And many other lives in the process
[36:09 - 36:11] And it's not right
[36:15 - 36:17] imagine
[36:17 - 36:21] Imagine this okay for you guys that want to talk
[36:22 - 36:27] And run your mouths. I want you guys to think about this for a minute
[36:28 - 36:33] Okay, imagine getting put through what I got put through
[36:35 - 36:37] For six years
[36:37 - 36:39] Being constantly harassed
[36:40 - 36:43] Being attacked for things that you did not do
[36:44 - 36:48] Being blamed for someone's suicide that you had nothing to do with
[36:50 - 36:52] Being told that you're a bad person
[36:53 - 36:55] Being accused of rape
[37:03 - 37:05] Being catfished
[37:06 - 37:09] Having all this horrible stuff happen to you
[37:10 - 37:14] How would you feel?
[37:14 - 37:18] If someone kept doing that to you over and over and over
[37:19 - 37:21] And people kept blaming you
[37:22 - 37:24] Wouldn't you lash out at these people?
[37:26 - 37:29] After so long wouldn't you lash out of you know
[37:30 - 37:33] Out of being tired of it
[37:34 - 37:36] Wanting to better yourself
[37:36 - 37:42] But can't get anywhere. Wouldn't you lash out at people that attack you?
[37:43 - 37:50] As I've been attacked because I tell you I've been attacked so many times
[37:51 - 37:56] So many times I've had fingers pointed at me. I've
[37:57 - 37:59] Had
[37:59 - 38:03] phone calls to me. I've had police called on me
[38:04 - 38:06] countless times
[38:06 - 38:08] I've been told that I'm worthless that
[38:09 - 38:13] I'm this that I'm that and it's all because candlesmith
[38:16 - 38:20] Does not want to let me live my life
[38:22 - 38:25] She wants all of her exes including me
[38:26 - 38:29] to suffer
[38:29 - 38:31] And that's not fair to any of us
[38:32 - 38:36] Not to me not to my family not to brook or her family
[38:36 - 38:38] or paul and his family
[38:39 - 38:41] or
[38:41 - 38:43] Any of the other exes that candle
[38:44 - 38:46] has had
[38:46 - 38:54] That's not fair to anyone
[38:54 - 38:57] I'm just trying to live my life and make the best of what I got
[39:01 - 39:03] And I know a lot of people always tell me
[39:04 - 39:05] You know
[39:05 - 39:14] To get a job and it's not in the other and I don't think what you guys really realize is that
[39:16 - 39:18] Before a couple months ago
[39:19 - 39:26] I had a job. I had an amazing job
[39:27 - 39:29] One of my dream jobs in fact
[39:31 - 39:35] Because as a kid I had always wanted to work with video games
[39:36 - 39:38] or create video games
[39:41 - 39:44] And lo and behold, I wound up getting that opportunity
[39:46 - 39:52] And as I said, I was doing very good for myself for several months. I was making 150 a month
[39:52 - 39:55] And helping to pay bills helping to pay rent
[39:56 - 40:00] I was doing all of that and then
[40:01 - 40:03] All in the blink of an eye
[40:04 - 40:07] It was gone
[40:07 - 40:08] Just like that
[40:08 - 40:11] Gone
[40:11 - 40:14] All because of candle and her little friends
[40:15 - 40:18] All because she wanted to get back at me
[40:22 - 40:25] For six years. I've been suffering
[40:27 - 40:29] For six years
[40:29 - 40:33] I've had people attack me put me down
[40:33 - 40:36] Bash on me without even knowing me
[40:50 - 40:53] I've had people that don't even know me
[40:55 - 40:57] Attack me for no reason
[41:01 - 41:04] And there's this wide misconception
[41:05 - 41:11] That I'm a pedophile that I'm this that I'm that but in all honesty, I'm really not
[41:13 - 41:15] I'm not the bad guy
[41:16 - 41:18] That everyone thinks I am
[41:20 - 41:24] Yes, I got catfished and I fell for it and this and that the other and I can get that
[41:27 - 41:30] But at the end of the day
[41:30 - 41:33] You have to understand what I've been through
[41:34 - 41:36] For the last six years
[41:44 - 41:47] You have to understand what I've been through for the last six years
[41:49 - 41:52] I've gone through a lot
[41:52 - 41:53] All right
[41:53 - 41:55] everything from
[41:55 - 41:58] losing my older brother to lung cancer
[41:59 - 42:02] To losing my high school best friend
[42:04 - 42:06] My best friend
[42:06 - 42:08] from high school
[42:08 - 42:13] To murder
[42:13 - 42:15] And then a couple years later
[42:16 - 42:19] losing
[42:19 - 42:22] Somebody who was my mentor and was like an older brother to me
[42:23 - 42:25] Who helped me in music?
[42:26 - 42:29] And showed me what I was capable of
[42:30 - 42:32] To an accidental drug overdose
[42:34 - 42:36] Now you combined all of that
[42:37 - 42:40] With the stuff that candle put me through and
[42:42 - 42:44] All these hardships that I've had to deal with
[42:48 - 42:53] You stacked all that up and that's been my life for the last six years
[42:55 - 42:57] Has it been easy?
[42:57 - 42:59] Not in the slightest
[42:59 - 43:04] It's honestly these last six years have been the hardest six years
[43:05 - 43:07] of my life
[43:07 - 43:10] Because on top of losing loved ones
[43:10 - 43:12] I've been attacked
[43:13 - 43:18] ridiculed
[43:18 - 43:19] singled out
[43:19 - 43:21] Put down
[43:21 - 43:23] Blame for stuff that I didn't do
[43:26 - 43:28] Now think about all that
[43:29 - 43:33] Wouldn't you be the same way that I am that I am now?
[43:36 - 43:38] You get put through all that stuff that I got put through
[43:39 - 43:41] Put yourself in that position
[43:44 - 43:48] Put yourself in that position of getting put through all this different stuff
[43:51 - 43:56] And see if you don't lash out at people that talk down on you that
[43:57 - 44:00] Say that you're this that say that you're that
[44:02 - 44:08] As I said, yes, I may not be perfect and
[44:09 - 44:11] I get that I might look different from
[44:12 - 44:15] Your average 30 year old I get it
[44:15 - 44:18] I'm shorter. I'm five foot three. What do you want?
[44:20 - 44:26] I'm five foot three 150 pounds. What do you want? I'm I'm short for my age. I get it
[44:27 - 44:32] I don't look like your normal average six foot someone 30 year old. I get it
[44:32 - 44:39] Okay, I totally get it why people would I get why people would look at me weird
[44:40 - 44:43] I get it because I don't look like everyone else
[44:44 - 44:49] So I get why people would stop and stare a little bit and give me a weird look
[44:50 - 44:52] Hell every time I go down to the fucking
[44:53 - 44:56] Every time I go down to hang with my friends here at the local bar
[44:57 - 45:00] Even though I don't drink I do not drink never have
[45:02 - 45:05] That's one thing I don't do is drink or any of that
[45:06 - 45:10] But every time I go to hang out with my friends down at the bar and kick it with them
[45:11 - 45:13] I get carded
[45:13 - 45:15] They will literally ask me for my ID
[45:16 - 45:18] Every time it doesn't fail
[45:20 - 45:22] So, you know, I'm used to it
[45:23 - 45:26] I'm used to being looked at a little bit differently
[45:33 - 45:35] But at the end of the day, man
[45:38 - 45:42] At the end of the day, I'm just a normal dude trying to do what he loves
[45:44 - 45:48] At the end of the day, I'm just a normal dude like everyone else
[45:51 - 45:56] Doing what you know
[45:57 - 46:00] Doing what he loves doing who's just trying to give back
[46:02 - 46:04] To his family
[46:09 - 46:13] Is responsible for that for him for me even being here
[46:15 - 46:17] Because as many of you know when I was born
[46:18 - 46:20] I was born one pound 10 ounces
[46:24 - 46:26] I was born very premature and
[46:27 - 46:30] Was not supposed to live
[46:30 - 46:33] But thanks to my family and
[46:34 - 46:38] The nurse who is actually my godmother shot my godmother what's up
[46:42 - 46:44] But it's thanks to them that I'm here today
[46:46 - 46:49] And I'm trying to make a living doing what I love to do
[46:50 - 46:53] So that I can give back to them
[46:53 - 46:56] So that I can give them
[46:58 - 47:08] Everything that they gave me and that's very hard for me to do when I'm being stolen from when I'm
[47:11 - 47:15] Being shut down and this and that and the other that's very hard for me to do
[47:17 - 47:25] And it sucks and that's why I relate to songs
[47:31 - 47:41] That's why I relate to songs like this right here if I can find air
[47:42 - 47:45] I'm not reject all that reject is a good one
[47:49 - 47:53] And you know, I mean that's why I relate to store. That's why I relate to
[47:54 - 47:56] songs like this because songs like this
[47:57 - 48:00] Are genuinely about my life
[48:01 - 48:04] And that's why I connect so well with this dude right here
[48:05 - 48:08] And I'll let you I'm gonna let you guys listen to this song
[48:09 - 48:11] But this song
[48:11 - 48:13] Is literally the anthem to my life
[48:14 - 48:17] It's literally the anthem to my life and
[48:18 - 48:20] How I was born and the stuff that I went through
[48:21 - 48:24] It's literally like I know the song isn't meant for me
[48:25 - 48:27] But this song is literally
[48:29 - 48:31] Connected to me
[48:32 - 48:35] And you guys will see why you guys will see why here in a minute
[48:37 - 48:39] Why the song is so important to me
[48:50 - 48:54] No, where's my pen at need to write something else?
[48:56 - 48:57] Here we go
[48:57 - 49:00] I was born prematurely. I almost died at birth
[49:01 - 49:08] Wasn't showing vital signs mom was crying words curses and trying to work curse this revival work trying to make me three or four times
[49:09 - 49:11] Before it finally worked
[49:11 - 49:16] My dad walked out before I was born. I never got to see his face never got to know
[49:16 - 49:19] I
[49:19 - 49:21] That part right there is very true for me
[49:22 - 49:25] um something that not a lot of people know is
[49:26 - 49:28] The day that I was born
[49:29 - 49:31] My biological father went to prison
[49:33 - 49:35] So I never got to know
[49:36 - 49:38] My biological father as you guys
[49:39 - 49:42] You know already I was born very prematurely
[49:52 - 49:54] Dear dad, I want you to know I'm happy
[49:54 - 50:00] Fuck that I'm just feeling bad that you had me bad that I was born and then you told me in the trashy
[50:00 - 50:04] With everything you planned inside of me. I'm a bad Z actually
[50:04 - 50:10] I'm scared that I'm gonna be like you and everybody but I've talked to sense that I like you now
[50:10 - 50:16] I'm having nightmares about what I might do. We share the same fun same things. I'll remind you
[50:21 - 50:23] The story of my life
[50:25 - 50:27] My life
[50:39 - 50:41] You understand
[50:43 - 50:45] I was never popular
[50:45 - 50:50] Only on the daily it was obvious that I wasn't the coolest kid didn't have the coolest
[50:50 - 50:54] Always had my eyes down, but walking through the school and shit
[50:54 - 50:57] Yeah, but that's the reason that I started music
[50:57 - 51:00] So I could try to make a friend, and I could be the cool kid
[51:00 - 51:03] I could try to get respect, cause I'm not stupid
[51:03 - 51:06] I wish I had more of a clue, cause I'm feeling slow
[51:06 - 51:09] Excuse me, yeah, can you tell me what you tell me
[51:09 - 51:12] Cause I ain't got no back home, but you ain't gotta help me
[51:12 - 51:14] I'll do this by myself, see?
[51:14 - 51:17] If you try to help me, then I can never stand up for myself
[51:17 - 51:19] I cannot breathe, I'm free
[51:19 - 51:21] And I feel like I'm fucking suffocating
[51:21 - 51:23] I'm trying to get out of the underground
[51:23 - 51:25] I'm dumb, I'm waiting, I'm so fucking hungry
[51:25 - 51:28] That my stomach aches, fucking aching
[51:28 - 51:31] Guess I've gotta make it change, yeah, it's overplay
[51:31 - 51:34] Story of life, story of life
[51:34 - 51:37] I want you to hear the story of life
[51:37 - 51:39] I want you to hear the story of life
[51:39 - 51:42] See inside of my mind, and make it do you understand
[51:42 - 51:45] It's a story of life, story of life
[51:45 - 51:47] Story of life, story of life
[51:47 - 51:50] I want you to read the story of life
[51:50 - 51:53] See what you'll get by and see inside of my mind
[51:53 - 51:56] Maybe then you'll understand it's a story of life
[51:56 - 52:00] I'm going to betray you, maybe you'll make me
[52:00 - 52:03] Maybe you'll love me, maybe you'll hate me
[52:03 - 52:06] Maybe you want me, maybe you'll play me
[52:06 - 52:08] Cause I don't know what else to say
[52:08 - 52:11] Oh, no, there we go, there's another stereo
[52:11 - 52:15] Everyone they used to hate, telling me they hope wrong
[52:15 - 52:22] I believe that, and I don't need that
[52:22 - 52:25] On my C's plaque, I want to say I've found a light
[52:25 - 52:28] I can see the path, and I'll be lying through my teeth
[52:28 - 52:31] I don't need a map, I can live my whole damn life
[52:31 - 52:33] Without me needing that
[52:33 - 52:36] I'm happy to live up because
[52:36 - 52:38] I'm fucking happy that I'm different
[52:38 - 52:40] I'm the one pound to make it change
[52:40 - 52:42] When this pain, I can don't control
[52:42 - 52:44] Every single song in this album
[52:44 - 52:52] It's a story of life
[52:52 - 53:00] It's a story of life
[53:00 - 53:02] It's a story of life
[53:02 - 53:05] I want you to read it's a story of life
[53:05 - 53:08] See what you'll get by and see inside of my mind
[53:08 - 53:16] Maybe then you'll understand it's a story of life
[53:16 - 53:25] It's a story of life
[53:25 - 53:28] Now, let me show you guys
[53:28 - 53:31] Exactly the kind of pain
[53:31 - 53:35] That myself and Paul got put through with candle
[53:35 - 53:42] Fair warning, this is a heavy metal song
[53:42 - 53:46] This is a metal chorus song
[53:46 - 53:50] But I think once you guys watch it
[53:50 - 53:52] Or like hear it
[53:52 - 53:55] You guys will understand
[53:55 - 54:00] How the pain became an addiction for us
[54:00 - 54:02] In a sense
[54:02 - 54:11] We became addicted to that abuse
[55:19 - 59:46] So you guys can kind of see
[59:46 - 59:52] Like how that song really affected
[59:52 - 59:57] I wanted to get out of a relationship
[59:57 - 60:02] With candle and actually ultimately
[60:02 - 60:05] One of my exes Rebecca
[60:05 - 60:07] Who abused me
[60:07 - 60:12] And this next song I am going to let you guys watch
[60:12 - 60:16] Or this next music video I am going to let you guys watch
[60:16 - 60:20] This is actually going out to anybody that
[60:20 - 60:24] Is currently in an abusive relationship
[60:24 - 60:26] Whether you're male or female
[60:26 - 60:29] It doesn't matter
[60:29 - 60:37] This is actually a song that has helped me quite a bit
[60:37 - 60:53] I don't know when I didn't have it in online
[60:53 - 61:08] But this song is going out to anybody out there
[61:08 - 61:13] That is in an abusive relationship
[61:13 - 61:16] And I do genuinely hope
[61:16 - 61:20] That if you are in that situation
[61:20 - 61:25] I hope this song helps you to get out of that
[61:25 - 61:28] Because I myself know what it's like to be
[61:28 - 61:31] In an abusive relationship and it's not fun
[61:31 - 61:34] So I hope this does help you
[62:02 - 62:04] I wish you friends but to some you know you couldn't
[62:04 - 62:07] Text a small kind of man to lay his hands on a woman
[62:07 - 62:09] But he's got you convinced that it's not even his fault
[62:09 - 62:12] He claims he's a drug so he's dropped for the way he's acting
[62:12 - 62:14] Oh, you're thinking back when you met her
[62:14 - 62:16] She was so much better than he's staring at the ground
[62:16 - 62:18] Cause you're afraid to hold your head up
[62:18 - 62:20] Sleepless nights, it's been playing you now
[62:20 - 62:23] You may have slept with fairy tales turning into a tragedy
[62:23 - 62:26] Everything you ever wanted is now what you're afraid of
[62:26 - 62:28] You're caught in a cycle that you think you can't escape from
[62:28 - 62:31] In a desperate attempt you think your love could find a way
[62:31 - 62:33] Your love was never meant to leave bruises on your face
[62:33 - 62:36] And when you find a broken trust can be added to the list
[62:36 - 62:39] Boy disguised as a man is quick to hide behind his face
[62:39 - 62:41] We live in a DNA on the vulnerable
[62:41 - 62:43] The fear of change and the repercussions only holding you
[62:43 - 62:46] From how you really always pictured your life
[62:46 - 62:48] But right now it's kind of feeling like he's twisted the night
[62:48 - 62:50] Because when abuse turns physical
[62:50 - 62:52] It's like being stabbed in the back
[62:52 - 62:54] Losing trust, a normal way to react
[62:54 - 62:56] A month's trust is lost upon between
[62:56 - 62:59] Becomes cancerous, affection turns to tension in your mind
[62:59 - 63:01] You either be the victim or you're a victim in your wake
[63:01 - 63:04] It's your choice, you don't have to make the same mistakes
[63:04 - 63:07] And that mistake being trying to patch up a broken man
[63:07 - 63:10] Who deserves nothing more than two broken hands
[63:10 - 63:12] You think love could find a way
[63:12 - 63:14] But love was never meant to leave bruises on your face
[63:14 - 63:17] And when you find a broken trust can be added to the list
[63:17 - 63:20] Boy disguised as a man is quick to hide behind his face
[63:20 - 63:22] And it's time to prove you're stronger than that
[63:22 - 63:24] You're stronger than him, no longer can you hurt
[63:24 - 63:25] The most believes on your skin
[63:25 - 63:28] How much longer can you hold on to broken glass
[63:28 - 63:31] Yeah, you struggle to see it, but there's no future in your broken past
[63:31 - 63:33] Your broken promises mixed with broken hope
[63:33 - 63:36] You break me open to someone you don't want to know
[63:36 - 63:38] You don't want to stay, but you think you can't go
[63:38 - 63:41] That's a lie, you've only come to a fork in the road
[63:41 - 63:44] These sleepless nights spent laying in agony
[63:44 - 63:46] It's like a fairy tale turning into a tragedy
[63:46 - 63:49] Everything you ever wanted is now what you're afraid of
[63:49 - 63:52] And you're caught in a cycle that you think you can't escape
[63:52 - 63:55] From in a desperate attempt and you think love could find a way
[63:55 - 63:57] But love was never meant to leave bruises on your face
[63:57 - 64:54] And when you find a broken trust can be added to the list
[65:25 - 65:30] Actually got me hooked on this man's music
[65:30 - 65:33] And I think you guys will actually enjoy this
[65:33 - 65:36] Crunch into mega berry snacks
[65:36 - 65:39] Snacketized crunch time
[65:39 - 65:41] Jamoka
[65:41 - 65:44] I truly think you guys will enjoy this video
[65:44 - 65:51] Um, but honestly I really think you guys will enjoy this video
[65:51 - 65:56] Um, I didn't know about the Chernobyl incident
[65:56 - 66:03] Until I actually saw this video
[66:03 - 66:07] And this video is actually the video that got me hooked
[66:07 - 66:11] On this man's music, and ever since I've been a huge fan
[66:11 - 66:15] And hopefully you guys become fans through this song as well
[66:15 - 66:19] I mean the dude's got some amazing amazing music
[66:19 - 66:25] So if you guys are fans of rock
[66:25 - 66:28] You guys actually might like this one
[66:28 - 66:35] Because it has that rock vibe to it
[66:35 - 66:39] And just in case you guys are wondering about the video
[66:39 - 66:45] Yes, Chris Fix actually did film this in Chernobyl
[66:45 - 66:49] Um, there's actually a documentary out on him
[66:49 - 66:51] Called Road to Chernobyl
[66:51 - 66:55] Where they actually documented their trip there
[66:55 - 66:59] And actually filming this music video
[66:59 - 67:08] As a tribute to the Chernobyl incident
[67:08 - 67:11] So this video is very interesting
[67:11 - 67:13] And it's really good
[67:13 - 67:16] I'm gonna shout out to all you guys who watch this
[67:16 - 67:38] There's actually a couple videos I'm gonna apply for you guys
[67:38 - 67:50] And this is the first one
[67:50 - 67:52] That goes through the door
[67:52 - 71:40] My world is like a new sea enemy
[71:40 - 71:45] An example of what you see in Chernobyl
[71:45 - 71:47] Is pretty much a picture
[71:47 - 71:48] People know how
[71:48 - 72:07] That's good
[72:07 - 72:09] I did a song about this video
[72:09 - 72:16] Actually, yes they are
[72:16 - 72:19] They actually are a...
[72:19 - 72:22] As a matter of fact there's actually a documentary
[72:22 - 72:24] Well not really a documentary
[72:24 - 72:32] A video if I can find it
[72:32 - 72:39] That I want you all to see
[72:39 - 72:42] It's actually about his life
[72:42 - 72:50] And how he came into doing music
[72:50 - 72:55] Let's see if I can find it here
[72:55 - 73:01] I think it's live
[73:01 - 73:04] Okay, yeah, right here
[73:04 - 73:07] So let me spin this around for you guys
[73:07 - 73:13] Hey, my dude, what's your name?
[73:14 - 73:15] Hell yeah
[73:15 - 73:36] I actually did at one point take this part
[73:36 - 73:39] And actually uploaded it
[73:39 - 73:42] I need to re-clip it and re-do it
[73:42 - 73:46] But this little segment you guys are about to watch
[73:46 - 73:50] This is actually about his real life
[73:50 - 73:56] And how he basically got to where he was at
[73:56 - 74:00] Where they go and how they fly
[74:00 - 74:02] Well they're in good hands
[74:02 - 74:05] Because he's the god of the angel armies
[74:05 - 74:07] My name's Cameron Cruz
[74:07 - 74:09] I go by the name Cruz the Fix
[74:09 - 74:11] I'm a father of Christ
[74:11 - 74:14] I'm a father and a recording artist in that order
[74:14 - 74:16] I was born in Atlanta, Georgia
[74:16 - 74:19] Spent about the first 12 years of my life in Atlanta
[74:19 - 74:23] And then I remember one night at church
[74:23 - 74:26] A missionary came in and showed some slides from Congo
[74:26 - 74:29] And my dad just felt heavy on him
[74:29 - 74:31] You know, you need to go to Africa
[74:31 - 74:33] My mom's sitting on the other side of the church
[74:33 - 74:34] And she feels that pull
[74:34 - 74:37] So when I was 12 years old, we moved to Congo
[74:37 - 74:39] I remember one night in Congo
[74:39 - 74:41] I was outside playing in the front yard
[74:41 - 74:43] And we started hearing gunshots
[74:43 - 74:47] And then the pistol fire turns to AK fire
[74:47 - 74:49] And starts to get a little bit heavier and heavier
[74:49 - 74:51] Sun starts to set
[74:51 - 74:53] My dad comes out and he's like, you guys need to go ahead
[74:53 - 74:54] And just come in
[74:54 - 74:57] And so the gunshots started getting closer
[74:57 - 75:01] And the screaming started getting closer
[75:01 - 75:05] I remember my dad
[75:05 - 75:08] He got up from the hallway and he ran into the bathroom
[75:08 - 75:11] There was a song that sat over our toilet
[75:11 - 75:12] And I'd never read it
[75:12 - 75:15] He pulled it down off the wall, it was framed
[75:15 - 75:18] And he brings it in and he sits down
[75:18 - 75:20] And he reads the words of the song
[75:20 - 75:23] He who dwells in a secret place at the most high
[75:23 - 75:26] Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty
[75:26 - 75:28] And I will say of the Lord that he is my refuge
[75:28 - 75:32] And my fortress, my God, and him will I trust
[75:32 - 75:35] And surely he shall deliver you from the snare of the fowl
[75:35 - 75:37] And from the perilous pestilence
[75:37 - 75:39] And he shall cover you with his feathers
[75:39 - 75:41] And under his wings you shall take refuge
[75:41 - 75:44] His truth will be your shield and your buckler
[75:44 - 75:47] And you shall not be afraid of the terror by night
[75:47 - 75:49] Or the arrow that flies by day
[75:49 - 75:51] Because you have made the Lord who is my refuge
[75:51 - 75:53] Even the most high in your dwelling place
[75:53 - 75:55] No evil shall befall you
[75:55 - 75:57] Nor shall any plague come near your dwelling
[75:57 - 76:00] For he shall give his angels charge over you
[76:00 - 76:02] To keep you in all of your ways
[76:02 - 76:05] The last part of the song that really, really stood out to me the most
[76:05 - 76:08] That we prayed the hardest was
[76:08 - 76:12] You know, God, if we have nothing else to hold on to
[76:12 - 76:13] This is all that we got
[76:13 - 76:17] And God somehow lets your angels take charge over us
[76:17 - 76:22] Take charge over my dad, take charge over my mother and my sisters
[76:22 - 76:25] You can hear the voices of the soldiers
[76:25 - 76:27] As they started coming down my street
[76:27 - 76:29] My dad looks at me
[76:29 - 76:31] And he hands me a machete
[76:31 - 76:35] And he says, when the soldiers come in
[76:35 - 76:37] Let them take whatever they want
[76:37 - 76:41] But if they try to touch your mom or your sisters
[76:41 - 76:42] And he looks me in the eye
[76:42 - 76:44] And he says, I want you to know that you're going to die
[76:44 - 76:51] He said, but I want you to kill as many of them as you can
[76:51 - 76:53] Before you die
[76:53 - 76:55] To keep your mom and sisters from being raped
[76:55 - 76:58] I'm 12 years old
[76:59 - 77:01] Looking through this hallway at the front door
[77:01 - 77:05] The voices of the soldiers at the front gate
[77:05 - 77:08] And then everything was silent
[77:08 - 77:10] And moved on
[77:10 - 77:14] The next day we got up
[77:14 - 77:16] We crossed the border to Rwanda
[77:16 - 77:18] Until everything died down
[77:18 - 77:19] We come back
[77:19 - 77:22] And a lady selling vegetables comes up to our gate
[77:22 - 77:26] And she looks at my mom and she says
[77:26 - 77:28] Do you want to know why the soldiers didn't hit your house that night?
[77:28 - 77:31] The lady said, you know, I sell vegetables on the street
[77:31 - 77:34] The soldiers grabbed me and said, you know who has money
[77:34 - 77:36] They got to our house and she said
[77:36 - 77:38] There's some Americans living here
[77:38 - 77:42] The soldiers started to come through our gate
[77:42 - 77:45] They somehow were terrified
[77:45 - 77:47] So they saw tall men standing around our house
[77:47 - 77:50] After that night in Congo
[77:50 - 77:52] We moved across the border to Rwanda
[77:52 - 77:54] Which at the time was more politically stable
[77:54 - 77:58] And we were in Kigali, the capital city of Rwanda
[77:58 - 78:01] When the Rwandan genocide broke out
[78:02 - 78:05] We drove from Kigali
[78:05 - 78:07] Through a series of back roads
[78:07 - 78:10] To the neighboring country of Burundi
[78:10 - 78:13] And we were able to meet up with the US Embassy there
[78:13 - 78:17] They fed us rations, put us on our C-130
[78:17 - 78:19] And flew us to Nairobi, Kenya
[78:19 - 78:22] So we leave Kenya in 1996
[78:22 - 78:24] And moved back to Atlanta
[78:24 - 78:26] And we were involved in the Baptist Church
[78:26 - 78:29] I had no, I didn't fit in there
[78:29 - 78:33] I had no connection with anybody there
[78:33 - 78:36] I started hanging out with a couple of kids on the bus
[78:36 - 78:38] There were gang members
[78:38 - 78:40] And they could relate
[78:40 - 78:42] For the first time I felt like, hey, I fit in
[78:42 - 78:45] You know, I feel like I have some type of purpose
[78:45 - 78:47] I feel like I have some type of meaning
[78:47 - 78:49] I think I found who I am
[78:49 - 78:51] Because they'd seen death, they'd seen conflict
[78:51 - 78:53] They'd seen some of the same things you'd seen
[78:53 - 78:56] Exactly
[78:56 - 78:58] It started a downward spiral
[78:58 - 79:00] That just went out of control
[79:00 - 79:03] I started selling guns at school
[79:03 - 79:05] Started selling drugs at school
[79:05 - 79:07] I was homeless for about
[79:07 - 79:09] Close to two years
[79:09 - 79:12] Living in crack houses
[79:12 - 79:15] In Atlanta
[79:15 - 79:16] My girlfriend at the time
[79:16 - 79:20] She didn't come from a rough background like that
[79:20 - 79:23] And she was homeless with me
[79:23 - 79:25] She was pregnant
[79:25 - 79:27] Slept out on the concrete, 32 weeks
[79:27 - 79:30] When I saw her shaking
[79:30 - 79:32] All night
[79:32 - 79:33] That was when it hit me
[79:33 - 79:36] It was time to man up
[79:36 - 79:38] I was like, I gotta get it together
[79:38 - 79:40] That getting together process
[79:40 - 79:43] Was like a seven year process
[79:43 - 79:45] Now I got a beautiful family man
[79:45 - 79:48] The greatest gift that God has given me in this life
[79:48 - 79:51] And it's a constant reminder of responsibility
[79:51 - 79:53] Being able to be a father
[79:53 - 79:57] Has given me such a different perspective
[79:57 - 79:59] On being a Christian
[79:59 - 80:02] Because now I'm able to look at my kids
[80:02 - 80:06] And understand what unconditional love means
[80:06 - 80:08] To know what it's like to look that child in the eyes
[80:08 - 80:09] I would die for you
[80:09 - 80:10] I would fight for you
[80:10 - 80:13] Regardless whether you want me to or not
[80:13 - 80:15] My oldest daughter is 13 years old
[80:15 - 80:17] And man, she's beautiful
[80:17 - 80:18] She's gorgeous
[80:18 - 80:19] I love her to death
[80:19 - 80:21] My daughter had her phone
[80:21 - 80:24] And she had some voice text in her
[80:24 - 80:25] And this next front
[80:25 - 80:27] This is for all you parents out there
[80:27 - 80:29] And I know you guys will agree with this
[80:29 - 80:31] Because I did this
[80:31 - 80:32] Well, not this exact thing
[80:32 - 80:35] But I did a very similar thing with my God child
[80:35 - 80:37] So I get it
[80:37 - 80:39] And so I got the phone one day
[80:39 - 80:42] And I was reading through some of the text messages
[80:42 - 80:45] And this little boy asked for some new pics
[80:45 - 80:46] And I was proud of my daughter
[80:46 - 80:49] Because she was like, look, I don't do that
[80:49 - 80:51] Next morning he writes back, hey babe
[80:51 - 80:52] Hey babe, hey babe
[80:52 - 80:54] So I get the phone
[80:54 - 80:56] Hey babe, you want to see some pics?
[80:56 - 80:58] And he's like, yeah
[80:58 - 81:00] So I send him some pics
[81:00 - 81:02] Yeah, this particular pic was one that we shot
[81:02 - 81:03] For an hour
[81:03 - 81:05] I thought it would be appropriate
[81:05 - 81:07] I thought once you take a second
[81:07 - 81:09] To just let that picture sink in
[81:11 - 81:13] I didn't know myself
[81:13 - 81:15] Do not have the strength
[81:15 - 81:16] To be the father
[81:16 - 81:17] To be the husband
[81:17 - 81:19] To be the Christian
[81:19 - 81:21] You know that I need to be
[81:21 - 81:24] One thing I do know
[81:24 - 81:26] Is that the God
[81:26 - 81:27] Of the angel armies
[81:27 - 81:29] That stood outside my house that night
[81:29 - 81:30] When I was clutching a machete
[81:30 - 81:32] Looking death in the face
[81:32 - 81:34] That the God
[81:34 - 81:36] Who can sovereignly
[81:36 - 81:37] Protect
[81:37 - 81:39] Continue to do so
[81:39 - 81:41] That God who can shepherd you
[81:41 - 81:43] Through the valley of the shadow of death
[81:43 - 81:45] In its realest form
[81:45 - 81:47] Can shepherd you
[81:47 - 81:49] Through the valley of temptation in your home
[81:49 - 81:52] He can shepherd you through the valley of parenthood
[81:52 - 81:54] Through the valley of being a husband
[81:54 - 81:56] Or a wife of the valley of marriage
[81:56 - 81:58] I hold on to the fact
[81:58 - 82:00] The trials are gonna come
[82:00 - 82:03] But you know what man
[82:03 - 82:13] I know it goes before me
[82:13 - 82:15] You cannot sit there and tell me that
[82:15 - 82:17] That does not give you motherfucking chills
[82:17 - 82:21] Like every time I watch that
[82:21 - 82:23] I get fucking chills dude
[82:23 - 82:26] Cause it's so fucking just off
[82:26 - 82:38] Now there's another song
[82:38 - 82:40] There's another video I'm gonna let you guys watch
[82:40 - 82:41] By this guy
[82:41 - 82:43] Yeah I think you guys will actually
[82:43 - 82:45] Enjoy this is actually one of my
[82:45 - 82:47] This is actually in my playlist too
[82:47 - 82:50] Ironically
[82:52 - 82:55] Hey it's three times of this shit bro
[82:55 - 82:57] Stay Cradellio Clubs
[82:57 - 83:21] When I was a child
[83:21 - 83:25] They said I was a dream
[83:25 - 83:28] Another kid with his head in the clouds
[83:28 - 83:30] I say I just refuse to settle
[83:30 - 83:33] For anything less than everything I dream
[83:33 - 83:37] Either way it's a lone road
[83:37 - 83:39] The world turns its back on you
[83:39 - 83:41] And you find yourself treading through
[83:41 - 83:43] Unless your mind is trying to make sense
[83:43 - 83:45] Of all the passions you've stirred up along the way
[83:45 - 83:48] Your thoughts betray you
[83:48 - 83:50] And doubt sinks in
[83:50 - 83:52] Before you know it you're like everyone else
[83:52 - 83:55] You used to be dreaming to let the dreams
[83:55 - 83:57] Lipped to the sands of time
[83:57 - 84:01] Not me the mind of every dream
[84:01 - 84:03] Was a wilderness
[84:03 - 84:05] But sometimes letting the dream
[84:05 - 84:07] Is just fighting to see the sunrise
[85:10 - 85:16] I call up a dream
[85:16 - 85:20] Like I'm on a loop to catch the devil
[85:20 - 85:22] But I'm ready to die
[85:22 - 85:24] And you didn't lift this life
[85:24 - 85:26] And you said this to me
[85:26 - 85:28] Hey let's go and try
[85:28 - 85:34] To betray
[85:34 - 85:39] After we go down to the grave
[85:39 - 85:44] Dancing and singing
[85:44 - 85:46] And this snow for me
[85:46 - 86:14] To defeat this dying
[86:14 - 86:18] And then what I plan to put
[86:18 - 86:20] I don't understand it though
[86:20 - 86:26] I've been a person until I find a antidote
[86:26 - 86:28] But never still I persevere
[86:28 - 86:30] Now to cry to nothing
[86:30 - 86:32] No cat to tears
[86:32 - 86:34] I've been dreaming for years
[86:34 - 86:36] Now the man in the mirror
[86:36 - 86:38] Called us with me home
[86:38 - 86:40] And tell me what I got to fear
[86:40 - 86:42] You count the cost on the day
[86:42 - 86:44] I was mauled by the cross
[86:44 - 86:46] I could die tomorrow
[86:46 - 86:48] It's a murder and it's not the law
[86:48 - 86:50] If you get killed and get your weapons
[86:50 - 86:52] World's a prejudice
[86:52 - 86:54] How you gonna take my life
[86:54 - 86:56] Never say
[86:56 - 86:58] Never say
[86:58 - 87:00] Never say
[87:00 - 87:11] Never say
[87:11 - 87:26] Never say
[87:26 - 88:23] Now this one
[88:23 - 88:25] I don't think you guys
[88:25 - 88:27] Are actually expecting
[88:27 - 88:29] Now keep in mind this chick is
[88:29 - 88:31] Actually a mom
[88:31 - 88:33] And it's fucking insane
[88:33 - 88:35] Bro I think you guys
[88:35 - 88:38] Are actually like this
[88:38 - 88:40] Now I actually got turned onto this chick
[88:40 - 88:42] And I actually a good friend of mine
[88:42 - 88:44] Who sadly
[88:44 - 88:46] Is unfortunately
[88:50 - 88:52] No longer with us
[88:52 - 88:54] Unfortunately
[88:54 - 88:56] Let's see if I can find it here
[88:56 - 89:03] Where is it at
[89:03 - 89:11] Right here, here we go
[89:36 - 89:38] That's my battle
[90:06 - 90:08] I'ma make sure that I'm taking a stand
[90:08 - 90:12] I'ma go ahead, shake my head
[90:12 - 90:15] I'ma pay it, I'ma make it mostly
[90:15 - 90:17] Your girl is coming to it
[90:17 - 90:19] Ain't no limit, so I'ma see it
[90:19 - 90:22] Change your head and run into it
[90:22 - 90:25] I got no limits on it
[90:25 - 90:29] I got no limits on it
[90:29 - 90:32] I got no limits on it
[90:32 - 90:35] Time is ticking, the lights are flipping
[90:35 - 90:37] The crime is risen, it's like we're living
[90:37 - 90:39] These souls are tripping
[90:39 - 90:41] Who can be brave enough making a difference
[90:41 - 90:43] Listen, so many are crumbling
[90:43 - 90:45] No one discovering, I won't get up again
[90:45 - 90:47] Don't care what they think of me
[90:47 - 90:49] It's time to just stick with me, see in this world
[90:49 - 90:51] They can'ts convicted me, preaching the word
[90:51 - 90:53] So your people are sick of me, raising the ball
[90:53 - 90:55] Future is ripping me, gotta move on with the look
[90:55 - 91:05] And deliver me, living me, always getting rid of the misery
[91:05 - 91:07] Giving me trust, I need a sequel
[91:07 - 91:09] These people are cursing their life away
[91:09 - 91:11] This isn't the type of way, throw on your fight away
[91:11 - 91:13] Need to make changes and do it right away
[91:13 - 91:15] Can follow me and a change will happen
[91:15 - 91:18] Yeah, actions
[91:18 - 91:20] Yeah, we're living for greater
[91:20 - 91:22] Take action, never put limits on me
[91:22 - 91:24] Guarantee what's got on my side
[91:24 - 91:26] There's no one to stretch
[91:26 - 91:51] I got no limits on me
[91:51 - 91:57] Check this out, you guys are actually gonna be shook by this
[91:57 - 92:04] Let's see
[92:27 - 93:04] I've been trying to write for my new
[93:04 - 93:08] I'm gonna be putting out another album
[93:08 - 93:10] Most likely it's gonna be an EP
[93:10 - 93:12] I wanted to write, put out a blog
[93:12 - 93:14] And just show people, because even when I did new crashes
[93:14 - 93:16] That was a good album, struggle
[93:16 - 93:18] That was a good album, struggle
[93:18 - 93:20] No, no, no
[93:20 - 93:22] No, no, no
[93:22 - 93:24] Daslin, stop it
[93:24 - 93:26] It was a struggle in itself
[93:26 - 93:28] Come on
[93:34 - 93:36] For all you parents out there that are music artists
[93:36 - 93:38] I feel bad for you guys
[93:38 - 93:41] I really do
[93:41 - 93:43] I actually had to go through that with my nephew
[93:43 - 93:45] When he was a couple years old
[93:45 - 93:47] Myself
[93:47 - 93:49] So I get the feel
[93:49 - 93:51] It sucks when you're trying to write a song
[93:51 - 93:53] And you've got a child or a family member
[93:53 - 93:55] And
[93:55 - 93:57] They're little kids
[93:57 - 93:59] And
[93:59 - 94:01] It's hard
[94:01 - 94:03] So I feel pretty good
[94:03 - 94:05] As I was saying
[94:05 - 94:07] Even doing beauty crashes
[94:07 - 94:09] When I was writing
[94:09 - 94:11] In the process of writing and everything
[94:11 - 94:13] It was a challenge, she was smaller
[94:13 - 94:15] But it was still a challenge
[94:15 - 94:17] And then obviously having Kayla as well
[94:17 - 94:19] Just writing, she's trying to get songs on
[94:19 - 94:21] So I wanted to literally put it on video
[94:21 - 94:23] And just kind of show
[94:23 - 94:25] The world how hard it is
[94:25 - 94:27] Just to write songs
[94:51 - 94:56] That little windgrass
[94:56 - 94:58] It's always the worst all the time
[95:08 - 95:10] Yeah
[95:10 - 95:12] Yeah
[95:12 - 95:36] When you're in that state of mind
[95:36 - 95:38] And you're trying to create a great song
[95:38 - 95:40] As I was saying, it could be very hard
[95:40 - 95:42] And it's even more challenging
[95:42 - 95:44] When
[95:44 - 95:54] Now y'all see how hard it is
[95:54 - 95:57] For a parent to actually do
[95:57 - 95:59] Music
[95:59 - 96:01] And speaking on that
[96:01 - 96:03] I do want to give a huge congrats
[96:03 - 96:05] To my boy Matt
[96:05 - 96:10] Because I want you guys to see this
[96:10 - 96:12] Who's that Pokemon?
[96:12 - 96:14] It's Alaskan
[96:14 - 96:16] What the fuck?
[96:16 - 96:18] I'm back bitches
[96:18 - 96:28] Yo, what the fuck?
[96:28 - 96:31] You're in my home land now bro
[96:31 - 96:33] Are bros gonna be better than fuzzies?
[96:33 - 96:35] Except that the cold one
[96:35 - 96:37] Yeah, he was cool
[96:37 - 96:39] Yo, why do I feel like I'm in fucking Atlanta right now?
[96:39 - 96:41] It's like a thousand degrees
[96:41 - 96:43] This is hotter than Atlanta
[96:43 - 96:45] I'm not a vomit dude
[96:45 - 96:48] Is he a duck or what?
[96:48 - 96:55] Hey, why you ain't getting old bubble tea bro?
[96:55 - 96:57] I know you
[96:57 - 97:03] Yo
[97:03 - 97:05] I know that area
[97:05 - 97:08] Hell yeah
[97:08 - 98:22] Home motherfuckers
[98:22 - 98:24] How's your baby brother doing back there?
[98:24 - 98:26] Okay, I'm back with the fam, goodnight
[98:32 - 98:35] Frick it up
[98:35 - 98:37] There's his newborn right there man
[98:37 - 98:39] That's his newbie
[98:39 - 98:41] What do you have face man?
[98:41 - 98:43] What do you have face?
[98:43 - 98:48] And it's dad's face
[98:48 - 98:50] Damn it's a cold ass picture
[98:52 - 98:57] Hey baby Matt
[98:57 - 98:59] Can you tell me the meaning of life?
[98:59 - 99:01] What is it?
[99:01 - 99:04] Why are we here?
[99:04 - 99:06] Why do we exist?
[99:08 - 99:11] Do you know the answer?
[99:11 - 99:13] So adorable
[99:13 - 99:21] And this is what he deals with on a daily basis
[99:21 - 99:23] This is what he deals with on a daily basis
[99:23 - 99:25] Frick it
[99:25 - 99:29] Frick it
[99:29 - 99:51] Hey son, you are gonna grow up and be amazing
[99:51 - 99:53] You're gonna be happy, you're gonna do whatever you wanna do
[99:53 - 99:55] We're gonna allow you to do that
[99:55 - 99:57] And it's gonna be awesome
[99:57 - 99:59] You're gonna have an awesome life, I promise you
[99:59 - 100:01] Manifest greatness buddy
[100:01 - 100:03] You just vibe him right now
[100:03 - 100:05] Are you gonna be great? What are you gonna do when you get over it?
[100:05 - 100:09] The truth is you can do whatever you want
[100:09 - 100:11] Hi
[100:11 - 100:13] Hello
[100:13 - 100:15] Key to life buddy
[100:15 - 100:17] Yes, the key to life is finding what you're passionate about
[100:17 - 100:19] And then finding a way to monetize it
[100:19 - 100:21] And make money because then you'll forever be happy
[100:21 - 100:23] And it'll never feel like you're working
[100:23 - 100:25] Hey it's not wrong
[100:25 - 100:27] It's not wrong about that
[100:27 - 100:29] Yes
[100:29 - 100:31] You're gonna be amazing
[100:31 - 100:33] Can we talk and tell me time with dad right now fam?
[100:33 - 100:37] Hey what's going on boy?
[100:47 - 100:49] You got a big head bro
[100:49 - 100:51] Your head like the size of a watermelon bro
[100:51 - 100:53] Which I can't take bro
[100:53 - 100:55] Which I can't take bro
[100:55 - 100:57] Which is like what?
[100:57 - 100:59] The belly weight 35 pounds is so
[100:59 - 101:01] Bro
[101:01 - 101:03] Your head big bro
[101:03 - 101:05] Look at that thing
[101:05 - 101:07] The size of that thing man
[101:07 - 101:09] It's like a Boeing jet bro
[101:11 - 101:14] Why are you gonna get a tattoo on it bro?
[101:14 - 101:16] Chill man it's not that serious
[101:16 - 101:19] Trying to send some emails
[101:19 - 101:21] Do some other shit
[101:21 - 101:30] God forbid I get anything fucking done
[101:30 - 101:32] Ha ha ha ha ha
[101:32 - 101:34] Now of course you can still hear him hysterically crying
[101:34 - 101:46] Cool mid-recording
[101:46 - 101:51] Ha ha ha ha
[101:51 - 101:53] Hey we mixed in that new Grizzly Hendrix boy
[101:53 - 102:02] We mixed in that new Grizzly Hendrix boy
[102:02 - 102:04] We had to move the baby for a minute
[102:04 - 102:06] Because he was kind of annoying me when I'm trying to do this work
[102:06 - 102:08] He should be done crying now though
[102:08 - 102:10] Let's check
[102:10 - 102:13] That's my boy hey what's up buddy
[102:13 - 102:15] Hey you like this new Grizzly Hendrix?
[102:15 - 102:17] This new Grizzly Hendrix fire right?
[102:17 - 102:19] You like it?
[102:19 - 102:24] Hey Autumn what's 4 plus 4?
[102:24 - 102:26] Um 8
[102:26 - 102:28] Well too bad because I ate your hot dog
[102:28 - 102:35] Ha ha ha ha ha
[102:35 - 102:37] Okay what I need you to understand
[102:37 - 102:39] Is I'm going to the store and right after I go to the store
[102:39 - 102:41] If I come up with things including water
[102:41 - 102:43] Including water
[102:43 - 102:45] We can have a moving night
[102:45 - 102:47] What movie do you want to watch?
[102:47 - 102:50] I'll be the dinosaur next to James
[102:50 - 102:52] He's a single boy so
[102:52 - 102:55] I'll be sure to good while I'm gone
[102:55 - 102:57] Movie night
[102:57 - 103:05] Okay I'll buy some at the store
[103:05 - 103:07] No
[103:07 - 103:09] Ho
Transcribed by lolcow.city as id '1050' on August 8th, 2024
